Hey man, are you doing alright?
Is that noose around your neck tied on too tight?
Ha ha, told you so
You got sucked undertow
One last chance to let the shit go
Get away get away, it's a raw deal
Down play, disarray it's a third wheel
Unplay everyday to know what's real
Mayday, mayday lost your ideal
There is no ideal
Feel me
High impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never compromised
Low impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never had to try
Blindside, woah
Blindside, woah
Blindside
Hey man, have you been up all night?
Do you got to get numb so you can feel right?
Ha ha, told you so
Too high, vertigo
One last chance to let it all it all go
Get away get away, it's a raw deal
Down play disarray, it's a third wheel
Unplay everyday you know what's real
Mayday, mayday lost your ideal
There is no ideal
Feel me
High impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never compromised
Low impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never had to try
Blindside, woah
Blindside, woah
Blindside
And the shot took a piece of me
Fade in, fade out, if that's what you got
Flash flood focus over me
Fade in, fade out, if that's what you got
And the shot took a piece of me
Fade in, fade out, is that what you got?
And the shot took a piece of me
Fade in, fade out
And the shot took a piece
Fade in, fade out
Of me
High impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never compromised
Low impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never had to try
High impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never compromised
Low impact blindside tonight
When I was young, never had to try
Blindside, woah
Blindside, woah
Blindside, woah
Blindside
Blindside
back off, back off
i can hear you knocking
that day for the first time
i heard you scream out loud
i watched you
as the door stood silent, so did you
this thing will not go away
but some thing trying to stick around
so correct me if i'm wrong
but didn't something just break that day?
you don't have to say
i think you're on your way home
better not tell sunrise
you're gonna go down tonight
better not tell sunrise
cause you know it'll be back
better not tell sunrise
you're gonna go back tonight
cause you know it'll be back
in the next morning flight
back off, back off
but lately someone's been pounding on your heart
so why not?
just blame it all on the agony
but still know that someone has to come and get it now
for so long has been apart
so correct me if i'm wrong
but didn't i see your eyes
searching for the sky
you don't have to say
i think you're on your way home
One glimpse of You and I shrink
The hand of shame squeezes my stomach
You don't really know me I allowed myself to think
One glimpse of You and I know it's not in your nature to turn your back
And I want to give You more than I have got
So tiny I'm almost disappearing in this world
You're holding in your hand
Still you know my name
This is my heart resting in the palm of my hand
This is more then I've planned from the start
Holding it up to the sky for you to see
I feel You but don't understand
The second You stepped through the door or was it the ceiling
I stood and beheld your beauty
This worn-out skin is pealing
I will never again praise You because of duty
I want my heart to break for the things that make
knocking on another door
we're knocking on another door
so you said you wanted to SHOW me your world
and now here we are
i've seen it all before
you said if you opened the door
there's another world
you've been behind bars
but i'm knocking on...
when the discobowls stop spinning
and the music dies out
turning INTO a ringing in your ears
in every bottle, every soul, there's a hole
no matter how much you pour, there's never enough
but we're knocking on...
cheers, bottoms up
this time is gonna be a clean cup
I can't breathe
Swallowing water and then
A single breath
then under again
Cuts blood razor-rock
and silent scream
But nothing is what it seems
And I'm not nearly as tired as you think I am
I know you're pulling me under
But I'm back again
Now there's a storm in my eye
You don't scare me anymore
Come now come spirit of thunder
Hold me again
Now there's a storm in my eye
Hey river
Don't you dare speak my name
Dark river
Because it's pulling me down
The thing is
You could never really pronounce my name right
There's a storm in my eye
I know you're pulling me under
But I'm back again
Now there's a storm in my eye
You don't scare me anymore
Come now come spirit of thunder
Hold me again
Now there's a storm in my eye
I know you're pulling me under
But I'm back again
Now there's a storm in my eye
You don't scare me anymore
Come now come spirit of thunder
Hold me again
Now there's a storm in my eye
Don't you dare speak my name
Don't you worry, it's fine
Your hand's not letting go of mine
If worse comes to worse
I'll hold tight even if it hurts
And now the ground is shaking
It's trying to tear us down
But we won't be forsaken
'Cause we know what we've found
Our love saves us
The river runs deep
But our spirits grow tall
Our love saves us now
We jump from stone to stone
But you know we won't fall
Do you remember that promise?
Remember when it was new
How deep into you I fell
I believed in us then and I still do
But now the ground is shaking
And we know what we've found
Our love saves us
The river runs deep
But our spirits grow tall
Our love saves us now
We jump from stone to stone
But you know we won't fall
Save us
Save us now
Save us
Save us now
With shivering hearts we wait
We watch the sky, we hesitate
With shivering hearts we wait
I'm still holding on
Our love saves us
The river runs deep
But our spirits grow tall
Our love saves us now
We jump from stone to stone
But you know we won't fall
Save us
Save us now
Save us
Save us now
Save us
Unpack that suitcase, it's not time to leave
Unpack that broken heart
There's a window, throw it out
It's a good way to start
You're half asleep, I'm wide awake
You're frozen as the ice, about to break
And I'm done tiptoeing around you
I cross my heart and hope to die
You gave your all and so did I
Close your eyes and try
'Cause this is a bloodstained Hollywood ending
This is like a run to the airport movie
Can I catch you before you leave?
This is the end of the line
The choice is yours, recent or receive
You're half asleep, I'm wide awake
You're frozen as the ice, about to break
And I'm done tiptoeing around you
I cross my heart and hope to die
You gave your all and so did I
Close your eyes and try
'Cause this is a bloodstained Hollywood ending
You're half asleep, I'm wide awake
You're frozen as the ice, about to break
And I'm done tiptoeing around you
I cross my heart and hope to die
You gave your all and so did I
Close your eyes and try
'Cause this is a bloodstained Hollywood ending
Hollywood ending
This is a bloodstained Hollywood ending
Hollywood ending
This is a bloodstained Hollywood ending
We hold our flag high with blisters on our hands
We scream our lungs out
Words we don't understand
Hey radio did you play my song?
Did you say my name?
I couldn't hear I might be wrong
I could be wrong
And still we're turning it up
I'll give everything I have and more
To the monster on the radio
A star shines brighter than before
When you're a monster on the radio
And I scream and I fight
and they chew and they spit me out
I'll give everything I have and more
To be a monster on the radio
Frequency unclear
Do I hear myself through the static and noise?
My heart is still beating
But I can't hear it over the sound of my own voice
This is my own voice
And still I'm turning it up
I'll give everything I have and more
To the monster on the radio
A star shines brighter than before
When you're a monster on the radio
And I scream and I fight
and they chew and they spit me out
I'll give everything I have and more
To be a monster on the radio
Frequency unclear
Do I hear myself through the static and noise?
Hey radio did you play my song?
Hey radio
Hey radio did you play my song?
Hey radio
I'll give everything I have and more
To the monster on the radio
A star shines brighter than before
When you're a monster on the radio
And I scream and I fight
and they chew and they spit me out
I'll give everything I have and more
Wasted disposable dying scum
Two months tops before silence replaces your small beating drum
Isn't that what we're all waiting for
So we can go home and celebrate our good life
But I feel gun powder
Burning under my skin
Don't say another word
You might set off a spark
Cause i've got gun powder
Burning under my skin
Take me back to tv-land
Numbness is a safe zone
They never trained me for reality
I'm a reality-tv clone
Now did you say your 10 going on 11?
Something is terribly wrong
Somehow I'm dying with you
But I feel gun powder
Burning under my skin
Don't say another word
You might set off a spark
Cause I've got gun powder
Burning under my skin
I would like to see
Differently
I would like to walk
Like I talk
Would like to breathe
The air that I need
Would like some bread
Although I've just been fed
I wish that I could stop
Playing superman
I have decided to let the case drop
I'm not superman
With my hands I can do
Fake food
With my hands I can drown
All your sounds
With my hands I sometimes think
That I can do
Just like You
With my hands I can make
It seems so clear today
Why not yesterday instant replay
There I go again without having anything to say
I don't lie everything I said to you was true
But still just words trying to convince myself of my position on the same level as you
Shut your eyes
Cover your ears
You can't see my eyes
Because my mouth is too wide open
When my mouth starts talking about everything I have and what I can bring
I used to be making future plans
As I would dance
At your funeral that's me
The superman I always wanted to be
Pretending blindness
I didn't want to find this
Something I left behind
But always with me
Somehow protecting me
Somehow trying to convince
This blind man to see
Blindside
What am I going to say
When you come my way
What am I going to do
When you come through
Past present
How on earth did my lifestyle
Become this pleasant
Basically I'm this kite
Flying around in this great big night
Birdman feeling free
But my strings attached to the man below me
If birdman wanted to fly on his own
He would be a slave to the storm
Can I
I won't
One, two, three stop break
Count to three and if I don't see You
You're fake
I heard You care
Now don't dare
Show Yourself I'll believe
Show Yourself I'll still proceed
Show Yourself I'll believe
No I won't
I don't want to see You
My eyes see what's true
I don't want to feel You
But still I do
You say You are mine
I just want to leave this behind
I think You're nothing but an act
A good one
Don't You try
Whatever You do I'll deny
Why is it so convincing?
I don't lie why can't I just drop this
Wait up, don't you close your eyes
Breathe life little flower
You've got 20 t-cells left to burn
Please choose life with its sweet and sour
Don't sing your last lullaby
I don't think it's time
We're all going to die
But we're all not meant to die young
Wait up, don't you close your eyes
Love has been hidden in the shadow
You've got the rope already tied around your neck
One voice whispers life through your sorrow
Don't sing your last lullaby
I don't think its time
We're all going to die
But we're all not meant to die young
This is not your lullaby
Don't go to sleep
Not yet
We're all going to die
But we're all not meant to die young
Wait for the sunrise
These streets are as cold and wet
As my eyes, flesh and bones are longing home
I was taken out of context
And to think you had me not speaking for a month or two
But it's not you i know
It's just me waiting
Waiting for the sun to come out
We are to follow
What if i could stand still and get moved
We are to follow
We are nothing running blind
We are to follow
We are so sick of it now
We are to follow
But im scared to be left behind
We are to follow
Nothing now
The TV dies more and more for each day
And the beauty of your eyes (in my hand)
Makes the flashing lights behind me on the wall look even more pale
Four o'clock and the sky is getting red
And here i am, just me waiting
Waiting for the sun to come out
Im throwing myself at you
And i'm holding on for dear life
Can i scream out of tune in this choir
God help me scream
What if i would stand still and get moved
Put the knife in the table
Deck of cards fly across the room
This game has ended someone need to die
Cause i put my life on the table but forgot the risk i assume
Now it's going down
Fell in love with the game
But i forgot your name
Go ahead please fight me
Cause i'm not scared
Though you stayed the same
I forgot from where i came
I put my life on this table
This is me and i'm lost for words
Now is it me who needs to die
Say something then
Cause i'll be dead before dawn
If your voice comes unheard
Now i can't find ground
Fell in love with the game
But i forgot your name
Go ahead please fight me
Cause i'm not scared
Though you stayed the same
I forgot from where i came
And we both stand tall on the table
You take me by the hand and i grab you by the throat
And we came crashing down through the window
On the dirt ground below
And we wrestle in the mud and the blood and the beer
Break my jaw i don't care
Just stay with me, stay
Look my arms i don't want to move
Hold me still teach me how to weep
If it's ok with you i think i'll stay here
For a little while
Fell in love with the game
But i forgot your name
Go ahead please find me
Cause i'm not scared
Though you stayed the same
I took a walk down 4th avenue when i saw it
A red line in the concrete
Leading somewhere out of sight
Something compelled me to stop
So i jumped over the fence
Started following from what appeared to be
The trail of a leaking tin can
Leading into the alley away from the light
Now this is what needs to be done
Blacklight shining in the dark
Brings out brightness more than in the sun
Do i dare to stay
Cause somehow i want to
Trade love for the city lights
You chose me to stay
Trade light for the city love
You chose me to stay
So now what if i continue this walk
The red line is taking me down trashcans lonely street
Yes the streets have neames but the people don't
Or are they forgotten
And i'm starting to smell something beautiful
Though these streets are rotten
Trade love for the city lights
You chose me to stay
Trade light for the city love
We are the sons and daughters of a revolution, revolutionaries walking us out of opression and into a
no-low promise land.
and this is leaves us with a great sense of sadness dwelling inside our soul. no one can explain where
its' coming from or where its taking us.
we just know that something is lost, but somehow we are lost, lost
Vattnet svart
varm nattbris viskar
Att jag ar naken och ny
Water black
As the moon is full
Warm nightbreeze whispers
I'm naked and new
I know you're always throwing kisses from the sky
Well, tonight I caught one
Sixteen years old
I dare to swim further out
I know you're always throwing kisses from the sky
Well, tonight I caught one
Som om man kunde
Vidrora lycka
Jag virar den runt mig
Som en filt
Det ar bara Du, jag och manen
Like joy was something you could touch
I wrap it around me
Like a blanket
It's just you, me and the moon
I know you're always throwing kisses from the sky
Well, tonight I caught one
Sixteen years old
I dare to swim further out
I know you're always throwing kisses from the sky
You and me we should get out of this town tonight
Cause everywhere I put my foot down
It's just another concrete block waiting for me
And it's a...
(dark cold night now)
And it's a...
(dark cold night)
My spirit is freezing to ice in this heat
Could you turn around and say
Hooray, it's a beautiful day L.A.
(yeah come on)
But now it's time
To pack your bags and go
Hooray it's a beautiful day L.A.
But I think I'll be gone today
I've been traveling at the speed of gasoline
And stopped by the color of electricity
We've been trying for too long
To cover up his fingerprints
From a distant past
And it's a...
(dark cold night now)
And it's a...
(dark cold night)
My spirit is freezing to ice in this heat
Could you turn around and say
Hooray, it's a beautiful day L.A.
(yeah come on)
But now it's time
To pack your bags and go
Hooray it's a beautiful day L.A.
But I think I'll be gone today
And it's a...
(damned cold night now)
And it's a...
(damned cold night now)
My spirit is freezing to ice in this heat
Could you turn around and say
Hooray, it's a beautiful day L.A.
(yeah come on)
But now it's time
To pack your bags and go
Hooray it's a beautiful day L.A.
Been waiting and now you're sinking slow
Been watching how you rated me low
You say water is supposed to be brown
I say there's garbage in the fountain
Yeah
Taste and swallow, swallow down
swallow down, swallow down
Yeah
Been wanted for thinking slow
Now you've been longing for an open window
Get out throw out
You're thirsty no doubt
Yeah
Taste and swallow, swallow down
swallow down, swallow down
swallow down, swallow down
Taste and swallow, swallow down
swallow down, swallow down
swallow down, swallow down
Taste and swallow, swallow down
Last night
Stopping by
Greeting me with an embracing bad breath
Five A.M.
you woke me out of a restless R.E.M.
I think it's time
To sober up and die
Now every little second is time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlights
To make it home all right
Yeah
Now every little second just flies
I hold on to them like paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
I, I want to fall in love and leave tonight
Been riding in the sunset
Ignoring what follows after beauty
Fades to black now
Just riding in the sunset
Now this paralyzing cold
Always comes crawling back
I think it's time
To sober up and live
Now every little second is time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlights
To make it home all right
Yeah
Now every little second just flies
I hold on to them like paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
I, I want to fall in love and leave tonight
Every little second is time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlights
To make it home all right
Now every little second just flies
I hold on to them like pieces of paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
Tempting life
Won't come and beg for the last time
It's already ours we just came here to claim it
And we are not paying a dime
In the street you'll find us
Vulnerable but lit up like a cigarette
Celebarating thankxmas
Without a regret
Can't buy this freedom
With another slogan
With another lie
Can't buy this freedom
With another gadget
Buy or die
So what do you say, let's stay
And not run away
You can't buy this freedom
With another slogan
With another lie
Tempting lie
I feel like houseclimbing
Down the street
Newfound freedom
Making wings grow out of my feet
In these streets we live
In these streets we die
Fear is expensive
And freedom is so free that it's hard to buy
Can't buy this freedom
With another slogan
With another lie
Can't buy this freedom
With another gadget
Buy or die
So what do you say, let's stay
And not run away
You can't buy this freedom
With another slogan
With another lie
Yeah, Yeah
Can't buy this freedom
With another slogan
With another lie
Can't buy this freedom
With another gadget
Buy or die
So what do you say, let's stay
And not run away
You can't buy this freedom
With another slogan
I could not lie
Skin untouched growing thicker for every step unwalked
And I don't know if it's the cold intention-slide
Taking me down
But what if you'd sing me alive
I'm ready to give up the fight
'Cause I'm just a stone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
I could not lie
Even though dead skin like stone makes me ugly
It still pounds inside and it's red
And it's slipping through the grey cracks
And I know you know
But what if you'd sing me alive
I'm ready to give up the fight
'Cause I'm just a stone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
But what if you'd sing me alive
I'm ready to give up the fight
Cause I'm just a stone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
But what if you'd sing me alive
I'm ready to give up the fight
'Cause I'm just a stone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
Right after you're gone
The first thing that meets the eye
When I crossover into the light
I want it to be you
Right after I'm gone
Right after I'm gone
I hear you, so don't you say another word
Now here you are standing there crushing yourself
I'll near you, but my eyes see a different world
Here you are standing there breaking my heart, as you're crushing yourself
But lately you've been painting on the walls
With the black fire, you lit
And you call it your mirror
And then you hate it, and then you spit on it
But sorry, you're not a god
Now every thought you feel within turning into flames
So hold your breath cause all I can smell is ashes
Sorry, but you're not God
I hear you, but I can't recognize even the sentence as truth
Who lit the black flame in your hearth?
I'm near you, but my words land far from your heart
You turn your back, and not know where to start
But lately you've been painting on the walls
With it like fire, you led
And it's a lie, and I hate it
But still you think it's you.
So you think that I could ride
This wave all the way through
So you think that I could just stand here
With nothing to hold on to
I can feel it, it's breaking, it's coming down
It's crashing down from up high
I can't see it, it's too big too fast
I've already shut eyes
The endings are all right?
The endings are all good?
What if I could reach inside
To take a deeper breath to see it's all right
What if I saw you at my side
I know I was made to go up this mountain
Every bone in my body tells me it's right
I know I was made to go up this mountain
But I'm getting scared of heights
Still I'll sleep to the sound of the monsters roar
Cause I'll sleep next to your heartbeat forever
The endings are all right
The endings are all good
What if I could reach inside
To take a deeper breath to see it's all right
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
It hurts
That drops of fire would fall so precise
And how everything else would lose its meaning
What a beautiful
What a painful surprise
There is no peace outside if there is nothing within
It hurts
But like coming home
Once dried up
I guess this is what you get
When a heart expands
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
Love is destructive
For the ego
And your voice is the only thing
That speaks rebelliously in this world of claiming your own
There is no peace outside if there's nothing within
Love is addictive
For the spirit
And your voice whispers with a roar
That fire rises up, refills
Place the right king on the throne
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a love in fire
I thought about your love, yeah
I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a love in fire
I thought about your love
I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a love in fire
I thought about your love
I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about your love
I thought about your love
I thought about a love
As I recall with my stomach turning
I was hiding away from myself, away from you
Like nothing, though something was terribly wrong
And I admit that I was only waiting for the right time
Night time, the right moment for you to look away
Though you never did, I pretended for a while
So I could walk where I don't belong
And I remember every word you said
Come back in time, come back
And I remember I would soon be dead
Now so pitiful, so pitiful
But I know, as I hammered those nails into your beautiful hands
Your eyes still try to search for mine, but I look away
Now your eyes are the only thing that can save me
I'm still so afraid of them piercing
You're breaking into my prison,
Just pretended for a while
My soul is dying
I won't look away
And I remember every word you said...
I'll remember every word you said
The world you painted was new
The colors were so alive
Took a lie and made it true
A final touch and then right into the painting you dive
It's ok if you break
You'll see colors again
This is more than you can take
You'll see colors again
It's your life that's at stake
You'll see colors again
Don't you think it's my time, anytime soon
Whenever did it all happen
That one color after another seems to fade
Now the sky is carved with a coalpen
It's all gray despite the effort you made
How do you like your god now
Now that he is you
Does he feel dead somehow
And where does that leave you
It's ok if you break
You'll see colors again
This is more than you can take
You'll see colors again
It's your life that's at stake
You'll see colors again
She shut your eyes
Now you could say better luck next time
But I know you're about to die
How deep can you drill into a man's soul
Still say better luck next time
When the only thing to fill it with is a lie
So say what you want
But drops of crystal clear water
Has been falling into your heart
Now you're sick of lying
Tonight a star is shining
On a heart that's dying
The morning star is shining again
So you better wake up
You better rise up
The morning star is shining again
How long has it been since you gave in
Did it just take all this time
For you to see you're not the Messiah
She shut your eyes
Or did you do it yourself with time
Did you on purpose walk astray
Did you choose to be a liar
A star called your name
Will you use your voice to answer
Just one last time
Talks about it all the time
It's a sickness he says
So sure all the time
He hates it
And I honestly believe him
So sure all the time
Maybe the one who screams the most
Screams about himself
Fed up of giving up
Clean cup please drink up
He sees it's eating him up
It's the price he pays
But it's not even worth a dime
So scared that people may find out
He is what he hates
So scared all the time
This is his naked inside
Piece by piece he's trying to build a ladder
For him to fall from
Every time he climbs
He condemns their actions
So that no one will suspect
That he's the victim for his own crime
This is his darkness
In which he will stand
This is his naked inside
Alone in a desert land
And I'm a coward
Shut my eyes and concentrate
On my shell, on soap and shower
Oh God how I want to tell the world
But I hesitate
I answer with a restless ok but I'm about to blow when you're gone
I keep this to myself; a restless ok but I fear the dawn
I've never been afraid to hide up in the dark
It's the first morning stream of pure light that makes me rather swim with the sharks
And it'll make me say I'm ok even though it hurts more if I stay
And I'm ok. Yes, I'm ok. If that'll make your questions go away
I'm a vampire, I'm afraid the light will set me on fire
I'm cold in a way I just want to stay
And I'm cold this way
Reckon I'll close the door
Pull down the curtains stay close to the floor
Mercy is for the weak; we do not train to be merciful here
Mercy is everything I fear; we do not train to see His mercy here
Crawling again
The heart is screaming with a smile
Pride says no because of the stain
The heart pounds for love, pride says no
Because of what the heart is longing for
I'm not sure I want to be a man anymore
This choice I've got to make,
I've got to make alone
A heart of stone
This choice I've got to make
I've got to make it true
I'm waiting for You
Until you give my spirit wings
I'm waiting for You
Until winter breaks into spring
In the air of truth I held up my bruised spirit
For everybody to see
So no one can drag me away from this place
Before You heal it
For my soul to breathe only before thee
Let me hear it once again
Silent thunder shake me
I will wait forever if that's what it takes for me to hear and see
So they can go ahead and say that I swallowed the bait
And I'll still sick around Your precious voice, yes I will wait
So let me glow like I was new
Pure as if this was where it all should have begun
If I could I would give more then I have to You
As I've walked this night
Your hand guides the morning sun
Just one last cigarette and fly
Coincidences made sorrow rule over your soul
I'm standing with my wings around you
I cry
So try to show you're a man
You're nobody's toy
There is nothing that separates a man from a boy
Thought so dark you got lost in there
Lost your way home and now it's getting late
I long to greet you when you come home
But don't you leave earth in this state
No don't you leave earth in this state
I'm the soft whisper of peace in your ear
As all of this creates
No night vision in this forest of darkness
And I feel what you feel inside
And as your skin got burned mine did too when they lied
I put on my stinking coat again
But that so much rain would come from inside
I didn't understand
I could always protect me
But I couldn't protect me from this
That all of this was just a death kiss
Just one silent word and I'm whole again
You said it
Look at me now
I'm hardly moving
It's only you and me now
It's only you
I scream but the walls suck my air
I look at my arms resting on her back
They can't be mine they look more dead then alive
I hate that I own the ability to not get back on track
I wet her hair and they still look more dead then alive
To be allowed to break into a thousand pieces
In her arms and in your hand
Can't even form my lips to say Jesus
But I thank you for knowing where I'm supposed to land
People say I should eat more, boy they should see me now
I'm almost vanishing, skin so thin I can see right through
Makes you more visible inside me, you rise as I bow
I'm here
You've got me
Have no fear
Savior that's me
On a stable rock I'll place you
You can rest
That I will personally will see to
You called out my name
I heard you
You're healed
What happens now?
You're healed
But still I'm disappearing somehow
In your cry I'll always be near
But in your laughter I don't disappear
I'll gladly wipe away your tears
But I'll never become your teddybear
Don't throw this away
I'm no teddybear
I'm here
You've got me
Have no fear
Savior that's me
No favors that's no what I came for
If you had any idea what I've got in store
You called out my name
I heard you
You say I'm feeling fine
You say no deal
But I'll always be two steps behind
In case you change your mind
In your cry I'll always be near
But in your laughter I don't disappear
I'll gladly wipe away your tear
But I'll never become your teddybear
Think through whatever you decide to do
Can't make you but I ask you please don't fake
When you come before me
I know you don't like when you don't see me with your physical eyes
Force me to open my mouth
Again because they know I don't want to
Speak loud when they make me feel
Like a boy scout
So hard to tell them You love them to
I can't give much if I punch back at
The one who hits first
Trying to make me feel ashamed
Because I'm touched
God help me see them
See my thirst
Tensed
But still so calm
Alright
Leaning on your arm
Beautiful spirit
Talk to me
Holy Spirit
Walk with me
They are liberated minds
I'm a narrow-minded fool
Why must it be
That a discussion is about beating
My mouth will be
Closed if there's no one seeking
You know I will be there
Love is so convincing
My words don't come out right
I will stay but not fight
Everybody believes in god
But it seems like no one does in You
But I do
Liberty
Everything is allowed
Society
Sex gathered crowd
It tickles
You just want to play
It tickles
But soon it plays with you
You want to leave but you stay
I see you
You don't want to try
I love you
And I'm not good at good-byes
You say you're not bad
Why should I end up down there?
You say you're not bad
But I can only take what's mine
Say you care
That day I woke up, screaming of emptiness
A thought crushed my mind
To all of them she's just a worn-out dress
They can seek but not find
Time pass please this day of rain
I'm in this world and she's in another
Her fragile voice of sorrow let my brain go insane
I'm in this world and she's in another
And You must be my arms around her now
We both agreed on this choice
To let me be helpless
And she to stick to your voice
Me to my knees everyday I guess
Leave footprints on her/my/our floor tonight
To slumber in Your light
Let her/me/us sleep with angels tonight
Can't even breathe without holding you tight
Trade my will against yours
Is something I'd rather say then do
I want to kick down some doors
For me to see through
But she believes in love
Makes this distance pass
She sees the dove
Makes me stay and not trespass
And you must be her arms around me now
I'll make you a promise
look at faces bruised and beaten
the life you took will leave you empty
the unwanted blood it trickles down
your eyes can't see the peace you've destroyed
this life denied unseen homicide
as you took this gift from God's hands
don't take it away
souls of children
stare at you in mirrored anguish
asking why
murder - no love found
murder - without a sound
murder - in the ground
The crown is broken
King has fallen
Child lies bleeding
crying inside
no love no hate
no pain no joy
no more emotions
for your little boy
inject shot take pill
your cure for sorrow
body of man, heart of a child
we kill depression for life
inject shot
take pill
no cure for sorrow
i want to love, feel, live...
please
is life worth all these unfeeling days?
I want to love?
When I'm feeling low I consult my friends
When I get depressed, contemplate the end
When I don't know right, I see the light
When I see the light, it's far too bright
the light is too bright
far too bright for me to find my way back
Back to you...Someday
To see the light reflecting on your face
to feel the warmth of a friend's embrace
I will get back to you...
i inhale take it in the hate the anger
it clouds my thinking it pulls me under
further further my eyes lose sight
my ears grow deaf my mouth is gagged
i exhale get rid of confusion
returning my focus i try to keep my grip
closer closer lights come on
to kill the black festering inside
i inhale i choke i exhale i choke
i crawl you kick i choke on hope
if i, swallow everything that you give
to me i would vomit on this world
i see your delight in my mistakes
using my shortcomings to your full advantage
you're full i'm empty the story old and stale
a thousand times over torn to laugh
As I stand here watching your worn-out shell
You used it well
I can feel it in the atmosphere somehow
I want to see with your eyes right now
I know you've never been this close before
You've been feeling homesick for a while
This is the moment you've been longing for
The gate is slowly opening more and more
And I'm already missing you
I always thouhgt the walls between
The worlds were bigger was thicker
For God so loved the world that He
gave His only Son, that whosoever believeth
in Him should not perish but have
Guess it's in all those small things
Eyes closed or eyes wide open
Something in the corner of everyone's eye
See or look away again
This time I won't ignore
Not hesitate just adore
And I think I'm starting to come alive
Life flooding my veins again
Feel I'm coming back to life
I'm falling
Feel I'm coming back to love
This black crow becoming white dove
Feel I'm coming back to life
I'm falling again
I'm falling in love
I guess it's in all those great important matters
We all like to bend around
We do our best to ignore
While our hearts is reaching for more
We are not synchronized
We are intellectualized
Feel I'm coming back to life
I'm falling
Feel I'm coming back to love
This black crow becoming white dove
Feel I'm coming back to life
I'm falling again
I'll break my vow of silence
Because I am what you told me you are
Because you showed me your unhealed scar
Revealed and died in your own eyes
Relieved me to see my own lies
Through the years it has become darker in that secret place
His light pierced this lonely chamber through you
And the truth shall set you free
I'll remember your truth that set me free from it getting
Darker and darker in that secret place
It came flying through the air like a beautiful shadow made me turn my head
The taste of danger is sweet I've always known but still allowed this to be my bread
Evil crow lands on my head, I let it stay
Whispers so I think only I can hear it and I obey
Who would think that so much beauty would come from such horrible truth
Because I am what you told me you are
Because you showed me your unhealed scar
Tongue too ashamed to even pronounce it right
I spoke but kept it in me with ropes so tight
This is my fight, the word was spoken and I got my sight
Promise so glad I wasn't able to keep
Words formed by your soul is my reflection
Lie was bound to my heart to keep
Why are you doing this to me? Have I done something wrong?
My childhood eyes can't see. Innocence! It was born in me,
stripped of my clothes, you ignored my plea. Violate!
One who was, so very close, wasn't it enough, no! You had to
boast, of your sick perverse fantasies, you've had your share,
now leave me be. Violate! You found me, you touched me
you raped me, you left me, you hurt me, you hurt me, explored me,
destroyed me. You've played with my head you're playing with my
heart, ran inside my dreams you tore them all apart. Just another
freak for your perverse circus, no more tricks. I don't deserve this.
Start the motor let the engine spin
Give it fuel so it can't stop within
Precious harmony I say
Wont you open the door
Let me in let me stay
In your arms under your wing
Give me some water from your everlasting spring
Shut up must stop talking to myself
Shut up must stop rely on my shell
I'm in you you're in me
Glad you came to my senses
Because I didn't
Eye for an eye
Some things are hard to
Say goodbye to
And you
Are what I want to be when I say I'm invert
Ouch it hurts when my shoulder hit
Their shoulders
Ouch want to go mainstream just like them
God help me go bolder
I know I'm not and I forgot that I am
Not the one who is going to make things done
All by myself I think I made You tiny
But I am glad You made me see
In Your presence You're just growing
Sit down in the carousel
Up front like a brave boy
Don't scream like a little girl
Shut up boys don't cry
Come to a rest that flows
From a spring unseen
Cause honestly you're scaring me
Keep up with the schedule
Shape up, have to perform
Hold out for everyone
Dont fail, not now
Come to a rest that flows
From a spring unseen
Cause honestly you're scaring me
Failure is not a option
Have to keep on trying
So much to live up to
So many expectations
Tring so hard to be a approved
A straight A student with yet another F
Oh no gotta make daddy proud now
Come to a rest that flows
From a spring unseen
Cause honestly you're scaring me
Failure is not a option
Have to keep on trying
So much pressure
Can't take this no more
The cause of death
Now you have been staring at the sun for a while
Is it hurting your eyes
I know you want to put those shades on
And walk on home with a tan
To arrive and leave with style
But didn't a warm wind blow right through you
Melting the ice
I know you want to put those shades on
And walk on home as planned
But stand still for a while
You can hide it
You can fight it
But blood red color won't fade in time
You can hide it
You can fight it
Those red stains of love will remind your heart now
I'm having a hard time understanding your needs
When I look into your eyes
I see you want me to put up or shut up
What if I did
Could you leave without that style
You keep biting the hands that feeds
When I look into your eyes
I see you want to eat up, but still throw up
Would your heart forbid
But stand still for a while
You can hide it
You can fight it
But blood red color won't fade in time
You can hide it
You can fight it
Those red stains of love will remind your heart now
This condition won't go away
I think I saw a place in the distance
We've always known it was there
When I have breathed for the last time
I'll walk out to the end of that pier
There is that place in our conscience
So talk so loud so you won't hear and forget
But I'll still call it home
But I'll still call it home
Where the sun never dies
Shine away my shadow
Where it's bright when I shut my eyes
I'll drink until I'm not thirsty
The sun never dies
Shine away my shadow
It's just waiting to rise
I'll see you on that day
When I walk those last steps your way
There's something moving in the shadows
There is that rumor of hope
When the spirit starts roaring
For long we have but no longer will we cope
Love is personified
I'd rather die in love
Than stay alive numb
'Cause I'll still call it
I'm still longing home
Where the sun never dies
Shine away my shadow
Where it's bright when I shut my eyes
I'll drink until I'm not thirsty
The sun never dies
Shine away my shadow
It's just waiting to rise
I'll see you on that day
When I walk those last steps your way
Where the sun never dies
Shine away my shadow
Where it's bright when I shut my eyes
I'll drink until I'm not thirsty
The sun never dies
Shine away my shadow
It's just waiting to rise
I'll see you on that day
When I walk those last steps your way
I'll see you on that day
Take back that photograph it breaks my heart
And I will wait by the telephone
While the silence pressures my eardrum
I found a black and white with a person smiling sad at me
Now I know can't get back that photograph once it's been seen
Promise you won't let me fall asleep never to wake up
Til my breath is gone don't let the color of my eyes fade
Promise you will find a way through the night while the angels cry
You color your heart blood red love does not fade away
Can't give back that photograph once it's been signed
And I can't stop thinking about your voice
Now it's keeping me up at night
I found myself on a black and white staring back at me
Now I know, can't get back that photograph
It just needs color
Promise you won't let me fall asleep never to wake up
Til my breath is gone don't let the color of my eyes fade
Promise you will find a way through the night while the angels cry
You color your heart blood red love does not fade away
Blood-drop on that black and white
Is the only thing that can colorize these non-colored eyes
Promise you won't let me fall asleep never to wake up
Til my breath is gone don't let the color of my eyes fade
Promise you will find a way through the night while the angels cry
Black rose where are you now
White skin as cold as the snow we walked in
Your lips like midnight
That night we walked for hours
And I remember
But maybe I'm the only one who still remembers
You slipped away
Why would you come back to say
You've already moved on
You slipped away
But I've come back to say that you're not really gone
My black rose where are you now
And yes I've seen your black rose petal fall
Fall down to the ground like glass shatters
And turning into ashes
But I've seen your color and it's like a blood drop
And maybe I'm the only one
Who still remembers
You've slipped away
But why would you come back to say
You've already moved on
You slipped away
But I've come back to say that you're not really gone
So try to disappear
But my mind doesn't slip that easy
You can try to disappear
But my dear you're still standing here
You've slipped away
But why would you come back to say
You've already moved on
You slipped away
Come with me, ride upon my shoulder why don't you
Don't you see, you can't fall down when you're
On my shoulder
You wonder if you must climb
To get away from the slime
Seeking it's way in to your heart
But I know
Yes I know
You'll see this through
Come ride upon my shoulders I'll carry you
Why is it that you must fight alone?
I've known you before you did
So don't you play no charade
Breathe my air, come ride upon my shoulders
Don't feel scared, I won't break when you're on
My shoulder
You wonder if you must climb
To get away from the slime
But I alone will lift you up
Because I know
Yes I know
It is time
To leave yourself behind
I can take every drop of your spit
But it's when you do you see you don't fit
Softly like a touch of a dark angel
Her hand in yours
You're dressed to kill
Can she tell
Swing your partner to the right
Swing your partner to the left
It scares me, the way you dance
She looks pretty
Hair glittering with confetti
How does it feel man
Hold steady
Is she ready
Does she like it dancing on the broken glass
Watching you from across the room
One hand on the waist while the other, knuckles turning white
Are you holding on for dear life or does she not know how to let go
Swing your partner to the left
It scares me, the way you dance
She looks pretty
Hair glittering with confetti
How does it feel man
Hold steady
Is she ready
Does she like it dancing on the broken glass
I see you're wearing your shoes
Where are hers
And see I'm wearing my shoes
I don't want to but in this square dance
Everybody has to dance
Everybody dance now
Swing your partner to the left
It scares me, the way you dance
She looks pretty
Hair glittering with confetti
How does it feel man
Hold steady
Is she ready
My feet felt light for the first time in months
It was like you came walking across the room
Straight at me and then straight through me
And then stopped and stood still for awhile
I knew then that i'd been lonely for quite some time
And as we started to dance you gently took off my tear soaked coat
And let it fall heavy to the floor and then
We danced some more
When all is said and done
When all is gone and still just begun
I will be asked what i did with my time and why
Can you be my alibi
Cause i know i spent it dancing with you
I have been here before
These emotions are relived
It's like a joy deja vu
You have been walking along
With me for quite some time
But me with my deaf ear and blind sides
Both of these i turned against you
We all know that you're there
We all know
When all is said and done
When all is gone and still just begun
I will be asked what i did with my time and why
Can you be my alibi
Cause i know i spent it dancing with you
Said and done
Now all is gone and still just begun
What have i done with my time and why
You are my alibi
Cause i know
Words so secure screaming like an alarm
Are you trying to wake me up
Now what was that you were trying to pull
Is it my arm
I do believe you're trying to wake me up
Now could it be maybe
It's not me sleeping
Could it be maybe you awakening
Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk in the light
Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk out of sight
Now here I am, but I'm just sleepwalking
Yes here I stand
But I guess I'm just sleeptalking for myself
Now could it be maybe
It's not me sleeping
Could it be maybe you awakening
Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk in the light
Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk out of sight
One day this world will see me at the horizon
One day from a distant light
And just before I stand to face my love
I'll turn around
And with a smile I'll say my goodbyes
Just one last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Sleepwalk in the light
Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk out of sight
Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk in the light
Sleep this time tonight
i see everything you break
every vow every promise you make
you've got this desire to fake
and then you break
stop
get away from me
no, i don't want you
you are looking for my breaking point
but i won't give it to you
God gave me glasses to see clearer
he threw away my rearview mirror
but you act so superior
Fast lane, sane, insane this world is running
And I'm walking with a cane
Seek, seek you can be unique
But whatever you do don't let your inside out
But I've got to take a leak
And I know You're alive
And you know I will always try
I could never care less about
What this world has to offer if the price is to die
I'll keep my human spirit alive
Man I'm so weak
Come on over here I'll let you have a peek
Inside my heart cause you're the one I seek
I know I'm slow but wherever I go
I hear your steps echo
And I know You're alive
And I'll give my heart to survive
This world has nothing to offer a human soul
Reaching for the sky
So Father of light
Keep my human spirit alive
Will I try to hide away in the secret space of my heart
Will I try in time
Will I try with my feet on the ground of shadows
But my hands towards the light
Will I try in time
Your eyes
Are always there
Your eyes
Are what I came for
Your eyes
Drive away my fear
Your eyes
I could just stand there and adore
Stop just right there
Everything has to stop to steal time
For whom I want to be near
Yes I do care and I love the love we share
And I know You're alive
I'll give my heart to survive
This world has nothing to offer a human soul
Reaching for the sky
So Father of light
Keep this human spirit alive
Will I try...
Seems there is nothing to remind me of peace down here
I will drive a thousand miles
To escape the smog in this town
I will drive although I don't have a license
To escape the ideal that this city crowns
Hide every little scar with so much make-up
The skin can't even breathe
Hide every little scar or become the food they feed
Shift into a higher gear
Place the brick on the gas
On what I left behind I won't waste a tear
My rearview mirror has got broken glass
I will drive until I reach the desert
And wait until I see with my own eyes again
I will drive I'll head for the desert
And wait until our minds speak the same words as back then
This makes me into nothing in their eyes
You kissed me on my cheek goodbye
But I didn't mean
Crazy it may seem
But to me you were never ever unclean
I know you know I am but even if it's slow
You're walking away
You think you are here to stay
Although your pride have grown
Legs taking you away
I wonder for how long you can take
That image you fake
Fingers in your ears
My lips are just moving
You don't want to hear
Taking and breaking the things
That is you and I
You ask for a goodbye
Want this part of you to die
Why do you have to wear that make-up?
I see your thoughts are screaming in my face
Shut up
You and I unseparable
Don't you know
I didn't come here to judge
You'll be free and I will make you whole
Those wounds must hurt
Let me clean you let me get rid of your bull
I'll make you full
That deep down emptiness I'll just blow away
Because no matter what they say
You will never be alone with me anyway
To feel pain ain't a sin
But it's when you're trying to cover it up
You hurt me within
I'll take one step
She said what I was supposed to think
Thank God for freedom
Thank God for liberation
(She said) Now we are allowed to think
Now we are allowed to feel lust without cute boring love
But don't you ever just like me
Long for purity
Don't you ever
Get sick of our territories
What are you so scared of sister
What made you so afraid to feel
To chose a stone cold liberation
The one thing I hate most about me
Is the one thing you want to make your trademark
To feel lust without cute boring love
But don't you ever just like me
Long for purity
Don't you ever
Get sick of our territories
Don't you ever feel like glass
Fragile, hurting, letting it pass
Don't you think it's time to trespass
But when the fire is gone
Who are you?
What are you so scared of sister?
With big guns and big ambitions
Never ending arguments
When is your ammunition spent
With big guns you load and shoot me down
With all those pretty words you thought out
Ready to recent
I hope time will change your heart
I'll be coming against your words
With something inside of me
Time will change your heart
I will be waiting at the doorstep of love
The doors wide open for you to see
We laugh about it and we dwell over it
But time flies by, and I'm getting anxious
Forgive me for pushing you
I know you have your own legs to walk with
I guess it's because to me it's so precious
I hope time will change your heart
I'll be coming against your words
With something inside of me
Time will change your heart
I will be waiting at the doorstep of love
The doors wide open for you to see
When there's not much left to say
Words better left unspoken
Let me hear from you
When your heart is broken
Her pain is a fog that he inhales
Puts down the phone, neck suddenly stale
It's just another night with a sad different song
Heard from somewhere now she sings along
Turn the car-key, back out of the driveway
He sees her face and he closes his eyes
She still believes the lies
Pretty pretty eyes with a darker tone
Another hour in front of the mirror now all the scars are shown
They say lets have another toast lets sing another song
She tries but the vine is bitter and the words wrong
She still believe the lies
When you see yourself you're seeing red
And it makes you blind
You must be bleeding under your eyelids tonight
You wait for something to break the mold
And all I can do is wipe the blood from your eyes
You must be bleeding under your eyelids
One tear in the sink, swallow the next one
Now out of sight but not really gone
I put the key in the door don't walk to walk through
Hang on the handle for a second or two
As the door opens I can feel your sadness from across the room
And now for your beauty I'm lost for words
When you see yourself you're seeing red
And it makes you blind
You must be bleeding under your eyelids tonight
You wait for something to break the mold
And all I can do is wipe the blood from your eyes
You must be bleeding under your eyelids
Wait for something to break the mold
Before your eyes fros old and cold
Keep your ears close to the ground
Wasted disposable dying scum
Two months tops before silence replaces your small beating drum
Isn't that what we're all waiting for
So we can go home and celebrate our good life
But i feel gun powder
Burning under my skin
Don't say another word
You might set off a spark
Cause i've got gun powder
Burning under my skin
Take me back to tv-land
Numbness is a safe zone
They never trained me for reality
I'm a reality-tv clone
Now did you say your 10 going on 11?
Something is terribly wrong
Somehow i'm dying with you
But i feel gun powder
Burning under my skin
Don't say another word
You might set off a spark
Cause i've got gun powder
Burning under my skin
Yamkela
That boy is gone
Sometimes i miss the way he wept at night
To be still and not run
To be rocked to sleep in your light
These days there is not much that will bring tears to my eyes
But when i remember who i am and who you are
When i remember
A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes, and sunshine breaks through the clouds
I am walking blind
So distracted that i dont even feel when you hold me
When did i grow such thick skin
You are my sunshine and rain
My joy and sweet pain
I'm a spotless stain
That boy is gone
But nobody moves me like you do
When i remember
A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds
I can cry out of sorrow and joy
Every drop of rain turns into a crystal in the sun
So wash my eyes, my clothes, my skin, my bones, my soul
My feet, my love
I'm not forgotten
I'm in your thoughts cause i feel sunshine in the rain
To this day nobody moves
Nobody
please just take one step closer
for it is me who hasn't let You keep me warm
once marked my heart, each letter with pride
once marked my heart, the name of the storm
break my heart again and i'll hold You close
i'll break in parts again so You can hold me close
every word is an understatement
and every exaggeration is true
for this is walking home
so this is just the beginning all over again
so this is just what keeps me alive
so it says You died and we still hated You
so it says You died to keep us alive
break out hearts again and we'll hold You close
i'll break in parts again so You can hold me close
every word is an understatement
and every exaggeration is true
for this is walking home
i'll try this time to remember
every exaggeration is true
can a revolution be at hand
just be walking home?
this is walking home now
love can crush the hardest stone
and God i am one
this is walking home now
i'll always remember
you gave a little be of home (called peace)
to hold close to heart, this is longing home now
and yes, i'm still longing to get there, still longing
(still they ask me)
how can a man love someone so much?
he hasn't yet seen
how a move loves a place so much
All seems wasted now you comb your hair
While your eyes search for a backdoor to get out
All you could do was to leave your deeds at the door
As you entered this room of sickness and doubt
But i saw you put down the memories in your coat just before
Now you want to drink but need someone to pour
To pour your heart out
This time
You know this is real
When you're scared to reveal
This time
Could you leave this now
Even if you knew how
This time
Looking over your shoulder
You have become older
This time
Are you afraid to die
With nothing left the pressure is off
To become all you needed to survive
With a color black you would not be blessed
In a church that decides on color and puts a price
On a paradise you now seem to know so well
But i knkow
I see jesus in your eye, so kiss the sky... and leave this now
Now i have seen what grace looks like
This time
You know this is real
When you're scared to reveal
This time
Could you leave this now
Even if you knew how
This time
Looking over your shoulder
You have become older
This time
Are you afraid to die
We had an intimate talk
With god you and i
Me with my words and you in silence
All you said was
I like that
But i saw jesus in your eyes
This time
You know this is real
When you have nothing more to reveal
This time
Would you leave this now
Even if you knew how
This time
Looking over your shoulder
You have become older
This time
Frost in the grass glitters
Dance in it barefoot for awhile
Until it hurts and i'll know it stings
Before turning numb
I guess you win and you lose some
We're at war
Realize this is a heart-attack
One nation under at attack
Heart is frozen but it's ready to crack
Frostbite biting slow
Turning blood and veins cold
Ice with claws climbing
Unwards my veins
Put back the stars
I'm out of shape tonight
Pinhole black velvet
Navigation-skills got lost with the fading light
It was there not more then a second ago
Now what do you know, what i do know
Is just not good enough to make things right
Put back the stars
I'm out of place tonight
Ain't it something to know your lost
I hoist my sail
Through there is no wind in sight
And i close my eyes to feel the fresh breeze
Paint the inside of my eyelids bright
Fill the sky with your breath
Cause you know im out of mine
Let the sky burn and i will inhale
Without a fight
I hoist my sail
And i'll just wait for you tonight
Ain't it something to know you have lost
Black tar surrounds me now
But life is the next door neighbor
On the outside there is just absence
But when i close my eyes
All i see is your face
Ain't it something to know you're lost
Ain't it something to know you're lost
Slipped away out of my hands like a soap once again
Hey what a day, gone for the night and then
Run back home and tuck yourself in for a needed sleep
For another work-week, what a day what a day
Then wake up, oh no, sunset, I missed another day
One slap on the cheek and out the door
Running and running and coming closer to stumbling
If you run with a knife, you fall.
You stick a hole in that bubble called life
But my weapon is clean and I'm ready to go
Run nicotine, caffeine through my veins
To wake up, catch up, but it seems like
Ohhh.. I've been living in slow motion
I've been living in slow motion
Hold your breath and count to three
Not me, I've got to see what's around the corner ok
One two three... I've got to have air
Stumbling around spinning the disco ball faster
More of everything
It smells like burning rubber under my shoes
But I'm always one step behind, one minute too late
Hey operator, could you connect me with a respirator
I'm running after life like a dog on a leech
But life keeps slipping away
Ohhh.. I've been living in slow motion
I've been living in slow motion
We make it a hard synchronize
Stuck stuck stuck stuck in the lies you better
Leave leave because so many times
I run 50 miles an hour and I get sick sick sick
Wait wait I can't hold your breath
Stay stay won't let you go away
I'll stay and sleep with the lions
If you say you won't go away
I've been running
I've been running out of time
I've been living in,
They spoke their minds
As I stood there smiling
This brain understood their arguments
So I just stood there
Keep on smiling
Cause it's not on me they're throwing their darts
So why are they heading this way for my heart?
How come I'm the one bleeding
When you're the one being cut
And every stabbing word about you stings
An allergic reaction towards all of this
Have to respond, although without an answer back
And I throw everything back into their face
Hear my own stupid sentences and I have lost track
You have strength beyond words
And You have communication beyond my words
This battle is not mine
I try to forget
Every time they spit Your name out on the sidewalk
And I will let the candle shine inside me without any regret
But where's Your voice in all my talk
They won't see the fire you have lit inside of me.
They look up to the stars and wonder where you might be.
They look up.
Without realizing they're standing in the palm of your hand.
I can't explain or understand.
I just love you.
It's common knowledge that; you've been dead for a while.
It's well known that the cross is only a burden with pains and trials.
But thinking how come my shoes are so light, how come I can walk for miles?
And still, just love you?
So I think I'll stay, caught up in silent prayer, cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words.
So why don't we just walk along the shoreline with our silent song?
Cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words, the same words.
We have to prove that our love is real, over and over again.
But let them think what they want cause I know It'll never end.
Cause I know when it began.
And my heart still pumps twice as fast whenever you walk by.
Cause I still love you.
So I think I'll stay, caught up in silent prayer, cause I believe in silence.
Our hearts speak the same words.
So why don't we just walk along the shoreline with our silent song?
Cause I believe in silence.
Pace is picking up
Tempo changing slowly gradually hardly noticeable
One beat per minute becomes two and two makes four
Now where is that door
To reality check me out and in and out of this motel rooms
It's unbelievable is this retrievable
I think I better leave
Pretty nights flashing photo lights
I feel all right as long as smiles are shining bright
What a game what a night
I feel all right I said
Pretty nights pretty nights but got nothing to say
Who touched the volume knob
Has it always been this loud
Allowed it to go from one
Does this one go to eleven
I think I better leave
Nothing is silent except the thoughts in my head
And all those words have been said
Feels unbelievable are they retrievable
Because all I do is scream to overpower this noise
Pretty nights flashing photo lights
I feel all right as long as smiles are shining bright
What a game what a night
I feel all right I said
Pretty nights pretty nights but got nothing to say
Pace is picking up tempo changing the common normal
Normalized us and paralyzed us and left us with a sadness
And now it's hovering in the air in between our eyes
I know we can find our way around
Around if we can only find the time
Time we don't have but that has been given
Pretty nights flashing photo lights
I feel all right as long as smiles are shining bright
What a game what a night
I feel all right I said
The charade is over now
Still you're trying to hide it somehow
Am I wrong when I say a piece is missing?
Inside is screaming you stay quiet
No one is listening
You're picking up a shell
No one will ever tell
The difference and so the indifference will come
You can't climb out of your empty box alone
Grab your hair but you can't lift yourself up
Still you're telling me to shut up
Don't you get fed up with your own pride?
Realize we're on the same side
You are not the first one
Who lost track of the sun
You can't see that now I know
Don't want to sound superior
but even though I know this is not a cave can't you see the light
It's the smallest things
That have a tendency to hurt for the longest time
It's like you found a way inside
But this time I'm not going to follow you down
I'll fall in love with the sound
(I'm not going to follow you down)
So push me back and I'll stay the same
(I'm not going to follow you down)
And fall in love with the sound of silence
I'm armed but the gun is not loaded
I guess I could find my way out of this
But it's like you found a way inside
And I hate that I suspect you're right
But this time I'm not going to follow you down
I'll fall in love with the sound
(I'm not going to follow you down)
So push me back and I'll stay the same
(I'm not going to follow you down)
And fall in love with the sound of silence
Silence is golden
but golden teeth are so much sharper
It's not easy but I'm biting my tongue off
It's not easy but I'm biting my tongue off
It's not easy but I'm biting my tongue off
It's not easy but I'm biting my tongue off
Even though you're right
Your words lie
Even though you're right
Your words lie
But this time I'm not going to follow you down
I'll fall in love with the sound
(I'm not going to follow you down)
So push me back and I'll stay the same
(I'm not going to follow you down)
I think I've stayed for the last time, goodbye
Hope is so much closer to beauty than sorrow
I think I'll leave and leave self pity to die
Reflection is always brighter than shadow
Please come closer
Cause I don't even touch you anymore
Please see I'm walking in to the eye of the storm
And I'll still come out loving you even more
Love is in the air tonight
So just breathe
You made sure the atmosphere was thick tonight
So this is where it begins and where it ends
With a crack in a dark sky piercing light
Please come closer
Cause my heart doesn't touch yours anymore
Please see I'm walking into the eye of the storm
And I'll still come out loving you even more
Love is in the air tonight so just breathe
Breathe my spirit breathe
Love is in the air tonight so just breathe
Breathe my spirit breathe
leave, leave now and don't look back
leave, leave now and don't you look back
Please come closer
Cause I don't even touch you anymore
Please see I'm walking in to the eye of the storm
And I'll still come out loving you even more
Please come closer
Cause my heart doesn't touch yours anymore
Please see I'm walking in to the eye of the storm
What just happened?
The Hollywood Empire strikes back
And this time I am standing in their way
Now I Waited for so long
For this to come along
Now this beauty and beast is starring in my face
Still silent voice whispers 'stay'
(But in the crowd I)
Caught a glimpse of your eye
Everything freezes
I'm in an old photograph
I'm back from the start
Caught a glimpse of your eye
Everything freezes and I'm ready
To give you my heart
Mayday, mayday
Too many voices too much noise in my ear
Don't want to lose contact over this black ocean
Now you sing follow love
I'll be safe in devotion
(But in the crowd I)
Caught a glimpse of your eye
Everything freezes
I'm in an old photograph
I'm back from the start
Caught a glimpse of your eye
Everything freezes and I'm ready
Waiting
How can someone so close
Be allowed to be so far away
Your red leaves fall in the evening
While Im waking up to smog these days
You know how I love when the sun touch my skin
But I still miss your thoughts on rain
So come and save me over the thin phoneline
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
WIth broken wings
My thoughts are on an airplane home
While my feet are still on the ground
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
But you were never late
To pick up the phone and call
Now it's fall and I miss
Making love in the sunday afternoon sunlight
Wednesday, thursday
One down, a billion to go
With glasses foggy you're losing sight
So come and I'll sae you over this thin phoneline
One of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
My thoughts are on an airplane home
While my feet are still on the ground
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
One of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
My thoughts are on an airplane home
While my feet are still on the ground
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
And so one morning just before dawn you came
Out of the forest towards my window
With a smile in your hand
As the moist air up to your knees started swirling like smoke
I saw your lips move
Asking: did you lose something?
I stood glued to the window
Emotions running through my vein
Now I know a word I can't explain
I think I've known you all along
Just lost your face in the crowd for awhile
I think I have been holding my breath all my life
Can I exhale and go into exile
So ask me now and I'll run away with you
And so with the dawn you've come
Eye to eye with nothing in between but this fragile glass
Your lips move again
I try but I can't detect the vibrations in the air
How I've still early and I see your words getting caught
In the window slowly turning into frost
I see your hand move and I can't detain
Scraping down a word I can't explain
I think I've known you all along
Just lost your face in the crowd for awhile
I think I have been holding my breath all my life
Can I exhale and go into exile
So ask me now and I'll run away with you
And so one morning just before dawn you came
And so with the dawn you've come
I think I've known you all along
Just lost your face in the crowd for awhile
I think I have been holding my breath all my life
Can I exhale and go into exile
So ask me now and I'll run away with you
I will
Ask me now and I'll run away with you
Just lost your face in the crowd for awhile
Ask me now and I'll run away with you
Can I exhale and go into exile
As soon as you stepped through my door,
I saw You for the first time all over again.
And time well spent seems
Lonelier than the way it used to go.
As I smell you for the first time all over again
I'll begin to remember to be alive
So if you don't mind
I think I'll wear my heart on my sleeve,
'Cause I'm tired of not being able to bleed.
All of us are searching for an open arm.
Well, it's a shame how I curl up in the dark
When it's the same old word giving me the spark.
All of us are searching for an open arm.
Well, it's a shame how I curl up in the dark
I've felt a loss for some time
I slipped, stumbled, but fell face first
straight into your hand.
Then I hit my head on your palm
And waking up to the smell
Of tears drying up in the sand
All of us are searching for an open arm.
Well, it's a shame how I curl up in the dark
When it's the same old word giving me the spark.
All of us are searching for an open arm.
Well, it's a shame how I curl up in the dark
I washed my wounds with tears of hope.
I washed my wounds with tears of hope.
I just ...
All of us are searching for an open arm
Well, it's a shame how I pull myself apart.
When it's the same words making me run for cover to your arms.
(All of us are searching for an open arm)
When it's the same words making me run for cover to your arms.
(All of us are searching for an open arm)
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
It hurts
That drops of fire would fall so precise
And how everything else would lose its meaning
What a beautiful
What a painful surprise
There is no peace outside if there is nothing within
It hurts
But like coming home
Once dried up
I guess this is what you get
When a heart expands
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
Love is destructive
For the ego
And your voice is the only thing
That speaks rebelliously in this world of claiming your own
There is no peace outside if there's nothing within
Love is addictive
For the spirit
And your voice whispers with a roar
That fire rises up, refills
Place the right king on the throne
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
I thought about fire in the sky
I thought about fire
I thought about love burning in your eye
I thought about fire
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a love in fire
I thought about your love, yeah
I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a love in fire
I thought about your love
I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a love in fire
I thought about your love
I thought about your love
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about a burning fire
I thought about your love
I thought about your love
I thought about a love
The smell of water on the sidewalk
And the breath of rain in my lungs
To meet you after this long time
Tells me I'm not that young
Not a word spoken
From your lips or mine
You're like a dream
I thought I left behind
I shouldn't sleep
I should wake up
I never meant to give it away
My heart escapes and I try
To catch it when it runs to you
So here, here I stand in silence
With bloodstains on my raincoat
My heart escapes
My heart escapes and runs to you
You're still the same
Underneath those gray clothes I gave you
And your photo remains in my wallet
You are planting seeds
Of color in my ground
Do I dare to stay or do I walk away?
I wish I was safe and sound
I shouldn't sleep
I should wake up
I never meant to give it away
My heart escapes and I try
To catch it when it runs to you
So here, here I stand in silence
With bloodstains on my raincoat
My heart escapes
Catch it
Catch it when it runs to you
Catch it when it runs to you
Catch it when it runs to you
There is still rain in my heart
And the blood is see-through like water
But I still wear your ring on my finger
And you're still wearing mine
I never meant to give you away
My heart escapes and I should have tried
To catch it and run to you
Catch it and run to you
Here I stand in silence
With bloodstains on my raincoat
My heart escapes
My heart escapes and runs to you
Runs to you, runs to you
Heavy like a thousand pounds
What if I told you now?
To carry the smell of death is
Harder than it sounds
Heavy like a thousand pounds
I bite my lips and look around
You said
"My dear, it smells like corpse in here"
Bring out, bring out your dead
Bring out, bring out your dead
Bring out, bring out your dead
Bring out, bring out your dead
Pull out the speakers now
What comes out I will allow
I didn't come here to die
Dare to see what's inside
It feels like suicide
My favorite corpse I like to hide
Who am I without
My skeleton friend?
Without the rules I bend
Can these broken bones mend?
Scared if I let it all out
You will know what I'm about
And the void, what do I fill it with
Once that corpse is gone
Bring out, bring out, bring out, bring out
Bring out, bring out your dead
Bring out, bring out your dead
Bring out, bring out your dead
Bring out, bring out what's dead
Bring out your dead
Pull out the speakers now
What comes out I will allow
I didn't come here to die
Dare to see what's inside
It feels like suicide
My favorite corpse I like to hide
When I let this corpse out
He will bite your soul
It'll make you bleed
When I let this corpse go
Will you do the same?
Will you let him go? Let go
Pull out the speakers now
What comes out I will allow
I didn't come here to die
Dare to see what's inside
It feels like suicide
My favorite corpse I like to hide
When I let this corpse out
He will bite your soul
It'll make you bleed
When I let this corpse go
Look me in the eye
Her heart was beating harder for every second
The shell was holding up like never before
A refusal to where all this has it's foundation
The shell hold up, but big dents bulge
Not now, maybe later and never before
Like a flower that never blossomed
About a longing that never given birth to a decision
About a longing that never ended
With the feet so far below the ground surface
And yet carrier of a rootless heart
Too hard to get up and still knowing
That beauty comes out of pain
And I wish I could pull you up from there
But no one else than The Only One can
And I wish I could pull you up from there
My tongue can never dress in words that my flame is true
And I shall never again be afraid of showing my weak self
Never again with threat try to prove my love
So let yourself get hit in the heart, let it bleed
If I could I would take back the words that were dead
If you could be fed through His life
If your heart would bleed
Whatever choice you make
I remain
Meet me at the feet of the Prince of Peace
I have nothing except what are my roots
As if I could
Arm Wrestle with a slit wrist
You better save me from myself
My words are a fist
I'm so through with me fighting for You
You better Save me from myself
Let me let You break through
I'm like a desert flower in the sun
Come on over here I'm done
Paying the price of what you say
'Cause my mouth is an ashtray
Would you caress me before I said
I'm longing home
I'm dead
I'm like a desert flower in the sun
You're the rain and I'm done
So what about my voice
If every breath is like swallowing sand
You better rain onhey me today
In my heart I will let it land
If it's only one drop I will swallow
Without knowing I placed me on Your throne
You better reign over me again
There must be something in the wind
That wants me to die
To leave all this behind
To let go of these chains
And let them fall
It's like I've always known you and
Still don't know who you are
And I can hear the thunder roaring
From a distance
And it's me on the shoreline
Slowly but surely
You're moving closer
And you're pushing the water
Yea you're pushing the water
Please come wash over me
Waves arrive like thunder
I'm not scared to end up under
Wash away my heartache
That's creeping in
I'm not scared to loose my skin
Oh, the sky is electric tonight
My savior from myself
Is on the move
My long lost love
My redeemer
Come and remind me
The curse is broken
Heavy burdens are lifted off
And my soul is light as a feather
In your storm
Waves arrive like thunder
I'm not scared to end up under
Wash away my heartache that's
Creeping in
I'm not scared to loose my skin
I'm waiting for you
I always have
I'm waiting for you
And I always have
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting for you
You put a little black flower
In my left shirt pocket
I still feel it now as something heavy
But it's losing leaves somehow
We wait for nothing now
We were never really close
Don't pretend there's not ice in your blood
So please hush, we're at the edge
One of us needs to jump or push
And so your eyes starts running
But your face looks cold
Because it's just cold when it's not right
And it's a heartache
That you never could satisfy
It's just cold with frozen kisses
And a breath of ice
It's just cold when it's not right
Is this a goodbye?
And now you're holding my hand
Until your knuckles are turning white
On my skin there's frost and yes
I feel sorry but for time lost
Spent in your cold embrace
I didn't chose this
But it's the time and it's the place
We're at the edge of the cliff
One of us needs to jump or push
Your eyes starts running
But your face looks old
And it's just cold when it's not right
And it's a heartache
That you never could satisfy
It's just cold with frozen kisses
And a breath of ice
It's just cold when it's not right
Is this a goodbye?
But it's just cold when it's not right
And it's a heartache
You could never satisfy
This could be a good
A real good, a good, a real good
This could be a goodbye
And it's just cold when it's not right
And it's a heartache
That you never could satisfy
It's just cold with frozen kisses
And a breath of ice
It's just cold when it's not right
This could be a good
A real good, a good, a real good
This could be a good
Are you sure I'm what you came for?
Are we playing still?
You already know my secret hideout
This is hide and seek with no point whatsoever
Hide and seek with no point whatsoever
Hey, I'm still glorious
But I'm withering like roses in the fall
But it's you alone I wait for
When I run to the hideout
You're the inception of beauty
I lay in tar and roll around in feathers
Hide and seek with no point whatsoever
Hey, I'm still glorious
But I'm withering like roses in the fall
And we break our silence
With a toast that shatters glass
And with a shard you stab my heart out
And it's gray and out of shape
I feel it's growing back inside
As you hold my hand
I said move, you stand right in my shame
But you stand your ground
Say that I'm still glorious
Say that I'm not withering like roses
Hey, I'm still glorious
Wake up, the sun goes down
This day was shorter
Another day goes by
Another day passes by
Wake up and run for the clown
Not now, but soon will have a daughter
Another day goes by
Another day passes by
I know it's all I have
I keep my promises to you
In this pocket full of holes
And I know, I know it's all I have
But you look beautiful
In that bracelet of joy
You shine when you put
On my necklace of peace
Wake up, my heavy heart
Did I just swallow a stone?
This day will not go by
Another day on stand by
I woke up out of breath
Stuck in a death zone
Another day to search the sky
Another day with nothing but clouds
I know it's all I have
I keep my promises to you
In this pocket full of holes
Yes I know, I know it's all I have
But you look beautiful
In that bracelet of joy
You shine when you put
On my necklace of peace
I know I can't make you wear it
But I sure will try
I know I can't make you wear it
But I sure will try
I know it's all I have
I keep my promises to you
In this pocket full of holes
And I know, I know it's all I have
But I can't make you wear it
But you look beautiful
In that bracelet of joy
You shine when you put
What's this, conscience with claws
The protest without the cause
Straight through drawing to the air
Run you over to get it here
Lost in my own insides
Any tool to fix it right
Never free from myself
Always running from myself
Can't see me in my blindside
Stopping tomorrow tonight
Forget about feelings use you like they use me
Can't even see you in the daylight
Fanatic full of facts tonight
Nothing's free
Anything, corrosive magnet
Dissolving everything within
Can't see me in my blindside
Stopping tomorrow tonight
Blindside they see my blindside
Stopping tomorrow tonight
Got what I wanted to know displaced
Override guy reason to win
Winning's not for everyone
The darkest dirt again
If I turn on my lights out
I won't have to clean my house
I won't have to clean my house
Can't see me in my blindside
Stopping tomorrow tonight
Blindside they see my blindside
Stoppin tomorrow tonight
Can't see me in my blindside
Stopping tomorrow tonight
Blindside they see my blindside
Stoppin tomorrow tonight
Smoke screen up ahead
And I know that you fled
From the pain and subsidence of a ghost
It was never said
You fell upside
Downside
Blindside
You're gonna start to fall off the edge
Like a lump of lead
I throw a reason and you throw it flying back to me
Complicated out of sight, was it meant to be?
Another time
Another place
Open smiles on her face
And I'm sinking
Can't stop thinking
'Well just in case'
There's a hole inside of me
And it's cut so clinically
A lesson learned
And no regrets
There's a hole inside of me
And it's cut so clinically
A lesson learned
And no regrets
(For me)
Smoke screen up ahead
And I know that you fled
From the pain and subsidence of a ghost
It was never said
You fell upside
Downside
Blindside
You're gonna start to fall off the edge
Like a lump of lead
I throw a reason and you throw it flying back to me
Complicated out of sight, was it meant to be?
Another time
Another place
Open smiles on her face
And I'm sinking
Can't stop thinking
'Well just in case'
There's a hole inside of me
And it's cut so clinically
A lesson learned
And no regrets
There's a hole inside of me
And it's cut so clinically
A lesson learned
And no regrets
Pride or anger
A long cold stare
Had no emotions
Inside I didn't care
No objectives
My future bleak
All out aggression
Inside me
What was going
Through my head
Innocent lives
Were tampered with
False ego and
False pretense
Was my so-called
intelligence
I've learned control
I will sustain
Time to unfold
Stop! Stop this pain
I've burned bridges
But now I'm done
I didn't think
I'd hurt anyone
I can now
Feel this shame
That I've caused
From others pain
Since that time
I've changed
Try to hold
My rage
If I don't
I am bound
What comes around
Goes around
That was my blindside
Back in the day
That was my blindside
I'll end this awkward silence
When I break apart your rib cage
You must be scared of your reflection in the mirror
We're so tired of all the lies, now our vision's getting clearer
I wont lay victim to your betrayal and lies
That's why I moved on but you just sit there and cry
You're the one who said that you were better than this
That we were holding you down
Like anchors to your ships
All you can say now
I just wish you would fucking grow up
All I can say now
I just wish that you would fucking give up!
All your money couldn't buy you respect
I dug the hole, you filled the grave with your last breath
You must be scared of your reflection in the mirror
We're so tired of all the lies, now our vision's getting clearer
I don't see how you always run around
Never really caring who you gave a fuck about!
I'm sure that someday
You'll be left with nothing but a suitcase of mistakes
You've burned the bridge that you stand on
And there's no way for you to hold on
How the fuck do you still have friends?
You can lie, to yourself, like its fine
But now you're dead, you're dead to me!
You're looking pretty lonely and all of us feel sorry
But you're gonna pay for all your mistakes
I wish this could have ended better
But you're just not that clever
So run along and go be fake
You must be scared of your reflection in the mirror
We're so tired of all the lies, now our vision's getting clearer
I don't see how you always run around
Never really caring who you gave a fuck about!
I'm sure that someday
