Every shadow just behind me,
Shrouding every step I take,
Breaking every promise empty,
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now the path has lost me
Just because the sun has set
Jesus, was a fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done
Jesus, was a fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find the center in you
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary won't you whisper
Nothing but the past is done
Mother Mary won't you whisper
Nothing but the past is done
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over this time
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find the center in you
I will chew it up and leave,
Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over this time
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
I'm still scared. Afraid of failing.
Anticipating, the ride to end.
Before the wheels begin to move.
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
Waste my time, Commiserating-
Self medicating- it's my design.
Although I know you don't approve.
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
The truth is that I'm not so good
At showing how I feel.
or keeping my mouth shut
When there's something to conceal.
or knowing how to love,
Love's not in my memories.
How can I rise above all my insecurities
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
(Run away) I fight the tide
(Run away) the ebb and flow consuming
(Run away) Still by my side
I have seen to many sad eyes look at me,
Eyes that set me free,
All the places that I've been.
Thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait for me,
For me.
Your words,
Your words help me to see
A little honesty
In a world that doesn't share
And those eyes
Tell the story of your pain
Severity of your disdain
In a world that doesn't care.
So thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait
You, you understand my pain.
From this I gather strength,
That we are the same.
So thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait
You take this all for granted. All the things that used to be you. By keeping you distracted just long
enough to bleed you.
A reason for your anger, it's what I need, it's what I need. To recognize the truth it's what I need,
it's what I need. So burn your paper Jesus its what I need, it's what I need, and all the things you do,
its what I need, its what I need.
Don't believe what they tell you, all the lies that they are teaching, when the make the corporations all
the desperate people stealing.
Somebody chose these words for you. Interpretations of the truth. Somewhere behind your fear they hide.
To fill the holes inside.
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I just need this to be alright
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight am I going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
Which way do I go?
Pain I swallow I cannot keep it down
Hate I swallow I cannot keep it down
Down
You I hate you I cannot keep you down
You I'll rape you I cannot keep it down
Down
You before me
I can't take any more
Of what you have to offer
My ears are sore
Leave my feelings
In a heap by the door
Can't go up any futher
The walls around me caving in
Cracked and grey
Remind me of myself, I need some help
There's no one else
I'm empty
Addicted
Pissed off
And still afraid
Of what you
Have left me
To live in
This mess you've made
I feel...
Useless...
Jaded...
Nameless
the ride is over I've come down
Hate to be
Can't rely upon myself, for my own health
I'm so fucked up
Distorted
Dysfunctional
and drained
All my deep rooted
Fears seem to get
The best of me
I feel...
Useless...
Jaded...
Nameless
I hate the way you fuck with me
You can't rely on open eyes to see
I force these painful visions from my head
You won't be happy till I break down
I feel...
Useless...
Jaded...
As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of people's feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof overhead
A crack head asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
A boy just thirteen on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
And your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
You turn away, you turn away
You turn away, you turn away
As I walk along the streets
Soaking up the acid rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet, I fight
And yet, I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home
Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...
My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet, I find
And yet, I find
Repeating in my head
If I can't be my own
I'd feel better dead
Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...
You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me
You made in vain
I lost myself inside
Your tainted smile again
CHORUS
You can't feel my anger
You can't feel my pain
You can't fell my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They bring only pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
I feel betrayed
Stuck in your ways
You rip me apart with the
Brutal things you say
Can't deal with this shit anymore
I just look away
CHORUS
Mudshuvel
You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again
CHORUS
You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
I'll drive you insane
I won't fight these feelings
I will bring you pain
I won't take away
I'll be whole again
Mudshuvel
I walk alone
I am alone
I think alone
I'll die alone
Don't think I can make it on my own
I think I need someone to SAVE ME!
Such is life
So sad but true
Kill everything
That's close to you
Try to decide what not to do
You know you cannot CONTROL ME!
I don't see the point in
Going any further
Than we've gone already
Can't keep my hands steady
Sadness
Everyday for me
You can't
Take that away from me
All these fuckin thoughts inside my head
Are almost more than I can take
You push and pull on me
Your gonna keep pushin
Till I break
You think you control me
Have no chains to hold me
Only thing that saves me
Voices just might kill me
Sadness
Everyday for me
You can't
Take that away from me
All these fuckin thoughts inside my head
Are almost more than I can take
You push and pull on me
Your gonna keep pushin
I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
I've fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only
One that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
Just
Just
Just
Just go
All these fucking lies
thank you to the people in my life
for putting up with me
and thank you for the time you sacrificed
all on account of me
[chorus]
for all the times i didn't say
the times i didn't say
for all the times i didn't say
the times i didn't say
fuck you to the jaded and the fake
like to see what you would do
fuck you and the judgements you make
we're not all perfect just like you,
like you, like you
[chorus]
all the times i didn't say [x2]
thank you to the people in my life for putting up with me
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question...
When will this ever end?
Not much to the life I live
Same 4 Walls
I have nothing left to give
Please take it all away....
Same 4 Walls
The thoughts from my mind
Feel the pain as rats claw at my flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Feels the joy as the needls hits my vein
The thoughts from my mind
Smells the stench as shit runs down my leg
The thoughts from my mind ask for sanity
Now for this I beg
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question...
To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
'Cause I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
I just had to let you know
'Cuz I don't always let it show
You give me needed room to grow
And I just had to tell you so
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
Sometimes I take for granted
It's just like poetry inside
To hear you breathing by my side
Like I'm in Heaven and I've died
So glad you're with me for this ride
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
Sometimes I take for granted
I see your face to start my day
Makes my all bad dreams go away
And all the stupid games we play
Wouldn't have it any other way
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
Sometimes I take for granted
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you I suppose
Cuz the wounds never heal
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me then I could
Learn to feel
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of dissaray
Succumbing to the games we played
To make sure that it's real
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me then I could
Learn to feel
When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do?
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me then I could
Learn how to feel and we could
Stay here together and we could
Conquer the world if we could
Say that forever is more than just a word
If you just walked away
What I could really say?
And would it matter anway?
It wouldn't change how you feel
You push yourself on me
Force yourself on me
Free yourself through me
You better save yourself from me
Every time you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
I hate myself for you
I break myself for you
I'd kill myself for you
I'd better save myself from you
Everytime you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
If you have to walk my way
Have somethingto say
Get the fuck away
Can't take one more day
I cannot conform
You push yourself on me
Force yourself on me
Free yourself through me
You better save yourself from me
Every time you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
I hate myself for you
I break myself for you
I'd kill myself for you
I'd better save myself from you
Everytime you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
If you have to walk my way
Have somethingto say
Get the fuck away
Can't take one more day
I cannot conform
COME AGAIN!
And you bring me to my knees
All this time that i could beg you please
All the times that i felt insecure
And i leave my burdens at the door
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside youre ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All this time that I felt like this wont end
Was for you
And i taste what I could never have
It's from you
All those times that I tried
My intentions
Full of pride
And i waste more time than anyone
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times that I cried
All this wastin
It's all inside
And i feel all this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie here in bed
All alone
I can't help what I feel
Tomorrow will be okay
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
CHORUS
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve
My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice, and I'm sorry
Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from my...
My mothers always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad she messed me up
'Cause now she seems so fake to me but I love her
Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from myself
If you push me then I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside
Like my father
I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me (I'm failing it)
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself
I hear you talk about your family life
She sits alone again and tries her best
Not to pretend that all she use to live for was a love that was unfair
Everytime she needs to do the things that she believes will fill the void inside of her cause he was never there
She said i swear im not the devil although you think i am
I swear im not the devil
He tries to sleep again
And he wonders when the pain will end
The cuts, they may run deeper than his cracking outer shell
He looks with tired eyes
At all the people hypnotized
And wonders what can save him
From his self created hell.
And he said i swear im not the devil although you think i am
I swear im not the devil
I always fail to see the little things in front of me
The things that mean so much to you
A way to let you know
That i appreciate the way you always tolerate
But sometimes when i medicate
Frustration in you shows me how you feel
But i swear im not the devil although you think i am
I swear im not the devil
And i scream i swear im not the devil although you think i am
You're my world
The shelter from the rain
You're the pills
That take away my pain
You’re the light
That helps me find my way
You’re the words
When I have nothing to say
And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you
You're the fire
That warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand I have to hold
As I grow old
You're the shore
When I am lost at sea
You're the only thing
That I like about me
And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
How long has it been
Since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends
And goes like this forever
In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
You're My World
The Shelter From The Rain
You're The Pills
That Take Away My Pain
You're The Light
That Helps Me Find My Way
You're The Words
When I Have Nothing To Say
And In This World
Where Nothing Else Is True
Here I am
Still Tangled Up In You
I'm Still Tangled Up In You
Still Tangled Up In You
You're The Fire
That Warms Me When I'm Cold
You're The Hand
I Have To Hold As I Grow Old
You're The Shore
When I am Lost At Sea
You're The Only Thing
That I Like About Me
And In This World
Where Nothing Else Is True
Here I am
Still Tangled Up In You
I'm Still Tangled Up In You
How Long Has It Been
Since This Storyline Began
And I Hope It Never Ends
And Goes Like This Forever
In This World
Where Nothing Else Is True
Here I am
Still Tangled Up In You
Tangled Up In You
I'm Still Tangled Up In You
Are you afraid, afraid of the truth
in the mirror staring back at you
The image is cracked, but so it the view here
and the strength of a tree begins in the roots.
That I tend to bury into to you
At least now the storm can't blow me away
So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me.
Should I be afraid of this face that I see
In the mirror staring back at me
So cold were the days when I listened to you.
And you say that I'm weak so show me the proof
Cause I still exist inspite of you
But I won't compete with you everyday,
So crawl inside my head with me,
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
Schizophrenic conversations that
I'm always having with myself
I hear these voices in my head competing
Maybe I could use a little help
I still have Schizophrenic conversations when there's no one else around to hear
I long for solitude and peace within me
Void of all the anger and the fear.
So crawl inside my head with me
I'll show you how it feels to be
Fucked up like me.
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve
The life I see in her
Just don't leave me
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life to you no one else
Just don't leave me
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I'm so cold
I feel so cold
I CAN'T TAKE THIS
I feel so...
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I feel so:
I light another cigarette
Stop to think about it
Come to no conclusions
Take each step as it comes
Hold no prisioners except myself
Painful thoughts denied
Try to explain
My loss of words
Fuck you I piss upon you all
My head is a barricade
Filled with peaceful thoughts
With evil outcomes
No one understands
Try to break the barrier
I see no outlet
No ones there to catch me when I fall
Try to explain
My loss of words
Opression
and suffering
Depression
and hostility
obsession
and vanity
all on the cover page
Soak it in
Saturate
Turns to grey
All these things
Novocaine
So we don't feel at all
Suppression
and genocide
Exploitation
and homicide
Perfection
and suicide
all on the cover page
Soak it in
Saturate
Turns to grey
All these things
Novocaine
To desensitize us every day
To this life that we wait
So we don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
All these things
Novocaine
To desensitize us every day
To this life that we wait
So we don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
Do you feel like you're falling?
You've taken this step
In front of you, is further from the truth
You fall apart in front of me again
Again
Denial isn't the way to forgiveness
You always swore that I was wrong
Not again
No taste for the crow you feed me
Not again
It's not a matter of if I care
Not again
What an intricate web you're weaving
I did it again
So you tried not to follow
While the clock fails to sleep
So here we are back where it began
And toe to toe I stand in front of you again
Again
Denial isn't the way to forgiveness
You always swore that I was wrong
Not again
No taste for the crow you feed me
Not again
It's not a matter of if I care
Not again
What an intricate web you're weaving
I did it again
Not again
No taste for the crow you feed me
Not again
It's not a matter of if I care
Not again
What an intricate web you're weaving
I did it again
Again
i heard today that you were gone
i had to stop and sing along
the song they played to say goodbye
a song they gave, give me back life
you'll never fade
the words you gave
my life you saved
your name was layne
and on that day a child was born
to someone who you helped along
and helped see through his darkest times
because of you, this child she is mine
the words you said, you made me feel like they were all for me
the words you said, they will always be a part of me
the words you said, you made me feel like i was not alone
the words you said, you gave me all the strength to carry on
so to me you'll never fade
your life you gave
my life you saved
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
You're my world, the shelter from the rain
You're the pills that take away my pain
You're the fire that warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand to hold as I grow old
In a world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you
You're the ship when I am lost at sea
You're the only thing that I like up at me
You're the light to show me the way
You're the end when I am lost at sea
You're the only thing that I like up at me
You're the light to show me the way
You're the end of my very best day
In this world when nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
What I leave,
When you go,
What I see,
And what you show,
And what I guess,
And when I don't,
Is something you all ready, all ready know,
[Chorus:]
I can't live without,
All I think about,
All I want is you,
You're all I dream about,
I can't live without,
All I want is you,
The things I do,
I go through,
And all I say,
When Im away,
And what I make,
The shit that I take,
Is something you all ready, all ready know
[Chorus:]
I can't live without,
All I think about,
All I want is you,
You're all I dream about,
I can't live without,
All I want is you,
Ohhh,...
Is you,
Is you,
Is you,
Is you,
You're all I dream about,
That I can't live without,
All I want is you
[Chorus:]
I can't live without,
All I think about,
All I want is you,
You're all I dream about,
I can't live without,
All I want is you,
I just can't live without you,
When all I think about is you,
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
It sheltered me from nothing but the weather
I called it home for a moment of my life
This place I see just doesn't look familiar
I wonder if it looks the same inside
So there's the corner that I sat on
The road I walked home in the rain
And there's the star I used to wish on
It all just seems like yesterday
Days go by
Nothing's getting clearer
Can't change my mind
My troubles are the same
Faces change
The names they are familiar
And the streets I see
Will stand the test of time
So there's the corner that I sat on
The road I walked home in the rain
And there's the star I used to wish on
It all just seems like yesterday
And those stars
Stars still shine
Shine down through the rain
And there's the corner that I sat on
The road I walked home in the rain
And there's the star I used to wish on
It all just seems like yesterday
And I stare out this dirty window
As this world goes slowly by
And somewhere out there is the future
That I once thought had passed me by
Sheltered me from nothing but the weather
Talk to me
You never talk to me
Do we suffer from
Social atrophy
And when the conversation's over
We've taken what's been given
And we throw it all away
Walk with me
Come on and walk with me
Take a look around you
Do you like what you see?
We've taken what's been given
And we throw it all away
It's hard to be forgiven
When there's nothing left to say
And when the conversation's over
Silence just gets in the way
And when the conversation's over
Talk to me
Don't ever talk for me
We've taken what's been given
And you throw it all away
It's hard to be for given
When there's nothing left to say
I'm one stop
From a breakdown
Two steps from
Being safe
Just try to
See this through
I'm three steps
From this nightmare
And four steps
From the door
The rest is
Up to you
Pardon me while I
Just turn my back
And walk away
Pardon me if I
Can't listen
To the things
You say
Pardon me if I
Can't fake it
While you still believe
Pardon me
I'm one step
From forgiveness
And two steps
From my grave
We're all just
Passing through
Three steps
From redemption
Four from the
Devil's door
On a path
That leads to you
Pardon me while I
Just turn my back
And walk away
Pardon me if I
Can't listen
To the things
You say
Pardon me if I
Can't fake this
While you still believe
Pardon me
Pardon me while I
Just turn my back
And walk away
Pardon me if I
Can't listen
To the things
You say
Pardon me if I
Can't fake it
While you still believe
Pardon me
I'm two steps
From salvation
But i'm only
Taking one
Pardon me
You the great offenders
Blood to paint your pictures
While you're stepping over
Fallen people lying in the streets
You the great pretenders
Only your views matter
While your heart grows colder
I wish that you could open up and feel
For a while see if you can take
Feel
You're alive and this is all part of it
Feel
Could it be that we're all afraid
Cause it feels like a rainy day parade
We the great believers
Blood is legal tender
And I will not surrender
What it was our fathers died to bear
We the people stated
Not negotiated
Just to be forgotten
I wish that you could open up and see
For a while see if you can take it
You're alive and this is all part of it
Can't you see that we're all afraid
Cause it seems like a rainy day parade
What I see is all too real
What I need is what you steal
And all I reap is what you take
Upon my back on which you break
And I just wish that we could rise above and
Feel
For a while see if you can take it
Feel
You're alive and this is all part of it
Feel
Could it be that we're all afraid
Misery
the company it keeps
History
of all these things we keep repeating
Like a wheel
oh, that keeps turning
If I could break away
from this moment
break away
what is real
break away
never show it
break away
how I feel
If I could break away
Apathy
the ignorance it breeds
The tragedy
of all these things we keep repeating
Like a wheel
that keeps turning
If I could break away
from this moment
break away
what is real
break away
never show it
break away
how I feel
If I could break away
If I could break away
If I could break away
If I could break away
If I could break away
from this moment
break away
what is real
break away never show it
break away how I feel
If I could break away
If I could break away
You, I trusted your intentions a trust
you took advantage of now you are
sitting in the hole that you
dug around yourself.
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses
Is she your partner in deception caught
inside the web you've spun?
Did you forget that you were family,
the damage you have done?
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses
I trusted you. I trusted in you.
This time you're gonna get it
All the things you've done coming back to you
This time you're gonna feel it
Your conscience slowly suffocating you
In time you will regret it
Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses
Everything must come full circle
It kills me that I feel this hurtful
I wonder what your children think of you,
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you can not close
The devil in you, I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel
When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do?
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn how to feel
Then we could stay here together
And we could conquer the world
If we could say that forever
Is more than just a word
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
Twisting
Turning
Crashing
Burning
All this just to break me down
You don't know me
You don't see me
You don't own me cause I don't care
That I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear?
Faceless
Faking
Pushing
Taking
All this just to bring me down
You don't know me
You don't see me
You don't own me cause I don't care
That I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear?
You don't know me
You don't own me cause I'm aware
That I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear
I'm still here
Reluctantly waiting for you to interfere
The lights are on
But you're not home
You've drifted off
Somewhere alone
Somewhere that's safe
No questions here
A quiet place
Where you hide from your fears
Sometimes when you're out of rope
The way to climb back up is clear
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
Are you afraid of what they think?
Whoever they happen to be
Or are you hiding from the scars of
Your own reality?
So you sedate
And drown in vain
You've got a pill
For every day
A suit and tie
To mask the truth
It's ugly head
Is starting to show through
Sometimes when you're out of rope
The way to climb back up's unclear
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
Are you afraid of what they think?
Whoever they happen to be
Or are you hiding from the scars of
Your own reality?
The monster you're feeding
Your lack of perception
The things that you do
To fulfill your addictions
The light at the end
Of your tunnel is closing
What is it that you're so
Afraid of exposing?
You'd give it all up for
What's there for the taking
Whatever it takes to
Keep your hands from shaking
The same things you're thinking
Might make you feel better
The same things that probably
Got you here
Sometimes when you're out of rope
The way to climb back up's unclear
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
Are you afraid of what they think?
Whoever they happen to be
Or are you hiding from the scars of
Your own reality?
The monster you're feeding
Your lack of perception
The things that you do
To fulfill your addictions
(Your own reality)
The light at the end
Of your tunnel is closing
What is it that you're so
Afraid of exposing?
(Your own reality)
You'd give it all up for
What's there for the taking
Whatever it takes to
Keep your hands from shaking
(Your own reality)
The same things you're thinking
Might make you feel better
The same things that probably
Thank you to the people in my life
For putting up with me
And thank you for the time you sacrificed
All on account of me
For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say
For all the times I didn't say
Times I didn't say
Fuck you to the jaded and the fake
Like to see what you would do
Fuck you and the judgements that you make
We're not all perfect just like you
Like you
Like you
For all the times I didn't say
Times I didn't say
For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say
All the times I didn't say
All the times I didn't say
Thank you to the people in my life
Gimme some guitars punk
Sweet Leth
Limp Bizkit in the house
What fucken' house?
Seattle baby
Terry Date, Limp Bizkit, Staind
Bring the noise
Bass! how low can you go?
Death row what a brother knows
Once again, back is the incredible
The rhyme animal
The incredible D. Public Enemy number one
Five-o said "freeze!" and I got numb
Can I tell 'em that I really never had a gun?
But it's the wax that the Terminator X-1
Now they got me in a cell 'cuz my records they sell
'Cuz a brother like me said "well?"
Farrakhan's a racist and I think you should listen to
What he can say to you what you otta do
Follow for now power of the people say.
"Make a miracle, D. pump the lyrical"
United we stand, all in all, we're gonna win.
Check it out, yeah y'all, here we go again
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Never badder than bad 'cuz the brother is madder than mad
At the fact that's corrupt as a senator
Soul on a roll, but you treat it like soap on a rope
'Cuz the beats in the lines are so dope
Listen for lessons I'm saying
Inside music that the critics are blasting me
For they'll never care for the brother and sisters
Now across the country has us up for the war.
We got to demostrate, come on
They're gonna have to wait 'till we get it right
Radio stations I question their blackness
They call themselves black. but we'll see if they'll play this
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Get from in front of me, the crowd runs to me
My DJ is Lethal dose, we call him Leth you know
He can cut a record from side to side
So what, the ride the glide should be much safer than a suicide
Soul control, beat is the father or our rock' n' roll
Music for whatcha, for whichin' you call a band man
Makin' a music abuse it but you can't do it, ya know
You call 'em demos but we ride limos, too
Whatcha gonna do? Rap is not afraid of you
Beat is for Sonny Bono, beat is for Yoko Ono
Run DMC first said a DJ could be a band
Stand on it's feet get you out your seat
Beat is for Eric B. and LB as well, hell
Records from Fred D still we can rock bells
Ever for ever, Universal it will sell
Time for me to exit, Terminator X-it
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Bring that fucken' noise, and get the fuck up
Get the fuck up
Bring the noise
Bring it
Fuck this
Limp Bizkit
Fuck this
In the studio
Fucken Suck ass
Bring that noise
Man fuck this
Terry Date is a fucken pain
Trust In me can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
what for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
so loud, why can't you hear it
I'm OK
All my faith is gone
you think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down
shattered, nothing behind it
In my mind alone,
Lost here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole
safe here from what I hated
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show can't believe it
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways
And I
And I
And I
I'M NOT OK!
I'm OK
Trust In me can't trust
Iknow, I don't believe in
All my life so scarred
what for,you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
why can't you feel it
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show can't believe in
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
What the fuck's the purpose
I didn't scratch the surface
Immune to what your saying
All along decaying
Can't see thru the fire
Darkness lone desire
Quiet in my corner
Building up the border
Can't stand the way you make me feel today
No One's kind is all you'll ever be
Can't see thru the rain
Too much time
No sublime
losss of energy
No symmentry
Fuck soceity
Lost in nievate
Can't stand they way you break me...
Can't take the pain you break me....
Can't bite the hand that feeds me...
Can't take away what's in me
Addicted to the feelings
Lose touch with all I've know
The cobwebs on the cieling
Make me aware that I'm all alone
The endless rain washes all away
It's Been Awhile
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
Since I first saw you
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
Since I could call you
But everything I can't
remember as fucked up as it
all may seem the consequences
that I've rendered I've stretched
myself beyond my means
It's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
Since I could say I love myself as well
Since I've gone and fucked things
up just like I always do
But all that shit seems to
disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
as fucked up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
Since I said I'm sorry
Since I've seen the way
the candle lights your face
But I can still remember
just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as
fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my
father he did the best he could for me
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry
if someone else showed you the way
would you take the wheel and steer?
it hurts me that you're not ashamed
of what you're doing here
if they jumped off a bridge
would you meet them on the ground?
or would you try and claim
that it never made a sound
everyone plays the hand they're dealt
and learns to walk through life themselves
not everything in life is handed on a plate
when people think your words are true
it doesn't matter what you do
i sold my soul to get here
how 'bout you?
so you choose to force your hand
what a strange way to make freinds
and you always change the rules
so the drama never ends
and you blindly go through life
judging only by what its worth
just try not to forget
that the meek inherit earth
so please don't take offense
this is just a point of view
cuz i'm the only one who
If ever, you had said to me before
That I would live this life
That I am livin' now I guess, it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside
And have so much that I could feel
Some pride for in my life
So why is it that I feel like this?
How do I feel? I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this
Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me
To torment again and torture me like
It used to
I try and try to break away
From all the hate, I'm feelin'
For everyone of you that's ever
Done me wrong
I need to justify the reasons
For the way I'm livin'
I guess, I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve
How do I feel? I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this
Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me
To torment again and torture me like
It used to
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding, I can't take away
All the shame I feel, forgive me
How do I feel? I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this
Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me
To torment again and torture me like
Respect
Respect is what is found
Respect should be abound
Respect everything that you leave
(I can't believe)
Can't Believe
And I, I can't believe
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me, I , I want to flee
I want to flee from everything
In front of me!
Can't Believe
Never again, trusted in you
Fuck everything you think I should be
I stand, never again, never again
just try to understand this isn't what i planned
this ride's out of my hands
so now i'm forced to be something i can not be
if only i could make you see
tonight i'm alive
i've watched you all grow up and so have i
inside this isn't really what i had in mind
i no longer relate to this world of hate
that's forced upon my plate
i tend to disagree, i hope its not just me,
you don't know what you've put me through
it's okay, i've forgiven you
but in some way, hope it fucks with you
hope it fucks with you
[pre-chorus]
that i'm okay and i've made it through
but who's to say what your going through
i'll say no names, though i've wanted to
isn't it strange how it seems like...
[chorus]
yesterday, a boy and already afraid
locked deep inside, my place to hide
to hide from how you made me feel
and i wonder how's your brother
did he end up fucked up like me?
lost in himself, crying for help it's safe to say
i learned to live without a pride
just a shell, with me stuck on the inside
a prison, not a place to hide
not a place to hide
[pre-chorus]
[chorus]
[chorus (altered)]
yesterday, a boy and already afraid
locked deep inside, my place to hide
to hide from how you made me feel
and i wonder how's your brother
did he finally pull through like me?
finding himself, not needing help
Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'coz I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't replace
The life you, the life you waste
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem?
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
They can't replace
The life you, the life you waste
Did daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
Well fuck them, and fuck her
And fuck him, and fuck you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through
I've had doubts, I have failed
I've fucked up, I've had plans
Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands
But these words
They can't replace
The life you, the life you waste
But these words
They don't replace
Featuring: Snoop Dogg
I'm selling records what is it that you do
Sitting in your mama's basement with a shiatsu
Peanut butter on your dick
Right hand going click
With your left hand giving you a rim job
So now you want to talk about me
Who's name is on the marque
You hate everything that you can't be
I've heard enough
You're just a sellout, turncoat rockstar
A pussy, poser rockstar
Because you're nothing but a wannabe
It's so easy when you're faceless
Why don't you focus on your misery
Instead of focusing on me
So number two that's right what is you're rolling
Now that your mama's ford focus got stolen
Well it don't matter because you got nowhere to go
So back to hating frantic masturbating
So now you want to talk about me
You know the songs that you download for free
You hate everything that you can't be
I've heard enough
You're just a sellout, turncoat rockstar
A pussy, poser rockstar
Because you're nothing but a wannabe
It's so easy when you're faceless
Why don't you focus on your misery
Instead of focusing on me
So number two that's right what is you're rolling
Now that your mama's ford focus got stolen
Well it don't matter because you got nowhere to go
So back to hating frantic masturbating
So now you want to talk about me
So now you want to talk about me
Because you're nothing but a wannabe
It's so easy when you're faceless
Why don't you focus on your misery
Instead of focusing on me
Nothing but a wannabe
It's so easy when you're faceless
Why don't you focus on your misery
Instead of focusing on me
I'm selling records what is it that you do
Sitting in your mama's basement
I'm selling records what is it that you do
I'm not very good at just paying attention
I'm not very good at remembering things that you say
I'm not very good at pursuing redemption
I'm not very good at concealing the hand that I play
It's the way I am
You'll never change the way I am
Or rearrange the way I am
Just let me be the way I am
It's the way I am
I'm not really sure of the coming attractions
I'm not really sure of illusions they read on the wall
I'm not really sure of the preaching we practice
I'm not really sure if we'll notice it before we fall
It's the way I am
You'll never change the way I am
Or rearrange the way I am
Just let me be the way I am
It's the way I am
Not very good at just paying attention
Not very good at remembering things
I'm not very good at pursuing redemption
I'm not very good at concealing the hand that I play
When I'm trying so hard just to beat you
I'm not really good at controlling my fate
I'm not really good at controlling my anger
I'm not really good at subduing my hate
I'm not really good, I'm not really good
I'm not really good
It's the way I am
You'll never change the way I am
Or rearrange the way I am
Just let me be the way I am
It's the way I am
It’s 3 AM, it’s cold outside, you can’t sleep.
Is it from your conscience talking to the skeletons you keep?
Every time you try to speak, only craziness comes out.
But she can’t turn the other cheek.
And you can’t hide how it comes out.
So when did you decide to embrace what you hate to survive?
'Cause that’s not what got us here.
It’s 8 AM and still no sleep.
But you don’t care.
I don’t know why I keep on calling.
Does it get us anywhere?
'Cause every time I try to speak.
You never let my words come out.
I can’t turn the other cheek.
And I can’t help how this comes out.
So when did you decide to embrace what you hate to survive?
'Cause that’s not what got us here
Honestly, I don’t know how you could see.
Something you once saw in me.
Just another volunteer.
Wonder if you ever lie awake in bed and think about the things you said.
Your dedication shows that you can’t see your eyes are closed.
And all the promises you made to me, they seem to fade and leave me with this disappointment.
That these words can never show.
When your ride is over and you’re hanging by a thread.
As your house of cards is falling, just remember what I said.
So when do you decide to embrace you hate to survive?
'Cause that’s not what got us here.
And honestly, I don’t know how you could see.
Something you once saw in me.
You suffocate
You cannot wait for this to just be over
You want to run and just be done
Your what you can't control here
Don't know what your thinking
This ship is sinking
I will meet you at the bottom
The waves can't wash away all the scars you bare
See you at the bottom
You just hold on to the things that keep you there
You suffer the cost when all this is lost
It just doesn't make sense to go there
All the hate that your fear
It slowly appears back into you with no control
Don't know what your thinking
This ship is sinking
I will meet you at the bottom
The waves can't wash away all the scars you've made
See you at the bottom
You just hold on to the things that keep you there
Just fucking stand for something
You'll never take us all
You never get it right
You never get it right
We'll always stand and fight
You never get it right
It's cold down here at the bottom
I will meet you at the bottom
The waves can't wash away all the scars you've made
See you at the bottom
I can't believe
how far I've come
I've watched me stumble
and come undone
If you take away
these memories
all that's left
is just me
Cause I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this
anymore
So you choose
to break my heart
I should have seen this
from the start
I'm haunted by
your apathy
All that's left
is killing me
Cause I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this
anymore
If you believe
that the way you choose to be
I've always had to see
the brighter side of this so I don't lose my faith
Now the sun has gone away
It's getting colder every day
So before I freeze to death there's something I should say
I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this
Though you say you understand you still won't face this
Can't erase this
I won't embrace this
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you this pain in me - in me
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes
I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
It know it
'cause I once felt that way
Nothing I could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow
Make it go away
Just make it go away
You can take all the things you think I need
All i wear upon my sleeve
All the ways that you perceive
I no longer need it
I know what it means
black and white
Got what I need
and that's why..
You lead me on the edge of sanity
There's not much left, just take a breath
You paint me out as mediocrity
Put to the test, just take a breath
And me, I just take things as they come
I stick around until it's done
and I'm not your chosen one,
but can you admit
I know what it means
black and white
Got what I need
and that's why...
You lead me on the edge of sanity
There's not much left, just take a breath
You paint me out as mediocrity
Put to the test, just take a breath
You can take all the things you think I need
all the ways that you...
You lead me on the edge of sanity
There's not much left, just take a breath
You paint me out as mediocrity
Put to the test, just take a breath
I know what it means
I feel nothing
Longing for something
Lie in bed to take your clothes off
Show me what you're made of
Drugs to soothe me
(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate
I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try hard try hard
To see if I can push you any further
Drugs to soothe me
(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate
Please believe you'll save me, rearrange me
I can feel your feelings running through me
Take away my sorrow my tomorrow
Heal me
(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate
I'm suffocating
Suffer
The more you see the more you do
The television's feeding you. With what
You want to hear, anger and fear, because you suffer
The hate you feel won't go away you're all programmed to
feel this way to live another day within a world
That loves to suffer
And then I come to find everything's O.K. seen this all
before but that was yesterday. I try to walk right
through the messes that I've made just let me enjoy
the life here that I've made
I've tried to give it all to you. Can't take anymore to do
with this. It hurts inside. I know why I hide 'cause
I suffer
I tried to keep it all inside didn't leave me too much
pride forced it all down inside forced myself to make
me suffer
And then I come to find everything's O.K. seen this all
before but that was yesterday. I try to walk right
through the messes that I've made just let me enjoy
the life here that I've made
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I feel I give everything to you
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I think there's nothing left to do
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you
Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you
I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I feel you are what's changed my soul
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I think I'll never lose control
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you
Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you
I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
I don't understand it
You're killing this planet
The scabs on your face
It's a fucking disgrace
I blame you
I blame you
Can't breathe!
Shut up
I'm don't like today, take it all away (shut up)
Just like what you say - I don't want you (shut up)
Kinda like the way, everything is gray (shut up)
Just like what you say - I don't need you (shut up)
I don't look like you, do the things you do (shut up)
So this is it I say goodbye
To this chapter of my every changing life
And there's mistakes and the path is long
And I'm sure I'll answer for them when I'm gone
So when the day comes in the sun won't touch my face
Tell the ones who cared enough that I finally left this place
That's been so cold look at my face
All the stories it will tell I can't erase
The road is long
Just one more song
A little something to remind when I'm gone
When I'm gone
The road to hell along the way
Is paved with good intentions so they say
And some believe that no good deed
Goes unpunished in the end or so it seems
So when the day comes in the sun won't touch my face
Tell the ones who cared enough that I finally left this place
That's been so cold look at my face
All the stories it will tell I can't erase
The road is long
Just one more song
A little something to remind when I'm gone
When I'm gone
So this is it I say goodbye
To this chapter of my every changing life
And there's mistakes and the path is long
This is my life, it's not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me
'Cause I, I must be sleepin'
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
An' all the mistakes one life contained
They all finally start to go away
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
An' I feel like I can face the day
An' I can't forget that I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doin' okay
And this is the smile
I've never shown before
Somebody shake me
'Cause I, I must be sleeping
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
An' all the mistakes one life contained
They all finally start to go away
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
An' I feel like I can face the day
An' I can't forget that I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
An' all the mistakes one life contained
They all finally start to go away
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
An' I feel like I can face the day
An' I can't forget that I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
Watch me suffer, you'll feel better
Stick the needle in my vein
Lost my feelings with my dealings
Thoughts of only you remain
Fuck, fuck, fuck
Rip and tear in my despair
Agonizing over shit
Feel the needle burn and tingle
My bad habits, deal with it
Fuck, fuck, fuck
I will self destruct
My life has slowly faded
Broke down and degraded
Suffocate in my sorrow
Maybe, I'll die tomorrow
This riot that I've cited
Came to you uninvited
Truth hurts when it's in your face
Are you afraid of it?
I will self destruct
I think I'm gonna, think I'm gonna
I will self destruct
I self destruct my mind
I self destruct my world
"WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM!?"
...You wanna know what my problem is?
Alone, I walk beside myself
Alone, you put me on your shelf
Alone, with my insanity
Alone, no one to blame but me
But if you had told me when I was much younger
That life has a way of pulling you right under
I wouldn't be standing here preaching my hate
I stand at the edge staring into my fate
I see thru you
What makes you think that you're god
Pick up the pieces as I fall apart
Why must you fuck with me
Betrayed, You left me here for dead
Betrayed, By the voices in my head
Betrayed, left my out in the rain
Betrayed, nothing left but pain
I'm sick of the answers
Your cannibal instincts and false dedications
You leave me here cold, nothing left but my shell
To die while I'm living and burn in my hell
I pick you apart little by little
Till nothing is left but the look on your face
Once inside our I can get at what's inside
Beneath your facad I can see your discrase
The walls that you build up will crumble around you
The pain you will feel as you wither away
The sun though it comes up will warm you...
This dark room
another cigarette
The carpet's strewn
I'm getting sick of it
The end is near
I'm in the thick of it
And I'll be there soon
if you can handle it
Just save me from all that I am
You save me for the fuck of it
Save me, just hold out your hand
You save me from all of it
I try to speak myself
you can do it to
I need no one's help
I'm needing only you
So just pray for me
and deliver it
You never take from me
what I'm given
Just save me from all that I am
You save me for the fuck of it
Save me, just hold out your hand
You save me from all of it
And all that I've become is you
The only good in me is you
And after all of this
today we come to find out
will you take me
or forsake me
So just pray for me
am I forgiven
From what you take from me
Just save me from all that I am
You save me for the fuck of it
Save me, just hold out your hand
You save me from all of it
Come save me
Pray for me
Another day
Inside my world
I'm married to
you and this road.
A road that never lets
me sleep .
So theres no way to escape the
demons I am forced to keep.
And then I find you here
Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home
Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.
I mean the best
with what I say.
It doesn't always
sound that way
I never learned to
Work things out cause
In my family all we
Ever seem to do is shout
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.
And when I try to sleep-
the drugs I take
are killing me - I think of you
to ease my pain -
but you're so far-
Now it's time to say goodbye.
I love you baby
please don't cry -
'cause then I'll find you here -
Through your eyes everythings clear -
and I'm home inside your arms - but I'm alone for now.
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face?
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending
It's as much as I can take
And you're so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Why can't you just forgive me?
I don't want to relive
All the mistakes I've made
Along the way
But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting?
Searching for the things to say
A piece of glass
In the sand under your feet
It cuts you deep
It makes you hate the beauty that you see
And you wonder where you are
How you ever got so far
Now you question what went wrong
It?s your heart
It?s raining again
There?s a dark cloud over your head
It follows you around, it?s bringing you down
It?s raining, it?s raining again
A welted rose
And you?re the gaze of all you see
You buy the flaws
And miss the beauty that is yours for free
Realize you are so far
From the things that matter now
And you only wonder how
It?s your heart
It?s raining again
There?s a dark cloud over your head
It follows you around, it?s bringing you down
It?s raining, it?s raining again
Come on, come on, get it right
Come on, come on, make it right
Come on, come on, it?s alright
It?s raining again
There?s a dark cloud over your head
It follows you around, it?s bringing you down
It?s raining, it?s raining again
It?s raining, raining again
Failed to see how destructive we can be (can be)
Taking without giving back till the damage can be seen (be seen)
Can you see?! Can you see?!
The more you take the more you blame
For everything still feels the same
The more you hurt the more you scream
The price you pay to play the game
And all you see and all you gave
And all you step on with no shame
There are no rules no one no blame
The price to pay to play the game
Empathy the chosen way to be (to be)
Blindly look the other way while you waste away with me (with me)
Can you see?! Can you see?!
The more you take the more you blame
For everything still feels the same
The more you hurt the more you scream
The price you pay to play the game
And all you see and all you gave
And all you step on with no shame
There are no rules no one no blame
The price to pay to play the game
What you pay to play the game [x4]
The more you take the more you blame
For everything still feels the same
The more you hurt the more you scream
The price you pay to play the game
And all you see and all you gave
And all you step on with no shame
There are no rules no one no blame
The price to pay to play the game
Can't you see that I'm sick of this?
Chances are you're oblivious
To how I feel, sitting on your throne
And I'm sure that I'm not alone
Not alone, not alone
Tell me please, who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please, I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you, so please
I didn't think that you'd sell me out
Now I know what you're all about
You might feel in control of things
But you're not holding all the strings
All the strings, all the strings
Tell me please, who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please, I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't matter to you
I swallowed all your answers
I've swallowed all my pride
You've used up all your chances
Can't keep this all inside
Tell me please, who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please, I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you, so please
Don't keep telling me that it's okay
I don't buy all the shit that you say
And quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it, so please
If I cut off this nose from my face
Then I wouldn't feel so out of place
But it still wouldn't be quite enough for you, so please
Your pathetic your fucking weak
And I'm sick of it all
Social anesthetic of people you bleed
And I'm sick of it all
Your unapologetic even though you shouldn't be
And I'm sick of it all
You just don't get it and you never did
And I'm sick of it all
Falling faster to the end
Sick of it all
The weight of your sorrow
Make some paper wings and learn to fly
If there's no tomorrow
Burn your paper wings and say goodbye
You cut me so fucking deep
And I'm sick of it all
You fucking drained me and I can't breathe
And I'm sick of it all
I break down on my knees
And I'm sick of it all
Your so unreal how just don't get it
And I'm sick of it all
Falling faster to the end
Sick of it all
The weight of your sorrow
Make some paper wings and learn to fly
If there's no tomorrow
Burn your paper wings and say goodbye
I can't go on like this
Not even one more day
I can't go on like this
I can't go on
I can't go on like this
Not even one more day
I can't go on like this
I can't go on
The weight of your sorrow
Make some paper wings and learn to fly
If there's no tomorrow
Burn your paper wings and say goodbye
And you bring me to my knees, again
All this time that I could beg you please, in vain
All the times that I felt insecure, for you
And I leave my burdens at the door
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All this time that I felt like this won't end
It's for you
And I taste what I could never have
Was from you
All those times that I tried
My intentions
Full of pride
And I waste more time than anyone
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times that I cried
All this wastin
It's all inside
And I feel all this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie here in bed
All alone
I cant mend but I feel
Tomorrow will be okay
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
When you come to a fork in the road
You can almost taste it
Never knowing which way to go
It's not been tested
All alone you try to take it to fake it
And is the road less traveled taken or forsaken
Now it's up to you
The path that you choose
Got to do something different
Now it's all the same
No one to blame
Got to do something different now
So you head down the road that you chose
Just keep pushing forward
And the window is trying to close
Just to shut you out
All alone you try to take it or fake it
And is the road less traveled taken or forsaken
Now it's up to you
The path that you choose
Got to do something different
Now it's all the same
No one to blame
Got to do something different
Something different
It's up to you
The path that you choose
Got to do something different now
Now it's all the same
No one to blame
Got to do something different now
It's up to you
The path that you choose
Got to do something different
You take away I feel the same
You take away I feel the same
All the promises you made to me you made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again
'Cause you can't feel my anger, you can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment, driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You can't take away make me whole again
I feel betrayed stuck in your ways
And you rip me apart with the brutal things you say
I can't deal with shit anymore
I just look away
'Cause you can't feel my anger, you can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they bring only pain
You can't take away make me whole again
Mudshuvel
You take away I feel the same
All these promises you promised only pain
If you take away and leave me with nothing again
'Cause you can't feel my anger, you can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You can't take away make me whole again
You will feel my anger, you will feel my pain
You will feel my torment driving you insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You won't take away I'll be whole again
we change the rhyme forget the reason
waiting for the change of season
drawing near its almost here
so save tonight forget tomorrow
say goodbye to time we borrow
its always there its in the air
like voices in the rain
like a song without a name
like angel's wings and whisperings
of love we lost and found along the way
do you take the time to really wallow
in the footsteps that you follow
gets you there takes you anywhere
so here today and gone tomorrow
with the time you had to borrow
its always there its in the air
like voices in the rain
like a song without a name
like angel's wings and whisperings
of love we lost and found along the way
like voices in the rain
like a song without a name
like angel's wings and whisperings
of time we lost and found out in the rain
like a song without a name (it washes it all away)
like angel's wings and whisperings (like the moments we could have saved)
of love we lost (the things we forgot to say)
and found along the way
I know that it never goes away
All I feel, everything I'm not today
So I try and I try to make everything right
I don't feel like I'm doing it, it affects me
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly fray
I know that everything can change
What I need is to open up again
So never again will I look back in vain
'Cause today's not the past
I don't need to re-live it
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While your TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly fray
Are you satisfied?
I've given all I can
And are you pacified
Or do you want more from me?
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
Well, you're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly fray
I've learned that
This life's not just a game
Just a line between
The pleasures and the pain
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
And you're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
You in your shell
are you waiting for someone to rescue
you from yourself
don't be disappointed when no one comes
Don't blame me
you didn't get it
Don't blame me
you didn't get it
Don't blame me
you didn't get it
I already told you that falling is easy
it's getting back up that becomes the problem
becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
you become the problem
become the problem
You all alone
are you waiting for someone to make you
whole
can't you see
aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine
Don't blame me
you didn't get it
Don't blame me
you didn't get it
Don't blame me
you didn't get it
I already told you that falling is easy
it's getting back up that becomes the problem
becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
you become the problem
become the problem
I already told you that falling is easy
it's getting back up that becomes the problem
becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
you become the problem
become the problem
Falling is easy it's getting back up
that becomes the problem
becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find your way out
then you've solved the problem
Yea...
Like a thread of the darkest clouds rolling in on a sunny day
Yea...
Like a field that has no rain
Yea...
Like a dog that wanders aimless with no name
Yea...
Like a cut without the pain
Yea....
You couldn't feel life
You couldn't take the pain
Yea....
You couldn't live life
And I'm just trying to get through to you
But I am failing
Lie like I'm not even here
My heart is breaking
Trying to see through your stare
Looks right through me
Smile and pretend I'm not there
To keep from going crazy
Yea...
Like the day that your guardian angel decided to fly away
Yea...
Like a bruise that doesn't fade
Yea...
Like a memory that tortures your soul until your dying day
Yea...
Like a life you couldn't save
Yea....
You couldn't feel love
You couldn't take the pain
You couldn't let love
And I'm just trying to get through to you
But I am failing
Lie like I'm not even here
My heart is breaking
Trying to see through your stare
Looks right through me
Smile and pretend I'm not there
To keep from going crazy
I tried to...
Get through to you
I tried to...
I tried...
I tried to...
Get through to you
I tried to...
And...
I'm still trying to get through to you
But I am failing
Lie like I'm not even here
My heart is breaking
Trying to see through your stare
It looks right through me
Smile and pretend I'm not there
To keep from going crazy
I tried to...
Get through to you
I tried to...
I tried to...
Get through to you
I tried to...
Get through
I tried to...
Get through to you
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
I never meant to fade...
Away
I NEVER MEANT TO FADE
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them
To you
And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom
From you
And I'm eaten alive by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It's not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive
When you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly?
To you?
I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived with
From you
I'm so sick of this place
This taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It's not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One that's pitiful
Scratched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think that I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you
Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing' better
Everything's the same
Late at night I can hear your voices
Talking shit about all my choices
You would think you've known me forever
Just because you know my name
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you
Everything falls apart
Everything...
Everything falls apart
Everything
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Well I don't know what to say
Because there's truth to what you say
I know it kills you I'm this way
There's somethin' different every day
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit it is to find a place to hide?
Could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
Could it be that I'm only being me?
Not easy livin' in my mind
A little peace is hard to find
My every thought is undermined
By all the history inside
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit it is to find a place to hide?
Could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
Could it be that I'm only being me?
I know I hear the words you said
Over and over again
I just can't get them through my head
There's just too many voices
Must be like livin' with the dead
Waitin' for me to begin
To do the things that I have said
And for this I'm sorry
So there's some truth to what you say
Could it be that I never had the chance to grow inside?
Could it be that my habit it is to find a place to hide?
Could it be that sometimes I say things just to disagree?
It Sheltered Me From Nothing But The Weather
I Called It Home For A Moment Of My Life
This Place I See Just Doesn't Look Familiar
I Wonder If It Looks The Same Inside
(Chorus)
So There's The Corner That I Sat On
The Road I Walked Home In The Rain
And There's The Star I Used To Wish On
It All Just Seems Like Yesterday
Days Go By
Nothing's Getting Clearer
Can't Change My Mind
My Troubles Are The Same
Faces Change
The Names They Are Familiar
And The Streets I See
Will Stand The Test Of Time
So There's The Corner That I Sat On
The Road I Walked Home In The Rain
And There's The Star I Used To Wish On
It All Just Seems Like Yesterday
And Those Stars
Stars Still Shine
Shine Down Through The Rain
And There's The Corner That I Sat On
The Road I Walked Home In The Rain
And There's The Star I Used To Wish On
It All Just Seems Like Yesterday
And I Stare Out This Dirty Window
As This World Goes Slowly By
And Somewhere Out There Is The Future
That I Once Thought Had Passed Me By
Hello
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone at home?
Come on, now
I hear you're feeling down
I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again
Relax
Need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?
And there's no pain, you are receiving
A distant ships smoke on the horizon
You're only coming through in waves
Your lips move
But I can't hear what you're saying
I was a child, I caught a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that fever once again
Can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am
And I have become comfortably numb
Okay
It's just a little pinprick
There'll be no more, ahh
You may feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good
That'll keep you going for the show
Come on, it's time to go
There is no pain, you are receiving
A distant ships smoke on the horizon
You're only coming through in waves
Your lips move
But I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is lost
And I have become comfortably numb
Live in my head for just one day
I see myself and look away
The road is showing now on my face
Soon I'll disappear with
I'll disappear without a fuckin' trace
Faces that I've seen turn old and gray
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away
I wish that I could disappear
Unzip my skin and leave it here
So I could be no one again
And never let nobody
I'd let nobody, I'd let nobody in
Faces that I've seen turn old and gray
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away
So now the walls are closing in
Because in life you sink or swim
(Because in life you sink or swim)
Sometimes these shoes don't feel right in my head
Feel like a book that can't be
A book that can't be, a book that can't be read
Faces that I've seen turn old and gray
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away
I sit alone and watch the clock
Tryin' to collect my thoughts
All I think about is you
And so I cry myself to sleep
And hope the devil I don't meet
In the dreams that I live through
Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
All the smiles you've had to fake
And all the shit you've had to take
Just to lead us here again
I never have the things to say
To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear
Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
It's my life, it's my choice
Hear my words, hear my voice
And just believe
I sit alone and watch the clock
Tryin' to collect my thoughts
And all I think about is you
If you believe in me
Life not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
Well I want you to notice
To notice when I'm not around
I know that your eyes
See straight through me
And speak to me
Without a sound
I wanna hold you
Protect you
From all of the things
I've already endured
And I wanna show you
To show you
All the things
That this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way that a father
Should love his daughter
When I walked out this morning
I cried as I walked to the door
I cried about how long I'd be away from
Cried about leavin' you alone
I wanna hold you
Protect you
From all of the things
I've already endured
And I wanna show you
To show you
All the things
That this life has in store for you
And I'll always love you
The way that a father
Should love his daughter
Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane
So I wanted to say this
'Cause I wouldn't know where to begin
To explain to you what I have been through
To explain where your Daddy has been
So I wanna hold you
Protect you
From all of the things
I've already endured
And I wanna show you
Show you
All the things
That this life has in store for you
And I'll always love you
The way that a father
Should love his daughter
Sweet Zoe Jane
Here we are
With nowhere else to go
And that's so far from where we all could be but
If you feel like disappearing you should take this for what it's worth
This is it, and it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be that the grass is always green
There you are, you dream of something better
What's so wrong with what you thought was true
If all the colors are disappearing
You should take this one for what it's worth
This is it, and it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be that the grass is always green
This is it, this is it, this is it, this is it
If you feel like disappearing
You should take this for what it's worth
This is it, and it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be that the grass is always green
Another two months on the road
Just two more miles I’ll be home to what I know
Where things move a little slower
And people always wave goodbye and say hello
And the maples on this road they must be 300 years old
Just imagine all the stories they could tell
Of the tractors and the cars all coming home from Liston's bar
And the country folk just out to raise some hell
To raise some hell
[Chorus]
And this is my home
This is where I belong
Where my daughters go to school
Where opinions are strong
Where my neighbors are my friends
And the story never ends
So I just hit ground and keep on running
All of yesterday has come and gone
And so you try and pick up all the pieces
Put it all back the way they did belong
Well the next thing that you know
It’s time to play another show
I'm leaving out of here just after dawn
Ain't it good to know that no matter where you go
That this town has got your back when you are gone
When you are gone
[Chorus x2]
And this is my home
This is where I belong
Where my daughters go to school
Where opinions are strong
Where my Amendment rights keep me safe at night
Where my neighbors are my friends
And the story never ends
Where the story never ends
Another two months and the road
I Don't give a fuck
About all of your problems
I could give a rats ass
how your feeling today
take your wordly advice
and shove it straight up your ass
Thanks for coming around
to fuck up my day
I try
TOLERATE
Good-bye
Take me...
Look at you I can't
You don't see the whole picture
take my bed of dirt
cold and empty I'll stay
what's the point of trying
To stay above the surface
Take my life from me
Help me to ease my pain
I try
TOLERATE
Good-bye
Take me...
Try to see the way around you
I can't find it
Try to take the path behind me
Can't rewind it
Stick your finger in my face and
I will break it
Leave me with an after taste
I try
TOLERATE
Good-bye
It doesn't feel like this is over
It's never felt like it's begun
Always looking over my shoulder
Waiting for the end to come
And then you throw it all away
Throw it all away
Nothing I could say
Throw it all away
And you feel like you're still here bleeding
You're bleeding till there's nothing left
It doesn't seem to ever be enough for you
It leaves you empty in the end
And then you throw it all away
Throw it all away
Nothing I could say
Throw it all away
It's never enough
To break down inside
It's never enough
To hold onto pride
It's never enough
To give up your soul
It's never enough...
It doesn't feel like this is over...
And then you throw it all away
Throw it all away
Nothing I could say
The hating and the waiting, hesitating
I just wanna be done with you
Faking for the taking but I'm wicked
Up to the fact that you're lying, denying
Justifying all the actions you take
It's pathetic and poetic
It's just sick
It's just sick
Don't compromise something you don't understand
You force your hand but my eyes are wide open
Caught in the web of your self serving plan
Don't force my hand when my eyes are wide open
Seeing is believing
Now I'm leaving
All the damage is done
You've broken the notion of trust
Because you're lying and denying
Justifying all the actions you take
It's pathetic and poetic
It's just sick
It's just sick
Because compromise something you don't understand
You force your hand but my eyes are wide open
Caught in the web of your self serving plan
Don't force my hand when my eyes are wide open
Seeing is believing
Now I'm leaving
All the damage is done
All the damage done
All the damage done
Because compromise something you don't understand
You force your hand but my eyes are wide open
Caught in the web of your self serving plan
Don't force my hand when my eyes are wide open
Don't force my hand when my eyes are wide open
Force my hand when my eyes are wide open
Lying and denying is just sick
Lying and denying is just sick
What's happened to you? It's obvious you've changed
Something deep inside you is probably to blame
Must be lonely up there with your head up in the clouds
Even though you got there
What does your conscience tell you now?
It's never the same on the way down
How does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?
When all of your bridges aren't around
And the sand castles you built are falling down
You had us all sitting right there in your hands
But you had to fall because that's how this life is
Got your fingers burned by burning candles at both ends
Now the table's turned and now your demons are you friends
It's never the same on the way down
How does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?
When all of your bridges aren't around
And the sand castles you built are falling down
So now I question what you're gonna do?
Now that everything's caught up with you
You believe the shit you say is true
But everybody's on to you
Life remembers everything you do
Your karma has caught up with you
It's never the same on the way down
How does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?
When all of your bridges have burned down
And the sand castles you built are falling down
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles
'Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'Cause I can't take anymore of this
I want to come apart
Or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Warm safe place
another day
inside my world
i'm married to you and this road
a road that never lets me sleep
so there's no way to escape the demons
i am forced to keep
And then i'll find you here
through your eyes
everything's clear
and i'm home
inside your arms
but i'm alone for now
I mean the best with what i say
it doesn't always sound that way
i never learned to
work things out cause in my family all we ever seem to do is shout
And then i'll find you here
through your eyes
everything's clear
and i'm home
inside your arms
but i'm alone for now
And i try to sleep
the drugs i take
are killing me - i think of you
to ease my pain - but you're so far
now it's time to say goodbye
i love you baby, please don't cry
And then i'll find you here
through your eyes everything's clear