Bif Naked (born Beth Torbert June 15, 1971) is a Juno Award-winning, Indian-born American-Canadian multi-platinum record selling rock singer, writer, poet, motivational speaker and actress.
Bif Naked was born in New Delhi to teenaged parents attending private school. She was subsequently adopted by American missionaries. She spent part of her childhood in Lexington, Kentucky, where her father was a professor at the University of Kentucky. She went to Kelsey Elementary School in The Pas, Manitoba for a couple of years. After living for a time in Dauphin, Manitoba, her family eventually settled in Winnipeg. She graduated from John Taylor Collegiate and studied theatre at the University of Winnipeg.
A noted poet, she has also released a spoken word album called Okenspay Ordway: Things I Forgot To Tell Mommy. She is heavily tattooed, getting her first, an Egyptian Eye of Horus, when she was 16. Her tattoos include a symbol of the Tao, Japanese writing, Buddhist poetry and images (such as the Bodhisattva), and Hindu imagery; she has stated on MTV that her favorite tattoo, on her left arm, reads "Survivor." She also has X's tattooed on her hands, which represent the X's drawn on the hands of minors in bars to prevent them from ordering drinks. Bif identifies as straight-edge. She is also a comic cartoonist.
if smiling raver chubby girls with fragrant barretted blond curls won't lead you to stray...
you got the job!
if you don't mind cigarette smoke or my addiction to diet coke and sex night and day...
you got the job!
if you promise not to make me cry and never ever tell a lie when i'm on the road...
you got the job!
if you love me just for who i am i'll love you back forever and baby i'm sold...
I am tied up in the burning sun.
Baby, you are my only shade.
You're the bowl of water beyond my reach.
I can only move the distance of this chain.
I chew anything you will give me.
Eat anything, even my own words.
Scramble for any morsel you throw,
you scatter hope like scraps of food.
I guess you are the master.
I am the dog.
I am the dog.
Waiting for you to love me.
I am jumping on you for affection.
I would love to lick your face.
You scold me, you push me off.
I'm your loyal bitch, a man's best friend.
I lie here and lick my wounds,
from my little bed of wishes.
I run to you in my dreams.
I pine for you in my life.
I guess you are the master.
I am the dog.
I am the dog.
Waiting for you to love me.
I have no sense of time at all.
Twenty minutes or twenty years,
it's all the same.
I am your muse, you are my muse,
broken hearts.
Baby please show me some mercy,
don't put me down.
I guess you are the master.
I am the dog.
I am the dog.
Oh we're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
Oh we're not gonna take it anymore
We've got the right to choose and
There ain't no way we'll lose it
This is our life, this is our song
We'll fight the powers that be just
Don't pick our destiny 'cause
You don't know us, you don't belong
Oh we're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
Oh we're not gonna take it anymore
Oh you're so condescending
Your gall is never ending
We don't want nothin', not a thing from you
Your life is trite and jaded
Boring and confiscated
If that's your best, your best won't do
Oh.....................
Oh.....................
We're right/yeah
We're free/yeah
We'll fight/yeah
You'll see/yeah
Oh we're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
Oh we're not gonna take it anymore
Oh we're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
Oh we're not gonna take it anymore
No way!
Oh.....................
Oh.....................
We're right/yeah
We're free/yeah
We'll fight/yeah
You'll see/yeah
We're not gonna take it
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
We're not gonna take it, no!
No, we ain't gonna take it
We're not gonna take it anymore
Just you try and make us
We're not gonna take it
Come on
No, we ain't gonna take it
You're all worthless and weak
We're not gonna take it anymore
Now drop and give me twenty
We're not gonna take it
Oh crinch pin
No, we ain't gonna take it
Oh you and your uniform
Ain't had a job in about a year.
Living down in my parents basement.
I wish that I could get outta here!
Sometimes I think I need a vacation!
Can't get my mother off my back.
She don't have far to go to drive me crazy.
Someday the bitch is gonna make me crack!
Might be the last time she calls me lazy!
I'm a let down!
Pardon me! If I'm a let down
To my family!
I'm a let down!
1-2-3 I'm a let down!
Are you like me?
And now my sister's got a fancy car.
I got a piece of shit from 1980.
But, at least, I got my two guitars
And a one-way ticket to nowhere baby!
Oh! No! No! Now, I've got a dream.
They don't understand, It won't be long.
I'm not what I seem.
See I've got a plan..
THATS RIGHT!
Sometime, they act like I don't exist.
Or else they treat me like I'm still eleven.
Heaven knows I can't take more of this.
I never thought I'd be 27..
Get offa me!
Away from me!
Get me outa here!
Don't follow me!
Don't bother me!
I'm no leader.
What's wrong with you?
I wash the dishes.
Walk to the post office.
I get some juice in my mouth.
I spit it out.
I spit it out.
I spit it out.
I spit it all over my clean shirt.
(it says "vail)
I'm not yours or anyone's.
I don't even own myself.
Why do you always watch me?
I just wanna be myself.
Get offa me!
Away from me!
Get me outa here!
Don't follow me!
Don't bother me!
I'm no leader.
You don't know me,
so don't touch me.
I'm not here to validate your behavior.
You need to stop.
You need to stop.
You need to stop talking so fast.
(I'm not interested in anything you have to say)
I wish you would crawl back up to the bar.
Tell it to your drink.
Tell it to your drink.
Tell her who you are.
Don't tell me.
Don't talk to me.
I want you to shut your mouth.
Get offa me!
Away from me!
Get me outa here!
Don't follow me!
Don't bother me!
I'm no leader.
I can not be your leader.
I can not be your leader.
Stop lookin at me.
Stop lookin at me.
Stop lookin at me.
Stop lookin at me.
I brush my teeth,
stop looking at me.
I park my car,
stop looking at me.
Get on the train,
stop looking at me.
I turn around,
Ma mere suivi sa petite sur les Indes
Le mango et le roti walla sur leurs chemins
C'est moi pour oublie ces problemes
C'est maintenant que je t'aime
Demande pas comment je vais
Je veux pas en le parler
Demande pas d'ou vien ma encette grand journee
Papa va se marier
Mama cesse de pleurer
Mon papa va se marier
Je ne le veux pas en parler
Mon papa va se marier
Sait-tu le grand journee?
Mon papa va se marier
Mama cesse de pleurer
Qu'on besoin d'entendre il faut due boir se lait
De moustache sur ce photo de Barbies
Reste sur son pottie jusqu'au de lenver
Ma premiere cigarette va monte a l'entente
Demande pas comment je vais
Je veux pas en le parler
Demande pas d'ou vien ma encette grand journee
Papa va se marier
Mama cesse de pleurer
Mom papa va se marier
Je ne le veux pas en parler
Mon papa va se marier
Sait-tu le grand journee?
Mon papa va se marier
Mama cesse de pleurer
Je me sente pas plus varche que la voisine
Dans ma tete aussi, il y a plein d'ennui
Des gateau pourri dans le cemetiere
Qui entraine, au fond de la mer
Papa va se marier
Mama cesse de pleurer
Mon papa va se marier
Je ne le veux pas en parler
Mon papa vas se marier
Sait-tu le grand journee?
Mon papa va se marier
Marier, marier, marier, marier!
Papa!
Mama cesse de pleurer
Mon papa va se marier
i used to follow you and your friends to the ice rink
the back of your skidoo made me all wet (from snow)
you'd pat me on the head as we stole your dad's chevette, one more time.
i bought new hiking boots so you'd think i was cool
(you didn't care, coz you never knew i was alive)
i never wanted anything
the way i wanted you - that night.
my love transcended space and time...
i never wanted anything
the way i wanted you - that night.
my love transcended space and time:
my first....
you used to ride yer red and white dirt bike...
i'd hold yer jacket close to my heart so tight.
my mom woke me up, early said
"look what yer friends did to my front yard!"
it was me and my sisters, out my window...
there it was! there, baby! you peed my name in the snow!
i never wanted anything
the way i wanted you - that night.
my love transcended space and time...
i never wanted anything
the way i wanted you - that night.
my love transcended space and time..
my first:
(meet me in the school yard, after eight.
still grounded, i couldn't stay out late.
remember all the things you said...
in the back of that chevette:
when we were only fifteen?)
my daddy moved us to a big city:
yer smiling face, i never again did see: no more..
i wonder how you are, and i wonder if you think about me still.
would you guess what i'm doing? you and yer friends.
i want you to remember that you were my first...
we are lucky to have something to eat:
anyday, now... it's gonna start - my real life.
and anyday, now: everything is gonna be all right...
anyday, now: life's gonna get real good.
and somehow: life'll be like i sed it would
anyday, now - mark my word!
anyday, now - i will be heard!
anyday, now - my ship will finally come in...
anyday, now: i'm gonna jump right in.
and anyday, now: my destiny will begin.
and until then i'll just be here
wasting my time...
but, don't you worry,
i'll be just fine:
anyday, now - mark my word!
anyday, now - i will be heard!
anyday, now - my ship will
I crawl along, hang on the hem of your dress.
I'm holding on. Boy don't forget.
I'm a mess. I'm into you.
I pull myself up to your chinny-chin chin.
When I reach your mouth,
you're gonna let me in.
I'm into you.
I'm a...
Baby ladybug. Baby ladybug.
I'm lost in your hair.
Can you feel me there?
Baby ladybug. Baby ladybug.
Well, I fly to heaven to come back,
and land in your mouth.
I hide, in you, my little bug games.
Between your seams.
I call your name.
I'm into you.
I'm a junkie.
I'm a whore.
That's what you always called me.
I am raw,
an open sore.
I ache to remind me...
I'm a weakling,
you are strong.
Pick me up from where I lay.
Here on a stolen sidewalk.
Baby, don't make me beg...
I'm religious once again.
We all are before we die...
and I am so sick to death.
Wasted tears I cry.
And who said love would always mend,
and fill the emptiness again.
Should light a single candle...
make a prayer in my name.
I'm a weakling,
you are strong.
Pick me up from where I lay.
Here on a stolen sidewalk.
Baby, don't make me beg.
I am not right,
you're not wrong.
I can't last another day.
Here on a stolen sidewalk.
Baby, don't make me beg...
The closest thing I found to heaven,
is sitting here, talking to you...
I'm the queen of western paradise,
don't you know,
nothing left for me to do.
I'm a weakling,
you are strong.
Pick me up from where I lay.
Here on a stolen sidewalk.
Baby, don't make me beg.
I am not right,
you're not wrong.
I can't last another day.
Here on a stolen sidewalk.
If I fall outa my nest,
will ya pick me up? Will ya help me fly?
If I fall outa my nest,
will ya show me love?
If I'm in over my head,
will ya pick me up? Will ya help me out?
If I'm in over my head,
will ya show me love?
It's cold, baby.
It's cold, baby.
I need your love to get me through this time.
Lonely October song.
I am a bleeding heart.
Lonely October song.
Help me! I'm falling apart.
I can't seem to find anyone
who hasn't fallen.
Fallen down.
I can't seem to find anyone unlike a crispy leaf on the ground.
(there are leaves all around)
If I'm blind and lose my way,
Will ya walk with me? Will ya help me see?
If I'm blind and lose my way,
Will ya show me love?
If I'm incarcerated,
Will ya bust me out? Will ya set me free?
If I'm incarcerated,
Will ya show me love?
It's cold, baby.
It's cold, baby.
I need your love to get me through this time.
Lonely October song.
I am a bleeding heart.
Lonely October song.
Help me! I'm falling apart.
I can't seem to find anyone
who hasn't fallen.
Fallen down.
I can't seem to find anyone unlike a crispy leaf on the ground.
i stand in the pouring rain
you couldn't even be there to pick me up
yer taking me for granted, again
yer running outa time, and yer outa luck!
just a moment of weakness
i should examine my head!
just a moment of weakness
i never meant a word i said
i'm sick with the beiijing flu
and you chose then not to come home.
a week later I caught you
kissing a girl who was my clone!
just a moment of weakness
i should examine my head!
just a moment of weakness
i never meant a word i said!
(oh, why should I stay and pretend?
you make me laugh again
my darling, truth is - we are not even friends!
oh, love comes and it goes.
where yer heart stops - no one knows...
how did i wind up in the is mess, here - with you! )
just a moment of weakness
i should examine my head!
just a moment of weakness
smiley, little baby snuggled in her mommy's arms.
pray you'll always keep yer daughter
safe and free from harm.
i wish that everyone lived in a happy place:
sunshine and bright eyes on everybody's face.
it's not about me.
it's not about you.
it's not about them or what they do.
it's not about pride it's about:
we must all understand
violence lies
it's not about me.
it's not about you.
it's about life.
apathy kills anger - and this is what ya choose.
there's always gonna be somebody who will lose.
did ya ever stop and think about the world as is.
life's about living, can't believe it's come to this.
it's not about me.
it's not about you.
it's not about them or what they do.
it's not about pride it's about:
we must all understand
violence lies
it's not about me.
it's not about you.
it's about life.
All right this is my poem it's called eine tasse tee
Are you ready? all right!
One of my dogs ate the feces of a homeless man on the way to the vet
Of course it was anna 'cuz nikolas doesn't eat anything with sauce
I had to try to pull the offending matter out of her mouth with my bare hands
We stunk!
I wonder what the nutrition counter would list this meal as...
It made me think
My anti-malaria medication drove me to question my sanity
I hallucinated
I saw the bright red grip tape on my old skateboard
As a moving mass of demarara(?) sugar
My judgment seems impaired
Things irritate me
People are mean
They drive too fast
They talk too fast
People carry anger around like one of those fashionable backpacks
But they're all actors
In public they behave certain... ways
You know at dinner with their friends out at popular bars and grilles
They chat and laugh
They call girls who look like me "elvira"
They call girls who look like me "morticia"
Whatever
Nice and happy life
Nice weekend warrior weekend rollerblader suv decaf see a movie life
Nice implants
Good luck with your health
Nice dairy
Good luck with your health
Nice bulimia
Good luck with your health
Nice anti-depressant action
Good luck with your health
Nice speeding
Good luck with your health
Everyone thinks they've got problems
Wanna know a problem?
Over one billion people in the world have no access,
That's no access, to safe drinking water.
And you're upset 'cuz you can't get those new dc's.
Wanna know a problem?
The mobile phone.
We're all gonna die of brain cancer
Wanna know a problem?
Jeering hooting men with rohypnol in their back pocket
You already know at least five females who have been raped,
And you don't even know it
Wanna know a problem?
The threat of nuclear war in india and pakistan
It could all be over, overnight
Wanna know a problem?
The homeless
Which brings me back to the shit breath of my bichon-frise
The shit shouldn't be there in the first place
Because whoever had to go had NO place to go
That's fucked!
We are a complacent apathetic society
We are jackasses
We are all squirrels hoarding for ourselves
We need to say something and not care if it's been said before
We need to be responsible for our actions
We need to be more helpful
We need to be more thoughtful
I need to practice compassion who are the fuckwads
Of the purveyors of violence
I need to relax
I need to exhale
I need to meditate
My mind is racing
My mind is a chattering monkey
Nikolas's mind is on fire with paranoia
Annastasia has shit for brains
After all, you are what you eat
I could use a cup of chai
Nikolas thinks he's gandhi
He's on a hunger strike
have you heard da news, today?
i left you in the dust, and that's where you'll stay.
you never mattered anyway.
you don't really know how to play the game.
if i shed my skin, i won't feel:
(if i shed my skin)
if i close my eyes, i won't see you:
(if i close my eyes)
if i cover my ears and i won't hear:
(if i close my ears)
i shut my mouth and i won't tell
the truth.
you have a venomous tongue.
you deserve an iron lung:
you're spending your time obsessing -
and your hate will not ever let you be:
if i shed my skin, i won't feel:
(if i shed my skin)
if i close my eyes, i won't see you:
(if i close my eyes)
if i cover my ears and i won't hear:
(if i close my ears)
i shut my mouth and i won't tell
Testing... testing...
Hear that?
That's my lip ring.
Testing... testing... one, two, buckle my shoe...
He phones to yak and wack wack wack, this irritating boy.
Step on a crack to break his back, for he brings to me no joy.
He speaks too long i reply in tongues
He doesn't understand.
Can he not see i must be free, for me he's not the man?
Dissatisfied, i hear his lies and reply candidly,
Anxiety
Breathless
Cunt
Damn
Excitement
Fucking
Goodness
Heaven
Interesting
Jitters
Kitten
Love
Mine
Never
Open
Pussy
Quite
Restless
Stay
This
Understanding
Vitality
Willing
Xcuses
can you remember chestnut street
and algae ripping at our feet?
i was just a little girl
and you were my whole world.
what i'd give to be lying in your arms,
what i'd give to be your girl again:
did you know that you were my first love?
did you know it's you i still dream of?
i've grown up a lot since then
my nostalgic heart will never mend.
what i'd give to be lying in your arms,
what i'd give to be your girl again:
Boy I wanna get you alone.
Cover you in chocolate, and turn off the phone.
Damn! I think I'm losing my mind.
What's been coming over me?
I wanna be like Pamela Lee.
You go get the camera and I'll say cheese.
Baby you'll be rocking my world,
at the funeral of a good girl.
Well maybe I'm going crazy, but
you be the kid and I'll be the candy store.
Take me down, baby.
Do it to me now! Do it to me now!
I can't believe I just said it out loud!
You make me wanna scream!
And throw you to the ground!
Do it! Do it to me now!
Make me be a bad little girl.
I don't want your dimonds,
just a necklace of pearls.
So come on, put your lips on mine.
Well maybe I'm going crazy, but
you're the kid and I feel like the candy store.
Take me down, baby.
Baby I've never been so easy,
but you're in luck, boy.
Now that I've got you alone,
There's something I wanna say.
A secret I have kept awhile.
But it feels right and I feel safe.
I know I am right.
I know this is the night.
Yeah, you; Making me come all undone.
Yeah, you; You have become,
The only one I will ever love.
Now that I've given myself,
Is there something that you wanna say?
Without you, I'd be unwell.
i got a boyfriend. he's a bad boy.
he is my favorite. he is my joy.
i got a boyfriend. "danger boy!"
he's got a girlfriend. she is my toy!
sometimes he'll twitch for no reason,
it's just a twitch, and it's part of his style.
he tells me i'm his one and only
i'm the only one making him smile.
sometimes he'll twitch for no reason,
it's just a twitch, and it's part of his style
when he's feeling sad and lonely
i'm the only one driving him wild.
he really likes me. he likes my mom.
he buys me ice cream. he likes my song.
he's got a nice car. i buy his gas.
but in the back seat, he moves too fast!
sometimes he'll twitch for no reason,
it's just a twitch, and it's part of his style.
he tells me i'm his one and only
i'm the only one making him smile.
(my boyfriend's back and you're gonna get in trouble!)
sometimes he'll twitch for no reason,
it's just a twitch, and it's part of his style
when he's feeling sad and lonely
I saw a girl just the other day.
With a pink umbrella in the pouring rain.
Make up running all down her face.
Tears in the rain are such a waste.
She said; "The world is over"
I can't believe its true.
How can it all be over when I am not over you?
They say it's over. What am I gonna do?
I'm not ready to get over you.
Staring at the ceiling, laying in bed.
Heard it on the radio, the D.J. said.
"Stars are falling from the sky."
Well don't get stardust in your eye!
He said; "The world is over".
I can't believe it's true.
How can it all be over when I am not over you?
I know the world is ending.
I'm telling you it's true.
There ain't no use pretending,
I'll ever get over you.
I saw a girl just the other day.
With a pink umbrella in the pouring rain.
Make up running all down her face.
Tears in the rain are such a waste.
She said; "The world is over"
I can't believe its true.
my mind's an ashtray full of ashes
lick the tears from my eyelashes
oh, whatever will i see that's good
he plays a really mean guitar
she smokes a really big cigar.
i'd love to love ya - if only i could
her love is, oh so, shiny wet -
keeps a bald peacock for a pet.
can you ever understand how i feel?
miss jenifa - my private dancer.
miss nina - to whom i answer.
kari sez we're the only ones who are real.
so, when i dream on sunday mornin'
and my lover right beside me keeps on snorin'
i wonder if my dog's in heaven,
and i wonder when i'll see her again.
psychopharmacology
has never found a friend in me,
but i'll eat sugar cubes all day and night.
those ducklings are never ugly
so, she sells herself by the sea.
i'll bake her a cake - be it wrong or right.
the caterpillar and the spider -
turn the screws a little tighter.
can you ever understand my feel?
gail g. - my inspiration,
miss denise should run the nation.
isabel tortures me with sex appeal:
so, when i dream on sunday mornin'
and my lover right beside me keeps on snorin'
i wonder if my dog's in heaven,
and i wonder when i'll see her again.
(yer really takin' me fer a ride
yer a wise guy, anyway:
I like babytalking, popcorn without butter,
and anybody who will pay attention
to these requirements.
I'm an optimistic beauty. Never impolite.
Easy like Saturday, mid-day.
Breezy, chilled-out, dumb girl.
Thats life with me. I know.
Around and around you will go.
But, if I french kiss you
in the broad daylight,
you'll fall in love..oh,oh,oh.
That's life with me. I know.
Well I am pretending to be a free-bouncing lover.
I wear my defensive mask of optimism like a badge.
And ultimately. I am much to lazy to change.
I'm rather conditioned to my life of melodrama.
That's life with me. Thats how it will be, my friend.
A roller coaster ride you won't forget.
I am just a mess. I am just a mess, at best.
Spaceman, oh spaceman!
Come rescue me from this!
Calling all aliens!
Come rescue me!
I see your face on television, almost every day
In magazines and on the big screen
Close yet far away
Remember that night at my window
When I waved at you?
I must have been only five, or so,
But I never forgot you.
I wonder why you choose those others
And you never come to call on me.
When I'm the one who's waiting for you
I really need you - please pick me!
Spaceman, oh spaceman!
Come rescue me from this!
Calling all aliens!
Come rescue me!
Remember that night at my window
When I waved at you?
I must have been only five, or so,
But I never forgot you.
I wonder why you choose those others
And you never come to call on me
When I'm the one who's waiting for you
I really need you - please pick me!
Spaceman, oh spaceman!
Come rescue me from this!
Calling all aliens!
Come rescue me!
Spaceman, oh spaceman!
Come rescue me from this!
Calling all aliens!
i picked you up on a gray day - the new jersey turnpike
i'll give you lots of yummy candy if ya like
sophia, your hair is like silk.
sophia, your skin is like milk.
that truck stop, baby, everybody loved you.
i held you close, you were mine - everyone knew.
sophia, "el perro" in madrid.
sophia, the one i love es usted (in this van)
me and sophia driving all week,
giggling and wiggling our feet.
gotta make time so we cannot stop.
wearing just panties 'cause it's too hot.
rolling fast through every hick town.
when you pant at me, sophia, i know what you're thinking.
it feels so hot, i'll bet you'd rather be drinking.
sophia, just hold on forty miles.
sophia, i live for all your smiles (in this van)
me and sophia driving all week,
giggling and wiggling our feet.
gotta make time so we cannot stop.
wearing just panties 'cause it's too hot.
rolling fast through every hick town.
Suck my mouth.
Suck my pain away.
Helplessness,
I am hard to stain.
Potentially inappropriate...
I am naked,
before you.
Look at me.
You came for me.
I pray to you.
You are in me...
You are my religion.
You are my religion.
I'm loving you.
You're loving me.
You are my religion.
You are my religion.
I'm touching you.
You're touching me...
Intoxicated with your breath.
My eyes close,
I am a mess.
Starving and cold and I need your love...
You keep me real.
You lift me up.
Prayer soft,
I am in love.
Devotee of your immortal love.
Brutal truth.
It is profound.
Can you hear the sound,
of my breath?
You are my religion.
You are my religion.
I'm loving you.
You're loving me.
You are my religion.
You are my religion.
I'm touching you.
Let me tell ya about the kinda guys that like me:
They're in jail.
Either that, or they are slumming...
or walking on the wild side.
I guess you could say I'm just like Jody Watley,
"Looking for a new love."
I don't think I'm asking for much in a boyfriend...
Here's what I want:
I'm just looking for
a four-eyes-really-square regular guy,
just like you.
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
I'm just looking for
a four-eyes-really-square regular guy,
just like you.
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
Please, be you! c'mon...
Let me tell ya about the kina guy I look for:
Ticklish.
And, he likes cherry popsicles.
He likes sno-cones.
He rides BMX.
I want a boy who can lie in bed all day with me,
holding hands.
I don't think I'm asking for much in a boyfriend.
Here's what I want:
I'm just looking for
a four-eyes-really-square regular guy,
just like you.
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
I'm just looking for
a four-eyes-really-square regular guy,
just like you.
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
Wouldn't it be cool?
Couldn't it be you?
my mind's wandering
i savor the passion that your torture brings
my breath's quickening
inhaling the perfume of my sweet sin
i dance on your grave
i pray i am the one that you choose to save
my fingers quiver
dry mouth silkening my boy you are drinking from my river.
it's just a little love song
just to tell you that
i'm coming over you, darling
just a little love song
just to ask you what you want me to do to you:
my mouth is aware
kisses harden with my fresh despair
my sick wonderment
in love with you and your cruel torment
petals of my rose
wetten within as my pulse, it slows
my head, it pounds
my boy, my ache,
i can't wait for you to watch me writhe around:
it's just a little love song
just to tell you that
i'm coming over you, darling
it's just a little love song
If I fall outa my nest
Will you pick me up? Will you help me fly?
If I fall outa my nest,
Will you show me love?
If I'm in over my head
Will you pick me up? Will you help me out?
If I'm in over my head
Will you show me love?
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
I need your love
To get me through this time
Lonely October song
I am a bleeding heart
Lonely October song
Help me, I'm falling apart
I can't seem to find anyone
Who hasn't fallen, fallen down
I can't seem to find anyone
Unlike a crispy leaf on the ground
There are leaves all around
If I'm blind and lose my way
Will you walk with me? Will you help me see?
If I'm blind and lose my way
Will you show me love?
If I'm incarcerated
Will you bust me out? Will you set me free?
If I'm incarcerated
Will you show me love?
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
I need your love
To get me through this time
Lonely October song
I am a bleeding heart
Lonely October song
Help me, I'm falling apart
I can't seem to find anyone
Who hasn't fallen, fallen down
I can't seem to find anyone
Unlike a crispy leaf on the ground
There are leaves all around
If I fall outa my nest
An' if I'm in over my head
If I'm blind and lose my way
If I'm incarcerated
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
It's cold, baby
I can't seem to find anyone
Who hasn't fallen, fallen down
I can't seem to find anyone
Unlike a crispy leaf on the ground
There are leaves all around
I can't seem to find anyone
Who hasn't fallen, fallen down
I can't seem to find anyone
Unlike a crispy leaf on the ground
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
Spoken word... have ya heard?
What's it all mean? what does it really mean?
What is it? what exactly is it... is it poetry? is it prose?
What is it... rants and raves?
Some people want you to be... political.
And they want you to be pissssed offff...
They don't want you to try and be... honest.
GOD FORBID you try to be funny.
So, there's nothing more i can say, except that... right now...
Wherever you are... listening to this... i can guarantee you...
I’m I’m losing my world
Cause you're leaving and I’m dying without you
So now I am nothing to you
So fuck you too
Now you tell me that you’d rather be with him
But you promised yeah you promised you’d be mine
I, no I, I won’t cry
I, no I, I won’t cry
You tear me apart but you won’t break my heart
Cause you took it yeah you took it with my soul
So now I am nothing to you
So fuck you too
I’m I’m out of my mind
Cause you bruise me and abuse me all the time
I know I am nothing to you
So fuck you too
Will he hold you like I hold you in the night
Can he tell you that he loves you when you're mine
I, no I, I won’t cry
No I, no I, I won’t cry
You tear me apart but you won't break my heart
Cause you took it, yeah you took it with my soul
So now I am nothing to you
So fuck you too
I’m I’m losing my world
Cause you're leaving and I’m dying without you
Hey! Whats your name? Hey! Where ya from?
Hey! Where have you been all my life?
You look like a red hot lover.
Do I look like your future wife?
Yeah! Cause I wanna wanna!
Baby, do you wanna wanna?
Cause I want you!
Hey! Whats the the time? Hey where yea headed?
Do you want some company?
You look like someone who is all messed up.
You left me like a broken doll
In pieces as I took the fall
For you, you dumb chump
You left me free-falling
Like space junk, burning up
In the atmosphere of life
Well, I sound like a philosopher
But I'm a fool who's off her rocker
'Cause I let you in my heart
That one last time
I've had enough
Made up my mind
I'm gonna get up
And out and wahh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay, uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever
Well, look at you
You're all puffed up
In that big red truck
But you're outta luck this time
Well, that's tough
'Cause I'm on fire
Too hot to touch with a chatroom
Full of lovers on the line
Gonna step right up
Spit shine my soul
I'm gonna be proud
And loud and outta control
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay, uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever
I'm looking in the mirror
And I like what I see
I've lost the fear and the horror
That's been eating at me
'Cause being with you
Was like a hangman's noose
I was living my life
In dead man's shoes
I've had enough
Made up my mind
I'm gonna get up
And out and wahh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay, uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
Hey, hey, hey
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
You're dead and gone
I'm gonna get my way, uh huh
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
Take another look at me now
'Cause it's your last look
Your last look forever
I love myself today
I love myself today
I love myself today
I love myself today
I love myself today
I love myself today
I love myself today
Today, today, today, today
Baby, I'm angry.
Baby, I'm scared.
We're living in a dark time.
And nobody cares.
Baby, I'm tired.
Life isn't fair.
You are the only one,
who will always be there.
Hold on, to me.
Say you'll always love me.
Tell me anything, you want.
Hold on, baby.
Say you'll never leave me.
Promise that you will hold on.
Baby, I'm sorry.
I don't mean to cry.
But, I never needed you more,
than I need you tonight.
Hold on, to me.
Say you'll always love me.
Tell me anything, you want.
Hold on, baby.
Say you'll never leave me.
Promise that you will hold on.
I'm a small honeybee.
I drown in the water.
You are my hand in the well, weeelll...
Hold on, to me.
Say you'll always love me.
Tell me anything, you want.
Hold on, baby.
Say you'll never leave me.
my mother gave me one more reason
not to call you on the phone.
she told me, "chase girls like that
all yer life and you'll wind up alone."
i guess i would just like to take you
out for a cappuccino,
you refuse my advances once again,
i can't hear one more "no!"
i wish you would get over him,
i'll change yer mind about everything.
when i wink at you, you always
turn the other cheek,
i drilled a hole in the girls' showers
so that at you i could peek,
i'd love to get you naked and throw you
in the back of my dad's car,
i hear that if i get to third base with you,
it won't be too far!
i wish you would get over him,
i'll change yer mind about everything!
as i grow older i feel better
about me and myself,
i swear i never, ever once wished
i was anybody else.
i'd like to tell you i think you should
come up and see me sometime,
i know that i could possibly make it
the best time of yer life!
i wish you would get over him!
Something I've been wanting to say to you.
Are you sitting down?
Pretty soon, there will be a day,
when I won't be around.
I'm not trying to scare you
or play with your sympathy.
Just want to remind you
that life is a symphony.
Everyday, live it like it's your last one.
Ever kiss, kiss it like it's your first love.
If i had one wish; then I would wish
that you would live today like
Everyday, Everyday is your last one.
People always rushing around,
wasting time on money.
Don't be just a face in the crowd.
Getting high and running from something.
I'm not trying to tell you what to do.
In the end, it's up to you.
Dip your feet into the ocean.
Let the sun beat on your skin.
Soak in every emotion,
that you never thought you'd live.
And never take for granted,
every breath you're breathing in.
For you I'm a good for nothing woman:
Red lips, red leaves.
Fall on my knees like autumn.
I miss cigarettes every single day of my life.
When you make love to me,
I close my eyes and pray you'll say "goodbye".
Damn! She's dawning on me!
Finally dawning on me.
She's dawning on me, she's beautiful!
It's not that you don't know what love means,
it's just that you do not love me...
Cold wind whispering in my lonely ear,
telling me that heartbreak is drawing near.
You so hungry, baby, you'll eat anything on your plate.
Guess you don't go home no more,
cause you got a secret date.
You gotta hit me on the head a few times.
So blind with wishes, I can't see past your smiliness.
I miss Nick-o-liss every single day of my life.
Gimme back all my DOA records, or I'll show you right!
Damn! She's dawning on me!
Finally dawning on me.
She's dawning on me, she's beautiful!
It's not that you don't know what love means,
i was just outa high school in my first band:
i married my drummer. our love was grand.
i thought it was forever - 'til death do us part.
then he cheated on me and he broke my heart.
so young, so confused. what was i to do?
i'm so sorry, chotee, but i couldn't keep you.
i hope you can forgive me:
my baby, chotee, forgive me:
me and him were fighting on the road for two years.
he never loved me anyway. still brings me to tears.
he didn't really want you - 'cause he didn't want me.
didn't wanna be a husband, didn't wanna be a daddy.
i hope you can forgive me:
my baby chotee, forgive me:
so long, my baby.
[pointing to her dog] este es senor nick.
Sucking on a sucker
running down the alley
away from worthlessness.
It's dusk.
The lovely, pink sky eggs me on.
Thinking of you,
I roll this candy on my tongue.
I throw a rock in the air,
but it doesn't go anywhere.
(like my spinning wheels)
Reminiscent of this sugar lump,
it seems to be lodged in the centre of my throat.
Choking on the truth.
I thought it was my candy,
but I'm choking on the truth.
Discreetly I try to cough it out,
try to scream and shout.
Everchanging flights of ideas,
my life is surely
flashing right before my eyes.
You have a way. You startle me.
I laugh. I face reality.
This is a pill of strong will
and, as you intended,
so hard to swallow.
Choking on the truth.
I thought it was my candy,
but I'm choking on the truth.
I am honesty, and this is hard.
You were everything I ever want.
Your memory is sweet candy,
the flavors fading away...
Sucking on a sucker
running down the alley.
Running over all the things I could have done differently.
You were mean to me.
I didn't mean to be so real
and pure
and simple
and honest
and you make me sad.
You make me mad.
You're making me choke!
Choking on the truth.
I thought it was my candy,
but I'm choking on the truth.
Choking on the truth.
I thought it was my candy,
I want you to know I needed time to rest.
And, I must confess to you.
I am hardest on myself.
All I ever wanted was to try to do my best.
And I want tell the truth now.
I am unwell.
After awhile, I just lay down.
After awhile, my chin ain't up.
Bare-knuckle fighter in the third round.
After awhile, it's all bad luck.
Save me. Save me from myself.
Drowning in the wishing well.
I will try to rise above.
I am never good enough.
I want you to know that I needed time alone.
Don't you try to tell me that you really didn't know.
All I ever wanted was to never leave this bed.
And I want to tell the truth - my smile is just pretend.
After awhile, I got sleepy.
After awhile, safety lasted.
After awhile, disenchanted.
After awhile, I just fasted.
After awhile, I just lay down.
After awhile, my chin ain't up.
Bare-knuckle fighter in the third round.
After awhile, it's all bad luck.
Well you packed me away in the trunk of your car.
You drove me so fast and so far.
I tried to fight but its so hard.
The only momento is this scar.
Where were you when i needed you?
Somethings missing, and I can't breathe.
Where were you? Where were you?
Somethings missing.
You abandoned me.
Oh when you look deep into my mind.
That is so tired and weak from this life.
On the verge of fear all the time.
I feel like you left me here to die.
Shaking in my boots, you shook me down.
You really took me down.
Shaking my foundation, not to be found.
Never to be found.
Where were you? Where were you?
You abandoned me.
You abandoned me.
Our love was volatile and weird.
All I thought as I hopped the Grayhound was,
"Get me the fuck outa here."
I ran...
I ran away from you.
Packed my tears and all my fears.
I had nothing better to do.
Mommy,
Mommy, I know you know the truth.
I'm sorry that you're heartbroken.
Now, all I am is missing you.
And, when I left
I dropped a trail of candy hearts,
hoping you would wait for me...
I just want, to come home tonight.
This is the story of my life.
One week,
shouldn't have even been one day.
I am calling from a payphone,
twenty three hundred miles away.
Bad things I can not even say.
If not for the kindess of strangers,
I would not be alive today.
Mommy,
Mommy, I know you know the truth.
I'm sorry that you're heartbroken.
Now, all I am is missing you.
And, when I left
I dropped a trail of candy hearts,
hoping you would search for me...
I just want, to come home tonight.
you live so far away from me,
fate brought you into my world,
and then one night
your eyes were burning through my soul,
now i can't go home anymore...
that night you lay there beside me,
you whispered softly in my ear,
you said that you would always love and wait for me,
now i can't go home anymore...
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline...
in this life we will never find
another love like yours and mine
is there a way that i can show you how i feel?
words aren't on enough anymore...
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline...
remember talking on the phone?
you were half a world away...
you promised we would marry,
and i would be your bride.
please don't go back on your word...
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline,
send me a lifeline,
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
i want you - nothing you can do,
i'm a vampire!
watch me do my dance for you,
i want you - nothing you can do,
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
come to my world, child of the night,
come out of your darkness and into my light,
looking for you all of your life,
don't be afraid - it'll be all right...
god grant you serenity,
you bring out the best in me,
let my love take you higher,
guess what... i'm a vampire!
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
i want you - nothing you can do,
i'm a vampire!
watch me do my dance for you,
i want you - nothing you can do,
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
in your head you always hear me
close your eyes - i'm all that you see,
for lust, for life, my intimate fire,
nightly dances, dance in desire...
god grant you serenity,
you bring out the best in me,
let my love take you higher,
guess what... i'm a vampire!
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
i want you - nothing you can do,
i'm a vampire!
watch me do my dance for you,
i want you - nothing you can do,
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
(let's be together... don't be afraid... you called me... i was what you wished for...
you held me here beside you... i was what you wished for... i came for you... i came
for you... i was what you wished for... you taste like honeydew... be careful what you
wish for... i wished for you your whole life... be careful what you wish for... let me
be you tonight... tonight...)
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
i'm a vampire!
i want you - nothing you can do,
i'm a vampire!
watch me do my dance for you,
i want you - nothing you can do,
baby get ready - i'm coming for you,
Busted! And I can't believe I trusted, implicitly.
And I lusted for reality.
I got rusted anxiety.
Come on. You can tell me.
Stop yanking my chain.
I know you are hiding everything.
Do you know what I mean?
Do you know what I know?
Yeah you better believe it.
Do you see what I see?
Do you understand me?
Baby, are you feeling me?
Tell me. How do you sleep?
In your bed of true deceit.
Are you hungry?
Hungry for me?
he keeps looking at me with his groping, watching eyeballs:
gross! we women, we are supposed to just drop our eyes and be quiet.
just don't look at the gross, gross man and hope he quits ogling.
believe it or not, i want to flip him the bird ya know?
but i don't, cuz we women don't. once i gave the finger to a bunch of
construction dudes, but they were yelling really bad stuff about my "cookie."
it just got 'em all riled up, and then they yelled, "dyke!"
and i had pms so i cried all the way home.
gross, gross man still gawking as i sit here writing... what's he thinking?
gee, maybe i'll invite him up to my sex den and he can fondle my boobies...
yeah, right!
stupid gross man, quit staring! gosh, he just won't let up.
it makes me feel really uncomfortable i wish i could just crawl under a rock!
'cuz we women are supposed to just feel bad about ourselves:
like we're doing something wrong. i'm not! i swear!
it seemed like days had passed...
are you finished?
i could no longer
move my arms.
the only thing left in the room
was the silence:
can you still hear the breaking glass
when it hit my face?
even the mice were laughing
at the smell of pain,
here we go again
to the depths of no return:
please remember: i know who you are.
someday, i'll have the strength to tell.
as the man looked over me
with his inquiries,
i swore you never did it.
i licked the sweat from my palms.
alone am i with your face burned in my mind
you are the one (the fucker) who deserves to die
it should have never been me.
please remember: i know who you are.
someday, i'll have the strength to tell.
i pray for you as a little boy.
what must have happened to make you so cruel?
(and i pray that you rot in hell)
please remember: i know who you are.
someday, i'll have the strength to tell
When we're together,
I am alone.
Dawdle down the street, shuffle my feet,
Don't wanna go home.
There's an antique store.
I go inside.
All I got on me,
Is only twenty bucks and my pride.
(That's when I see them!)
My new tango shoes,
They are my treasure! They are so cool!
My new tango shoes,
They are my ticket! My tools!
My new tango shoes,
Are gonna help me dance away the blues!
My new tango shoes!
Like Cinderella, I am transformed.
Suddenly I'm taller
You're smaller
I am reborn!
With new courage,
I go downtown.
To find you sitting at our table,
Girls all around.
(and they see my...)
My new tango shoes,
They are my treasure! They are so cool!
My new tango shoes,
They are my ticket! My tools!
My new tango shoes,
Are gonna help me dance away the blues!
My new tango shoes!
...see my sexy metamorphosis
Right before your angry eyes...
I stick a red rose in between my lips,
Turn on my heel,
Dance out of your life!
You told me you love me.
That was untrue.
Now that we're over,
This dance is for you.
TANGO!
My new tango shoes,
They are my treasure! They are so cool!
My new tango shoes,
They are my ticket! My tools!
My new tango shoes,
Are gonna help me dance away the blues!
falling off of my own skateboard
praying to my almighty lord
look up and what do i see?
your face smiling down at me!
you look my body up and down
as i lay there upon the ground
i know, my love, i could not look much better:
succulent. you make me feel succulent.
yeah, ya do.
(if you're nice to me, i'll double you on my bmx)
i wonder if you think of me
if you are real or just a dream?
(now i'm drooling)
you make me such a juicy girl
i want to be your entire world,
my pigtails, they stand straight on end
baby, there's no need to pretend
won't you kiss my pink teddy bear?
i'll try not to cry when you spank me in the chair
i know, my love, you could not find much better:
succulent. you make me feel succulent.
yeah, ya do.
in my dreams you were driving the getaway car,
for you to love me every night i wish upon a star.
hard and shiny like a baby cockroach shell
to pay her off my medication i had to sell
like a little ripe tomato:
in your hands i'm mush, like playdoh
i wish i was a snow cone
lick me, lick me. have i set the tone?
i feel like i'm back in grade seven
learned how to kiss i am in heaven
let me show you how to kiss me better:
(a little lower, thanx!)
succulent. you make me feel succulent.
my love's an ice-cold latte
and it's running down yer shirt.
you took my little heart
and then ya threw it in the dirt!
i won't go near yer locker
and i cannot wash my hair.
i can't believe you betrayed me
and filled me with despair!!
i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me.
i am only the girl who was in love with you
but, now you lied!
i have developed frog-eyes
from crying all the time.
i won't go out and skate with my friends,
i'll only stay inside.
you ran around, behind my back
with a pretty, blue-eyed girl.
i am so sick of missing you -
i think i'm gonna hurl!!
i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me.
i am only the girl who was in love with you.
but, now you lied!
i can't believe you lied to me:
i can't believe you!
(i am only the girl who was in love with you)
i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me
i am only the girl who was in love with you
but, now you lied to me...
[sportin' the "x"s on her hands] self-discipline requires doing
what is necessary, when it should be done,
whether it iz a pleasant task or not. a straight-edge lifestyle is personal choice.
if my coffee consumption ain't straight-edge enough for you:
then **** me with a double, skim cappuccino!
um: hellooooo!! get a ******* hold of yourself!!
no complaining!! are you starving?
no? then let's have a little perspective, shall we. see a therapist.
switch to decaf. lay off the pills.
try some stretching.
take five.
have a time out.
write it down.
make a painting.
have a hot bath.
quit hanging onto past hurts.
forgive all to get over all and get on with it!
puh-leeeze! develop some humor.
laugh it off.
yuk it up.
don't be mean.
karma is instant.
there is no coincidence.
live today. try - ok?
lying in your hotel bed you cry
for the years that were wasted
and time gone by
darling girl can you not see
your soul is bright
i wish you could know
it's all gonna be all right:
a little determination and a little more pride
a little determination will ease your pain inside.
let me tell you
that you're never alone
yeah, yeah:
red wine stains your lips and mind
clouding memories from which
you always hide
little girl when will you learn
to shake it off
try to smile or the pain surely will not stop..
a little determination and a little more pride
a little determination will ease your pain inside.
let me tell you
that you're never alone
yeah, yeah:
a sadness fuels your contemplation
you must remember that your life's
only just begun
know you're in the eye of
the hurricane
a safe place only because there
it doesn't rain:
a little determination and a little more pride
a little determination will ease your pain inside.
let me tell you
that you're never alone
i don't wanna wait forever
but you know i would
you'd better hope i don't say "now or never"
'cause you know i could.
my whole life i'm searchin' for
someone like you
to take me gently by the hand
and show me what to do.
my whole life,
it's not over
it's my whole life...
if you're gonna say you love me
then, i love you, too
i don't wanna hear you tell me "shut up again"
yeah, i heard you.
my whole life is flashing
right before my eyes
no more fabricated hellos
and no more sad goodbyes:
my whole life,
it's not over
the last time i fell in love
she had red, red, hair and a ring in her lip
she called me "jellybean" while playing basketball
it was so divine... but never like this!
and you are my entity
you are my dream
yeah you're my dream:
lazy saturday like a kitten
in the sunshine warm as arkansas
i was your tires with rose water
after the mud bog i bathe you in my love
you are my entity
you are my dream
you are my dream...
remember the first time i met you
and i spilled apple juice all over you
and you were all wet and sticky
and i took you and i rolled you through the forest
through the mud and leaves and tied you to a tree
and you liked it
next time i met you i sat on you and rolled and rolled and rolled
back to the forest in the mud in the leaves
and i tied you to that same tree
and you liked it in my dream
you are my entity
you are my dream
you are my entity
you are my dream
you're my dream...
all i wanted was to be by myself,
(leave me alone)
all you did was hurt me
instead of help,
(leave me alone)
leave me alone!!
as i touch myself
my cold body,
(leave me alone)
you promised death would truly
set me free:
(leave me alone)
leave me alone!
i never thought in a million years
that you would hurt me,
now i pray to god every single day
that you'll desert me,
i never thought in a million years
that you would hurt me!
why don't you go away?!
stop the voices inside my brain,
(leave me alone)
the chatter is what finally drove me insane!
(leave me alone)
leave me alone!!
i never thought in a million years
that you would hurt me,
now i pray to god every single day
that you'll desert me!
i never thought in a million years
that you would hurt me:
It was a monday, when my lover told me,
"never pay the reaper with love only."
What could i say to you, except, "i love you."
And "i'd give my life for yours."
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.
The first time we made love, i... i wasn't sober.
(and you told me you loved me over and over!)
How could i ever love another, when i miss you every day...
Remember the time we made love in the roses?
(and you took my picture in all sorts of poses!)
How could i ever get over you, when i'd give my life for yours.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.
My dear, It's time to say i thank god for you.
I thank god for you in each and every single way.
And, i know... i know.. i know.. i know...
It's time to let you know. time to let you know.
Time to let you know. time to sit here and say...
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.
We are the lucky ones, dear...
Okay already... i'm here to tell you i'm having yet another shitty day.
I swear, sometimes my shitty days run into each other giving me a shitty weeks.
I think i'm in the middle of a shitty month... that's shitty!
My goddamn arm is totally fucked up.
I want to cut it off at the elbow.
I don't know what the fucking problem is! i mean, i'm a hygienic clean girl.
I smell good ya know... clean... squeaky!
Strawberry glycerin scented soap everyday, all over me everywhere, come here...
Smell me. taste me. good, hey?
Okay, you can stop now 'cuz you're making me feel uncomfortable.
I hardly know you.
Anyways, the point i'm making is i'm a well-bathed clean little girl, so then...
What the fuck is up with my arm?
It absolutely has devastated me.
It grosses me out.
It hurts like a bastard,
Opposed to when i was having it done and it hurt like a bitch.
In the bible it says you're not supposed to mutilate or decorate your body,
'cuz god will get really cheezed at you,
But that guy jesus died for are sins right?
So i figure when i get to heaven,
Right before i have a drink with bob karsnarik and andrew wood,
I'll get an appointment with god and explain to him,
"i could wear long sleeve shirts and no one would see them!"
I hope he goes for it.
I bet krishna and those dudes would let me hang out at their pad if god was too bummed at me.
Or i could just wait at the gates for my mom,
'cuz she'll outlive me, and then she could go talk to him about me,
Kinda like she did when i got suspended in grade
10 for smoking in the boys' washroom and she had to schmooze the principal.
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, yet another shitty day.
Sometimes i swear my shitty days run into each other,
Giving me a shitty weeks.
2:30 pm, i jumped off the welfare wagon
to meet you for lunch. you sit like a thai princess...
cold and captivating. you divulge your latest secret.
(so sinister - i cannot repeat)
from my eyes flows glacier water.
from my soul, sick obscenities.
i died eating french fries
in the restaurant on the corner,
where you broke me heart.
i cried 'cause i bit my tongue
knowing the truth would wash over you
like a rash.
annihilation of my self-respect and cash flow
before my eyes - right here in this booth.
through this blinding hatred i see a lady on my right.
she winked at me and said, "run for your life!"
from my eyes flows glacier water.
from my soul, sick obscenities.
i died eating french fries
in the restaurant on the corner,
where you broke me heart.
i cried 'cause i bit my tongue
knowing the truth would wash over you
like a rash.
i hereby use my glacier water
to wash away the remorse and the stain.
behind these eyes i'm my mother's daughter.
hard, hidden shame:
I failed you, Henry I failed you good.
I was forgotten, and I understood.
But time, it stood still when you walked in.
I'm too proud to inquire as to where you've been.
Please don't take this the wrong way.
You're truly lovely, baby.
But the welcome matt, it ain't out.
My baby and I, will be just fine.
So be a man and just turn around.
And get along Henry.
Be a good boy Henry.
This is your song, Henry.
I guess this is goodbye.
I love you, Henry. Yeah I love you still.
I love your kisses. And I always will.
But I do not need you to raise this child.
Boy, I wanna get you alone
I wanna cover you in chocolate, and turn off the phone
Damn, I think I'm losing my mind
What's been coming over me?
I wanna be like Pamela Lee
So you go get the camera and I'll say, "Cheese"
Baby you'll be rocking my world
At the funeral of a good girl
Well, maybe I'm going crazy, but
You be the kid and I'll be the candy store
Take me down, baby and
Do it to me now, do it to me now
I can't believe, I just said it out loud
You make me wanna scream
And throw you to the ground
Do it, do it to me now
Make me be a bad little girl
I don't want your diamonds
Just a necklace of pearls
So come on, put your lips on mine
Well maybe I'm going crazy, but
You're the kid and I feel like the candy store
Take me down, baby and
Do it to me now, do it to me now
I can't believe, I just said it out loud
You make me wanna scream
And throw you to the ground
Do it, do it to me now
Baby, I've never been so easy
But you're in luck, boy
Something about you makes me wanna
Do it to me now, do it to me now
I can't believe, I just said it out loud
You make me wanna scream
And throw you to the ground
Do it, do it to me now, yeah
Do it to me now
I can't believe, I just said it out loud
You make me wanna scream
And throw you to the ground
my mama followed her lover to india
the mongoose and the roti walla on your front porch
tear me from a growling tiger's mouth
from then on i'm in love:
don't ask me how i am today
don't wanna talk about it
don't ask what the matter is
today's the big day
daddy's getting married
mama wipe yer tears away
my daddy's getting married
i don't know what to say
my daddy's getting married
today's the big day
my daddy's getting married
mama wipe yer tears away:
nice mommy and daddy tell me to drink my milk
don't draw moustaches on my sister's barbies
sit on the potty till you go little girl
i learned to smoke cigarettes in kentucky, y'all:
don't ask me how i am today
don't wanna talk about it
don't ask what the matter is
today's the big day:
daddy's getting married
mama wipe yer tears away
my daddy's getting married
i don't know what to say
my daddy's getting married
today's the big day
my daddy's getting married
mama wipe yer tears away:
never really felt weird or anything
things like this happen even to me
wedding cake rotting in the graveyard
drowning dream like puppies in the sea:
today is the big day
my daddy's getting married
mama wipe yer tears away
my daddy's getting married
today is the big day
my daddy's getting married
You're a goddamn factory hot rod
Everything about you is premeditated
You're really loud and you're really fast
You're hung soo proud but...will ya last?
You think when they made you they broke the mold
You're like everybody else you gotta be told
I know that you'll never realize
That your unnecessary vanity is your demise
You are a goddamn factory hot rod
Everything about you is premeditated
You're so pretty you look like a girl!
You think you own the whole wide world
You could never own me, slick motha fucka
You're a stupid shit to think nobody can touch ya!
You are a goddamn factory hot rod
Everything about you is premeditated
You're really dumb and you're really fat
I guess no one ever really told you that!
I know in this town you think you're a rock star
Go to New York my friend you'll never get far
I know you'll never realize
There's been a murder
In my kitchen
I hit him hard
I hit him fast
I watched him die
And for the life of me
I'm still missing
A good excuse
Explanation
A reason why
Don't you cry for me
In the penitentiary
I did the crime
I'll do my time
And I'll be here
For another 40 years
Haunted by the buzz
Stupid honeybee
Although it hurt me
I still know better
I'm a killer
It's a fact
I can't deny
And when the deputy
Came a-looking
He took me down
I did confess
I did not lie
Don't you cry for me
In the penitentiary
I did the crime
I'll do my time
And I'll be here
For another 40 years
Haunted by the buzz
Stupid honeybee
Oh honeybee
Have mercy on me
On my knees I beg
Honeybee
You're torturing me
This must be that honeybee's revenge
Let's go!
Don't you cry for me
In the penitentiary
I did the crime
I'll do my time
And I'll be here
For another 40 years
Haunted by the buzz
All you ever do is complain
Some trivial event has you in agony again
Why stay so full of frustration
When all you need to do is change your situation
All you ever is whine
Don't tell it to me
You're wasting my time
How can you expect me to help?
When you cant even be bothered to help yourself
All you ever do is whimper
Change your mind theres nothing simpler
Why you just sit there I don't understand
You idiot your life's in your own hands!
All you ever do is bitch
You think you're the only one?...with an itch?
To get out of you're crazy life
That stabs your back like a knife
All you ever do is freak
About the small things, man your weak!
You've got to stop, your fuckin' moping
Stop sitting around your whole life...hoping
All you ever do is complain
Some trivial event has you in agony again
Why stay so full of frustration?
Satan shows up on tv, every sunday morning
I would've kissed her once again, but I found her rather boring
To listen to his messages, is like licking razor blades
Seems everytime I play my hands, shit's coming up in spades
My clothing's nothing but miss-matched,
As you can see, I broke my arm
The fucker swore to take care of me, but he only brought me harm
The blueberries on my toast, are red, and stale, and rotten
You ask me what all their names were, it's guaranteed, I've forgotten
If only she can anticipate, the damage that's begun,
I would've caught the flight with her, but I'm too tired to run
When you find my naked body, please, do heed my warning,
Last summer in Italy during the festival tour,
Another band asked a Milanese journalist what I was like,
Uhh unbenounced to them a ear shot of my crew,
He says oh you know an angry white female,
What a cop out, what a lazy answer,
Strangely when I was around any of these press dudes,
I was in a very good mood, being a ham a comic, what gives?
No one who has not been in my bed
Laming out with uhh premature ejaculation,
Or cheaters has ever seen me angry.
Ask my last fiancée why I put a knife to his throat,
That was anger. You people haven't seen it.
You think this is anger?
This is mild annoyance, and even if
I was angry right this very minute,
So what! I should be, and so should you.
Look around you the world is thurally fucked,
Seriously look around you.
A six foot tall anorexic bimbo with plastic breast
Is making me feel weird about my own body.
What's up with that seriously,
Where not completely stupid are we?
I know this sounds like some bitchy rant,
But I really feel we got to address this,
I believe in healthy mind healthy body,
I believe in fitness and wholesome food,
I believe in make-up for those who chose.
I understand essentially body shape is fashion and
Trend of the era and trend of the region.
I understand Marilyn Monroe was size 16 dress and
No one can deny May Wess was full of sex appeal.
Back then the skinny gurls were kind of rackety,
And not vilumptious enough,
I mean logistically we know all this but
In are materialistic shallow modern day society,
Weh, well I, I, use to think,
It was an intelligence quotient kinda thing,
Seriously or a maturity issue,
Is it truly personal preference?
Personal priority or is it a heard of cows thing,
Ya know, like were all stupid,
Shallow conformists with a low enough IQ
To accept of being shown and
Told the standard of beauty and blindly following.
There is a lack of individualism and spirituality,
An a devote of Kristnia were mascara?
Can a Buddhist stain their lips?
It would not matter at all, would it?
What insecure egomaniacs we all are.
What is truly important in life?
Health? Happiness?
Maybe not even happiness, certainly not beauty.
And then on top of all of this
There is main-stream media,
And the entertainment industry
Face down, I woke up on the floor, again.
Spit it out-- the words I'll never say again.
How can one create the mess I'm in?
Easy. Happily invite it in.
I feel the sky is closing in.
My chest-- it hurts. I can not breathe.
It's blinding me. I can not see.
You make me... You make me sick.
You make me... You make me sick.
(I think I'm getting better)
Explode! Hand grenade without a pin.
Broken, you're better than you've ever been.
Just think: I'm nothing, and I never win,
because you're part of me, my only friend.
You make me... You make me... You make me sick.
You make me... You make me... You make me sick.
I feel the sky is closing in.
My chest-- it hurts. I can not breathe.
It's blinding me. I can not see.
You make me... You make me sick.
You make me... You make me sick.
(I think I'm getting better)
Ask yourself if you an asshole,
I'm not being mean or angry
I'm simply asking a question.
I guarantee you won't think so.
Do you do enough for others?
Do you give of yourself?
Are you selfless?
Each day when you wake up do you smile and
Stretch and meet the day?
Yeah right!
Do you whine about your job?
Your friends?
About money?
Do you want a new skater board?
A new car? A new life?
Are you a gossip?
Do you talk about your neighbor?
Do you talk about people you don't know?
And speak negatively?
It must be exhausting for you!
Poor you with your apartment and
Your Levi's and
Your x still phoning
and
Your bank line ups and Nikes!
Poor you had to pick up that check at that restaurant,
Poor you and that grocery shopping,
Poor you and your good health,
Poor you
.and your place to live,
I started with something you said
It threw a curveball at my head
Then came the ringing in my ears
I filled the bathtub with my tears
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
I won't be mourning the loss
Not going to bear it like a cross
Don't worry about me dear
Thankyou I'll manage it from here
I can be a big girl
And take it all in stride
Swallowing my pride
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
If what they tell me is true
I should be waking up brand new
And see the sun up in the sky
I guess it must have been my time
To kiss my innocence goodbye
Because my innocence just died
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
all right this is my poem it's called eine tasse tea
are you ready? all right!
one of my dogs ate the feces of a homeless man on the way to the vet
of course it was anna 'cuz nikolas doesn't eat anything with sauce
i had to try to pull the offending matter out of her mouth with my bare hands
we stunk!
i wonder what the nutrition counter would list this meal as...
it made me think
my anti-malaria medication drove me to question my sanity
i hallucinated
i saw the bright red grip tape on my old skateboard
as a moving mass of demarara(?) sugar
my judgment seems impaired
things irritate me
people are mean
they drive too fast
they talk too fast
people carry anger around like one of those fashionable backpacks
but they're all actors
in public they behave certain... ways
you know at dinner with their friends out at popular bars and grilles
they chat and laugh
they call girls who look like me "elvira"
they call girls who look like me "morticia"
whatever
nice and happy life
nice weekend warrior weekend rollerblader suv decaf see a movie life
nice implants
good luck with your health
nice dairy
good luck with your health
nice bulimia
good luck with your health
nice anti-depressant action
good luck with your health
nice speeding
good luck with your health
everyone thinks they've got problems
wanna know a problem?
over one billion people in the world have no access,
that's no access, to safe drinking water.
and you're upset 'cuz you can't get those new dc's.
wanna know a problem?
the mobile phone.
we're all gonna die of brain cancer
wanna know a problem?
jeering hooting men with rohypnol in their back pocket
you already know at least five females who have been raped,
and you don't even know it
wanna know a problem?
the threat of nuclear war in india and pakistan
it could all be over, overnight
wanna know a problem?
the homeless
which brings me back to the shit breath of my bichon-frise
the shit shouldn't be there in the first place
because whoever had to go had NO place to go
that's fucked!
we are a complacent apathetic society
we are jackasses
we are all squirrels hoarding for ourselves
we need to say something and not care if it's been said before
we need to be responsible for our actions
we need to be more helpful
we need to be more thoughtful
i need to practice compassion who are the fuckwads
of the purveyors of violence
i need to relax
i need to exhale
i need to meditate
my mind is racing
my mind is a chattering monkey
nikolas's mind is on fire with paranoia
annastasia has shit for brains
after all, you are what you eat
i could use a cup of chai
nikolas thinks he's gandhi
he's on a hunger strike
the last time i fell in love
she had red, red, hair and a ring in her lip
she called me "jellybean" while playing basketball
it was so divine... but never like this!
and you are my entity
you are my dream
yeah you're my dream...
lazy saturday like a kitten
in the sunshine warm as arkansas
i was your tires with rose water
after the mud bog i bathe you in my love
you are my entity
you are my dream
you are my dream...
remember the first time i met you
and i spilled apple juice all over you
and you were all wet and sticky
and i took you and i rolled you through the forest
through the mud and leaves and tied you to a tree
and you liked it
next time i met you i sat on you and rolled and rolled and rolled
back to the forest in the mud in the leaves
and i tied you to that same tree
and you liked it in my dream
you are my entity
you are my dream
you are my entity
you are my dream
you're my dream...
I have found a lack of sympathy
for my chemically dependant brothers and sisters.
It disturbs me my eye rolling attitudes,
I search through my studies of gods,
I search for the compassion within me.
And I only have it half a day a week.
I try and I try and I try and I try,
having myself cross the fucking death junk line,
the forcid cock the back hand of love,
I know, I know, I know I, know,
if I can get my shit clean after all the shit I seen,
if I can still fall in love,
and laugh my head off at my life,
and my hard hard lessons.
Then why don't you you rich 35 yr. old junkie fuck,
I want compassion for you, but my friend I have none!
You bear your victimization like a cross, a crutch.
Your lazy, its easier than to cop out than to rise above,
believe me, believe you me,
Hey,
Your car stereo is state of the art
My ghetto blaster is fallin' apart
But hey man, you're all show
You only listen to techno
Your ride goes from zero to sixty
Well my ride's gone, ya, it must have missed me
Cause i'm still standing here watching you drive by
(Chorus)
Hey Hey
I am sick and you are healthy
You are rich and i am filthy
Congratulations on all your success
I am poor and i am happy
Your bling bling will never choke me
Congratualtions on all your excess
Your new suit is made of silk
Too bad you still look like Lawrence Welch
Well your girlfriend just drove by
And she gave me the eye
Your watch, ya, it's a Rolex
My watch, ya, it's a Timex
But say, hey, it's ok,
Cause i'm the one who's on time
(Chorus)
money money money hey money money hey
(repeat 4X)
money don't mean much to me
(repeat 4X)
It'll be fine just you and me
I got good news i won the lottery
But hey,
I'll save you a seat aat the country club
No me drink, no me a smoke
On your hate, everyday I choke
No me frown, no me smile
Guess emptiness is a style
No me kick, no me scream
In these lines, you read between
No me hurt, no me hate
Anger always comes too late
No me strike, no me bite
Walk on lotus, if I like
No me worry, no me wonder
In the midst, of stress I'm under
No me lie, no me steal
Unenlightened sex appeal
No me drink, no me smoke
Oh, You packed me away in the trunk of your car
You drove me so fast and so far
I tried to fight, but its too hard
My only momento is this car
Where were you when i need you?
Somethings missing and I cant breath.
Where were you?
Where were you?
Somethings missing
You abandoned me
When you look deep into my mind
That is so tired and weak from this light
On the ferge of fear all of the time
I feel like you left me to die
Where were you when I needed you
Somethings missing and I cant breath
Where were you?
Where were you?
Somethings missing
You abandoned me
Shaking in my boots
You shook me down
You never took me down
Shaking my foundation not to be found
Never to be found
Where were you?
Where were you?
You abandoned me
You abandoned me
(x3)
Metal Queen I've never been
Or a punker chick
Often heard but never seen and dated mostly dicks
Angry white female's a term
You should say for your mothers
I'd be sleeping the whole tour
If I had my brothers
I don't party I'm not down with bull-shit anymore
too many times I came to with the devil at my door
That great word "alternative" applied in 1989
now it's a cop-out catch phrase that covers us like grime
Music will be to you and me
whatever it becomes
Sometimes makes us feel happy and
Sometimes makes us glum
The only thing I have to say and you may think it's bent
singing's a fine lively hood, the only one I got!
Struggled to make the rent sometimes,
since termination of the day job.
Kinda weird my work day starts when the sky is cool and black.
But I guess I should figure out on what I should fall back.
I could take up auto-body and work in some guy's shop.
Fixin' bitchin hotrods,
I sure like cars a lot.
Perhaps I'll study law,
be a public defender.
But I'll need a lot of Maalox.
I couldn't take the pressure.
Would you like me for your vet?
Or your docter who examines you?
Lady luck I met.
So your ass should say phew!
But I'll just do what I do
cuz I like it a whole lot.
Singin's a fine livelihood!
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Pamela Anderson is a Canadian
and me
I am a t.v. baby it's weird when you stop and think about it. "Donna Martin graduates! Donna Martin graduates!" Totally different head... nanoo nanoo. REEAAAAAAAR! 911! I remember watching Harvey Corman the Carol Brunett show from behind the couch where my parent sat. I was supposed to be in bed. Once we were old enough to complain and whine about hind? every Sunday night, we had popcorn and watched the Muppet Show in the living room. You know, my t.v. is wortha a million dollars. Why I call it my "Million dollar t.v."? This is because When I was 20 years old I had a day job, a skateboard and a band. But no savings account. I couldn't ask my parents for money it wasn't an emergency. My roomate told me to go to this certain rent to own company. It's like 20 bucks a month for a t.v.! Unreal! So I went and picked out a cute 12 inch colour t.v. and walked home with it that day. I got a remote control unit, and I ordered cable. Life was amazing! Before work in the morning I could watch the To
day Show I remember when Bryant announced to the viewing audience that Katie got caps on her teeth! He busted her right on t.v.! Can you believe that? After I came home from work, I'd leave the t.v. off until I got into the kitchen, made a cup of coffee or tea with like 4 sugars, got my cigarettes; 100s matches; wooden and took a seat in front of the television and turned on some talk shows! This is the life! I used to think. I didn't even own a bicycle or any transportation. I got my skateboard deck out of the garbage and got trucks and
risers for free! Why one of the wheels was practically square! I had tofu hot-dogs in the fridge, and milk and diet soda and that was it. No new clothes just ratty t-shirts and jeans and stuff. I had minimal shoes--no makeup but soap, and, uh, no furniture. But FUCK! Did I have a beautiful t.v.! I'd watch it while I ate supper and then 'till I left for band rehearsal. After that, I get home late and go to sleep cause I'd wake up at 7 to go to work. This was my routine It was the greatest. I was truly blessed with my little t.v. and adored it. I put hello kitty stickers all over it and the remote. It was beautiful. I would get a bill in the mail every month. I mostly paid them on time cause I could go downtown to the rent to own store and hand them my payment. How convenient! As the last 6 years went by, my t.v. saw me through 7 apartments, 4 boyfriends, 2 bands, 1 job--my same job for 5 years and 10 tours--and 1 fuckin' asshole at the credit bureau. Here's what happened: because even though I
was often getting late on my payments. This Rent to Own stuff was you know, giving me, a credit
rating. I started getting all these credit card applications in the mail. "What luck!" I got a visa card pronto. I bought Dickie's engineering overalls--the first thing I bought. The second thing, of course, was some shoes. The third, of course, was dinner for a boyfriend. This is the life! Then I got a Bay card, Then I got a Holt Renfrew card. I got a fuschia Perry Ellis, hockey sized duffel bag for touring. I got Elizabeth Arden products for touring, I got M.A.C makeup and lots of clothes for touring.
Then I went on tour! Life on the road got good! That van never smelled better! Then, while we were on tour in a strange city at soundcheck, we get a phone call from the chick whose place we crashed at that she got broken into. We went back there. All that got stolen was my pink duffel bag with all my new clothes and girly panties and shower gels and you name it! Everyone else had their punk rock bags and t-shirts and stuff left alone. Just me.the girl.the girl with the shiny pink bag. The policeman at precinct 51 were awesome. They made a report and I even got a real police shirt they felt sorry for me cause all I was left with was the dress on my back. The other band we played with on the bill last night, the singer, Leslie and the Mary-Anne lady who ran the bar donated some dresses and panties and makeup and stuff. I was glad it was me that was robbed and not one of my band guys I mean I still have my day-job and I still had credit cards I'm glad the van wasn't stolen. I mean, it was just me. I
was bawling when I phoned my manager long-distance, don't get me wrong! But I had to get over it quickly. Because I was my own tour manager so I couldn't be a baby. I mean, I still had to get a meal
buy-out out of the club-owner that night. You know, the show must go on! But my point is, everything i mean, EVERYTHING in that duffel bag and the bag itself was a credit card purchase. I figured I was shown lessons. It gave me alot to think about. By the time I got off the tour and luckily
went back to my day-job, my bills were all piling up. I couldn't keep up! My credit cards were all maxed. and I had no cash. I couldn't even eat. I was fucked. The credit guy called at my work and asked if I was stupid. He said that him and his cronies were going to wait for me at my house. I
was crying and freaked out. He was a legit bill collector too! Phone to freak me out.and he did! So I phoned home and I figured out I had to get my dad to co-sign a loan so I could consolidate my debts. bag itself was a credit card purchase. I figured I was shown lessons. It gave me alot to think about. By the time I got off the tour and luckily went back to my day-job, my bills were all piling up. I couldn't keep up! My credit cards were all maxed. and I had no cash. I couldn't even eat.
I was fucked. The credit guy called at my work and asked if I was stupid. He said that him and his cronies were going to wait for me at my house. I was crying and freaked out. He was a legit bill collector too! Phone to freak me out.and he did! So I phoned home and I figured out I had to
get my dad to co-sign a loan so I could consolidate my debts. Which brings me to my million dollar t.v. So my t.v., my beautiful t.v. was about 20 bucks a month. I think it was about a 400 dollar t.v. remember it was a 12 inch. So, you'd think it would be paid off in about in less than 2 years. Here's the snag. Out of my 20 dollar month payment like a buck 50 would go to my actual purchase! Can you believe that? So even though over three years, I paid like 700 bucks... It wasn't paid off. FUCK ME! Needles to say, my t.v. was included in my bill consolidation. That's when I dubbed it
my million dollar t.v. I got rid of all those credit cards, well, except for one for emergencies and got rid of my bill collectors. I have my own apartment now, lost my day job to touring. I have a stereo and a GT BMX and I go to the gym. But more important than anything. I have my t.v.--my
Lets see... Where do i begin?
Foolish I can never win
I guess I was only human
Ain't no easy way to say
But I need to get away
And I'm never coming back again
Baby it's my lucky day
I'm out the door walking away
I said all the things I meant to say
Adios baby arrivederci
Ciao bella, ciao ciao bella
I know I'll be better off
Time to laugh and shake it off
Change hurts and this is how we do it
Just say what you wanna say
Before the moment slips away
Just know I'm never coming back again
Baby its my luck day
I'm out the door walking away
I said all the things I meant to say
Adios baby arrivederci
(never coming back again)
Ok, I don't exactly know where you are in your listening progress, I am chewing gum right now because I just had to sneak in here and say something. K number one I dunno ah you know a lot of this is uh different times and stuff but this may be around the time when im getting a cold. Just so you know. Im just kinda holding on man, ya know holding on until I get to go snowboarding, that's all I do, I just hold on, im just holding on. Uh and I got eh ya know spit in my mouth all the time, ya know so im trying really hard like not to have spit in my mouth. Its been a problem for me ever since I quit smoking, which by the was September 16th, and I have not had a good nights sleep since I quit soo I dunno. Anyway so I hope your enjoying this, Huh huh just thought id come on and say that I may be getting a cold so sorry if I sound like that, or it could be allergies, depending on the time of day that I was speaking, uh if it was night time im just usually probably sounding way more shitty. Ok uhh.
Swallow your pride and just let me in
I don't want to hurt you, you know I'm your friend
If this is the outcome of all we've been through
It seems like a waste, I can't take all this waiting for you
I won't wait
I can't wait here anymore
So hard, it hurts
But I'll never learn and you'll never know how much it burns
Won't take it back, I meant every word
But you only hear what you want to hear
Never believe me 'cause I'm always wrong
You say that you're leaving, the fire is gone
If I am the monster and this is our song
Sing with me lover and tell me that you're never wrong
I won't wait
I can't wait here anymore
So hard, it hurts
But I'll never learn and you'll never know how much it burns
Won't take it back, I meant every word
But you only hear what you want to hear
What you want to hear
I won't wait
I can't wait here anymore
So hard, it hurts
But I'll never learn and you'll never know how much it burns
Won't take it back, I meant every word
But you only hear what you want to hear
Swallow your pride and just let me in
I don't want to hurt you, you know I'm your friend
If this is the outcome of all we've been through
If you could be anywhere at all--where would you be?
Would you be somewhere else, instead,
of being here with me?
'Cause one thing is certain:
I'm good at hurting the ones that I care about.
My bluejay, you won't sing.
I had to set you free.
So, I'll open up the door
and push you away from me.
My bluejay, you are free.
Fly far away from me.
Just like everybody else, you weren't meant to be with me.
Alone in your circle... I am not surprised.
It's time to spread your wings, yeah.
Although this will hurt me,
you're much too beautiful to sing inside a cage,
'cause one thing is certain:
I'm good at hurting the ones that I care about.
My bluejay, you won't sing.
I had to set you free.
So, I'll open up the door
and push you away from me.
My bluejay, you are free.
Fly far away from me.
Just like everybody else, you weren't meant to be with me.
And, it's time to spread your wings.
And, it's time for you to leave.
C'mon! Fly, bluejay! Fly, bluejay!
Fly, bluejay! Flyaway!
My bluejay you are free, fly far away from me
...just like everybody else...
My bluejay, you won't sing.
I had to set you free.
So, I'll open up the door
and push you away from me.
My bluejay, you are free.
Fly far away from me.
Just like everybody else, you weren't meant to be with me.
...alone in your circle
...alone in your circle
Verse 1:
Yo-o-o-oh...
The dude over there looks like he's in the headlining band
We better be nice to him, and maybe he'll let us borrow his amp
Chorus:
Haven't washed in a week...
I've got nothin' to eat
Those good times will always be a part of me...
Back in the day...
When we slept in the van
Back in the day...
Yeah we took the gig money and we ran
Back in the day...
Driving down the dark highway
Yeah the best was yet to come
Back in the day...
Verse 2:
Seems like a 40 hour drive along the 405
Slippin' on the bass cabinet, I guess I'm lucky to be alive
Gas station bathroom, been pulled over, we gotta go
Ask the nice lady inside if she knows the way to Buffalo
Chorus:
Haven't washed in a week...
I've got nothin' to eat
Those good times will always be a part of me...
Back in the day...
When we slept in the van
Back in the day...
Yeah we took the gig money and we ran
Back in the day...
Driving down the dark highway
Yeah the best was yet to come
Back in the day...
Verse 3:
All we want... Is for the record weasle to like our song
And all... We want... Is a big fat deal, and a rock star lunch
All we want... Is a stretch limosine that's 4 blocks long
And all... We want... Is to be number 1... At Rock Radio!
Chorus:
Haven't washed in a week...
I've got nothin' to eat
Those good times will always be a part of me...
Back in the day...
When we slept in the van
Back in the day...
Yeah we took the gig money and we ran
Back in the day...
Driving down the dark highway
Yeah the best was yet to come
Back in the day...
Yeah the best was yet to come
Back in the day...
Ooh yeah! Oh yeah...
Yeah the best was yet to come
You sink to my level, just like a stone
on your way back to the ground.
You wonder what happened to make me different.
I'm impatient when you are around.
You're alone.
But you get what you deserve.
Now, we are alone.
But we get what we deserve.
If I am alive for the first time.
I must have died inside
so I could let go
of things that weren't mine.
I'm crashing and burning.
You're crashing and burning.
We're crashing and burning.
If only you listened to words I say,
and hear them for what they are.
I'm hopeful and foolish,
but you never change.
And, that's something I know in my heart.
You're a "star."
But nothing about you shines.
I am a star.
And we get what we deserve.
If I am alive for the first time.
I must have died inside
so I could let go
of things that weren't mine.
I'm crashing and burning.
You're crashing and burning.
We're crashing and burning.
You and me will never learn!
Cause we get what we deserve!
Drivin' down an empty street at a quarter passed four
Wondrin' if I'll ever see the rhyme behind
The scene outside your door
I'm sure,
There's something that's not right
What are we fighting for
Climbin' up an empty stair
I? m thinkin' that I? m found
Knowin' if I think too much,
if i think too much I? ll stop and turn around
And go down
I guess it's time I learned that I can't
Turn around
But oh it seems so hard
To say goodbye, but in the end
Chorus:
I don't wanna be the one who always takes the blame
I don't wanna be the one who always hides the pain inside
I've tried
So I think it's time we kissed and said goodbye--
I think it's time we kissed and said goodbye
Sitting in an empty room
I see the lights pass much too slow
Thinking that it's gone too soon,
I'm lost inside I feel that I should go
I don't know
It seems to me mistakes we've made have
Told us so
But oh it seems so hard
To say goodbye but in the end
Chorus
There's nothing left to do (nothing left to do)
We can't go on anymore
We've walked down this road before
There's nothing left to try (nothing left to try)
So I think it's time we kissed and said goodbye
Chorus 2x
I think it? s time we kissed and said goodbye---
My life was Comedy. Quitting drinking was the easiest thing I've ever done. I have never looked back. I simply cannot understand why the hell I waited so long! Unmanageable life--what an embarrassment! What a weakness. What an ultimate lack of self-discipline. What a loser. My parents never drank or smoked, and I put them through hell. My poor parents. I was such an ungrateful, disrespectful, selfish, hormonal little teenager with a mouthy attitude and sense of humour quite unlike my sister's. I decided I didn't need to continue attending church with my parents. I was searching for my "individuality". What an idiot.
I wanted attention. I wanted everyone to think I was funny. I wanted everyone to like me. I, I hated myself. I was called Bug Eyes. I was called Fish Lips. And, I was called Modern Dairies. The grade 9 girls hated me. They harassed me and beat me up. I wonder if they're living exciting, fulfilling loving lives. I wonder if they're happy and healthy. Me and my best friend Karine had every line of every Eddie Murphy movie down. "Goonay goo goo" "you can smell it" "I'm a karate man." "Karate man bruise on inside. Just don't show othe weakness." "Banana in the tailpipe." "Babulay Babulay bahaha. Babulay babulay ba ha." You name it. I wanted to be Eddie Murphy.
Or, or Robin Williams. I wanted to be them. I still am enraptured with comedians. They must always be carefree and laughing and playing jokes and having fun. Except for maybe Richard Lewis. He always says he can't get a date. Betcha he can. Betcha he's really ticklish, like me. Tickled with life, tickled pink. Pink laaadies. Black Russians. Iron butterflies.
Quitting drinking was the easiest thing I've ever done.
I had Cinderella complex with the boys,
and ballet class gave me some poise,
I've never ever lied to you or said anything that was untrue.
I constantly searched for one true god,
my icy gaze finally thawed.
I sit before you full of ome,
in my mouse infested home.
One morning I awoke for work,
decided my roomate was a jerk.
He wanted to rid us of rodents,
on mouse traps--money he spent.
He placed them in the kitchen there,
under the sink, behind the stairs.
I walked into the bath to do the washing thang
and from the kitchen I heard a klang.
I screaming mouse had caught his leg,
in a mouse trap on this day.
Squeaking, screaming wailing mouse
his rodent cries filled this house.
I started crying cuz,
I couldn't stand the roomate's extermination plan.
I ran to the kitchen in my towel,
with tear-stained cheeks, I was soaking his howls.
The little mouse dragged leg and trap,
behind the stove I couldn't get at.
I froze and didn't' make a sound
he did the same so he couldn't be found.
but as soon as I did take a step,
he screamed and tried to drag his trap.
My bawling in the commotion woke,
my sleeping roomate he was choked.
I told him what was happening here,
and I couldn't hold back my tears.
I'll take care of it, he said with a smirk,
now get going or you'll be late fer work.
He was right. I had to go.
and we couldn't help the mouse under the stove.
it was gas, attached to the wall,
when pulled the explosion would not be small.
All day at work I cried and felt bad,
and at my roomate I was mad.
I didn't mind the holes in our bread,
or the mouse shit in my bed.
He wanted them out, he was in a flap,
he insisted on buying and setting the traps.
I was young and dumb and I said "okay",
but I never thought I'd feel this way.
To hear the mouse scream is what killed me,
I felt like a hunter, a killing machine!
I couldn't believe I went along with the plan,
to get the pests and scorch the land.
I raced home from work really fast,
so I could help the little mouse at last.
My roomate was ontop of the stove,
trying with a broom handle to knock the trap over.
I had the stove leaning forward,
but not too far--we'd blow up for sure!
Out slid the horrible mouse trap and question-
nothing but a mouse foot left on.
He chewed his leg off - the little mouse!
and was limping around my fucking house.
I was horrified, I must admit.
again I cried and felt like shit
I looked at my roomate and my temper snapped!
I put an end to the evil mousetraps.
"too fucking bad!" I had to say,
if yer inconvenienced living this way.
we'll keep bread and cereal in the fridge,
and on everything else, we'll have tight lids.
There's no way I could hurt another being,
except a cockroach (cuz they have no feelings).
My roomate had to agree,
cuz he saw how it all affected me.
From that day on our little house,
we shared with stumpy, our little pet mouse.
and stumpy had friends, lotsa them.
but I didn't care. I wouldn't give in!
I loved living in harmony,
I have to tell you
I'm obsessed with my childhood.
I never pooped! Im serious I hated pooping.
.i never did it. I refused to poo as a child
mostly
I couldn't. It wasn't meat loaf,
it wasn't chicken or rice,
it wasn't 6 hotdogs at lunch with craft dinner on top,
it wasn't sloppy joes, it wasn't inactivity,
I just never ever pooped. My parents had this house
on Milanockit Court that had a bathroom upstairs,
and had a door in the hallway and the master bedroom,
they use to close the hallway door,
open the bedroom door. Sit me on the potty,
and pull the TV in there, ya know so id sit and watch
and wait. I mean hours, I must have been rotting inside.
It would be like a week in-between.
I discussed this at length with my mom,
and she was concerned thinking she fed me to much meat
and stuff. But you know what I say,
my two sisters had no problem pooping,
and they ate the same suppers,
it was just me. I was sick as a child,
I mean I was always sick! If I fell off my bike and
got a scrape, it would be infected.
When I had the chicken pox,
I was hospitalized. Because each pox was infected,
each one! In my eyelids, everywhere!
The nurses had to dab each pox with a medicated cotton
ball. My dad use to take us camping,
one time I stepped on a dirty nail,
ya know like rusty, bare foot,
my whole heel became infected,
it was huge! My heel was the size of volleyball.
I had to go to the doctor and get it drained.
I was soo ticklish all the time,
it 5 or 6 doctors and nurses to hold me down,
and then the feeling of the lancid heel.
I was screeamming my older sister was laughing her
head off, right there. I had Scarletina this one time,
and was quarantined, I had a tonsillectomy,
I even remember one time in the hospital,
of course for you know the reason.
A nurse was trying to put a repository in my rear
end, and I was squirming and wiggling and giggling,
ya know cause I was getting tickled.
Then I'd cry cause I was all tense,
ya know and it hurt, sooner or later I had to make
a run for it, to the bathroom.
BOY those nurses sure got mad at me for leaving a
trail. Someone's always mad hey.
Ya know I took lots of things as a kid,
ballet and jazz, dance, soccer,
piano, I was always in trouble,
always being a ham. When I was 5 we were all on the
stage, with these cardboard clocks,
like ya know 2 feet across,
tied around us with string like a sandwich board.
We were all moving are arms back and forth,
tick tock, tick tock, tick tock.
I was wearing red buckle shoes that I know.
Well my string broke and the clock fell off,
right there on stage and I just stood there.
.frozen and balling! The teacher had to walk right
on to the stage and carry me off.
Ya know I reacted the same way when that stage-diver-crowd-surfer
kicked my microphone into my teeth.
HEY, the more things change.
I quit all of it eventually.
Dance class cause I got lazy,
soccer cause I grew boobs,
and piano cause my teacher mrs.
Davis, got mad at me and called me a stupid girl and
banged my hands on the keys.
Ya know I was even a cheerleader.
HEY, in grade 6 in Kentucky,
it was a cool thing. S-U-C-C-E-S-S THAT'S THE WAY
WE SPELL SUCCESS
I cant believe it,
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y VICTORY VICTORY IS ARE CRY.
.GOTTA GOOO! That's how it went I really don't remember
the hand movements, but ah I was never one of the popular
cheerleaders. I remember this girl April,
was very popular, and this other girl Jennifer was
very popular, they were like we were all in grade 6
but they had bodies of 17-yr.
old people. And they looked like Fara Faucet,
ya know, all blond with feathered hair and endless
teeth, I didn't look like that.
I wonder if my dad didn't move us around so much,
what if I would have turned out different?
Ya know normal. Or am I?
ahh im obsessed with my childhood,
cause I don't think im fully grown up,
are u? I mean really? I am my inner child,
I had to search for my inner adult,
and im still look'n. I still eat 6 hotdogs for lunch,
I have recently graduated from light sleeper to insomniac, and quite frankly I find it startling.
I lie there, staring at the dark ceiling, and wait.
Wait for sleep to smack me square in the jaw it is so slow in coming, like my precious lover thank god. my neurotic brain races for hours about everything possible but nothing in particular.
I then become greatly disturbed as I notice the
Time, and figure out the hours left before I must rise.
Sometimes at this point, I become panic-filled and toss and turn and huff and puff, and of course, out Of frustration my heart races, and Naline begins its crawl through me, and I become upset.
Because I'm incorrigible, as a spoiled child, my sniffles and whines and pouting wake my snoring lover On purpose, so I may notify him o unhappy crank over tiredness, and patiently as always he gently Plays with me until I finally fall fast asleep.
Cursed nightmare
Beaming headlights
No help for them, no hope for them
Jumping, bouncing, black - eye giving
Not a sport
Supoort
Fuck all will assist my swollen, tender ouchy boobies?
Gig neck? No!
I know this is gonna sound... kinda bad, but I really have to say, and this is kinda what I believe, alcohol is the root of all evil. Don't worry, it's just my opinion. Don't get so... defensive. Don't look so.pissed off. I'm not talking about you specifically. I don't eve know you. I'm talking about my life. On my 12th birthday at Mary's house in Lexington, I had my first beer. I split most of it out. Her older sister's friend was feeding it to me in his truck, in the driveway. He was 16. Oh, we were listening to Foreigner, and he was putting his fingers down my pants. I was trying to be a grown up girl, drinking a beer. Well, I drank beer for 14 years. you know, every bad thing that has ever happened to me would not have occurred if alcohol was not involved. The last five boyfriends, out of my total ten, would never even have started if I hadn't been drunk as hell when I met him. God, looking back I shake my head. It's surprising isn't it? I never could hold my liquor. Never once in my dri
nking history did I not get fully pissed. Everytime. I have never, ever, been sober after two. Cheap date. The funnest date. The loudest jokes, the potty mouth. Why, I remember this one time standing behind the bar where the bartenders were workin', and because I knew that 2 photographers from National Geographic were sittin' at the bar, I was showing 'em my tricks. "Watch the Canadian girl pick the pimento out of the olive with her tongue." Yeah, always a barrel of laughs. How could I be taken seriously I was drunk! I don't know, I feel kinda weird. I feel kinda stupid. It's weird. I feel kinda stupid. It's weird. I'm not necessarily bitter, but I can't ever drink again, but I feel better, I feel in control, I don't know how I ever drank. I really don't know how I drank all that time. I don't
I guess I shoulda known shoulda seen it coming
Read the writing on the wall
Try, try, try to see the good
I guess I knew you could
You're capable of everything
Red flag! Imminent danger!
Red flag! Don't talk to strangers!
Red flag! It's like no other!
Red flag! I'm running for cover!
Red flag! Red flag! Red flag! (I can smell you a mile away)
Your smile belies what you mean
Nothings what it seems
You are playing tricks on me
Try, try, try as usual to keep my cup half full
You empty me completely
This road of indifference
This is an offence
I am dummb and I am deaf
"Fly fly fly away, Clarice" is ringing in my ears
I always outrun my fear
Red flag! Imminent danger!
Red flag! Don't talk to strangers!
Red flag! It's like no other!
Red flag! I'm running for cover!
Red flag! Red flag! Red flag! (smelss like fear)
Red flag! Imminent danger!
Red flag! Don't talk to strangers!
Red flag! It's like no other!
Red flag! I'm running for cover!
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Pornography is healthy.
Me and Nina were just kinda of walking around, you know? It smelled like wet leaves, felt like autumn, my favourite time of year. Even though it was January. We went into this antique store. I was lost looking at all the lace pillowcases and selling the, the pearl collars with my finger tips. Nina said that one was her favourite store ever! She promised she would take me back there when I had money. We left and continued down the street. When we first heard it: a crying coming from a cardboard box. I was getting goosebumps! And I grabbed Nina's hand you know me, I get all sappy and stuff like when I watch those Ryder institute commercials and cry and then Robin giggles at me cause I'm silly. We peeked in the box and we were astounded! Orphan teddy bears! It seemed like millions! But there were probably 5 or 6. Then we saw her--the bear in the red velvet dress. She was crying cause it was crowded in the box. I knew why--I could just tell that's all. I told Nina I wanted this bear and nina was gi
ggling. I went in the shop that the box of bears was in front of and asked the man if I could have her. I paid him 3 dollars and joined Nina outside the store with my new treasure. Nina asked me what I was going to name it and I told her Nina that I wanted her to name the bear. 'Isabelle' she said with a big smile--just like that. By God she was right! It was the perfect name. Nina, Isabelle and I continued down the street and ate our cookies, and giggled and squealed and kissed until I had to catch the bus home. I sat on the bus with Isabelle on my lap contented. I couldn't wait to get home. Me and Nina had such a nice day. The bus stopped at the next stop and an old man with an unshaven face and old hat covering his fuckin horns got on. He stopped and looked at me in my seat.
I'm yer peer, don't cha get it?
I'm yer peer, or else forget it
I'm yer peer, won't take my clothes off for you
You got a soundcheck well, so do I
You say you wanna party but I don't get high
You try to cop a feel--don't even try
Let me explain it to ya dude, and I don't lie
I'm not tryin g to say I'm a good two-two
Don't think I wouldn't be ready for you
But load--ont's in an hour
Whatcha think I'm gonna do
Grab my tit one more time and I'm gonna beat on you
What's the matter, boy, ever met a girl who rocks
The girls you usually meet are quite an eager lot
Why can't you face the fact that I'm one of the boys
It's these others in the front row
For whom I save my toys
Not for you, or the crew
Or the fuckin' record dudes
This phallic snowboard beckons my sensuality
The silence of the snowfall is playing with my concentration
These blasted goggles hinder the shading of this god forsaken run
whipper snappers whipping by
Shredding by
Carving through my heart
They flow as if on water
Gorgeous, delicious airs
My heart stops as the cartwheels commence
I soar
My eyes close
I taste the mountain
This glorious creation of heaven
My body is taut and ripe
I give myself wholly and completely to the earth and snow and ice
It takes me
Harder than my favorite lover
my love's an ice-cold latte
and it's running down yer shirt.
you took my little heart
and then ya threw it in the dirt!
i won't go near yer locker
and i cannot wash my hair.
i can't believe you betrayed me
and filled me with despair!!
i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me.
i am only the girl who was in love with you
but, now you lied!
i have developed frog-eyes
from crying all the time.
i won't go out and skate with my friends,
i'll only stay inside.
you ran around, behind my back
with a pretty, blue-eyed girl.
i am so sick of missing you -
i think i'm gonna hurl!!
i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me.
i am only the girl who was in love with you.
but, now you lied!
i can't believe you lied to me:
i can't believe you!
(i am only the girl who was in love with you)
i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me
i am only the girl who was in love with you
but, now you lied to me...
[sportin' the "x"s on her hands] self-discipline requires doing
what is necessary, when it should be done,
whether it iz a pleasant task or not. a straight-edge lifestyle is personal choice.
if my coffee consumption ain't straight-edge enough for you:
then **** me with a double, skim cappuccino!
um: hellooooo!! get a ******* hold of yourself!!
no complaining!! are you starving?
no? then let's have a little perspective, shall we. see a therapist.
switch to decaf. lay off the pills.
try some stretching.
take five.
have a time out.
write it down.
make a painting.
have a hot bath.
quit hanging onto past hurts.
forgive all to get over all and get on with it!
puh-leeeze! develop some humor.
laugh it off.
yuk it up.
don't be mean.
karma is instant.
there is no coincidence.
live today. try - ok?
[crying] ring pa ambulansen.
Baby, I'm angry.
Baby, I'm scared.
We're living in a dark time.
And nobody cares.
Baby, I'm tired.
Life isn't fair.
You are the only one,
who will always be there.
Hold on, to me.
Say you'll always love me.
Tell me anything, you want.
Hold on, baby.
Say you'll never leave me.
Promise that you will hold on.
Baby, I'm sorry.
I don't mean to cry.
But, I never needed you more,
than I need you tonight.
Hold on, to me.
Say you'll always love me.
Tell me anything, you want.
Hold on, baby.
Say you'll never leave me.
Promise that you will hold on.
I'm a small honeybee.
I drown in the water.
You are my hand in the well, weeelll...
Hold on, to me.
Say you'll always love me.
Tell me anything, you want.
Hold on, baby.
Say you'll never leave me.
Promise that you will hold on.
All right this is my poem it's called eine tasse tee
Are you ready? all right!
One of my dogs ate the feces of a homeless man on the way to the vet
Of course it was anna 'cuz nikolas doesn't eat anything with sauce
I had to try to pull the offending matter out of her mouth with my bare hands
We stunk!
I wonder what the nutrition counter would list this meal as...
It made me think
My anti-malaria medication drove me to question my sanity
I hallucinated
I saw the bright red grip tape on my old skateboard
As a moving mass of demarara(?) sugar
My judgment seems impaired
Things irritate me
People are mean
They drive too fast
They talk too fast
People carry anger around like one of those fashionable backpacks
But they're all actors
In public they behave certain... ways
You know at dinner with their friends out at popular bars and grilles
They chat and laugh
They call girls who look like me "elvira"
They call girls who look like me "morticia"
Whatever
Nice and happy life
Nice weekend warrior weekend rollerblader suv decaf see a movie life
Nice implants
Good luck with your health
Nice dairy
Good luck with your health
Nice bulimia
Good luck with your health
Nice anti-depressant action
Good luck with your health
Nice speeding
Good luck with your health
Everyone thinks they've got problems
Wanna know a problem?
Over one billion people in the world have no access,
That's no access, to safe drinking water.
And you're upset 'cuz you can't get those new dc's.
Wanna know a problem?
The mobile phone.
We're all gonna die of brain cancer
Wanna know a problem?
Jeering hooting men with rohypnol in their back pocket
You already know at least five females who have been raped,
And you don't even know it
Wanna know a problem?
The threat of nuclear war in india and pakistan
It could all be over, overnight
Wanna know a problem?
The homeless
Which brings me back to the shit breath of my bichon-frise
The shit shouldn't be there in the first place
Because whoever had to go had NO place to go
That's fucked!
We are a complacent apathetic society
We are jackasses
We are all squirrels hoarding for ourselves
We need to say something and not care if it's been said before
We need to be responsible for our actions
We need to be more helpful
We need to be more thoughtful
I need to practice compassion who are the fuckwads
Of the purveyors of violence
I need to relax
I need to exhale
I need to meditate
My mind is racing
My mind is a chattering monkey
Nikolas's mind is on fire with paranoia
Annastasia has shit for brains
After all, you are what you eat
I could use a cup of chai
Nikolas thinks he's gandhi
He's on a hunger strike
And annastasia would like another hot steaming bowl of scheisse
Spoken word... have ya heard?
What's it all mean? what does it really mean?
What is it? what exactly is it... is it poetry? is it prose?
What is it... rants and raves?
Some people want you to be... political.
And they want you to be pissssed offff...
They don't want you to try and be... honest.
GOD FORBID you try to be funny.
So, there's nothing more i can say, except that... right now...
Wherever you are... listening to this... i can guarantee you...
I'm probably... somewhere... else... ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
I started with something you said
It threw a curveball at my head
Then came the ringing in my ears
I filled the bathtub with my tears
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
I won't be mourning the loss
Not going to bear it like a cross
Don't worry about me dear
Thankyou I'll manage it from here
I can be a big girl
And take it all in stride
Swallowing my pride
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
Kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
If what they tell me is true
I should be waking up brand new
And see the sun up in the sky
I guess it must have been my time
To kiss my innocence goodbye
Because my innocence just died
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
My innocence just died
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
You can kiss my innocence goodbye
You can kiss my innocence goodbye, goodbye goodbye
Now that I've got you alone,
There's something I wanna say.
A secret I have kept awhile.
But it feels right and I feel safe.
I know I am right.
I know this is the night.
Yeah, you; Making me come all undone.
Yeah, you; You have become,
The only one I will ever love.
Now that I've given myself,
Is there something that you wanna say?
Without you, I'd be unwell.
And it seems right and I feel safe.
ok trivia question # 152 Name the ballet in which the pricipal lead dancer, female. Does 32 fuetes. Im expecting an answer from you I already know the answer to the question.