Why do I keep on doing this? It's not for me anymore
I'm doing this more for you than I
And on that lonely road to nowhere
I lost myself to something else
I don't know where I'm going or where I've been
It's so hard to remember all the things I am, am I?
It feels like the end is near, catching up with me
Catch me if you can, cause I'm going down into the ground
How much longer can I keep going on?
I can feel my lost ones coming down
Sooner than later I'll see you all again
I feel my purpose here slipping away
I see the sun, but it's raining
I hope I'm on my way to better things
And if I'm not, it doesn't really matter
Cause I am doing this more for you than I am me
I can no longer pretend, that my life is worth living
I...I would rather die, be dead again
Hold on
Now here it comes, death for one, for a lonely son
Up then down. I'm spinning around
My soul is so confused again
Am I floating towards the sun?
Hold on, am I dead on?
Through a tunnel of black, why?
Why do I feel so sad?
I've been waiting for the end of act 9 to come
The curtain must fall, the end of a song
But the song goes on and on
The light is so very strong
I'm drifting along, I have no will
I'm drifting still
In a room without walls...I feel the chill
No one is here to pick me up
Nothingness...what a mess...oh
Is anybody there?
Is anybody there? I'm talking to you, do you hear me?
If I could only see through the wall of nothingness
The wall of black
They gave me number 9, this is not like last time
Number 9
This time I am really losing my mind
I hear an orchestra...I see an orchestra
I greet an orchestra...I meet an orchestra
I'm in an orchestra...I am an orchestra
I kill this orchestra...I kill me? No
No don't stop, oh please don't stop
Hey say here, what's going on?...hey wait for me
I'm running but I can't keep up
Then I realize my feet are gone
This is such a weird weird song
The orchestra is now a door
One is one and two is four. I can see three more
Seven doors, seven doors
I must choose one before they're gone
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
The number 6-6, the number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6, that's my door
Wuauuu...look at all the colours
There goes an orchestra, no more doors
Close the window, here they come
I hear another end of this song
But again the song goes on
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
The number 6-6-6, the number 6-6-6
I'm beginning to miss you again
Why can't I just get you out of my mind...
I must forget
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
Through a purple mist the light is fading
I guess I'll have to stay dead
The first to admit I'm the doomed droog addict
And I always will be, hey man, don't follow me, yeah
No excuses for drug abuse, said these lines a thousand times
Want to live atrial fib from neurosis, sclerosis
Please make me smile if you learn from my trial
Baby, I'll pay the price, maybe saving your life for you
I can't state this point enough
The pickup's easy but the put down's rough
Up the nose or tap a vein no one else but you to blame
I can't believe, I died last night
Oh God, I'm dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
I'm fucking dead again
Chemical joy turning thee paranoid
Recently buried deep in Greenwood Cemetery now
I had no pulse last time I checked, trade my life for self respect
Don't wanna stay with my last breath
There are some things worse than death
I can't believe, I died last night
Oh God, I'm dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
I'm fucking dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
Oh God, I'm dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
I'm fucking dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
Oh God, I'm dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
I'm fucking dead again
I can't believe, I died last night
Oh God, I'm dead again
(Shermann/Diamond)
Why do I keep on doing this? It's not for me anymore
I'm doing this more for you than I
And on that lonely road to nowhere
I lost myself to something else
I don't know where I'm going or where I've been
It's so hard to remember all the things I am, am I?
It feels like the end is near, catching up with me
Catch me if you can, cause I'm going down into the ground
How much longer can I keep going on?
I can feel my lost ones coming down
Sooner than later I'll see you all again
I feel my purpose here slipping away
I see the sun, but it's raining
I hope I'm on my way to better things
And if I'm not, it doesn't really matter
Cause I am doing this more for you than I am me
I can no longer pretend, that my life is worth living
I...I would rather die, be dead again
Hold on
Now here it comes, death for one, for a lonely son
Up then down. I'm spinning around
My soul is so confused again
Am I floating towards the sun?
Hold on, am I dead on?
solo: Shermann
Through a tunnel of black, why?
Why do I feel so sad?
I've been waiting for the end of act 9 to come
The curtain must fall, the end of a song
solo: Wead
But the song goes on and on
The light is so very strong
I'm drifting along, I have no will
I'm drifting still
In a room without walls...I feel the chill
No one is here to pick me up
Nothingness...what a mess...oh
Is anybody there?
Is anybody there? I'm talking to you, do you hear me?
If I could only see through the wall of nothingness
The wall of black
They gave me number 9, this is not like last time
Number 9
This time I am really losing my mind
I hear an orchestra...I see an orchestra
I greet an orchestra...I meet an orchestra
I'm in an orchestra...I am an orchestra
I kill this orchestra...I kill me? No
No don't stop, oh please don't stop
Hey say here, what's going on?...hey wait for me
solos: Shermann-Wead
I'm running but I can't keep up
Then I realize my feet are gone
This is such a weird weird song
The orchestra is now a door
One is one and two is four. I can see three more
Seven doors, seven doors
I must choose one before they're gone
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
The number 6-6, the number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6, that's my door
Wuauuu...look at all the colours
There goes an orchestra, no more doors
Close the window, here they come
I hear another end of this song
But again the song goes on
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
The number 6-6-6, the number 6-6-6
I'm beginning to miss you again
Why can't I just get you out of my mind...
I must forget
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
Through a purple mist the light is fading
I guess I'll have to stay dead
A little longer this time
Dead again...
One, two, three, four
Yeah
Come on
Comin' on, comin' on, movin' faster
Got to get this feelin' out yeah
Yeah
Just enough fall again, she was fire
Hot enough to burn you out yeah
Alright
Wait for me darlin'
I can't wait to see you
Everyone's losin' their mind again, mind again Honey
On again, off again, indecisive
Caught up in bold desire
Yeah
Fill me up with the cup you are lovely
Paint the town the color of money
Alright
Wait for me darlin'
I can't wait to see you
Everyone's losin' their mind again
Don't fall in love that's the line they will feed you
If I can't have you I'll be dead again, dead again
Alright
Come on, yeah
Yeah
Alright
Wait for me darlin'
I can't wait to see you
Everyone's losin' their mind again
Don't fall in love that's the line they will feed you
If I can't have you I'll be dead again, dead again
Wait for me darlin'
I can't wait to see you
Everyone's losin' their mind again
Don't fall in love that's the line they will feed you
If I can't have you I'll be dead again, dead again
Dead again
Dead again
Dead again
Dead again, dead again
Dead again
Dead again
Dead again
Powerless, homeless, dead again
Terrible dreams, differed world in his mind
Cemetary of his cells is falling again
Diabolic return to life in deadly form
Putrid mould from a dead land
Sticky plasm without remorse
Death for alive, life for dead
It's not such a man as times ago
Piece by piece again and again
Soggy shambles People! Pray!
Dead again-go to hell, leave in peace
Dead again-look at people, devastation
Dead again-unatural, human pain
Every time I stop I think of all the things we did
I can't put that book down now I'm face first on the ground
And every single day I tear up all the notes I had
Stick them back again just every now andâ¦.
I can't stop these raindrops, feel so shot
I know that you can live your life breathe the sights
I just might
How could you be dead again?
And out of mind and out of sight
I shut the door to everything
I want to see you cry And I'd wave you goodbye
The dirty kitchen sink
The cat still hasn't yet been fed
And your at home in bed I can't get you out of myâ¦..
And I want you, you do too, feel it's true
But you don't understand
That I'm not gonna stop burning hot, feel so shot
How could you be dead again?
And I can never tell, could be heaven could be hell
I want to turn it off
I wish that I could stop and wipe it from my mind
Wash out all that's left behind
I could write a book, maybe you should have a look
I can't stop these raindrops, feel so shot
I know that you can live you life breathe the sights
I just might
How could you be dead again
And I want you, you do to feel it's true
But you don't understand that I'm not gonna stop burning hot
My pain is indescribable
Poor old me
My head feels like a steam machine
Limbs of steel
My wallet's empty, I am broke
I want to scream
This must come to an end
Cross my heart my friend
But in a week I will be lying here like dead again
Whiskey, wine and drafted beer
Never, no more
A pitch-black anguish strangles me
There's no cure
This must come to an end
Cross my heart my friend
Reborn for the thousandth time,
To live and breathe along side slime,
Introduce reality,
I strive to reach my destiny.
Dying again, vicious circle spins,
Rotating forever and before long I'm dead again.
Made to relive a horrid past,
How long will the torment last?
Voices say to break the chain
It comforts me that I'm insane.
Dying again, vicious circle spins,
Rotating forever and before long I'm dead again
Reason with myself, vague as thought it seems,
Running in a nightmare, repent recurring dreams,
Memories aren't renewed, they just expand instead,
Staring at the ceiling from my saturated bed.
Dying again, vicious circle spins,
So Here I am once more in my private hell again
Hunched foetal in darkness, trying to soothe the pain
I've killed myself a thousand times before
And if it would ease you pain
I'll kill myself a thousand more
So I'll die again
[Chorus:]
Take my hand
Take my soul
Take my wretched life and make me whole
Take my lies
Take my truth
Take them all away as I die before you
I scar you deep inside, I only leave you hurt
My black embrace only smoothers you with dirt
I hold the shining blade close to the vein
To cut me off from myself, to kill all the pain
11. Dead Again
How much to pay for salvation
What's the final price?
Free the souls locked in the graves
Let the spirits rise
Dead again
No sympathy, no mercy
There's no way to return
Dead again
The only path you follow
You end up dead again
Trapped in the commandments
A life without sense
Descent into chaos
Lies and no defense
Paralyzed victims
Sank below your hopes
Walking through the ruins
Of what you highly expected for
Dead again
No sympathy, no mercy
There's no way to return
Dead again
The only path you follow
You end up dead again
Dead again
No sympathy, no mercy
There's no way to return
Dead again
The only path you follow
You end up dead again
Dead again
Staring at the walls of life
Impaled corpse
Death to seek in every sigh
Confessor of the truth
Intending to degrade
Bloodstained the speech of purity
Living to be afraid
Incurable disease
Deforming humanoids
Evoking paranoia
Just listen to the voice
Vengeful starving
And envious for life
War to find in every corner
Death to seek in every sight
Dead again
No sympathy, no mercy
There's no way to return
Dead again
The only path you follow
You end up dead again
Dead again
No sympathy, no mercy
There's no way to return
Dead again
The only path you follow
You end up dead again
Rocket launcher, rail gun, BFG Nine Thousand One,
Never saw it coming and I never had a chance.
Bad enough being dead, Sub Zero pulled off my head,
Master Chief is doing his victory dance.
Lost Asia in Risk, Diablo burnt me to a crisp,
Even though I had the Godly Plate of the Whale.
Two pair, eights and kings, Sauron got the One Ring,
Getting dysentery on the Oregon Trail.
Harry Potter came up short dueling with Voldemort,
Elspeth Holliday met the Blair Witch.
Spider-Man showed such aplomb till he met that pumpkin bomb,
Mr. Incredible didn't throw the switch.
Cliff racers, cave bats, stupid frickin' giant rats,
Deadly pirahna poodles, or soldier ants,
You were eaten by a grue, Hah! The wumpus got you,
Nancy Drew and Scooby Doo teabagged in Halo 2
Dead again,
Splattered all over a rendered killing floor,
Dead again,
Let me respawn and I'll be back for more,
Dead again,
Let me get to the checkpoint, then you can do your worst,
Dead again,
Then I'll reload but this time I'll shoot first.
My marble plummets from a height, should have rolled it to the right,
Jumped through lots of traffic but then fell off a log.
Russian cubes from the sky, and I let 'em stack too high,
Punched right off the screen by a humanoid frog.
T-rex got me, now I'm toast, chased down by a blinking ghost,
Landed on some spikes and dropped every last ring.
Bitten by a fanged slug, Jafar zapped my flying rug,
Trampled in a bog by a Barbarian King.
Mechanized war bots, Mudokan slingshots,
Centipede dropping a flea on my head.
Couldn't fly as Alfred Chicken, Duke Nukem kept on kickin',
Fought Guy of Gisborne with only some bread.
Skeletons hit me twice, dragon breath cased me in ice,
Couldn't line up all the jewels three in a row,
Shot up by Miami cops, beaten with karate chops,
Kept on missing platform hops, and the timer never stops.
Dead again,
How come these worlds have so many bottomless pits?
Dead again,
And everyone that I meet wants me blown to bits.
Dead again,
Reincarnation one byte at a time,
Dead again,
It's so embarassing to be killed by green slime.
Real life goes on until you're
Dead, or so I'm told,
Injury, catastrophe, or
Simply growing old
Fantasy's supposed to be where
You can find your dreams,
But all I find is game designers
Hooked on players' screams.
Smothered by a boa constrictor, drawn and quartered by a lich or
Eaten by a cat while dodging Beethoven's Fifth.
My flying ostrich drowned, monkeys thowing barrels down,
Torn apart by creatures out of legend and myth.
Zombies got a hold of Jill, nurses up in Silent Hill,
All those German snipers on the beach at Omaha.
Swallowed by the sand worms, infected by some nasty germs,
Didn't slap the leather when I heard him say, "DRAW!"
Running from Koala Kong, made a turn that's really wrong,
Sephiroth's supernova fried us where we stood.
Broiled in a lava flow, squashed by Super Mario,
Didn't make my saving throw again, st lawful good.
Thirty zillion space machines blowning up in cut scenes,
I actually found a way to die in Myst.
Ninja swords decapitate, plasma guns obliterate,
Pocket nukes annihilate, reboot, transubstantiate.
Dead again,
Inching ahead until once more I choke,
Dead again,
The funeral bills would leave my whole state broke,
Dead again,
Something is trying to chew off both my legs,
Dead again,
Who in the hell dreams up these easter eggs?
Dead again,
All of the guys at work think I'm a freak,
Dead again,
They watch golf and NASCAR every week,
Dead again,
They'll never understand what I call fun,
Dead again,