Born blind in the winter with an empty head
The snow covered up the Camry the whole house slept
Drawing pictures in the bed
Waking up and racing down the stairs trying to catch my breath
It's so simple, superman, trick or treat, wet socks
Bike rides in the summer to the best spots
Coulda sworn I was king of the best odds
Runnin round with the dogs in the back yard
Growin never knowin what the past done
Livin life like the mystery of packed lunch
Getting whooped in the playground slashed up
Comin home after school on the last bus
Back then it was all about last
Hit the corner store for the new Fleer packs
Mom was a religion and happiness was a fact
It's a shame how the time goes past
Movin so fast
Its like im movin at lightspeed
Slow down
You need to slow down
Every once in a while sometimes
You'll see how the world goes round
You need to slow down every once in a whiiiiiile
Cuz you don't know you don't know
You don't need to goooo so fast
Things changed in the pop shop got an offer
Packed up moved out down to Colorado
Sunshine clean air not a lot of problems
And that's when I discovered pogs and tamagachi
Time past and the friends found punk yah
Oh whatever man a lot of it was junk
But we loved it made us feel cool little dumb kids
Runnin round just for fun doin dumb shit
I was lightin all my candles on both ends
Warren lake getting drunk wit the friends
I was tryin to stay positive even though I pretended it
It helped cause at home I was lackin a happy ending
For all, saw a lot of tall trees fall
In the name of an addiction my sister taught me to follow
I cracked cleaned up and got the backpack
I swore that I would never go back
Movin so fast
Its like im movin at lightspeed
Slow down
You need to slow down
Every once in a while sometimes
You'll see how the world goes round
You need to slow down every once in a whiiiiiile
Cause you don't know you don't know
You don't need to goooo so fast
Eighteen I decided I was done with it
Hit Seattle with a head full of drum rhythms
Falling in and out of love with these young women
Thinkin they could make a change of the blood given
Nah I was too young too face it
Workin two jobs still thinking I could make it
Local all star still singin from his basement
Finally got a shot and ive been workin everyday since
Found love in a city where the angels fly
Put a record out with josh one made out clime
Came home after two years and playin out rhymes
Just to find my little angel was no more mine
Parted ways with a friend was not easy
Made a leap to the future it got queasy
Started workin on the things that had lost reason
Now im sittin with a pad Movin so fast
Its like im movin at lightspeed
Slow down
You need to slow down
Every once in a while sometimes
You'll see how the world goes round
You need to slow down every once in a whiiiiiile
Cause you don't know you don't know
I feel like the last light candle in the back of my mind.
Both palms to the future, no slack in the line
But no qualms with it.
I don't flip a coin like the rest of 'em,
Or fall into line and live life by the pendulum.
Never would I sell my soul.
Find the beauty in the little things you can't control.
Break the mold from it, look,
You can see tomorrow in my eyes.
Expect nothing less than a lesson in disguise,
When the clouds clear.
Heaven is just a six letter word like crutch,
Hanging on the syllables and verbs of trust.
This is why I walk where the road ends,
And live in that tiny place where the notes bend.
Like, this is all that ever made sense.
My hope, my flesh, my bones, my breath.
Expose.
Holding onto truth like it's slippin',
And your cliff's edgeis cuttin' the rope.
I think it's time to let go.
Look at what you started, go the whole world holdin' their heads,
you wanna talk about stress?
and the heart left hangin from a string like a necklace?
I'm the guy that you've been warned not to mess with
the farthest thing away from an emotional investment
step back.
girl, you don't want this.
might look good in your head
but I'm a monster.
caused more tears than i can even account for
that drowns my soul face down when it showers.
i wanna die like a rock star
all alone in my lost thoughts
can't live how i wanna
and spoke no lies when i told you I'm a lost cause
...(bridge)...
but still your gonna go and try
and show me a different life
and get eaten up alive
and say "I"
(chorus)
I ate your soul.
"and i'll eat you up"
"go hide for i eat to much"
I ate it whole...
"and this is what i do"
"go hide girl I'm just like you"
I ate your soul.
"and i'll eat you up"
"go hide for i eat to much"
I ate it whole...
"and this is what i do"
"go hide girl I'm just like you"
you wanna talk about luck?
how no body loves you and your whole life's _____?
girl, i was born to be crushed
and enjoy what its like to be thrown in the mud.
and never come back.
stay where the sunshines and cover your tracks
i don't wait for the fun times and savor the laughs
i drop dead at good bye and lay straight in my casket.
i wanna live where the blood dries
a lot quicker than some like.
without a smidgen of guilt
I'm a sit right here till the next woman comes bye
...(bridge)...
but still your gonna go and try
and show me a different life
and get eaten up alive
and say "I"
(chorus)
I ate your soul.
"and i'll eat you up"
"go hide for i eat to much"
I ate it whole...
"and this is what i do"
"go hide girl I'm just like you"
I ate your soul.
"and i'll eat you up"
"go hide for i eat to much"
I ate it whole...
"and this is what i do"
Broken all by myself saying
Woman don't pay no mind
Forgotten like a hotel Bible
Phone keeps ringing and I'm trying to keep my mind off it
And if you walk by my window
I'll open the blinds to watch you
Walk by like you didn't know
I was inside still praying for the day just be easy
Heard you're doing fine on the outside
Smelling like a fresh picked rose
Me, I'm still mothballs and lost minds
Down on the pavement praying, trying to make some sense of it
And if you walk by my body
Would you stop to breathe?
Or would you walk by never knowing
That I'm cigarette smoke floating in the glow of the TV
What would you expect from me?
I'm right back where I started
I never lost that first touch dreaming
Of that one first feeling that convinced me you were leaving
And how would you expect to breathe
With all of this around you?
Now I'm in this old empty room
Tracing back my steps to the place where I found you
Ring twice never come in so
People don't change like time
I'm sticky like the front door's deadbolt, the side door exit,
Wish I could've learned to let go
And if I came knocking on Sunday
Would you wear your white dress for me?
Or would you watch love through the peephole,
Talk through the chain blindfolded so that you never see me
I heard you like picking at wounds girl
Open up and let this one bleed
I never thought that you'd be the scalpel
To open up my doubtful and leave me in the backseat
And if I pull up from the attic
Would you wipe the dust off your dreams?
Or would you buy back what you gave up,
Open up fact to your nature and admit you were human
What would you expect from me?
I'm right back where I started
I never lost that first touch dreaming
Of that one first feeling that convinced me you were leaving
And how would you expect to breathe
With all of this around you?
Now I'm in this old empty room
Tracing back my steps to the place where I found you
Leaving... [x5]
(Knock on the door, left on the floor... leaving) [x2]
You made me battle alone, don't make me battle alone
(Knock on the door... Heartbreak Hotel
Left on the floor... Heartbreak Hotel
Knock on the door... Heartbreak Hotel
You made me battle alone, don't make me battle alone)
"I'll take a breath of that concrete,
Step into the jungle with a gleam,
And move like its trynna kill a dream.
Cuz I don't' have a bone left in me
That'll loan death pity when the grass I'm growin don't green.
Ode to the screams,
Bouncing off the glass of the storefront window when the reaper walks past.
We don't have a grasp on the future,
So the past that we're used to,
Is all that we ever want back.
Running with the axe,
Trynna chop the whole world down,
Trynna fight your little trip to the ground,
Cuz you don't wanna see the truth,
Of the last breath made when the smooth song plays to the silence of sound.
Yeah you will be found.
And whether or not you want it to happen,
I can guarantee it will go down.
SO stop with the fighting,
We're all kind of frightened,
But I don't see the purpose in trynna cheat death.
CHORUS
I'm so sick of this pace
Running around in circles trynna skip his blade.
You cannot hide from forever,
Inside from the weather,
On the day you planned escape,
He'll find you down and out, high and dry,
Leave you face down dead in your ways,
I can't go anywhere.
Everywhere that i turn, i see you're all that I know.
I know [x2]
Everywhere that you go...
Everywhere that you go...
Everywhere that you go....
Follow...
I see it all from perspective,
Floating on a dark cloud casted over fear of the view of where death is.
Live by the setlist,
Never say die with a fist in the air till the world stops spinning and we're breathless.
Damn, running from a natural advance that'll end with you lyin where you stand.
And i can see the fear in the end of it,
But never had ran,
Cuz never dying doesn't seem to be a plan.
SO i live for the moment,
Never let the dark cloak change me, or make me be a person that I'm not.
Cuz if I'm gonna die now,
Then I'd rather die proud,
For the fact that I went out and gave it everything I got.
Name in the rock,
Rose on the ground in the grass that'll grow in the soil of my plot,
When I laid down to rest.
Carving in the stone or a crest.
NEver cheat life to cheat death.
Here I am sittin on top of the world
With nothin but a bottle... of
Gin cause it makes me smile wide (ha)
All your little press fell
Cause you shoot your worlds like a torpedo
With the light that shines in front of
You silly little fool of a pawn
You can't control the boat that you're on
It goes on...
It goes on...
Never gets better no matter the weather at all
It goes on...
It goes on...
Never gets better no matter the weather you're on
You gotta funny way you're begging for help
Screaming at the skylight
Blinded with your fist in the air
Blinded with your fist in the air
And you can't change the world by
Blowing smoke for fate
You stupid little fool of a pawn
You can't control the boat that you're on
It goes on...
It goes on...
Never gets better no matter the weather at all
It goes on...
It goes on...
Never gets better no matter the weather you're on
Can't take it away
You can't take it away
I got a point for you all
Na na na na na
You can't take it away
You can't take it awaaay hey
Ah ahh
Na na na na na
It goes on...
It goes on...
Never gets better no matter the weather at all
It goes on...
It goes on...
[Grieves:]
Well I spend a lotta time lookin at the ground
With my hands out infront of me and my head in the clouds
It ain't typical, screw it, I ain't your typical man
I'm livin the way I wanna and doin the best I can
Plus a lotta people wanna break out the nooses,
Pull down the sun and charge everybody to use it
But I've decided I'm a keep to myself
And plus I never needed a reason to be anything else
I mean look at me, I ain't covered in gems
I don't know what hyphen means dude and neither do my friends
I don't go to the club, I don't fight for fun
Shit I'm almost 25 and I ain't never shot a gun
But I do like drinking and shopping on the internet
And tryin to get lucky jumpin into the livin legends
So you take can it the way you wanna see it
Say whatever you want I'm just never gonna believe it
[Chorus: Grieves]
Yo outta sight outta mind these days
Call me two sheets into the wind
They wanna tell me how to walk
Wanna tell me how to talk
Wanna tell me how to die
Wanna tell me how to live
(I like the way that I live)
Outta sight outta mind these days
Call me fucked up and fine with it all
They wanna tell me how to live
Wanna tell me how to die
Wanna tell me how to rise
I wish I could remember the day I lost it
Flip through the pages i've written when i'm unconcious
I black out and I don't really understand it
But everythings relative everythings relative right now
I feel my life is a physical writing block
Repeating over the past but fighting against the clock
And it hurts me
Deep down inside though it urks me
And (? you could settle for poetical sounded purpose (?) is gone
And I don't really say goodbyes much
Wasn't worth the wait but this plague is mine
Yup, so if my writing is encrypited across the airways
Boogie down break neck style emotion airraites the passion
Single emission to see the facit
Mingle with dead and inflict it with this disaster like welcome
I don't know what it means but it helps me
Another dyin dream in the land of living wealthy, to pray on
Conflicted to the grey spots
Life is painted full palette pictures with the gifting, is my pain caused
Believe it though, even in its meaningless
I tread the water dreamfully exceeding whats eating me
I get down
I get down, it's like this, down like how
Man I black out the pressure
I fade out the sound
I get down, it's like this, down like how
How down cut your wrists down pump your fists down
I get down, it's like this, down like how
Man I black out the pressure
I fade out the sound
I get down and it's like this
Mourn into it
Another grey day reject
Another tombstone in the graveyard of respect
The (?) of my life and fuse with religion
Got all my (?) shout outs to yeah like clay pigeons
And it isn't what you envision
Would you admit if a single (intimate?) smidgeon if ever given a damn
So whats my life huh another breath taken
Water under the bridge a fool for the makin, it must be
I mean love don't trust me
Fight for its feelin while I die in its company
I get down and it's impossible to get up
A heart full of bricks with a mouth full of hiccups
With more dust to kick up then ambition itself
Handcuffed to the furnace of my own vision of hell
I seem dossile yeah born into the wrong child
Fight against the smiles and frowns people
I get down
I get down, it's like this, down like how
Man I black out the pressure
I fade out the sound
I get down, it's like this, down like how
How down cut your wrists down pump your fists down
I get down, it's like this, down like how
Man I black out the pressure
I fade out the sound
I get down and it's like this
Let the weight I been to black
It would never be forgot
[Verse 1:]
I ain't no scholar, I don't write no books
I done spend my money on the last girl honey and she hates my guts
I paid my rent late, so my landlord's angry
And all this shit keeps piling up and tryin' to hang me
I give my lovin' on the run (on the run, on the run)
So don't you try to slow me down and walk around yeah
Sick of tryin' to strum along, with' yo' love song
So leave me here to pour another drink on the rocks
[Hook:]
All of this will hold you
Down onto the ground until you're crawlin' on the gravel
Like a regular guy
Oh all of this will hold you, down onto the ground
Until you're drowning in your sorrows with a bottle of rye
[Verse 2:]
I ain't got no savior, I ain't got no time
I know I'm stuck with a problem
That will come through and swallow up my last dime
All I wanted, was some peace and quiet
To take me out of here, before I start a riot
Lost my reason I done lost my way, I done sat here for hours
And heard all the songs that the jukebox plays
So keep your sunny days away from here
And I'll pour the liquor down and smile while I say
Life's been on the rocks, I've taken
My last shot at holding on to
Life's been on the rocks, I've taken
My last shot at holding on to
[Hook:]
All of this will hold you
Down onto the ground until you're crawlin' on the gravel
Like a regular guy
All, all of this will hold you, down onto the ground
Until you're drowning in your sorrows with a bottle of rye
The night is like a blanket that's suffocating the fire
With a bow to the string and a note from the choir
I believe, and that's about as far as it goes
When you've been riding on the wings of a bloody murder of crows
Hold it all out, throw it into the wind
Let it lay down the line where the drama begins
Because if everything is covered and teetering on a whim
You can harmonize the sound of it's insecurity's hymn
When it's played, yeah, stripped down and shaved
Shipped off to battle in the shadow of the day
And if anything is salvaged from the battered up remains
You can sew it to your jacket and compensate for the pain
When it hits, when it speaks
Lick the blood right off of it's teeth
You'll grip those sheets in attempt to hide
And figure out that you've been running from the feeling of never leaving alive so
Hide, sleep with the lights on
You feel like you can be at peace with the lights on here
So cover up your face, and fight away that taste
That makes you want to run and hide, hide, hide
And sleep with the lights on
You stand up on your tiny feet when the night's gone here (Night's gone here)
When the night's gone here
Swallow that lump inside of your throat
Open up the closet and push aside all the clothes
You believe, and never needed more to be said
To leave you scared of that little gap between the floor and your bed
So you jump, leaping over all of your options
And retreat right back to that bed we call a coffin
To sleep, never actually getting a wink
Due to all the little devils that dance around in your dreams
And attack you, pull you under the bed with their hands
And take away the chance of you ever making a stand
And if anything actually ever went as you planned
That you could retrace the steps that you ran
But only if it hits, if it speaks
You could fight it to the death in the streets
You'll grip those sheets in attempt to hide
And figure out that you've been running from the feeling of never leaving alive
So hide, you'll stay awake
So hide, we all know that you will stay awake
Hide, sleep with the lights on
You feel like you can be at peace with the lights on here
So cover up your face, and fight away that taste
That makes you want to run and hide, hide, hide
And sleep with the lights on
You stand up on your tiny feet when the night's gone here (Night's gone here)
I was born in a city,
where the wind chill could kill ya,
and frostbite the smile off your face when it grills ya.
So naturally learned to make it out in the cold,
and carve emotion in the ice blocks hidden in the snow.
And it shows,
king of the winter bitter and froze,
with a head full of blackouts breakin through the ropes and I choke,
at every little punch I tried too throw,
but the devil hovered over me tellin me where to go, GO HOME !
And die where the heart is,
life has been a series of goodbyes that I've been fighting too depart with,
and hardships, shot down and buried in the marshes,
with nothing but a love letter stapled too my carcass.
Identify me,
feel I'm too far gone.
See the look inside ya eyes when the Blue's songs on so sing all of it,
try to harmonize when I'm gone cause at this point,
I'm barely holding on, come on.
(chorus)
It's a cold cold world we face,
with miles of frozen road,
that I drove down on my way,
I'm as cold, as, snow.
Falling, slowly to the ground,
all around you.
Black ice forming on the tongue,
this is just another part of life.
Let it melt in the sunshine,
and freeze overnight.
I was built for the blizzard,
and lived with the ice.
I smoothered every flame,
that I ever tried too ignite cause of comfort,
wrapped up in a blanket made of snow.
Chippin off the freezin condensation on my bones,
and I can feel it in the mornin when it blows
and it rifles through the streets like a bullet from the cold.
And I know it, feel it on a first name basis.
And laugh at the games that it plays with my patience,
cause I've been lookin at the world through a glacier,
and know what it's like to be hopelessly underrated,
it's sick, spittin' the water under the bridge,
with a shivering image of what a fine life is.
Cause I've been fishin at this lake since a kid
I know exactly where to walk when the ice gets thin.
(chorus)
It's a cold cold world we face,
with miles of frozen road,
that I drove down on my way,
I'm as cold, as, snow.
(Grieves):
I said the lights don't help these days
Chances are that if your ten rows back i cant even see your face
I've been hidin' in the only thing that ever made me safe
Long enough to make me addicted
Turn it into my cage
Who the fuck wants to drink my wine
Put the last supper on hold, honey, I don't think i'll make it in time
This whole games got me fakin' a smile
And tied down to tracks
I layed down tryin'a gain an extra mile
This is all of me
Another thorn stem apology
Writin in the heat of the pressure dieing for harm
Lost, till they find me with the bullet, with the cross
That they hung around around my neck like somebody told me theres God
Yeah I guess i got a problem with reality
And never looked to heaven when the devil in me flashed his teeth
And thats the part of me i'm trying to change
Swing hard now i'm breaking the chain
Now get away from me
Chorus:
I said the road's so hard and rough
Said i'm trying not to loose my way
And the worlds so cold and tough
Told this shovel that it digs my grave
Whats holding me down, down, down, down, down, down, down
Whats holding me down, down, down, down, down, down, down
Heyyyy...
(Cunninlynguist)
From time to time like brian ima shell of myself
If i was a weaker man I'd put a shell in myself
Either ballin on a budget or fallin on a deficit
Plenty of self-worth with no means of investing it
The blessings get few and far between so I'm stressin shit
Lady lucky celibate, she aint fuckin' with me
Hidin behind a hand it starts to look a mighty temptin
Hurtin behind an image i aint pimpin im just limpin
Tryna walk it off or walk it out
That's just what the songs about
Handlin adversity whenever i step out the house
Whether the weather is sunny or nastier than sauerkraut
Every endeavor takes bits of faith until you're left with doubt
No Tears for Fears but i swear i wanna Shout
Kick, scream, and strain but that aint gon' change a thang
kick screen the game, you see but dont feel the pain
A junky is a cripple but he will show you the cain so...
(tryna look inside myself, cant look inside no one else, im my own worst enemy)
My baby just cares for me x2
But he's never there for me x2
Baby its killing me, that I may have to leave, go
A friend of mine once told me when I was out on the road
That you have an artist inside you and you cannot be controlled
And any way that you choose it, its gonna show
And if anyone tries to limit you, you need to let them go
Now I'm having trouble trying to find an even medium
Between trying to chase my dreams and providing you with your needs
And yea there's a fine line between it
Love colliding in battle over the use of its meaning
And now you label this as my fault, talk with your friends
Like you've been living with the ghost of the man you go to bed with
And I need you to understand that what I've been blessed with
Is more than an investment, and isn't here to test you please
I know this is not expected, at times you feel neglected
And our love is a death wish, but I know one way to say it
I love you and wish for you to stay, I heard you saying things like
My baby just cares for me
My baby just cares for me (I heard you saying things like)
But he's never there for me
But he's never there for me (I heard you talking like)
Baby its killing me, that I may have to leave, go (heard you wanna)
There's nothing more painful than failing at love
Pack your whole life up and cover in dust
Baby I feel the tension in between us is growing stronger
And your faith in me is diminishing into nothing at all
And that's disappointing because I sacrificed a lot for you
Never did I lie to you and stray from the truth
Huh, and still you look at me and treat me as the bad guy
Giving me those sad eyes, every time I ask why
And if that's our past time, then why do you put up with it
And why are you in love with me if you can barely stomach it
It's fragile, and I know I'm distant and bashful
Hit the road for two months and didn't even ask you
On the real, I shouldn't really have to
I've dreamt of this for years, and I'm gonna take it by the handful
And now I gotta try and choose between the two of you
Seeing you hit that door is like watching you at my funeral saying
My baby just cares for me
My baby just cares for me (I heard you saying things like)
But he's never there for me
But he's never there for me (I heard you talking like)
Baby its killing me, that I may have to leave, go (heard you wanna)
How would you expect
Close your eyes and make this better
Now for better
How would you attempt
To change the weather, when its raining and our hearts still let it go
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go
I take a breath and breathe it out/
Life has been a bitch holding onto me, I'm always freaking out/
I don't play well with others, I panic in the crowd, and I'm quick to fall in love that's why I'm always on the ground/
So pick it up, pop the umbrella over my problems and understand I'll never be a man until I solve them/
And sometimes I wish that I could go back home, yeah crawl into my childhood dreams and be alone/
And that would be everything - just another boy left with nothing /
An object of security slowly losing its stuffing/
The Sumter Square slum king, looking for another motherfucking chance to re-break the broken in is something/
And that's the part I'm never going to get, growing up is more than just a mind state and owning all your debts/
Blowing out the breath I don't feel so tall, so tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all/
Anything at all/
Tell me how, Can I grow to see the change in my life, I wanted, to overcome the battle inside, what is owed to anxiety's hold is there a better way to figure it out?/
I sweep it all under the rug/
Cover up the loss found inside of me and wash it down with blood/
I was born with an option and taught to swim a flood/
But the older I become I start to humor giving up/
So pick it up, listen to all of the words in my head, and understand I'll have a shaky hand until they're said/
And I don't know if I can get my mind-state back, but I would travel to the end just to feel that grasp/
And that would be everything, speak it through the can on the line, and prophesize the future from the twinkle in my eye/
I could wrinkle up and die in the room where the dreams started talking to me constantly and dancing through the sky/
I'm alive, but growing up has proved to be a task, and left a couple daydreams broken down and smashed/
Looking through the glass I don't feel so tall/
So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all/
Anything at all
Smile for the blade, everybodys watching,
Everybodys always got something to say
They wanna put you into pieces, lie and make you believe it,
Limit you from succeeding, Then take away your fate,
Smile for the blade everybodys talking,
Everybodies always got something to say
So no matter what it is and no matter what you do
There will always be a person trying to take it away
Ive heard I dont know the words that come out in my songs
Like I was gone when I wrote it and didnt see the pendants outta my palms
Are you kidding, I understand that you have an opinion but its ludicrous to
Think that I simulate? what im livin in, and it pointless cause im not a
Person of arms, with the whole world screaming and ready to bring it on
No point, cause I dont see the contest in art I only embarked in this
So I could depart and free parts of mind and what did I find
Grown ass men acting like bitches fighting over the time
Goddamn Im sick of all this trying, to turn around and see a mouthful nails
Hurting me, Faking a smile and I hate it, cause Im a fan of truth and you
Mothafuckas lie to get by in this game full of fools
And its Useless, so you guys can chastise and blame me
But no matter what you will never change me
Smile for the blade, everybodys watching,
Everybodys always got something to say
They wanna put you into pieces, lie and make you believe it,
Limit you from succeeding, Then take away your fate,
Smile for the blade everybodys talking,
Everybodies always got something to say
So no matter what it is and no matter what you do
There will always be a person trying to take it away
Smile for the Blade
And Everyones an expert when it comes down to my life
And speak like they knew me before I got in the limelight
And what the hell does that really mean, I busted ass
To get these broken hearted love poems printed up
And seen and I liked it, so why you bringing me down
Your either trying to help me or burying me in the ground
And as of lately, I'm feeling a little drowning in the negativity
Surrounding me making a sound and you hate me for it
You gotta be out your mind thinking I would give a damn about
The flaws that you find, cause im human and never had
A problem with that and its a shame that you think that I would stop
Cause of that, say never, this is just the way to behold
The best way to gather round the flame in the cold
So you can go ahead and chastise and blame me
But no matter what you will never change me
Smile for the blade, everybodys watching,
Everybodys always got something to say
They wanna put you into pieces, lie and make you believe it,
Limit you from succeeding, Then take away your fate,
Smile for the blade, everybodys talking,
Every bodies always got something to say
So no matter what it is and no matter what you do
There will always be a person trying to take it away
Sunny, yesterday my life was flled with rain / Sunny, yesterday my life was flled with rain / Sunny, you smiled
at me and really eased the pain / Now the dark days are gone and the bright days are here and my sunny side
shines / Come on man, not your same old shit / I've been living steady wobbling on the edge / Chasing life
around in circles trying to decompress my head / I feel it get intense, choose to break my bread and spread it
around / Take my every single thought into this pen and jot it down / Cause it's the truth to me, you should see
it's all that ever helped / Held my shattered world together when I knocked it of the shelf into the blackness /
Tripping over broken hearts and homes and getting close enough to turn that kid inside of me to stone / And
I'll admit it, cause I was never taught to give it up / Sailed an ocean full of drug addicted misincouraged blood
without a paddle / It took a lot of faith to fght my battles and tackle a couple of habits I never thought that
I'd have to / But did, bottle the water under the bridge and toss another written page of my history to the
wind / When it blows, cause all of this disaster has lead me home and left a lot of room for me to learn to grow
/ Yeah you are not alone / Grab hold of yourself, I know what it's like to get blown away / I know you, that
you've done your dirt and you've dug your graves and it feels like it won't be saved / I say grab hold yourself
and face those days when you feel like it always rains / I've seen the sunny side of hell, that which I never
thought I'd fnd for myself / Never thought I'd fnd for myself / Not your same old song / I've been writing on
a mirror with a razor blade / And chased away the devil in my brain that played me like a spade / Cause day to
day, painted jaded faith issues a shade of gray / And cowered, hid behind emotion just to pay it safe / A pawn,
slowly turning victim to my wrongs / I had to wake up all alone to fnally fgure out my wants / In the house
of haunted love the past will keep me warned and explain me / Even if you're listening through the storm / I
found a purpose and if you heard this then sit it down / Pick its brain until it opens up and redirects the sound
/ The conductor, frozen thunder rumbling through the ground / With a perfect little twist of that suit of armor
and crown / You created, built for denying it / Hiding the cuts and bruises due to the self-inficted bone crush-
ing anxiety / I'm with you, so understand that all of this within you / Has chiseled you a fower out of stone /
[Verse 1: Grieves]
I was born with the ability to see stars
Walk steady on the beat, meeting each bar
Little goofy motherfucker, hitting C sharp
Swimming through the game like I'm a riding on a reef shark
Please, all I need is 88 keys
And the drum line jumping off an MPC
To be easy, got a lot of ghosts to chase
And a couple lady problems I'm supposed to face
Hold off on em, take another sip of the swamp water
Put a kiss on the cheek of your mom's daughter
Dance around like a fool spilling my lager
And I won't ever be a pimp, so baby why bother?
Ha, I guess it ain't my style
26 with a twist and a face like a child
Hate it if it makes you smile
Cause in the end of it it all fades away when the fake takes trial
Kick rocks
[Hook: Grieves]
No matter what, it comes to be (Hey here's a suggestion)
You can kiss my ass if you doubted me (Yup)
Cause all that jabber that you're babbling (Babble on)
Has left you stranded and standing alone with your head in your hands
[Verse 2: Krukid]
Look, I was born to be a moon walker
Walk into the club, suddenly the room's darker?
Fan favorite of the street preacher, peace keeper
Bridge groomer jumped the broom said skip it on a street sweeper
But don't come at me with beef, I'm a meat eater
With tongue and teeth that'll cut you like a meat cleaver
Miscreet beaver, like damn it all to hell
Told the fam I'm gonna rap, none of that went over well
I could tell they just worry
I'm trying to court the game and judge you by your hung jury
And I don't sport a chain, blame it on my ancestors
Brought to port of slaves while I failed to be affected with a lust for foreign aid
And none of y'all to blame thinkin' rap is all the same
But I can promise you to never keep it formulaic
I'm here to raise the bar though, I never caught a case
And maybe while I'm at it score a babe and fornicate
I'm human is all I'm saying
[Hook: Grieves]
No matter what, it comes to be (Hey here's a suggestion)
You can kiss my ass if you doubted me (Yup)
Cause all that jabber that you're babbling (Babble on)
Has left you stranded and standing alone with your head in your hands
[Verse 3: Grieves]
Skinny as a fence post, moving through the crowd
Dancing off rhythm just a minimal amount
For the hell of it
I've been on the road too long
And got a head like a weather balloon floating along
Approaching the dawn
You ain't got a jab I ain't ever heard
I let sarcasm fly like a feathered bird
So if you're looking some gratifying better words
You can try writing out a letter to the editor
Ha, cause I ain't got not time
I'm on my 24/7 and my 3-6-5
I got my heavy oar paddling to reach that prize
And you can see the dedication in my eyes
Or maybe it's the hangover
Creeping up my skull like a bad shadow
I can take it to the rocks, I am that agile
So if you came here to be that asshole
You can pick another cat to hassle
I should slap you
[Hook: Grieves]
No matter what, it comes to be (Hey here's a suggestion)
You can kiss my ass if you doubted me (Yup)
Cause all that jabber that you're babbling (Babble on)
lay another one to rest in the valley of my shaddows opened up
burry all my expectations for a semi normal love
and with it burning in my palms
and massaging into my blood
i try to fight away my urges
"it's only gonna rope you up girl!"
hear me, i know my capabilities
of breaking in the the only thing that saves you from your feelings of trust
believe the angel on your shoulder when she comes
cause your devil's so familliar...
and mine'll leave you flustered like...
you count your tears like experience
and me just another sunken dream trying to deal with it calmly
reacting every situation since you called me.
head dug into my palms thinking she don't honestly want this
and its obvious
the sorrow sets it off
hypnotizing both of us into agreeing with the odds
but in the dark
i got a chance to fight it off
instead i sleep with the chaos that'll wander down the same damn path i chose to walk on.
she said it took her all her life she's steady lookin at me like she caught a glimpse of something "i am not your paradise girl" and with it in me its better to save your wishes for the moment after sailing away "you should have never even asked"she said it took her all her life she's steady lookin at me like she caught a glimpse of something "i am not your paradise girl" and with it in me its better to save your wishes for the moment after sailing away "i should have never even shown you"
what it's like inside the world i keep a lock on.
purple hearted scar garden harvesting my thoughts song
and. with the chalk gone
the problem still exists
at least the outline of its death prevents a nother fatal kiss
but thats impossible
neither one of opted to be positive
we stared eachother in the face and screamed untill we lost it.
and the fire magnetically pulled both of us right on top of it
till one of us surrendered to rejection of the opposite.
and this is not a love song.
i'm writing down my problems
the love songs what caused em. now i'm stuck and tryen to solve em
and its all forever tarnished
from begining to the end
you use my smile as an ashtray and inhalle its ending sent
let it go. please let it go this will kill you
reinventing us is not a miracle we still do... and.
just as certain as i speak it to you now...
i know i'll wake up on the left side on the other side of town
They say that lightning never strikes twice in the same spot when it's landed/
You ought to see the thundercloud I'm trapped in/
Head down looking for a tactic/
Trying to find a way up out the gravity around me/
I'm attached to stuck/
Floating on luck like a river raft was/
Spitting up love like it's ipecac/
If in fact there's a quicker path to diminish that/
I'm gonna get a first class ticket just to finish last/
Often, who's watching, chip another crooked ass tooth on my options/
The blues never had a use for its caution and cut right through me like a razor bladed harsh wind/
I guess I'm living off habit, and digging up graves just to reseal the casket/
Bold-faced, marching to the middle of the havoc just so i can sing a song about it all/
Tragic/
You act like this can save me, hey hey hey/
You act like I don't know, you don't know/
I act like I've gone crazy, and all of this can save me, but I don't really know/
I don't know no more my brother, me and my blue sensitivities/
Look at all that this music has given me/
Intimately in tune with my misery/
I can spin bad news to a symphony/
I ain't a boy in a bubble I'm a man in touch with my joy and my trouble/
Got a fighting chance at love in this ugliness, I think hope deserves to know what she's up against/
Blues and 12s I write 24s, life's twice as hard, fighting with the cards/
Those chosen the moment we were born/
Highs and lows, joys and woes, they're yours/
Chase the blues and one day you're gonna catch them/
Sing em all you want, you gonna wish you never met them/
Humming the ballad of the paper-thin jacket/
Trapped in the rain again/
Tragic/
You act like this can save me, hey hey hey/
You act like I don't know, you don't know/
I act like I've gone crazy, and all of this can save me, but I don't really know/
I don't know what the deal is, but lately I've been looking through a thick glass/
Squinting just to see the smidgen of the kickbacks/
My little ticker only flickers with a mishap/
And lashes out at me every time that I admit that/
Look at what I did with the ashes, smoking in the boy's room, ditching out of classes/
Hands full of shattered stained glass with a grasp tight around it just enough to make a couple wounds last/
As scars, medals, rose pedals, scattered on the path like it's Hansel and Gretel/
Burn from the water I splash from the kettle in efforts to make a documentation of what I went through/
Hell, I guess I'm playing from the attic, pulling up the floorboards, digging up the hatchet/
Firm footed, standing in the middle of the static just so I can sing a song about it all/
Tragic/
You act like this can save me, hey hey hey/
You act like I don't know, you don't know/
[Verse 1:]
I drink the cloudy city rainwater, you can never save my soul. Painted glass on my soul, I don't break it for no one. Your blood runs like a river when your back's turned and hope don't float when it's chokin' on it's last word. Which one would you use to describe this, sick of fightin' everyone around me for silence, sick of tryin' to get inside of your silly blinded vision of what you though life was before you dived in. Take a look at me I'm piggin through my last meal, headin' to the gallows with a smile on my cracked grill and that's real. You can keep your little rap deals cause I don't give a damn about bein king of the crap hill. Stop, and let it fall where the chips lay and take the earth from underneath your fragile pride and kick stand. So when it all clears and the rain clouds fade you can stay with the rest of the skeletons in their grave.
[Chorus:]
This city (yeah) it's really got a hold on you. This city (yeah) it's really got a hold on you. You don't need to fight me off, I'm well on my way. Gonna leave these cobblestones and [?] in the back of my brain. I learned that you don't have a single word left that you can say. Better make me quiver when you wave it like a knife in my face. Your king is dead.
[Verse 2:]
You can change these bricks all day but not a single one will ever get you outta here, take you away. You want a throne that can never be claimed but standing there lookin' like another drone that lost his way. So take the broken crown off power in a kingdom full of fools gold, searchin' for a diamond in a pile full of bruised hopes. You're lookin' at me through those tiny little two holes that lie to you and force you to be blinded when the truth shows. Yeah I guess I'm nothin but a blood drop that fell out of your last black listed number one spot. Coagulating, I'm ready to be released, and how did your palms like the burgandy powdered breeze. How poetic, you all want change but won't let it, get a breath of any answer you decided it was ready to breath. Believe me, that's the nature of the beast. Break his little legs and watch it try to flee, watch it hobble out your aweful line of reach. Turn around and pull the cotton out it's mouth and pour it's heart out in the streets and when all of this is over you can sharpen up your teeth just to smile in the mirror while the rest of you depletes.
[Chrous:]
(Chorus)
Take that devil out your head, lay your skeletons to rest
Bed of roses where you lay it down definitely
Those words cross your headstone
I'll pray for the moment you awake
Mighty is the bitter blade, crimson be the...? you break
Another dusty record plays, dancing by yourself in the blue shade
And I've done dug a lot of graves to uncover your bones and release you from the dark
'Cause the moment that you seen me coming you will both feet running to the reapers arms
(Chorus)
Take that devil out your head, lay your skeletons to rest
Bed of roses where you lay it down definitely
Those words cross your headstone
I'll pray for the moment you awake
That rusted metal gate will fall, ploughing into that field where you silently lay
Lovely little paperdoll skit of what that ghost in you might say
And I've done dug alot of graves to uncover your bones and release you from the dark
'Cause the moment that I seen you running for that last train coming it done broke my heart
(Chorus)
Take that devil out your head, lay your skeletons to rest
Bed of roses where you lay it down definitely
Those words cross your headstone
Another night in this black water rain cloud
Kickin through the puddles on his way up to the Greyhound and,
In his pocket is a letter from his mother, folded up sayin...
(Where have you beeen?)
Yeah, but he won't write back
Left his whole life on the nightstand
Open up his wounds and let em bleed onto the white sand
And you can label him another problem typecast
And stay the hell away from him like everybody else has
And that's exactly why he flees to the road
Nother notch in the war club he keeps in his soul
And if you ever saw him swing it you would easily know
And have the worried urge to ask him
(Where have you beeen?)
Yeah, but he won't answer
Blinkin as the headlights pass him
Rip the chills off of his spine and throw em right at chu
But sometimes you don't really get what ask for
And life gets so cold and you can never go back home
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
The sun rises on a dead open one way
And dilates his pupils like a fire struck his young face
Dead to the world, he's planning his exit to stare death in the face
(Where have you beeen?)
Yeah, but he won't fold
He's been waitin for the end of the road
To have this cold world drop off and swallow him whole
It's a one way trip, he don't plan to return
And as the vessel of his escape out eases into the terminal
Lost, with nothin but a smirk on his face
As he steps off the bus and starts pickin up pace and,
You could see it in the people as he ran past that everyone was wonderin'
(Where have you beeen?)
He's almost home, and he can feel it in the cracks of his bones
As he runs up the stairs that pass over the road and,
Without a hesitation stoppin his actions
He leaps from the guardrail and... dives into traffic
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Where would you go if could never go home? (go home)
What would you say if they never even asked you? (asked you)
Daddy was a rolling stone
Mama never gave two shits about a broken home
I said...
Daddy was a rolling stone
Mama never gave two shits about a broken home
(Where have you beeen?)
I said...
Daddy was a rolling stone
Mama never gave two shits about a broken home
I said...
Daddy was a rolling stone
She said the world paints a picture, that makes her wanna run
Pull the stars out of the sky and load them into her gun
Live wire, broken and it's taken it's toll
You can't reach what has never been touched, it's too cold
Cause the sun don't shine for her, she said calmly it's a fact
That she learnt to adapt, and move on with it
I don't know if I should smile or not
Or pull that ice box out of her chest and help her thaw
Cause she fights like a lover, but sleeps with the enemy
And asks like shes only getting close, just to empty me
Gwenevieve, another hook for the line
And a perfect little painting of disaster in it's prime
And I love it, solely cause it makes me feel alive
When she sets the world ablaze and see the fire in my eyes
Shes the lion in disguise as the prey in the pasture
Breakdown, build up, agony, the rapture
[Bridge:]
Look at you, the blood from it will taste like wine
And fill that little glass that you hold up high
You wanna walk with the shovel in line
Tried to bury every single little thing that ever made you feel alive
You're alone now, just the way you drew it in the dust
And the walls that protect you from ever showing your trust
If I could show you what it's like from the inside
Id open up that coffin you been hiding in and speak like
You don't need to see the fire to smell the gasoline
Toss another lit match to the bridge
Burn it down, burn it down,
Burn it down, burnt it down,
Burn it down, Gwenevieve you burn the whole world around you and
You don't need to huff the smoke for the cancer
Take another step away from your chance
Burn it down, burn it down,
Burn it down, burnt it down,
Burn it down, Gwenevieve and take a shower in it's ashes
I wonder what happened to make you like this
Break it, and leave you throwing stones where the lights dim
You got a smile on your face like a sliced wrist
And grin like you got a couple spikes in that ice kiss
You like it, you're just too afraid to say it
So break it into pieces and add it to your mosaic
And nail it to your heart little artist, and protect it
And murder any perpetrator eyeing your investment
Cause love can't bite you if you keep it on a leash
Fate can't catch you if you take away it's feet
Life can't tell you shit without speech
So you hide where the lonely eyes on you could'ntseek
You're alone, like the last dead petal on a rose
Picked from the common ground, just to watch it grow
Or die, Gwenevieve, a ghost in the night
Smell smoke, see the glow in her eyes, I try to tell you
You don't need to see the fire to smell the gasoline
Toss another lit match to the bridge
Burn it down, burn it down,
Burn it down, burnt it down,
Burn it down, Gwenevieve you burn the whole world around you and
You don't need to huff the smoke for the cancer
Take another step away from your chance
Burn it down, burn it down,
Burn it down, burnt it down,
Burn it down, Gwenevieve and take a shower in it's ashes
You don't need to see the fire to smell the gasoline
Toss another lit match to the bridge
Burn it down, burn it down,
Burn it down, burnt it down,
Burn it down, Gwenevieve you burn the whole world around you and
You don't need to huff the smoke for the cancer
Take another step away from your chance
Burn it down, burn it down,
Burn it down, burnt it down,
My whole life I've been staring out the cracks
Slipping words among the people that get close enough to grasp it
And you're looking at me like another broken glass
Getting closer to the edge without emotional attachment.
And maybe you don't see that all of this
around you is a simple web of lies
That was designed to make you soundproof.
That's exactly why I scream like all the proud do
And slam against the gates with my music until I plow through.
I see the smiles and your frowns,
how you feel like everything in your life is nailed to the ground
And I see you speak with the same distaste in your mouth
While everything breaks you down to the bottle, tryin to drown yourself
I guess there's no hope left, all the ships are leaving port
and the wine is smelling like death and
You can smoke until there's holes in your chest,
until you're breathing out your last cold breath
I wish I could have told you
And all your demons are gonna get ya. [x4]
And this wood room's full of em, from the bar to the booth
Leave the guitar in the corner and stray far from your roots
Never thanked your father for infecting your youth
With a healthy taste for violence and a hundred fifty proof
And all you ever learned from life, is an icepack
It's good to stop the swellin and for chillin down your pint glass
Now every evening as you open up your nightcap
You drink yourself away like it's the only way to fight back
And I can show you how I feel and what it does to me
And how I look you in the face and see what has become of me
I'm a product of your liquid courage company
That drowned away your sorrow before you knew
that they were running free
So breathe in, and breathe out
Blur the place between us and constrict me when I reach out
Break the mirror so you never have to see out
And know that you were talking to yourself
I wish I coulda showed ya
And all your demons are gonna get ya. [x4]
It's the bottom of the bottle...
It's been awhile since I spoke like a human
Haven't seen you in over half of a decade and havent't talked since I moved
In the home town harmony's telling me you've been bad
Grieving over the fact that you're losing your baby's dad
But it's not just that, you're farther into the crack
Heard you're walking a track and marching into the trash
Fuck praying, 'cause I've been silent for years
I'm sick of trying to be a man about it; Hiding my tears
And fuck the judgment, I've got a messed up past
But when asked or confronted, imma shut down fast
And the truth is, girl I cry when I think of you
And write a million songs that imma never get to sing with you
Talk about the places imma never get to bring you to
Show you what it's like to build a life and learn a thing or two
What hurts me is that I love you, 'cause you're my older sister
The only girl that I can rock with
Mum shut's down when I ask and dad's so sad
That I don't know if he's ever gonna get past it
And really, I'm finding it hard for me to manage
Any close relationships without the fear of vanishing
All of this has been hard, I ain't denying it
I'm writing down this song as a product of my environment
So listen, they say that family is everything
It's more than just a house, two dogs and a wedding ring
It's blossoming life and standing up to anything
Trying to take the people that you love to what it's meant to be
Yeah, so then where'd you go?
Prisoner in your body quarantined from your soul
And I know those drugs got you out in the cold
Got you spitting in the mouth of those showing you hope
So if you'd ever come through to your senses
[Verse 1: Grieves]
And in come the strings
Playing my patience like a note that I never had the guts to sing
I've been living with your lies
Cause my life don't feel quite right unless I'm swelling from the honeybee sting
And look at what you bring me, girl
Nothing but drama, holding on strong to making me feel your woes
How long can we go until we're nothing but a pile of bones?
Stand tall in the cold, right?
You tell me that it's over
And show me what it's like to have a stomach full of sulfur
And loving you has taught me to keep a hand on the holster
In case I gotta shoot a couple holes
But what the hell do I know, huh
Yeah, I don't know shit unless I'm hanging off the curve of your lips
I've been looking for an angel like you since the devil in me
Made it obvious it doesn't exist
[Hook: Grieves & Budo]
How, how will I figure this out?
Under tow dragging you down
Beneath the comforts over that love I gave you round
I'm freaking out
Speaking with your name in my mouth
And I don't wanna live without you
I just want to clear your clouds
Away, away, away
[Verse 2: Grieves]
I'm into the fake smiles
Walking 'round like a stray child
Trying to find a quiet place to sleep
I don't know if you can feel it in the air when you step into the street
But I've been finding it a little hard to breathe
And look at what you brought me, girl
Nothing but pain
Spending my money for a walk in the rain, I'm drained
And never wanted this to be the outcome
When I can never trust you and all I get is "how come? "
Why, after everything I gave you
You can share it with a stranger every time I went away
I've been lied to before girl
I see it in your face that you don't care about the broken heart I taste
But what the hell do I know?
I know the world will go blind if I open up the cage of my mind
I've been running from an angel like you
Since the devil in me showed me heaven's not a bottom line
[Hook: Grieves & Budo]
How, how will I figure this out?
Under tow dragging you down
Beneath the comforts over that love I gave you round
I'm freaking out
Speaking with your name in my mouth
And I don't wanna live without you
I just want to clear your clouds
Away, away, away
Away, away, away
Away, away, away
[Hook: Grieves & Budo]
How, how will I figure this out?
Under tow dragging you down
Beneath the comforts over that love I gave you round
I'm freaking out
Speaking with your name in my mouth
And I don't wanna live without you
I just want to clear your clouds
I blow the dust off of the cover when I make my pick
Blind melody, the ghost in the hallway that jumps to the kick
My vision taking on a whole new level that'll blindside the devil when these cold words hit
So get in and dance to the crackle
Run around and flinch from the sound of the gavel when the judgement lands
Break the silence with my own young hands
So I can replace emotion where the boneyard stands
Time ticker, lost in the grit, tryna find a better way to solve it than jumping off of a bridge
Feeling tied down and tortured in all of the ways there is
Is not gonna help me when the white light splits
Theraputic, fiend for the music
Floating on the last boat sent from the cruise ship it saves your soul
It's time to take this show on the road
It's the one-man vessel people claim that they know
I'll go
This is not home
Chewing all the love songs, spitting out a poem
That's sitting on the phone in the place I chose
My blood will run warm when the cold wind blows
I'll go
And never come back
Riding on that train down a one way track
I'll break that glass
And I'll never look back
Even if they all laugh I wil never feel trapped and fade to black
Lay the needle where the pain stems
And dig around for the source
Pump my veins full up of all of the little things that I force
I'm a worm for direction and got a little bit off of course
It'll find you, re-invent everthing that you scored
Life writer, thrown from the cast
Catapaulted over that wall in which they constantly try to mask
And if that don't save me I'm probably going to crash on impact
Holding my broken pen in my grasp
Goodbye
Wind to the trail
Traveller, the last note spoken over grown folks chatter
The last rope thrown after I broke that ladder that it let me climb up and join the calamity
Dance and move to the freedom
Pick another lock and escape when the beat comes to save your soul
It's time to take this show on the road
It's that one man vessel people claim that they know
I'll go
This is not home
Chewing all the love songs, spitting out a poem
That's sitting on the phone in the place I chose
My blood will run warm when the cold wind blows
I'll go
And never come back
Riding on that train down a one way track
I'll break that glass
And I'll never look back
I remember being too dumb to spell it
But old enough to know
That when his fingers touched the keys
It lit something up in his soul
But at four years old
It's hard to notice the power
But I sat under that piano for hours.
Learnin' the sound of it
You heard an old mans noise
I heard every tear that he wept
and every crack in his voice.
Heard every fear that he kept
And every passion and joy
As he scrambled across the keys
And I played with my toys
I saw the power that projected from that living room
That man lost his family and everything he ever knew
He played that piano like
it saved him from the hell he flew
Runnin away from the pain that awaited
From bein' raised a Jew.
Some people paint with their music
Stimulate your senses
Enabling you to view it
But, those dogs raise
and train to take a tune with me
Everywhere I go
Makin my home where the music speaks.
(You swear you've heard it before,)
(as it slowly rambles on and on,)
(no need in bringin' em back,)
(Cause' their never really gone...)
I can still hear the music
His old box used to play
And I am what I am because of you
And they can't take that away...
I can still hear the music
His old box used to play
And the man that I am cause of you
And they can't take that away...
(Just an old fashioned love song...)
Saturday morning
Wakin up yawnin'
Smellin' moms cookin
and I can't stop lookin'
at the TV
picture double feature.
Thugs in reverses
Ro Dan and Kane Vetra
take a look at my life
take a look at my love
take a look at my soul
baby you cant save me
and you don't know
that there's an empty pot to piss in at the end of the road
"go"
i got to many problems
and not enough solutions
a brain that make you people think I'm lost and gone delusional
and america loves it
another sunken battleship
another stranded photo book with all my pictures plastered in it.
i aint got a pass
yet I'm walking like a free man
holding on to heaven
while questioning while i feel damned
and.
this is something that i've tragically adapted to.
cellophane my heart to pull the knife out of my back from you
and god won't tell me if he wants me to live
don't speak to me in the way you portray in your hymns
don't breathe through me in the way that you say that you live
and don't treat me differently when satan insists.
and this is it.
i gotta hold it to the grain
gotta breathe life into this dessert we roam in shame
oughta leave frights window sill and leap from its pain
and paint one city block within my unedible fate
it goes...
i can't taste it...
take a look at my life
take a look at my love
take a look at my soul
baby you cant save me
and you don't know
that there's an empty pot to piss in at the end of the road
"go"
take a look at my life
take a look at my love
take a look at my pain
baby you cant save me
and you don't know
that there's an empty pot to piss in at the end of the road
"go"
and i can't taste it.
cause it all gets lost
can't figure out it's meaning till i register its loss
so don't you look at me like just another feather
falling from the wings of the angels sent to protect you
I'm tragic,
and it all now shows
blacking out before the rain comes and waking up soaked
i try to pretend that I'm far from what painfully close
and face the displacement of hating what i faithfully chose
and this is obvious.
and thats exactly why you freeze
when you crawl behind my eyelids and peep what i've been seeing
when you fall into your silence i find out what they mean
when they say that its the quiet ones that always wanna scream so...
hush
its not about your words
your force fed holiness will only make it worse
your force fed loneliness is scorching the burns
of what god really feels like compared to your words
it goes...
i can't taste it...
take a look at my life
take a look at my love
take a look at my soul
baby you cant save me
and you don't know
that there's an empty pot to piss in at the end of the road
"go"
take a look at my life
take a look at my love
take a look at my pain
baby you cant save me
and you don't know
that there's an empty pot to piss in at the end of the road
I swear to god that sometimes
I feel my life is going blah
From the women I wake up to
To the substance in my rhymes
And i've abused the truth by telling myself everythings fine
With all that negativity im ignoring, steadily climbed
And undescribed
But hell I know that im not perfect
God knows I cant keep a girlfriend
'Cause all of my problems surface
They feel I dont deserve 'em
'Cause their friends say that im worthless
Unappropriately portrayed in my words
And what about my music
Haven't been making it lately
The way that I view haven't been positive
Missing the fact that it's human to get confused
I bleed and bruise like all the rest of you
But verbalize my bloo inhale the punches love has thrown at me
And breathe it out my lungs like.
And this all has been a mess
I replaced the things I love and ripped my heart out of my chest like.
And im not so concerned with why
I'm just here to count the minutes till tomorrows sun can rise
Listen.
How many times do you have to wake up to stop dreaming
And I wrap my love notes in dust but never read 'em
Many times I just try to give up to stop leaving you
I have my heart broke and busted
Most of its been crushed but I blame it on myself
'Cause in the morning I dont see the right reflection
That foggy mirror after my shower, I see rejection
And im not saying im depressed
Seems to be a common theme today
These children try to hate themselves
But dont know why they feel that way
I got a real path paved and its been crazy
In a month i almost had the clap and possibly a baby
Relocated places credit companies chasin me
And new age taking on in it's efficient pile of changes
And I hate it 'cause its all so uncontrollable
Losing myself inside this broken emotion of no one knows
What's the point of ever falling in love
I find it's more about the pain than it ever was about trust
Find its more about breaking chains and being confound there that it rusts
Found that love is just a test to most of us who've given up
But if you think of it logistically
Then love is open eye
'Cause its everywhere you look
And its in every scar you hide
How many times do you have to wake up to stop dreaming
And I wrap my love notes in dust but never read 'em
Many times I just try to give up to stop leaving you
I have my heart broke and busted
What did you want from me?
Ya knockin on doors tryna wake up the beast
Head full of thorns
You wanna settle the score, you wanna level the board,
you wanna level me down
What did you want from me?
Ya knockin on doors tryna wake up the beast
Head full of thorns
You wanna settle the score, you wanna level the board,
you wanna level me down
I find it funny how ya heart don't work
And that tattooed diamond on ya chest spells hurt... how predictable
Just another shark in the blood stream
Swimmin its way upstream,
and figure out where love sleeps,
And kill it like it must be stopped
I don't see the reason in ya logic I just understand the plot
And if I don't find it outta here I swear to God I'll pop --
From the needles you been stickin in me
Tryna throw me off when I fly straight
Just another meal for the vultures, picked into pieces
and buried under the boulders
Till the last cracked molar is found
I'm just a victim with the soul torn out of him and shot to the ground
Without the glory, broken and that's the way that you like it
With the war horns fired up stimulating excitement and,
I can see why the devil put you in ranks but shoulda
asked you what you wanted fore you flashed me the fangs...
you gotta problem
What did you want from me?
Ya knockin on doors tryna wake up the beast
Head full of thorns
You wanna settle the score, you wanna level the board,
you wanna level me down
What did you want from me?
Ya knockin on doors tryna wake up the beast
Head full of thorns
You wanna settle the score, you wanna level the board,
you wanna level me down
I've been livin in this winter you provided me
Eatin all the pages of this history inside of me... for what?
Just so you can run around the graveyard and scream
into the Heavens and sink the boat that you came on?
I've taken all the pain I can
And plan on jumpin off this ship before I lose it
and never know who I am
Fore this vessel ever gets in sight of land
Imma dive into the waters underneath it and
take my chances at hand, till it drowns out
You've got a perfect way of killin me
An angel in appearance wit a smile like a guillotine
And I don't think that you could ever change
Pain is your nicotine and fightin me's the flame and it stays that way
Cause everything is frozen in ya steps
And this blade is a trophy to your unexpected guests... you're a monster
And I can smell it rottin in your teeth
Just hope that you can figure out whatchu been lookin for and leave
...you got a problem
What did you want from me?
Ya knockin on doors tryna wake up the beast
Head full of thorns
You wanna settle the score, you wanna level the board,
you wanna level me down
What did you want from me?
Ya knockin on doors tryna wake up the beast
Head full of thorns
You wanna settle the score, you wanna level the board,
I've been looking for that shadow that's inside of me for quite some time
Sunk my teeth into life, as a young man blind
But never regret the process or regret time
Just wish I could have helped the three of us and breach that line
Like how the hell was I supposed to know?
It's a symbiotic circle that we all helped grow
And when it all fell through
Yeah we all sunk in the same lake
And drowned in that vision of our future in the same day and
You can tell it to the doctor when he asks you
Or carve it in your little prison wall like a tattoo but
We got a frozen rock of luck like a statue
It stands at the cross roads blocking where to pass through
Damn, that's part of livin' on the off beat and
Part of skipping down that never-ending dark street so
You can fight it and draw the difference between us
Cos the blood doesn't match but the god damn disease does
How many more hearts are we gonna break?
How many failed steps are we gonna take?
It's time to look at what we got here
Standing on the verge of that age old question
Is it nature versus nurture?
How many more lines are we gonna cross
Until we figure out the pain we caused?
It's time to look at what we got here
Standing on the verge of that age old question
Is it nature versus nurture?
I flip through that little photo book that Ma made
And look for the warning signs crawling out of my face
I've been questioning the level of our mind state
That made us feel like everything around us was a crying shame
No answers, just a whole bunch of burned bridges
Earned stitches and a curve in our world's rhythm
And I don't know where we learned this from
Or how it's stuck with you after all the worst was done
But it scares me, yeah, and I'm not afraid to say it
I'm ready to wake the demon and enclose it up and face it
And take it out and display it and show the world that it's real
Stop running from the past like it's gonna make you heal
Cos it can't, and maybe that's the reason why I see it
And feel it in my pen when I sit down and treat it
And after all of it's done, you don't have to believe it
When the blood doesn't match, and the god damn disease lives
How many more hearts are we gonna break?
How many failed steps are we gonna take?
It's time to look at what we got here
Standing on the verge of that age old question
Is it nature versus nurture?
How many more lines are we gonna cross
Until we figure out the pain we caused?
It's time to look at what we got here
Standing on the verge of that age old question
I guess it started when the lights went out
and everybody started running round in circles tryin to figure it out
I could feel it
wedged in my ribs it felt freezin
as my cold air blew out
dance through the evening, paranormal
slowly being called to the green
where the ghosts gather nightly and sell the devil their dreams, i observe
hails from the other side of the curb
hold the concrete notepad
scribble down my words in the limelight
this is what it's like to bleed ink
put your fingers in it paint me a picture of what you think
make it beautiful and make it look like love
make it hang from the heavens
make it break my trust
make it real
make it dangerous
make it out of the rust
make it passionate and impossible to touch
it's forever
slowly resurrected from the dust
when you understand its everything inside of you, its us.
You're all I've ever known
So to my sleep
You always got me running home
Count for the roses
You're my blood and brittle bones, my soul and open throne
You're all I know
Ive spoke a whisper in the dark one night
watch it take form in front of me and mimic my life
it seemed natural specially watching its last breathe like poetry
watch as it clung to its own chest with a smile
made out of broken pieces of tile
you can see the thoughts running chase em around for miles
if you want it people say that old road is haunted
if you travel on it long enough you'll never get off it
you believe it cause everything is skewed when you see it
then you process automatically think that you feel it
and automatically sticks to the brain when the truth of it is standing outside playing cards in the rain
you will never beat the game it plays
you can only turn around and lick the blood from your own switchblade
its forever slowly resurrected from the dust
They all look the same
Capitol Hill boys that look like Capitol Hill girls
Capitol Hill girls that look like Capitol Hill boys
You came home like you were not there
You were not not there
I do not like that sort of thing, not at all
Not at all
Capitol Hill boys that look like Capitol Hill girls
Capitol Hill girls that look like Capitol Hill boys (2x)
You have long hair, and yours is short
But coke is what both of you snort
Your pants are loose, your pants are tight
You both don't eat, and you're both white!
But I can't tell you apart
No, I can't tell you apart.
Capitol Hill boys that look like Capitol Hill girls
Capitol Hill girls that look like Capitol Hill boys (2x)
Are you Amy, or David, or Jamie
Or Seamus, or Lacy, or Hazel, or all of the above?
And I can't tell you apart
No, I can't tell you apart.
Are you Amy, or David, or Jamie
Or Seamus, or Lacy, or Hazel, or all of the above?
And I can't tell you apart
No, I can't tell you apart.
Capitol Hill boys that look like Capitol Hill girls
Capitol Hill girls that look like Capitol Hill boys (2x)
I love them all.
Capitol Hill boys that look like girls
Capitol Hill girls that look like boys
The Mexicans call a potato a papa,
But you can call me a potata (2x)
[Verse 1:]
Look at what the cat dragged in, still breathing last night's air
Hand shaking cause the vice never fights fair
And you're relating cause you struggle with the same shit
And wrote the threat of addiction off with the same sip
Drowning, holding on to anything and everything around me,
Staring down the barrel of a browning
Scowering, looking for any chance that allows me
To sip another bad taste down and devour it whole
Young bright and bold with a bottle for a friend and a heart full of holes
No diamond in a stocking full of coal
Never listen to the world when it told me I should slow my roll
It's abusive, but never hands on a women,
Choked a couple bottle necks and pounced when I shouldn't
If the proof is in the pudding I done ate it all up,
Instead of savoring the taste I love
[Hook:]
I'm on that shit again and I don't wanna come back down
I hold my broken crown in pieces
Pour my last shot to the ground
You're on that shit again, trying to overload my mound
You always chase me round in circles till I'm forced to hit the clouds
I won't come down
[Verse 2:]
What's your meaning of high, huh?
Getting lifted on a smoke cloud,
Moderately poisoning yourself until you zone out?
Stick the dragon in your veins, sniffing Adderall and Cain,
Tilt another Styrofoam cup to your mouth
Me? I got my own way to get up,
Starts with a rocks glass and ends with a hiccup
And all the while I've been camouflaging my symptoms
Like I don't do the harder drugs cause I slip up
Slip up - yeah that kid slipped up,
Rehabilitated twice and skipped straight to the pub
I got my pops freaking out about his son
And I'm juggling the stress of an artist by getting drunk
No difference
I escape like the rest of them, no thought, no faith like the rest of them
I've been focusing and fighting so hard
That I deserve a little bit of R&R;, right?
[Hook:]
I'm on that shit again and I don't wanna come back down
I hold my broken crown in pieces
Pour my last shot to the ground
You're on that shit again, trying to overload my mound
You always chase me round in circles till I'm forced to hit the clouds
I won't come down
[Verse 3:]
I never claimed to be a saint, shit
I built a life off of mishaps
And cheers proudly to my flaws with a chipped glass
The sick fact is I'm happy when I'm shit-canned
At least a little bit, I smile like a lit candle
But I'm aware that I'm just blinded by the blanket of it
And stress doesn't get relinquished just by drinking something
And I don't know if I'm addicted to the feeling or the fact
That I can make a little exit without thinking of it
Hell, I guess I'm showing all the signs huh?
And redirecting to where alcohol defines fun
And I'll admit that I've been known to have a good time,
But promised that I'd never cross the line
But never learned to draw it, call it, write it with a goal,
Make it so the night train never gets to go
I'm as vulnerable as any of you other Joe Shmoe's
And got a couple little vices of my own.
[Hook:]
I'm on that shit again and I don't wanna come back down
I hold my broken crown in pieces
Pour my last shot to the ground
You're on that shit again, trying to overload my mound
You always chase me round in circles till I'm forced to hit the clouds
You should seen it before you jumped on in, and realized
That if you look before you leap then you decide to sink or swim
But you dove into that social pool, powdering your nose huh,
And going home with people that you hardly even know
And you're a ghost
Now look at you, you hardly even speak,
Haven't woken up to the thought of getting clean in fuckin' weeks
And if you did, I guarantee you'd never leave the sheets,
Home alone until that fix comes, put you on your feet
And some blame it on the city, some blame it on the streets,
Some bury it inside beneath that dream of being free
But I can see it in your eyes, that you're aware of what it needs,
How you feel like it's the only thing in love that doesn't leave
And it's a shame, cause I remember life without the games,
And the bittersweet acknowledgement of how it's gonna change
But the rain can't wash you if you're laying in the dirt,
And the pain can't change you if you blame it on the hurt
So God help us
So God help us
So God help us
So God help us
I mean look at you, Mr. I-don't-even-have-a-clue
Mr. get it right the first time or shut it down from you
Cause you're the boss, and Daddy taught you how to be a mine
Via stepping out on Mommy and releasing with your hands
And now it hurts, cause you can't even question what is right,
Life is nothing but a challenge and you want to win the fight
So go ahead, try and make that old man proud,
And beat that last remaining angel off your shoulder to the ground
And then escape, slap the world steady in it's face and make moves on em,
Force em all to cater to your taste
Exterminate the good in you that tried to fly away,
When you figured out the only human part of you is pain
And then it raised you, sunk it's dirty fangs into your drained roots,
Threw you to the fire when you thought that you were flame proof
So that's the reason why you're sinking alone,
And going home without a rescuer and drinking alone
So God help us
So God help us
So God help us
So God help us
Now jump, yeah jump into the fire, just jump
Yeah jump into the fire, just jump, yeah jump into the fire
You're mommy's little angel, I'm daddy's little squire
Now jump, yeah jump into the fire, just jump
Yeah jump into the fire, just jump, yeah jump into the fire
the rain came down like a banket and insulated the street lights
turned the gutters to rivers and sailed away with my free time
nowadays I got a lot more to juggle
a monster to struggle down in lock to the rubble
need to slow down 'cause I don't know if I can go out
and force a little sunshine outta broken bone powder
crushed, holding on to the rocks in my gut
this is blood around, it bulls and forcing me to get up
like jump, all of this is driving me mad, i gotta razor with a poem on it, smiling back
it kinda feels like i'm under attack with no boundaries
and cannons balls drowning and tied at my foot, sunk
they'll probably find all of the wreckage in the morn'
come runnin from their beach homes and watchin from the shore
all aboard, the new ship is leaving the port
I only sail now to calm that storm, to calm that storm
i'm floating away, it kinda feels like i'm drowning
i'm floating away, drowning
the belly of it creaks and moans in the water like a monster tryna eat my bones
i'm out here tryna solve the problem that is breached my hull and got me jumping off the plank in every sea I roam
it's not okay no more, dropped the anchor, tied an captain wheel's though it
let't die in the daytime and cry to its music
yeah, I never thought that I could harpoon love and watch the world turn red with a drop of its blood
like fuck, all of this is driving me mad
I watched the water from the crows nest fighting to pass
this whole thing's like a knife in the back
I can't grasp it, I feel like i'm floating alone
its my casket, sink
I don't think that I can go further
sink, all of this is feeling like murder
sink, they'll probably find the wreckage in the morn
I need to sink so I can calm that storm, to calm that storm
i'm floating away, it kinda feels like i'm drowning
Down with your back against the bottom
There's somethin' 'bout these days that got you caught up
Toss another empty bottle to the bay
What did you say, what did you do
When life came crashing down on you?
I should have seen it when you broke down
Stop and listen, and stop acting like you don't have a position
Cause I could see it from the jump when I kissed you
And feel it through the walls that you constantly put your fist through
You're pissed, but you ain't gotta fight like this
Life isn't worth a dime with a knife-sliced wrist
Spent a whole bunch of time trying to write your list
Of the last things alive that make you bite your... lip
Little girl, little love, little hold my head to the ground in the mud
Little I'm not comin' back up 'til the whole sky falls down on top of me
And breaks my trust
Now run, and think about it all
Think about the last chance given and the first round fall
And if that can't get you back to where you start
Just call, and meet me in the place where we always are
Down with your back against the bottom
There's somethin' 'bout these days that got you caught up
Toss another empty bottle to the bay
What did you say, what did you do
When life came crashing down on you?
I should have seen it when I came back, yup
I shoulda...
Cause you don't see the things that I really wish that you would've
No you don't make the effort I really thought that you could've
To unlock the cage where you put us
And take another stab at it
Fly fishin' for the catch
With my heart tied onto the only line that you cast
And if I don't sink this raft right now
I'm a float down the river 'til my last breath's gasp
Yeah, little lock, little key,
Little drop my boxes of thoughts into the sea
No, I'm not comin' back out 'til the whole world stops in it's tracks
And admits it's defeat, for good
Back to the shackles, back to the comfort of the things that attack you
And make you cold
I'm over tryin' to make this home, so just go
And leave me in the place that we'll always know
Down with your back against the bottom
There's somethin' 'bout these days that got you caught up
Toss another empty bottle to the bay
What did you say, what did you do
You're such a greedy bastard
You're such a broken king that you
Don't know when you've already won
You wanna conquer everything
You're such a greedy bitch
You're such a hopeless queen that you
Don't know when you've been overthrown
You wanna fight for everything
The last castle fell, he wrote it in song
She got the whole world to control, and hold in your palms
Now that you got the (jew star?) hows it gonna go?
You wanna rip out a bruised heart and swallow it whole?
You wanna flip out and move on, find a new home
You wanna kick out the new start and call her on the phone like...
{"There's no way you'll ever find another like me, if your new man don't like it, then I'll come over and fight him! "}
Pshhh, let go...
Why you try to keep her in a neck hold?
When every question she asks is answered with a HELL NO!
What you tryin to do?
Man it doesnt make a difference if shes lying to you
Besides... you're the one who wanted outta there too
Now you're so damn jealous you dunno what to do
So... you can hold on or sink with the ship and keep
Pulling it
Pulling it
Pullin down...
You're such a greedy bastard
You're such a broken king that you
Don't know when you've already won
You wanna conquer everything
You're such a greedy bitch
You're such a hopeless queen that you
Don't know when you've been overthrown
You wanna fight for everything
The last petals picked
Your romeo's dead
You need to pick yourself up and start living instead
You need to stop giving in to all the shit that he says
Makes you feel like a bitch when you try to forget...
Girl...
Stop thinkin he'll be comin back around for ya
Open up the car door and drive it outta town with ya
I hate to break it to ya lady, but it's over
So you can cancel the search for your four leafed clover
Cause ain't no amount of wishin gonna bring him back
Ain't no amount of givin gonna change his tracks
Ain't no amount of cinnamon gonna sweeten the crap
That you've been taken from this dude tryna pretend that you're happy so...
Guess your lookin for the sunshine and progress
Waitin in the rain for your prince in your prom dress
You can hold on and sink with the ship and keep
Pulling it
Pulling it
Pullin down...
You're such a greedy bastard
You're such a broken king that you
Don't know when you've already won
You wanna conquer everything
You're such a greedy bitch
You're such a hopeless queen that you
Don't know when you've been overthrown
Beat the bloodly hell out of it
Look at what it took from ya
You're pride's shattered and all you do is deny
Shoulda, Chill
Cause now your living all alone
In a place meant for two
With a pocket full of stones
And it drags you, down to the bottom of it
You pig headed mother fucker
Shouldve saw it coming
Cause now your wipin all the pictures off the fridge
Bitin your bottom lip
So you don't call her a bitch
And it's crazy
Whered you learn to fight like an Animal
Everytime you have a slight misundertandable
Issue, it kills you to let shit go
So you treat it like it's trying to take a chip out of your bones
When it finds you
Dragging all the bullshit behind you
Fight for the hell of it
And fuck for the solid truth
This is everything that's ripping you apart
But you act like it's just a little scar
[Chorus:]
I never back down
Never threw no fight
Never stopped when the bell dinger proved yo right
Never listened when you told me it would loose my life
But, I'm a give it just one more round
I never back down
Never threw no towel
Never hesitate to respar with three meters back
Never thought that it would ever tackle me out
But, I'm a give it just one more [bell]
Beat the daylights out of it
Look at what it put you through
Revive what you used to do
You shoulda, chill
Cause now you're living in a box
With a ghost for a friend
And a (?) full of thoughts
And it beats you down
With the water running
You blind swinging motherfucker
Shouldve thought of something
Cause now you're dancing in the middle of the ring
With yo fists tossed up
Yelling I don't feel a thing
And it's crazy
You don't want to live like this
If it wasn't for your friends
You would kill by this
Feeling passionate, it actually slows you down
When you don't read between
The lines of those old nine rounds
When it's time to
Dragging all that bullshit behind you
Fight for the hell of it or fuck for the solid truth
This is everything that's ripping you apart
But you act like it's just a little scar
[Chorus]
I never back down
I never back down
[Verse 1:]
I feel like I've been breathing out of an exhaust pipe
On the job site, with a fist full of brittle sand
Should have seen it coming
A mile away from the little hill in which I'm making a stand on
It makes a man of me (doesn't it?)
And if it never kills me then I get a pass
Wish I could've opened up the air around me
Just a little bit so I could take a gasp
Who the hell is watching?
Put a notch in my belt, keep it on the tracks
Shoulda woulda coulda never made a difference
When you're playing chicken with your only chance
But it made a man of me, right? Mad man
That gotta dance around and play his sounds
Wish I knew back then what I know now
Yeah, look at me now!
[Hook: x2]
Dodging forever
Spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it
Never learned how
All of this pressure is driving me wild
Look at me now
[Verse 2:]
I'm starting to feel like it's stacking on my shoulders
Another soldier with little patience to see the dawn
Fought a lot of odds, in the name of cause
Put em in a box buried in the lawn
But I learned a lesson from it, didn't I?
And if I didn't who the hell is gonna teach me?
I've been looking for answers
And none of em ever offered a lesson that'll reach me
Who can see me?
Losing personal relationships like people do they house keys
I've been outside, looking inside
With a shadow casted all around me
And they doubt me
Try to throw a little part of me away with every frown
Just wish they saw what I know now
Yeah, look at me now!
[Hook: x3]
Dodging forever
Spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it
Never learned how
All of this pressure is driving me wild
