Motherfuck the way you think
You never made sense anyway
Building up to tear it down
You're codependent on apathy
By design you fucking sterilize
So you desensitize (Make it easier to swallow)
Selv-invloved You fucking took it all
Who's gonna take the fall (Cause it's never gonna be the same)
Change
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
Repetition paves the way
All for you to weaken and sedate
So contrived and watered down
A fucking shadow of what should have been
Isolate so you can separate
And fucking terminate (To diffuse the situation)
Force on me a common enemy
With no identity (Now it's showing your perception too)
Too
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
You will never see
You will never see
You will never see
You will never see
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna see and it shows
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna think and it shows
It's like a fucking disease
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see
Don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows (It shows)
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows (It shows)
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows (It shows)
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
And it shows
Conceiving nothing
A precious life with bad intentions
At first it had to breathe
Evolved to gasoline
A strictly diesel-minded soul proves to
Grow and steal
When you try to make us fall, you're starting the machine
Grow and steal
Starting the machine with my scars
You try to direct my sight
Involving something
A greedy world with biased minds
A past repeats itself
We vent until it swells
A strictly diesel-minded soul proves to
Grow and steal
When you try to make us fall, you're starting the machine
Grow and steal
Starting the machine with my scars
You try to direct my sight
Grow and steal
When you try to make us fall, you're starting the machine
Grow and steal
Starting the machine with my scars
Untie me, this peace of mind can't let go
Beside me, the finer things start to show
Divide me into your life
Beat it down and it's lying on the floor
Feel until you're suffering
It's all for real and still you're suffering
I loved you, an inconvenience to me
I warned you because my world you can't see
Adored you, that's what you think
I beat you down and you're lying on the floor
Feel until you're suffering
It's all for real and still you're suffering
It's all for you
Feel until you're suffering
I've given up everything 'til it seems so fucking wrong
I've always been tied to you, now the bond is fucking gone
You're just a victim of your own decisions
And your desperation is like watching an accident
I reject the way you need
To hurt yourself to get to me
I will break away from you
My regret is knowing you
You've thrown away everything and you hope I sympathize
It's kind of like slavery to a world of fucking lies
You're not the victim of your own addictions
And your desperation, now you won't get my sympathy
I reject the way you need
To hurt yourself to get to me
I will break away from you
My regret is knowing you
This feels like slavery
This ends it all
I reject the way you need
To hurt yourself to get to me
I will break away from you
My regret is knowing you
This feels like slavery
you wear a cheap disguise
your only vice until the end (?)
don't have an allibi
you never try you just condemn
you pressure everything
and never bring you take away (?)
i can no longer breathe
you're taking me and everything too far
to me it's so disgusting
wrong
i push myself away
far
my sanity in question
wrong
i look the other way
this is a war i can't fight
i can't let you tear me down
i will ignore all these lies
you will never tear me down
i sit and contemplate
while you sedate what's in my head
i will not instigate or emulate
i wont pretend
you'll never understand
just demands to get your way (?)
how long have this beginning (?)
i never end and now it's gone too far
to me it's so disgusting
wrong
i push myself away
far
my sanity in question
wrong
i look the other way
this is a war i can't fight
i can't let you tear me down
i will ignore all these lies
you will never tear me down
never tear me down
this is a war i can't fight
i can't let you tear me down
i will ignore all these lies
you will never tear me down
never tear me
never tear me down
I've reached this point
With fear my only fuel
I found my faith
With nothing, nothing to do
Run from you...you're binding me in sin
You've got to...
I drowned my left side
With lies I see as real
I push what doesn't move
I keep forgetting what is real
Run from you...you're binding me in sin
You've got to run
I keep on running from you
Keep on fighting me, come on
Slipper
Whore...you fuckin' whore
I've reached this point with fear my only fuel
Run from you...you're binding me in sin
You've got to run
I keep on running from you
Keep on fighting me, come on
Slipper
Confide in you, decide it's true
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
I break in two because of you
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Seems to be a crime and so you feed it more
Seems to be a crime and so you feed it more
Seems to be a crime and so you feed it more
Seems to be
So sad, what if you don't like it, you don't like it
So sad, what if you don't like it, you don't like it, you lose
You get it
I don't have what you need
You don't know but I still see
The situation brings me down
See wasted days inside me
No changing ways becoming
Falling away from nothing
Sobering days, I'm dying now
I don't care what you want
You don't know I'm already gone
The situation brings me down
See wasted days inside me
No changing ways becoming
Falling away from nothing
Sobering days, I'm dying now
What I feel everyday
Keeps everything nice and cold
I'm not sure what you need
It's not me anymore
All of our memories are just a thought away
Get the fuck away from me
See wasted days inside me
No changing ways becoming
Falling away from nothing
Sobering days I'm dying now
See wasted days inside me
No changing ways becoming
Falling away from nothing
Forgive me for all you've done
If I led your eyes to see
If I fed your mind with sickened thoughts
Would you consciously conceive
Everything that I have offered you?
Shame
Stronger than
Pride
Stronger than
Hate
Stronger than
Life
If I lied to you would you still believe?
Mend your soul from my little fucking game
Forgive me for all you've done
Have I made your life a mess?
Is your soul perverted just like mine?
Inconvenienced by distress
Let it go, there's nowhere left to hide
Shame
Stronger than
Pride
Stronger than
Hate
Stronger than
Life
If I lied to you would you still believe?
Mend your soul from my little fucking game
Give me life, give me faith, give me somethin' to see
Give me life, give me change, give me somewhere to be
Give me love, give me hate, tell me what to believe
I don't care who you're imitating
You think the world's beginning, in truth, it's really ending
My disillusioned mind is wastin' away
Until I break, until I bend
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until my world is caving in
Until I fall back on my faith again
Keep me dumb, keep me small, keep me closer to you
Keep it still, keep it all, keep away from the truth
Keep me here, keep me cool 'cause it's already done
Everything is so intimidating
You are the one reflection, created false rejection
I let you in and now you won't go away
Until I break, until I bend
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until my world is caving in
Until I fall back on my faith again
I think the end is closer now
You took the life inside me now
Is this the way you're checkin' out? Yea
You are the one who's running now
Running now
Running now
Running now
You are the one reflection, created false rejection
I let you in and now you won't go away
Until I break, until I bend
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until my world is caving in
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until I break
Until I break
Until I break
Until I break
Put on another face
They always take the place
Of all the things that you have become
Your instability is nothing new to me
It€™s always something that made you what you are
(Are)
You€™re dead inside
(Dead)
You killed your pride
(Kill)
I won€™t be there
(Me)
And no one cares
(Please)
Your insecurity
(Just)
The failure that it breeds
(Kill)
And all your misery
(Me)
Is coming back to me
Save yourself the pain and go away
For the rest of my life
Bury you today I separate
For the rest of my life
You give me countless light
And hope I step off light
You hit my only nerve
And that is all it took
Separation
Let it go you let it go
Evolution
Throw it away you throw it away
You tried
(Break)
I€™m done with you
(Down)
Don€™t follow through
(Kill)
I won€™t be there
(Me)
Cuz you don't care
(Please)
The way you€™re suffering
(Just)
It€™s all the same to me
(Kill)
Degradability
(Me)
You cut me up in time
Save yourself the pain and go away
For the rest of my life
Bury you today I separate
For the rest of my life
Rest of my life
Your delusion
Claim confusion
Easier to pass the blame on
All your hatred
Seems so wasted
You€™re the one who€™s dead inside me
You€™re fuckin dead to me
You€™re fuckin dead to me
You€™re fuckin dead to me
YOURE FUCKIN DEAD TO ME!!!
YOU€™RE FUCKIN DEAD TO ME!!
YOU€™RE FUCKIN DEAD!!!
YOU€™RE FUCKIN DEAD TO ME!!!
YOU€™RE FUCKIN, YOURE FUCKIN DEAD!!!
it goes beneath what i've done
it's bigger than the helplessness I felt
it comes around without a face
and redefines my subconscience again
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
'cause I won't change
stall
reverse the cause to numb the sense
it's meaningless if I can't be ashamed
I latch myself onto the need
the only thing that isolates me nowI can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
'cause I won't change
stall
it goes beneath who I am
and turns into the recklessness I felt
it comes around without a face
and redefines my subconscience for good
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
'cause I won't change
stall
Feel the tension of rejection
Bleach it out with the therapy
The confusion and seclusion
Turns it into my deformity
Never trust it, maladjusted
I've become my own worst enemy
The aggravation in my fixation
Keeps it all controlled inside of me
See it all collapsing, it's all around me
This condition is killing me
The isolation still surrounds me
In remission but it's killing me
It's what I can't control
What I can't control
What I can't control in me
Born again I feel so hollow
Torn again my senses fade
Mourn again without the sorrow
Born again without the blame
Force a new solution, it's all inside me
This condition is killing me
The evolution is divided
In remission but it's killing me
It's what I can't control
What I can't control
What I can't control in me
Born again I feel so hollow
Torn again my senses fade
Mourn again without the sorrow
Born again without the blame
I can't increase the treatment
It won't suppress the feelings
Or stop the way I'm getting used to the pain
I can't increase the treatment
It won't suppress the feelings
Or stop the way I'm getting used to the pain
Breaking down
Self destructive pattern
Breaking down
Self destructive pattern
It's what I can't control
What I can't control
What I can't control in me
Born again I feel so hollow
Torn again my senses fade
Mourn again without the sorrow
Product of frustration
No regrets for what you feel
Don't pray that it's mistaken
Crawl, starting the machine
Embellish everything that made you want me
Crawl, starting the machine
Regret disgusting thoughts that made you want me
Separate, what you see
Has given sight new meaning
Letting go to use the drug
That's really left you fiening
Crawl, starting the machine
Embellish everything that made you want me
Crawl, starting the machine
Regret disgusting thoughts that made you want me
Open your hand - Close your mind - Now it's real
If you could open up that light socket up in your head, what would
you see?
Damn, but it's been closed temporarily
>From that it's so sudden, feels like you wanna close
Your muthafucking eyes and take a look in the mirror
Crawl, starting the machine
Embellish everything that made you want me
Crawl, starting the machine
Regret disgusting thoughts that made you want me
The irritation we're pretending not to show
Has replaced the motivation
That I had not long ago
I know that
I don't ever want to be the one
to make you forget it
to make you resent it
to make you repress it
I don't ever want to be
It's the beginning of the end
And I don't know where we lost control
It's the beginning of the end
And I know that I am all alone
Interrogation has replaced the trust we had
Your misguided accusations
Helping me to turn my back
I know that
I don't ever want to be the one
to make you divide it
to make you deny it
to make you deprive it
I don't ever want to be
I thought that we would find our way
I thought our life would be ok
I thought that you believed in me
But now it seems so far away
The life we knew before is gone
There is no compromising
The life you save will be your own
If it breathes -- Choke it
How do I smile this way?
I shed the light but still I rely on
The fear that starts my day
I wonder, I wonder
What has to happen to make you see?
If nothing happens would you feel?
(I've got to take it)
If it breathes -- Choke it
I've stolen this abuse
All I have left is just these scars
What has to happen to make you see?
If nothing happens would you feel?
(I've got to take it)
You grow
Scars
What has to happen to make you see?
If nothing happens would you feel?
(I've got to take it)
I spend my time
Letting these hopeless thoughts run my life
Force me to hide
Just create a truth to all your lies
I will never be the same
So just leave me down while I'm separating
I could never give anymore
All these lies have left me torn
It's only this way falling on my own
I made this mess, now it's over
It was nobody's fault, it was all my own
Everything's wasted forever
The only hand that I know
How to hold belongs to me
How it began
What I thought was right became my insecurity
I will never be the same
So just leave me down while I'm separating
I could never give anymore
All these lies have left me torn
It's only this way falling on my own
I made this mess, now it's over
It was nobody's fault, it was all my own
Everything's wasted forever
It's on my own
It's on my own, go
Weakness becomes me, my faults relieve me
My fear excludes me, turns it against me
My fault, my fear turned it against me
It's only this way falling on my own
I made this mess, now it's over
It was nobody's fault, it was all my own
Everything's wasted forever
It's only this way falling on my own
It's only this way falling on my own
It's only this way falling on my own
It's only this way, it's only this way
It's on my own
If you said that you could kill the things inside me
You're just a liar, everything inside me is dead
Nice of you to think that I could ever be that
But I'm not, I'm just a failure instead
Don't preach a story of success and gifted thinking
Because in the end were gonna end up the same way
Keep on living your whole life on hands and knees
'Cause I'll be standing waiting, life ends up the same way
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
The life you've given is a poorly painted picture
The colors running and it's staggering my life
A definition of the truth is all I wanted
Not mental beatings falling short of stupidity
Don't give a speech on your prolific ways of living
You speak in vain whether you think you do or not
Spreading infection of the truth that leads to sick lies
You are the shame inside of me, you are mind rot
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
If you said that you could kill the things inside me
You're just a liar, everything inside me is dead
Nice of you to think that I could ever be that
But I'm not, I'm just a failure instead, instead
I'm just a failure instead, instead
You're so mistaken on the life you think I wanted
I'll give you credit for the effort you put forth
'Cause as it ends you're gonna start to realize that
Your fuckin' prejudice and words of wisdom go unheard
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Never wanted this life
Gone away from me
Never wanted this life
Never wanted this life
Because it's meaningless
Never wanted this life
Gone away from me
Dismiss your true state of mind
'Cause it's too hard to be
Convince yourself it's a lie
The guilt you do achieve
Failure disguised your choice
You need another voice
Regrets confirmed your faults
I need another voice
You're too far gone
Disengage yourself
To replace yourself
Look right through yourself
And deny yourself
Guilt, it's in your voice it's on your face
But it looks malnourished
Greed, it took control and fed your mind
But it's still malnourished
The contradictions you live
Have canceled out the truth
The desperation you show
Is just the focal point
Nothing more than image
You need another voice
Your faults become regret
I need another choice,
You're too far gone
Realign yourself
To escape yourself
See right through yourself
Give up on yourself
Guilt, it's in your voice it's on your face
But it looks malnourished
Greed, it took control and fed your mind
But it's still malnourished
Guilt, it's in your voice it's on your face
But it looks malnourished
Greed, it took control and fed your mind
But it's still malnourished
Guilt, it's in your voice it's on your face
But it looks malnourished
Greed, it took control and fed your mind
Your disease is a fucking waste of time
Turn it on when it fits your need
Never mattered that I couldn't feel a thing
Anything that you meant was forgot
Tear it down, it's what you don't know
Turn it around because it questions your integrity
Take it away because you can't control it
Throw it away because it's what you are
Your tongue's a dying wasted lie
I've seen through you when you need
What makes you think it's not your fault
Everything you were is so far gone
You don't want to know if you don't get it
Everything you touch is dead or terminal
Everything you were walks from me
Everything you were is lost
Realize what you've become
Criticize to make it all numb
Separate yourself from your views
What it takes to redeem yourself
Realize what you've become
Criticize to make it all numb
Separate yourself from your views
What it takes to redeem yourself
I can see it start to begin
Everything that you thought was so clear
I'm shutting down what you thought was real
Giving up to a lesser God
It's all you're worth and it's all you are
Shutting down what you thought was real
What it takes to redeem yourself
Realize what you've become
Criticize to make it all numb
Separate yourself from your views
What it takes to redeem yourself
Realize what you've become
Criticize to make it all numb
Separate yourself from your views
What it takes to redeem yourself
What it takes to redeem yourself
(It's all you're worth)
What it takes to redeem yourself
(It's all you're worth)
What it takes to redeem yourself
(It's all you're worth)
It starts to tear me down
Destroyed by the world i create
It left the nerve exposed
Feel like i've lost my cause
Frustrations all i have left
It's what has reduced me to this
Turned me against my self
it's still a alost cause
I can't keep doing this to my self
But it's the only way to forget who i am
Your disabilty
Kept pushing me away
It went beneath what's so real to me
And threw it all away
I underestimated
The lenghts that you have gone
To deny who you are
You threw it all away
I will keep doing this to myself
'Cause it's the only way to forget who i am
I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine and mine now
I'll turn my back on my self
If it's the only way out
It can only help me if it herts
I won't give into, I wont give into...
I won't become one of your lies
I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine and mine now
I'll turn my back on my self
If it's the only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
I will keep doing this to myself
'Cause it's the only way to forget who i am
I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine and mine now
I'll turn my back on my self
If it's the only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
You don't have to sell
Well it can be only a mistake
Excluding all that seems to be before
Recollecting minds that intake
When I contemplate it gets sore
Prosecution by the minds that make me feel
Have only made me commit that crime
It's been said that it's better to hate than steal
Still we all do time, still we all do time
Sold, no I don't belong to myself
Sold
Well you fucking can't believe
Everyday I run to this place I feel
It's still taking over me
You don't have to sell
If I sold you my life the way it was
Cause that's all he does, he tries to make a sale
Would you speak to me, an excuse to fail
An excuse to fail, it's still sore
Everything couldn't be happening to make me right
Cause my soul has already gone sour
Explain the vision that you still call mine
Now we all do time, now we all do time
Sold, no I don't belong to myself
Sold
Well you fucking can't believe
Everyday I run to this place I feel
It's still taking over me
Crawling, crawling...
You come crawling
Sold, no I don't belong to myself
Sold
Well you fucking can't believe
Everyday I run to this place I feel
It's still taking over me
Crawling, crawling...
Don't you realize that it has to be
Why did you do this, consolidate my fear
Face down Save face
Growing out of my face, what it represents I need
Why did you do this, consolidate my fears
It's all inside of me
It's depraved
Grows inside of me
And it suffocates
Don't wish...it won't help
Face down Save face
It's all inside of me
It's depraved
Grows inside of me
And it suffocates
I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at the floor and I see it needs sweeping
Still my guitar gently weeps
I don't know why nobody told you how to unfold your love
I don't know how someone controlled you
They bought and sold you.
I look at the world and I notice it's turning
While my guitar gently weeps
With every mistake we must surely be learning
Still my guitar gently weeps
I don't know how you were diverted
You were perverted too
I don't know how you were inverted
No one alerted you.
I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
Look at you all...
One time feel the restraint take
Disposed, pull my head away
Fall down, reject what's in front of me
But I feed the open intent
Let you relieve it if it's what you needed to achieve it
Slow down, my breath can it feel right
But they tried to question my insight
And I start to blister without
Flowing through my tongue starts to grow
It's now retired - enter me
Come inside my empathy
It's now retired - enter me
Let it go and you will see
Would you fuckin' try to calm down
What else would you put me through
While I watched what happened to you
Now you say I need to put it all away
Your regret keeps me going cause you beat me to it
You tell me how I should feel
Try and stop always changing what you want to see
Can you keep your higher ground when you look straight
Cause where we fall is where we rise
It's now retired - enter me
Come inside my empathy
It's now retired - enter me
Let it go and you will see
Why we fall, I look at myself, I'm feeling small
And now I fall
For all of my life, is this what you sold me?
One time feel the restraint take
Disposed, pull my head away
Fall down, reject what's in front of me
Still I feed the open intent
Let you relieve it if it's what you needed to achieve it
Slow down my breath can it feel right
But they tried to question my insight
And I start to blister without
Flowing through my tongue starts to grow
It's now retired - enter me
Come inside my empathy
It's now retired - enter me
Let it go and you will see
Mother fuck the way you think, you never made sense anyway
Building up to tear it down you're codependent on apathy
By design you fucking sterilize so you desensitize
(Make it easier to swallow)
Self-involved you fucking took it all, who's gonna take the fall?
('Cause it's never gonna be the same)
Change
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
Repetition paves the way, all for you to weaken and sedate
So contrived and watered down a fucking shadow
Of what should have been isolate so you can separate
And fucking terminate
(To diffuse the situation)
Force on me a common enemy with no identity
(Now it's showing your perception too)
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
You will never see, you will never see
You will never see, you will never see
Don't wanna see, don't wanna see and it shows
Don't wanna think, don't wanna think and it shows
It's like a fucking disease
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
(It shows)
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
(It shows)
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
(It shows)
It's like a fucking disease, it's like a fucking disease
My frustration caused the callous
Turned my senses into spite
My perception with no conscience
Made the fear seem almost right
I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone
Can I see it? Can I see it? Can I see it? Can I?
I can't even recognize myself
I turned into what destroyed it
Drown the truth out until it all makes sense again
I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone
Take my fucking conscience from me
Try to save me from myself
Turn my fucking thoughts against me
Now my ways will be dissolved
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
My frustration caused the callous
Turned my senses into spite
My perception with no conscience
Made the dear seem almost right
I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone
Take my fucking conscience from me
Try to save me from myself
Turn my fucking thoughts against me
Now my ways will be dissolved
The height of callousness
The height of callousness takes over
The height of callousness
The height of callousness it's over
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity
I can never feel the way you do
But it still becomes me now
I can't take the way you do
But it's still inside me
Synthetic solution
Synthetic, I'll become
Synthetic, if it makes this go away
Synthetic solution
Synthetic, I'll become
Synthetic, if it makes this go away
Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
How I let you get inside of me?
Twist my words the way that you do
'Cause it falls on deaf ears now
Still, I've learned to numb your views
But they're still inside me
Synthetic solution
Synthetic, I'll become
Synthetic, if it makes this go away
Synthetic solution
Synthetic, I'll become
Synthetic, if it makes this go away
Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
How I let you get inside of me?
I will never follow you
I will never follow you
I will never follow you
I will never follow you
All this time, I thought I was myself
And I thought, I never could become you
All this time, I thought I was myself
And I thought, I never could become you
Wrong, wrong
Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
How I let you get inside of me?
Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
How I let you get inside of me?
I have become synthetic
I have become synthetic
I have become synthetic
Stillborn
I don't think you want to be the one to see inside yourself
I don't think you want to understand that it clouds up your mind
I don't think you want to undermine
I don't think you want the bottom line
I don't think you want to see inside this God that you created
(This God that you created)
(No)
You don't even listen, you don't even hear me till I scream at you
(Now)
I see your intention a new intervention just to wear me down
(Breed)
Selected division you're on a collision course with your beliefs
(Find)
A new evolution you form a solution now you're born again
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
I don't think you'll ever be the one to take the blame yourself
I don't think you even want to try to see through different eyes
I don't think you want to sacrifice
I don't think you want to fuckin' try
I don't think you want to step outside this lie that's been embedded
(This lie that's been embedded)
(Think)
It's all a delusion relieve your confusion when you put me down
(Fear)
Afraid to accept it you only defend it 'cause it's handed down
(Think)
It's all on the surface it's only convenient when you follow through
(No)
I'm not gonna give in you're already beaten when you're born again
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
Stillborn
It's time to make the cut and let you bleed for yourself on your own
Of all the things I need is just for you to stop from judging me
Sick
So get the fuck away from me
You make me sick
So stay the fuck away from me, away from me
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Stillborn all devoid of feelin'
Reborn like a motherfuckin'
Fall in denial of
I break, I give into myself
Control, I break
I cannot be saved again
Before you take all that was to be mine
Give in because everything you taught will become
Burned - in my mind
Burned - redefined
Burned - sterilized
Burned - why?
Stain all the undeserved
Deny, my insight has become
Control, I break
Suffocate inside me
Before you take all that was to be mine
Break it down cause everything you taught will become
Burned - in my mind
Burned - redefined
Burned - sterilized
Burned - why?
The blackened coal reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed
And if your darkness blinds me
I could never be more lost
But I'm not the one who seeks your protection
I'm not the one to share the disguise
And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
I'm not the one to tear the same way twice
Pushed from the inside, Smothered
Pushed from the inside out, Smothered
Pushed from the inside, Smothered
Pushed from the inside out
Have all your walls surround me
They're closing in they block my sight
The violence around me
Found me when I could not fight
But I'm not the one to take your direction
I'm not the one who wears the disguise
And I'm not the one to share your reflection
I'm not the one you break the same way twice
Pushed from the inside, Smothered
Pushed from the inside out, Smothered
Pushed from the inside, Smothered
Pushed from the inside out
I will never win
I will never win with you
I read you
I fear you round up no more than you know
I hate you
I still do everytime you let me go
Pushed from the inside, Smothered
Pushed from the inside out, Smothered
Pushed from the inside, Smothered
Pushed from the inside out
I will never win (Pushed from the inside)
I will never win (Pushed from the inside)
I will never win (Pushed from the inside)
I will never win (Pushed from the inside)
Smothered
Trying to understand, someone like you can sleep at night
Or are you too busy playing God to fuckers that are chewing on your lies
Another loser born?
Fed on my fragile mind, still I stood up on my broken knees
'Cause everything that you took gave me immunity to your disease
Another life is torn?
I won't hear, I won't see, I will never be a part of your cause
'Cause I'm alive and I still breathe and you're just a fucking waste of
Time, what you tried to offer me, was it really worth it?
Sew up this hole inside of me 'cause you'll never take it
I don't fear what you are 'cause you're only dangerous to what is weak
Clinging to the stories you create you make a living off of souls that bleed
Another dotted line
I won't hear, I won't see, I will never be a part of your cause
'Cause I'm alive and I still breathe and you're just a fucking waste of
Time, what you tried to offer me, was it really worth it?
Sew up this hole inside of me 'cause you'll never take it
Time, what you tried to offer me, was it really worth it?
Sew up this hole inside of me 'cause you'll never take it, I
I'm, becoming of nothing, this is what you started
I'm, becoming of nothing, this is what you started
I'm, becoming of nothing, this is what you started
I'm, becoming of nothing, this is what you started
I'm, becoming of nothing, this is what you started
Time, what you tried to offer me, was it really worth it?
Sew up this hole inside of me 'cause you'll never take it
Time, what you tried to offer me, was it really worth it?
Sew up this hole inside of me 'cause you'll never take it
Never take it, never take it, never take it
Never take it, never take it, never take it
Never take it, never take it, never take it
Now I can take this everything I know
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because its the only thing I have left
Blame myself again for what I didn't do
Never really knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone to far now
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody change my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
Is this all worth what this has done to me?
Watered down my senses and turned them on me
Fuck morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this then I couldn't go
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody change my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody change my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why this meant so much to me
Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It all could have been, it all would have been
Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It all could have been, it's all I'll ever be
Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why this meant so much to me
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody change my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody change my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
But it still becomes a new disease
Undo this guilt, bathing in filth
Grey that lurks inside of me
Grey, feel I can't take it
Grey that works inside of me
Grey
Slowly I run, hurt me for fun
Grey that lurks inside of me
Grey, feel I can't take it
Grey that works inside of me
Grey
See is all I say - all I see is grey
See is all I say - all I see is grey
Grey...all I see is grey
Undo this guilt, bathing in filth
Grey that lurks inside of me
Grey, feel I can't take it
Grey that works inside of me
Grey
See is all I say - all I see is grey
See is all I say - all I see is grey
You're the one who
You're the one who steals
The light from
I'm the one who feels
The fallen
I believe you're nothing but a problem
Everything is so fake
You're just a motherfucking sight to see and
Time will block the vision
Life with you is so vague
It's like I'm living in a dream
I have wondered why this always happens?
Everything just falls away
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten
It's so close but it's so far away
You're the one who
You're in disbelief
I watch you
Thought you could achieve
Or try to
Once I thought this life was never ending
Must have been my mistake
You're just a motherfucking
Accidental bending and abusing
I should've known that you and
Your intentions weren't for good
I have wondered why this always happens?
Everything just falls away
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten
It's so close but it's so far away
You're the one who fled
The violence
I'm the one who broke
The silence
I will sew the hole you left inside me
Leaving you in the past I will relive
I have wondered why this always happens?
Everything just falls away
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten
It's so close but it's so far away
I have wondered why this always happens?
Everything just falls away
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten
It's so close but it's so far away
Now your failure feeds the contempt
Your failure feeds the contempt
I can't sedate the way you break me down
I can't relieve the pain
I can't reduce the failure you've become
I can't accept the blame
(Now)
Now your failure feeds the contempt
You imitate the things you think that isolate
What I want
I can't get through, it's never you, it's showing through
And it's wrong
You pushed me too far
And I'm tired now
It all falls apart
Now I'm finally down
I hate the way you turn this all around
So you can bleach your shame
Apology is not an option now
It won't erase the blame
(Now)
Now your failure feeds the contempt
It's nothing new, I'll suffer through, it's all in you
And you're wrong
I compensate, you mutilate, it separates
And we're done
You pushed me too far
And I'm tired now
It all falls apart
Now I'm finally down
You pushed me too far
(Pushin' me, pushin' me)
And I'm tired now
(Pushin' me too far)
It all falls apart
(Pushin' me, pushin' me)
Now I'm finally down
(Pushin' me too far)
(Far)
I can't sedate the way
You're breakin' me, you're breakin' me down
(Too far)
I can't sedate the way
You're breakin' me, you're breakin' me down
(Pushed me)
I can't sedate the way
You're breakin' me, you're breakin' me down
(Too far)
I can't sedate the way
You're breakin' me, you're breakin' me down
Now your failure feeds the contempt
You pushed me too far
And I'm tired now
It all falls apart
Now I'm finally down
You pushed me too far
(Pushin' me, pushin' me)
And I'm tired now
(Pushin' me too far)
It all falls apart
(Pushin' me, pushin' me)
Now I'm finally down
What do you believe?
Or do you still conceive?
What do you believe?
See what you do to me
You feed off my mind, well then you break my ability
To maintain a 20/20 vision on life
So why not let the pain go...
Detached, crawl inside my head
Open up my mind is all they told me
Detached, and I don't relate to your fantasy
But I'm detached
What do you want from me?
There's nothing left to bleed
What do you want from me?
See what you do to me
You feed off my mind, well then you break my ability
To maintain a 20/20 vision on life
So why not let the pain go...
Detached, crawl inside my head
Open up my mind is all they told me
Detached, and I don't relate to your fantasy
But I'm detached
Away, there's no shame
I can't stop the bleeding
Fall - who killed the lights on me?
Fall - that's how it has to be
Fall - someday you'll come to see
Fall
Don't let it rain, don't let it rain...
Detached, crawl inside my head
Open up my mind is all they told me
Detached, and I don't relate to your fantasy
But I'm detached
Punctured lungs!!!
I'm out of breath
This time I'm suffocating
I've had enough now
Too numb there's no resisting
Becoming one
With all your failure
No coming back now
This bridge has been burned
Try to cut the cord
Tear away
Or I will never be the same
Trust breaks like bone
Violence shows
Reject and throw it all away
Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Repressed identity
Escape reality
You killed the cause
This keeps repeating
Live through the loss now
Redeem your enemies
Recycled thoughts
Feed your delusion
Your lie outgrows you
Becomes its own truth
Still it seems so wrong
The way you think
And I will never understand
Faith broke like bone
Weakness shown
You lost and threw it all away
Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Repressed identity
Escape reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Puncture my lungs!
Puncture my lungs!
Noooooooo!!!
Puncture now!
I've never felt your emptiness
It makes me sick now
Obsessive with your reasons
Compulsive with your failure
Try to cut the cord
Tear away
Or I will never be the same
Trust breaks like bone
Violence shows
Reject and throw it all away
Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Repressed identity
Escape reality
If it stops the room from spinning
How can you live with yourself?
How can you live with yourself?
How can you live with yourself?
The cold was almost generosity
The way you took the life away from me
Scratched the surface of the pain to come
The separation that can't be undone
It's in the way we fuck
It's in the way you make me need
It's in the way you cry
To get just what you fucking need
It's in the way you cut
So you can see me bleed
It's in the way you see that I am
Just another face
These walls come crashing down
And now it all decays
We take the life we once embraced
It slips away
The curse of emptiness
And time will have it's way
The loneliness enables us to medicate
A beating heart that's bleeding atrophy
A broken spirits animosity
The wound inside is that which cannot heal
Destroying dreams that we will never feel
I'm just your dead excuse
And it's a broken future now
It's not a happy ending
It's just a faded picture of
What we could never be
I can't erase the pain
The final hope has become one we perceive
To be dead
These walls come crashing down
And now it all decays
We take the life we once embraced
It slips away
The curse of emptiness
And time will have it's way
The loneliness enables us to medicate
[Spoken:]
You kill a gentle soul for personal gain
And by doing so you're a fucking murderer
This blood is on your hands;
There is no light at the end of this tunnel
When I close my eyes,
All I see is the dark cloud that I protected you from
It took 90 pounds of flesh to get me here
The illusion of love, given by all the shit surrounding me
Love is just a fucking dream,
And now turned to death
Once righteous, I am now a burnt and broken man
Brought on to me by the pathetic excuse of a life
I'll take comfort in the dark with all of my sins
There is no return back to light from this hell I'm in
It's fucking done!
This is never coming back
Divided
Accepted the fact
That it all adds up to nothing
The anger denial acceptance
It's clear
The way you're always your own victim
Another bad decision
To trust, with my life on the line
And now I'm dead and buried
The resurrection died
Another life denied
Your hesitation wounds are showing
They show the cracks
Conscience broken
Words aren't spoken
Conscience broken
Words aren't spoken
For me
It's just for me
For me
It's just for me
For me
It's just for me
She fucks him violently
It all comes to an end
For me
The picture is fine
Perfection is...
It mimics what used to be
Rise again to fall behind
Expose the worm inside
The color has faded
This changes everything
You're plastic and empty
It's all you'll ever be
This scar will never bleed,
Or kill the pain before it spreads,
I'm left with nothing
Blood washes hands
And yours have never been clean
The filth is what makes you who you are
Run to your savior
The weakness surfacing
Replace all your anger
And pray for sympathy now
You try to hide the damage
Below the surface
It just keeps bleeding
You try to blur the image
Envision who you are
After the end
Closing your eyes
And lifting your head
Losing your self control
Now, the sight of your disaster
Embedded in me
Just like an execution
It's all for nothing
It's slipping away
The decay
Just your form of evolution
It's cold and it's vacant
It's always out of place
Distorted and changing
We were the damage blueprint
Who put the pain aside
It never felt this way
Till we began to die
You have a gunshot mindframe
With a victim style
I've never seen false hope
Decorated with a prettier smile
We divide
It's like you're bleeding out my eyes
We both die
Just like a murder-suicide
It took the second coming
Of the second fail
To make it look so easy
To bury in shallow ground
There's something beautiful
About your suffering
It's a welcome sight
When we're seeing God through bloodshot eyes
We divide
It's like you're bleeding out my eyes
We both die
Just like a murder-suicide
Murder-suicide
Just a little fracture
It's just a little fracture
Just a little fracture
Or a clean break?
It seems you want to heal all your own
You never reject the demons all alone
It looks like we have found a way to die... but alone
Hoping for a savior
But we're beyond God
Leave me where I fall
You decided, done
Needed an escape route
From which we flee
Punishment upon us
We will die alone
We divide
It's like you're bleeding out my eyes
We both die
Just like a murder-suicide
We divide
It's like you're bleeding out my eyes
We both die
Just like a murder-suicide
I see all your reasons why
It's just the way the your memory betrays
You're like a second hand at suicide
It's just defeat of the image you portray
It all serves you
But who deserves you?
It's how you blur out the vision left inside
A clean infection
Your misdirection
It's you delusion that begins the end of you
Now you've fallen to the ground
The kill just compensated
It's all the endless disconnect
That keeps you isolated
Break and bleed until you see the light
No need struggle 'cause it never seems to fade
It all becomes a social suicide
Another way to keep your damage on display
Your faith is empty
Your hope is fleeting
I'm not impressed with
The way you followed through
There's no redemption
You're disconnected
It's your seclusion
That will kill what's left of you
Now you've fallen to the ground
The kill just compensated
It's all the endless disconnect
That keeps you isolated
Your star's fading
You're just a memory
And I expected nothing less of you
It always bleeds
Just for your needs
Now I see exactly what you are
Now you've fallen to the ground
The kill just compensated
It's all the endless disconnect
That keeps you isolated
Now you've fallen to the ground
The kill just compensated
It's all the endless disconnect
You found a way to get inside
And see the broken
Reliving such a damaged life
It's taking over
Now you see through fading eyes
It's like I'm disappearing now
You made me who I am
You're everything I hate in me
And now there's nothing left for me
You found a comfort in the wounds
It's like you taste the blood again
The way you go in for the kill
And now there's nothing left for me
You don't exist outside of me
All your selfish purity
Is just a fragile memory
And now there's nothing left for me
Find a way to kill the past
And stop the bleeding
Reduce you to a photograph
That won't stop fading
I look at you and see nothing
You've taken everything from me
I hope you saved yourself
I'll never be the same again
You found a comfort in the wounds
It's like you taste the blood again
The way you go in for the kill
And now there's nothing left for me
You don't exist outside of me
All your selfish purity
Is just a fragile memory
And now there's nothing left for me
I see a ghost of who you are
Now your memory is a scar
The constant need to kill
The senses that keep you tied to me
Just to keep your focus right
You dilute to black and white
It doesn't stop
The fading view of who you are
And now there's nothing left for me
You found a comfort in the wounds
It's like you taste the blood again
The way you go in for the kill
And now there's nothing left for me
You don't exist outside of me
All your selfish purity
Is just a fragile memory
Destroy your God and bleed out
These walls come crashing down
And now it all decays
We take the life we once embraced
It slips away
These walls come crashing down
And now it all decays
We take the life we once embraced
What you turned out to be
The fallen and the deceased
Embodied in the body of a fucking liar
You don't belong to yourself
You haven't suffered enough
You're like an answer
To another fucking murder
Show the way God left you alone
Find yourself another answer
Your decay
Is now creating
A venue for another murder
I'll close my eyes
Just to end the this cycle of torture and misery
I'll close my eyes just to see it all go
Everything, everyone ends
I'll close my eyes
Just to end the this cycle of torture and misery
I'll close my eyes just to see it all go
Everything, everyone ends
You're just my endless defeat
Another severed belief
Ad now your wasted life
Is flashing before my eyes
It's just another attempt
To be redeemed of yourself
It's just another way to grieve
The fucking murder
Choke you out
The attention you need
Harmless kill
Just another muder
Your decay
Venue for another murder
I'll close my eyes
Just to end the this cycle of torture and misery
I'll close my eyes just to see it all go
Everything, everyone ends
I'll close my eyes
Just to end the this cycle of torture and misery
I'll close my eyes just to see it all go
Everything, everyone ends
She, she's beautiful
But it's meaningless
The way she fakes that smile
Irrational
She's cynical
It's killing me again
Killing me again
She, well she's beautiful
But it's merciless
Because she closed her eyes
Unreachable
And it's terminal
She's killing me again
Killing me again
Love - Raped and afflicted
Life - Soiled and fucked beyond
Sense - Devised, perfected
Lie - Everything everyone
Ends - Everything everywhere
Ends - Everything everyone ends
Bury the one I used to know
The memory is fading
Feels like and endless suicide
Degenerating
Withdrawal
Rewrite
You're overcompensating
Suspend belief
Your faith is so persuading
Anger God Complex
Destroy your God and bleed out
Just skin the soul
Expose the core
And medicate it
Then rape the heart and be the Whore
You animate it
Devise
Destroy
These dreams have long but faded
It's true
It's pure
It's not just real
It's all I know
Destroy your God
Anger God Complex
The curse of darkness falls
Upon the hands of sin
When everybody looks away
The master shuffles
Without guilt to make them win
And we lose another day
They don't give a fuck about you
I want you to know
That you shouldn't be here
Should be afraid of what I have found
I think you should go
Or you'll never leave here
The life that you know is forever bound
Serenity lies in the hearts that still believe
But some of them fall short of faith, are we selfish?
That, in fact we do deceive believing
While we will not say, will not say
They still don't give a fuck about you
I want you to know
That you shouldn't be here
Should be afraid of what I have found
I think you should go
Or you'll never leave here
The life that you know is forever bound
Did you think that I would change?
You're the one that plays the murder
With your absence all in vain
Never see the light of day
It's the path that you have crossed
It's a link of broken chain
It's a coin that's been tossed
It's your life that I contain
I want you to know
I need you to know
Just so you know
They'll never give a fuck about you
I want you to know
That you shouldn't be here
Should be afraid of what I have found
I think you should go
Or you'll never leave here
The life that you know is forever bound
I want you to know
That I'll always be here
Should be afraid of what I've become
I guess you should know that I might just keep you
Pain divides
Your descent
From all the
Damage that you have become
Blame yourself
Damage done
There is no coming back from this
No absolution from the ones you scar
You see you sorrow through the eyes of a victim
Contamination of the rising star
The anti-vision and design of a fractured intent
Spread your misery conspiracy
The restitution for you life
The depravation of your hidden lie
(Reveals) a muted memory of the damage inflicted
Interrogation with a blinded eye
Creates the scapegoat that
Replaces the need to repeat
Fall
Begin descent
Cannot prevent this life
There's no redemption
For a life of this kind
And it will bleed out in time
The reckoning
Self-preservation
And the motives collinde
It's just a matter of time
The reckoning
There's no reason now
Design of a fractured intent
Fall
Begin descent
Cannot prevent this life
There's no redemption
For a life of this kind
And it will bleed out in time
The reckoning
Self-preservation
And the motives collinde
It's just a matter of time
It dies
Drowned in bottled misery
Decay a design of the therapy
At birth
Broke, it's out of control
Repeating the cycle and evolving down a hole
Constrained
Chained with the force of a tourniquet
But it bleeds and it's out of control
Unhinged
Lost and completely devoid
Running in circles trying to fill another void
This Life
Devised
Demise
Repeating the cycle
This time I die inside
Repeating the cycle again
I am damage this time
I try to reason with myself this time
I've found a trigger to the rage
Diseased with the anger still enraged
Blind
Now it's under control
I'm falling to pieces but I still won't let it go
Too late hate it's out of control this time
Break the cycle at the end of the line
Consumed
Torn and dying within
Trying to fight but I don't know where to begin
This Life
Devised
Demise
Repeating the cycle
This time I die inside
Repeating the cycle again
I am damage this time
And it comes right back to me
Like a fucking catastrophe
You'll see me devolve to nothing
It's just the way it is
Recognize the damage I've become
I am the damage born again
Cast out the creation of my descent
Degrade
Hate everythign close
I'm over it all but I'm still not in control
This Life
Devised
Demise
Repeating the cycle
This time I die inside
Repeating the cycle again
I am damage this time
And it comes right back to me
The irritation we're pretending not to show
Has replaced the motivation
That I had not long ago
I know that
I don't ever want to be the one
to make you forget it
to make you resent it
to make you repress it
I don't ever want to be
It's the beginning of the end
And I don't know where we lost control
It's the beginning of the end
And I know that I am all alone
Interrogation has replaced the trust we had
Your misguided accusations
Helping me to turn my back
I know that
I don't ever want to be the one
to make you divide it
to make you deny it
to make you deprive it
I don't ever want to be
I thought that we would find our way
I thought our life would be ok
I thought that you believed in me
But now it seems so far away
The life we knew before is gone
There is no compromising
The life you save will be your own