Look at me - I can carry the load
Time and deeds have proven I'm not so stupid I can't see
The light that shines - on easier roads
So be my guest that's not the way I'm headed tonight
There's a cynic in every crowd
You're so real it hurts to look into your eyes
At some point something's got to give
You give and give till you can't give no more
You give and you give till its all gone
And she can carry me in one hand
The silhouette of her mothers milk white breast is enough
I'm so drunk I can barely stand
So give me the strength of ten men
So I can carry the weights I am given
There's a cynic in every crowd
You're so real it hurts to look into your eyes
These fakers are the worst kind of liars
Commitment is a choice you keep making
Everything will be changing - Give me the strength
Who'd of known
Looking a the dark dirt gravel road
You'd of done everything you've done
Or that I'd become all I've become
Intimidate me - I'm afraid
Frustrate me - Stomach ache
Its dark tonight wherever you are
Its dark tonight where I am also
The gift of light is something you'll never know
I'm alright - I'm alright
Comfort in Holding your hands
Won't soften the blows to come
Comfort in thinking thoughts of never being born
Won't take away - can never take away - all I've become
I broke down the minute I hung up the phone
I'm breaking down every other minute I'm alone
Its dark tonight wherever you are
Its dark tonight where I am also
The gift of light is something you'll never know
Tried for the launch but you only sank into the sea
Not a star but just a starfish you'll be
Cold water rising seaweed sings sweet dreams
Take a closer look no telling who you might be.
Guess those who are most alive
Feel closest to death all the time
And they never know me
I guess it's hard to know someone,
I never know myself.
Wake up, go see what you can create
Sleep tight, just pray that you don't break tonight
Leave now for me it's much to late
Broken still every time I wake.
Shrouded in mystery and misery
You'll never see the light of day
And what a beautiful day it is to miss.
I miss you.
How the god is mixed in
The evil it does blend
In this drink that we all taste.
And when the bottle is gone
I hope I can look upon
All that I've done with a smile
And bright and overflowing eyes,
Reflecting upon all they've seen
With the same glow as the
Child born March 8th 1977.
Please make my arrow shoot straight
I'm tired of all the shots that missed
It's one thing that I won't miss
Betrayal in a kiss.
When I finally hit my target
There were four hands that held the bow
And I realized I am not alone
I am not the only archer
Not alone with crooked arrows
Hell lets make it through the next two weeks or so
Just a couple more stitches to sew
And you know I know you know we're all alone
We don't need a genius to know
Born that way and die the same so I'm told
Laying in the grass in California
I keep warm beer and sleeping bags for comfort
Strangely it's embodied by Palace Brothers
When they sing songs about horses
Tomorrow I could be gone
Maybe I'll find reasons to keep this up
In Hyundais with the windows down on the way to work.
As soon as you get your hands on it
It's gone or it doesn't make sense
In the way you need it to anymore
I'm older now but I can still remember
Where I come from
Maybe I'll find reasons to keep this up
Part of me wants to go back through time
To those years, they were yours and mine only
Man there was nobody
Part of me wants to get on with it
I've seen days like these before and there so long
I don't want them anymore I'm leaving them off
Whining maybe, Love you definitely
I'm sorry. I don't know why I get like this so often
I'm killing myself - I'm killing us both
I can't afford not to take these risks
The well is running dry
Nothing can buy back the time
Waste no more tonight
Lay down here by my side
Pick up your horn
Blow out your lungs
Let the truth be heard, and I won't worry anymore
About everything that I could never control anyway
Let it go, its a weight that I've wasted my life on
Some things have to be left behind
And when you found me it was just in time
I knew these things couldn't go on much longer
I remember when we were such sweet kids
And I was the type I always tried really hard - too hard
And you always knew it
I feel my arms breaking, I can't carry everything
I never wanted to let you down
Maybe I'll wake up someday and know that's never
You can spend your life, trying to reach the highest
But know, most planes make awful boats,
So sink to the lowest of the low,
Hello, I've made my home in the second guess, Always second best
The taste of my skin, is purest bitterness.
Till I remember january may be cold and wet here,
someone's singing summer songs in Australia
It seems each new day, has got a job to do,
to take its days worth of pain
Out of me and you.
Tireless Traveler, I don't care anymore how I appear
Tireless Traveler, Things are going to be different around here
Let the sunlight shine to give me distrustful eyes
I've seen happiness before, I know what it means man,
I know how it looks ya.
More eerie irregular than it was when I was a kid
Maybe I should just get used to it
These words I'll use again and again
Don't you know, how this disgust me
Just to know how you always trusted me
Just to know that I would never
See anymore than what's on your face
Stripped from heavens holy grace, I've been
Cursed to live with demons that come with life all alone
If you just knew that you know nothing
You'd be a whole hell of a lot smarter
Than you think you are at the moment
Don't you know how you always trusted me
Just to know that there would never be
Anything to replace what's lost
Someone tell me what's the cost
Someone please help me I can't see straight
Seems I've been drinking too much of late
And have you seen the powers of your gods
Oh please, oh please, don't share your wisdom.
Summer came again it's staying forever
It's tied to my ribcage and it's going nowhere
I never want to see another winter
It's still a fact that I never asked to be here.
So what
Did you or anyone, anyway, I don't know
I get the feeling that anything is possible
If only I could sleep
Discuss then disgust runs through my veins
These conversations take us nowhere
I never want so see another winter
I remember a time when you wouldn't of said
The things you just said
Once again I get what I deserve
And you should never speak another word
In my direction, direction,
Direct me to the nearest corner store
Where I can buy me a little bottle
Give it up don't let her know
Give it up don't let her know
Your eyes will grow cold
Give it up sleep alone
Your eyes will grow cold
There was a world here that's been turned upside down
Now I have more of my life
But when I go nuts it's all that I write
Maybe a circus animal, maybe I'm at the zoo
This strange mind in a cage is all that shows through.
Some days are so long
He was a great once, this I promise to you
Most things fall apart
Maybe I was to
Maybe I have to.
Somewhere between twelve and two
Once again there's smoke in my brain
She's been gone for years but in the cloud she to remains
That's all gone now
And we may not get through
Never expected what I got
In a million years never would have thought
That I could have been taught all I've been
You've been, I've been taught
Guess I can't run away from that
In time I'll be tugging holding pulling stretching on
What I created caring bleeding hoping seeing all
All I wanted in you
Hope I make it through
This ride happens all the time
But this time it's mine
I've paid in full to be so blind
This time it's mine.
But somehow if feel this debt
I deserve everything I get
Cause I knew the crime
Of taking shelter in your mind.
So take what we get
Lay here with me
The sideways moonsets into the trees
Maybe tonight in the few short moments In which we converse
We can speak of something other than the ways our bodies hurt us.
Please, please, think of me. I'm Alive and still breathing
I'm wondering is this a death bed in which the living lay.
This turned out to be something that I have no control over
This secret reservoir that can dry up, or spill over
As it pleases. This power is stripped from me.
So I'm listening for you to speak to me,
Of Green Days and Blue Nights,
or at least nothing that even remotely,
Reminds me of these Workhorse Days
Blame everything on me,
I can carry the weight of everyone on my body.
Give Justice for these sins,
or at least an explanation for how I have been feeling.
Please, please, think of me. I'm Alive and still breathing
I'm listening for you to speak to me,
Of Blue Days and Green Nights,
or at least nothing that even remotely
All of my prophets were singers of sad songs,
So it' no wonder that I've been the victim of,
All of my prophets were singers of sad songs,
So it's no wonder that I've been the victim of
A wavering faith
A wavering faith, call me weak if you like
My body gets tired
Of it's internal driver
Relentless unsatisfied and wired
Look at were you're coming from
All she's been through and all you've done
Stop beating on the ones you love
I am the Instrument you've all Awaited
Humble I've been humiliated
I've seen things you'll never see
I know what you want to be
So listen if answers you seek
Turn your eyes inside out
Come to expect all you've doubted
Everything's laid out for you, nothing need be told you
This is no longer nor will it ever be that way
Again, cause there are too many
Boxes stacked high upon each other.
Where did the time Go
Where did the time Go to
Look through each one and decide,
Decide what was most important
To keep, and to keep us strong,
Aid us in our Journey.
Journey Through this Valley
Valley of unending chaos, unrest
Valley of Darkness and Death.
This is no longer nor will it ever be that way
Again, cause there are too many
Boxes stacked high upon each other.
Where did the Time Go
Where did the time Go to
Look through each one and decide,
Also what should be left behind.
Sever anything that unduly burdened,
With the hope that you and I
Would be valued important enough to be,
Kept on for the ride, Hell even carried at times.
I have found that the devil may reside
Inside these hands of mine,
If you piss me off
Be careful how you talk when you come around me boy.
I'm liable to come out to your home,
Drag you out and give you what you deserve
And every broken bone will be a testament to show
The world what happens when a man cannot control
His words and actions and when he doesn't know enough to know
When to leave well enough alone
There's bound to be trouble when you love a woman
The way I love that woman.
Every moment gone, I'd have been there all along
I swear I would if I had only known
Every moment gone, I'd kill em if I could
I'd make him pay for everything he'd done
Never so satisfied as when inside my mind's eye
These hands are choking the sweet breath of life from him.
He's serious this time, you raised your hand for the last time.
I'm liable to come out to your home,
Drag you out and give you what you deserve.
And every broken bone will be a testament to show
The world what happens when a man cannot control
His words and actions and when he doesn't know enough to know
When to leave well enough alone.
Even if you wanted there's no going back now
You dug your own grave boy, I'll put you in it early.
They're your Sisters, They're your Mothers,
We don't listen to those records anymore
They're all really dark they just make my day harder to
Get through, but changing is such a difficult thing to do
So now I'm - I'm singing - To you now
Just like I always have - I'm singing - To you now
When you speak do you say what you mean
Sometimes I'm so ready for this all to be ending
Its tick tick ticking - a time bomb monster half the time
I'm so fucking tired of Dr. Jeckel and Mr. Hide
A pure stress nervous wreck, with a smile
A pressure cooker, boiling on the inside
You're on the rooftop but I don't think that will save you this time
Shed your skin! Drink your potion - there's no place left to hide
I put on that old record again
Its like talking to my only old best friend
The beats are kicking
The city center Interstate I see the rings on your fingers
And I'm singing - To you now
Up much too late writing letters in my head
To far away people wouldn't know if they were dead
People far away that I once knew
Some people so close you can see right through
Most people your whole life will be in between
Never know never talk to, wish you'd never seen
Will I become engulfed with all I did or did not do,
What should have been what cannot be helped
Sometimes the truth, so hard to stair into
Your eyes would fair better if it were the sun they were looking through
Trapped inside this techno-shpere
Imbalance becomes real clear
The living dead walk in the streets and driving in cars
Chronic fatigue
We've all got ourselves on our minds almost all of the time
What a way to live can you pay attention
To people far away that I once knew
Some people so close you can see right through
Most people your whole life will be in between
Some of us have chosen to spend our time here
To bring more pain and scaring
To everyone around, excuses ring out loud
Its what we've all been taught, what we were shown when we were kids
You say "Look at me Now, Look at me Now
I am bruised and broken down" and you say
"How do you really expect me to break out
Of a cycle that has been around
Since before we were even born"
A legacy that's been left to everyone
Its hardest in the morning
But nothing else can be done in a casket
Revolution, revolution is what I'm talking about
I've been left here - Someone's left here to pick up the pieces
A legacy that's been left to everyone
Its time to wake up and turn this around
Headed out on a Bullet Train
Where we are going, aint no one can tell
I get the feeling everythings on fire
Has all the alcohol affected your brain so badly
You're permanently in a state you can't reverse
You say, "Look at me now, Look at me now
I am bruised and broken down"
Some of us have chosen to spend our time here
To bring more pain and scaring,
Its something we all say we want
Its something most will live without
Happy is what you make
Its up to you it's not my choice to make
I don't need that anymore
I'm older now I'm seeing clear
This is what I made
Its up to me it's not your choice to make
Its nothing that you want to hear
So listen up, make myself clear
Sacrifice is your savior
Its on the inside that you'll find it all
Not in the shit you bought at the shopping mall
Its learning how to give with your selfish bones
Everything I say is free, I aint nobody's property
The greatest thing on Earth
When you feel it running down the back of your spine you'll know
Nobody can take what everybody owns
The skys on fire its burning you alive
With your jealousy
You can take and you take
Your left with nothing but your misery
Even seeing everything that you've done
Won't make you stop being who you've always been
Even seeing everything that you've become
Blessed am I to sit here today
Taking this time to carve out a place
Where I may find some rest and give others solace
To remind and remember, what can't be bought with dollars
From your pockets. Not everything.
It's something I should remember.
Treasure It its all you own
Treasure It its all that's your own
Food costs money and kids gotta eat something
If a farmers work is honest the contribution won't be unnoticed.
I wish I were a Farmer.
To be satisfied with what these hands have grown
No food of mine sits in the bellies of others
Its a long way back from nothing
But that's just where we're coming from
A place called Houston on the map I can remember when
He picked us up just like water
You have to keep on drinking to go on living
To keep on living - Sometimes I wasn't thirsty at all
The day you realize that you already have
Everything that you ever wanted, you'll know
If a man can love enough he can save a million lives
And maybe his own
If a man can love enough to give up his whole world
What he will receive in return will be so much more
Some lessons must be taught
With the blood and sweat of other men
And now that I have seen the fight that you've fought
Its my day to be that man
So it's one for the ride this time
Every day just bring her back alive
There are men who would spend their whole lives,
Working real hard, I'll work harder than that
I see things clearer through your eyes, Everything's Fine
I've been with you through your whole life you've been here for mine
Some things I've known since the day I was born
Honey your just one of them
One for the ride this time
A kiss to keep me inside this mind
Never forget this my son
Right of passage is not an easy one
I see things clearer through your eyes, Finally I've arrived
I've been with you through your whole life you've been here for mine
Days the sunshine made you smile, I felt it keep me warm inside
The day you learned it so did I, everything that breathes will die.
Some Days I spent aching for this,
Honey I missed so much of your time, but now your mine.
One for the ride this time
Every day just bring her back alive
Never forget this my son
Right of passage is not an easy one
I see things clearer through your eyes, Everything's Fine
I've been with you through your whole life you've been here for mine
Sometimes broken Two by Fours,
and Heaps of shingles bring you more
Than everything you were wishing for,
before you knew what was in store
Something's I've known since the day I was born
We shared everything one days evening
He brought me to you with a voice that sang so clear
Many years ago, how could I have known
That those same years spent never knowing
That love won't allow its own creation
And two separate lives can be lived in unison.
This ink just ran dry
Unexpected goodbye to this here place in time.
But I've moved nowhere
I sing sounds of farewell, I'm leaving you behind
I'm headed down the line
I'm leaving.
I remember the day I stared out at the sky
When both hope and love were realized
I said âI feel like anything is possibleâ
But I didn't understand
All we've been given
By all that's been taken.
Sounds funny but I can see
That the amount are equal
Of good and evil
That just might come from anything that happens,
That just might come from any situation.
When something is out of your hands
You showed up so unexplained
You can die trying
You are not alone my brother
I have always been with you,
Have we eaten something deadly
Something poisonous consumed.
I just longed for days that were simple
When books still held the golden keys,
But I know that to be an illusion
Know that they were never that way.
I'm not a God Damn machine man
I've got two arms and two eyes,
Guess this is what we lost sight of
Swallowed it with no reply.
Will what this world's made of me
Bring only venting of hatred on my family
Fruit of my labor the desecration of everything sacred to me.
Victims of this great temper,
the pent up frustration living has buried in me,
Brought down upon the ones that I love
and those who I sing these songs for.
I just long for days that were simple
When books still held the golden keys,
But I know that to be an illusion
Know that they were never that way.
It's been years since I screamed out at the sky
Like my father, A choice to make the decision was mine
Every son can blame this.
I'm not that man, drop it repeat,
It's not what happens it's how it's dealt with.
Your not that man drop it repeat
There's only so much that's in our hands.
The casing for this powerful spirit
Tires but is strengthened by whats been put before
Everyone must spend their due time
Feeling sick, so sick inside
There's a certain sense of violence
Hopeful but not optimistic
My mind becomes more dangerous by the second
So I'm hopeful but not optimistic
Lay down what you're working on
It's time to sleep
I promise that tomorrow will come
Cause time the clock keeps, it keeps.
I'm traveling faster and if death comes at least
Silence is comforting, finally released
From endless ringing
These are the horses that are calling me
The perfect ending I'm finally released.
I don't know why we keep singing these songs
I've never heard anyone sing along, slowly dying.
Attempting to trick chaos into something beautiful
It's what I live for, it's magic.
Deep in this heart something is said.
Someone translate, help me understand, we're all dying.
I'm screaming while I still can, hope my throat holds up
Under this pressure, so my heart won't burst, I'm trying.
