Sammaan Ek Adhikaar (2009)

Actors

• Neelam Mehra (actress)
• Neelam Mehra (actress)
• Sakshi Tanwar (miscellaneous crew)
• Kanika Shivpuri (actress)
• Jayati Bhatia (actress)
• Mitu (writer)
• Amit Thakur (actor)
• Bharat Chowda (actor)
• Krunal Pandit (actor)
• Naveen Saini (actor)
• Mazhar Sayeed (actor)
• Upasana Shukla (actress)
• Upasana Shukla (actress)
• Mazhar Sayeed (actor)
• Manish Shrivastava (writer)

Genres

• Drama

Taglines:

A daughter's search for her rightful respect

• Lyrics: play full screen play karaoke
• Dinosaurs Became Extinct - Atreyu
• Dilated - Atreyu
• Bleeding Is A Luxury - Atreyu
• Creature - Atreyu
• Demonology And Heartache - Atreyu
• Gallows - Atreyu
• Lonely - Atreyu
• Lose It - Atreyu
• Tulips Are Better - Atreyu
• Lead Sails (and A Paper Anchor) - Atreyu
• Falling Down - Atreyu
• Lip Gloss And Black - Atreyu
• Of Gods And Monsters - Atreyu
• Epic - Atreyu
• Storm To Pass - Atreyu
• This Flesh A Tomb - Atreyu
• Our Sick Story (thus Far) - Atreyu
• No One Cares - Atreyu
• You Give Love A Bad Name - Atreyu
• Corseting - Atreyu
• The Squeeze - Atreyu
• My Fork In The Road (your Knife In My Back) - Atreyu
• Shameful - Atreyu
• So Wrong - Atreyu
• 3. Ain't Love Grand - Atreyu
• Ravenous - Atreyu
• 2. Dilated - Atreyu
• 9. A Vampire's Laments - Atreyu
• 10. Lip Gloss And Black - Atreyu
• Ex's And Oh's - Atreyu
• 1. A Song For The Optimists - Atreyu
• Someone's Standing On My Chest - Atreyu
• 8. Tulips Are Better - Atreyu
• Who died? - Atreyu
• 7. At Least I Know I'm A Sinner - Atreyu
• We Stand Up - Atreyu
• Wait For You - Atreyu
• Blow - Atreyu
• Black Days Begin - Atreyu
• 6. Someone's Standing On My Chest - Atreyu
• Bleeding Hearts Shed No Tears - Atreyu
• Your Private War - Atreyu
• Never Too Far Gone - Atreyu
• 5. Deanne The Arsonist - Atreyu
• The Theft - Atreyu
• You Eclipsed By Me - Atreyu
• 4. Living Each Day Like You're Already Dead - Atreyu
• Stop Before It's Too Late And We've Destroyed It All - Atreyu
• The Crimson - Atreyu
• Clean Sheets - Atreyu

You had anger pulsed rage
Unexplored pathways; limitless boundaries
A voice above the dim screaming so loud
And now you are the masses
You used to run so fast
Where were you going? (NO WHERE!)
I've seen the path you took; it leads in circles (COUNTER PRODUCTIVE!)
Exhausted by your slavery, you are broken (NOTHING NEW!)
Preach words you no longer believe in, your time is gone
Stale
Words are empty as your heart
Your lies breed hatred and contempt
In your grasping, we won't help as you're consumed into nothing
Your lies defeat your purpose

Yesterday I forgot to breathe for like the 6th time this week.
Maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky that changed my mind and brought me back
Seems like every day it's kill or be killed...
With all this anger there is no time to inhale and progress
And catch the smell of something that you once knew.
Have you ever stopped raised your face up to the sun and screamed
Let it out exhale the pain
That strangulates your soul, when will I be free
My lungs take in the fragrance of remorse, what is the cost, am I living,
If you let your lungs fill up with pain then you will drown in your own regret.
My arms feel so numb my heart palpitates missing a beat.
The blood freezing in my veins. the taste of rust in my mouth.
So today I just threw it all away
Though the light burns my eyes I will not be blind,

Ive talked the talk, I've walked the walk,
It's taken ten fucking years,
For them to see I don't need their approval.
I've paid the piper,
I've stayed my course,
Lived chomping at the bit.
With only blood, sweat, and tears to adhere to-
[Chorus:]
Open your eyes and see,
That it's so menacing,
You need to realize that bleeding is a luxury.
Give 'til there's nothing left,
Value in every breath,
You need to realize that bleeding is a luxury.
Take it for granted,
Forsake the costs,
Wear a big, shit-eating grin
(with only blood, sweat, and tears to adhere to)
Now bear the burden to chase your fate
Grind your teeth 'til it fucking hurts
So they can see I don't need their approval.
[Chorus]
Seize the day,
Take your beatings,
Lead the way,
Or decay as you fall down...
You fall down.
[Chorus]
It's a luxury,

Run away
In Distress
Try To Hide
From What's Creeping And Crawling And Stabbing Within
Try To Deny
The Turmoil Inside
If You Fight Yourself Hard Enough You'll Never Win
Any Ounce Of Serenity
Or A Calm Hope At Best
(Or A Calm Hope At Best)
Can leave you heaving on the floor
Gasping for breath (Are You Gasping For Breath?)
To Be Left On The Floor Gasping For Breath!
[Chorus:]
You're either the person you are
Or The Person Your Trying, Trying, Trying, Trying To Be
Don't let the outside sway too far
From where you want to be
And at any cruel moments Of This
You Can ruin The Best
Where's Your Body is Brutally Pressed
Against The Confines Of Your tense Flesh
And If You Close Your Eyes Tight Enough
Then None Of The Bad Can Get In [x2]
And If You Close Your Eyes Tight Enough
Then None Of The Light Can Get In (Then None Of The Light Can Get In)
Boom
You scream as the light hits you
It radiates though out your whole soul
Boom
The pain is clarity
It cleanses, and if it still fucking hurts than you still fucking know
That You Are Still Alive
That You Are Still In Control
If you would only take hold
Boom
The day with both hands
A death grip
And a good chance to outlive your past
You are living free
Where You Will Be Free [x2]

So unaffectionate, so insecure
You claim to know a thing or two about heartache
And what it's like to have your insides torn out
And I believe you
I see it every time your pallbearer's palor is obscured by the darkness
Dancing across your face, and when the blackness veils your eyes in pain
I know what it's like when memories make you wince
And love letters read like obituaries
And photo albums are the books of the dead
I need no reminders, no more reminders
I'll forget the past and lay it to rest
If I had my way
I'd cut the calluses off your breaking heart
If I could get past the sternum
Cauterize those wounds with
Every kiss I could give to you
I'm holding your heart in my hand
The reason it still beats
Am I being too cryptic?
Am I being too obscure?
Love kills, romance is dead
And I don't even trust myself
But I love you
And you can pull my wings apart
And pin me down under glass
Until the end of days if it can help you
Discover that we share the same pain
I just hope you write your thesis
Before your subject is dead

This life starts
with a heartbeat,
is it beat, beat, beat, beat, beating, me down,
like the loser I am?
I can't help
but to see
that success scares
the living shit out of me,
like the loser I am.
Everytime I walk away;
Every word I never say.
[Chorus:]
Restless
Chasing shadows
Choices
Facing Gallows
Are you hanging by a thread,
Or swinging from the rope?
Don't think we don't see your scars
Are you afraid of who you are?
Are you afraid of who you are!?
Denial what subtle burn,
Is it burn, burn, burn, burn, burning me out,
Or feeding the flames?
Spread out the ash
Pretend to see
That you can
Still find some value in me;
Or is it feeding the flames?
Everytime I walk away;
Every word I never say.
Chorus
Oh my god,
What am I afraid of
Success or not having what it takes?
Oh my god,
I afraid of me
And everything that brings.
Chorus
Afraid of who you are?

So unafraid of what's to come
I hit the ground and run
Not sure what's coming next
And never looking back
Hollow nights to empty days
Something had to change
Before it gets too late
And there's no turning back
One by one we fit and then we fall
One by one we fit and then we fall
Lonely, is this what we've become?
So lonely, fragile and unloved
Lost inside ourselves
And blindly staring at the sun
So lonely, is this what we've become?
Line them up they fall
Something to live for
Not sure who's coming next
But never looking back
I want something more
Something to live for
Before it gets too late
And theres no turning back
One by one we fit and then we fall
One by one we fit and then we fall
Lonely, is this what we've become?
So lonely, fragile and unloved
Lost inside ourselves
And blindly staring at the sun
So lonely, is this what we've become?
One by one we fit and then we fall
One by one we fit and then we fall
Lonely, is this what we've become?
So lonely, fragile and unloved
Lost inside ourselves
And blindly staring at the sun
So lonely, is this what we've become?
Is this what we've become
So lonely, fragile and unloved
Lost inside ourselves
And blindly staring at the sun

Standing on the edge
Battle in my head
I'm dying to know
I'm dying to know
If I take this leap
To fail or succeed
I'm dying to know
I'm dying to know
This is it, I've shaken
My body's aching
I lose my hold
I will let go
This is it, I'm falling
My wings need to grow
I lose my hold
I will let go
There's so many roads
Pitfalls filled with doubt
I'm dying to know
I'm dying to know
Grabbing what I need
And rip it 'til it bleeds
I'm dying to know
I'm dying to know
This is it, I've shaken
My body's aching
I lose my hold
I will let go
This is it, I'm falling
My wings need to grow
I lose my hold
I will let go
If I, if I take this, this leap
Will I be broken?
I'm dying to know
This is it, I've shaken
My body's aching
I lose my hold
I will let go
(I lose my hold)
This is it, I'm falling
(I lose my hold)
My wings need to grow
I lose my hold
I will let go, I will let go

Crystal clear I see the rose is frail
The thorns hide easily in its beauty
As I go to grasp it in my hand
My heart is torn beating from my chest
Let me be captivated by your beauty
Then let me fall from your grace unto my broken knees
Close my eyes so tightly, the tears are welling up
You aren't worth the waste of the salt or the water
Watching the sun play in your hair
And I couldn't really care
Care any less about you
Watching the sun play in your hair
I couldn't really care
Care any less about you
Fuck all your false beauty
It was transparent just like your smile
(Liar)
Your thorns caress my flesh
Crimson drops on a snowy field
(Liar)
I have watched you retrogress
I have seen what you've become
(Liar)
Please take your eyes off of me
It's funny how fast blue eyes fade to gray
(Liar)
Let me be captivated by your beauty
Then let me fall from your grace unto my broken knees
Close my eyes so tightly, the tears are welling up
You aren't worth the waste of the salt or the fucking water
And you are deceit
Just wither away real beauty is forever in you
Just wither away real beauty is forever in you
Just wither away real beauty is forever in you

Marching alone, like a good soldier does
I'm setting sail, with anchors holding me down
Pack up my bags, stow them away
I'm bidding farewell to all that is safe
Will I come up for air, come up for air
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I'm out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Withering away, a shrinking violet dies
So full of life, these lights have dried me out
Into the sea, I needed a drink
I never thought this would consume me whole
Will I come up for air, come up for air
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I'm out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
(I turn to stone)
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Save me, take me home
Over and over again
Save me, take me home
Wishing that this all would end
Save me, take me home
Over and over again
Save me, take me home
Wishing that this all would end
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I'm out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I'm out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Save me take me home
When I come up for air
Save me take me home
When I come up for air
Save me take me home
Over and over again
Save me take me home

You're always looking back
Runnin' from the past
You're always sweating me
About the next big heart attack
You're lookin' over your shoulder
Starin' down the path
I'm fallin' down
Fallin' down
Fallin' down
It's in your head
All the voices mistaken
Shake it off, shake it off
We're all dyin' in the end
It's in your head
All the voices mistaken
Shake it off, shake it off
We're all dyin' in the end
I fear I'll find the evident
So horrible, so horrible
To clear my thoughts
I drill a hole into my skull
Clean up my brains
And sweep them underneath the rug
I need them more
Than I needed any other drug
I'm fallin' down
Fallin' down
Fallin' down
It's in your head
All the voices mistaken
Shake it off, shake it off
We're all dyin' in the end
(Dyin? in the end)
It's in your head
All the voices mistaken
Shake it off, shake it off
We're all dyin' in the end
(Dyin? in the end)
Dyin? in the end
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Come on
I'm fallin' down
Fallin' down
Fallin' down
It's in your head
All the voices mistaken
Shake it off, shake it off
We're all dyin' in the end
(Dyin? in the end)
It's in your head
All the voices mistaken
Shake it off, shake it off
We're all dyin' in the end
(Dyin? in the end)
Dyin? in the end

If I gave you pretty enough words
Could you paint a picture of us that works
An emphasis on function
Rather than design
Aren't you tired 'cause I will carry you
On a broken back and blown out knees
I have been where you are
For a while
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die
I am exhumed just a little less human
And lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed just a little less human
And lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed just a little less human
And lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed just a little less human
[Incomprehensible]
After all these images of pain
Have cut right through you
I will kiss every scar and weep
You are not alone
Then I'll show you that place
In my chest where my heart
Still tries to beat
It still tries to beat
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die
Live, love, burn, die
Live, love, burn, die
Live, love, burn, die

Strength comes from within, not from above [x3]
You do not giveth
Therefore you cannot taketh away
No being is my master
I am not a spiritual slave
Heavenly father
Rightous son
Holy Ghost
Fiction
In my brethren love and freinds
I need no divinity on which to urge my soul

Faith No More Cover
Can you feel it, see it, hear it today?
If you can't, then it doesn't matter anyway
You will never understand it cause it happens too fast
And it feels so good, it's like walking on glass
It's so cool, it's so hip, it's alright
It's so groovy, it's outta sight
You can touch it, smell it, taste it so sweet
But it makes no difference cause it knocks you off your feet
You want it all but you can't have it
It's cryin', bleedin', lying on the floor
So you lay down on it and you do it some more
You've got to share it, so you dare it
Then you bare it and you tear it
You want it all but you can't have it
It's in your face but you can't grab it
It's alive, afraid, a lie, a sin
It's magic, it's tragic, it's a loss, it's a win
It's dark, it's moist, it's a bitter pain
It's sad it happened and it's a shame
You want it all but you can't have it
It's in your face but you can't grab it
What is it?
It's it

Razor wire
Gift wraps the things we've done
Afterthoughts
Of past storms weathered before
Oh no, oh no
I watch the clouds roll in
Oh no, oh no
It's happening again
I'll be watching, waiting
Dreadful, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Will lighting strike our sins away?
Watching, waiting
Falling, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today
Or is the future looking gray?
Aftermath
Much worse then it was before
Battle scars
Some are seen and some are not
Oh no, oh no
I watch the clouds roll in
Oh no, oh no
It's happening again
I'll be watching, waiting
Dreadful, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Will lighting strike our sins away?
Watching, waiting
Falling, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today
Or is the future looking gray?
You can't hide from thunder
And I never thought
We'd turn out this way, yeah
You can't hide from thunder
Watching, waiting
Dreadful, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today?
Will lighting strike our sins away?
Watching, waiting
Falling, shaking
Will the storm pass over us today

I feel eyelashes on my cheek
And they lacerate my flesh
No pain so good
So put your hand in mine
Never let go
Never wake up 'cause I'm done with promises
I'm taking blood oaths
Feels likes you could kiss my imperfections
My imperfections away
And I would stand
Stand by your side until the sun turns the sky
All the colors I see in your eyes
I'll never need to see the sun again
There's enough light in your eyes to light up our little world
So take me, take my away
Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same
I swear to you, on everything I am
And I dedicate to you all that I have
And I promise you that I will stand right by your side
Forever and always until the day I die
The bite marks on my neck never felt so good
I'm losing control and it's all that I can do
Not to blackout and fall into lust with you
Your kisses infect me
The dark gift is loving you
And I'll never need to see the sun again
There's enough light in your eyes to light up our little world
So take me, take me away
Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same
And I feel immortal and I want to make you feel the same
So stand by me as we immolate

And we danced
So Pristine and
Knee deep in sin
Balls deep in hate (I see your face)
I see your face
And it tears me apart
It tears me up
My mouth is full of love
My head is held in shame
[Chorus:]
When you kiss me
Do you still taste her?
Are you thinking of...?
Are you thinking of me?
With your lips pressed tightly up against his skin
Does your body still scream my name?
Does your body still scream my name?
Hold your breath
Keep it in
Trapped with secrets
'Til you're turning cold blue with guilt
Still no blood to spilt
Had I seen the plot twists coming?
Would I have checked out the book?
And even if I was dead
You would never be off the fucking hook.
[Chorus]
Can You Take It While I Fake It [x2]
[Solo]
Cross your heart, false your heart [x2]
[Chorus ("Press Your Heart, Fuck Your Heart" throughout)]

I'm so tired
Oh although,
I can taste the winter
I would shut up
if i thought that it mattered
that's what it feels like
when you're stitched into this game
i feel stuck and no one thinks
somethings missing
(somethings missing)
No one cares, No one listens
screaming words that you faked hearing
No one cares, no one listens anymore
(no one listens anymore)
my eyes burn
as i bury how I'm feeling
close my eyes
it's my life that I've been stealing
if it's alright why do i feel a sense of longing
i had it all
yet i thought that somethings missing
(somethings missing)
No one cares, no one listens
screaming words that you faked hearing
No one cares, no one listens anymore
whoa x2
so paranoid
I've been hiding from the sign
I'm tired of being afraid
of everything and everyone
I'm so tired
No one cares, no one listens
screaming words that you faked hearing
No one cares, no one listens anymore x2
ooh no one cares no one listens
screaming words that you faked hearing

Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin', you give love a bad name
Fuck you
An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love, got a hold on me
When passion's a prison, you can't break free
Whoa, you're a loaded gun
Yeah, whoa, there's nowhere to run
No one can save you
The damage is done
Shot through the heart and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name
You give love a bad name
You paint that smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boy's dream, you act so shy
You're very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye
Whoa, you're a loaded gun
Whoa, there's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done
Shot through the heart and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name
You give love
Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin', you give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name
Shot through the heart and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name

Just swallow the pill and think of me no longer
Just let go and take yourself out
Before I kill you too
Aren't you tired of me fucking you over and over?
You were the last person I wanted in my sights
And my heart honestly breaks when I think of you
I understand now what I-love-you means -
It's doing the right thing no matter of the consequence
I'm tying you up, using the nicest lace
Trying to kill you softly, trying to erase your face
All the while I'm doing my best
Not to rub my love against your head
I'd redecorate the walls with your inner thoughts
But I'm afraid it's the wrong shade of red
But I have these sadistic urges
And I don't want to take it out on you
Right now you're the only one who understands my plight
Right now you're the only reason

Sometimes it feels like the juice is just one, hell of a squeeze.
I'm wringing it out my hands, drinking in my agony.
I love this shit and I hate this shit, I need it just to survive.
I've served my time, I've earned my keep, and now I'm taking what's mine
(And only I can stop me)
[Chorus:]
So what is it that you were fighting for?
Is it something that's worth dying for?
Look me in the eyes, don't tell me.
Is it in your heart, what your striving for?
A painful lesson learned is worth so much more (so much more).
Can you open up your eyes and see?
All of our lives we ask ourselves is this really what's meant for us,
take a cold hard look at youself, it takes heart to face your reality.
I can, I cannot give two shits about your self doubt, when it's time to rise
I won't sell myself out (I won't sell myself out).
[Chorus]
And doubt falls away, like pages in a good book like an autumn leaf's decay.
And doubt falls away, like sand in an hourglass the end of a perfect day.
And doubt falls away, like pages in a good book like an autumn leaf's decay.
And doubt falls away, like sand in an hourglass
[Solo]

So here we are again
The same fork in the road
I hate you. You love me
This story's getting old
The day that I opened up
You shut me out for good
Forgive, forget, fuck you
You are a liar and a whore
[Chorus:]
So take what you want and leave
You'll never get another part of
I remember the day that
I thought I would be free
I poured out my soul to you
Exposed everything
I take it out,
My heart's broke
My hand is much the same
I did my best to drink you away
[Chorus]
You are poison on man's lips
Lured in by the curves of your hips
Come here boy, stand by me
Look my way, have another drink
I should have got up...
I should have got up and left you
And I will never ever be your lover again
As far as I'm concerned, we are not even friends
This may not seem to subtle to you
The point I'm trying to make is we are completely through
[Chorus]
[Solo]
You are poison on man's lips
Lured in by the curves of your hips
Come here boy, stand by me

You should have ran for days
You embrace you betray
I am sick to say
You're a sad cliché
But when you ran you tripped and fell
On a path that lead you straight to hell
This is my salt in your wounds
This is my "I TOLD YOU SO"
If You Knew What I Know
Would You Move Like You Do?
With malicious Discontent
You went about hell-bent to destroy
But did you have a reason why?
[Chorus:]
Here's to lowering caskets
Of old friends
Choice and consequence
We'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and
Start over, Start over.
Here's To Burying Hatchets in Those
Who You'd Never Call Your Friend..
We'll Birth A New Day With The Death Of An Old Day And..
Start Over! Start Over!
Can You Breathe In Reach And Let It Out
Thee Evil Inside that's eating you out tonight
With Every Venomous Move I Will Suck You Up And Spit You
Get Out Of My Life, Get Out Of My Sight!
[Chorus]
You Let Yourself Get Carried Away
Don't Act Like Your Ashamed
You Let Yourself Get Carried Away
Bow your head now, accept the blame
You Let Yourself Get Carried Away
Bury this with you, a waste
And Now It's Time To See
What You Don't Mean To Me
Now it's time to see
What you don't mean to me
Now it's time to see
What you don't mean to me
Here's to lowering caskets
Of old friends
Choice and consequence
We'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and
Start over, Start over.
Here's To Burying Hatchets in Those
Who You'd Never Call Your Friend..

Use to be, I could make the pieces fit
Break the edges, force fit all of this
How could I ever be so wrong?
At our pace, we are doomed once we begin
Kinda makes you wonder, what's the sense?
How could I ever be so wrong?
And I know
That fate keeps loathing
I can't help but go back to it
Your flame still burns at the back of it
And although there is a lack of air
I won't forget you
Simply put what's done is dead and gone
Can't forget, not for very long
There is no pride involved in love
You can't manufacture happiness
Try forever, you would be re-missed
There is no pride involved in love
No pride involved
And all that I know
Is that I know nothing
I can't help but go back to it
Your flame still burns at the back of it
And although there is a lack of air
I won't forget you
You made me feel alive
But nothing lasts forever
Yeah, something deep inside
It takes me home again
I can't help but go back to it
Your flame still burns at the back of it
And although there is a lack of air
I won't forget you
You made me feel alive
But nothing lasts forever
Yeah, something deep inside
It takes me home again
And all that I know
Is that I know nothing
All that I know

Gutted like a pig, all you want is the world to bleed,
someone somewhere stole your desire
The pain akin to, being punched in the throat, and stabbed in the chest
You would rather bleed than be without her
Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears
Replaced with lackluster memories you cry, your screams play in your empty room
It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling in the back of your head
It's even harder to speak when everything you say just comes out wrong
Your bed swallows you whole as the days bleed together, torment on the lips
Of a loved one, and if you try hard enough,
you can almost taste her, feel her pass and
Scream, OH GOD WHY ME

All hail the tip of the spear
The misguided unyielding force
Unleashed abroad a foreign nightmare of pain
Is this what we want for ourselves?
Creep crawl under your sheets
Cheat its way through the back door
Unaffected till we are affected
Then we push for war
Then we push for war
Then we push for war
Ravenous and racing forward
Never looking back
We've killed more than we need
Knives out we bare our teeth
Strength and pain are what rules the world
End of days and we're racing to red lights
Does that make sense to anyone else?
Deny any wrong doing
Pass the buck and then fake some more blame
Lie's a circle then we all reap the whirlwind
Then we push for war
Then we push for war
Then we push for war
Ravenous and racing forward
Never looking back
We've killed more than we need
Gluttonous we feed on power
Never looking back
We've killed more than we need
What goes around comes around
And around and around
And hateful young men
Turn to old hateful men
What goes around comes around
And around and around and
Hateful young men
Turn to old dead men
Ravenous and racing forward
Never looking back
We've killed more than we need
Gluttonous we feed on power
Never looking back
We've killed more than we need

Yesterday I forgot to breathe for like the 6th time this week.
maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky that changed my mind and brought me back
seems like every day it's kill or be killed...
with all this anger there is no time to inhale and progress
and catch the smell of something that you once knew.
have you ever stopped raised your face up to the sun and screamed
let it out exhale the pain
that strangulates your soul, when will I be free
my lungs take in the fragrance of remorse, what is the cost, am I living,
if you let your lungs fill up with pain then you will drown in your own regret.
.my arms feel so numb my heart palpitates missing a beat.
the blood freezing in my veins. the taste of rust in my mouth.
But today I just threw it all away
.though the light burns my eyes I will not be blind,
if you blink you could miss so much. please don't ever close your eyes

9. A Vampire's Laments
I am the walking dead heartbreaker, my apologies,
I'm happy you'll never understand what
It's like to be trapped under six feet of solid glass,
I can see out, but no one gets in
Screaming at this prison, I've locked myself into,
I'm sorry that I'm still breathing and that I'll
Kill again. The loneliness is too much for me to handle.
But the taste for fresh blood, pushes me on.
The fear of romance
The pain of living
The joy of sorrow
The strength of forgiving
I told myself the constant pain would ease the tension burning inside
But the nights were cold and the days dragged to weeks,
I will die here alone I will die
God help me, I'm so tired,
but in my dreams the wolves eat out my soul
God help me, I'm so frightened,
but in my dreams wolves tear out my heart
I used to be golden, a saint in a time of sorrow,
but then the turning came and I kissed
The sun goodbye, don't you get it,
it's always darker in my eyes, the screams of my brothers
Egging me on

If I gave you pretty enough words.
could you pain a picture of us that works.
an emphasis on function rather than design.
aren't you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
and blown out knees, I have been where you are for a while..
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die.
I am exhumed just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold. [x3]
I am exhumed.. just a little less human....
so much more bitter and cold....[repeating]
after all these images of pain, have cut right thru you,
I will kiss every scar, and weep you are not alone...
then I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat.
aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
and destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die
live love burn die

You took me home
I drank too much
Cause of you my liver turned to dust
Cold rust taste, cold creeping cold pain
Do you understand what I mean?
When you feel your soul drop to the floor
Like a hole like an open bleeding sore
Then you'll have bled like I've bled
Then you'll have wept as I've wept
Suck me down, it's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, let's lose control
One false move; you took me home
One false move; you're all alone
But it looks so good and it feels so nice
I've paid my price
I'll cut you out just to hear you scream:
"Get away from, get away from me".
And I can feel my heart beat racing
As I realize what I must do
Get away from, get away from, get away from you.
Should've turned around like hell
Last time I got a taste of you
I should've turned and ran like hell
And I say we're through
Should've turned around like hell
Last time I got a taste of you
I should've turned and ran like hell
And I say we're through
And I say we're through
You fell upon me, like a plague
Weakness, sweet weakness
But I digress
After all this...
You're just like all the rest
Suck me down, it's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, let's lose control
One false move; you took me home

Blow the last candle out. Let the wax harden
I wish I could stop crying. And I wish that someone still loved me [x2]
Just breathe and focus. How can I when the air is so cold and empty,
That my lungs froze right in my chest.
I'll be honest the silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture
And the smiles are so difficult to fake.[x2]
What do I have to do, or who do I have to kill, to get what I want. What I need[x2]
Happiness is an emotion I was born to this world without,
nothing pleases me. And i can never be satiated.
Through this toil I will breed my own distress and destroy my best hopes,
fuck up the only things that I love.
I watched my aspirations crashing to the ground, on the backs of the angels that I've slain.
But I meant so well, I tried so hard, gave everyting in my soul, to what end, to what end
Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away.[x3]

Starving searching this barren wasteland
Trying to grasp being this alone
Pleading for a breath of fresh air, someone's standing on my chest
Dying I'm asphyxiating myself
I kill myself
Break myself slave to my weakness choke on my words
Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone
The lights are on and I wish I was home
My lips are screaming pretty nothings
My ears are bleeding for want of words, fuck words I need actions
Hope as left me fucking shattered
Someone's standing on my chest
Alone would be a pleasant change from here
How do you gauge loneliness?
Have you ever felt so alone?
It feels like the light will never reach me here
I am choking back my longing for shed tears
So strangulated by my lonesome fears
Please don't worry too much, it only hurts when I breathe
It only hurts when I breathe (when I breathe)

Crystal clear I see the rose is frail,
the thorns hid easily in its beauty, as I go to grasp it in my hand
My heart is torn beating from my chest
Let me be captivated, by your beauty
Then let me fall from your grace, unto my broken knees
Close my eyes so tightly, the tears are welling up
You aren't worth the waste, of the salt or the water
Fuck all your false beauty, it was transparent just like your smile - liar
Your thorns caress my flesh, crimson drops on a snowy field - liar
I have watched you retrogress, I have seen what you've become - liar
Please take your eyes off of me,
it's funny how fast blue eyes fade gray - liar
And you are deceit
Watching the sun play in your hair
I couldn't really care, care any less about you
Just wither away real beauty is forever in you
Just wither away

Who died in the systematic procress that we call life
Each indiscriminate event leading itself to the total destruction
The total nihilation of the beauty and spark of mankinds history
Each failure is so symbolic of whats past and what yet left to be
Un-dead or am I reall dying
Whos to say that this is eternity
Devoid of serenity
Brings us closer to a label of hell
Here we go are all we all dead
Whats the stop, wheres the end
Whats the stop, where do I end
Save me from my sins
Save us from the demons within
With another gone in this war to stay afloat
In this turmoil known as daily life breaking human spirit
Lack of love abundance of dusgust
Whos dead am I dead
What is death
Whose to say that this is life?
Oh god the pain of the response
No reaction or are we indifferent
Well whos will save us or are we already saved

Lift up a stone and you will find him,
cherish the beauty in the world around us
Not in buildings or crosses made by man
Judge me, fuck you, stop playing god,
Your forked tongue prophecies,
carelessly caressing the wounds of the weak
People like you should be crucified,
then maybe just maybe you would have an idea
Of what you are talking about.
My only solace is that one day,
judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns
Raise your heads, unclasp your hands,
your weakness makes me tremble
True strength comes from within
And we were given this life to live,
not exist under standards, set by some bullshit rule book
What prayers of yours, were ever answered, by degrading others
Spare me your biblical back peddling nonsense
For the people that you've hurt, and the being your dishonor,
Your fall from grace, will finally justify my means
Judge me and now you are me and what's worse
You are now a traitor to your god
Tell me Judas, how does it feel to be looked down upon
Sinners like you, should be stung up from the highest tree
you judged me and now you are me, stop playing god

I've watched the sun go dancing fall
And watched the night reign
Please note that casual
Observers are always the first to go
So this is for me and the boys
We'll always play our part
To kick and scream
To be the ones you hate to love
I can never turn my back because this is all I know
You know all that is the truth
We are all we have
In a world that corrupts the strongest soul
You know all that is the truth.
If you blink don't do it twice
I've still got something to say here.
I will bare my heart to expose my soul.
If honesty has a price then I won't fucking pay dear.
We will take our dreams straight to the grave.
Go choke on this
And on my words,
And on us,
And on my honesty.
It's of no consequence
Because I've seen the opulence.
The beauty I've held in my eyes
If only for seconds
Words will never take away
What we have built together
With our hands, with our hearts, with our minds.
If you blink don't do it twice
I've still got something to say here.
I will bare my heart to expose my soul.
If honesty has a price then I won't fucking pay dear.
We will take our dreams straight to the grave.
If this is just in our heads then
Then we'll keep on living our perfect lie
One day at a time
God bless our cheating hearts
And damn your lies
If this just in our heads then
We'll keep on living our perfect lie
One day at a time
God bless us.
If you blink don't do it twice
I've still got something to say here.
I will bare my heart to expose my soul.
If honesty has a price then I won't fucking pay dear.

It started with a kiss and turned out something else
The blood coils in through my veins, I think of no one else
I never believed in much, but I believe in this
I'm incomplete without you, I'd kill to taste your kiss
I'm lost and lonely
Scared and hiding
Blind without you
When the the world comes crashing down
And the skies begin to fall, I'll wait for you
When the days grow old and long
And my skin turns into stone, I'll wait for you
When the pain it seems too much
And my heart starts beating out of touch
I don't need a thing, I'll wait for you
It's all so different now, emotions burn me out
I have a lifeless touch, this distance leaves no doubt
I fear it all too much but part of me believes
As the years pass away you made me recognize
I'm lost and lonely
Scared and hiding
Blind without you
When the the world comes crashing down
And the skies begin to fall, I'll wait for you
When the days grow old and long
And my skin turns into stone, I'll wait for you
When the pain it seems too much
And my heart starts beating out of touch
I don't need a thing 'cause I'll wait for you
Yeah, 'cause I'll wait for you
When the the world comes crashing down
And the skies begin to fall, I'll wait for you
When the days grow old and long
And my skin turns into stone, I'll wait for you
When the pain it seems too much
And my heart starts beating out of touch
I don't need a thing, I know I don't need a thing

So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit
You tell me lies and you get what you get
So blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
Oh my God, did you just hear
Lies are comin' back in style?
Oh my God, this seems so real
That they find you and confine you
Shut your mouth, we've heard it all
Hypocrite's and critics all
Can fuck off, we do this for our souls
For our souls
What they say won't make us go away
So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit
You tell me lies and you get what you get
So blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
We're not sorry and we won't conform
It's not our choice but somethin' inborn
If we fail followin' our hearts
Can you blame us? No, no, no
A swept bag in our black home
We don't fit in, that's the way it goes
You should've not thought you're better than us
'Cause you're not, no, no, no
What they say won't make us go away
So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit
You tell me lies and you get what you get
So blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit
You tell me lies and you get what you get
So blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
Blow, blow, blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
Tell yourself you're not alone at all
Lookin' out your window, know you're all alone
Oh, tell yourself you're not alone at all
Lookin' out your window, know you're all alone
What they say won't make us go away
Go away, go away, go away
So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit
You tell me lies and you get what you get
So blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
So fuckin' blow those words out the back of your head
I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit
You tell me lies and you get what you get
So blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head
Blow, blow, blow those fuckin' words out the back of your head

We're all hell bent on destruction
Trying to erase black spots on our souls
Hide from a violent eruption
Cataclysmic engulfing us all.
Lay down (lay down)
Tonight (tonight)
In front of the things
That conquer us all.
Your body, it taunts me
Your flesh is, oh so haunting.
Chorus:
Children of the night.
Throw your hands up in the air.
We all know we've lost the fight.
Hope dies out and we can see the end.
Black days begin.
Walk down this path of temptation
Deny the flesh ignore whats crawling below.
Stay true (stay true)
Stay cold (stay cold)
In front of the things
That conquer us all!
Your body, it taunts me
Your flesh is, oh so haunting.
Chorus
Solos
Your body, it taunts me
Your flesh is, oh so haunting.

Starving searching this barren wasteland
Trying to grasp being this alone
Pleading for a breath of fresh air, someone's standing on my chest
Dying I'm asphyxiating myself
Break myself slave to my weakness choke on my words
Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone
The lights are on and I wish I was home
My lips are screaming pretty nothings
My ears are bleeding for want of words, fuck words I need actions
Hope as left me fucking shattered
Someone's standing on my chest
Alone would be a pleasant change from here
How do you gauge loneliness how you ever felt so alone
It feels like the light will never reach me here,
I am choking back my longing for shed tears
So strangulated by my lonesome fears plead don't worry too much,
it only hurts when I breathe

After all that has transpired
After all thats taken place
After all the stab wounds
And just just before my death
I rise pheonix, like anew
From the still burning ashes of false hearts lies
To fly once again, to shine from within
Dismember my myself
Severe my viens
Poisen myself
A heartless joke
Slash at my neck
Gouge out my eyes
Screaming in agony
You pacify me.
Bleeding hearts shed no tears
Soaked all the way through with remorse and regret
Fire to purify my soul and blood to replenish it
I search in hopes of completion to justify my love for you
Nothing ever ends where our souls begin
Nothing can save me from myself
You keep me safe
Resurrecting my love
An angel like you
Can never fall
Heaven I found
Right in my arms
I found love in you
I find truth in you
I see light in you

For my whole life, I have been burning down bridges
My only problem was foresight
I was standing on them, I never looked down
And now I am, knee deep in your bullshit
If you're ready for battle then I'm ready for war
So we can dance if you want lies
How easily we are deceived, how easily we believe lies
I will not run out of ammo, no more bowing my head
If every day is another slug, I will pull them out of my...
I will not run out of ammo, no more bowing my head
For every day is another slug, I will pull them out of my chest!
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high!
Tell your stories, run your mouth, and tell your lies!
After all this time, don't wash my blood off of your hands
Let it crack and stain you, so the outside can match the in
Oh, does it make you the fucking toast of the town?
To pull yourself up, on those you're always putting down
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high!
Tell your stories, run your mouth and tell your lies
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories, run your mouth and tell your...
You curse my name, burn down my house
As I bare my soul you cast your doubt, and I can live without
You're passing judgement (you're passing judgement)
With side long glances (with side long glances)
Am I splitting hairs or - do I dare to say? - you've had your chances
You're passing judgement, with side long glances
Am I splitting hairs or - do I dare to say? - you've had your chances
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high!
Tell your stories, run your mouth and tell your lies
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories, run your mouth and tell your lies
Curse my name,
Curse my name,
Curse my name,
Curse my name,

Sometimes things turnout the wrong way
You gotta stay strong, you gotta move on
The hardest lessons are teh ones that keep you stunned and speechless
I fell the pain
I feel the hurt
I fell depression
I live in my strength
Remember that your best friend is the strength in your heart
The fire in your soul
And the love in your eyes
Though its been said many times before
By smarter people with larger minds than mine
Love in your heart

Coward, the next time you want to fuck me over stab me in the front
Can I still see my future in your eyes,
or can I picture myself dead in your embrace
And your cruel crimson red smile, kills
Everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
Instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
No one could have their moments free from your withering touch.
Fuck off like you're the only person that has ever cried or been broken by love
Spare me your pity party drunk off your own misfortunes
Wallowing in your blissful melancholy
.can you taste my blood. You knew that this would kill me. But you carried on and on
with your selfish shit., everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
burnt down my world, you killed my hope
spread out the ash and walked away
how could you just close off your eyes.
turn tail and run, you are the greatest coward
damn right I am still pissed..
next time I see you we will see who has the upper hand
kiss me fist. Taste the floor. Tired of your games. fuck off goodbye.

He bends and he breaks, if you kiss it will take away
His passion, his pain, his brain
He exhales a thousand black flowers explode
Into butterflies as they're away
Rip them, I'll take them, burn to coals
As they crush and leave nothing
That resembles a soul of a man
(See him numb, see him crushed)
See him numb, see him crushed
Rip them, I'll take them, burn to coals
As they crush and leave nothing
That resembles a soul of a man
(Leave him numb, leave him crushed)
Leave him numb, leave him crushed
Took the fire inside, one too many times
His burning's over and out now, he fails
Up against the raging tides, no more fights
Everything you ever wanted to see I see it in his eyes
One more time, one more time
I don't dare to test the waters
My hands feel like they're rusting away
So obvious, so numb, I can leave before the slaughter
I'll stay here as long as you let me
Decisions then made obvious
And while they're in tune
Where I started, I'll stay there
When I'm finished, I'll wither away
Rip them, I'll take them, burn to coals
As they crush and leave nothing
That resembles a soul of a man
(See him numb, see him crushed)
See him numb, see him crushed
Rip them, I'll take them, burn to coals
As they crush and leave nothing
That resembles a soul of a man
(Leave him numb, leave him crushed)

I began my ascent at minus zero
You made so sure of that
You tried to keep me down here
Your complacency has been your downfall
Nobody made you king of the world
And I'm here to dethrone
So kiss the ring motherfucker
It's my time, my time to shine
Grasping for the straws as they fall
Maybe you can make a splint for your broken ego
For your broken ego
And I say thank you for the scars
And the guilt and the pain
Every tear I've never cried
Has sealed your fucking fate
Did you take me for, a fool?
Or were you just too blind to see
That every effort made has failed
And there is no destroying me?
Hate can be a positive emotion
When it forces you to better yourself
You built me, constructed my desire
Perfected my hatred
Now I'm driven to be ten times better than you think you are
Ten times better than you think you are
Piece by piece I've built my walls
And burned the bridges down
That lead back to people like you
So full of malice, so full of scorn
You tried your best to crush my spirit
You tried to steal my soul
You pushed my back against the wall
And I broke it down
I will not be broken
Though I am the one that bleeds
I will not be broken

Raise up the ghosts of the dead - I won't die like them
Push past the point of raw emotion - I will breathe
Exist with a broken spirit - I will die complete
Ignore what the angels say enjoy that special place where the demons speak to me
I won't pick out the lining of my coffin yet unless I am sure that color satin is me
Better yet go with crushed velvet, that way I'll be damn sure to enjoy eternity
My daily life writes the eulogy, engraved on tombstone diaries,
laid to rest with the passing of time
Seems to me that even love can die
And the rituals, that fade away, and the roses that cease to be laid
And to me it clearly appears that we're already one foot in a very shallow grave
I will love with passion
You live like you're dead
As each day dies, are we living on to the next or passing on in the twilight

I live
I stalk
I hunt
I eat
With indifference for all
I walk
I kill
I sleep
I breed
Slowly taking control
The sickest part of our species
Ravenous to evolve
We spread like a fucking disease
No vaccine protocol
And at the end of days
This will be our legacy
Chorus:
Kill, kill
Multiply
Until the skies are black
And the rivers dry
Take, take
Take our time
We leave no one else behind
Kill, kill
And deny
Until the skies are black
And the rivers dry
Take, take
We take our time
We leave nothing else behind
I don't
Feel anything
At all
As rats gnaw at my bones
I'm not
Made of the
Same things at all
A mechanical heart
The sickest part of our species
Ravenous to evolve
We spread like a fucking disease
No vaccine protocol
And at the end of days
This will be our legacy
Chorus
You cannot stop what never ends [2x]
You cannot stop what never ends [2x]

I feel it welling up inside,
And Robert Smith lied,
Boys do cry and with,
Blood, tears in my eyes
I'm an Anne Rice novel come to life,
I can't hide the monster,
Anymore,
One can only feel desolate for so long,
Until one starts to change into something the mirror doesn't't recognize,
Metamorphasize,
The darkness has been biding it's time,
To claim it's latest victim,
Fresh meat for carnal desires,
To become what I became,
I've viewed the sun for the last time,
Will you still hold me when you see what I have done,
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood,
So Crimson and Red,
I feel it flowing from your lips,
(Crimson and Red)
My heart is dead and so are you,
And it pulses through,
The desire to change
To deconstruct,
All of my,
All of my past failings,
But where to begin,
Becuz when you live in sin it's Hard to look at saints,
Without them reflecting your jet black aura back at you,
And all I have is hope,
My Inner burn's not fading,
I wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day,
Will you still hold me when you see what I have done,
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood,
So Crimson and Red,
I feel it flowing from your lips,
(Crimson and Red),
My heart is dead and so are you,
And all I have is hope,
And all I need is time,
To bury in pine,
Under six feet of time,
The lies I've told me about myself,
Claw my way out,
Pick the splinters from under my fingernails,
I won't lose hope,
I won't give in,
Just live and breathe, Try not to die again,
Just live and breathe, Try not to die again,
Just live and breathe, Try not to die again,
I tried not to die again,
Will you still hold me when you see what I have done,
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood,
So Crimson and Red,
I feel it flowing from your lips,
(Crimson and Red)
My heart is dead and so are you,
Will you still hold me when you see what I have done,
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood, So Crimson and Red,
I feel it flowing from your lips, (Crimson and Red)

Descendents cover
Clean sheets mean a lot,
To a guy who sleeps on the floor,
I wanted your love,
An a shelf in your dresser draw,
You tucked me in,
Stopped my tossing and turning,
But I turned back the covers,
And saw those sheets are dirty.
Chorus:
Even though you'll never come clean,
You know it's true,
Those sheets are dirty,
And so are you.
The warmth of a bed,
To a guy that sleeps on the floor
was enough to perpetuate.
All the lies I heard before,
I want to hold you,
I hold my pillow instead
Because my pillow will never lie
Or be with a stranger in my bed.
Chorus
Where's the love I was looking for?
It's out the door.
I'm afraid to see you anymore,
So it's back on the floor,
'cause those sheets are dirty.
Woke up this morning,
Alone on the floor,
Thinking about those clean sheets
And the way it was before,
When I looked in the mirror,
I saw your face and thought of the past,
But now I know how dirty you are,
I took my fist and smashed the glass.
Chorus x2