Plot
Kevin Lewis never had a chance. Growing up on a poverty-stricken London council estate, beaten and starved by his parents, bullied at school and abandoned by social services, his life was never his own. Even after he was put into care, he found himself out on the streets caught up in a criminal underworld that knew him as 'The Kid'. Yet Kevin survived to make a better life for himself. This international bestseller published in 2003 is his heartbreaking and inspiring story.
Keywords: abuse, abused-child, abusive-father, abusive-mother, abusive-parent, based-on-book, betrayal, child-abuse, starving, survival
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Brian Joseph Burton (born July 29, 1977), better known by his stage name Danger Mouse, is an American musician, songwriter and producer. He came to prominence in 2004 when he released The Grey Album, which combined vocal performances from Jay-Z's The Black Album with instrumentals from the Beatles' White Album.
He formed Gnarls Barkley with Cee Lo Green and produced its albums St. Elsewhere and The Odd Couple. He produced the second Gorillaz album, 2005's Demon Days, as well as Beck's 2008 record Modern Guilt and an album with Joker's Daughter in 2007. He has been nominated for a Grammy Award in the Producer of the Year category five times (2005, 2006, 2009, 2010, 2011), and won the award in 2011. In addition, Burton worked with rapper MF Doom as Danger Doom and released the album The Mouse and the Mask and the EP Occult Hymn.
In 2009 he collaborated with James Mercer of the indie rock band The Shins to form Broken Bells. The group's first album was released on March 9, 2010.
Danger Mouse was listed as one of Esquire magazine's seventy-five most influential people of the 21st century. In 2010 he began producing an album for U2.
Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009) was an American recording artist, entertainer, and businessman. Often referred to as the King of Pop, or by his initials MJ, Jackson is recognized as the most successful entertainer of all time by Guinness World Records. His contribution to music, dance, and fashion, along with a much-publicized personal life, made him a global figure in popular culture for over four decades. The seventh child of the Jackson family, he debuted on the professional music scene along with his brothers as a member of The Jackson 5 in 1964, and began his solo career in 1971.
In the early 1980s, Jackson became a dominant figure in popular music. The music videos for his songs, including those of "Beat It", "Billie Jean", and "Thriller", were credited with transforming the medium into an art form and a promotional tool, and the popularity of these videos helped to bring the relatively new television channel MTV to fame. Videos such as "Black or White" and "Scream" made him a staple on MTV in the 1990s. Through stage performances and music videos, Jackson popularized a number of complicated dance techniques, such as the robot and the moonwalk, to which he gave the name. His distinctive musical sound and vocal style influenced numerous hip hop, post-disco, contemporary R&B, pop and rock artists.
Robert Penfold is a Foreign Correspondent for Australia's Nine News.
Penfold started his career as a cadet journalist on the Macarthur Advertiser, a local newspaper in his hometown of Campbelltown, NSW. He moved into broadcast journalism, working at the local radio and TV station in Tamworth, NSW. During the past 35 years Robert has worked for all three commercial Australian networks in Sydney and Melbourne.
While working for Ten News in Melbourne, he was one of the first reporters into Darwin after Cyclone Tracy destroyed the city on Christmas Day in 1974.
He covered the Granville rail disaster as a Nine Network reporter and toured Australia covering the first visit of the royal newlyweds, Prince Charles and Princess Diana. During his career at Nine Network, Robert has worked for Nine News, A Current Affair, Today (appearing on the first show in 1982) and Sunday.
From 1985 to 1987, he was based in Nine's North American Bureau reporting on Ronald Reagan's presidency, the Challenger space shuttle disaster.
It's getting dark out
Is it over, are we there yet
Why aren't we moving
Are we driving, this is too slow
Can we stay
Why are we still here, have we gone too far
Is it too late to turn back
Can you hear me at all
Can we make mistakes
Swimming past the dead who are long gone but still begging for dreams
And if we end up drowning, save my voice but forget about me
Why are we still here
Have we come too far
Is it too late to turn back
I can't see at all, can we stay afraid
This space starts out empty and I know it can't hurt more than it already does
And it all falls down around me and hits me in the face and falls onto the ground
And I wish that I could understand why I'm so upset to see these things I'll never have
My hands shake with anger and my eyes fill up with tears that taste like salt
And it's hard to get up; too hard to pick myself up off the ground
Laughing at me, if I could
Wondering by myself, if I could
I was lost at sea and you let me drown
To walk for miles, let the rain soak me until I smile
It's getting late, but I don't mind
I'm holding onto hands as drenched as mine and for the first time in my life
I want to cry and laugh at the same time
And I'm happy because this space has been filled by her
And it's only your face I'd like to see and it feels like your standing here next to me
I can't touch you
I can't tell you what it feels like to be with you, to be with you
I'm gone
I've thrown myself through walls
I'll run, I'm never coming home
Do you feel the same
I'd like to watch you breathe
If I'm wrong, I'm never coming home
It's only your face I'd like to see and it feels like your standing next to me
It's only your face I'd like to see and it feels like you're standing
I'm gone
I've thrown myself through walls
I'll run, I'm never coming home
Do you feel the same
I'd like to watch you breathe
If I'm wrong, I'm never coming home
Am I in your world
Change me so I'm loved
Tell me what I'm worth
I'm coming home, I can't live without you anymore
Painted skies and shining stars reminds us of the hours
that we spent at the dining room table drawing pictures of nothing important
Everything we loved
And even though our fingers got sore and our eyes began to ache, we would never stop
We would never stop
It's these things created by tiny hands that were hung on walls and wrapped as gifts
Acted as the words we never said but wish we had before you left
It's too late to tell you that I care and I'm wishing you were here
And I think it would be better if you had never left at all
This place is not the same without the smile on your face
Are we the same
Can we burn each other's ideals to the ground
Can we blame the truth of human drama on ourselves
Are we breaking new ground, are we hearing the sound of our voices echoed as screams
Do these thoughts sting your skin like the sarcasm shot from our tongues, through our teeth
Why are we always aware of the power of gravity when we try to climb
Like the way we breathe, we always take forgranted the assistance it gives us when we descend
Heaven knows just how long we can crawl
I'm done
How can we stand
We are the only answers and we're happy
The only answer is everyone
I want a choice
The sun slides down your back like the rain
And I can't tell if you're here or gone, I can't tell if you're here or gone
I've changed the station that I was on
You're getting warmer
I heard you whisper, "Your eyes have all the answers, your eyes have all the answers"
You never tell me anything's wrong
Your eyes have all the answers
Your warmer than before, if your eyes have all the answers then I'm wrong
The sun slides down your back like the rain
And I can't tell you, and I can't tell you
I heard you whisper
I heard you whisper I was wrong
You're getting warmer, you're getting warmer
I heard you whisper, "You're getting warmer"
You never tell me anything's wrong
You never tell me anything
Your eyes have all the answers
You're warmer than before
If there was a time and a place to let go of this heart, it's right now it's always
It's not fair, it still hurts
I pretend that she asks, "Do you know why stars shine" but I can't tell her why
So put your head between your knees
It's not fair, it's not fair
I'm trying not to breathe
It's all wrong, it still hurts
I'm still looking for the words
It's not fair, it's not fair
I'm still waiting for my turn
And I know that these words are the hardest words to hear
If I wake up blind, with the sun in my eyes
Beating on my brow through the car window
If I close my eyes, will I miss pink skies being overcome by black clouds above
But I'm too scared to explain why only days ago, I'm sure I died
The brilliance of the rocks below
I'm in control, at the edge, on my own
Arguments and solace from the book inside the dresser drawer
Curled up on the bathroom floor and Billie's on the radio
If Lady Day could only know how she's saving me now
And I will fly away in time
Are you right about everything
It's all the maps that we have mistaken for the world
Sharp pieces of science that cut into our skin
Are they right about everything
Are you tired
Are you right
But I would rather shape my soul than furnish it
And I'm tired of waking up and worrying if someone else is talking about me
and all the things that I've done wrong
I know that I'm worth more than how they see me
And so do we compromise our happiness for security or hope
that this fear is not nearly as strong as our hearts
But I would rather shape my soul than furnish it
And I'm tired of waking up and worrying if someone else is talking about me
and all the things that I've done wrong
I've made up this day as cold as the ocean that we crossed on our way back to reality
A place we hate but a place we left to become friends of bottles and friends of sorrow
Where I watched you dance with the smoke that leaves your mouth and swirls around the air
like a ghost
Who are you
We can't breathe forever
You taught me that
So I'll just spend these days screaming, "Who are you"
I can still remember the picture on the postcard (that you sent me) of green fields and silos
And I used to pretend that I could see you just like you were watching me and every move I made
Every step I took
Every train I rode
Every time I looked for you but could never find you
So I put you on my wall and spent the days waiting for you there
Is it cold out where you live
Is it so far where you live
If silence breaks and I let go, I'll put my ear up to hear if you've finally come to save me
If I've been wrong to care so much then what am I to do now
What am I to do now
Silver moon, these eyes are watching the water
More romantic than the sound of jazz bleeding through these walls
The illusion of a wine running down our throats
To get to the end of the night without any injuries
We've got the answers swimming in our blood, swimming
Sleep with our socks on, we never know how cold it gets in this room
I can see my breath but tell me, why can't I see yours
Watching the lights dim, watching my fingers moving, bleeding
Be her eyes, leave her alone
Wake up and stand tall
They're waiting outside of your door
We can't stop
If we slow down now, we'll never get there
And that's fine
This X marks the spot not where a life begins but where a life begins to matter
Stay on your side and we'll stay on ours and though we were only four, our lives we lost
The secret nine and I will stay with you tonight and we'll watch as tears dry
At least this way, we'll never have a reason to say goodnight
When I wake up, will I ever be the same
Understanding the sacrifice we made
As for me, I could leave the world with today in my eyes
I saw no wrong
Just the joy on your face when we finally said what we meant: goodbye
When I wake up, will I ever be the same
Understanding the sacrifice we made
So goodbye, San Francisco
Can we drive, are we on the air tonight
Can we die, are we at the end tonight
On our backs, swallowing blood
We are dreaming of acceptance and unconditional love
We are beaten
We can't change minds, we only receive disapproval
But we share our bodies and hearts for this cause
Our proof is that we can breathe, we are human
My eyes burn, your makeup will run
We feel pain, too
Control yourselves, we're not giving birth to monsters
We can speak love as loud as we like, we're free
We're an orchestra, we are human
These are the days that I fear when my real enemy is right here
My reflection yields immobility and it's so hard to disagree
I'm disarmed by dreams of release and so were you once
So were you once
Well I never meant to become like you, full of hopelessness
We always fall, but not always together and this is what scares me the most
Unless one of us is wrong
You, thinking you know a way out of here
Open up to foggy streets and the shuffling of heavy feet
Passing through antique gates and lining up to whisper goodbyes
Freshly cut flowers rest in mud and sobs echo from the wind
that carries sound away along with pieces of our lives
Say we're dreaming, say we're discouraged and disgusted by life
Exit left to cloudy skies, proving that this day is
exactly what we always feared would happen when we kissed ourselves
Our first taste of escape
Would you forget me this time
Forget the taste of your lips over mine
It's your turn to give up on me
Anyone else and it would have been easy
Instead you were my will
I'm nowhere except inside of you
Waiting until the end where I found love
Would you forget me this time
Forget the taste of your lips over mine
You're not the part of me that's died, it's the part of me that would have cried
I remember it was cold outside
Waiting for spring for two hearts filled with hope
And I remember it was cold out
And may I have this dance
And I hope it could last for the rest of my life
Are you still afraid, the promises that I made in these hands
These hands will never move
And may I have this dance
I'd pull you closer and you'd feel me tremble
I could show you the world, just take my hand and I'd never let go
The sun falls on my eyes and I'm struggling to reason why everybody smiles
Am I the only one who feels this way at all
Is someone too proud to let it go
And I'm swallowing my feet and choking on everything I feel
The sun falls on my eyes and I'm struggling to reason why everybody smiles
Am I the only one who feels this way at all
Is someone too proud to let it go
And I'm swallowing my feet and choking on all these words
I spoke too much, I spoke too much
Please try, who did you change to help yourself grow up
and that's why all these words mean nothing to you at all
Please try, wouldn't you change to keep yourself alive to fly
and words like these won't help me now
Save yourself and I'm sorry if I told you how I felt and you couldn't take it
If you change or stay the same, I'm sorry if I told you how I felt and you couldn't take it
I've been thinking all day, sitting by this window,
remembering how the smile on your face could make me blush
And I can't comprehend how someone with your eyes
could ever dissapear and break your heart.
Fall, keep your eyes on something small.
Hold your head up high.
Angel, spread your wings and fly.
Fall, even if you can't let go.
If everything was perfect in my eyes - in my mind.
Too young to understand but old enough to know so many people love you
and hold you in their hearts and won't stop.
Remember tonight, it just might last you the rest of your life.
And all those time I said I love you, those weren't lies.
This will hurt you but in time, you will understand that I