What a mess this is
I Clench my fists and lose my grip.
I 'm throwing the towel in.
I swear, I'm seeing red again.
Fighting on to survive.
Every inch feels like a mile.
I scrape and claw
Cut deep I'm bleeding out again
Well I try, I tried and I try but I cannot forgive.
Your not the only one to blame.
We cover up and tried to forget
The open wounds that never mend.
So they scream
I hear them crying out
I hear them rattle chains.
But I cannot forgive.
I woke with my back against the ropes
I choked with a burning throat.
This place, I swear it's fucking haunted.
Just listen to them scream
Tired souls, they long to live again.
Lets burn it down lets burn it all.
Give me a reason why
I should drop everything just for you. (I know they say)
That bloods thicker than water
But your heart is an empty well. (Can't you see that you're)
Not a child anymore
Our shoulders won't carry you
Over self-made obstacles built up so tall upon the path you choose.
So I'm writing this to tell you
That our backs no longer break (anymore).
And the tired arms that held you up are forced to let you go.
They're letting go.
Let go you don't deserve this
I feel bad but it's not worth another fight.
Not another fight.
But it's too late now
(It's too late)
But it's too late now
(It's too late)
I guess its too late now
But It's to late; it all rains down on you.
So I'm writing this to tell you
That our backs no longer break (anymore).
And the tired arms that held you up are forced to let you go.
We're letting go.
Stories carved in to the streets, into the pavement where we
Scraped our knees they've worn down.
Worn down like a dim lit flame we used to burn so brightly.
We're covered under winter's snow silenced with the landscape.
We sit and wait to thaw.
I still remember those day' jets flew right over our heads.
The air above consumed with scorching lights.
Our eyes shot into the endless night sky.
We listened to the ocean's waves crash along the shore.
So tonight I'm sleeping out on the ground. Blanket the dirt over me.
We're all waiting out this raging storm, so leave me.
We listened to the ocean waves crash along the shore.
They crashed along the shore.
Following the same roads, from a place I once called home
And I'm Staring into passing cars and wondering if any of this means a thing to me.
Well this is all I have and this is where I need to be right now.
I just don't know anymore.
Focus the light has blinded you. (We'll see this through.)
Contrast with the image, as it alters your view.
Focus the light has blinded you. (We'll see this through.)
Don't conform to an image, don't let this alter you.
I know that your clever lies are tied to the truth.
Your held down by change you need to find the strength and break yourself loose.
I know that your clever lies are tied to the truth.
Your held down by change you need to find the strength and cut yourself loose
Focus the light has blinded you. (We'll see this through.)
Contrast with the image, as it alters your view.
Focus the light has blinded you. (We'll see this through.)
Give up shift on full force to something new.
Let it out. Scream until your voice can't make a sound.
Let it out, its time to break these ties that keep us down.
And I'm hoping that tomorrow shines with the warmest rays down from the sun.
It's time for us to leave this place and give up out past lives while we're still young.
Scream until your voice breaks.
I know when I get home everything in this town will change.
But I'm sure when I get home the emptiness remains.
So I'll scream until your voice breaks.
When I get home everything will change.
Can you see that all of the houses are burning
While our backs were turned away.
Inside the fire we'll be
Consumed by it all.
Nothing but ash remains.
Eyes scorched, reflecting flames,
We will not go down without a fight.
Eyes scorched, reflecting flames,
We will not go down without a fight.
But if we make it through the night
Would you forget this moment even took place?
And if we lose it all tonight
I Promise you I wont forget your face.
I won't forget you, no
I wont forget your face.
We will not go down without a fight
Eyes scorched, reflecting flames,
No we will not burn down, no not this time.
Smoke filled sun rays are all I can see.
Sirens sing my name in background like a choir.
They're singing.
We'll have to lose it all to know what's really ours
So many days, we take for granted
So many nights inside ours rooms
Were just wasting time.
We'll have to lose it all to know what's really ours.
These fifteen-hour drives and all of these sleepless nights are taking hold of me.
So turn up the radio and keep singing on and on
We like it fast out on the road out on the road.
What will the highway signs bring to us tomorrow?
The passing headlights will burn through our eyes
But we keep driving through the night.
Until we see, signal tower lights in the trees
They're shining through.
Is it just me or does everyone seem better off away from home?
So turn up the radio and keep singing on and on
Because in one more year it will all begin to fade away
Just like that old photograph of us as kids running in the summer heat.
One more year and we wake up from this dream.
Lets break away from the routine days that tear us down at the seams.
One more year, we will wake up from this dream.
Is it just me or does everyone seem better off away from home?
The wind stole color from the trees
With a burst of October air.
It's tearing out the roots,
What's left has falling apart.
How the branches used to sway.
They were singing songs of beauty.
But you heard nothing just deafening screams.
And I still miss those nights
When we ran beneath the playground lights
The sparks lit up our eyes.
But I will not forget how we threw caution at the wind.
The sparks will never die.
Why do these moments filled with happiness
Make me feel so hollowed out?
But the rain is pouring down against my windshield
And the outside air it's trying to get in again.
So I'll keep driving all around this town
Singing our old songs I can't seem to let go.
(When will I let it go?)
The rain is pouring down against my windshield
And the outside air is trying to get in again.
I'll keep driving around this town,
Singing our old songs again.
Looking up at a meteor shower
On top of the roof of my old car
It was a night that I won't forget.
The lights would paint the sky
You should have seen it.
The stars they burn so bright here
Why don't they shine we're your from.
How I wish that I
That I was right there right now
To see a riot in the sky slowly disappearing.
Diving into blue and white.
(Don't close your eyes or you're sure to miss it.)
This cities smoke is blinding our sight.
(Don't close your eyes or you're sure to miss it all.)
Well anytime at all you feel like your falling down
Just look up and realize
At just how small we really are.
We'll sit back and laugh it all away.
I swear tonight the skies are going to open for you
I swear tonight we'll share it all.
Well anytime at all you feel like your falling down
Just look up and realize
At how small we really are.
Just sit back and laugh it all away.
Tonight lets meet 11:30
(Don't close your eyes or you're sure to miss it.)
In Lexington Park, 11:33
You're giving in.
Just let the poison take control
It's destroying everything.
Everything within.
(Time takes it toll on us,
Until we have nothing left to give,
I have nothing left to give.)
It poured into your soul
And drowned the heart within.
We're going down on this sinking ship.
Open your eyes this will never happen again.
With words that sink like stones we build the walls to our hearts.
It's just a poor excuse that all, a prison filled with innocents.
The last thing you said to me was this "I wouldn't trade you for the world"
(I couldn't trade you for the world)
Because in the moment I knew how it truly felt to be loved unconditionally.
When you held me on the back porch underneath the setting sun.
You are the torch that lights the way through the darkest times in my life.
Like coals that would burn beneath my feet to keep me moving on.
Will you sing me to sleep the way you did when I was young.
When you held me on the back porch underneath the setting sun.
I got time to kill but I wont waste a second cause
I've grown tired of
Waiting and wasting away.
Right now it seems all I know and love is gone
Except my beat up guitar and unfinished songs.
At least I finished this one.
(The last thing you said to me was this "I wouldn't trade you for the world")
When I stepped inside
My room was just the way I left it.
An empty shell waiting for the sea.
To be swallowed up inside a wave
Left only to be forgotten.
This empty shell it's waiting for the sea.
Sink or Survive this place will bury will us alive.
I'll be here up all night staring at the ceiling.
On this bed of nails that wont stop piercing me.
I'll be here up all night staring at the ceiling.
Closing walls are caving in.
And I am left without an inch to spare.
I'm losing track of what is fake and what is real again.
I Wish I could sleep the day away.
I've been running circles in my head.
The clock is laughing in my face again.
Cars cast shadows on my walls from the street below.
Another hour and still no sleep to get me through the night.
The mourning air will flood these halls
Pouring in the windows
Soon we'll be up to our necks in a new day.
Why is it so hard to close my eyes and just drift away?
Sink or survive this place will bury will us alive.
I'll be right here.
Does it feel like you lost a friend with the summers end?
Now you've become more bitter than the cold
That shows your breath and burns your throat.
Well anyone who is anyone knows
People change, they do.
We're changing with the seasons
And each falling leaf they will become covered by the next.
They will pile over our heads
Like October in our front yards
And the harsh realization that winter is on its way.
Don't you miss those days When
Having everything and nothing felt the same.
Gravity and debt could not define us.
Now it all seems unending
But I know the pieces will fall in place.
You said this will not define us.
We will not become buried in the leaves.
How could it define us?
We're not like them.
We're changing with the seasons
And the falling leaf will
Become covered by the snow.
The winters in our front yards and it's here to stay.
So everything will slow down.
Everything will slow down.
So For the next three months we'll plan our escape
And somehow everything will work out.
Do you hear me? This will not define us.
Can you hear me? This will define us in the end.
Well I walked down to the shore and watched the water tear you away from me.
So I cried out loud I cried out to you but I was to late.
So I went inside and felt a strange feeling come over me.
If I reach out to you I could have kept you safe.
Now you're out there in the current buried underneath the waves.
Our past flashed right before my eyes.
I stood there motionless trapped in disbelief.
Now so many times and so many moments that we should have shared
are now buried underneath the waves.
I just wish I could tell you.
That I don't expect for you to forgive me or to forget.
So I'll walk around this lifeless house singing songs I hope they catch your ear.
You see right through me.
I'll look up and down the coast.
I wont forget that all I have are our memories.
I'm retracing every step and look around at what I see.
This place can bring you down but this is all I really need.
I'm not about to lie down now.
I'm not about to give up anything for you.
I just need to take deep breaths look around and clear my head.
This Means everything to me.
So I shut my eyes to keep the world from seeing inside.
Into the shadows of my soul and all these knots that have been keeping me tied down.
They're keeping me from moving forward;
They're keeping me from everything.
They're keeping from everything I love.
But it's not enough. No
Its not enough it's ever enough for me
Nothing ever is so I'll retrace my steps and see how far away I am from where I could be.
In your eyes money is the only route to happiness.
Keep on following that lonely road down darkened streets you'll travel alone.
You got to break that towering wall and light
a fire inside your chest for a heart that's been so cold.
I heard something about you today.
I couldn't believe my ears what was that you said?
Well it made me lose my breath.
I had to drown it out and I know we all just want to live again
but our hearts are slowly weakening.
You can't stay here.
Well I can see the flames in your eyes confessing that you're burning from the inside.
I watch your eyes fill up with smoke your laughter fades and you start to choke on
empty words and empty promises.
I'm not going to wake you.
Well sometimes life doesn't go as planned.
and its sad but I wish you lived a thousand miles away from here
I'll call you up sometimes but I never want to see your face again.
I'm not going to wait for you so don't wait for me.
sometimes life doesn't go as planned.
I know its sad but I wished that you lived a thousand miles away from here
I'll call you up sometimes but I never want to see you again.
In my defense the sky isn't getting any clearer
and day-by-day I'm finding place in myself
that were best left under lock and key.
and sometimes it seems
there's happiness for everyone but me.
so how do you take this when someone says to your face
"why can't you believe that anyone cares about you"
I care about you
If I could stack my doubts or spend the time to sort
them out
I would be climbing till I couldn't breathe
and the pressure always gets to me.
The more I look around I see that even though it seems,
There's happiness for everyone but me.
Everyone but me.
We're all just kids, scared and flawed
clinging to the legs of all the good inside we've lost
or thought there was but never was at all
so carry on, because someday we'll leave this place behind.
and you will let me go, just like a balloon.
I hope you watch me float away into the atmosphere
I'll be waiving till I'm out of site
I know I couldn't make things right
But I know that you're drifting towards a better life, with better times.
On an outbound train surrounded by strangers
I wonder just where they'll go.
As the world flies by right outside my window
I see the birds in the sky with nowhere else to be.
As our train car derails and rolls into the ocean
I'll be honest I wouldn't miss a thing about these
cold-hearted towns and the distance between
everyone here and everything.
As the world flies by outside of my window
I'll be honest I wouldn't miss a thing.
When compassion is dead we'll drown ourselves
in a sea of paper that glitters like gold.
Some say that hate that it speaks in whispers
but I can hear their curdling screams.
And as our train car derails and rolls into the ocean
I'll be honest about everything.
As the world flies by outside of my window
I'll be honest I wouldn't miss a thing.
As the world flies by outside of my window
I'll be honest about everything.
With the exception of a few familiar faces this place will never feel like home.
So we keep our distance and we learn to say goodbye.
Just this once (believe me)
You hate how I'm always right.
You never listen to me.
Over and over and over again.
I'm driving you home tonight.
and you can't blame the distance, persistence,
or time and though I'm far from perfect
I know that I always tried, I always tried.
I try to be honest, I try to be sincere.
I tried so hard not to dwell.
But it never seems I do any of these too well.
and all I've ever asked of you is one chance
to let you down.
Just this once (believe me)
You hate how I'm always right.
You never listen to me.
Over and over and over again,
I'm driving you home tonight.
and I need to know what's in your head.
With one hand on the wheel, the other hand in yours
This moment is far from perfect
I'm getting good at saying goodbye,
But I've always been better at believing
That you're better off
{Chorus}
Wherever you go,
Go with all your heart
Worn out, and broken in
Like hand-me downs
And every memory
Is like a skipping stone
You'll never understand
How long it took the tides
To bring them back to us
I'm getting good at saying goodbye,
{Chorus}
And we grow into those sadder songs
And leave out love behind,
In every single line.
Maybe that's the only place it can really live
But you could never understand (you don't care x2)
You would never understand (you don't care x2)
Wherever you go(x3)
Every memory,
Is like a skipping stone
You'll never understand
How long it took the tides
To bring them back to us.
And we grow into those sadder songs
And leave out love behind,
In every single line.
Walking outside the gates of winter cemetery.
I wonder when my time will be spent beneath the dirt and leaves.
As uplifting as that sounds, I'm not about to lay down and die.
Still my heart beats to the tune of my uncertainty.
So I try to make the most of my short time here.
These run down side streets are dead ends of my insecurities.
So I try to make the most my short time here.
Our headstones won't tell the story.
They'll just engrave the ending.
(The end of you and me)
What difference will it make.
(Still my heart beats.)
What will become of us.
(Still my heart beats.)
What difference will it make.
(Still my heart beats.)
What will come of us.
Walking outside of the gates of winter cemetery.
I wonder when my time will be to sleep beneath the dirt and leaves.
As uplifting as that sounds, I'm not about to lay down and die.
Just keep your eyes on the door.
I'll have an ear to the ground.
(I'm not about to lay down and die.)
(I'm not about to settle now.)
Just keep your eyes on the door.
I'll have an ear to the ground and
Hands holding tight
Only, letting go we let them raise so high
Above our heads
Smiling and screaming to our hearts content.
We never realize how quickly life can change
Or how much these days have meant.
It’s like roller coaster that you never want to end.
So look me in the eyes and know
It’s all just a ride.
That as the world goes around
We’re living through the pain, the tears, and hardest years
For every sharp turn and for every autumn night
Spent inside tree houses and window sills
We’ve never climbed so high, we’re not afraid to fall.
Looking down and waving from the clouds above
(I’ve never climbed so high, and I’m not afraid to fall)
From way up here I’m not afraid to fall.
These memories have seen me through the pain,
through the tears and the hardest years.
And I look to you now,
the only one who has ever made me feel so fortunate.
So now I'm waking up each day
And it seems to be too cold to be counting
all of my blessings and feeling so very old.
But whether you're smiling or screaming
I'll be by your side.
I swear I'll be by your side.
And if even it becomes
hearing you just laughing on the phone
I will never forget those days or ever feel alone.
Never feel alone
Cause I’ve got dreams to remember
For a lifetime of regret
I’ve got dreams to remember
So many times I could of walked out not knowing if I'd be back again.
I guess kids like me know how to make an exit but we never really leave.
I was the last to see you, I left you standing all alone
but you didn't have to deal with the guilt that will plague my thoughts forever.
and you didn't have to look into here eyes
and tell her you're not coming home (let a part of yourself die)
You were never coming home.
I was the last to see you,
I left you standing there,
I guess that everyone listens.
but no one really hears.
I could of changed it all, I could of made it right.
I could have said the thing that saved your life.
I would of changed it all, I could of stayed the night,
I should of stayed that night.
I was the last to see you, I left you standing there.
I guess that everyone listens but no one really hears.
And you didn't have to deal with the guilt
and you didn't have to look into her eyes
and tell her you're not coming home.
[Verse 1:]
Step on stage I light it up like a cigarette
They say "Transit why you ain't bigger yet? " I say "Son, cause my flow ain't Internet,
Soulja boy dancing on YouTube like an idiot"
I'm not big cause I'm not ridiculous
Local Promoters only want Wigger Kids
They wanna diss me because I'm a Christian kid
But they don't understand the passion that I'm spitting with!
Chuck D went and raised up an army
But Flava Flav's corny went and dated a Barbie
Flavour of love, yo they raising us up
To be slaves and it sucks!
The stage is the cuffs! The mic is the cell
Cause they're isn't the freedom
Record Label snakes in the Garden of Eden
Take a bite of the apple, take a bite of the apple
Hip-Hop died I went and cried in the chapel.
[Chorus:]
I may never blow up but I'm a realist, I make music for those who feel this
Give me a big bowl of Reese Puffs and a large triple double just to keep me up
I'm here to, I'm here to, I'm here to change the scene
I'm here to, I'm here to praise my king
I'm here to chase a dream
[Verse 2:]
It was an open casket to the front of the aisle
Saw a kid standing there, he gave me a smile
He said "Rap's not dead, that body's a decoy! The real body lies in the heart of a B-boy!
The flair of graffiti and the flow of graffiti
Not the Black Eyed Peas acting greedy on T.V."
So my name is Transit, call me the chosen one
To drop poetic verses, over-top these notes and drums
Rappers over here act hard like they be holding guns
The hardest thing in Calgary: texting with frozen thumbs
That's why I'm more Bright Eyes and Death Cab then drive-by's and meth labs
I don't own a doo-rag and I don't know the Crip Walk
I am who I am, and that's why I'm Hip-Hop
I am who I am, and that's why I'm Hip-Hop
(CrossWalk Scratch) Dj CrossWalk! (CrossWalk Scratch) Dj CrossWalk!
[Chorus:]
I may never blow up but I'm a realist, I make music for those who feel this
Give me a big bowl of Reese Puffs and a large triple double just to keep me up
I'm here to, I'm here to, I'm here to change the scene
I'm here to, I'm here to praise my king
I'm here to chase a dream
[Verse 3:]
A pessimist and an optimist at a bus stop
One's saying "Love is" One's saying "Love's Not"
It's raining, one's complaining, cause his hands are cold
They other's saying it's nice that the plants can grow
And I don't know which one to listen to
I've seen highs and lows and all of the different views
And I'm confused, don't know which way to turn
It seems failing is the only way I learn
39 Cent noodles are getting brutal, and I just wanna see my name up on Google
It's one thing to be underground, It's a whole nother thing when you can't feed yourself
When you can't buy clothes, no one buys your flows
Cause all they wanna hear is that "Cash, Money, Hoes"
But still the hook goes, still the hook goes, still the hook goes, still the hook goes...
[Chorus:]
I may never blow up but I'm a realist, I make music for those who feel this
Give me a big bowl of Reese Puffs and a large triple double just to keep me up
I'm here to, I'm here to, I'm here to change the scene
I'm here to, I'm here to praise my king
After tonight,
I just can't be alone
driving home beneath the stoplights
They’re holding me in suspense.
but that's just the way it is I guess
For those of us who move too fast
and I wish that I could say
That I'm wishing you the best
(But I can’t, but I can't.)
So I’ll write it out on paper
to remember every word
For everything I’ve lost and found
inside of every verse
These are my directions to you:
Please, head north.
Voices scream inside of me.
Well, “Maybe I’m just cursed.”
(Just like they say),
maybe I’m just cursed.
I’m always hoping for the best
Maybe I’m just cursed.
I’m always hoping for the best
Preparing for the worst
So please, head north.
Maybe I was right,
maybe I was wrong
I just can’t write another one
of these summer songs
Oh please
not another sad, sad song,
You’ll find me hanging on every word
(on every word)
It kills you to know
this world, it owes you nothing.
So just forget what you’re expecting
Hey kid, you're in over your head
Looked and you leapt
And now all that you get is gravity and pain
Like a movie I'm watching
My nails I am biting
And you are just fighting to stay awake
Now I just feel pathetic
Like most things, I let it just push me aside
But I can't stop my mind
And now you, you just look pathetic
Like most things, you've let them just push you aside
I wish that you would just open your eyes
I miss when you and I were us and everything was ours
Lost in an ocean of passing days and cars
You stood out like every accident does
Hey kid, you're in over your head
It's over
It's over your head
Now I just feel pathetic
Like most things, I let it just push me aside
But I can't stop my mind
And now you, you just look pathetic
Like most things, you've let them just push you aside
I wish that you would just open your eyes
Keep open your eyes
Just open your eyes
Are you better yet?
Hey kid, keep open your eyes
Are you better yet?
Hey kid, just open your eyes
Are you better yet?
Hey kid, keep open your eyes
Are you better yet?
Hey kid, just open your eyes
I miss when you and I were us and every day was ours
Lost in an ocean of passing days and cars
[Verse 1:]
Came on a different ship, we all in the same boat
Ask how I remain dope, Ask how I maintain hope
Even though I stay broke
Might not see the payroll or Barbados, I'm eating bread with Mayo
Spent my money on the album, something that I kinda regret
2 thousand in debt but even still I step
With endurance and perseverance
That the music that I'm putting out is just worth hearing
Canadian Hip-Hop, there ain't no stopping us!
We're more than coffee cups and hockey pucks it's obvious
Since the day's of VCR I've been doing CPR on CDR's while my friends flex beefy arms
Mr. TV Man, Mr. Greedy Hands
Give me some money I'm sick of eating this Ichiban
Sick of riding around in my parent's mini-van
I got a plan just raise your hands up!
[Chorus:]
This right here, ain't for clubs
It ain't for dolled up girls wearing skirts and uggs
Or that Ed Hardy wearing, Faux-hawk hairin
Naw I ain't dissing homie I'm on a mission!
[Verse 2:]
And I'm a freedom fighter
Steven Tyler mixed with MacGyver
They told me to walk this way but I escaped using a lighter and a set of pliers
This will get you higher than people who thought Kanye's CD straight fire
I'm straight tired of this techno voice
Don't get no choice, no more Ghetto Boys
They legitimately plastered and digitally mastered
Cause all we have nowadays is singers, no more rappers!
This ain't R&B;! This is Hip-Hop!
The only thing over your voice should be the Disc-Jock
Call me traditional, Call me too critical
But I'm 19 and already this is old!
What I be serving up it feels like murder
You got less chance than the Green Party in Alberta
And I ain't even bragging, just saying you're like Plaxico Burris homie
You're legging.
[Chorus:]
This right here, ain't for clubs
It ain't for dolled up girls wearing skirts and uggs
Or that Ed Hardy wearing, Faux-hawk hairin
Naw I ain't dissing homie I'm on a mission!
[Verse 3:]
This ain't a song, meant to get my paper long
Ain't for the Jager-Bomb, ain't for the steroid arms
Not that there's anything wrong with that, I got a couple friends who be down with that
I'm just saying, I want more than your hips to react to this
It's so passionate! The flow immaculate!
They'll try and package this, but I will have a fit in front of management
If they try and make me change who I feel I am
This ain't Will.I.Am, but where's the love for a stand up man with no cabana tan?
Hand to hand combat, I'm Brandon Shanahan before he was washed up
You feel me camera man?
I rap circles round this rapping munchkins who sound redundant
I sound abundant, the sound is pungent
I listen to Smashing Pumpkins, rap's too dumb man
This one's for the heads.
[Chorus:]
This right here, ain't for clubs
It ain't for dolled up girls wearing skirts and uggs
Or that Ed Hardy wearing, Faux-hawk hairin
I have nowhere to be but I'm leaving again
and that's just how it's always been.
Alone, in this backyard, scratching away at the fences.
Never escaping, never mending.
So enter and exit up, recite your scene.
That same old song, take a bow and move along
and please don't have mercy on a man who flails and folds.
That's just how my friend it's always been.
Do you find yourself clinging to straws for something to hold you up.
Move along, just move along is what I've learned about life.
And I've learned about love, you're either in heaven or you're in hell.
There's no in-between.
That boy grew up too fast, his bones were made of glass.
He threw too many stones, leaving him in pieces everywhere.
He left his pieces everywhere and how he fails alone.
Now he fails alone.
So enter and exit up, recite your scene.
That same old song, take a bow and move along.
So enter and exit, recite your scene.
I always knew that I would live and die in Boston.
When I was five I put my hands into cement and you knelt beside me.
It dried up and hardened so fast.
We packed our bags and headed south
leaving them behind, never coming back.
To those same small hands that pulled you through a crosswalk,
ready for whatever's coming next.
Someday I hope you find everything you want
and just forgive me for everything I'm not.
I'll try and hide how damaged I've become.
Oh my god, why is the world so sad?
I always knew that I would live and die in Boston.
When I was five I put my hands into cement and you knelt beside me.
It dried up and hardened so fast.
I guess I found my way back home but those hands no longer fit.
(I was never any good at saying sorry, thank you for that.)
But I'm ready for whatever is whatever is coming next.
I always knew that I would live and die in Boston.
When I was five I put my hands into cement,
and you knelt besides me.
You were walking down the dead end streets while I was chasing echoes.
Just trying to catch familiar voices.
But all I'm hearing is this:
"Your choices lead you down this road so if you're walking all alone"
Is that you, did you get lost, well I did too.
Did you get lost?
Maybe you got what you deserved.
Maybe you got what you deserved.
There's no hope in "live and learn"
Maybe you got what you deserved.
Maybe you got what you deserved.
There's no future
when every bridge is burned.
Is there any hope left for tomorrow
or are we just buying time.
Looking to an empty sky
so we don't have to look into our lives.
Is that you?
Did you get lost, well I did too.
Did you get lost.
Maybe you got what you deserved,
Maybe you got what you deserved.
There's no hope in "live and learn"
Maybe you got what you deserved,
Maybe you got what you deserved,
There's no future when every bridge is burned.
and if you get the love you give the world
then you got what you deserved
and if I get the love you give the world
You've never felt quite right in your own skin
and there's no place for a crook like me.
You've never been in love.
I don't know what it is and I don't believe
that anyone can change me
because you don't know anything about me.
My backs against the door to keep you on the outside
and nobody knows what I'm trying to hide.
You've never felt quite right behind those green eyes
and you can't hide from a crook like me.
You left me outside just knocking on your door, knocking on your door.
I'm not sure if I can do this anymore.
You left me outside, knocking for so long
that my knuckles bleed and nobody knows
City walls are caving in.
Once buildings stood so tall.
Just metal scraps beneath our feet.
This feeling's unsettling.
We're caught in a freefall just waiting for an end.
The weight of the world it presses down on me.
I feel my bones begin to crack and break.
The weight of your words they're pressing down on me.
I feel my insides opening.
This year won't be the last one.
(Return this desert to a sea.)
This year wont be the last one.
(Tonight let's disengage)
This year won't be the last one.
(Return this desert to a sea.)
This year won't be the last one.
(Let's disengage)
We're kept sheltered from our own devices, sheltered from the cold.
Doors and windows boarded tight resistant to the world.
Sheltered from our own devices, from the cold.
I talk a big game
But I can’t say it to your face
So I’ll just say it in a song.
And all those big dreams
And big words
Didn’t get me far.
Did they get you far?
Even when you want it
With all of your heart
A wish is only that
Even when you want it
With all of your heart
You can’t wish them back
There are two sides to every story
And smaller bits that break from the start.
You made me into a monster,
So I made you into art
And I gave it to the world
To rip and tear apart.
But every critic is every cynic
Who lacks the drive and heart
To do what I do
Or do what I have done
So they rip and tear it apart.
All those big dreams and big words
Didn’t get me far.
Did they get you far?
Even when you want it
With all of your heart
A wish is only that
Even when you want them
With all of your heart
You can’t wish them back.
There are two sides to every story
And smaller bits that break from the start.
With all of your heart
All those big dreams and big words
With all of your heart
They didn’t get me far.
Did they get you far?
Even when you want it
With all of your heart
A wish is only that
Even when you want them
With all of your heart
You can’t wish them back.
There are two sides to every story
She said
"Take a step back but please keep me in frame."
So I spent the next five years
standing in your way
I walked in with you alone
I'm walking out with you alone.
And I know just how you'd get
back at me
If I said that these songs
were about you.
You'd cry and say:
"I never meant to make you feel this way"
You'd cry and say:
"well it's been done, and it's too late"
Step back, but please keep me in frame
(keep me in frame, keep me in frame)
and I spent the next five years standing in your way.
I walked in with you alone
I'm walking out with you alone.
And it's too late.
and all that I have left
to give you now
to is a poor gift and that's myself.
She said
"take a step back,
but please keep me in frame"
(keep me in frame, keep me in frame)
and I spent so many years
just standing in your way
you walk in with me alone
and you walk out with me alone.
If I told you this song was about you.
(you'd cry and say, cry and say)
"I never meant to make you feel this way."
If I told you that this song was about you.
(you'd cry and say, cry and say)
Now isn't it sad when we find our place.
(Condemned and rebuilt so easily replaced now.)
We stick to the floors just like shadows.
(A nameless kid, an empty place.)
I remember when our hearts skipped to this sound.
Now we long for that beating pulse.
Would you believe me if I told you that I was afraid of the end.
(This bed of yours is never made you're constantly dreaming)
The movie plays and it rewinds back memories and fading pictures from a crash.
When those bright lights flashed against our faces.
Then we sat alone in the dark.
Is anyone there.
Can anyone hear me.
Still we long for that beating pulse.
Would you believe me if I told you that I was afraid of the end.
As I sink into this seat the open windows and the radio sings to me.
This comfort makes me feel at home, just some nameless kids and a few songs.
We're on our way through rows of endless broken white lines
until we run this engine down.
Just picture me on a train heading home at one a.m.
and I'll picture you're doing the same.
dressed up with somewhere else to be.
I hope he says that he loves you.
I hope you see it in his eyes.
I hope his shoulder is softer than mine.
I hope that he's better than me.
It's one thing to ruin these songs for me,
those songs that still rot in my ears
but you've ruined places that I used to love and live to forget.
It's one thing to ruin this song for me,
this song it still rots in my ears
and you've ruined these places that I used to love and now live to forget.
because in this city of potholes and rooftops
the people they live to forget and drink to forgive
I guess that nobody wins.
Is this the happiest you've ever been.
I hope that it is.
Is this the happiest you've ever been
I guess that nobody wins.
Is this the happiest you've ever been.
Oh god I hope that it is.
Is this the happiest you've ever been.
I guess that nobody wins.
Oh god I hope that it is.
Is this the happiest you've ever been.
Screaming out the kitchen window
You were right
The world is so cold
So bundle up
But keep up the pace
Because everybody's watching
And you got just what you wanted
Didn't you?
Well, didn't you?
Keep up the pace
Because everybody's watching
And it's so hard to explain
How we can be so different
When everyone's the same
Screaming out the kitchen window
You were right
This world is so cold
So bundle up
Keep up the pace
Because everybody's watching
And you got just what you wanted
Didn't you?
Well, didn't you?
Keep up the pace
Everybody's watching
And it's so hard to explain
How we can be so different
When everyone's the same
When everything is cheap
And nothing's for free
How can we be so different
When everyone's the same
(Everyone's the same)
But you got just what you wanted
Didn't you?
Didn't you?
Yeah, you got just what you wanted
I guess I should've known better
Everything's become subjective
And we're always changing our perspective of what's right
And I'm caught between the color schemes of black and white
And I know that it's not right
It's not right
Because it seems that all the places we're staying have been claimed
And all of the claims, they have been staked
So who am I to grate you?
And who am I to write?
Seek, try, and all you'll find is
Seek, try, and all you'll find is
They say when it rains that it pours
When the window, it closes
It opens up a door
And I'm caught between the color schemes of black and white
And I know that it's not right
It's not right
Because it seems that all the places we're staying have been claimed
And all of the claims, they have been staked
So who am I to grate you?
And who am I to write?
Seek, try, and all you'll find is
Seek, try, and all you'll find is
The answer comes in time
That's just the story of my life
That's just the story of my life
I don't want anything from anyone anymore
I don't want anything from anyone anymore
Because it seems that all the places we're staying have been claimed
And all of the claims, they have been staked
So who am I to grate you?
And who am I to write?
Seek, try, and all you'll find is
Seek, try, and all you'll find is
That's just the story of my life
I've tried to keep my conscience light
But guilt and anxiety were sold to me
Guilt and anxiety keep me up at night
With the best of intentions
I can't forget how you took away the happiness from my life
Like all the city lights broke at the same time
You can't miss it
It's everywhere
You won't miss us
We are everywhere
And it seems I only have two speeds
Too much too soon or not enough
Too much too soon or not enough
With the best of intentions
I can't forget how you took away the happiness from my life
Like all the city lights broke at the same time
You can't miss it
It's everywhere
You won't miss us
We are everywhere
I'm nothing special really
I'm just a kid who tried too hard
And lost his heart in someone else's bed or car
I don't remember anymore
And you can't miss it
It's everywhere
You won't miss us
I watched your ship sink into an ocean,
into a sea of self-destruction.
Your hands were reaching up.
(And now you're only pulling me down with it.)
We watched your ship sink into an ocean,
into a sea of our destruction.
Your hands were reaching up.
(And now you're only pulling me down with it.)
I watched your ship sink into an ocean,
into a sea of self-destruction.
Our hands were reaching out (reaching out)
with anchors dragging us down again.
And I close my eyes and look at my life.
You're an anchor so far away from where you want to be.
And you run at break neck speeds to find the ribbon has been broken all along.
So far away
(An anchor)
from where you want to be
(So far away)
and you pray for change
(where nothing changes)
But that never solved anything.
(it stays the same.)
As we let go, (You're an anchor and a mistake.)
We close our eyes. (Will I have what it takes?)
I hope you find your way back home.
I hope you find that place again.
I hope you find your way back home.
Back home.
I hope you find your way back home.
I hope you find that place again.
(You're an anchor, a mistake.)
I hope you find your way back home.
(Will I have what it takes?)
I hope you find that place again.
(You're an anchor, a mistake.)
I just can't hold my breath anymore.
(Will I have what it takes?)
I just can't hold my breath anymore.
(You're an anchor, a mistake.)
I just can't hold my breath anymore.
(Will I have what it takes?)
I just can't hold my breath anymore.
(You're an anchor, a mistake.)
I just can't hold my breath anymore.
(Will I have what it takes?)
We're only going down again.
I hope you find your way.
(I hope you find your way back home.)
So many days and nights of my life escape.
It always fades away.
It always fades away with time.
(The color fades away. The color fades away.)
And it's this feeling that has me going nowhere, gaining nothing at all.
If anyone should find you staring up at the unending sky.
What if I was smiling and running into your arms?
(What would you say?)
Would you see then what I see now?
(Keep running! Keep shining on!)
I'd put my ear against your heart to keep the beat forever
(Keep running) and hum it like my favorite song.
And it's safe to say life seems hopeless. (We are all alone.)
And it's this feeling that brings me closer and closer, closer to the end.
(Keep running, keep running, keep running, keep shining...)
Before this home becomes your casket.
And you're buried six feet beneath the ground.
And you're buried six feet beneath the ground.
Those starry eyes have lost their shine.
There's reason why I've made it this far without you.
You had your shot; this one's mine.
I'm taking aim.
Those starry eyes have lost their shine.
There's reason why I've made it this far without you.
You had your shot; this one's mine.
I poured my heart out
I told you to keep this to yourself
I know that it's all my fault
I know that it's all my fault
The best and worst years of my life
Fell into these lines
The best and worst days of my life
Just fit into these lines
I said it and I meant it
All we have is time
So hold on to my number
And please pickup the phone
I miss the sound of all your voices
And even when I'm gone
Leave the light on for me
And I won't ever let you be
Something left behind
So please pick up this time
All we really have is time
So hold on to my number
And please pick up the phone
I miss the sound of all your voices
And even when I'm gone
Leave the light on for me
And I won't ever let you be
Something left behind
'Cause every second that you give
Is every life that you could have lived
And all those people you could have have been
You have to let them be
Something left behind
So hold onto my number
And please pick up the phone
I miss the sound of all your voices
And even when I'm gone
I've written songs about growing old
I wrote some along the road
And I write them all for my friends
So where ever I may go
I hope that you can hear me (I hope I can sing them loud)
I hope that you can hear me (They can hear me back home)
I hope that you can hear me (I said it and I meant it)
[Verse 1:]
Supposed to play at ten now we're playing at one
Sound check sounds sick we creating a buzz
Setting up the merch table and the turntables
Got the quarter inch cables, laptop sounds phat like kankles
Ask the kitchen "Can I get me some fish and chips? Reminds me of the Island, and lately I've been missing it
She said "Sure thing! It's on the house! Just make sure you kill it with those words from your mouth"
Didn't get much sleep we slept in a Chevy
Loaded in the amps, why those things so heavy?
We're indie, we don't have any roadies
But no label means that we don't act phoney!
[Chorus:]
I rap in a power outage don't need a microphone I can rap without it
Let me scream, till I have none left
We ain't leaving this venue till we see the sunrise
[Verse 2:]
The first band sounded like Chad Kroeger and they said they had a sick beat for me to rap over
At this point, I'm kinda sketched out
But I said "Yea sure thing, I'll check it out"
Then I walked away awkwardly, That girl was at my last show stalking me!
How do I go from being un-noticed, to all these girls telling me that they wanna be my next chorus?
That's just part of being a musician, when you get on that stage people tend to look at you different
But I'm still the same Daniel from Saanich, on tour they call me Transit
I'm here to reek havoc!
[Chorus:]
I rap in a power outage don't need a microphone I can rap without it
Let me scream, till I have none left
We ain't leaving this venue till we see the sunrise
[Verse 3:]
30 minutes before we go on
Check the beats one more time make sure nothing's wrong
You hear the sound of the Not For Clubs trumpets
Crowd is reacting, people seem to love it
All of a sudden it goes pitch black
No lights, no signs, and worst of all no tracks
This isn't what we dreamed up, how do we do a show when nobody can see us?
I got déjà vu being in a park, 16 with my friends freestyling in the dark
I said "Let's rock this thing like a cypher I don't need stage lights just get out your lighters! "
[Chorus:]
I rap in a power outage don't need a microphone I can rap without it
Let me scream, till I have none left
I learned to say these words long before I knew what they meant.
and I know you're good at keeping secrets
well I'm better at wearing them out for the world to see.
So take that old cracked photograph and tuck it away.
Well knowing you it takes most of the to get half of the truth.
But if you can keep this to yourself,
I will tell you all about the last twenty something years
of heartache and deception, rock bottom and redemption.
Well knowing you I learned to write these words
long before I knew just what they meant.
and you can have a photographic memory it still won't bring it back
it still won't bring us back.
But if you can keep this to yourself.
I will tell you all about how we got left behind.
How long do you have to say that
This is not the person I used to know
You're not the person I used to know
So go on, go on
Go on
Because lately you've been looking at me like you've seen a ghost
And isn't it obvious who's been missing who the most (missing who at all)
I just wish that you had called, cause I would have said it all
I just wish that you had called, cause I would have said it all
Oh I never was a man of man words
Mostly when they mattered most
Mostly when you mattered most
So go on, go on
Go on
Because lately you've been looking at me like you've seen a ghost
And isn't it obvious who's been missing who the most (missing who at all)
I just wish you had called, cause I would have said it all
I just wish you had called, cause I would have said it all
In my dreams you run back to me (my long lost friend)
Isn't it amazing in this world that anyone can love anyone at all?
Anyone at all
Lately you've been looking at me like you've seen a ghost
and isn't it obvious who's been missing who the most
I just wish that you had called cause I would have said it all
She said*
"Take a step back but please keep me in frame."
So I spent the next five years
Standing in your way
I walked in with you alone
I'm walking out with you alone.
And I know just how you'd get
Back at me
If I said that these songs
Were about you.
You'd cry and say:
"I never meant to make you feel this way"
You'd cry and say:
"Well it's been done, and it's too late"
Step back, but please keep me in frame
(Keep me in frame, keep me in frame)
And I spent the next five years standing in your way.
I walked in with you alone
I'm walking out with you alone.
And it's too late.
And all that I have left
To give you now
To is a poor gift and that's myself.
She said
"Take a step back,
But please keep me in frame"
(Keep me in frame, keep me in frame)
And I spent so many years
Just standing in your way
You walk in with me alone
And you walk out with me alone.
If I told you this song was about you.
(You'd cry and say, cry and say)
"I never meant to make you feel this way."
If I told you that this song was about you.
(You'd cry and say, cry and say)
I'm no good now
and I'm not sure
that I ever was.
Apologies are all thats left of me now.
Crying hard into my arms
I'll always be the lonely.
I'll always be
I'll always be
I'll always
and I know that
it's easier to get there
then it ever is to leave
but I think it's just the other way for me.
You know I am object
who is stuck inside your pocket,
you use me as you please.
So please use me.
Apologies are all thats left of me.
Crying hard into my arms,
I'll always be,
I'm no good now and I never was.
I'll always be
I'll always be
I'm getting tired of being told to live in the moment,
when all I want is my bed and the sounds of the ocean.
With hoods pulled tight and our sleeves covering our hands.
It's getting harder to sleep and we never seem to dream.
It's getting harder to sleep, we're always tossing and turning.
And I'm getting tired of being told that you're only one person
to the world,
when to one person you could be the world.
With hoods pulled tight and our sleeves covering out hands.
It's getting harder to sleep and we never seem to dream.
It's getting harder to sleep, we're always tossing and turning.
There's nothing in the dark that wasn't there in the light.
But there's an innocence in everyone that this world can't take away.
As hard as it tries!
I always seem to relate to strays,
waiting for someone to come along and take them away.
We're always waiting for someone,
waiting for someone.
I always seem to relate to strays,
waiting for someone to come along and take me away
You have to stop looking for the chorus in everything you've lost.
As if you orchestrate your failures to give yourself a crutch.
I drive by two streets a day with your last name,
And it's a cruel twist of fate how much we lose ourselves to find someone else.
We live in borrowed cars and sleep in rented homes.
That's why we try to keep each other, in fear we'll both die alone.
I drive by two streets a day with your last name,
And it's a cruel twist of fate how much we lose ourselves to find someone else.
You built yourself a crutch.
A crutch to lean, a crutch to fall.
It's just a poor excuse, so I won't stand at all
(I won't stand at all) I can't stand myself at all.
I used to be afraid of all the things that I couldn't keep.
I used to be afraid of all the things that I couldn't change.
I used to be afraid...
A crutch to lean, a crutch to fall.
(But I can change, I can change).
But we need each other. Come keep me.
We live in borrowed cars.
We sleep in rented homes.
We try to keep each other.
So we don't die.
Come tomorrow I’ll be on my way back home.
In the morning call from a roadside telephone.
One night doesn’t mean the rest of my life.
If I go it’s not impossible
Possible is probably wrong.
So, let go
cause I’m afraid to try
Keep my hands by my side.
You won’t come back
I hope some day you’ll understand
I wanna try, make it right
Don’t know if I can.
Last night everything was right
The rain was gone.
One summer night’s the only time we’ve known.
So, shut your eyes
When you wake up I’ll be gone.
When you wake up I’ll be gone.
One night doesn’t mean the rest of my life.
If I go it’s not impossible
Possible is probably wrong.
So, let go
Leave the keys inside the mailbox.
I'll be by soon enough.
Too young to hold on, too old to just give up.
I'll be by soon enough.
(if you won't)
Change the locks and throw away those keys (don't bury me).
I'd rather watch this place burn down then let it all slowly engulf me.
When you say goodbye, you better mean it for the last time.
Leave the keys inside the mailbox.
I'll be by soon enough.
Too young to hold on, too old to just give up.
I'll be by soon enough.
but if I goes don't put it out, If I go don't put me out.
Just let it burn, just let it burn to the ground
and I'll carry the last three years away in this broken cardboard box.
I guess I'm too young to hold on and too old to just give up.
I'll take one last look around the room. I've never felt so lost.
I guess I'm too young to hold an too old to break free and run.
I'm writing all down to let you know "I gave you my very best"
How could you treat anyone like this.
I would never treat anyone like this.
but everyone misses someone more then they would like to admit.
So I'm writing you a six-word letter with no return address to let you know.
Your words are words
The canvas is meaningless
Just say it like you mean it
Rewrite it, repeat it
I painted you a portrait
You said, "Get to the point, get to the point."
Let me call it as I see it
Let me be the ghost writer
Who fills the page so you will take the blame
So I can be, I can be another person
A better person
Another place, a better place
Another person, a better person
Anything
I painted you a portrait
You said, "Get to the point, get to the point."
Let me call it as I see it
And it may not do you any justice
But it will do me well
Just to say this, just to say this
I sit alone and think of ways to escape this pen and ink
You wrote this in a letter:
Those left with heavy hearts who try to save the world
Are only left to sink
You left me to sink
I painted you a portrait
You said, "Get to the point, get to the point."
Let me call it as I see it
And it may not do you any justice
But it will do me well
We always say, forgive, forget
Like that will tech us to live without regret [x2]
I ask advice, I don't take it.
Every gift I'm given, I shake until I break it.
(forgive, forget)
I'm distant, I'm unrealistic- just add it to the list.
And I'm not angry, I never was.
I never was.
It's just so hard to miss someone who's right in front of you all the time.
All the time.
I ask advice, I don't take it.
Every gift I'm given, I shake until I break it.
(forgive, forget)
I'm distant, I'm unrealistic- just add it to the list.
You're distant, you're idealistic.
You're everything hate in everybody else.
I ask advice, I don't take it.
Every gift I'm given, I shake until I break it.
(forgive forget)
I'm distant, I'm unrealistic- just add it to the list.
But I'm not angry, but I'm not angry.
I never was.
We're victim of ourselves.
We're victims of the crash.
So point the finger, point the finger.
And shake it till you break it.
You're distant, you're idealistic.
Keep focused on your footwork; your feet won't leave the ground.
but your head will hit the concrete to make a sick sad song.
Even sadder then writing this all down to a ghost
that doesn't care enough to haunt you, to want you.
It just keeps you around.
I always thought it was me.
I always thought I would be the one to come and fix your life.
I really thought you would see
but all I turned out to be was just a fragment of a lie.
Are you just keeping me around as a reminder?
of before the world took it's toll and left you full of cracks and holes.
your body's shaking in the cold, have you always been this cold?
I always thought it was me.
I always thought I would be the one to come and fix your life.
I really thought you would see
but all I turned out to be was just a fragment of a lie.
My bleeding heart has filled my chest and overflowed into my head.
You can paint a wall but you can't cover up the cracks
and things will never change, until you change the way you look at it.
Whatever happened to all those little lies?
Whatever happened to all your little lies?
Whatever happened to all those little lies?
You wrapped yourself too tight this time
Whatever happened to all your little lies?
They cover you up and now you're screaming at the sky
Who asked to be born and who wants to die?
What are we other than ships just passing in the night?
Stay with me tonight
I won't make a sound
Won't you stay with me tonight?
I won't make a sound
Whatever happened to all those little lies?
You wrapped yourself too tight this time
Whatever happened to all your little lies?
They cover you up and now you're screaming at the sky
Whatever happened to all those little lies?
You wrapped yourself too tight this time
Whatever happened to all your little lies?
They cover you up and now you're screaming at the sky
Who asked to be born and who wants to die?
What are we other than ships just passing in the night?
Stay with me tonight
I won't make a sound
Won't you stay with me tonight?
I won't make a sound
Stay with me tonight
I won't make a sound
Won't you stay with me tonight?
I won't make a sound
Whatever happened to all those little lies?
Whatever happened to all your little lies?
Stay with me tonight
I won't make a sound
Won't you stay with me tonight?
I won't make a sound
You fed them til they grew
And then they covered up the best of you
They covered up the best you
Just about ten drinks in
You stumble across the floor (to apologize again)
So you beg, steal, and borrow
And you hope that tomorrow you can take it back
So cross your fingers and dot the i's
Apologize
Fill in the blanks for all your lies
Apologize
So make every song your anthem
And every night your last
Don't let them pick your words
Make sure you choose them,
Just like you pick your friends
Cause you can't take them back
You can't always take it back
You can't always take them back
You just can't
So cross your fingers and dot the i's
Apologize
Fill in the blanks for all your lies
Apologize
I'm dumb enough to keep you
And you're drunk enough to cry
I miss the breeze of the summer air
The sunlight against me skin
Do you remember it?
We all felt more alive
(You have to hold on)
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We tried to stay awake but we kept drifting off
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We drifted off and we drifted
You never know just what you have until it's gone
And after the ink dries
Every page of this will burn
(You have to hold on)
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We tried to stay awake but we kept drifting off
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We drifted off and we drifted
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We tried to stay awake but we kept drifting off
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We drifted off and we drifted
Hold on
Sitting with my head in my hands
Outside on the steps of my home
You can't take those moments back
So hold on and never let go
Sitting with my head in my hands
Outside on the steps of my home
You can't take those moments back
So hold on and never let go
(Hold on)
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We tried to stay awake but we kept drifting off
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We drifted off and we drifted
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We tried to stay awake but we kept drifting off
Yesterday when the wax was burning
We're only talking cause you lost someone close to you.
Without this entry you'd feel incomplete.
Come treat me like a living diary and just turn the page and walk away.
and it's true that I can feel this season in my bones
as New England fills with snow.
I find it hard to believe through everything I see
that every bits unique,
that maybe there is someone who’s just like me.
Someone who feels just like me.
Incomplete,
Someone who feels just like me.
Come by and ask me how I'm holding up.
My good intentions were never good enough.
I was empty before I met you
and I'll be there soon enough again.
I wont forget, I'll save your place,
don't walk away. I can't erase anything about you.
For all the things we fake you're words they seem so real.
So real that they could take all the hope left
in my life and leave my insides blank.
So close me or up or turn the page
The merge from the turnpike was murder, but it's never a cinch
It was Friday at five, and no one was giving an inch
They squeezed and the edged and they glared
Half them clearly impaired by rage or exhaustion
The rest were just touchy as hell
Somewhere near Paterson everything slowed to a crawl
The all-news station was thanking someone for the call
It's a van from St. Agnes's choir
There's a nun out there changing a tire
By the time they got by her, tempers were out of control
So they all hit the gas in a dash for position
Bobing and weaving and flashing their highbeams
Fliping the bird and screaming obscenities
A well-insured hoard hell-bent on Saturday
And so they continued west-bound and into the sun
Law and decorum constraining nary a one
By then it was devil-may-care
Not one even vaguely aware
That they had come all the way to the Delaware Water Gap
But how had it happened? They had all missed their exits
How had it happened? Was it some kind of vortex?
And in they all went, bumper to bumper
Faster and faster, no sign of a trooper
In they all went, like sheep to the slaughter
Bankers and carpenters, doctors and lawyers
And in they all went, families in minivans
Ashcroft republicans, weekend militiamen
They followed the river, and rounded the bend
Between minsi and tammany and into their destiny
Lying in ambush right their before them
The angry old sun right on the horizon
Sister Maria tightened the bolts of the spare
She said a quick prayer and put the old van into gear
Thank God that the traffic was light
If she hurried she might not be late
For that evening's performance at the state penetentiary
She entered the common room and their was her choir
Altos and baritones, basses and tenors
Car thieves and crack dealers, mobsters and murderers
Husbands and sons, fathers and brothers
And so it began in glorious harmony
Softly and Tenderly - calling for you and me
With the interstate whining way off in the distance
And the sun going down through the bars of the prison
They poured out their souls, they poured out their memories
They poured out their hopes for what's left of eternity
To sister Maria - her soul like a prism
You take it for granted that things are
The way they seem.
And from the first glance you're aware
Of what is real.
All the letters tell a story about a
Content you can't see.
Take a closer
Look at the way
You do perceive.
And you're holding on to things
That you have done.
But who are you
When all your work is gone?
And you're acting like you're
Always on the run.
But you're a buried seed
That has never seen the sun.
Take that for granted:
If there's one thing that is real.
It's the moon shine,
It's this velvet tender fell,
It's the wind that slowly carries
Colored autumn leaves.
Well this is waiting for the ones
Who do perceive.
And you're holding on to things
That you have done.
But where are you
When all your work is done?
And you're acting like you're
Always on the run,
But linger on
And try to see the sun.
The wind blows through
The meadows and the sun
Is waiting for the ones
Who'd like to come.
And even if you're
Always on the run,
Linger on
