The last survivor of a boiled crown
Another casualty with the casual frown
The janitor vandals they bark in your face
Juveniles with the piles and paste
It's a sensation
A bankrupt corpse
In the garbage glasses
With the crutches of frogs
Don't be confused
When the fuse is up
And you're taking a leak
Into your brother's cup
When the cup is filled
You can run and be killed
In the billion miles
Of the muscles that build
Radiation
Feeling the force
Karaoke
Vomiting morons
The scalps of zero hear the call
Rubbing in a blind man's running hall
With the canker sores and the robot pill
Throwing imbeciles on the window sills
It's a sensation
A bankrupt corpse
In the garbage glasses
With the crutches of frogs
Drug me, infiltrate my never land
Like the flood tide drowning the shore
Drug me, you're all over me
You watch my blood begin to boil
I love that lullaby start me up again
Electric spine, open mind
I leave you, negative behind
Watch me all in flames on a butterfly I ride
Inhale the light, relax for some time
The world outside stays numb tonight
Free your mind, express the forgotten
The world inside is yours tonight
Please me, deliver the insane
In the chaos I find peace
Please me, remind the Gods of my name
I believe there is one seat left for me
I love that lullaby start me up again
Electric spine, open mind
I leave you, negative behind
Watch me all in flames on a butterfly I ride
Inhale the light, relax for some time
The world outside stays numb tonight
Free your mind, express the forgotten
The world inside is yours tonight
I leave you, negative behind
Watch me all in flames on a butterfly I ride
Inhale the light, relax for some time
The world outside stays numb tonight
Free your mind, express the forgotten
Grissom, White and Chaffee were the first to pay the price
But others now have felt the fatal falling of the dice
And seven more have lost their lives that we might win the skies
But nothing makes it easier when someone out there dies
Chorus: It's minus ten and counting but many more may die
As careful as we ever are it costs us lives to try
But all who take the risk of space say, "If we die then take our place
And please when we are gone, carry on, carry on, carry on, carry on."
And if we add the cosmonauts the count is now fourteen
Who paid their lives for men to go where man has never been
And each one knew the dangers and yet bravely still they tried
And begged us all to keep on flying even if they died
Chorus
We're minus ten who sought the stars but out across the lands
You'll see a million volunteers are raising up their hands
And all of them are well-prepared to pay that final cost
They know that space and all the stars are worth the lives we've lost
All kinds of hairstyles are happening today how will i have my haircut today?
Its important for you looks,
i read that in some books.
Goddammit when will i be satisfied
The haircut that i want has already died. I sould let it keep on growinguntil i dont see where im going, its cheeky and a stubid thing but what in the hell can you do, we ive in a modern society where things attwend to be absurd,
a thing that happens to everyone.
You are my work of art.
An awesome thing in my heart.
You cast a shadow over my troubles.
Never a load on my shoulders.
Like jazz and blues you have the cool to make the boys
cry.
Spread your love like a fever,
I can't get the temperature down.
You give me butterflies and bluebirds.
We go down.
You make me dream of purple twilight,
There is a name for it
And I know you haven't heard it
Developed theory to rationalise
These feelings, existing in someone's mind
A boy has a stage of wanting
To sleep with his mother and
Killing his father
To this strange complex
There is a flipside
Young girls having the same complex
Called electra complex
Geniuses have it,
Mountain people need it and
Politicians want it
Sinister essence in twisted minds
In a sane mind the question is why?
You went up to Denver
To pursue your life and dreams
left me behind to count up the days
why should I be thinking of you
I was cursed to adore you
In my mind it's a load to bear
When deep inside I loathe to care
I am not going to sit here
and write to you
I will pursue my life and dreams right here
Searching for your position in life.
Get married and buy a luxury car.
Positive to the pregnancy test.
Best get a second hand job.
Trying to hold your pride up high
when you know that you need another life.
I want to explore the artistic mind.
Go places where the water tastes like whine.
Standard living forced upon you,
smothering you from your first breath
What role must i take upon myself if
i have nothing to stand on.
Will i be predator or prey or will i
be both in this huge animal farm.
Crossroads are in front of you.
Total innocence is written on your face.
Got to know why you sound so wicked.
You're in love with me and I know it.
You are an angel in disguise.
You are an angel in disguise.
You try to hide behind your smile.
You are an angel in disguise with the devil inside.
You try to make me dance into the fire.
There are police sirens in my head that sound like mad
babies crying.
It's the long face.
When my emotions rain the boss of the city is the
cabdriver.
Running up to my face and into my arms.
Shared only some of it, give away most of it.
When I feel this way therefore I am.
It's you, it's me, walking down that street.
I wish I could see my own funeral to regret being dead.
Baby don't leave.
We booted and brained in fine wild bar place
with high flootin dandies all around.
There is a surden elctrical magic, surrounded by dishrag
faces.
I hope the moon doesn´t come home drunk this evening,
when the shadows are coming at about dusk time.
We are hungry to burn in the candle of flame.
Fall in the temple of quivers and slaps.
Share some laughs, tramps and take a hot butterbath.
In the end our faces are reflected in a puddle
and our faces don´t seem to mind and the puddle doesn´t
When you need a little boost to survive the day.
Facing people and socializing, looking for you
premonition.
Just take a big swig of that liquid courage.
Overcast of blue emotions, not knowing what will be.
Thinking that you eill leave nothing behind,
just take a little sip of that liquid courage.
You have succeeded, job well done
Champagne and lots of fun.
It´s a mask that we hide behind
when we go out to have a good time,
ask yourself if you´re interesting sober.
Can you face the day that has plans for you
Driving in my pick up truck
having some picking up to do.
We call ourselves Johns
because were to embarrased
to say who we really are.
Some of us are holy when
we choose who we want.
It isnt far fetched from the
laws of our self created God.
Getting the itch in my pants
i drive endlessly through the block
to find my perfect trick,
to scratch my itch.
I want them young and sweet
so i can show them my meat
But first i must give them some sweets.
Behind is where i want to be
because of the captain in me.
Nobody must notice,
nobody must know
im perverted and the world
must not know
You are a princess
You were my princess
You made my heart feel so bad
It's like you told it to just burn and die
It's just a crush
But still it hurts
It hurts so much
Your beauty makes perfect sense
But I feel like I'm out of sync
I gave it my very best
I guess it wasn't meant to be
What's the secret handshake to join the club,
I'll bring lots of girls and drugs and have lots of fun.
What is this I'm looking for?
I am way too late.
Got to give it up before I go numb.
We wear fur coats and drink champagne
and we are never ashamed to get higher than everybody
else
and kick out the jams yeah.
What is this I'm looking for?
Got time to spend, nothing fancy that requires the
system.
Makes me forget and not to regret the things i´ve done.
Go to the country side,
have a great experiance with my dear friends.
Not to think of present times or wollow in past acions.
My recreation is important to me,
it gets me to some better things.
All you got is leisure to numb the structure of your
life.
Find your passion!
Innocent but guilty.
So please hide the key from me,
please change the locks and leave.
I write a recipe.
Invent my history.
The clock is taunting you.
The clock is looking at you.
It's going to get you baby,
it's going to push toward the void.
The dead is building up.
I can't close my eyes, I wait for my demise.
Sleep deprivation, sleep disorder.
The torture makes me wonder.
We as human beings are not bullies
we enjoy experiences that we wanna do.
Individuals.
We shall not devote our life to morbid self attentions.
We are angels.
Individuals.
We shall not devote our life to morbid self attentions.
Lets love those near and dear home
Hear the sound of crying drifting in my brain,
elevator prozac going insane.
Dislocated daybreak hangs around my neck.
Pale against the canvas, get ready for a change.
I feel a hole inside my body.
I want to go where insects hide the silence.
I wake up to see all the long faces, leaving traces of
broken hopes.
Life leaves shortcuts of happy trails,
history is the only thing that can take care of us.
I sleep on a concrete bed,
wake up to see all the long faces leaving traces of
Group of friends making music together,
all personalities combined.
Shines from our faces,
focused like men who climb high mountains.
It´s our fraternity, our creation.
Dedicated to one another but sometimes hating each other.
A glance at the music scene that we take part in is a big
fraternity rock.
It´s our rock, our frat rock.
Independant but dependant to the people.
A brotherhood not like Hollywood.
When it´s fake we hear a click of high heels,
when it´s real we know it´s all worth while.
Going through that open door
Where pleasure´s running wild and sore,
i want to find myself a little love, but i find cherubs
with big old horns.
the plan has failed to kill the love inside my heart.
I will not lie to my burning flesh and soul.
Do it today, got to do it!
Lie to myself, lie to my soul.
Love comes like a bright/bad idea,
we can´t revolt or run away.
The hunt is my favorite part,
just like it´s the animals instinct to seek a partner.
The plan has failed, to kill the love inside my heart.
I will not lie to my burning flesh and soul.
Do it today, got to do it today!
Going through that open door where pleasure is running
wild inside my head.
I want to find myself a little love, but i find cherubs
I saw my life in the arctic, I do not know when I'll be
home.
Where all my dreams will come true,
use all my strength to find the love that's gone.
I'll find me there it's not that far.
I do not fear the arctic world.
I saw my life in the structure, I do not know when I'll
be home.
I fell through my own eyes all this waiting.
I'll find me there it's not that far.
Look whats behind me
Very little sex contol
i hope no one finds me
so I can stand here all alone
in this conviction
of this sentemental written code
it keeps me so,
stranded broken down on my own
is this all that I have to do(just when no one hears you)
Take me home and I'll sleep with you
can what happen to me hurt you(even with you here)
I dont think so
i heard a sound It turned the sky maroon
I shut my eyes and they were glued
Im seeing figures in pictures very rare
though I'm honestly no where but you still dont care
I'm stranded broken down on my own
is this all that I have to do (I still dont think that Im strong enough)
Take me home and I'll sleep with you (to take you home so I could )
can what happen to me hurt you
I dont think so'
i was wrong to think you'd lie like that
and hear you say you hate me this way
I didn't think that everything would be so bad
I was wrong
stranded broken down on my own
is this all that I have to do
Take me home and I'll sleep with you
can what happen to me hurt you
I dont think so
if i can not decide what i will wake up and look like
the rest of my day is spent tearing me in my departments
left no choice but to do what i didn't think was possible
anchord reality finds me bothered in peices.
enemy decides who i will be
now i'm penalized and lost
can't find the end of me
i've got one life to live in this world i've sinned in.
charred, broken yellow teeth softened kiss seduces me
can be that easily taken by what is left to see
i know my inner pride is cause for my skin to hive
damaged behaivor leaves me no room for mercy.
enemy decides who i will be
now i'm penalized and lost
can't find the end of me
i've got one life to live in this world i've sinned in.
i've got one you don't
you let them know
i'm tired
i see you
you're a liar
you felt good.
enemy decides who iwill be
now i'm penalized and lost
can't find the end of me
i've got one life to live in this world i've sinned in.
can't find the end of me
can't find the end of me
can't find the end of me
can't see the enemy.
out from the aisle
you looked up and smiled at me
we both need denial
to move away the pieces that we broke
stepped inside to find out
hope was low should have known
its alright i'll swear to control you
i'll let you know.
if i finally saved you
would you have home to run to
if i tried to blame you
i'm sorry love.
looked into her eyes
i was scared that i would never face the day
where i seek to find a third kind a trial
you left me in the door.
if i finally saved you
would you have home to run to
if i tried to blame you
i'm sorry love.
each time i reached out you refused me
more, more
each time i reached out i got cut out
i'll be your savior.
if i finally saved you
would you have home to run to
if i tried to blame you
i'm sorry love.
looked in o her eyes
i was scared that i would never face the day
where i seek to find a third kind a trial
i'll be your savior.
each time i reached out you refused me
more, more
each time i reached out i got cut out
i'll be your savior
if i finally saved you
would you have home to run to
if i tried to blame you
i'm sorry love.
blissful wishes, floating in the clouds
i see ambition killing us i've found
justified decisions knocking me down
can't stop this piston, flooded engine.
distant misses common excuses
captured a glisten of a smile that makes me smile
now i've looked all around me
and i am still deciding
who has listened to the strength in my sanity.
i know this is not alot, it comes two fold
and i'll swallow every drop, it's like strictnine
mixed with cyanide.
i thought i tried
i lost my mind.
so pure, not so, so sure i will go
good intention for bad predictions
i thought i tried
thought you'd remember me from two days for two weeks
you laughed and i smiled my heart can't forget now
i lost my mind
i thought i tried.
one time not silent
the one next to you is not the one to blame
come we're all sitting here in a circle of shit
a million miles of shit
covering the ground.
the love you plan, it still erases.
i know this is not alot, it comes two fold
and i'll swallow every drop, It's like strictnine
mixed with cyanide
i know i believe in God
it shows too slow but
you're all i've got
cause it still feels good to be different.
different from you, i thought you knew
i tried my hardest to keep you alive
thought you would be honest, thought you would be true
but it all turns my way it all turns to gray
nothing to left to say, nothing to say.
colors so sad it will make you cry, lost in the innocense i'm lost in you.
stumbled and fell down
nothing left to do but look around us in the end
we look for something to use
we look for something shove
some we take as its handed
some we take for granted
but some weren't lucky enough
some weren't blessed enough to be standing on the line
inside and everyone
as their name is called
this is a roll call
this is a roll call.
tell me what is real
tell me what's the difference
everything is shit
just like your pale face
scared by the vision of everything
turning to fire underneath your blisters
everything is shit.
did you expect to get a piece of change
follow a little close to me
'cause dangerous lies won't tell you a story if you would carry a leather string
in your pocket is bothering
my conscience is slowly seeping thru my brain
but close who you want to love
don't trust in me just leave as you will
cleanse your power cleanse my leash.
i beg to differ your ways to stay sane complain about your stupid father,
screech your voice and lose the choice to move freely by the book when my
eyes glare red.
release me i'm so far away from heaven i need you near,
but breathe red and murky air, i don't think i want to swear caus'.
you're not your mother's child.
i beg to differ your ways to stay sane complain about your stupid father,
screech your voice and lose the choice to move freely by the book when my
eyes glare red.
it hit you
were delivering beat downs
you must be kidding me
i'd jump all over you
bleeding from your face onto the microphone
i know what i know cause the strain let loose a long time ago.
don't understand what you said, so foreign. make me hate you when you talk
that way. disbeleiver has to deliver you, break it down until
it's resin. close my eyes and clench my senses.
i beg to differ your ways to stay sane complain about your stupid father,
screech your voice and lose the choice to move freely by the book when my
eyes glare red.
there are signs in my life telling me to stop and look around
i can't hide them. they're showing up all the time
tell one more wicked lie trying to disguise myself
all those little things are the same in my fathers eye's.
this time i know you won't let me go
so open your eyes and.
remove this blindfold. could you see thru the crease in the side
dirty blindfold caused the infection you desired
all this time we ask why must we die
you said jesus saved us, that he'll be here by our sides.
this time i know you won't let me go
so open your eyes and cry on me i'm in need
this time i know you won't let me fold
so open your eyes and cry on me i'm in need.
i'll be mad if you use her
i'm so much less of something more
velvet covers over your sores
sleep so nicely when everyone's unseen.
i'm given
i have been given much more than i realize
slowing me down to one fucking step at a time
wasting away until the end of days
my past has shattered and melted out of phase
now i'm trying to be true to myself, not disguise myself in a ministry
conceited vibes dismember me
break off away never got back begin
never said freestylin was the way till the end.
(sitting here i'm nowhere wasting a day as four years
i guess i'll cry).
this time i know you won't let me go
so open your eyes and cry on me i'm in need
this time i know you won't let me fold
so open your eyes and cry on me it's just an understanding.
waste a day thru feeling so bad
i'm tired of getting nowhere
i'm letting this go, this feeling i've had
it takes more than i have to give.
i'm so enlightend by your mystery
a question eats me up inside
each time i look into the sky
I can't see a thing.
the way that ifelt
what's wrong and what's right
failed the meaning every time
came in swifty but you didn't give me
a chance to think it over.
comfort me i'm cold
i'm so enlightened by your mystery
follow in your own
you spirit fills me up inside
each time i let you in my life
i feel everything.
how can i know
do i ask? of course i do
these questions i can't awnser
can you?
comfort me i'm cold
i'm so enlightened by your mystery
follow in your own
you spirit lifts me up inside
each time i let you in my life
i feel everything.
feel something like a weakness deep inside
one weighs stronger than the other something like
wrong emotions setting free and fear i can't love
one tear, a river drowns me. one bad principle
all this shit must keep you seeing black and white
my god is taking over say you're sorry.
three feet deep a piece of you is staring at this
seem skin deep, my smiling's only a piece relied on
selfish solving, base revolving.
self sufficent, educated idiot
took too much and measured out
not too conscious, not too bored
just to realize it soils you
pieces of this, you can't describe it
a beautiful lie on all five sides of it.
shut up, great disaster.
let down, with resistance.
get out when you come around
let down, i'm allowed to say
this is just a dream,
just a flaw in the seams
touching ground
touching everything.
I'm not for sale to my families expectations.
I feel left out.
I will not hide from my emotions that I keep inside.
Be my own prophet, be my own son, be the one who doesn't
love.
Shake hands, make friends, got to hide your toubles in
the bag.
I'm not for sale to my families expectations.
I feel left out.
I will not hide from my emotions that I keep inside.
He was the light of our lives.
Very popular in school.
Handled things with grace and humor.
He had a wisdom that was intimidating.
He had the looks of a model and the personality
of a Saturday Night Live character.
Early that morning he left a aprty and drove
his Plymouth to wooded area.
Then he took a 12 gauge shotgun.
Placed the barrel under his chin and
squeesed the trigger.
He wondered if he killed himself,who would care
then he broke down in tears.
He walked into a pawnshop nearby his home and
purchased the instrument of his death.
"He hated guns"one clue to darker state of mind.
mouth of depleted is nothing caught
the trap concealed in a restless plot
read fix equation no artificial sum
minus addition is nothing
PAINCONTACTBACKWARDPAIN
acting perception shaping thought undone
learned taught behavior a brainwashed hum
sucking the savior suck the bottle fed gone
minus addition is nothing
PAINCONTACTBACKWARDPAIN
street smart defeated caught knife in back
childproof eviction trained falling through cracks
duel with conviction who fought won lost
minus addition is nothing
PAINCONTACTBACKWARDPAIN
My name is cocaine, call me coke for short.
I entered this country without a passport.
Ever since then I've made lots of scum rich.
Some have been murdered and found in a ditch.
I'm more valued than diamonds, more treasured than gold.
Use me just once and you too will be sold.
I'll make a schoolboy forget all his books.
I'll make a beauty queen forget all her looks.
I'll take renowned speaker and make a bore.
I'll take a mother and make her a whore.
My name is cocaine, cocaine.
I'll make you rob,steal and kill.
When you're under my power you'll have no will.
I've destroyed actors and many a hero.
I've decreased bank accounts from millions to zero.
I'll make shooting and stabbing a common affair.
Once I take charge you won't have a prayer.
I'll make a school teacher not want to teach.
I'll make a preacher not want to preach.
I'll take your rent money and you'll get evicted.
I'll murder your babies or they'll be born addicted.
Now that you know what will you do?
You'll have to decide it's all up to you.
The day you agree to sit in my saddle.
The decision is one that no one can straddle.
Listen to me and please listen well,
when you ride with cocaine you're headed straight for
Here is the world they'll try to sell you
Here is the ache barbiturate
They'll have your eyes and they will hang your view
So high
Minus the world we'd find forgiveness
Minus the world she'd find herself
Minus the walls, she wouldn't hang her view
So low
White of their eyes
Shadow and plague
Those creatures we portray
Born into this
Unbearable mess
This bankruptcy they and I have left
Paradox, conundrum, irony
Minus need you are going cold
Minus belief we are growing old
Minus our fears she is outspoken
Minus our hands she is clean
Budding filth, we destroy purity once conceived
Sorrow and shame
Tangled and maimed
Indebted endlessly
Heir to the day
Of depravity
She'll have to make believe tranquility
Here is the world they'll try to sell you
Here is the ache habituate
They'll have your eyes and they will hang your view
So high
Minus the world we find forgiveness
Minus the world she finds herself
Minus the wars/walls, she wouldn't hang her view
So low
Why did their eyes shadow and plague those creatures we portray?
Born into this unvariable mess, this bankruptcy - her and I have left
Paradox can un numb on me
Minus greed
You are growing cold
Minus belief
We are growing old
Minus our fears she is outspoken
Minus our hands she is clean
But in filth we destroy purity
Who's words conceived?
Sorrow and shame tingle and mend and get it endlessly
End of the day of diprevidation of make believe tranquillity
Minus the world we leave
Minus the world we live