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• Thieves - Showbread
• War Song - Showbread
• The Missing Wife - Showbread
• The Dirt (Alpha) - Showbread
• Sampsa Meets Kafka - Showbread
• Power Will Be Fought - Showbread
• I Want To Get Married - Showbread
• Age Of Reptiles - Showbread
• Centipede Sisters - Showbread
• A Better World - Showbread
• You're Like A Taxi - Showbread
• Vehement - Showbread
• The Prison Comes Undone - Showbread
• The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things - Showbread
• The Goat - Showbread
• Sing Me To Sleep - Showbread
• Not A Song - Showbread
• Mouth Like A Magazine - Showbread
• Lost Connection With The Head - Showbread
• Dear Music - Showbread
• A Man With A Hammer - Showbread
• The Sad Thing About Sunday Morning - Showbread
• The Jesus Lizard - Showbread
• My Heart Is Yours - Showbread
• Goodbye Is Forever - Showbread
• George Romero Will Be At Our Wedding - Showbread
• And The Smokers And Children Shall Be Cast Down - Showbread
• You Were Born In A Prison - Showbread
• You Will Die In A Prison - Showbread
• Welcome To Plainfield Tobe Hooper - Showbread
• Until We Meet Again - Showbread
• Two-headed Monster - Showbread
• Time To Go - Showbread
• The Vulture - Showbread
• The Sky (Alpha) - Showbread
• The Sky! - Showbread
• The Pig - Showbread
• The Journey - Showbread
• The Great Emasculation - Showbread
• The Flies - Showbread
• The Fear Of God - Showbread
• The End (Omega) - Showbread
• The End - Showbread
• The Dirt - Showbread
• The Death - Showbread
• The Beginning - Showbread
• Shepherd No Sheep - Showbread
• Sex With Strangers - Showbread
• Regret Consumes Me - Showbread
• Precursor - Showbread

you are taking time away from us,
discipline becomes necessary,
when it's undeserved and incredibly unjust?
and the clock drags razors over naked flesh,
cause i can't find a way out of the loneliness,
in securities driving nails under my skin,
time slowing to a crawl, fear of abandonment tying the noose around my neck,
and i pull this veil over my eyes,
you'd be happy to punish,
because i dipped into her blood, and she spilled me from inside,
what can it matter now, thanks to this latent understanding of worthlessness,
so you take time away from us,
a lack of trust that cuts my throat, my paralysis made by me,
fear of abandonment tying the noose around my neck,
and i pull this veil over my eyes,
this time the bond i've made and given,
is stronger than i am, and i can't tell if she's made anything,
i thought she needed me because i needed her,
arms around each others waists,
we soak our pillows and you are all knowing,
you are wrong for this, and you take her away from me,
you take my happiness away, you take my happiness away,
i soak my pillow, and i was all knowing,
i was wrong for this, and she left me all alone,
did she take my happiness away, or did i forget hot to be happy?
it's killing me, it's killing me, it's killing me,
it's killing me, it's killing me, it's killing me, it's killing me

revolution.
revolt not by your worldly nature,
put it into my hands and wait and see.
i'll bring the authority to it's knees, through Christ who strengthens me.
but the public school and community have organized to defeat me,
through conformity and worldliness, a fascist dictatorship.
but i've been crucified with Christ, and Christ lives within me.
so little do they know while they brainwash our youth,
our soldiers have equipped.
we've disabled the front lines with truth for the masses,
today is the day that we fight back.
not you, nor satan, nor death itself...

Should you hurt yourself or simply sleep?
I shall collect myself after I weep,
And garb myself in ocean blue,
With no method of goodbye for you,
Should the marsh render a crane to cry,
And should the sea suspend her gulls to fly,
I'll lend myself unto their wings,
And hear the voice of Jesus sing,
No wish for he whose whimsy does soar,
No wish to sleep forever more,
No eye shadow as thick as paint,
No pigment pleads unto the faint
Forgiveness like a blanket of snow whispers like the wind does blow,
Beckoning unto the deep, offering unto the meek,
And there you lay in Jesus' hands, resting there beside the lamb,
There will not be a circular piece to drive into a square shaped keep,
No hands to hold within my own,
No second soul inside our home,
We'll walk beside the crystal sea,

Before there was anything
I loved you endlessly
There are no words to make way for this truth
This love for you inside of Me
And if I paint a sky with bronze
Or blanket you with stars
It's not enough to prove to you
This love inside My heart
What if I knit you together
Inside your mother, with artistry?
Crafted in My very image
Because I need you here with Me
What if I gave everything
Just to have you close to Me?
What if My love was the only truth
Would you believe it could set you free?
There isn't anything
That you could ever do
Not death or life, not depth or height
Can ever take My love from you
There is no greater love than this
That a man should lay his life
Down for his friends
And though I already have
I'd do it all again
Regenerative are My bones and My skin
My nerves are dismayed by intrusion
Yet if you are gone, for short or for long
It all aches with no sought restitution
I would do anything for you
It's obvious and in plain view
Like the life that I've laid before you
Everything that I've done is for you
So look for me with open eyes
Knock and I will open the door
I have loved you before there was time
And I will love you forever more

Gregor starved to death
No one dies of loneliness

i rip the label off my forehead,
the one that you conveniently placed,
to keep me under your thought control,
this time the enemy will be faced,
there's no way this injustice will go unnoticed,
i'm not a percent, i'm not a number,
ignorance has become comfortable for you,
close minded complacency, but, were bringing it down,
tearing you out of your comfort zone,
and standing up for what we know is right,
you didn't expect independent thought,
you never expected intelligence,
were bringing it down and the whole system too,
you've judged me ahead of time,
it seems futile for me to fight,
so i could accept the label that is mine,
but i am not a stereotype, no, i'm not a stereotype,
my strength comes from Jesus Christ,

When you close your eyes even your eyelids are beautiful
for so long there have been traces of you in blood vessels inside my skull
that coarse you eagerly through me into my hands that reach for you
I love you and I always will
it's all so sweetly beautifully true
and time just makes you so much more wonderful
swimming in the ocean that's drifting in your eyes
I'm walking on a fine line of elation and joy to see the eyes of you
The things are surfacing since years and years ago
leaving me to wonder off in search of all I know
Porcelain skin and the dizzying smile the eyes holding forever blue
just know that I'm in love with you
know that I'm in love with you
So hold me now as I'm holding you
and treasure what we know is true
on my own would never really be alone
unless it's without you
And we go on against scrapes and sores
we break the doors
we will be together
you will lift my heart and move my soul
for all that I am and all that we are
they won't pick apart the truth to spread the lies inside of it disabling
and rendering the truth under it's opposite
Remember me I'm yours today
and if you will come to me and if you stay
I'll offer all I have and sacrifice myself to cherish you
the wind is getting colder and the years are getting older
I won't ever know the feeling of giving up on you
oh beautiful and fair and amazingly true
my heart my eyes and everything is a sentiment to you
created in the image of love that's everlasting
and I draw her out in the future I'd been mapping
Across the sea beyond the sky
even after we lay down to die
I'll love you forever and I'll love you again

I am made of parts that freeze and ligaments that atrophy
Though they look they'll never see
They don't know something's wrong with me
And just as well, I'll never tell what's underneath the scales
I've worn to thin to honor you, my every effort fails
Bury me with Israel and cover up my tracks
Leave not a trace of what I was, I'm never coming back
And if you're mercy falls upon he whose blood is cold
Unearth me with your hands of love and never break your hold
The world is full of ones like me
Who need to see the truth
But the truth is never truth indeed
The truth is only you
Jesus bless the crocodiles, forgive the cobras and all the snakes
Open up your arms to carry all of our mistakes
Suck the venom from every bite and vomit every drop
Some of us may bite your hand but some of us will not
And every knee will bow before you, each forked tongue confess
My selfishness will rot in me and I will seek your rest
Still some lizards flee from you, ashamed of all they've been
So Jesus take myself from me, never bring it back again
The world is full of ones like me, who need to see the truth
But the truth is never truth indeed, the truth is only you
The world will soon become extinct, the age will pass away
And all will know that you are God, hallowed be your name
Jesus bless the crocodiles, forgive the cobras and all the snakes
Open up your arms to carry all of our mistakes
Forgive the basilisk, forgive the moccasins and adders too
Have mercy on each alligator that never lived for you
I myself hatched from an egg, no white light from above
Just another ancient serpent that never earned your love
But still you find me underneath the rocks and in the ground
I cowered there just short of air and never made a sound
It's true that I'm in love with you, and even in my shame
You wipe away the imperfections and take away the pain
You wrap your loving arms around this wretched thing called me
Your love is all I'll ever need, your love has set me free
The truth is only you.
I walk the world on insect legs beneath an unforgiving sun
Eat the dirt throughout my days On the dirt and dirt I come undone
Messiah born in Bethlehem won't find me lying there
The world's too big for him to see me or hear the things I've said
Hold me to you as I pray, Take the rest of the world away
My blood runs warm because of you, The scales fall out of my eyes
I laughed in the keep of a man with a rose my mandibles are caked in trash
Thought you wouldn't recognize me, in the black of soot and ash
Don't turn a deaf ear to my voice, but one thing I want you to know:
I have always loved you though my life has never said so
Hold me to you as I pray, Take the rest of the world away
My blood runs warm because of you, The scales fall out of my eyes
Hold me to you as I pray, Take every other thing away
My heart is breaking out for you, The scales are out of my eyes
I love you Lord, and I lift my voice
To worship you, Oh, my soul rejoice
Take joy my King in what you hear

I'm gonna shed my skin, deactivate my head
The skin that I regenerate looks like the skin that I just shed
I'm better suited being typical
I keep choking down the cockroaches until I get full
A centipede! Yeah, a centipede!
The trunk moves independently of the head
Cant keep it quiet, no cant keep it quiet
The lips keep moving when the brain is dead
Don't wanna keep it down, I wanna throw it up
I just can't keep it to myself, I can't shut myself up
Don't need no honesty, it isn't half as fun
I just want to run my mouth
It makes me feel like I am someone
A centipede! Yeah, a centipede!
The trunk moves independently of the head
Cant keep it quiet, no cant keep it quiet
The lips keep moving when the brain is dead
I don't need to meet the arch bishop
Don't need to shake hands in a roman cathedral
Just drag the garbage up out of my guts
For I am all things to all people
A centipede! Yeah, a centipede!
The trunk moves independently of the head
Cant keep it quiet, no cant keep it quiet

I've got great plans for a better place to live
By taking twice as much as I could ever give
We could make a better world by burning down the whole place
But we're too stupid to see our hands in front of our face
To give up on your generation means a better world
Giving up on hope means a better world
Mastering disgust and apathy,
A better world
Giving up on everything means a better world
Burn it down
And build it up
I want to be someone to help enlighten the youth of today
But we're all complacently brain dead,
So what is there to say?
The pleasures of my body are rotting with my faith
In reconstruction for American,
So burn it all today
Trample the weak,
The patriotism and narcissism
Stop the blood short of my veins the temporal lobe is pale,
And the circulation cut short

When we die I bet they'll haul a box into a pile of dirt
Nothing in it but a sack of bones
And stuffy tie and shirt
As loved ones wish we'd get up
And moan this isn't fair
But you and me won't be there
When I die, whatever you might say
Don't say I'm gone
Gone is not the word for someone
Who finally found his way back home
Death, it doesn't scare me
Thinking that you're somewhere on your waya
I can't go on pretending
I might never see the day
It's not hard for me to picture
What makes me feel out of place
Hope I'm not afraid when I see you face to face
To some you're like a prison
When they've yet to taste freedom
And maybe you feel bitter
Because Jesus broke your kingdom
Once you were so powerful
And power made you happy
But now you're like a ferry boat
Now you're like a taxi
When I die, whatever you might say
Don't say I'm gone
Gone is not the word for someone

You talk so much that you must think
your tongue spools out from your brain
but those around you demand your wisdom
to combat the lowly inane
and oh how you make me hate the freedom of speech
because you use it like your throat sprung a leak
and actions do speak certainly
but since you won't pay attention shut your mouth and listen to me
I've got to get myself to forget myself
The soapbox you stand on has got a few cracks
the horse that you ride is quite high
perhaps you're as wise as your words may suggest
or perhaps you wear a disguise
for all the wrong that you call to attention
some seems to have been misplaced
and since you speak so honestly
why don't you point your finger right back in your own face?
Lord i hate the sin so much
and i love the sinner, i certainly do
but how will they know how to purge the evil

I hear when Jesus tells me that I need to bite my tongue
And my teeth, they try to cage it
But the prison comes undone
And everything I'm saying goes falling to the floor
And you're trying not to trip on it
As you walk out the door
My pride negates the iron bar I've driven through my neck
Compounded by the effort
That I constantly regret
Can you show me some patience while I try to see this through
When what goes on inside of me
Is not always the same as what I do
I tell him that I'm trying
But I'm sure you have your doubts
And this awful weight I'm dragging
I can mostly do without
If you still want to love me
It won't come without a cost
The fight to be much better

Lines in my hands, light through the walls
I'm writing letters to you with my prayers
Long before what I've stood up will fall
Or who I thought I might be is ensnared
A man inside a fish, scales from someone's eyes
A family in a great big boat while the rest of the world dies
You're making food to feed five thousand
You're saying "Let the children come to me"
In the corner of the classroom I am pulling back the carpet
I'm afraid of what I see
What is truth? What is true?
How big are love and history, what hides inside their mouths?
There are holes in me from things pushed in when I pull them out
And out of which come questions that I cannot unwrap
What I once learned is not enough to hold the torrent back
I feel as though the weight of questions has grown to cruel to bear
And though I long to lift it now the load makes me despair
Ask though I may the faces who once led me by the hand
Their voices are unfamiliar
I'm not even sure they understand
And now my spine is bowed by the boxes on my back
I don't know how to open them
I want to give them back
And yet you will not stir to ease this burden that I carry
It seems as though you've piled them up and treated me unfairly
It's this devastating world that laughs and steals upon my back
And everything comes crashing down when my will finally cracks
No longer will I tote the cryptic words of ages gone
When I was being broken, where were you all along?
The lessons recounted faithfully now fall like clumps of wool
The men and women who lied to me are cockeyed, panting wolves
They wave their flags and cast their stones and sneer with lusty grins
Commanding me to a follow a path they have never believed in
They low like cattle with bulging veins and militant fists in the air
Join their flock or burn in hell and I'm not sure that I care
Crawling out from the wreckage of all that I've been taught
I'm leaving it behind
They fling their venom out at me when I resign
Outside the gates I drag myself into a world bigger than I had believed
And inside they flay their sheep lest they follow me and leave
But after everything I've done and everything I do
I can still remember you
Lines in my hands, light through the walls
I'm writing you letters with my prayers
After all that I've stood up falls
And I afford you none of my cares
If I ask you "What is truth" will you be silent still?
My questions and doubts have created a chasm
That I fear you can not fill
Perhaps the lens I've eyed you through
Keeps me from from the truth
I can't find what I'm looking for
And I still remember you
When I relent the shackles of all that I've been fed
I pull back the floor and find something beautiful instead
After everything I've been through
I'm not sure I recognize myself anymore
Sometimes I think I might remember
But then I close the door
I walk away from everything and find myself made free
In all the tangles of who I am the truth is that you love me
Just as I was, just as I am, just as I will be

I remember everything, to be what I've become
A willingness for anything that can and must be done
I remember writing in the womb, wrapped up in viscous gloom
My will is calling out like a sweeping plague
Swallowing the mountains and the deserts and the rain
I remember thinking once that love could never die
But love is small and very frail and can't be kept alive
Unless you love the one for whom roars this internal din
The love that devours everything, the love of self burns within
My will is calling out like a sweeping plague
Swallowing the mountains and the deserts and the rain
Raping what is left of you, two flesh becoming one
My will is everywhere, my will be done
My will is calling out like a sweeping plague
Swallowing the mountains and the deserts and the rain
Raping what is left of you, two flesh becoming one

Something keeps me awake, something outside is stirring
Through the dark and over the grass
The rabbits and snakes are concurring
They sing in the soil and bones rattle loud
They cry out as this they do see
Someone in those walls is suffering proud
For you are worth every ache within me
I don't hear music, don't hear anything
I see dirt, I see cement
What a troubled world it is when you're outside arms length
It pulls out it's teeth in dry irreverence
Come and find me on this floor
I am only a half, truth be told
Take away all the distance and say:
"my beloved, I'm here, and now you are whole"
If I turn and see your eyes in the dark I will know the blue in an instant
Never have they gone so far
Never has your face been distant
My life I will give you like a verse and a ring
I will be your only one
And what you ask of me will be yours until all is said and done
Your heart is a song that I hear Jesus sing
It comes over oceans to me
And the notes spell out messages in vibrant streams
And what's written you show only me
But if you can't close up all the gaps tonight
Put me to bed in your way
You see right through everything I am
For you my insides are displayed
Sing me to sleep my beautiful one
I will love only you for all time
Sing me to sleep my only one
With promises that you are all mine
Be still my heart, I hear your back cracking
It sounds like music to me
I see your face and I can hardly breath

Ha! The joke's on you buddy. This isn't a song at all.

Turning over in interrupted slumber,
You ponder others, growing ever wakeful,
You've locked the vermin in the other bedroom,
To be so perfect causes you to feel so thankful,
Now find the fault because your boyfriend can't read,
Reflecting on to you is all the bitterness you need,
So unhappy, yet so preoccupied,
Never found beaten down with your forked tongue tied.
Your eulogy is like poetry,
But your mouth is like a magazine.
Queen dependency is cowering, please don't be confused,
You are vacant and submissive, receptive to abuse,
Virtue isn't tangible, and sense of self is dated,
Names constant on your cracked lips are now eviscerated,
Your spine is made of metal, Your veins are bound in electric tape,
And all along an impulse lights at random in your face,
Yough cought up an offering and forget which words are lies,
Then your skull echoes a singeing pop, as your brain is cauterized.
Within the walls I hear all of its legs,
There must be so many to carry it over our heads,
Seething and unsettled and oh such a let down,

Oh Lord, I'm sick of myself
I'd rather bury it than carry it
I'm desperate for help
And barely sentient means I'm just being me
Follow suit the destitute my modus operandi
A face that's marked by pallor means you're wasting away
So get a tan and raise your hands and take to feeling okay
No one enjoys the party when they're stricken with anemia
A shallow sinking surface simply screaming septicemia
Peace of mind is hard to find
So I'm standing in line and feeling fine
Aye, me sad hours seem long
And even longer when you're numb
Fading away and that's okay
Cause life has me under her thumb
I'm languorously open-ended and the ending's no good
I've been told to break the mold and I would if I could
But apathy is easier than caring at all
And the undulating nothingness means having a ball
Incredibly impressive and bereft of concern
Lobotomized and optimized and then I'm ready to burn
At war within myself and self is winning the fight
Because feeling like no one at all means feeling alright
Sense of purpose has got me feeling worthless
And I'm fading away, but that's okay
Aye, me sad hours seem long
And even longer when you're numb
Fading away and that's okay
Cause life has me under her thumb
Oh yeah, all right
I'm in a big fat cage and feeling free
That's okay, that's all right
Cause that's all that's left of me
Oh Lord, I'm sick of myself
I'd rather bury it than carry it
I'm desperate for help
And barely sentient means I'm just being me
Follow suit the destitute my modus operandi
Aye, me sad hours seem long
And even longer when you're numb
Fading away and that's okay
Cause life has me under her thumb
Oh yeah, all right
I'm in a big fat cage and feeling free
That's okay, that's all right
Cause that's all that's left of me
Oh yeah, all right
I'm in a big fat cage and feeling free
Goodbye, goodnight

(It's four o'clock)
If I could turn my back on anything
I'd choose it to be you
I've lost all interest in almost everything that you do
You've more to do with complacency
And the whims and trims of children
Than any sort of worthwhile thing
Or the few folks left to feel them
Who am I but another fool who's flirting with divorce
Like every other thing
You keep my foolishness on course
Maybe there is someone else less like an awful void
Who might beckon me with open arms
And offer new employ
I've got to say I'm looking for it
But if it never comes
I'll think of when I love you
Before you were what you've become
Who am I but another fool who's flirting with divorce
Like every other thing
You keep my foolishness on course
Still we have our common ground
Which can never be annulled
To sing of the one who made us both

A man at home with a hammer in hand
Is thinking about his life
Deciding that it would be best
To kill his children and his wife
A woman at home with a ring on her finger
Is thinking about herself
Her husband is a good man
But she has sex with someone else
Oh the thought of what sets a person free
Before I could ever love you back
You gave your love to me
Now I see my sentencing reprieve
You offer me your everything
Even though I am still me
A woman with lots of money
Whose plans were left in doubt
Because of the baby in her womb
So she pays to have it's brain sucked out
A man in desperation
A girl in his bed
She doesn't want to make love
So she will get raped instead
Oh the thought of what sets a person free
Before I could ever love you back
You gave your love to me
Now I see my sentencing reprieve
You offer me your everything
Even though I am still me
Thieves and liars
Murderers and whores
Homosexuals, extortionists
Pedophiles, abortionists
Junkies and rapists
Adulterers and terrorists
Every woman, every man

It's Sunday morning and like sheep with no Shepherd
they're turning off alarm clocks and ironing ties
above reproach is where we'll be in the eyes of the lesser
as they see our family van on it's way to church,
on it's way to tithe fundamentally you'll find it at the heart of our religion
all the answers and the ways of faith
learn it hear and speak Jesus name
it's synonymous with this place
And then a committee regulates where the money goes
and the people gather
who will teach the children and bring the gospel?
the Bible doesn't matter
we've heard it all a before from sermons and Sunday school
never from his book or from his voice
the Bible is just a reference tool socially
it's all required rituals, rules and youth group trips
they walk us through what we believe
we never hear love from graceful lips
So bring a date and bring a friend and socialize before service begins
We're making up more as we go along
and the weight of the morals the righteous men carry
we can make up more rules or cut some of them out
it's really all quite arbitrary
We will not learn from he who offers his voice to us daily and gives us life
we can read about it in colorful brochures
and see when service starts that night
As long as we sit under this roof
we're earning our way to a perfect heaven
I'm sure the Lord said something similar among the things that were said
when he walked among us and healed the diseased
if he came to our new location
I'm sure he'd be pleased with all our modern accommodations,
new paint and electrical tools
while the heathens sit at home,
idly they waste away like fools
we sit complacent and stagnant
and pleased that the building we've made finally suits our needs
and now we can learn and grow in this place

I tried to run across the water and I sank into the deep
Listlessly beneath the sea, within it's murky keep
I want to keep my dinner down but I threw it up today
See how agonizingly propelled without delay?
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
The Jesus lizard tried to love but it's heart was made of lead
He could not move the way love does so he faked it all instead
The Jesus lizard wants to be the center of your ray of light
But any light he has yet to see, no light is in his sight
I tried to pull the nails from you
Out of your hands and feet
And when I tried I made you die and yet you came back for me
If I drag myself throughout this world
If I throw up everyday
Will you still see that I'm still here?
I'm waiting in all of my ways
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
The Jesus Lizard formed for himself
For Jesus he would not ache
With insects stuck between his teeth
He scurried ever so fake
"I am God" the lizard said
Alpha, omega end with me
The sun was hot upon his head
So he tried to run across the sea
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore
I can't breathe and I don't want to anymore

She's driving these nails of restless anti-submission into a head
Full of the naive light of day
And then bury this ax with my name into the belly of the never ending stay
The torment refuses to lift off the ground
And the contradictions don't make a sound
Until they're all just screaming at her
So take my heart and make it yours
This is the last thing i have left to give to you
So take my heart
I'm not doing anything with it, and i'm tired of being alive
It won't go on separated by a chasm of denial
Someone is only one to us and maybe she will finally come to me
Invitations written in violet over pale thin wrists
So we pretend we're so far apart when we're really arm in arm
She won't look at me
She feels my heartbeat the lips, the arms, the embrace
And the things she whispers in my ear
The letters mailed across the ocean
So take my heart and make it yours
This is the last thing i will ever give to you
So take my heart
I'm not doing anything with it and i'm tired of being alive
Then the eyes roll back
Cast out by the gleaming lights
She was playing make believe
She was putting these scars on our hearts scars,
Hearts, putting scars on our hearts
Shimmering sweat for the swollen shame that squeezes my lack of a stomach
I wish i was everything that you wanted when the plane took off
She didn't realize there was an absolute selfishness
Wrapping strangling hands around her pale neck
To choke an adolescent out of her
And i started to weep as the glass just broke into so many shards around her
And i cried and walked in a circle behind her a million miles away my love,
My heart, where are the words to say?
Because i am so tired, i am so tired today my love,
My heart where are the words to say?
Because i am exhausted, i am so tired today

today i'll give up on you,
cause holding on to hope is something that seems hard to do.
nowadays hopelessness and i make a great team, we see eye to eye.
and this never ending cycle makes me sick.
it's what i've come to in this place, and i am what makes it.
it's getting harder to find the strength to go on,
when all the hope that linked us once and lived in me is gone.
my God, oh God,
i feel like i've died at least a thousand times.
and hopelessness is all that's real and all that is mine.
my insides feel so hollow as i gaze out of the car window,
the scenery could be moving or could be standing still.
what's the point in you or me, or anyone or anything?
all that this could mean to me...
i'm feeling tired and i'm ready to sleep.
it seems so surreal to think of now,
your love and those days seemed never ending.
it breaks me to think of now,
all this must end and won't have a new beginning.
one last thing before i go, is it safe to say that i'll always know,
happiness can't belong to me, and i can't let go... i give up.
once a memory was you in my arms, and a cold winters day.
once i knew i'd be all right.

I was looking for you when I first heard the sirens
The ambulances filled the streets
The masses screamed and called for help
You were no where next to me
The soldiers came to round up the living
And take them away to somewhere that's safe
But if I cant find you there's no place to save me
If you are gone then its too late
Night turns to dawn, and dawn into day
And the land overflows with the dead
Where did I last hold you in my arms?
What was the last thing that you said?
Some hide underground, others hide in a mall
I still drag myself through the streets
I life without love my love isn't a life to me
I don't believe that love can rot away
So first aim for the heart, then aim for the head
I wept bitterly and then I threw up
Something silver washed up in my lap
This metal thing, your wedding ring
Brought all of the memories back
I remember the bite, and breaking my teeth
I remember choking it down
Eating your fingers one at a time
I left most of you there on the ground
And it's there that I find you, just as you were left
Writhing you rise to your feet
You come back to my side with very few insides
They're still strewn about on the street
I have heard it said that love endures all things
And now I know that its true
Stronger than the grave, death cant put it out
Here I am, the walking dead, still next to you
I don't believe that love can rot away
So first aim for the heart then aim for the head
If true love last forever, then love doesn't die

Sing with me child as my ears are bleeding
Dreams that have, now seemed so fleeting
And still your cradle with no effort sways
Where this monochromatic record is played
And I?ll purse my lips to blow kisses, goodbye
So easy if you never ask yourself, why
My lungs will contract and give up a brief sigh
Shall we say an appendage has finally died?
Or is it easier to go on with a smile
With flattering ease and talk for a while
Words fall from your mouth and are lost on the floor
And I can?t go on singing anymore
Oh, the tale you tell, oh the web that you've spun
And the salt that was sprinkled on the things you have done
Makes the anger, oh so sweet, makes the world fall at your feet
Makes the pity that you pour over your head, quite a treat
So go ahead and cry and go ahead and lie
Begin every sentence that you vomit with an I
And then Jesus will forgive you but oh what can I do
To see if there?s enough forgiveness left for me?
But in all of Israel, Father did you see
Someone who seeks himself so perfectly?
The Pharisees would be content at sight of me
Snakes would wrap around me, we?d dance across the sea
To ridicule you there, spit upon your face
Unsheathe this wicked tongue and invite disgrace
Isn't that the goal that I've always pursued?
While I beg you, Lord to be used for you
Under a light in Bethlehem, I was sifting through the sand
Saline burned my eyes, I was looking for your hand
Gave up on myself and left my pride disarmed
I cried out, "I?m alone?, found myself in your arms
Rest in me, oh my love,
I've loved you before the world began
Rest in me, oh my love
You'll never to wander too far to reach my hand
Did they not murder You? Did they not see You die?
Hangin' on a tree as life had left your eyes
Did we not torture You? Smiling as You died
Or is it that You killed death itself and now we're all alive?
I won?t find you there, lyin' with yourself
Sleep under a rock until your mouth is full of insects
I won?t look for you, prayin' to your ceilin'
Swallow every snake and sing of your mistakes
Sing of your mistakes, sing of your mistakes
Sing of your mistakes, put lipstick on your mirror

the children wear their faith like bracelets
their passion like a wreath of bones
a lumbering hydra with hardening heads
steam from its talons, liquid chrome
oh the children cling to peace
the light through the socket of your eye of glass
they hope and they perish in the fire
atrophied and situated at an impasse
bless the Lord, oh my soul!
the apple in your mouth
the worm that gnaws it down to the pit
the things you go without
born into a prison they can't escape
there's no escape, there's no escape
born into a prison they can't escape
the children stand in line and wait to take the medicine
conform their thoughts, espouse the doctrine, accept the
discipline
an animal scratches its back on a rock
against the planet's teeth, it subjugates the stone
the children, warped and genuflected

sometimes i feel broken
and there are things that i never say to anyone
like sometimes i don't feel rescued
and sometimes i don't believe you love me at all
when i allow myself the fantasy that i might have made
you proud
i feel ashamed
i honestly believe with all of my soul that you love
the whole world
just maybe not me
it's not that i feel overlooked or that you've done me
wrong
maybe at the end of the day, i just don't love myself
when i try to impress you i hate myself
and i could run better if i could stay on track
and every time i turn around, every time you welcome me
back
it's hard to love someone so big and be someone so
small
and i'm afraid that you're the one who thinks that i
don't love you at all
but i do
you rend the veil that hides your face
you speak light into the dark
you've beaten back the hoards of death
you tear their crowns apart
no more aching and crying
you lift the burden of my shame
no more breaking and dying
you remember my name
(i can see it coming:)
the ill and the affirmed leave their sickness behind
all disease is crushed in defeat
the shadows shrinking back, disappear in the light
the paralyzed rise to their feet
the broken and oppressed overflow with joy
the abused become royalty
darkness and despair are banished for good
and death can find no loyalty
the tormented see peace in the fading night
and all the brokenhearted feel their hearts begin to
mend
the lowercase gods are all crushed by the King
the hungry and the destitute will never go without
again
war and poverty are vanquished
no pain, no suffering, no dismay
evil, death and all their friends are forever washed
away
our faith in you will cry out for the day
our hope in you will not be misplaced
for now we see through a fogged piece of glass
but soon we will see face to face
you rend the veil that hides your face
you speak light into the dark
you've beaten down the hoards of death
you've torn their crowns apart
come Lord, come! let the last be first
wipe every tear from the face of the earth
put all wrongs to right
make everything new

That thing inside my ribs is like a pile of reptiles
Pressed on splintered vertebrae, so cold, so claustrophobic
Echoing in hollow fruit are orders sent with love to you
To serve a will more shallow still than paramecium
I?ll bet your hands are beautiful
I?m sure your head is beautiful
But the world is ugly
The world is ugly and it?s true
I?ll bet your hands are beautiful
I?m sure your head is beautiful
But the world is ugly
The world is ugly even after you
Invertebrates now contemplate your lavishing and humble service
All set to hide behind the guise that this empty thing can?t hurt us
Sensationalized for virgin eyes, it?s graphic, it?s disturbing
And it?s worse still to think it?s real, degrading and unnerving
I?ll bet your hands are beautiful
I?m sure your head is beautiful
But the world is ugly
So the world is ugly even after you
I?ll bet your hands are beautiful
I?m sure your head is beautiful
But the world is ugly
The world is ugly and it?s true
I?ll bet your hands are beautiful
I?m sure your head is beautiful
But the world is ugly

My dearest friend, if I sing you this song, will you
hear it from up in heaven?
I’m still down here in this ugly place, but up there’s
where I’m heading
When they tell you I’m coming, please wait for me in
front of the house that I’ll live in
And when Jesus walks me up to the door, I can finally
see you again
It’s true that my heart was broken in two on the day I
said goodbye to you
And I carry an ache in my chest until Jesus makes
everything new
Those that we loved that left before us must have been
thrilled beyond words
when you ran through the gates and into the kingdom and
up to the feet of my Lord
Once sick and frail, once weak and pale, now made
perfect and new
No more aching and crying, or breaking and dying
Finally home in the arms of who loves you
When you run and you play in the light of the Son, hold
me in your heart and mind
Don’t know how and I don’t know when, but I’m leaving
this cold place behind
How my heart aches to think of the day when my faith
shall finally be sight
When the crowds will part and cheer as I come, as I
walk through toward the light
And my father, my love, Jesus, my king, in His glory,
seated on His throne
He’ll take me in His arms as the crowds cheer and sing
and say "Well done child, welcome home"
And He’ll walk me to the house that He built
with the father’s love and the carpenter’s touch
And you’ll run to me and I’ll hold you again, for my

it's easier to speak your mind when the world loves
what you have to say
oh they gyrate their way, they shout when they say:
"let us never see the day the sun sets on your heart."
but when i am alone in the dark i wonder where i've
been, i wonder where i'm going
is part of being strung along being helplessly
unknowing?
and what of the scoundrels who lead the sheep astray?
oh they question their masters, their parents and
pastors, and in the hereafter
they're steeped in the dark
and when i am alone, in my heart i wonder where they've
been and where they're going
is part of rebellion conceit of the unknowing?
is it difficult to speak your mind when the world hates
the things you have to say?
oh they screech and they bray, there is doubt and
dismay, may the sun set on this day
when you dragged all of them effortlessly straight into
the dark
while they where there they wondered:
what if the kings that we've put on their thrones
aren't really kings at all?
what if they should fall?
and all of the false gods that we're prostrated before
have no gracious reign in mind
what if we wake up to find ourselves coiled in their
ashes?
we will finally start to wonder what it is that we
should leave behind
we'll see the signs and realize there's never been a
better time to overthrow the principalities
in all our words, in all our deeds
and storm the gates of hell to show them they will not
prevail
if all our hopes and all our dreams fall on deaf ears
then let them see
the gates of hell will not prevail
and you've broken the chains on me
i needed to be vindicated for all of my frustrations
but dragging all my grievances was heavy as damnation
i don't need to feel so right, but I badly want to feel
alive
i'm done with a contest of wills

When I was young you waited patiently for me to grow
You're smiling down, your hand in mine, but I didn't know
A voice I'd heard all of my life locked away in my insides
Now whispering "It's time to go"
So I told all I know goodbye
You told me that you don't change
When everything around me did
And when I ran away you said there's no trespass you won't forgive
Sometimes it feels like when I was small
The way that you still smile at me
And after all these years you're still the one that I thought you would be
The world says that you are someone you are not
To know you better I've had to forget what I've been taught
And if the whole world decides to turn it's back on you
I'll be right here
Because they don't know you the way that I do
I once had lots of family who all have gone away
The storm came down and shook our house
They decided not to stay
They feared the wind and rain and fled for their lives but I didn't care
I stayed and waited for the storm to pass
I knew you were there
The world says that you are someone you are not
To know you better I've had to forget what I've been taught
And if the whole world decides to turn it's back on you
I'll be right here
Because they don't know you
When I was young you waited patiently for me to grow
You're smiling down, your hand in mine, but I didn't know
A voice I'd heard all of my life locked away in my insides
Now whispering "It's time to go"

I keep clawing at my ears and they keep on ringing
I keep filling them with dirt and still they go on singing
Where are you going and where have you been?
The voice, it wants to leap from me or take me from within
But I am not a robot and I am not a slave
I will not lick the feet of it that begs me to behave
I wrap the sound in silence until it cannot breathe
And trade the singing in for something horrible that suits me
Because I am my own, because I will decide
To pry apart the hinges that keep me blank
And waiting on the outside
It's easy to hear this voice, it's easy to turn it off
It's easy to make this choice, it's easy to turn yourself off
It's easy to hear this voice, it's easy to turn it off
It's easy to make this choice, it's easy to turn yourself off
I?m becoming something that I need to be
To bury this ringing in something deep and dark inside me
And in its place I hear a whisper powerful and new
Sweetly singing in my ear, ?Do whatever you want to?
It's easy to hear this voice, it's easy to turn it off
It's easy to make this choice, it's easy to turn yourself off
It's easy to hear this voice, it's easy to turn it off
It's easy to make this choice, it's easy to turn yourself off
It's easy to hear this voice, it's easy to turn it off
It's easy to make this choice, it's easy to turn yourself off
It's easy to hear this voice, it's easy to turn it off

I remember you
When you are wrapped in darkness
When the world closes her eyes
I remember you
I think of resting with you
When you finally go to sleep
Meet me in the closet of your heart
So you can lay at my feet
?Who is this,? they said to me
?That the wind and waves obey?
Come, let's hang him on a tree
That his reign should pass away?
But here I am, I say to you
Though you turn away, it is my will
To love you for forevermore
Peace be still
I ache for you
When my body cracks and I sigh
When I am wrapped in darkness
When the world closes her eyes
I think of you
When I breathe, I rise and I bow
When time passes and stands still
Then, there, here, and now
?Who is this,? they said to me
?That the wind and waves obey?
Come, let's hang him on a tree
That his reign should pass away?
But here I am, I say to you
Though you turn away, it is my will
To love you for forevermore
Peace be still
?Who is this,? they said to me
?That the wind and waves obey?
Come, let's hang him on a tree
That his reign should pass away?
But here I am, I say to you
Though you turn away, it is my will
To love you for forevermore

In the beginning there was black
And now there's me
I bend the neck until it cracks
And suck the open bleed
I rise up above the spit
With talons brightly bared
And hew the children into two
I simply do not care
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
Open up now, world
I have arrived and now you crack
I?ll break my knuckles, split your teeth
And crush the ugly rats
Lay before me, world
I will not hide within your womb
I?ll peel my bones against your rocks
And seal them in your tomb
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
I am, I am
My ears are popping
Close your mouth, I know the way
Whisper to me, children
And be still and watch me fade away
I drench the dirt with my spit
You swim in its river
The way out is up
I watch you shiver
I am the arctic fingers
Wrapping around your neck
There?s nothing to stop me now

I know the way inside my heart
but nothing seems to get that far
I've spent my life down on my back
It falls asleep, it pops and cracks
And when the sun comes up again
My body dries and shrivels
Then some nice man is over me
So I throw up and giggle
there was a time when i was blank and see-through
but never white as snow
just made of rippled glass
i thought that it was sealed, but now i know
in goes a tiny seed that splits open with rotten spice and sage
and then the numbness is consuming me
just like a sweeping plague
my soul is cheap, lay on top of me
I peel myself up off the floor
Say "I can't do this anymore"
But then my soul has run away

Open up the wide gates, here I come
The broad path is getting trampled under my feet
The narrow way and the tiny ugly door
Is getting smaller and smaller
Too small for me
Open me up
Just like a vacuum sucking in the dirt
Put it all inside me, baby
Hear, speak, see and rise like leviathan
Armor plated, fire breathing
Yeah, I am
I am the empty, empty
Yeah, I am
I am the nothing in me
My will be done, done did it
Did the everything that leads to nothing
And breathing in the rotten stink
Feeling something, something leads to nothing
Breathe it in
Bat wings swathing my face
Screeching, singing something into me
The light, it flees
Open up the earth, my veins, my legs
My throat, my head, my soul is dead
Yeah, I am
I am the empty, empty
Yeah, I am
I am the nothing in me
Breaking down the walls that you leave up
To keep me from eating the tree of knowledge
Suck that fruit and spit the seed
Leave behind the sad and spineless
Part the sea and break apart the crust
Let me in the darkest tunnels at night
Let your spirit sag like a skin molting
Let it drop, shut out the ugly light
Yeah, I am
I am the empty, empty
Yeah, I am
I am the nothing in me
Yeah, I am
I am the empty, empty
Yeah, I am
I am the nothing in me
Yeah, I am
I am the empty, empty
Yeah, I am
I am the nothing in me
Yeah, I am
I am the empty, empty
Yeah, I am

I now pronounce you man and life
Without the bones that kept you from sagging like a
sack of skin
A trash bag full of fluid that the man you used to be
is drowning in
The roles reversed, we got confused
Lost track of who we were
Thought humility meant to be castrated
Thought self-sacrifice meant losing all we were to her
Hey, can someone say to me
"Love feels like freedom and not like slavery"
Hey, can someone say to me
"Love feels like freedom and not like slavery"
Hey, I’m breaking down
Pieces of me getting lost in the cracks of her ground
And I thought a lot about being a robot
Thought a lot about being a robot
Thought a lot about being a robot
I don’t want to be alone
Used to be a guy with big dreams and brains inside my
head
Now I’m licking boots instead of washing feet
Now the man I was is dead
It’s a lot of work when two people connect
Thought love was a beautiful thing
But it feels like a shackle around my neck
Feels a lot like suffocating
Hey, can someone say to me
"Love feels like freedom and not like slavery"
Hey, can someone say to me
"Love feels like freedom and not like slavery"
Hey, I’m breaking down
Pieces of me getting lost in the cracks of her ground
And I thought a lot about being a robot
Thought a lot about being a robot
Thought a lot about being a robot
I don’t want to be alone
Hey, can someone say to me
"Love feels like freedom and not like slavery"
Hey, can someone say to me
"Love feels like freedom and not like slavery"
Hey, I’m breaking down
Pieces of me getting lost in the cracks of her ground
And I thought a lot about being a robot
Thought a lot about being a robot
Thought a lot about being a robot

I want to go home

Dear God, why should I think You’re good in a world
that’s falling apart?
The flags and lies, picket signs raised high, the
endless enveloping dark
Now here we sit, drifting further from You, two
thousand years on their way out
Now here I am, as I’ve grown to know You, still haunted
by my fears and my doubts
Just a man, just a vapor, just a waste of your space
All the good that I’ve done is in spite of myself
I’m not sure that I can look You in Your face when I
finally set foot in Your kingdom
Dear God, what went wrong? We hate ourselves, we hate
our brother
We so desperately want to find our way, and all You say
is "love one another"
And little babies starve to death, emaciated, out of
breath
Unfaithful wives make vows untrue, husbands beat them
black and blue
Junkies vomit in the streets, writhing, twitching in
their skin
Sell themselves to die some more, rotting from the
outside in
Parents steal the innocence from their children, scared
and shaking
Drink away the guilt at night, brings quiet to the
endless aching
And evil men boast on TV, swimming in a sea of wealth
While misery beds honest men, and lonely people kill
themselves
And everyone cries out Your name, as the world is raped
by selfishness
And no one knows the way to heaven, we only know the
emptiness
And the storm it rages in my heart, and the endless
empty roars in my ears
My world is coming all apart, I’ve no strength left to
dry my tears
And through it all I hear Your voice, breaking my
heart, breaking my will
Calms the storm inside my soul as You whisper "peace,
be still..."
You place Your hands around my heart, You quiet the
emptiness in me
A king that kneels, a God made a servant, You set the
captives free
You wait for me, a wretch of a man, no record of wrongs
do You keep
You are comfort when I mourn, You are strength when I
am weak
Jesus Christ, the king of kings
Though we ache, though we cry, never break, never die
We sing of His great love again and again
And His love reigns forever, and forevermore

Father, hear my voice
Be it small
Here I am
Though I am nothing at all
Dost thou still see
Something to love in me?
If it be, carry me away

I was born naked and red
Tied to my mother as she screamed and bled
And the tubes of light and all the sadness
Swimming in my head
The truth is a root that twists like a horn
Looping and gnarled and splintered and thorned
Tangling me forever and ever
Do you ever wish you?d never been born?
Wrap my name in incense and myrrh
And seal it up within
Remember the way we begin
Then lay and sleep and never wake
Sadness never ends

I want to open up my guts
And crawl inside to make a home
And nestle up inside the steaming
Softness silent and alone
I want to pull apart the things
You think that matter
?Cause to me nothing is everything
Just a vacant listless clatter
And I bury myself underneath myself
I will not reach or call for help
I want to do this on my own
I want to feel it in my bones
I want to know the ugliness
That wraps around me
So I open wide and die inside
Forget the things the world said I could be
There?s nothing for me, nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free
The nothing's in love with me
Don?t you think it?s funny how
The dirt just piles up on me?
And I?m being crushed but baby, hush
You know it doesn?t matter very much
To know the nastiness
And roll around in piles of this
Then yawn into the stinking hiss
Then close it tightly in my fists
When I am gone I?ll leave no bones
No dust, no death, no love, no home
Just emptiness and all of this is nothing
Nothing, nothing, I?m alone
So wave goodbye and close your eyes
And never take off your disguise
The world is ugly when you take it off
Go on and live your life
There?s nothing for me, nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free
The nothing's in love with me
And leave me lying here
The world will never shed a tear
For idiots who die like us and never ever
Know something that?s real
There?s nothing for me, nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free
The nothing's in love with me
There?s nothing for me, nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free

When I was a baby I could close the world
Up in fleshy pink mitts
Now the world flays the infant palms
And the bones drip out in its spit
When I was small I reached up so high
And grasped at the morning star
Now the wormwood topples down on me
And smashes all my parts
When I was a child my bones spread out
Like peacock feathers alive
Now the feathers wilt like cancerous boils
Leaving sagging pores in my hide
When I was of age I saw a gate so wide
And a path so broad for the taking
But the road to everything led to a cliff
Where I sprawled out naked and aching
Now that I'm old I see the light
And I see it was never there
Everything leads to nothing
Nowhere and I don't even care
I don't even care
I don't even care
I don't even care

I used to dream that I could fly
Just above the whispered clouds
Beneath the somber sky
I had a dream I was alive
I dreamt that love would never die, goodbye
Dreams were cheap and hope was easy
(So light)
The forgeries of life deceiving
(So bright)
And as I glided to the ground
(So long)
Calcified, the concrete weighed me down
(Cruel, cruel world)
Your wings are holding up the sky
Dear God, I had dreamt that I could fly
Alkaline the burning frost
Has blistered deep beneath my bones
And winter spat its hatred
Cold and coiled, black and deep
As it called me ever further
Where evil burns and never sleeps
I once had prayers that found no words
Fragile things I've never spoken
Through my lips passed eulogies
For all the oaths that I have broken
And still the ghost of hope was haunting
Through the dark to save the living
And still beneath it all I dreamt
That God could be forgiving
Your wings are holding up the sky
Dear God, I dreamt that I could fly
When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the prince of glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride
I am the worst of all things here
My crooked, black and lying heart
Still spits its bitter fear, fear
And each and every sparrow
They flutter to the ground before they die
So please God don't forget me
I have been with you all along, you have not noticed me
Nervosa now felt more ashamed than ever before
Why would you still care enough to save me
Even after seeing the horrible things I have done?
Why do you remain here even now? She asked, sobbing
Because, here is where you are, the Lamb said softly
And I long to be with you
See from His head, His hands, His feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did e'er such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown?
To Christ, who won for sinners' grace
By bitter grief and anguish sore
Be praise from all the ransomed race

Forgive me children for I have sinned
I never asked you first
the way in which I wrote this song, the pen which
scribed the verse
I never stopped to think of you
Each chord change, each refrain
was done so with you not in mind
The farthest from my brain
Already gone and such a waste
Will you please put me in my place?
It’s not enough to just say the things you do
I hate music because of you
Being the connoisseur you are, with all you listen to
You know exactly what we’ve done wrong and what we need
to do
Come to you before each note is ever written down
Find out exactly what you want before we make a sound
Already gone and such a waste
Will you please put me in my place?
It’s not enough to just say the things you do
I hate music because of you
But I, in my arrogance, have gone my separate way
Music is dead and so are we, and soon will come the day
when every single stupid song and everything online
will turn to dust, the moth, the rust, decay and wasted
time
If I am honest, there’s part of me that hopes it makes
you sick
I hope you cannot stand to hear it, or bear the thought
of it
I hope tomorrow you’ll curse our name
You’ll drill it in the dirt
I hope you’ll not come back to us
I hope it always hurts
But at Your feet I admit defeat
My work is now in Your hands
If they want to hear stupid music so very bad
They can start themselves a band
Already gone and such a waste
Will you please put me in my place?
It’s not enough to just say the things you do

our ship is enveloped by the shadow
of the spaceship that's adrift overhead
it cuts through the cosmos like we through the sea
on solemn sails of stoic lead
soon will they descend on us like fissured masks of
clouded jewels
and i proclaim that i'm lord of myself and become the
lord of fools
the crowns that sing the song of sirens, drifting
shadows in the deep
anticipating our arrival like eyes within its murky
keep
do you have a hand in it?
is yours the only hand in it?
are we to believe there's really no evil, it's just
made to look like it?
do you had a hand in it?
is yours the only hand in it?
and i can't help but wonder if we were helpless to
resist
is a God that is so sovereign also a God that takes no
risks?
i am haunted by the specter of possibilities escaping
if what God does is always good and could happen no
other way
then it would not be good if one less died or if one
more soul was saved
if my actions are all orchestrated according to holy
design
why is it that wars, gas chambers and the raping of
women are not divine?
if the almighty forced our hands and lined us all up
into place
how can he then look upon this evil with contempt and
turn away his face?
Augustine wrote it in a book and dragged Calvin and
Luther along
suffice it to say the wisest of wise can be so

It must have been easier when we were younger
and the world takes place two feet outside your head
Then something expanded and you start to feel stranded
so you scramble outside of the skin that you shed
It must have been easier when the lights were brighter
and the girls were screaming your name
Then the bulbs burn out and you’re left in your doubt
and everything starts to feel the same
You couldn’t stand it I suppose
Life comes and then life goes
Some things nobody knows
Some things nobody knows
It must have been easier to feel in control
Where you were so small and you needed a way to feel
So you took all you could and it felt pretty good
Then suddenly you’re aware of what you did
It must have been easier to be somebody we knew
or maybe you felt spent
Suddenly you’re gone and everything goes wrong
No one knows just why you went
You couldn’t stand it I suppose
Life comes and then life goes
Some things nobody knows
Some things nobody knows
You couldn’t stand it I suppose
Life comes and then life goes
Some things nobody knows
Some things nobody knows
Some things are easy, some things aren’t a breeze
And some of my branches stretch out and bear fruit
Some branches die when they freeze
Sometimes I think of you
We couldn’t stand you I suppose
Life comes and then life goes
Some things nobody knows
Some things nobody knows
You jumped from a plane that you thought would explode
And you slowly drift your way down
With the dead weight gone the plane flies on

I used to believe in something and something believed
in me
But now I see I forced myself cause believing in
nothing is scary
Now there’s nothing left to lose and we’ve been wearied
and refused
I am an unbelieving wreck. Will you please lift me by
my neck?
How do I turn this into something I believe
When it’s something I’ve been told and something I’ve
been taught?
How do I turn this into something that I need?
I’ll be lavishly controlled and be someone that I’m not
Make me believe. Make me believe. Make me believe. Make
me believe.
Joy and suffering, good and evil, breathing and growing
and life
It’s all a fluke, means nothing to me, and maybe
nothing is all right
To give up my life to hold on to hope, to forfeit all
of me
To believe that something must be true and that truth
will set us free
How do I turn this into something I believe
When it’s something I’ve been told and something I’ve
been taught?
How do I turn this into something that I need?
I’ll be lavishly controlled and be someone that I’m not
Believing in love, believing in hope, surrendering all
of my will
Believing in nothing is scary, believing in something
is scarier still
Believing in love, believing in hope, surrendering all
of my will
Believing in nothing is scary, believing in something