Plot
At his mother's request, Nat, a young architect, unwillingly takes a journey to visit nine different temples in order to clean up his bad karma. He is accompanied by Poon, his beauty columnist girlfriend and Sujitto, a novice monk who takes care of the Tripitaka house and is responsible for the chant to chase away the bad karma. All three characters have different purposes for taking this trip, but later on they discover that they are put together in this trip for an unforeseeable reason. A karma committed by one person could relate to karma of others. Horrifying acts done in their previous lives reveal themselves as the journey go by. The more they try to clean up Nat's bad karma by making merit, the closer they get to "THEM."
Keywords: karma, thailand
Plot
Explores the relationship between Ake, a young man who is paralyzed from the waist down after an accident, and Pun, the male nurse who takes care of him, and of course Ake's father. Ake is at first cold towards his nurse Pun, but as Pun continues to earnestly take care of him he starts to open up his heart through candid conversations. The physical contact with Pun makes him rethink physical desires that he wants to forget. The grudge he held against his father slowly abates. All of this slowly becomes the motivating factor to confirm that he is alive, albeit with physical problems.
The pun, also called paronomasia, is a form of word play which suggests two or more meanings, by exploiting multiple meanings of words, or of similar-sounding words, for an intended humorous or rhetorical effect. These ambiguities can arise from the intentional use and abuse of homophonic, homographic, metonymic, or metaphorical language. A pun differs from a malapropism in that a malapropism uses an incorrect expression that alludes to another (usually correct) expression, but a pun uses a correct expression that alludes to another (sometimes correct but more often absurdly humorous) expression. Henri Bergson defined a pun as a sentence or utterance in which "two different sets of ideas are expressed, and we are confronted with only one series of words". Puns may be regarded as in-jokes or idiomatic constructions, given that their usage and meaning are entirely local to a particular language and its culture. For example, camping is intense (in tents).
Puns are used to create humor and sometimes require a large vocabulary to understand. Puns have long been used by comedy writers, such as William Shakespeare, Oscar Wilde, and George Carlin. The Roman playwright Plautus is famous for his tendency to make up and change the meaning of words to create puns in Latin.
Christopher Lee Rios (November 10, 1971 – February 7, 2000), better known by his stage name Big Pun (short for Big Punisher), was a Puerto-Rican American rapper who emerged from the underground rap scene in The Bronx in the late 1990s. He first appeared on albums from The Beatnuts, on the track "Off the Books" in 1997, and on Fat Joe's second album Jealous One's Envy in 1995, on the track "Watch Out", prior to signing to Loud Records as a solo artist. Pun's lyrics are notable for technical efficiency, having minimal pauses to take a breath, heavy use of alliteration as well as internal and multi-syllabic rhyming schemes. Big Pun died of a heart attack at age 28. About.com ranked him #25 on its list of the 50 Greatest MCs of Our Time (1987 - 2007), while MTV2 ranked him #11 on its list of the "22 Greatest MCs."
Big Pun grew up in New York City's South Bronx neighborhood. At the age of 5 young Rios broke his leg while playing in a New York park, which would later lead to a large settlement from the city. By all accounts from Pun's family, his early years were very difficult, including witnessing his mother's drug abuse, his father's death, and a stepfather who was very hard on Pun. According to his grandmother, Pun would become angry and self-destructive, punching holes in the walls of his family's apartment. Rios dropped out of high school and for some time was homeless staying in abandoned buildings or at friends' homes.
Joseph Antonio Cartagena (born August 19, 1970), better known by his stage name Fat Joe, is an American rapper, CEO of Terror Squad Entertainment, and member of musical groups D.I.T.C. and Terror Squad.
Fat Joe's first album was Represent, released in 1993, followed by Jealous One's Envy in 1995. From 1998 to 2006, he was signed to Atlantic Records, releasing four albums under the label, Don Cartagena in 1998, Jealous Ones Still Envy (J.O.S.E.) in 2001, Loyalty in 2002, and All or Nothing in 2005. Around the release of All or Nothing, Fat Joe became involved in a highly publicized feud with another New York City-based rapper 50 Cent, who attacked Fat Joe in his song "Piggy Bank". His most popular song in which he performed was his Remy Ma duet "Lean Back" with Terror Squad. The song was a number-one hit in the summer of 2004.
Starting in 2006, when his album Me, Myself, & I was released, Fat Joe was signed to Imperial Records, which distributes through Terror Squad Entertainment. His follow up album wasThe Elephant in the Room, which was released in 2008; Jealous Ones Still Envy 2 (J.O.S.E. 2), the sequel to Jealous Ones Still Envy (J.O.S.E.), was released in October 2009. His tenth album The Darkside Vol. 1 was released on July 27, 2010.
Time, I cannot turn back
I'm not living in the past
Air, it's not my first breath
Why didn't anyone tell me I'm insane
I'm having my own revolution
I'm the first in line to see the light
The doctor's giving me new medication
And I'm flying high again
Now I'm taking a permanent vacation
The monster's tamed inside of me
You got to feed the monster
Time, I cannot turn back
I'm not living in the past
Air, it's not my first breath
Why didn't anyone tell me I'm insane
I'm having my own revolution
I'm the first in line to see the light
The doctor's giving me new medication
And I'm flying high again
Now I'm taking a permanent vacation
The monster's tamed inside of me
Life, I'm not the one that's on trial
Stop, I have not time to fuck around
Life, you cannot be what you wanna be
Why, I am what I am and I stand where I stand
Feed my monster
The docter's giving me new medication
And I'm flying high again
Now I'm taking a permanent vacation
Here is the news
Coming to you every hour on the hour
(Here is the news)
The weather's fine but there may be a meteor shower.
Here is the news
A cure's been found for good old rocket lag
(Here is the news)
Someone left their life behind in a plastic bag.
Here is the news
Here is the news
Here is the news.
("Spaceworkers dispute in London today.
A lightning strike by air shuttle officers
led to over 2,000 passengers being held up
for up to 10 hours to board flights...")
("Ten Eurotechnicians were today sentenced
by the justice computer to be banished for life
to the prison satellite Penal One...")
Here is the news
Another action filled adventure
(Here is the news)
All the worst from the world convention.
Here is the news (the very latest)
Here is the news
Here is the news
Here is the news
("... shares of Roboko Development are now climbing...")
("... a very great friend of mine...")
("... our regular scheduled programs...")
("... the latest report from the people down there...")
("... a tiny little detail...")
("... I'd like to say hello to everybody...")
Here is the news
I wanna go home, I want my baby back
(Here is the news)
I wanna go back!
Here is the news
Somebody has broken out of Satellite Two
(Here is the news....)
Look very carefully, it may be you, you, you, you...
("... the energy counsel today announced...")
("... the archbishop is waving to the crowds...")
("... the World Broadcasting Authority today announced...")
("... I think that's going to be alright, you'll have to wait & see...")
("... I'll call you back later...")
So how many times do I have to pick myself up
When you're just crushing my life?
So I can carry on
Fill my soul so hollow
I've been down the drain
And washed away
And still I come back for more
I keep my head up high
Always try to walk the line
I'm not like you
My life flashes before my eyes
No, I'm not like you
The truth turns me upside down
Here it comes again
Pain is calling me
And I don't understand
It's just like walking on glass
Here we go again
And I can't turn it off
It's been following my past
It's just like walking on glass
Life's too short but I don't give a fuck
Why try to think like you
I have my own free will
Life is built on sorrow
Fields of burning lies is getting clearer by age
Soon we start to realize
Born and raised in a cage
I'm not like you
My life flashes before my eyes
No, I'm not like you
The truth turns me upside down
Here it comes again
Pain is calling me
And I don't understand
It's just like walking on glass
Here we go again
And I can't turn it off
It's been following my past
It's just like walking on glass
Walk with me
It's getting dark
Walk with me
We'll try to save our broken souls
Here it comes again
Pain is calling me
And I don't understand
It's just like walking on glass
Here we go again
And I can't turn it off
It's been following my past
Now I've got something to say
So just get out of my way
I won't take shit from you or anyone that stands in my way
I've been quiet too long and now it's out of control
I've had it up to here and nothing's gonna stop me now
I don't believe in god or destiny
I always lived my life with one foot into the grave
The world is cruel and filled with enemies
I take my chances cause I know my life won't go anywhere
We're searching, we're burning out
It's hard to find when both feet are nailed to the ground
We're stranded, we're all tied up
We're hammered down with both feet are nailed to the ground
Nothing in life is for free, everything has price
You start to pay when you're born until the day you die
They turn you into a machine and keep you in the line
If you fall out of their path they will come after you
I don't believe in god or destiny
I always lived my life with one foot into the grave
We're searching, we're burning out
It's hard to find when both feet are nailed to the ground
We're stranded, we're all tied up
We're hammered down with both feet are nailed to the ground
Ah, I won't go down on my knees
They won't stop until I hit rock bottom
No.... I won't go down on my knees
In this government controlled society
NO NO NO... I won't go down...
We're searching, we're burning out
It's hard to find when both feet are nailed to the ground
We're stranded, we're all tied up
Since I was a kid I see greedy people
Just grabbing all they could take
I promised myself I'd never become like them
I can feel they're closing up on me
Closer than I ever thought
How could I have been so dumb
Didn't I see it, feel it, smell it, taste it
It's only them coming from all directions
Walking all over me again and again
They're feeding of your kindness
Squeezing life right out of you
Like a vampire sucks you dry
You cannot run and hide
If you give them a helping hand
They will take your whole life without thinking twice
The only thing they want is
More and more and more
Now I got a parasite into my life
I didn't see it coming
'Til it almost broke me down
It's only them, you don't give, you're a taker
It's a matter of the size of your wallet
And the money that you're making
It's only them and nothing is sacred
They don't care if you break your neck
As long as they'll make it
It's only them coming from all directions
Walking all over me again and again
A tattoo burned on my skin
A disease without a cure
Like a blind man running in circles
On a dead end street
Now I got a parasite into my life
I didn't see it coming
'Til it almost broke me down
It's only them, you don't give, you're a taker
It's a matter of the size of your wallet
And the money that you're making
It's only them and nothing is sacred
They don't care if you break your neck
As long as they'll make it
It's only them
You don't believe in what I'm doin'
How more do I have to prove you
I can't give up I've started
I'm not a quitter this is what I do
Can you look in my eyes
Without telling me a bunch of lies
A ll I asked for was the truth
I thought it was me, but now I know it's you
LIAR
I'm going in
Into the fire, I'm burning you out
I'm goin' in
I'm cooling down your skin
Do you like how I treat you
Or should I treat you like a movie star
Something good just went so bad
I got to bring you down
I'm going in
Into the fire, I'm burning you out
I'm goin' in
I'm cooling down your skin
I'm going in
Into the fire, I'm burning you out
I'm goin' in
I'm cooling down your skin
Dream on little liar
Truth will call out your name
I'm going in
Into the fire, I'm burning you out
I'm goin' in
I'm cooling down your skin
I'm going in
Into the fire, I'm burning you out
I'm goin' in
There's something coming crawling
'Round the corner of your mind
Oh... your funeral has just begun
Buried alive, it will be over in no time
The date is set for tonight
VIP at the dead man's ball
Come and die with the zombies in the moonlight
They become alive when you die, you cannot fool them
You got to slam with the dead and let it go now
See a thousand hallowed eyes stare into the night
The sun goes down and the dead head minds,
They start to resurrect
Under the velvet sky and thirsty for your flesh
Steals your soul and you will lose control
And turns your tears into dust
You're fool that will never learn
Play with fire and you will get your fingers burned
Come and die with the zombies in the moonlight
They become alive when you die, you cannot fool them
You got to slam with the dead and let it go now
See a thousand hallowed eyes stare into the night
It's getting dark so prepare to die
They're coming after you
It's getting dark and you can't get away
They're coming after you
Come and die with the zombies in the moonlight
They become alive when you die, you cannot fool them
You got to slam with the dead and let it go now
The nature's abuser
The creature takes what it wants
We have no future, All hope is gone
Just crush the weak, the winner takes it all
Money makes them breathe, but not for long
How can I smile again, when it's all gonna end?
Another smoke screen, another toxic dream
We cannot change 'cause this is what we are
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
Time is ticking and we all will fall
Another oil spill, another black dream
It's not enough to live in this filthy world
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
Time is ticking and we all will fall. We will fall..
When it's all been crushed, then the winner has lost it all
The nature's abuser
The creature takes what it wants
We have no future, All hope is gone
I can not smile again cause I know it's gonna end
Another smoke screen, another toxic dream
We cannot change 'cause this is what we are
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
Time is ticking and we all will fall
Another oil spill, another black dream
It's not enough to live in this filthy world
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
We came with nothing and with nothing we'll leave
The wheels of fortune has stopped and it bleeds
The burning angel and hungry crows
They're black eyes that drill holes in our souls
The tortured souls that won't find its peace
The endless screams that echo on
Lay down with the dead, the funeral has begun
No one comes to pay respect, lay to rest
The night is still yours
When you're sleeping with the dead
And he smiles at you as he takes your life
It burns inside of you
It burns when you die
How sweet and calm, buried six feet under
Ashes to ashes and dust to dus
The time has come to pay the price
When you're left to ro
Close your eyes and rest in pain
The endless screams that echo on
Lay down with the dead, the funeral has begun
No one comes to pay respect, lay to rest
The night is still yours
When you're sleeping with the dead
When you sleep with the dead it burns
Lay down with the dead, the funeral has begun
No one comes to pay respect, lay to rest
The night is still yours
You cannot run or hide
From the pain that lives inside
Taking everything you own
As we speak it's taking your soul
It will never wait
It anticipates
Every move you make
Sends you out of control
Now?
The rage inside, you can feel it grow
The knife in your heart, it begins to show
You run and you run but can't get away
From the agony of the pain
You cannot stop it now
Every nerve in your body growls
Mind craves spirit unrest
Here's to the curse that now lay at rest
It will never wait
It anticipates
Every move you make
Sends you out of control
Now?
The rage inside, you can feel it grow
A knife in the heart, it begins to show
I run and I run but can?t get away
Have you ever seen a child die?
Did you even know that it exists?
Did you know people outside your walls are starving to death?
So what would you do if it was up to you?
Would you even care?
I bet you would look another way and think of better things
Oh no, it's better to look away
You better close your eyes
Oh no, you don't wanna see anyone die
You just want to live your pretty life
Why won't we do anything?
Build up a wall around you so you don't have to see
Don't wanna preach but just think again
Oh no, it's better to look away
You better close your eyes
Oh no, you don't wanna see anyone die
You just want to live your pretty life
Why won't we do anything?
Build up a wall around you so you don't have to see
My little girl
Drive anywhere
Do what you want
I don't care
Tonight
I'm in the hands of fate
I hand myself
Over on a plate
Oh little girl
There are times when I feel
I rather not be
The one behind the wheel
Come
Pull my strings
Watch me move
I do anything
Please
Sweet little girl
I prefer
You behind the wheel
And me the passenger
Drive
I'm yours to keep
Do what you want
I'm going cheap
Tonight
We all are crying for the life we can not get
The mystery of mankinds complex DNA
We're running out of meaning
We're running out of being alive
We have no purpose breathing
Might as well just spit and die
Live fast, die young
Who cares about the world when it soon will be gone
Burn fast, die hard
There is no future and there's nowhere to run
I won't support the lies of saving our world
We're already out of time and soon we all gonna burn
The climate is big business, everyone is trying to make a dime
We have no purpose breathing
Might as well just spit and die...
Live fast, die young
Who cares about the world when it soon will be gone
Burn fast, die hard
There is no future and there's nowhere to run
The floods and hurricanes harvest lives
It's just a taste of cynic paradise... we're all gonna die
Live fast, die young
Who cares about the world when it soon will be gone
Burn fast, die hard
Why do we have to live in fear?
The future's looking dark
No one seems to care
It's a shame, it keeps pounding my head
I feel sick, is there someone to blame?
Now where do we go
When there's nowhere to turn?
It's starting to show
Will we ever learn?
Countdown to extinction
It has only begun
We're heading for extinction
To be one with the sun
The sun is burning through our skin the blood is boiling hot
Cancer's spreading out
I see the end is closing in
The world is turning black, acid rain
It's a shame, it keeps pounding my head
I feel sick, is there someone to blame?
Now where do we go
When there's nowhere to turn?
It's starting to show
Will we ever learn?
Do you feel ready to die?
Or have you changed your mind?
Countdown to extinction
It has only begun
We're heading for extinction
To be one with the sun
Now where do we go
When there's nowhere to turn?
It's starting to show
How does it feel to get kicked
When you're down and out?
I said, "How does it feel to get pushed off the edge
And just fall fall to the ground?"
The more that you do, the less you get
Why can't see you you're going down?
You're on your knees, you're begging me please
Can't get away from the needle's chill
You're taking a ride in endless time
Injected paradise
Silence roll up like walls of noise
You're getting numb and deaf
Things are getting out of control
You're out of control
The more that you do, the less you get
The poison rushing through your dying veins
The more that you take, the more you loose
Time is taking its toll
You're on your knees, you're begging me please
Can't get away from the needle's chill
You're taking a ride in endless time
Injected paradise
The more that you do, the less you get
The poison rushing through your dying veins
The more that you take, the more you loose
Time is taking its toll
You're on your knees, you're begging me please
Can't get away from the needle's chill
You're taking a ride in endless time
My dreams are always the same, I see you
Fear is my best friend it keeps me alive
What is it I got that triggers you to follow me day and night?
I can smell your stench all around
I don't know what your demons are telling you
But it ain't me you're looking for
Why? Why won't you leave me alone
It drives me insane
Why? Why won't you just let me go
Stay out of my way
Never sleep with your enemies,
They'll steal all that you got
Framed by the lust
You spin out of controll
I don't know what your demons are telling you
But it ain't me you're looking for
Why? Why won't you leave me alone
It drives me insane
Why? Why won't you just let me go
Stay out of my way
Don't mess with my head
What triggers you I don't understand
Why? why won't you leave me alone
It drives me insane
Why? Why won't you just let me go
Some people's love is other's hate
Depression, jealousy of other's faith
Some seems just to have it all
But in their shadows
There's a dark life and a broken heart
You need to break away from the chain
No more fears
And set the rules in your own lonely game
Than you only live twice, you only live twice
Shake your money maker
It's time to work
She's got mouths to feed
Dancing with one foot in the dirt
For some it's strugle, for others hell
When the addiction grabs onto you you're under it's spell
You need to break away from the chain
No more fears
And set the rules in your own lonely game
Than you only live twice, you only live twice
Do we all deserve a second chance? Do we care?
Did you fear the devil's hand when you made the deal?
Don't you wanna live twice?
I never do it for nothing
It's never been for free
I never cared about nothing
Unless it satisfied me
My only game is surviving
And try to stay alive
I'm struggling in the underworld
That suffocates my life
Suicide machine
Locked up in this cage
Suicide machine
I don't understand
They tried to shut me up
They tried to shut me down
They tried to throw me away, I'll never give it up
I'm never gonna stop, I will fight to the end
I'll stand tall, I'll break bones
I'll give them hell
No bullshit and I'm still here
You better catch me dead
Suicide machine
Locked up in this cage
Suicide machine
I don't understand
You have always tried to crush
And break me down
But I will never ever give up
Without a fight
I am the man
And it will always be me
Dreaming of a life in peace
But it was never meant for me
Suicide machine
Locked up in this cage
Suicide machine
I don't understand
Suicide machine
I don't understand
Suicide machine
You can bitch all you want cause I don't care
It's a real fine line between being good and being bad
Might as well crash and burn cause we never ever gonna learn
I rather stick to being a bad boy than being real burned
Now I got your attention
I need to ease my mind
You think you are the main attraction
I am your great pretender
The hero and you savior
I am your great pretender
The alien you surrender to
Now when our future is dark
And it's hard to predict
Can someone please, please tell me, who am I supposed to be
I just keep on rolling till someone stops me
Don't wanna live in the past, I just wanna be me
Now I got your full attention
I need to ease my mind
You think you are the main attraction
I am your great pretender
The hero and you savior
I am your great pretender
The alien you surrender to
Reach for the sky, and I'll be there
Step into the light I'll pull you trough
Just close your eyes and take my pills
I am your great pretender
The hero and you savior
I am your great pretender
The alien you surrender to
He was a drunk
He was a punk-ass useless slob and he didn't even wanna get a job.
He'd forgotten how to be himself.
They say the world is a stage and every man must play his part,
but he didn't make the call-back list.
He had a five o'clock shadow on his heart.
He was so weak he couldn't even make a fist to punch himself.
She came along, and right away he felt a little less wrong, subsequently just a little more strong - This anomaly flipped his lid.
He checked his hair, and smoothed out the ruffles in his shirt because he suddenly remembered how to flirt.
He took a Tic-Tac (he knew it wouldn't hurt!), he put his lips on yellow alert, and he said 'Hello, how are you?' and he shook her little hand. (Whoa!)
These days he don't know that muhc about much but here's his summary: God is great, the devil is bad, and somewhere in the middle there's you and me...
In the wreckage and the ruin (standing side by side) and they know what they're doin'.
In fact he feels like he is finally pulling away from the devil since he met her.
His strength is coming right back like a prodigal son, like a prodigal son.
He checked his couch, and his pockets, and his car's ashtray, and he found enough dinero to pay for things from the Goodwill Store like soap and Listerine to make him fresh and clean, and a pretty decent old black comb (he found it on the street on his way home).
He borrowed some SpeedStick from the guy in the apartment behind him.
He didn't tell him, though I hope he doesn't mind him, he really shouldn't leave his door unlocked, because he also took a pair of his socks, and a Falco tape, I'm sure he didn't play it anymore. (Whoa!)
Shaved face, smooth as onion, dressed in out-of-fashion clothes, ready for their secret tryst about which everybody knows....
And that's perfectly cool.
He's always been a big fool.
But thanks to her, he thinks he's finally pulling away from the devil, he's just begun;
His strength is coming right back like a prodigal son, like a prodigal son.
(breakdown:)
One step forward, two back. (Plastic loser falling behind)
One step forward, two back. (No dice, he chose the moves that he made)
And the moves that he made led him away, away from the game.
Same old same old, but further away...
And he still finds life perplexing but he submits his thesis humbly: God is great, the devil is bad, and somewhere in the middle there's you and me...
In the wreckage and ruin (standing side by side) and they know what they're doin'.
She is the oil can to his tin man, the extra stuffing to his scarecrow, the gamma rays to his Incredible Hulk (though that sounds crude)
And he feels like he is finally pulling away from the devil since he met her.
Hey you, I know you don't like me
But the feeling is mutual
Pardon my French, slimy bitch
Do I care? Of course, I wrote this song for you
Save your prayers cause I don't care
Your tongue is digging your own grave
We are born with our conscience clear
By the time you're 15 your life is full of misery
The frames of lies you cannot escape
It's calling your name
Mistakes of your past you can't erase
It's coming back to you
Why don't you stop cause you're nothing
I don't care cause you're nothing
Why don't you leave cause you're nothing
Disappear cause you're nothing
Save your prayers cause I don't care
Your tongue is digging your own grave
We are born with our conscience clear
By the time you're 15 your life is full of misery
The frames of lies you cannot escape
It's calling your name
Mistakes of your past you can't erase
I'm stressed out of my mind
I can't seem to find what's up and down
I'm frustrated and short for time
Life's a misery, won#t you agree with me?
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I don't believe in that anymore
Reach out and regret
Run for your life
I feel it's pushing me to the edge
The puzzle I try to complete
Is getting short on parts and I don't know why
One step forward
Two steps back
I'm marching backwards
I'm marching on a thin line
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I don't believe in that anymore
Reach out and regret
Run for your life
I feel it's pushing me to the edge
Reach out and regret
Run for your life
The dreams you crushed, I'll never forget
Should I sweat over these things that's out of my hand
Should I really care, am I a boy or a fucking man
Should I care about the things that's out of my hand
Why is that?
Yeah! Go!
The touch of magic that you thought you once had
Was wiped out with that smile you forced on your face
You hide your horns and try to bury things in your hate
There's no give and take in your ugly race
Lie after lie
Through the same mistakes again
It's always the same
Time after time
Trying to save us from ourselves
But you're always too late
I'm not gonna take this shit and I'm not gonna drown
Again and again you set the rules for us to lay it down
Suits and ties decide your destiny from dollar signs
And when the goddamn boat starts to sink they don't
care who's left behind
World domination
Tries to save us
Death our savior
Termination
Step right up people and vote for your favorite
disaster
They're all corrupted so it doesn't really matter
At night their limos pulling up to the clubs
Expensive dinners whores on government's credit cards
They've done this for years then they get busted in
their act
Then you sit and cry in court and say you'll pay it
back
Lie after lie
Through the same mistakes again
It's always the same
Time after time
Trying to save us from ourselves
But you're always too late
I'm not gonna take this shit and I'm not gonna drown
Again and again you set the rules for us to lay it down
Suits and ties decide your destiny from dollar signs
And when the goddamn boat starts to sink they don't
care who's left behind
I'm not gonna take this shit
I'm not gonna drown
I'm not gonna take this shit
I cannot breathe suffocating slow
I need to come up for Air
The monster's in my head they won't leave me be
I've told them thousand times, just stay away from me
A constant battle within, a battle I can't win
It triggers the fear of failure
Stereotype society you better think like others think
Remote control human disaster
World turns dead right before me
I can't hide in the past, I need to break away from me
Life burns black, no sanctuary
I did my time so let me out
Like a broken record, it repeats itself
Like a wheel.. and round and round and round it goes
It's like we're on a path, on a path to nowhere
Running out of time, running out of passion
Once created times, now a storm of nails
Razor sharp and it won't stop yet
World turns dead right before me
I can't hide in the past, I need to break away from me
Life burns black, no sanctuary
I did my time so let me out
Running out of ways to run, it's a dead end street
Been taking all the turns.. They all turn back to me
World turns dead right before me
I can't hide in the past, I need to break away from me
Life burns black, no sanctuary
Learn how to live
Learn how to breathe
Learn how to kill
Learn how to die
Raped by my own life
Suffocated by my own lungs
Murdered by my own hands
Dead by my own death
Stuck in my own nightmare
I can't understand
What did I do wrong
To deserve this pain
PAIN!!!
Dealing with my own hate
all I get is pain
Shadows hunting me
All I do is freak
Insanity is getting closer now
How long can I survive
The greed I get from this world
Is sucking me dry
Learn how to live
Learn how to breathe
Learn how to kill
I gotta think of something
to make you think less
of me, that I am nothing
to hold on to, cause we are through
I dislike you
I wish that you could hate me
then things would be so easy
just get me off your mind
if the bitch would have a son
then I would be the one
so hate me
geese, flying from the winter
that's what I should do, do, do
or become a sprinter
and run away
cause we are through
I dislike you
I wish that you could hate me
then things would be so easy
just get me off your mind
if the bitch would have a son
then I would be the one
I am being mean
like no one's ever been
just hate me...
I wish that you could hate me
then things would be so easy
I'm going for a ride
And I hope I'll never ever get back here again
Numbing my body with drugs and lies
Try to find a place where
I can finally die
Walk with me on the other side
and I show what life is all about
The rush I get from death
It's all that eggs me to die
Every dream must die
As I try to drag you down in the dirt
Why is life worth living
When we all just life to suffer and Sacrifice
Life is like a wheel
You can run and run and you will never get there
Spinning faster then you could
Understand
You're on your knees again
[Incomprehensible]
I can feel the energy
Feels like I've been up on an experiment on ecstasy
I feel it kicking in again [Incomprehensible]
Your only motive, you're alive you never die
Searching for those sleepless prayers of your life
Come to find out that you been living a lie
Realities reflect the shadows in the night
Did you ever realize how I know
Like nowhere riding around with a gun
Ride around the storm will never stop
[Incomprehensible]
[Incomprehensible]
When all the lucky ones get by
Re-entering a pain called life
Pain is life, life is pain
Searching for those sleepless prayers of your life
Come to find out that you been living a lie
Realities reflect the shadows in the night
Did you ever realize how I know
Like nowhere riding around with a gun
Ride around the storm will never stop
Searching for those sleepless prayers of your life
Come to find out that you been living a lie
Realities reflect the shadows in the night
Did you ever realize how I know
Like nowhere riding around with a gun
Press my face in this dirt
See how long I can hold my breath
Pour some salt in my wounds
I am just someone who doesn't fit in your world
How can I smile with your gun to my head?
How can I reach out when you're holding me back?
I am just so tired of everyone who's trying to save me
Just save yourself
Fade away
I wanna fade away
You give me your hand, I don't want it
I'll rather drown on my own
You try to give me relief, I don't need it
I'll rather put the gun to my head
Bitterness is calling inside
I am already damned
The fire in my soul is slowly dying
You know my destiny calls my name
Fade away
I wanna fade away
Fade away
I feel you breathing down my neck
Nowhere to hide
I thought I could get away
But it's a good day to die
My time has come
But I don't think I am ready yet
I've lost the game
I thought I played so very well
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna go
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna die, I got more to give
Here I stand, the accused
With a rope around my neck
Just wait for the final call
Then I'll be gone
Never got the chance to say goodbye
Never got the chance to take the time to enjoy my life
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna go
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna die, I got more to give
Don't take my life away now
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna go
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna die, I got more to give
No, I don't wanna go now
Speeding through hell and the devil will set your soul
I'm living your life I'll control your face smashed against the wall
Starting the day with a drink and a fat white line
Their pumping you up with drugs and fame and lies
Breathing in breathing out
I look through the dirt six feet under ground
Buried alive let me out
I'll take my last breath lost my heart then I'll die
Chemicals run through your eyes saving you from going insane
The more that you snort the more you fry your brain
Breathing in breathing out
I look through the dirt six feet under ground
Buried alive let me out
Choked by your own lies
God blessed no one
Controlled by your brainwashed mind
A vision of salvation nowhere to be found
Your religion makes me sick
Will your god forgive you for all your sins
Mine will after I rip your fucking head off
I'm my own god
I live my life on my own term
Don't need to tell me what to do
Your whole life has been about kissing ass
Burn in paradise
There is no pearly gate
Burn in paradise
You stick your hands out, I'll cut 'em off
You build it up, I'll make it fall
you wont get any sympathy from me
I'm my own god
I live my life on my own term
Your god can't help you now
Where is your salvation
There is no god
Burn in paradise
There is no pearly gate
Burn in paradise
Choke on your lies
this is an ambient instrumental piece..
They have destoyed your whole life
Ever since you were born they've
Dragged you down
They have decided that you wont
Have a chance in this shitty world
not knowing what's on the outside
Can't understand right or wrong
Breathe in the poisoned air
"I just wanna die"
burning eyes filled with dead tears
The world is dying on you
And you just turning your back
not knowing what's on the outside
Poisoning our brainwashed mind
They have decided that you will die
A painful death
Breathe the death
our dying race
Breathe the death
Dying race
Never done a hard day's work
In your whole life
Born with a silver spoon
Shoved down your throat
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
So you think
You're better than me
No matter how much money you got
You still bleed
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
Not everything is for sale
Can't buy yourself happiness
Taste it, want it, need it, give me
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who's the richest motherfucker of them all?
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
I don't care, I don't care, no
I, I never really meant to hurt you bad
I, I just sent a computer error
I, I just want to control your whole life
I, I just keep you hooked up to my line
Hey, little bitch
Don't you know it's supposed to work
Hey, little bitch
Your my supersonic bitch
Now I'm hooked back up
I got you on my screen
All I can do is press and turn
And you spread your legs in the screen
I know I've explored
Every inch of your naked body
And then you start to bore me
I press delete and search for a new target
Hey, little bitch
Don't you know it's supposed to work
Hey, little bitch
Why can't you come here and give me a kiss
Hey, little bitch
You will always get what you deserve
Hey, little bitch
Your my supersonic bitch
Hey, little bitch
Don't you know it's supposed to work
Hey, little bitch
Why can't you come here and give me a kiss
Hey, little bitch
You will always get what you deserve
Hey, little bitch
These visions in my head
The friendly faces
I don't know maybe it's me
It feels like they're in my mind
And feasting of my brain
Uuuh don't you feel the same?
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
I'm trapped in my DNA
No time to waste
Spies are in my closet and under my bed
I'm losing this scary game
Crack me like the whip
Please crack me sane
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
Who took Botus picture? Botu wants it back
He never gave permission, so hand it over, Jack!
Whoever took it: shame! You should have known not to
You have done an awful thing and disrespected Botu
Just picture all your teeth upon a necklace for his wife
Just think about your skin pulled tight,
Slapped silly by your drumstick bones
Bagpipe lungs monkeys from Djibouti & a white man's tongue
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
Who took Botu's picture? Botu wants it back,
He's never been so insulted in all his life
He?s packin' his face in mud, He's dyin' his hair with blood
Don't mean to push, whoever-you-are, but you know what you did, right? Right?
His name is Botu & you know he's superstitious,
Now you've got to get that Polaroid away
His name is Botu & you know he's superstitious,
Now you've got to get that Polaroid away
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
There it is, get it!
Creeping and Cracking
Baby don't look back, no one goes home tonight
The evil we see and the evil we do
Brings out the beast in me and you
Waking up from screaming
You think it's all in your head
My my, it's a bad day to be alive
It's crawling under your skin and feeds of your hate
Just close your eyes and wait till the sun goes down
You better stay awake
The dark comes knocking so you better start running
Fear the demon in me, Fear the demon in you
Hear the voices calling you
Shadow's tongue licking your flesh
Rips the clothes clean of your body
Strip you clean straight down to the bones
You can't stay awake, You can't fall asleep
He's coming for your life
Don't wanna wake up dead, you know you're over your head
There ain't no turning back
You better stay awake
The dark comes knocking so you better start running
Fear the demon in me, Fear the demon in you
Laying in sweet tears
Dreams are turning into a living hell
The nightmares you see and the terror you feel
Takes a turn for the worse and becomes real
You better stay awake
The dark comes knocking so you better start running
Darling stop confusing me
With your wishful thinking
Hopeful embraces
Don't you understand?
I have to go through this
I belong to here, where
No one cares and no one loves
No light no air to live in
A place called hate
The city of fear
I play dead
It stops the hurting
I play dead
And hurting stops
It's sometimes just like sleeping
Curling up inside my private tortures
I nestle into pain
Hug suffering
Caress ever ache
I play dead
Life doesn't work out as planned
Visions of happiness are burning
Dreams that turn into madness
I feel the end is closing in
I can feel my soul leaving me
To dwell in nothing and forever disappear
Trying to breathe but there's no air
My heart is bleeding why am I here
Taste the last drops of life
That vanish into the black sun
I must fight this feeling
Of sorrow slowly killing me
Try to breathe but there's no air
My heart is bleeding why am I here
Taste the last drops of life
Use me as I use you, pull my strings
My money says that you will, that's what I pay you for
Got me served on a plate, do what you want
Show me you care, you're the one in control
The harder you pull my strings, the harder I get
Just a question of time before I lose my mind
It's the game that you play with my head and I can't get enough
Triple sex, almost death, twisted love, the game I cannot bluff
It's the game that you play with my head and I won't get enough
Can't walk away, got to play it all the way
Tight up in this game, this game that I can't quit
Pleasure I get in pain, the pain will keep me sane
Feed my twisted mind, touch my skin with your razor blade
Strip me down to the bone, I'll do anything
The harder you pull my strings, the harder I get
Just a question of time before I lose my mind
The harder you tighten the rope, the harder I get
A slave to my burning desire, a taste of death
It's the game that you play with my head and I can't get enough
Triple sex, almost death, twisted love, the game I cannot bluff
It's the game that you play with my head and I won't get enough
Hangman, Is it me your looking for
I don't think I'm ready to leave
Crushed by society, I don't understand
Victim of reality, I crawl back in my shell
Nobody lives forever
Everything begins where it ends
Confusion in my own desperation
I'm the chosen one to suffer
Are you really gonna leave me crying
Are you really gonna leave me drowning
Are you really gonna leave medying
Are you really gonna let me down
I am a perfect death
I'm on the edge
I am the freak
And no one cares
Are you really gonna leave me crying
Are you really gonna leave me drowning
Are you really gonna leave medying
I've been driving down the dark and strange highways
And I've lived it all, it's all a part of my life
I sold my soul to the devil
A desperate man in desperate times
Too blind to see
Living on the lies that feed me illusions
I keep falling
Falling into selfish bliss, crashing down
I am crawling
Crawling through remains of bitterness
We've all been going through hell
It doesn't matter who you are
You come out a stronger man
You used to see the world in gray
(?) Burn on and cold in bed (?)
Now you're too old to give a damn
Too blind to see
Living on the lies that feed me illusions
(?) Pretend to live (?), kills my enemies
I keep falling
Falling into selfish bliss, crashing down
I am crawling
Crawling through remains of bitterness
Unseen, is there anybody out there?
Unheard, can you hear me screaming?
I keep falling
Falling into selfishness, crashing down
I am crawling
Crawling through remains of bitterness
I am falling
Trapped in a nightmare called life
With no sign of exit I am gonna die
My soul is filled with hate
Can't see through my anger
My selfconfidence has been dead for years
How can I live this life
I've been destroyed a thousand times
Still try to stand tall
Don't know how long I can fight back
With the rope around my neck
You get feed of my misery
Stabbing the knife deep in my back
I can't run and hide from myself
Selfdestructive schizophrenic behaviour
Can't run away form myself
There's no way to escape
Don't know how long I can fight back
With the rope around my neck
Cutting myself wide open
Release the blood
Watch the madman float away
But not knowing it's killing me
Cutting myself wide open
Release the blood
Im slippin´ away as it's
You're welcome to my world
Dark side of the universe
I'll take you for a spin
Let the mayhem begin
The media mouth is feeding and chemical youth is screaming
The circus starts to roll
There's no turning back
You think it's right you made your mind
I've seen so many cross that line
I've seen them come
I've seen them go
Time will never change
It's the same old song
The same old song
That's playing again
The same old song
Your soul is burning bright
High hopes of future in sight
Beyond the horizon lays a world that's so black
They try to shape your mind
And make you walk the line
Don't let them steal your dreams
It's all that you've got
You start to doubt
You changed your mind
I've seen so many cross that line
I've seen them come
I've seen them go
Times will never change
It's the same old song
The same old song
That's playing again
The same old song
Don't wanna hear it no more
Time to do this
Time to do that
I've got an offer
You can't refuse it
Just stick with me
And I'll push you
All the way to the stars
Can't take it no more
The same old song
It's playing again
The same old song
Don't wanna hear it no mor
The same old song
It's playing again
And again and again
The only thing I ever wanted, the only thing I ever needed
is my own way - I gotta have it all
I don't want your opinion, I don't need your ideas
stay the fuck out of my face, stay away from me
I am my own god - I do as I please
just wipe your own ass and - shut your mouth
I had enough and you're going down - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around
my mind is playing tricks on me
I am not as stable as I used to be
pushed and shoved, you know you're going too far
I will not break my back for you no more, I am gonna go my
I am gonna take control
time to wake up and dig myself out of this hell
just wipe your own ass and - shut your mouth
I had enough and you're going down - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around - shut your mouth
You're getting what your ego deserves - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around - shut your mouth
shut your mouth
I had enough and you're going down - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around
shut your mouth
shut your mouth
Woke up this morning
with my head in the dirt
Master of disaster has raped my soul again
I feel like shit and my body hurts
What did I do?
Can't remember a thing
Not a thing
It's constant battle
And the bottle always wins
I wanna go all the way
Down the bottle's nest
I'm gonna go all the way
Why pretend?
I'm falling
Another day
Another party
Another toast
I slam the drink
And I almost fall
And the madness is ready to choke my throat
It doesn't matter
It won't hurt at all
Not at all
I've stopped fighting the bottle
'Cause the bottle always wins
I wanna go all the way
Down the bottle's nest
I'm gonna go all the way
Why pretend?
Pour me another drink
Oh how I need it bad
Pour me another drink
Pour it down my throat
I wanna go all the way
Down the bottle's nest
I'm gonna go all the way
Waking up from this dream
Got a feeling that something is wrong
There's blood in the bodies everywhere
What the hell have I done
Was I walking in my sleep or is it just a conspiracy
All I know that I'm in too deep
Save me
Please wake me up from this dream
Save me
How am I supposed leave
I lost my family, lost my jobs and my friends
There's nothing left for me to live in this hell
All I remember is there was said goodnight
And on my life is living hell
Save me
Please wake me up from this dream
Save me
How am I supposed leave
Save me
Please wake me up from this dream
Save me
Where the hell did I do wrong
Where I go wrong
I need the pictures in my dreams
Where in every deposit is
Then I'm ever gonna be dream
I can't erase your memory
Save me
Please wake me up from this dream
Save me
How am I supposed leave
save me
Please wake me up from this dream
Save me
Where the hell did I do Wrong
Save me
Where I go wrong
I don't believe in love
I love the way it tastes
Please don't expect too much
'cause I don't wanna be involved
I had my share of women
Even some marriage too
And every time I end up with my pants down
Looking like a fool
I'm such a fool...
The older you are, the wiser you get
Just listen to me
When life gets though and you know it will
Then have a drink on me
The alcohol never talks back to me
It never tells me when it's time to go home
It's been my friend for over 25 years
And she has never cut me low
Don't cut me low
The older you are, the wiser you get
Just listen to me
When life gets though and you know it will
Then have a drink on me
Too many women, too little time
And not enough whiskey
Not enough booze for me
I rather lose my liver than to lose my pride
And when I'm dead and buried
Then just have a drink on me
I don't believe in love
So don't expect too much
The older you are, the wiser you get
Just listen to me
When life gets though and you know it will
Then have a drink on me
The older you are, the wiser you get
Just listen to me
When life gets though and you know it will
Then have a drink on me