Mariupol (Ukrainian: Маріу́поль, pronounced [mariˈupʌlʲ]; Russian: Мариу́поль; Greek: Μαριούπολη), formerly known as Zhdanov (Cyrillic: Жда́нов), is a port and a major industrial city in the southeastern Ukraine. It is located on the coast of the Azov Sea, at the mouth of the Kalmius River. Mariupol is a popular sea resort known for its large Greek diaspora community (see Greeks in Ukraine).
Administratively, the city is located in the Donetsk oblast and historically formed a part of the broader Donbas region. As of June 1, 2010, the city population stood at 490,063 people. Mariupol is an important industrial centre and seaport. Two of its steel mills - Ilyich Iron and Steel Works and Azovstal - are among the largest in the country and make up a significant part of Ukraine's total exports.[citation needed] «Azovmash», a machine-building concern, located in Mariupol, is the largest company of its kind in Ukraine. Overall, Mariupol industry accounts for 37.5% of Donetsk oblast’s total exports and about 7.0% of all Ukraine’s exports.[citation needed]
A proof of failure is right in front of me,
somebody else's happiness to make my knees weak
Acting like nothing ever happened
I guess nothing ever did
I could calm this storm,
but I'm gonna turn my head instead
I was out
Then I was up
And now I tripped and I'm falling again
I was gone
Then I was there
And now I tripped and I'm falling again
Down and out
Even as a loser it's too difficult to move on
This hope for something right is broken but not gone
Maybe if I would've ignored you and not bothered digging the hole
Call it panic or a mistake
I never really thought about what I'd take
Either way, I chose to disregard you
I'm all in a knot, and I guess I messed up
I went from caring to not giving a fuck
And I'll never find a way to say I'm sorry
'cause I could hear you,
and I could see you,
if I could've been here at another time
If I would've said something,
done something,
let you in at the time
And now I'm lost out here, astray
I need so badly what I threw away
If you could read my mind, would you even bother?
So I'll just sit here drugged and dumb,
pretending like I'm having fun
a campfire my remedy for having nothing, nothing better
Now I'm cold, I'm hot
I'm warm, I'm not
I'm heavy, but I'm a feather
I'm high, I'm low
I really don't know
I can't pull myself together
If I would've said something at the time
If I really would've known you
On the couch, barely staying awake,
feeling something eating away at you
Just sitting wasting time
because it seems there's never anything else to do
And when you finally get up and go,
all you can do is drink yourself to a breaking point
And then you puke and you're at a starting line again
And it always seems the same
It's like nothing will ever change
A lot of weight is about all I can gain
If I ever make it anywhere,
wonder if I'll see a reason to care
I'll probably keep groaning that nothing's fair
You keep on complaining and complaining more,
even though you've got a lot going your way
But when you're feeling so empty inside,
then a lot, it really means nothing anyway
A bottle is the only thing worth opening
Right now it all just seems to suck
"Where will you be a year from now?"
With no ambition, a question like that can't mean much
I'll probably keep telling myself nothing's fair,
'cause nothing ever seems fair
Kicked out of my dream world,
into a talking gear
But I don't want to talk to you at all
I don't even want to hear
Just let me alone with my pillow and bed
Let me deal with my cluttered head
Come back and see me in maybe a year
Well if you have to know,
I think my mind's about to explode
So leave my phone on hold
If you're gonna have to help me,
at least come and be next to me
And clear your head with me
I'm not sure this is the way
I'm not sure what you'll say
I'm not sure what to think
Forced into conversations better off left undone,
'cause if we keep talking like we're talking,
we'll end up under the gun
It'd be better off left undone, I know,
'cause if we keep talking like we're talking,
This is too confusing
What do you want me to do?
Stop with one mistake, only to make a bigger one with you?
A silent ring is gaining on me while I'm stopped to catch my breath
I can't seem to start running
I'm all caught up in a web
If I could change my mind . . .
If I could change your mind . . .
I'd find a new way to see so I could look at you differently
Do you want to give me pressure?
Is that your only goal?
I'd like to tell you how I feel,
but at this point I don't know
This situation has a purpose,
but I'm too dumb to know what
All I know is that I stumbled
I stumbled into a rut
So I guess you'll probably forget me
I guess I'm in square one again
So I guess you're gonna pass me up
When I think of you glowing and all those times spent beside you,
I can't think of one single word I ever said that was untrue
We were the club, and no substance could keep us away from the contest
And now that you're gone, there's a part of me inside that's upset
'cause I know we had to let you go away
But when you left you took a part of me
And so now there's just one thing we all want to say
"We just want to play our 'BK'"
And now these memories are all that I've got
You know there's nothing like the feeling of hitting a 2 million jackpot
And hesshin' boy would always take the ransom back up to the "O"
And if you weren't coughing, head spinning, then you knew it wasn't your turn to go
Back to the laundromat,
to make our pockets fat,
so now we're almost ready to go
We've gotta get all jacked,
and make sure we're packed,
so the money's easy to blow
And we'll start the game when we all feel the same,
and when the flippers extend from your hand
When your eyes are the ball,
the music's your call,
you hit the lightning wheel
SPIN
Now I'm ready to win
My ransom chances look slim
I'd better play again
All those times beside you . . .
They're all gone
We're all gone
We're all cashed out now
We've got better things to do
And if there's one wish I could have today,
A backseat driver, is that all I'll ever be?
Or can I just stand around and wait until the wheel gets shoved at me?
I keep thinking about what goes through her head
Does she hear how I go on and on and wonder what I just said?
And if she does, does she really want to know?
'cause the barrier of communication keeps wanting to grow
That gap between us just keeps wanting to grow
I'd better say it now, or she'll never know
I'll just shut my big mouth,
because there are no right words
There are no right words
I can't try to untie my tongue,
because these words won't ever come
Those words
those right words
won't ever show up
Am I insane or just a bit far gone?
Or is the magnet pulling me to her just too fucking strong?
I keep wishing and wishing more and more
I keep wishing
I kept wishing
It's all gone away,
but not for good, I'm assured
But what's the most a promise can mean?
It's nothing more, nothing more than a phrase
Just a stupid little phrase
My excuse to keep living a dream
An insignificant dream, for insignificant me
And what if I got bent up today?
Now there's no one left there to make sure I'm okay
There's no more comfort, nothing more to say
We can finally call a truce, 'cause I'm no longer in the way
I wish I could say what was bothering me
I can't really tell what's bothering me
I've got no more security
Seems like all this time's been wasted not picturing what happens in so long
And I never think ahead too far, too long, 'cause what if I'm wrong?
You've always been there in some way, some form, but mostly looked past
And now I'm sick to my stomach, I'm so tired of feeling trapped
And while I was falling, you were always reaching
But I just never looked and saw you there
And now I'm smiling
Now I can't stop
Now I'm feeling no more fear
I just let my guard down for a minute
And a minute, that was all you needed
to make me realize my place,
and that wound was where I bled, was why I bled
I didn't understand where or why I bled
And while I was falling, you were always reaching
But I just didn't want to see you there
And now I'm laughing
Now I can't stop
Now I'm in my safehouse here
I didn't want to believe that I could somehow have a say
I didn't want to believe you'd be with me another day
I didn't want to believe that I could somehow find a way
I'm getting tired of being tired
Let me find what seems to be lost inside
There has to be something else to fill the bland, to fill the blank
And if its all ideal this way--the way its always been supposed to be,
then why does my mind feel completely ganked?
You know it can't be right like this,
'cause everything's spinning around
My head, it's like a traffic jam,
and it's spinning around and around
You know it can't be right like this,
'cause everything's spinning around
I feel like I'm losing my grip,
and I'm spinning around and around
I could say that I'm feeling tough
I'm gonna say, "I think I've had enough"
And everything's gone completely crazy for me--no focus on anything anymore
I know I still have control
But till when?
I'll stop to take a break for a while,
vow to find something else to indulge
But every time it's back to where I've been
Now I can't come to terms with myself
Too busy worrying about everything else
Wonder if I'll find my relief in time
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
I travel the world
And the seven seas--
Everybody's looking for something.
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont
Ill close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
Turn down the lights
turn down the bed
turn down these voices inside my head
lay down with me
tell me no lies
just hold me close
don't patronize
don't patronize me
I can't make you love me
if you don't
you can't make your heart feel
something it won't
here in the dark
these final hours
I will lay down my heart
I feel the power
but you won't
no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
if you don't
I close my eyes
then I won't see
the love you don't feel
when you're holding me
morning will come
and I'll do what's right
just give me til then
to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
you can't make your heart feel
something it won't
here in the dark
these final hours
I will lay down my heart
I feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
and I can't make you love me
if you don't
There ain't no use in you trying
if you don't love me Baby!
ain't no use in you trying
if you don't
if you don't
if you don't
if you don't love me
there ain't nothing I can do
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