Plot
Some decisions are easier to make than others, Sam seems to struggle with every decision. Not sure about whether or not to leave his girlfriend, he agrees to meet her in a bar. His thoughts portrayed as characters help clarify his final decision. However, Is it his decision to make?
Richard's emotions follow him around...literally.
Plot
Nathan Walker is a young man living in Chicago Heights, Illinois, many miles south of downtown Chicago. He finds himself entwined every day in the lives of his neighbors. They're polite, friendly, down-to-earth people. But in any community, individuals have their own private passions that their neighbors will never know. Each has a dark secret, a disappointed dream, a fervent hope, a spirit-breaking fear. We accompany Nathan while he comes of age and observe with him as the layers fall away from this seemingly random array of ordinary people who, below their practiced, Christian surfaces, are extraordinarily human.
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When a man takes a truth to himself
Depression or depress(ed) may refer to:
Andrew Solomon (born 30 October 1963) is a writer on politics, culture and psychology who lives in New York and London. He has written for The New York Times, The New Yorker, Artforum, Travel and Leisure, and other publications on a range of subjects, including depression,Soviet artists, the cultural rebirth of Afghanistan,Libyan politics, and deaf politics. His most recent book, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression won the 2001 National Book Award, was a finalist for the 2002 Pulitzer Prize, and was included in The Times of London's list of one hundred best books of the decade.
Solomon attended the Horace Mann School, graduating cum laude in 1981. He received a Bachelor of Arts degree in English from Yale University in 1985, graduating magna cum laude, and later earned a Master's degree in English at Jesus College, Cambridge. He is currently pursuing a Ph.D. in psychology, at Jesus College, Cambridge, working on attachment theory under the supervision of Prof. Juliet Mitchell.
Solomon is the oldest son of Howard Solomon, chairman of pharmaceutical manufacturer Forest Laboratories, and Carolyn Bower Solomon. Solomon described the experience of being present at his mother's planned suicide at the end of a long battle with ovarian cancer in an article for the New Yorker; in a fictionalized account in his novel, A Stone Boat; and again in The Noonday Demon. Solomon's subsequent depression, eventually managed with psychotherapy and antidepressant medications, inspired his father to secure FDA approval to market Celexa in the United States.
Stephen John Fry (born 24 August 1957) is an English actor, screenwriter, author, playwright, journalist, poet, comedian, television presenter, film director, and a director of Norwich City Football Club.
After a troubled childhood and adolescence, during which he was expelled from a number of schools and eventually spent three months in prison for credit card fraud, he was able to secure a place at Queens' College, Cambridge, where he studied English Literature.
He first came to public attention in the 1981 Cambridge Footlights Revue presentation "The Cellar Tapes", which also included Hugh Laurie, Emma Thompson and Tony Slattery. With Hugh Laurie, as the comedy double act Fry and Laurie, he co-wrote and co-starred in A Bit of Fry & Laurie, and took the role of Jeeves (with Laurie playing Wooster) in Jeeves and Wooster.
As an actor, Fry played the lead in the film Wilde, was Melchett in the BBC television series Blackadder, starred as the title character Peter Kingdom in the ITV series Kingdom, has a recurring guest role as Dr. Gordon Wyatt on the Fox crime series Bones and appeared as rogue TV host Gordon Deitrich in the dystopian thriller V For Vendetta. He has also written and presented several documentary series including the 2008 television series Stephen Fry in America, which saw him travelling across all 50 US states. Since 2003 he has been the host of the quiz show QI.
Zindel V. Segal is a cognitive psychologist, a specialist on depression and one of the founders of Mindfulness-based Cognitive Therapy (MBCT). A professor of psychiatry at University of Toronto, Segal combines mindfulness with conventional cognitive behavioral therapy, which teaches patients to observe sadness or unhappiness without judgment.
Presently he is the Cameron Wilson Chair in Depression Studies in the Department of Psychiatry at the University of Toronto. He is Head of the Cognitive Behaviour Therapy Clinic of the Mood and Anxiety Disorders Program in the Clinical Research Department at the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health and is a Professor in the Departments of Psychiatry at the University of Toronto.
When he first started working on the Mindfulness-based cognitive therapy (MBCT) project, he was studying how depression alters a person's self-image. His research included measuring a depressed patient's self-image by calculating the time it took her to react to positive or negative information about her. David Kupfer, who was head of the Psychobiology of Depression Research Network of the John D. and Catherine T. MacArthur Foundation, asked Segal to create a "maintenance" version of cognitive therapy which could be used to fight depression relapse after one had recovered from an acute episode. This need for a new therapy became Zindel Segal's new passion. He is the author of Mindfulness-Based Cognitive Therapy for Depression.
Depression - Klammer um meinen Kopf
Depression - hast nicht mal angeklopft
Depression - Ungebetener Gast
Depression - Produzierst in mir Haß
Depression, Depression
Depression - Meine Seele tut weh, so weh
Depression - Will keinen Menschen mehr seh'n
Depression - Im Meer von Alkohol
Depression - Hab' meine Achtung verlor'n
Depression, Depression
Depression, Depression
Depression, Depression
Depression, Depression
Ich sitz' in einer Wattekugel
Und tue mir so leid
Ich habe keine Hoffnung mehr
Daß mich noch jemand befreit
Depression - Hab' keine Tränen mehr
Depression - Und die Häuser sind leer, so leer
Depression - Du bist so unsagbar stumm
Depression - Bitte bring mich nicht um
Depression, Depression
Depression, Depression, Depression, Depression...
When the world's coming down like an anvil on your head.
You must make it, you can take it, if you just kick back.
It's all part of living this surviving dread.
But tell me when all's done and said.
Who needs depression.
You can hit the bottle or hit something instead.
You can take the bottle break it over someone's head.
Wind touches my face blowing slowly it's coldness
My soul has frozen in a solitude blink
making my being decline
Hiding my fears into my world
I can percieve this dark corner
these recoil's chains choke my desire
thoughts in fight, Illusions drawn in ice
Visions of pain, feelings of fault
depression comes, penetrates my heart
I can see a black horizon
it comes to me with all it's rage
(and I want to be free now)
But I don't give up
Frustrating sights, bad experiences
all over me, what desolation brings
Memories hurt, deception overflowing the sense
illusions fall, wishes go
I'm blind with the pain, forces left behind
Deep inside it sleeps
Time is all it needs
Rising from your soul
This feeling will take control
Thinkin' 'bout suicide
The preacher says "this is not right"
But everything is going wrong
You can't change, you're not strong
Come, here is the gun
Come on give in
To your obsession
Now, if you are strong
You'll pull the trigger
For your depression...
May be the other life will come
May be there's nothing and you were wrong
May be there is heaven mey be there is hell
May be there is nothing and you have failed
Pull the trigger - shoot yourself
Take the pills and poison yourself
You think this is just a dream
Soon you'll realize this is real
You have to act, you can't wait
Try to get out, it's too late...
Thinking about suicide
The preacher says "This is not right"
But everything is going wrong
You cannot change, you're so strong
Come, here is your gun
Come and give in
To your obsession
Now, if you are stonrg
You'll pull the trigger
right here, all by myself. i ain't got no one else. the situation is bleeding me. there's no relief for a person like me. depression's got a hold of me. depression, i gotta break free. depression's got a hold on me. depression's gonna kill me. i ain't got no friends to call my own. i just sit here all alone. there's no girls that want to touch me. i don't need your goddamn sympathy. depression's got a hold of me. depression, i gotta break free. depression's got a hold on me. depression's gonna kill me. everybody just get away. i'm gonna boil over inside today. they say things are gonna get better. all i know is they fuckin' better. depression's got a hold of me. depression, i gotta break free. depression's got a hold on me. depression's gonna kill me. depression's got a hold of me. depression, i gotta break free. depression's got a hold on me. depression's gonna kill me.
Frustration is getting the best of me
Trying to die isn't easy as it seems
I throw myself from the tip of my blade
Why is it so easy for those gays to get AIDS?
It's been 3 whole weeks of procrastination
Now I'll take the plunge with no hesitation
Because there's only so much that one man can give
I stand here empty handed with no reason to live
Well, they say that every dog has its day
But the obituaries never print my name
So I'm forced to decide my own extermination
Whatever the price I will learn my lesson
I feel this pain in the pit of my stomach
A pain that's so great, it's hard for me not to love it
Perhaps it's the maggots starting to devour
Organ by organ, hour by hour
Put me out of my misery
If you call yourself a friend
Put me out of my misery
Put a bullet in my head
True friends don't let true friends suffer
Pump the lead into my brain
Every night I pray to Mother
Right here, All by myself
I ain't got no one else
The situation is bleeding me
There's no relief for a person like me
Depression's got a hold of me
Depression - I gotta break free
Depression's got a hold of me
Depression's gonna kill me
I ain't got no friends to call my own
I just sit here all alone
There's no girls that want to touch me
I don't need your goddamn sympathy
Depression's got a hold of me
Depression - I gotta break free
Depression's got a hold of me
Depression's gonna kill me
Everybody just get away
I'm gonna boil over inside today
They say things are gonna get better
All I know is they fuckin' better
Depression's got a hold of me
Depression - I gotta break free
Depression's got a hold of me
life is a long lived torment
haunted by our useless existence
the world will still keep decaying
when we're all in our grave
depression
live is morbid hell
precious? I think not
who cares about the fellow man
your all just a bunch of fucking bastards
On tele, police are murdered, demonstrators are just killed
Why two different words for the blood that's spilled?
In this struggle, you decide who's right
But are condemned 'till the end of time, that man will fight
Condemned for all time are the super master race
They'll fight over religion or the colour of your face
When's the next Hitler? When's the next war?
When's the next time they'll exterminate the poor?
Who are "they", who are "us"?
when you have nothing, you haven't even hope to spare.
you're exactly where you want to be.
you wouldn't have it any other way.
any other way would be complication.
depression ain't so bad.
makes you wish you'd never been born,
but you always jump right back.
now i've been on top of the world,
and i've been stuck at the bottom.
i have kicked and i've crawled,
tried to get my way back up.
but there's nothing wrong with a break before you get back up.
depression ain't so bad.
Deep inside it sleeps
Time is all it needs
Rising from your soul
This feeling will take control
Thinkin' 'bout suicide
The preacher says "this is not right"
But everything is going wrong
You can't change, you're not strong
Come, here is the gun
Come on give in
To your obsession
Now, if you are strong
You'll pull the trigger
For your depression...
May be the other life will come
May be there's nothing and you were wrong
May be there is heaven mey be there is hell
May be there is nothing and you have failed
Pull the trigger - shoot yourself
Take the pills and poison yourself
You think this is just a dream
Soon you'll realize this is real
You have to act, you can't wait
Try to get out, it's too late...
Thinking about suicide
The preacher says "This is not right"
But everything is going wrong
You cannot change, you're so strong
Come, here is your gun
Come and give in
To your obsession
Now, if you are stonrg
You'll pull the trigger
Depression touches me, deep inside
Emptiness fills my mind
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, end is near
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust
No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality
Confusion rules me, leads astray
Happiness so far away
Loss of interest, loss of hope
Life pass by far to slow
Loss of senses, apathy
Shades of black blindfolds me
Causing wounds
That time won't heal
A grim reality
Will now reveal
(repeat)
Now life seems to cease
Nothing will be the same again
No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality
Illusions leads me to agony
Trapped inside, disharmony
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, ending nears
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
Depression touches me, deep inside
Emptiness fills my mind
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, end is near
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust
No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality
Confusion rules me, leads astray
Happiness so far away
Loss of interest, loss of hope
Life pass by far to slow
Loss of senses, apathy
Shades of black blindfolds me
Causing wounds
That time won't heal
A grim reality
Will now reveal
Now life seems to cease
Nothing will be the same again
No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality
Illusions leads me to agony
Trapped inside, disharmony
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, ending nears
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust
Right here all by myself
I ain't got nobody else
The situation
The situation is bleeding me there's no relief
Depression
Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression
Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
I ain't got no friends to call my own
I just sit here all alone
There's no girls, there's no girls, there's no girls
that(?) wanna touch me get away I don't need your fucking
sympathy
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression
Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression
Depression
Depression gonna kill me...
Everybody just get away
I'm gonna boil over inside(?)
They say
They say things
They say things are gonna get better
All I know is they fucking better
Trapped within myself
Got no way out
Feeling messed up
Have to find some answers
To questions I don't know
Feeling down on life
Got no way out
Can you help me?
To make sense of the time
I spend trying to grow
Confined to my room
It's so quiet
I need to be alone
Losing track of time
Lost in a story, it's full of lies
People I used to know
Have turned their backs
Towards me
Got no reason
Get on with their lives and don't ask why
Depression, it's a mental state
I'm trying to cope I'm trying to relate
Depression, it's a mental state
Turn it around before it's too late
Well I've got problems
And we've got worries
And we've got feelings
But you don't think that I do
No, you don't think I do
But I do
Try to bring me down
Push me to the side
Think I'm lost?
Well I've found the answers
To questions I don't know
Get back on my feet
Do as I want
I can help me
To make sense of the time I spend
Trying to grow
Depression, it's a mental state
I'm trying to cope I'm trying to relate
Depression, it's a mental state
life is a long lived torment
haunted by our useless existence
the world will still keep decaying
when we're all in our grave
depression
live is morbid hell
precious? I think not
who cares about the fellow man
your all just a bunch of fucking bastards
depression
If I held my breath in the morning
Would I wake up for a lifetime?
Lose my job in this depression
Well, I don't care 'cause I got your love
In this depression
All I need is you
In this depression
What is there to lose?
If I held your hand in this town
They would lock me up for possession
But now they're strung out on heroin
And we've gone out to California
In this depression
Breaks my heart in two
In this depression
All I need is you
I could make some friends down at the courthouse
Get bailed out and go on welfare
I'd rather lay down in a pine box
Than to sell my heart to a fucking wasteland
In this depression
It's just me and you
In this depression
What do we do?
In this depression
Breaks my heart in two
In this depression
All I need is you
If I held my breath in the morning
Would I wake up in a new land?
I'd follow you forever
And dance all night in this depression
In this depression
In this depression
In this depression
MANIC RAGE
Depression
There is a meaning of life
Just no one knows it
And I’ve got something inside
But I can’t expose it
So I’ll just bide my time
Being different’s not a crime
This life is fucking hostile
But it’s mine
I’m breaking down
I’m fading out
You can waste me now
Because I’ve fallen on my stance
I’m breaking down
I’m fading out
Come on and waste me now
I don’t deserve another chance
I’m sick in the head
Sometimes I wish I was dead
Because I’m dumb and a perve
I think I’m scum of the earth
I’m sick in the head
Sometimes I wish I was dead
Because I’m scum of the earth
Please give me what I deserve
An early grave
Like father, like son
Retarded and dumb
Why the hell am I still alive
When all I wonna do is die.
I’ve mustered the energy to survive
But not long to my suicide
I wonna die!
I wonna die!
I wonna die!
[instrumental]
What I feel
But cannot see
It's the fear of a man
Reality of man and woman
If I could be a child with a hole in my head
I'd take my mind out and rape it in my bed
The juices of my naked soul shall slow
Then I'd be more then just a man
Before I go
I've decided to find
The mind I've lost to the gardens of grey
Where it was left with children to cry
If I could be more pure and naked than those
Who brought me in here, I could have rosen
My hapiness out and engrave the name
Of my hatred god to it
Though others say that I'm often sad
The deserted valleys and the sand
Will prove with every springful rose
That I still exist and be
What could be more beautiful than
A funeral where grief and fear of a man
Are floating grey to the face of the truth
Of the deceased
Crushed by the world in which I live,
They've taken my all and I have nothing to give.
The pressures upon me are far too great,
I'll struggle and fail,
but I'll try not to hate.
The depths of my world are almost destroyed,
Like illusionary comforts
that I once had enjoyed.
This pit in my gut is just sinking away
And this fucking disease,
I just can't hold it at bay.
Give me a pint
Give me a gun
Give me a needle,
Give me someone that I can believe in
To stop this Depression!
Depression!
Depression!
Try as I might to fill my insides,
Everything's pale,
they all look like lies.
Feeling so cold and alone in the dark,
I cry out for help,
I can't even hark.
As the light starts to fade on this pathetic life,
Just one helping hand will seal out the strife.
The care from a friend will carry me through
The love that I seek,
Crave for the indecision.
Awaiting the ultimate answer.
Restless in infinite tediousness.
Verity uprises from Nihilant.
Womb of all ill shaped self reflections.
Doing time for stealing words
This cuts through me and likewise hurts
To my pain i wrote this song someway
I'll come back to cover my wounds one day
Booze never feels any worse love can never be a downer
Money can't pay for what you've thrown away
Don't come back to stay with me
Women come and women go
I've loved, i've lost
I've told you so
The sun will shine on me someway
I'll come back to clean up my wounds one day
I said listen to me bro this is where i'm at
Can you help me with this time of hardship and some of
that
I can use a clean place to stay and a warm bed
Somewhere soft to rest my head
Well i'm doing time
I'm feeling fine
I'm on my way
Well i've hurt so long you keep me strong
I'm on my way
What has been done, this boy won't run
I'll have to pay
I well not lose and i thank you
Can You Feel The Hatered
Deep Within My Soul
Never To Escape This
Feel The Hatered
Life it Feels so Worthless
Living it This way
Deep Feeling of Sadness
Helplessness
I Feel Worthless
Depression
I am Hopeless
Depression
A Deep Sadness
Depression
Empty Feelings
Depression
Fills My Soul
The empty feeling
That comes from within
Knowing there is no one
Thinking of you
Tears well in your eyes
Depression leaks out
I am Getting Desperate
Darkness Looms
I Need Help - Help Me (x3)
Horid Ways of Emotion
Dark and Lonely Place
Vacant are My Eyes
My Mind
I've Been Suffering
For So Fucking Long
No One To Reach Out To