Unholy semen rains on skinned agonizing landscapes:
a macrocosmic fornication fertilizing the ordure,
consecrating the ground.
The thrice cursed phallus stabs through the arse of our
world
and this union seals the irrevocable perdition,
leaving the world raped and annexed.
And He walks His temple,
in filth and carrion,
as the deity of failure,
whose vassals revere in erecting the revolting monument:
the inmense crucifix,
forged by the Devil Himself
with the blackest of metals,
the impurest of all that is earthly,
The scabs start to itch:
These wounds don't want to heal.
Maybe the whole dermis should be removed
before the germs gangrene the soul.
Suffering the torments of the alchemist
trapped in the tenth tomb of the eight circle
and whose nails tear his corrupted body to pieces,
but the mange keeps on eating the epidermis,
until nothing is left to infect.
Truly, flesh is the kingdom of the Lord,
the Devil's stronghold.
His odious tongue licks the limbs
so they never turn healthy again.
Welcome to the playground of entropic forces,
where everything is built out of sand,
where bodies are at war against themselves,
where bodies are at war against themselves,
It's growing, crawling under skin,
the hornedmetastasis forever hungry,
devouring a road leading nowhere anyway.
All beauty ends up in ugliness;
all that you love is condemned
to turn into liquid rottenness
stagnating in the foulest resspits of this sick world.
Truly, flesh is the kingdom of the Lord,
Children of the Lord in league,
walking unseen in the multitude,
among the men,
whispering words
with a voice from above,
with a tongue of a snake,
and these words are the light of the Lord...
Heavenly messengers of coal and fire,
keeping hearts beating in vain,
emissaries of the shepherd of terror,
armed with rusty blunt blades.
They speak to souls, they blind the eyes,
they hold the testimony of Jesus,
cherubs of perdition, celestial guides,
keeping sheep away from the path...
Heavenly messengers of coaland fire,
keeping hearts beating in vain,
emissaries of the shepherd of terror,
armed with rusty blunt blades.
Bathed and lulled in the warm light of lies,
like XanaX for the soul,
the truth has died in all spirits,
they rejoice and laugh as it burns...
Hear their words, may they sound to you as the golden
I would sell my soul to the Devil and crawl in the oceans
of misery,
I would leave this life behind and make myself bleed 'til
death...
to force the angels to take my carnal cell to where life
ends...
The unspoken and the unseen, criminal behaviour,
two stabs right in the heart, mutual homicide.
A divine possession, a moment in madness,
a revenge in chaos, a life in Hell...
At last in Hell!
This pain redeems inside,
washes away all sins,
mortifies the flesh and kills all hopes.
This path of time is not to be walked,
for what is dead is dead,
for real and forever.
What can be kept through death?
See what you want to see,
I won't reveal His tricks.
Father of my perdition,
herald of my redemption,
torment of my damnation,
light of my salvation...
Only the man regarding nothing as important is able to
fully sacrifice his life on the altar of his god.
So wonder, fool:
what's the blessing?
What's the curse?
Sick like a monk harassed by the devils of the twelfth
hour,
and by the sun warming up the bath of Satan.
"Let them run" says the voice you all know too well.
The believer's race is elsewhere.
Oceans of shimmering colours are dancing before the
eyes almost blind,
tired of a too long play for the end has been revealed.
The light fades away, obscured by the black bile which
rains in the veins like acid on rust.
The colours turn dim and nothing shines any longer,
appealing no more, under the sick immobile sun spreadin
it's damned poisoned light.
The sick immobile sun warming up the bath of Satan.
The virgins come numbing every pleasure,
eight are they, eight paths out of their place.
The virgins come choking the desire,
closing the doors of flesh.
Almost blind and deaf, with a dead heart pumping dead
blood through dry veins.
Noble is the vague, dark sorrow of the one longing for
the infinite and whose detestable existence is no
longer suitable for the captives of materia,
Breath!
Receive these chains for a life long,
already stained in blood and tears.
Born in dirt and fear,
another candidate for misery.
Feces will follow blood...
The face permanently under the surface,
inhaling fallacy miasmata,
here begins the long loss.
Your ceremony has just started,
welcome to Hell!
Behold the purity of the lamb,
new-born and virgin of any sin.
He holds them deep in his soul.
Soon to be soiled, the immaculate robe!
Mother!
Your womb is nothing but a cementery,
a pile of bloody flesh
fertilized by the black sperm...
Closed are the doors to the native rotten placenta,
which fed the new-born son with its last sanguine
drops.
Son of human love,
the larva wails and screams,
unaware of the storms to come,
soon to creep under kicks,
soon to feel the grip,
that makes all of us dance on the dead notes of His
genetic symphony.
Worse and worse...
There can't be any other way,
there can't be any salvation without genuflexion.
Brought forth to the circle of life,
like an absurd comedy for retards,
we will find a role for the new-comer.
Lower, time takes everything lower.
The enemy makes everything dirtier.
Children grow old and die,
as all worlds crumble and dissolve.
Down you go, what did you expect?
All paths go this way far beneath.
Buried in the dead black earth lies the forgotten
architecture,
the stones glanced upon through righteous expression
like keys to the edifice lost behind oceans of clay.
The fall could never end,
it carves the way through cold ground.
The fall could never end,
where no one is supposed to go.
The fall could never end,
to the truth originating all lies.
The fall could never end,
down the cold domain that roots and corrupts the world
from above.
The fall could never end,
and the unseen eye prevails!
Children get their wings through recognition of the
stream,
thus they join the empire of opposition and feed the
torrents that desunite.
They get as one with the glory beneath the world and
suffer with pride.
So, if you see me crying and drowned in mud,
don't you fear for me,
A knee on the floor, then the final breath:
there comes the victory,
the final step before what's next.
Darkness speaks and orders,
and through the hazy veils of this life so far away,
cries the child who doesn't want to play.
They'll never get him alive.
That's why he's reborn to die.
With all the sorrow he found
he buries the last relics of hope
for he knows,
for he's been told,
for he's been proven.
The fate brings back
forgotten shadows before his tired eyes
to better throw him down,
but fanatic rage fears no challenge.
The father strikes everywhere
for the sake of holy failure.
He bites and tears and tackles the world
and the thankful child
whose only wish is to die,
to die from the father's hands.
Whose only wish is to die,
to die in the father's hands.
And he cries of joy and pain at once
at the sight of the crushing fate,
the inexorable outcome.
They die his death.
The father is done with lies.
The child couldn't believe anymore,
so he saw the truth therein
and built the ruins of his existence upon it.
He goes as death in life,
as the shit-covered sword through healthy flesh,
walking in the voice of the father,
in his work of entropy,
Eyes watching in contemplation
Eyes watching eyes with hunger
Eyes watching eyes watching in obscene vertigo
Eyes watching eyes watching eyes in the alcoves of the
golden door, to which incongruous burning dreams have
designed the way and the need. Behind the golden door is
a land of storms, raging, clammy and feverish and its
lightnings pierce the broken eggs of your eyes.
Sacrificing to the religion of treachery and betrayal,
the broken eyes slip in wet cavities, entering tunnels to
the dark homes thereunder. In exaltation or in necessity,
the rapes of the night carve their way through the burden
of the tasteless standards of castration, feeding the
rage inside, urging to enter the kingdom of
transgression, its divine wildness, celebrating the
wicked appeasement through degradation, ordure and
impudence. Pounding the solar splendour with absurd yet
passionate anger until the grey hours of little death,
sign of a cosmic void, an absence just too present,
choking the possibilities of it not to spread and triumph
over divineless will. The golden door and its bitter
rains falling of the cheeks like obscene tears, sacred
gate to abnormal mysteries where the dogs are unleashed
after innocence. And the vile torrents daze the soul in
lascivious drunkenness to finally erase all the
boundaries. The solar passage banishes the shame and let
the will betray the shells of the past to better find its
The journey goes on from the grey childhood to the fires of faith, the signs are followed among shadows, rats and wrecks.
Through Hell and snow I go as they laugh and scream and wallow naked in the poisonous cold fields, roused in the comforting drunkenness.
The journey goes on, time passes by and the sky is still grey and this greyness is the greatest of sins: the gentle snow which buries the souls and the world.
And the sky is a lie, home of the cold black sun of a malignant god.
Let it shine and feed the legions of fools.
Let it shine and inspire those to bear its sight.
And from the other side the black boy in the corner stares at me and his long time silent songs sing with a hint of despair from the halls of white death he has entered, behind the river and its black stream to which I used to drink and still drink and sing the songs of nostalgia.
But no memory nor any rhyme, no matter the words, will dry Philomena's tears.
And her tears feed the river, and so do mine.
O Lord, the time is now to kill the silence of prayers, to scream at the face of all this vow of obedience. Give my will the strength to march toward Thee in nudity, submission and holiness. Lead me to the gates of the worlds below, O divine light from the North, to the secrets of the 11 Kings of Edom, where no light dwells but the black one that strives against creation. Let me descend, O Lord, and cross Thine Abyss and stand at Thy Left at the edge of divinity. Adonaï, the time is now that Thy Divine Ways are sought and walked to leave behind the house of mundane futility to seek Thy Breath beyond the gates of night and receive The blessing of darkness by Thy Grace, by Thy Very Holy Grace!
Adonaï, hear this soul that sings Thy Glory. These knees are made for kneeling and that is just what they do, so grant Thy Favours to this son of Thine. Adonaï, in the times of glorification, put Thy Fire in my throat, put Thy Fire in my throat! Fill it up of Thee so that I can sing Thy Perfection. Put Thy Thom in my heart so that I can die, and by Thy Grace, and Thy Grace only shall I be reborn, by Thy Grace, by Thy Very Holy Grace!
Adonaï, my one and only god! For too long have I put quietude in my prayers, for too long have I delayed the decisive moment when the pact is sealed and there is no turning back. And in Thy Very Holy Name, by Thy Very Holy Grace, shall I descend into death and bathe in Thy Divine Darkness that shall open my eyes to Thy Very Holy Truth, never to return, never! May this be my prayer for today, and forever more.
Adonaï, uphold my soul so that I do not fail; grant me the strength to withstand Thy Glance, and deny me not as I march toward Thy Victory. Do not spare me, manifest in all Thy Glory, and by Thy Grace sanctify me!
Eyes of fire slowly open, burning through complete darkness.
With majesty and determination the titanic body moves, finally awakening from death-like slumber.
The flames that once were burning now burn again and none can restrain it.
Deign to grab me in your claws and carry me away from decay, spread your wings O divine eagle ablaze for tonight, at last, the stars are right!
The pale light from the constellations arranged in forbidden geometry is cocaine to the Phoenix and now he lives again.
The word has been heard, the call has been answered.
A new oath has been sealed as the light has invaded the horizon.
After all the sins, after all the weakness, time has come for ascension, to elevate above the mass of infidels and to breath in glory to better welcome adversity.
Let the will be purified, let the soul be cleansed.
In this night of might and fire, when the stars align, see the obstacles mercilessly consumed by the scornful flames of the divine firebird.
Higher and higher!
Behold!
The implacable flight of the glorious Phoenix, omen of greatness and domination.
From the ashes of death to the fire of life, from the bottomless pit to disappear in the firmament as one with the astral pattern.
In the grey fields of terror and death, where cannons
never sleep and hunger is never quenched, they die and
die and keep on dying in vermin and cold rancid blood.
Forward, forward! In mud and in blood! Forward, nevermind
the iron storm. Ardour has passed away a long time ago
now, no one could tell when, no one could tell why. But
this life is not life, it's the whole world committing
mass suicide. Once convicted of unity, now beholding the
true face of disharmony, allies have all failed, Sofia
has fallen. Whatever, the march goes on and on and on...
Here in the grey fields of terror and death, far away
from homeland, defeatists and traitors, the alliance of
death keeps on marching, keeps on dying for the sake of
eternal confrontation. Reeling skeletal shadows,
sleepless and dismayed, praying helpless gods when the
night is too long in quaint rosaries and rusty weaponry,
though there's no place for doubt: there will still be
death! In regrets and in fear, in sludge and in disease,
it keeps on calling to burn what's left to burn. Forward,
forward! In mud and in blood! And forget the mouths of
clay that swallow forever more. Fidelity to the one whom
time has passed can't prevent the ravage of his heritage
by the untenable scarlet tempest brought forth from the
land of his eastern akin. The illusion of peace, the hoax
of defeat has planted the seeds for times of sedition,
and men will be seduced and scream in jubilation as
There you go flashing fever from your eyes
Hey baby, come over here and shut them tight
I'm not denying, we're flyin' above it all
Hold my hand, don't let me fall
You've such amazing grace, I've never felt this way
Oh, show me heaven
Cover me, leave me breathless
Oh, show me heaven please
Here I go, I'm shakin' just like the breeze
Hey baby, I need your hand to steady me
I'm not denying, I'm frightened as much as you
Though I'm barely touching you
I've shivers down my spine and it feels divine
Oh, show me heaven
Cover me, leave me breathless
Oh, show me heaven please
If you know what it's like to dream a dream
Baby, hold me tight and let this be
Oh, cover me, leave me breathless
Oh, heaven please
Show me heaven
Cover me, leave me breathless
Oh, heaven please
Show me heaven
Like bloodtracks to a hound
Scent takes me back to where he took me down
And I spin them round
Images made without a sound
You, you and I were bound behind a lie
And now like shock before my eyes
With a heart that burns
I now return
Into the scene of the affair
Nothing remains
Of a life so depraved
As if we were never there
Lose your way
Did you forget the man you were
She's ok
She's strong enough go back to her
My collar up against this demon freeze
While I, I summon him with me
Did it with shame
I hunt the game
To the scene of the affair
I button my coat
And it feels so remote
It's as if you never cared
But I hardly recognize this place
And you, your life is all smoothed out
And what's left for me now?
Have I clouded your disgrace?
There's not a trace
Four walls and a bed
Best to let the dead rest with the dead
As I seal off fate
Without the slightest sense of dread
One kick of a can and a rush of gasoline
One strike to keep alive the dream
A silent scream
And no one sees me leave
The scene of the affair
It's where we lay
Laid bare a flame
With sacrificial flare
With a heart that burns
And now returns
To the scene of the affair
Nothing remains
Of a life so depraved
As if we were never there
And I spin them round
Images made without a sound
And I spin them round
And I spin them round
Suicide
Ever think of suicide
See your friends the day you take your life
It kinda helps you to decide
Paradise
Anyone not paralyzed
Full use of your limbs, your eyes
Solid heart and sound of mind
Come dangle in my web
Come drown in my ocean
A tangle in my head
All this commotion will leave me still
Play with me through the promised land
Take my hand
Take my hand
Stay with me in the promised land
Take my hand
Take my hand
All of me
Frozen like lobotomy
When my lover gets a hold of me
Closing in like sodomy
All of me
Take a look and lick the salt of me
I'm the crook who stole your book of dreams
Look no further look at me
Everything you believed
Was never sacred
Love for the life of me
Is just the doctor come to pull the plug
Play with me through the promised land
Take my hand
Take my hand
Play with me to the promised land
Take my hand
Take my hand
Suicide
Ever think of suicide
See your friends the day you take your life
It kinda helps you to decide
Paradise
Anyone not paralyzed
Full use of your limbs, your eyes
Solid heart and sound of mind
Play with me in the promised land
Take my hand
Take my hand
Play with me in the promised land
Take my hand
You're gonna get hurt
You're using it up just scratching in the dirt
You're gonna get shucked
You starry-eyed little shrimp
For peddlin' dreams, peddlin' dreams
Peddlin' dreams, like a pimp, peddlin' dreams
You're peddlin' dreams, givin' 'em out like candy
For rotting your teeth, leavin' you stranded
Don't look at the girl with the gold in her cheeks
She's an oasis of places that you'll never see
A pitch for the angel, before we die
A kiss to the strangers who barely get by
There's never a moon when you need the hope
To punch through the night and point the way home
Don't you believe another talking chimp
Is peddlin' dreams, peddlin' dreams
Peddlin' dreams, like a pimp, peddlin' dreams
Don't look at the girl with the gold in her cheeks
I always stood out on Dream Street
Set up to fall down on Dream Street
Diamond branches, crack upon the dawn
I keep holdin' on, why do I keep holdin' on
And from your window the lamplight golden
Falls frozen round my shivering shoulders
This late December (baby baby when can we)
When can we start over
Been the season of naivity
I search for reason in epiphany
Rubber bangles tangled up my home
Strands of amber glowing warm
Strangle like a reef of thorn
Dragged down trees in the icy lots
And the relics of the holy found their sacred spots
This late December (baby baby when can we)
When can we start over
Ooh...
Down by the river the wind kicks up
And it sits down Christopher hoggin' it up
Lord knows how the city has changed
But things down here kinda stay the same
And the Westside boys singin' ode to joy
The Westside boys singin' ode to joy
This late December (baby baby when can we)
When can we start over
Late, late December (baby baby when can we)
It’s nothing special
Just a day in good health
Loads of free time
Nothing to sing about
Just a night, clear as a bell
Glad I'm not blind
And there's no gala
No magic
I'm fine, living for real
And no drama
No panic
My cup, so nearly full
Could it spill?
It's nothing sacred
We're fine, doing just fine
No wonders or signs
And it's so quiet
Nearly stable
I'm fine, living for real
And, no riots, no fables
My cup, so nearly full
Could it spill?
You wanna talk about devotion
You wanna talk about true love
After the moment of emotion
It? s kinda hard to keep the mood up
Well look into my eyes
And tell me what you see, darling
I? ve forgotten what it was in you
That put the need in me
Your arms were like a little paradise
But your arms have changed
And the flicker of a good love? s fire
Has seen brighter days
When we? ve said every line
And played out every scene
I? ve forgotten what it was in you
That put the need in me
Well honey you and I
We had the sweetest thing
And we can try and try and try
But somethin? ain? t the same
Don? t look me in the eye
? Cause I? m the one to blame
I? ve forgotten what it was in you
That put the need in me
Who? d ever thought that I
Would have the guts to change
We could try to live a lie
You? d hate me just the same
Oh, honey please don? t cry
I? m sorry and ashamed
But I? ve forgotten what it was in you
Oh my love, I have tried many times to convince myself
You'll never change, maybe I could be happy with someone else
But here you are at my door, baby let's end this crazy war
I forgive you, I forgive you baby, I forgive you
Chorus:
It's alright, I'll take you back again
I'll take the blame, you mean that much to me baby
I forgive you
Who would believe I would stand in the gap for this love affair
I've got my pride, but something broke inside when I saw you standin' there
You are the blood in my veins
Why do we cause each other pain
I forgive you, I forgive you, I forgive you
Chorus:
It's alright, I'll take you back again
I'll take the blame, I wouldn't lie to you
I forgive you
Bridge:
(Don't stand for abuse)
I gave him everything, what do I have to lose?
I know he hurts me, I hurt him, sometimes I don't deserve him
But he loves me, and I love him, and this is how we are...
Chorus
I can't stop this habit anyway
I can't stop this habit anyway
I can't stop it
I need it to breathe
Like honey in my mouth
Gold golden goin' down
I shudder with wonder at what we will feel like together
I'm wrapped up like a gift
Cut ribbon feel me drift
Petal by petal the sweeter the deeper for waiting
Our wild weather exquisite and violent could never betray me
It slays me and I live to die again in your arms
Hold back outside the door don't touch me anymore
Hand barely touching hand
The full weight of you on top of me sleeping
And when you wake
My heart is empty
Your eyes are dull
Once we were hungry
Now we are full
These ties that bind us
Can't beat these chains
If love is shelter
I'm gonna walk in the rain
You were my angel
Now, you are real
So like a stranger
Colder than steel
The morning after
Know what you'll bring
If love is a red dress
Well, hang me in rags
Away there goes the fairy tale
Lord, ain't it a shame?
In all this comfort
I can't take the strain
If we played even
I'd be your Queen
But someone was cheatin'
And it wasn't me
I've laid on the table
You held something back
If love is Aces
Well the dog act got drunk again last night
And the king and queen of the waltz clog team
Had another fight
King was careless with his tango grip
Nearly lost his queen in a dip
Yeah, she righted herself, straightened out her slip
And kicked him in the shin
Miss Billy Begonia thinks she's hit the "big time"
She wants a thick red rug
From the dressing room door to the front line of the footlights
She's got a sky blue swansdown powder puff
And a corset to keep her spirits up
Yeah, she don't sweat, she sours and melts
Like ice cream in the sun
She'll be out of a job at the end of this three week run
We're havin' fun out here
On Panic Beach
All the Vaudeville bums are here
Out on Panic Beach
I hear them talk about the Palace
But it's so far out of reach
So I'll do my time
Then say goodbye to Panic Beach
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
The visionary theatric
Strikes a juggler's seesaw tune
And the dying swan pirouettes and fawns
By the light of the street lamp moon
When my trunk is filled with taffeta
Those "big time" hacks won't laugh at us
When my taps are made of silver
I can make the kiddies thrill for just one buck and wing
Yeah, I will nail them to my heel
And the Panic Choir sings
Here comes a lucky little thing
To Panic Beach
Yeah, you know we got to teach him how to sing
While we're stuck on Panic Beach
Ah, the way ya hear 'em say it
Doesn't seem so outta reach
So I'll do my time
Then say goodbye to Panic Beach
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Well the landlord gets a free show
Every Saturday at six
Sometimes on a Sunday,
All dependin' on whatever kind of mood he's in
I keep his glass filled up with Sherry
And sing him all his favorite songs
If a tear comes to his eye he may let a month go by
Before he takes away my key
Oh, that Sherry starts to taste real good to me
Hey Mama, look at me
On Panic Beach
I may be hungry but my rent is free
Up on Panic Beach
Yeah, I can almost see the Palace
No longer outta reach
So I'll do my time
Then say goodbye to Panic Beach
Take a look in my eyes
It's been a long, long time
I used to feel so strong
When I knew you were mine
Since you let me down
I'm hard to be around
I don't know what I'm gonna do
He could never be you
He could never be you
He could never be you
I guess it all comes around
Baby please don't cry
Love is gonna be a little reckless
Oh Love is all I have to stand trial
But since you let me go
There's nothing going on
I don't know what I'm gonna do
He could never be you
He could never be you
He could never be you
He knows the moves
He play's the part
But he only has me
He don't have my heart
He could never be you
He could never be you
So take a look in my eyes
No you can't hide the truth
No, you don't get by on pride
Cause it'll run over you
But since you let me down
I'm hard to be around
I don't know what I'm gonna do
He could never be you
He could never be you
He could never be you
SOLO
It takes more love
Than a heart can hold
To move the water to the shore
It takes more power
Than a heart can beat
It's more than we see
Baby, bigger than we know
But when you touch my hand
I feel more than just a thrill
I feel the rush of the wind
That turns the world
There's more love than a heart can hold
More than the body, more than the soul
Baby, baby there's more,
More love than a heart can hold
Between us
When the day seems like night
Baby feel the rhythm of it movin' us along
And there's a place we have yet to touch
(Keep lookin' up) it's what we live for
But when you speak my name
All the legends of love
Come true poundin' with eternal drums
There's more love than a heart can hold
More than the body, more than the soul
Baby, baby there's more,
More love than a heart can hold
I used to have time on my hands
I used to have time on my hands
My world is like a cyclomen
Tied to my ankle by a piece of string
Gotta kick it around and watch it spin
I used to have time on my hands
Now I got too many heroes and not enough friends
(You were both to me)
Too many heroes and not enough friends
But I have no regrets as you are in my arms again
I used to travel all the world
I used to travel all the world
I’d try a watch in every town
A time change never got me down
I’d wind 'em up and took a spin
I used to have time on my hands
Now I got too many heroes and not enough friends
(You were both to me)
Too many heroes and not enough friends
But I have no regrets as you are in my arms again
I used to sleep so peacefully
My eyes were hush, my thoughts were free
But now my pillow is a storm
My sheets are playing tug-o-war
There’s nothing here to keep me warm
Missing you is such a chore
I rarely daydream anymore
Now I got too many heroes and not enough friends
(You were both to me)
Too many heroes and not enough friends
But I have no regrets as you are in my arms again
Too many heroes and not enough friends
Too many heroes and not enough friends
Too many heroes, too many heroes
(You were both to me)
Too many heroes, too many heroes and not enough friends
(You were both to me)
Not enough friends
Too many heroes, too many heroes
I hear a lot of stories, I suppose they could be true
All about love and what it can do to you
High is the risk of striking out, the risk of getting hurt
And still I have so much to learn
I know, 'cause I think about it all the time
I know that real love is quite a price
CHORUS:
And a good heart these days is hard to find
A good heart - True love, the lasting kind
A good heart these days is hard to find
So please be gentle with this heart of mine
My expectations may be high, I blame that on my youth
Soon enough I'll learn the painful truth
I'll face it like a fighter then boast of how I've grown
Anything is better than being alone
I know 'cause I learn a little everyday
I know 'cause I listen when the experts say
CHORUS
As I reflect on all my childhood dreams
My ideas of love weren't as foolish as they seemed
If I don't start looking now, I'll be left behind
And a good heart these days is hard to find
I know it's a dream I'm willing to defend
I know it will all be worth it in the end
CHORUS x 2
One soft infested summer, me and Terry became friends
Trying in vain to breathe the fire we was born in
Catching rides to the outskirts, tying faith between
our teeth
Sleeping in that old abandoned beach house, getting
wasted in the heat
And hiding on the backstreets
Hiding on the backstreets
With a love so hard and filled with defeat
Running for our lives at night on them backstreets
Slow dancing in the dark on the beach at Stockton's
Wing
Where desperate lovers park, we sat with the last of
the Duke Street Kings
Huddled in our cars, waiting for the bells that ring
In the deep heart of the night they set us loose of
everything
To go running on the backstreets
Running on the backstreets
Terry, you swore we'd live forever
Taking it on them backstreets together
Endless juke joints and Valentino drag
Where famous dancers scraped the tears up off the
street, dressed down in rags
Running into the darkness, some hurt bad, some really
dying
At night sometimes it seemed you could hear the whole
damn city crying
Blame it on the lies that killed us, blame it on the
truth that ran us down
You can blame it all on me, Terry, it don't matter to
me now
When the breakdown hit at midnight, there was nothing
to say
But I hated him, and I hated you when you went away
Laying here in the dark, you're like an angel on my
chest
Just another tramp of hearts crying tears of
faithlessness
Remember all the movies, Terry, we'd go see
Trying to learn to walk like the heroes we thought we
had to be
And after all this time, to find we're just like all
the rest
Stranded in the park and forced to confess
To hiding on the backstreets
Hiding on the backstreets
Where we swore forever friends
On the backstreets until the end
Hiding on the backstreets
Hiding on the backstreets
Hiding on the backstreets
He's just sittin' on a corner, wastin' time
He's just sittin' on a corner, wastin' time
Wastin' all his precious time, wastin' all his time
Everyone, never wonderin' why
She just spends all her money, half the rent
On dresses and jewelry and playin' cards
Playin' cards from dawn 'til night
Playin' cards all night
Everyone, never wonderin' why
Outside the window, see the people below
Life cast a shadow on their faces
He's too lost to admit it, sends regards
To friends of the family at Christmastime
Sends regards to all he knows
Sends regards to most
Everyone, never wonderin' why
Outside the window, see the people below
Life cast a shadow on their faces
He's just sittin' on a corner, wastin' time
He's just sittin' on a corner, wastin' time
Wastin' all his precious time, wastin' all his time
Singing rare has it’s season
I've been careful just trying to get it right
Lyric fair, beauty sublime
Such an opus is way ahead of time
I am full of grand ideas
I've been perfecting them for years
Large as life, with a purpose
Are we finally gonna play a gig
Is it time, been rehearsing five years
Still a way to go, better cancel it
We plan, waiting for a break
One can't rush into these things
And we believed our mothers hung the moon
We stayed asleep, forgetting what we knew
And we will dream and never leave our rooms
From our TV Teens to the tomb
When I'm dead I'll be discovered
They'll write a book about my life, my lovers
A masterpiece isn't born in a day
I'm so ambitious I hid myself away
I'd fly, the envy of all man
If I had guts to lift a pen
When we were kids, delusion served us well
But then we split to make fools of ourselves
And we will dream and never leave the shelf
From our TV Teens to the tomb
We're still holding out our cups
We will never give it up
And we believed our mothers hung the moon
We stayed asleep, forgetting what we knew
And we will dream and never leave our rooms
Tell your mama you don't need it
You don't need it anymore
And if she tries to feed you
Spit it out on the floor
I dream in a box it's empty
I love to sleep
If you're dyin' to get lost
Don't die with me
Chorus:
And you hang (around my neck so tight)
Like a baby (you cut into my throat)
And you hang (what else you wanna know)
And I love what we are,
but I hate what I am
And I wanna be like you,
but I hate when you're like them
Don't wanna be a father
it's too good of an excuse to leave
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
It's too bad of an excuse to breathe
Chorus
And we all wake up together
These pictures shinin' in our heads
Sometimes I leave the house
Sometimes I stay in bed
And we all wake up together
And we trade each other jive
Take me with you when you go
My girlhood among the outlaws
Was salty, bittersweet
The things I did, I could just kick myself now
Through nights of lousy dreams
As visions gather in my head
I find it hard to live with the things I did and said
But for you, my friend
I? d live it all again and love you in the end
Anything for you, baby, anything for you
If it took those years to get me here
I? d do it again for you
I took a leap of faith and I stumbled
I tried to live outside grace and I was humbled
But I? d like to bet if I live to fear regret
Then we never would? ve met
Hey, anything for you, baby, anything for you
If it took those years to get me here
I? d do it again for you
So here we are and I don? t know what to call it
? Cause love, love is such a funny promise
Commitment is impossible, forever is a lie
But that still leaves you and I
Hey baby, anything for you
If it took those years to get me here
I? d do it again for you
Oh baby, baby, baby, anything for you
If it took those years to get me here
I? d do it again, do it again
Do it again, do it again
I? d do it again, do it again
I can dance rings, dance rhymes, dance around anything
You snap and sting and I catch with a dip and a swing
No need to speak, we've nothing to answer
And our cheek to cheek bears the villainous flush of
cancer
And stay with me
Starving pretty and high
Back and forth
Celebrate at such refine
Lean on me, baby
We're going to make it
We're paper thin
(We’re gonna win) we're gonna win
(We’re gonna win) we're gonna make it
Scoring a balance of wits we’d work it out in the sack
(Back and forth we go)
The war in prolifics who made us lose interest in
macked ?
(Back and forth we go)
Our days of bliss I think of them often
Each black lying kiss each sweet little nail in our
coffin
And stay with me
Starving pretty and high
Back and forth
Celebrate with such refine
Lean on me, baby
We're going to make it
We're paper thin
(We’re gonna win) we're gonna win
(We’re gonna win) we're gonna make it
Hung up so well, so dry and disfigured
A lovesong to sell, let's give 'em a smile and a shiver
And stay with me
Starving pretty and high
Back and forth
Celebrate at such refine
Lean on me, baby
We're going to make it
We're paper thin
(We’re gonna win, we're gonna win) we're gonna win
(we're gonna win) we're gonna win)
We're gonna make it
(we're gonna win) we're gonna win)
We're paper thin
(We’re gonna win, we're gonna win)
Stay with me
(We’re gonna win)
Stay with me
(We’re gonna win, we're gonna win)
Stay with me
(We’re gonna win, we're gonna win)
We've all been lucky, we all wake up
We all lose somethin' to fill our cup
We all lose somethin' to steal it back
But it's not ours anymore
And it's fadin' fast
Chorus:
And everybody everybody
Gets to be somebody sometime
We've all been flirting
With the perfect day
When they think we're perfect
Yeah but who are they
A man is great he is made great
By what he loves
And we could love each other
But it's not enough
But everybody...
Chorus
Maybe tomorrow
Your turn
My turn
A man is great, he is made great
He is shot down
To read the book you're gonna have to look
In the lost and found
But everybody...
Chorus
Maybe tomorrow
Your turn
Now you know me
You know how proud I am
And what I've gotta tell you now, won't be easy to say
Before I left your side, oh I was so happy then
But I've been so lonely since I went away
Chorus:
I've tried and I know I can't make it alone
Such a hard way to go
I just can't make it alone
There's somethin' in my soul
That will always lead me back to you
What can I say now
Sorry's just not good enough
I wouldn't blame you if you hurt me
Like I hurt you then
But who else can I turn to, oh babe I'm beggin' you
Won't you reach out for my dyin' soul
And let me live again
Chorus
Oh baby, you know I need you
I'm sayin' that I need you
I just can't make it all alone
I'm riding again in search of the motherload
I'm needing a friend but wanting to be alone
I'm lying on the lawn staring at stars again
I wonder aloud when did it all begin
You and my stars are in my head
I cannot feel for mother time
Warm winds dry my tears today
Sullen soul will sleep tonight, tonight
I walk into town looking for remedies
The sun and the fog come from fallen trees
The wind and the rain are falling on harder times
The poet's confused searching for better lines
You and my stars are in my head
I cannot feel for mother time
Warm winds dry my tears today
Sullen soul will sleep tonight, tonight
I stagger tonight through weeds and mountain tops
Feeling my age like cars in a body shop
I lay down to sleep in your roofless shed
I'll keep my stars, I'll keep my heavy head
You and my stars are in my head
I cannot feel for mother time
Warm winds dry my tears today
Sullen soul will sleep tonight, tonight
Homework finished, room is tidy
All my shoes are spic and shiny
And the music fuzzling in
All the boys can watch me spinning
See the big girls with the make-up
Party lights and tearful break-ups
I won't let them happen to mine
Ordinary waiting in line
Nothing gray will spoil my lucky day
See I have a friend, she can read the stars
She tells all the girls about their husbands and cars
Husbands and cars
Well, Destine is the one and not only at school
While I'm only practical she bends all the rules
Destine calls the shots, she has more fun
Destine, you hold away the book of my dreams
Ooh, you're tearing my heart out
You're holding out, Destine, Destine
How I hate to wait, how I hate to guess
Girl, I have to count the days in a lucky dress
Is it time yet, oh
How I hate the minute, how I hate the day
I'm so restless, I can't feel anything
And all you have to say is na-na-na-na-na
Destine, you hold away the book of my dreams
Ooh, you're tearing my heart out
You're holding out, Destine, Destine
Destine, you hold away the book of my dreams
Ooh, you're tearing my heart out
You're tearing my heart out, you're tearing me up
Is there anybody gonna listen?
Is there anybody gonna listen?
Is there anybody gonna listen?
Does he love me? Does he love me?
Does he love me? Does he love me
Love me, love me, love me?
Destine
Destine
Destine
Destine
Does he love me? Does he love me?
Does he love me, love me, love me?
One day her father came to her door
Looking just like he did when she was a little girl
It wasn't really him but he loved her
Like she wished he'd done before
Then her brother rose from the dead
Dressed up just like a gentleman caller
She didn't know him for all the fancy clothes
And she sent him away
Chorus:
She said I need somebody smarter than me
I need to exercise my vocabulary
I'll shut up and learn from
I'll shut up now
Jesus Christ came down from the aerial
Transmission he was all there
His perfect love left her nonplussed
She said I've been there
I never was the girl the wonder and surprise
You kicked open my world you pricked open my eyes
I couldn't make a sound and when you finally yanked it out
You took that scream and tied it ‘round your pretty box to poison hands
What I wanted wasn't really what I wanted
How can you claim to know me when you have other things to occupy your time
And this is all I think about
Chorus:
I'm not listening, I'm not listening I'm not listening I'm not listening anymore
Tied my tongue off with a wire now my head is full of liars
I'm not listening I'm not listening I'm not listening I'm not listening
Guess I was that girl you tripped her down the stairs
You've kicked away her books she eats her lunch alone
She suffers leers and jeers and stares
And she knows she'll win you over once and over twice
Or maybe not but that's alright
If I'm a phoenix if I'm a demon or a sage or a fake
Or if I'm gutless leave me alone and let me be this
You've nearly killed me once
Chorus:
I'm not listening (etc.) I'm immune now to your poison
Unmoved by a plague of voices
Where I'm going, you should know where I'm going
You tied that blindfold ‘round my head hung that sign on my back
Spun me ‘round spun me ‘round and sent me out I'm still spinning I'm still spun
I'm still shunned... blind blind blind
I'm not listening... I'm not... listening
You're in my head you're at my door
It's a shame about your sister
She looks older than God
I guess the prom king missed her
And she gave up the cause
It's a pain to remember
But a strain to forget
Should've gone on a bender
Gotten out of my head
Ma, tell your kids every day
We're all just people in the way
Hey, you're looking me over
Do I still make a splash?
Did the intrepid rover
Bottom out with panache?
And the keys to the city
Were my ticket outside
And I used to dream pretty
Now, I dream I'm alive
Ma, tell your kids every day
We're all just people in the way
And I don't know what to tell you
'Cause I don't know what I believe
I've been beaten down and pimped around
And told so many things
And I'm deafened by the dark
And the cryin' of my face
I'm looking for a day job
In a town that wished me fame
Gather 'round little dreamers
Hey, wherever you are
You were a wink in a streamer
Of a party of stars
When I banked it on lucky
And he banked it on me
Then you don't have to trust me
You're gonna be what you'll be
Ma, tell your kids every day
We're all just people in the way
Well ya been my Romeo ever since we were in school
An' ev'ry good thing I've ever felt you have made me feel
Well it's not that I don't love you, I'll love you honey 'til I die
But I could never be your bride 'til I tame my wicked side
Chorus:
Whoa-oh-oh-oh
Whoa-oh-oh-oh
Honey show some faith
You gotta sin to get saved
Well I could never shame you honey you're my pride and joy
But what's a girl to do now Daddy,
I'm drownin' in a sea of boys
Well there ain't no harm in lookin'
But I look too close sometimes
I'll never fix my rovin' eye 'til I tame my wicked side
Chorus
Now I pray the Lord won't scorn me if I make an honest vow
To someday wear a dress of white,
'Cause scarlet is what I'm wearin' now
Well it's not that I don't love you, I'll love you honey 'til I die
But I could never be your bride 'til I tame my wicked side
And if you die
If and what if
Nobody likes me
Another day missed
Poke out my eyes
Yeah, I could do this
Gremlins have got me
I don't feel your kiss
Days -- steal away like a lover
Ways -- to ponder it over
And lay in the wake of a day I'd faked
Mary's the one
She's got it all right
She goes to dances
What if I died?
I'm a bit numb
And slightly behind
Waiting for genius
Waiting to shine
Days -- steal away like a lover
Ways -- to ponder it over
And lay in the wake of a day I'd faked
Damn worry birds
They tug at my hair
They tell me I'm ugly
They bring me the mirror
Days -- see how you're leaving
Ways -- why don't you need me?
Fill me my cup
I'll drink your sparkling wine
pretending everything is fine
till I see your sad eyes
Throw me a kiss
across a crowded room
some sunny windswept
afternoon
there's none too soon for me to miss
my sad eyes
woh oh ou, not bad
eyes
a glad eyes, but you my sad eyes
Fortunate and free
and there go you and
between the other sky
but who are you and I
to wonder why we do so
my sad eyes
- lonely
Oh what a story
come on in all it's glory
this song that I sing in
everything
for you my sad eyes
You'd better fill me my cup
and I'll drink your
sparkling wine
pretending everything is fine
till I see your sad eyes
woh oh ou, not
bad eyes
a glad eyes, but you my sad eyes
lonely sad eyes
(Transcribed from
Maria McKee singing
on The Van Morrison Songbook, 1997)
Fill me my cup
and I'll
drink your sparkling wine
pretending everything is fine
till I see your sad eyes
Throw me a kiss
across a crowded room
some sunny windswept
afternoon
there's none too soon for me to miss
my sad eyes
oh, not bad eyes
glad eyes, you my sad eyes
Fortunate and free
and there go you and I
between
the other sky
but who are you and I
to wonder why we do so
my sad eyes, yeah yeah
Oh what a story
come on in all it's glory
this song that I sing in
everything
for you my sad eyes
You fill me my cup
and I'll drink your
sparkling wine
pretending everything is fine
for you my sad eyes
oh, not bad
eyes
but glad eyes, it's you that I [ sa.....ile ?! ]
A river flows with liquid snow, but it's not for me
Birds fly high in the southern sky, but it's not for me
Cattle roam in fertile fields, but it's not for me
Flowers bloom on a lonely highway, but it's not for me
My one true love I'll never know
I keep to me
My one true love I'll never know
I came to meet the bitter way
For my one true love
Mountain's green in the summertime, but it's not for me
Lovers walk in the falling moonlight, but it's not for me
Mothers love their sons to death, but it's not for me
Salesmen feed on Christmas time, but it's not for me
My one true love I'll never know
I keep to me
My one true love I'll never know
I came to meet the bitter way
For my one true love
Fathers cry for fallen sons, but it's not for me
Good guys in the N16, but it's not for me
Zero stare at the tv screen, but it's not for me
Drifters sleep on quiet ?, but it's not for me
My one true love I'll never know
I keep to me
My one true love I'll never have
I came to meet the bitter way
Love doesn't love me
Love doesn't love me
It hovers just above me
Smiling cruel and lovely
Love doesn't doesn't love me
Style without substance
Flesh limits functions
Lust without emotion
Body without passion
Love doesn't doesn't love me
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
Doesn’t, doesn’t
Life doesn't live here
Life doesn't live here
It won't let me leave you
It won't let me leave you
Love doesn't doesn't love me
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
Sand, sand, slipping, the sand
Sand, sand, slipping, the sand
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
Sand, sand, slipping, the sand
Doesn’t, doesn’t
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
Sand, sand, slipping, the sand
Sand, sand, slipping, the sand
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
And the sand slipping through my hand
And the water washes by
Sand, sand, slipping, the sand
Twenty-seventh wagon full of cotton
Was parked outside my chicken shack door
I kept my crib covered up in satin
In case my baby came around for more
Now I feel, Daddy, somethin's not the same
'Cause there's weeds, and there's rust
And the roof won't hold the rain
Chorus:
I remember better days
Lace in every window
And roses 'round the gate
Now they've chased away all my friends
And they've locked me out
And hung a sign on the fence
That says this property is condemned
Take me down to the Viex Carre
Where a little girl can get a bed or a bit
If you should see me
Coughin' round the corner
Won't you mix in a little sugar
With my tonic tonight
I can feel like I'm part of the parade
'Cause I feel like there's bourbon
Slappin' around in my veins
I remember better days...
I got a new tiara, Daddy
Take me to the Mardi Gras
Buy me cotton candy, dress me up in flowers
Let me be your "baby doll"
We can ditch that social worker
In and out the swingin' doors on Tchoupitoulas Street
You may call me jailbait
But I ain't too little to take the heat
I can feel phantoms blowin' through my brain
And I feel, like I need someone to make 'em go away
Turning around,
I see someone that I thought I used to know
You wide-eyed in the crowd
How does it feel to see the world
And not turn cold
I wanna hold you and protect you from the change
Though I know it's gonna happen anyway
Take this veil
And I'll dry your eyes
In a world like ours
You're nobody's child
I'm depending on you
To teach me all the things I forgot I ever knew
Baby you can lean on me
I may lean a little too
Whatever gets us through
And I feel a mountain movin' deep within
At the end of the revival we begin
Take this veil
And I'll dry your eyes
In a world like ours
I'm nobody's child
And I feel a mountain movin' deep within
At the end of the revival we begin
Take this veil
Dry these eyes
You've seen me break
I? ve got a thing for you, baby, always have
Never knew how far my heart would take me
She? s my friend but she treats you bad
Can? t let that happen to such a decent man
If you let me in, let me stay a while
I? ll do more than make you smile
Come to me child
I? m gonna soothe you
I? m gonna soothe you
Hey baby, hey baby
I know just what to do
I? m gonna soothe you
My baby, my baby
Don? t worry, I won? t do you any harm
My touch is gentle, my body is warm
Lift your head, feel my cool hand on your face
Let me kiss your tears away
If you let me in, honey, let me stay
Lay your head on my breast
I? ll do the rest
I? m gonna soothe you
I? m gonna soothe you
Hey baby, hey baby
I know just what to do
I? m gonna soothe you
My baby, my baby
Can you feel it comin? down like a trance?
Forget your head, remember how to dance
Can you feel it comin' down like healin?
So deep, it just couldn? t be a sin, now baby
Walk on in
Make yourself at home in my arms
I? m gonna soothe you
Hey baby
I know just what to do
I? m gonna soothe you
My baby, my baby
I? m gonna soothe you
I? m gonna soothe you
Hey baby, hey baby
I know just what to do
I? m gonna soothe you
My baby
Dragged myself out of the house last night
Some friends of mine played a gig in town
Chill so cold, crackin' up my spine
It was just the thing to bring me down
They got me a table in a public spot
The crowd was sparse and preoccupied
It was smoky, loud and hot
And I was dull with thoughts of suicide
Everyone's got a story
Everyone's got a tune
I've never felt so lonely
I've never felt so doomed
Never thought I'd lose the feeling
I'm jaded now and unimpressed
What am I doing spinning my wheels
To end up playing, I don't like this
Everyone's got a story
Everyone's got a tune
I've never felt so lonely
I've never felt so doomed
Everyone's got a story
Everyone's got a tune
How 'bout a little glory
When there's a crowded room
Someone had to get on the stage
Someone had to get on the stage
Someone had to get on the stage
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