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Nick Name and The Normals is the story of an ex-Mormon missionary from Logan, Utah who transformed into openly gay punk Rocker Nick Name. It follows the band on their notorious Gay Pride tour (including San Francisco, LA, London and Las Vegas) as Nick Name must fight hostile reactions from both straight and gay audiences as well as battle the psychological demons from his religious upbringing.
Keywords: band-manager, concert-footage, country-music-singer, county-fair, dog, ebay, ex-mormon, gay-club, gay-interest, gay-mormon
Sometimes, one man is all it takes for a revolution.
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A young man from a rural area is on the brink of success in the big city, but it all falls apart and he returns to his small home town, to his family and friends who all think he's a hero. His city girlfriend follows and they both discover that going home isn't always easy.
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Charles is the owner of a photo-shop. He is not too friendly and spends his evenings alone, and one day he finally decides to get a social life. He meets elderly Florence, who is tormented by her gambling husband Lester and longs for the son Willie she hasn't seen or heard of for 20 years.
Keywords: independent-film
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A small passenger spaceship is forced to make a crash landing somewhere on a desolate territory on Earth. In search of some essential mineral the crew discovers a hidden stash of military bio-weapon surplus. One of the crew members gets infected, and starts showing murderous tendencies.
Keywords: helicopter
Seal is broken, Terror is unleashed....
Clean is a 2004 film directed by French director Olivier Assayas, starring Nick Nolte and Maggie Cheung. It was jointly funded by Canada, France, and United Kingdom sources.
Cheung plays Emily Wang, a former video jockey, who has been in a tempestuous relationship with Lee Hauser (played by James Johnston of Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds), a rock musician, for several years. Lee's friends feel that Emily is bad for him, accusing her of being a junkie. As the film opens, the pair have arrived in Hamilton, Canada, to see Metric perform. Their young son, Jay, is living in Vancouver with Lee's parents.
Following an argument in their motel room, Emily walks out on Lee, and after taking some heroin, falls asleep in her car. When she returns to the motel the following morning, she finds that Lee has died of a drug overdose, and the Ontario Provincial Police are investigating. As Emily attempts to force her way into the room to see Lee, the Police find the heroin in her bag, and she is arrested.
Emily spends six months in prison for possession, and upon her release, discovers that custody of her son has been awarded to Lee's parents. She resolves to return to Paris, where she used to live before meeting Lee. Before she leaves, she briefly meets with Albrecht, Lee's father, played by Nick Nolte, who tells her that he would prefer that she not see Jay for a few years.
There was a time
When crazy days would start with wine
And now I tow a different line
I stay in bed and use my loaf instead f my bread
And stroll on 'cos I've been thinking so long
That something's gonna go wrong
It's gone to my head my vision's all blurred
And my legs feel like lead
But I'm clean yeah
Friends with Mr Sheen yeah
Don't have to wean myself up on nothing
I'm two minutes clean and that's not very often
Stroll on
There was a time
When I would dread what I had said
Waking up in someone's bed
Wondering who I was
Naked and cold
With an ache in my head
And stroll on 'cos I've been thinking so long
That's something's gonna go wrong
It's gone to my head my vision's all blurred
And my legs feel like lead
But I'm clean yeah
Friends with Charlie Sheen yeah
Don't have to wean myself up on nothing
I'm two minutes clean and that's not very often
I'm clean yeah
Gonna meet the queen yeah
I won't be obscene yeah
'cos I'm two minutes clean and that's not very often
Stroll on and on and on and on and on
You might see me stumble, you might see me fall
You might see me cornered with my back against the wall
I may be incognito, maybe out to lunch
Maybe caught red-handed or maybe just a hunch
But I'm clean, clean, clean, clean, clean before my Lord
Clean, clean, clean, clean, clean before my Lord
Like a spotless lamb, I'm blameless in His sight
With no trace of wrong, left to right
I'm clean, clean, clean
Kneeling in the closet, begging daily bread
There may be a skeleton hanging overhead
Where are my accusers, nowhere to be found
They all dropped their stones when the master came around
'Cause I'm clean, clean, clean, clean, clean before my Lord
Clean, clean, clean, clean, clean before my Lord
Like a spotless lamb, I'm blameless in His sight
With no trace of wrong left to right
I'm clean, clean, clean
I've missed the mark I can't deny it
I don't condone or justify it
But I've done nothing that His blood can't wash away
When I take it to the cross and start to pray
Hey, I'm talking to you
Hey, He's gonna see me through
Hey, I'm talking to you
I'm clean, clean, clean, clean, clean before my Lord
Clean, clean, clean, clean, clean before my Lord
Like a spotless lamb, I'm blameless in His sight
With no trace of wrong left to right
Clean
The cleanest I've been
An end to the tears
And the in-between years
And the troubles I've seen
Now that I'm clean
You know what I mean
I've broken my fall
Put an end to it all
I've changed my routine
Now I'm clean
I don't understand
What destiny's planned
But I'm starting to grasp
What is in my own hands
I don't claim to know
Where my holiness goes
I just know that I like
What is starting to show
Sometimes ...
Clean ...
As years go by
All the feelings inside
Twist and they turn
As they ride with the tide
I don't advise
And I don't criticise
I just know what like
With my own eyes
Sometimes
Clean
Today, everything was fine fine fine
Until roundabout quarter to 9, suddenly I found myself in a bind, a bind
Was it something I said
Something I read
And manifest that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried
Say what u will
Say what u mean
No, you could never offend
Your dirty words come out clean, clean
Tomorrow, what price will I pay
Could I make it all up to you by serving coffee for two in bed, would you then give me the time of day
I need a map of your head, translated into english so I can learn to not make you frown
Feel better if you vent, put your frustrations into four letter words and let them out on mine
The most weathered ears in town!
Say what u will
Say what u mean
No, you could never offend
Your dirty words come out clean
Clean
Say what u will
Say what u mean
No, you could never offend
Your dirt words come out clean
Say what u will
Say what u mean
No, you could never offend
I want you to stay the way you are, skinny legs and all
I know the time is coming when the boys will begin to call
I wish that I could hurt for you when you are learning how to fall
You are the reason that I am alive today
you are the reason that I have changed my life in a wonderful way
I can see the passion that is growing inside of you
I can see the sadness that throws a shadow down on everything you do
I wish I was the man you thought I was
Back when life was new for you
You don't know what it's like to feel a love like this
You don't know what it's like to feel this kind of helplessness
You don't know what it's like to be weak
I hope you never know
I don't want you to be like me
I want you to be clean
Clean
You are going to find a reason to hate me someday
You are going to find a reason to push me away
You are going to find reasons to blame me for your pain
I hope you never lose the magic that is big inside of you
I hope you never do the ridiculous things that I used to do
I hope you never know my disease
Never being good enough
I don't want you to be like me
I want you to be clean
I'd like to hide away
Somewhere without light
Somewhere dark and warm, no given chance to lose
Without a care in my head, I could sleep right through
I gave it all away today
Those empty stares won't be from me
There's not much to look forward to
But as long as I can't remember
Took a shower today
Couldn't feel the water hit my face
Pinched the skin on my arm and I couldn't feel the pain
I guess my wish came true, so, now may I not lose
I gave it all away today
Those empty stares won't be from me
There's not much to look forward to
Am I pretty enough for you now that my ribs show through?
With a little makeup I can look brand new, but can I be pretty
enough for you?
Fill me with secrets and I'll never tell
fatten me up, and I'll feed you well
you can polish me perfectly and I'll shine pristine
but not even a cherub is this clean
Am I all that you d hoped that I would be, hanging on obediently
to the words that I'm finding so hard to believe?
Am I all that you d hoped that I would be?
Why don't you just stop me if I'm sounding ungrateful
Spread your mind the fish feed
Don't ignore my speech my
Heart bleeds
Make yourself the perfect butt
Some passing thought, I don't know what
Don't remind me, I'll take
What I need to
Get back in case the door swings and
Don't forget to hide
Your mood rings
Fit to tie
I thought I knew good company
I'd like to be you
You're right behind me and
Mouth all I read
Don't remind me, I'll take
What I need to
You're right behind me and
Mouth all I read
Last time I saw you, you were bragging about your son
Because he's nothing like yourself
Unlike you he's not who you see
He hides his guilt comfortably
He could've cleaned you up
But instead he inherits all of your drugs
So he throws them in the sea
Mixed with the ashes of who you used to be
And you'll never be more than a memory
You were the most important person in his life
But he never found the time
To reflect your honest regard
Clothed in the common and profane
And the tendency for independence runs through every vein
Self aware, bare before you at the water side
Afraid to take the step into the tide
Oh, I feel so obscene knowing I am only
Clean because you promised me
I'm clean, wash me, I am clean
Called apart never has meant loneliness
But it feels that way any day I'd rather not confess
So take away the part of me that forgets the price of grace
I have only one hope to erase every failure I have seen and I am only
Clean because you promised me
I'm clean, wash me, I am clean
And ready for the world
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you
Clean because you promised me
I'm clean, wash me, I am clean
And ready for the world
I'm clean because you promised me
I'm clean, wash me, I am clean
And ready for the world, ready for the world
Ready for the world, ready for the world
Clean, j'ai bonne mine, pourtant creuse un peu en moi, crois-moi et vois ma ruine,
une parodie pâle du bien paraître, social total mental, j'me mens!
Depuis longtemps déjà dans mon sang se cache ce qui tâche mes semblants,
juste un verre de ce blanc pour parler libre-ment!
C'est tellement plus communicant! C'est tellement plus in! Dans le vent!
Désinhibant ma timidité dans la communauté!
T'entends pas le tic et tac qui résonne dans ma tête ? Ding dong, qui sombre ?
Non, je voile ma face, j'veux pas d' trace, ni cure, ni aide, ni quoi que ce soit, j'angoisse!
j'ai le remède pourtant c'est ce qui m'obsède et qui me possède tant!
Depuis longtemps déjà dans mon sang se cache ce qui tâche mes semblants,
juste un verre de ce blanc pour parler plus sou-vent!
C'est tellement plus communicant! C'est tellement plus in! Dans le vent!
Désinhibant ma timidité dans la communauté!
J'ai beau faire l'effort, mais ma crise m'enlise, je pars en vrac! mec! et tout se détraque!
Mon talon d'Achille, une épine qui me ruine tant
Je maîtrise plus ma tête, c'est net, depuis longtemps, j'ai beau faire l'effort
J'n'ai pas les nerfs si solides, j'suis livide, toujours la même sensation qu'un poison lent
coule dans mes veines, et me mène vers le néant, le problème c'est que ça fait trop longtemps
Depuis longtemps déjà dans mon sang, se cache ce qui tâche mes semblants
Depuis longtemps je suis sur les nerfs, mais il y'a rien a faire en dedans!
Use me as much as you can
Cause you've never been
More than a friend
Cause I try to push you away
And make myself clean
And forget you hurt me
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
Pressure, the less that I feel
The more that I heal
And put back the peices
Cause you keep taking my sould
Keep from letting it go
And setting me free
You keep bringing me down
Keep my head above ground
The ground that I lay
Cause I try myself everyday
And say it's o.k.
For bringing me pain...
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
And when I step outside this place
All I see is empty
And when I look into your face
All I see is emptiness
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
she is the little bitch her cuts she cannot stitch the blood begins to gush and now she knows too much she
rapes you with her mind can't leave her past behind invites you with her eyes destroys you with her...lies
psychopathic, now you ask if things are what they seem reality is all that's dirty underneath the clean
she loads the empty gun she fucks him just for fun she sucks her thumb to sleep thre's nothing left to keep
she spits whats in her mouth she rips her insides out she likes to see him bleed she bites the hand that...
feeds
reality is all the shit that makes me fuckin..scream! "there is no escaping here"
eenie meenie minie moe what you reap is what you sew if you hollar i will know can't let it, won't let it
gotta let it go
put on your face pretend to be brave what you don't know won't hurt you it's too late to be saved feelin so
clean i'm feelin so clean take another look cuz things are not what they... i don't wanna be clean
Losing, living, losing grip
Feeling, taking, feel like shit
I came here with nothing
But leaving now means leaving everything behind
I've pushed you farther than you'd go
I'm not your lover
Not your enemy
Why would you push all the buttons, open any door
And what I wish for
Is you wide awake
But you feel like rain in my head
Brainwash me clean
See, hate is no surprise
We fought everything we could
Synchronized our intentions
Until we lost what we had found
I've pushed you farther than you'd go
I'm not your lover
Not your enemy
Why would you push all the buttons, open any door
And what I wish for
Is you wide awake
But you feel like rain in my head
Brainwash me clean
Oh, well
That's good
I'm alright
And it's getting even better now
Remind me why I wanted this job
Because I'm starting to forget
Don't say no, say okay
As if saying so will make it so
I've pushed you farther than you'd go
I'm not your lover
Not your enemy
Why would you push all the buttons, open any door
And what I wish for
Is you wide awake
But you feel like rain in my head
Brainwash me clean
Who wanted those silly flowers in the backyard
Finish me
Push me off the ledge
So hard to read
So hard to make a call on what you do or say
It's not my place to do so, anyway
A magnet pulls
It singes the air
I'm torn in two
I'm watching your fingers painting shadows with the beat
Longing for your hands to reach out for me
And don't you know
I need to come clean
[Chorus:]
Indiscreet
I've got something to say
Giving away my dirty deed
Is it indiscreet
I've got nothing to lose
To tell you you're the liquid of my dreams
I need to come clean
Taunting me
I'd say you were there
We're stumbling
We're walking a tightrope made of high voltage wire
We're melting as we tend to our fires
You're whispering
I don't want to hear
You're mumbling
You see how I fight to claw my way further down
The need to bury my secret is strong
And yet I know
I need to come clean
[Chorus]
Heaven help me
Will I ever be clean of this
Mortally afflicted
Heaven help...
But leave a light on so you can watch me sin
[Chorus]
Glistening
We dance in the rain
So easy now
So hard to pull the brake once you're on the ride
You'll get to know me from the inside
i'm guilty. i've got closets full of bones i try to hide.
really try. i know what you don't know can't hurt you.
but i'm burning up inside. unburdened. so clean. come
clean. that clean. i warn you that all this stuff locked
up in here could explode out. then you're on fire. so
hungry for that decompression. confession will provide.
unburdened. so clean. come clean. that clean. i know all
you went out there on your own.
you went out there to carry the weight.
and nobody here goes free.
you went to wear the crown of thorns.
to throw the first stone at yourself.
cause nobody here is clean.
and you gave yourself away.
every finger is pointing at you.
everything is accusing you.
everybody is needing a scapegoat.
so you got out there.
you're hit in the face.
you're spit in the face.
now where is your god.
Why are you laughing?
Behold
These ears can't hear a thing
Why are we crying?
It's been too dry
A tear's a waste of drink
I think I'll lie here
And let
What's left begin to sink
Take what's left of me
And just throw it away
'Cuse it's anything else but clean
Take the best of me
And just throw it away
Why are we trying?
We know
That this will end the same
Why aren't we dying?
It seems
That it's the only way to change
Take what's left of me
And just throw it away
'Cuse it's anything but clean
So just throw me away
Take the best of me
And just throw it away
'Cuse it's anything but clean
Take the best of me
And just throw it out
Take the best of me
And just throw it away
'Cuse it's anything but clean
Take the best of me
We'll go to square one
We'll go to square one
We'll say squaring
I looked in to your eyes
And you looked in to my mouth
And you said something
Yeah I'm drawing to a whole
Yeah I'm drawing to a whole
Yeah I'm drawing to a whole
To a whole
We'll get over it
We'll go over it
We'll do something
You looked in to my eyes
And I looked in to my mouth
We'll say something
Yeah I'm drawing to a whole
Yeah I'm drawing to a whole
Yeah I'm drawing to a whole
Billy didn't have alot to say
he never ever spoke
I looked him in the eye just once
and then I looked away
And then I looked away
Well I'm looking at him now
and he hasn't a word to say
And where were you and where was I
well I guess that's another day
Yeah I guess that's another day
Going Billy
Hail Billy
Oh Billy
Uh huh, uh huh
Well where am I today
and where was your face
Yeah you turned your head but it isn't the same
no it's only all gone
And now, it's all gone.
Going Billy
Hail Billy
Oh Billy
Uh huh, uh huh
Where am I today
and where have you been
Well I don't wanna see you around here
but I guess that's all gone
Yeah I guess that's all gone
Going Billy
Hail Billy
Oh Billy
You seem like a great big cat
on the (?)
(?)the couple the tea
you still wearing a pussy
i wish you we changes
you seem like a great big rat
on the big cheese
(?) piece for you
you still the big cheese
throwing around in your palms
big cat
big cat
Went to a doctor, said I look so hard
and with a smile on his face but him into a junkyard
Look for an answer in empty doorways
Talk to a dancer, said it's out on the highway
Well come on doctor, won't you gimme a shot
I'm feeling cold boy, feeling hot
Doctor said no boy you gotta learn
First don't shoot up and then it's your turn
Well anything could happen
and it could be right now
and the choice is yours
to make it worthwhile
Anything could happen
and it could be right now
and the choice is yours
so make it worthwhile
Make the cancellation and I got numb
I haven't the motivation to get myself a gun
Look for an answer in empty doorways
Talk to a dancer, said it's out on the highway
Well here I am in the big city
I got no heart and I got no pity
Can't you see I'm on the run
can't you see I'm not having any fun
Anything could happen
and it could be right now
and the choice is yours
to make it worthwhile
Anything could happen
and it could be right now
and the choice is yours
Oh you're getting older
You're getting older
And you don't know why
And you don't know what to do
Well you're getting older
You're getting older
And you tell yourself
And you tell yourself it too
So don't go out in the kitchen
Or any other place
Yeh don't go out in the open
Or ever show your face
So why don't you do yourself in?
Yeh why don't you do yourself in?
Oh you're getting older
You're getting older
And you don't know why
And you don't know what to do
Well you're getting older
You're getting older
And you tell yourself
And you tell yourself it too
So don't go out in the kitchen
Or any other place
So don't go out in the open
Or ever show your face
So why don't you do yourself in?
Yeh why don't you do yourself in?
Oh la la la la
La la la la
La la la la
La la la la la
So la la la la
La la la la
La la la la
This little boy like all the rest,
'cause he knows just what to say (to him?).
He's never been put to the test,
'cause he knows just where to find him.
All his life he's ???
Ya know, he's never had no problems.
The house he lived in was so shitty
but she still kept them coming (?)
And who's gonna pay the bills today,
And who's gonna turn the girls away,
And who's gonna make you feel OK,
And who's gonna take the pills today.
Yeah, you know it can't be me.
Yeah, you know it can't be me.
Sometimes I just feel too much and I don't wanna feel
at all.
He said to his mother one day
"You know, mama ??? difference" (?)
Said said son "You'll have to go, you know it's just
too much to keep ya" (?)
The day ??? as he walked down the road ya know his head
was full of sorrow.
Little did he know he'd never see his own home again.
And who's gonna pay the bills today,
And who's gonna turn the girls away,
And who's gonna make you feel OK,
And who's gonna take the pills today.
Yeah, you know it can't be me.
Yeah, you know it can't be me.
And, sometimes I just feel too much and I don't wanna
feel at all.
He said to his friends "c'mon let's go, I'll take you
to the shoulder"
He said "No, no. Look here my friend, you make me feel
much older."
They left him alone sitting on the road.
You know, his head was full of marbles.
Little did he know he would never see the words he knew
so well.
And who's gonna pay the bills today,
And who's gonna turn the girls away,
And who's gonna make you feel OK,
And who's gonna take the pills today.
Yeah, you know it can't be me.
Yeah, you know it can't be me.
And, sometimes I just feel too much and I don't wanna
Baby when you say you want me
I'll faint and know it's not true
I know when you hold me
you won't see it through
Don't point me out of the crowd
don't point that thing at me
Going uptown as fast as I can go
Going down and don't feel low
Going out, all around
Sitting waiting around
Linger little longer
Ski on covered ground
Looking for a star
Could be any star
Could be in a movie
Looking like that
We should go far
If your at my side
Don't get in the sunlight
If your at my side
Keep it that way
Even in my past
I would linger longer
Sometimes in the past
I would even stay
Linger Longer
Linger Longer
You'll never find just what you want
By running up that hill
Past is all so far behind
You'll never get it back
The present's there - it's set you know
You're dealing with it now
I'd love to help you with it
But I really don't know how
I guess it's what we're hoping for -
Just a little truth.
I guess it's just an open door
We'll hide you out in a secret place
You'll never know you've been
We'll cover you with what you love
You'll last until the spring
The future's where it's gonna be
In times to come to mind
No more sitting back and waiting
For things to unwind
I guess it's what we're hoping for -
Just a little truth
I guess it's just an open door
We'll hide you out in a secret place
You'll never know you've been
We'll cover you, with what you love
You'll last until the spring
I guess it's what we're hoping for -
Just a little truth
I guess it's just an open door
We'll hide you out in a secret place
You'll never know you've been
We'll cover you, with what you love
You'll last until the spring
We'll hide you out in a secret place
You'll never know you've been
We'll cover you, with what you love
Now, you said it was yesterday, yesterday's another day
Had a lot of make believe, I don't know if it's you or
If it's me oh, I don't know, I don't know
Tally ho, tally ho
I'll meet you in your fantasy just anywhere you can obey
Ipsala, Bombay, this is the wrong way
Cause he'll see you I'll go into shock, it's true
Tally ho, tally ho
Well, where are you now?
And where have you been?
I've been untrue if this has all 'bout you
But who are you, yeah, asking me to, I can't tell
Now, you said it was yesterday, yesterday's another day
Had a lot of make believe, I don't know if it's you or if it's me
Oh, I don't know, I don't know
That's the way it's come to be
Insofar I see it as me
For you.
That's the sign it's come alive.
Admissions delivering your eyes
To you.
That's the end on account of me.
Now the wreckage I can see
So clear.
That's the way it's come to be.
This last confession is to me.
I dont need to understand what this world is all about
I dont need to find a thing that will show me
There ain't much to think about
If I tell you what I did and I heal
All my sins will be absolved
But there aint nothing that I've done that I wouldn't
just leave unresolved
That's why I go to the river but the river don't wash me
clean
I dont need to understand what the world thinks of me
And I aint never going to chance because of something
that you will never be
I dont care about what you believe everything you tell me
that I'm not
I dont think that you can judge me
'Cause I'm not the only one you forgot
That's why I go to the river but the river don't wash me
clean
I dont need to understand what the world wants from me
I dont even want to know what you always wanted me to be
If you listen and you'll find that I never really cared
about what you think of me
And I fully comprehend that I never did became the man
you wanted me to be
That's why I go to the river
But the river don't wash me clean
Lord have mercy
I see it in your eyes
I see the pain you hide
Though you hide it very well
Those secrets you can't tell
I know you feel ashamed
But you're not the one I blame
Cause this world gets pretty tough
Your will won't be enough
So, if I could, I'd wash you clean
Erase every line, every scene
I'd give you back your innocence
Heal your heart and set you free
I know you think you know
But I think you know too much
Scars that will mark your soul
If sin really takes a hold
I know someone who can help
Cause you can't do this yourself
He'll help you learn to choose
Baby, there's too much to lose
He'll take you down and wash you clean
Erase every line, every scene
Give you back your innocence
Heal your heart and set you free
Wash you clean
He'll wash you clean