If you could just feel my pain
My pain, my sorrow
You realize what I can be tomorrow
Your self-motivating words I know
But you're talking so much shit
Your mouth looks like an asshole
Every time I see myself
I choke down all the loathe inside
It so rock star typical
Can you see why I'm cynical
Can you hear me?
What did I say?
Can you see me?
wasting away?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Caught between what I say and what I see
Like all them stupid motherfuckers on MTV
All your bithcin and whining, I've heard it all before
Someone please tell me the score
Kids tease up your mowhawks now
Your new punk rock ain't going to last
Kill all rock stars
Wonder how they got the idea?
Can you hear me?
What did I say
Can you see me
Wasting away?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Rock
As I’ve walked through
The valley of the underworld
With death lurking close behind
You see the smile on my face
Might be replaced
With my screams of please
Take pity I am ignorant
It’s my prayer
The faces I have known
They all have stranger's eyes
Within this inhuman world
I've beaten death all my life
And I will not deny
The existence of some faith
When I'm about to die
It's my prayer
Take me away some other day
Since I have seen it
My scars reveal
That I'm not ready to burn
Since I have seen it
My scars reveal
Wrench and choke
The bile from all those token words
Whose meaning lost long ago
Through shadows of promise
Time will tell if they
Were genuine or just foolish dreams
Still deserving of scrutiny
They may harbor the answers
Try and see through
To guide you to the truth
Wasted toil extracting
Origins of thought
Can’t possess own theories
Or individual opinions
Deny those so-called scholars
Speculations on artistry
Prove for self-discovery
It may harbor your answers
Try and see through
To guide you to the truth
Songs we sang to, long ago
With lies no one can comprehend
Yet splinters of truth
Lie in perversion
Won’t be told to think
No I’ll never again
Won’t be told what to feel
No I’ll never again
Won’t be told to think again
Won’t believe those lies again, so
Try and see
To question what this means
Try and see through
To guide you to the truth
Songs we sang to, long ago
With lies no one can comprehend
Yet splinters of truth
Lie in perversion
Songs we sang to, long ago
And I’ll never think that way again
Yet splinters of truth
Lie in perversion
Can’t comprehend
What I’ve said
Slowly lowered dawn
Eyes filled with tears
Figures fade from....
Dirt thrown on me
I'm not dead yet
Just beware what you wish for
It may kill you
Once you enter you may not leave
Humans are easy prey
'Cause God told me to
'Cause God told me to
I've finally seen the light again
An invitation to hell
Death is just the beginning here
Say farewell to the flesh
Children shouldn't play with dead things
Rest in pieces
And if I die before I awake
He'll tear your soul apart
'Cause God told me to
'Cause God told me to
I've finally seen the light again
An invitation to hell
Death is just the beginning here
Farewell to the flesh
Christened in blood
Enemy of faith
Foe to the human race
And you embrace me
Evil never dies
Just takes a new soul
Bloody, born fire
Feeds on flesh
This just cannot be true
Plunge into darkness
Please God help me soon
I’m breathing
The sun’s in sight
I’m alive
Been given eyes for the blind
To seek the answers
For questions of mankind
You know that I
I’ve got to find
Some meaning to my life
And yes I’ve said I want it
I want it now
Live it now
Take it yeah
You neglect the way
To strive to make the most
Of every single day
And you know that I
I got the way to deal with that problem
Yes I’ve said I want it
I want it now
Live it now
Take it
Yes I’ve said I want it
I want it now
Live it now
Take it yeah
If the truth is out there
You would never know
You’re running from your problems
And running for your life
I think I can, I think I can
Your cause is just a reaction
To the procrastination of lost principles
within your heart and mind
Time it slips away
It tends to be held more precious with decay
You know that I
I got a way to deal with that problem
Yes I’ve said I want it
I want it now
Live it now
Take it
Yes I’ve said I want it
I want it now
Live it now
Take it Yeah
If the truth is out there
You would never know
You’re running from your problems
You must promise you will
Never speak again of this to me
慍ause I could never look my son
In the eye and tell him
Just exactly what his daddy did
With the souls of all the broken ones
I could never understand exactly why
You had feelings for these
Worthless human flies
And when I looked into your eyes
I felt
I felt broken
Yes, it抯 true
I wanted to be like you
And yes, I knew
I could never be like you
And I saw them kneeling there
To their God on his big throne
And I started to see you
Shying away from all the angels
It抣l never be the way it was again
You couldn抰 see that I
Treated you just like a son
And if I held others just like you
It抯 only because I
Created all men equal
I could never understand exactly why
You would spit into your loving father抯 eyes
Oh my father how am I
Supposed to say I抦 sorry?
Yes, it抯 true
I wanted to be like you
And yes, I knew
I could never be like you
And I saw them kneeling there
To their God on his big throne
And I started to see you
Shying away from all the angels
I forgive you. Don抰 you know?
I just don抰 care
I could never be the one
Ever be your son
I could never be the father No
Stop embracing all yesterdays for in the end
Creatures of habit dwell there
When you turn around to face your fate
All those regrets black the path before you
Weighed down by your neglect
And you'll drown in your own evil
It can never be the same
You must embrace the change
Stop laboring for a single goal
You can't depend on what the
future holds for you
Not physically where you are on your journey
It's only what you make of it
The fruits of emphasis on tomorrow
Yield a life filled with much sorrow
It doesn't mean you'll star the same
You cannot force the change
If you seek the wild horses
Bound for uncharted courses
You would never grab the reins
For a chance to learn from your mistakes
Stand up and deliver yourself
From all that you know
I can't understand why my life
Would warrant discussion or gossip
My conquests and accomplishments are minimal
It's like some new false language
I can't understand
Maybe I wasn't really listening
You see I don't speak for the sake of speaking
I speak from the heart, my words reveal me
That's why I have nothing to say to you
It's amusing that you consider yourself
Some great reward...Oh,
so beautiful...So precious.....astounding
And if I caused you distress in your life
It's because I've deemed yours worthless
I think nothing of chewing you up
And spitting you out Because I consider you nothing.
Alive
I'm alive
I'm a lie
I am awake
I've awoken
I denounce you
I forgive you
I am reborn
You always said you'd be there
To pick me up when I fell down
Your out-stretched hand, enclosed in mine
And I took you right down
You knew some day I wouldn't be there
I knew I'd kick you in the ass
I just couldn't stand to see you disrespect yourself,
To destroy yourself,
and to destroy me with you.
The air outside
Burns my eyes
If I could put them out
I would fly away from here
Cause I don't need to see this world
I can feel its weight just crushing me
Don't need my ears cause all I hear is constant moans
Strip me of my senses, introverted, I am finally home
Finally home, I am home
Now that I'm blind, spend my time
Peeling back my skin to find out
There's nothing there, oh no
Pray
Supposed afterlife is bliss
Cause living here in this is
like drinking lukewarm piss
I need someone that I can't feel
To rescue me
Just strip me of my senses,
Introverted, I am finally free
I can't help you,
This weight is just crushing me
I can't touch you, and I would love to,
But I'm flying from here strong and free
We can never be what we want to be
till we all can shed our skin - X's 2
And maybe we will rise up to see
Just what do you have to prove?
You're cutting yourself on
A double-edged sword
This has got to be a joke
You got a double-edged sword
You will never hold me back
I've seen you promise nothing but more
promises
And you're sickened by the fear of
actually living your dream
You're like a double-edged sword,
either way I'm getting cut
By the lies you've always seemed to
live and your insecurities
Just what do you have to prove?
You're cutting yourself on
A double-edged sword
This has got to be a joke
You got a double-edged sword
You will never hold me back
Nothing you say will hold me back
Nothing you do will hold me back
Nothing you say will hold me back
Sword
You will never hold me back
Your failure is my gain
my strength is your pain
And if you think I can't go on without you you're wrong
ou won't break me
Just what do you have to prove?
Just what do you have to prove?
Just what are you going to do?
You're cutting yourself on
A double-edged sword
This has got to be a joke
You got a double-edged sword
Been pounded by the powers that be
Stripped of everything that is me
Lookin' back I'm being chased by my ignorance
And up ahead there ain't nothing but a fence
Right now I'm hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time's still wasting on
With pain below and above
Been told that Jesus is the way to see
Go out and join a religious ministry
Well you can lick my fuckin' rod
'Cuz I believe in a merciful God
Right now I'm hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time's still wasting on
With pain below and above
I know when it's my time to live
You see I only got one life to live
And there's only so much that I have to give
Future's not as dark as it seems
If you just hold onto your dreams
Right now I'm hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time's still wasting on
With pain below and above
Seems like I'll never find
My peace of mind
I must be blind
To not see in front of me
My self-inflicted warning signs
And even though I pay my sins
With blood and sweat and jugs of wine
No matter how much I give
I owe, I owe, I owe, I owe
Save me
But pay the toll
Not far to go
Just like Josef K.
Don't seem to know just what I owe
This aching pleasure to be
Weighed upon my aching soul
And on these two bare feet
I'm made to walk that hundredth mile
To blister in the sun of
My trial, my trial, my trial, my trial
Save me
But pay the toll
Not far to go
Save me
But pay the toll
Not far to go
You put up a good front man
Trashing everything you see
I can see behind your eyes
You? re hurting inside just like me
Your mind? s a dark cloud
Should you keep your feelings in
Or cry out loud
Clouds parted, rain? s gone
I let out my aggression
When I write these songs
Look to the skies above
Seek your disguise alone
See the choice you made
For all the times you? ve cried
There will be never be enough tissue
To dry your eyes
Look at all the choices you made
With the dark clouds raining on your parade
For all the lies you ever spoke
And all the lives you ever broke
Another friend betrayed
Visions of the past keep you afraid
Look to the skies above
Seek your disguise alone
See the choice you made
Enough of your whining
You? re making me sick
You think you? re alone that? s not the last of it
For the rest of your life you? ll be on your knees
? Til that day a hundred dollars please
Look to the skies above
Seek your disguise alone
Heart of stone, has turned to clay
Angelic woman guided me from my evil ways
Needed something to forget yesterday
Caress my hand, please take me away
Do you remember seeing me in heaven?
I remember swallowin' every bit of my pride
Do you remember seeing me in limbo?
I remember wallowin' in every bit of my shit
And then I'm crying for
I need you to show me the one
I need you to take me away
I'd like to tell you 'bout my problem
Every single word, iever said is a lie
You seem to help me with my problem
Slap me in the face and rub my nose in my shit
And then I'm crying for
I need you to show me the one
I need you to take me away
I thought I was invincible
'Til I saw myself
I tried to live young at heart
But my mind is older now
No apologies accepted
You did this once before, just another game
Now you're trying to keep score
Your open hand is rejected
You'll never be a part of me
When you're on your knees
Well then you'll see
Better find a way
Right now, to say yeah means no
Then you'll see
Sometimes
Could you still be blind now that I can see
Sometimes
Could you just leave me here dying in peace
Just fuckin' sorted my life out
Pushed behind all memories
And agony that you brought to me
Now that scream for attention
You lost your grip so long ago
When you find yourself maybe you'll know
Better find a way
Right now, to say yeah means no
Then you'll see
Sometimes
Could you still be blind now that I can see
Sometimes
Could you just leave me here dying in peace
Waste
I shit you
Waste
Wrap my head in cellophane
And place it in my Kenmore
Maybe when we're not so full
We can eat it all by four
Thoughts drip out from the ears
And fall into my open beer
Penetrate the hardwood floors
And fester there forevermore
Evermore
Don't close that door
I'm in your floor
Evermore
Everything here that you see
Is right here in front of me
Wipe your feet before my head
And think no thoughts before I'm dead
My plastic body's wrapped in chains
Confuse the thoughts inside my brain
Even though I was told
When I was born they broke the mold
Broke the mold
Can't get a hold
Of what I control
Broke the mold
When will the play of words begin
The angry crowd protests with murder
Naked meat enters stage left
She begins a speech and the men get a hard-on
Tears come to eyes
But men with muscles cannot cry
Words slur to sighs
Placed in the fridge before she dies
Tears come to eyes
But men with muscles cannot cry
Words slur to sighs
Placed in the fridge before she dies
If it's not me that you see
I doubt very much that'll ever be
A man who thinks much more
Don't be afraid. I'm in your floor
In your floor
Don't close that door
I'm in your floor
It's enough,
it's enough to make you want to bust
My response is
My middle finger
Raised up to the world
I can't take anymore
Settle down, take it easy
Stand witness to your disease
The raping of society
Just like it's fucked me
I believe do unto others
As they've done to you
And if the rest of the world would too
I wouldn't even have to choose
If I should accept you
I am the unknown
Omitted from democracy
I am the unknown
Fuck all this
My response is
My middle finger
Raised up to the world
I can't take anymore
The more I want, the less they
The less they feel immune
To feeling for the lives they've ruined
I'm just a number
Fruits of the country are right in front of me
To be part of it you pay a fee
And still they just ignore me
Unless I don't pay up
I am the unknown
Omitted from democracy
I am the unknown
Fuck all this now
Witness a side of me
Witness society
That seems to make you suffer
Witness a side of me
Witness society
That seems to make you suffer
yes sir
I always wanted to belong
To fit in I won't talk too loud
Or feel too proud ‘cuz
I always wanted to belong...
Can't you see I always aim to please!
Somehow end up down upon my knees?
Can't we be the same?
Can't we be the same?
It's enough,
it's enough to make you want to bust
My response is
My middle finger
Raised up to the world
I can't take anymore
I am the unknown
Omitted from democracy
I am the unknown
Fuck all this now
Witness a side of me
Witness society
All of your opinions will be scrutinized
You see your morals and beliefs
Are not your own
You've got to
Follow the flock, catch up and stay in line
Or they'll take away the keys
To your own damn mind
Your soul is not your own
Your contributions will be recognized
Only if they help to oil the machine
In retribution you've got to realize
You got to pick up a gun to be seen
All of your ambitions will be demoralized
You see you're only playing with half a deck
Once again do you have to be told
About the way you live your life
In your die cast mold
Shut up and only obey me
Your contributions will be recognized
Only if they help to oil the machine
In retribution you've got to realize
You got to pick up a gun to be seen
All your applications will be denied
You see you don't look and act like us
My words hit hard as fist listen to what I say
Or you will live a sheltered life ‘til your dying day
There ain't no way out
Your own ambitions
Your applications
Your own opinions don't mean shit
Your contributions
In retribution
You will find that there ain't no way
See it lies before me somewhere
Free me from my life of woe
I remember feeling low
I remember swallowing
Last sips of beer before I hit the floor
You'll always reap from what you sow
Just keep on telling yourself not far to go
And from whatever you may know
Live for today and gain your soul
Say that my life has no meaning
Well I'll remain on this couch alone
I remember talking shit
Throwing punches around
Before one hit me right between the eyes
You'll always reap from what you sow
Just keep on telling yourself not far to go
And from whatever you may know
Live for today and gain your soul
Need some time to keep away
Need some time to slip away
Need some time to keep away
A little time to slip away
I Hate You
And everything you stand for too
You'll always reap from what you sow
Just keep on telling yourself not far to go
And from whatever you may know
With a smile and lies, expose your foes
Yourself is it true, bruised by the blows
Keep on begging for another show
Can't go on no more
I'II admit I'm scared
Does anybody care?
It's lust that you appear
As strong as my fears
I've said... yeah
I'm invincible
I'II play... yeah
That I'm invincible
Come on, be the fool
Still play it cool
You think you're immune
To feeling like I do?
I'm feeling used
By your abuse
Looks good to your friends
But it'll fuck you in the end
I've said... yeah
I'm invincible
I'II play... yeah
That I'm invincible
You know this is part of my act
Been pounded by the powers that be
Stripped of everything that is me
Lookin' back I'm being chased by my ignorance
And up ahead there ain't nothing but a fence
Right now I'm hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time's still wasting on
With pain below and above
Been told that Jesus is the way to see
Go out and join a religious ministry
Well you can lick my fuckin' rod
‘Cuz I believe in a merciful God
Right now I'm hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time's still wasting on
With pain below and above
I know when it's my time to live
You see I only got one life to live
And there's only so much that I have to give
Future's not as dark as it seems
If you just hold onto your dreams
Right now I'm hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time's still wasting on
Do you remember me Lord?
You're gonna find out I am a bug
Crawling up and down your spine
We're gonna fuck it up together
And make it mine
Do you remember me Lord?
Mother, help me find myself alone
Do you wish to help me find a home
Metamorphosis
Do you remember me?
â? Cause I'm a freaky baby
Well can't you see?
Crawling up and down your spine
We're gonna fuck it up together
And make it mine
Do you remember me?
Mother, help me find myself alone
Father, sister, help me find a home
Everyone's footsteps pound like hammers
to my brain
And all the lives I've broke
And all that remains
Everything, everyone around me reminds me
Of my sins
If I was Mr. Turtle Man
I'd pull my head back in
I'm not your Jesus
I'm not your
Here in my shell, alone I dwell
My so called friends come with pitchforks
And drag me off to hell
‘Cuz I made too many promises
That I can't alter
I may look like your Jesus
But I can't walk on water
I'm not your Jesus
I'm not your
False, indifference
Not really here right
Just a lump of clay with a crown of thorns
Could've been the leader of the master race
Or a Greek poet before I was born
My soul is not my own
It's shared with a thousand fading dreams
Exposed to the naked eye is why
I'm always picked last on the team
I'm not your Jesus
I can't understand why my life
Would warrant discussion or gossip
My conquests and accomplishments are minimal
It's like some new false language
I can't understand
Maybe I wasn't really listening
You see I don't speak for the sake of speaking
I speak from the heart, my words reveal me
That's why I have nothing to say to you
It's amusing that you consider yourself
Some great reward... Oh,
so beautiful... So precious... astounding
And if I caused you distress in your life
It's because I've deemed yours worthless
I think nothing of chewing you up
And spitting you out Because I consider you nothing.
Alive
I'm alive
I'm a lie
I am awake
I've awoken
I denounce you
I forgive you
I am reborn
You always said you'd be there
To pick me up when I fell down
Your out-stretched hand, enclosed in mine
And I took you right down
You knew some day I wouldn't be there
I knew I'd kick you in the ass
I just couldn't stand to see you disrespect yourself,
To destroy yourself,
You see the body is the Buddhi tree
The mind a clear mirror of me
Strive to clean so as to see
And not let the dust gather to be
Oh Charioteer
What is here?
You see the sick, old, dying and wisdom
For the Fourth I'd give all my kingdom
There's got to be a way.
Will I die, will I cry
Will I suffer, what words shall I pick to say?
Will I love, will I hate
In between there's got to be a way
Will I grow old, shall I break the mold
And follow the Buddha?
Am I wrong?
The coin toss always ends up Sunyata
I'm sick of all your religion
That's not infinite wisdom
Maybe here in material needs
I'll find the answer to my dreams
Oh Charioteer
What is here?
Maybe here in this mountain stream
I'll find the answers to my dreams
Yeah.
There's got to be a way
Will I die, will I cry
Will I suffer, what words shall I pick to say?
Will I love, will I hate
In between there's got to be a way
Will I grow old, shall I break the mold
And follow the Buddha?
Am I wrong?
Jesus was a man who walked upon the water then He turned it into wine
He caused the deaf to hear and made the blind to see
and then His eyes met mine
I was sitting there all crumpled on the shore beside the sea of Galilee
And I will not forget on that day we met the words that Jesus said to me
And He said
DO YOU WANT TO WALK AND DO YOU WANT TO RUN
DO YOU WANT TO FOLLOW ME
THEN GET UP ON YOUR FEET AND DANCE INTO THE STREET
YOUR FAITH HAS SET YOU FREE
Now I know I'm healed because this love I feel has made me a brand new man
So I will run thru town and tell it all around to every single soul I can
Now I love to run and shout to everyone that Jesus is a friend of mine
They see me running by
and swear that I am high or drunk on some cheap-o wine
But I am proud to say that I am saved today and Jesus He has set me free
And I've got groovy news that you can havit too
and you can be free like me
Praise Jesus
NOW THAT I CAN WALK
AND NOW THAT I CAN RUN MY OLD LIFE IS HISTORY
THERE IS JUST ONE THING
I FEEL THAT I MUST DO TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE
I will follow Him and turn my back on sin and go wherever He may lead
