This ground has been tread here before.
Another soul yearning for more.
I see one search subtly again.
The quest for truth has always struck the core of man.
And everybody wants to see what I€™ve got inside of me.
Is it real is it genuine to me?
And everybody wants to know if what I€™ve got is what I€™ve shown
In my faith, in my life, in my everything.
Give it away now to prove.
Give it away, don't betray the truth inside of you.
This ground has been tread here before.
Another soul expecting more.
Time moves too fast, don't forget.
The masks I€™ve displayed have only lead to my regret.
And everybody wants to see what I€™ve got inside of me.
Is it real is it genuine to me?
And everybody wants to know if what I€™ve got is what I€™ve shown
In my faith, in my life, in my everything.
Give it away now to prove.
Give it away, don't betray the truth inside of you.
Do you know what I€™ve got?
Would you like to know what I€™ve got?
I'LL SHOW YOU
The date was set, this night was saved
(the music played)
For holy vows to be unmade
Silent bouquets fell to the floor
(with no remorse)
Forsaking what they're living for
Your passion cut so deep, it bled
But now, the songwriter is dead
Now here's to the way, here's to the truth
Here's to the life that you once knew before your passion died inside of you
Now here's to the song that you once played
Before all meaning died and all the words faded away
We are composers who have fallen
We are the poets who've died young
We are directors who've forgotten
We are life's writers and all our hope is gone
How far will we fall?
Our passion dies, here tonight.
We've forsaken our first love...
Look how far we've fallen from!
Open eyes reveal the thing that's been missing.
Peace of mind - that we won't fall for anything, or fall in line accepting rations naively.
For now we find we won't be swayed so easily.
They controlled everything feigning objectivity until the day the blind revolted and contested their reality.
The wool will pull with vigilance.
Question your life of innocence.
Open eyes reveal the thing that's been missing.
Peace of mind - that we won't fall for anything, or fall in line accepting rations naively.
For now we find we won't be swayed with open eyes.
"We take their minds away 'til they believe the truth that we've made."
"We throw their hearts away so they will fit our society."
I'M NOT SOLD SO EASILY.
TRUTH IS NOT A PROCESSED GOOD DEPENDENT ON GEOGRAPHY.
Virgin eyes smell conspiracy - there's more than what there seems to be.
Open eyes reveal the thing that's been missing.
Peace of mind - that we won't fall for anything, or fall in line accepting rations naively.
For now we find we won't be swayed so easily.
Open eyes reveal the thing that's been missing.
Peace of mind - that we won't fall for anything, or fall in line accepting rations naively.
For now we find we won't be swayed
To fall from the ladder that you've climbed so high
For true love, for victory, for the right to succeed.
Why do we always miss our last chance to try,
but never the heartache of saying "goodbye"?
Heavy hands and sad, red eyes waiving at their dreams that just passed by.
We were so fond.
But those moments are gone.
Beloved times that our hearts find - sometimes we must say "goodbye".
Now the pieces fall and the chips are laid,
but I'm not the man that I would have made or could have been.
But this is where I find what trust is for:
crying tears of faith that God's got something more.
Heavy hands and sad, red eyes waiving at their dreams that just passed by.
We were so fond.
But those moments are gone.
Beloved times that our hearts find - sometimes we must say "goodbye".
THIS IS LIFE AND WHO'S TO SAY
THE MAN I SEE WON'T PALE IN THE SHADOWS OF THE MAN I'LL BE...
with my heavy hands and sad, red eyes waiving goodbye.
We were so fond, but we have to move on.
Beloved times that our hearts find - sometimes we must say "Goodbye".
"Goodbye" to love, my first chance to succeed.
"Goodbye" sweet victory, I know there is something more for me
Sunlight has shined on me again,
sunlight has shined and washed away my day.
Fallen from Hell and into your arms, blessed mystery; that you held on.
falling from death, landing at your feet, amazing grace so sweet.
You looked in the wrong places and thats right where you found me.
You looked in the wrong places and now that you've taken me away.....
into your arms
Here they come. They€™re marching my way again.
I can see my reflection in their metallic skin
Here they come. They€™re calling my name again.
Conformity is their staple and status, their weapon
Oh my precious sold out reputation!
It means so much more than my beliefs!
Will I face full attack from you?
Will I break again like I€™ve been known to?
Falling face first on my conscience today,
But it€™s so much more comfortable this way.
Come to me, my little sweet!
I€™ve got scores of processed friends for you to meet.
You€™ve always been my favorite dish.
You€™re number 85 on my list.
Come to me, my little baby!
Please say yes, not no or maybe.
Come to me my little treat!
The system€™s hungry and it wants to eat.
I already know that you don€™t love me so if I do not change,
you€™ll just walk away
Memories inside have captured me
They're sitting by my bedside and captivating my mind
Vengeance is mine, or soon will be
Revenge is my time-line; your payback is my deadline
Is it everything I thought that it would be?
Licking all of my wounds so faithfully
Wanting peace, but flaunting this disease
As this pain sleeps so bitterly
This is life...
What a glorious means to find release
It's your eye for my eye
Can I keep living with this pain for my "relief?"
It's your eye for my life
Bottled up inside, and swallowing me
I've fallen in love with hate, and now I'm finding that it's too late
This bitterness won't leave, so now I see
By harboring these memories, they now own me
"Retribution's on the line. You'll get yours and I'll get mine."
It's not everything I thought that it would be -
Living with the past, so fervently
And all that I've learned through this misery
Is that memory is treachery
Colors do not lie...red brush strokes wave goodbye.
I've looked into your eyes for the last time.
Close those tainted eyes. The view is so amazing with them shut tight.
Seeing your history die, awashed in white.
Your heart no longer beats inside this chest of mine
And I've never felt more alive
Goodbye to you and all that we've been through
Hello, beautiful peace realized of knowing I'm no longer you.
And though you beckon, these red strokes still remain.
Reminding my heart that I am not the same.
Close those misleading eyes...All the lies you try to disguise.
You offered so many things...so many things you said you could do...
The thing that you couldn't offer was the thing that killed you -
And it screams - it's the truth.
Goodbye to you and to all that we've been through
They're so beautiful...the painted skies I fly in, freely, without you
Death for truth or death for a lie, the value of life depends upon you.
Some choices are wise; some choices are foolish,
But this false stance will never see you through
It's always been about your well being.
You wouldn't trade all trace of that for a game
The disease of guilt will torment you; the pain it brings completes the shame
Reason I'm believing€
You can't tell me that you would have lied if it were you.
You can't tell me that you would have died if it weren't true.
Count up your cost there has to be something more.
You wouldn't lay down your life with nothing to die for.
Could you fuel a fire to live a lie?
I suggest you be careful 'bout what you say.
Could you sweat big drops of blood to convince me it's gonna be a long day?
Search your heart; see if you've got the love it takes to let them nail you to a cross.
Find the scars; find the stripes to forgive the culprits for the cost
Would you die for something you never believed?
Would you die for someone who hated you?
Reason I'm believing€
I fail to find the logic behind why a hated man would lay down his life.
Count up your cost there has to be something more.
You wouldn't lay down your life for nothing.
Tolerate my stance today.
I've found my truth in my own way.
So play the blaming game today.
This intolerance, it cannot stay.
So play the naming game that you've made for me.
Tell me who I can and who I cannot be.
Intolerance for me is plain to see.
My truth's not the truth you want it to be.
Tell me the lies. I want the sincere lies.
Base them all on how I feel.
(Don't tell me "No")
Tell me the lies, only if they're sincere lies,
and I'll believe that they are real.
Excuse me and my faith today.
It's arrogance, it's pompous claims.
Excuse me and my choices today.
The don't sit well with you, so they cannot stay.
"It's true for you, but not true for me,
'So let's just be one big complacent family'."
Until my "arrogant" claims to faith anger you
and YOU prove that your philosophy's not true.
We can't both be right, and I want the truth.
You always thought you owned me.
Did you ever expect the change?
I'm no longer your slave toy now; mesmerized with your filthy ways.
I will obey my passion. Count on the fact you're gonna obey me.
You will not silence the knowledge that's opened my eyes to see.
How "narrow minded" am I to deny "natural impulses"
That invite my death inside - That's why I'm leaving you
Embrace at the core of what your feeling,
ignore any consequence its dealing.
Suggest to me this, that's why I'm leaving you.
You always come in on the right cue to accommodate a compromise.
I'll no longer entertain your pleading to accommodate my demise.
Too long I've fed the mouth that's killed me.
Your promised pleasure's only left me pain.
You always said that "If it feels good, do it".
You failed to mention there's a price to pay.
Hit me harder. Shaken, I falter.
Fighting this sickness, this plague has become a beast.
Killing its tendencies - the beast I fight is me.
Hey, if you wanna play, you€šre gonna play for a price now.
Hey, if you wanna play, you€šre gonna pay with your life.
I've said all my "Hail Mary's" and I've recited all the right prayers.
I've done a lot in the name of God to gain this solace from your stares.
So break bread as I take unholy communion once more.
As righteous as filthy rags bleeding on the floor.
I'm sitting ripe, sitting fresh in my mire.
Behold the poison untold.
I've tried to show the world just how great a man can be,
but this great man I've charaded is the farthest thing from me.
THE MAN THAT I'VE SHOWN IS A MAN I DON'T KNOW.
So shall it be: Sown lies shall reap.
Honor has died with integrity.
What can I say?
That I've lived what I've told?
They bought me, but I hate the manner through which I was sold.
I know exactly what to do, I know exactly what to say, I believe every word
it's just so hard to obey: Trojan horse lies filled with big butterflies and they bought me.
They took the bate.
Hook, line and false, flaky, dimple-creased smile.
Sit back and enjoy the show!
I'll have you hooked too, in just a little while.
So shall it be: Sown lies shall reap.
Honor has died with integrity.
I've lived all these lies.
No more compromising.
I know what to do.
I know what to say.
I believe every word; it's just so hard to obey!
I know what I've created - this mess that shadows me - it leaves my concious tainted!
I want authenticity, integrity.
Jesus, forgive me.
So shall it be: Sown lies shall reap.
Honor has died with integrity.
MY HONOR HAS DIED WITH MY INTEGRITY
Pleading with open eyes to see into your world tonight.
Bleeding with open cries, on my face
and hoping that you'll prove my faith tonight.
I'll never forget the times you made me wide awake inside,
filling my empty cracks with less of me.
I want you. I want you to know that I'm ready for you and waiting for you today.
Running on caloused knees, you're my cure for my disease.
Gasping to feel you breath,
I'd suffocate because I know that you're worth the wait.
I find your life to be true when I won't hesitate with mine,
filling your arms tonight with all of me.
Wide awake, won't hesitate when I see you there.
You're what I'm waiting for.
Wide awake, won't hesitate.
You're all, and nothing more.
Wide awake, won't hesitate.
You're all I want.
All the mazes through, lengths that I've went to,
to find what I wanted: it's always been you.
I'll be here waiting on you.
Alas my friend I have been blind.
But count on this, friend, I won't let go again.
It is a pain to see the plague produced by apathy.
To see you locked and bound, you plead. To see me grasp the key.
Compassion is foreign while the tears of the broken lavish me.
Souls in anguish die, and only hell they find.
The truth to bring the peace they seek is haunting me.
I'm haunted by the fact that I neglected every time you cried
I'm haunted by the fact I concealed the truth you need inside.
I'm the one to blame.
Will I grasp the reality that my comfort has blessed the killing?
My own eyes agree of my numbing to society around me.
I can't take this; you're dying. While I watch you trying.
Every breath you heave proclaims the rejection I've conceived.
I'd hate to be the one that's not there when you cry in sorrow.
I'd hate to be the one to watch you die tomorrow.
I doubt that you are strong enough to survive forever, inside forever.
I'd hate to be the one to watch you die.
These are the ties that bind.
Contracts signed with pulsing blood remind us of color when everything turns to grey.
Absolutes are life.
Deterioration's the killer.
Oath reforms for fallen, lords whose kingdoms die.
Are we fallen lords who've laid their weapons down,
trading resolve for rash cowardice?
We're at war, but the generals' names were forged.
The pen is mighty when the sword is sheathed.
When battle's waged, we'll see what choice we've made by the deeds ink tells;
of valiant feats, it should spell.
For we vow to stand until the end or die.
And the scars we've acquired aren't shadowed in remorse...
these scars are our testament.
That we didn't quench spirit's flame
but we assailed hell with swift feet and iron fists proclaiming.
"WE FIGHT! 'TIL VOWS FULFILLED WE SHALL NOT REST!
ASSAIL FOR HONOR TO THE DEATH!"
We're at war, but the generals' names were forged.
The pen is mighty when the sword is sheathed.
When battle's waged, we'll see what choice we've made by the deeds ink tells;
of valiant feats, it should spell.
For we vow to stand until the end or die.
Show me courage.
Show me strength.
Show the resolve it takes when buckled knees carry the world because the will doesn't break.
When sweat is blood, as wrung from a sponge
and vinegared wounds cover your progress like rank, cheap, expired perfume.
The Almighty's head held resolutely 'til dead
for greatness wrought, the wise should be taught.
Forging generals.
We're at war, but the generals' names were forged.
The pen is mighty when the sword is sheathed.
When battle's waged, we'll see what choice we've made by the deeds ink tells;
of valiant feats, it should spell.
We will sign our names to stake our claims.
We know the choice that we have made
ASSAIL FOR HONOR TO THE DEATH.
'TIL VOWS FULFILLED WE SHALL NOT REST
Charge the gates, ye proud and strong - are we not invincible?
These are the lives we own, we rule and rule alone
Is this the night we asked for? We're all the things that we swore
That we would never be...basking in our apathy.
Institution revolution. Raze this ground, fight for your life (with vengeance tonight)
Taken by forceful intrusion, we will live before we die.
Is now not the time to raise our fists in defiance
Of this night that steals our dreams of all that we once hoped that we'd achieve?
Fight with fists afire and watch this city burn down.
Tonight we show the day the light our passion can create.
We watch this city burn down! We fight tonight to live before we die! Raise your fists afire!
It's the final night.
THE SOUNDS THE SIGHTS, the mushroom clouded, blood red skies.
The heavens are ablaze right before our eyes.
HAIL THE LIGHT!
It proclaims our end, our death, impending doom.
Silence is golden - this will have to do - it's the end of all things here with you.
May I have this dance before we die?
And in the fall out's haze we'll fade away, just one last time.
There's no fear in staring in death's eyes.
THESE ARE THE DEFINING TIMES WHEN WE PROVE THAT WERE ALIVE.
Dig your bunkers fast and deep.
Those bombs, THE BOMBS, they are security.
Prideful nation's humiliation when they can't dig as deep as needs to be.
TOTAL WAR, no chance for peace, it's just you and me and history.
So take your heart, LIBERATE IT PLEASE, on the threshold of liberty.
May I have this dance before we die?
And in the fall out's haze we'll fade away, just one last time.
There's no fear in staring in death's eyes.
THESE ARE THE DEFINING TIMES WHEN WE PROVE THAT WERE ALIVE
You're so perfect at running my life. I€™m sure you€™re perfect at yours too.
Do you think that I lived my life right
the times that I thought I could trust you?
I thought you were a friend of mine.
Friends donut exploit the faults they find.
But, hey, I should have known that you were a fake to me.
Tell me you hate me to my face. Don't try to
act like you love me and run my life behind my back.
Tell me you€šre faking to my face so that I
wont think you need me.
You're only a friend of mine to my face.
So much for confidentiality.
When my whole life becomes news to me.
I€™m interested in your critique of me
too bad I€™m not gonna be the first to see.
If you've got a problem you can tell it to my face.
The elitist mob cometh with fury in their speech.
With bursting wallets flashing, they've assumed the right to teach.
There's a fire in the sky and the stake is immersed in flames.
I salute the man ignited for giving up all his change.
They're threatening you...They're threatening me...
Shall we call the ambulance!
They've threatened our lives with death!
(Show me your faith)
Let's stain their sharpened knives with voices raised and heads held high
WE WILL NOT CHANGE TONIGHT.
The serpent has beseeched me again...The fruit is ripe for the feast.
But your fork-tongued gluttony has convinced me not to eat.
Compromise is what you want and it's everything we won't give.
So we answer, "Don't insult us! If you tell us that it's do or die, we chose death!"
Call the ambulance!
They've threatened our lives with death!
(Show me your faith)
Let's stain their sharpened knives with voices raised and heads held high
WE WILL NOT CHANGE TONIGHT.
I promise you I'll never change.
I'd die before I'd ever change for you.
IT'S DO OR DIE TIME(x4).
I promise you I'll never change.
The truth of life can't be missed: I've felt it in His wrists (Show me your faith).
Let's stain their sharpened knives with voices raised and heads held high
WE WILL NOT CHANGE! I'D DIE BEFORE I'D EVER CHANGE TONIGHT
Vicious cycle of life... I find that I kill myself every time I look away from you
But I often gaze another moment. Incited scars reopen,
Bleeding again, and they're bleeding at my request
Freely given, and we choose the choice to lose (now we know)
As these scars are screaming at me - just why we've chosen poorly.
Could it be our chance to see why we believe that we need you instead of following numbly?
Ride on, ride strong, soldier, march to the dictated beat.
Have you ever known how victory feels unless you have felt defeat?
Don't want the pain of free will stolen and mindless mechanical will chosen
Cherish the loss - there is no concept of gain without cost.
I fall, and I fall freely. Incited scars are bleeding and now I believe. I freely believe.
When I hit the ground and bloody palms I raise,
The arms that pick me up convince me there's no better place.
So in love with the memories of you that I have fallen away (fallen away again).
So alive in the memories of you that I have died today (died again today).
Thinking of you...
Amazed by your disguise
you look so beautiful with death in your eyes.
Breaking free from you is the best/the hardest thing I could do.
You'd never know that I loathe you.
"Do not lust in your heart after her beauty,
or let her captivate you with her eyes." (Proverbs 6:25)
God please kill the lady that's inside of me....
Stay out of my house!
You're not welcome here!
I'm so free without you,
yet so aware that I am hanging on by a thread of grace and nothing more.
Sweet Jesus have mercy when she knocks on my door.
"The prostitute reduces you to your weakest.
Adulteress preys upon your very life" (Proverbs 6:26)
Hosting her was the choice I made, competence was the currency paid.
Hence, my true love I'd forsake.
Eyes maintained for her she'd take.
I'm breaking for my heart to find innocence I've left behind.
God Almighty, Giver of Peace, grant to me the strength I seek.
Fall to arms, there's a holy war tonight.
You and me and it's time to fight
Prideful times for prideful eyes
Brother, I see right and you see blind
Respect my rights and my right beliefs
It's death to non-compliancy
And we all fall down, as this body breaks to pieces
Unity is breaking down. Hello, self-righteousness.
United, we're divided and we fall to our demise
And we all are breaking down. There's a holy war waged against our own side.
Segregate the masses, keep our corporate consciences feeding
Send more fire down from the pulpit; convince me that's just what we're needing
Onward, good soldier, you'll find this is the price you pay.
Your comrades are all occupied, stuck in their own ways.
And all the while we've fought so hard, blind, inflicting our own scars.
Forgetting where the battle's waged, it didn't even occur to us that we're already saved.
Embrace our death... It's you and me.
So we fall, proud and tall. All for one, none for all.
Little boy with a heart of gold, your scars forever nigh have told,
malicious deeds that no one should know.
They'll never take your heart of gold.
May angels guide your feet, little boy, towards the peace you truly seek
HIGH PROOF TO EASE THE PAIN WON'T HEAL YOUR WOUNDS THIS WAY.
Little girl with a heart of gold, your smile for long has not been shown.
Don't listen to the jokes they've told.
They'll never hold the weight of gold.
May angels guide your feet, little girl, towards the peace you truly seek
LINED SKIN AND REDDENED BLADE WON'T HEAL YOUR WOUNDS THIS WAY.
May angels guide you there.
Godspeed in getting there.
May angels guide your feet, little one, towards the peace you truly seek;
UNFAIRLY GIVEN SCARS DON'T MAKE YOU WHO YOU ARE.
I'm sorry for the pain I gave.
I'm ashamed I made you feel this way.
I'd take your scars and wounds away.
If I could rewrite yesterday
Face to dying face with my future while you mock me behind its broken lines.
Wide awake, but I'm still sleeping with all your lies cuz I
Made the choice to forfeit my freedom.
Oh my God, why can't I just look away?
Consequence says that you force me to look in your face.
(Myself addressing addiction) - You told me you were the cure.
It's my fault I thought that you would be true
to play my life the way you do
I€™m paying cuz I thought that you would be (true to me if I was true to you)
(Addiction addressing me)- I€™m the one that you trusted.
I€™m the one you've been faithful to.
I€™m the one that you needed.
It's your fault you thought that I would be true.
You're the one that I€™m playing.
You're the one that€™s being used.
Embrace me harder I beg you.
It's your fault you thought that I would be...
"Tormented" cannot begin to describe how I feel about what you've done inside.
Riddled by the baggage you left me, irate from all the lies that you sent me.
It's messed up, but I still miss you despite all the hell you put me through.
This cage holds wounds you gave reminding me of you.
Look into my eyes,
come with me I know exactly what it takes to make you feel all right.
Look into my eyes, indulge with me
because it's all you need to do and you can feel all right.
Come with me...
Cuz€š there€™s nothing to fear so just relax and shut up
NOT TRUE
Under microscope again. Are you my family or friend?
Good intentions, I'll accept it, but these are unqualified judgments.
5 minutes strong and you've known me life long.
5 minutes strong.
You've known me five minutes and my life is slipping,
So tell me about my life because the clock is ticking.
My first impression is all I'll give. Take it and run. I know the deeds I've done.
The prayers of the righteous availeth much,
Much more than their "guiding" touch.
Have you ever been faithful when you're under fire?
Shunned, but still remained the martyr?
Is this the integrity that you seek?
Experience it, please, before you speak.
Thank you for being there for me, in all honesty.
But could it be that my heart bleeds with the same sincerity?
I love when I'm feeling tall as I smile at the crowd that claims my fall.
I love when I'm feeling tall, because I stood up through it all.
They're coming to take our resolve away
To steal all the progress that we have made
Our backs to the wall, but our hands clasped like steel
And we'll never regret; though they say that we will
We'll smile at the sound of silence?
These voices say that we'll die ? we'll fade by the road as cities fly by
We will survive and, hearing silence, we'll smile
When it hurts to be in love
I'd take it all back if it meant gaining more
But I've never fought this hard for you before
They all say stop, but these time zones have shown
I want to be alone with the one who loves me.
And give her all I own, she is so precious to me.
But I'm wrapped around your body.
My breath is on your lips.
If we truly loved each other, we would have thought of this...
The leaves are turning - it didn't take too long.
The leaves are falling - they never were that strong.
It's too late to do it over.
I just wish we had went slower.
Of all the things I thought we could be, I find you insignificant to me.
I look into her eyes, I'd give her anything.
But I can't be restored, just because I bought her a ring.
All the things that she deserves most are the things I gave away.
Now our season's over, but the past has stayed.
The leaves are turning - it didn't take too long.
The leaves are falling - they never were that strong.
I have died to you.
And now we contemplate, as you die to me
it would have been worth the wait.
It's too late to do it over.
I just wish we had went slower.
Of all the things I thought we could be, I find you insignificant to me.
Long, now since we have departed.
Respect is what we should have started.
It's all been waisted "love" we've been through,
for I am insignificant to you.
Of all the things I thought we could be
now I wish "we" never would be.
Unite with your words to fright the weak small fragile mind
Defend all the pain you feel, soon it will become real
Until you realize the pain you feel isn't real you'll compromise everything
Look at you, you need a...
Don't expect my pity. You wont receive any from me.
Limp on able knees to lock your insecurities
The past firmly flaunts its grasp again
you've gladly given it your last stand by falling down
You claim you hate the ground but maintain it, while declaring your stain
AND LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE GAINED
I wont give in tonight. I choose to break your pain.
I€™ll never stop the fight. Admit your state, but you remain.
If it takes everything. I€™m gonna make you realize.
I€™ll never give to you -- you and your pity show
Broke up by the dastardly deed of dealing with life's reality
Yesterday has won the choice prize. It now controls your whole life.
Seeking out all that you can find who'll assist you in your web of compromise
Yesterday has won the choice prize. It now controls your whole life.
I can't fix your mind tonight.
And did you think I...
Would identify with your selfish game
Would accept the sickness as it came
Would realize my demise but avoid the change
Did you really think I would STAY THE SAME?
Can I wait when your mighty arms are all that's holding me?
Can I wait when everything is crashing down on me?
When life is too much to bear will I stay there?
I saved this dance for you. I wore my finest suit.
I cleaned myself up and I memorized all the moves.
Oh how I long for this song to play forever and forever more.
Through it's duration I live, and you're the melody that I live for.
But the song ends, and so plays the all too familiar last note
Leading so gracefully into the song that only I wrote
Whisked away, now holding onto a memory of the song I once knew.
Complacent, yet remembering how I felt when I felt you.
I'm new. I'm frail. I'm fragile...
So impressionable, yet so hard to change.
Change me!
You gave it, I took it. There's nothing left of me.
I saw it, I had it. It's only now I see.
My flesh conflicts my vision, this poison's filling me.
Defiling my conscience and I know its slowly killing me (it's killing me slowly)
Why am I the one to fall for the bait again?
Unable to escape from my fatal ways.
Temptation -- it comes to me when I most expect it.
Yet I am unable, still, to change my (fatal) ways.
I can't breath, I can't see. It's consuming all of me.
I€™ve gone numb, all sense gone. Oh God, I feel your grief!
Blue and black, bound and gagged, I€™ve lost the power to leave.
There's nothing, nothing left,
but Jesus Christ inside of me (He's inside of me, still)
Say good bye. Say good bye. You'll never know until you try.
Release the pain that steals your mind. You'll never know until you try.
I felt my heart beating faster I never saw it coming!
Gavels from gun barrels expose me as far less than what I need to be.
The sentencing will be dealt swiftly...It's too late to mend my treachery...
Shots ring out as my last mili-seconds unwind...
Time bloats with fresh gun-smoke forcing me to review what I've done with my life
Too late to change, too soon to die.
Life is still warm on my lips.
What can I expect from all of this?
I'm trembling at the mighty feet of mercy - guilty; it's true, but no less sorry.
Too late to change, useless to weep for years of sin weighed on scales accurately.
Interrogate, assassinate, take the lead for justice' sake.
Change of heart, repentant faith only count in mercy's wake...
Shots ring out as my last mili-seconds unwind...
Time bloats with fresh gun-smoke forcing me to review what I've done with my life
Too late to change, too soon to die.
I've debauched and deceived, and destroyed families... I've taken all.
Given none, and received judgement from the objective eye of a gun.
I'm guilty, it's true, but remorseful, no less. I'm sorry!
What becomes of me, but death deserved, received?
What of a crooked man's desperate plea seeking The Good Judge's mercy?
He loved the loveable and the unlovely, the decadent and the holy.
He made a way for the pope and he made a way for me...
FALLEN FROM HELL AND INTO YOUR ARMS...
BLESSED MYSTERY THAT YOU HELD ON...
FALLEN FROM DEATH, LANDING AT YOUR FEET...
AMAZING GRACE SO SWEET.
Shots ring out as my last mili-seconds unwind...
Time bloats with fresh gun-smoke forcing me to review what I've done with my life
Too late to change, too soon to die.
I'm finding out what it truly means to die - too late to change, too soon to die
I€™ve burned down all the bridges that promote the constant
claims that I need you in my heart, here inside.
And as I strike the match to sear my conscience I realize that the truth I hide will never die.
Fighting to invite my own truth consumes my mind with means to fill the void on my own.
But no matter where I set standards
my sins still oppose my stance from committing to an independence
from a God that demands perfection and I€™m seeing that...
I CAN'T ESCAPE THE FACT THAT I NEED YOU
"I love you," I lied, to fill the gaping hole inside.
But as she leaves I feel the same as before.
And as the incense dies the fragrance cries that I€šm empty once more...
It's just another diverted attempt I€™ve made a finding myself inside, but...
I CAN'T ESCAPE THE FACT THAT I NEED YOU
The choice to commit is the hardest part for me...
TIME to give in to the truth that I wont believe.
It's time that I give in to the truth that I wont believe.
TIME to let go of the doubt that€™s harassing me.
It's time that I let go of the doubt that€™s harassing me...
I CAN'T ESCAPE THE FACT THAT I NEED YOU
We've went to the edge a thousand times before,
and these circles we run have only nailed our feet to the floor.
My jaw aches from hurling words at walls with doors locked, windows boarded, refusing to take calls.
Are we seeking an agreement?
Or is this a competition in obstinance, quick tongues, and redundant flapping lips?
All hail the mighty pride - even when you're wrong you're always right.
We've spent all this time with cruel teeth bared white and wide.
Fierce eyes shine bright through stubborn skulls for the fight.
Blades are cutting deep...All I want is some relief!
THESE FIREBRANDS WILL BE OUR BANE,
may we sheath our tongues for just one day?
THE SWITCHBLADES ARE PULLED.
Hard crusted with old bloodstains never wiped clean.
THE BATTLES REBORN.
What dirt can we use to manipulate?
SWINGING FOR FAME NEVER ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING BUT SLASHING OUR OWN VEINS.
I know that love doesn't keep score.
Come! Let us stop seeking egos and start seeking respect!
We've spent all this time with cruel teeth bared white and wide.
Fierce eyes shine bright through stubborn skulls for the fight.
Blades are cutting deep...All I want is some relief!
THESE FIREBRANDS WILL BE OUR BANE,
may we sheath our tongues for just one day?
Seconds slink by - I wish we'd see eye to eye.
It's a distant life - a place where we both should be.
There we find a "perfect society" where people look past their own feelings.
Do we find an agreement or do we find our blades?
These circles we run have gotten us nowhere.
We've spent all this time with cruel teeth bared white and wide.
Fierce eyes shine bright through stubborn skulls for the fight.
Blades are cutting deep...All I want is some relief!
THESE FIREBRANDS WILL BE OUR BANE,
may we sheath our tongues for just one day?
WE NEED A SOLUTION FOR THESE CIRCLES THAT WE RUN
Tell me now, are you loving your life?
Tell me now, do you get your sleep at night?
Tell me now, have you found yourself begging for a way out?
Your maze has no lights.
Tell me now, have you found your freedom from the guilt that's held you down inside?
You've ran so hard and found no place to hide tonight.
This hopelessness has always loved it when you tried
holding you tightly every time you close your eyes.
Reminds you softly that there€˜s nothing you can do.
Reminds you softly that its all because of you.
You've fallen to the lies you've received, now somehow you can't believe.
The thing that drops you is not what makes you.
When everything but failure retreats, somehow we've lost the belief.
The thing that drops you is not what makes you.
The way you've held on to this cancer in your life.
It's the stain that you have tried so hard to erase, but it keeps staring in your face.
You've done the things you never thought that you would do
now suddenly your hated labels land on you.
Stand in the painting only losers could design.
Stand in the painting, its a picture of your mind.
You've fallen to the lies you've received, now somehow you can't believe.
The thing that drops you is not what makes you.
When everything but failure retreats, somehow we've lost the belief.
The thing that drops you is not what makes you.
We cry, as we wade through this constant state of pain,
as we find that our mistakes have given us our name.
While the angels of Christ mourn the day,
for they know it's so far from what God would say.
We've embraced the lack of praise intended for us today.
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL TODAY with all your failures and mistakes
"YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL TODAY" He's shouting through the mess you've made
CAN YOU BELIEVE?
When everything but failure retreats, somehow we've got to believe
"Don't look!" They cried, with phoney smiles paisted on their faces.
"Don't look!" They cried.
"We've gone so far with this false confidence in our lives!"
It's the meaning of life that sends people scurrying,
building, investing, and achieving.
It's the meaning of life that nobody knows,
so we build our distractions to hide ourselves from its sight.
The meaning of life gives us something to shoot for.
Something to hope for. Something to die for.
It gives us hope that we can outrun a reality where this is all we have to live for.
WE LIVE. WE MOVE. WE BREATHE. WE DIE.
"Don't look!" They cried, with phoney smiles paisted on their faces.
"Don't look!" They cried.
"We've gone so far with this false confidence in our lives!"
On this surreal landscape we paint our dreams, our goals, our ambitions.
On this surreal landscape we bide our time, claiming that there's never enough.
Or is there too much?
For sometimes the motions grow old.
These human inventions designed to create purpose
don't always do the things I've been told
and the whispers inside ask if this is really why
I LIVE. I MOVE. I BREATHE. I DIE.
I'm hiding lots of questions and I'm sure that it's been done before.
"We don't want them exposed!" - to mask the hopelessness we're living for.
"So force a smile today!" Occupy all of your senses, hurry!
Before questions start to rise.
"Don't get caught wanting answers!"
My friend, these are the days of our lives.
Amassed with silver and gold, wealth will always be dead before it gets old.
I cannot buy what I'm sold: that the fullness of life is what I've been shown.
All that I'm looking for cannot be found inside this game.
All that I'm looking for cannot be found IF THIS IS THE FULLNESS OF WHY
I LIVE. I MOVE. I BREATHE. I DIE.
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I make my bed in hell, you are there.
The truth of life lies inside your hands.
For we are your great pleasure - that's why you hold us here.
Psalms 139
