There's Beer
In coffee mugs, water bottles, and soda cups
And it's clear, as the wondows I came through
That you
Are in one of those moods
And I am in one of them too
And it's hard, to communicate, anything
I will remember that summer
As the summer I was taking steroids
Cause you like a man with muscles
And I like you
It's the "cops are comming in" type of sobering up
It's a girl that never learned that I could not give enough
My friends are happy, I'm happy, I've learned to adapt
To this darker kind of humor, I can still hear em' laugh
And ther is beer
It is in coffee mugs, water bottles and soda cups
And it's clear as the window I came through
I will remember that summer
As the summer I was taking steroids
Cause you like a man with muscles
And I like you
And it's an arial view from your house to my room
And it's an arial view from your house to my room
And I am looking through your windows
And I am trying not to stare
I'm holding on to hope I'm sure was never even there
But it's an arial view
Your house, my room
As the summer I was taking steroids
As the summer I was taking steroids
There is a map in my room on the wall of my room and I've got big, big plans
But I can see them slipping through almost feel them slipping through
The palms of my sweaty hands
And I move slow,
Just slow enough to make you uncomfortable
You say I hate you, you mean it
And I love you sounds fake
It's taken me so long to figure that out
I used to love the taste, I would do anything for it
Now I would do anything to get the taste out of my mouth
And you're so confident,
But I hear you crying in your sleeping bag
But you were broken bad yourself
And you were mad as hell, you felt
If you had done anything with anyone else
It would have worked out so well
But you are an artist
And your mind don't work the way you want it to
One day you'll be washing yourself with hand soap in a public bathroom
And you'll be thinking, how did I get here?
Where the hell am I?
If the roles were reveresed, you could have seen me sneaking up
Sneaking up from behind
She sees these visions, she feels emotion
She says that I cannot go
she sees my plane in the ocean
And what about your friends
don't you love them enough to stay?
And I say if I don't leave now
Then I will never get away
Let me be a blue raft
On the blue sea I'll blend right in
There is a map in my room on the wall of my room
I've got big big plans
And I can see them falling through, almost feel them slipping through
The palms of my sweaty hands
But you were broken bad yourself
And you were mad as hell, you felt
If you had done anything with anyone else
It would have worked out so well
But you are an artist
And your mind don't work the way you want it to
One day you'll be washing yourself with hand soap in a public bathroom
And you'll be saying, how did I get here?
Where the hell am I?
If the roles were reveresed, you could have seen me sneaking up
Staring at unfamiliar ceilings and I should leave
'Cause everybody here is tripping some new drug
except for me (WHY?)
'Cause I don't have the money
I have been thinking about letting my hair grow
I have been thinking about cutting it short
I have been thinking about dying it yellow
But I don't think I have the bone structure or wardrobe
to support
That type of look
And I will tattoo my poems all over my body
They won't know who I was before
I will cut off my fingers, no ID to find me
When I am washed up on the New Jersey shore
Talk to myself too often trying hard to figure out
Why all these feelings that lie in my stomach
Are always pushing for my mouth
So I will learn to sleep on my chest
And I will learn to let things go
And I will learn to come to terms with the things that
I will never know
And I will tattoo my poems all over my body
They won't know who I was before
I will cut off my fingers, no ID to find me
When I am washed up on the New Jersey shore
I'll take what I can get, I'll take what I am given,
but we both know that I'll need more.
I'll take what I can get, I'll take what I am given,
but we both know that I'll need more.
So much more.
And I will tattoo my poems all over my body
They won't know who I was before
I will cut off my fingers, no ID to find me
Come on, give me a break,
What is the point if I stay?
There's not that much I can say,
I never really even knew your mom anyway
And now she's crying in the bathroom,
I'm standing on the back porch for support,
And she is begging you not to cut your hair,
'Cause curly hair don't look good cut short
And you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again,
Yeah, you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again, again
You got a rash on your neck,
Just below the line,
Where your shirt stops covering and leaves your skin bare,
It's such an unimportant detail,
That has nothing to do with anything,
But it's the only thing I remember,
From when I cut your hair
And you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again,
Yeah, you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again,
And there are not so many options
There's not so many ways,
That this could possibly end,
So you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again, again
So you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again
Yeah, you have gotta do this now,
Or you can never come home again,
And there are not so many options
There's not so many ways,
That this could possibly end,
So you have gotta do this now,
There are things I wish you'd do more often
Like laugh and talk to me
I understand that everybody's got their problems
But you've seem to have a little more than anybody
There are things I think we will come to regret
And the majority of them are me
I know there are things that you have come to except
Bur right now, believe me, believe me, show me some
respect
And I know that you know me like nobody else
It's just hard to explain, I like to be by myself
And it's like having a question when no one will help
And you're just one of those books, there's a lot on
the shelf
And there are things that we could do to make ourselves
stand out
But we won't, no we won't
There are things I wish you wouldn't take from me
Like my cell phone, my wallet, my car keys, and my
dignity
I know you think that we've had too much to drink
But I haven't, let it go, let it be, let me enjoy the
party
There are things I think we will come to regret
And the majority of them are me
I know there are things that you have come to except
Bur right now, believe me, believe me, show me some
respect
And I know that you know me like nobody else
It's just hard to explain, I like to be by myself
And it's like having a question when no one will help
And you're just one of those books, there's a lot on
the shelf
And there are things that we could do to make ourselves
stand out
But we won't, no we won't
There are things I wish you'd do more often
Like laugh and talk to me
I understand that everybody's got their problems
But you've seem to have a little more than anybody
There are things I think we will come to regret
And the majority of them are me
I know there are things that you have come to except
Bur right now, believe me, believe me, show me some
respect
And I know that you know me like nobody else
It's just hard to explain, I like to be by myself
And it's like having a question when no one will help
And you're just one of those books, there's a lot on
the shelf
And there are things that we could do to make ourselves
stand out
You've got me stuck to where I'm sitting
Looking at your eyes
Then I know I'm so pathetic
I wouldn't move to save my life
They tell me that you're lonely
It's no surprise
When you walk around all day wearing those
Lonely lonely lonely lonely eyes
Well I try to tell you jokes
I'm afraid to cry
And if you need a little sunshine you can borrow some
of mine
It's okay if you're unhappy I would say before I leave
Just take a look around there's no one here that's
happy either
Lonely girl you are my world
And I could be anything you need
And if for some reason you don't feel like talking
I can just sit and enjoy your company
Your company
The days keep going by
And it doesn't get much better
She could be threatening to jump
And all of your friends would scream "let her"
They count on you to leave
Cause it has always been that way
But on the one day they close early
That's the one you want to stay
Lonely girl you are my world
And I could be anything you need
And if for some reason you don't feel like talking
I can just sit and enjoy your company
Your company
Lonely girl you are my world
And I could be anything you need
And if for some reason you don't feel like talking
I can just sit and enjoy your company
I am washing my hair with soap
I am sitting down in the shower
It is this dirty type of clean
That keeps me trapped in here for hours
Still I scrub and scrub until my body bleeds
Convince myself I am coming clean
Forget and ignore who I used to be
That kid is never coming back
Relax my muscles
And all of a sudden I am scared.
All of a sudden I can't breathe.
All of a sudden I am nothing
In this moment
You are everything
She says can you feel that?
Oh, what a marvelous sensation
She says could you please take me off speaker phone
This is a private conversation
And I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap, with soap
But there is air inside of my lungs
And it is keeping me afloat
He says his grandpa's in the mafia
He is the nicest guy I know.
So I will run and run
Maybe drive my car
Baby, look at me now, I have come so far
And I don't know where my family's from
But I've got this stereotypical temper
I cannot shake
Relax the muscles in my face
And all of a sudden I am scared.
All of a sudden I can't breathe.
All of a sudden I am nothing
In this moment
You are everything
She says can you feel that?
Oh, what a mervelous sensation
She says could you please take me off speaker phone
This is a private conversation
And I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap
I love to wait,
I love girls with ex- boyfriends that they really aren't over.
And I love new mexico,
I love places I've never been.
I love the idea of places I'll never go.
So I'm swinging like a fist fight concrete colored basement,
Alright alright
Lets keep this clean,
As clean as you like.
And it probably won't get easier,
Just easier to hide.
Prepare for an aching the rest of your life.
I'm playing dead,
I've faked my death.
And I keep pretending if nothing else for the sake of the tradition.
And I am confident (confident)
Even if it makes no sense,
I will say I love you back to the love that I am given.
So I'm swinging like a fist fight concrete colored basement
Alright alright,
Lets keep this clean,
As clean as you like.
And it proably won't get easier,
Just easier to hide.
Prepare for an aching the rest of your life.
Prepare for an aching,
The rest of your life.
So I'm swinging like a fist fight concrete colored basement,
Alright alright
Lets keep this clean,
As clean as you'd like.
And it proably won't get easier,
Just easier to hide.
I think you think I'm someone else
Maybe it's me and you've been myself
And this is only a cry for help
You said watch me fade away.
She's cleaning out the closets
Because there's not much more to keep
Well I am laying on the bathroom floor
I choke myself to sleep.
You can not explain to someone
who will never understand
Because I just jumped out your window
and I can not wait til I land.
I need to stop playing out relationships
inside of my head.
Because every one of my memories
is filled with shit you never even said.
And I fell in love with a girl who I will never see
again.
It makes me sad in my head
to think how happy we could have been.
And now it's hard to sing along
when you never knew the words
'cause I swear you're talking lies
and you could swear that I misheard.
And now the ship, it's going down
And I am not sure what to think
Well I am going back to bed
'Cause I refuse to watch her sink.
We'll buy balloons, we'll let them go.
When I get back, I'll let you know
that everything will be the same.
You can't deny what you can't change.
And if you're happy, well then, you're happy.
We could leave it all at that.
Pretend you're happy and I'll be happy.
Then I'll try to make it back.
Now she's cleaning out the closets
because there's not much more to keep
Well I am laying on the bathroom floor
I choke myself to sleep.
You can not explain to someone
who will never understand
Because I just jumped out your window
and I can't wait til I land.
And now the ship, it's going down
And I am not sure what to think
Well I am going back to bed
Well, the sun was made for people who were never gonna
touch it
but keep their heads up anyway
And my notebook's filled with stories, some of them
have kept their meanings
most of them I've thrown away
And my phone calls with the stranger
And we have nothing in common
And I have nothing to say
Fingertips find the pulse now
As the heart begins to slow down
And a best friend slips away
It used to go question and then answer
But we were younger and it was easy
And now it goes question and then question,
Question, answers don't come so easy
But I am a grown-up, so I should find something to
occupy my time
Instead of notebooks filled with nonsense
Looking for answers I'll never find.
Sometimes you talk when you are sleeping about things
that have no meaning
but I listen anyway
I have been thinking about leaving, but my best options
say to stay
I think I'll lay down in the street and let the cars
drag me away
"You know what I mean?" I think you ask me when you're
done telling me your story
But I am drunk and I have been ignoring every single
word you say.
And now you show me new tattoos as my fingers touch
your skin
You say they all have so much meaning, while colored
ink is sinking in.
It used to go question and then answer
But we were younger and it was easy
And now it goes question and then question,
Question, answers don't come so easy
But I am a grown-up, so I should find something to
occupy my time
Instead of notebooks filled with nonsense
You know what I think's really sad?
I know how really sad you are
I'm probably going to leave real soon
I just want to let you know before I say
Au Revoir, Au Revoir
I bet you don't even know what that means
Au Revoir, Au Revoir
I bet you don't even know what that means
She says "Oh, it's French, I know what it means
You don't have to be so mean
If you want to leave, why don't you go?"
Right before she walks away, I'm pretty sure I hear her say
Adios, Adios
I bet you think I don't know what that means
Adios, Adios
I bet you think I don't know what that means
Rock and Roll, Rock and Roll
You probably don't understand what I mean
Rock and Roll, Rock and Roll
the end of the world makes me nervous
'cause i, for one, have not found god yet.
or someone to fall in love with
rob a bank, shoot a cop with.
i watched this girl being choked
by a man she hardly knows
in a room full of strangers
that probably don't know her name.
the first time i had sex it was a stranger in a
bathroom.
my friends were right, and since that day it felt the
same.
i want to go back
to when i laughed
at things i thought were funny.
i like running when it's dark out
and the people in the cars drive fast
'cause they wanna get home.
and their high beams blind me.
it reminds me:
just bad timing,
reasons i'm alone.
i watched this girl being choked
by a man she hardly knows
in a room full of strangers
who probably don't know her name.
the first time i had sex was in a bathroom with a
stranger.
and my friends were right,
and since that day it felt the same.
and i wanna go back to when i laughed
at things i thought were funny.
and it goes
and it goes
at my funeral, don't lie.
tell them i did not want to die.
at my funeral, don't lie.
tell 'em i didn't wanna die.
at my funeral, don't lie.
i didn't wanna die.
What the fuck?
How could this happen to me?
There's a million different people
walking down a million different streets
I wonder if your Mom knew, the second that the car
rolled in your direction
I wonder if your mom knew, should have told about a
thousand bad decisions
Stop asking questions and learn to accept
that the things that we have right now are the best
things that we've had yet
It's getting dark
This wasn't part of the plan
I'm closing my eyes and I will never open them again
Oh no no, I've got numbers I could call
Start problems I don't need
Start trouble with my friends that won't even matter
when I leave
And I've got numbers I could call
Start problems I don't need
Start trouble with my friends that won't even matter
when I leave
Hey Molly, how you doin'?
I'm doing fine
I feel alright
No, I feel better than alright [x2]
Stumbled upon some of the art you drew
While me and your neighbors were trying to clean out
your room
And it was hard, especially for your mom
Cause your friends are here and they miss you, but they
will eventually move on
And I've got numbers I could call
To forget about today
But I would rather sit alone, think of things that I
would say
And I would write it in a letter and I will bury it in
my backyard
And we will always think about you, cause you remind us
of who we are
Hey Molly, how you doin'?
I'm doing fine
I feel alright
No, I feel better than alright [x8]
I feel fine!
I feel better than alright!
I feel fine!
I feel fine!
Don't mind me I'm only
Trying to get used to
That awkward inside that comes with standing next to
They'll ask me are you okay
And I will say yes and walk away
But I've been reading all the signs
And it's not looking good for me
Cause I will never have the balls and I will never grow
the nerve
To go driving at full speed, crash head first into the
curb
You are so beautiful to everyone around you
The only reason for the push-ups is the fact I know, I
can't support you
If you wanna know why, I'm not sleeping tonight
It's because I'm scared you will never know
All the reasons why, I'm about to cry
The way I feel inside, the way I feel in
Bullshit conversations, won't last long
Cause you won't fake them, can't last long cause you
got took away
Sitting by myself your better off with some one else
It would have helped if i knew what to say
Knew what to say, if I knew what to say
If you wanna know why, I'm not sleeping tonight
It's because I'm scared you will never know
All the reasons why, I'm about to cry
The way I feel inside, the way I feel in
I can't let you leave
I won't let you leave
Tonight's not his night
You're staying with me
You're so beautiful to every one around you
The only reason for the push-ups is the fact i know i
can't support you
If you wanna know why, I'm not sleeping tonight
It's because I'm scared you will never know
All the reasons why, I'm about to cry
Love how you disagree
to tell me that I'm wrong
when every bone is healed
and every stitch is sewn.
I've got some words to share
but she don't like my tone.
I've got some words to share,
she won't pick up her phone.
She's got some medicine.
I'm choking on the pills.
She shouldn't feel this way,
a lack of social skills.
He'll take her out tonight.
She'll have an awesome time.
The only thing that's lost,
the only thing that's mine.
And I'm gonna get on my knees
Would you kick me in the face please?
It'll make whatever I say
sound like poetry.
And as the ghost begins to bleed
the words will fall like teeth
and whatever we have locked up now is free.
You're talking with your friends
Secrets they'll never keep
They're sitting on your bed
And all you want is sleep
Pretend that this is fake
It helps to kill the pain
All that you want is different
All that you'll get is same
There's nothing more to say
I think I've said it all
I'm sitting on the edge
I'm waiting for the fall.
I'll check my messages
They'll say you want a fight?
I'm turning off my phone.
How high were you last night?
And I could get on my knees
Would you kick me in the face please?
It'll make whatever I say sound like poetry.
And as the ghost begins to bleed
The words will fall like teeth
And whatever we have locked up now is free.
I'm gonna get on my knees
Would you kick me in the face please?
It'll make whatever I say sound like poetry.
And as the ghost begins to bleed
the words will fall like teeth
and whatever we have locked up now is free.
And I'm scared I'm gonna die as lonely as I feel right
now.
And I'm scared I'm gonna die as lonely as I feel right
now.
And I'm scared I'm gonna die as lonely as I feel right
Sometimes you get sad when we're together
Because you're not sure if you'll miss me when I’m gone
Just try to appreciate what you got wile you got it
So if it ever goes away, you can say you enjoyed it
while it lasted
Sometimes I don't feel like singing, I don't really
like these songs
Sometimes I don't feel like dancing, DJ please don't
turn the beat on
Let’s keep it quiet, keep me honest, and keep me true
Keep me in love; keep me believing it's with you
But who's gonna push my wheelchair around when I get
sick?
God forbid I ever stop feeling sorry for myself, for
being selfish
This is not the way I plan on living for the rest of my
life
But for right now, it gets me by, it gets me by
It’s reached the point in the night where I need to
decide
Whether I’m gonna fall asleep or watch the sunrise
We’re both into letting this develop
But the sound of starting over always sounded much
better
But I won't stop this, and you won't stop this
It’ll probably go further than either of us wants it
It all comes down to the fact that I don't care to
Sacrifice a good time 'cause someone says I have to
Next thing I know, I am removing all my clothes
And you are dancing around the room to some song on the
radio
You say I deserve it, what's coming, the good and the
I don't regret it, how could it? You were the best I
ever had
I ever had, I ever had, I ever had, I ever
Who’s gonna push my wheelchair around when I get sick?
God forbid I ever stop feeling sorry for myself, for
being selfish
This is not the way I plan on living for the rest of my
life
She's grinding her teeth
It's giving her headaches
Every breath that her words take
But she knows, that everyone of them have got to come out
Or they won't forgive her
The words will mean nothing
The only thing they need is for the words to come out
And we are so dishonest, so dishonest now
And this is what you're all about
And we are so dishonest, so dishonest now
So dishonest with ourselves
Now holding your breath and say what you're thinking
Is anyone else burning up?
Can I open a window? Should I tell them enough?
Should I tell them enough?
It's okay to give up
'Cause nobody here could care less
It's okay to give up
And we are so dishonest, so dishonest now
So dishonest with ourselves
And we are so dishonest, so dishonest now
And this is what you're all about
Keep yourself distant anger mode
Unhappy and alone
Distant anger mode
Unhappy and alone
And we are so dishonest, so dishonest now
So dishonest with ourselves
And we are so dishonest, so dishonest now,
My head has thoughts.
What a ridiculous way to start.
She said, "Well, what about my chest?
Or, more specifically, my heart."
Whenever I am alone or feeling lonely,
I pretend I can play the drums inside my head and I am good.
They love these songs.
They love my songs.
But I am not a dirty god,
and I don't have a dirty body.
And I am alone only half the time.
The other half, I am only hiding.
And she was getting high.
Yeah, she was smoking pot.
I'm pretty sure I'm the only guy she's hooked up with tonight.
But probably, oh, probably not.
Who did I think I was?
Who did I think I could be?
Oh, how dare me.
Oh, how dare me.
And there's a voice in the back of my head.
In the back of my head, says:
"Let him be, just let him be happy."
I'm gonna go crazy.
I am the water, in the puddle in the shade of a tree.
When I freeze over, you are the sun.
You cannot touch me.
And the tree feels bad.
I can tell by the way it felt.
But it still won't move, so the ice won't melt.
No, it won't move, so the ice won't melt.
But I am not a dirty god,
and I don't have a dirty body.
And I am alone only half the time.
The other half, I am only hiding.
Keep my body alive.
Keep my arms reaching out towards anyone.
But I am not a dirty god,
and I don't have a dirty body.
And I am alone only half the time.
The other half, I am only hiding.
And we were getting, hahahahaha, high.
And I was smoking pot.
I'm pretty sure I am the only guy she's hooked up with tonight.
I don't see me mad at situations, I see me turn and
walk away
I see a tattoo on my right thigh that I will probably
regret one day
Yeah, I will probably regret one day
But now, I am happy to be bonding in a kitchen with my
friends
A spool of thread, a few more good vibes, a safety pin
and a ballpoint pen
A safety pin and a ballpoint pen
A safety pin and a ballpoint pen
And a ballpoint pen
But there are answers here, they're just harder to
figure out
Since all your questions got harder to dodge and dip
around
And there is nothing wrong with my lifestyle
No matter how many times I tell myself to breathe in,
hold it, hold it, now let it out, now let it out
One day I will realize I don't need this because it is
just not who I am
Until that day comes, I'll keep my eyes closed, and I
will try to feel all of the effects
Yeah, I will try to feel all of the effects
And now I am talking way too fast and a little bit
louder than I should,
Trying to say thank you for understanding my side of
the story the best that you could
My side of the story the best that you could
My side of the story the best that you could
The best that you could
But there are answers here, they're just harder to
figure out
Since all your questions got harder to dodge and dip
around
And there is nothing wrong with your lifestyle
No matter how many times they tell themselves just
breathe in, hold it, hold it, now let it out
And this is how the cool boyfriend sits in the
passenger seat of his girlfriend's car
He's lookin' at me, I wish the light would turn green,
set me free, oh set me free, oh set me
Teach my rolling veins where there's a will, there is a
Just cut me open, let me drain, oh let me drain, oh let
me drain, oh let me
I'll move to Florida, and I'll buy a brand new pick-up
truck
And I'll tint all the windows including the driver's
side
Now you can't see me, so you can't touch me
When I sit at the red light and watch your boyfriend
wonder if I'm inside
Flying model rockets own the sky in the backyard next to
mine
I get these strange phone calls at night with no one on
the other side
My brother's friend explains to me with breathless words
and bloody knees
It's a black eyed trust, respect with pain.
A love I'll learn when I've been through the same.
But there's nothing in California that you could not
learn to hate here
The questions will all still be waiting for you, the
answers will only be less clear
It's hard to say what I would do if I was back a year or
Look at our plans, try to understand what could have
happened to all of them.
Flying model rockets own the sky in the backyard next to
mine
I get these strange phone calls at night with no one on
the other side
My brother's friend explains to me with breathless words
and bloody knees
It's a black eyed trust, respect with pain.
Space age crystals
I've been growing 'em since I was a kid
Like my mother plays the lottery
'Til I get rich some other way or she wins it
And there is someone out there just like me, probably keeping to themselves
I know CPR, I know mouth-to-mouth
When your legs give in and your lungs give out
I will blow air into your open mouth
Baby, I can spit this game all day
I swear to god the devil made me do it
It's a shame the bad habits are the hardest ones to break
Our love's a dangerous, dangerous game
One that I'm definitely losing, can not walk away
But there is someone out there just like me, probably keeping to themselves
I know CPR, I know mouth-to-mouth
When your legs give in and your lungs give out
I will blow air into your open mouth
Baby, I can spit this game all day
I wanna make tear-jerking-shower-curtain-camera's-running genius
I wanna make them think they're seeing something they ain't never seen before
But I am full of shit, I'm a plagiarist
As a liar, I'm a ten
I just want this to mean something to anyone even if they don't know who I am
I am
I am
I am
But I know CPR, I know mouth-to-mouth
When your legs give in and your lungs give out
I will blow air into your open mouth
I know CPR
Well every once in awhile she’ll find my number in her
phone and we’ll talk for hours
She’ll tell me things I would have never known about
when we were together
She’s saying sorry, it’s just such a long walk home
So she’s coming over cause it’s better than being alone
Well I will move to the city and I will sleep on a
bench in central park
And I will make new friends and we can keep all our
things in shopping carts
And when the cops come to find me new friends will hide
We will steal whatever we need for fun
And if they get suspicious it means all my new friends
will run
Well I’m not gonna sit here and deny what I think I
felt
I want what we had, just wanna feel it with someone
else
I'm not gonna sit here and deny what I'm pretty sure I
felt
I want what we had, just wanna feel it with someone
else
Well every once in a while she’ll stumble on my number
in her phone
And she drinks too much, and I’ve gotta get my number
out of her phone
Because she has the nerve to call me and tell me she
loves me
and that she’s tired of being alone
So she’s coming over because I’m a bitch and don’t know
how to say no
I just wasn’t ready
I just wasn’t cool yet
I didn’t know what I wanted
But I should have known
What I would probably get
I just wasn’t ready
I just wasn’t cool yet
I didn’t know what I wanted
But I should have known
What I would probably get
I just wasn’t ready
I just wasn’t cool yet
I didn’t know what I wanted
But I should have known
What I would probably get
I just wasn’t ready
I just wasn’t cool yet
I didn’t know what I wanted
But I should have known
What I would probably get
I’m not gonna sit here and deny what I’m pretty sure I
felt
I want what we had, just wanna feel it with someone
I am climbing
Up this mountain
So I can ride my skateboard
Right back down it
At first I am digging
Myself out of this hole
I love your eyes
The way they look
When you're uncomfortable
I bought fireworks
A big bag in Pennsylvania
I'm gonna light em up
When I get home to Jersey
They'll probably arrest me
They'll probably ruin my
Whole summer
Stop taking pictures with your phone
Stop taking pictures with your phone
The door sounded
When she shut it
As if she didn't
Really have to leave
She just needed
A separator
She needed something in between
I bought fireworks
A big bag in Pennsylvania
I'm gonna light em up
When I get home to Jersey
They'll probably arrest me
They'll probably ruin my whole summer
Stop taking pictures with your phone
Stop taking pictures with your phone
I bought fireworks
A big bag in Pennsylvania
I'm gonna light em up
When I get home to Jersey
They'll probably arrest me
They'll probably ruin my whole summer
Stop taking pictures with your phone
I walk around like a skeleton last night
Trying to find my way home
This white frame it's all that I've got left
Cause not even you could chew through my bones
I've got very strong bones
I walk around like a skeleton last night
Confused and alone
Who was I kidding I cant get past you,
You are the cops, you are my student loans
You are a head shaped hole
In a sheet rock wall
You are the pain I feel
You are the stud in the wall
Better than nothing at all
And I got so stoned
I fell asleep in the front seat
I never sleep in the front seat
I'm too tall
But I got so stoned
I fell asleep in the front seat
I never sleep in the front seat
I'm too tall
But I got so stoned
Come on, baby, calm me down
You're the only one who knows how
Reunited and it feels so good,
It's so much better than I thought it would.
Cause I feel fucked, but in a good way.
I start to cough, taste the butane.
And I can tell that he's asking her Yes or No questions
By the way she's shaking her head
From left to right, then up and down,
Then left to right again.
I'm gonna go get so stoned
I fall asleep in the front seat.
I never sleep in the front seat,
I'm too tall.
But I got so stoned
I fell asleep in the front seat.
I never sleep in the front seat,
I'm too tall.
But I got so stoned
Come on, baby, calm me down
You're the only one who knows how
I got miles to go
Till I ever get home
But the sound of your laugh
And your voice on the phone
Makes me feel like I am already there
I got so stoned
I fell asleep in the front seat
I never sleep in the front seat
I'm too tall
But I got so stoned
I fell asleep in the front seat
I never sleep in the front seat
I'm too tall
But I got so stoned
I fell asleep in the front seat
I never sleep in the front seat
I'm too tall
Sometimes I cry when I get sad
I guess it's true what they say
Emotional baby boy, emotional man (x2)
Emotional man (x2)
I am emotional
I wish we were forever lying on the Santa Monica beach
Drinking Tecate 24 ounces underneath the stars
being the superior couple, loving who I am cause what we are
I wanna confess it in a whisper that's just loud enough to make out
I want you to listen from the kitchen to me confessing on the couch
I wanna be stronger than your dad was for your mom (x2)
Where I'm standing there is a cool, cool breeze
Heavenly bodies make the devil a little uncomfortable
I guess there are some things I was just born to be
Emotional baby boy, emotional man (x2)
Emotional man (x2)
I am emotional
It's such a big city
I feel so stupid thinking I might see you if I wander around
If I do the things we used to do together and we were on the same level
You'd be doing them as well
There's something about drowning I can't shake, or someone dying anyway
I wanna confess it in a whisper that's just loud enough to make out
I want you to listen from the kitchen to me confessing on the couch
I wanna be stronger than your dad was for your mom (x2)
From where I'm standing, there is a cool, cool breeze (x2)
Emotional baby boy, emotional man (x2)
There's comfort in the bottom of a swimming pool
I'm holding my breath for you
There's no doubt in my mind that if you could then you would try
To crack my ribcage open and pull my heart right through
There's comfort in the bottom of a swimming pool
I'm holding my breath for you
There's no doubt in my mind that if you could then you would try
To crack my ribcage open and pull my heart right through
But I'm a creature of a culture that I create
I'm the last one on the dance floor
As the chandelier gives way
And I am permanently
Preoccupied with your past
I've been around long enough now
To know that the good things never last
They never last.
There's comfort in the silence of a living room
The TV is on for you
Hide in your basement while your house burns down
Your teeth are loose inside of your gums
They will eventually fall out
Follow an orange extension cord under a carpet, to a closet door
Feeding the black light that will someday make me very, very, very, very, very rich.
But I'm a creature of a culture that I create
And I'm the last one on the dance floor
As the chandelier gives way
And I am permanently
Preoccupied with your past
I've been around long enough now
To know that the good things never last
They never last.
How low is your self esteem
And how low could it possibly be?
I know, I know you're in love with me
And I've been ignoring you
I will stop cutting my pants into shorts
I will address the issues I cannot ignore
And I will do the things I think you might like
La la la la la la la la la la
Well they tell me drugs don't pay
And they say that there's no use
But I got a couple friends that say that that's not true
And they got wallets full of proof
I needed the money and it was nothing more
Than a little self-centered, self enhated youth
And now I'm in trouble, I'm leaving tomorrow
And I am taking you
La la la la la la la la la la
And I know what he's saying couldn't have been that funny
But you seem to be laughing quite loud
So I will sit and think of reasons that you think that
it's funny
But I will never figure it out
And you tell me that you're staying
But I know what you say ain't true
And then I thought I'd try to catch you with friction of
both our bodies
But then remembered that I was way too smooth
I've done it before, she don't like it
Just shut all the doors and keep quiet
You think you need more, I'll supply it
You think you need more
I love what we had it got taken away
I love what we had it got taken away
And I won't lie, no, I won't lie
And I keep taking off my clothes
And putting them right back on
'Cause there's decisions to be made
And I won't, I won't play along
I've done it before, she don't like it
Just shut all the doors and keep quiet
I tried to explain, she won't buy it
So, I won't lie to you
It's a bootleg copy of a movie I've already seen
I'll probably leave before the ending
A bootleg copy of a movie I've already seen
And I keep taking off my clothes
And putting them right back on
'Cause there's decisions to be made
And I won't, I won't play along
No, I won't play along.
I've done it before, she don't like it
Just shut all the doors and keep quiet
You think you need more, I'll supply it
And I won't lie
And I keep taking off my clothes
And putting them right back on
'Cause there's decisions to be made
And I won't, I won't play along
Will you come over tonight? I need some inspiration for
my story.
I know it's late but if you come now we'll be done by two
or three in the morning.
And as you're laying on your back, I will realize we've
gone too fast.
And then I'll stop writing the book because the book, I
realized, was boring.
And when your parents find out where you've been
They will be singing, shame, shame, shame on you.
Shame on you.
Do as we say, not as we do.
I will come over tomorrow and get the rest of my stuff
I'll give you a hug, tell you I love you and that your
love has meant so much
Then I'll try to make you laugh, I will realize it's all
gone bad
And then I'll turn and walk away, see you tomorrow
But I never will see you again.
And when your parents find out where you've been
Oh, they will just keep singing, shame, shame, shame on
you.
Shame on you.
I'll paint my face on the wall in your bedroom.
I would say anything if it would make you happy.
I'm tripping acid while you're tripping mushrooms.
I'm falling through the floors and walking on the
ceiling.
I'll paint my face on a wall in your bedroom.
I'm stabbing at the thoughts only to see what's
bleeding
While I'm tripping acid and you're tripping mushrooms.
The walls are black and moving, but you tell them I'm
happy.
And we both know where this is going to lead to.
Yeah, we both know where this is going to lead to.
And I'd fight your boyfriend if you thought I had to
'Cause we both know where this is going to lead to.
Put your poems inspired by true love
I would say anything if it would make you happy.
I'd sing you songs until you said 'enough'.
I'm falling through the floors and walking on the
ceiling.
I'd fight your boyfriend; I would try to be tough.
I'm stabbing at the thoughts only to see whats bleeding
And I'd sing you songs until you said 'enough'.
The walls are black; they're moving in,
But you can tell them I'm happy.
And we both know where this is going to lead to.
Yeah, we both know where this is going to lead to.
And I'd fight your boyfriend if you thought I had to
You and me, we could never be
Because I don't laugh at shit that I don't think is
funny
And you're so eager to please
You get on your knees for any fucking asshole
Who says he's all you need
And I'm sorry I have to take this approach
The only thing that'd shut me up now:
your hands around my throat
You and your friends feel free
And you're way too cool for me
And you do drugs now
And all your problems run so deep
And we were smoking in the basement
At your best friend's brother's party
And you love them because he treats you
Like you know what the fuck you're talking about
And you and me, we could never take this approach
The only thing that'd shut me up now:
Your hands around my throat
Swear I love you
Until the very, very end.
But there's a problem,
(What's the problem?)
You're in love with your boyfriend.
This is me officially giving up on you
I've wasted too much time with stupid lies
For this to ever become true
And this is me officially giving up on you
We've wasted too much time with stupid lies
I'm getting shitfaced in your room.
I've got dreams where I bleed
And I choke myself to sleep
And I hear screams
It's the secrets that you keep
And I am learning that your secrets
They really don't mean shit to anyone
But you and your friends
And you and me, we could never take this approach
The only thing that'd shut me up now:
Your hands around my throat
Swear I love you
Until the very, very end.
But what's the problem,
(What's the problem?)
You're in love with your boyfriend
And I will get on my elbows until all my fingers go
numb
And I refuse to take another breath 'till you change
who you have become
And I will lean on my elbows until all my fingers go
numb
And I refuse to take another breath 'till you change
who you have become
And I will lean on my elbows until all my fingers go
numb
And I refuse to take another breath 'till you change
I was so bored before I met you
But then I met you and everything changed
And now it seems I could be amused at the littlest things
If I told my truth
She says you, you should admit it
She know I, I probably won't
That he's the sound you want now
And I'm just the noise you don't
And I'm just saying it's a bummer, man
I'm sorry for interrupting
I guess I'll go
You were my girl you were my baby
You were my homemade mashed potatoes, cuits, and gravy
You were too good, I should have known
You were a prize my hands could never hold
She says you, you should admit it
She know I, I probably won't
That he is the sound you want now
And I, I'm just the noise you don't
And I'm just saying it's a bummer, man
I'm sorry for interrupting
I guess I'll go
And she says “tell me what I need to hear, what I wanna hear or else”
I call her baby, I ask her to sit down,
Ask her to sit down and allow me to try to explain myself
She says you, you, you
You should probably admit it, probably admit it
but I, I, I, I, I probably won't, probably won't, probably won't
That he, he, he, he's the sound you want now, the sound you want now
And I, I, I, I'm the noise you don't, the noise you don't
I, I, I, I should probably admit it, probably admit it
but I, I, I, I, I probably won't, probably won't, probably won't
That he, he, he, he's the sound you want now, the sound you want now
And I, I, I, I'm the noise you don't, the noise you don't
And I'm just saying it's a bummer, man
I'm sorry for interrupting
I guess I'll go
I guess I'll go
You are water twelve feet deep and I am boots made of concrete
We'll wear cool clothes that show some skin,
Flash a fake, so we'll both get in
Now we're dancing, we're so drunk
We are so cool, we are so punk
And yes, we can keep living like this.
As long as you're here I will live like this.
Since when did "I wanna hear your voice" not become a good excuse?
Calling you three in the morning, laugh at sleep that we'll both lose
Maybe college won't work out, I can come live at your house
I'm supposed to be at class now but my roommate just passed out
And I cannot get in my room, get all my books and what I need
You're all I need but I am pretty sure your parents will never see
I'll let it be, 'cause it was never meant to be
I'll let it be.
Because you are water twelve feet deep and I am boots made of concrete
We'll wear cool clothes that show some skin,
Flash a fake, so we'll both get in
Now we're dancing, we're so drunk
We are so cool, we are so punk
And yes, we can keep living like this.
As long as you're here I will live like this.
I get left out, I get left out of every plan they make
That is what I have to do
Be the only kid from school who is still in love with you
Maybe college won't work out, I can come live at your house
I'm supposed to be at class now but my roommate just passed out
And I cannot get in my room, get all my books and what I need
You're all I need but I am pretty sure your parents will never see
I'll let it be, 'cause it was never meant to be
Because you are water twelve feet deep and I am boots made of concrete
We'll wear cool clothes that show some skin,
Flash a fake, so we'll both get in
Now we're dancing, we're so drunk
We are so cool, we are so punk
And yes, we can keep living like this.
I would sleep better on your floor, than I would ever
in my bed.
And if your carpet makes my face itch, it’d still be
heaven in my head.
I would play more than just four chords, if it’s a song
that you might like.
And I am not very good, but I would practice every
night.
And she said, “Sometimes, things just don’t work out
the way you want them to.
Sometimes, things just don’t work out. It’s better me
than it is you.
Sometimes, things just don’t work out the way they
should flow through.
Sometimes, things just don’t work out. It’s better me
than it is you.”
She said, “Break your neck, and I will love you like a
bird that cannot fly. You will be fine.”
She said, “Break your neck, and I will love you every
night. You will be mine.”
I would stop doing all those things the doctor tells me
not to do
But I don’t think he understands, I do all of these
things for you
And you've got [?] plastic on your shelf that they give
to everybody else
And you could say it says your name but I don't think
that that would help
And she said, “Sometimes, things just don’t work out
the way you want them to.
Sometimes, things just don’t work out. It’s better me
than it is you.
Sometimes, things just don’t work out the way they
should flow through.
Sometimes, things just don’t work out the way you want
them to”
“Break your neck, and I will love you like a bird that
cannot fly. You will be fine.”
And she said, “Break your neck, and I will love you
every night. You will be fine.”
And today we could do something that we wouldn't never
do before
And today we could do something, never do before
And today we could do something we would have never
done before
Squeeze, squeeze, squeeze!
Squeeze my arms a little tighter
Let me know I'm still alive
Cause you're the only one here keeping both my eyes
open tonight
And I know that we got problems
Who are they to criticize
If I tell you all my secrets would you tell me all your
lies
And when I stop writing her letters
I want her to know that it's because
I have someone that makes me feel the same exact way
that she does
And I will not deny the privilege to someone else who
wants my love
I have stitched a mask of confidence and I wear it like
a glove
And a man that knows what he's talking, spoke to me
today
He said that no ones going to listen until you mean
every word you say
So if you can't find the feeling, you better learn to
And if you know we're gonna fail, then there's no point
to even try
No point to try, no point try, no point to try
I don't get it for real, this is blowing my mind
We keep saying we're unhappy and they keep saying that
we're fine
I guess pain will be the only thing I ever get to bring
But I will send it through the air like a loosely
gripped baseball bat swing
All I ever wanted was something different, maybe by
another name
We could set ourselves on fire, there is cleansing in
the flame
So keep clapping and dancing
Let them know you're still alive and if you're tired of
giving up
At least make them think that you surived
So keep laughing, its not funny but at least you don't
have to cry
When you wake up in the morning and you know you're
still alive
You're still alive, you know you're still alive
You're still alive, you know you're still alive
Until we break down, til we shut down
Until the weight of our lifeless bodies hit the ground
Until we break down, til we shut down
Until the weight of our lifeless bodies hit the ground
Until we break down, til we shut down
Until the weight of our lifeless bodies hit the ground
And a man that knows what he's talking, spoke to me
today
He said that no ones going to listen until you mean
every word you say
So if you can't find the feeling, you better learn to
And if you know we're gonna fail, then there's little
point to even try
This is for the lions living in the wiry broke down frames of my friends bodies.
When the flood water comes, it ain't gonna be clear. It's gonna look like mud.
But I will help you swim.
I will help you swim.
I'm gonna help you swim.
This is for the snakes and the people they bite;
For the friends I've made; for the sleepless nights;
For the warning signs I've completely ignored.
There's an amount to take, reasons to take more.
It's no big surprise you turned out this way.
When they close their eyes and prayed you would change
And they cut your hair, and sent you away
You stopped by my house the night you escaped
With tears in my eyes, I begged you to stay
You said, “Hey man, I love you but no fucking way”
I'm sure that we could find something for you to do on stage.
Maybe shake a tambourine or when I sing, you sing harmonies.
This is for the lake that me and my friends swim in, naked and dumb on a drunken night
And it should've felt good but I can hear the Jaws theme song on repeat in the back of my mind
Make sure you kiss your knuckles before you punch me in the face
There are lessons to be learned, consequences for all the stupid things I say
And it is no big surprise you turned out this way.
The spark in her eyes, The look on your face.
I will not be late.
I'm sure we could find something for you to do on stage.
Maybe shake a tambourine or when I sing you sing harmonies.
I wanna contribute to the chaos.
I don't wanna watch and then complain,
'Cause I am through finding blame
That is the decision that I have made.
She hopes I'm cursed forever to
Sleep on a twin-sized mattress
In somebody's attic or basement my whole life,
Never graduating up in size to add another
And my nightmares will have nightmares every night
I got boulders on my shoulders
Collar bones begin to crack
There is very little left of me and it's never coming
back
There are certain things you ask of me
There are certain things I lack
The beginning, we were winning
Now we're just making a fact
What's it matter anymore?
You believe the lies I tell
There's no meaning to words
But we still sing these songs well
And we all left it alone
I'm sure it will work itself out fine
They are playing with your numbers
And we are running out of time
You're a killer and I'm your best friend
I think it's unfair, your situation
You say I'm changing,
Sorry I didn't know I had to stay the same
Can we talk about this later?
Your voice is driving me insane
I try to write you poems, but the words they don't make
sense
The hand tries to grip the pencil, but the fingers are
too tense
I try to show emotion, but my eyes won't seem to wet
I'd love to tell you stories, but I can't remember how
they went
You're a flashlight in a dark room or the loneliest
black out
You were all we had left after it all was filtered out
I'm turning you on in a dark room right before we both
pass out
I'll turn you on when I need you, but the batteries ran
You're a werewolf and I'm a full moon
And all your very worst enemies will be gone soon
I think you're changing
Don't worry, you don't have to stay the same
Can we talk about this later?
the good thing about this cast,
is i can still hold on to hide,
so if you ever twist my arm again i'll be sure to put up a fight
you see i just don't wanna do the things that you want me to do
but i'm a sucker, so i do them
because i am still in love with you
She said “Honey, you gotta learn that love is simple just like mud.
If you play the dirt and I'll play the water, all we gotta do is touch.”
Cuz i was young, i thought i didn't have to care about anything,
but i'm older now and know that i should
And it's freezing,
and i'm watching you shovel snow, off a driveway across from my parent's home.
now it's summer, and you were laying out on your lawn
You look so sexy Chelsea, with your polka dot bikini on.
C'mon Chelsea, speak a little french to me.
Heard you spent two whole semesters drinking wine.
While i was stuck in Jersey, trying to save some money.
I guess i'm just another thing you left behind.
But you were young, and thought you didn't have to care about anyone
but you're older now and wish that you could.
Cuz you were young, you thought you didn't have to care about anyone
but you're older now and know that you should.
It's funny you should ask, cuz I don't remember.
It's funny you should ask, I coulda been a contender.
One two three, everyone say cheese.
Thought you got the best of me, turns out it was a video of me and my best friend, me and my cousins,
sitting there smiling, turns out it was a video.
But i was young, i thought i didn't have to care about anyone,
but i'm older now and know that i should
It's funny you should ask, cuz i don't remember.
It's funny you should ask, i coulda been a contender.
It's funny you should ask, no i will not surrender.
You should know that you don't kick if you don't have to
All's fair in love and war, I know, don't get me wrong
But if you listen to your heart it may mislead you
Lord I should know, I've felt lost for so long
You had me go from what I though was smart and careful
To seriously slipping out of control
But I have to learn that this love will never be convenient
I'm gonna have to learn that this love will never be convenient
It's not like a movie when we kiss; there is no music when we kiss
And I'm gonna have to learn that this love will never be convenient
I hear her whisper "all I want is to want nothing"
The room is dark and I'm pretty sure she thinks I'm asleep
She says “it just don't make no sense. Why can't it work out in my head
Why I can't be happy when there's definitely reasons I should be”
She says that I, for one, will not be held responsible for someone else, I gotta go
I'm gonna have to learn that this love will never be convenient
And I'm gonna have to learn that this love will never be convenient, convenient, convenient
Let's talk about how it felt on my shoulders as it came pouring out my ears
Let's talk about the face of our love and how it might look with the addition of tattooed tears
Let's talk about the torn up skin on my fingers right where it meets my fingernails
Let's talk about what you call smart and careful is seriously slipping out of control
I'm gonna have to learn that this love will never be convenient
I'm gonna have to learn that this love will never be convenient
It's not like a movie when we kiss, there'll never be no music when we kiss
if you're uncomfortable, i could take my clothes off
too.
we could go back to the party
or we could stay up in your room.
and i should hug my friends more than i do.
it's unfortunate, my attitude, i need more elbow room.
and when i quit, when it's all over and done with,
you'll be the first person i tell.
it's such a bunch of bullshit, you're such a fucking
hypocrite.
you'll be the distance that i fell, the distance that i
fell.
i should know more by now, but i'm learning as i go.
i've got so many questions, but if i ask, i'll never
know.
and i should wash my hair more than i do.
it's a consequence in a living room from the windows i
look through.
when i quit, when it's all over and done with,
you'll be the first person i tell.
it's such a bunch of bullshit, you're such a fucking
hypocrite.
you'll be the distance that i fell, the distance that i
fell.
when i quit, when it's all over and done with,
you'll be the first person i tell.
it's such a bunch of bullshit; you're such a bunch of
hypocrites.
you'll be the distance that i fell, the distance that i
I made a list of all the friends that I never wanna see again,
And I am sorry but your name fell below every single one of them,
High school is over and I've wasted too much time,
Making sentences of words just because they rhyme,
You wouldn't smile if you knew how I felt about every single one of you
So stop please I want to go home
But if I do I know these guys aren't gonna leave you alone
And it's my world that doesn't mean much
But I hate your friends and their influence
I'm going crazy- I've lost my mind
But this basement scene's left me so far behind
Shut down, lose everything, forget what you know,believe what you see
Now that it's over things are a little bit awkward
Avoiding all the spots so I won't have to talk to her
Sorry for playing the dickhead role
When all you ever really needed was a hand to hold
And I thought that you'd be the one thing that I could take home from all of this
I was wrong (I was wrong)
Stop please I want to go home
But if I do I know these guys aren't gonna leave you alone
And it's my world that doesn't mean much
But I hate your friends and their influence
I'm going crazy I've lost my mind
But this basement scene's left me so far behind
Shut down, lose everything, forget what you know, believe what you see
(Forget what you know believe what you see, forget what you know believe what you see)
Just leave
Stop saying hi to all of your old friends
Learn to survive on only the new trends
Does anyone else think these girls are a little too young to be here
(Little too young to be here)
They say face your fears but I can't stop running
Stop telling jokes cause they're not funny
Swore I wouldn't steal but I need some money
Swore I wouldn't steal but I need some money
(I need money, I need some money)
(Run go just go just go it doesn't matter)
Stop please I want to go home
But I know these guys aren't gonna leave you alone
And it's my world that doesn't mean much
But I hate your friends and their influence
I'm going crazy I've lost my mind
But this basement scene's left me so far behind
Shut down, lose everything, forget what you know, believe what you see
I have this dream that I am hitting my dad with a baseball bat
And he is screaming and crying for help
And maybe halfway through it has more to do with me killing him
Then it ever did protecting myself
And I believe that yeah, dad, maybe no one is perfect
But it seems that you were pushing your luck
It just sucks it played out like this:
A terrible movie and you can tell none of the actors even give a fuck
But you look good tonight girlfriend,
Can I sleep in your bed?
And when I crawl out in the morning,
Can I stay inside your head?
'Cause you were high school
And I was just more like real life
And you were okay, okay as a girlfriend
But I was just more like his wife
I'll do the pushups
I'll wear the makeup
I'll do whatever he wants all night
'Cause you were okay, okay as a girlfriend
But I was just more like real life.
A long, long time ago my great, great, great, great grandfather
took something that did not belong to him
And that is why today there is an eagle in my veins
I am part Native American
And I am leaving as soon as I come,
As soon as I come you will probably forget my name
I hope I fall asleep at the wheel and crash my car (on the way home)
Or I could just stay here, because
you look good tonight girlfriend,
Can I sleep in your bed?
And when I crawl out in the morning,
Can I stay inside your head?
'Cause you were high school
And I was just more like real life
And you were okay, okay as a girlfriend
But I was just more like his wife
I'll wear the makeup
I'll do the pushups
I'll do whatever he wants all night
'Cause you were okay, okay as a girlfriend
But I was just more like real life.
Are you ready?
Here we go
How do you feel?
Cause I feel fine
Just remember what I said
We'll go better than last time
You can call me when you sober up
Let me know you're still alive
We can try again tomorrow
We can start over tonight
I shouldn't feel like I have to protect you
I shouldn't feel like I have to entertain
I shouldn't feel the way I feel
I don't think that anybody else should feel this way
And I'll be fine
Yeah, I'll be alright, alright, alright
Hey, sweetheart, where'd you get those eyes?
You think that I could have a pair?
Love the way that they glaze over
No point pretending that we care
There are cracks between the concrete that we will all fill up with time
If you wanna move ahead, you have gotta leave me behind
I shouldn't feel like I have to protect you
I shouldn't feel like I have to entertain
I shouldn't feel the way I feel
I don't think that anybody else should feel this way
And I'll be fine
Yeah, I'll be alright, alright, alright
I watch from the corner of a room as some kid tries to start a fight
Shirt is a little bit too small, pants are a little bit too tight
I watch you try to get involved
Watch you try to make it right
Watch me try to walk away
Watch me leave with you tonight
I shouldn't feel like I have to protect you
I shouldn't feel like I have to entertain
I shouldn't feel the way I feel
I don't think that anybody else should feel this way
And I'll be fine
Yeah, I'll be alright, alright, alright
You are my peach, you are my plum
You are my earth, you are my sun
I love your fingers, I love your toes
The back of your head, the tip of your nose
And you are the reason I'm smiling when there is
nothing to smile about
Yeah, you are the reason I'm smiling when there is
nothing to smile about
One day you will find someone who will love you like
you deserve
But tonight I'm the only one left and I'm betting it's
a fact that you will never learn
Once I sink my teeth, your skin's not so tough
I'll leave a tiny cut, there'll be a lot of blood
But once you wipe it up you will feel better about our
entire situation
You are my light, no need to hide
You are my clock, keep me on time
You are my angel, you are my crime
I'll serve this sentence the rest of my life
And you are the reason I'm smiling when there is
nothing to smile about
Yeah, you are the reason I'm smiling when there is
nothing to smile about
I do things wrong, you thought I might
You say I'm gonna miss you when you leave and you are
probably right
But I'm just as stoned, I don't wanna fight
You say I should think before I talk, you say I
shouldn't think about my life
Cause once I finally hit the ground, who's gonna drag
me into the light?
It's just so hard to see tomorrow past tonight, woah
I wonder how that bike trips going
I wonder if the government knows he's hiding
It'd probably take a couple months
Florida's a long way from Rhode Island
I watch her rest her hands inside her lap
I try to focus hard as her eyes don't make the frame
I try to work up the courage to kiss the bottom half of her face
And Mora cut her hair in Baltimore right before I left
I watch her sitting by herself talking to herself,
Breathing calmly then try to catch her breath.
Casanova just can't turn the charm on
Or find any of the right vibrations
I know these women if he don't wanna do it
Then they are probably just gunna make him
You can never tell when their fucking around
Everything you're feeling is coming
Even though you never felt so alone
I could probably catch a ride to your house
And borrow a bike to get back home
She says you gotta promise not to break
No matter how far you are bent
She says I gotta shift my position and try to get comfortable again
We both choose the same tone mine was an alarm clock ringing from a cell phone
Mouth the words to me so we can keep things quiet
And I'll still know exactly what you mean.
And it is probably just my friends fucking around.
Yeah it is probably just my friends fucking around.
They never cut me any slack.
Please fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when I wake up feel like yeah everything's alright
You are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything I need in my life
And it goes in in out through the mouth - breathing exercises
I will never figure out til I am running in circles
or (I am) walking in circles or (I am) crawling in circles or lying on the ground
And I can hear your dog whistle from my bedroom
Yeah yeah
And I can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
She's says a lot of the kids we graduated with are now homeless
which puts them in mad shady situations with mad shady people
if not everyday then on an every other day basis
And she's probably with a few of them right now
and they are probably just drinking and talking about
how she misses getting fucked up and hanging around
And he says "Hey you're good at that" and she says "Thanks, it's kind of all I got,"
and then she looks away and says "It's also all I need."
And I can smell plastic burning I can smell chemicals breaking down.
I got your last three e-mails the ones where you said, "I was sorting some things out"
And he will be able to hear her dog whistle from his bedroom
Yeah yeah
And I can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
Yeah yeah
And I will read the flashing like a morse code explanation
that will mean nothing but take all night to figure out, out, out...
(Please fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when I wake up feel like yeah everything's alright)
when I am sad, I am sad - but when I'm happy, oh god I'm happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(You are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything I need in my life)
when I am sad, I am sad - but when I'm happy, oh god I am happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(Please fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room
so when I wake up feel like yeah everything is alright)
when I am sad, oh god I'm sad - but when I'm happy, I am happy
there's just no place in-between for us to meet
(You are still here, you are still happy, you are still smiling and laughing
you are still the only thing and everything I need in my life)
when I am sad, oh god I am sad - but when I'm happy, I am happy
Goodbye future, once so bright, meet my pregnant
girlfriend
Watch my bank account run dry, 437 dollars spent
To put things back to the way they used to be
Still, I woulda spent so much more
But 437 dollars somehow shakes all responsibility
But it's not easy
She looks me dead in the eyes and says "hey Brian
If you still believe in the Lord above,
Get on your hands and knees and pray for us
Get on your hands and knees and pray for us
The past few months were pretty rough
A couple times, wished we both were dead
I never cried like that before,
I thought my eyes would pop out of my head
Not just preparing for nightmares
Years and years I do suppose
Nothing feels alright now
The length on my hear or the fit of my clothes
I’m crying like a baby, soft and nothing
'Cause I can leave so what now what, so where do I go
'Cause I could imagine myself throwing all my clothes
Inside a suitcase without bothering to fold them
'Cause I could imagine myself throwing all my things
Inside a suitcase without bothering to fold them
She looked me dead in the eyes and says "hey Brian
If you still believe in the Lord above,
Get on your hands and knees and pray for us
Get on your hands and knees and pray for us
Because freshness is expected from any hip hop artist,
I avoid using traditional techniques
It's the ending to a sad story on a Monday afternoon
Just pick your head up from your desk
Can we please get this over with
I wonder if the wife knew, don't ask questions
Keep your head down, learn your lesson
Cause no one with money ever goes to jail
And I need to think of something to say before we all
are on the floor
It's not that hard, everyone in this room probably done
it 100 times before
And it is only the strong survive
And that is only the biggest lie
And I'm sorry sorry about tonight
I shaved my head last night to start anew,
In a chapter I call without you
And it's going to be the best I've ever written
I blacked my soul last night to feel like you
And the doctors don't know what to do
In a chapter I call rehabilitation
And I need to think of something to say before we all
are on the floor
It;s not that hard everyone in this room has probably
done it 100 times before
And it is only the strong survive
And that is only the biggest lie
And I'm sorry, sorry about tonight
Mark it on a calendar and walk away
Forget the stories forget the pain
They mean nothing to you well they mean nothing to me
But the memories wont let me be
Take the pictures to remember the day
I'm forgetting the voices what they have to say
They mean nothing to you they mean nothing to me
But the memories wont let me be
Foreign countries,
Hardwood floors and trying to sleep,
Foreign Languages,
On all three channels of TV.
I don't want no drama or baggage,
Don't tell me complicated stories
About who you used to be but are different
and it changes a person completely.
And I am not sure that I want
Any single part of this
Any single part of any of this shit.
'Cause everybody pays,
Everybody's head is in the news
You're part of a program.
Get with the program.
'Cause everybody comes and falls asleep,
And lies awake, pretends to be sleeping.
You're not even sleeping.
You're prob'ly even listening.
Keep it simple and honest,
Stop crying, you're an adult.
I could stand up, I could man up,
It's just so convenient to be fragile.
This pain is constant and sharp,
Watching the signals that you send.
I wanna feel lethal on the inside,
I wanna read American Psycho again.
But I am not sure that I want
Any single part of this
Any single part of any of this shit.
'Cause everybody pays,
Yeah, everybody's head is in the news
You're part of a program.
Get with the program.
'Cause everybody comes and falls asleep,
And lies awake, pretends to be sleeping.
You're not even sleeping.
You're prob'ly even listening.
You're not even sleeping.
You're prob'ly even listening, even listening.
'Cause everybody pays,
Yeah, everybody's head is in the news
You're part of a program.
Get with the program.
'Cause everybody comes and falls asleep,
And lies awake, pretends to be sleeping.
You're not even sleeping.
You're prob'ly even listening.
You're not even sleeping.
