Anger, hate, pain, life?
why must I - suffer?
Lost all vital essence to fight,
as I stare into the void,
I cling to a fading thought,
of what was once my life,
Socially - rejected,
economically - unwanted
bueraucratically - erased,
the scorn of - humanity
Failure?
I, I've been lonely
And I, I've been blind
And I,. I've learned nothing
So my hands are firmly tied
To the sinking leadweight
of failure
I've worked hard all my life
Money slips through my hands
My face in the mirror tells me
It's no surprise that I'm
Pushing the stone up the hill
of failure
They tempt me with violence
They punish me with ideals
And they crush me with an image of my
life that's nothing but unreal
Except on the goddamned slaveship
of failure
I'll drown here trying
to get up for some air
But each time I think I breathe
I'm laid on with a double share
of the punishing burden
of failure
I don't deserve to be down here
But I'll never leave
And I've learned one thing
You can't escape the beast
In the null and void pit
of failure
When I get my hands on some money
I'll kiss it's green skin
And I'll ask it's dirty face
"Where the hell have you been?"
"I am the fuel that fires the engine
of failure."
I'll be old and broken down
I'll forget who and where I am
I'll be senile or forgotten
But I'll remember and understand
You can bank your hard-earned money
on failure
I saw my father crying
I saw my mother break her hand
On a wall that wouldn't weep
But that certainly held in
The mechanical moans of a dying man
Who was a failure
My back hurts me when I bend
Because I carry a load
My brain hurts me like a knife-hole
Because I've yet to be shown
How to pull myself out from
The sucking quicksand
of failure
Some people live in hell
Many bastards succeed
But I. I've learned nothing
I can't even elegantly bleed
Out the poison blood
It's mean, soldier
Now let me put the streets down like steamrollers
With the CATS that push
40 oz. through the hood like King Cobras
See me sling soda
'Cause the extra four in the split is mixed
It's really 36
Used to buy toasters and clips
You can tighten your circle or boa constrict
While you was lighting your purple, I was over the scripts
See, I couldn't walk the walk, couldn't really talk the talk
Had to get my talk to properly explain my walk
'Cause this lack in talk had my walk looking off
Now I'm over the limp
Watch how they mugs drop when they see my Verbal's able
(That's the Usual)
When I was po' I was low
Now me and my Chaps cop Purple Label
It's Ralph Lauren on the rap laureate
Niggas brownnose, they are like "after him"
Runners at Interscope are not as Stoute as him
Please don't Interscope
It's gonna be a whole lot of Iovine and respirating
If I lean out this window with Irene
Niggas as tall as Yao Ming
With L-U-P-Emperor
Is the foundation's high beams and the antennas
It's so serious every time I write my John Hancock like
Could damn near see Detroit
Niggas is scared of heights
This is saran wrap and aluminum foil
Some potpourri, a little machine oil
I stack my paper and throw off my 6
This is top floor, better look out before
Pennies from heaven is the same as the semi from the second
And I reign supreme
Turn your umbrellas upside down
Did you even catch the change in theme?
And them niggas ain't Watts nor from his regime
Gangsta lean
Hats on tilt like these niggas ain't drop out the vending machine
You gotta put more money in
And I shake niggas up every time I drop a bar
(2 for 1)
It's horse in the Porsche and bricks in the box
Like mo' money them every time I cop a car
You see I'm a roller, right
So it might be a Rover, right
But every time I drop a 'r'
(Get off the streets)
It's "over" aite
Bet I be in the head like overnight
Like rollers, right
She the chauffeur, right
So I keep her sober
She don't get Fed Ex like overnight
I am Dolemite
All that gas can't help you but solar might
Just call on sun
Drop a 's'
Pick up an 'o'
Uno, put it all on "one"
Brace yourself like overbite
"For that quiet nigga that relocated down south
Coming back to floss"
Nigga get your molars right
Fix your grill
No plaque but a whole lot of cheese
This the drill
Mr. Chill
Gave me the green light like Yoda knife
So I'ma force my will
Like the Force I wield
Of course you will
Take my time
But weight behind only pertains
To that Porsche grill
It's snakes in the hood
Gotta watch for that Cobra bite
Let me see
There's snakes in the hood
A bird, a horse behind the grill
Something gator on the seat
And a fox behind the wheel
For achiever
My procedure's
To proceed at all cost
With no breather
I'm all walk
Rain, snow, or fever
I'm all coughs coming after your teacher
I'm on the ball like FIFA
Viva
Lupe Duce
Long live the leader
I remember I ain't have sneakers
It was welfare
Coming up for air is like
Whales there
Fila
But now I'm well here
I'm Shamu with twelve pair
And niggas wanna take me back to zero like tear fare
Well, my skill's clear
You Sea World
It's Braille here
I'm Bumpy Johnson I stick to the streets
Keep my dogs out in front of me
You see what I'm saying
And I push ki's wonderfully
Pick up please
The boys give you validity
They give you what you want
They can never give enough
Only charity until you're sorry
Victimized,
One thing I can't criticize
Given you struggle
Could you ever be alone?
Seems impossible and still i'm sorry
Saint freedom,
It's so easy when you give up
No matter what i've done
I could never be the one
It's never effortless to fail
I can rely on this
Could you ever rely on me
Jealousy
The boys give you validity
No matter what you've done
I could never be the one
Just a shareholder of lies
I put you to bed
They will always leave
Independent of you
You could never deny
I always knew how to fail you
I, I've been lonely
And I, I've been blind
And I, I've learned nothing
So my hands are firmly tied
To the sinking leadweight of failure
I've worked hard all my life
Money slips through my hands
My face in the mirror tells me it's no surprise
That I'm pushing the stone up the hill of failure
They tempt me with violence
They punish me with ideals
And they crush me with an image of my life that's nothing but unreal
Except on the goddamned slaveship of failure
I'll drown here trying to get up for some air
But each time I think I breathe
I'm laid on with a double share
Of the punishing burden of failure
I don't deserve to be down here
But I'll never leave
And I've learned one thing
You can't escape the beast
In the null and void pit of failure
When I get my hands on some money
I'll kiss its green skin
And I'll ask its dirty face
"Where the hell have you been?"
"I am the fuel that fires the engine of failure"
I'll be old and broken down
I'll forget who and where I am
I'll be senile or forgotten
But I'll remember and understand
You can bank your hard-earned money on failure
I saw my father crying
I saw my mother break her hand on a wall that wouldn't weep
But that certainly held in
The mechanical moans of a dying man who was a failure
My back hurts me when I bend because I carry a load
My brain hurts me like a knife-hole
Because I've yet to be shown
How to pull myself out from the sucking quicksand of failure
Some people live in Hell
Many bastards succeed
But I, I've learned nothing
I can't even elegantly bleed
Focus on a new way
A new day has begun for me
I thought that yesterday was a bad day
So I took my time to figure it out
What's the right way to live by me
(So I'll find a reason why)
All my life I've been waiting for a chance like this
(I've seen horizons fall before me)
All my life I've been wishing for your promises
(I always thought I'd be a failure)
All my life all my life I've been here
Sorrow was the old way
I won't subdue the truth
From regrets and failure I arise
To redefine all they expected of me
In the meantime I hope you'll see
You never stood by me
(And now you know the reason)
All my life I've been waiting for a chance like this
(I've seen horizons fall before me)
All my life I've been wishing for your promises
(I always thought I'd be a failure)
It's just another wasted day another wasted year
I'm stumbling and falling crashing on despair
I'm just another nobody whose time has just passed by
I'm just another failure so tonight I'll make it all right
It's just another wasted breath on another cigarette
My world is wrapped inside frustration and regret
I'm just another nobody whose time has just passed by
I'm just another failure so tonight I'll make it all right
I'm dying, I'm trying to stay in control
You're stealing my feelings
Don't leave me alone
The clock in the hall is louder now
I don't know what to do about it
As I hear it make its metronomic rounds
There's nothing I can do about it
With its constant tick, like the footsteps of someone
approaching
I don't want to meet
She's a messenger with the message my journey is over
And I failed to make it
Time's not my friend anymore
My dreams at night are stranger now
And I don't know what to do about it
In every scene you're taken away from me
And there's nothing I can do about it
I am running from the footsteps of someone approaching
I don't want to meet
She's a messenger
With the message my journey is over
And I failed to make it
I feel like a failure
does anybody care
they say your a breakthrough
and you're on your way there
I have no feelings
is that what you think
this world has no meaning
and this ship's about to sink
And the way that you looked at me
I'm lucky I'm still alive
gonna fail you this time
gonna run away gonna fail you one last time
I feel like a captive
I'm under your spell
with eyes that could cut through
they can send you straight to hell
I feel like a failure
does anybody care
they say your a breakthrough
and you're on your way there
what have we done. never thought that life would come to this. eternal sense of self hatred. blame not who, but ask us why we
did. this is an open book of failure. deceive ourselves all that we can, so we can be cycle of life disrupted. halted by a force
too close to home. guilt runs through our blood. close your eyes and let yourself forget. this guilt runs on and on. consumed all
senses gone. torn, these wings of spirit godless relations. scar this heart beyond all home to heal. this being won't meet this
world. i know i'll take this to my grave. all but saved. die for us my child. this is an open book of failure. deceive ourselves
all that we can, so we can be. i walk each step in anger. found fault in our design. now i kneel down to pray. to plead for a
Using the Guardian as a shield,
to cover my thighs against the rain,
I do not mind about my hair.
Your jacket may be waterproof,
but I know the moment you get home
you're gonna get your trousers changed.
Failure is always the best way to learn,
retracing your steps untill you know,
have no fear your wounds will heal.
I wish I could travel overground
to where all you hear is water sounds,
lush as the wind upon a tree.
I wish I could travel overground
to where all you hear is water sounds,
to capture and keep inside of me.
Failure is always the best way to lean,
retracing your steps untill you know,
i know
you know every desperado
and sharp shooter
in the west you say
that i can't see behind
the mask of those who call themselves
the good guys
in this who take and take
'so are you with me or not you say
this time decide'
balmy days sweet sangria
she's been gone
have you seen her
se
Two bright eyes and one red mouth
And two long legs and one icon
They can't think and they can't act
They wear straps, two long legs
Submission, submission, submission
They work hard and they sell things
We like that 'cause there's no choice
Submission, submission, submission
We can't see 'cause it's like that
We can't hear 'cause it's too late
Small crimes
Smiles stretched on
Old trees
Strike your match so
Lightly
Watch the crooked
Smoke rise
Empty praters to
Heaven
Just a mask of
Blue sky
Look away to
Small crimes
Kick the dog for
Eating
Leave you old self
Hungry
Watch in coldest
Pleasure
Tell the world what
Ever turns you on is fine
With me as long as
Matches don't get wet
Warm winds calling me a
Coward make me smile
They can't convince
Me now
Burned prayers turn me
On to nowhere sick
And empty
I don't feel so bad
Ever turns around again
Says to me softly
Start the fire now
Small crimes sever
Used-up old
Considerations
Freedoms not so great
All fears burn up
They said hold on to the
Stairway railing
Meaning everything
Is meaning
Something makes it hard
To keep track
Hold on found me
Tangled forest
Growing got my
Dryest summer
Small crimes held my
Swiftly losing patience
Can't decide a move
Pick from the bottom on the left side
I wanna win tonight
I blink my eyes real quick-like
Wash away the haze
While I'm blinking quickly
I see the man on screen
He's (lying on the face)ball
He thinks I do not see
He's an elevator passenger
Bored as he can be
He's the man who lives next door
He's come here to frighten me
He takes out his saxophone
Plays those lonely hidden notes
Can't speak about this to anyone
This man's eyes are serious
He's the man in my screen
I came here to
Be shallow
And to watch you spill
Out all your dreams
Sucked them up like a
Cool drink
I was never too willing
To leave
Some empty friend
Who talked me into sleep
Sweet dreams
And threw my wings
Into the blazing sun
Coughed a castle
Of crystal
Across the bright yellow
Kitchen floor
Watched the roaches
Grow kingly
Served them death by
The ivory sink shore
Caught up in my
Thoughts a
Beehive swarming
I can't swat you out your
Stories are too sweet
Should've never
Believed you
She was giddy
With remorse
As she skipped
River stones
Off slick rapid
Rushing heads
Babies belched
From below
Clenching shame in
Her stomach
It felt the same as the
Last time
Cramming fear in her
White fists
Hoping this is the
Last time
She put rocks in
Her pockets
Shrunk away from the
Water's edge
Fell down hard by a tree
She stuffed shame in
Her pockets
It felt the same as the
Last time
She crammed fear in her
White fists
And hope this is the
Last time
Brainsqueals
Same as the last time
Brainsqueals
She hope this is the
Sometimes pearshaped
Women meltdown
Onto concrete
Splashing sun and
Sidewalk insects
Down by these feet
Sometimes puddles
Terrify me
As they gaze up
Scrap of paper
Floating crumpled
I can't pick up
Goodbye
No one's ever gonna
Find out from this
Shut mouth
Just be sure to keep
These eyes closed
They can read those
Sometimes people use
Their sound holes
Pointed at me
Rusty winds groaning
Down alleys
Blow right pas me
Sometimes pipes
Creaking inside here
Know me too well
Flesh and steel I had
Carved up
For a farewell
Too late
I'll never wish for it
But now it grows inside
I'll show you a trick with
Ants when
The sun's high in the sky
We can
Burn them up to crispy
Black shells
See them crunched by
Old, slow, slick snails
Light the fuse inside the
Dead bird
Feather flurries rain on
Our heads
Empty nest with three
Small brown eggs
We'll think of something
Before the night falls
Don't hurt a fly
They all sang
Don't rape a girl
In bright may
Don't kill anyone ever
Lay still and stand
This fever
The sun's just
A big glass
We're all ants
Breath your death down
Cause you will not see
Let it drip down
Let it soak your feet
Yesterday I watched
Her breakdown
Split in two she's
Quite appealing
Subtle ways I could
Have hurt her
Rack my brain when
Prince al is fun name)
(tear the pen) won't play straight
Doesn't care about shoelace
A rubber mask who breathes
He makes you
Wanna strike hard
Those who can't, try
Scapes you back home
Something bout his loose walk
All the (kids just) drain down
Stretches out in your space
Pulls you back to hate
I do believe it's coming
Don't dread it's approach
The only preference we might have
Is that I hope to see it
Could start with an invasion
Or maybe it'll come from fire
The bomb's so boring
I wanna see some blood
There'll be people in the streets
I mean the ones that live in houses
I wanna see 'em screaming
"Holy mother sweet jesus"
I may seem a bit morbid
But you totally can't deny
'cause when it hits I'll be laughing
And you will start to... cry
Young and old and middle aged
Domesticated creatures as well
There are other ways to look at this
Than a state of living hell
As your friends, relatives, and acquaintances
Perish in catastrophe
Just think of it as the best movie
You'll ever hope to see
It's got action, violence
Rape is there too
Starvation-- whole nations
And it's all for me and you
It's got everything you wanted
This admission is free
There's only one catch--
My little angel, how soon do you go?
Come here for hours never go
My purple princess, how much you know?
I'm always pleased that, you don't say no
I do not mind that, you are a girl
I do not mind that little girl
You see it's me who loves you the most
There's a philosopher I once met
He showed me many things
He told me things of the world
His face was unusual-
But it could tell a story-- with rich
Detail...in rich detail
Sometimes eating
Sometimes eyes closed
There was always the face
Of his knowledge of things
He never spoke--
He needed not to
He needed not to
He sits in a zoo in North America
Has no other in his habitat
He's originally from west Africa
West Africa
West Africa
I heard you driving in my car
Then in a frozen bar
I claimed I didn't care for you
But your verse got trapped inside my head
Over and over again
You played yourself to death in me
I thought I'd drop you easily
But that was not to be
You burrowed like a summer tick
So you invade my sleep and confuse my dreams
turn my nights to sleepless itch
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
I'm too tired to fight your rhyme
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
You've got me paralyzed
Holding in the telephone
I hear your midrange moan
You're everywhere inside my room
Even when I'm alone I hear your mellow drone
You're everywhere inside of me
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
I'm too tired to fight your rhyme
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
You've got me trapped
I can't escape your incessant whine
when you beam it out all across the sky
No I can't escape your insipid rhyme
When you shoot it deep
I've been freezing my time
I've been slowing my breath
I've been saving my soul
I want you to freeze too
Are you haunting me again?
Are you thawing out my head?
I want you to get out
I'm on an ocean that has a brain and makes us dream
I'm on a mission to wipe imagination clean
You grow inside me, dying time and time again
I'm on a mission to escape from what my life has been
I've been hiding in snow
I've been treading on ghosts
Are you haunting me again?
Are you burning up my head?
I will never solve algebra of need
Any thought just might
Turn to flesh and drag me back to life
I'm on an ocean that has a brain and makes us dream
I'm on a mission to wipe imagination clean
You grow inside me, dying time and time again
I'm on a mission to escape from what my life has been without you
To escape my life has been without you
To escape my life has been without you
To escape my life has been without you
To escape my life has been without you
They won't ever find out just where I hid them
One-hundred stones that sparkle in darkness
They caught me downtown changing the bus lines
An easy target midday no disguise
Sergeant Politeness
Searching for weak points
Caress my ego
Trick me so softly
I only took them to find my way out
The self-infixed freeze that comes from boredom
You see I let them, I let them find me
One-hundred stones that mean nothing to me
Sergeant Politeness
Searching for weak points
Caress my ego
Trick me so softly
I'm so innocent, sir
That I can't reveal a thing
I'm blind and happy, sir
To be tortured in this way
Sergeant Politeness
Searching for weak points
Caress my ego
And trick me so softly
Sergeant Politeness
I'm so enlightened
Go on, molest me
I won't confess now
Sergeant Politeness
Sergeant Politeness
Sergeant Politeness
You made my head split open
and everyone watched
I twisted it off
and everyone gasped
I lost my sight
and everyone laughed
I replaced my head
and I couldn't see´
A hole is left in my head between my eyes
All dark and red
It wasn't a new eye
I was just dead
I was just dead
(Bring your food, please)?
(a nice juicy pie)?
You don't have to lift your eyes
Just look at the way I look at the sky
Look at me
Count my eyes
Blowing fire through
The hillside
Pelting wings stuck
To quicklime
Smashing nobody's
Headlights
Nothing tells us
We're alive
Bernie's got the way to
Feel good times
She lives on the way to
The park
All we've got to do is
Just drop by
We don't have to wait
Until dark
Screaming tires through
The sunshine
Told the cripple he
Looks blind
Caught the rats in
The manhole
Beat them all the way
A modern-day warrior
Mean mean stride,
Today's Tom Sawyer
Mean mean pride.
Though his mind is not for rent
Don't put him down as arrogant
His reserve, a quiet defense
Riding out the day's events
The river
What you say about his company
Is what you say about society
Catch the mist, catch the myth
Catch the mystery, catch the drift
The world is, the world is
Love and life are deep
Maybe as his skies are wide
Today's Tom Sawyer
He gets high on you
And the space he invades
He gets by on you
No his mind is not for rent
To any god or government
Always hopeful, yet discontent
He knows changes aren't permanent
But change is
What you say about his company
Is what you say about society
Catch the witness, catch the wit
Catch the spirit, catch the spit
The world is, the world is
Love and life are deep
Maybe as his eyes are wide
Exit the warrior
Today's Tom Sawyer
He gets high on you
And the energy you trade
He gets right on to the friction of the day
I sprained my will lying in bed
Counting the pores across my skin
I'm so ashamed to love no one
My ego's bent and my pride's undone
I'll spend the night with my pillowhead girl
We never fight or say a word
I'll spend my life with my pillowhead girl
She is my lovely faceless queen
I gave up hope in finding you
I've got a friend I've grown used to
I'm so ashamed to love no one
My ego's bent and my pride's undone
I'll spend the night with my pillowhead girl
We never fight or say a word
I'll spend my life with my pillowhead girl
She is my lovely faceless queen
Leo woke up in his bed again
Startled by all his familiar friends
Burnt out stubs confectionery wrappers
Bottles spent and empty
Leo felt a terror in the world
He sighs it's not so bad
And goes about his day
As if nothings changed
He finds it so hard to explain
The way he can't communicate
The feeling's there but he can't say
Why it's so hard to relate to anyone
Leo quickened his step toward his car
He broke into a sprint at twenty yards
As he guessed the dogs had come
Ripping into his arm for fun
Leo got away in his blue car
He sighs it's not so bad
And goes about his day
As if nothing changed
He finds it so hard to explain
The way he can't communicate
The feeling's there but he can't say
Why it's so hard to relate to you or anyone
He finds it so hard to explain
The way he can't communicate
The feeling's there but he can't say
Why it's so hard to relate
He finds it so hard to explain
The way he can't communicate
The feeling's there but he can't say
found a dog downstairs
locked him with the bikes
cried till he went hoarse
scratched the door to shreds
did no one tell you how
she'd leave you in this town
with her dog trapped downstairs
He'll die with no one there
locked the dog back in
turned the heater on
smelled the sour milk
felt the floor above
did no one tell you how
she'd leave you in this town
with her dog trapped downstairs
he'll die with no one there
crawl cause you can't limp
howl cause you can't speak
leave cause you don't care
run let the dog die
found the note upstairs
torn up in the trash
said she'd flown to Spain
special one-time fare
left with some old friend
always just a friend
crawl cause you can't limp
howl cause you can't speak
leave cause you don't care
run let the dog die
did no one tell you how
she'd leave you in this town
with her dog trapped downstairs
He'll die with no one there
crawl cause you can't limp
howl cause you can't speak
leave cause you don't care
It's not about the boy
Found slain
It ain't about his lips
Blood drained
You should've seen his
Dreams dissolve
Into the dumpster behind
The mall
I'm goin' down to the
Wonderful life
I'm goin' down inside
A satellite
I'm goin' down on the
Bullet train
I'm goin' down on the perfect dream
It's not about the
Freeway drone
That score her tired
Journeys home
Softly licking her to sleep
Her eyes are closed to
The brake light streaks
Sleep in the softest bed
Eat everything you need
Never ask anyone
For anything at all
Why can't I stroke this
World to sleep
Please help me stroke
This world to sleep
It's not about his
Prescription brain
Deprived of pills that
Keep it sane
He told himself he could
Go it alone
See him plead with the
Unplugged phone
Sleep in the softest bed
Eat everything you need
Never ask anyone
For anything at all
That restless old monkey
Prisoned inside of me
Stiff bones that
Close him in
He waits trapped
Deep within
I'm goin' down to the
Wonderful life
I'm goin' down inside
A satellite
I'm goin' down on
The SST
I'm goin' down on the
Perfect dream
I'm goin' down to the
Wonderful life
I'm goin' down like a
Ripped up kite
I'm goin' down with
Broken ribs
I'm goin' down to a
What did they say
when they brought you down here?
Did nobody tell you
you can't get out?
I'm sure there are folks
who say you can but
you're sure to find out
there's no way out.
You've been spending all your change.
No point saving for rainy days.
I'm gonna be there
when you find the border
I'm gonna be there
when you can't wake up.
Just remember
I've got my orders
no searching for the answers now.
Who did you fool
to get yourself here?
We'll take any bribe,
we'll show you the sites.
I know that you felt
so sure you'd break free.
We'll say anything
you'll let us believe.
You've been calling all your friends,
no real reason, just checking in.
I'm gonna be there
when you find the border
I'm gonna be there
when you can't wake up.
Just remember
I've got my orders
no searching for the answers now.
We'll show you
your heaven
inside here
in silence.
No searching
for answers
it's pointless.
What did they say
when they brought you down here?
Did nobody tell you
you can't get out?
I'm sure there are folks
who say you can but
you're sure to find out
there's no way out.
I'm gonna be there
when you find the border
I'm gonna be there
when you can't wake up.
Just remember
I've got my orders
Someone said they'd like
To set you up
They're gonna feed on
You just sleep now
Should've know they'd
Try and make you cry
They're gonna have fun
Now don't fight it
Let me come undone in
Your house
I need to kill some
Time tonite
Let me come undone in
Your mouth
I need to know that your
The same
Could've guessed you
Were the only one
They wanted to laugh at
Believe them
No surprise you let it
Get to you
It was always there
Can't hide it
Your face is easy to hate
Looking helpless
And sincere
Curls up in self-sickness
Lick your wounds and
Dream of home
Let me come undone in
Your house
Let me come undone
And kill some time
Let me come undone in
Your mouth
Let me come undone
say hello to the rug's topography
it holds quite a lot of interest with your face down on
say hello to the shrinking in your head
you cant see it but you know its there, so don't neglect
i'm taking her home with me, all dressed in white
she's got everything i need; pharmacy keys
she's fallen hard for me; i can see it in her eyes
she acts just like a nurse with all the other guys
say hello to all the apples on the ground
they were once in your eyes but you sneezed them out
while sleeping
say hello to everything you've left behind
its even more a part of your life now that you can't
touch it
i'm taking her home with me, all dressed in white
she's got everything i need; some pills in a little cup
she's fallen hard for me; i can see it in her eyes
she acts just like a nurse with all the other guys
she's got everything i need; pharmacy keys
she acts just like a nurse with all the other guys
Woke in my warm bed
Just in time for all the brilliant red lights
They were streaming through my half shuttered windows
Christmas lights in time with my stuttered brain waves
The door knob was glowing
All my photographs were rippled and melting
Through the walls I could hear panicked voices
They seemed to say, go back to bed there's no choices
And nowhere not burned out
The fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left in the hallway
And the fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left here
I gave no answer
To all their shouted questions, just lay back choking
Didn't want to stay but my bed was on fire
Instead of screaming, I fell back into dreamland
Blinking and sighing
The fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left in the hallway
And the fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left here
I don't wanna leave [Incomprehensible]
I never believed in what happened to [Incomprehensible]
The fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
Umbrella left in the hallway
And the fireman calls out, we've got another smoking
I love to hear you talk
And I love to watch your head move
I love to tune you in every night
And I love to watch you with ice cream
Chocolate chip, with a little whipped cream
I love to hear your opinion
And I love to share it with all of my friends
I love to feel so informed
I love to watch your little mouth
Because you're just too much
The way you smile
The way you dress
The way you stress
Sometimes I get to wondering what it is you're talking about
I love to hear your opinion
And I love to share it with all of my friends
I love to
I love to
I love to
But I don't want to
But you're just too much
The way you smile
The way you dress
The way you stress
Sometimes I get to wondering what it is you're talking about
You're just too much
I can't control myself
The way you stress certain items
These things stick out to me, too
Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing through
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Cant you understand oh my little girl
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed is here
In my arms
Words are very
Unessesary
They can only do harm
Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed is here
In my arms
Words are very
Unessessary
No conviction in your numb mind
A hidden cell of chemicals
Keep your soul on my projection
Never turn on the camera
Because I kinda like the blank way
I fill up my life
I don't care for nothing
That gets me too high
I want some dampened spirits
And black and bitter spoons
I'm not looking for affection
I'm living on the moon
No conviction in your voice box
It's buried low beneath the guilt
It all seems real as you whisper
She lies warm and the smell is you
And she knows I kinda like the blank way
You fill up my mind
I don't care for nothing
That gets me too high
I want some dampened spirits
And black and bitter spoons
I'm not looking for reflection
I'm living on the moon
Here I am, right at home in my crater
Here I am feeling old
Here I am wishing for a miracle
I need you to know
That I like the blank way
I fill up the sky
And I care for nothing
You put in my mind
I like the blank way
You fill up my mind
I like the blank way
You fill up my mind
I like the blank way
Right now we're sick of everything
Tonight we'll bind up our brains again
With eyes pinned I'll fly around on your bed
We'll grow close while our hearts disconnect
Morning is limping into the room
Pleading that we bind ourselves again
Rip out that heliotropic rose
Back off please let the lost get lost
I know my faith has meaning
But I've forgotten why
It's so important to me
I can't remember why
Living a phantasm of the nerves
Girlfriends chemicals in your head
Good days eventually oxidize
Put them with thoughts that escape your minds eyes
I know my faith has meaning
But I've forgotten why
It's so important to me
I can't remember why
Seems like I'm fucked forever
Feels like at least for now
I forgot why
Sent away to have my
Head checked
No more playing
In the sand
Frogs are leaping off
My brainstem
They don't seem
To understand
Roadside blurs against
A big bus
Face is slouched against
The glass
I am headed for
A cleansing
In a room without a bath
Didn't it seem
Kind of silly
The way the doctor's
Carried on so uptight
It's not bad being
So distant
I can live inside the gap
Frogs are hopping off
My brainstem
So excited to be sane
Didn't it seem
Kind of silly
The way the doctor's
Carried on so
Now that I've become
A monster to them
Have to keep their fear
Turned on all night long
I've gone away to have
My head checked
I guess I need to have
I got high on scrapings from my nails
Now I'm back down, my eyes are growing dark
My burnt spoon has dried beneath the bed
And I'm dreaming of dirty blue balloons
I've waited so long without you
I've waited too long for you
He came in, he didn't speak my language
I paid him with everything I had
And promised next time he opened up his mouth
And then they floated out dirty blue balloons
I've waited so long without you
I've waited too long for you
I've waited so long without you
I've waited too long for you
Nothing helps and no one else can make it feel okay
Float me through the day
Nothing helps and no one else can make it feel alright
Float me through the night
I've got a catacomb with fur covered Styrofoam
So come over now and sleep
Time isn't here again, wasted thoughts that could've been
Now we can devise our plan
Daylight, daylight
Daylight won't find us here
I've got a catacomb with flags that flew fifty years ago
Let sleep overcome your mind
God isn't safe again, molest trees and chop down men
So we must revise our plan
Daylight, daylight
Daylight won't find us here
Daylight, daylight
Daylight won't find us here
Daylight, daylight
I'm sick with the guilt and I'm dipped in the anger
And sex is the thing that has brought me disease
I want to hurt people, especially ones I know
I'm so fucking scared I just wish I could go
But go to the store or the park or the mountains
I'll still be sick there as the anger spews from me like fountains
Like fountains
I can break things, things plastic but things I'll remember I broke it's
the the gnawing, the clawing,
The scraper inside wants to clean out all that's inside so there's only
without
A numb hard shell is how they'll find me let me show you my best
I won't be that easy to find...
I will fit in with the rest...
I will fit in with the rest
The past is still with me, it follows not stopping
Slowing me down to show me that nothing is left in my life
To say that I have changed
I'm still here obsessing and thinking of nothing
Can't even be honest with myself
I don't want to fit in with the rest
I don't feel alone
I can't seem afraid
I wanted to think
but I'll sleep it away
some thing I forgot
somewhere to sit down
some stuff to do up
some crap that I found
we're the credulous ones
on a dead machine
blowing bucks into banks with no shame
too loud in my ears
to fill up my mind
too black to ignite
two word who will bind
what blank did I draw
what kind of a day
which one had to go
whatever you say
chorus
don't try and read this
it means nothing
I can't say this
Twisting slowly up the walk
I want to get there so quickly
But my body is not doing
What I thought (a knee) could do
(the pile) is getting slippery
Your illusion's getting early
And I feel a certain panic
Flowing through me... in waves
Won't you listen
Listen to me
Won't you listen
Can't you see
Let me in
I've come (for/from) mother
Let me in
all of my unmatched disciples
floating minions laying mines
said he didn't wanna find her
sharing this spot in the shrine
said the past was worth repeating
(bring your blankets for the coin/choir)
said he'd leave with just a greeting
sharing this spot in the (slime)
please don't let me see inside
please don't let me look inside
(cut a *) to release her
spread himself among the stars
said he wanted to believe it
had a temple anyway
please don't let me look inside
please don't let me see inside
please don't let me look inside
I'm never gonna say the words that you want
I'm never gonna feel the shame like you do
I'm never gonna stretch my shame to be with you
I only need you for a day
'Cause I only wanna be your Saturday savior
I can be that Saturday savior
I will be your Saturday savior
I can be that impostor in your plan
I'm never gonna make you feel that you're satisfied
I'm never gonna feel your pain like you wish I would
I'm never gonna open up more than this
I just wanna be your
I just wanna be your Saturday savior
I can be that Saturday savior
I will be your Saturday savior
I can be that impostor in your plan
Wake him up please
I'm never gonna break it down quite like you
I'm never gonna long for life the way you do
I'm never gonna push you out
'Cause you're not in, this'll only take a while
'Cause I only wanna be your Saturday savior
I can be that Saturday savior
I will be your Saturday savior
I can be that impostor in your bed
I was thinking that
You would stay (the/to)day
Something tells me that
You'll show up to say
Bye...good....bye
Salt wound
Too soon
(if I push you gone)
You'd just let it stand
Your brain (for spray) good one
Full of rocks and sand
Grasping both confused
I (couldn't love you) more
Always (talking me but did she know the sure)
Bye...good...bye
Breathe hard
(chips start) falling down
(head/high hopes) crawling down
Please
Bye..good..bye
Salt wound
Too soon
Falling down
Breathe hard
Crawling now
(chips fall splits too deep)
(head hopes)
Bye good bye
Down by the railroad tracks, I will enjoy you
Can't feel a single thing that won't fade away
We'll laugh like we always do when we hear the whistle
So high and satisfied, let's sleep for a spell
Pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
Down at the carpet shop, you want to cut me
The patterns are laughing out, I know it's not fair
Go ahead, roll me up in your detachment
I'm here to decorate your fear for awhile
Pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You want to hold on to me
I want to hold out on you
That's what you'll tell yourself
As I fade away into your isolation
Pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
You're pitiful, laughable, once again, silent
had a piggybank
like a lion's head
knocked it off the shelf
broke down by the bed
pennies from a skyscraper can kill
i've lined up my change
on the window sill
watched for hours
people down below
the wind has frozen my eyes
lost the courage
could not push them off
pulled my head inside
let a winter pass
laying in bed
my coin have all frozen to the window sill
walked the shadowed streets
in a happy fear
looking up for change
shining through the air
watched for hours
buildings fall through clouds
the wind has frozen my eyes
lost the courage
could not hold them up
fell asleep on a bench
Muffled snaps and louder cracks
Sound of blows knocks you down
Flesh recoils and starts to swell
Hear the rushing of the blood
Carve the rage into you
I've absorbed the pain
It comes so easy
From my arm to your face
Big enough to speak again
Finds a place that's not been numbed
Sinks with lightness once again
Feel the blankness from above
crawled out of the silk sheets
watched the day seep in through slow panes
I feel strangely weakened
long to be the song to help
fixed on a different person
staring blankly through the stain there
shave off the hair she loved so
need to breathe the rules that share
chorus:
so I'm just too late
she fell
from a lucky shoreline
something in the way
she yelled
but I couldnt hear it
leave on what I am wearing
watch her cringe in open hatred
I leave my place of haven
must escape the hell we made
the road breaks clean and careful
tracking dunes across the highway
I laugh as I am careful
spinning down a canyon road
(chorus)
trembles every way
cruel day, but I couldnt save her
brought her back okay
she's dead
but nothing's missing
see me on the cliff I stand on
urgent sounds that break the silence
her laugh was nothing special
I take her with me now
The solar panel's shining face
Is smiling back on me
Twisting off into the sun
It's okay to be lonely
All my missions float away
I never trained too hard
I'm so caught up in the tree of stars
Falling in my backyard
She'll always be what I can't find
She'll always be where I break down
She'll always hide behind a star
I'll always dream, she can't be far
I've got no Houston to whine down to
I've got no protocol
Gravity's so far away
Wrapped on that shrinking ball
I eclipsed my memories
Sleeping inside this pod
Patient, time will carry me
On her back without a sigh
And I won't let her down
My soul is celestial-bound
And if I'm never found
She'll always be
She'll always be what I can't find
She'll always be where I break down
She'll always hide behind a star
I'll always dream, she can't be far
She'll always be what I can't find
She'll always be where I break down
She'll always hide behind a star
I'll always dream, she can't be far
She'll always be what I can't find
She'll always be where I break down
She'll always hide behind a star
I'll always dream, she can't be far
She'll always be what I can't find
She'll always be where I break down
She'll always hide behind a star
I'll always dream, she can't be far
She'll always be what I can't find
She'll always be where I break down
She'll always hide behind a star
Are you ready to rock n roll
Are you ready to fill my soul
All those years I try not to remember
Singin Stevie tunes in the schoolyard
The nuns would whip their sticks and
Try to make me remember
That a whie boy shouldn’t have to sing so hard
When I sang those songs the penguins said
Keep down the noise
And you’re never gonna make it as a choir boy
Thank god for failure
And the things I couldn’t do
So much of my life
It’s all I ever knew
Thank you for failure
And the mighty music
For making the dreams that chose me
Come true
Schoolin’s done now it’s time to play it serious
Forget about dreams forget about being a dude
Study business real-estate and warfare history
And just how to smile when you are being screwed
Then I bombed the test and I did the best that I can
So I finally cut my mullet and I joined a band
chorus
Are you ready to rock and roll
Are you ready to fill my soul
Thank you failure
For all those things I could not do
So much of my life
It’s all I ever knew
Thank you failure for the mighty music
Change is in my heart
You know the dreams that chose me
You made the dreams that chose me
Come true
All you did to mold this kid
You filled my heart you blew my lid
Oh you make me feel so good
Ya gimme good home cookin and gravy too
Ya gotta hop the doggie
Taught me to hop the doggie
Every day in every way hypocrites reign
Time to pay, make my day, fire away
Now...
Time has come to face the truth
About this world today, yeah me and you
Go away, disobey, pulling the chains
Every day in every way, I will remain
Now...
Time has come to face the truth
About this world today, yeah me and you
We believed in failure so we achieved this hatred
We believed in failure yeah we achieved this hatred
Inside there's an angel trying to figure it out,
what is making him sad
Hold on when he dies from sadness' cause
the moment that I...
We believed in failure yeah we achieved this hatred
Now I will compete with the demons
that feed on the sleeping, they're eating
and sucking on eyeballs and chewing
on spines but they can't be divine
So I'd rather be killed in this war than to run...
don't you see they're trying to eat our souls?
Like the feeling you get when you're losing it all..
I'll defeat them even if it's the last thing I do
I will curse them to hell, where they belong
So I say hell no way, go fuck you all
I remain on my way, where I belong
Hello?
Please lock all your doors tonight, keep on your candlelight
There is a chance tonight that they will try to strike
Lock all your doors tonight, children also inside
There is a chance that I will have to sacrifice
You never knew cuz I swear you never tried
Declared your pain dug a hole for you to hide so
So was it good for you?
Now you sweat or is it tears
Burn a hole in you for years
Defend the lie can you look into your eyes so
So was it good for you?
Don't be no failure
Why you got to play up
All the times that it went wrong
Hey, shit goes bad
You act like it never has
You're such a failure
Why you got to play up
Hey, shit goes bad
You act like it never has
I bet a dime that you never realize
There went your life now you want to be suprised so
So does it get to you?
So now you're all alone playing tricks on your mind
You'd be better off just committing suicide so
We are what's left behind
I can feel It call my name
These worlds that I have taken
Will stay with me as lies
No they won't leave their victim
I know that we are on their list of deeds
The decomposing lifeform
Our tortured earthly souls are waiting to be freed
Their day has only just begun
And any killing bird stays to the bitter end
They take the pain
That you have given to me
If only I could bring against this world the feeling of
myself now choking it's not safe you're running from help
If I was blind I'd see the strain of being here embodied
to be a victim of the earth and now I'm trapped inside.
It's too late for us now, the wheels are in motion
Hear broken regrets, I fear you're out of time,
Death is coming, your life's a failure,
He used to be a singer in a rock and roll band
He would write the songs and I'd tremble at his hand
But oh, la, la, he lost poetic ethic
And his songs were pathetic, he's a failure now
And he used to be the life and soul of everyone around
You'd never catch him looking up and never see him down
But oh, la la, he couldn't raise a smile
No, not for a while and he's a failure now
Don't cry, child, you've got so much more to live for
Don't cry, child, you've got something I would die for
And if it comes to the rain, just be glad you'll smile again
'Cause so many don't and so many go unnamed
People push right past me shouting their exclaims
A preacher pushes me aside and asked to wash my sins
I said no, la, la, if he made me in his image
Then he?s a failure too
And I used to need a couple o? people keep my head down
Now I need a whole lot more to keep me on the ground
But oh, la, la, I gave up something and I gave it up for nothing
And I am a failure now
Don?t cry, child, you've got so much more to live for
Don?t cry, child, you've got something I would die for
And if it comes to the rain, just be glad you'll smile again
Maybe I, I didn't seem to have a thing left to say
I bottled it far away
Maybe I, I tried too hard to find someone to blame
Maybe it's me who changed
And now, I'm left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
Maybe I, I didn't seem to give everything away
Not because I needed you to stay, and I
I couldn't face the fears I left far behind
I try to answer every question to why
I'm left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
Maybe you couldn't see
All the pain inside of me
And now I feel like this was all for nothing
'Cause I'm left with nothing, I'm left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
So what if I lost everything
Failure to include an explanation
Our lives breathe no excuse of this
It's our fault if we don't amount to anything
How frequently we point the blame to our failures
Is this what we call freedom or liberation?
A distance far too great for words
Our focus is based off of what we say I had it all
As actions are a footnote of the past
I wanted something real
Hoping you would stay
As our voices fade
We'll find out what this means
I hear your calling reveal your heart
When pride fades
You need no explanation here's my heart
And I am yours
There is no greater gift then this
Our anger flows in every breath
When man made passion starts to fade
In fear will you be standing here?
When voices fade on passion
I was never good enough
I was the best at letting you down
Failure my middle name
The pain to be around you
All I wanted was a good word from you, just one word
Now I'm looking back and all of the days seem the same
Looking for acceptance and shelter from the rain
Maybe not my potential, but it feels like I tried
All I really wanted was the sense of pride
I'm sorry for being your disappointment
I know how much it meant to you
I know that you can't stand the fucking sound
Now I'm close but still so far away
this place in my mind I can't seam to find
the depression will be my fall, my fall back to it all
now I'm there again trapped in this hole full of shit
the depression will be my fall, my fall back to it all
Visions and expectations
Runs through our head
Oceans of emotions
Flows till we're dead
Failure
Unavoidable failure
Failure
Irreversible failure
Failure
In the end failure
Failure
We Will die in failure
Extravagance, abjection
Yourself in insomnia
Relaxation, extratension
Fulfilled of phobia
Failure
Unavoidable failure
Failure
Irreversible failure
Failure
In the end failure
Failure
We Will die in failure
Joy and sadness
All around us
From light to darkness
Verse 1:
Deafened by silence
I scream out loud
No one hears me
As my body falls to the ground
I reach out for you, but you turn away
Can't you see my love will never fade away?
Chorus 1:
I cry out to you
I cry out to God
No one hears me
Are my cries in vain?
Someone listen to me
Please hold out your hand
I'm drowning in sorrow
My insides are now dead
Verse 2:
My heart grows cold
As black as the night
The pain in my soul
Will never subside
Something hurts
That I have never felt
This pain is too much
Without someone else
Chorus 2:
I cry out to you
And cry out to God
No one hears me
Are my cries in vain?
Someone listen to me
Please hold out your hand
I'm drowning in sorrow
My insides are now dead
Bridge 1:
My life has been destroyed
My soul has been raped
I hear the mocking laugh
Of those whom decide my fate
As time grows cold
I feel lust in my mind
Through all this pain
My dreams I cannot hold
My life was a ploy
As fake as my smile
Through all this pain
Death I've felt awhile
I push myself, I strive for the best
Truth and honor lies in my chest
My heart is strong, your's is weak
Freedom from you is what I seek
Try to break me, you have failed me
Bottom feeder searching for higher ground
But the smell of bullshit fills the air
Whenever you're around
You failed me and you've let down even more
Come to the fore and step out
You can't reside here anymore
I'm holding boulders while a pebble's what fills your hand
I know you're worthless right now
There's no need to remand
You're just a failure, your kind is expected to drop
I'm standing firm in my ways
No you can't throw failure over your shoulder
If you don't look after - you gonna look back
No you can't hurry forward...it's holding you back
In the grip of an onset you run for a cover
To hide from your Mother and your sister
Your brother...through you long to tell of
The stone that remains - you can't move a
Muscle - you're wrapped up in chains...so you
Wait in your room - bound to the doom
To talk with the skeleton in the closet...
So you waited for days and you walked
In the maze and you lay on your bed
With your head in a daze and high in
A corner in a cupboard on a shelf
You turn a corner and walk into yourself
And you check your condition and your
Shape and your health...
So you open the door with a look
On your face, your hands in your
pockets and your family to face
And you go downstairs and you sit in
The nightmares came back
When she turned seventeen
Twisted faces in her windows
Painted dark red and obscene
The note that she left only said one thing
What choice did I have
When the last thing you've got left is your heart
There's still one place left where you won't be alone
Won't you come home
The aftermath
Of such a pointless crime
The fire only took one life
Her father, and mine
But if I could tell her only one thing
I understand now
When the last thing you've got left is your heart
There's still one place left where you won't be alone
The last thing you've got left is your heart
There's still one place left where you won't be alone
Won't you come home
How did this happen
How did I not see
Where was I when she needed me
How did this happen
How did I not see
Where was I when she needed me
How did this happen
How did I not see
Where was I when she needed me
How did this happen
How did I not see
Where was I when she needed me
I'm a failure
If I could tell her only one thing
When the last thing you've got left is your heart
There's still one place left where you won't be alone
Won't you come home
Won't you come home
if you don't expect too much from me, then i won't let you down - sometimes it's hard to breathe 'cuz i'm too busy actin' like a clown - people don't seem to like me, they think i'm rude, they say i'm crude - can't even be my best friend, 'cuz i hate myself, and i hate you too -- 'cuz i'm the king - original loser, i'm not a wannabe - born to lose, mouth of a sailor, there's not much more to me - i'm a failure -- 'cuz when i make love, my hand falls asleep - i said my own body don't wanna be next to me - 'cuz charlie manson and the son of sam - i say they're my two main idols, now, i wanna be - just like them
The time has come to see
What has become of me
Nothing but living scars
I am filled with rage
Because I'm older in age
And I feel so stuck
Everything I've ever done
I never feel like I have won
Failing at everything
Shame and guilt is all I feel
All this pain, all this time - I feel like I am always
blind
Honesty painful truth - all I want to do is try
The time has come to see
What has become of me
Nothing
Failure
I just try to keep my head up
Or I will wither and die
I'm tired of failing - I must stand strong and proud
I can't be defeated - I won't let myself down
Pathetic
To live life close minded
M. Bjærk, A. Bjærk, Bryntse
A piece of my mind wander away
A sudden movement by a cloud
Darkened the sky above
Only a light shines through me
And takes me far beyond my failure
I vanish in my endless hall
Dimensions pass me as I fall
A cry for help is growing strong
And leads to nothings greatest lounge
Futile my life
Futile my death
I am myself
I am my failure
Deep down below echoes the tide
And drowns the feelings kept inside
The power haunts me like a ghost
Leads me to places I fear most
Inward withering in my soul
Procreation, Generation, Supervision
Robotic transmissions, bionic transplantations
Human's control of species aspirations
Synthetic illusions, genetic manipulations
Pathetic condition of the kind of creation
But he king has failed
In the curse to reveal
To light the invisible
The king is lost
Dual personality
That haunts each moment of this lie called slavery
Abundant thoughts bring me madness
Cut inside my newly turned subconscious mind
Why is there so much hatred
When, did it become true
Why is this grief consuming me
This can´t be true
Sometimes in my newborn dawn
I wish the sun, I wish the light could be no more
But I´m wrong
Sometimes in my silent tomb, the lifeless call
And ask me to embrace the cold
But I won´t
Why, can I be so wrong
When, did I loose [sic] my focus
What turned my sky into a blurry black pit
This isn't true
Time to come back and defeat my demons
The brightest of lights shines
So hidden in my soul
My paralyzed
Drowned feelings
Need to be no more
Every falling tear hurts more,
I am a failure, I hurt the ones I love
I am the blade that cuts myself
I try to change
Why, is there so much hatred
When, did it become true
Why is this grief consuming me
This monster can't be true
Help me, save me
You, must appear
Sorrow needs to leave me
Forever, needs to fade away
The first string is supposed to be the strongest one
Irony
The first string is supposed to lead the lost
Save me
Take me again, and let me come in forever
I have really tried, but my trying is a pity
Let me see the light around me.
The first string is broken by my deeds
Irony
I have it all, I had it all, but my existence is so
wrong
Save me
The garden of delights is next to my inferno
I have really tried
What is wrong?
Help me, save me
The hidden light must appear
Sorrow needs to leave me
Forever, needs to fade away
My paralyzed
Drowned feelings
Need to be no more
Why, is there so much hatred
When, did it become true
Why, is this grief consuming me
A piece of hate,
No time to breathe, too late.
Reminisce it was never fate.
Look deeper, it breathes inside.
Won't you lend me your eyes?
Lend me your eyes!
Green, this is torturing me,
Colours blurred and burst within me.
Burning up my pride,
I need to rip out my eyes,
Fucking rip out my eyes!
Does Everyone
Feel like this?
Won't someone
Quote my existence?
In absence of empathy,
There lies insecurity.
Blurred fucked self depiction,
Built upon other's image description.
Walk back and out of light,
Guaranteed to bleed tonight.
I can't stand to watch.
Does anybody really know me?
Does anybody know a thing about me?
Does anybody fucking know me?
I think I'm going crazy!
I need not to be,
Alone in a selfish misery,
I need to focus on me.
I need to rip out my eyes,
Fucking rip out my eyes!
What?
What?
What the fuck?
Failure.
I've had enough of falling,
Wanna tear myself some wings.
Let me fade or fly away,
She was the first I ever knew
Came from the mainland on the east side
She said, "Don? t follow me, don? t follow me, you? ll get lost
If you follow me, if you follow me you? ll get lost"
She? s not your regular Mrs. Robinson
She got him drunk so she could sneak out the hotel
I played a little song, I got it all wrong
It sounded like easy lover
Well, she left and she smiled, didn? t look like her type
Looked like genesis
She said, "Hey, don? t let a little failure get you down"
She said, "Hey, don't let a little failure get you down"
She said, "Hey, don't let a little failure get you down"
? Cause it happens to the best of us
She asked me which way I wanted to go
I was too young to know the difference
When she showed me a trick, I couldn? t handle it
I was too nervous
So she gave me a wink, said I would thank her for it
In the future when the other girls are lining up
Don't let a little failure get you down
She said, "Hey, don't let a little failure get you down"
She said, "Hey, don't let a little failure get you down"
She said, "Hey, don't let a little failure get you down"
She said, "Hey, don't let a little failure get you down"
She said, "Hey, don? t ever let the failure get you down"
yes again I failed- I didn't act manly
once again I failed- I showed weakness- I was hurt
but still I'm human. You can't refuse your feelings
you can't deny your emotions. I'm no superior being
still nothing but human
I'm despised because of emotions
you, you wake my fear. My fear to fail lies in you
once again you laugh at me because you think that I'm weak
but still I'm human, every man is (even you)
no superior being - still nothing but human
expected to be strong
you despise me because i fear
yes you're taught to be strong taught to be rough- used to deny yourself
how could you accept yourself if you're ashamed
how can you say that you're free if you don't fully accept yourself
I can't become what you said
Perfection is running through my head
Because I fall short of your glory
The candles lit but running out god be my match
Light me up like napalm gas and let me spread
The candles lit but running out god be my match
Light me up like napalm gas and let me spread
I fall so fast I'm scared I'll hit the ground
My sin is desperate to show it's so profound
I fall so fast I'm scared I'll hit the ground
My sin is desperate to show it's so profound
{Chorus}
Through these open eyes I can see you standing there
Tragic hope has taken me and I'm lost in my despair
Pick me up I've fallen save me I have drowned
Without you here beside me I become I failure now
Through these open eyes I can see you standing there
Tragic hope has taken me and I'm lost in my despair
I fall afflicted toward you my face in on the ground
In you I find forgiveness I'm not a failure now!
The world wants perfection and that what I can't do
Expecting me to act and walk flawless like you
The world wants perfection and that what I can't do
Expecting me to act and walk flawless like you
{Chorus}
Through these open eyes I can see you standing there
Tragic hope has taken me and I'm lost in my despair
Pick me up I've fallen save me I have drowned
Without you here beside me I become I failure now
Through these open eyes I can see you standing there
Tragic hope has taken me and I'm lost in my despair
I fall afflicted toward you my face in on the ground
