LYRICS: Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm Life is a tour, I sit and ride along Taking some notes and then I write the song I'm staring down the road my life has gone Is this where I belong? Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong? My mental state is fucking me up And I pry the problem while asking you for some answers But we don't have that type of bond That my desires gone with the way that I've been living lately If I died right now, you'd turn the fire on Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sellout Cause I hopped on Christianity so strongly then I fell out Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog with his tail down Feeling so damn humiliated because they looking at me like I'm hellbound What story should I tell now? I'll just expose the truth I'm so close to the fucking edge, I should be close to you But who the fuck are You? You never showed the proof And I'm only fucking human yo, what am I supposed to do? There's way too many religions with vivid descriptions Begging all fucking men and women to listen I can't even beat my dick without getting convicted These ain't wicked decisions, I got different intentions I been itching to get it, I've been given assistance But the whole fucking system is twisted Now I'm dealing with this backlash because Marcus isn't a Christian And I've been told that my sinful life is an addiction But I can't buy it, it's just too hard to stand beside it I need an answer and humans can't provide it I look at the Earth and Sun and I can tell a genius man designed it It's truly mind blowing, I can't deny it Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it? Where's the Holy Ghost at? How long it take Man to find it? My mind's a nonstop tape playing and I can't rewind it You gave me a Bible and expect me not to analyze it I'm frustrated and you provoked it I'm not reading that motherfucking book because a human wrote it I have a fucking brain, you should know it You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment It was a mission that I had to abort Cause humans be lying with such an inaccurate source It's gon' be hard to put me back on the course Next Jehovah's Witness to come on my porch, I swear I'm slammin' the door A lot of folks believe it though, but I'm not surprised Humans are fucking dumb, still thinkin' that Pac's alive I ain't trying to take your legacy and torch it down I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit from the horse's mouth Just sheep always telling stories of older guys Who were notarized by you when you finally vocalized Now I'm supposed to bow my head and close my eyes And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise, sound's like a fucking Poltergeist Show yourself and then boom it's done Every rumor's gone, I no longer doubt this shit, you're the One I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun And all my old habits can hop onto of a roof to plunge I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds Fuck the club, instead of bitches I'd hang with a group of nuns And everyone that I ran into would know what I came to do I wouldn't take a step unless it was in the name of You I hate the fact that I have to believe You haven't been chatting with me like you did Adam and Eve And I ain't seen no fucking talking snake unravel from the trees With an apple for Eve, that shit never happens to me I don't know if you do or don't exist, shit is driving me crazy Send your condolences, this is me reaching to you so don't forget If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it I'mma probably regret the fact that I ever wrote this shit My gut feeling says it's all fake, I hate to say it but fuck it, I done lost faith This isn't a small phase, my perspective's all changed My thoughts just keep picking shit apart all day And in my mind I make perfect sense If you aren't real then all my prayers aren't worth a cent That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is And I could just stand up in the church and say "fuck" in the services Man what if Jesus was a facade? Then that would mean the government's god I feel like they've been brainwashing us with a lot So much that we don't even notice that we're stuck in the box Man everything is "what if", why is it always "what if" Planet Earth "what if", the universe "what if" My sacrifice "what if", my afterlife "what if" IM FUCKING DONE, IM FUCKING DONE! THIS IS MY FUCKING LIFE AND IM LIVING IT, I'M HAVING FUN! IF YOU REALLY CARE FOR ME, PROVE THAT I NEED TO LIVE CAREFULLY! BUT I BE DAMNED IF I PUT MY OWN PLEASURE ASIDE FOR A AFTER LIFE THAT ISNT EVEN QUERENTINED! WE ARGUE! AND YOUR US! STOP PLAYING GAMES! MY LIFE IS ALL I GOT, AND HEAVEN IS ALL IN MY BRAIN AND WHEN I FEEL I'M IN HELL MY IDEAS THAT WILL GET ME TROUGH PAIN! DO AS YOU PLEASE, AND I JUST DO ME I'M A HUMAN, I STAY IN MY LANE. ILL MIND.

• published: 21 Aug 2014
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