February 1998
Today's emptiness, tomorrow's dream.
An addiction, like never seen.
All is still beneath an orange moon.
Everything remains, but without you.
January 1997
The art of dying; a hymn to the demise of being.
Undated
Lost in the grains of sand,
In an hourglass of misfortune.
Seperating light from dark, dark from light.
December 1997
Autumn will scream from inside of me,
Not a false spring forever please.
Times shall change, like every thing else.
March 1998
Remember...
Return...
Reverse...
Realize...
Remember me, as fading images.
Return to me, some other day.
Reverse the faces, of the pages pale.
Realize, how the seasons change.
How faultless are you and me, in our shadow one.
As merged forever, by a blinding light.
Respect the grace that we unleash together.
And O how beautiful is my art.
As pale as you can think, as close as we may be.
Relate to all the times,
The memories are still black and white...
...black and white, purple gray.
And how much more pale will you become?
Am I not faded enough for you?
Realize, how the seasons change.
Reverse the faces, of the pages pale.
Return to me, some other day.
Remember me, as fading images.
I might just wait another season for you,
December 1997
Return from yourself, the reaper of my fields
Return, for you are needed.
For the one yet to be born.
The child cries out your name, the night whispers to me
In the streets the screams are alive.
And they will always be.
White veils hanging still, waiting for you and me.
The forest still awaits, let us run...across.
Return, for the morning maybe never.
And the breeding is still untouched.
Return, maybe I fade away.
Before the sun, but not the stares.
They still weep the centuries in your name.
For the moon still is what it was
...Your name and the closed gate.
The stares shine for hours, like the fields never reaped
Return for the sun that has it's wings widespread.
The horizons sleep in a story
My feelings glare at thee.
As their mornings end, my mourning begins.
My pain is much for you; I shall let you breathe,
Open skies tasteful depths, green seas and you and me.
Return, since I caress the young. Since pathos burns in me,
Merge me; blend me, into sorrow.
Shade me with trees of grief
Touch me; winds of pain come touch me,
Burn me pathos; burn me if you can,
Now that what I have become,
Time is in immortal soils.
January 1997
Alone again.
Again I am desolate. Again I am left forever.
Again I weep in pain.
O it's my sigh.
It is the sigh I take again.
Will this survive? Survive to see the daylight.
Never shall I.
Never shall I again, see the sight of the ones,
The ones who once left me behind.
Fortress. Of solitude.
Let us merge together.
In Solitude. For solitude, in solitude.
My character is now a tragedy.
A tragedy forever to be.
My existence is now a strain.
Slowly it arises, the urge.
An urge to fly away, into the skies of silence.
Amber roads, going places, emptiness is just a dream.
Echoes saying everything fill within.
As cold winds rape a lonely tree.
And here I sit in somberness.
Draped in a thick mist called thought.
And grasping me, and my imagination,
Are these everlasting chains of despair?
And black clouds of sadness, hang over the fortress.
Waiting for me to again be free.
So that they can rain their tragedy, all over the years.
And O how I wish, that I could, I will,
Embrace these skies if time wishes me to.
Never again.
And the pain persists me.
Shall I pay for all I have?
Pay for what all was not mine.
Indebt me in sorrow.
Solitude stays, for it is a temple, a temple forever.
Never shall we be loved.
And amongst the many thoughts, the thoughts that became pregnant.
A question will always arise.
Fortress. Of solitude.
Let us merge together.
In Solitude. For solitude, in solitude
I can feel my self to be descanting,
Descanting my soul to rise.
To be seen inside of me, is merely a thought of thee.
A vivid expression is seen,
And the broken promise shall be.
Amber roads, going places, emptiness is just a dream.
Echoes saying everything fill within.
March 1995
Whatever in this world you are going to find.
It's going to go, and you're going to stay behind.
You search for lust, or you crave desire,
He shall come and take you, in fire.
Your life will never, stay forever.
Wait. Await thy death.
Wait. Await thy doom tonight.
If your aim is to be evil, your choice is to be burnt.
If your intension is to murder, your fate is to be hunted.
They cry, they weep and pray for mercy.
But all they get is a desire of relief.
Your waste your life in lust of power.
But the one you forget does not forget you.
The silence sequel;
Wait, await your final slumber.
Wait for your final destiny.
Your unfortunate lies will mate with your soul tonight.
That is your final darkness.
when i first saw you i knew i had to have you
you got me on my knees, object of my fantasies
then i heard you liked s m
yeah well tie me up cause i wanna be whipped
oh yeah i wanna touch you
f*ck you
be your slave
and when you get me all alone
i'll do anything you say
i wanna f*ck you right now
[CLEF:]
I woke up this morning
I was feeling kind of high
It was me, Jesus Christ and Haile Selassie
Selassie said greetings in the name of the most high,
Jah Rhastafari,
Christ, took a sip of the Amaretto,
Passed it down the table said today I'll be betrayed by one you 12 disciples
Give me a clue who could do this to you
The kid on the block who makes less money than you.
Crooked cops pulled up, they offered him 20 pieces of silver
All he got to do is deliver the savior
Right on Bergen St. from bad luck to good luck
My cup runneth over, pass it down, guzzle up
The time has arrived, the prophecy will manifest
I saw death, I got scared, butterflies on my chest
Father if possible, pass this cup before me,
But it's too late I chose my destiny in Gethsemane.
[LAURYN:]
You see I loved hard once, but the love wasn't returned
I found out the man I'd die for, he wasn't even concerned
And time it turned,
He tried to burn me like a perm
Though my eyes saw the deception, My heart wouldn't let me learn
From um, some, dumb woman, was I,
And everytime he'd lie, he would cry and inside I'd die.
My heart must have died a thousand deaths
Compared myself to Toni Braxton thought I'd never catch my breath
Nothing left, he stole the heart beating from my chest
I tried to call the cops, that type of thief you can't arrest
Pain suppressed, will lead to cardiac arrest
Diamonds deserve diamonds, but he convinced me I was worth less
when my peoples would protest,
I told them mind their business, cause my s*** was complex
More than just the sex
I was blessed, but couldn't feel it like when I was caressed
I'd spend nights clutching my breasts overwhelmed by God's test
I was God's best contemplating death with a Gillette
But no man is ever worth the paradise MANIFEST
[PRAZ:]
Gun-clap Shell cap,
Got them crawling on they back
Come through with the Fu
They be who the F**k is that
It's unpredictable, when my tongue performs like Jujitsu
Cut you with my lyrics, stab you with my pencil
Lethal injection, witness protection
Refugee camp's under investigation
Gunshot bursts in all directions
For the wack MC's we read your revelations
Discharge through your pores
Get raw and kill Boors
I can Capleton when I'm on a Tour
Some manifest, with slugs in they chest
God bless all the Cowboys in the Wild Wild West
I was thinking of things that I hate to do, -sex with your parents
Things you do to me or I do to you, baby, -sex with your parents
Something fatter or uglier than Rush Rambo
Something more disgusting than Robert Dole
Something pink that climbs out of a hole
And there it was - sex with your parents
I was getting so sick of this right wing republican shit
These ugly old man scared of young tit and dick
So I try to think of something that made me sick
And there it was - sex with your parents
Now these old fucks can steal all they want
And they can go and pass laws saying you can't say what you want
And you can't look at this and you can't look at that
And you can't smoke this and you can't snort that
And me baby - I got statistics - I got stats
These people have been to bed with their parents
Now I know you're shocked but hang and have a brew
If you think about it for a minute you know that it's true
They're ashamed and repelled and they don't know what to do
They've had sex with their parents
When they looked into their lovers eyes they saw - mom
In the name of the family values we must ask whose family
In the name of the family values we must ask
Senator
It's has been reported that you have had
Illegal congress with your mother, - sex with your parents
Senator
An illegal congress by proxy is a
Pigeon by any other name, - sex with your parents
Senators you polish a turd
Here in the big city we got a word
For those who would bed their beloved big bird
And make a mockery of our freedoms
Without even using a condom
Without even saying ' no '
By god we have a name for people like that
It's - hey motherfucker
Tonight the rain is falling
Full of memories of people and places
And while the past is calling
In my fantasy I remember their faces
The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive
I hear myself recalling
Things you said to me
The night it all started
And still the rain is falling
Makes me feel the way
I felt when we parted
The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive
I need you
I love you
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive
The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one
The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive
The game will never be over
Twenty-one, and single now
She decorates my side
Suffers from the oxygen,
Sits at home and cries
Knowing that she's gone leave
It's just a question when.
Broken lamps and turned up amps
Here we go again.
Twenty-five, she's married now
Two kids by her side
Another year I limp on stage
Chicago the umpteenth time
Birthday cards that never come
And Christmas at a friends.
Broken lamps and turned up amps.
Here we go again.
Forty-five, she's single now
The kids are on their own
I come in bloody from the road
The records sell no more.
Come to you with fret cut hands
That reach out for amends
Broken lamps and turned up amps
Here we go again
Broken lamps and turned up amps
Here we go again
Broken lamps and turned up amps
Here I go again.
Magdalene, are you thinking of the gentle man
Who turned your life around
Magdalene. did he leave you any reason to go on
Magdalene, does it make it any better
That you know he really loved you
Magdalene, all your sins have been forgiven, and he's gone.
Magdalene, did he give you back the freedom
To be something you believe in
Magdalene, are you strong enough to make it on your own
Magdalene, I believe he loved you deeper
Than you ever dreamed of loving
Magdalene, and nobody ever left you so alone.
Oh, Magdalene ...
Magdalene, are the shadows in the stillness
Of the evening full of tears
Do you wonder how much sorrow you can hold
Are you haunted by the ghost of something
Gone but not forgotten
Will it fill the empty silence when you're old.
Magdalene, are you thinking of the gentle man
Who turned your life around
Magdalene. did he leave you any reason to go on
Magdalene, I believe he loved you deeper
Than you ever dreamed of loving
Magdalene, all your sins have been forgiven, and he's gone.
It's a god-awful small affair
To the girl with the mousy hair
But her mother is yelling No
And her daddy has told her to go
But her friend is nowhere to be seen
As she walks through her sunken dream
To the seat with the clearest view
And she's hooked to the silver screen
But the film is a saddening bore For she's lived it ten times or more
She could spit in the eyes of fools
As they ask her to focus on…
Sailors fighting in the dance hall
Oh man! Look at those cavemen go
It's the freakiest show,
Take a look at the Lawman
Beating up the wrong guy,
Oh man! Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?
It's on America's tortured brow
Mickey Mouse has grown up a cow
Now the workers have struck for fame
'Cause Lennon's on sale again,
See the mice in their million hordes
From Ibeza to the Norfolk Broads,
Rule Britannia is out of bounds
To my mother, my dog, and clowns,
But the film is a saddening bore
'Cause I wrote it ten times before
It's about to be writ again
As I ask you to focus on
Sailors fighting in the dance hall
Oh man! Look at those cavemen go
It's the freakiest show,
Take a look at the Lawman
Beating up the wrong guy,
Oh man! Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?
Michael Card
Trembling with fear, alone in the garden
Battle before the final war
Blood became tears, there in the garden
To fall upon the silent stone
There in the darkness the Light
And the darkness stood still
Two choices, one tortured will
And there once the choice had been made
All the world could be saved by the One in the garden
The light of the dawn, was seen in the garden
By gentle eyes so sadly wise
The angels appear, they come to the garden
Clothed with sighs, they realize
The One they adored from the start
Will be broken apart
By the ones He had come to save
So their here simply now to be near
He's no longer alone, they sit by moan
Love Devotion and Surrender
Music: Carlos Santana/Richard Kermode
Lyrics: Carlos Santana
Listen,
if you're tired of walkin' around and getting nowhere,
I know, there's a path that's leading towards the Master.
Chorus:
Love, devotion and surrender
love, devotion and surrender
love, devotion and surrender
love, devotion and surrender.
Oh, brother, listen to the rhythm of your heartbeat,
It's keeping time with all the universal children (Chorus)
Sister, sing the song created for your brother
louder, till the (your) heart embraces all the harmony (Chorus)
I don't have plans and schemes
And I don't have hopes and dreams
I, I, I don't have anything
Since I don't have you
And I don't have fond desires
And I don't have happy hours
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you
Happiness and I guess
I never will again
When you walked out on me
In walked ol' misery
And she's been here since then
[spoken] Yeah, we're fucked!
I don't have love to share
And I don't have one who cares
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you
You, you, you, oh, oh!
You, you, you, oh, oh!
You, you, you, oh, oh!
You, you, you, oh, oh!
You, you, you, oh yeah!
[Intro: Jay-Z (Kanye)]
[laughing]
Yo fuck you, Kanye, first and foremost
For making me do this shit. Muh'fucker
Had to throw everybody out the motherfucking room
'Cause they don't fucking..
(I'd like to propose a toast)
(I said toast motherfucker)
[Chorus: Kanye]
And I am
And they ask me, they ask me, they ask me, I tell them
Raise your glasses, your glasses, your glasses to the sky
This is the last call for alcohol, for the..
So get your ass up off the wall
[Verse 1]
The all around the world Digital Underground, Pac
The Rudloph the red nosed reindeer of the Roc
I take my chain, my 15 seconds of fame
And come back next year with the whole fucking game
Ain't nobody expect Kanye to end up on top
They expected that College Dropout to drop and then flop
Then maybe he stop savin' all the good beats for himself
Rocafella's only niggaz that help
My money was thinner than Sean Paul's goatee hair
Now Jean Paul Gaultier cologne fill the air, here
They say he bourgie, he big-headed
Won't you please stop talking about how my dick head is
Flow infectious, give me 10 seconds
I'll have a buzz bigger than insects in Texas
It's funny how wasn't nobody interested
'Til the night I almost killed myself in Lexus
[Chorus]
[Verse 2]
Now was Kanye the most overlooked Yes sir
Now is Kanye the most overbooked Yes sir
Though the fans want the feeling of A Tribe Called Quest
But all they got left is this guy called West
Better take Freeway, throw him on tracks with Mos Def
Call him Kwa-lI or Kwe-li, I put him on songs with Jay-Z
I'm the Gap like Banana Republic and Old Navy, and oooh
It come out sweeter than old Sadie
Nice as Bun-B when I met him at the Source awards
Girl he had with him - ass coulda won the horse awards
And I was almost famous, now everybody loves Kanye
I'm almost Raymond'
Some say he arrogant. Can y'all blame him
It was straight embarrassing how y'all played him
Last year shoppin my demo, I was tryin' to shine
Every motherfucker told me that I couldn't rhyme
Now I could let these dream killers kill my self-esteem
Or use my arrogance as the steam to power my dreams
I use it as my gas, so they say that I'm gassed
But without it I'd be last, so I ought to laugh
So I don't listen to the suits behind the desk no more
You niggaz wear suits 'cause you can't dress no more
You can't say shit to Kanye West no more
I rocked 20,000 people, I was just on tour, nigga
I'm Kan, the Louis Vuitton Don
Bought my mom a purse, now she Louis Vuitton Mom
I ain't play the hand I was dealt, I changed my cards
I prayed to the skies and I changed my stars
I went to the malls and I balled too hard
'Oh my god, is that a black car'
I turned around and replied, why yes but I prefer the term
African American Express
Brains, power, and muscle, like Dame, Puffy, and Russell
Your boy back on his hustle, you know what I've been up to
Killin y'all niggaz on that lyrical shit
Mayonnaise colored Benz, I push Miracle Whips
[Chorus]
'... last call for alcohol, for my niggaz'
[Outro]
So this A&R; over at Rocafella, named Hiphop
picked the Truth beat for Beanie. And I was in the session with him
I had my demo with me. You know, like I always do
I play the songs, he's like 'Who that spittin'
I'm like 'It's me.' He's like 'Oh, well okay.'
Uhh, he started talkin to me on the phone
going back and forth, just askin me to send him beats
And I'm thinking he's trying to get into managing producers
cause he had this other kid named Just Blaze he was messin with
And um, he was friends with my mentor, No ID
And No ID told him, 'look man, you wanna mess with Kanye
you need to tell him that you like the way he rap'
[No ID:] 'Yo, you wanna sign him, tell him you like how he rap'
I was all, I dunno if he was gassin' me or not
but he's like he wanna manage me as a rapper AND a producer
[Hiphop:] 'I'll sign you as a producer and a rapper',
I'm like oh shit
I was messin with, uh, D-Dot also
People were like this, started talking about the Ghost production
But that's how I got in the game. If it wasn't for that, I wouldn't be here
So you know. After they picked that Truth beat
I was figuring I was gonna do some more work
But shit just went poppin off like that. I was stayin in Chicago
I had my own apartment. I be doin' like, just beats for local acts
just to try to keep the lights on, and then to go out and buy
get a Pelle Pelle off lay-away, get some Jordans or something
or get a TechnoMarine, that's what we wore back then
I made this one beat where I sped up this Hal Melville sample
I played it for Hip over the phone, he's like 'oh, yo that shit is crazy
Jay might want it for this compilation album he doin, called The Dynasty.'
And at that time, like the drums really weren't soundin' right to me
so I went and um, I was listening to Dre Chronic 2001 at that time
and really I just, like picked the drums off Xxplosive and put it like
with it sped up, sampled, and now it's kind of like my whole style
when it started, when he rapped on 'This Can't be Life.'
And that was like, really the first beat of that kind that was on the Dynasty album
I could say that was the, the resurgence of this whole sound
You know, I got to come in and track the beat, and at the time
I was still with my other management. I really wanted to roll with
Hiphop. 'Cause I, I just needed some fresh air, you know what I'm
sayin, 'cause I been there for a while, I appreciated what they did
for me, but, you know there's a time in every man's life where he
gotta make a change, try to move up to the next level. And that day I
came and I tracked the beat and I got to meet Jay-Z and he said, 'oh
you a real soulful dude' [Jay-Z: 'you a real soulful dude']. And he
uh, played the song 'cause he already spit his verse by the time I got
to the studio, you know how he do it, one take. And he said
[Jay-Z:] 'check this out, tell me what you think of this, right here'
'tell me what you think of this.' And I heard it, and I was thinking
like, man, I really wanted more like of the simple type Jay-Z, I ain't
want like the, the more introspective, complicated rhy- or the, in my
personal opinion. So he asked me, 'what you think of it'
[Jay-Z:] 'so what you thinkin'
And I was like, 'man that shit tite,'
you know what I'm sayin', man what I'ma tell him I was on the train
man, you know. So after that I went back home. And man I'm, I'm just
in Chicago, I'm trying to do my thing. You know, I got groups. I got
acts I'm trying to get on, and like there wasn't nothin really like
poppin' off the way it should have been. One of my homeys that was one
of my artists, he got signed. But it was supposed to really go through
my production company, but he ended up going straight with the
company. So, like I'm just straight holdin' the phone, gettin' the bad
news that dude was tryin' to leave my company. And I got evicted at
the same time. So I went down and tracked the beats from him, I took
that money, came back, packed all my shit up in a U-Haul, maybe about
ten days before I had to actually get out. So I ain't have to deal
with the landlord 'cause he's a jerk. Me and my mother drove to
[Mother:] 'Come on, let's just go'
Newark, New Jersey. I hadn't even seen my apartment.
I remember I pulled up
[Mother:] 'Kanye, baby, we're here',
I unpacked all my shit. You know, we went to Ikea, I bought a
bed, I put the bed together myself. I loaded up all my equipment, and
the first beat I made was, uh, 'Heart of the City.'
And Beans was still working on his album at that time, so I came up
there to Baseline, it was Beans' birthday, matter of fact, and I
played like seven beats. And, you know I could see he's in the zone
he already had the beats that he wanted, I did nothing like already at
that time. But then Jay walked in. I remember he had a GuccI bucket
hat on. I remember it like, like it was yesterday. And Hiphop said
'yo play that one beat for him.' And I played 'Heart of the City.' And
really I made 'Heart of the City,' I really wanted to give that beat to DMX.
[Hiphop:] 'No I think Jay gon' like this one right here'.
And I played another beat, and I played another beat. And I remember that
GuccI bucket, he took it and like put it over his face and made one of
them faces like 'OOOOOOOOOOH.' Two days later I'm in Baseline and I seen
Dame. Dame didn't know who I was and I was like 'yo what's up I'm Kanye.'
[Dame:] 'Yo, you that kid, Kanye'
'You that kid that gave all them beats to Jay
Yo, this nigga got classics'
[Dame:] 'Jay got classics, G.'
You know I ain't talkin shit.
I'm like 'oh shit.' And all this time I'm starstruck, man. I'm
still thinking 'bout, you know I'm picturing these niggaz on the show
The Streets is Watching, I'm lookin, these were superstars in my
eyes. And they still are, you know. So, Jay came in and he spit all
these songs like in one day, and in two days... I gotta bring up one
thing, you know, come back to the story, the day I did the 'Can't be
Life' beat on track, I remember Lenny S, he had some Louis Vuitton
sneakers on, he think he fly. And Hiphop was there, I think Tata, John
Minnelli, a bunch of people. I didn't know all these people at the
time they was in the room, and I said, 'yo Jay I could rap.' And I
spit this rap that said, uh 'I'm killin y'all niggaz on that lyrical
shit. Mayonnaise colored Benz, I push miracle whips.' And I saw his
eyes light up when I said that line. But you know the West, the rap
was like real wack and shit, so that's all the response.
He said 'man that was tite.'
[Jay-Z:] 'That, that was cool. That was hot.'
That was it. You know, I ain't get no deal then, hehe.
Okay, fast forward.
So, Blueprint, H to the Izzo, my first hit single. And I just
took that proudly, built relationships with people. My relationship
with KwelI I think was one of the best ones to ever happen to my
career as a rapper. Because, you know, of course later he allowed me
to go on tour with him. Man, I appre-- I love him for that. And at
this time, you know I didn't have a deal, I had songs, and I had
relationships with all these A&R;'s, and they wanted beats from me, so
they'd call me up, I'd play them some beats. 'Gimme a beat that sound
like Jay-Z.' You know, they dick riders. Whatever. So I'll play them
these post-Blueprint beats or whatever and then I'll play my shit. I'll
be like, 'yo but I rap too.' Hey, I guess they was lookin' at me crazy
'cause you know, 'cause I ain't have a jersey on or whatever
Everybody out there listen here. I played them 'Jesus Walks' and they
didn't sign me. You know what happened, it was some A&R;'s that fucked
with me though, but then like the heads, it'd be somebody at the
company that'll say 'naw.' Like, Dave LottI fucked with me, my
nigga Mel brought me to a bunch of labels. Jessica Rivera, man
[Jessica:] 'Man, you niggaz is stupid if y'all don't sign Kanye, for real.'
I'm not gonna say nothin to mess my promotion up
'Y'all niggaz is stupid'. Let's just say I didn't get my deal.
The nigga that was behind me, I mean,
he wasn't even a nigga, you know
The person who actually kicked everything off was Joe 3H from Capitol
Records. He wanted to sign me really bad.
[Joe:] 'We gonna change the game, buddy.'
Dame was like, 'yo you got a deal with Capitol,
okay man, just make sure it's not wack.'
[Dame:] 'you gotta make sure it's not wack.'
Then one day I just went ahead and played it, I wanted to
play some songs, 'cause you know Cam was in the room, Young Guru, and
Dame was in the room. So I played... actually it's a song that you'll
never hear, but maybe I might use it. So, it's called 'Wow.'
'I go to Jacob with 25 thou, you go with 25 hundred, wow
I got eleven plaques on my walls right now
You got your first gold single, damn, nigga, wow.'
Like the chorus went. Don't bite that chorus, I might still use it. So
I play that song for him, and he's like 'oh shit'
[Dame:] 'Oh shit it's not even wack.'
'I ain't gonna front, it's kinda hot.'
[Dame:] 'it's actually kinda hot.'
Like they still weren't looking at me
like a rapper. And I'm sure Dame figured, 'like man. If he do a whole
album, if his raps is wack at least we can throw Cam on every song and
save the album, you know. So uh Dame took me into the office, and he's
like 'yo man, we, we on a brick, we on a brick'
[Dame:] 'you don't wanna catch a brick'
You gotta be under an umbrella, you'll get rained on.
I told Hiphop and Hiphop was all, 'oh, word' Actually, even with
that I was still about to take the deal with Capitol 'cause it was
already on the table and 'cause of my relationship with 3H. That, you
know, 'cause I told him I was gonna do it, and I'm a man of my word, I
was gonna roll with what I said I was gonna do. Then, you know, I'm
not gonna name no names, but people told me, 'oh he's just a producer
rapper' and told 3H that told the heads of the Capitol, and right--
the day I'm talking about, I planned out everything I was gonna do
man, I had picked out clothes, I already started booking studio
sessions, I started arranging my album, thinking of marketing schemes
man I was ready to go. And they had Mel call me, they said
'yo... Capitol pulled on the deal'
[Mel:] 'Yo, Capitol pulled out on the deal.'
And, you know I told them that Rocafella was interested
and I don't know if they thought that was just something I was saying
to gas them up to try to push the price up or whatever. I went up... I
called G, I said, 'man, you think we could still get that deal with Rocafella'
[intro]:
if it wasn't for the east coast
all these brothers wouldn't carry no piece, joe
what the f*** have you been tucking in that cheap coat?
you ain't never buck at shit, you a weak joke
and I'm quick to let a "G" know ...
I give a f*** - cuz I'm bigger than the streets, yo
bigger than those broke-ass heaters he tote
keep close, I suppose in a little bit, I'll be bigger than Jesus' ghost
...radios, stereos
in suburbia, turn it up
[verse]:[1]
all the people from the area I'm reppin
treat me like a motherf***in legend when I step in
last time I checked I ain't even got a record yet,
chicks call the house just to listen to my breath
they feel me locally and commercially
they feel me over-seas, and universally
even if you don't speak a lick of English
when my speech hitta beat, you'll be critically thinking
"now he's the real deal" - see past skin and
I've been what was intented when rap was invented
from the very - second DJ's spun records
and artists spit bars, my effort was ** better than
-- wait a second -- envision my arms stretching...
I'm this far, better than these rich star veterans
...you got a fashion sense but your song is wack
whose ass did you kiss for that contract?
[hook]:[1]
turn on my TV, and I be thinkin
"where's the talent?"
I see a whole lotta sh*** --- and a couple of gems...
where's the balance?
they all got the look, but they never read a book
I'm astounded
I guess nobody ever told em knowledge
is motherf***ing power
[verse]:[2]
I'm awake in the day, awake when you're dreaming
hang like a bat, two feet grab the ceiling
three, hour nap, back to the beats, still reeling
from the speed, D.Z. the machine, the pill stealing
emcee, you can see, at the pharmacy
department.. amphetamines on my mind...
and when I see em, I'ma target 'em
and you know I ain't leaving till they all mine
I got a habit, some people call me an addict
but, I'm just another rapper with a f***ing attraction
to munching up capsules and medical tablets
whatever's in ya cabinet, get ready to pass it
every single track I ever did is a classic
cuz every single track I ever did, I was blasted
I've been high since...
...1999.
[hook]:[2]
turn on my TV, and I be thinkin
"where's the talent?"
I see a whole lotta sh*** --- and a couple of gems...
where's the balance?
they all got the look, but they never read a book
I'm astounded
I guess nobody ever told em knowledge
is motherf***ing power
[bridge]
I'm an East Coast Rebel, this flow I deliver
is solely for my Devils in the (703)
the NOVA criminals - you with me? lets go
I'm so close to taking this industry over
[verse]:[3]
if anyone in the room is still confused
this is the new [found] sound you'll be listening to
we just sent the Dirty South to their room, they're grounded,
we washed out Lil Jon's mouth for shoutin
we kicked Bubba Sparxxx out the pad for rhyming
we sent both Ying Yang Twins back to China
...and if we see any free survivors
we feed em right to Lil Kim's vagina
[outro]
everybody say it with me, f*** the game!
everybody say it with me, f*** the game!
f*** you what you're doin, f*** what you did
f*** everybody who calls me Eminem
f*** all the clubs fulla wanna-be thugs
if you wanna shut me up, come bust a slug
otherwise find a new f***ing trend to suck
It's futile for you to do battle with a mutant who chews gravel
And spews jagged matter back at dudes asking to grapple
I'm used to abusive battering, and by " used to abusive battering"
I actually mean, my boot's used to moving through asses, when
You, bastards attempt to pen raps attackin a cat of my stature
And it's sad to hafta blast a backpacker so bad that
They hafta attach flaps of skin grafting and plastic limbs
After our match, when I win, just to patch him back again
What matters is, I've mastered every path of my craft so accurate
Every track I spit, rapidly adds to the status I have as " sick"
Which would be the shit, except when I rap a verse, nervous kids
Are grabbing a gas mask, and missing the first half of my shit
I flatten average men with a pad and pen, I'll fashion a diss
So immaculate I hafta rap it with a cackle and grin
I'm past the status of Devils Advocate, attracted to sin
The baddest, you can't even begin imagine the madness within
[hook]:
This is your warning, I'm a force to be reckoned with
My tongue's a torch that scorches when the record spins
Fuck authority, I'd torture the prescedent
It's surely evident I'm as morbid as war veterans
I spit that horror-core shit and deliver rhetoric, so sadistic
Christians switch directions, when I'm headed in the direction
They're headed in, and I'm better than any competitor,
Ready to sever the head of a meddler, deadly as ever, the shit is inevitable
I sip liquor, get pissed, disfigure a chick's pretty face with
A quick flip of my wrist, scraping razors hit, breakin the skin
And then, I'm lickin the places I slit, to taste what I did
I'm basically sayin, " mentally insane" is too tame for what I've been
Since the eighty's and I'm saying I'm WAY crazier since then
I stay in a state of in-tense, meditative hate and stay bent
From medication meant to replace sedation with concentration and
Make you creative and unafraid to display it in the same sense
So I'm taping my prey's faces and takin em to a basement in
A vacant wasteland to participate in strange operations
Like making em trade veins with an AIDS patient and then I'm unchaining em
And lettin em escape so I can chase em and video tape the mayhem
I'm playin with prayin victims laying naked, restricted with thick,
Fitted restraints, I'm lifting, painfully bending tense ligament
Tissue, which extends when I inch the six sensitive suspension
Instruments in sixty demented and sequentially different increments
[hook]
I'm disenchanted with music industry management so I'm plannin
To ram a van fulla flammable cans through every damn window I can
And park in the lobby of every labels office and demand coffee
From every A& R, I cross, cuz that's what their fuckin job should be
And if they don't comply with it, I'm flippin my lit cigarette skyward
And we can all fry in a pile, cuz I'm flying higher than Richard Pryor
And I'm dying to see if your cheap attire can defy the heat from my lighter
When I try to light a piece of it on fire, you ready die, sir?
Whoever's in charge of these super-stars, gets a boot to the dome
For signing rhymers who couldn't find a useful line on the road
It's time for new talent to rise and re-define how to flow
And challenge those in power, so now it's time go for the throat
And then it's game over for the same jokers, in the range rovers
Focus, your reigns over, dope chains is taken and broken,
Ya bones poking, ya brains smokin, it's so hopeless, I'm waiting to open
[verse]:[1]
rhymes electrify, get your f***in hand's high
on the beat-side is my [edit]: Slantize
I been killin mic's since '96.... and I
can't die... steady I rise, a deadly design
of the organic mixed with electronics, blended
within ligaments fitted with robotic systems
consisting of mechanisms, hand-tested
to sense rhythm ticks in a nano-second
I'm the man, I reckon, I got a plan to step in
and strangle the f***ing neck of every dang executive
in the game who ever slang the gayest records
in an effort... just to make a little name to sell 'em
I'ma bang the hell out of any major veteran's
in my way, till I'm made a legend
so any gang who tell it, just may embellish it
saying hey, "this fella musta fell under the weight of an angry elephant"
[hook]:[1]
anybody talking that shit, better quit it
keep on walkin or get, what I'm givin
when I kick this skill on the battlefield premises
mission is: kill every Shadowville nemesis
leave no rival of mine alive
if it bleeds or it breathes, then it needs to die
it's the fact yall mad at my raps, it's automatic
attack and slaughter maggots, get back!
[verse]:[2]
lean on the beat... drillin the drums
speed freakin machine-gun syllable tongue
I'm a demon who happens to speak in English
when I'm rappin, I'm casting a jinx, not singin'
I'm bringing the meanest, audible voo-doo
see, every thing I do's too much hotter than you'd do
disc jock my record like it's pop, the groove's soon
locked in your head like "dot-dot-dotta-da-doo"
cuz when I spit it, it's sick as f***
notice the kids'll come
over and pick it up...
and you know I'll never give it up
so, listen up, you can zip it up, homey
every joe on the street wanna show me
how they flow speech over a cloned beat
one step closer... be choking on your teeth
[hook]:[2]
[verse]:[3]
quit searching this instant, turn your attention
to witness, a person with a perfect rhythm
...spinnin, surging, picture serpents twisting,
merging, kissin, squirming, witness
a surgeon in terms of precision,
the work I deliver, is surely, efficient
you never heard of wordsmith on Earth, living,
as proficient as this, deserving a position with
the industry, till they mentioned me, DZ
coming from the sunny VA streets
he's so hypnotic, seem's he's robotic
breathes as often as sea-crawlin aquatic
creatures, no lungs, he features gills on his
parts like a shark has, hardened cartlidge
he's a monster he's far from human, haunting
gruesome thoughts, spew from this ruthless author
[hook]:[3]
[outro]:
I'm a soldier, told that I had to kill...
I was trained on Shadowville's Battlefields
I was chained and beaten, till the pain of being
Verse 1
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I slip a pill in the cup of Miss Hiliary Duff.
And when she wakes uptaped up I be drilling her muff.
Probably still in a buff when I finally kill her.
And dump her body off a bridge stuff in a rug in the trunk of my truck.
What? I'm a butch carving Hollywood Up.
Used to be Average but I practiced stabbing hookers.
Cause I couldn't find the address of that faggot Ashton Kutcher
And yeah I sell crack, I'm Ben Afflecks hook up.
So look up if you happen to bo on Roe-Day-O.
That my pressed the glass see my A-hole.
I'm shocking every actress with shopping bags.
And makeing em drop em, thats when I take em and rob em.
I hit em with a tazer in the neighborhood jogging.
You wake up in a basement where your kidney is gone.
In some people say my hustle is a serious problem.
Cause I steal black toddlers and Madonna adopts them.
Hook
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Yeah - I'm coming for yall suckas.
Hitch hike to Hollywood, with stragne truckers.
And I'm stealing cars, on the boulevard.
I hit a superstar hard, quick to pull a car.
I'm in your mansion I bypassed secruity.
I got your butler at gunpoint serving me.
And your assistants dead, and your maid is dead.
And I'm eating all your pets laying your bed.
Verse 2
----------------------------------------------
I'll put a fucking cleaver up to Justin Bieber.
ANd threaten to fix his haircut while Ushers screaming NO
And beat the tequilia out of Tila for no other reason than.
The fact she lacks any talent but breathing.
I am the illest villian alive chilling.
Hiding in the air ventalation system of the Hilton building.
Bout to kidnap Paris and her sister.
Than bill their filthy rich parents millions.
In a handsome ransome then vanish.
The phantom who reappers in the Hamptons with hand cannons.
I'm dedicated just bombed 80 homes.
In a row trying to kill the baby.
Of Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes, I mabey Insane.
A-D-D, C-R-A-Z-Y.
I never had a solid role model.
Always sniffing airplane model glue threw the bottle.
Hook
----------------------------------------------
Yeah - I'm coming for yall suckas.
Hitch hike to Hollywood, with stragne truckers.
And I'm stealing cars, on the boulevard.
I hit a superstar hard, quick to pull a car.
I'm in your mansion I bypassed secruity.
I got your butler at gunpoint serving me.
And your assistants dead, and your maid is dead.
And I'm eating all your pets laying your bed.
Verse 3
----------------------------------------------
I drop an Anvil on Avril Lavigne.
Like in a cartoon scene, I'm far to mean.
Ram Star Jones with my car 2, 3, or 4 times.
Or more till its hard to breath from laughing.
Watch Brooke Hogan get his ass kicked.
[Dude thats a chick] Wait!? We talking bout that fat kid.
Stop your fucking lieS [Shes got her mothers eyes]
Man thats a trick, she probably got her dads dick.
I'm a rude dude I'd eat the wither broom shoot Reese Witherspoon.
Poops Students spew puke a few screws loose in my noodle.
From false I done chew through, lose a tooth in my fruit loops.
Shoot hoops with Magic Johnson, kidnap him.
Lock em up in my cabic and trap him.
And make him give his highly contagious virus.
To Dane Cook.
I fucking love Miley Cyrus.
Hook
----------------------------------------------
Yeah - I'm coming for yall suckas.
Hitch hike to Hollywood, with stragne truckers.
And I'm stealing cars, on the boulevard.
I hit a superstar hard, quick to pull a car.
I'm in your mansion I bypassed secruity.
I got your butler at gunpoint serving me.
And your assistants dead, and your maid is dead.
lelahkah mataku melihat arus wajahmu
lelahkah hatiku tuk mengerti isi hatimu
takkan ku biarkan berlaku
setiap yg bisa merobek hati mu
dan hatimu tempatku
semuanya bermula di saat kita di temukan
dan telah ku berjanji memimpin mu stiap waktuku
aku amat menyayangimu, hingga hari akhir kau melihat senyumku
di pelukmu tempatku
hanya dirimu yg bisa
bangkitkan semula
hanya dirimu luruhkan
membuatku lemah
hanya dirimu yg bisa bangkitkan semula ho oo...
mungkin takdirku,
gadis yg anggun mencinta sang malang sepertiku
takkan ada yg pernah mengerti
diriku yg sentiasa di basahi lumpur hempedu
tanpamu berjuta hariku menderita selamanya
semuanya bermula di saat kita di temukan
dan tlah ku berjanji memimpin mu stiap waktuku
aku amat menyayangimu, hingga hari akhir kau melihat senyumku
di pelukmu tempatku
tempatku...
hanya dirimu yg bisa kembalikan semula kisah kita
mungkin takdirku,
gadis yg anggun mencinta sang malang sepertiku
takkan ada yg pernah mengerti
diriku yg sentiasa di basahi lumpur hempedu
tanpamu berjuta hariku menderita
hanya dirimu yg bisa kembalikan segalanya...
Ku akui
Kau memang seorang gadis
Lembut dan tinggi, lahir dari imaginasi
Ku jatuh hati
Tapi kau tak mungkin menyedari
Tapi ku akhiri bila ku tahu kau bukan suci…
[Chorus]
Pergi kau dari mimpi ku ( pergilah )
Jauh dari reality ku tak mungkin bersama mu
(bukan niat ku)
Menghancurkan setiap impian mu
Bukan niatku meletak mu di bawah kaki ku
Memikirkan hidup mu..
Ku akui
Kita saling menyintai
Tak ku ragui, saat kita mula mengenali
Dan ku dapati sifat liar mula tumbuh di hati
Tapi ku akhiri bila ku tahu kau bukan suci..
[Chorus]
Pergi kau dari mimpi ku ( pergilah )
Jauh dari reality ku tak mungkin bersama mu
(bukan niat ku)
Menghancurkan setiap impian mu
Bukan niatku meletak mu di bawah kaki ku
Memikirkan hidup mu..
[Scream]
Aku hampa.. sesungguhnya..
[3rd chorus ]
Kau pergi dari mimpi ku
lelahkah mataku melihat arus wajahmu
lelahkah hatiku tuk mengerti isi hatimu
takkan ku biarkan berlaku
setiap yg bisa merobek hati mu
dan hatimu tempatku
semuanya bermula di saat kita di temukan
dan telah ku berjanji memimpin mu stiap waktuku
aku amat menyayangimu, hingga hari akhir kau melihat senyumku
di pelukmu tempatku
hanya dirimu yg bisa
bangkitkan semula
hanya dirimu luruhkan
membuatku lemah
hanya dirimu yg bisa bangkitkan semula ho oo...
mungkin takdirku,
gadis yg anggun mencinta sang malang sepertiku
takkan ada yg pernah mengerti
diriku yg sentiasa di basahi lumpur hempedu
tanpamu berjuta hariku menderita selamanya
semuanya bermula di saat kita di temukan
dan tlah ku berjanji memimpin mu stiap waktuku
aku amat menyayangimu, hingga hari akhir kau melihat senyumku
di pelukmu tempatku
tempatku...
hanya dirimu yg bisa kembalikan semula kisah kita
mungkin takdirku,
gadis yg anggun mencinta sang malang sepertiku
takkan ada yg pernah mengerti
diriku yg sentiasa di basahi lumpur hempedu
tanpamu berjuta hariku menderita
hanya dirimu yg bisa kembalikan segalanya...
I've been looking all around the world for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
I've been looking for a girl like you
I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
Yeah, she bad as fuck with them tight pants
Cold walk with that tall stands
She don't want, don't need no man
Louis purses she brought them bands
VIP with them bottles, can't stand when she slow dance
Body of a goddess, fine as fuck, she dark skinned
She ain't fucking with them gangsters, showing deuces to them lamps
She pull up in that new thing, more rouse to the booty
I want that, need that, I got her, she fall back
But she didn't know I like that
Real bitch I'm tryina wipe that
She badder than the baddest, them other hoes just practice
All drinks on me, I'm tryna get her back on my mattress
Smart chick, she ain't fucking with no dummies
Bitch bad, looking like a bag of money, let's go
I've been looking all around the world for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
I've been looking for a girl like you
I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
I've been looking all around the world for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
She bad as fuck
Yeah, she bad as fuck, tied it up
Tights on, she back it up
Hair long and that ass strong
Independent chick get her cash on
Badder than a magazine, she turned heads when she hit the scene
Face like a model, all no Maybelline
She shitting on these weak hoes, popping bottles of drink, oh
She graduated college, drive cars with no models
She show you how to stunt, budge accordingly, she just young
Vaseline in her purse, let her base know she ain't no pump
I've been looking all around the world for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
I've been looking for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
I've been looking all around the world for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
She bad as fuck, she bad as fuck
I've been looking for a girl like you
You know I think you're the only one
Girl, you're bad as fuck, bad as fuck,
![The Rolling Stones vocalist Mick Jagger performs with the band at Gillette Stadium in Foxborough, Mass., on Wednesday, Sept. 20, 2006 as they kick off the second half of the "A Bigger Bang Tour" in the United States. (AP Photo/Robert E. Klein)](http://web.archive.org./web/20140318150936im_/http://cdn0.wn.com/ph/img/72/00/e19c09edb53a634b29ae06ad09d8-small.jpg "The Rolling Stones vocalist Mick Jagger performs with the band at Gillette Stadium in Foxborough, Mass., on Wednesday, Sept. 20, 2006 as they kick off the second half of the "A Bigger Bang Tour" in the United States. (AP Photo/Robert E. Klein)")
