hide inside my head
i cant stand all the things they said, made me crazy
born into hate never to appreciate
me or you or things i should do
was i ever innocent
little boy lost inside his self
dont know where i can hide
but inside
who will free me?
take it all away
blinded from another day
sparks fly in my closed eyes
as i hide from the demons inside
where will i run tomorrow?
will i soon have footsteps to follow?
can you tell me where is my soul?
guess thats the devils toll
was i ever innocent
little boy lost inside his self
dont know where i can hide
but inside
who will free me?
you dont know who i am
you dont know where ive been
so dont act like you do
My life is such a waste
Begging on something to work this time
But why can't I relate?
Feeling all I do is get what's mine
Holding on to faith, never gave me nothing but despair
So why do I create just to be swallowed?
I can't take (we have a start)
I can't take (we got a fantasy)
Come what may (we are the stars)
I can't wait (I’ll take what’s mine)
Been hating all this time before I crawled inside
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find
Been hating all this time too far to cross the line
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find
I Cannot take this place
Burning up inside this space of mine
So why can't I replace, feelings I find hard to really find?
I try but I can't taste
Memories they always fuck with me
So why do I create just to be swallowed?
I can't take (we have a start)
I can't take (we got a fantasy)
Come what may (we are the stars)
I can't wait (I’ll take what’s mine)
Been hating all this time before I crawled inside
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find
Been hating all this time too far to cross the line
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find,
find, find, find, find, find, find, find
All my feelings have been eating onto me
Feed inside, is there something wrong
with me?
I can't take (we have a start)
I can't take (we got a fantasy)
Come what may (we are the stars)
I can't wait (I’ll take what’s mine)
Been hating all this time before I crawled inside
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find
Been hating all this time too far to cross the line
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find,
Simple expressions hide my ignorance. How can you tell how you feel, when
the words just don't exist? The pain and the anguish, the slaughtered
dreams, the harvest of ill-conceived, wretchedly-worded emotion. Look at
me, touch me; I'm human and awkward, longing to be found, incapable of
exposing myself.
Hatred! A spreading disease, is flowing throught the veins of every being on
the planet or so it seems. ";Maybe you, not me"; I see it clearly through the
red film of my eyes that we must fight!
Prejudice! Our nation's biggest sickness, is taking place before our very
eyes. I'm just as guilty as the next and that I'll try to change.
Unfortunately some are as easily persuaded so we fight!
Fight hatred!
This doesn't have to be a physical war, erase the ignorance into which we were
born. And yes this may become a violent fight, and we may never win but no one
can ever say we didn't try.
So we fight!
[music & words: Tuomas Saukkonen]
If I stay in darkness
and hide inside where is no light
you cannot find me
you cannot find me here
if I don't say a word
and just sit here
even if you are near
you cannot find me
I'm sick of all the tension,
The fighting not to mention.
I'm so sick of hating you.
The fucking way we argue,
The fucking wish to kill you
Makes me wanna throw up on you.
I thought what we had was real
But it all turned out wrong.
Inc When you wake up tomorrow I'll be gone (forever)
Hate
All I feel is
Hate.
I gotta quit and leave before it's too late
Forever
Fate
All I fear is
Fate.
Imprisoned by your mind I will no longer wait
(before it is too late)
You're jealous, pissed and angry.
A fucking idiot to me.
You're a lovely night gone wrong.
You can't be used for living.
At least your good for one thing:
You're the reason for this song.
I thought what we had was real
But it all turned out wrong.
Inc When you wake up tomorrow I'll be gone (forever)
Hate
All I feel is
Hate.
I gotta quit and leave before it's too late
Forever
Fate
All I fear is
Fate.
Imprisoned by your mind I will no longer wait
I can't hold
Myself down,
Can't be loved when you're around.
About to break
To break out.
Wasting time here it's all your fault.
Fucking pain
Is killing me,
Fucking hell is all I see.
What I take
I take my pride.
You won't eat me out alive.
Hate
All I feel is
Hate.
I gotta quit and leave before it's too late
Forever
Fate
All I fear is
Fate.
Imprisoned by your mind I will no longer wait
Forever
Hate
All I feel is
Hate.
I gotta quit and leave before it's too late
Forever
Fate
All I fear is
Fate.
Imprisoned by your mind I will no longer wait
Hiding from the faces that we know
Riding to the places we have grown
And I walk in the sun but my feet are damp
And I speak with the folk like my fathers son
And my feet they are worn but they're comfortable
Let our fathers sing this
Hiding, riding
Hiding, oh, don't you want to go away?
I'm feeling that I'm far away today
Away, I'm feeling that I'm far away today
Singing, there will come a time to sing
All the things we do when no one is watching
All the things we say when no one listens
In times of solitude we find ourselves...
I think it's funny, I think it's kind of sad that we lose control
The way that people always seem to fall when they say "hello"
Until "goodbye" ends the lie
All the things we feel with people beside us
All the thoughts we think when someone listens
In times of multitude we hide ourselves...
Some people fight it, some people do not care, if they lose control
And some embrace it, the way they always fall when they say "hello"
But still "goodbye" ends the lie and fades their smile
We are all in hiding, protecting what's inside
We are all just hiding, afraid to bare ourselves
Afraid to be...
A smile won't break me, a cry won't kill me
But still I'm hiding, deep inside me
The strength escapes me, I can't be set free
I'm trapped and feeling lonely...
Why can't I just be me?
We are all in hiding, protecting what's inside
We are all just hiding, afraid to bare ourselves
Afraid to be...
If you need a sensual space
Inside your world
That you feel safe
I'll meet you there
Uh...i'm hiding
It's safe in here
Uh...i'm hiding
Uh...i'm hiding
I feel safe in here
Why i'm here?
It's dark it's cold
I miss your life
In my silent world
Uh...i'm hiding (why am i hiding?)
It's safe in here (i feel so scared of you)
Uh...i'm hiding (why am i running?)
Uh...i'm hiding (you scare me)
Show me a place
To be in me
Close inside
I'm breathing new
Uh...i'm hiding
I feel safe in here
Uh...i'm hiding (why am i hiding?)
I feel safe in here (why do i run from you?)
Uh...i'm hiding (why do you scare me?)
Uh...i'm hiding (you know i care for you)
Uh...i'm hiding (oh i keep hiding)
Uh...i'm hiding (i keep on running away)
Uh...i'm hiding (i keep on running)
Uh...i'm hiding
It feels warm
It feels strong
Safe from here
I belong
Deep inside
Where i can't hide
Oh you feel....
We keep our heads down just on separate streets, In
different bedrooms under separate sheets. with different
headphones, we nod our heads to same beats. Sink into
different poets till the words give you the creeps.
Because the truth is it’s all been getting to me. It’s
just a little to uncanny for me to believe. So just keep
writing the same songs, send them all to me and i’ll keep
walking around this town with my heart on my sleeve.
Someday some way we’ll make this end. This is the fourth
time that I have been here today. Head stuck in the
clouds searching for something to say. We’re living
parallel lives just under different names. You just pick
up all the bad habits I have learned to evade. This is
the one, two three, fourth time that i’ve been here
today. Eyes glued to the ground searching for something
to say. Just give him four more lines, yeah than he’ll be
okay, fucked and numb to the world, but yeah who isn’t
I'm hiding ...
I'm hiding ...
I'm hiding who I really am
I want to tell the truth, but I just can't
We built our bond on honesty
But still I've hidden
This part of me
He understands me like nobody else
With him I can truly be myself
Believe me, I never want to lie
But I lied to him
And I don't know why
But I wish I could go back
To that one moment in time
When I had the chance
The chance to do the right thing
The right thing
What am I so afraid of?
I felt a piece of me die
And it's the part of me that keeps me alive
God give me the strength to tell the truth tonight
I want to set things right
So I'm not ...
Hiding
Don't want to be hiding
Don't want to be
Don't want to be
I know I've gotta find you
Wonder if you're even there
Taking me for granted
I can barely stand it
Wonder why I even care
Oh now baby you, cant you see
I'm hiding in your arms
Oh now baby you, cant you see
Don't wanna find myself in harm
Showing me the way I thought I heard you say
That good things come to those who wait
Watching every hour, watch it going sour
Watching you control my fate
Oh now baby you, cant you see
I'm hiding in your arms
Oh now baby you, cant you see
Don't wanna find myself in harm
Running out of space, I can't see your face
I've forgotten how you used to be
Saying that you love me, that you're thinking of me
Taking my identity
Oh now baby you, cant you see
I'm hiding in your arms
Oh now baby you, cant you see
Don't wanna find myself in harm
Oh now baby you, cant you see
I'm hiding in your arms
Oh now baby you, cant you see
What are you hiding from me? What are you hiding
Beneath the leaves that color you, and all the things that make you what you feel?
The sun ain't inviting I know, the sun ain't inviting
But I've sat beneath the bridges and I've watched the water pass between my toes
You wonder who to follow, and you lie about your heart
There's no need to buy tomorrow, when there's no place to start
So where are you hiding from me? Where are you hiding?
My little troll beneath the bridge, well I've counted down from ten and here I am
Well you wonder who to follow, and you lie about your heart
Well there's no need to buy tomorrow, when there's no place to start
I saw a bird fly its cage out of the darkness
Well its wings could take it anywhere, but I watched as it flew back from where it came
You wonder who to follow, and you lie about your heart
There's no good in your eyes anymore
And it makes you want to drive home, drunk and alone
Curse the faces in the wheat
Drown yourself in the gold because you can't let it go
Makes you almost miss the smell of smoke in your clothes
And it makes you want to wear the wool
It's that need like nothing else
You bullshit with the best and wait for what's perfect
You bitch and moan more than most about
Where you think your life will take you
But you know that's no sort of pretending
I guess it's the things that I don't say,
We're just pretending
There's no good in your eyes anymore
Nothing is worse than doing nothing,
And I know, well, who's hiding it?
Who the hell is hiding it?
But you can't stay angry forever,
And I know, but you can't stay angry forever, or so I'm told.
But the house gets so quiet
Sitting here wishing for just an hour or two, alone with you
Well, it's always too personal,
Always too close to comment
They all mention how tired you look
And you realize you haven't said a word in hours
Well, who's hiding it?
Who the hell is hiding it?
I've been hiding from your eyes
And staying out of reach
Trying not to let my heart
Keep remindin' me
What I wish I'd shown you, girl
When you were close enough to me
If I don't get another chance
At least I'll have my peace
I've been hiding, yeah-eah
I've been hiding, hey
yeah-eah
I've been hiding from your words
And keeping my head clear
Trying not to let my heart, no
Drown under the fear
I've been hiding, yeah-eah
I've been hiding, hey
I've been hiding
But I ain't gonna hide no more
Ain't gonna hide no more
Ain't gonna hide no more, no no no
oh no
Oh, if you could see
whoa oh oh oh oh yeah
I've been hiding underneath these eyes
And I'm hoping you will see
What a fool looks like pretending
That his love is not a dream
Just waiting to be woken up
Or finally put to sleep
I can't live in this world between
What I want and what I need
I've been hiding, yeah-eah
I've been hiding, hey
I've been hiding
But I ain't gonna hide no more
Ain't gonna hide no more no
Ain't gonna hide no more, no no no
Ain't gonna hide no more, yeah
If you can't see,
Then you can think
Just maybe then, yeah, you'll see for real
But I ain't gonna hide no more,
no no no no no
Down below the deck, I couldn't feel the sand between my toes
It's not in the cards, even though it's in my heart
Takes the thought of me, drowning out some sorrow for a while
This family feels more like a sentence put on me
Turn up, close the door
Fill the room with sound, from wall to wall
Until there's no more room for sorrow
Turn up, waste away
From the stench and filth you can't escape
Only hiding for a while
Down below the tree, the means and the encouragement I need
I guess that I was wrong, I guess it's not so bad after all
One cold, winter day, the cornerstone falls out and rolls away
The walls fall in on me, is this what hell could end up to be?
Turn up, close the door
Fill the room with sound, from wall to wall
Until there's no more room for sorrow
Turn up, waste away
From the stench and filth you can't escape
Only hiding for a while
Here below the sky, the only guilt left now is in my mind
And each day away brings a little piece of mind my way
Turn up, close the door
Fill the room with sound, from wall to wall
Until there's no more room for sorrow
Turn up, waste away
From the stench and filth you can't escape