Indecision can refer to:
(Willcox / Bogen / Bush / Henry)
I see, I seek deceiver of deception;
Creation of my deprivation;
I see, I see a split disposition;
I will, I won't decide my indecision.
Journey never ends,
We revolve to go
Then return again.
Journey never ends,
Just like the sea
We revolve to go
Then return again –
See, see, see...
An intruder from oblivion
Makes his decision
The deception of a madman –
Journey never ends,
I really try to go!
I pain myself to leave
Then return –
I see, I seek deceitful of deception;
Creation of my deprivation;
I see, I see a split disposition;
I will, I won't decide my indecision.
Journey never ends,
I finally explode...
See, see, see...
I see I see I seek
I see I see I seek
I see I see I seek
I see I see I seek...
See, see
in a wave of forgiveness
on angels wings
we dare to breathe
reach out your hands
don't turn your back, don't walk away
How in the world could i wish for this
never to be torn apart
close to you until the last beat of my heart
at the close of day
these words in shadow play
here and now, here and now
my heart cries out
the naked bone of an echo says
don't walk away
reach out your hands
no matter how hard I tried the words remained unspoken
ineloquence has caused my someday to be broken
uncertainty has forced me to the price
ruined is the first day of the rest of my life
overestimate your own relevance
crushing is the weight of your insignificance
selfishness is rooted in your heart
so proving to me that we're world's apart
when I began to see with my eyes and not with my heart
is when I first discovered that we were worlds apart
watching you like this
tears me apart
you regress your feelings
the guilt is all mine
I can't forget a feeling like it meant nothing
torn in two as you
regress this frustration
this walls are closing in on me - my wrists feel so weak
this urge never overcame me so strong
like thorns in my eyes I hear your voice still silent in my ears
in dreams I smile - in consciousness I cry
what happened to the promises?
your lies and hatred
you shut me out
became what you despised magnified
I know it would hurt you but I wish I could just wake you up
you're not waking up this time
set yourself up for self-destruction again
a slave to impulse
set your desire on fire
can't take your eyes off the flame
and all you dream of is fame
bleed the eyes that victimize - a cannibal, an animal
your feigned compassion slips with every word that passes your lips
where then where will we be when there's nothing left to heed
you are not your compassion - so much thought with such little action
how does it feel to know that everything you can do
has been done before so many times before
how does it feel to know that everything you can say
I'm not a part of your life anymore
your life is not a part of me anymore
you're not a part of yourself anymore
your puzzle has one too many pieces
my veins are open awaiting incision
my hands are open clutching at nothing
and it burns me through what's become of you
misunderstood I've done all I could
cut me open, deeper still
the more you say the more of me you kill
words that cut me to the bone
a constant reminder of all that you've done
and it burns me through
this time it's all over again
destroyed again and let down again
built up again to be torn down again
this time it's all over again
built up again to be torn down again
you became a memory awkward in your presence
that state of mind separation from devotion
I have no regrets except for everything
if I offered eternity you'd still expect more
run and run you'll never run far enough
Just a man... imperfect... vulnerable
why can't my words be seen for what they are
an expression of my ongoing struggle
I am not your culture
I am not your shelter
I am not your addiction
I am not your solution
running with my head down
the blood fills my mouth - the sting fills my eyes
dying to avoid the sight of the endless struggle
to find an end to this passion play of which we're all a part
the depths we'll fall to, for the love of
don? t want to carry it anymore - the weight on my shoulders
your hands around my neck
not seen as an attempt to dig deeper with myself
It's late and I'm losing sleep
Worryin' where you might be
I channel flip through the T.V. stations
Curse myself that I don't leave
This addiction keeps me hangin' on
Makes me wonder
Why I'm not strong enough
Save Me,
Won't you save me from myself
Save me again
(repeat)
It feels like love's suicide
With every lesson I unlearn
Countless times I've said goodbye
But you're the bridge that I can't burn
This obsession keeps me hangin' on
Makes me wonder
Why it's better when you're gone
Save Me,
won't you save me from myself
Save me again
(repeat)
You say you miss me
Cuz you're vulnerable
Like a habit I can't quit
You here me knocking,
I'm at your door
But don't open it,
No don't let me in
Save Me,
Won't you save me from myself
Save me again
Your fighting yourself, against these same walls
Your own opposition, and you're at it again
In the mirror your hands clenched, it's fists against flesh
In the shadows in the mirrors it's deja vu again it's you once again
The same walls your blood shatters, it's you against you
What do you have to prove, there's nothing I can do
But watch yourself fight yourself, into a corner
Got yourself against the ropes
Fight against yourself and you will always win
Shadowboxing
Kill yourself fight yourself
Tear down the blood walls with shadowed swings
And you've won once again
Fight yourself kill your self and you've won again
Exclusive adversary personal opposition
for 1200 days and nights I remained sleepless
only seemed to lie recounting in a dream that disappeared long ago
as hours grew to days grew to months grew to years
regretfully it appears that this dream was nothing but a foregone conclusion
left to spend my waking days refuting the illusion
put my mind to rest and strengthen my will
display to me your fidelity and put my mind to rest
transparent walls that enclose (fracture)
separating us from the words of those
no one is born a bigot
there is no mind more open than a child's
but teach a child prejudice, hatred
and that mind begins to close until a racist is born
evil is not innate, no child knows color
teaching their children to lie, prejudge and be close-minded
sometimes what we don't teach our children is more important than what we do
it's relentless
this ignorance that infects us all
it has come to be what we expect
perpetuated by years of ignorance
passed on through the generations
but we won't be deceived
why are we born with blood on our hands and sin on our minds
why are we born with guilt and a blade hanging over our heads
evil seems instinctual, what's right must be pursued
why are the tools no longer given to us
why have we rights to abuse
Your popularity contest veiled as a revolution
wallow in misery, suffer your celebrity
hold your status above me
hold it high above me
wallow in your misery, suffer your celebrity
you hold a special place in my heart with handshakes and smiling faces...
...and all your actions, they have a reason
premeditated compliments
your life - contorted, contrived - and you play the part so well
in their lives I've seen compromise but I will not compromise
your game, your rules, you win
I am their slave
I'm just a pawn in their game
Labels make the best the best targets
persecution is its own reward so still you carry your cross for all to see
why live without an audience?
in their lives I've seen compromise but I will not compromise
I can stand although my bones are breaking.
Prop me up and see my soul is aching.
Take the dirt upon the ground around me.
Bury me inside the grave I built for you.
Walk into the room - Feel my stare of doom.
Scars that line my face - Lies cannot replace.
I can see through you
And I'll tell you.
All my life I've heard a thousand lies.
Seen myself through someone else's eyes.
Kill you with my words - Get what you deserve.
I can see through you
And I'll tell you.
All my life I've heard a thousand lies.
Seen myself through someone else's eyes.
Remember what you did to me?
For you know I won't forget.
Now you've broken everything.
Is your heart filled with regret?
All my life I've heard a thousand lies.
Seen myself through someone else's eyes.
All my life I've heard a thousand lies.
Seen myself through someone else's eyes.
Remember what you did to me?
No racism
No respect
No regret
No religion (no rest)
I'm not a part of your life anymore
your life is not a part of me anymore
you're not a part of yourself anymore
your puzzle has one too many pieces
my veins are open awaiting incision
my hands are open clutching at nothing
and it burns me through what's become of you
misunderstood I've done all I could
cut me open - deeper still
the more you say the more of me you kill
words that cut me to the bone
a constant reminder of all that you? ve done
and it burns me through
Waking up suicidal
penniless, broken and a wasted
getting used to the desperation - the sweat, the panic
can't find a reason to maintain this charade
why the fuck should I keep going when every day gets more meaningless?
what do you want me to say? everything is not ok
I used to think that I was good enough
but now the easiest decisions are just too much
you have your status and all of your money so don't presume to understand
so don't patronize me privileged fucker
you could never know what it's like to feel so starved
at the end of a short rope
at the end of every night - ask yourself
what is left of your life?
You build up all that hope, all that faith
to watch it all disappear
Dreams fulfilled are as good as dead
worse than a dream that never came true
dreams die when they come true
dreams die when there? s no hope
nothing to live for
nothing to hope for
nothing to dream of
nothing to wish for
nothing to believe in
nothing to dream of
nothing to hope for
nothing to die for
dreams die when they come true
I believe
in eternal life, in myself, live forever, in immortality
I believe in a world free of excessive desire
a world filled with compassion and sensitivity
not senseless murder, hate and material obsession
one life that condescends upon the importance of possession
I believe in myself, I believe we are more than just simply bodies
I believe in a million tomorrows and a life after death
I've never asked for anything from life
I'd rather give than take from it
I've never turned my back, I never will
This life is what we make of it
I believe that dreams destroy
that we are more than just bodies
in myself, in a million tomorrows
in human nature, in equality
Look around myself
All I see is shit
Sickens my stomach
And pollutes my mind
Is it real or is it me inside?
working our way to the top
But where are we headed?
I'd rather stay at the bottom
And keep my dignity
Always looking to get ahead
I see right through you
Instant gratification
No thought but personal gain
Governed by greed
I want no part in this
world of hypocrisy
Your bigoted bashing bible
It means shit to me
Don't throw your scheme at me
I have faith in myself
Not in your money-making machine
I won't support your power
Or your religious war
I won't blindfold myself
And let you lead the way
I won't allow you
To bring me down
I'd rather be all by myself
And know where I stand
Where is the center of the world?
arrogance is ignorance, arrogance is blinding
Empires are temporary - every government is temporary
no standard prevails - nothing lasts forever
your assimilation is at hand
shield your eyes from the sun and kneel and pray
waiting for the destruction of the new roman empire
waiting for the end of televised war and plastic culture
reaching across the world and spreading like a fucking cancer
Selfishness fuels the need to satisfy their greed
Rape and take this flesh- take them for what they're worth
Eye for an eye in punishment for their sins- and now I act in defense of the defenseless
Cowards - human liberation- for the dying civilization-
Selfishness fuels the need to satisfy their greed-
animal liberation- for the dying civilization
cowards lead this genocide
innocent life objectified
Unseen they suffer
unheard they cry
in loneliness they linger
You're running away from your enemies
you submit to every attack
everybody gets their chance to wrap their hands around your neck
this is how life imitates death
nothing changes - nothing moves
spend your final hours hearing roaches crawl across your casket lid
hear the soil falling over your head
it buries you - weakness
crawling on floors and trying to hide yourself in dirt and in cracks
disaster follows you so cross your filthy fingers behind your back
circumstance makes you the victim
that's what you want to believe
But you become the vermin that you hate when you let weakness keep you safe
Let's just say that I went back inside to pull you out
Then you said that you'd much rather crawl
Let's just say that I left you there to rot away
you're so determined - chest dragging...
CRAWL - you're crawling
Our teeth break on nails yet we chew on them still
as moths to a flame
no one is saved
no one still lives
driven by guilt and greed and numb to all extremes
and you want everything in arms reach
gorge yourself on images and promises
but what do you have? what do you feel?
what do you want besides more?
what is your definition of what is real?
who uses you and what for?
sculpted, written in stone: the myth of "satisfaction"
reach out for the intangible
chase your fantasy in to the wasteland
shit breeding shit - this what is left of us
shit breeding shit - what has become of us?
"give me convenience or give me death"
survivors of systematic persecution continue to suffer
like cowards society turns away
it doesn't involve us so we don't care
driven from their homes by ethnic cleansing
to defend and set free we must prepare
the innocent are the ones who suffer
not the politicians who lead the debate
the innocent die
the politicians argue
they send out more armies to maintain the hate
abandon and ignore
the feud begins anew
rescue the victims of this holocaust
Say your prayers and count your blessings
You all make me choke
All your pleasures all my poisons
Talk yourself out of breath
Outside of the spectacle you are nothing
A society of drones churning the rumor mill
You've proven nothing, you've changed nothing
You've done nothing, you are nothing
In small circles you are the center
Enjoy your fame it doesn't last forever
Close your eyes and spread your lies
Authority is based on nothing but intimidation
they live to instill fear to compensate for the courage that they lack
their power is an illusion kept alive by those it abuses
and by those who sit back and watch while others suffer the subjugation
so I won't break and I won't bend
no compromises - I'm not giving them another inch
I won't break and I won't bend
their power is a fucking lie
it's false power - their power is nothing but a lie
acknowledging the power structure is the first step towards allowing it to dominate you
by living inside the system's confines you allow yourself to be controlled and supervised
constantly under their surveillance isn't it time you recognized what it means to live above and outside their laws
by obeying your very own moral code?
hasn't too much time been wasted staying right where society placed you?
aren't our lives far too short to waste even one more minute standing in line? Yes!
when no one fears them
no one respects them
no one runs from them
watch them as they disappear
Is it so hard to believe our hearts
Are made to be broken by love
That in constant dying lies
The beauty of it all
My darling won't you feel
The sweet heaven in
Our endless cry
Oh at least you could try
For this one last time
So amazed how bright are the flames
We are burning in
Ever smiled at the tragedies
We hold inside
My darling won't you cherish
The fear of life that keeps
You and me so alive
Oh at least you could try
For this one last time
It could be alright
For this one last time
Oh at least you could try
(And we just will be closer)
For this one last time
(Let me fall into your arms)
It could be alright
(Don't let us grow colder)
For this one last time
(Let me close to your heart)
Oh at least you could try
(Before it's all over)
For this one last time
(Let me fall into your arms)
It could be alright
(Before it's all over)
For this one last time
I refuse to relive my past
live with no discretion in my head
all the hours I was living
inside I was dead
I refuse to reflect upon a past that I now regret
because living with the past is harder than it is to forget
its your choice
discard your final chance
destined to die by your own hand
I'll bleed for my faults and I'll die for my cause
true in every breath to myself til my death
for all of the time that you wasted away
a year of life for every wasted day
a constant reminder of what I used to be
believed to be a revolution
but to most just a style
superiority at others exclusion
disdain for those defiled
just another form of segregation, emboldened
enforcing your ideals
step back, reconsider your position
step back and try to deal in something real
i'm not turning back to the vow I made to my soul
do it for yourself
not to assume some role
to shut out and segregate was not the original intent
it seems we've lost sight of what it once meant
what it once meant
Our pain is profit, health is poverty
unveil the truth - we've swallowed lies
they've stripped us clean - tied us to their machines
one death is tragedy - billions the industry
Epidemics equal revenue
plugged in for life as you wear that caring disguise
how many more lies am I insured for?
we pay for research while we live in disease
so sick and tired as we wait...(for you to)
Release the cure
How many more lies are you prepared to sell?
I'll swallow another pill as I drown in my wishing well
searching for something more by the light of a fading torch
weeding us out, keeping us down - involuntary unnatural selection
bleed out the money before we are dead
force us to wait as the infection spreads
all this time the clock is ticking
eternal life on earth, a resurrection
my resurrection
my blood still flows
I have a purpose
I have unfinished business
I was taken to early I have a dream, it was a mistake
I haven't kept my promise, I need more time
bring me back if just for one day
I have a purpose, I broke my promise
my dream was killed, somebody took me away
why, why, why, why
is there life after death
bring me back if just for one day
born again
(Ian Hunter)
Beautiful people - got their beautiful lives - got their
Beautiful husbands - got their beautiful wives - got their
Beautiful bankers - got their beautiful lawyers
All things bright and beautiful
The beautiful people are sent to destroy us
Beautiful people - got their beautiful kids - got their
Beautiful schools where the beautiful other half live - got their
Beautiful futures in their beautiful professions
All things bright and beautiful
The beautiful people got the money for the lessons
I'm living in purgatory - I know what purgatory is
This ain't no sanctuary - This ain't no way to live
You gotta have a sense of humour - you gotta know how to laugh at it
Cos, I'm living in Purgatory 'n anything's better than this
Beautiful people got their beautiful clothes - got their
Beautiful mansions - down their beautiful country roads - got their
Beautiful Doctors - in their beautiful surgeries
All things bright and beautiful
The beautiful people like a little privacy
I'm living in purgatory - I know what purgatory is
This ain't no sanctuary - This ain't no way to live
You gotta have a sense of humour - you gotta know how to laugh at it
Cos, I'm living in Purgatory 'n anything's better than this
Beautiful losers on their beautiful estates got their
Beautiful job centres on the beautiful welfare wait and wait
Beautiful dreamers - out of their beautiful skulls
All things are bright and beautiful
As long as they're beautiful, people stay beautiful.
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
I'm living in purgatory - I know what purgatory is
This ain't no sanctuary - This ain't no way to live
You gotta have a sense of humour - you gotta know how to laugh at it
As empty words poured from her lips
As the vanity suffocates
May I never breathe your name
May I never suffer your presence
May you never need to feel the same
And I'd like to, I'd like to
Wish it away
Burn it to ash
Preach common sense and call it religion
Tell me not to kill and now I must worship you
You're invisible, I can't see you
You're inaudible, I can't hear you
Feed the hungry, clothe the naked
Starve the hungry, choke the thirsty
Let them all bleed dry in my grasp
No angels stalk, stalk, stalk, stalk
I am reborn, I know apocalypse
And no one fucking tells me
I'm waiting
In my cold cell
When the bell
Begins to chime
Reflecting on
My past life
And it doesn't have
Much time
'Cause at 5 o'clock
They take me
To the Gallows pole
The sands of time
For me
Are running low
When
The priest comes
To read me
The last rites
I take a look
Through the bars
At the last sights
Of a world
That has gone
Very wrong for me
Can it be that
There's some
Sort of error
Hard to stop
Surmounting terror
Is it really the end
Of some crazy dream
Somebody please
Tell me
That I'm dreaming
It's not so easy
To stop
From screaming
The words escape me
When I try to speak
Tears flow
But why am I crying
After all
I'm not afraid
Of dying
Don't I believe
That there
Never is an end
As the guards
March me out
To the courtyard
Somebody cries
From a cell
"God be with you"
If there's a God
Then why has
He let me go?
As I walk
All my life
Drifts before me
Though the end
Is near
I'm not sorry
Catch my soul
It's willing
To fly away
Mark my words
Believe
My soul lives on
Don't worry now
That I have gone
I've gone beyond
To see the truth
When you know
That your time
Is close at han
Maybe
Then you'll begin
To understand
Life down here
Is just
swallowing an ocean of absence
soaking in the tortured admissions and passionate denials
the absent friends and enemies, the manufactured threats
the crushing weight of memories are all that I have left
the absence of feeling - no love, no pity, no hate
and the absence of anything as what's left of me
drowns in waves of mindless apathy, submerged in total despair
dilute the venom of misery
see the world through the bottom of a glass
as all sensation separates from a numbing heart
another dosage of the antidote suffocates emotion before it starts the same depression
the same fear... constant frustration at the same reflected stares
...but cold flesh protects my mind like a clear, smooth, hard bottle-glass skull
Count me out of your aspirations
As I tear down your ambitions
No devotion, no obligation
As contagions fill the air
You've exhausted every option
It's time to tear you down
I will not surrender my soul
Tighten the noose around our necks
How does it feel? How does it feel?
all of your dreams - well did they ever come true?
and did you get what you want?
how does it feel to be alive?
stare into the eyes of all your dead friends
you're the one that did this to them
stare into the eyes of all your dead friends
all these ghosts no longer children
stare into the eyes of all your dead friends
you were met with resistance
you fought hard, you persisted
now look back on your transgressions
head in hands
this is your punishment - and this is your penance
this is your reward - trophies and tombstones
Dead souls rising to the jailers of the dying
Hear our crying as we cast thy sinners down
An angel fell from hell with its wings aflame
Having served my time in your paradise of torture and despair
To play the harps of sin
The abused are the accused
They stand the trial of pain
You the crown that strikes them down
You sentence them to shame
All of you know the ugly truth
So speak up now
Gotta rise to the defence of the innocent
And pass the judgment down
No matter what you're trying to do
Or what you're trying to prove
There's no excuse you never use violence
Be a warrior of peace
If you want to walk with me
Dead end violence
The tough guy hype and stereotype
Ain't making you a man
Real strength is in restraint
It's time you understand
All that booze that lights your fuse
Is screw up number one
Never hit your wife never hit your son
Never fucking hit anyone
No matter what you think you do
Or what you think you prove
There's no excuse you never use violence
You'd think you'd been around
Long enough to know
What it is to hurt
To feel your world blow
Be a warrior of peace
If you want to walk with me
indivisible - we are sworn
a pledge, a vow, a promise - we are sworn|
indivisible- we are sworn
a pledge, a vow, a promise
in times of need of consolation you're there
like my conscience giving me strength like no one else
I can feel you teaching me about myself
I can feel you
letting me know you are there
you're my security- I bleed for no one else
my destiny lies in your eyes - I can feel it, I can see it
in complete disregard
for innocent human life
in complete disregard
for the welfare of mankind
destroy your surroundings
and let others deal with your mistakes
"I'll die for my freedom"
I don't think freedom is what's at stake
we'll burn the bias
break the chains shun the blame
and take the blame for
the final time to shun
swallowed again
I fell in too deep
I reach out my hand only to fall witness to my shadows blood
these eyes have never betrayed
next time I'll know better
this wrong will make me right this wrong will make you right
I burn these memories
your tears feed the fire
my veins flood with regret
I can see right through you
I was so blind - never again
a bleed like a leech
because I was so attached
obsessed, a parasite to your promises
you broke me in two because I wouldn?t bend
I held on too tight
lost my grasp in the end - (you were never there)
here I am where you promised that I'd never be
The vacancy of my soul- tearing itself
never say goodbye!
Never again
bound by inability and left to suffer the absence
words have failed me once again
attempts at completion have again left me empty
fate's design has forced me
to live without
and when I close my eyes I envision
one so undeserving of your presence
one who does not appreciate you as I
in the name of all tha's sacred
all that's left will be you and I
faced with distress and disappointment
we distanced ourselves from the world
we both ran as far as we could but shelter was not anywhere
we ran in opposite directions but destiny brought us here
in the hours that remain speak no more of tortured days
this world has failed us both, together we turn away
carve your name into my chest
burn myself down till there's nothing left
concrete rushes up to meet my fading heart
death is the climax of all emotion
tear me down, let me fall
what we once held so dear disintegrates in our hands
this time tomorrow, where will I be
this time tomorrow, where will you be
i keep stupidity by my side
i've got stupid masculine pride
i use hatred to express fear
there's a reason they're called queer
love as! Some church defines it!
Expressed! As we'd confine it
suffers! the undeserving
don't look for mercy in these eyes
why can't they just do whats right?
its not love that brought them here
there's a reason they're called queer
through the wasteland, forward to death
closer to it with every step
in stale air we draw a breath
in the midst of life we are in debt
and closer still with every step
through the wasteland forward to death
once we were so young and lived so carelessly
now through the wasteland go searching we
life feeds on life - as parasite to host
dust returns to dust
and in god we rust... slowly, in god we rust
wastelands of regret like you could never imagine
trying hard to forget defeated aspirations
but each day your hands shake in fear of what comes next
they measure success by what I possess
where once was a heart there's a hole in my chest
are you satisfied?
under filthy streets - subhuman screams
in desperate times we live by desperate means
are you satisfied?
I said what I meant and I meant just what I said
New York is in flames and the sidewalk cracks are shallow graves for this stolen city
it's burning down - then sink manhattan and let them drown
their hollow souls crumble against the best laid plans of rats and men
I DARE YOU TO BE REAL
to make your mark is to die face up on flaming asphalt
Don't want to lead a revolution
Let another go ahead
Don't have a need for elocution
No desire to raise the dead
You can't avoid the circulation
Amend the circumstance
Don't want to lose the combination
Still want to hold it in my hands
Can't see around this tunnel vision
From inside of what I've found
When I was wracked with indecision
When my hide was hunted down
Under a moon of innovation
A many-splendoured thing
I need the company I'm keeping
And I feed the hunger
Something happened inside and I can't explain it
I'm in a critical way
When I didn't believe it I couldn't see
Now I live a life in a day
All at once she is gone again when I turn back
Cracking up, more than I can take
Make it come right
And I'm dead on my feet, hesitating and down
In a dangerous mood where I shouldn't remain
Straighter than a narrow never-ending emotional ride
(Raining from the harder sky)
Waiting for survival, are there no words left to right?
Don't want them anymore
And now something I couldn't hide has happened inside
And taken the meaning away
When I didn't give in I couldn't begin
Now I live a life in a day
Something happened inside and I can't explain it
I'm in a critical way
When I didn't believe it I couldn't see
desparate and famished
scourged and suicidal
live and die by the sword
fall victim to your idols
tortured by despair
smoldering in desparation
suffer and burn alive in the flames of desolation
under siege
these truths are seen through the eyes of a dying world
the die has been cast
the final solution drawn
end this fear we?ve lived in like societies pawns with negligent abandon
I've watched with content eyes
destroying their greed
shatter their ambitious lies
I'm tied with indecision
I know exactly what I mean
Too hard to deal with bullshit stalemates
Stalemates of deceit
So I hit the bottle
I hit the bottle with both hands
I hit the bottle so I could speak
Look down on me
Your friends all want to have your back
A vampire sucking on your neck
Fairweather friends are all I see
This town has taught me how to...
Sleep with one eye open
That's the price you pay
For pulling all your faith
And everything we've done
It's no surprise to me
That's the price you pay
You built your life from clay
And you watched that sculpture dry and crack and break
All it needed was some care
All it needed...
Waking up holding my head
This hangover reminds me every day
Of the things that I've done wrong
And tomorrow it'll all be gone
It'll all be gone
There's only tonight
Mmmmm
Well I found my inspiration there
In silent whispers it just came to me so clear
A simple question of what was I doing there
Hesitation
when I'm standing with my prey
Indecision
about if I should blow him away
It's kind of strange what happened from that moment on
What more can I say than that reason he was gone
What they were asking was more than I could bear
Execution
what more can, what can I say
The realisation
of blowing a brother away
Something in me was gone
Something in me was gone, now
Hesitation
when I'm standing with my prey
Indecision
about if I should blow him away
A simple question of what was I doing there
Execution
oh, it wasn't a part of me
The realization
of how things are going to be
In my commitment to staying away from guilt
I feel no emotion for those I've gone and killed
Heartless devotion to saving the rest of me, yeah
I take my gun and I give it to my prey
I turn my back to him and I start to walk away
And all I want this for someone to stop me there
Don't want redemption
Don't want salvation
Don't want redemption
(In my commitment to staying away from guilt)
Don't want salvation
(I feel no emotion for those I've gone and killed)
Don't want redemption
(In my commitment to staying away from guilt)
Don't want salvation
(I feel no emotion for those I've gone and killed)
Don't want redemption
Can't think what to think
Can't think what to say
Can't seem to live my life
From now or day to day
No, yes:.etc.
Now I'm going mad
At all the fun I've had
It's all going wrong
Me, I don't belong
Crippled by my mind
For something I can't find
Something I can't be
Is it really me?
One day I'll pull through
I'll come back to you
And what will I say
Then what will I say?
Long days, Come alive
I take it in through my eyes
Long days of paper tigers
They ate all the words of the wise
Now my spirit and bones take me
Straight to a fork in the road
Now my spirt and bones take me
Somewhere I've never known
And if I face indecision
Don't let me face it alone
Just take me straight to Virginia
Back to the faces of home
Long days, fade away
I take it in through my eyes
Sometimes survival's the milestone
Electrified like a lightning tree
Take these spirit and bones
And catapult from the ground
What doesn't throw you or burn you
Will surely turn you around
But if I face indecision
Don't let me face it alone
Just take me straight to Virginia
Back to the places I know
And if I face indecision
Don't let me face it alone
Just take me straight to Virgina
Back to the faces of home
Long days, Come alive
I face the trail of the Old Lonesome Pine
I catch a glimpse, flickers of brilliance
Straight ahead for what's left behind
Lond days, fade away
I hope to see them again
Sometimes survival's the milestone
I may get lost
But I will know where I've been
Know were I have been
Onfused by indecision from a broken home
Left here to find out there's nothing left
I stand alone through scattered winds untainted
By human failure reminding us what we lost
How consistently we fall without taking a breath
Watching our life pass until the day we die
Hope we can follow
Faithful, we are faithful
Lord I honor you, Lord
Closer, you bring me closer
Hopeless, the never ending hopelessness
Our last words climb to a higher point of rage
This world has fallen into sorrow through selfishness
Now we won't amount to anything
The failing art of redemption
Had become a sign that wee are not alone
Will we prove to the world of your existence?
Cheapness pushed me over the line,
So I had to admit what I felt like inside,
Only you had already realized I am afraid.
In the end, just indecision
So what are you looking back for, say no more.
Fuck. I'm vaguely remembering this all before.
Indecision
Running thru my mind
Just like the blood inside my veins
I have to get it together and throw this shit fucking away
Responsibility
Stressing all my nerves
Making my body weak again
A have to get it together and throw this shit fucking away
I'm getting better with my life
Starting to control ‘till everything is alright
I'll get all bad things together and throw this shit fucking away
Insecurity
Coming to my mind
When something important is to say
half of me says 'no, i don't' but half of me says 'yeah, i do'
half of me says 'no, i don't' but half of me says 'yeah, i do'
so maybe, maybe i should flip a dollar to decide, after all that's what money's for
i feel my eyes they ache conspiring i'm sure to make a getaway
leap on out the way along the floor and out the door,
i'm almost positively sure except i don't know anything anymore
'cause half of me says 'no, i don't' but half of me says 'yeah, i do'
and half of me says 'no, i won't' but half of me says 'now when will you?'
so sometimes you do, you have to choose, sometimes you win and sometimes you lose
Everyday I look into the mirror.
I see my soul staring back at my heart.
I can't believe all the things you've done for me.
You give new beginnings to all who seek You.
Never would have in a million years
I could have so much for doing so little.
But we all know that you paid the price
for life by your death and resurrection.
(((Chorus 2x))):
What. Get out of my face.
Get back in your place.
Don't need your fake lesson.
Yeah stuck in my ways.
Running out of time.
Face cracked with age.
Stuck in my ways.
Stuck in my ways.
(((Chorus)))
I should have known better.
I knew this day would come (3x)
I should have known better.
I didn't listen...
Stuck in my ways.
Running out of time.
Face cracked with age.
Stuck in my ways.
Stuck in my ways...