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Alexa Carole Havins (born November 16, 1980) is an American actress. She first came to prominence in 2003, when she became the originating actor in the role of Babe Carey Chandler on the daytime drama All My Children. Her role as the flawed but good Babe Carey earned her a Daytime Emmy Award nomination in 2005 and recognition as being half of one of the show's most popular soap opera pairings.
Havins has made guest appearances in a number of television shows, as well as a number of independent films. In 2011, she joined the main cast for Torchwood's fourth series, Torchwood: Miracle Day, airing on BBC Worldwide and US premium television network Starz.
Alexa Havins was born in Artesia, New Mexico on November 16, 1980. As a child and adolescent, she was raised in Chandler, Arizona, later attending Chandler High School. Coincidentally, her mother often called her Babe. Her childhood nickname was the "Ice Maiden" because she was "deathly shy".
Havins was first introduced to entertainment at age 3 when she discovered dancing. It was not until later, while attending the prestigious Circle in the Square Theatre School in New York City, that her love for acting would develop. While in Los Angeles, California, Havins met and studied closely under the legendary acting coach Brian Reise. The two have remained close friends, and he continues to be a mentor to her to this day.
Joe Swanberg (born August 31, 1981) is an American independent filmmaker and actor.
Known for micro-budget dramas which make extensive use of improvisation, Swanberg is considered a major figure in the mumblecore film movement. His films often focus on relationships, sex, technology, and the filmmaking process.
Swanberg was born on August 31, 1981 in Detroit. He attended Southern Illinois University at Carbondale as a film major, earning a Bachelor's Degree in 2003. Two years later, Swanberg directed his first feature, Kissing on the Mouth. He followed it with LOL (2006), which marked Swanberg's first time working with actress Greta Gerwig. Gerwig and Swanberg collaborated on the director's next two features: Hannah Takes the Stairs (2007), which also starred filmmakers Andrew Bujalski, Ry Russo-Young, and Mark Duplass and marked Swanberg's first collaboration with animator and actor Kent Osborne; and Nights and Weekends (2008), on which Gerwig shared a directing credit. Swanberg's next feature, Alexander the Last, was produced by Noah Baumbach, who would later cast Gerwig opposite Ben Stiller in his 2010 film Greenberg.
Narendra Damodardas Modi (Gujarati: નરેન્દ્ર મોદી; born 17 September 1950) is the current Chief Minister of the Indian state of Gujarat. Born in a middle class family in Vadnagar, he was the third of six children born to Damodardas Mulchand Modi and his wife Heeraben. He has been a member of the Rashtriya Swayamsevak Sangh (RSS) since childhood also having interest in politics since adolescence. He holds a master's degree in political science. In 1998, he was chosen by L. K. Advani, the leader of the Bharatiya Janata Party (BJP), to direct the election campaign in Gujarat as well as Himachal Pradesh.
He became Chief Minister of Gujarat in October 2001, promoted to the office at a time when his predecessor Keshubhai Patel had resigned, following the defeat of BJP in the by-elections. His tenure as chief minister of Gujarat began on 7 October 2001, and he is the longest serving Chief Minister of the state of Gujarat. In July 2007 he became the longest serving Chief Minister in Gujarat's history when he had been in power for 2063 days continuously. He was elected again for a third term on 23 December 2007 in the state elections, which he had cast as a "referendum on his rule".
Everywhere poverty reigns on this ground
Struggles for existence are the daily round
Survival of the fittest is the order of the day
A little more time, the earning of the stray
No way, no way
Is that all you have to say?
Stand up, fight back,
So far and not further
This way is wrong,
It´s time for a new order
The little child, it´s hungry and it´s riled
Its mother gave it away at the first ray of this day
No way, no way
Is that all you have to say?
Stand up, fight back,
So far and not further
This way, is wrong,
It´s time for a new order
No way, no way
The night belongs to us
The air is cold and clear
It all seems so perfect
You are just right here
And you won´t disappear
If I closed my eyes
The sky looks amazing tonight
The stars they shine so bright
And we have all we need
It feels just like a dream
A wonderful silent dream,
It takes my breath away
And I won´t wake up
Let this night never pass by
´cause we are the last ones who recognize the beauty of it
Let this night never end now
This is our chance (go)
To fix everything we´ve done
No more closed eyes
Just detect a strait reaction
Yes I know we´ve got the same guilt
No one cares for no one else
We live in an Empire of Rage
And we should just disengage
Us from this misery, fooltility (From this misery)
This is not a test
This is just reality
This is a fucking quest
Help us out of our misery
Oh yeah I know we can pass this task
If we stand together like one man
We live in an Empire of Rage
And we should just disengage
Us from this misery, fooltility (From this misery)
So tell me…
What have we done?
Deep inside my head
At the edge of wisdom
Voices are waiting to be found
They memorize the worst
They´ve got all my fears and dread
Memorize the worst
And they´re forgetting the best
And so it grows, with every mistake
With every senseless road I take
And so it grows, with every mistake
With every senseless, road I take
Like insects in my ears
I heard them every day
Like demons in my head
I try to run away
They´ve got all my fears and dread
Memorize the worst
And they´re forgetting the best
And so it grows, with every mistake
With every senseless, road I take
And so it grows, with every mistake
With every senseless, road I take
Tell me what hurts the most
When you feel it in your bones
Is this how you pictured yourself?
Do you feel like a ghost
Half alive and so alone
Is this how you run from yourself?
And the under tow rushes in
Pulls you out, pulls you in
Spinning you all around
Spinning you upside down
You don't know which way is up
And will this ever be enough
To make you whole to fill your soul
When all you want is
That they can't take away
Said no one can ever touch
That nothing can rephrase
That you can call your own
When the world shows its ugly side
All you want is something beautiful
Can we touch the way you feel
Or does it only fade to gray?
Is this how you cripple yourself/
When the sky is caving in
Crashing down from within
Is this how you, you lose yourself?
You don't know which way is up
And will this ever be enough
To make you whole to fill your soul
When all you want is
That they can't take away
Said no one can ever touch
That nothing can rephrase
That you can call your own
When the world shows its ugly side
All you want is something beautiful
Some things will never, will never, will never change
Some things will never, will never, will never change
Will never change unless you believe in
Something beautiful, something beautiful
When all you want is
That they can't take away
Said no one can ever touch
That nothing can rephrase
That you can call your own
When the world shows its ugly side
All you want is something beautiful
She faked her smile
When she knew that she was never coming back
She was looking forward
Until they start to crawl over her neck
The reasons never meant that clear (for me)
´till she completely disappear
And a small piece of heaven
Has fall down in my home
I did never think this way
Thought that I would be alone
Again she fakes her smile
But I’m ok with that
I can´t live with you
In denial
When she comes around
She ain´t looking for an emotional one
The dirt whispered
Oh girl what you have become
The reasons never meant that clear (for me)
Till she completely disappear
And a small peace of heaven
Has fall down in my home
I did never think this way
Thought that I would be alone
When your heart stops beating
Mine start bleeding
If you ever meant to stay
Why should I walk away?
And a small piece of heaven
Has fall down in my home
I did never think this way
Thought that I would be alone
Again she fakes her smile
But I’m ok with that
I can´t live with you
Sittin in traffic another day of feeling nothing
Trying to find something I guess it's back to huffin'
Paint and model glue oh how I die when I look
At you smilin' lovin' life and all I know is blue
Rainy days and cold stares broken love affairs
Everything's beautiful as long as I ain't there
I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile who cares
I think I'll go to sleep for a while now
I'm barely livin' in my skin depression's my only friend
And I don't know where I am heading tryin' to forget where I've been
And I'm so sick of lying God please show me that silver lining
Cuz I've heard tale and I'm not well my heads full of hell and
This world's a jail but
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And as the pain begins to displace had it to ear level
With this place you see it on my face a state of suspended grace
Gradually I erase and find comfort in the sickest womb
I might be present but no in the room
To whom it may consume melting ensembles bleeding chellos
Running through bordellos drama
Like Othello hidin' out from Poncharello
Dead off in the Median
Fallin apart like usual handin' out flyers to my funeral
So they say that life's a play and that all the world's a stage
Then for another part I pray the show ends the same way everyday
And my heart carries the pain of a brain I can't explain
Am I insane
Am I insane
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
It doesn't really matter now does it
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
Look up there they fly
Our dreams say their last goodbye
Your prayers will reach the sky
(Until the day began to cry)
The drops leave the clouds
But hope is inside
Inside our hearts
And so we find our parts
We built these streets out of dreams
We light it up with thousands of gleams
We built these streets out of dreams
And so we converge our streams
The wishes take shape
For all the world to see
Now we are awake
We are what we wanted to be
The rain passed of
And now we compass (what we create)
It´s now
It´s here
I wasn´t too late
We built these streets out of dreams
We light it up with thousands of gleams
We built these streets out of dreams
All my life I´ve been searching for something,
It´s something I can never find
And I am walking blind
In this time I did remember you
But I shouldn´t do
Do you remind me too?
Could this be the reason?
Don´t loving you anymore
Tell me the reason why this is the result
Of what we were for
Most time of our relationship was sad,
Many times I said something wrong and something bad
Of course we had much fun but both of us realized,
It makes no sense at all
Could this be the reason?
Don´t loving you anymore
Tell me the reason why this is the result
Of what we were for
So here we are, at the end of the road
And time is our enemy,
Theres nothing else to see
Only the revenge of the land and sea
There´s no way back there´s no way out,
The persuasive voices are getting louder than loud
The world has changed,
Into a mirror in that we see
What we have become
A witness is all I can see
Of the revenge of land and sea
There´s no way back there´s no way out,
The persuasive voices are getting louder than loud
We´re never looking forward to what could be,
When it´s too late to react we will plead on our knees
For a complete restoration of what we had
Wake up in a crashed place
Where you live there´s no faith anymore
The conquerors stole everything
You gave your life for
Now you live in sadness poor
Kick em´ out
Out for freedom
It´s the best you ever could become
Rise against, rise against them
Rise against till´ the last breath will be gone
During this long and dusty road
You´re doing everything you were told
That´s your first and biggest foul
It´s not the way you become old
Now you live in sadness poor
Kick em´ out
Out for freedom
It´s the best you ever could become
Rise against, rise against them
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Youch!
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
Was it worth fighting for?
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
What the fuck was it for?
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Spiky Spiky!
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
Was it worth fighting for?
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
Who won the war?
What the fuck was it for?
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Porcupine Or Pineapple,
Hi, how are you? What do you do?
What do you listen to? Where do you go?
Are you with them or are you with us?
How do you dress? Who are your friends?
Won't you shut the fuck up?
I'm just trying to watch the band.
Hi, how are you? What do you do?
What do you listen to? Where do you go?
Are you with them or are you with us?
How do you dress? Who are your friends?
Won't you shut the fuck up?
Why don't you come 'round Saturday?
We'll go out drinking taking cocaine
Try to forget
Get high to forget
We'll go out dancing some place underground
Sweaty walls and sweaty eyes
Try to forget
Get high to forget
Put all past convictions to one side
Your court appearance ain't 'til Monday
I just want to remember you how you are
Old friend you're beautiful but your heart's on fire
Try to forget
You'll have months to regret
Put all past convictions to one side
Your court appearance ain't 'til Monday
Saturday night, I'm sure she won't mind
You'll always have a place to stay
Cheney, Cheney, Cheney, Cheney, Cheney
Cheney, Cheney
Oh my Lord, she sure looks pretty
Running around in New York City
Look in her eyes, she's a princess in disguise
Oh, oh, get me a pony
Whoop-de-loop-de look at those buildings
Later on, laying low [unverified] looking for a living
Hey there, little lady, wanna loop a little later
Oh, oh, get me a pony
Well I fell in love, and then I fell down drunk
Fell down the stairs of some dim lit bar, oh
Woke up dirty, down in the city
5th and 2nd, not feeling like diddy
Ain't about to reason with six policemen
Oh, oh, get me a pony
Oh my lord, she sure looks pretty
Running around in New York City
Look in her eyes, she's a princess in disguise
Heard about your band
I couldn't help it you were screaming in my ear
Coked up arsehole
Waiting for liars
You shared a cab with Karen O
Oh oh, oh oh oh
You're talking hyper bullocks
You're talking salaries
Oh, yeah, you work in Insurance?
Thirty K? O T E
You met Electrelane
Aa, aaa
You know the girl from Sleater Kinney
You said you couldn't understand
Why it was that she continued to play
When she was only earning ten grand PA
You know a lot of people in the industry
Woo, hoo, woo, hoo, hoo
I heard about your band
Come on over and do The Twist
It's about the only thing
Let me forget about this war
Come on over and do The Terrorist
It gets me so nervous when you move like this
Chicki chicki chicki
Do The Spring Chicken
Come on over and do The Twist
It gets me so nervous when you move like this
Come on over and spill your drink
It gets me so nervous when you start to think
Chicki chicki chicki
Do The Spring Chicken
A hen lays eggs and a rooster crows
Put 'em both together
Do the Do-Ce-Do
Come on over and do The Shake
It gets so easy when you start to make
Chicki Chicki Chicki
Searching for the one I need a …
Somebody that ain’ afraid to win, win
Baby is it you? Cause to me you’re the truth
I can see you over there, doing your dance
I’m like, good god all mighty? Look at lil Shawty
Gotta be the baddest thang dancing in this party
Gotta say wassup? Gotta talk to her
And I already know what I’ma say
See girl you’re looking just like a dream girl, dream girl
Dream girl, I’m trying to pull you in my real world
For real girl
I see you every single night
You’re all that’s really on my mind
I make a wish and close my eyes
Girl I want you
I see the way you get it in, in
Slow motion hair blowing in the wind, wind
Baby girl I’m feeling you, what you wanna do
You got me so gone it’s hard to keep my cool
I’m like good god all mighty, feeling lil Shawty
I swear she the baddest thing moving at this party
Had to say wassup, get her number
When I call her guess what I’ma say yeah
See girl you’re looking just like a dream girl, dream girl
Dream girl, I’m trying to pull you in my real world
For real girl
I see you every single night
You’re all that’s really on my mind
I make a wish and close my eyes
Special
There's something about the way you look tonite,
I don't know exactly what it is.
I know when you had it all you stared,
Up and to the right.
As if to ask forgiveness for all the nasty things that you did,
I love you but I don't wanna do this anymore.
I need ya, to be happy
I just have to ignore, my feelings
I've been hurt to bad too many times before,
But I can't stay away, I just keep coming back for more. Baby,
Sometimes you make me feel special, oh no.
Sometimes you make me wanna die inside.
Believe in me too far gone, dragged away from love. I know yes I know that I want you but I need more room to fly,
So much higher above.
There's somthing about the way that you feel tonite,
I don't know exactly what it is.
Your skins too soft for comfort and Your hairs too dark for night,
And your eyes look like they wanna take and never give.
Oh but I love you, I don't wanna do this anymore.
Yeah, but I need ya to be happy, I just have to ignore my feelings,
I've been hurt to bad, too many times before, but i can't stay away I just keep comin back for more. Baby,
Sometimes you make me feel special,
Sometimes you make me wanna die inside.
Believe in me too far gone, dragged away from love. I know yes I know that I want you but I need more room to fly,
So much higher above.
I need more room to fly, so much higher above.
I know that I love you baby, ya let everybody see.
You know that I'm your man and there's nobody better then me yeah.
I said I know that I love ya baby, don't you let everybody see, and know that im your man and there's nobody better then me, yeah.
So, so don't go run around on me, don't ya go running 'round on me cause im more that you ever need.
You're never gonna walk away from this
Nothings gonna save your life
But you're waiting for the real apocalypse
But you couldn't see the light
You find something to keep you satisfied
But not for as long as you'd like
So you find a vice to buy you some time
But you couldn't afford the price
Now you're in the same situation
That you were before you came
When it's all said and done
Will you still feel the same?
Red alert
Run and hide, you're under attack
We're in a state of alert
Red alert
You've made your bed now there's no turning back
We're in a state of...
You're living a lie, prepare to die
Times turnning out, it goes
Tick, tick, tick, tick gone
Now you've backed yourself into a corner
Now you got no place to go
You thought that you found a new world order
But disorders all you know
You've got plans for a revolution
But it's harder done than said
When you find out that it's just an illusion
You'd be better off dead
Now you're in the same situation
That you were before you came
When it's all said and done
Will you still feel the same?
Red alert
Run and hide, you're under attack
We're in a state of alert
Red alert
You've made your bed now there's no turning back
We're in a state of...
You're living a lie, prepare to die
Times turnning out, it goes
Tick, tick, tick, tick gone
Making allegations, complicating situations
You thought you made a name for yourself
But you're to blind to see
That you didn't change anything at all
Hide your head from the bed you made yourself
Red alert
Run and hide, you're under attack
We're in a state of alert
Red alert
You've made your bed now there's no turning back
We're in a state of...
You're living a lie, prepare to die
Times turnning out, it goes
Tick, tick, tick, tick gone
Bleeding heart, a dying soul
Staged as revolution
But your mind don't change
You still feel the same
No one's there but I'm not alone
My skin's no longer my own
I'm a parasite host, merely a ghost
Of who I used to be
There's a killer running free
They say he looks just like me
Voice in my head, I was misled
By a stranger with my face
Now I got nowhere to run
I got nowhere to hide, someone disguised as me
Committed double homicide but it's to late
They won't stop till they have someone to blame
One shot down, two shot down
A pistol that belonged to my daddy
One shot down, two shot down
A life sentence for my conscience
With no chance of parole
Vigilantes at my door
They show no remorse
The gallows set, the town is met
For a hanging in the square
It's a fate that's worse than death
Choking on every breath
There's no escape, accept my fate
An eye for an eye
But its too late for me
To start to have regrets today
One shot down, two shot down
A pistol that belonged to my daddy
One shot down, two shot down
Personality fractured in two
One shot down, two shot down
They got what they deserved
look inside my head
tell me what you see
the trush is you see nothing
cause you dont know me
intelligent facade
i know you're just a fraud
you hunt down and feed on peoples insecurities
how many minds do you think you can control
you take diamonds and turn them to coal
head shrink, dead shrink
get your hands off of my mind (woah)
you think you set us free
making us deaf, dumb, and blind
your definition of freedoms much
different than mine
afraid of what we'll see
if you dont steal our soul
afraid of what we can we can do if we're
not under your control
you tell me not to say a word
i have a voice and it will be heard
head shrink, dead shrink
get your hands off of my mind (woah)
look inside my head
tell me what you see
the trush is you see nothing
cause you dont know me
afraid of what we'll see
if you dont steal our soul
afraid of what we can we can do if we're
not under your control
you tell me not to say a word
i have a voice and it will be heard
head shrink, dead shrink
i remember it as if it was just the other day
born to booze, born to lose
we looked the other way
we were just stupid kids
that got caught up in the rush
until the day when we found out
you had had enough
another number
another life
another victim
another kid
falls to suicide
one youth down
another number
another life
another victim
another kid
falls to suicide
we were the punks, the proud and the few
that day you died you know a part of me died to
never thought those days would come to an end
but when the time comes my friend
we'll drink and dance again
another number
another life
another victim
another kid
falls to suicide
one youth down
another number
another life
another victim
another kid
falls to suicide
can you hear the silence now?
the sound of obivion
mournful misfortune of the heroes
that we now have lost
recognition of their past glories
esteem that will never die
heroes by choice or
heroes by chance
motive secondary to outcome
woah
buried inside an unmarked grave
no stone to tell us where they lay
so we pay our respect
in hope our memories wont fade
seen heroes rise, seen heroes fall
their mark cant be taken away
heroes by choice or
heroes by chance
motive secondary to outcome
one, two, three, four
woah
(never die, never die)
(memories will never fade)
(you cant take it away, you cant take it away)
I traveled far to find a place called home; all I found was broken past and some broken bones.
I left it far behind, although I wish that I had another chance to try.
Because I might just die a lonely man and be left in the dark.
I can see it all now; I'm gonna fuck up again.
One step behind.
One step behind.
I traveled far to find a place alone, but i realized what I want I can't find on my own.
It's not what I really want, although I convinced myself there was nothing past my eye.
And I could never find happiness in this world full of pain.
I can see it all now; I'm gonna fuck up again.
One step behind.
One step behind.
One step behind.
I'm incredulous to think I'll ever be satisfied with my life.
When I think I just might scrape by.
Then I start to regret every sea I chose to sail.
Maybe I'll be a rich man, maybe end up in jail.
I'm not supposed to cry, although I can't help but wonder why we'll never get to try.
Because I might just die a sheltered man, as I walk through the dark.
I can see it all now; I'm gonna fuck up again.
One step behind.
One step behind.
One step behind.
So farewell to the King, farewell to the throne
These are the strangest times I've ever known
He claims his resignation as power of choice
I can hear the death in his voice
So down the rabbit hole we sink into this dream
Is there nothing in this world that is as it seems?
With a looking glass that only can reflect the past
This image of freedom will never last
Come all you mad men
Join in the sound till they put us underground
Buried deep, buried deep where the dead men sleep
With bellows and screams, we'll all sing
So loud we drown them out
Left in the hands of the cruelty of fate
On a chess board that's never known checkmate
Annihilation's knocking at my front door
The scales had to make sure to even the score
Come all you mad men
Join in the sound till they put us underground
Buried deep, buried deep where the dead men sleep
With bellows and screams, we'll all sing
So loud we drown them out
A detailed dissertation of what kills and destroys
How much of what we say just turns to white noise
Regardless I'll declare all remarks and jeers
If only to fall on deaf ears
Come all you mad men
Join in the sound till they put us underground
Buried deep, buried deep where the dead men sleep
With bellows and screams, we'll all sing
Come all you mad men
Join in the sound till they put us underground
Buried deep, buried deep where the dead men sleep
With bellows and screams, we'll all sing
So loud we drown them out
Take a bow, collect all your pumps and praise
Like a bomb, you turn the night into day
I wanna sing all the things my mind forgets
But the words don? t escape my mouth
Occupied by this cigarette
Yesterday, I thought it couldn? t get much worse
Until I woke up this morning
I hoped to sleep until this chaos was gone
So don? t wait for me, it? s time to move on
Carry on, carry on to where? I don? t know
Carry on, my dear Molly, we have to let go
Carry on, carry on to where? I don? t know
Carry on, my dear Molly, carry on
The moon hides behind the clouds
The foothills don? t make a sound
The clock's tired arms continue to spin round
I hold my breath under this ocean of silence
'Til I put an end to this mind of violence
Carry on, carry on to where? I don? t know
Carry on, my dear Molly, we have to let go
Carry on, carry on to where? I don? t know
Carry on, my dear Molly, carry on
Carry on, carry on to where? I don? t know
Carry on, my dear Molly, we have to let go
Carry on, carry on to where? I don? t know
but of course i'll say nothing of the sort
don't let me have control of my art
honesty and an empty bank account
are my gun and hand full of rounds
but we've said it all along
the president was wrong
the only thing left is a hope that now is gone
and i want someone to say
that they'd listened to me
and if i learned one thing today
is that you'd probably sue me for honesty
the floor is open we'll be taking questions now
ask how to lose your mind i'll try to show you how
you left me tattered up and torn
you've been digging graves
since the day that you were born
but we're frightened and alone
a place that i call home
the way to my heart is a knife through the bone
and i want someone to say
that they'd listened to me
and if i learned one thing today
is that you'd probably sue me for honesty
the floor is open we'll be taking questions now
ask how to lose your mind i'll try to show you how
i've left me tattered up and torn
you've been digging graves
since the day that you were born
but we're frightened and alone
a place that i call home
the way to my heart is a knife through the bone
and i want someone to say
that they'd listened to me
and if i learned one thing today
I remember the rosary, the Catechism, and the stations of the cross,
the plenary indulgence and i know it isn't this.
Depression and nightmares and panic through and through.
Although i have been successful, there is always more to do.
There are many things i know i have done to help me to survive,
but i will never tell anyone as long as i am alive.
It seems at times there is no way out, not any to escape,
because of abuse and turmoil and trauma and of rape.
I feel eyes upon me every minute of the day,
hiding all around me, i turn my head away.
I've seen them in my bedroom when i am exhausted and done.
I've been seeing them for years, but i've never told anyone.
I am walking into doors and walls 'cause i am not all there.
I've split from a reality, of what i didn't want to share.
I can tune out conversations and with what the outside world is.
Then sex just didn't matter in my relationships.
You can't rely on feelings when love and trust is first betrayed.
I enter sexual situations, i didn't even want to make.
'Cause i was anxious, i was bored, or any non-sexual need.
When abuse is matched with affection or protection it misleads.
I say, "Drop what you do and listen, 'cause now it's me that calls the shots."
This is the sign of a life out of control adults.
I sometimes drink to oblivion, in spite of what i know.
I sometimes create chaos anywhere i go.
Always anxious, always have to move to help me to forget feelings
of little value or humiliation yet.
Because there was no one there for me, i expect people to leave.
So, i repeatedly test them and this is what you've done to me.
I know they way i've overworked myself has turned out positively
and that many other people don't have my opportunities,
but goodness, yeah, you can make it.
You are well on your way to heal,
because you already know it, and you already know the deal.
You are not alone, this is sadism, and this is not your fault.
And who would choose to live through this, so it is not yours at all,
and you know this was given to you,
so let's put it out of your home
Crept up to the edge of exhaustion
A platoon of memories rush in
Does salvation come to everyone
When you separate the body from the mind?
Temptation can drive a man insane
Only with himself to blame
And I'm standing on the edge of oblivion
Standing on the edge of oblivion
And I'll put my best foot forward
Put my best foot forward
It's impossible to pretend all is well
When life is organized by fear
Wrapped up in a neatly packaged hell
And the reason still remains unclear
I've mastered the art of complications
'Til every possibility's been named
And I'm standing on the edge of oblivion
Standing on the edge of oblivion
Standing on the edge of oblivion
And I'll put my best foot forward
Put my best foot forward
With a wealth of disappointment stacking high
On a foundation built on who's to blame
It's leveled when you find the victims
And the perpetrators are one in the same
Standing on the edge of oblivion
Standing on the edge of oblivion
Standing on the edge of oblivion
And I'll put my best foot forward
What was that sound?
I can't remember what just happened
Lyin' in this pool of blood
Is this real or am I dreamin'?
They called an ambulance
And someone's talkin' to me in another language
In distance I hear this song
Will they remember you when you're gone?
What happened today
Can never happen again
So is this really it?
I thought things would be very different
Forgot got to kiss my wife
Forgot to tell my kids goodbye
So can I leave a message?
Just one last thing before I go
Regret these things I've done
It's too late now to tell someone
What happened today
Can never happen again
Will these be my final words?
Will they remember me for somethin'?
Will these be my final words?
Will they remember me for somethin'?
So is this really it?
Well, I thought things were gonna be different
I forgot to kiss my wife
I forgot to tell my kids goodbye
What happened today
Can never happen again
Will these be my final words?
Will they remember me for somethin'?
Will these be my final words?
Will they remember me for somethin'?
Will these be our final words?
Will they remember us for somethin'?
Will these be our final words?
I don't feel like singing
I think I have given up
I can see right through you
I can see right through to who you are
I don't feel like lying
I dont' feel like shutting up (no more)
sorry if I seem crazy
I think I'm going out of my head
Sorry if I seem lazy
We'll come home when the battle's over
We'll come home with clothes all drenched in blood
This is the life we chose
This is how the story goes
For those who fight in the 3rd world war
It's us against the world today
You know, could go on forever
(Forever)
Pollute our minds with what they say
You gotta run alone but I know it ain't so
(Ain't so)
We can have it our own way
But we gotta learn to work together
(Together)
I see them capitalizing on other peoples woes
I see them on the streets and everywhere I go
We'll come home when the battle's over
We'll come home with clothes all drenched in blood
This is the life we chose
This is how the story goes
For those who fight in the 3rd world war
You try to understand everything we say
You try to analyze everything we do
Ask me what it is that we're fighting for
It's for freedom that we fight the 3rd world war
Living in the world today
I see that things could be much better
(Better)
But I'm never gonna give up
Not gonna lay my head down, no never
(Never)
You live your life for just one day
The faceless never remembered
(Remembered)
I see them capitalizing on other people's woes
I see them on the streets and everywhere I go
We'll come home when the battle's over
We'll come home with clothes all drenched in blood
This is the life we chose
This is how the story goes
So your battle is over
To us the war has just begun
Another soldier surrendered
But we'll fight the war and win at all costs
You couldn't take all the madness
You couldn't take all the pain
Didn't know what we were fighting for
You made me realize it's all...
It's all on me
Why'd you give up the fight?
Because of your surrender
We're behind enemy lines
You didn't just leave your brothers
When you fled you left your honor behind
I can take all the madness
I can take all the pain
I know what I'm fighting for
Once again I'm armed to the teeth
With matches and gasoline
Within this dying industry they've made
As forgiving as a razor blade
I mean seriously, you think I'm joking
You think I'm fucking around?
Well, capitalism is the way of our land
But you can't sell glasses to a blind man
Well I, I tread through these dangerous waters
The storm is about to blow
Why do I make such foolish decisions?
I fed my common sense to the wolves years ago
The unforgiving sea tosses us back and forth
I pray for solid ground
But this ship is mine, so muster all your might
'Cause I'm not going down without a fight
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
You slaughtered all your possibilities
Your options are running low
Your life is caving in all around you
But still you don't take control
I mean seriously, you must be joking
Quit fucking around
When you wage war on your consciousness
You're bound to drown
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Don't think everything I say is true
So I might be just an asshole
Maybe it's just a phase I'm going through, alright
Well, let's say, within this probable fall and demise
They tried to strengthen the laws
But there's no faith in the law
Let's say, well, maybe just for the sake of this song
We stood up for our rights, for the sake of our words
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Don't think everything I say is true
So I might be just an asshole
Maybe it's just a phase
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Fall in, fall in or get out
Modern times of bloody minds
Don't think everything I say is true
So I might be just an asshole
This is a story of a bored teenager
Stuck inside a category line
He had to abide by all the time
Then one day this bored teenager
Got tired of always playing their game
They all want to look the same
But you want to stand out from the crowd
All you do is try, try, try
But you're not gonna get out this time
Get back in line
You're never gonna change the whole world
Get back in the line
Must have been a fool to think that things could change
Get back in line
Rock the ship and get thrown overboard
Get back in the line
Must've been a fool to think you could change the world
This is a story of a bored teenager
Cast outside by different frame of mind
By the shallow assemblage he left behind
Sooner or later his boredom turned to anger
Kicked in the face by his so called friends
A brutal cycle that never ends
But you want to stand out from the crowd
All you do is try, try, try
But you're not gonna get out this time
Get back in line
You're never gonna change the whole world
Get back in the line
Must have been a fool to think that things could change
Get back in line
Rock the ship and get thrown overboard
Get back in the line
Must've been a fool to think you could change the world
Stay in line, what for?
Stay in line, what for?
Stay in line, what for?
Stay in line, what for?
Stay in line, what for?
Stay in line, what for?
But you want to stand out from the crowd
All you do is try, try, try
But you're not gonna get out this time
Get back in line
You're never gonna change the whole world
Get back in the line
Must have been a fool to think that things could change
Get back in line
Rock the ship and get thrown overboard
Get back in the line
Must've been a fool to think you could change the world
Can peace keep this from happening?
Waging fear we can? t forget
A disease, his words are spreading it
There is no need to argue
Now just do what he says
You must learn to trust no one
Smile as we charge into the sun
And when it? s over we can say
I saw it on TV
The need, no there? s no stopping it
And you won? t believe your eyes this time
The last message we tried to send
Fell into the wrong hands again
Remember they can make up anything
You must learn to trust no one
Smile as we charge into the sun
And when it? s over we can say
I saw it on TV
Let the truth unfold
We? re waiting for an answer
This silence is our hymn
Our fists are raised and it? s time
To take back what is mine
You must learn to trust no one
Smile as we charge into the sun
And when it? s over we can say
I saw it on TV, yeah
You must learn to trust no one
Smile as we charge into the sun
And when it? s over we can say
With his final chance at liberty
Prepared to meet his fate
To late for introductions
No longer will death wait
The way that things can change
In the brink of your demise
You never thought in all you're years
Your truth could tell you lies
Woah...
With the slightest sense of dignity
He left his world behind
Upon his deathbed
Uncertain what he'll find
A coward to his heart
A solider in his mind
Marching to the battlefield
To a war that has no time
Woah...
Trapped behind a wall of shame
No one can hear your cries
You find your actions similar
To the one's that you despise
Do the bottom of your boots
Have the blood of other men?
Or just the dirt from the streets
Of the city you live in?
Woah... yah!
You left your dreams to die
But they never seem to miss you
You'd love to tell me why
But dead men don't tell tales
Well I carry the torch to see what fortune it brings
I've journeyed through the gates of hell with the anthems we sing
It's not a game, it's a fight, a fight to the death
but I'm not gonna give up until my final breath
[x2]
The world seemed to slow down when I came to a halt
till the arms of execution grabbed me by the throat
when you hit rock bottom, you dredge and despair
you got nothing to lose so why should you care?
What you give is what you get at the devil's playground
Yeah
What you got? Will you make a sound?
Yeah
Gotta get out before we drown
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
My mouth was overwhelmed by the taste of defeat
till my dignity got me back upon my feet
it's an old folk's tale, a tale to be told
Pop- pop off!
Say you know me on the outside
You never see the inside, okay... Okay
It's sick, it's such a long time
Walkin' down a thin line, okay... Okay!
(chorus)
I won't go down! I won't go down!
I see my life and where I've been
I staying here with all my friends
I won't go down! I won't go down!
I see the way it's gonna end
I'm never gonna give in...
Now you're asking about the inside
Talking about the lost time, okay... Okay
I keep thinking like I'm big time,
Trying to mess with your mind, okay... Okay!
(chorus)
((The Game:))
We're going front, back, side to side
Sixt tre (meaning 63) impala, thats how gangstas ride
Turn the music up let the hood rock
and throw your muthafuggin hands in the air like we at woodstock
The streets is talkin, you know you heard the name
The kid that rocks white crowds like Kurt Cobain
Chuck Taylor and The Prom Kings, The Game that crossed over
Now I'm sitting on the throne like the Game that lost hova
Used to get money like Guns 'n Roses
Still getting rock money but guns and holsters
And when the nights over I'm wearing the crown
I'm the king of L.A. and I ain't never going down
(chorus ×2)
Yo! Chuck Taylor! Show 'm how we ride on the West Coast. Ha!
(The Game) We goin front, back, side to side
Front, back, side to side
Pacing back and forth
The only comfort is the sound
Of the clanking of the shackles
As each footstep hits the ground
Made it through each lonely day
Only with the dream
Deep inside my heart
I know that someday I'd be free
Stuck inside these walls
Drenched in misery
I only have myself to be
My own worst enemy
Imprisoned in my thoughts
Insanity is nigh
Rotting like a foul corpse
And running out of time
Turn the key, unlock the gate
I'm going home, I'm going home
Curse this place and every blessed stone
Hooray! Hooray!
Out of the dungeon walls
Hooray! Hooray!
Never thought I'd see the light of day
Hooray! Hooray!
Out of the dungeon walls
See the city lights
I can smell the salty breeze
And the wind as it call
I'm out of the dungeon walls
I fell to my knees
As I kissed the sweet night
Said goodbye as it vanished
Into the morning light
Shed a tear for every line
I marked upon that wall
Everyday alive but
Without living at all
Freedom has its price
A price that I will pay
There's no fortune in this world
Worth losing one more day
I know I'll go to Heaven
I've already been to Hell
It's deep inside those dungeon walls
The place that I did dwell
Turn the key, unlock the gate
I'm going home, I'm going home
Curse this place and every blessed stone
Hooray! Hooray!
Out of the dungeon walls
Hooray! Hooray!
Never thought I'd see the light of day
Hooray! Hooray!
Out of the dungeon walls
See the city lights
I can smell the salty breeze
And the wind as it call
I'm out of the dungeon walls
Turn the key, unlock the gate
I'm going home, I'm going home
Curse this place and every blessed stone
Hooray! Hooray!
Out of the dungeon walls
Hooray! Hooray!
Never thought I'd see the light of day
Hooray! Hooray!
Out of the dungeon walls
See the city lights
I can smell the salty breeze
And the wind as it call
I'm out of the dungeon walls
One man's decision for God to bring the rain
Brought a storm to the world
for self profit and gain
Took your voice away
What could you possibly say?
On the dock waiting for the ships to come in
I look beyond the shore to see
the Earth meet the heavens
They'll meet again.
They'll become one in the end
To make a living
Do we have to live in this prison?
I sold my soul to the team that was winning
but if the tables must turn
I won't be alone when I burn
Does the sun determine our fate
Are we as gree as it's betrayed?
Don't pull the wool over my eyes
To what's truth, what's lies
Sheep in wolf's disguise
Maritime Tragedies
Making angels out of men
Maritime Tragedies
Make angels out of men
Within the wreckage of a civilization
A new life has already begun
A new breed will rise
I look around and see nothing but the dead
Thought they were angels but there's nothing above their heads
The real world came crashing through the door
Who'd knew we'd become the children of war
Thrown into a holding cell
A waiting room for heaven or hell
But they make mice out of men
We only strengthened the ones we sought to contend
Ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
We blindly follow all the rules
On the ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
If we're always compassionate
How are we supposed to turn a profit?
Poisoned words spew from poisoned tongues
We have the answer but we have to convert the young
Dying is the best way to make a living
Works for us, don't think of it as giving in
Well, ready, set, here's the fun
Punch the clock and grab yourself a gun
This will be our finest hour
As we stumble around drunk with power
Ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
We blindly follow all the rules
On the ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
In the depths of the deep blue sea
You're going over the side if I find you disagree
Well, we fastened ourselves to our fate
And we want to change our minds, but it's just too late
And we gave them a chance to take the upper hand
We didn't think they'd really take a stand
Ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
We blindly follow all the rules
On the ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
In the depths of the deep blue sea
Well, I better not catch you laughing at me
Ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
We blindly follow all the rules
On the ship of fools, all aboard the ship of fools
Well, I'd sail around the sea making sure
They say that I'm not worth
My weight in gold
I'm just another kid who's gonna do
Exactly what he's told
Driven mad by taking
A backseat to the world
But we'll gain control
'Cause we got our pride and conviction
This is a song for us, whoa
This is a song for us, whoa
This is a song for the ones who can't be heard
This is a song for us
I can't be trusted
Now with anything
Well, I better watch my step
Not to forget who I'm supposed to be
If you had your way me
And mine would not be heard
But you'll never gonna succeed
In trying to silence the voice of the people
This is a song for us, whoa
This is a song for us, whoa
This is a song for the ones who can't be heard
This is a song for us
This is a song for us
This is a song for us
This is a song for the ones who can't be heard
This is a song for us
This is a song for us, whoa
This is a song for us, whoa
This is a song for the ones who can't be heard
Will we lose out in the end?
I've got nothing left to spend
Don't ask me for my name
To you we all look the same
They don't seem to care about us
Are we saved by the grace of god?
Well I can't tell if your right or not
Bleed for me and I'll let you in
Breathe your life into my skin
I've missed my chance again
Sometimes I feel I do not know myself
Being someone else
Infiltrate this pain inside my head
My mind has just gone dead
I wish I didn’t have to feel
Emotions are too real
Stuck inside this living hell
I thought that I was well
[Chorus:]
You don’t know how I feel
You don’t know how I feel
I was gonna say something meaningful
I was gonna say something wise
I was gonna say something that meant something to me
But I lost my train of thought
lost my train of thought
lost my train of thought
lost my train of thought
Not asleep but never really awake
More than I can take
Trap myself inside this empty clause
Clenched between its jaws
Resurrect this throe I put to sleep
Secrets I can’t keep
Why does this shit always happen to me?
I just want to be free
[Chorus]
A facade of what my life’s supposed to be
But it just isn’t me
Owning up to the blame of what’s been done
I can accept none
Plea for self-appointed absolution
I don’t deserve one
I? ve touched down and made a landing
I know what I must do
I know truly where I? m standing
I? m sure that living without you ...
? s just wasting time
Time? s up and i? ve got the answer
It? s you and there? s just one way to go
With you life i will remember
As beautiful and if it? s no:
It? s wasting time
Chorus:
I? m wasting the days
It? s something stronger than pride
I wanna be with you
Can? t help it, put it aside
And the days go by
Not having what I
Always dream at night
No you? means a shade of blue
On the things I do
Wasting time
Too long thinking nothing else now
Too many circles through my mind
I? m missing a lot here somehow
So many things are still and blind
I? m wasting time
Chorus
There is nothing whole, no nothing without you
Wasting Time
Chorus
I'm introduced to a plague of ignorance
Might be my own but I can't be too sure
Looking to be rescued
with no sign of deliverance
That can't exist, it can't exist
Hearts can grow so cold
in the heat of the moment
It freezes over like the devil's abode
Don't look so troubled
You're the salt of the Earth now
We can't regress, we can't regress
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
Hope can dry up like the LA river
But droughts never last forever
A thirst for more is just human nature
We can't regress, no we can't regress
Socially conscious of self-consciously social
Show my true colors like a waving flag
Make up in strife for direction that I lack
We can't regress, we can't regress
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
Dancing on their grave
To the sound of savage victory
With the power we possess
We can't regress, we can't regress
Sing a song of freedom,
Pay homeage to the fathers
That paved the way for sonic liberty
A note that rings so true in all of us
We can't regress, We can't regress
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
Reaching up, we won't back down
Back to higher ground
And I've gone half deaf in one ear
And I'm bleeding out the other
I don't know where to go
Unless some one tells me what to do
I feel like I can't get this one thing off my chest
I've been told to keep a secret
What cannot be laid to rest
Turn away from the weak
and be sure to look toward the light
Say something meaningful
But don't make it sound too trite!
Put the movie on side one
Sit back and have some fun
You might think that I'm a joker
But I'm not the only one
These are social graces like hello and good bye
But we're busting at the seams
To gossip and tell lies
Everyone's an actor and everyone's your friend
Looking out for your best interest
To fuck you in the end
It's only a matter of time
before they get to you somehow
and they'll give some good reason
why you should stay home and rest
If you don't do drugs and fuck
then what good are you to me?
Just go back to where you came from
You're no good to us around here
Please don't try to make this seem
like something that it's not
Put the movie on side two
I have nothing left to do
You may think that I'm a joker
There's signs posted all around
Take heed to the underworld
Sit back and relax as the plot unfolds
What you don't expect unfurls
You left your dignity
At the hands of the tip of your pen
Make something out of nothing
See what you're left with then
So let down, so frustrated
If you're looking to be loved
You're asking to be hated
Bound to the links, links of the chains
Bored sick of this episode of shame
How I've missed your blacklist
Beware of the unknown stranger
It's the price I pay, it's where I'll stay
You don't know me
How I've missed your blacklist
Beware of present danger
It's the price I pay, it's where I'll stay
You don't know me at all
No stranger to scrutiny
Partisan to the criticized
How's that blacklist coming?
Cross your t's, dot your i's
In the presence of all this wealth
A rash of moral poverty
Throw my beliefs under your microscope
Try to find what the eye can't see
So let down, so frustrated
If you're looking to be loved
You're asking to be hated
Bound to the links, links of the chains
Bored sick of this episode of shame
Here's a list of all your punishments
One for every good deed
Pessimists make great activists
With built in enmity
The luxury of slander
Depends on who you trust
When your theories go up in smoke