I don't want to wait here much longer
I don't want to stay in this store front accident
I don't want to get to know your
Better way of life to feel good
Better get the shit together
To make a change, make me go on
And now I see the real side that is me
It's getting closer, closer
I'm taking this whole world above
'cause I'm over this one
I'm breaking this whole world apart
'cause I'm over…..this one
I don't want to wish on a dead star
I don't want to fall behind this two bit universe
I'm just gonna keep on walkin
Try to keep the fools from talking
Gotta get the thought's together
To make a change, make me move on
And know I see the real way I can be
It's coming closer, closer
Talk to me, let me know that I'm here
Stay with me, let me know I exist
Talk to me, I'm begging for tomorrow
Stay with me, let me know
'cause I don't have all the answers
Don't know who to follow
I'm begging for tomorrow
Come Saturday night I was ready to fly ready to try a new high
Got my ass downtown moving so slow took a little walk just east on
Hastings I met a freaky lady with a vicious weird glow
She said with a bit of cash we could go beyond a dream
I could show you space travel in smoke
And then she took out a pipe that she made herself
And she lit the fucker up oh yeah
She took out a pipe that she made herself she lit it she lit it she lit it
She was doing crackballs down on hastens yeah
She was doing crackballs left right and center muthafuckers
She was doing crackballs yeah like it was going out of style
You know what I'm saying?
She was doing crackballs crackballs crackballs crackballs
That sweet sweet taste
So the next week I decide to try again down on
Hastings hanging with my friends
Ran into that same old freaky lady
Gave her the look the nod of dope
Yeah I knew we was ready she said with a bit of cash we could go beyond a dream
(intro)
Yeah
Check this one out ... bitch
Yeah(6x)
When are we going to finally meet(2x)
When are we going to finally meet disorder
When are we going to finally meet(2x)
When are we going to finally meet disorder
Pretend your not blind
And just see this over time
Try to make
What will break
Just stand out a fool in all of the world
Live the lie
With all the hate
Just stand out a fool like the other ones
When are we going to finally meet(2x)
When are we going to finally meet destruction
When are we going to finally meet(2x)
When are we going to finally meet destruction
Pretend your not blind
And just see there's no more time
Try to make
What will break
Stand out a fool in all of the world
Live the lie
With all the hate
Just stand out a fool like the other ones
(mumbles something)
deep down from within the souls(4x)
Pretend you're not blind
Say there's no more time
Try to make
What will break
Just stand out a fool in all of the world
Somewhere inside
You try to hide
Just stand out a fool like the other ones
Slip into the mind and you will find a reckless world
Too many times I watched you abuse it
A pain inconceivable makes unpredictable youth never talk the truth
All your friends walked far away better get used to it
Can't remember yesterday got to get out get used to it
Can't remember yesterday got to get out get you out
Evelyn are you losein' it
Hanging onto loneliness coming down to hard again
Head trip to nowhere
Evelyn are you loosening it
All the screws are loosening making you go off again
Head trip to nowhere
Slip into the mind altering what's the endless source?
All the warped designs that you ever wanted
Evelyn never feared that could hurt the likes of you
Am I getting through
Evelyn are you loosening' it
Hanging onto loneliness coming down to hard again
Head trip to nowhere
Evelyn are you loosening it
All the screws are loosening making you go off again
You've got a real condition man
Suffering through life alone
Your only thought's an open highway
Since you were just a boy
The bounty's system
No body ever learnt
Been pushing, pushing
Just to conquer
Thought's and doubt's creep up
Mind alone alone
Stand hard and be alone
Free the soul you won
Stand hard and you won't
Mind yourself alone
You've got a real condition
And the sounds of overtime
Nothing in return
Stand hard and be alone
Free the soul you won
Stand hard and you won't
Mind yourself alone
Lazy crooks that
Left you in the cold
Stand hard and here you won't
You'll Mind yourself alone
You know I'd really like to leave for a while
Yea I'd just really like to leave for a change
I'd really need to feel alive
Stand hard and be alone
Free the soul you won
Stand hard don't fear (?)
Mind yourself alone
Lazy crooks that
Left you in the cold
Stand hard and here you won't
You'll Mind yourself alone
Blind crawl I step the hell away from it all
One look mesh lines on to the mission of concrete smiles brace this space
I want to see you from above one look
I know I'm never gonna be the one to see you shine again
One more effort to your being your pulling out like on other I've ever seen
One more push just to be sure so make the haul
Haul my feelings coming your looking at me like I'm miles away
Haul my feelings coming your looking at me like I'm trying to play
Haul my feelings coming your looking at me like I'm miles away
Haul me feelings coming down
Break spine I'm gonna leave that shit behind think think it's all I do when you're not around
Run hide a crazy world artificial pride wild free I'm never ever gonna see you you shine again
One more push just to be sure the greatest piece of this crush will never grow
All there attempts for attention so make the haul!
Blind crawl I step the hell away from it all
Run hide I'm never ever gonna see you smile
And now I'm just losing it
Tortured souls, they get together once a year
To find a new way into heaven
Touched by angels forced to shake the devils hand
Who signs new wavers on their future
An hour ago, A minute away
Nobody understands at all
Nobody hears what keeps us awake
Nobody quits the fear long enough to get there
Corporate princess keep your heads together
Be the ones to prove this world is so wrong
Get the mad seasons out of your eyes forever
See the different sides will make us so strong
All that's between our lives
These changes we're looking for can be
So perfect, is it worth, is it worth it
There's something wrong
I'm losing everything
I tried to hard to protect.
I never knew
That in my wildest dreams
That this could be so hard to take.
This hurts 'cause I'll be gone again
And ignore my name,
Will be shame.
This hurts 'cause I'll be gone again
And then all my ways,
Will be shame.
I never knew
That deep inside of me
A happiness means to leave
This hurts 'cause I'll be gone again
And then all my name,
Will be shame
This here, will be gone again
And ignore my face,
Will be shame.
I'm laughing with my hope
(set me in the water)
And all the life if brings
(you gotta know my name)
Don't ever wanna throw your life away,
Your life away.
I'm laughing with my hope
(set me in the water)
And all the life if brings
(you gotta know my name)
Don't ever wanna throw your life away,
Your life away.
I'm laughing with my hope
And all the life if brings
Don't ever wanna throw your life away,
Walked into a bad dream, the other day
Saw me standing helpless, same damn place
Said I'd stay away
I just can't believe that, these old vices got me again
Got me again, when will it end
Inside I just can't ignore, Things that make me unsafe
Everytime I lose it all guilt spills from within
Im just a demon away, from these fears
A demon away from being, 'cause im done, with it, with him
Wake up with a fever, seems so strange
Tired of all these feelings, that stare at me
Yeah im so ashamed
I just can't believe that, I got in this web again
The more i bend, my discipline
Inside I just can't ignore, Things put me in this state
Everytime I lose it all guilt spills from within
Im just a demon away, from these fears
A demon away, from being in control
A demon away cause all this rage is more than i can take
Can I live through this cycle alone
Keeping myself clear of what I've become
Changing all the panic, believing what's failed
Destruct, Never!
Im just a demon away, from these fears
A demon away, from being in control
A demon away, cause all this rage is more than i can take
A demon away, from being, cause im done, yeah I'm done
Just a demon away, from changing everything
She sit's at home with her hunger spread like a map of the world
Such a radical figure
I cannot reach her at all
There's no sense so intense
And every time that I activate this person shuts me down.
Said I'm alone again
Said I'm alone again
Now I'm alone with my visions
So I'm alone again
Yeah am alone again
The weapons in control
She wants me to die spitting
She wants me to load her favorite gun
She's got it down to a system
And every time it's the same that pushes me to a limit an injection to the brain
Heavy load passed away and every time that I activate this person's drives me insane
Said I'm alone again
Said I'm alone again
Now I'm alone with my visions
So I'm alone again
Yeah am alone again
The weapons in control
She wants me to die spitting
She wants me to die sinning
She wants me to burn like a villain
I'm wrestling now with a vicious dream that victimized my head
So many times sad mistakes along the way
Forget the fact
Stay so long away
Stayed so long away
Depressing how this is all so real
Friends that
I've been through hell this time I'll bleed
Along the way
No control I'm standing by this microphone
Stayed so long away
I can see them
Stay so long away
When are you going to admit that I don't belong
No control
I'm standing by this microphone
Stayed so long away
My eyes can see now
Stayed so long away
Stayed so long away
My eyes can see that
Stayed so long away
Dusk night settles on this desert world
Been traveling 45 day's now
My goal's to strip souls who thought they broke my peace
Nobody's gonna push this future drifter back yeah
Cut my hourse loose from the Cavalery
Release all tension I'll be law
Crystal meth burns on the silouette.
Forced burtality always uncovers evidence!
Don't wanna be the victim man
I'll be the one standing alone
Nobady's gona hear you when
I draw ya down
Cut my horse loose from the Cavalry
Release all tension I'll be law
Cut my horse loose from the Cavalry
Release all anguish I'll be law
Cavalry
Sheets of pain fell on this wasted land
I still believe hope is the answer
Spent my lifetime always running away
What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now
What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now
Whose in here hiding from the world
Whose out there confused and alone
One more day I feel like this
One step closer to finding your (?)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way
Can't speak it's too bleak for other's my dear
So bleak can't speak for others my dear
Who's in here asleep wasting time
Who's out there afraid to feel
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way
So bleak can't speak for others my dear
Can't speak too bleak my dear
Can't speak for others my dear
So bleak can't speak for others my dear
So bleak to the world
So bleak to your world
So now I'm starting to see it all fall down
I know others wait (?)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way down (What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now)
Long way
Can't speak it's too bleak for other's my dear
So bleak can't speak for others not here
Can't speak it's too bleak for other's my dear
So bleak can't speak for others my dear
(What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now) My dear
(What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now) My dear
(What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now) My dear
(What you got now What you got now What you got now What you got now) My dear
So bleak to your
Heard you cryin from the room next door
It's always, so hard to let things go
It's funny how the sound of tears can break
So softly, against this reality
Does anybody here ever breath anymore
Has anybody here ever known not to destroy
Themselves
'cause I'm falling, deeper, in your ocean
Does anybody here ever know just what's inside of me
'cause it will always be
Heard you laughin from the room next door
It's always, so hard to let me know…..let me know
It's funny how the thought's that make you hurt
Evolve, into a sea that burns
Does anybody here ever breath anymore
Has anybody here ever known not to destroy themselves
'cause I'm falling, deeper, in your ocean
Does anybody here ever known just what's inside of me
'cause it will always be
Just a lonely sea
Falling deeper in your ocean
Falling deeper away
A key in the door, a step on the floor
A note on the table, and a meal in the micro
Note says 'I'm in bed, please make sure that you're fed
if you're taking a shower, you can borrow my bathrobe
When I'm asleep I dream you move in next week'
I crumple the note and save it to put inside
Chorus:
My shoe box
Shoe box of lies
Shoe box
Shoe box of lies
it's under my bed, it's never been read
it's in with my school stuff and my mom never cleans there
From my first little fib, when I still wore a bib
To my latest attempt at pretending I'm someone
Who's not seventeen, doesn't know what you mean
When talk turns to single malts, or stilton, or
Chorus
Did somebody tell you
This is how it's supposed to be?
Or did you just find it
And you don't want any more from me?
Chorus
Was it something I said, or was it something you read
That's making me think that I should never have come here
I can offer you lies, I can tell you good-bye.
I can tell you I'm sorry, But I can't tell you the truth, dear
And what if I could -- would it do any good?
You'll still never get to see the contents of
Chorus
You're so nineteen-ninety
And it's nineteen-ninety-four
Leave this world behind me
'Cause you don't want me anymore.
Something told me,
I'm peeling all forgiveness like I never did before
Off to the promised land now
Bless this normal soul yeah
The Pain of Shedding weakness
(Never thought it'd push this far)
We've lived eternal darkness
Let there be light
Miles away you feel so small
Something new that won't forget
Miles away inside your playground rage
Right away you see it all
Crush the truth that's a radical
Right away your bridge falls
Crush the truth that's a radical
Something told me I'm bleeding all the sickness like there like there never was
Before
The pain of shedding weakness never thought it'd push this far
If I took your mind and slowly replaced it with you
What's in my head, you'd see right through lending all your thoughts so touching my fears
And beliefs on breaking I'd need some truths
Send me down the river
Soak me through my fear send me down the river help me forget the numbness of you
Why are you always the one to follow my lead into darkness that can't e cleared
Why are you always the one to notice all rejected chances to end all my suffering
What'samatter you what'samattter you?
Why do you follow
Pull
And I"m feeling hit Yea I'm feeling down
Will you be the one to pull my mind from the body
And I'm feeling hit yeah I'm feeling down
This is bliss
Time just slipped again
Memories are bent all the days just turn into one
Drifting miles away
Just like yesterday someone's getting tired o being used
Try to make some sense of a life in hell
Tried of pulling wed's life won't grow been a long time since we touched what's true
'cause you can't go back on a deal with the devil
Everything is pulling just a little too hard
Tired of the fighting tired of the misery gotta get it on
Head kicked down below my mind is blank and I'm ready for bliss
Head kicked down below my mind is blank and I'm ready for bliss
Tracks are set ahead
Seem to be mislead years of salting wounds left wide open
Gotta get away from myself sometimes
'cause you can't go back on a deal with the devil
Everything is pulling just a little too hard
Tired of the fighting tired of the misery gotta get it on
Try to make some more sense of it all
Everyday in our bones the feeling of being fucked with beyond tired sick of this bull shit
What the hell is with all this were gonna change this
Twisting our minds with the lies
I don't ever want to be in a world of make believe
I don't ever want to change myself just like you 'cause
Kicking us down with the lies ain't gonna change me
Kicking us down with the lies within in your company
Kicking us down with the lies ain't gonna change nothing
If I could fly across the sea let someone else deal with all this
If I could rape anyone that pleased me I'd be just like you
Twisted our minds with the lies ain't gonna change me twisting' our minds with the lies
'cause we can't let go of armor built inside no more weakness eyes wide open what you represent
I feel sickness coming on no more weakness eyes wide open
![Flybanger - Outlived [Official Video]](http://web.archive.org./web/20131217042602im_/http://i.ytimg.com/vi/CnMfe3iLsbk/0.jpg "Outlived [EP] (2000) - Track 2.")
