I’m still a young man
So I think very little of death
Who really does, ‘til its coming for them?
And I know with each breath I come one closer
But death is just a hook behind the door
Where I’ll leave my dirty clothes
They may dump my body in the sea
Spread my ashes miles wide,
It won’t matter,
All my parts will realign.
They rush to find each other
When they hear their Lover’s cry,
And death will be abandoned
When He comes back for His bride
Saints are never buried,
They are seeds planted
Who bring about a greater harvest when
They burst forth from
The earth that needed their fruits,
But it could never hope to make
Enough room for their roots.
(Ah Ah Ah Ah Oh)
Death is swallowed up,
(Ah Ah Ah Ah Oh)
It owns nothing in me,
(Ah Ah Ah Ah Oh)
Oh, death is swallowed up,
(Ah Ah Ah Ah Oh)
It owns nothing in me,
Oh, precious in the sight of the Lord
Is the death of His faithful ones.
Precious in the sight of the Lord
Is the death of His faithful ones,
Oh, death is swallowed up.
Oh, it was always you, it was always you.
Oh, it was always you, it was always you.
Oh, it was always you, it was always you.
Oh, it was always you, it was always you.
Oooo, Oooo, Oooo
Oooo, Oooo, Oooo
There is a garden, my brother started months ago
Though he prayed for harvest, it now lies over-grown
Cause he shuffled earth, but never sowed a seed
Only his doubts took root, they choked his faith like weeds
But when his nerves were turned he went to face those empty beds
And found the earth had given birth, despite his promises unkept
Oooo, Oooo
Oooo, Oooo
Brother Micah, feed the seeds he'd sown
And he prayed for mercy, for crops he knew would surely grow
But there's no way to hide the shame we plant at night
They may lie dormant, but blooms will always find the light
If there was only justice in this world, he would be alone
With his heart still left in parts that he could never hold
But now I ask you of his bride; friend do you see that rose?
She is the loveliest crop failure he will ever know
We plant, water and worry
But we don't have any control of the harvest itself
But oh, the messiah
He's not like us
His power is endless and he won't break his promise
And there is still a garden, sowed at the foundation
It's wrapped with redemption and spreading it's roots
Bless the storm for the rain, bless the Lord for the proof
That the harvest is soon
And I know that it's true
Cause I've seen the first fruits
There's a garden my brother started months ago
Though he prayed for harvest, it now lies overgrown
He shuffled earth but never sowed a seed
Only his doubts took root and they chocked his faith like weeds
But when his nerves returned, he went to face those empty beds
And found the earth had given birth despite his promises unkept
Brother Micah feared the seeds he'd sown
And he prayed for mercy from crops he knew would surely grow
But there's no way to hide the shame we plant at night
They may lie dormant but blooms will always find the light
If there was only justice in this world, he'd be alone,
With his heart still left in parts that he could never whole
But now I ask you of his bride: "Friend, do you see that rose?"
She is the loveliest crop failure he will ever know
We plant, water and worry
But we don't have any control of the harvest itself
But, oh, the Messiah, He is not like us
His power is endless and He won't break His promise
And there's still a garden, sown at the foundation
It's ripe with redemption and spreading it's roots
Bless the storm for the rain
Bless the Lord for the proof
That the harvest is soon
And I know that it's true
Cause I have seen the first fruits
There are no nights now when I don't dream and wake in the darkness to find
I've been weeping.
But it has been ages since I've cried while awake, 'cause centuries wear on
The heart, they erode it away.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth.
But the memory of Your voice leaves me empty, 'cause I've been banished and
Boiled alive and yet I remain and they still call me by name, but they
Don't say it the same.
I watched all my brothers become martyrs and die one at a time, but I often
Wonder if waiting for You is the harder sacrifice.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth, but the memory of Your voice leave me empty.
I may be feeble and barely alive, but I've yet to forget a single word that
You said.
If my voice breaks down and all of my strength gives out and I'm just a
Shell left breathing my last days out.
Let it be known that time is a thief who surely steals everything, but in
My case it just cleared out the waste for me.
Nothing has dimmed; You have simply eclipsed all that stood in the way.
I'd give 20 more lifetimes; it would all be the same.
In the end, I know I'll find You will come once again.
Am I a barren temple left for newer ways of speaking mysteries my veils
Cannot contain?
Should I prepare to winter spans again of silent centuries pierced for only
Certain men?
What if I wake to find You've gone?
What if Your presence was withdrawn and I was mistaken all along to think I
Could become Your home?
It'd be no surprise to finally know that I am truly alone.
Come death but likely sooner I'll be alone.
You moved Your temple inside our bones and it's so hard to trust that You
Won't move again.
For all eternity You stood with Your Father in perfect unity.
And when You walked the earth, You only went where He led.
You only spoke what He said.
So for everything You left, and all of the glory You forfeit, no matter how
Low You were sent, you still couldn't know what it's like to be alone.
Disgraced but You were never alone. Betrayed but You were never alone.
Tortured but still never alone and nothing is worse thatn being alone.
I have been thinking hard about us trading places that mayb e I could wear
Your beauty if You put on my shame.
Jesus I've been trying so hard to look like You that I almost missed the
Worst of what I put You through.
You didn't die for sins, You died covered in them a prideful lying thief
Hasping out my final breaths.
For that one moment you looked just like me so Your father left You and You
Died completely alone.
For me, You were alone.
He couldn't bear it so He left You all alone.
No better promise than true sympathy.
You conquered death all alone.
I have nothing new to say.
The world is so terribly big,
it keeps spinning and shaking
loose all my constants and making
me see that the sun has been burning
too long to have not shed its light
in every direction.
All I know
is that beautiful in me is you
beautiful in me is you
All I know
every good thing
every true thing
beautiful in me is you
beautiful in me is you
All I know
every good thing
every true thing
beautiful in me is you
beautiful in me is you
All I know
every good thing
every true thing
beautiful in me is you
beautiful in me is you
I see a thousand young men,
they're all marching in time with war
on their doorsteps and their lovers behind them,
and all of their glory
flows back to their master
but they care not for honor
for they wear his clothes
I'm tired of striving to be,
who you already say that I am.
I am yours.
Take what you need to take,
say what you need to say
to make me who I am meant to be,
you can have it all.
Take what you need to take,
say what you need to say
to make me who I am meant to be,
I swore I would never walk away
But you knew we were in the dawn of rupture
Oh the unbelief, the prideful insecurities that speak
They hush the You in me, oh forgive me, please forgive
How many limbs do you need?
Well I can't be your hands cause I cut off my feet
And I'm haunted by memories and phantom unease
Of moments I've wasted and lies I've believed
And where else would I go? With every mercy you have
shown
I'm fearing this harvest I have sown and my time is so
short so please make it yours
You wept in the garden when you knew your fate
And the weight of man's redemption was a burden you
were soon to take
How can love be silent while his brothers fade
So there are times when heaven sends a saint to hell
I need to be the body
I'm meant to be the blood
But how can they partake if
I am running from this cup
You wept in the garden when you knew your fate
And the weight of man's redemption was a burden you
were soon to take
Love cannot be silent while his brothers fade
So these are times when heaven sends a saint through
hell
Awaken me
Oh please, help me believe
You are all that I need
Don't they see the sky burning and claiming every hope?
Can't they feel the earth breaking and scattering the
fold?
This act surely is past the scope of clemency and any
shroud of mystery.
Lets return now; say the word and we'll retreat to
better scenes.
Coastlines and mountainsides, perfection dripping from
the seams.
How could miracles reveal the mysteries and end in
tragedy?
Don't let them boast.
They'll claim the victory if you give up the ghost.
I stand awaiting the call for the rescue.
One word and empires fall.
You're calculating the point for your next move, but
this is taking too long.
Has courage fled for newer brides, and traded truth for
alibis, that I alone of dozen strong should witness
your demise?
Before your mothers eyes,
Whisper "relief."
I know you have the power!
Is this the way it's supposed to be, the shepherd slain
by all the sheep?
They're cursing your name.
You're fading away.
When will the empire fall?
They spit in your face.
It's more than I can take.
Is this the end of it all?
I once knew that everything around me leapt for you
And I spoke with fiery tongue of heavens fall and of
your kingdom come
The words I was saying were leaving with ease but
countered the actions that follow my feet
Oh the seduction of meaningless things
I've been eating from gravesides
Swearing oaths to the fairest of moons
Trading masters by firelight
And sleeping in their tombs
All creation waits - Aching for the day
(Earth, the sky, and savage tide will vanish under
heavens rise - falling, fading)
There is no escape - From what the author fates
(Greater souls than we conceive - Concern themselves
with our retreat)
I've been drifting in my words
I've been shifting my affection to whatever love may
call my name
Babel were your men so dim
To build their gods and worship them
Erect escape in increments
And place their faith in intellect
Now we've been weeping at gravesides
Swearing hope is an island away
Just a spark for the firelight
To keep despair at bay
My brothers, we are foolish
If this is how we think we can exist, there is no hope
We are all hopeless, we are broken
No tower built could ever save our souls
There is no hope, there is no
All creation waits
Aching for the day
(Falling, fading)
There is no escape
From what the author fates
(Falling, fading)
We've been living in shadows
Soon exposed to the light
Our existence will rupture
When the maker arrives
Every vanity shattered
Every galaxy frayed
We will suffer no longer
In these delicate frames
But no man knows the season or the time
And fault will find us all in guilty lives
And only mercy can a hope provide
Return, Repent,
I've been sleepin'
sounder than I've ever slept before
I keep smilin'
and dancin' like a fool around the floor
I've been draggin' each beast from under my bed
and I laugh them to death
then lay down my head
cause I don't fear the darkness anymore
someday when you come bringin' down the sky
the whole earth will be exposed before your light
and there will never again be darkness
when your will is done
I don't fear old men
on their deathbeds waiting
for the end to take them
cause their short arms and shorter breaths
are not equiped to back their threats
so I ignore them
In the same way
I don't fear the darkness anymore
someday when you come bringin' down the sky
the whole earth will be exposed before your light
and there will never again be darkness
when your will is done
Lord if you already stand outside of time
and keep the corners of the universe aligned
then I have nothing to fear
cause you're already here
your kingdom's come
Dawn breaks the darkness
but you won't find that peace
light chases night away
but you'll never see it flee
the darkness has no substance
the darkness has no substance
the darkness has no substance of it's own
Oh, the true light has shown
I have found, what I lean on I can't rely on
You breathed words of safety but they're ringing hollow
Let me tell you how I understand things to be
Those to whom much has been given, will much be
required
So this is not how it should be. You have abandoned the
vow that you have made
And I don't think you're aware of just how much this
damages my faith
These threads are undone
And you're supposed to hold
Them together for me
But now my clothes are torn
Where is my father?
I was always here my son but
My promise lacks constraints
So now I'm wrecking you
To help you see
You're not who you should be. You have mistaken your
role in all of this
And I know you're not aware of the consequence of
thinking so amiss
She's gone, I love you all (x4)
Those threads are undone
Though I've been holding tight
But you've been growing out
Of the clothes I made for you
She's gone, I know she's gone
Come back to me
I'm all you need
She followed me
That's why you weep
A man who thirsts cannot expect
To find a well and drink till quenched
For tragic spans may take his breath
Before he reaches journey's end
But in his heart he always knew
That somewhere waters rest
A lover's heart may not suppose
That he will win the one he chose
For earnest heart and token's rose
May never stir her love to grow
But unrequited hearts believe
That love will find them yet
Well worlds that I have never seen
Still call to me and haunt my dreams
And quiet things still stir belief
That you, alone, are home for me
So I may never see your shores
Lovers' eyes are meant to gaze
Convey the weight of a poet's praise
And hands designed to hold
To say what lips cannot
Lovers live for embrace
Their forms enjoined as their pulses race
Their forms are steady and sure
And this act, their bond restores
And it's love without remorse
I'm told that you hold all things
And without you that I'd cease to be
Oh my lover I feel alone, and though I know these are
primitive needs
I still need you here to hold me
A cup, a candle and this bread
A table for remembrance
The quiet awe of penitence
The still refrain of broken men
In this moment weakness speaks
I feel the weight of my being
And for the moment you release
The particles in everything
I am undone
I'm told that you hold all things
And without you that I'd cease to be
Oh my Jesus I feel alone, and I know these are
primitive needs
But I still need you here to hold me
But You don't just hold me
You'll paint this town black with the laws that you craft
Then turn it all red with the fires they set
As faith consents to arrogance
You name their plague with elegance
The judgment's made but don't forget
'You were never one of them'
We're all trying
To find our way in the dark
But your lanterns look more like torches
And your rescue coercion and you stand so confident
If he's so holy why aren't you trembling?
The fire's is in your house!
And there's no time left to sort this out
All of us are guilty men
There is no line between us and them
There's no place for entitlement
For mercy falls on shattered men
And God will crush the prideful ones
I never knew you
These bones, my frame, won't hold in place
They'd leave and part ways
If I was without you
This earth, my home, would be alone
There'd be no moon to share the galaxy
If it was without you
My God. I am not, but you are.
What was it like when you prayed
Did the rivers calm when the raging seas obeyed?
What was it like when you slept
Did the rocks come close and the trees lean in
And did the air rejoice just to be your breath?
My God. I am not, but you are.
When your servant tried to ask your name
But a million words could not contain
And the meaning could not be expressed
For the weight would be too much to take
So you cradled him, like you cradle me and whispered
I am
A storm is approaching
I know cause I called it on
I'll catch up lovers in my way(?)
That I'll consumes and throw away
cause there's no woman I could love
More than myself
That's why I still sleep alone
Good God I feel empty now
but no one found out
and I never touched her
I'm trusting less in my defense
Cause there's no difference in
the things that happen in my head
and happen in my bed
Oh God
I'm shakin' like a leaf
I'm shakin'
For 27 years now I've been waiting
27 years now I've been keeping my end
But every single gift I ever gave you
is just a bribe so I could get you
to give me what I wanted
it's (?) and silver
I never cared for innocence just the appearance
Find (?) me and wash me
cause I can't see the stains
my God I'm so scared
Cause I'm so fractured but I don't feel the breaks
have I loved too many daughters
to ever be whole
I'm ashamed that you love me
There's a country no one's found yet
Somehow I seem to know about it
There's a melody no one's sung yet
It's faint but I can here it
Echoing
I've never been alone
And Iv'e never felt at home
Isn't it strange?
That everyone feels this
Try to name it
Try to forget there is something more
That I desire that I cannot become yet
But still I'm haunted
I feel the ache
There's a thousand joys that show me whom but never let me stay
I have sailed across the sea
Iv'e seen the ocean for her
But I cannot become the tide and battle with the shore
And I know there must be something more
I can feel the the winds are rushing hear them in the trees
But I cannot race through the sky and wrestle with the geese
But I know that this won't always be
Someday soon we shall put on the sun
Not the one we see that's just a sketch of what's to come
Earth and sky are coming to there end
We will wear the glory they had always hinted at
I have sailed across the sea
Iv'e seen the ocean for her
But I cannot become the tide and battle with the shore
And Iv'e always known there's somthing more
I can feel the the winds are rushing hear them in the trees
But I cannot race through the sky and wrestle with the geese
As the blood flows
from between your teeth
your eyes recoil
from the thing they've seen
your feet take root
and your body goes stiff
now you've fallen to a pile
on the broken cement
and your mirror image brother
can't stop screaming your name
he knows you saw something
and he's slapping your face
we took off down the street
to do what we could
try to hold up your head
just wake up
but you were hissing and moaning
oh god you looked lonely
Take all your fury
and throw it in to the wind
your fire's burning but it's waning
you were barely just born
and you'll soon be dead
Quick, tear your kingdom down
you've built in on another's field
he is a ruthless man
he'll let you build before he steals
You will never know you weren't a king
until your limbs are firmly fastened in their chains
What did you see?
I think I know.
You can't keep living in shadows
and not belong to the darkness
Take all your fury
and give it all to the king
our time is ending, war is coming
and we're all chosin' sides
Look, he's covered in dirt
The blood of his mother has mixed with the Earth
and she's just a child who's throbbing in pain
from the terror of birth by the light of a cave
now they've laid that small baby
where creatures come eat
like a meal for the swine who have no clue that he
is still holding together the world that they see
they don't know just how low he has to go
Lower still
Look now he's kneeling he's washin' their feet
though they're all filthy fishermen, traitors and theives
now he's pouring his heart out and they're fallin' asleep
but he has to go lower still
there is greater love to show
hands to the plow
further down now
blood must flow
all these steps are personal
all his shame is ransom
oh do you see, do you see just how low, he has come
do you see it now?
no one takes from him
what he freely gives away
beat in his face
tear the skin off his back
Lower still, lower still
strip off his clothes
make him crawl through the streets
Lower still, lower still
hang him like meat
on a criminal's tree
Lower still, lower still
bury his corpse in the Earth
like a seed, like a seed, like a seed
Lower still, lower still
Lower still, lower still...
The Earth explodes
she cannot hold him!
And all therein is placed beneath Him
and death itself no longer reigns
it cannot keep the ones he gave himself to save
and as the universe shatters the darkness disolves
he alone will be honored
we will bathe in his splendor
as all heads bow lower still
There are no nights now when I don't dream and wake
in the darkness to find I've been weeping.
But it has been ages since I've cried while awake,
'cause centuries wear on the heart, they erode it away.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and
if I finish I'll fill up this earth.
But the memory of Your voice leaves me empty,
'cause I've been banished and boiled alive and yet
I remain and they still call me by my name,
but they don't say it the same.
I watched all of my brothers become martyrs and die
one at a time, but I often wonder if waiting for You
is the harder sacrifice.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and
if I finish I'll fill up this earth,
but the memory of Your voice leaves me empty.
I may be feeble and barely alive,
but I've yet to forget a single word that You said.
If my voice breaks down and all of the strength gives
out and I'm just a shell left breathing my last days out.
Let if be known that time is a thief who surely steals
everything, but in my case it just cleaned out the waste for me.
Nothing has dimmed; You have simply eclipsed all that stood in the way.
I'd give 20 more lifetimes; it would all be the same.
In the end, I know I'll find You will come once again.
My neighbor is a better man than I
And from your hands do all good things derive
So if my heart should swell
And of itself think well
Then humble me till I am fully thine
There's war within my fragile skin
A violent revolt for mastery over my soul
Control is the strong man's hoax
Skill and wealth are my only hope
A selfish grasping for worthless thrones
And it tells me "I am greatest"
So I gave it not one inch
Still it spread throughout my limbs
For my solace in the victory
Was the proof of my defeat
Who is worth anything apart from you?
Who could own anything?
My neighbor is a better man than I
And from your hands do all good things derive
So if my heart should swell
And of itself think well
Then humble me till I am fully thine
I've been turning wine to water
And crippling my healthy brothers
I'm walking on the ocean floor
And stirring up the fiercest storms
No I did not pour out these tides
Or tell these planets to align
My breath could never give new life
I can't make you happy anymore
And it will take less effort to leave
Than carry on with this burden
Of being your joy
And it would be lying to say
That you're still worth it to me
Every word that we've said
Fell so hard at our feet
Every move that we made
This should have been enough
And this fruit hangs so low
It just wants to let go
Oh, it swells with a poison
That used to be love
This used to be love, oh...
Small betrayals and these orphaned deeds unattached to
love
Are pulling this home, into the ground and we are in
the walls
Your love tastes like blood left from blows you never
landed
And all my affection is a swarm of duty and guilt
And this will destroy you and I will stand like a
stranger
Who never adored you
So I lay in this bed beside your body
But miles of words and deeds lie in between
And should we brave that space to find each other
We'd have to meet the ghosts of our conceit
(We speak words to calm our ears
That all we loved was never there)
Every word that we've said
Fell so hard at our feet
Every move that we made
This should have been enough
And this fruit hangs so low
It just wants to let go
Oh, it swells with a poison
This used to be love
We cannot begin to see the realms beyond periphery
These ghosts and odd anomalies that whisper of reality
But modern man is so adept at skimming past the ocean's
depths
From shoal to shore but still convinced
We can't feel the spinning underneath
This globe rotates and no one perceives
We're so small but man always believes
We are the center, measure of all things
If this is where we lie, some place between the matter
and the mystified
And only foolish minds would attempt to fit the universe
inside
Maybe all our lives are founded in the moments that
escape our eyes
And prudent hearts will find that there is beauty in the
mysteries of life
I've never had the spine I lead them to believe, the devil born in me feeds me lies.
He creeps into my mind and spreads confusion
until I'm left with fear of what could be and doubt of what has been.
Truth be told, I'd rather not know,
it's so much easier to quit, it's just so easy not to care.
Truth be told, I'd rather not go,
I want to run away and never come back again.
If all the world should come against me,
I'd like to think that I could stand,
but I'm not always sure that they don't have Your hand.
You're the only one to fear,
because You're the only one who loves me as I am.
You alone are my Defender.
You alone will be my Judge.
I just need to remember that time you told me...
You're the only one to fear. (Patience...)
You're the only one who loves me as I am. (Silence...)
And You alone are my Defender. (Patience...)
You alone will be my Judge. (Silence...)
Peace be still
I can't sing that song the same way anymore
Cause I start laughing at the parts where I could only weep before
And it sounds sweeter now because the notes can't ring
until they echo through each wasted year that You restored to me
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
Sometimes mercy can feel like abandonment
But You know all about it
I used to this I had to write these songs just so
For heavens sake and for my own I put myself through hell
But I quit striving for perfection surrendered up to it instead
And now the songs keep pouring out and I cannot contain myself
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus.
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
(Broken will)
Sometimes mercy feels just like abandonment
(Find your rest / Broken voice)
You let my heart die, but left Yours beating in my chest
(You sing best)
At 30, 000 feet above, the earth was small enough to think of everyone I love
And then imagine them a thousand mirrors all reflect it back at once
and any light would multiply and then remind me
