i am so tired, please just take me away
just let me lay down here for awhile, again
open my eyes to the bright morning sun
hoplessly stare, she is with me again
why does she come and why does she care so much for me
she reaches out to me, she whispers so sweetly
"come to me, be with me, sink with me, die with me"
Sorrow is her name and she's mine
her hands reach out to me, her words bore deep in me
"i'm so alone, please won't you come and be with me"
Sorrow is her name and she's mine, and i...
breathe in this air, so humid and dark
this doesn't takes me in again and again
reach out my hands to the dark desert sky
fall to my knees she is with me again
and then for awhile her "night time" prevails in me again
she grips and pulls at me, she sinks her teeth in me
"you're not alone as long as you sink deep with me"
Sorrow is her name and she's mine
naked in front of me, lust gets the best of me
"loneliness adds to our beauty and our decay"
Sorrow is her name and she's mine
and she's mine
the top of the world is so endless and stark
there's ice in my eyes and ice in my heart
the desert slowly fades into cold, restless days for awhile in me
the summer seems long on this hot humid day
salvation tonight if she fades in the rain
but tonight i will stay as she creeps in the rain
and seeps through me
she sinks her tongue in me, "i will not ever leave"
she sings a song that's so sweet (but in disarray)
Sorrow is her name and she's mine
"slip through this open door, come in an never leave"
she smiles for me and says "i'm all you'll ever need"
Sorrow is her name and she's mine and she's mine!
i will never leave her again
..will never leave her again
..will never leave her again
deep in this haze, I see her face
she creeps to me, she begs for me
I can not go, not this again
I'm much too weak, I'm conquered
and then I feel myself decline
in the grip of ionia
and then I see myself resign
to the lust for Ionia
and then she takes me down, down, down
and then she keeps me down, down, down
and then she speaks of love, love, love
love, love as misery (as I lose control)
she clings to me, she won't let go
and then she takes this all away
she's tainted me, I'm nothing now
I'm so obscure, I'm conquered
and then I feel myself decline
in the grip of Ionia
and then I see myself resign
to the lust for Ionia
of Ionia, oh Ionia, oh Ionia, oh Ionia
this time is not anything, it's nothing
oh Ionia I swear, that you will haunt me
and I'll never know why I resign all the time
and I reach straight for nothing
oh Ionia I swear, in an instant you're lonely
and just like all the time you will throw this aside
and you'll move on to nothing
oh Ionia I see, through the haze she is fading
i climb to the mountain
to the top of the mountain
and nine hours later
i stop in despair
i try to envision
the face of the girl
but she's so far away
from the top of the world
she's the girl i love
this dark and cold of winter
makes me so lonely
so sad and lonely
in this dark room
and then for one moment
a deep and warm embrace
and nine hours later
she waits for me
she's the girl i love
at least for awhile
this all fades away
You with me in heaven
floating like ribbon in the sea of tranquility
the perfume of your soul intoxicating
water in cascades
surrender
fall with me into the arms of angels
the feather touch of kisses
into the light forever
tongues twist in time to oblivion
water rising higher
and we sink into the sea
lungs filled...smiles explode
and home again
(time stands frozen forever)
and in my arms you stay
(like a baby to my breast you stay)
the stars fall to earth and we catch them
the sugar of your kiss reflects them
eyes wide like oceans vast
inside with me chosen at last
"time in the presence of the garden never-ending
rib fit firmly back in place
the circle complete as the skies explode
the blessing of angels cry down on us
like diamond chips our flesh glistens
Then she and I
drove out to the country
and I felt fine
but she seemed lonely
and so resigned
it seeped deep into me
and then she cried
This place is just nothing
It's just like every place
It feels like nothing
I don't fit in
So on to another place
It's just like the last place
I just feel nothing
I can't fit in
Not here, not anywhere
....on to a new place
This day is just nothing
It's just like every day
It feels like nothing
I don't fit in
So on to another day
It's just like the last day
I just feel nothing
I can't fit in
Not here, not anywhere
....in to a new day
the haze fades
she speaks in tongues of brighter days
i sink back
i'm so afraid in every way
the past fades
she sings the song of brighter days
i reach out
she takes me in to brighter days
and i can feel, again, no for the first time
our souls embrace, my heart beats for the first time
grey days are gone, my heart sings for the first time
the sun beats down on me, no for the first time
the brand new day is here
i will never leave you
the brand new day is here
i will always love you
the brand new day is here
i will never leave you
I was out walking in your eyes
lines on my hands map the skies
we were just falling in deep sea
I’m afraid of you - and you of me
naked before you, I stand
this flesh is a line in the sand
your smile is my only true friend
the morning breaks so cold and gray
and i'm still here, alone
it's all the same, the years have passed
so slow and gray, with nothing
i can't believe that ten years have passed
and i'm still here, alone
i need to change, i need to move on
i'll whither here forever, forever
the time has come for me to leave
i must go, i must leave this all behind
i must leave, no need for second thoughts
i must go, the time is ripe i hear
and everybody waves goodbye
they hate me, they were never friends at all
they needed... for me to roll around
they wanted me to stay and never leave... their misery
the clouds break, the sun beats through
i'm so alive, again
the cold and grey is so far behind
i'm so alive, i'm so... alive
i'll never go back to that grey place again
i must stay here, i must..., i must...
i have found a place of happiness
the sun beats down on me for awhile
wave goodbye to the lonely days
goodbye at last, goodbye
just let me be alone and feel this place
and see this place, alone again, alone, again
wave goodbye to the lonely days
goodbye at last, but wait...
then the morning breaks so cold and grey
and i'm back here again, again, again, again
I remember when I was just a little child
I remember when all of this felt so alive
I remember when I could see and I could smile
I remember when I would hope and I would try
I remember when I would stare out at the miles
I remember when I could fall deep in blue skies
I remember when I was just a little child
I remember when all of this felt so alive
now I look around and all of this just feels like nothing
now I look around and all of this is so declined
now I look around and wonder why my heart feels nothing
now I look around and wonder why the blue skies died
now I look around, I realize that I've been tainted
now I look around, I see the world through blurry eyes
now I look around and all of this just feels like nothing
now I look around and all of this is so declined
Every little harmony
swirls around my head...
like a symphony, of old and past
every little harmony
bores inside my head...
like a tyranny, of old and past
don't you ever think of things
don't you want to sing like sirens do
don't you ever want to know
don't you wonder where just everybody goes
in the burning sands
then the blinding snow
from the highest high to the lowest low
from the tallest peaks to the river low
there's a place so near
it's the place I'll go
I don't ever think
I don't ever want to think
I don't want to know anything
I don't ever know
I don't ever want to know
aqua smile blue rhythm pulse me you
molten syrup flows through veins
twilight sprinkled a zillion eyes shine few
lava consume cool numb and trancing view
rings of dust around us coil embrace
breath falls like dust against your skin
starshine moon drips dew and pulled me in
crystal sips of heaven entwined in him
heart soft lullaby swarming my dizzy head blood swim
everyday i pray for you
every day i pray
every night i think about...
every day i pray
as the afternoon, summer sunshine prevails
flowing, flickering, off the desert palms today
washed out summer blue, hovers closely to the rails
I stand quietly, I absorb it all today
pale blue prevails
first so quietly, then so violently, the train...
roars so endlessly, on the desert floor today
cypress green details, summer clouds prevail, then rain
and then i prevail again, again
as all these memories pass again
i look ahead to the new day again
please no more dark days, dark days
again, again
and from the top of the mountain
i stare down on new flowers
and go straight into a new day
and i see the new flowers
and i drift down towards a new day
and i feel like new flowers
now i'm on the steps of a new day
toppled again
eyes firm in a weakened stare
back here again
holed up in this warm room
again, again
eyes closed, it burns in me
come close again
sedate me then, sedate me then
that brilliant white smile
takes me away
that brilliant white smile
blows me away
from the top of this weakened wall
I stare down on everything
is this for real?
Everything is fading away
straight to the door
sedate me then, sedate me then
this is The Realization
this light glares hard, and I'm here
the sun beats so hard, and I'm here
then I slip back to another day, a simple day
and I creep back, and I want to be with Daphne
she's so simple, she's so pure, she's so, so, so...
she's so simple, she's so pure, she's so, so, so...
she don't care, oh Daphne, do you remember me? Daphne
this day drags hard, and I'm here
these days stall so hard, and I'm here
then I sink back to another day, a simple day
and I creep back, and I want to be with Daphne
I will not sleep tonight
too many thoughts, muscles too tight
here in the dark I’ll replay
all that has passed, my youth, the glory of broken days
cold winter sun, rises, decays
I’ll just get up to stay drunk all day
too many doubts, thoughts that delay
skies are open again
birds in the willows . . . grin
I watched you drowned
afraid of the sight, afraid of the sound
swallowing air, lungs break
heart in your hand, heart in ache
blue grass blowing again
waves through the summer trees spin
bumble bees drinking lilac wine
soft is the fur, tangled and vine
I watched you cry
afraid of the light, afraid you would die
listen for breath, bone body aches
alone in the night, loneliness breaks
cotton flies in the sky
wind breaks the branch, orioles fly
dark skies grow, clouds fill with rain
summer storm rolls
Mother Mary, feel me prevail...
you're not anything at all
drifting, fading, clean, sharp detail...
you're not anything at all
stationary, vivid and clear...
you're not anything at all
mother Mary, save your tears...
I'm not anything at all
I don't think that I, I don't think that i...
can feel anything at all, and i...
mother Mary, broken and pale...
you're not anything at all
watching, waiting, withered and frail...
you're not anything at all
visionary, wasted, stagnant years...
you're not anything at all
mother Mary, silence your fears...
I'm not anything at all
mother Mary, feel me fade
hear me whisper, hear me fade
drifting, waiting, feel me fade
everything fades
as i decline
this facade burns away
i'll wait, each and every day
i'll wait, for better things to come
everything will go my way
if i just wait patiently
all this sadness fades away
with better things to come... come, come
I crawl out in the morning time and I am fine
and then I breathe in this air and I slide
why does it always end up like this?
and what is the meaning of my decline?
I drift out and I drift out far, and I surmise...
that just everything that I've felt has declined
why did you leave me adrift like this?
and what is the meaning of our decline?
I could have had it all
i can't think, think about anything
i can't think of anything at all
my thoughts drift but keep coming back to you
face to the ground, eyes closed hard
i still care
i can't sleep, i just lay here awake
sleep comes but quickly fades away
i'll just lay here and wait for the morning sun
sleepless again, eyes closed hard
i still care
sparks fly upward again
our dust in spires, spin
ashes and snow in my eyes
red embers paint blackened skies
my heart froze in the river
winter water black and dead
I hide snow in my heart
and orange velvet fires in my head
blue flames dance in the wood
I'd hold them on my tongue if I could
silence is gold, and I sink
in the vastness of you, I shrink
Cuyahoga
remember us in the ground
in thick brown earth we drown
dried, broken, split our skin
green blades grow, new again
Cuyahoga
I fell asleep in the dream
in icy arms in icy streams
my eyes are open, gather moss
i remember things, things from long ago
days that were so bare, times that seemed so low
i don't think that we can even be together
.. anywhere but home
take me in your arms, smile for me again
please don't ever leave, this must never end
i am so alive, why must this now end?
Skin peel like pink ribbon to the floor
Catching the falling sun, pressing it to her smile
Watch and beware of all she said and did
Time waits for no one, especially when you're dead
Cross the sea and walk with me
Cross the stars and sigh with me
Cross the lies and awaken with me
Cross the time and fly with me
Glimpsing the pretty girl dancing in front of me
Naked in her eyes for all the world to see
Taking the razor tongue, trimming the paper doll
Glass feels like nothing when you're completely numb
Look inside her eyes, a well of hopelessness
Cascading dreams obliterate this night
Pick up the slivered mirror, carving another face
Staring back at someone else, she's left without a
Trace
La, la, la...
Tired and afraid of the mess she's made
Cutting perfects emptiness when you're caressing a
I stagger out into this fading day
The mood is vacant and the clouds are grey
This day seems so bare and this air is so cold
I look around, then slide...i feel so old
And then i think about the little things i think
About
And then i feel and i remember
And then i look around and see the things i always
Then i slip hard as i remember
Snowflake skin
Cheshire grin
Frozen in space
I'll twist your face
My empire vast
This night breaks fast
You fall down dead
Sugar sweet, pressing lips to taste defeat
Something divine, something divine
Fingers reaching through the air
Twisting tongues and pulling hair
Cross the line, crushing the line
Catching the corpse before she falls
Watching her crack apart the china doll
Shatter the time, shatter the time
Bleeding through her milky skin
Flesh is torn and stretched from sin
Enemy mine, enemy mine
Smelling the sickness, swelling the veins
Blacken the sun and blacking the days
Climbing the sky, climbing the sky
I remember... going down on the backslide
I remember... back room down
I remember... from the top of the mountain
Let's pretend i'm dead ...she said
I feel nothing
...one more time
I remember... just one more day
I remember... the parting of those pretty lips
I remember... just everything
Let's pretend i'm dead ...she said
Up from the fields
they come to me from far away
up from the sea
they take from me just everything
up, out of time
they smile for me then drift away
up from the foam
with twisted fates they torture me
smile for me again
has your love passed away
and do you think of me at night in stormy weather?
and when the clouds burn away,
and the sun beats so deeper and brighter?
does your memory fade,
when you think about all the things that we dreamed of?
does your heart drift away in the morning time,
as frustration prevails, prevails... for awhile?
is everything alright? why have you run from me?
why have you left me forever?
did i scare you away?
or is it something that i only dreamed of?
so is this your goodbye? cloaked in silence
have you left me forever?
you seem so far away, and i can't help but think
looked straight from afar then stared at the ground
the blood in the veins trips the heart and the days
not long ago it seemed promising, but it's changed
now it's all passed but the ghosts and the laughs
and the remnants of this all
dismissed by the lack of an honest reply
the truth rips it bare and exposes, denies
what little there was became faded and bound
the rains from the heavens never reached... the brittle ground
crawl back home and smile again
smile like a madman
look in here and fear again
afraid of these ruins
at the end of the long, dark room
he sits alone and envisions the distant ruins
he smiles and hides his face
Everybody goes down there, everybody goes down
Everyone sees everyone, again and again
Down there, down...down there, down
Down again...down there, down, down
I reflect everything, I percieve it all
I surmise just everything, I desire nothing
I need to back to the desert
so I can feel new again
I need to go back to the desert
so I can feel fresh again
don't care about anything
don't care about everything, anything
don't care about anything
except for the desert
and then I climb from this world
and head straight out to the desert
and stand under her brilliant blue
I am cleansed, cleansed by the desert
then isolation builds
and I want to escape from this desert
then desolation burns
and I just want to sin again
HATE, LOVE, HOPE, GREED
LUST, FATE, LOSS, NEED
GRIEF, TRUST, TRUTH, LIES
PAIN, WANT, DAYS, TIME
The day has come for everything to change
As i slip in the cold, and i fade
The time has come for everything to fade
I saw you standing in a field of green
you were smiling, shining in the sunny breeze
and you were fine
I saw you sitting in the trees
you were dreaming, reaching up on bended knees
and you were fine
we are rolling, flying on the sea
arms extended you envelope me
and we are fine
you are my skin stretched soft
cover my bones
like grass on an ancient grave
moss on a forgotten stone
nimble fingers feel you feel me
eyes pushed wide open to heaven
tears from Christ fall down cover me
"the gentle salt of pious tears"
slides down my cheeks
"across my open lips tastes tongue gently"
fantastic this love
"in heaven love... angel's wings beat"
like sand beneath the sea
"muffled...flowing"
and the tiny star blinks and I missed it
"the past was stolen"
stare into vast grey skies
"pinlights dance in cold grey eyes"
the faeries playing firefly
"and you beneath me...wet grass shimmering"
I see the sky so blue and it reaches to me
And then it crashes down...reality sinks deep
And then i coil back and sink into defeat
The day is just so cold, my whispers so discreet
I hide in this dark room, this dark warm eases me
The pain's so far away...this time drags perfectly
It's late and i am here...this night is mine to keep
My perfect quiet place...it's late and i'm at peace
The night sky seems so pure
I breathe so deep and i am here
This dark room is so pure
We three kings of Orient are
Bearing gifts we traverse afar.
Field and fountain, moor and mountain,
Following yonder star.
O star of wonder, star of night,
Star with royal beauty bright,
Westward leading, still proceeding,
washed out, pale skies
cold sun burns bright
I can really feel this vacant, winter day
taking me away
...I’m gone
...far away
cold breath, hits hard
quiet, until springtime
and the cold winter air seems so far away from the
summertime
and we will wait until springtime
and we will wait for the gentle breeze of the summertime
as we move through this winter town
one last look, one last day, but so far away from the
summertime
we’ll be glad when we leave this cold, fading town
but so sad when we think of the gentle breeze of the
summertime
Standing in a field flying my kite
the string slips out of my hand
the kite, it drops out of control
tangled and trapped on the telephone wire
please help me, don't walk right by
the angel's wings are trapped in telephone wires
and nobody cares, they go out of their way
standing on the street watching the day
a car stops in front of me
a gun, I drop out of control
and in a flash it lingers...
in the fire in the pain
the burning spiral burns again, for the last time
and then it fades
the dust it settles all around
and through the fire comes better days
and all these memories burn away
and the circle fades
and all of this i leave behind
and i watch it fade
and all of this i leave behind
and i welcome better days
and in the light it flickers... the new fire. the new day
the night sky beats down hard again
with just a smile and no pain
the dust it settles all around
and though the fire comes better days
and all these memories burn away
lifeless sharp volts pump hard through my veins
emotions sucked clean and drained clean from me
this gray horizon fades stark to endless days
electricity and light pumps life into me ...for awhile
strap this mask firm, bolt hard this lightning rod
the storm outside fantastic pumps life into me
out to the darkened sky, take my hand for awhile
electricity, I'm here, strike down on to me...forever
swirl and swirl and swirl and swirl and...
I'm on fire, electricity is clean and pure for awhile
is pure for awhile...
cold air, Distant Eastern Glare
a gleam runs in my eye
it feels like nothing
fresh air, refreshed and then divined
a chill runs down my spine
it feels like nothing
come to me, out from the glare
you're so adored, you're so adored
come back to me, out from the glare
you're so adored, you're so adored
that dark, that frozen Distant Glare
reach straight to me
it feels like nothing
these hands melt then disengage
what is this and that?
I am seeing christmas
In the garden with venus
In my eyes they kiss
Oh, to be involved in this
All the aching signs we miss
To live in purple scarlet bliss
And swim with jeweled golden fish
Outside it's so cold and grey (ha, ha)
Nothing but the wind and rain (ha, ha)
But through this haze i hear her cry (ha, ha)
She's coming back to be with me ...tonight
Hope is here, she's close, she's near
Hope is here, she's close, she's near ...and she's
Embracing me
She's here, she's close, she's near
Hope is here, she's close, she's near ...and she's
Embracing me
Quietly she stares at me (ha, ha)
She calls me over to her side (ha, ha)
Softly she caresses me (ha, ha)
I sit there like a timid child ...and smile
See me from a thousand miles
See me pass, see me fade
See my face melt the final time
Just one face, another burned
No use, this time
Throw that fire at everything
No use, this time
Aggravated with everything, anything
Cleanse this soul, eased mind
...Incinerate just everything
Aim these flames straight at me
...Through the smoke you'll see everything
Walk through these charred remains
On the ground, melts then fades
Stare down at these lost remains
They are me, another burned
No use, this time
Throw that fire at everything
No use, this time
Aggravated with everything, anything
Everything, anything
Cleansed soul, eased mind
Incinerate, incinerate it all
These flames, are me
Incinerate just everything
Incinerate it all
Smoke fades by a hundred times
Settles down, blows away
They yawn then close their doors
Just one fire, another burned
No use, this time
The fire moves on to anything
No use, this time
This stagnation is everything, anything
