Sometimes I lie awake in bed
Thinking about the things you said
So lost for words, so lost to tell you how I feel
So terrified of changing what I thought was real
It's too bad, you're gone
It's too bad, you're not alone
And I know that you couldn't see
That it's too bad that you're gone
And not here with me
Standing here, trying to make some sense of this
There's nothing between us
Still I can feel your awkwardness
You're so lost for words
So you just tell me I'm your friend
There must be one reason
Only one reason in the end
It's too bad, you're gone
It's too bad, you're not alone
And I know that you couldn't see
That it's too bad that you're gone
And not here with me
So why are you pulling away
It must be from things that I say
And I'm thinking you're thinking of him
What's your problem
Can I tell you
Sick inside your mind is all I see
Now you're looking
Point your finger
Take a look at yourself
That you point at me
Take your pride
Swallow your pride
Walk before me
Trash you will be
Life that hates you
I degrade you
Be pathetic and lie
Through your skin
I'M NOT GOD
But I can be
I'M NOT GOD
But I can be
I'm not god...
What's your problem
Don't you like this
Don't you like this in your world
Child before you
Life before you
I'm the spine that's in your thorn
I'M NOT GOD
But I can be
I'M NOT GOD
But I can be
And I'm so over you...
SO BURN
I'M NOT GOD
But I can be
I'M NOT GOD
Every time that I bleed it's my affection
Every time that I come clean it's my humiliation
And everything that I say, I say to save myself
Everything that I say makes
My world come crashing down
Every time you're near me
I feel I'm crashing down
Every time that I breathe it's to keep you alive
Every time that I see it's to watch you say goodbye
No more words inside my head
To save my ass this time
No more words inside my head
When it all comes crashing down
Every time you're near me
I feel I am crashing down
I feel I am crashing
Every time I breathe I breathe for you
And every time I move I move for you
And ever time I see I see for you
And everything I do has been for you
Every time I breathe I breathe for you
And every time I see I see for you
And everything I do I do for you
And everything I do makes it
All come down
Everytime you're near me
I sign at the world
Because you don't seem to care
And if I grow old
Then you were never there
And yet it's hard just to find
The only way back inside
The only way I could let this go
And how could I justify
By taking what's deep inside
And lie face down
And lie face down
And if I could
Then you were so over this
And then we face its soul
I'm face down but no one knows
And I bleed
Then I will bleed for you
And it's hard to see
To see what I see in you
And so I just realize
That everything that I fear
Is back in my face only again
So put me out on this floor
Cause that's the way I've been
Since I lied down
Since I lied down
And if I could
Then you were so over this
And then we face its soul
I'm face down but no one knows
I feel it's the same thing I had
Since I fell hear, I fear...
I sign at the world
Because you don't care
And if I grow old
Then you will never come back
I'm face down but no one knows
I feel it's the same thing I had
Since I fell hear, I fear...
I looks outside and see that everything is perfect
Except for me I'll always be the one who sits and stares
And now it's killing me, it's just killing me
I feel so empty inside
'Cause I'm a freak in your eyes
I feel so empty inside
And it's killing me
I look outside and see that everything is different
You'll never see inside of me, inside just who I am
And now and then you're just my friend,
Someone I could talk to
And it's killing me, it's just killing me
I feel so empty inside
'Cause I'm a freak in your eyes
I feel so empty inside
And it's killing me
I--I'm outside and looking in
I look into your eyes and see that you are perfect
Except for me, except for me
I feel so empty inside
'Cause I'm a freak in your eyes
I feel so empty inside
I feel so
I feel so
You see me walking away
What more could I say than sorry
I failed by all your complaints
You pushed a life change but it's not me
And filthy hands lay apon my chest
Lay upon my sin, but I do it for green
And in your mind you are blind
And your back turn so fine
Where were you when I needed you most
So mother so father
I'm on my hands and knees
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me
My self-indulgence to blame
For all of the shame in the family
You don't know what it's like
How I feel how I cry
How I hate the way I hate my life
So mother so father I'm on my hands and knees
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me
Pues madre, y padre
Esta vida no quiero vivir
So mother so father
I don't want to live this way
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me
So mother so father
I don't want to live this way
So mother so father
'Cause it moves just like you
And it breaks just like me
And it lies just like them
And these walls are protecting me
And so the story goes
Strip down it's the same
And so the story goes
In a blink of an eye you become history
'Cause it plays just like you
And it fades just like me
And it steals just like them
It's neverending it's neverending for me
And so the story goes
Strip down it's the same
And so the story goes
In a blink of an eye you become history
I put my blinding faith in you
My philosophy says I should stop
And so the story goes
Strip down it's the same
And so the story goes
I feel like I don't exsit
I'm trying to hard to cope with this
'Cause if it means too much
Then it means too much to me
I'm pulling your strings
but' you're pulling away
Its half-past noon
Another fucking bad day
'Cause I'm screaming
At the top of my lungs
If I don't get my way
(You better watch your back)
It's all the same to me
I feel so incomplete
I never want to change,
But I think I'm gonna fold
It's all the same to me
I wanna let you know
Maybe I just don't wanna let you go
'Cause if it means that much
Then it means that much to me
I got a new job but my pocket is broke
I want a revolution but I just can't revolt
And there's gotta be something out there
That makes me feel this way
(You better watch your back)
It's all the same to me
I feel so incomplete
I never want to change
But I think I'm gonna fold
It's all the same to me
I've got nothing
Left for you to take away
I know you blame me
For every time you walked away
So what you hate me
And everything I seem to do
So look back
Don't turn away
It was my face that you
Were lying to
And in our lives
We could find
Everything just separates
And in my live
You could find
Everything you want to take away
So what its not the same
Every word out of your mouth is shit
So look back
Don't turn away
It was my face and I am through with it
Why its all its old
And every part it takes
I know your faith
You give but take another way
So what you hate me
And everything is seem to do
I know that you blame me for everytime
I walk out on you
I've got nothing
I try not to hate you
Not to hate me
But it just won't go away
I see all I can see
I'm hoping for a brighter day
Watch as you go
Watch as I wave goodbye
There's no one to know me
On the far......side
I don't care about your side
You don't care about your life
I don't care about you
I try not to feel the same
Not to feel this way
A front diguise
And I see all I can see
I'm hoping for a new life
Watch as you go
Watch as I wave goodbye
There's no one to know me
On the far......side
I don't care about your side
You don't care about your life
I don't care about you
And when it's gone
I won't be there
All these things as they past
I'll just fade away
And the time can tell me that
We're all the same
I try not to hate you
Not to hate me
But it just won't go away
I see all I can see
I'm hoping for a brighter day
Watch as you go
Watch as I wave goodbye
There's no one to know me
On the far......side
I don't care about your side
I don't care about your life
Use me as much as you can
Cause you've never been
More than a friend
Cause I try to push you away
And make myself clean
And forget you hurt me
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
Pressure, the less that I feel
The more that I heal
And put back the peices
Cause you keep taking my sould
Keep from letting it go
And setting me free
You keep bringing me down
Keep my head above ground
The ground that I lay
Cause I try myself everyday
And say it's o.k.
For bringing me pain...
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
And when I step outside this place
All I see is empty
And when I look into your face
All I see is emptiness
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don't need to be
I don't want to be
Closer, more than you feel
Another peice of me lashes out
When I'm losing all control
But then I
I see your ways
And everything that never changed
It's still in you
It's still in you
It's all this hate
I don't want this
And pain
I don't need this
And hate
I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me
Too much like a bad dream
Another memory lashes out
And I'm losing all control
But then I
I seem to fake
Everything that once was great
It's still in me
It's all this hate
I don't want this
And pain
I don't need this
And hate
I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me
I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me
So step off the line
I can see it in your face
How reality breaks
Like the fuckers with the drive-by
It's all the same thing
Everything is going to fade
Pretend to try
That you wanna be like me
If all the faces looking down
Means you got none
When you think you solve
A problem you create one
So look in it to find look in it to find
And hate yourself
Look deep inside... yourself
Look in to find
It's all this hate
I don't want this
And pain
I don't need this
And hate
I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me
I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't want this
It's not the same
So I sit here alone
Trying to find my own way
To cope with everything
That I've done wrong
So I try real hard not to see
What you've done to me
But I couldn't find my heart
And there won't be any silence till it's gone
There won't be any silence till I'm gone
Look away, you're watchin me as I slip away
'Cause everything I know just falls apart
So try real hard not to see
What you've done to me
But I couldn't find a way
Then I'll see my own way
To cope with everything that I've done wrong
And there won't be any silence till it's gone
There won't be any silence till I'm gone
Look away, you're watchin me as I slip away
'Cause everything I know just falls apart
Now it's me as I slip away
'Cause everything I know falls, it just falls apart
'Cause I'm not enough to bring you down
I'm not enough to bring you down
I'm not enough to make you happy
Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the bed
Cause outside is just too cold
I turn the radio loud
So I can fall asleep
But it's all I've come to know
And I try to keep up for you
Push me and you
Shoved like you always do
But nothing's ever the same
But how can I explain
The damage you have done
When all that's left is pain
So I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learned...
Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the bed
Cause outside is just too warm
I turn the radio loud
So I can fall asleep
But it's all I've come to know
So I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learned...
I fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
Cause I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
I tried your way
And I don't like what I see
And now I'm bored
I'm Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the floor
Cause outside I just don't know
I turned the radio loud
So I can hear me think
But it's all I've come to know
And so I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learned...
I fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
Cause I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
I tried your way
And I don't like what I see
And now I'm bored
So I burn a part of me that slowly fades to you,
but how can I plainly see what slowly fades to me
And so I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learned...
I fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
Cause I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
I tried your way
And I don't like what I see
Center is where I see myself
In the beginning
I'm sitting in the middle
Of a crowded room
Nobody hears me
Trying to reach out
Just trying to scream out
I'm so pathetic is how I see myself
I'm just a joke
I'm running out this life
People tell me not to waste it
But how can I taste it
When I never lived
When I never loved
When I never lied
I'm just a stain
I'm trying to make my mark
On a spot that's been dark
For a long time
Been a long time since a panic
Broken down a systematic life
That god gave to me
So try to save my faith
That's going out the window
That I'm looking down from
One more step and I'll be
On the ground from a sinner
To try to make a true believer
Well, ho, I never was
You'll probably run and hide
Life reality hits me in the stomach
Aches like a fist in my mouth
I should have said nothing
To make everything fall apart
In my face
Well, you're the one who's crying
So try to see the world from
The flip side
Running out of line with no one
Ever watching my back
Ah, cold muther fucker
Never seem to realize
I'm not your wannabe
You'll probably run and hide
Center is where I see myself
In the beginning
I'm sitting in the middle
Of a crowded room
Nobody hears me
Trying to reach out
Just trying to scream out
I'm so pathetic is how I see myself
I'm just a joke
I'm running out this life
People tell me not to waste it
But how can I taste it
When I never lived
When I never loved
When I never lied
I've got nothing left
For you to take away
I know you blame me
For every time you walked away
So what
You hate me and everything
I seem to do
So look back
Don't turn away
It was my face that you were lying to
And in my life you could find
Everything just seperates
And in my life you could find
Everything you want to take away
I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing
So what
It's not the same
Every word out of your mouth is shit
So look back
Don't turn away
I'm sick, I'm through
And I'm fed up with this
And in my life you could find
Everything just seperates
And in my life you could find
Everything you want to take away
I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing
Please, take it all from me
Please, take it all from me
It's all, it's all
As everything just seperates
I know, I know
You give but you take it all away
So what
You hate me and everything
I seem to do
I know you
You blame me for everytime
I walk out on you
I've got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing
Hey man, want to try
Wanna be that guy that I hate
And hey man, want to front some shit
Want to claim you're it
And be insane
It's not about you
It's all about me
It's not about you
It's all about..
To find my own way
To live through this day
And watch all the stains
Become like...
To find my own way
To live through this day
And watch all the stains
Become Naive
Hey man, want to take my place
Want to walk in my place
And cover me
Yeah hey man, want to
Breathe my air
And think it's fair that
You'll never see
It's not about you
It's all about me
It's not about you
It's all about..
To find my own way
To live through this day
And watch all the stains
Become like...
To find my own way
To live through this day
And watch all the stains
Become Naive
Hey man, want to try
Wanna be that guy that I hate
It's not about you
It's all about me
It's not about you
It's all about..
To find my own way
To live through this day
And watch all the stains
Become like...
To find my own way
To live through this day
And watch all the stains
Can't simplify all the things that burn inside
But when you ask, I'm fine but I'm lying all the time
It's tough to say when you laugh at me this way
But in my mind I'm crying, I'm crying all the time
So pick up the vide, make me want to justify
Every word that's coming out your mouth
No looking back, you better choose a side
I'm sinking within
You fake, you lie
You're making me hate you
You fake, you lie
You're making me want you even more
Can't see any good side of you
But I am trying, I'm trying
I can't explain all the damage you can bring
But when I'm blind
I'm dying, I'm dying all the time
So pick up the vibe, make me wanna justify
Every word that's coming out of your mouth
No lookin back, all I wanna see
Is that you're sinkin within
You fake, you lie
You're making me hate you
You fake, you lie
You're making me want you even more
Yes I will always be
Torn by what I see
Yes I will always be the same
Even though I stop thinking of you
Can't simplify all the things that burn inside
But when I try, I'm dying, I'm dying all the time
You fake, you lie
You're making me hate you
You fake, you lie
You're making me want you even moreYou fake, you lie
You're making me hate you
Less of I but more than you
I'm less of nothing again
I take my life and what I do
I feel I'm the last to be saved
What would you say
That everything here
Must soon change
But you think the machine
Is a man in the back of my head
And the lies, the lies that can be the truth if you
Just want them to be
But you'll still push me down
You just
GET BACK
Doesn't matter what I say
Or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
LET IT GO, LET IT GO
And if I see his face
And I do nothing for this
Would you think less of me
If I didn't raise my fist
All the cracks in the floor
Make this life a game
For you to push me down
For you to
GET BACK
Doesn't matter what I say
Or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
LET IT GO, LET IT GO
Try to understand
LET IT GO
Doesn't matter what I say
Or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back
LET IT GO
Doesn't matter what I say
Or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
Look back inside
Will I ever realize
That this thing
This man was me
But then I suffocate
Everything that I relate
It's not the same
Life that we knew it
I bleed my life
I shed my skin
I'm dying deep within
Cause everything's my fault
But then I suffocate
Everything that I relate
It's all your
Life that we knew it
And here I can find out that
You're nothing better
And here I can find out that
You just don't care
Left outside
Left to dry
Don't know all the reasons why
Everything's my fault
But then I suffocate
Everything that I relate
It's not the same
Life that we knew it
And here I can find out that
You're nothing better
And here I can find out that
You just don't care
And here I can find out that
You are nothing better
And here I can find out that
You are nothing better
And here I can find out that
You just don't seem to care
I'm here, I'm here
I'm here in soul
You give, I take this soul from me
It's all I've got
And here I can find out that
You're nothing better
And here I can find out that
Maybe I, I didn't seem to have a thing left to say
I bottled it far away
Maybe I, I tried too hard to find someone to blame
Maybe it's me who changed
And now, I'm left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
Maybe I, I didn't seem to give everything away
Not because I needed you to stay, and I
I couldn't face the fears I left far behind
I try to answer every question to why
I'm left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
Maybe you couldn't see
All the pain inside of me
And now I feel like this was all for nothing
'Cause I'm left with nothing, I'm left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
So what if I lost everything
Why are we here I always seem to ask myself
Question awerted by the thought of someone else
And I'm hopelessly done with the things that I have tried to do
Should I give up and let the way just fall on me
Day by day I struggle endlessly
There's nothing right
There's nothing good about this
There's nothing right
There's nothing great about this life
And I will never know
How it's supposed to be
I keep fighting with the visions inside head
I used to feel so much better than today
I should be laughing but instead I'm just a mess
It's not right, it's not right to feel this way
I keep fighting with the visions inside head
I turn how much I could take a things
And now I feel I'm so drowning in it
It's not right, it's not right to feel this way
So you're gone what are we supposed to do
I told myself not to care a true and true
And all this times seems so wasted
When end in end and it was all for nothing
There's nothing right
'Cauz I'm in a fake madnessy
There's nothing right
'Cauz I'm in a fake misery
There's nothing right
There's nothing good about this
There's nothing right
There's nothing great about this life
And you will always be
Another fake part of me
Why do I always feel this way
And why do I always feel this way
And why do
I keep hiding but drowning in it
And I keep hiding but drowning in it
Feel alone
All I do is say
I alone can be your kind
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
When I feel awake
Close your eyes
Everything I've seen
I this time can be your mind
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
Then I feel awake
Let God cry
Then I'll wash it away
Let God cry
Then I'll wash it away
Dry your eyes
Everything must change
I this time can be your life
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
Then I feel awake
Let God cry
Then I'll wash it away
Let God cry
Then I'll wash it away
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel it come back home
So home
Please
My son
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
Then I feel awake
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
This is not the same
I am not the same
Let God cry
Then I'll wash it away
Let God cry
Then I'll wash it away
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel you come in two and three
This is not the same
I am not the same
I can feel it come back home
Please leave me alone
For I cannot let this go
It's the lie that I live
Everything that I give
Shut the fuck up!
Please tell me that I have grown
For I have bruises left to show
And I fall in between everything
Let me see
Come on get up
Let me see your bruises
'Cause I will never let you know
'Cause I will never let you go
Please leave me alone
Let me see, let me see, let me see
Come on get up
Sunlight warms my face
It's hard to take in
An overwhelming grace
From the way that I live
So close to you
I feel so ashamed
This must be new
'Cause I've fallen again
The stench smells so real
Like I've been here before
Emotions will kill
The life I've always known
Because of their lies
The world seems to change
But since you've arrived
I feel no more pain
'Cause I have become the one thing I hate
I have become the smile on your face
There's no need to save the me that I've made
'Cause I have become the one thing I hate
The unwanted things
That breathe in my skin
Have filled all the void
In which I live in
And every time you bounce
I feel so alive
So many ways to count
The many times I've died
'Cause I have become the one thing I hate
I have become the smile on your face
There's no need to save the me that I've made
'Cause I have become the one thing I hate
Look back inside
Will I ever realize
That this thing
This man was me
But then I suffocate
Everything that I relate
It's not the same
Life that we knew it
I bleed my life
I she'd my skin
I'm dying deep within
Cause everything's my fault
But then I suffocate
Everything that I relate
It's all your
Life that we knew it
And here I can find out that
You're nothing better
And here I can find out that
You just don't care
Left outside
Left to dry
Don't know all the reasons why
Everything's my fault
But then I suffocate
Everything that I relate
It's not the same
Life that we knew it
And here I can find out that
You're nothing better
And here I can find out that
You just don't care
And here I can find out that
You are nothing better
And here I can find out that
You are nothing better
And here I can find out that
You just don't seem to care
I'm here, I'm here
I'm here in soul
You give, I take this soul from me
It's all I've got
And here I can find out that
You're nothing better
And here I can find out that