Everything gives me cancer,
Every day the process is getting faster,
And when I stop to wonder why,
I think about Altadena skies,
Altadena skies
While I don't feel that I'm to blame,
I don't feel that I want the world to stay the same,
And if you think your life is grand,
I've got news for you my friend,
There's more to life than staying content
Everything gives me an ulcer,
One says ghetto,
One says culture,
Everything has it's place,
They saved me a spot right here in the waist,
Right here in the waist
While I don't feel that I'm to blame,
I don't feel that I want the world to stay the same,
And if you think your life is grand,
I've got news for you my friend,
There's more to life than staying content
My lungs are daily filled with Mission Street,
The smell of exhaust and visions of defeat,
I took three showers today,
But the smell wouldn't go away,
So I turned on the radio and drifted away,
I drifted away to a better place,
Drifted away to a better place
While I don't feel that I'm to blame,
I don't feel that I want the world to stay the same,
And if you think your life is grand,
I've got news for you my friend,
You wanna make me sick;
You wanna lick my wounds,
Don't you, baby?
You want the badge of honour when you save my hide
But you're the one in the way
Of the day of doom, baby
If you need my shame to reclaim your pride
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; get off now, baby-
It won't be long till you'll be
Lying limp in your own hand
You feed the beast I have within me
You wave the red flag, baby you make it run run run
Standing on the sidelines, waving and grinning
You fondle my trigger, then you blame my gun
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; get off now, baby-
It won't be long till you'll be
Lying limp in your own hand
[instrumental interlude]
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; get off now, baby-
It won't be long till you'll be
Everything was fine 'til three little words
I know I'm gonna pay for this hurt
Fell for the lust of three little words
thought I could stomach the burn
It brought me this far
those three little words
finding out this bed is too hard
It's harder than this
it's harder to find
finding out this bed wasn't mine
HOLD STILL WHILE I SEVER THIS CORD
AND SAY NOTHING MORE ABOUT CHANGING YOUR MIND
IT'S TIME, LET ME DO THIS FOR ME AS HARD
AS IT IS IT'S HARDER TO LEAVE
I'm sorry for this it's my fault again
shouldn't take that long to set in
I guess it's to late we'll never be friends
not after this shady end
It's time to take back those three little words
It's much more than I deserve
It's better this way now that I'm drained no more fight left in me
It came to this and now I know
I'm a critic cause I have nothing to show
I have nowhere to go with this so called talent of mine
my confession to the world is on a wall
in a bathroom stall
and conviction means so much to me
and the shit about you that comes out of me
obscuring the truth for everyone
I have a pretty large arsenal of lies
I know it's no surprise its reflection is easy to see
indiscretion is a foreign thing to me
it's a paid for disease and I paid with my humility
and the shit about you that comes out of me
obscuring the truth for everyone
I have no shame
no game
no talent to display
why can't I be the one
I'll make them notice me
and the shit about you that comes out of me
obscuring the truth for everyone
I have no shame
no game
no talent to display
why can't I be the one
Except for tomorrow
every day is yesterday
it's just the same as always and it's eating up my time
can't blame the stars on
everything that's in my way
it's just the same as always and it's eating me alive
I'll get by
with nothing at all
and I drive
with nowhere to go
it's all that I know
on my own
gotta swallow this pride
on my own
with a hollow inside
on my own
and now I realize
that I just can't decide on my own
I found the problem
now I've got to find an answer
I'm really good at giving up can't afford it much this time
I spent too much time on
looking for a better way
but only finding bitterness and a dislike for today
I'll get by
with nothing at all
and I drive
with nowhere to go
it's all that I know
on my own
gotta swallow this pride
on my own
with a hollow inside
on my own
and now I realize
that I just can't decide on my own
the pressure is so high and as high as I want to be
the level is as low and as low as I'm gonna go
so what's it gonna be
your point is what's it gonna be
I'd be lying if I tried to tell you
I'm grounded while asleep at the
wheel
I'm looking tired so don't try to
wake me
I'm living and I'm finally the hero
My voice is thunder
My spine is steel
It's my dominion
All this...this is real
Time and time again I reach my limit
Dog-tired and I can't admit it
The pressure's building and I'm sure
to blow it
Take cover I'm going under
My voice is thunder
My spine is steel
It's my dominion
All this...this is real
Nothing can hold me
No one will stop me
I'm living boldly
All this...this is real
Got it figured out
Here I go again
I reached the limit
Got tired and I won't admit it
pressure's building
I'm gonna blow it
public day
not a breeze
not a problem
they could have seen
green light leaving ground
one more time
to the line
three inside
for what who really cares
our screams won't make a sound
oh no
uh oh
send somebody for us
oh no
uh oh no
oh no
uh oh
send somebody for us
oh no
its too late
red light on
blinking wrong
signal gone
cut off from everything
eyes wide vertical
black out mass
welcomes us
not a thing it seems could help us now
all mass broken down
oh no
uh oh
send somebody for us
oh no
uh oh no
oh no
uh oh
send somebody for us
oh no
its too late
why can't they show us the way
show us
show us now
we're drifting
we're listing
all systems going nowhere
until the
to where the
so this is how it will end
oh mother
oh father
we're closer now then we've ever been
why can't we see the light
oh no
uh oh
send somebody for us
oh no
uh oh no
oh no
uh oh
send somebody for us
oh no
its too late
why can't they show us the way
show us
Can't afford a lesson, well I'll
give you this for free
Doesn't cost to listen, pay
attention and you'll see
The world's spins to tear you
down and waits for your defeat
focus on the center and don't
skip a single beat
It's your turn, what have you
learned?
Somethings gotta give, I've
heard the cracking for sometime
staring with intent will get you
sore eyes everytime
consider where you've been and
where you'll end up if you fail
Nothing's worse than loosing
words, your honor, or your way
Don't apologize to me
I won't criticize your needs
Don't apologize to anyone for
anything
Especially when it's what you mean
consider this a part of what you
really need
And yes, I do believe
That someday you'll be strong
This lesson's meant for me
The truth waits out there for me and
I feel I'm near
The truth waits out there for me,
What I know of you I've only seen on the T.V.
heard on the radio
or read in the news
there's nothing else to see or to hear about in your defense
the verdict's in the word is out we know about you
and you have no voice
you have no choice
you could build yourself a fortress but you can't talk to me
and there's no way it's gonna go away
while the news of your success is right in front of me
make your bed
lie in it
don't complain
we're the same
or are we
you grew up way too fast
and the spotlight was as hot as you
our interest only fed by you you're bigger than life
accountability to me is your every sacred privacy
and who you know and where you eat are noted and key
where did you come from are you real?
how did you get this much appeal?
a modern god we follow you
where do you start and do you end
are you a part of our pretend
This is not my home
these are not my friends
a new place to go
this is not the end
closer now than when I remember
some good time to begin
no regrets there's none
selfish once too much
payback made in full
maybe not enough
I don't make the rules
waiting as well as hiding
afraid of fighting
all senses trying to stay in focus
to bring it closer another moment
and then I blow it
and now you know it
and you believe you have the secret
it's in the open
and now you're closing
the book of reason
no fear of using
and now we're even
by now you get it
She was the finest girl I've ever seen
See her face in a magazine
And ironically I knew her when sincerity was in her grin
And she had this power that was within
Possessing men was commonplace
And one good look into her eyes
And the look on her face as she smiled
When I fell and her walk
all over me
And her talk
behind my back
Was just about all I could take of her new personality
And all the money in the world Couldn't buy her a new personality
He sits by himself bag lunch in hand
wearing all the wrong clothes
fashion like Dad
watching everyone else
thinking what's the difference
the difference is all
you're better than the rest
you just don't know it yet that's the problem with you
this is just a test
you'll pass it if you don't settle like the rest
his best friend's a book and the mall in his room
hanging out in chapters with nothing to do
and all that he hears is "what's wrong with you?"
now leave it alone
you're better than the rest
you just don't know it yet that's the problem with you
this is just a test
you'll pass it if you don't settle like the rest
life is not that easy
he'll find a way to go
life is not that easy
You gotta give
You gotta give me a better reason
to listen to you
it's gonna take
it's gonna take more than shouting at me
to make me concede
you should have left it alone
too late open mouth
stupid words
like "never again" and "only one more time"
being lame
doing things you know better than that
is it too much to ask
we're older, not wiser, contrite and indifferent
we're learning, just slower
I'm on my way now
I did it by myself
I looked down every hall and avenue and I did it without help
I'm in a place now where I can be myself
I'm gonna do what I want and say what I think and never be let down
held back and pushing through
looking for a better view
this is what I'm gonna do
when I get through
I understand how I made it through this far
I took the backseat to and let them through and I waited for the start
I'm gonna find out how I can be a part
of everything I'm not but wished I was
I'm gonna fill this empty heart
held back and pushing through
looking for a better view
this is what I'm gonna do
when I get through
and I wonder when it's gonna turn around
standing on this cloud the air is clear up here
I'm never going back from where I came I found what I want it's right here
held back and pushing through
looking for a better view
this is what I'm gonna do
when I get through
and I wonder when it's gonna turn around
I'm waiting, I'm craving, I'm saving
and now it's time I'm gonna stand up gonna shine
I had that same dream again
I dreamed I was an old man dyin' and tryin' to repent
and facing consequences for all the shit I've put up with
But now I've run out of steam
a broken backed nostalgiac
no chance left to redeem
I'm longing for my heyday give me a change to live again
IF ONLY I WERE EIGHTEEN AGAIN
I WOULD SPEND ALL MY TIME TRYIN' TO REMEMBER WHEN
.....WAS I THAT MUCH HAPPIER THEN?
IF ONLY I WERE EIGHTEEN AGAIN....
And now I'm older it seems
well at least while I sleep deep within my anxiety dreams
I comb my hair on over
put my teeth in and give a grin
I recollect and reflect
loves lost at too much cost' my conscience full of regret
and if I wake up I hope this better be a better day
IF ONLY I WERE EIGHTEEN AGAIN
I WOULD SPEND ALL MY TIME TRYIN' TO REMEMBER WHEN
.....WAS I THAT MUCH HAPPIER THEN?
IF ONLY I WERE EIGHTEEN AGAIN....
The real truth of youth is innocence is a blessed and a cursed simulcast
The simple fact is that I'm sick of every song that dwells on the past
But still I go on writing
how long can my discontentment last?
When I wake from my dream
reality kicks in and I grinned just wonderin' what it means
the whole world screams "grow up"
Which one do you want to be like
and do you want to be liked by one of them
What's wrong with the way you are now
and is it hard to be the way you are
I KNOW I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE
AND SO WILL YOU GO THROUGH THIS YOU'LL HAVE YOUR DAY
FIND OUT WHAT YOU HAVE ON YOUR MIND
AND HAVE A SPINE TO STAND UP AND CHOOSE YOUR WAY
Not fair never will be for you
not supposed to be that easy for us
Try hard try to keep it in line
and by the time you get it won't matter then
I KNOW I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE
AND SO WILL YOU GO THROUGH THIS YOU'LL HAVE YOUR DAY
FIND OUT WHAT YOU HAVE ON YOUR MIND
AND HAVE A SPINE TO STAND UP AND CHOOSE YOUR WAY
SO LONG HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD LIFE
DON'T TAKE ADVISE FROM ME OR FROM ANYONE
SO LONG YOU'RE GONNA FALL ON YOUR FACE
Riding my bike to the store with my friends and comin' out with a blue slurpee
lighting a match to a fuse and running really fast to get away from 80
hop on your Huffy let's go ride down suicide
moon walk to beat it with a grass stain and scratch on your knee
state of the art, pistol grip, black joystick I'm gonna kick your ass at Frogger
Luke Skywalker, Han Solo, light saber I wanna have my way with Leia
hop on your Huffy let's go ride down suicide
moon walk to beat it with a grass stain and scratch on your knee
hello Commodore and Barrymore
right foot red and laid out on the floor
gonna figure out this colored cube
Thought she was nice
'cause she was kind to animals
thought she was fair
'cause she's a vegetarian
And now I think twice
she seems a little vacant upstairs
I know that's not nice
but neither am I
I DON'T CARE WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
I THINK OF HER AND I'M GLAD IT'S NOT PART OF ME
WITH A CULTURED AND BRUISED MENTALITY
SHE BROUGHT IT ON HERSELF
AND WE ALL PAY THE PENALTY
SHE TOOK ON THE WORLD
AND LOST EVERYTHING ON THE WAY
POOR GIRL THEY'LL SAY
She's at it again
She says I got selective reasoning
it leaves me on end
and complicates the patience in me
And now I know why
she likes the fashion of attention
She'll fuck with your mind
talkin' shit but so can I
I DON'T CARE WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
I THINK OF HER AND I'M GLAD IT'S NOT PART OF ME
WITH A CULTURED AND BRUISED MENTALITY
SHE BROUGHT IT ON HERSELF
AND WE ALL PAY THE PENALTY
SHE TOOK ON THE WORLD
AND LOST EVERYTHING ON THE WAY
POOR GIRL THEY'LL SAY
Pink parasol
she wants a pink parasol
SHE TOOK ON THE WORLD
AND LOST EVERYTHING ON THE WAY
POOR GIRL THEY'LL SAY
They'll say it's not her fault
Just a victim of circumstance
and we'll pick her up when she falls
fuck that I can't stand it
SHE TOOK ON THE WORLD
AND LOST EVERYTHING ON THE WAY
This is weird it kind of scares me
This is strange I'm not aware of things
It's something new It's not supposed to be
I should have known these things follow me
I'm confused cause it's gotten out of hand
what to do I think I need to know
I'm amused cause on the other hand
I'm comin' down
I think I'm sick of you
YOU TOLD ME
WHAT COULD BE
WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME
IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T FEEL THE SAME AS YOU
Just because this is kind of happening
going fast way past novelty
Doesn't mean I can't handle it
here I am and here's my loyalty
I could be wrong intentions gone away
and now you're gone and so is a part of me
It's really hard and now I realize
Nothing's wrong and now it's up to you
YOU TOLD ME
WHAT COULD BE
WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME
It's been ten minutes since
a thought of this
has made its way and left its mark on me
and in ten minutes more
the same thing will
start happening and frame this novelty
and when this cycle ends
I'll start again
and bring about the possibility
the thought of looking for
and finding more
has never been as hard as this for me
I found a picture of the two of us
and seeming like it was a week ago
I thought of everything
it should have been
and nothing was as far as I would go
and when the cycle did come to an end
I thought about the possibility
the thought of looking for
and finding more
has always been the hardest thing for me
I'll wait a thousand ten minutes
since when has it ever been different
I'll spend a lifetime of learning
since when did I remember anything at all
where did I leave her name and her number
where does she work she told me before
why do I find it hard to remember
now why do I find it hard to ignore
how do I know when this will be over
You are the temporary void in my life
you know what you don't want I know what you don't like
We're together so conviently
you take what you don't have
I take what you don't need
THIS IS A RACE TO THE END
IT STARTED ON A HILL AND ENDS ON A MOUNTAIN
AND WHEN THIS GAME WINDS DOWN
I OFTEN WONDER WHETHER WE'LL BE MORE THAN FRIENDS
Neck and neck I think I'm slightly ahead
You're keepin' score and I'll use it against you
Keepin' time with all the words that were said
skip a step and I'll be slightly behind you
THIS IS A RACE TO THE END
IT STARTED ON A HILL AND ENDS ON A MOUNTAIN
AND WHEN THIS GAME WINDS DOWN
I OFTEN WONDER WHETHER WE'LL BE MORE THAN FRIENDS
The is a likely story
this a secret affair
this is a part of what we need to stay in this game
I guess the question is how much can you take
I've got the time and the motivation
Soon enough there'll be a lot more at stake
who's gonna be the first to fall to pieces
THIS IS A RACE TO THE END
IT STARTED ON A HILL AND ENDS ON A MOUNTAIN
AND WHEN THIS GAME WINDS DOWN
Stable cause he had a good job
Quiet, wasn't fond of small talk
was the kind of guy who'd eat his lunch alone
on the weekends he would always be at home
Doing god knows what if god had only known
Mail order and he ordered one to go
BRINGING DEATH AND DESTRUCTION TO AN OFFICE DOWNTOWN
KILLING 23 PEOPLE AT A HALF PAST NOON
SAID HE WAS SORRY AS IF IT WOULD HELP
AND THE SPOTLIGHT'S IN HIS FACE
GONNA NOTICE HIM NOW
Stable cause she had a good job
labeled all american mom
Bright and early Monday morning on her way
Gotta work got to get some money saved
Sipping coffee, sorting boxes, and her fate
Package opened reading "have a nice day"
BRINGING DEATH AND DESTRUCTION TO AN OFFICE DOWNTOWN
KILLING 23 PEOPLE AT A HALF PAST NOON
AND NOW THERE'S A ROCK WITH HER NAME ON A PLAQUE
IN THE MIDDLE OF A PARK
GONNA NOTICE HER NOW
There is this old familiar sound
Don't know exactly what it is but it's a part of me
And now it's getting very loud
You're on your way Passed out and not aware
Not scared of anything Don't matter anymore
You're one to say life is a fragile toy
Don't play too hard with it Don't drop it on the floor
Cause you said this is all you can stand
And your vices are all that you have
And it's time to rethink what you thought That I'd never knew
you don't understand And here we go again
Can't take away can't hide or cover them
These scars are permanent They make you one of us
Can't drink away can't swallow all your pills
There's not a chemical to fix a jaded mind
Cause you said this is all you can stand
And you vices are all that you have
And it's time to rethink what you thought That I'd never knew
you don't understand And here we go again
The trees are all like scarecrows
The leaves are on the ground
Children in their own world are the only sound
The thought of any problem
The bully on Grand Ave.
The pocket knife in his hand
Demeanor was the same as it always was and will be
Attitude's the same down here
You point it at them People do bleed
Percentages are high this year
I wanna know when to laugh at your gun
Careful not to push to far
You're bringing all your power to me
Pathetically addressed like this
The situation worsened
It's harder than before
The bully's got new reasons Reasons I deplore
things I walked away from
Now leave me where I stood
And all I see is blue sky
I guess it's just the
Same as it always was and will be
Attitude's the same down here
You point it at them People do bleed Percentages are high this year
I wanna know when to laugh at your gun
Careful not to push to far
You're bringing all your power to me
Looking down the barrel
Remembering the stories
Making light of history
Will I ever laugh at this
I guess it's just the same as it always was and will be
Attitude's the same down here
You point it at them People do bleed Percentages are high this year
I wanna know when to laugh at your gun
Careful not to push to far
You're bringing all your power to me
I can tell that you're not amused
with the things that we used to do
I remember that you used to be
in the middle right next to me
Think you thought it was time to leave
must of thought you'd seen everything
now your baggage is bitterness
guess nothing was as sweet as this and....
I'VE SEEN YOUR PAST IN FRONT OF ME
I'VE HEARD THE WORDS THAT YOU'VE SAID
YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE AROUND WHO SEEMS SO SERIOUS AND
I guess I really didn't realize
friends of mine could be this way
It's not your fault you had to change
I just wanted it to stay the same and...
I'VE SEEN YOUR PAST IN FRONT OF ME
I'VE HEARD THE WORDS THAT YOU'VE SAID
YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE AROUND WHO SEEMS SO SERIOUS AND
SO NOW I'M SITTING HERE IN DOUBT
OF MYSELF
YOU'RE NOT THE CAUSE OF IT
DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF
I'm really sorry that you seem to feel this way
and I'm really sorry that you seem to feel this way
I'VE SEEN YOUR PAST IN FRONT OF ME
I'VE HEARD THE WORDS THAT YOU'VE SAID
YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE AROUND WHO SEEMS SO SERIOUS AND
SO NOW I'M SITTING HERE IN DOUBT
OF MYSELF
YOU'RE NOT THE CAUSE OF IT
DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF
Sometimes I find it rather hard to forget
some things you said weren't really that bad
But it's a promise you made to me
Far away and lost without you
Fate is cruel and brings me this
We are not deserving of this
You are there and I am nowhere near
The feeling I thought would go away
Has grown and is far past to late
And all I think about now is that You are there and I am nowhere near
CONSOLATION I WON'T TAKE IT WELL
NOTHIN' ELSE AND NO ONE QUALIFIES
CONSOLATION I WON'T TAKE IT WELL
CAUSE YOU ARE THERE AND I AM NOWHERE NEAR
Here it is it's waiting for us
I sit alone and watch it go
I want it back so bad right now
Just one more time and then I let it go
Take me back I want to go
I want to see your face again
I want to die inside again
Just one more time and then I let it go
CONSOLATION I WON'T TAKE IT WELL
NOTHIN' ELSE AND NO ONE QUALIFIES
CONSOLATION I WON'T TAKE IT WELL
CAUSE YOU ARE THERE AND I AM NOWHERE NEAR
And so it ends on promises
A bitter taste is in my mouth
And all I think about now is that Someone near is finding what I want
Seen it all before
Not like this
Not my trip
This is what I saw
Saw the lot of you
Doing things
Saying things And in front of me
You didn't seem to care
who was there
What was heard it affected me
Wash my hands of you
over this
This is through
this is what I mean
By now you've moved on
I assume
still alone With that attitude
Now you find yourself
By yourself,
on your own With a big ego
No one there to feed
what you need
Give you peace and or anything
I need something good
Something else
This is through
this is what I mean
It's my decision
can't take it away
I'll have it my way
I'll make my own mistakes
why don't you listen
your mind is your voice
your heart is your choice
it's pretty hard to ignore
and you do
totally blind
and you choose
recklessly
I approve
of nothing I've ever seen you
try to do
your indecision
has taken its toll
and you're on a roll in actuality
fucked up condition
state of your life
summed up in a lie
it's pretty hard to ignore
and you do
totally blind
and you choose
recklessly
I approve
of nothing I've ever seen you
try to do
make up your mind
black or white
right or wrong
make up your mind
stay or go
I don't know
Its about time
by now your vision
is to be desired
and I'm uninspired with what's in front of me
it's our condition
to stand by your word
to listen and learn while leaving nothing ignored
and you do
totally blind
and you choose
recklessly
I approve
of nothing I've ever seen you
I know this girl Monica
she's from Santa Monica
or somewhere from down there
She moved up here recently
and is very friendly
I feel special when she's near
YOU POOR MONICA,
I FEEL BAD WHEN YOU'RE SAD
AND YOU THINK THAT NOTHING'S WORKING OUT
MY DEAR MONICA, I'M REALLY GLAD,
WHEN YOU SEEM TO BE HAPPY AND A SMILES ON YOUR FACE
You think you've seen a smile
You haven't seen this girl's
there's nothing like it in the world
She seems to be down a lot
It brings me down a lot
but quickly passes with a smile
YOU POOR MONICA,
I FEEL BAD WHEN YOU'RE SAD
AND YOU THINK THAT NOTHING'S WORKING OUT
MY DEAR MONICA, I'M REALLY GLAD,
WHEN YOU SEEM TO BE HAPPY AND A SMILES ON YOUR FACE
If you ever get the chance You should spend some time with her
You could learn more about yourself
About this girl Monica
You gotta be careful
I don't believe in your crazy theories
I hate your dreams cause they make me weary
I don't subscribe to the bullshit that you'd have me wear as a badge of honor
You think I'm dumb and you can't understand it
why I'm numb to the things you planned out
you don't believe me when I am gasping you think its funny and you push me back under
Leave me standing here with next to nothing
just enough to bring me trouble
Now I'm here and I don't know what to do
thanks to you and your twisted logic
TAKE IT SOMEWHERE ELSE
THAT'S QUITE ENOUGH
I'VE HAD MY FILL
I'VE HAD ENOUGH
Since when did you start caring
what's with your change of heart
since when did I mean more to you than all those who came before
I can't believe that you'd have me face it
didn't mean to bring you down
and now that you're here with me
I think I'll hang around
Leave me standing here with next to nothing
just enough to bring me trouble
Now I'm here and I don't know what to do
I like my lego's and my lincoln logs
my action figures and my comic books
I build a fort and then go and read them in the summer time
Today I think I'll make a cool character
she'll wear a big coat with electric fur
she'll have the power she'll make you cower when I roll the dice
DON'T SEEM LIKE LONG AGO I HUNG OUT WITH G.I. JOE
AND WON MY LITTLE WARS IN MY BACK YARD
NOW ALL THAT NAME MEANS TO ME IS A SOBER CUP OF REALITY
THAT WAKES ME UP AND DRAGS ME THROUGH ANOTHER DAY
Scratchin' a name in a heart in a tree
then telling my friends that she's with me
I got your letter
this is forever or until fourth grade
I ask my mom if I can go out and play
she says my room's a mess and I gotta stay
Young man you're grounded
I'm so astounded what you put me through
DON'T SEEM LIKE LONG AGO I HUNG OUT WITH G.I. JOE
AND WON MY LITTLE WARS IN MY BACK YARD
NOW ALL THAT NAME MEANS TO ME IS A SOBER CUP OF REALITY
THAT WAKES ME UP AND DRAGS ME THROUGH ANOTHER DAY
God I love this feeling
six years of meaning and the thoughts they come and go
I wasn't looking for an even ciew of
I wanted nothing more, confirmed
When I met you
Fucked up and lost for words, I knew
I'd been reduced
Brought down to serve a term, a
splendid servitude
you knew it wouldn't work, I knew
it wouldn't not
you had the upper hand, I fell
and never stopped
you barely even cared, that I had
come undone
My heart is coming loose....
And this is what I will do
I do it for you, 'cause you, you do it
for me
And we, we got it all right, I can't,
I can't let you get away
Get away from me now
So far I'm still around, right here and
facing you
we've had our ups and downs, and that's
the painful truth
I don't care if I, if I win or lose
I just want to play, play the game
with you
I know it doesn't get any better than
this
How do I make you see that this is
something you'll miss?
I'm going to hold the door for as long
as it takes
I've never wanted more....
Reaching the shore, found by the ocean
come so far we could fly
Fly away, carry us, us away
Blurry days, lapse of time, lost in our
well these walls they might hold me
and the rules they might mold me
but itç£ all they told me what iç£ be
well the time is passing
and my crime forgotten
and by now you think i could leave
and all i know is part of the show
the show is all there is to me
and all i am is where i stand
youç£e just too far to see
see the cells i live in
make the shell iç£e been given
painted red these skin colored walls
well the bars they held me
and the scars my trophies
and by far itç£ only the start
and all i know is part of the show
the show is all there is to me
and all i am is where i stand
youç£e just too far ,too far to see
your blue skies grey around here
winter burns, stones wonç£ turn cycle frozen
your day is night around here
and still i yearn for the day
when i learn thereç£ a way
out of here
and all i know is part of the show
the show is all there is to me
and all i am is where i stand
My friends are therapy
They know what I need
I need some sympathy
Once in a while
My friends take care of me
They know what I need
I need a piece of mind that they help
me find
High on anxiety
Tension's got me
And my reality
Is fighting with me
I sense an urgency
I struggle to breath
My friends are therapy
cover the need
My friends are therapy
Help me to breathe
I'm doing fine this time
This time it's no line
Light up the way.......
Far down, bring me back again
I'm sound, here comes the day
My friends, bring me back again
I've got an atom bomb
So I'm never wrong
Don't push too hard
I said I'm never wrong
I've got a thousand fears
You will lend an ear
It sounds unfair
'Cause I'm an easy scare
Let's settle the score
And shatter the sky
Such a beautiful sight
come even this life
Let's settle the score
And shatter the sky
I'll shatter, I'll shatter
I swim the shallow end
searching deep within
To save us all
To this there is no end
I'll make the planet shake
Based on your mistake
you'll take the fall
And then you'll kill us all
So shut in, can't get out,
Did you know there is something
about yourself
you don't know about, and I
I know about it
Ican't explain it for shit
And we, we seem to come to the
Almost everytime, and I
I try to find you
But no one is there
And where are we now when
you can't seem to find out
Why your mind is where it is
Where is your mind now?
And here we are
Not too far from who knows where
Still waiting for the start
The start up something the first
time we care
And if we
we can understand our dreams
Or realize our fears
we might get somewhere with time
You're one on a scale from one to ten
caught by surprise with your intent
I wish I could take it but I can't
I wish I could break you but i can't
I wish I could take from you
The time you stole from me and hurt
you back
I shaped your aim, you shot me down
your sharpened words then hardly felt
As time went by the words, the hurt
The burn now register, I'm gone
Lesson learned and time was spent
So much for the words you meant
Lesson learned
Time served
You're one on a scale from one to
caught by surprise with your
intent
I wish I could take it but I can't
The fun is gone, I'm moving on
Lesson learned and time was spent
so much for the words you meant
wasted time so much regret
Had it all but all for not
Lesson learned
Time served, time burned, in
turn
you will get what you deserve
My turn, you'll burn, and you'll
i know i really didn't mean to
to see through
all the tears in your eyes
i never meant to make you cry
and wished that this had passed you by
by now i'll hope that i seem to
leave you
up and go away
its gone again
and where it went
i'd give it all if i could know i'd know
i know its never
i know its never
i know its never been this hard for you
i know we've never
i know we've never
i know we've never gone this far its true
another moment
another word and
another look and we'll call it through for sure
this time its true
we lie we haven't decided
its too hard
to try anymore
no matter what is said or done
we've let it go to come undone
one word it seems so simple
for us
to our sense of your thought
with best intentions
our worst reactions
they linger on and on too long i know
i know its never
i know its never
i know its never been this hard for you
i know we've never
i know we've never
i know we've never gone this far its true
another moment
another word and
another look and we'll call it through for sure
this time its true
i'll leave the light on
i'll leave it burning
i'll leave the light on
to heal the hurting
i'll leave the light on
i'll leave it burning
i'll leave the light on
for you
i know
i know its never
i know its never
i know its never been this hard for you
i know we've never
i know we've never
i know we've never gone this far its true
another moment
another word and
Here's the situation
came to our senses just in time
Got a mind, gotta use it right this
time
Figured out the hard way
Tired and failed nine times, here
comes ten
Got a mind, gotta get it right this
time
Got a mind, gotta get it right this
time
Last chance to save yourself from me
Or change your policy
Did you read the fine print?
Did you happen to notice all those
lies?
Well you should have it comes as no
surprise
What I'm tring to tell you
Thought we'd never see through, Well
surprise
Got a mind, gotta put it hard to you
Got a mind, gotta put it through
You wanna make me sick;
You wanna lick my wounds,
Don't you, baby?
You want the badge of honor when you save my hide
But you're the one in the way
Of the day of doom, baby
If you need my shame to reclaim your pride
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; got off now, baby-
It wont be long till you'll be
Lying limp in your own hand
You feed the beast I have within me
You wave the red flag, baby you make it run run run
Standing on the sidelines, waving and grinning
You fondle my trigger, then you blame my gun
And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry; get off now, baby-
It wont be long till you'll be
Lying limp in your own hand
I dreamt that I took a rope from the shed
Waited till the morning light
You drove away
And in shame I hung my head
And as you sang along to the FM air
My legs began to kick away the chair
And as you parked the car
I'd gone too far
And instantly all the pain was gone
I forgot to feel
And instantly I woke up alone
Ooh it felt so real
Hours later you came home to find
Me hanging like a puppet and we waltzed
You should have known
Even though it wasn't your fault
And as you grabbed the legs of a fluid corpse
And cut the rope to bring it to the floor
You sobbed on a cold face
Oh what a waste
And instantly all the pain was gone
I forgot to feel
And instantly I woke up alone
Ooh it felt so real
And as I woke you'd already gone out
The weight re-landed on me like a house
I wish that you were here
