Bent is a 1997 British/Japanese drama film directed by Sean Mathias, based on the 1979 play of the same name by Martin Sherman, who also wrote the screenplay. It revolves around the persecution of homosexuals in Nazi Germany after the murder of SA leader Ernst Röhm on the Night of the Long Knives.
Max (Clive Owen) is a promiscuous gay man living in 1930s Berlin. He is at odds with his wealthy family because of his homosexuality. One evening, much to the resentment of his boyfriend, Rudy (Brian Webber II), Max brings home a handsome SA man (Nikolaj Coster-Waldau). Unfortunately, he does so on the Night of the Long Knives, when Hitler ordered the assassination of upper echelon SA corps. The Sturmabteilung man is discovered and killed by SS men in Max and Rudy's apartment, and the two have to flee Berlin.
Max's Uncle Freddie (Ian McKellen) has organized new papers for Max, but Max refuses to leave his boyfriend behind. As a result, Max and Rudy are found and arrested by the Gestapo and put on a train headed for Dachau. On the train, Rudy is brutally beaten to death by the guards. As Rudy calls out to Max when he is taken away, Max lies to the guards, denying he is gay. In the camp, Max falls in love with Horst (Lothaire Bluteau), who shows him the dignity that lies in acknowledging one's beliefs.
weight on your shoulders is heavy, you've been suppressing these urges far to long. you're sick of acting the right way: it's wrong for you but it's right for them. these urges inside you grow and grow till one day it happens, you explode, pretending that you belong, why the fuck do you have that mask on? same thing all over again, this time in a different way. your life's controlled by other's rules, forget it man, be yourself, bent's ok. no way. fuck straight-edge, get bent
weight on your shoulders is heavy, you've been suppressing these urges far to long. you're sick of acting the right way: it's wrong for you but it's right for them. these urges inside you grow and grow till one day it happens, you explode, pretending that you belong, why the fuck do you have that mask on? same thing all over again, this time in a different way. your life's controlled by other's rules, forget it man, be yourself, bent's ok. no way. fuck straight-edge, get bent.
If I bent like you said was best,
Would that change a thing?
If I spent myself... or what's left
Would you still leave me here?
You're so sorry about it all
Now that it's over..
Should I thank you for that dear?
You're so sorry about it all...
And I hope you'll always be.
I remember you best
Hating all the boys who got to you
And all the things they took
That you'd kept for yourself
Every car crash, every misstep, every word
You're so sorry about it all
Now that it's over..
Should I thank you for that dear?
You're so sorry about it all...
And I hope you'll always be
Always be.
I remember you best
Hating all the boys who got to you
And all the things they took from you again...
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
Interviewer: So, uh, how do you feel about the, uh, the Bent boys?
Man 1: Perfect.
Man 2: Yes.
Man 1: Lovely to deal with. Really good.
Woman: They're very friend.. very helpful indeed.
Man 3: They've been more than helpful. Can't speak too highly of them.
Woman: All first class, absolutely grand.
Man 4: Oh yeah, they're fantastic. There seems to be a personal thing about them. Um, whatever you ask of them, it's never too much trouble.
There were people
Who invented the wheel
And there were people
Who first forged the steel
And there were people
Who found fire
And there were people
Who made themselves for hire
But when you find the heart will you let me know?
I'm so tired of the games and I'm tired of the show
So there are people
Who've got a lot
And there are people
Who wanna be what they're not
And there were people
Who fight the power
And there are people
But when you find the heart will you let me know?
I'm so tired of the games and I'm tired of the show
People got to give what they got til the morning comes
Sunbeams coloured me golden brown
Long shadows came around in the evening time
Handstand in the grass
Smell the sweetness of nostalgia
There were handstands in the grass
Smell the sweetness of nostalgia
Oh what are we
Now the waters deep
I don't wanna breathe
Will it be like sleep
Oh what are we
Now the water's deep
I don't wanna breathe
Dived in
Felt the water on my skin
Swam on
I caught my breath as I emerged beneath the sun
Oh what are we
Now the waters deep
I don't wanna breathe
Will it be like sleep
Oh what are we
Now the water's deep
There's a light from your window
I can see it from the shore
It is calling me through the dark, dark night
To come home to you once more
But I don't need no other reason than to glimpse your silhouette
But I don't need no other feeling than the feeling that I get
There's a light from your window
I can see it through the storm
It is calling me through the wind and rain
To come home to you once more
But I don't need no other reason than to glimpse your silhouette
But I don't need no other feeling than the feeling that I get
The feeling that I get
I won't say that I've been happy
I just say that I'm doing allright
I was feeling you were angry
Of my, of my fucking lie
But I don't need no other reason than the feeling that I get
As long as sky is blue
Storm clouds are black
Blood and roses are red
The feeling that I get
I'm the man they're gonna hang for killing billy joe
But there's a whole lot more to the story than they know
Listen to my side of it and i think that you will see
With you in my garden
its more peaceful inside
I don’t need anything else
to make me feel alive
You electrify me
And I want to be in your arms
for always
for always
Our love is swollen
Made of the quietest shade of loud
Holds me like an anchor
Floats just like a cloud
Our love is swollen
Made of the quietest shade of loud
Holds me like an anchor
Floats just like a cloud
Our love is swollen
Made of the quietest shade of loud
Holds me like an anchor
The curtain falls
Take it away
Rapture applause
It's over again (possibly)
Patiently waiting for seven days to see you again
Counting each cloud in the sky
Suddenly saturday blazes through
I forget the time
You're coming home, sunday boy
Come to me, run to me
Come to me, run to me
It's ok
Fall into me
Fall into me
It's perfectly safe
You remind me of somebody i used to love
Something familiar in your smile
Suddenly saturday blazes through blurring light
Here in my room all alone
with a love that I can't see
These walls are so bare
And I close my eyes to see you
When I'm lonely
Why are my arms so empty?
I am possessed by love
This is how I feel
This is home to my hell
When I'm lonely
Oh, my dear
I can almost hear you say
Oh, you only have to wait another day
Here in my room all alone
As the time passes slowly
Dreaming of your skin on my skin
And all the things that you show me
Why are my arms so empty?
For I am possessed by love
This is how I feel
This is home to my hell
When I'm lonely
Oh, my dear
I can almost hear you say
Oh, you only have to wait another day
Oh, my dear
I can almost hear you say
Oh, there's something about you, baby
Something that's hard to explain
Don't want you to change it, rearrange it
I just want you to always stay the same
Though the things in my life keep on changing
And the things people say can really hurt
Don't you to change it, re, rearrange it
I just want you to always stay the same
I just want you to always stay the same
I just want you to always stay the same
I just want you to always stay the same
People who are afraid of the dark
Send their children to bed
And stay out all night
People, people, people who are afraid of the dark
Send their children to bed
And stay out all night
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Stay out all night
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Stay out all night
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
Sleeping, sleeping
I've been so long without you
I try not to think about you
But I do
I know that I'm to blame
I got no right to call your name
But I do, I do
I'm so hurt
To think that you'd lie to me
I'm hurt
Sing me
To breathe new life into each day
To keep that beast at bay
And let that day unfold
So that my heart will never feel the cold
When I am way beyond despair
Sing me calm, leave alone to repair
When I unravel and my world becomes undone
Sing me every song that's ever sung
Love with no more tears
Strong enough to face the fear
Arms I need to hold you
Dreams in which I know I save you
Sing me
Sleep and reawake me
Say someone will take me
Sing so that our need is longer
Sing because you make me
Silence never moves or sings
Of the loneliness it brings
Never tells you it's around
Silence never makes a sound
How slow the hours go
And how long the days
How long until you see
It written on my face
Oh, oh, what a silent life
Oh, what a silent life
Was it all so long ago
Making noise with folks I know
Blood running through my veins
Is all that I hear nowadays
And how the hours go
And how long the days
How long until you see
It written on my face
Oh, oh, what a silent life
My heart from now is a private road
No thoroughfare
No heavy load
No slow traffic, no graphic details
Of colder collisons
No more stories to make me end
I'll always love you Venus, still you are mine
Why do you have to take so much time
In calling me?
I just want it to be easy like
Sunday morning
Snow falls in silence and covers the green
Still you can see where the birds have been
Hungry
But alive and free
Waiting
Plaisir d'amour ne dure qu'un moment
Chagrin d'amour dure toute la vie
J'ai tout quitté pour la belle Sylvie
Dure toute la vie, dure toute la vie...
The pleasure of love lasts only one moment
Unhappy love affair lasts the entire life
I have left all for the beautiful Sylvie
Do you ever think that
This is now I must remember?
You take in all around you
Colours, taste and smell
Before it fades like a dying ember
All day
Replay
The rush of life
Makes a memory distant
I had coffee with rum
Sang along to the drums
Of the crowd
As we cheered the dawning
(Aaah aaah..etc)
And I want to save it
Somewhere safe
So I'll remember
Bring it out one day
When everything looks grey
To make me smile
When I'm feeling tender
All day
Replay
The rush of life
Makes a memory distant
And we climbed a hill top
Following a new friend
In the sun of the early morning
(Ahh ahh...)
Do you ever think that
This is now I must remember?
You take in all around you
Colours, taste and smell
Before it fades like a dying ember
All day
Replay
The rush of life
Makes a memory distant
I had coffee with rum
Sang along with the drums
Of the crowd
As we cheered the dawning
I remember long ago
We've been here before
Like a book I read
In the hall that leads to the door
My words hang in the air
When I spoke to you
I believe it's magic, magic
In the hall that leads to the door
And my words hang in the air
I believe it's magic, I believe it's magic
I believe it's magic, magic
I believe it's magic, I believe it's magic
I believe it's magic, magic
We've been here before
Like a book I read
In the hall that leads to the door
My words hang in the air
When I spoke to you
I believe it's magic, magic
In the hall that leads to the door
And my words hang in the air
I believe it's magic, I believe it's magic
I believe it's magic, magic
I believe it's magic, I believe it's magic
I believe it's magic, magic
I believe it's magic, I believe it's magic
I believe it's magic, magic
I believe it's magic, I believe it's magic
I believe it's magic, magic
And my words hang
And my words hang
I can't believe that you're honestly thinking of leaving me
Cause I thought that leaving really wasn't even on your mind
I dreamed so happily about the joys of the world
I had met a beautiful one
And then came one day that I'll never forget
Much more beautiful than my fantasy
Remember the days we spent near the falling water?
This stranger flew along and fell and he nearly caught ya'
I put my hand in the fire, 'cause you told me to do it
Then I realized who I was but you already knew it
And I love you, little baby, but I can't take the silent pauses
I like the orange glow but not the irritating noises
I'm here to save the world! That's right.
I gave up my super powers so we could be together
But I didn't suit your world then I kissed you so you wouldn't remember
And I love you, little baby, but I can't take the silent pauses
I like the orange glow but not the irritating noises
And I love you, little baby, but I can't take the silent pauses
I like the orange glow but not the irritating noises
You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
I really, really luv ye.
Oh, I luv yuu.
I love you so much.
I couldn't believe it when I first saw you.
I never want you to leave me.
I saw your eyes trinkling away.
Looking at me, really, really nicely and... it's luvely.
And it, uh..
I can't.. I can't begin to say how much I love you.
Whenever I'm at work I'm always thinking about you.
('allright' and 'tonight' in background samples)
Johnny, remember me
and I'll always remember you
Johnny, remember me
I'll always remember you
When I think of Johnny
I remember the spring
I remember his laughter
And the way he would sing
I love my man
When he's good or mean
I love my man
When he's good or mean
I love my man
When he's good or mean
I love my man
With each new kiss, more and more
You said I laid down easy
Trusted what you said
Lead you right into me
Knew that I was ready
Begin at the beginning
Before you broke my heart
I can't believe we finished
Something that we didn't start
I can't believe it's over
See for yourself
I can't believe it's over
There's nothing there
See for yourself
There's nothing there
See for yourself
Look at all the damage
That we didn't heal
Love's an empty language
If you never feel
I try to make it better
Every single turn
Such a simple lesson
I guess we'll never learn
I can't believe it's over
See for yourself
I can't believe it's over
There's nothing there
See for yourself
I can't believe it's over
See for yourself
There's nothing there
See for yourself
There's nothing there
"lyrics here"
Whoa....... (x 3)
I'm falling deeper down the ladder
Losing my mind until I had her
But now she's flown the nest
Won't accept less than the best
Now I'm in vain....
(CHORUS)
So I'm moving on - hit or miss
Changing - bitch or bliss
I'm renewing my preferences
The obstacle is my defences
Moving, grooving, moving on
Hit Or Miss!
Broken eyes..... a broken babe
So many tries, so many vibed
As now I fall I fall I lose control
And now I've got a stalker
Not an ordinary extraordinary jaywalker
(BRIDGE)
Guess what I am now,
You know it's easy
Guess who I love now
Now I'm easy!
(CHORUS)
Easy come, easy go
Easy loved, easy laid
Easy push, easy tow
What you reap is what you sow
And now that's the truth about me.
(CHORUS)
I'm falling into being a batty
Yeah....... I'm a batty
And I'm gay!
Batty batty batty boy, hey hey! Batty boy!
I'm a fucking bent boy, yeah hehe...
Uh-huh come on cum cum! Give it to me
Do you wear one?
I'm gonna lay down my burden
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Gonna lay down my burden
You were like an angel
When i first met you
Made me feel so good inside
You showed me what i could do
It was all so beautiful then
We were as one
But now i feel, baby
Like somethings gone
Why don't you love me like you used to do
Oh baby, baby
Why don't you love me like you used to do
OIh baby, my baby
Its been so long now
Between you and me
I thought i wanted to be part of you
Now i want to be free
Why don't you love me like you used to do
Oh baby, baby
Why don't you love me like i want you to
I, I walked along and I wound my way around
I, I saw a light, shining bright
I, I'm not sure
Is it too late to call?
So I keep my eyes to the floor
Oh I, I can't carry this load anymore
Oh I'm so afraid to call on your door
Feeling so alone
Along a lonely road
Feeling so alone
Well I'm comin' back
I, walked along the water's edge
I, saw my reflection stare back
I, don't know where I'm going
But I know where I've been
Some days, I don't fit in my own skin
Oh I, I can't carry this load anymore
Oh I'm, so afraid to call on your door
Oh I, can't carry this load anymore
Oh I, I'm comin' back
I see you in the sky
A million miles away
I'd love to fly right up to you
See your beautiful star, close up
A star like yours is one in a million
One of those very special things
But if I'm to get to see this beautiful thing so close
I need my chocolate wings
I need my chocolate wings
To fly up to your stars
Give me my chocolate wings
Or our love won't go too far, go too far...
But you won't give me these things that I need
Yet I'd do anything for you
I've waited so long for this moment to come
I think it's time, don't you?
So if you don't let me see your guiding light
That star that shines so bright
I guess somebody else just might
Your kisses
Ave told me
That i'll never be alone
The only
Place on earth
That truly feels like home
I'll never
Recover
Bewitched as i am by you
You grew me
Orange trees
From under new skies so blue
And you made shy
Flowers bloom
From under the falling snow
Through my life
I love you
'Til these words all cease to flow
Oh you're so
Beautiful
You make my blue eyes ache
The looks that
You send me
Are causing my heart to break
Beautiful otherness
Love you because of this
Lost in the loveliness
Of your beautiful otherness
Beautiful otherness
I found myself rodder less
You gave me foreverness
And your beautiful otherness
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Beautiful otherness
Beautiful otherness
Beautiful otherness
Beautiful otherness
Kind hearts and coronets
Safe in the warm caress
Of your beautiful otherness
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Beautiful otherness
Oh, yeah
When you're right, when you're right
When you're right, right, right with me
In your, your beautiful
Beautiful otherness
So very beautiful to me
It's your, it's your beautiful otherness
Beautiful otherness
Otherness
Beautiful otherness
Beautiful otherness
When you're right, when you're right
When you're right, right, right with me
Beautiful otherness
When you're right, when you're right
Is this how
You were found?
Like a star fallen
To the ground?
As you fall
You make no sound
As you fall
Wish for a place where you want to be
Lying still
Flowers all around
In my dreams I see you
Falling down
So is this how (is this how)
You were found?
Like a star fallen
To the ground?
As you fall
You make no sound
As you fall
It began just like another ordinary day, and an ordinary way,
I watched you hurried by
It began just like another ordinary day, and an ordinary way,
I watched you hurried by
It began just like another ordinary day, and an ordinary way,
I watched you hurried by
It began just like another ordinary day, and an ordinary way,
I watched you hurried by
(I watched you hurried by)
(I watched you hurried by)
(I watched you hurried by)
(I watched you hurried by)
After all the love you've given me
I still sing the same old thing
After all the time you've spent with me
It still don't mean a thing
People change they say
Time will have it's wicked way
But these words I've said ???
And these feelings ???
When the blue moon vibes, I say my good-byes
He gave me a silver ring
But I turned away
And he heard me say,
"Oh, he doesn't, he doesn't understand
I don't need riches to make me care;
CARDIGANS
Miscellaneous
Never recoverHow I always memorize
every single misery
and I seem to glorify
everything inside of me
and the hero never dies
if the lover hides
between the sheets
there' no escape
cause you can't sleep
and then you'll see
your just like me...
That's what you called waste of time
I'll be waiting down the line
that's what you called waste of time
waiting for your valentine
that's what you called waste of time
I know where you hero hides
that's why you don't sleep tonight
that's what I call life
with a hero in the past
you hang on to history
There's a time and a place
A show and a face
And that time is now
There are ways and means
Of keeping faith
Don't drown them out
Through the round window there is light
In the mirror there is slight
Behind the closed door there is a reason
And it is waiting for you
Waiting for you
You only get what you left behind
Do you remember the first time
When the leaves fall, will you still be there
When the wind blows, will you show you care
The crows tell me what's been said
Don't hide from your own head
Behind the closed door there is a reason
And it is waiting for you
Waiting for you
The color dreams from our eyes
And joins the turning tide
I've tried my best to make it clear
I've traded trust for hope and fear
And all is quiet now
The moon is in the clouds
Behind the closed door there is a reason
And it is waiting for you
Oh oh oh oh
I want you
But you don't want
My soul
What to do about that
??? ??? oh oh
I want you
But you don't want
My soul
What to do about that
??? ??? oh oh
Oh I want you
But why, why, why
Don't you want my soul
Oh why don't you want my soul
Oh I want you
But why, why, why
Don't you want my soul
Oh why don't you want my soul
Searching
Fearing
Siren
Singing
Ooooooh..... Aaaah...
I see (na na na na na na na)
Nothing (na na etc)
Hearing (na na etc)
Siren (na na etc)
Ooooooh.. Ah ah aaah... Etc
Closing
Cruel sea
Wrapped
Around me
Oooooh..
I've been down this corridor -
Before you enter you have to bring
Back the creator of winter damn,
Too late I'm spoiled, I need the napalm
I got it, I shot it in my left sector,
Blew up the timing device on the reactor.
Time shifted I had to remold the floor
The foundation for creation - mate's blend
The pleasure dome into another roam -
A walk stalked nightly by the ogre
That's rarely sober. but there's no tracin
I see the place in the flow. I'm beyond dawn,
No I'm not in the lawn under pawns -
Don't rest, never possessed stagnate magnets.
I never pulled slits lips wit no braille skilled eyes -
Balls through eyesockets. I'm currently current
Currents of electricity; they can't get wit me
Invisible to the retina half - way reality part limbo.
A nervous laugh while ya climbin through windows,
Never spin ho's on merry-go-rounds,
Be the ground level for ghouls, schools of fish,
Victims on a hit list me like geronimo on a pratt -
Tackle patt tacklin patterns addin in seasonings, flavor.
No false teeth for beef, catapulting fingers to light
Switches so you can see the real, I feel the tension
My sight twitches - I'm bent.
Second scene: I'm the star in a step show
Around corners, the coroner's office;
Where my rep grows. I'm on some sort of drug
Like the president, it's evident that I'm noid,
A little bit of pizza - the riddle gets deeper.
I'm lookin for outs n ins, stolen isotonas,
The gloves, the bout begins three jabs on a transport
It's a sport for me to take another life on landing,
Branding wit a prattle prod designed by god.
It's my job to resign frauds,
The odd is against you got a degree in me,
So I know that I flow, credentials are essential -
It's blasphemy the type of shit they be askin me.
I don't feel the vibe, abstract art the veal
Doesn't heal this deprived stomach from a plummet.
Swinging on a duet with the bullet.
I never pull out for suspense - I'm on a bent mission.
Jack cousteau couldn't take it no deeper -
I'm a resident in davey jones micro-locker
Holds the phone, foamin at the mouth:
Mad dog, a taste, never had hog I'm droppin
The scrooge, makin fools hit the log - axe it.
I seen it beneath where the cowards hope
Trembled sleeper see if you can find the lost
I've been down this corridor
Before you enter you have to bring
Back the creator of winter damn
Too late I'm spoiled I need the napalm
I got it I shot it in my left sector
Blew up the timing device on the reactor.
Time shifted I had to remold the floor
The foundation for creation mate's blend
The pleasure dome into another roam
A walk stalked nightly by the ogre
That's rarely sober. But there's no tracin
I see the place in the flow. I'm beyond dawn,
No I'm not in the lawn under pawns -
Don't rest, never possessed stagnate magnets.
I never pulled slits lips wit no braille skilled eyes -
Balls through eyesockets. I'm currently current
Currents of electricity; They can't get wit me
Invisible to the retina half - way reality part limbo.
A nervous laugh while ya climbin through windows,
Never spin ho's on merry-go-rounds,
Be the ground level for ghouls, schools of fish,
Victims on a hit list me like Geronimo on a pratt -
Tackle patt tacklin patterns addin in seasonings, flavor.
No false teeth for beef, catapulting fingers to light
Switches so you can see the real, I feel the tension
My sight twitches - I'm bent.
Second Scene: I'm the star in a step show
Around corners, the coroner's office;
Where my rep grows. I'm on some sort of drug
Like the President, it's evident that I'm noid,
A little bit of pizza - the riddle gets deeper.
I'm lookin for outs n ins, stolen isotonas,
The gloves, the bout begins three jabs on a transport
It's a sport for me to take another life on landing,
Branding wit a prattle prod designed by God.
It's my job to resign frauds,
The odd is against you got a degree in me,
So I know that I flow, credentials are essential -
It's blasphemy the type of shit they be askin me.
I don't feel the vibe, abstract art the veal
Doesn't heal this deprived stomach from a plummet.
Swinging on a duet with the bullet.
I never pull out for suspense - I'm on a bent mission.
Jack Cousteau couldn't take it no deeper -
I'm a resident in Davey Jones micro-locker
Holds the phone, foamin at the mouth:
Mad Dog, a taste, never had hog I'm droppin
The scrooge, makin fools hit the log - axe it.
I seen it beneath where the cowards hope
Trembled sleeper see if you can find the lost
Treasure through measures in bars - I'm bent.
The scene of the crime on sunset and vine
flying on lines and two dollar wine
at 2: 39 room 239 sirens wailing off in my mind
or maybe im just too fucking high
i'll never know why life of a fiend obsessive obscene blowing off steam
with no self esteem im starting to scream
i'm paranoid, i need some air, i need to stand over the edge
cause i don't really fucking care about myself
cause i was the one who was born in this hell
now im in hotels huffing narcotics
shit is so hopeless drunk alcoholics junkies
mum you fucked me now im alone and nobody cares or loves me
heart of a stone and everyone knows im a druggie life is ugly
dear god can i please have a sec of your time
i'm outta my mind this time i'm paralyzed
and it's still i that i despise woooo oh sadness drips into my days and shizo flips of purple haze
purple haze
i've seen comatoses from drug overdoses
i'm drowning in vodka feels like it's ocean
we're oceans apart and now i have no one nothing weak cause part of me's crushing fucking destruction my head is concussing i'm in the abyss clenching my fist
now i wanna die, no, i wanna live
cause death has been on me since i was a kid
and i'm still standing on these church steps with my heartbeat pounding through my chest, praying to god playing with death and this hatred has my mindset
on 2 matches
and a can of gas burning off my skin to hide my darkest days and sins of the past and broken glass in my nightmares when you're not there
but you're never there
and i can't fight it in the mirror see you everywhere
and i still spit at my refection and this wickedness rejection vicious cycles bad intentions my demise
and its still i that i despise woooo oh sadness drips into my days and schizo flips of purple haze
purple haze
junkies alone in this world whooo oh
oh sadness drips into my days and shizo flips of
purple haze
purple haze
crushing fucking destruction my head is concussing im in the abyss clenching my fist now i wanna die, no, i wanna live
Once more i'm at a low within myself.
i can make believe to deal.
too late to turn back.
complaining "the passion's gone" are words that define wasted time.
shot down by inquiring eyes that can't disguise.
rehearsing the words they long to hear
still i can't lie it rips inside; bang, you're dead.
do you feel for me like i think you do?