Throw me hard so I hit the concrete,
Scream words that you never did mean.
Even I can't stand this evidence,
It's clear, so clear.
Ringing in my ears won't stop,
And you've been smiling all along
(Burnt out!)
(Words are weakening)
She's in it for the nicotine, boys.
More poise than perfect,
Not worth saving, only leaving.
Break me up so my heart is shattered,
Three words that you never did mean.
Even I can't stand this evidence,
It's clear, so clear.
Ringing in my ears won't stop,
And you've been laughing all along.
(Burnt out!)
(Words are weakening)
She's in it for the nicotine, boys.
More poise than perfect,
Not worth saving, only leaving.
I can sit in this room and breathe abused,
I can do without the warmth from you.
But your knifelike smile needs a victim,
Worth your while.
(Words are weakening)
She's in it for the nicotine, boys.
More poise than perfect,
Not worth saving, only leaving.
(A lonely victim)
I can do what stab wounds never do,
I can peal the skin back just for you, beautiful you.
And the street cars caught
contagiously Contained as
the times beach sits whimpering
Now I am aware
there's no around but me
And my alpha to beta of
facial complexions
Won't stop me complaining
of scenes I've never seen.
Aren't you a never side of
fright Stay with me on a
street car named desire
On a cool bar in a fast train
headed no where
Relax we're almost there
runaway with me on a
If you can hear this
And I know you won't
The blood cut from our throats
Echoes where we deserve to go
Straight into that red man's hands
Alive with fire and one last chance
What would your sisters do if they happend upon the real you?
See what you have
You're better than this
Selfish and sad
Don't forget what you had
See what you have
You're better than this
You're better than this
If you can hear this
And I know you can't
The blood cut from our veins
Echoes spelling out both our names
Straight into our aching chests
Alive with fear and cut up necks
What would your sisters do if they happened upon the real you?
See what you have
You're better than this
Selfish and sad
Don't forget what you had
See what you have
You're better than this
You're better than this
Slip into sleep
Don't even breathe
Dive into your bedroom
And your one sure thing
Slip into sleep
Don't even breathe
Dive into your bedroom
And your one sure thing
Can someone say
You're safe, it's going to be okay
Desire means we don't need anything
Just a fractured hint that we knew we were something
Desire means we don't need anything
Just a fractured hint that we knew we were something
See what you have
(See what you have)
Looking back through mirrors dying for correction but it's too changed engraved and shaded gray for the rest of me to care off to the right the cries from me kept pouring in and scathed the skin where you had been laying only hours before and all the covers still were ruffled by the weight and the shape of your head and I was still dreaming gripping onto the endless image of you sitting next to my bed recessed in the feeling of your shoulders was all that I had left to remind looking back through mirrors dying for correction but its too traced in waste and unembraced for the rest of me to care and all through the night the kids were screaming oh so loud I should have taken their advice get up get out while you're still alive you have half the chance to live your life and all my senses stayed up staring for a glint of doubt in your eyes how could I have slipped into you 6 months after wrecking my life I knew the lines would come in the form of a ribbon you'd wear when you cut me off and I should have known which way to run to without using my ears is it safe to say you can move your head out of the way of the cars in the traffic racing to beat the trains
All night long
I am watching you connect the gaps and cracks which make me famous
I'll pull this knot out from my throat
Recite the reasons how not to choke
(You are the one that keeps me far from asking)
Just sit back
Try not to react to the tone you use that makes me kill us
You cut the ropes that make me slack
And free the tension around my neck
(You are the one that keeps me far from asking)
(Breathing believing)
An unexpected expectancy
An ending an opening
A catch phrase uncaught but still complete
A smile and a grin
The perfect moment
The bitter end
Far from now
You will hear me say "I'm addicted to the sleep you're taking"
I'll cut my throat to make this right
And bleed all the words I've left inside
(You are the one that keeps me far from asking)
All this talk
Has given in to ache from the noise you use that makes me jealous
I'll cut my throat to make this right
And bleed all the words I've left inside
(You are the one that keeps me far from asking)
(Breathing believing)
An unexpected expectancy
An ending an opening
A catch phrase uncaught but still complete
A smile and a grin
The perfect moment
The bitter end
Free the tension around my neck
Bleed all the words I've left inside
Free the tension bleed all the words I've left inside
Bleed all the words around my neck
(Breathing believing)
An unexpected expectancy
An ending an opening
A catch phrase uncaught but still complete
A smile and a grin
The perfect moment
I fucked up again by letting you pretend there was something when the whole time nothing ever existed we'll keep up false connections through the phone lines of faulty wire and blown transformers replicate the sound it takes to move through the cables there nothing there I want to hear in-between waking up and sleeping through there was little less than nothing that I could do but many times I think you tried just to turn me on and many times I think you cried just to lead me on right now I'm dying in my bed you'll make sounds and rape the reasons and reassure yourself I wont hang up. Concentrate and duplicate the same mistake to perfection explaining you as I turned away you turned to stay
I think I'd be lying
if I said I don't enjoy this.
waking up soaked in sweat
wondering who you're laying with.
the sinking center in me
dips to reach that perfect place
where we've all been trapped before,
caught living in the life you missed...
the reason, had to leave,
held your breath and couldn't see.
missed the reason, had to leave,
held your breath and couldn't see.
I hear songs of this cancer coming on.
I love the sound of your voice breaking off,
so I sing along until you're gone
and out of this canvas we paint this song.
I think I'd be lying
if I said I didn't miss this.
slipping off the edge of the bed,
I know I could kiss you better than that.
one more try, one more goodnight.
don't pull away so fast.
10 more seconds is all I ask.
you missed the reason, had to leave,
held your breath and couldn't see.
missed the reason, had to leave,
held your breath and couldn't see.
I hear songs of this cancer coming on.
I love the sound of your voice breaking off,
so I sing along until your gone
and out of the canvas we paint this song.
one more try, one more goodnight.
one more try, one more goodnight.
so bad, this feeling never catches up
and burnt red are the arms
of a sunburned boy you love.
I know what you're all about now,
I know where the engine runs out.
I know what you're all about now,
I know where the engine runs out.
so I sing along until your gone,
sing along until your gone.
(I think her away)
The thin part is feeling so seperate
This bedroom, a voice, and a mattress.
It says, "Don't sleep, don't think, just drink."
You'll find yourself faster when passed out cold.
(Where are you tonight?)
This is the last time I'll fear your face
Alone with my brothers they won't hear me say
Where are you tonight?
Wrapped up in some bedroom screaming for dear sweet you.
The worst part is being so desperate
This basement, a noose, and a casket.
I want to feel that warmth again
Assurance of you, asleep in my hands.
This is the last time I'll fear your face
Alone with my brothers they won't hear me say
Where are you tonight?
Wrapped up in some bedroom screaming for dear sweet you.
So why not, end it all in one shot?
This rope, tied in a perfect knot.
So why not, end it all in one shot?
This rope, tied in a perfect knot.
It's better than anything I've ever had
It won't lose it's grip
Or stop kissing my neck.
Desperation sets in
Holding me close, much like you did.
And every line
Has a face, a voice it's assigned.
My dear sweet impaler,
It's all you this time.
It's there to remind me
How much I hate, this life.
I remember you laughing and leaving
Slamming the door to the sound of my screaming.
Don't leave just yet
I didn't mean any of what I just said.
I swear by my wrists that we're better than this
You're much more to me than words in a notebook.
You sigh and say, "I'm through."
Well god damn you for breathing
I love you.
Dive deep, into this drink. Hoping to sink, or fall asleep.
When it comes and doesn't
fold before it's done
When it shades and plays
what you call a melody of
sense Your pretense
So hard to conceal what I
feel back when I was so
idly wild I'm awake now
tonight without sundays
mornings bruises on my
neck Quiet kind of thinking
not anything wishing I was
far away where trees drop
leaves as far as I can see
Arcee shivers beside me
scooping up the softness
promising shell be with me
forever Why does this
music make me sad could I
If this is one of your adjectives
You used to wake me up
Then this morning war has started
If this is one of your adjectives
You used to wake me up
Then this morning war has started
I'll use my sense of touch to talk
You'll strain your arms trying to prop me up
Don't look so disappointed
I'll try my best to push you off
You'll bruise my wrist trying to pull me up
This morning war has started
I want out, or else severed
These ties to me forever
I won't let anyone pull me from this bed
It won't work, the legs quiver
A cold sweat, reduced to shivers
I won't let anything come in between this lavish place I've found
I'm set running
"Olly olly olly oxen free" shouted loud
Your lack of interest mixed with those chemicals
Shatters the ropes the devil had built
Your lack of interest mixed with those chemicals
Shatters the ropes the devil had built
If this is one of your adjectives
You used to wake me up
This morning war has started
If this is one of your adjectives
You used to wake me up
This morning war has started
I'm set running
"Olly olly olly oxen free" shouted loud
Your lack of interest mixed with those chemicals
Shatters the ropes the devil had built
Your lack of interest mixed with those chemicals
Shatters the ropes the devil had built
A cold sweat, and you shiver
Your legs reduced to quivers
One light stays on
I'm set running
I'm set running
I'm set running ("olly olly olly oxen free" shouted loud)
I'm set running ("olly olly olly oxen free" shouted loud)
Right now, I haven't the slightest bit of remorse for this sound
Right now, I haven't the slightest bit of remorse for this sound
Right now, I haven't the slightest bit of remorse for this sound
Spring play written for the obvious in mind
You rise and analyze secret little knee shakes
That keep you up all the time
We surround in circles, try to get up
One more false move
One more action I can't forget anything else
In the event that I might slip up I'm telling you now
Open your eyes and memorize here on and out
Take your eyes out you play the part so well
Cut off screened in thanklessly dreaming
Always a combination of one or the other
Girl keeps screaming boy keeps feeling far away
Isolated and just stained blood red
Isolated and just stained
One more false move
One more action i can't forget anything else
In the event that I might slip up I'm telling you now
Open your eyes and memorize here on and out
(here on and out x3)
Right now she must be thinking
There's too much on his mind and not enough of mine
One more false move
One more action I can't forget anything else
In the event that I might slip up I'm telling you now
Wake up blondie
This is your message
You struck deep what most find hard to reach
Well goddammit you warned me
Pleaded, "don't get so involved"
I'll do what's best and slowly dissolve
I'd hold the sun up just to wake beside you
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me
Forget the incidents, thoughtless and abusing
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me
Don't be sorry
You're less enticing
You've just lost what most find hard to keep
I'll take two of the white ones
Forget what I said last month
I'll spare myself, the embarrassment
I'd hold the sun up just to wake beside you
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me
Forget the incidents, thoughtless and abusing
Imagine what you could see, if you just let yourself like me
Cause I do
I was foolish to have thought I could catch you
Stupid to have ever liked you
And your sly little smile
Curved the comforts I used to find
Drag me inside
I'm yours to use tonight (I'm yours to use tonight)
I'm yours to use tonight
I'd hold the sun up just to wake beside you
Imagine what you would see, if you just let yourself like me
Cause I do
Cause I do
I was foolish to have thought I could catch you
Stupid to have ever liked you
But I do
I saw you again
I think you used me again
Should we try this before we give up and move on
And pretend to restore what we have and hold on
At times like these
It's obvious
I saw you again
I know you fucked him again
Can you comfort yourself with a sense of revenge
Are you leaving me here with the taste of the end
At times like these
It's obvious
At times like these
It's obvious
I saw you again and again and again
There's some room to move on, to move on, to move on
And I saw you again and again and again
How do we fix this if we never have vision
I saw you again and again and again
There's some room to move on, to move on, to move on
And I saw you again and again and again
How do we fix this if we never have vision
I saw you again and again and again
There's some room to move on, to move on, to move on
And I saw you again and again and again
How do we fix this if we never have vision
I saw you again and again and again
There's some room to move on, to move on, to move on
And I saw you again and again and again
let's paint her chalk white
see if she reacts
to the colors i admire
all the details
she flirts out freely
all the details
die completely
scream
bury a whisper inside your room
caught in a spin towards you
when things could be different
if your hands adapted me
for some southern reason
i don't see us happening
let's paint him jet black
see if he jumps back
and loosens up the colors in his skin
all the details
she flirts out freely
all the details
die completely
scream
bury a whisper inside your room
caught in a spin towards you
when things could be different
if your hands adapted me
for some southern reason
i don't see us happening
lean into me
and i'll lean back into you
bury a whisper inside your room
caught in a spin towards you
it's easy to operate
it's easy to understand
it's easy to be that way
when you've got the upper hand
stay right where i think you are
running out of step
running towards your car
walking through walls like the ghost you are
as conscious as a mistake
as simple just to
And I can still remember
nights filled with forty-fives
Only the lonely tend to survive
Only the lonely can remain
alive And you can only
rethink memories so much
And I can wake up sniffing
out the bedroom I can't
remember anything
Summer was the best thing
that happened to me Class
of coleco vision of a stereo
bedroom Momentos And I
can wake up sniffing out
the bedroom
I can't remember anything
Take back your new yellow dress
the one without the blood stains that makes you feel the best,
but insincere and moving scared you were just waiting patiently
for a moment between the second you knew would be there
Maybe if I could have held out longer
I would be sharing with you my last cigarette
and maybe if I could have let go sooner
I wouldn't be telling to you my first six regrets
Act out your clueless distress
and try not to forget the numbers scratched onto your chest
but in-between and out of scenes
you were sprinting for an epiphany
hoping this would all make sense
And maybe if I could have held out longer
I would be sharing with you my last cigarette
and maybe if I could have let go sooner
I wouldn't be telling to you my first six regrets
I'm sure it felt good to you
to find a wound to bleed through
a sense of security the feel of someone to cling to
the fuel is fear the scenery's not that clear
Stood by the moonlight
next to water Wishing for
something hoping for me
Last night I tugged at your
shirt But you walked away
crying for over And me for
under while nothing was
said Telling me lies on that
couch the day we met
Starlight star bright bring
me a dream tonight
Make her pretty make her
sweet Make her something
I can't keep This was a
glass case I was locked in
and it couldn't be broken
There's breath in you eyes
and music inside This is
the first time for the last
Last time everything was
so cool
We could sit on your couch
dance by chance
Kissed if we missed it just
didn't matter
You cry nightly in our beds
Cry tightly in our heads
State on top twenty radio
songs
I'd swear I love you
as useless as i am
i have little left to give
take me out tonight
don't forget your jacket
bring it with the rest of you
ill be the one on the left
coughing up
any at best
waiting for your signal
a sound that's like your broken eyes
keeps following me
for hours on end
i try to pretend
this never happened
like the blind feeling for lines
both hands caught up in your hair again
and i fell out
you picked me up
broke in two
right where i left off
we're just enough alike
to make it worth your while
that should keep you smiling
i'll be the boy in the bed
hoping you'll just pass me up
move on to the next one
a night that's like your broken sigh
keeps following me
for days on end
i stretch and bend
Innocence is topped not
lost just overung And
there's times I would forget
but I Knew I didn't
want to lose you little 9
year olds Where bareskin
boys plot shirtless ploys
to steal the evenings and
then turn the night to day
You always try to minimize your loss.
Disenchant my life to
wrapped up in a bottle
thrown out to sea My life
flip and flop turn and toss
I'm drowning slowly don't
I listen carefully This like
my life rapped up in a
bottle just as you always
do Stay right here for the
remainder of your life Just
Sleep now say my eyes
because I'm so tired
But I can't sleep at all
or any if that all In on split
second it seemed to fall
away You caught my eyes
wide open and threw in a
flare and though I notice
this road seems long and
you are farther that before
and now it's gone at that
It's neither touch nor taste
But silvery lines, the cute friendly face
I'll stand
You'll withdraw
Take me and I'm right on
What words sound the best to use?
What verse could possibly catch you?
Tell me why your heart sends sick, mixed messages
Tell me why my arteries cease to work
Show me to the sharpest, the right one so plangent
Strike out, the memories first
Tell me why your heart sends sick, mixed messages
Tell me why my arteries cease to work
Show me to the sharpest, the right one so plangent
Cause I look to you, I bathe in the earth
As I look to you, I bathe in the earth
Taken back you favorite
wet soaked anecdotes
I can't see the clock from
here Constant confusion
bloodloss contusion And
maybe I should not try
harder To see myself in
you grapple the bedpost
cracking the frame And
maybe I should just try
harder throw myself into
something else Faster
than Rapid ever could be
Maybe it's the way I talk
confusingly to you
Maybe this is only
Prop me up
and keep just one hand talking
while the other slips underneath.
Steals inches from me.
All the lights
seem to dim on command,
lifting oxygen from eyelids.
Calm yourself
Deep breaths
Quarter rest
Fill the lungs up in your chest.
Careful not to strain.
The sound waves you'll save
just might be that
of your own voice breaking.
Sounding out the words
slipping over teeth and out through tongue.
Slip down
White knuckle the chair
Bring your eyes back to earth
or whichever one comes first.
Don't leave yourself
hanging back.
Right now
feels as if it never happened.
Why is my face all red?
Why are my clothes all wet?
All the attractions
All the rejection... and I still feel dumb.
Blink me in
or blink me out.
You got such a great disguise
You hide yourself
on the inside
clinging to the side of my mind,
where they'll never look to find you;
never look to see
just what's inside of me.
(Running out towards the giant lime light streat light,
bending your knees, just to see...
seaching, searching.
Can you hear me when I say these things?
Cuz you act like thats what to ignore.
Or stay hidden underneath or out of reach.
Like your bright blue eyes talking in and out.
or like Katherine grazing your lips
Katherine grazing your lips...
just shut up and kiss me)
Slip down
White knuckle the chair
Bring your eyes back to earth
or whichever one comes first.
Don't leave yourself
hanging back.
Right now
feels as if it never happened.
Why is my face all red?
Why are my clothes all wet?
All the attractions
All the rejection... and I still feel dumb.
Running out east of here,
quoting non but fools.
Quoting out every breath
seeping in from somwhere.
East of here...
East of everywhere.
The silence is unbareable.
Second list at home while
the comforting remains
unchanged and unsame
1000 yard stare And I can
listen with my eyes to stop
comforting your ears Hold
your arms out at length so I
can touch them
a voice says don't bother screaming
day one has come and gone away
served on this diet of needles and knives
convincing myself to stay alive
are these the eyelids you tried to save?
(i drink to forget your face)
we all know what goes on,
and we know just what you've done.
it is even worth it to say im sorry, just because
such simple things i miss in spite of all this
is it even worth it to say im sorry, just move on
a voice says don't bother leaving,
day one has come and gone away .
choking on hopes, and words i never wrote,
i'll try to survive on this long night.
on this warm night the taste gets worst.
the lips i thought i touched now just hurt.
come on and catch me, i know that you want me.
its written all over your obvious arms.
the smell of your breath
the feel of your neck
Let's give up
Let's give in
Desperate, pathetic, the same place I've been
Sing all night
Sing all night
Sing all night long
I had it, a feeling of failure sucked dry
Lost like a camera's wide open eye
We've lost it a feeling for staying alive
Free from infection
Free from this life
(Some days)
Some days slip while others come crashing in
(Some days)
Some days...
I had it, a feeling of failure sucked dry
Lost like a camera's wide open eye
We've lost it a feeling for staying alive
Free from infection
Free from this life
Sing all night
Sing all night
Sing all night long
I had it, a feeling of failure sucked dry
Lost like a camera's wide open eye
We've lost it a feeling for staying alive
Free from infection
Free from this life
(Free from this life!)
Let's give up!
Let's give in!
Let's give up!
Let's give in!
Let's give up!
Let's give in!
Let's give up!
Let's give in!
Some days slip
Some days slip
Sing all night
Sing all night
Sing all night long
Sing all night
Sing all night
More nightmares
Someone wake me when they're through
Stop my lover's ghost from trying to protrude
(You're burning, you're burning)
It's chaotic, but I've got it
You're letter scratched across my throat
Like some painter's ink, spilled the canvas soiling parts of me
Cover up, cover up, all the fusion's lost
I know this sucks but one day you'll meet up
I miss the softness of your sound
The taste of you left in my mouth
Is Mississippi done yet burning?
Sick sounds like stomach's stinging
I search out, but you cannot be found
A red horizon in the south
Is Mississippi done yet burning?
Most nights bleat every feeling
I must get back to you somehow
I must get back to you
Your shadow
Now lies against the moon
The skin I touched that once
Kissed has come unglued
(You're burning, you're burning)
It's chaotic, but I've got it
More screams than anyone should hear
The voice of you stabs in my chest
Forged and faithless
Cover up, cover up, all the fusion's lost
I know this sucks but one day you'll meet up
I miss the softness of your sound
The taste of you left in my mouth
Is Mississippi done yet burning?
Sick sounds like stomach's stinging
I search out, but you cannot be found
A red horizon in the south
Is Mississippi done yet burning?
Most nights bleat every feeling
I must get back to you somehow
I must get back to you
Darling boy
Lift your chin up for me now
For my face to see
And I am smiling looking down
I know you're out of breath
You're hit by the way I've left
Just hold me tried and true
For I'll be waiting
Waiting here for you
So dim these lights, I won't be found
This haunting stops right here and now
There's pain and in his eyes of fixed dreaming
I'm tired without you, so let it be
So dim these lights, I won't be found
This haunting stops right here and now
There's pain in his eyes of fixed dreaming
I'm tired without you, so let it be
Is Mississippi done yet burning?
Most nights bleat every feeling
I must get back to you somehow
Under weight from this collapse, and thoughts I knew I'd always had the
Mouth to pour, the pen to kill, the papier-mâché, the mold you made from
Me, dig the needle into the skin, close your eyes and try to find a door to
This room you're locked into to.
(what's set in motion, won't be left behind, what's set in motion)
Hiding inside, letting your self slip by, hiding inside, why do I even try!
These pills are not the answer, just pink mausoleums, just begging me so
bad to swallow them whole, all this means is I've worked myself in circles,
all this means is I've worked myself in circles.
Under weight from this collapse, and thoughts I knew I'd always had the
Mouth to pour, the pen to kill, the papier-mâché, the mold you made from
Me, dig the needle into the skin, close your eyes and try to find a door to
This room you're locked into to.
(what's set in motion, won't be left behind, what's set in motion)
Hiding inside, letting your self slip by, hiding inside, why do I even try!
These pills are not the answer, just pink mausoleums, just begging me so
bad to swallow them whole, all this means is I've worked myself in circles,
all this means is I've worked myself in circles.
So if you want to take this drug with me, I have no problem that, just remember
One thing, cough me up and breath me right back in again, theres no telling how many
Times I can take that sort of thing, its like ball point pen pressed on the paper
Trying to savour its last few minutes of clarity, clarity killed the machine!
Hold tight, all hands on deck, throw the mast out from the wreck,
we've lost one to the nets.
(running any where, running every thing, I can't believe what you just said)
Hold tight, all hands on deck, throw the mast out from the wreck,
we've lost one to the nets.
(running any where, running every thing, I can't believe what you just said)
All this means is I've worked myself in circles
Two cigarettes
flying close together
trying their best to forget...
the heating in their chest.
One says I'm sorry
if I made you sad.
I just wanted to kiss you,
to say that i had.
Nights like this
it's you I miss.
Is this the effect you expected to get?
So caught up and clueless...
and all these conclusions.
Sorry I let you down
just being myself.
Clue Me In
Exercise caution but tell me again.
Clue Me In
Exercise caution but tell me again.
Nights like this
I catch up with
this camera's eye...
and you're so shy
and it's you I miss.
Wide eyed;
angled release;
Smoke me down to the filter.
Clue Me In
Exercise caution but tell me again.
Clue Me In
Exercise caution but tell me again.
One says i'm sorry
if i made you sad.
I just wanted to break you...
A short dance is all I can offer you
I've no plans of letting this ensue
But you look so hot tonight
I'd swear you were steam
Rising up from underneath
I'll set traps in your bed timed to explode
Make certain no one ever knows
That I was with you once
Never to be again
With all addictions lost
There's no time to notice
Or how I'll match up to you (the state of cringing)
And every weekend spent
Just condescending
In lieu of truth
Scarred hands stretch out to make me promise you
There's no chance of letting out the truth
And you look so hot tonight
I'd swear you were steam
Crawling out from under me
I'll tie hooks in your hair so your lover knows
You've adapted to anything everyone throws
And I am not him, who used to lay beside you
With all addictions lost
There's no time to notice
Or how I'll match up to you (the state of cringing)
And every weekend spent
Just condescending
In lieu of truth (building a better you)
Small feet
I'm barely an engine
I won't let you stop this ascension
So come on, come on
Give me an answer
I won't let this slip until then
Does this sound strange to you?
The whole world scorched a bitter blue
(You look so hot tonight)
You're attracted to boys who are other than those
(I'd swear you were steam)
You're encased in a slew of cracked windows
(Rising up from underneath)
Well I was with you once, never to be again
With all addictions lost
There's no time to notice
Or how I'll match up to you (the state of cringing)
And every weekends spent
Just condescending
Lost yourself
in the couch
swimming with all the change again...
waking up indifferent.
Day after day,
just one constant slap
in the face
keeps you awake.
Waking up inside
bleeding through the eyes
caught up confused
All the anchors sigh,
strapped to the floor;
Nothing left to lose.
Now that you've got a trail to cover up,
why are you whispering to me?
And deep inside my room
there's no such thing as light
passing through these bars.
Talk out loud.
So I can hear your voice scattered clearly,
lungs breathing evenly.
Often I sleep
and often you'll leave.
Just one more reminder
keeps you wandering.
Wax candles selling out the room.
While the eyes have theirs
is not to be confused.
Change your own name
Lover undo me
For weeks I've waited for your return
My head down
Eyes to the ground
My guess is a sure thing
You won't be back
Thank you for a month's worth of wooing
Your warm lips and my body for using
Six shades of mischievous gray
Sprinting through your skinny veins
It's no wonder my sense of perception
Is no better than a sailor in weather
So rough as to spill your guts
The sea swells up just enough, to keep your head up
Lover undo me
For weeks I've waited for your return
My head down
Eyes to the ground
My guess is a sure thing
You won't be back
You've all but consumed me
For days I pray for you to burn
I won't try to relive the nightlife
I had when I had you
Lot more of them need to fall
With eyes so soft and a livid cough she sighs
"Don't come near me
God damnit I am waving my colors of warning"
I am sorry darling
I'm just so sick of starving
You smile as I start my dive
Hands on hips, it parts your lips
Pushed to one side
Lover undo me
For weeks I've waited for your return
My head down
Eyes to the ground
My guess is a sure thing
You won't be back
You've all but consumed me
For days I pray for you to burn
I won't try to relive the nightlife
I had when I had you
And those six shades that I spoke of
Are just acts you try to pull off
Just as a cavity
Swallowing the things you need
Yet you skim what won't repeat
All demands what I've been asking
Your arms like a tragedy
Suffering from sun
I will cut myself off never to be turned back on
Lover undo me
(I will cut myself off never to be turned back on)
You've all but consumed me
(I will cut myself off never to be turned back on)
Lover undo me
(I will cut myself off never to be turned back on)
You'll end up starved out in some attic
Alone and afraid watching reruns of past times
Your hair falling out in heaps
The bridges you've burned
There's a selfless soul I'm seeking
One that wants nothing, just look after me
Such is a seldom seed, planted far from the sun
And full of hope, she's not yet gone
Well lift your sleeves
So bare they might see
Your angles and errors
Arms that have shared you
With every heart etched in your skin
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry, for who I am
If such a pillowed hand worth holding
Staggers into palms which are running
Take a taste to be taken away I do believe
Centerfold, now to complete
Can someone be
More of a mother to me?
Discern out my thoughts
Correct all my verses
Show me I'm wanted every night
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry, for who I am
It's such a sad eclipse, fired sure as a bullet
Such a tatter, on a chest that will not happen
I take a chance, to be taken away a
And suddenly fall back into place
I'm so sorry (everyday now it's true)
I'm so sorry (everyday now it's true)
I'm so sorry (everyday now it's true)
I'm so sorry (everyday now)
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
Hold me up to the brightest light
Where you've made me all but blind
And your scheming fingertips
Dance across my shoulder blades
This evening's got me feeling
Sad and I'm sickened to my stomach
Your perfect arms are more like ropes around my waistline
I only wanted to be loved by you
I only wanted to be loved by you
I'm sad and sick of guessing
For the moment when our lips meet melting
I only wanted to be loved by you
Call me out to the darkest night
Where you've left me small and shy
Your fleeting blasé kiss
Turns me into what I hate
I'm keeping what you're stealing
Sad and I'm sickened into my stomach
And you're sunken eyes deny
Every shard that you've gave
I hoped you'd say
I only wanted to be loved by you
I only wanted to be loved by you
I'm sad and sick of guessing
For the moment when our lips meet melting
I only wanted to be loved by you
Someone's been sparing out lies trying not to show their eyes
Sketching with the ghost, our boyfriends collide
Someone's been sharing out lies trying not to sacrifice
Sketching with the ghost, there's not much left inside
I only wanted to be loved by you
I only wanted to be loved by you
I'm sad and sick of guessing
For the moment when our lips meet melting
I only wanted to be loved by you
So me and your eyelids, poured out naked onto the floor
Reach out
For I cannot recall
Blurred nights, hands like ice
Spinning bathroom walls
And every soulless face
Seems to me a drowning fate
Cut slow they say
Think of a better way to count your hours
There's a problem with the sky tonight
And we've been wondering where you are
In seperate corners so that eyes can shine
And make a party out of every night
There's a problem with the sky tonight
And we've been wondering where you are
In seperate corners so that eyes can shine
And make a party out of every night
And don't talk
For every word turns cold
Jump back what your best at
Keep buying what I'm sold
And every sickened stare
Draws from me a steaming glare (steaming glare)
What words you say
Think of a better way to haunt your hours
There's a problem with the sky tonight
And we've been wondering where you are
In seperate corners so that eyes can shine
And make a party out of every night
There's a problem with the sky tonight
And we've been wondering where you are
In seperate corners so that eyes can shine
And make a party out of every night
Wake me up
For a never ending cycle scares me
Pull me up
This night I hate but keep repeating
Wake me up
For a never ending cycle scares me
Pull me up
This night I hate but keep repeating
There's a problem with the sky tonight
And we've been wondering where you are
In seperate corners so that eyes can shine
And make a party out of every night
There's a problem with the sky tonight
And we've been wondering where you are
In seperate corners so that eyes can shine
And make a party out of every night
Hear the sound of our own hearts breaking
Keep our thoughts as to what we're drinking
Fear the sound of our own lungs breathing
Keep our thoughts as to what we're drinking
Don't let me shut this light
For the killer in my head
Needs a signal to prove that I am not dead just yet
But burned out and going blue
The salt is set with open wounds
Doused and fresh
I can open my eyes for a second
And hope the sails catch us
I can open my eyes for a second
And hope that you just won't hear this
A shipwreck
An anchor
A slowly sinking sailor
Somehow, someway
Someones bound to stay
It's in this grave we lay
Watery and saved
Just act as if I'm gone
And decaying in my room
I hold a shadow as close as a silver ghost
Grasps onto an image known to him as you
At this fast rate, I'll be lucky if I'm dead by morning
I can open my eyes for a second
And hope the sails catch us
I can open my eyes for a second
And hope that you just won't hear this
A shipwreck
An anchor
A slowly sinking sailor
Somehow, someway
Someones bound to stay
It's in this grave we lay
Watery and saved
One touch one taste
It's enough to make you stay away
Tonight I'm spent
Pretend this razor is your lips
You're finding ways to kiss
(Ways to kiss me)
Deeply on the wrists
I loved what I had
It's impossible to get it back
I loved what I had
It's impossible to get that back
It's in this grave we lay
Watery and saved
(To get that back)
It's in this grave we lay
Are we still connected or was it just a plot,
to get yourself off, and hope that I'm not
listening when it happens.
(she said)
I can't begin to say how sorry I am,
I never ment for this to happen.
Sun goes down, the knife come out..
I'm on the island you left me on,
such a sickend strip of sand;
no lifeboats, no getting off.
We give up, we give in, we take what we can;
we're trapped deep without a second chance.
we give up, we give in, withought blinking;
Jesus Christ, what was I thinking?
Are these lungs desperatley filled by someone
charming and sad,
because you know your lover,
won't be back?
Are these words useless and absurd?
Such a sight of this,
makes the harbor and the water sick.
Shall I stay rejected or in a drunken song?
Like a bitter old man sunk in his fangs.
Try not to get caught.
(he said)
I know you didn't miss the sound that I made;
it's simple, it's sad, and easy to fake.
Live wits down, the knife come out.
I'm on the island you left me on,
such a sickend strip of sand;
no lifeboats, no getting off.
We give up, we give in, we take what we can;
we're trapped deep without a second chance.
We give up, we give in, withought thinking;
I'll be there the night you go down.
Are these lungs desperatley filled by someone
starving and sad,
because you know your lover,
won't be back?
Are these words useless and absurd?
Such a sight of this,
makes the harbor and the water sick.
I understand your reasons,
for this awkward dance.
I'd leave me, too,
if I thought I had the slightest chance.
I cry loud to these sheets they grip back tight.
Fall asleep to the sound of my own life.
If I drink this bottle fast enough,
I might get lucky and won't wake up. [x2]
Pose for me
Revealing every inch of your body
It goes to show your true love tones are so shallow
Stave off the option
This ugly infection
Says to me your anything but desire
Smile for me
Revealing something of and pretty
Your perfect skin can't shake the sight that you're lacking
Overall it's just the way you are
Underneath your belly hides the scars
Of who you really are
Take me away (take me away)
From skin that won't hum but glows
I'll be ok (I'll be ok)
Don't let them injure you
Further away (further away)
Smile you can't help but show
Somewhere someday (somewhere someday)
Don't let them injure you
Such a shame
But on that day
Your looks began to fade
To be ordinary yet understanding
Ordinary yet understanding
Your skin won't amount to shit when it's deep in the dirt
Wait for me
For I can show you something appealing
Goes against your true love tones but you're hollow
Hold your arms
I will hold her legs
And with that began to cut away
The things that make her oh so pretty
To be just a stump when I'm done with this plot
Take me away (take me away)
From skin that won't hum but glows
I'll be ok (I'll be ok)
Don't let them injure you
Further away (further away)
Smile you can't help but show
Somewhere someday (somewhere someday)
Don't let them injure you
Take me away
From skin that won't hum but glows
I'll be ok (I'll be ok)
Don't let them injure you
Further away (further away)
Smile you can't help but show
Somewhere someday (somewhere someday)
Hey pretty what's on your mind
nothing here an endless night
I'm fed up and sick tired of me my
thin boy voice ruins everything
Oh sweetheart don't say such things
we don't know who's listening
don't talk don't smile silently walk
on by my Emily says,
"Oh Ladd whats has she done to
my darling innocent boy
my favorite late night someone."
I wish she were here to kiss me and scream
dammit Ladd I need you back
Emma rolls over in bed and says,
"Is it really so bad?".
Hey pretty are you secretly sad
questions I dare not ask
I'm fed up and sick so tierd of
this such simple things I miss
Oh sweetheart don't say such things
we don't know who's listening
the only thing that can fill this gap
is the one who doesn't want me back
my Emily says,
"Oh Ladd how long can this last."
As long as it takes to get that attention
so safe at last I wish she were
here to hold me and scream
dammit Ladd I need you back but
Emma rolls over in bed and says,
"you don't want that."
so here is my advice to you
this should have turned out different
but it didn't so get over it
but don't you find it reassuring
that one consolation growing my darling
Listen to that sound of
something in your ear
Pulls you sounds so
Shakespearean Tugs you
wish you were here We're all
you've got till your wedding
day Falls through the ground
and leaves you feeling wetter
So long to sweet goodbyes
they never last that
long So long to Shakespeare
wish you were here In the
making of your life there's a
part of you that just won't
seem to try Don't stop the
red light or you might confess
it to your life something
irresponsible to you am
young and going numb from
growing up on the inside you
believe and that I am nothing
catch your breath.
We like your style And we
will confess to address until
Something's wrong that we all know catch up and recuperate but there's still something wrong and if we stop to think we could revive ophelia and if we stop to think we could rescue ourselves Where my own eyes run together where my own eyes run forever I can taste that silent slate on my lips I can tell by the look on your face you're going to slip
Are you upset over all of this? Or are you just playing dead? Adding up the math. I can blink my eyes in a statistic fashion in the hopes it’d make you move. In the hopes it’d make you breathe. It’s how disaster makes me feel. All I can think to do is stare and say, “It’s OK.” Just one more day spent tending ruins, cuz of you. One more connection cut off by affection. One more useless night spent in this life. Lick your lips wet, try to forget. Jump in headfirst, who cares if it hurts? One light flashing, over guessing. If not for the life in you, I don’t know what I’d do. It’s how disaster makes me smile. The thought strikes as nice once in a while. One more connection cut off by affection. One tank short on gas, one bullet built to crash. These broken lungs have little air left, if some. The cause and effect is as simple as a car wreck. If not for the life, then this thought of you. It’s a stupid thing to think that I won’t lose, when all I want is this: To be more of the friends that sometimes kiss.
The look in your eyes
Is barely recognizable
Or so it seems to be
Attracted to everything
Within reach of a whisper
Strain your ears
Just to hear them speak
Seconds slip by
Words turn into wounds
Falling onto every piece of you
Two times at night
And double that on the weekends
i could tear my hands across your back and still hear you scream
Goodbye Susan
Hope you had fun
I never intended any of this to happen
Yet I still recall the smell of your car last fall
And how it felt to be close to you
The slant of your smile is only noticed by the line
Or so it seems to be
Attracted to anything
Between here and there
i might not withdraw
the fragile lines of Seattle
Minutes pass by settling the wounds
Tripping into every inch of you
Two times at night
And double that on the weekends
I could tear my hands across your back and still hear you scream
Goodbye Susan
Hope you had fun
I never intended any of this to happen
Yet I still recall the smell of your car last fall
And how it felt to be close to you
So breathless the night carves her airwaves out of leaves
I am up against tattoos of scars and skin so cold so deep
I'm 20 ft and sinking faster than the ship I'm in
useless to jump or swim
I could hold my breath till I blow up
and make this all seem real no
matter how hard I try I cant seem to
win this stupid game I apologize for
keeping you up wasting all your time
so I'm stuck with the image you walking me to my car
and how nice it felt to be alive in someone's arms
last night felt like the only time that we made sense
and every moment after which shook it up chalk it up to coincidence
I could hold my breath until I blow up
and make this all seem real
there's nothing like waking up
after all the sadness has been slapped off
and its just me and you looking at all these things
how am I supposed to breath
how am I supposed to breath
how am I supposed to breath
How am I supposed to breath
lucky for me we were lying down
Just from kissing you I could of passed right out
Are we still connected or was it just a plot,
to get yourself off, and hope that I'm not
listening when it happens.
(she said)
I can't begin to say how sorry I am,
I never ment for this to happen.
Sun goes down, the knife come out..
I'm on the island you left me on,
such a sickend strip of sand;
no lifeboats, no getting off.
We give up, we give in, we take what we can;
we're trapped deep without a second chance.
we give up, we give in, withought blinking;
Jesus Christ, what was I thinking?
Are these lungs desperatley filled by someone
charming and sad,
because you know your lover,
won't be back?
Are these words useless and absurd?
Such a sight of this,
makes the harbor and the water sick.
Shall I stay rejected or in a drunken song?
Like a bitter old man sunk in his fangs.
Try not to get caught.
(he said)
I know you didn't miss the sound that I made;
it's simple, it's sad, and easy to fake.
Live wits down, the knife come out.
I'm on the island you left me on,
such a sickend strip of sand;
no lifeboats, no getting off.
We give up, we give in, we take what we can;
we're trapped deep without a second chance.
We give up, we give in, withought thinking;
I'll be there the night you go down.
Are these lungs desperatley filled by someone
starving and sad,
because you know your lover,
won't be back?
Are these words useless and absurd?
Such a sight of this,
makes the harbor and the water sick.
I understand your reasons,
for this awkward dance.
I'd leave me, too,
if I thought I had the slightest chance.
I cry loud to these sheets they grip back tight.
Fall asleep to the sound of my own life.
If I drink this bottle fast enough,
Try and define
the energy it takes to write these lines.
that I find
useless all the time.
Everyday
I try not to stay awake.
But instead asleep
A safety net I keep.
Get up
and over
don't cave in.
Get off
and under
tell me again.
Capsized.
Leave those in betweens
for someone else.
Sure as a headache comes and goes
so will you.
Use your failed sense of worst hue red
Down and into
every piece of all of you.
Its more of a thought I think
than anything.
Everyday
I try not to say your name.
But end up failing
in the worst of ways.
Such a beautiful thing to waste,
and just as easy to replace.
Tell me again
In sight of close calls
beat the plaster off the wall.
Claustrophobic area;
waking up to nothing.
Remember one name.
Catch the corner of the page.
Close the book and never look
back again
Crawl out from the walls;
break your fall.
Redesign the shadows
Underneath it all
we stay calm
and overprotective.
Last night I was up again till three...
watching TV.
And using both hands
draw a breath as best you can.
Catch the ring before it slips
out of reach.
Remember anything;
red wine split to shards;
Cut the corners off the project
and let me sleep
Last night I was up again till three...
I've released my heat
towards a situation I just
can't control anymore
And it looks like this is trying
to kill me just like the
better offense I tried to supply
Just like the Chinese
girl on the back of my guitar
I need 17 more dreams
It seems that memories
This is exist not a hole
More than hardwood not
just floors And I'm waiting
for this weather now to
clear catching weather in
my heather of a stone this
is my mind Screaming
phases tapping shoulders
in a flight Some things can't
be ignored This is home
this is sweet home Home's
a prom queen seventeen
my dandy lion dream
used to sway on swings
Though it never meant a
thing My film became silent
when she said to me
When this night is over so
are we Don't cry dear Anne
Because I'll be back soon
