TELL ME that I am not wasting my time sitting in this room alone
TELL ME that 1000 men with 1000 torches could not take what is in our hearts
TELL ME that this is still for the kids, by the kids, about the fucking kids
TELL ME that we have not become just as cheap as everyone else
TELL ME the loud guitars backed by loud ideals is still what we're all about
TELL ME that beauty is more than who you are on the outside
TELL ME that a word like "unity" is not just ink spilled out on the page
TELL ME that there is so much more, so much worth screaming our heads off for
It's your turn... I wanna hear it
It's your turn... You gotta yell it
Before I throw my arms up and walk right out that door
'Cause to tell you the truth, I am not all that sure
How much longer my voice can hold out for
TELL ME that this is still for the kids, by the kids, about the fucking kids
TELL ME that we have not become just as broken as everything else
the last thing that i want to do right now
is scream one more line
about the words that fall from your mouth
landing somewhere just short of my feet
some long, sad, boring list of let downs
that i have talked about a thousand times before
some spark i thought i saw in you
needed to see in you
wished i could see in you
but was just a damn bluff
i threw away aces and you showed me deuces
the key is having the guts to raise with
the second highest hand
i have spent so much time
folding bad cards and eating my words
i've said some awful things to some real good people
that now i no longer have a problem admitting when i am wrong
and can just sit back and wait for the next deal to come
and if the worst thing in my life
is long-ass rides and hug filled good-byes
and i can still be mystified
by pretty smiles, crushes and mix tapes
then i guess things really aren't so bad
and i have never known much about silver linings
but i can look around this van and see
five faces that breath life into me
kings full of jacks
splash my chips across the table
take my shot
Today won't be like yesterday
The bell tolls for an hour straight
Screaming mothers chase their children down
Fathers tear out their eyes
As the city topples to the ground
Outside the streets are in a panic
Truth sellers jump from tall, tall ledges
No sign of Christ with a sword in his mouth
Beneath the blood red sky I'll sit and laugh with you tonight
This is a promise I made to you
I'll be right there
I'll be right next to you
When the trumpets blare the loudest and cannons roar
All the trains that once came for you
Spill off the tracks floor
All your horrors they multiply
And you realize your fears
I'll block your ears with both of my hands
Kiss away the tears
When the armageddon's been locked and loaded
Who was it who asked about the last mile being the hardest mile
Trying not to spend more time looking back
There's still a bit more to go
Can't stop measuring strike outs to home runs
Trying to justify these compromises that have piled up and dulled my blade
Maybe we stayed too long didn't say enough, swing hard enough
The years just sort of ran away
And the ones that follow won't be as fun
I'll never love anything else the way that I loved this
So you know its not gonna be so easy
To just let go
But the credits they will roll
It's getting harder and harder
To give too much of my body and soul to a mess overrun by morons and thugs
Who's only purpose is to break this, not hard enough to make it
Fighting on their own
We stand bound and gagged as they pee on our rug
The end result of not a single motherfucker willing to take the hard road
Makes it that much easier to watch as the...
Doors swing slowly shut
Then there are those I'll carry with me forever, live deep in my chest
Watched as you took your last breath on that floor in Wilkes-Barre
The room loved you so deeply our hearts broke as you faded
And I can never repay the lesson you left me as we rolled out of town that night
Not a thought in my head of beginnings or endings
Make the most of these days while they are still unfolding
Holding this moment in the palm of my hands
This thing still means so much to me
Beliefs that have stood the test of time
A force that surrounds us
Penetrates us
Binds us all together
These days belong to us
It's in the things that we said
All that it meant
Ideals that won't fade
And every effort made
And it's much more so much more than just fucking clothes
It's in the way that you cannot sit still
Chewing on words but spitting out actions
Fire the fire that burns so deep inside
What have you done
Look at what you have done
Screaming words of venom
Right in your daughters face
Take the time to show her
That all her thoughts were wrong
Shape her in your image
Just as somebody did to you
And if this is how you do it
When you're right in front of me
I can not imagine what must go down at home
Never got a chance
That kid was doomed right at the gate
I stand and watch you ruin that poor little girl
In the middle of the street
And since I can't put a bullet right in your hateful face
I turn my back and walk away and hope there is a hell
And soon she'll know just how to use words that cripple
That cripple like a gun
So for the first four months it was bad
And certainly best for you that I didn't
Carry a gun or know where you lay your head at night
And it was not her as everyone had thought
But you, how easily you were able to turn away
From all that we were
Those things that you said
Admit it, your words they came as cheap as your breath
And with even less meaning, you selfish fuck
The next time that you tell me that you love me
Please look me in the eye so that I can see the twitch
And I will fight to keep my balance
Pray to hold my temper
Ten years of history traded away for a nickel and
The world's most crooked grin
You would not know 'nobility' if it jumped right up
And punched you in the face
And this rock won't turn to a butterfly
No matter how hard I squeeze
But I will face it while you look the other way
Face it (Always facing it)
I believe that it's the only way
So many moments wasted on you and this rage
Waiting for the dust to settle
Or these tears to dry or the axe to fall
How did I not know that your words meant less than dust
And were born of an idea that you had heard but having
Nothing in common with truth or with trust
Everything that you swore so quickly snatched away
And me left without a heart and nothing to hold onto
But still so much to feel
While my house burned down you didn't bring water but gasoline
And all I ever hated rose right up and bled through you
Now I can only regret every moment that we spent
Every second we shared only makes matters worse
For I have seen the truth behind the sparkle in your eyes
I finally see the ugly behind your pretty disguise
Now I can't stop wishing that you had never looked my way
And you have the nerve to ask me why
Why the fuck did you tell me about magic and then
Show me the strings
Why did you whisper that your heart was in my teeth
When that was the first place that you kicked me as
I lay helpless on the ground
Yes all that once was has turned to the blackest of hate
Instead of wishing you the best
I will be rooting for you to fall
As I learn the most painful lesson of all
That a lie is a lie is a lie is a lie
Welcome to the day that you opened your eyes
So wide that it nearly took your life away
And you are finally seeing all the things
That you have been missing
Could it really be that you have been so blind
Or just merely looking the other way
Today the world comes into focus
And the hardest truth that you have ever known
Grabs you by the throat
There never was a light at the end of the tunnel
The tunnel you have been trapped in all these years
And one simple answer cuts down all of your questions
And two and two suddenly makes five
And it's a revelation that you can no longer hide from
You are falling, sinking, drowning, burning in lies
(There is nothing left for you to hold onto)
You've found the landmine with your foot
And your world is about to flip upside down
Falling lower than you've ever been
You will have to fight to ever get up again
It's uglier than it's ever been
This World
But it's yours now and you finally know
What you are up against
It's up to you to take it
This World
You stick out your tongue and taste the rain
Because there will be no going home again
This is the hollow point
The truth that you've been searching for
All these long years
All the horror that you've uncovered
With you now and forever more
The bullet that tears right through you
Leaves you broken
Scarred for life
All the lies that your teachers told you
All the things your parents said
Soaked through with gasoline
Gun shots echo through your head
This world will run right through you
[Nick/All:]
So I lay awake another hour
Just like the one before
The shadows play a game with my head
I can't take this anymore
[Brian:]
I hear the sound
Of my own breathing
It makes me miss you more
[Chorus (mainly AJ):]
Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
When the damage has all been done
I don't wanna be somewhere
Where you can watch me as I bleed
Just leave me here in pieces
In pieces
[Nick/All:]
I can't take the chance
Of running into
You running into me
So lock the door
And close the window
I just wanna see
[Brian:]
Until the day
Inside my future
When I'll be on my feet
[Repeat Chorus]
[AJ:]
If you want you can find me
On the dark side of the sun
Babe I don't wanna see what we've become
The damage has all been done
[Chorus II:]
Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
Wake me up when it's over
When the damage has all been done
The damage is done
I don't wanna be somewhere
I don't wanna be somewhere
Where you can watch me as I bleed
Leave me here in pieces
Just leave me in pieces
Just leave me in pieces
Just wake me up when it's over (in pieces)
hey listen.
yeah i just got one thing to say.
i wanna talk about something that means a f**king lot to me.
it's a matter of pride the way that i feel when there's betrayal.
where the f**k is your head man?
and just how much does this mean to you?
what does this mean to you?
it's my life.
it's my solid rock.
it's the one truth that i can beleive.
commited to myself, committed to you
it's a matter of pride the way that i feel when there's betrayal.
it hurts so bad every time i have to see that shit!
am i the only one left?
my friends told me i should let it ride.
i feel stronger inside.
I can still see the reasons
that I opened my eyes to this scene in the first place.
I can still feel my beleifs growing stronger - stronger everyday.
I can still count the ways but for you its all over.
The feeling is gone and you're moving on
and tearing us down with you.
You've shed your past.
Grown up fast, demanding that we all mature at your pace.
But here I'll remain refusing to change remembering
when we were the same I support your decision,
I believe in change and hope you find just what it is that you are looking for.
But when you sit around and talk shit about everything
that you once based your whole life on,
well that is where you can count me out.
Because I will be here tomorrow, and I will be here next
Can we start again
Go back to what it meant back then
Open minds and open hearts
The things that set us apart
Was it more than words
And do they still apply
Do you still believe
Well so do I
I was a 15 year old kid
With nowhere to fit in
I just wanted to skate
Listen to my Suicidal tape
When someone told me about a place
Where the brave were accepted
And judged by what's inside
A scene of truly open minds
Somewhere, somehow everything has changed
Look at what we've gotten ourselves caught up in
The same mindless clicks
The same highschool shit
All the walls you scream about breaking down
I've watched you build brick by brick
Do you still believe - I do
Look beyond the 3 chords that fill your lives
Look beyond the gossip and the lies
Beyond the dullest of outsides
Look beyond
Try harder
See what's inside
This burning in my heart
Born under the same songs that you know
But our blood will never blend
(play the fife lowly)
i just cannot stop
asking why, always why
running and running
wandering and wondering
no matter how many years fly by
screaming "who, what and when"
like some crazed eight year old
who needs to know everything
in a world so filled with nothing
running and running
towards one ounce of proof
things that will not crumble at the slightest touch
you tell me who the hell i抦 gonna trust
i can抰 stand looking at grown-ups
never mind trust them
loud and proud laughing at things that are not funny
chewing happily on what is left
of this cold, gray, flawed world
i just gotta keep right on running
away from it all
towards tears born from lesson
towards dreams instead of dollars
half my age and stupidly brave
慶uz anything is better than lying in some comfortable deathbed
staring into the abyss
as afraid of living as i am of not living
though one time i awoke
and could still feel the cold steel of a sword
your garbage it is growing
and your weapons and rebellions
were charged on daddy's card
to all your baffled looks
we didn't choose to do this the hard way
but we scream our lungs and we raise our glasses
to all the girls, and all the boys
with the first five minutes of a war always at their sides
(and like the man said...)
"i fall asleep with pen in hand there's something
you should know"
and all your guts and all your goals
came in the shiny promo package
knew how this would end before you bled for the beginning
strike a pose
so when you get off your happy little bus
with your happy little smiles
with your happy little instruments that never go out of tune
we will be fucking up and missing words
following you in a van that we had to beg to start
and of course we're fucking angry
and of course we're tired and ugly
it's not all a sunny Sunday
(and like the man said...)
"you can take a road that takes you to the stars
Would you believe that the last time these skinned knees healed
It no longer amazed me like it used to and I hate to say it but...
Things they suddenly made a simple kind of sense
The horror, the mad ness, the helplessness of it all
That there is indeed beauty as well as blood
In life's ocean of disasters
These shattered dreams and dead promises
Will not stand forever like graves
But one day grow legs and slowly walk away
In between the tornadoes and stomped on untrue love letters
There will be those shining gentle moments
Like the last page in your favorite book or
How badly I miss my mother
But how much I've come to love my father
And you scream that it's been forever since
You witnessed blue skies
But trust me when I say that yes
This too will pass
It will quiet
Literally nothing stays the same
Just look to the clouds and you shall see
Always changing forever moving on again and again
("i've gone out the window")
i raise this broken halo to the sky
this is the storm that strands me here
stopped waiting for a golden ship to rescue me
this is the only age that i know how to be
still make pretend that i'm in the movie of my life
stopped looking for a key that opens all the doors
these broken fingers keep me from holding on too tight
i turned and looked away from the angels face
still stomp through puddles - the world spins beneath my feet
stopped waiting for a golden ship to rescue me
never wanted to know just what will happen next
i wonder how you can stand knowing what
each new day will bring
i think about art and i think about madness
are truly joined at the hip?
was it Van Gogh who was crazy or the world that is crazy?
if i could touch the face of the gods i'd trade my ear
i ran all the way home
to read the words carved in cement by my house
(it says) "live the life that you love - love the life that you live"
but i'd rather have a penny for every time it told me "NO"
i shoot these flaming arrows at the flag
and say deny, deny, deny if that's what gets you through
like that night that we ran through the Audi dealership
smashing windshields
an absolutely pointless and immature act
but it quieted our minds
at a time when everyone and everything (the setting sun) was asking:
"why are we here?"
...and did i mention that there are still those days
where i can hardly lift my head up from the pillow
or looking out the window of the plane
rooting for disaster
sometimes i just run out of reasons
but the clock keeps ticking and the minutes keep coming
and all i can do is rise to slaughter the hours
let the air out of these days
killing time
staring into corners or at strands of her hair
waiting for the call that tells me where to next
wishing i could trade these stupid words
for hollow point shells
before every move that I make equals check-mate
did i just say her?
this song is not for her
no matter what i've said or longed for
or that her name still moves along these walls
lives in this pen
(i've made promises)
this song is for Buk, for 'Trane, for Wes, and for Marty
who keep their barrels oiled and ready
the few that I would trade ten days to spend one hour with
rare like a ruby at the bottom of the sea
we are only brave enough to fight the battles already won for us
and spend more time with our hair than we do our minds
while the girls and the young and the lost
are kicked off to the side
our armies in fractions because our kings are so foolish
we will never know true victory and are happy just to survive
to live to dance another day
still clinging to those golden - olden days
while our mouths sweep the mess to the back of our minds
nothing ever changing as we all grow older
nothing ever changing as our hearts grow colder
that's what holds us down
out on the road little boys let their beards grow
oh so busy talking about the things that we don't know
all done worrying about the things we used to be
(i'm too busy finding out what i'm gonna be)
and finding weapons of mass destruction
to combat this boredom that claws at my eyes, my ears
no longer can i worry about whether these words
have touched you or failed you...
fuck, you're too busy bitching about
clothes that do not fit
"so play the violins"
i'll keep getting in the van
worry about money for the rest of my life
just so that you can have this to talk about
our time is to spend time with you
and if you don't want it well that's fine too
walk right out that door
this room was growing cold with you
this room that is my home
and i cannot
and i must not
and i will not
let clean shaven boys that all look the same
I can't believe how tightly
You can shut your eyes
Mouth open wide your words say more
Than any text book could
I've never seen nothing
Take up so much space
Your wisdom rings hollow
It's just some shit that your drunk father
Nailed into your head when you were ten
He stomped on your mind
You could not bridge the gap
Between you and me
Some things are better left unsaid
But I can't just smile - nod my head when
I should be screaming - Screaming at the sun
So I waste my fucking time beating my head
Against brick fucking walls
Sharing words with you
Just one quick glance was all that it took
Trapped in your stare of judgement
As we pass each other on the street
And I look into your robot eyes as you make your careful calculations
I choke on your perfume as you file me into lower class
The moment stretches as I hear the cries of everyone
That you have stepped on so many throats
Bled dry to get to who you are today
A lifetime spent swinging the sharpest of knives
Oh how I'd like to take it all away
One twitch of the finger one moment of heart felt compassion
Break you wide open
Stare straight through your center
A lifetime spent with so little sweat
That nothing in you grew nothing but vanity and twisted wires
From a rusted heart that slightly resembles a cash register
Just one look that says it all
While you figure out just what I'm worth
And that's the best that you've got
That and a thousand dollar handbag
How'd I like to wash it all away
There is a middle in you somewhere
Break it open
For the world to see one quick beautiful violent motion
A lifetime spent swinging the sharpest of knives
There are no words
Nothing can ever be said
To make sense of the exit that you made
Or this sadness forced on our lap
Left us struck with these haunting questions
Where are all the beautiful answers
Where is the button to push that takes it all back
I should have been there
Crossed burning bridges to meet you
Where was I when you ran out of walls to punch
And I know that you wouldn't want us to blame ourselves
Or anything but the world
And that your actions well they were never tender
But still nothing prevails like the emptiness
Of a world forever without you
I can still see the way that your teeth showed
When you smiled
Hear the sound of your guitar
I think of the things that should have given
You the strength to go on
The horror of our last words
Still ringing in my ears
Anything we would've done
Anything to keep you around
Sometimes you just can't keep
The madness at bay alone
We have all been there before
Will not back down now
I've got no place else to run and hide to
Have come too far to buckle now
Can't lay this one down to the likes of you
And I don't say that with some bullshit sense of pride
I need you to know that I'm not done screaming
About whether or not your foot has the right
To be in some kids face
WIll not back down now
I've got no place else to run and hide to
Have come too far to buckle now
Can't lay this one down to the likes of you
And if that's the case
Then I say arm us all
And we'll get this asshole contest
Right under way
But it would be just like you to drag your keyboard to a gunfight
And so long after the smoke had cleared
I stood there all night as if you had so much to say
Instead of running home lion tail between your legs
Crying about the little needle stuck in your paw
I don't give a fuck if my words have grown old
I've never been so willing to see a relationship fray
I don't give a fuck how thin this ice has become
Lord of deception, implicating dark thoughts in your head
A false conception, breeding hate, the darkest thread
There's nothing you cando, just succumb to his own will
Your action's his when you do his work and you kill for thrills
Nothing stops your actions, evil seeds are in your mind
Perpetual destruction, breeds the newbord child
Master of all that is, it's real, so real
Inside you he exists, bringing you closer to the dark abyss
Involuntary, obsessing dark thoughts in your mind
Hereditary, roots that breed a race so blind
Step inside my child, feel my power coming to
Step inside my child, and let me take control of you
Nothing stops your actions, nothing's in ou rway
Perpetual destruction, I'm here to stay
Master of all that is, it's real, so real
Inside you he exists, bringing you closer to the dark abyss
Lord of deception, implicating dark thoughts in your head
A false conception, breeding hate, the darkest thread
There's nothing you cando, just succumb to his own will
Your action's his when you do his work and you kill for thrills
Nothing stops your actions, nothing's in ou rway
Perpetual destruction, I'm here to stay
Master of all that is, it's real, so real
Inside you he exists, bringing you closer to the darkness
Master of all that is, it's real, so real
In the dead of the night, shadows work in the land
It strikes deepest fright to the village of man
Digging hollow graves in the full moon's light
Pale colored slaves in the black of midnight
No one daring to approach them, soon be forgotten
Long lost bonds of brotherhood, SHATTERED IN THE SAND again and again
Souls of injustice, roam about the Earth
Flames of sin, consume their sacred birth
Automatic scapegoat, witches running for their lives
Random chosen people hiding from paradise
One by one disappearing, shadows numbers are increasing
Innocent for innocent blod, GHOSTS OF THE PAST have come to haunt them
Once again man brings out his end
Demons clothed in the skin of the dead
Pastory why have you turned your back on us
Help us but it's already too late
Pastor I'm scared I don't want to die
(They're coming) Please save me
What have I done?
This never should have happened
How could a man such as me do this
Kept it all inside
Sacrificed my only child
This is my therapy
You breathe life into me
My only sanity
Within these walls is where I'm free
Square peg, round hole
Faces come and faces go
There is so little cast in stone
Regarding life, luck, loss, love
But there is one thing that I know for sure
These are the only crowded rooms
Because of these days I'll never have nothing at all
Because of these times there's only so far I can fall
There will always be a place, there will be a crowded room
Where I'm not all alone
The years have come and multiplied
So much of me has been washed out with the tide
Still there's nowhere else
That I'd rather be
Drawn in like a moth to a flame
Without these days I'd have gone insane
So many hearts pinned to so many sleeves
Within these blessed walls
You have set me free
There is no mistake, that I'm not free to make
Again- again left with this lesson that is not mine to learn
Tears regret and painful questions it smashes your spine
Steals all that time
And takes the eyes right out of your head
But we don't point a finger
Nobody says a word
But it rips us apart
That old man I looked up to
Passed out on the floor
That stupid crazy motherfucker
Taking all those lives
The one the love my mother
Poisoned from inside
What it did to me ripped us apart
And you how did it get to you
The smartest of us all
It knocked you down and beat you up
But neither you or it would ever let it go
I'm in the big blind
With an average stack and an aggressive image
The four seat limps right after me never a good sign
He's been beating up the table showing down strong cards all night
The maniac in the nine throws in another raise he loves to raise
Confusing foolishness for courage and swinging on the vine
I peek at my cards
And decide I'm gonna defend the four seat does the same
And we all buckle in for our favorite ride
I'm first to act and bet the pot hoping to win it right then and there
But the four seat calls and the maniac folds
And I'm out of position with a lowly pair of two's
The dealer burns and turns
It is in this half second where life becomes perfect
The mind a weapon
Tomorrow's worries and yesterdays mistakes they crumble and fall away
For now I'm on the wire
I check, the four bets
The trap snaps shut as I push my whole stack into the middle
He shakes his head to let me know
He doesn't have those dreaded pocket eights
And sighs, "I have to call"
The river comes that sexy, sexy Ace of spades
And all is well in the world
Now you wanna take a good man down?
Send him back to his wallet to steam off another five hundred
Poison my mind with your never ending lies
Corrupt my soul with your pollution cry
I'm losing my faith with all of humanity
I can't stop but wonder what you put...
Into my mind!
Twisting truth to your conventional reality
Force-feeding me with your pointless hypocrisy
Dost my world's shattered into a little puppetry
Don't you think I know the hate you put...
Into my mind!
Liar! You bastard deceiving twisted mind
Creator, you traitor, the most unholy kind
Death is the price you pay for your crimes
Mislead the jury they had to decide
No more shall I play your mindless little games
Never again be a puppet put to shame
I know the truth now, it'll never be the same
I give back all the shit that you put...
Into my mind!
Hey, I was just thinking that maybe you don't need to waste
Some of the best days of your lives, trying so hard to abide
By some preset list of rules
Talking about conviction
When you haven't even been convinced of anything yet
Just stressing about letting down all of your friends
It's like having your mom pick out your clothes for you
You're still too young to know where you stand on anything yet
And there is nothing wrong with that
It might be kinda fun to get to know yourself a little while
Take a left at every fork, stare into every cloud
On the journey to find what's in your heart the only thing to be united
With is that pulsing in your veins
But seriously, fuck all that for awhile
What's the point of being a kid
If you are not gonna run wild and break every stupid rule
Even the ones that make those bands seem cool
You might as well hang out in church
Mark my words
There's still so much that you have yet to learn
Your strongest beliefs, the ones that will see you through
Will come to you when least expected
They can't be forced, will not be shaped to fit
Truth does not come when called
And if you're only young once and these days, they move so fast
Why would you waste one second of them
Falling in line, following rules
It sounds so simple but I know it's fucking hard
It's gonna take a little while to find out exactly who you are
But then maybe the day won't come
When you have to turn your back
On all those things that you once stood for
Left behind like an old pile of shirts
I've seen it happen so many times before
Spit in the face of a sacred oath
Un... dos... tres... quatro!
My lord I've lived for you, these tears I beg for you
Cut these chains off me, my lord please set me free
My mind is so tired, my flesh is so tattered
My life in the fire, is covered by wires
Don't feel, don't kill for your own pleasure
My will, your thrill, my body is your temple
Never will I see the light of day
Ramtha has crawled deep within my soul
I have seen far more beyond oblivion
To hold what no man can ever hold
This ain't what I had to be, doing your dirty deeds
Kiss these tears goodbye, oh lord, will I die?
Is this my mistake? My soul at the stake
How come you cannot see, that I'll never be...
Your slave, my grave is in your hands
Tame me, death be to the promised land
Never will I see the light of day
Ramtha has crawled deep within my soul
I have seen far more beyond oblivion
To hold what no man can ever hold
My eyes have seen so much, my hands long to touch
What keeps us here
Is a few shining lights
Who brighten our paths
Whenever we roll through
Its more than music
Not part of some crew
It won't last forever
But it's thicker than blood
The best reason I can think of to have come all this way
What keeps us here
Is bonds that we share
From so far away
Throughout all the years
So few decisions
Will ever cost you more
Than those who you choose
To place in your trust
Consider your friends
The best reason I can think of to have come all this way
You are what this means to me
You crouched in the corner
Rolling dice before the show
With a smile and a hug
"I've been counting down the days"
The hours fly right by, so we stay up all night
Talking movies, talking life
Remembering where we came from
All that's changed, but you've remained
Probably never shoulda even opened my mouth
And I had no right to say what anything meant to you
I'm still trying to figure out what it all meant to me
We all know sometimes I speak too quickly
Been known for choosing all the wrong words
Seems I wasn't very careful when traveling back in time
Remembering how I'd wished we coulda burned a little bit brighter
The second time around
I was holding out for something greater
Than broken slogans, empty sing-alongs
I still do
It's still not
Maybe it woulda been easier if I was less honest
When giving the answers Lord knows can be so hard to hear
Like the older we get the less that there seems to be worth fighting for
Don't you think that makes me sad too? But I was just reciting bacic math
Same tired words
Familiar let downs
I could not help but see all those lines that you were drawing in the sand
Would blow away at the slightest wind
But I have been giving it some thought and I have decided
That I'm not sorry, not sorry, not sorry about nothing
And I never shoulda named names when it wasn't you
But all the faces, all the ideas, bands that came and went and came again
Just could not find the patience to differentiate
But based on your reaction the lesson still remains
Bonds built on words don't mean a thing to me
And with friendships like ours who needs friendships anyway
I didn't then
Reasons not rules
Six simple words
A wise man sang to me
So many years ago
Stood by me through
All of life's changes
The only advice that I have to give
You go on without me I'll hold right here.
That gleam in your eyes, it still fills me with fear.
The more you see that I'm not like the others
the harder you try to take my hand in yours.
Cold grey and callous, reaching out for me.
Whatever's over that that hill, it scares the fuck out of me.
Still you step closer, so that our eyes can meet.
Tell me no one knows me, like you do.
And then you say that I can't play this game forever.
No, you are the king of killers.
I've seen what you do.
Carving through the hearts
and souls of many with cloven hoofs you stomp the dreams of men,
of men far greater that me.
Fuck yeah I am still holding on
Making mountains out of molehills
Trading moments in for memories
These days still mean everything to me
Days that could've so easily been ignored by you
So many hours through scorching desert
Man, how can I say this without sounding like some cheesy
Motley Crüe song?
So much of what we do driven by thoughts of you
Some names we'll never know
Your smiling, imperfect faces helping us along
"Are we almost there?"
For thirty minutes while the whole world exists only
In your eyes and war cries
So much of our lives driven by thoughts of you
And you and you there way in the back
Could it really be?
Still cannot believe that it's true...
Part of your day spent thinking of us
Waiting (just like I used to) for us to show up,
Plug in, and share with you our hearts
And that twenty-hour drive turns into nothing at all
And for that we must
Calling you out for the last time
Come show your face for the first time I've got a head full of questions
And a busted heart filled with lies
Won't spend one second on my knees
Will not be thankful for what I have not asked for
Or apologize for hating all that my eyes see
This solution is my salvation
Life is too slippery for books clarice
The time has passed for tricks like faith and grace
The beast laughs more and more everyday
Evil has never been afraid to show it's face
Just look to the front page
Look into the face of the starving
Or infants born with a disease they will never understand
For every miracle one million bodies
Piled high in your name I'm calling you out
Come show your face
Stand before me I will destroy you
Shed your mask and I will destroy you
The priests that serve so proudly in your sons name
As sick as any monster that walks the streets
And I'd walk away just to see you cry
Leading young boys into the hell
That they have preached against
Once You tell me how they can ever trust in
Cause loving words are only words when loving words mean nothing
One single word that you have said
Your empire has been built on the guilt of the meek
To your heart...
And I walked away
So many lives imprisoned
And I haven't seen, seen that smile for a while
And a shame that spins out of control in your name
And now I'm choking on my self-segregated heart
Young Tommy who finds you only in his father's shiny handguns
Marches his truth straight into school
Points the barrel and pulls the trigger
And bodies turn into colored rain
Tell me a story I can believe
Look me in the eye
We just can't go on
No not like this
The center will not hold
So many voices with so much to say
But frozen when it's time to lift a finger
And fix what has been broken for so long
You have not taken one true step towards leaving the
Pettiness that you claim that you left behind
This scene that that you are such a proud part of
Buckles when you're ego strikes
Sinks under the weight of your apathy
Your actions erase the good in your words
And your compassion's as empty as your pride
It's not enough the things that you say
It's how you live your life day by day
Forget what you are I wanna know who you are
It doesn't matter what you call yourself
It's how you carry yourself
she rolls her eyes
and lights another
"one day I'll quit these things,
they're killing me."
she blows her brains
right out her fucking mouth
I just don't know how you do it
well, there is nothing in me
that you don't have
deep within your fucking self
well, there is nothing in me
that you do not have
deep within your fucking self
yes, the body is weak
but the mind is stronger
it controls the body
you are not a slave.
and I am not a superhero!
you see, the difference between hard and impossible
well, it's a thousand miles wide
but that's not what you want to hear.
don't live a lifetime of regret.
is there a moment of uncomfort
never knowing, no, no, never knowing
(rumble, young man, rumble)
how many more days will you sit
and talk about your ambitions
all that you can be
the person you are dying to be
the place you want to get to
but always out of reach
before that fury swells inside of you
grows so big that it forever quiets you
stand up to your demons
make a run at your goliath
find the best, find the worst
waiting in both of you
it's not the who or the what that is lasting
but how you fight
that is the fight
the only mark that will not leave you
and i will feel my heart drum its final beat
if it meant that i have given this my all
there's nothing left for me to believe in
if not you, if not this...
what else is there but death?
(it's your call... it's all on you)
give more
give everything
all swelled with pride, your chest blown out
face the flag as you declare
"we are the greatest country in the world
richest, smartest, most advanced...
who can keep up with us?"
and where has it gotten us?
take a look around
as miserable as we have ever been
violent, mean, pulling our hair out
as fourteen year olds march through metal detectors
bitter, unhealthy, empty
most dissatisfied of societies
my granddad weeps for the simple days
everything that you could ever dream of
five minutes from our fingertips
prettied, processed, packaged,
shipped right to your door
we need everything in every color
to feel that we're alive
we've got to brag to all the world
about all our toys
just like when we were five
i hear you chant
"everything is alright, it's gonna be alright"
as you rush to your night job
everything is gonna be alright
knuckles white as you grip your purse
you scream that things could not be better
as the flames lick at your face
and i'm as fucked as anybody
the bright lights catch my eyes
i'm as scared as anyone
the blood rains from the sky
we can't tell what we want from what we need
or which one matters more
it's all a spinning mobile
it's all a catchy lullaby
everything is gonna be alright
Searching, sifting, dying to find the worst in everything around you.
All that's wrong is all that you fuckin' see
because its all that you look for.
But you won't wallow in your doom alone
you've got to ruin it for everyone.
With words that belittle the situation
and rape each moment of its potential.
I'm not saying to go through life blindly.
I know that things don't go right all of the time.
But at best - I am going to try to find, at best
a way to make it through the haze, at best
I'm gonna leave your words behind, so I can get on with my day.
It only takes a little bit of effort,
to open up your eyes and see,
that this life is so fucking short
but still let each day of it get the best of you,
instead of the other way around.
Someone has killed the child in you,
Bound by blood, I am evil
I am called the master deceiver
So long has my master kept me
So as not to destroy humanity
I pray for the day of destruction
Towards the scriptures' conclusion
For all eternity Scucca kept me
Into the circle of epiphany
Unto my hands the earth crumbles
Refrain me from my delusion
Unto my hands the earh crumbles
Refrain me from this delusion
Darkness falls among all humanity
My rotten stench creeps society
Crawling out the pits of the dungeon
No one can chain me in prison
A hundred thousand years of suffering
A million lashes given to the king
The crown of thorns that he wears on his head
My lord, it's useless, I am dead!
Unto my hands the earth crumbles
Refrain me from my delusion
Unto my hands the earh crumbles
I object to this line of questioning
There is something festering behind your eyes
Beneath your words misplaced
And in my face
You are not just telling me what you think
But swinging some rusty axe that has been weighing you down
Speaks volumes about your inability to understand
This scene, this struggle, that has existed so long before
You and will continue happily without you
You remain so unclear
You have no idea
What this music's about or
Why we stand here before you always
Striving, always melting
Bleeding crying into these instruments
And for what
Not you
This has nothing repeat nothing
To do with your ignorant arrogant ass
Or some preset image of some preset scene
Of some set of rules
As safe and as boring as a ride on a carousel
You have come to the wrong tree to bark
And your wishes they fall on deaf ears
And our wheels roll on
And while you sit at home and wish that you could
Stay the same
What have you ever risked, pulled your heart out for
The world to judge, created something out of nothing
Punched holes in what used to be
Set fire to what is supposed to be
Then shut your mouth about what you want this to be
