Catharsis (2011)

Actors

• Naleeka Dennis (director)
• Naleeka Dennis (writer)
• Naleeka Dennis (writer)
• Melissa Cameron (miscellaneous crew)
• Alexa Whiteside (producer)
• Brian Connors (miscellaneous crew)
• Per Janson (actor)
• Madeline Wall (miscellaneous crew)
• Matthew Paessler (actor)
• Blair Robinson (actor)
• Jonathan Knight (composer)
• Anna Milshetyn (editor)

Genres

• Drama
• Short

Grief Filmography

• Sein bester Freund
  1929, role: actor

• Lyrics: play full screen play karaoke
• Grief - Dir En Grey
• Grief - Grave
• Grief - Modern English
• Grief - Antestor
• Grief - Pain Confessor
• Grief - Beneath The Massacre
• Grief - Danse Macabre
• Grief - Coercion
• Virus - Grief
• The Drone - Grief
• Stricken - Grief
• Shoot Me... - Grief
• Ruined - Grief
• Rhionceros - Grief
• Lifeless - Grief
• Isolation - Grief
• I Hate You - Grief
• Hate Grows Stronger - Grief
• Grief - Abhorrent
• To Serve And Neglect - Grief
• Earthworm - Grief
• Depression - Grief
• Fleshpress - Grief
• Come To Grief - Grief
• Coma - Grief
• Fucked Upstairs - Grief
• World Of Hurt - Grief
• Fed Up - Grief
• Amorphous - Grief
• If The World Was Flat - Grief
• Tar - Grief
• No Escape - Grief
• Ostrich - Grief
• Polluted - Grief
• Predator - Grief
• I Won't Come Back - Grief
• Beyond Waste - Grief
• Hurricane Jello - Grief
• Down In The Dumps Again - Grief
• When Rotten Ideas Break Free - Grief
• Grief - Divine Souls
• Grief - As Enemies Arise
• Grief - Metus
• Grief - Nembience
• Grief - Finley

Shout up! That's fucking bullshit
Blood tastes like vanilla
Fuck off
Mottomorashii kao shite
Azamuku koto shika atama ninai saru
Saa moujin ni tou
Kotaero
Shout up! That's fucking bullshit
Koukatsu no juu ga narihibiku Headless body,
Koukatsu no juu ga narihibiku Headless body,
Sousa warai kurue I'm damned
Fuck off
Mottomorashii kotoba de
Sukashita kao shite hiteishiten darou
Saa kieru jikan da
Inoreyo
Koukatsu no juu ga narihibiku Headless body,
Koukatsu no juu ga narihibiku Headless body,
Sousa warai kurue I'm damned
I say destroy, fuck off
Naze da... shinjitsu o kanjizu ni ikiru
Doko ni ai ga aru no ka sae--
Shut up!
Koukatsu no juu ga narihibiku Headless body,
Koukatsu no juu ga narihibiku Headless body,
Sousa warai kurue I'm damned
Shout up! That's fucking bullshit

Oh my saviour set me free release me from my agony
Grant me your eternal reich take me to where corpses lie
Look into my dying eyes still gazing with ecstasy
Take me away end my life end my misery
I feel the urge to leave this earth
End my grief give me my relief
Make me one with the soil give me eternal peace
Let me never see more end my fuckin' grief
I don't want to see the light I want to die on this night
I wanna feel eternal pain I wanna feel the burning flames
Let me die in pain let me see the flames
Take my life away sacrifice me
Oh my saviour set me free release me from my agony
Grant me your eternal reich take me to where corpses lie
I feel the urge to leave this earth

Tears are moving down your face
Etching lines across your skin
Clutching [unverified] warm and dry
An ice cold grip is on my mind
Why do you do this to me?
Watching from a distance
I'm so helpless, what do I say?
How should I act?
Tears are moving down my face
Why do you do this to me?

Sometimes I cry in grief
Not for the dead that once surrounded me
Or for the sadness that comes to me
When I am lonely
But I cry
For those who have chosen a life without Christ
There are twelve months
Three hundred and sixty-five days a year
But it takes just one second to answer Him

Repentance won't justify the crimes you have done
You should've been enslain
Took life from your own flesh and blood
Pure blood now flows forever
There are no words for these murders
You should die...
You should die yourself
Innocent child, too short a life, the end touched us
We should open our eyes
Innocent mind, still growing and learning to understand
Now that's all torn away
There is no name for this grief
What was so wrong in your mind
Didn't you have a heart?
Will someone explain
Nothing remains the same
Depression is not a reason for murdering your children
You should've rotten in jail
Life's drain and confusion is not for them
You should have just killed yourself
What hurt you so much, what made you fail?
No reason you say will do, or undo
What you have done
Torment and pain
It is not strength, what can be taken away
What was so wrong in your mind
Didn't you have a heart?
Will someone explain
Nothing remains the same
And we lay this sorrow to rest
As the bodies already burn
There is no name for this grief
And we lay this sorrow to rest
As the bodies already burn
What can we do to stop these murders
So our children can live and love
Life is a gift and joy to all
No one should take it away
There are no words for these murders

Oh, and this is also life. Worshiping imperfection and no
One ever answers.
Young innocent, only a child, your first born taken from
You.
Oh, and this is also life; followed the commandments and
Now betrayed by your God.
Oh, and this is also life; lived your life by the book
And now betrayed by your
God. Worshiping imperfection and no one ever answers.
Begging the sky but nothing happens. Why would he have
Let you down? God of
Mercy now seems to you like nothing but a bringer of pain
And imperfection.
Begging for nothing. Worshiping imperfection. Oh, and
This is also life. And
She can't explain herself why her son was taken.
She begs the sky to give him back but no one ever answers

If solitude follows grief
This heart of mine a wilderness
Splendid memories indeed hardly a relief
What comfort offers a last caress?
What comfort offers a last caress?
No more flowers to pick in May
Any words are all in vain
No more flowers to pick in May
Any words are all in vain
Love is a gift from Heaven
Lifts into grace our lowest desires
Shared with angels By Gods given
Like passion, a spark of immortal fire
This heart of mine a wilderness
This heart of mine a wilderness
What comfort offers a last caress?
What comfort offers a last caress?
But beautiful poems do not cover pain
In loss I cannot sense any splendour
Comforting words are all in vain
Yesterday's ghosts seem too tender
Tragedy grand in a theatre play
They claim sunshine to follow after rain
But no more flowers to pick in May
For death she is all the same
What comfort offers a last caress?
What comfort offers a last caress?
No more flowers to pick in May
Any words are all in vain
No more flowers to pick in May

Music: Kenneth Nyman, Rickard Thulin & Steffe Sæderberg
Lyrics: Kenneth Nyman
Absorbed in thoughts of you
And the night you were stolen
My soul bears many scars
Though this wound will never heal
I curse the world
To avenge you
For all time to come
Grief beyond belief

unleashed upon
an unsuspecting mankind
millions affected
soon millions more will follow
a horrid plague
exterminates the human race
now know cure
the death toll keeps on rising
humanity is wiped out
loved ones and friends
in grievance of their losses
while institutions
get rich off the unfortunate
skin and tissue
transformed into a grotesque mess
left to suffe
and slowly just waste away
lost reasons for living

life's constant struggles
an uphill battle everyday
kill myself just to make ends meet
now I pray for change
the droning of everyday life
totally ruinning me
ongoing monotous confusion
despairs all that I can gasp
what will tomorrow bring?
don't even think that I'll last today
drone.....

Out of drugs, pissed off again
I think I am nearing the end
Another fucking day
Another disappointment
Scars in my flesh tell the story
- Of a broken man
Pessimistic existence
Numb myself with chemicals
Drunk and fucking angry
I'm sick of fucking screaming
How much longer can I take
Living a life without no meaning
Fucking stricken
Dreams and goals = void loneliness confusion
Trapped within a cell of negativity
Why try??? When failure is the norm
Work sucks, life sucks
I wish I was never born

in my sleep
unsuspecting
put a gun to my head
I hate my pathetic life

No!!!
More will my friends stand for
My drunken belligerence
Girls won't put up with my
Stubborn ignorance
Things used to be simple
I wish I was still five
Now drugs and booze keep my alive
Hate, it's more than a word
A way of life
You're on your own
Nobody gives a fuck about you, or me
Loving couples, smiling children anger me
Fills me with hostility
The way you live, can't seem to find
What it's about
Arbor hospital, you never should've let me out
Hate, it's more than a word
A way of life
You're on your own
Nobody gives a fuck about you I'm ruined
You fuckers never should've let me out
I'm ruined

I am a one-ton, armor plated;
living breathing being
I wade in streams all day;
eat grass; and little else
then one day my world was shattered
by freakish two-legged beings
wielding instruments of pain
hell-bent on striking me down
a super-psyochotic need
to make me and scream and bleed
brought on solely by greed
I only want to be free
if I had my way, I'd stomp you flat
under my bulk
or ram this horn you so crave
into your fucking throat
I'll topple the noisy creatures
in which you flee
but I'll never understand
why you want me to die

I drown in my self-pity
don't need your sympathy
alone I wait for the end
I'm sick of seeing your fucking faces
no one at my funeral
friends - I had none
nobody cares that I'm dead
no one ever knew my name
I died lonely and miserable
life meant nothing to me

too many
fucking people
I don't know why
but people make me angry
inner segregation
isolated
solitude
depressed reality
saves my sanity
happiness is a state of mind
sadness
fills all minds all the time
we are not alive
I wish I'd never see
another human again
keep my hostile thoughts to myself
I'd rather be alone

Only one thing comes to mind
When I look into your eyes
I think of all those times
All I did was despise you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
A discomforting extreme
When I think of all those times
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

My rage burns deep inside me
My will to hate is strong
I can't keep control my anger
It is tearing up my mind
I'm pissed off at the world
For reasons I don't know why
I put the blame on you
Your existence I despise
I can't relate with your world
And I don't want to try
To me you're all so fucked
I choose to stay away
I'm pissed off at the world
For reasons I don't know why
I put the blame on you
Your existence I despise
Hate grows stronger
Hate grows stronger

Face
The shelter, (the) pit you lie
Mind
The eye, to learn
Break
The walls (that) keep you dumb
Mine
Only my low life
Scream For your soul
Lie Burn and sold
Fear Your choking life
Pain you visualize
You got to strain
You have to strain me
You need to strain yourself
You have to strain me
Dead
Mankind all dead inside
Mind
The eye, to learn
Break
The rules (that) keep me in
Mine

Abandoned by the useless system, why?
Tortured screams go unheard.
Released into the hands of someone who
Abused her to the point of death.
Floor mopped with her head,
Bashed against a wall til she was dead.
Violated with tooth and hair brush - genitals burned
Blind to the bruises
Deaf to the screams
The system has failed to the greatest extreme
Cracked addicted mother
thought she had a rag doll.
Treated her 7 year old
Like she was a football.
A system made to serve and protect
Has served no purpose but to neglect.
It was they who committed the crime.

I feel dejected
A lonely future of failure
And I'm growing
Very angry
I slither in the
Dirt and mud
Because that's where
I belong
I'm fucking miserable
And worthless
No self-esteem
And it sometimes hurts
I slither in the
Dirt and mud
Because that's where
I belong
Earthworm
Earthworm
Earthworm
I'm a lot like you
I was taught to love
But I learned to hate
Bisect me
I will regenerate

life is a long lived torment
haunted by our useless existence
the world will still keep decaying
when we're all in our grave
depression
live is morbid hell
precious? I think not
who cares about the fellow man
your all just a bunch of fucking bastards
depression

millions upon millions
I can't even count
pointless human butchery
will it ever stop
men, women and children
a never ceasing flow of life
thrust into horrid death chambers
to satisfy the fuhrer's blight
administer the poison
the deadly zyklon b
the fucking nazi bastards laugh
while everone else screams
the bodies packed so tight
so tight you can't believe
roasting pits and mass graves
conceal this atrocity
six million dead - for nothing

Encounter many problems in life
Dealing with a constant strife
Confidence nowhere to be found
Ability run into the ground
My future looks extremely bleak
An immediate exit I seek
Ready to take my chances with fate
Carve my name in a block of slate
Razor blades are everywhere
They'll help me through my despair
Horizontal slashes-the wrist
Bleed, purge, my final bliss
My equilibrium is way off balance
I should be placed under surveillance
As I add to these holes in the walls
Life's got me by the balls
Watch me as I come to grief
Writhing in my final release
Agony like you've never known
From this clump of dust I'm thrown
Betrayal!!!
Betrayal!!!
Deceived me
I'll screw you all in the end

your mind is deadened
from all the shit
you pump into your veins
no you lie in a hospital bed
your life rendered insane
nothing left of your former self
nothing left but a vegetable
struggle to resurface
from this comatose state
your are beyond help
you will not rehabilitate
lost in the
debts of unconsciousness
you cannot come to terms
you are just a mere soul
beyound the point of no return
facial features are contorted
limbs mangled and deformed
drooling, pissing, shit yourself
a sight of horror and despair
family weep by your side
they pray and pray for you return
no one answers mournful prayers
and no one ever will

well now you've really had it
locked in serious distress
all your words are jibberish
no longer making any sense
self-induced paranoia
don't have a fuckin' clue
too blind to note your condition
choke on your own misfortune
solitude you hope for
too blind to see it's true
your dying from your own poison
no one to blame...but you
you're fuckin' wacked
thought you were indestructable
superior in every respect
now I watch you wither away
a victim of constant neglect
solitude non-existent
an empty shell you've become
dominated by won self-pity
alone, exhausted and numb
horror abundant - all by yourself
a battered man - screaming for help
but no one's there - alone in the dark
time flies on by - you've wrecked yourself

Take me away from
All this shit I'm seeing
It's time to make a change
This life is ruining me
I've got to get away
I've got to get the fuck out
Out of this dreary place
Out of this wasted life
I want more out of life
Than sadness and pain
I search for happiness
But it's never obtained
Where do I belong?
Where do I fit in?
I have to escape
From this misery within

Sometimes I wish I could start over
Another chance
Not just a drug abusing lonely alcoholic
But most of the time I really
Don't give a fuck
I used to be happy
I used to have friends
Now all I have are these three fucking assholes
And I'm getting sick of their shit too

Shapeless, formless
There is nothing to me.
Selfless, no cause, broken,
Inspecific.
Drifting, cloud like, spreading,
Dissipating.
Distance between every
Part of what was me.
Amorphous...
Amorphous...
When nothing matters
There is - no matter to me
When life's insubstantial

If the world were flat I'd walk on the edge
Balancing between life and death
Breathe my last breath - take my final step
Freefalling, suffocating, heartstopping - all life ends
Is there a hell below? No one's sure, I don't know
Or will my soul fall lifeless into the abyss?
My corpse soars through space
Erosion takes place

Scrape me from inside
My walls they bleed
My own black mass
Fullfill
My needs
Take hold of my mind
Capture my soul
Eternal peace
Forever stoned
Burning black tar

I keep asking myself why
Why are people so god damned blind?
When will mankind realize?
We're to blame for the earth's demise
Rape the earth for all that it's worth
Use up its last natural resource?!
With each day it keeps on getting worse
Destroy habitats with no remorse
No escape - no escape from your fate
Now I wait - now I wait patiently
Future looks bleak - there is no hope
I smoke and drink just to cope
Global genocide is no joke
Hang the whole world with one big rope
No escape - no escape from your fate

I bury my head in the earth
Not to hide my ugliness, but to shield my eyes from your
horrid world
I used to run free, now you want to eat me
Fuck off you bastards
Why don't you eat yourself?
Human flesh, I'll bet you taste like shit
I'll ram your fucking head in the ground
Trample your body until it is broke
Leave you for the insects to devour

if there´s life in outer space
take me away from this place
beam me up - i´ll volunteer
it can´t be much worse than here
watching your back all the time
every single minute - crime.
raping, murder, stealing, fraud
church is a scam - so is god.
polluted souls
polluted minds
polluted beings -
we´re called mankind
the earth is fucked
every one´s corrupt

If there's life after death
I'll return a powerful creature
And lead a revolution...against mankind
I'll be the predator...and man will be the hunted
Animals rule the earth
As they did before
[Chorus:]
Predator, carnivore, continue to devour
Man cannot overpower...he continues to cower
Now that I have erased...the entire human race
I've turned the world into...a much better place
[Chorus]
No more system, no more government
No religion, no more presidents
No more pollution, no more toxic waste

I can't socialize, puzzle with no nitch
Feelings obsolete, art a dying trade
No brass rings, no shooting stars to wish upon
Wishes, dreams and hopes have all been shit upon
No one wants to be with me 'cause I'm not really here
I'm just a fading picture man, image thinned by tears
I'd like to think I'm recognized but I'm not really here
The mind that was sculpted of has dried and cracked with
years
Enigmatic, schizophrenic, mad drug addict
There is no map, I'm lost inside my own mind
T.H.C. comforts me, sets me free

Here you are, thinking that you're something
An outsider
Trying so hard to be inside
Try to win me over
By any means
Which like yourself
Are a big lie.
Like a deaf person with amnesia -
You hear nothing and remember
Even less.
Deaf, dumb & blind
At best!!!
You are just a waste
Of my time.
How could you think

Hurricane - eat my brain
Have you ever been hit in the face by a hurricane?
It can turn your brain into jello with one passing blow
Hurricane - feel no pain
Smoke and drink until you can't think
Of all the things that suck in your life
Because you deal with the constant strife
Hurricane - Jello
A fucked up drunken slob
My mind is one big blob
Put your problems aside
Curl up, pass out and hide
When you finally awake
Discover your mistake
You cannot think too clear

All I can see - darkness in front of me
For the time being - how long? We'll wait and see
Patience thinning - Try to think positively
That's not easy - so used to negativity
I am so sick and tired of being pissed
I must find peace
These feelings must be dismissed
It's no sure thing that I'll find happiness
Because we know it ften turns to sadness
Here we are...my old friend

Thoughts buried long ago
Exist far below
Like worms that I can't see
Feeding on my pain they hunger
Burrowing through the past and present
They find liberty usurping me with melacholia
When rotten ideas break free controlling me
showing me what I ran from I feel dead
And fed upon violated and gnawed

I gave you my heart but you took my soul
And you just threw it away
I have lost my pride I'm an empty shell
Covered with scars and open wounds
I were never yours to cherish or love
I cannot still forget your emptiness
The pain in my heart which you did cause
It will never go away how much i try
I cannot escape this pain
This was the final fatal blow of indifference
Which were buried beneath the foundation of lies
All that we had were simply shattered
This is just like the remnants of a tale gone black
There's no turning back no soothing of pain
The fever that rages overturnes control
Now when my world comes tumbling down

Merged into the city like an ordinary man. He keeps his
stripes unseen his
boots locked away. He feels betrayed by, everyone he
faught for. payed out
thrown back on the streets. “You don’t know, what we’ve
seen and what we mean
to this world”. They went, from heroes, to martyrs in a
day. They showed the
cruelty the devastation. One side, to this story. we just
can’t turn away, we
just can’t turn away.
Mother I’m going in, please be with me in these deserts
of hell. Please be with
me. A country just mothers putting their children into
the ground. No time to
grieve. No time to grieve. No time to grieve Mother don’t
leave me. Promise our
hands will be holding again. This isn’t how it was

Scared to hold your hand
deadly pale
(yet unaware)
I look into your eyes
I see emptyness
(oh God)
I've
rarely told you
about my love
I never had enough time
all is lost
you have gone
I still can't believe
all is lost
all has gone

In these hard times
Of life and death
We’re left with false hope
And broken hearts
A new darkened faith
To bury all
That we ever had
Assassination
I won’t let these shades take over
I won’t cry these tears of sorrow
There's nothing left inside me
But one more strife to overcome
We stare into the night
With fingers crossed
Knowing we will
Return to our graves
I won't let these shades take over
I won't cry these tears of sorrow
End this mourning - kill this grief
Resurrection - retribution
End this mourning - kill this grief
Resurrection - retribution
In these hard times
Of life and death
We’re left with false hope
And broken hearts
Condemned sanity
Undying will to tear
The sickness from within
Our life is sacrificed
[Solo - Martin]
I won't let these shades takeover
I won't cry these tears of sorrow
There's nothing left inside me

Greetings from me to all my friends
to my girlfriend and my parents
I'm leaving this town
I can't forget to say goodbye
I can't forget the laughs and cries
The moments I spent
That's nothing to weep about
The rain's starting to pour down
Here the time's slipping away
I don't pretend I'm ok
Grief is preying on my mind
So let me stay (let me stay)
By myself
Grief is preying on my mind
I'm going away (going away)
By myself
Maybe things are gonna change
But my memories won't get last
Like leaves in the wind
I don't need your sympathy
This bitter world owes me a new life
This one's burned with me
Fuck this place that's killing me
My pillow drown in my tears
Dark angels dungle round me
Today's my expiration date
Grief is preying on my mind
So let me stay (let me stay)
By myself
Grief is preying on my mind
I'm going away (going away)