Vier, drei, zwei, eins, null...
Kontakt am Grund nur mit den Augen
Schwarzes Wasser, sanft entschwebend
Eingeschlafen wachgezählt
Und traumgeküsst in Schoß des Meeres
Wenn nichts mehr meinen Atem hält
Und der kalte Abendwind
Nur noch die Nebel mit sich bringt
Will ich fahr'n von dieser Welt
Und nehm' das Steuer in die Hand
Über Wogen zu dem Land
Hinter'm Nebel unter'm Horizont
Auf der Suche nach der Stille
Unerreichte, dunkle Tiefen
Die mit Engelszungen riefen
Mich hinab im Traume schwebend
Nicht mehr atmend, nicht mehr lebend
Einzug haltend, transformierend
Meerestrunken, traumgebärend
Unberührt und ungebunden
Und auf der Flucht vor meinem Sein
Treibt der Wind mich übers Meer
Ich will sein nun nimmermehr
Ich nehm' das Ruder in die Hand
Und fahre fort zu diesem Land
Holy light of dawn is coming
Prince of darkness now retires
Packs of human wolves are howling
Chants of damned by Satan's Fire
Fire!
Who's the one to save your life?
Who's the one to save your life?
The final day - the final battle
Final Judgement's Call
Bleeding souls of Armageddon
Bloodshed plagues us all
Blessed enough to see the light
Blind enough to walk the night
Who's the one to save your life?
Feuchte Luft berührt mein Gesicht
Hier im Nebel der Zeit.
Wo bist Du, daß ich Dich finden kann?
Ich sehe, ich höre, ich spüre Dich nicht!
Uns're Liebe, sie ist wie Blütenstaub im Wind:
Verloren, bevor sie beginnt!
Unser Leben ist wie eine Blüte ohne Licht:
Verloren, bis es zerbricht!
Ich sehne mich nach Deiner Wärme
Hier im Nebel der Zeit.
Alle Brücken sind zerbrochen,
Die Lichter erloschen und die Kälte befreit!
Uns're Liebe, sie ist wie Blütenstaub im Wind:
Verloren, bevor sie beginnt!
Unser Leben ist wie eine Blüte ohne Licht:
Verloren, bis es zerbricht!
Abgeschirmt von allen Augen
brennt ein Licht
In tiefster Dunkelheit
Jedoch kein Lächeln und kein Wort von Dir
Dringt je hinab zu mir.
Verdammt, siehst Du denn nicht
Daß hier drinnen jemand lebt;
Eine Kreatur, die atmet
Und sich nach Liebe sehnt?
Oh verdammt, merkst Du denn nicht
Daß tief drinnen etwas existiert;
Ein Mensch, der leise leidet
Ein geheimes Leben führt?
Ausgestoßen und doch vereint
Mit einem Licht, das heller scheint
Als alle Feuer dieser Welt
Bin ich dem Engel gleich, der fällt
Aus höchsten Höhen unserer Nacht
Mit Flügeln, gleich dem Ikarus: Aus Wachs
Geschmolzen an der Wärme Deines
Herzens
Und tausend Töne, tausend Farben
Auf meinem Fallen mich begleiten
Und tausend Schmerzen mir bereiten
Den Altar der Finsternis
Und Deine Seele läßt mich sagen
Daß nun mein Herz sich suhlt, betrinkt
An Deiner Schönheit, die mir klingt
Wie Trommeln, die zum Angriff schlagen
Und dieses Warten, Schweigen, Streben
Nach Deinem Blut, nach Deinem Leben
Das mir nicht vergönnet ward
Und in Deinen starken Armen
Spür' ich Deinen Atem
Warmen Hauch, der Leben schenkt
Und keine Sehnsucht existiert
Und tausend Töne, tausend Farben...
Erhöre mich, errette mich, oh bleib bei mir,
ich liebe Dich!
Zuerst ist da ein Sehnen, dann fühl'n wir Einsamkeit;
Es scheint uns was zu fehlen, zu dem wir doch bereit.
Es ist die erste Liebe, das bittersüße Gift,
Auf die wir alle warten, die hoffentlich uns trifft!
Zuerst sind da noch Zweifel, dann gibt es ekin zurück;
Wir geben uns geschlagen und fühlen nur noch glück.
Es ist die Droge Liebe, das bittersüße Gift,
Der alle wir verfallen, die jeden von uns trifft!
Zunächst gibt es nur Tränen, aus Feuer wächst die Glut;
Wir suchen uns're Sonne und schöpfen neuen Mut.
Es ist die große Liebe, das bittersüße Gift,
Der alle wir verfallen, wenn sie ins Herz uns trifft!
Zuletzt sind da nur Scherben, zu Asche ward die Glut;
Wir suchten wohl vergebens, verlor'n dabei den Mut.
Wo blieb sie, diese Liebe - das bittersüße Gift?
Wir hören auf zu träumen, bis sie uns wieder trifft!
Ich liebte Dich
Wenn Deine Augen Wasser, hei
wie Blut, vergossen.
Erstrahle
Flammenhell die Nacht!
Tausend Opfer
Brachte ich Dir dar.
Erstrahle
Flammenhell die Nacht!
Und ich gehe meinen Weg!
Und ich gehe diesen Weg allein!
In einer Nacht des Trumens ohne Schlaf
Rief mich einer fremden Stimme Klang.
Unter alten Balken, von Schicksal getrnkt
Tasten hellwach die Sinne entlang.
Endlos weiter singt die Spieluhr, singt des Lebens Sinfonie
Singt von Freude, singt von Leid, trgt mich hilflos in die Zeit!
Auf den Schwingen meiner Angst
Gefhrt von einer sen Melodie,
Dort wo einst die kleine Spieluhr stand
Und leise ihre schne Weise sang.
Ich wei nicht mehr, komm hilf - ich wei nicht
Ich wei nicht mehr, was morgen ist.
Ich kann nicht mehr, mein Wort verbrennt fr Dich
Ich sehe Dich...
...im Dunkellicht!
Ich sehe Dich.
Komm, sage mir - sag' mir das gleiche
Ich will nicht wissen, was Du fhlst.
Ich will nicht mehr, mein Wort erfriert fr Dich
Ich sehe Dich...
...im Dunkellicht!
Ich sehe Dich.
Gleich einem Licht, das pltzlich fhrt
Hinein, tief in das Grab der Nacht
Und mir und Dir erklrt, wie Staub vergilbt
Auf meinem Wort zu Dir.
Und da Du nicht mehr kannst vertrau'n
Sprichst Du zu mir an was Du glaubst
Indem Du mir erklrst, wie Staub vergilbt
Schau mir ins Gesicht und Du wirst sehn:
Lachen kann ich nur noch ber mich!
Siehst Du nicht, wie glcklich ich nun bin
Mit meinem Leben ohne Dich?
Schau mir ins Gesicht und Du wirst sehn,
Wie fremd Du mir geworden bist!
Ich hoffe nur, Du kannst versteh'n:
Geliebt hab ich Dich wirklich nie!
Doch schau in meine Augen nicht,
Du wrdest nur die Trnen sehn,
Du weit, da alles Lge ist -
In Wahrheit wein' ich nur um Dich!
Doch schau in meine Augen nicht,
Du wrdest nur die Trnen sehn.
Ich bleibe steh'n und sage Dir,
Ber diesen Pltzen ruht ein Zauber
Und schwarze Vgel ziehen ihre Kreise.
Doch nur das Fliegen lernen wollten wir,
Als jemand brach die Flgel uns entzwei.
Als wir nach Jahren wiederkehrten,
Und diese Orte pltzlich still und leer,
In unseren Kpfen sich Gewiheit formte,
Da wir das Leben hier ja nur getrumt!
Und alt und mde sitzen wir
In Rumen, die das Licht nicht kennen.
Deine Worte sind nicht mehr bei mir -
Wer wei, ob sie es jemals waren?
Und alt und mde weine ich
In Trumen, die kein morgen kennen.
Doch irgendwann kommt der Moment,
Da Licht durch unsre Schatten fliet!
Ich wei noch, wie uns Flgel wuchsen
Und keine Grenze uns zu hoch erschien.
Doch nur das Fliegen lernen wollten wir,
Als wir merkten, da kein Ziel wir hatten.
Und als die Jahre wiederkehrten,
In unseren Kpfen sich Erinn'rung formte.
Da saen wir an den geheimen Orten
All die Fenster, wo ich einst mit Dir
Abends in die Ferne sah
Sind nun hell mit fremdem Licht.
Der Pfad fhrt weg vom Tor,
Wo Du standest, um zu schauen
Und in die Ferne dann entflohst.
Der Mond, der Deine Flucht gesehen
Schien auf Dein bleiches Angesicht
Doch es war zu spt fr Dich.
Dunkel, schweigend sinkt die Nacht
Wie damals auf das Haus herab
Denn alles Leben nahmst Du mit.
In einer Sommernacht
Du warst
In einer Sommernacht
Fr mich
In einer Sommernacht
Doch nur
In einer Sommernacht
Ein Traum
In einer Sommernacht
Den ich
In einer Sommernacht
Gesucht
In einer Sommernacht
In Dir
In einer Sommernacht
Die Musik von Illuminate wird sowohl belächelt als auch innig geliebt – dazwischen
liegt jedoch wenig. Die Melodien sind dunkel, nicht allzu schwer verdaulich und
gekonnt arrangiert. Die Texte sind zumeist mit schweren Metaphern gespickt und
handeln von den Wirrnissen des Lebens. Bei einer Band, die von Kritikern gerne als
"neu-romantisch" bezeichnet wird, geht es natürlich auch um die Liebe. Mittlerweile
ist Illuminate zu einem festen Begriff in der deutschen Gothic-Szene geworden.
Mastermind der Band mit den deutschen Texten und den romantischen Melodien ist der
Karlsruher Johannes Berthold, der die Gruppe Anfang 1993 ins Leben ruft. Eigentlich
hat der bodenständige Komponist, Sänger und Programmierer der elektronisch geprägten
Songs sogar klassische Musik studiert. Sein Traum, mit einem echten Orchester
zusammen zu arbeiten, erfüllt sich aber erstmals auf dem Album "Kaltes Licht" von
2002. Davor haben Illuminate seit dem Jahr 1996, als die erste Platte "Verfall"
erscheint, in schöner Regelmäßigkeit ihre Fans bedient. Großen Wert legt man bei
Illuminate von Anfang an auf die Live-Performance. Stimmlich unterstützt wird
Johannes Berthold seit 1993 von Anja Krone - die beiden Schauspieler Christian
Olbert und Laura Dragoi sorgen für den passenden Bühnenauftritt. Anfangs noch im
Underground tätig, findet bereits die erste Veröffentlichung Lob und Anerkennung bei
Kritikern und Fans. Zusammen mit dem Debut bilden die folgenden beiden Alben
"Erinnerungen" und "Erwachen" eine Trilogie um das ewige Thema Liebe. Ende 1998 gibt
Laura Dragoi ihren Job als Tänzerin auf. Ersetzt wird sie durch Ulrike Schneidewind,
die Illuminate aus gesundheitlichen Gründen nur ein gutes Jahr treu bleiben kann.
Cindy Vogel wird die neue Düsternis-Darstellerin. Im selben Jahr wird auch Sängerin
Anja durch Daniela Dietz abgelöst.2000 beginnt dann die Zusammenarbeit mit Bruno
Kramm, Sänger von Das Ich, der "Ein neuer Tag" produziert. Die erfolgreiche
Zusammenarbeit mit Kramm, der mit Berthold auf derselben Wellenlänge liegt, wird
auch für den Nachfolger fortgesetzt. Johannes Berthold ist jedoch nicht nur
kreativer Schöpfer sondern auch sein eigener Plattenboss, da alle Illuminate-CDs auf
seinem eigenen Label Gallery-Records erscheinen.2002 Kaltes Licht2000 Ein Neuer
Tag1999 Letzter Blick Zurück1998 Erwachen1997 Erinnerungen1996 Verfall
Du wirfst mir Worte ins Gesicht, hoffst auf keine Gegenwehr.
Jedes Deiner Worte trifft - ich geh zu Boden, und ich weiß:
Du liebst mich nicht!
Nein - Du liebst mich nicht!
Im freien Fall kann ich noch seh`n, wie Du mir den Rücken kehrst.
So gibst Du mir zu versteh`n, was ich Dir bedeutet hab`;
Du liebst mich nicht!
Nein - Du liebst mich nicht!
Und wie ich so am Boden lieg`, und die Welt sich um mich dreht,
Wird mir plötzlich klar, daß mein Herz es auch versteht:
Ich lieb` Dich incht!
Wenn ich des Lachens müde bin
Leg' ich ganz still mein Haupt zu Dir
Und meine Hände tasten sich
Ganz sanft zu Deinem Herzen hin
Dann, wie aus purem Licht gemacht,
Will diese Angst, die mich erdrückt,
Zu mir hinein in meinen Kopf
In den ein Kind die Welt erdacht!
Und der Tanz beginnt...!
Wie Schmerzensschrei und Wiederhall
Die ich in einer Nacht gehört
Von tausend Mündern wiederholt
Ein Losungswort und Sündenfall
Und Feuerzeichen brennen dort
Wohin mein krankes Herz mich führt
In Waldestiefen sich verlor'n
Und tragend letzte Schimmer fort!
Und der Tanz beginnt...!
Wenn ich das Atmens müde bin
Leg ich letztmals mein Haupt zu Dir
Und meine Hände tasten sich
Ganz sanft zu Deiner Seele hin
Dann, wie aus purem Schwarz gemacht
Will diese Nacht, die mich erdrückt,
Zu mir hinein in meinen Kopf,
In dem ein Greis die Welt erdacht!
Zu weit ging die Reise, zu hoch war der Preis,
Gelähmt vom Rausch der Erinnerung.
Der Schutzschleier des Vergessens zerreißt,
Ängste gestorben - gnädig verborgen!
Sie leben, sie starren in mein Gesicht.
Den Torweg zurück! Er entgleitet ins Nichts.
Wo sind die Stimmen, die liebevoll sangen?
Bin ewig im Kerker der Seele gefangen!
Im Kerker – der Wiege meiner Angst!
Coulez mes larmes
Tombez de vos sources.
Où l'oiseau noir
Célébre son infamie triste.
Des lumières vaines
Ne resplendent plus.
Lueur d'espoir seule,
Mais la 'honte révéle.
Écoutez, vous ombres d'obscurité,
Apprenez á fuir la lumiére,
Heureux eux,
Qui ne sentent pas la désespoir du monde!
Du sommet le plus haut,
Mon bonheur est jeté.
Et la peur, la chagrin, la douleur
Wenn mein Mund auf seinem Weg
Zum letzten Lachen leise starb
Weil ein Lüge die Du sprachst
Das Verlangen jäh zerbrach.
Da mein Herz nicht fühlen will
Weil jeder Schlag es doch nur quält
So bleibt auch dieses unbemerkt
Da es doch tapfer weiterschlägt.
Wenn Du mein lächeln sehen kannst
Wie sanft es Deinen Blick berührt
So jalte immer fest daran
Da es nie wiederkehren wird!
Wenn meine Hand auf ihrem Weg
Zum letzten Fühlen leise starb
Weil diese Kälte, die Du warst
Das Verlangen jäh zerbrach.
Wenn Du mein lächeln sehen kannst
Wie sanft es Deinen Blick berührt
So halte immer fest daran
Und die Zeit bleibt nie steh'n. Sag' mir:
Wohin willst Du geh'n?
Und die erde dreht sich fort unter Dir.
Sage mir: Ist das denn der Ort für Dich?
Du kennst wohl den Start, Du siehst wohl das Ziel.
Doch was dazwischen liegt, das sagt Dir nicht viel.
Bist wohl schon auf dem Weg; siehst wohl schon das Ziel.
Kannst Dich schon siegen seh'n.
Wirst über Leichen geh'n!
Und im Vorübergeh'n hast Du den Weg geschafft.
Ohne Dich umzuseh'n stehst Du am Ende nun.
Du kanntest wohl den Start, Du sahst wohl schon das Ziel.
Doch was dazwischen lag,
Lautlos strömt der Fluß dahin - jetzt, in dieser Zeit
Siegelt Eis ihn zu, verbreitet Einsamkeit.
Wenn Eiseskälte schleicht, aus Tälern und aus Bächen,
Dann ist die Zeit gekommen, alles aufzubrechen!
Menschen sehn darüber weg, können nicht erkennen,
Daß er doch nur Fesseln trägt, die nicht lange trennen.
Eisgang - ich weiß um seine Kraft;
Weiß, er wird sich rächen,
Denn ist das Eis auch noch so hart,
Er wird es doch zerbrechen!
Dunkel läuft Dein Leben ab - jetzt in diesen Stunden,
Eingezwängt in falsche Regeln schlägt die Zeit dir Wunden.
Freunde sehn darüber weg, können nicht erkennen,
Das sie jetzt gebraucht - sie wolln sich lieber trennen
Wenn Eiseskälte fällt auf Liebe und Versprechen,
Dann ist es höchste Zeit, das alles aufzubrechen.
Eisgang - ich weiß um deine Kraft;
Weiß, du wirst dich rächen!
Denn ist das Eis auch noch so hart -
Du wirst es doch zerbrechen!
Eisgang - ich weiß um Deine Kraft;
Weiß, es wird gelingen!
Denn sind die Zwänge auch noch so starr -
Our hearts have been to battle
Our souls have been to war
We've lost the will to carry on , we don't believe no more
Oh why is it that we got it set
That this could never happen to us
How could it be . cause baby here we are
Victims of love are broken down unfair
So sad to see the debris
Scattered everywhere
Victims of love , still cannot believe
We are the victims of love
We cannot retreat
It used to be so easy , it used to be so good
We had an understanding that got misunderstood
I thought we are survivors and we'll never go down
But now were just outsiders as our love
Comes stumbling down
Refrain
Bridge :
Maybe we played it a little bit to sure
And everything is hearts and roses
Now fate stand still and closed the door
And we were just left standing
Till we realized the ending
Why so near ...
Where do we go from here ...
[He:]
Now it's time to do your last ride
And I will be your guard and your guide
Through the true road in this fake world
Reborn in Heaven
Or burn in Hell
Then you can be free from your sins
[She:]
Far away from the valley of pain
There is no guilt and no shame
Now light fulfills my soul
I became a sun through you
[He:]
Now it's time to do my last ride
And you will be my guard and my guide
Through the true road in this real world
Reborn in Heaven
And not in Hell
A short, inconspicuous moment
It appears to be completely irrelevant
Accidentaly their insecure looks cross
Bashfully they sink their eyes to the ground
Their paths went seperate ways
Slowly she's moving away from him
At a moment's notice
she'll be dissapeared from his sight
Their two lives go on in a habitual way
Day and Night they awaken and go to sleep
The same place, only time passed
Consciously their unconfident looks cross
the eyes seem suprisedly familiar
Tentatively and quietly he whispers in her ear
Softly and unpurposely he touches her tender skin
Slowly and insecurely she grabs for his hand
Gently he strokes over her long hair
he senses her fragileness
His lips tender and warm on hers
Lying arm in arm, she's so close to him
Words aren't necessary anymore
His hand touches hers,
He feels her breath
I can't do anything...
I've lost the time and eternity... I don't have.
She is standing here dressed all in white
Dead eyes closed, skin covered with ice
What does she long for?
Feeling the chill upon her face?
What do I long for?
Blinking my eyes to see the ruins of my life?
Seduce me, sweetheart, with crimson lies.
For the vanished and unheard
Dreaming Icechild.
Only loved when she's gone
Searching a name for her withered home.
She is painting letters to lines carefully drawn
Makes up childhood games, gropes for toys missed for so long.
For the heart I once had?
The one beating in pain.
For the greed in her face?
Part 1
Sudden truth, you´re full of mischief,
You abandon yourself to your agonizing grief,
You keep your eyes peeled for a lie,
It is either do or die.
Live on others, live in sin,
The last thing I´ll see, will be your grin.
You think, you´re on the crest of the wave,
But your life takes a long time from the cradle to the grave,
Grab the death by the scruff of his neck,
Give your life the very last peck.
Sudden fear, you´re filled with despair,
Do you really have enough and to spear?
You scream at your uneasy feeling,
Do the tears serve as your veiling?
Live to clover, live to die,
Leave your body and have a sigh.
You think you had to bear a charmed life?
The last thing you´ll see, will be a swinging scythe.
Your life will be snuffed out like a flaming blaze,
Your soul will be lost in an endless maze.
Part 2
She runs through ominous streets,
Ignores the tempting voices,
She declines the bleeding evil,
Just to lie in his arms again.
Cannot put up with the evil on her shoulder,
The angel whispers into her ear: Resist.
But the devil warmly recommends his power,
The radiating angel rests in her poisoned heart.
He crawls through endless deserts,
Drowns the devilish whispering,
He chases the hellish gofer away,
Just to feel her breath on his skin.
Cannot put up with the devil in his body,
The angels purify his soul with the sound of their voices.
But the evil threatened to tear his life to pieces,
But the liberating angel rescued his soul from hell.
Release me from your ties. Free my mind. Leave me alone
Keep your hands off. Confound you. Search for another victim.
Finally they are disappeared.
Part 3
The musical box is standing on her bedside locker
A feathery ballerina spins around
All of a sudden the lovely melody is gone
She enters Dreamland sedately
Will this nightmare return again?
In this recurring dream, he is standing in front of her
She´s reaching for him, but he disappears in a mist
He is only an illusion.
The musical box is lying on the ground
Her last childhood memory is destroyed
The melody will never echo in her ear again
She´s almost falling asleep
Her fate is decided
She´s searching for him despairingly, but he seems to be gone
Bitter tears are running down her face
She sinks to the ground and succumbs to pain.
Part 4
He gropes for her hand
Feels it, affectionally encloses it
One moment, surpassing all the good and bad times
Your hand touches mine
He gropes for her mouth
Unreachable, her lips are closed
Visions of lovely biting them
I pretend to be asleep as good as I can.
You're the shadow following me
Through the shadows hunting me
I'll keep you behind
The sun you hide
My key... into the light.
He gropes for true words to say
Her single sight and her simple smile
He wants to be bed-confined
Your hand seems to be mine
She gropes for his tears
Dripping from his sleeping face
Her breath softly calls his name
I awake and do the same.
/ Tell me who wakes me up just to leave me again drying my floating visions of eternity /
How can I, how can I break the wall surrounding experience and expected memories /
Hiding her totally, gently, endlessly / Will she break me? / Will she heal me? /
Will their fantasy return at all? / She's so lovely, fills autumns leaves with life /
Hopefully, by itself, building her world / even for you / even for me /
Breathe in the eternal being
Feel the air as it tries vainly
To lend me wings again
Inhale the boundless hope
Beyond the fate of our mortality
Just a joke for a shadow
Breathe out waive my being
A downfall into the abysm of my soul
Dead is the dream obtaining us
Play yourself into divined heights
The valient knight as a sacrifice
Masters hand moves a pawn to the end
The new queen shouts: "The King is dead!"
The one's still anathematized
Off all the fields, black and white
Unfailing is the beauty of this kingly art
The one, the God of underland
Rarely takes it to his hand
To arise lost souls to be unbanned.
Uncounted failured in attempt as victory seemed near
Immersed into dark dephts of this baleful game.
More than a battle of wooden princess
More than just a sacrifice
Pawn for light, knight for force
Queen for heartfire, King's alive.
His lordship reaches in all directions
But lore wastes strengthness bittersweet
For all his wealth attached to throne
One step could be too less.
More than playing hide and seek
No-one dies on battlefield
Give pawn for peace
Rook for silence
Queen for love
King's in check.
More than you have once believed
Watch the grief on battlefield
Give pawn for sweat
Knight for fear, queen for love
Nemus obscurus – Umbra crudelis
A frightened lad stumbles through a creepy forest
Strepitus consternata – ventus mordicus
Biting cold pervades his fragile body and skin
Staturae exulatae – Ocularis ruber arsi
Anguish and affliction curdles his blood slowly
Lupae frendere – viam intercludiunt
Hopelessly he´s searching for a releasing way out
The reaper breathes down his neck
Grins impishly fair in the face
Dashes his scythe sinisterly
Smells the childlike innocence
Portenti aggredientur – Luna plena lucida
Razor- sharp teeth biting into his flesh
Commutatio incepta - dolores indeprensi
The airless room mirrors in her eyes
Red lipstick caresses her lips
Black cole rests on her weary lashes
Rotundous earrings spin under her ears
A rough hand runs over her noble face
But she holds her head up proudly
Halfnaked she leans against the bald wall
She counts the meager banknotes greedily.
Lying on the dowdy bed
Waiting for the moment of salvation
Levitating in the unsought fancifulness
Losing a fracture of honor.
Disclose the bodily voracity to the humanity
Hide the own appetite underneath the silky bedding
Smother the dignity with torture and agony
Obtain a declaration of cold comfort.
Observe the scenery from a different field of vision
Simmering with excitement, but still awaiting the end
Delving the grievious head between the mellow knees
The proper shape decreasing with every dolorous day
Assuming the mastery over one´s flesh and blood
From the time when I changed
Disturbed, greedy, dreary and dark
I was bloodthirsty and like a monstrosity
Red eyes, burning, devilish and evil.
I´m flying through the night in search of sacrifice,
Creeping through woods with hope for finding someone,
My heart is bleeding with every bite and draft,
Endlessly cursed with the dower to live deathless.
I´m crouching under a tree waiting for the day light,
But this girl with the cloak recalls me into darkness,
When I see her neck, I become thirsty,
Not after her blood but her body, her soul.
Your being accomplishes my heart with love,
Your soul shows me the way to live.
I´m stumbling through the night in search of her,
Running through woods with hope for finding her again,
My heart is bleeding with every notion of a bite in her neck,
Infinitely hexed with the gift to love forever.
Bring the life back to me, my love,
Turn my being into something human.
In your arms I sense your love,
You fill me with humanity,
I feel your heart beating through my skin,
Let us be together endlessly.
From the time when I saw her
Mellow, greedy, thirsty and beloved
One bite in her delicate neck
Lashing on the black Asturcon through the deep cold wood,
Stormy wind beats her long hair in her pale face,
At times she tentatively turns around, in her hand a guarding rood,
Feeling the force´s breath in her neck,
Attempting to flee raising the pace.
The ban has twisted her around it´s finger,
Like a fathom it tows through her whole existence
He foraged for her like a needle in the haystack,
He found her in Venns Gate.
Brigde:
Crippling fear straps her feathery throat,
A daunting cruelty is clawing for her flowing coat.
She puts spurs on her weary stallion to elude mischief,
The dreary trees are flashing by,
She will never feel the sense of delight because of this thief,
She only perceives the sensual breeze on her thigh,
Her heart is delirious with pain.
Semper celerius obviam scopulum equitat,
Little Girl
Lying on the cold stone floor
Her body distracted with pain
Bruises on fragile arms
The molestor finally went away
Everyone
Said: 'Take care'
No, she's not responsible for that
She fought it tooth and nail
But this disgustful bastard carried on
The child in her finally kicked the bucket
To lose sight of it, is all she's begging for
What a pack of lies! Kill, just kill this monster...
Death
Sneaking and quietly... comes closer
Touches softly... her small and destroyed body
'Everything's alright...'
'Come Sweetie, come and take my hand...'
Little Girl
Lying in the cold grave
Mummy and Daddy standing in front
Tears of grief and despair
Amarth
Dropped in muddy cloaks
We're attempting to get
Through this blustery night.
Evitare exitium
Exanimare furia
Effugere incendium
Exanimare furia
Pretentious thunder clouds
Ascending the dark canopy
Ranging over our restless palls
Storm of life's arisen
But won't embrace our hearts
Spreading our arms and shout
Against the thunder
On our way to deliverance
Our destination gets more and
It was like if the skies had kissed the earth to death
And if my soul opened widely up its wings
It was like if the wind had carried me away
Up to a silent star going bright before descent
It was like if I had been broken in twain
And it felt like every piece of me died
Serenades floated through empty air carried by eternal
silence
Longing crawled right through me everywhere cooling
from within
It was like if the moon had cheered the shades on
dancing
And if my eyes could see through the darkness all
around me
It was like if the fields had lost their lime-green
shine
And all the purples and the reds had turned to grey
Serenades floated through empty air carried by eternal
silence
Longing crawled right through me everywhere cooling
from within
Once again my horizon ends
Singing a sad song waiting for so long
Leaving my old home I found myself alone
Serenades floated through empty air carried by eternal
silence
Longing crawled right through me everywhere cooling
Prayers to a gentle guardian echo through the air
I sadly treasure every word
Locked into a narrow lair
As the shepherd of your herd
Dependent souls and wonders to lift them up
I am but the spirit the cause flees with time
Just pull on a string
Hope, hate, surrender bathing in the twisted splendor
of another deceived king
Desperate pleas to a savage master dance within the
wind
Hatred in each clouded stare
Raging of a world that sinned against a load it cannot
bear
Fallen fools poured their blood on my hand
I was just created to turn the other cheek
Just pull on a string
Hope, hate, surrender bathing in the twisted splendor
of another deceived king
Flexible commandments gifts from a hallowed illusion
I am to blame for all cruel fates
I am to praise if fortune smiles
I am the one to bow my head
I am to stand up to all your lies
Forever a king with forced crown
Deliver me from evil
On my throne above the floods
And watching from a lonely sky
I’d gladly give my heart to you
For one unexpected smile
Just pull on a string
Hope, hate, surrender bathing in the twisted splendor
of another deceived king
Just pull on a string
Greed, anger, vice bathing in the pure salvation
Show me heaven’s melodies, gather me in your arms
Reaching out for immortality
A life to give to a dream above everything
Deserving all I ever have to give
Abandonment on you and I will fall too
Yet when I’m giving in another part decays
A lonely soul, a life of warmth
Wandering on every path
Poet’s eyes on greater truth
Trapped in precious little loves
Show me lively fantasies and release me with your words
Guide me on across the battlefield
A life to treasure a warmth beyond everything
Deserving all I ever have to give
Abandonment on you and I will fall too
Yet when I’m giving in another part decays
A lonely soul, a life of warmth
Wandering on every path
Poet’s eyes on greater truth
Trapped in precious little loves
Show me purest tenderness and steal a kiss from my lips
Take me from my insecurity
A life to give to a fire lighting everything
Deserving all I ever have to give
Possibilities, a painful urge to take them all
Treasures underneath, a painful greed to gain them all
Futures ahead, a painful will to live them all
In the SUNSHINE otherwise cloudy day
Do you believe in FATE?
COME WHAT MAY
I've been HEAVY and I've been LIGHT
I've been the one STAYIN' UP ALL NIGHT
I've been LOW and I've been High
BEEN THE FIRST TO TRY and
I know, my dark COLD HANDS, WARM HEART
SAVE ME FROM MYSELF
I know, my dark COLD HANDS, WARM HEART
SAVE ME FROM MYSELF
In the DARKNESS of an otherwise sunny day
Do you believe in FATE?
COME WHAT MAY
I've been STRONG and I've been WEAK
I've been the one UNAFRAID TO SPEAK
I've been WRONG and I've been Right
BEEN THE FIRST TO FIGHT and
I know, my dark COLD HANDS, WARM HEART
SAVE ME FROM MYSELF
I know, my dark COLD HANDS, WARM HEART
SAVE ME FROM MYSELF
WHEN I DIE BURY ME UNDERNEATH A WEEPING TREE
AND WHEN I RISE CARRY ME TO THE HILLS FOR ALL TO SEE
MY LIFE the BRUTAL LANGUAGE of BEING IN LOVE
WHY LIE the brutal language of being in
MY LIFE the BRUTAL LANGUAGE of BEING IN LOVE
WHY LIE THE BRUTAL LANGUAGE OF BEING
A flash of snow-white skin
A fatal kiss from bloody lips
A dream all dressed in innocence
Eyes forgiving every sin
Yet in nothing but eclipse
While on my grave delusions dance
A sleeping fool afraid to wake
A long dried eye shedding a tear while losing all a
dreamer has
Deep inside my heart you hang upon a wall
Moments within a frame of beauty
Desperate love yet doomed to fall
Impression of your warming face
An easing for a bleeding heart
A memory to feast my eye
My heart and soul gone on a chase
Suffering from perfect art
Eternal hope to bleed me dry
I may not bear another night while nothing else I’m
longing for
Reality is my nightmare
Deep inside my heart you hang upon a wall
Moments within a frame of beauty
Desperate love yet doomed to fall
A rose to wither in the light
A love that wouldn’t last a dawn
Holding hands through mortal bars
Deep inside my heart you hang upon a wall
Moments within a frame of beauty
Could it really be the end of the line?
A way too short a tiny spark in time
Look back and cry over all the things undone
Open your eyes my fallen one
And leave your tears behind
They will be dried forevermore
This path leads to a better life
Come with me into the light
And I will heal your aching soul
Walk with me over blackened waters
To cleanse your fainting heart
Take my hand follow me
Draw a last breath and cease to be
In life no one ever gets enough time
So bear a last farewell to all you leave behind
There would be so much to give (Heed not the
blackbird’s call)
Yet so much more there is to lose (For he is only pain
and grief)
Regret (I am) your sins (eternity)
And hope for a clean cut
Have no fear of the world beyond
Everyone is bound to go
After death there lies no threat
If you let go there’s just ahead
In the darkness we unite
And fulfill your wildest dreams
I was chosen to guide your way
I am your precious memories
Raise my soul now
Take my hand follow me
Draw a last breath and cease to be
In life no one ever gets enough time
So bear a last farewell to all you leave behind
There is no heaven no hell to gain
One neither lives nor dies in vain
Thy beauty within constant fall
A paradise to bloom in all
Take my hand follow me
Draw a last breath and cease to be
In life no one ever gets enough time
The master of love yet a ruler of hate
To worship a life or sealing a fate
The slayer of hope leads the seeker astray
To open the chest and breakup the key
Indeed it’s the end of an infinite smile
Dead warden dreamer
Within a dark-hearted chest
Veiled obedient keeper
Let my eyes be greedy
Dead warden dreamer
Within a dark-sighted face
Sad unseen savior
The warden of dreams
Adheres me to my path
To find my deathbed
In his dark-hearted chest
We praise the land of horror, where’s the future in
tomorrow
We raise the hand of God for what we hate in our
existence
We leave the loved in sorrow, there’s no future, no
tomorrow
We bear hatred towards someone who once has played with
our heartbeat
Dead warden dreamer
Within a dark-hearted chest
Veiled obedient keeper
Let my eyes be greedy
Dead warden dreamer
Within a dark-sighted face
Sad unseen savior
We are empty as our dreams, there’s no hope, not for
tomorrow
Our lies should bring us through the years that should
have followed
Dead warden dreamer
Within a dark-hearted chest
Veiled obedient keeper
Let my eyes be greedy
Dead warden dreamer
Within a dark-sighted face
Upon a slowly closing book
A path to the fall, the end of it all
The lines laid out in dearest blood
Upon a golden moon’s descent
Once high, so bright in newborn light
Yet refused the eternal dance
A cloak of silence unfolds
Memory upholds the wounds
Our searing light and our debris
Our bloodshed and our mild caress
Our mercy and our cruelty
In black and white is endless
Upon moments of grace and bliss
A desire so strong to forever hold on
To a dream of eternal love
A cloak of silence now unfolds
Memory upholds the wounds
Our searing light and our debris
Our bloodshed and our mild caress
Our mercy and our cruelty
In black and white is endless
A cloak of silence covers all
Of tenderness and fatal thrall
A cloak of silence now unfolds
Memory upholds the wounds
Our searing light and our debris
Our bloodshed and our mild caress
Our mercy and our cruelty
I watch the sundown of my life
On these burning haunted plains
That once cared to make me smile
My utmost paradise on earth
I never gazed beyond the mountains
Guarding my scenery
And wandered the ruins of the past
Sharing with me their memory
In thoughts far way
To adore the sublime
Never reaching beyond
Lost in picturesque
A burden for the sense, a struggle without end to reach
the final conscience
A flower for my love, blue roses high above promising
the eternal
Sub specie aeternitatis
Temous edax rerum
Si moror, morior
A painful doubt igniting the being
Time is running towards the start
Drowned in need for the highest emotion
To rip my longing chest apart
In thoughts far way
To adore the sublime
Never reaching beyond
Lost in picturesque
A burden for the sense, a struggle without end to reach
the final conscience
A flower for my love, blue roses high above promising
the eternal
The torch in hand discreating my warming harbor
Nothing here to find to breathe fulfillment into me
The first timid steps towards a restless future
A journey far away beyond the margin into myself
Something around me to pull me further
Wandering on preying a distant treasure
Keep running along
To gain the sublime
Never reaching beyond
Lost in endless night
A burden for the sense, a struggle without end to reach
the final conscience
A flower for my love, blue roses high above promising
the eternal
Spirits will you hear me
I am here on my knees
I craved the infinite
You have taken all from me
He's got a long body with thin legs and arms.
He walks along the street with a frightening charm.
He wears a striped suit and black leather shoes.
He is the master, he's got all dues.
He is the role model of every creature there,
He gets a lot tribute, no matter where,
Creatures adore him every second he appears,
He is so proud of himself...
But he's moved into tears...
He is called the 'King', the 'King' of the pumpkins.
He rules Halloween Town.
He is the creepiest of all.
He makes you scream and scares you to death.
He is the creator of your terrible dream.
He wants to see you shiver and scream.
Don't try to beg, he's the most evil shape called Jack.
He is the role model of every creature there,
He gets a lot tribute, no matter where,
[She:]
Wash away my sorrow
Leading the life that I forced myself to breathe
And now the voices are in silence
Then I can hear my wishing thoughts again
Free my wings
Free my soul
[He:]
How cold can the taste of life be in this hall of
shame?
With me you'll never see your light burn
[She:]
Now I can see your face
[She:]
Shedding all the tears of the lost values inside my
senseless life
Every single thought of dignity became my reborn soul
again
Free my wings
Free my soul
[He:]
How bright can the dark be with this candle flame in
you?
Look me and drop your burning hope
Now you can see my face
[He:]
God knows how your soul will return now
There's no regret without some pain
Leave your thoughts aside with agony
Giving our destiny
The shades of God will never be
The shield of your regrets from this nightmare
Now you are free
To run from me
[She:]
Goodbye, my old God, my enemy, my friend
It's time to leave you; I now know who you are
My soul will rest in peace and go to where I should now
[She:]
My soul is blind
And I was deceived by the time
How could I lose the control of my life to my own
thoughts?
[He:]
Your spirit is trapped
By your own addictive thoughts
Rescue him from this mental hell
Pulling out the life from its real source
[She:]
Those foolish thoughts blind my eyes
Now I can see the holy truth
Because your love consumed all that I am
[He:]
Don't fool yourself
By confounding love
With a morbid dependence
To truly love you must leave the mind behind
To become a being free from your sins
[He/she:]
The sins I quote are your internal ghosts
In which you believed like a naive child
(The sins you quote are my internal ghosts
In which I believed like a naive child)
[She:]
Your words released me from the tricks of my mind
Now I behold the true grace of life
Now my spirit is free
He can fly away
Then I see the world in its true form
I don't want to take your hand
I don't want to jail you
Your freedom is what I desire
[He:]
Your spirit can flow through
The seas of his creation
This purest form of being
What is finished it`s the individual that`s finished
It`s the single, solitary human being that`s finished
It`s every single one of you out there that`s finished
Because this is no longer a nation of independent
individuals
The whole world is becoming humanoid - creatures that
look human but aren`t
So if you want the truth, go to your gurus, go to
yourselves
Because that`s the only place you`re ever going to find
any real truth
Because, man, you`re never going to get any truth from us
We deal in illusions man none of it is true
But you people sit there day after day, night after
night, all ages, colors, creeds
In God`s name, your people are the real thing!
[He:]
I know your thoughts about your guilt
Please let me see your wounds
I know that's more than you can believe
So show your heart to me
[She:]
It's an endless torment
I need to believe we can be saved some day
From this hell we dug
[He:]
Saved from ourselves
[She:]
Hear the devil's angels
Whispering those cursed words again
Cursing us to be the forsaken of our God
[He:]
The devil's angel is our faith
Taking our light away
Believing in lies we'll fall down
Into our sickness way
[She:]
Life was once so hopeful
But we killed it with our hands
I cannot face this hell we live in
Can we be forgiven?
[He:]
Face the death of your God
He can't release your soul from your own hell
Then save yourself from you
[She:]
How dare you say that my God is dead?
I always waited for him as a forgotten daughter
And all those lies that they told me
Are versions of a distorted dream
[He:]
Oh, no! They cannot see
This life with blood and cruelty
Take that? That is my heart
The real true god of life and dignity
[She:]
This heart is the abode of our soul
And in both of us
He can't die
He's our guide and our love
It's our master
We were born with the tools to see
But the dogmas have blinded us
Following standards and fully controlled
Our conscience was buried
Now it's time to find our way back home
Through culture and religion
Our minds have atrophied
Adapting to this sick way of life
Our lives have been meaningless
But I'm returning home
Now I can take your hand
Inside my dream
You became my savior
And we were weak
But through our Self
We save our souls
I cannot free you from this chaotic way of life
But I can free your true Self
You can live by the laws of nature
And be a new kind of enlightened being
All those Gods that repressed us
Never existed and I realize
That I was always by myself
I can walk
By me
Intense fire!
Will I be sacrificed in this chaos?
We need to be saved from this Hell we are in
You!
In the sky
In the stars
I am your awakening God
I want to set you free
From this cold winter you trapped yourself
Lightning your hidden flame
You are trying to exile
All of your fears inside
So if you want to be free
Listen to me
In all this time
That I've been questioning your existence here
You have not appeared to show your compassion
So are these the means to show us the way?
How can I see the truth by myself?
And where were you in all this time that I was in dark?
I want you to hear my screams
My screams for stop
You will only understand me
When you know your Self
Leaving behind the reality that they sell to you
And watching it on your own
And so, and, and so?
Will I ever be the chosen one?
If I believe in this fake Christ
Will I never reach this far sky?
The sky is inside you
And you are free from
All those lies they told you to believe
To be less than an immortal being
I don't want you to protest I don't want you to riot
I don't want you to write to your congressman because I won't know what to tell you to write
I don't know what to do about the depression and the inflation and the Russians and the crime on the streets
All I know is that first you've got to get mad!
See? My life is not here
(If you could see)
My real home
Peace in our mind
Wisdom in our heart
(We will be free)
To be one Soul
(This vessel body)
Is not your Self
(And our Soul)
[He:]
With our minds addicted to globalization
We lost our pure nature
And we entertain ourselves to the point
Of becoming thoughtless slaves of this circus world
[She:]
I don't know how to face the world
If I don't know its face
But I'll content myself with my own world
[She/he:]
All their broadcasts are blinding my eyes
They control all of the truth
To feed their endless lies
[He:]
Listen to your deepest voice
Screaming to be free to build a free world
[She:]
Free my soul
Of remaining trapped
In this rotten passage
To oblivion
[He:]
Death
Pain
Scream
Lies
This is the last chance for you to fly!
[She:]
My wings are now hardened
By the mould of this world
But I can't let go of this flight
I'll built it again with the strength of wisdom
