cool and soothing
the wind is in your hair
not a single care
cigarettes and beer
the speed of moving
feels like you can fly
feeling kinda high
beneath the big blue sky
you let go and landed on your feet
and it felt so sweet
there's nothing more that can hold you back now
Amelia
you always had what you finally found
Amelia
oh oh oh oh youre on your way
your fears are behind you
oh oh oh oh you're on your way
your fears are behind you
morning glory
shines upon your face
not a single trace
of years all gone to waste
oh now here's a story
full of hope and light
you didn't win without a fight
now here's to your delight
you let go and landed on your feet
and it felt so sweet
there's nothing more that can hold you back now
Amelia
you always had what you finally found
Amelia
oh oh oh oh you're on your way
your fears are behind you
oh oh oh oh you're on your way
your fears are behind you
you let go and landed on your feet
cool and soothing
the wind is in your hair
not a single care
cigarettes and beer
the speed of moving
feels like you can fly
feeling kinda high
beneath the big blue sky
you let go and landed on your feet
and it felt so sweet
there's nothing more that can hold you back now
you always had what you finally found
you're on you way
your fears are behind you
you're on your way
your fears are behind you
morning glory
shines upon your face
not a single trace
of years all gone to waste
here's a story full of hope and light
you didn't win without a fight
now here's to your delight
you let go and landed on your feet
and it felt so sweet
there's nothing more that can hold you back now
you always had what you finally found
you're on you way
your fears are behind you
you're on your way
your fears are behind you
you let go and landed on your feet
and it felt so sweet
Oh ohoh ohoh
Shame on you for making me wait
Time and time again you're too late
And I'm about to make a mistake
so please hurry babe
just hurry
You might as well just take it from me
You said that I should take it from you
but I don't know if I agree
so please hurry babe
but don't you worry
'Cause I'm not convinced that I am worthy of your time
And I will do what it takes to make you mine
so sit back, relax, enjoy my show
this could be funny
Oh, I'm about to lose control oh ohoho ohoho
My back is acing, my feet are sore
But I'm still waiting, looking for more
I'm gonna stay here on the floor
but just you hurry babe
oh just hurry
'Cause I'm not convinced that I am worthy of your time
And I will do what it takes to make you mine
so sit back, relax, enjoy my show
this could be funny
Mom,
please tell me what to do,
I'm so disappointed in you,
You said those words that made me cry,
And you always wondered why,
why I sing my lullaby,
Mom,
please hurry home to me,
I waited up so patiently,
You sat down and start to cry,
But you never ask me why,
Why I sing my lullaby,
Why I sing my lullaby,
Was it my fault they lead you in the wrong direction,
Was it my fault they didn't show you any affection,
I show you and I start to cry,
still you always wonder why,
why i sing my lullaby
Mom why love me if your cold,
You'll just get bitter then grow old,
Ask me when I start to weep,
Look at us now, generation next
damaged somehow, but we try our best.
And we're all the same, but that doesn't make us right.
And where do you turn?
Where do you sleep at night?
So now you think we're ugly,
like I don't have enough to worry about.
Why do you think I'm ugly?
Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me now?
Look at us stare,
jealous of what they wear.
Dad gives you money, but he's never there.
And we cry out for love, never get enough of that.
And now you're into drugs and all that "other" stuff.
And now you think we're ugly,
like I don't have enough to worry about.
Why do you think I'm ugly?
Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me now?
So now you think we're ugly,
like I don't have enough to worry about.
Why do you think I'm ugly?
Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me now?
People have said to me
they think they're better then me, and I agree, yeah.
People changing me
telling me what to think and who to be.
No wonder why we're confused...
are you me?
So now you think we're ugly,
like I don't have enough to worry about.
Why do you think I'm ugly?
Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me now? (2x)
November came down hard this year
And I saw you standing clear of the rain
Falling free but I was ready to finally come clean
Observe me in my circus show
On a thin line as I take the rope
And lose my grip
But you pull me back
With your hand in my hand
And our feet all in line
Im ready take you with me
To take you with me
November came down hard this year
And I saw you standing clear of the rain
Falling free but I was ready to finally come clean
Your hand in my hand
And our feet all in line
Im ready take you with me
To take you with me
Your hand in my hand
And our feet all in line
Im ready take you with me
You have it all
the ceiling cracks and you fly
but I fall again.
Please say goodbye
take your love out of me
and don't ask me why.
I'm not your friend
trying to stand but you bend me again.
What's up with that?
Takes more than this for me to take off my hat.
And I said it first
between you and me
I sleep to dream
I sleep to dream (2x)
Sorry you kissed me now
this face doesn't seem so brave after all
Please, let me go
I need to hear myself think
I only hear water flow.
I'm not your friend
trying to stand but you bend me again.
What's up with that?
Takes more than this for me to take off my hat.
And I said it first
between you and me
I sleep to dream
I sleep to dream (3x)
I'm not your friend
trying to stand but you bend me again.
What's up with that?
Takes more than this for me to take off my hat.
Takes more than this for me to take off my hat.
Takes more than this for me to take off my hat.
And I said it first
between you and me
I sleep to dream
I sleep to dream (3x)
And I said it first
I wish you'd see it on my face
But I'm caught up in those long lost days
And how can I then make you see
When I don't even know me
Following my footsteps home
This time I'm walking alone
Trying hard to be someone
I don't even know
I feel like a shadow
Walking behind who you think I am
Just like my shadow
Wanting to see the sun again
I'm your shadow
And I'm lost
Just like my shadow
Thought I'd light me bright and new
But my candle burnt out long before you
Now I'm the one who's got to pay
You'll get the urge to push me down
only to learn, I resurface.
I am the place where you feel safe and sound, oh-
but I am gunna make you scream, oh; I am gunna crush your dreams, yeah.
Maybe you're on to my conspiracy,
but baby you fail to learn the details.
You like the fact that I am hard to read, oh-
I am gunna hurt ya bad, and give you love you've never had.
Baby- try to leave me, I will hunt you down and live again.
Baby- try to love me, I will make you hurt then love again.
I understand
That we can never speak again
And your resentment towards me will last
and I will let you forget me
if you'll stay in my past
I understand
That you will one day love again
And that it's selfish of me to want to ask
if you can only live off the memory of me
I've been walking around all day thinking
I think I have a problem, I think, I think too much
I've been taught to hold back my tears and avoid them
But you make pain into something I could touch
I've been walking around all day, laughing
I think, I'd be better off without you here
And I bet, you're sweet and hard to get over
So I'll cry and people will stop and stare
Now that's okay
Let them stop and stare
'Cause I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free
I've been walking around all day, waiting
And waiting is all I seem to do
'Cause I never get it unless I'm fed it
But this time I'll just have to
Yeah, this time I'll just have to
And I'm fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free
Say you're not around, am I finished?
If you're not around, that's too bad
Hope you're safe and sound, not alone now
'Cause you know I believe in you
I'm still fragile
I'm still hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free
And I'm fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free
And oh, I am fragile
Hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
I'm always on your side
every time you decide to hide
and I'm careful with my steps,
never make a move I will regret.
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
carrying a world of pain, yeah.
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
going down, going down, down
I'm boxing shadows again
and I'll always be somebody's friend
that's what scares me the most
loving what will remain, I suppose
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
carrying a world of pain, yeah.
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
going down, going down, down
Ooooh, oooh, oh, oh oh (3x)
If I forget your face
inbetween these busy days
what will become of me?
What will become of me?
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
carrying a world of pain, yeah.
And I'm stuck on this crowded train
I`ve been walking around all day, thinking
I think i have a problem, I think I think too much
I`ve been tought to hold back my tears and avoid them
But you`ve made pain into something I could touch
I`ve been walking around all day, laughing
Think I`d be better off without you here
And I bet you are sweet and hard to get over
So I`ll cry and people will stop and stare
Now thats ok, let them stop and stare...
Cause I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...
I`ve been walking around all day, waiting
And waiting is all I seem to do
´cause I never get it unless I`m fed it
But this time I'll just have to
Yeah this time I'll just have to...
And I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...
Say you're not around... am I finished?
If you`re not around that's too bad
Hope you´re safe and sound, not alone now
´cause you know I belive in you...
I am so fragile
I am so hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...
And I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
But I am free...
Cause I am fragile
I am hopeless
I'm not perfect
Your patronizing stare can watch me heal.
What I would give for you to tae the wheel
It's just been a long time coming
The strong resemblance to my mother's womb
is the reason why I will not leave this room
It's been a long time coming
The lack of self-esteem has grown on me
I'm not as strong as I appear to be
It's been a long time coming
My lullaby sounds more like distant screams
I wake up sleep deprived after every dream
It's been a long time coming
My flesh makes little sense compared to yours
I wish my restlessness would open doors
Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if I like rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me?
And how come it is so hard?
And do you like to see me broken?
And why do I still care, still care?
You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if I like rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me?
And how come it is so hard?
And do you like to see me broken?
And why do I still care?
Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days
And why can't you just hold me?
And how come it is so hard?
And do you like to see me broken?
And why do I still care?
I understand
you delude yourself and sleep with a different girl
each night, in order to recover fast
And I will let you cheapen sex
if you'll stay in my past
I understand
that we can never speak again
and your resentment towards me will last
And I will let you forget me
Tell me
am I your baby?
You misunderstand me,
just want a piece of your ass
Impress me
afterall I'm a lady
And dude if you bore me
i'll send you back to your wife
You're just a Boytoy Baby
Romance
I don't want no romance
Just grab me with your hands
and leave when I'm done
Honey
You can keep all your money
I want you to owe me
It's just a game that I play
You're just a boytoy baby
I understand
your need to switch the roles around
and despise me, for the fact that we didn't last
And I will be your punching bag
if you'll stay in my past
I understand
to want to have a mature dailogue
is to much to ask
And I will be your one regret
Damn you for trusting me
what's wrong with you?
I'll work for nothing less.
Damn you for accepting my immaturity
when I scream for silence
child, I'll work for nothing less.
I need patience, and someone strong enough to hold my breath for me until the smoke clears.
I need patience, and time to think before I speak, for when I'm short of breath, I tend to lie.
Damn you for letting me sleep till noon
and get away with it.
I'll work for nothing less.
Damn you for keeping quiet when I like to
I won't work for anything less.
I need patience, and someone strong enough to hold my breath for me until the smoke clears.
I need patience, and time to think before I speak, for when I'm short of breath, I tend to lie.
Ahhhhh, ahhhhh, aaaah...
I need patience, and someone strong enough to hold my breath for me until the smoke clears.
I need patience, and time to think before I speak, for when I'm short of breath, I tend to lie.
The rain falls on your days
giving you a reason for mysterious ways
behind doors the darkness falls
you pour a cup of cofee, and get talking walls
But you can blame it on me
and the person you thought I wanted you to be
but don't you blame it on love
'cause you will regret it then, and from now on.
Besides from days gone by
hours seem so slow you think you'll surely die
you decide to call up a friend
What could you possibly see in me?
Is it my soul hung out to dry?
I think my dysfunctional family
Has shaped it thoughtout my life
What could you possibly like in me?
Do you like my ability to bend?
I think my fear of intimacy
Has shaped the time we spend
No it's not you it's me
And it's not us it's them
Sure it's not her
It's the way she moves you
But she kisses harder then me
She kisses harder then me
I always looked in through your glasses
But all I could see
Is the specter of me reflected
The empty shell of me
What could you possibly love in me?
Is it the way I wear my smile
It hangs from the tipof my tongue you see
Oh this might take awhile...
No it's not you it's me
And it's not us it's them
Sure it's not her
It's the way she moves you
But she kisses harder then me
I looked away,
The other day,
Growing up slowly.
Have you ever herd me
Laugh so easily,
It's cos I'm growing up slowly.
Oh, Viktoria X4
Me and my confidence,
We're now more than friends,
We're growing up slowly.
She lives in me,
She whispers when I sleep,
She says "you're growing up slowly"
Oh, Viktoria X4
I have let go of my daemons,
They left me when I sang the truth,
No bulges I'm finally even,
I can break all my rules.
When I was ten,
My mother changed my name,
She said "you're gonna grow into it"
It took quite some time,
But today it feels like mine.
I guess I grew slowly.
Oh, Viktoria X8
I have let go of my daemons,
They left me when I sang the truth,
No bulges I'm finally even,
When it rains
Do you sleep through it?
Do you face the day?
Do i make you feel like your in the way?
And when it's sunny, do you stick around
When it shines
And i come by your house to close the blinds
And you, you change, cause i hardly ever see you when it rains
Could you please call me
Please and make my day
When it rains we get worried dear,
Think that we don't want you here
And under the blue sky your no longer safe,
Your no longer mine.
And you said you would come rain or shine
And you, you change, cause i hardly ever see you when it rains
Could you please call me
Please and make my day
When it rains
Do you sleep through it?
Do you face the day?
Do i make you feel like your in the way?
And when it's sunny, do you stick around
When it shines
And i come by your house to close the blinds
And you, you change, cause i hardly ever see you when it rains
Could you please call me
You give this way more thought than it deserves
You say when I tell you about my fear of reajection
I wouldn't know better than to get scared
'Cause since we met we've had this great connection
"You know concrete colored buildings all grow stale!"
You say as I look up dreaming
I know better then to include the both of us
But I can't sleep...
When you're gone
And you say
"what's another day?"
This stage of oblivion I find comfortable
And prior to this I never spoke
You say you understand my bsence now
And why I never tell jokes
You know...
Whats another day?
When we're already getting used to gray
What's another day?
If inspiration grows out from this
What's another day?
From silance is the next best thing to bliss
And we're all getting used to hearing you say
I said I said I said
I would cater to your ego and fold my hands in
prayer for your religion
if you would love me and walk me every day
You said, you said, you said.
You would not let your indecision get
in the way of my night but you still managed
to bring your bad temper
to my little show
I can not walk in these shoes
They hurt my toes
I can not stay in your grip
You hurt my nose
because you squeeze too hard let go of my head
They said, they said, they said
I should get a hobby like learn
how to play the accordion
to tell some of my records
but my fingers
can't keep up
I can not walk in these shoes
They hurt my toes
I can not stay in your grip
You hurt my nose
I would build walls
For miles around me
Around anything that hurt
Any sensitive category
Kept love at an arm's-length
It was natural to me
You did not agree
You said things like "unhealthy"
And I took on the task
Of changing my pattern
All you did was ask
And the walls all came crashing
At a welcoming speed
I was convinced you'd never hurt me
And I used to cling to the back of your mind
But I must have let go
At the moment in time
When she offered careless physical joy
Both bouncing my heart around
Like a cheap rubber toy
And after countless
Hours
Of crying
Trying to forgive you
Believe you
Grow a spine and leave you
Grieve you
I've come to this conclusion,
No one prepares you when choosing to stay
How to dare share a bed again
Keep demons at bay
She took something precious
That was just meant for me
Not for her eyes to see
And I used to cling to the back of your mind
But you must have let go
At the moment in time
When she offered careless physical joy
Both bouncing my heart around
Like a cheap rubber toy
And after countless
Hours
Of crying
Trying to forgive you
Believe you
Grow a spine and leave you
Grieve you
And after countless
Hours
Of crying
Trying to forgive you
Believe you
Grow a spine and leave you
Grieve you
I've come to this conclusion,
After all the years you invested in me
All the love, tears, and possibilities
I realize that if the tables were turned around
You’ve lived a haunted life
I’ve tried to imagine how I’d feel
If I was thrown into the public eye
Before my wounds had healed
The way you flashed us with your
Scars and told us about your rules
Like we were students in your “how-to-be-dramatic” little school
Now I can understand how
After all that you’ve been through
You’d lock yourself inside
Waiting for us to come and rescue you
But what I can’t fathom is
While imprisoned in yourself
You wouldn’t ever take a look around
Just blame everyone else
Pulling the “look-at-me-I’m-hurt” card
Got you friends that wouldn’t dare
Question any little tantrum
No, halfway – they would meet you there
Your lover fears your reactions
He’s like a puppy on a leash
He doesn’t tread outside your boundaries
Without saying “please”
Now I can understand how
After all that you’ve been through
You’d lock yourself inside
Waiting for us to come and rescue you
But what I can’t fathom is
While imprisoned in yourself
You wouldn’t ever take a look around
Just blame everyone else
I could be scared of you
I would cater to your needs
Your dominating ways, my overwhelming fear of conflict feeds
But I’ve learned not to get involved
By admitting more about myself
I’m not scared of consequences
Don’t believe in god
I trust this moment
I am helping her, the rest of you are vultures
Where were you when our father passed away
I stayed and helped her pay her bills
She drank her pain away
She’s always been so helpless
The cause of aging is undecided
But she must be stored away
Our family’s always been divided
Why cooperate today?
Oh you smell money, money
She reeks of money
You’re my sister
But you never came around on Christmases
You travelled, kept great distances
Between you and your family
I’ve been the kind of son I always wanted for myself
My kids are flawed
Look at my ex-wives
I deserve some compensation
The cause of aging is undecided
But she must be stored away
Our family’s always been divided
Why cooperate today?
Oh you smell money, money
There’s a room inside your gut
Close the door and keep it shut
Let no daylight enter in
And the punishment begin
Who are you now to decide
Whether or not I can
Be exposed to what you hide
Just be a strong and silent man
But every wrong turn that you make will also be my mistake
Cos we’re connected through our hearts
And the devastating part is that I foolishly defended you to myself
But secrets always have a way of coming out.
I’m beginning now to see
What you must have thought of me
In a body cast of glass
Life-changing information should just pass.
But I don’t break that easily
And if you’d dare then you would see
That I’ve been carrying all the weight
Of the burdens on your plate.
But every wrong turn that you make will also be my mistake
Cos we’re connected through our hearts
And the devastating part is that I foolishly defended you to myself
But secrets always have a way of coming out.
But every wrong turn that you make will also be my mistake
Cos we’re connected through our hearts
And the devastating part is that I foolishly defended you to myself
Our battles are repetious
if not broken poetry
and maybe that's the attraction
that you're as self-absorbed as me
You jumped to the conclusion
and landed on my chest
Now how am I supposed to make you see.
I'll just write this down
with hopes that you'll understand
I will no longer be disciplined by
the frustrations of an insecure man
And while I kissed your face you'll know that
I will no longer apologize for
your former lover's mistakes.
My past is mine to keep
Now who are you to question me...?
Perhaps someday you'll learn
Too bad
it's not our turn
You jumped to the conclusion
and landed on my chest
Now how am I supposed to make you see.
I'll just write this down
with hopes that you'll understand
I will no longer be disciplined by
the frustration of an insecure man
And while I kissed your face you'll know that
I will no longer apologize for
your former lover's mistakes.
You set the standard for my future
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
I'll just write this down
with hopes that you'll understand
I can no longer be disciplined by
the frustration of an insecure man
And while I kissed your face you'll know that
I will no longer apologize for
your former lover's mistakes.
Mistakes
I will write this down
Nobody said it was gonna be easy
But when I forgive there are no string attached
Was not gonna bring up your flaws in an argument
Not gonna rest on a counter-attack
When you first revealed your betrayal
My first reaction was “how dare you rob me of my trust”
But not even this would be able to shake
Our foundation ‘cause it was created by us
I can still see you
Front row point of view
We spent our entire relationship fighting each other
Our goals were exactly the same
I put you through hell by demanding apologies
Even though I was the one causing pain
With your little mishap the ball was in my court
To prove I could be the stronger one of us
By taking over the role you so elegantly played
Those years when I needed a rock
I can still see you
Front row point of view
I hurts, but I’m not about to give you up
Though broken, my heart still beats, it will not stop
It must have been hard; staying in line
knowing your influences did it all the time
It must have been strange; living in blue
and see me shut down as though
it was an easy thing to do
But you could tell where I had been
by the way I held my gun
Trying to write anything while being
mocked b an off beat drum
But I was not honest
I was not healthy
I was not honest, honest.
You did the right thing covered your scars
Challenged your faith
and closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew you were safe home
But you went through hell
whenever you were left alone
But you could see where I had been
in the pictures that they took
I tied to look positive at things,
Faced myself but didn't look
That was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest, honest.
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling to unnecessary lies
The voice in your head whose spirit you stole
left you for dead but you dug the hole
And I could see where you had been
from the marks around your wrists
The red water washed around your sins
but are you as pure as this?
No you are not honest
You are not healthy
I am a creature of habit
And I move in circles around you
I will admit there's a pattern
One I created myself
None of my lovers dared leave me
I grew impatient and stale
Didn't look back once I'd left them
Cause I always expected to fail
But this time it's different
The rules don't apply
But I need some distance to step out of line
So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year
If we still exist, I can let go of my fear
Fear of normalcy
Fear of the solid walls of our future and let go of my past
I must be crazy to want this
Cause you are the girl of my dreams
But I'm prone to ruin the good things
Cautious 'round balance it seems
But with you it's different
The rules don't apply
But I need some distance to step out of line
So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year
If we still exist, I can let go of my fear
Fear of normalcy
Fear of the solid walls of our future and let go of my past
So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year
If we still exist, I can let go of my fear
Fear of normalcy
I've run out of complicated theories
So now I'm taking back my words
And I'm preparing for the breakdown
Your t-shirt's lost its smell of you
And the bathroom's still a mess
Remind me why we decided this was for the best
Because I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I know the distance is a factor
But I stretch as often as I can
My goal's to reach your hands any day now
Please don't blame me for trying
To fix this one last time
I have a hard time as it is
Because I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
Don't act like you don't know me
It's still me, I've never changed
I'll be here when you come back
And I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I would react badly
To the slightest hint of hesitance
He’d bend awkwardly to suit my mood
No word from his defense
I’d cry knowing how my tears
Felt like acid burning through his skin
Pushed every little button
But the right one that would let me in
Now he’s afraid of me
Now he’s afraid of me
It took me by surprise
The hatred in his eyes
I’ve pushed this man as far as he could go
But he lacked the words to let me know
He acted out, now I can see it is my fault
I made changes
That went unnoticed
Sang songs for deaf ears
He mistook my silence for punishment
As it had been all these years
I’d cry knowingly how my tears felt like acid burning through his skin
Now he’s afraid of me
Now he’s afraid of me
It took me by surprise
The hatred in his eyes
I’ve pushed this man as far as he could go
But he lacked the words to let me know
What is in this wine?
The more I drink the more I wander off
Into a stranger's eyes
I like the way that they reflect my thoughts
What is in this air?
It feels like feathery dust everywhere
And as I breathe it in
I breathe the masculine scent of his skin
And I feel homeless
Your comfortable caress
Has triggered unfamiliar restlessness
You and I are we
I feel I've lost my individuality
You're watching me rebel
Believing stories only hearts can tell
But when is it enough?
When do I call my feelings on their bluff
And I feel homeless
And I remember us now
But I forgot what we felt like
you self destructive
little girl
pick yourself up
don't blame the world
so you screwed up
but your gonna be ok
now call your boyfriend
and apologise
you pushed him pretty
far away last night
he really loves you
you just don't always love yourself.
all this time
all this time
you have had it in you
you just sometimes need a push
all this time
all this time
you have had it in you
you just sometimes need a push
think all the mean girls
that pulled your hair
are barefoot now and
pregnant there
and you write pop songs
and get to travel
round the world
all this time
all this time
you have had it in you
you just sometimes need a push
all this time
all this time
you have had it in you
you just sometimes need a push
so you've had some detours
some stupid men
now we know what not
to do again
besides you lucked out
finally
all this time
all this time
you have had it in you
you just sometimes need a push
all this time
all this time
you have had it in you
Our old world is hard to find
I doubt it was ever mine
To keep
Were you always this unkind?
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
I don't recognize your doubt
Please say something, darling, shout!
.. Like me
How unfair to shut me out
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts
Have I driven us to this?
Our bickering has reached its limit
I can't remember our last kiss
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
We lie belly up in the pool of us
I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts
I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts
Ah la la la la la la la
... belly up
Ah la lah la la la laa la
... belly up
Ah la lah la la la lah lah
... belly up
Ah la lah la lah la laa lah
I must say I'll always love you
Even if it hurts
I must say I'll always love you
I wrote a song, a journal
Gave it to the world
Told the story
Of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding
Clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds
Inflicted on my youth
You criticized my choice
To stand up to my past
To give the pain a voice
So that it too could pass
But I felt brave
And filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn’t leave or let me grow
And I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
I loved her more than myself
But she made me choose
Between her and my father
And so I refused
I fled her house and wrath
Eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path
That led me to a stage
The curtains opened up
My heart followed the lead
The music wouldn’t stop
And I could finally breathe
But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologize?
Each confession I make
Translates to you as an insult
We must rid ourselves of this habit
I once heard you say youll never love anyone more
Then why am I still fighting you?
And its never felt like this before
No, we have never fought like this before
But you should know
That Im on your side
I am on your side
Although it may seem useless
I am on your side
Your hands are bearing one down to the bone
But youre still holding on me
So I tightened my grip
My god I wont let you slip
But can you breath this way
And its never felt like this before
No, weve never fought like this before
And Im on your side
I am on your side
Although it may seem useless
I am on your side
I am on your side
Love was never this frale or so good when its good
No its never felt like this before
No its never felt like this before
And Im on your side
I am on your side
Although it may seem useless
I am on your side
I am on your side
Self hatred grows in me like cancer
I can't locate its whereabouts but its feeding on its host
I expected him to have the answers
I thought I taught him how to love me
Now he fears me like a ghost
Self-fulfilling prophecy
You're the only guaranteed loyalty
In this town
Full of violent mothers
Cheating fathers
Leaving lovers
I swear to you, I'll never love again
This hunger grows inside me like a tumor
The dizziness just compliments
This failure of a girl
I'm settled now
The show of mine consumes me
But every pound I shed
Speaks volumes of my lack of self control
Self fulfilling prophecy
You're the only one that dare speak the truth about me
In this town of
Well intentioned mothers
Starving daughters
Worried lovers
I swear to you, I'll never eat again
Self-fulfilling prophecy
You never fail to comfort me
In this town filled with
Violent mothers
Cheating fathers
Leaving lovers
Angry brothers
Starving daughters
Starving daughters
Worried lovers
I don't want to have to build this
I don't want to have to fit in
I don't want to have to need someone
but I do.
I don't want to have to attract boys
I don't want to have to be here
I don't want to have to eat to fill a hole
but I do.
But it's better than nothing at all
But it's better than nothing at all
I don't want to have to be angry at you
I don't want to have to blame it on my father
I don't want to feel sick around you
but I do.
I don't want to ever fall in love
I don't want to feel so insecure
I don't want to have to write this to explain
Still I do
This feels better than nothing at all
I can't laugh to hard I'm on a diet
I'm trying to lose myself
You ought to try it
Just starve for 6 days straight
Oh it's a riot
Every Sunday night
I binch and I barve cause I carry the scars of an eight-year-old
Who's mother applied the same rules to a kids body
As her own
I think you'll leave me soon
Though I've no proof of it
But I'll make it easier for you
By being a little bitch
And this is just the fear
But I think the reason
Why I'm scared you broke is
The only male influence I've had
After daddy up and left
Were my mother's weekend lovers and
Their alcoholic breaths
I'll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects (the effects 2x)
Yes I'll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects (the effects 2x)
I'll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects
Yes I'll tell u what caused it
If u handle the effects
I can't laugh to hard I'm on a diet
I'm trying to lose myself
You ought to try it
Just starve for 6 days straight Oh it's a riot
I down this bottle of wine,
I don't know how to feel but
I don't mind the buzz
As the night moves slow you
look more and more like someone I could
love tonight
without the fuzz
And the feelings
I don't know you've been there
I don't think I can go there again
Don't analyze me
There no apparent link between
the day he said he'd leave
and my
Reacurring dreams
and how I just can't sleep
unless I've had a drink or five
On these feelings
I don't know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again
Oh these feelings
I don't know if you've been there
but I don't think I can go there again
I down this bottle of wine,
I don't know how to feel but
Well I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground
Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes
And I said I'd never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said I still know how to turn you on though
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like that time when I forgot to tell you about the scar
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me
And you're such a great kisser and I know that you agree
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
I hope you can forgive me for that time
When I put my hand between your legs
And said it was small
Cuz its really not at all
I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around
Cuz the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me
You're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
Exactly what I mean
Well I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
I wouldn´t let them hurt you, I wouldn´t let them scream
you´d listen to my stories,
and got back to your dreams
Stayed down on first floor
layed low with me
I saw your pieces so magically
And how is everything in the real world,
is anybody left there sane?
think it´s time for you to join the minority again
´Cause they won´t say they´re sorry
they won´t know you´re there
they won´t sacrifice anything to have you near
they won´t realize you´re gone before it´s too late
And painful is the ways of those who caved in and you´re too great
I understood you, I got your ways
You cried your heart out,
and I held your face
And how is everything in the real world,
is anybody left there sane?
think it´s time for you to join the minority again
´Cause they won´t say they´re sorry
they won´t know you´re there
they won´t sacrifice anything to have you near
they won´t realize you´re gone before it´s too late
And painful is the ways of those who caved in and you´re too great
sorry
they won´t know you´re there
they won´t sacrifice anything to have you near
they won´t realize you´re gone before it´s too late
you´re too great
And tell me if you´re ever feeling down
I´ll open up and turn this world around
you´re no one if you´re just another one, of them...
´Cause they won´t say they´re sorry
they won´t know you´re there
they won´t sacrifice anything to have you near
they won´t realize you´re gone before it´s too late
you´re too great
sorry
sorry
you're too great
sorry
sorry
"Not again," I scream
Over-analyzing everything
The circle of us
Won't break it's pattern
Won't cease, cause
I am your stubborn hypocritical lover
Guarded by thorns of my past
You have been wounded, bled out, anger gushing
And none of us thought it would last
The winds of your ego
The waves of my tears
Made the most perfect almighty storm that we've seen this year
But experience gathered we've learned from our past
So don't worry, darling
Cause this too shall pass
Soul-bruising, I look at you
Accusingly cause I am black and blue
Emotional fist
You are the only man who makes me feel like this
I am your weakness, I am your protector
But who will protect you from me
The damage is obvious, patch me together
Loosen your grip boy, I can't breathe
The winds of your ego
The waves of my tears
Made the most perfect almighty storm that we've seen this year
But experience gathered we've learned from our past
So don't worry, darling
Vague sound of rain
pierces through my song again
but I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
so I let it burn
I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more
And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
so sorry
He grabs my wrists
as my fingers turn into angry fists
and I wisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part
And I say baby, so I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
I know that it's time for me to go home
And I know my head's somewhere else
But give me a break, i've never done this before
And somewhere in between i'm feeling lonely
you wouldn't have a friend that I coud borrow
Cuz I know, there's a lot of nothing around here
And I know, It's been a little while I should have
called you
And I know, that you fit in, but I'm not you
And somewhere in the middle I go crazy
Do you know somebody who Cares
Cuz I know there's a lot of nothing around here
Hey hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey Hey you
think i'm fading too
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
think i'm fading too
I know there's gotta be a way to make them get me
I know sometimes I don't get myself at all
And some place on the sun there is a black spot
do you know the weatherman too?
Cuz I know there’s a lot of nothing around here
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
think i'm fading too
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
think i'm fading too
There you go
trying to teach me the lesson that you learned
don't you know I already tried that and I got burned
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
think i'm fading too
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
think i'm fading too
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
think i'm fading too
Hey, hey you
I'm surrounded by pale people
Hey, Hey you
What is this game we're playing?
should I stick around for more?
Snap your fingers I'll come running
Leave again when you're bored
with me
I'll make it easy
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll let myself out.
This facade that I'm stuck with
has got me wondering
Just tell me how you want me
and I'll be naked stumbling
just to get a reaction, any signs of love
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
Bottle up your smile
And pour it in a cup
I'll be on my way
once I've sobered up
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
