Evil evil evil
You make me feel so
Evil evil evil
You make me wanna get
I tried to shield my soul from you
But your evil sleeped on thru
Cause you're evil
I tried to hide in thought but I always end up caught
Thinking about getting evil evil
I don't know why I fight this feeling
When I should take it out on you
Evil evil evil
You make my thoughts turn to
Evil evil evil
You make me wanna get
Delaying the suspense, destroy all innocence
And my thoughts turn to evil evil
Cooking up the hate du jour, the symptom is the cure
And I'm gonna get evil evil
It's the last thing that I wanted
But it's the first thing I should get
Make mine evil locked in evil
As my resistance is spent my actions get all bent
And it's time to get evil evil
My morals reach the junction
Where my conscience stops its function
And I'm gonna get evil evil
It's the last thing I was thinking
So it's thing that I'll do
[Muir]
You've heard about the war in my head
And I've been known to wake the dead
I'm not evil just possessed to skate
And feeling like shit, just don't feel great
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
I'm built, I'm built, I'm built to survive
So much time spent alone
And I'm still searching for my home
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
I'm built, I'm built, I'm built to survive
Had my scrapes with the law
Is that your mommy that I saw?
They tried to ban us from L.A.
But every dog has his day
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
I'm built, I'm built, I'm built to survive
And we're built to survive
It's 1999 and going cyco's all that's on my mind
Controlled by hatred lost again
What I don't need is a friend
I want more you fascist pig
We are family, we live to live
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
Built to survive,
[Rocky George/Mike Muir]
Welcome to the year of the cyco
It's been a long, long wait
Welcome to a modern blitzkrieg
With peace, I can't relate
Welcome to death now you'll love it
Once in a lifetime treat
Say goodbye to peace and order
You and my terror will meet
My best friend is misery
My girlfriend is insanity
My father is revenge
My love for you I must confess
With my knife you passed the test
I'll love you till the end
Evacuation of my mind
In my body no heart you'll find
Where there's death I lurk
Empty stare incoherent
Screams of pain, love to hear it
Take pride in my work
They say two wrongs don't make a right
Well maybe that is true
But I can't describe the feeling I get
When I take revenge on you
Forgiveness is the key to destruction
But you can't open my door
Repentance, you're indecision
I hesitate no more
Tradition is the root of all evil
So now I water the tree
Salvation, an all-time sentence
So now I walk away free
Two wrongs don't make a right
But they make me feel a whole lot better
I'm not anti-society, society's anti-me
I'm not anti-religion, religion is anti-me
I'm not anti-tradition, tradition is anti-me
I'm not anti-anything, I just wanna be free
Fascist state, no freedom
Unless you control yourself
Use self expression, lose your freedom
You're undesirable, you go straight to jail
Kill someone, in a war
Get a medal, you're a hero
Protect yourself in every day war
You're undesirable you go straight to jail
I'm not anti-Reagan, Reagan's anti-me
I'm not anti-government, government's anti-me
I'm not anti-politics, politics is anti-me
I'm not anti-anything, I just wannna be free
Innocent, never guilty
High class lawyer, you are rich
If you're poor must be guilty
Even if innocent you go straight to jail
I'm not anti-society, society's anti-me
I'm not anti-religion, religion is anti-me
I'm not anti-tradition, tradition is anti-me
I'm not anti-anything, i just wanna be free
Fascist state, no freedom
Unless you control yourself
Use self expression, lose your freedom
You're undesirable, you go straight to jail
Two -sided politics
Kill someone in a war
Get a medal you're a hero
Protect yourself in everyday war
You're undesirable, you go straight to jail
I'm not anti-Reagan, Reagan's anti-me
I'm not anti-government, government's anti-me
I'm not anti-politics, politics is anti-me
I'm not anti-anything, i just wanna be free
Innocent, never guilty
High class lawyer, you are rich
If you're poor must be guilty
I gotta gotta take a trip, gotta take a trip out of this place
I gotta gotta get away, get away from the human race
I don't know what I'll see, don't even know what I'll find
I don't know what to pack, never been to a trip at the mind
CHORUS
Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain-
Do you know what I'm saying
Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain-
Well I'm going insane
I took a wrong turn and ended up at my heart
I t could barely even pump no blood it was so thrashed and torn apart
Thank it for working overtime in pain and misery
Then I set back on the trail, headed for my destiny
CHORUS
Fly with me
Flying free
Tripping
You must be tripping
Trip, trip, tripping
Ya ya ya ya you're tripping
I cannot stop this trip, I forgot to pack the brakes
Crashed straight into a concrete wall of my mistakes
Ended up in a cemetary of a thousand wasted days
You got, I want
You got, I want
You got, I want
You got, I want
I can't tell you why you're crying
I can only tell you to wipe your tears away
You see something that's inside me
I think I'll save it for a rainy day
I don't need no constitution
To tell me what is wrong and right for me
C'mon take it little honey
I want to tell you baby what you see
CHORUS
You're gonna take al lthat I'm giving, yea
What's the matter can't you see
You know I'm taking, you're not giving
Oh baby, baby, please please please please
I'm not sure what I told you
I'm only sure that it wasn't true
You said I told you that I love you
Well there's a thousand others just like you
You said I used to be romantic
Well now I don't need to be anymore
You want to talk about commitment
I think I want to show you the door
CHORUS
You got, I want
You got, I want
You got, I want
You got, I want
Love me, hold me tonight
I can't tell you why you're crying
I can only tell you to wipe your tears away
You see something that is inside me
I think I'll save it for a rainy day
I don't need no constitution
To tell me what is wrong and right for me
C'mon take it little honey
I want to tell you baby what you see
For a moment it seems
That this moment won't end
So I pray for the end
Wasting my time, waiting for mercy
You sold me out just for the joy of hurting me
So I pray for the end
Rest my child and be still
Tortured thoughts become real
My heart stops such a rush
Causes me to go numb
Wonder what next will come
Sitting alone in my misery
I'd like to mike.
What more can I do?
What else could I do?
Fucked up feelings - kill
What else could I do?
What else can you do?
What else could I do?
I lost again, once again
I don't know where to start
Now I'm back at the start
You lied when you told me it would save me
Now taste the fucked up feelings you gave me
I close my eyes, yet I still see
I can not hide from what's inside of me
I hear my thoughts, but they're not clear
And now I tremble with fear
CHORUS
No one can tell me what's sane
You see the tears I cry
But you can't feel my pain
No title can classify me
I'm a person with feelings
A number I refuse to be
Don't try to live my life
You cannot talk for me
Now I'm on the brink, brink of insanity
Sometimes I stare into space
I try to think about another place
Where happiness I'll see
I'll find a place for me and find some sanity
Sometimes I look at you
And I wonder what will I do
Will my mind stay intact
How will I react, will I do any harm to you
Open my eyes, but I can't see
Maybe the hatred has blinded me
There's not a sound, yet I still hear
Now the pain is so clear
CHORUS
Sometimes I stop to think
Or maybe my thinking just stops
Doesn't matter anyway
No one hears what I say, I'm on the brink of insanity
Well I know him but not his name
In everyone, yet not the same
Play with the cards i'm dealt, worse I never felt
No bullshit
I hate the things you believe
Your truth is built upon lies
I can't believe in a trend
I won't be living no lie
No bullshit
I hate everything you say
I ain't got time for your shit
I refused to be played
I won't be living no lie
No bullshit! That's where I stand
No bullshit! That's how I'm living my life
No bullshit
I hate the way that you are
I can't believe in your ways
I refuse to be hip
You talk your shit, but I ain't listenin'
And I don't do no ass kiss'n
Now here's the point that you've been missing
No fuck'n problem at all
Ain't got no fuck'n problem, I got no fuck'n
problem at all
You ain't alive - if you ain't livin'
You waste your life whining and sniveling
So buckle up cause now I'm driving
No fuck'n problem at all
You think you know everything and more
But a surprise you'll be in for
Add it all up and you got no score
No fuck'n problem at all
You play the part - that I got no use
Don't mean a thing cause you got no juice
I live in peace I don't need a truce
No fuck'n problem at all
I got a piece but not to the puzzle
No time to think staring down a muzzle
I rise above and watch you fizzle
[Muir, Clark]
S. T.
S. T.
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S. T. Suicidal and proud! We are family!
Suicidal and proud we are family
We are family with all the love you could ever need
We don't judge you from the color of your skin
We judge you from what's within
Sui sui sui Suicidal
S.T S.T S.T S.T S.T S.T Suicidal we are family
We are a family brothers and sisters
that are proud to be committed to one and all
United we will never fall cause we are a family
We are a family!
Sui sui sui Suicidal
S.T S.T S.T S.T S.T S.T Suicidal we are family
Original from the westside, S.M. and Venice
Now we're grown to be a worlwide menace
Say what we want cause I know how to back it up
A cyco like me just straight don't give a fuck
and in case you might not know
I'm insane suicidal
Rolling hard with notarious family
We're as bad we want to be
Cause in my life there's only one guarentee
That suicidal I always be
And further more you don't want to forget
We don't take no shit !
We are family
Everyone that's a down sui
We like it hard and loud
And we are always down and proud
Sui sui sui Suicidal
S.T S.T S.T S.T S.T S.T Suicidal we are family
S.T
Suicidal and proud
Suicidal and proud
We are family !
[Instrumental]
Pressures charging try to stall - Pound my head against the
wall
I've been feelings this for way to long
I've been fighting this for way too long
Something's bout to happen - get out of my way
Something's better happen - get out of my way
Chorus:
Scream and shout - let it out
Rip it out - Scream and shout
Scream and shout - let it out
Break it out - Scream and out
Scream out (5X's)
Hypnotized, Analyzed - A sorry attempt to sanitize
When I've been feelings this for way too long
When I've been fighting this for way too long
I guess I'll do it my way - your's don't work
I'm left to do it my way - your's don't work
Seems like such a long time ago, but I don't know if I'm ever gonna let
her go. I remember the first time that I met her, I knew she was the
one. There couldn't be anybody better.
Well, I was lost when I looked in her eyes
Well those eyes, those eyes, they made me realize...
Sorry...I didn't know what was to be
Sorry...I could not see
Sorry...Lord how could this be
Sorry...It's raining down on me
Well, I know it sounds crazy to say. But, in everything I do, I think
about that day. Last time I talked to her was on the telephone. She
said I know it's been a while, but I don't feel like being alone. I
slammed down the phone on the last thing I'd hear her say. Now it's
getting harder to live with it every day and I pray, I pray that you
can hear me say
Sorry...I could not see
Sorry...It don't seem fair to me
Sorry...Lord, how could this be
Sorry...It's raining right down on me
Not a day goes by when I do not sit and wonder why this had to be. It
don't seem fair to me. No no, it don't seem fair to me. The more I wish
and pray, the more it seems I waste away. But it would mean oh so much
if I could just reach out and our hands would touch and if I'd just
go back again and do it all over it'd have a happy end.
I know exactly the way I would start. I'd send her a letter straight from
my heart. It doesn't seem fair, why can't I forgive. She was so strung out,
she didn't even have a chance to live and it's oh so hard to forgive.
Sometimes people think I don't know what to say because I'm looking
out in space, but inside I'm praying and I pray, I pray, I pray, pray,
pray and then I think about the day she died. About that night and
in the morning. I cry cry cry and I try, I try to understand
Sorry...I didn't know what was to be
Sorry...It don't seem fair to me
Sorry...Lord I'll always be
Sorry...She died but it's killing me
Wondering about that time when it'll be my day
And I wonder what I'll do and what she'll say and if I'll have the
courage to stay
And I'll start by looking her straight
in the eye and telling her that I'm Sorry
I hate Pop Songs
They think they're clever, I think they're wrong
I hate bubble gum punk
They got the look but the music is junk
I hate anyone that savors
The foul stench of this months flavor
And hell is a place that you can go
If you like disco or techno
Pop songs
Pop songs
Pop songs
Pop songs
Hi boys and girls
come on and get happy
I hate Puff Daddy
And his friend the dead fatty
I hate the grateful dead
But I'll be grateful when the rest of them are dead
I feel like I'm on pins and needles
How many bands can rip off the Beatles?
And every day there is another
Band that got big by playing a cover
I hate pop songs
I hate pop songs
I hate pop songs
I hate pop songs
lala, lala, lalalalalalalala
I hate Celine Dion
Titanic Song makes me wanna moan
And if I hear another love ballad
I think I'm gonna have to toss my salad and
I hate teen idols
they got signed by old farts with fancy titles
There's nothing worse at least to me
Than stupid lyrics with a lame ass melody
I hate pop songs, pop songs
I hate pop songs, pop songs
I hate pop songs, pop songs
I hate pop songs, pop songs
Pop songs, I hate pop songs
Pop songs, I hate pop songs
Fuck it!
He's a carrier of death, a stork in reverse
He blesses you with sickness
Cause love is a curse
The arsening in your Koolaid, the bomb in your mail,
He disappears in motion
But leaves a bloody trail
CHORUS
Drop to your knees, humble you pray
But can't put off your judgment day
There's a knock at your door, who could it be?
You got a new friend that's gonna set you free
He's making a list, he's checking it twice
No amount of money's gonna stop this vice
CHORUS
No mercy, no mercy, no mercy. You want mercy?
No fuckin' mercy! Oh no
With the wink of an eye, a snap of the finger
Now the smell of death is all that lingers
A doctor of death with a PhD, a specialist in pure misery
CHORUS
See you fucked with him even though you knew
And now your worst nightmares all come true
You scream and shout you beg and plead
But he's got your soul and that's all that he needs
CHORUS
Well I just had to turn off the radio
But not before I heard thirteen songs about love in a row
Well I don't know what the next song's gonna be
But I know how the words are gonna go
They'll be singing "Oh baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby I love you so"
So won't everybody sing along cause her comes just another love song
I need you like I need a hole in my head
I need someone to steal my money and wish I were dead
I need someone to always put me down
And everywhere I go she wants to hang around
CHORUS
Do you really even think dreams come true
Do you really even think you'll find something wonderful and new
Do you really even think someone's waiting for you
Do you really even thiink that love is near
Do you really even think it's me dear
Do you really even think I want to hear-but I still say
I won't fall in love today
I need a chick who's got expensive taste
Who's not afraid of whose money she wastes
You expect me to buy you a diamond ring!
Well I suspect I'll buy you not a thing!
CHORUS
Well I could tell you you're the only one I love
And how your eyes sparkle like the stars above
And that I carry a picture of you in my heart
And as long as we live we'll never be apart
And that you're the most important person in my life
But I can't handle a girlfriend, how am I gonna handle a wife
Love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate love-hate
love-hate
I love, love, love to hate you but I'd hate, hate, hate to love you
I could promise all my love to you
But that would take me only a second or two
And if you're waiting to be my one and only
You're gonna find out what it's like to be awfully lonely
Your song was alright for awhile-But now your tune's gone out of style
You want to cuddle and hug all night
But I'm going out with my friends tonight
And I don't need someone to act like my mother
I already have one-I don't need another
CHORUS
But she sure looks fine
After a bottle of wine
And she's out of sight
When my mind's not right
Easy easy, it's not easy
To say what I feel when nothing seems real
Not easy, it's not easy
To be someone's friend when the pain it never ends
Not easy, it's not easy
To keep up the fight when nothing turns out right
Easy I got to take it easy, I got to take it easy
Easy it's not easy to open your heart when love's torn it apart
Easy it's not easy to hold your head high when you want to sit and cry
Easy it's not easy to fall on your knees and say Lord help me please
Easy I got to take it easy, Oh please, please, please easy
Easy easy it's not easy
Gotta gotta take it easy
It's not easy
In this world without harmony
Where there's no peace and there's no sanity
I can still survive and survive peacefully
Until that moment when you crash down on me
CHORUS
'Cause I7ll
I'll hate you better
'Cause I'll
I'll hate you better
You better watch how you direct your hate
Or you'll receive part of my natural trait
Before you send off you just better wait
'Cause I ain't got time not to retaliate
CHORUS
I'll, I'll hate you better
I'll hate you better
I'm not trying to threaten or to deceive
I'm just enlightening you so you won't be naive
I'll tell you one thing that you better believe
My hate is better to give than receive
CHORUS
I7ll, I'll hate you better
I wouldn't mind. I wouldn't mind.
Every messed up feeling has its day
Every screwed up person gets revenge
Every jacked up moment will come back
Every twisted thought will have its shot
I wouldn't mind seeing you shaken with fear
I wouldn't mind hearing you screaming in pain
I wouldn't mind hearing you cry like a baby
I wouldn't mind hearing you beggin' for your life
Makes me feel the joy rise thru my soul
Makes me think that there's hape after all
Makes me wanna shout and jump for joy
Makes me feel the purpose after all
I wouldn't mind seeing you shaken with fear
I wouldn't mind seeing you screamin' in pain
I wouldn't mind seeing you dead!
I wouldn't mind. I wouldn't mind.
I wouldn't mind seeing blood squirting from your veins
I wouldn't mind hearing you beg for your life
[Muit, Pleasants, Clark]
I hurt myself so I can heal myself
I wanna get sick
I hate myself so I can love myself
I wanna get sick
I, I wanna release, I wanna get ill,
I wanna get sick
I, I wanna go off, I wanna get ill
I wanna get sick
I feel my best when I am at worst
I wanna get sick
I fight myself to make peace with myself
I wanna get sick
I, I wanna go off, I wanna get ill
I wanna get sick
Sick sick sick bbb get sick, ya get sick
I confuse myself to understand myself
I wanna get sick
I punish myself to replenish myself
I wanna get sick
I, I wanna release, I wanna get ill,
I wanna get sick
I, I wanna go off, I wanna get ill
I wanna get sick
Get sick get sick get sick
Lying on my back, wheeled under blinding light
Shackled restraints resist my attempted fight
The scalpels hovers over me, the incision is made
Once again they're watching me, no new sensation, just frustration
They said it was for science
But I'm the human guinea pig
The guinea pig
The guinea pig
The guinea pig
The guinea pig
The guinea pig
My sleep has been altered, I open my eyes
The nightmare continues, I see through their lies
The papers keep turning, the tests never ends
Once again they're watching me, no new sensation, just frustration
They said it was for science
But I feel like the human guinea pig
Time may have passed on, but I won't soon forget
I'm so excited today I'm gonna die
But I'm going to heaven so there's no reason to cry
God says he loves me and I love him too
Yes I have struggled, but but now suffering's through
I don't want you to cry
I just wanna say
I'm so excited today I'm gonna die
But I'll live forever so it's not really goodbye
God has a plan for me and a plan for you
So there's no reason to cry
There's no reason to cry
Cause I'm going to heaven
I'm going to heaven
Yes I'm going to heaven
I'm going to heaven
Over head such a shinning light
As playful angels hover in flight
In the blindingly brilliant pure white
A sensation so peacefully
My soul rises separates from my body
The pearly gates I can now clearly see
I've gone to heaven
Hallelujah
I'm so excited again I'll never die
[Muir]
You're not educated you're just regulated
You're not educated you're just regulated
So if you're tired of getting pissed on
Until you get yourself our system
We don't need your help no way we're OK
Anarchy for me, fascism for you
anarchy for me, means fascism for you
We don't need no rules anarchy
Suicidal punx
We don't need no rules no way
Wedon't need no rule no way, we're OK
We're hippie killers
We're hippie killers
We're hippie killers
No drugs smoke or drink
Hippies suck that's what I think politicians
I don't buy it
Try to contain us, we're gonna riot
The original hippie killers
You're not regulated
You're just not educated
You're not regulated
You're just not educated
So if you're tired of getting pissed on
You better get yourself our system
We don't no rules no way we're OK
We don't need no rules no way
We don't need your rules no way, anarchy
We're the original hippie killers
We're hippie killers
We're hippie killers
We're hippie killers
No pills, trips or hipie weed
Suicidal's all that I need
Truth, respect and lots of pride
in us they live, in you they died
We're hippie killers
We're hippie killers
We're hippie killers, anarchy for me
We're hippie killers, fascism for you
We're hippie killers, anarchy for me
We're hippie killers, fascism for you
We don't need no rules no way !
Anarchy suicidal style
Don't you give me give me give me your borrowed time
Don't you give me give me give me your recycled line
Who do you think you are?
You must think you're something
Don't you give me give me give me you're here to help me
Got to get with the program, I don't need no charity
I don't need shit and you ain't nothing
And if I made a perfect world you'd be gone
Don't give me give me give me your misguided help
Don't give me your nothin', I can do it myself
Well I don't want shit and I don't need nothing
Don't you give me give me give me your look of concern
I don't need your meddling when you gonna learn
Well you ain't shit and you ain't nothin'
Well I just made my perfect world-oops you're gone
Well now you know what it feels like not to belong-so long
So don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't give me your second-hand sympathy
Don't give me your nothin', just let me be
Who do you think you are?
You must think you're something
Don't you give me give me give me your worried tone
You can't fool me with that crap just leave me alone
And I don't need it, I don't need nothing
Now I have a perfect world, now you're gone-oh oh oh
Don't give me your nothin', don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me that "What did I do?"
You don't have to do nothing, you're just being you
I'll tell you why, you ain't nothing
If you make your perfect world you will find
The only place that's perfect is in your mind
What's perfect for you is like a hell for me
Two perfect worlds, it just cannot possibly be-oh oh oh oh
Don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me your "I'll be there"
I don't believe how you lie, you don't care
Don't give me your shit, don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me your "I love you"
They just are words and the words ain't true
You're full of shit, your words mean nothing
ANd I just made my perfect world, now you're gone
And in my perfect world your perfect world don't belong-so long
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
I don't give a shit
I don't give a fuck
I don't give a shit
We don't give a fuck
Your opinion don't mean shit to me
And your shit is about to fall
Your rationale isn't rational
Like bungie jumping off a 6 foot wall
I don't give a shit
Your right and wrong to me is all wrong
And you'll pay if you do me wrong
Politically correct means tag along stupid
And I don't ever tag along
We don't give a fuck
What I am is who I am and I'm proud
of who I am
C'est la vie cause to me comes naturally
I don't give a shit
I ain't afraid of the present
I ain't ashamed of my past
And my future's locked in real tight
I don't give a shit
The guns aren't loaded and the fists aren't
clenched
But I've taken up a brand new fight
I don't give a fuck
Hip ain't hip and cool ain't cool
But a fool is definitely a fool
New ain't new it is just new to you
But the truth is sad that's true
I don't give a shit
I don't give a fuck
Don't you give me give me give me your borrowed time
Don't you give me give me give me your recycled line
Who do you think you are?
You must think you're something
Don't you give me give me give me you're here to help me
Got to get with the program, I don't need no charity
I don't need shit and you ain't nothing
And if I made a perfect world you'd be gone
Don't give me give me give me your misguided help
Don't give me your nothin', I can do it myself
Well I don't want shit and I don't need nothing
Don't you give me give me give me your look of concern
I don't need your meddling when you gonna learn
Well you ain't shit and you ain't nothin'
Well I just made my perfect world-oops you're gone
Well now you know what it feels like not to belong-so long
So don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't you give me give me give me your nothing-no
Don't give me your second-hand sympathy
Don't give me your nothin', just let me be
Who do you think you are?
You must think you're something
Don't you give me give me give me your worried tone
You can't fool me with that crap just leave me alone
And I don't need it, I don't need nothing
Now I have a perfect world, now you're gone-oh oh oh
Don't give me your nothin', don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me that "What did I do?"
You don't have to do nothing, you're just being you
I'll tell you why, you ain't nothing If you make your perfect world you will find
The only place that's perfect is in your mind
What's perfect for you is like a hell for me
Two perfect worlds, it just cannot possibly be-oh oh oh oh
Don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me your "I'll be there"
I don't believe how you lie, you don't care
Don't give me your shit, don't give me your nothin'
Don't give me give me give me your "I love you"
They just are words and the words ain't true
You're full of shit, your words mean nothing
ANd I just made my perfect world, now you're gone
And in my perfect world your perfect world don't belong-so long
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
No no-don't give me your nothin'
My life
People don't try to tell me how to live my life
Don't try to fill me up with false hopes and lies
Show me the truth they say they'll show the light
Don't try to tell me I'm wrong when I know I'm right
Cause I don't need it, I don't need it, all I need is
Choosin' my own way, choosin' my own way of life
I'm mad as hell and I ain't gonna take it
And if you think I am I think you're fuckin' mistaken
Lock me in, but you can't lock me out
You can cut off my tongue, but I'll still scream and shout
Choosin' my own way of life-what up?
Cause I'm choosin' my own way of life
I'd rather have a penny than a heart of gold
I'd rather die young than do as I'm told
I was never one to turn down a fight
I gotta sleep all day so I can rage rage rage all night
Hell I don't need it, I don't need it, all I need is
My destination is my own decision
Living fast is my only religion
Trust no one cause I'm no fuckin' fool
Learn on my own I don't need no school
Choosin' my own way of life-what up
Choosin' my own way of life-straight out
Choosin' my own way of life-ain't it my life
Mike Clark: Ladies and gentlemen, sorry to interrupt you from your listening pleasure... I'd like to have your undivided attention please... and please welcome the honorable Cyco Miko to the podium thank you.
Mike Miur: Thank you very much I'd like to thank brother Clark from the Suicidal Family for that fine greeting. Anyhow, I wanna jump in real quick so we can get back to the music; it's jammin' and I know you know it and I know it too. But sometimes you got to go to that extra level, take another step, step back, and get a running start on it. See right now I have to get to a point, a point most people won't go because it's a little bit to close to the truth, and the truth isn't somethin' that's gonna benefit them in the way that the want it to be. See my dad taught me a long time ago, it's not what someone does it's why they do it that really matters. And that's what you should judge'em for. People can be the nicest person in the world, but that's only to get you to think they're nice, so they can let down the guard a little bit in your door and then you go in there door and they mess with your mind. Anyhow, too many people tryin' to get you to think the way they want you to think; what we say, is trying to get you to think, whatever way that may be, but to realize the way you're thinkin' may not be the right way and give it a little extra thought. So with that in mind, the question is, what do we do why we do? Everyone's got a motivation and sometimes you got to judge that to see where their power's comin' from or where they're tryin' to throw it. See our motivation, bein' in the band, what we're tryin' to get across, is this right here, that little extra level. You see most people think they think but they're not really thinkin' so they start thinkin' cause they thought they already thought, but they never did in the first place so it's their own little safety level. So I sit down and said, if there's all these people so smart thinkin' so good, how come every day of my life there's so many damn stupid people doin' stupid things. See a wise man once told me, he said, "Mike, there's two clubs, there's the stupid people and the smart people. There ain't nobody blockin' the door at the stupid people entrance, anyone can go there. But the smart entrance, it's a little more exclusive." So what you wanna belong to? The country club, or the cardboard shack? The penthouse or the outhouse? Seems like an easy decision to me. So what we're all thinkin' about right now is what we're talkin' about, what we're talkin' about is what we're thinkin' about, and that's the whole point: you should think before you talk. So where we're at right now is a place that we want to go: a little bit of help. See: everyday, everywhere you go, people do stupid things. Three hundred and sixty five days out of the year, people not thinkin'. People that have the ability to think, that aren't thinkin'. So what we want to do is nominate one day. Call it International Don't Be Stupid Day. Now what this is gonna do is be a little reminder, maybe we could wear a pin, maybe you could send a tape to somebody, and when they start to do somethin' you say, "whoa, whoa, whoa. Hold on there partner. Today is Don't Be Stupid Day, so you can't do that." So what we want you to do is just take a twenty four hours out of your life, think about all them dumb things that you just go right ahead and do, when you know damn well you wouldn't want anyone else to do it, if you really cared about'em. So start carin' about yourself, start usin' your mind, and as we say, start your brain.
Well, I took a walk down under the street
Never thought that I'd see the day I would meet
Came and whispered in my ear
But I tried to pretend that I didn't hear
Turned my head and I walked away
I tried to forget what they had to say
Put on a smile and I tried to hide
But I couldn't keep myself from crying inside
Oh, I, well, I turned my head and I walked away
Oh, I, and I tried to forget what he had to say
Oh, I, and I chalked it up as another day
Oh, I say, I died a little today
Took a journey through my brain
Saw the scars and they felt my pain
Saw the things I didn't want to find
Knew the dreams I had over a bottle of wine
Thought if I lied I was going to win
But they said the battle wouldn't even begin
Thought about the lies that I said to myself
But I knew it's too late to find the help
Oh, I, so I turned my head and I walked away
Oh, I, and I tried to forget what he had to say
Oh, I, and I chalked it up as another day
Oh, I say, I died a little today, I died a little each day
I died a little each day, oh
I died a little today
Late at night, that's the time I can't forget it
Sail the darkness but this ain't sleep
Heard the sound, could it be I got the message
But the message wasn't intended for me
Can't you see there's a madman working
He's putting in overtime
Too content with the sweet scent of denial
You're oblivious to the signs
It's a struggle for the reason
But it's the only thing I know
No surprise, here's more lies and you still are waiting
What the hell are you saying
and you7re fly fly flying with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, why you lying
Truth abuse, what's the use, it's not a game you're playing
Do you know what I'm saying
And you're high high hiding with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, where's the truth
I'm not you you're not me, that's the difference
So you can't deny we're the same
What's the point, that's what sticks huh exactly
Take a second helping of the blame
Not a scare not a bomb not a warning
A condition that no one should doubt
There's a s tick tock tick tock
ticking in my head you gotta get out
Yet I cannot deny the reasonn
'Cause it's the only thing I know
No remorse, danger course, and you still are waiting
You don't know what you're saying
And you're fly fly flying with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, why you lying
sick in thought, disease you've caught
Is it a game you're playing, do you know what I'm sayaing
And you're high high hiding with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth, where's the truth
It's a struggle for the reason
But it's the only thing I know
Too much tweak, dosage leak
And you still are waiting, what the hell are you saying
And you're fly fly flying with lie lie lying
Where's the ruth, where's the truth, why are you lying
Set to lose, why you choose
It's not a game you're playing, do you know what I'm saying
And you're high high hiding with lie lie lying
Where's the truth, where's the truth
Where's the truth, Where's the truth, Where's the truth
Where's the truth, Where's the truth, Where's the truth
I leach off you when things are good
I'm there to kick you when you're down
But when you need me I'm not there
You're such a bummer when you're down
Let's see - what you need's a friend
They say - that all you need's a friend
I know - what you need's a friend
Hello - I could use a...
What you need's a friend - all you need's a friend
And of course we always share
So what I want you better give
And what is yours is mine
And what is mine you can't have
I'd do anything for you - anything
Just you ask me and it's done - anything
But everything has its price
You should have read the fine print ha-ha!
Friend. Hi, friend. Friend. It's me friend!
What you need's a friend. All you need's a friend
What you need's another friend. You never can have
enough friends. Don't you wanna be my friend?
I'm so glad you're my friend. Sucker
Of course you know who I am
And I'll never let you forget
You are stuck with me forever
War inside my head
War inside my head
War inside my head
War inside my head
War inside my head ain't a pretty sight
But I don't want no sympathy
It's happened a thousand times before
It's just a harsh reality
CHORUS
War inside my head-can you sense it
War inside my head-can you see it
War inside my head-can you feel it
War inside my head
Can you hear the-pain
Can you see the-pain
Can you sense the-pain
Can you feel the-pain
Can you help the-pain
Can you fix the-pain
Can you taste the-pain
Can you hear the war inside my head
The only thing real is the way I feel
And that's the pain that's deep inside
That battle from within is gonna begin
And there ain't nowhere to hide
CHORUS
War inside my head every night and day
I never get no piece of mind
It ought to be a sin, I just can't win
And pure hell is all I find
S...T...
S...T...
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
We are a family
With all the love you could ever need
We don't judge you by your skin
We judge you by from what's within
Sui, sui, sui, sui, sui, sui, suicidal!
S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. suicidal!
We are family!
We are a family
Brothers and sisters that are proud to be
Commited to one and all
United we will never fall
Cause we are a family!
We are a family!
Sui, sui, sui, sui, sui, sui, suicidal!
S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. suicidal!
We are family!
S...T...
S...T...
S...T...
Originally from the Westside, S.M. and Venice
Now we're grown to be a world wide menace
Say what I want 'cause I know how to back it up
A cyco like me just straight don't give a fuck
And in case you might not know
I'm insane Suicidal
Rolling high with the world wide family
We're as bad as we wanna be
Cause in my life there's only one guarantee
That Suicidal I'll always be
And further more you don't wanna forget
We don't take no shit
We are a family
Everyone that's a down Sui
We like it hard and loud
And we're always down and proud
Sui, sui, sui, sui, sui, sui, suicidal!
S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. S.T. suicidal!
We are family!
S...T...
S...T...
S...T...Suicidal and proud!
S...T...Suicidal and proud! We are family!
S...T...Suicidal and proud!
Kept in the guard of Mother Nature's womb
Resting in the safety of their tomb
Sheltered by six feet of soil and rock
The spade is the key with which their gate we'll unlock
Why should they be resting so peacefully
When we're up above in pure misery
I don't care that they've already died
That's not enough to make me satisfied
So we wait till the stroke of the midnight hour
Then we'll unleas the darkest of power
Hell's gates will open a new judgment day
Now is the time that the dead will pay
Why should they be resting so peacefully
When we're up above in pure misery
I don't care that they've already died
That's not enough to make me satisfied
Waking the dead, waking the dead, waking the dead
All rise!
Hell's gates open the earth trembles and shakes
Now their pardons are over they pray for their mistakes
Mausoleums firebombed now rage in flames
When the dead come out their bodies we'll maim
CHORUS
Rob-Robbing their graves stealing their bones
Bang-Banging our heads to their screams and their moans
Fix-Fixing the wounds that even time cannot heal
Soon-Soon we will know how good it feels
This is not damnation or an act of God
Now the dead they rise ripping through the sod
Purgatory has to wait, but how can this be
The dead are free-the dead are free!
CHORUS
Waking the dead-you said that it wouldn't be
Waking the dead-You said that we wouldn't see
Waking the dead-Now the dead stand before our own eyes
Silence is blaring the earth opens wide
History repeats, reburied they die
Darkness descends through nature's pores
They return to their sleep on earth's basement floor
Now they rest not so peacefully
As they've had a taste of our misery
I didn't care that they'd already died
That wasn't enough to make me satisfied
Return back to their tombs now they lay
This is no game for the novice to play
Repeat not a word lest ye be forewarned
The punishment of Hell's darkness and scorn
Repeat not a word of the sermon said
A prayer for the dead, don't play with the dead
Don't try to comprehend what's going on
You can't understand, please don't understand
Waking the dead-And we'll be
Waking the dead-All rise now
Waking the dead-We're gonna wake the dead
Waking the dead
I said the words what have I done
I thought it cool, I thought it fun
The words I say they start to change
The syllables now rearranged
A language I can't comprehend
I shut my mouth it doesn't end
The bowels of nature open wide
I cannot move I cannot hide
I can't believe the things I see
The dead are free, the dead are free
I close my eyes and pray it's not real
Their presence close coldness I feel
What have I done Lord please forgive
Once they died, but now they live
I wake the dead, I ake the dead, I wake the dead, I wake the dead!
Cleanse the lepers
Cast out the demons
Welcome to the year of the cyco
It's been a long, long wait
Welcome to a modern blitzkrieg
With peace, I can't relate
Welcome to death now you'll love it
Once in a lifetime treat
Say goodbye to peace and order
You and my terror will meet
My best friend is misery
My girlfriend is insanity
My father is revenge
My love for you I must confess
With my knife you passed the test
I'll love you till the end
Evacuation of my mind
In my body no heart you'll find
Where there's death I lurk
Empty stare incoherent
Screams of pain, love to hear it
Take pride in my work
They say two wrongs don't make a right
Well maybe that is true
But I can't describe the feeling I get
When I take revenge on you
Forgiveness is the key to destruction
But you can't open my door
Repentance, you're indecision
I hesitate no more
Tradition is the root of all evil
So now I water the tree
Salvation, an all-time sentence
So now I walk away free
Two wrongs don't make a right
You're the prisoner locked in your cell
You're living in your personal hell
Invisible bars block your view
They don't exist except for you
Free, why can't you see how easily
You could break those bars right down
New freedom found, travel around
And find out exactly why
Give it a try, living the lie
And try to solve the final clue
See if it's true, found out just who
The real enemy is you
Don't be afraid
Don't be deceived
A new world for you
Can be conceived
Don't tell me 'bout how the world isn't fair
How you'll live your life how you choose
I don't want to hear another excuse
How it ain't your fault when you lose
And you're the prisoner
Your mind's diseased, my mind is cured
I was the prisoner but never again
My worst enemy is now my friend
Brainwashed, you'll probably believe
I gave it up for a new reprieve
Free, why can't you see how easily
You could break those bars right down
New freedom found, travel around
And find out exactly why
Give it a try, living the lie
And try to solve the final clue
See if it's true, found out just who
The real enemy is you
You say you're political
I wrote a letter just the other day to nobody in particular
But if anyone were to read a bit-they'd think I was a bit peculiar
But it matters not what they think of me, it's only what I know is real
And so all that's left that matters now-is that the feeling's back
CHORUS
The feeling's back and you just can't stop it
The feeling's back and you just can't stop it
I fought a thousand times-I never knew the meaning of the word fear
Till that one day when I stood alone-staring straight into the mirror
It's not a pretty sight-and even worse it's so hard to face
Until I realize I'm the only one that put me in this place
CHORUS
I'm gonna breathe I'm gonna live-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
I7m gonna shout I'm gonna scream-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
I'm gonna run I'm gonna fly-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
I'm gonna fight I'm gonna win-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me
Nothing's gonna stop me, nothing's gonna stop me now-
Cause the feeling's back
and you gotta love the feeling
I dug my hole too deep-I couldn't admit, I didn't know when to stop
But you can only dig your hole six feet until the dirt comes back on top
I've got a long way left to climb but I'll still look you straight in the
And I can honestly say I'll never quit-not even on the day I die
I've seen pain that'll drive a man further
Than any road could ever take you
Stare at the wall, it doesn't move, must think it's bad
But I7ll prove who is harder
It makes no sense, at least to you
But who's to say, I refuse
Refuse to be a martyr
Welcome in the pain
It's a glorious hour
Say hello to the hate
Tap into the...
I come and go, your eyes can't tell
'Cause all they see is that I'm
I'm still standing here
What's that you sense, it can't be good
You're scared to look, but I ask
What's worse to fear
Welcome in the pain
It's a glorious hour
Say hello to the hate
Tap into the...
Don't be afraid, don't run away
Tap into the power
I want it all, I want it all
Tap into the power
What you were told, it's all a lie
Don't be afraid because
Now's the time to explore it
Drop all the fear, try do deny
But it won't work
No longer can you ignore it
Welcome in the pain
It's a glorious hour
Say hello to the hate
Tippy toe thru broken dreams
There goes a little fucked up piece of my brain
Didn't need it anyhow, didn't use it anyhow no way!
My minds been soakin' up so much
shit... now it's cured not like healthy
But cured like marinated dried out fuckin
piece of meat
Suicyco muthafucka, suicyco muthafucka
Don't take no shit from no one
Suicyco muthafucka, suicyco muthafucka
Said if you ain't suicidal, you ain't shit
Snap crackle pop it just stopped being funny
Don't know what was said
But don't know if I like it
There's always something funny that just
ain't funny
I ain't no muthafucker, never had one
never really wanted one
But that don't mean your daughter's safe
Guess that makes me a daughter fucker
Running thru a place I swear I'd never go
smash it wow
Never know it could be so much fun,
I remember it now
I remember it now... just like it never was
There's always something funny that just
ain't funny
Suicyco muthafucka, suicyco muthafucka
Don't take no shit from no one
Suicyco muthafucka, suicyco muthafucka
I'm suicidal for life
I got to think in a different way
The old way got me nowhere
The new way got me somewhere
But nowhere where I wanted to go or
where I belong
I gotta go back to the old way
I tired of people looking at me funny
Not knowing who was in control and who wasn't
Yea I'm not and that's why I'm in control!
Yea fuck it up, fuck it up again, makes things
a hell of a lot simpler
A birth that came from more than sound
Now rages on from town to town
A giant grows more every day
And now the maniac is here to stay
A feeling you can't kill
It's the power, it's a will
Controls your thoughts but you can't see
Just when you thought it safe he suddenly appears
He feels no pain, he has no mercy or no fears
He gives the message and your mind is filled with blue
And now the maniac lives inside of you
CHORUS
He's back. The suicidal maniac.
Each day he grows more and more
He's bigger now than ever before
His thoughts he'll compromise on never
He can't be stopped. He'll live forever
Blast away through the mind
A power of another kind
A presence that is growing out of sound
And now it's come, the time the maniac I'll meet
He takes my hand and now I bow down to his feet
His love for me is like a father to a son
And now the maniac and I are one
I bow to his might
Too powerful to fight
It's my destiny
Now the maniac lives inside of me
He's back
An army at his command
A strength that you can't comprehend
A force unknown can now be told
The power of the world he holds
A feeling you can't kill
It's the power. It's the will
Controls your thoughts but you can't see
Just when you thought it safe he suddenly appears
He feels no pain, he has no mercry or no fears
He gives the message and your mind is filled with blue
And now the maniac's a part of you
And the time has come. The maniac you'll meet
He takes your hand and now you bow down to his feet
His love for you is like a father to a son
And now the maniac and you are one
Father forgive me for I know not what I do
I don't want to live, I don't know why
I tried everything but I'll leave it up to you
CHORUS
I don't have no reasons, I just want to die
I'm a suicidal failure, I've got to get some help
I have suicidal tendencies but I can't kill myself
I'm tired of this way of life, my patience has expried
I'm barely jsut 20 but my life I will retire
I went down to a rifle store, I bought myself a gun
CHORUS
I point it at my head but I couldn't get the job done
I took all my mother's sleeping pills
I jumped off a freeway bridge
I drank three kinds of poison
And drove my car off a ridge
I beat myself with a bat
Put a noose around my head
But I'm still not dead
I overdosed on heroin
CHORUS
Death may not be the answer
But me I'm not into living
It can't be all that great
With life I can't relate
I want to start my second life now
By some masochistic reasoning I think that it will be fun
So shoot me with your gun
CHORUS
I'm looking forward-suicidal
I'm really bored-suicidal
You wanna die-suicidal
Then die-suicidal
At the game-suicidal
Honestly-suicidal
At my school-suicidal
At the bar-suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
Suicidal
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Eric Wincentsen
267@ef.gc.maricopa.edu
Glendale Community College
Glendale, Arizona
Flashing pictures on my screen
Shown too quickly to be seen
Does not register in my conscious mind
Propaganda of another kind
They're fucking with me subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally
CHORUS
Danger-nightmare
Doomsday-nightmare
Murder-nightmare
Nightmare-nightmare
Watching TV, I start to cry
For no reason, I don't know why
Could it be from messages on my TV
Which I'm getting subliminally?
They're fucking with me subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally
CHORUS
Mind control the easiest way
Sponsored by the CIA
It's a weapon you cannot see
It's propaganda subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally
They're fucking with me subliminally
Lights, camera, silence on the set
Tape rolling, 3-2-1 action
Welcome to the Church of Suicidal
We'll have a sermon and a wonderful recital
But before we go on there's something I must mention
An important message I must bring to your attention
I was in meditation and prayer last night
I was awakened by a shining bright light
Overhead a glorious spirit, he gave me a message and you all
need to hear it
"Send me your money," that's what he said
He said to "Send me your money"
Now if you can only send a dollar or two
There ain't a hell of a lot I can do for you
But if you want to see heaven's door
Make out a check for five hundred or more
"Send me your money," do you hear what I said?
"Send me your money"
Now give me some bass, um yea that's how he likes it
Now give me some silence, for all you sinners
Now give me some bass, yea that was funky
Now take them on home Brother Clark, send me your money
Here comes another con hiding behind a collar
His only god is the almighty dollar
He ain't no prophet, he ain't healer
He's just a two bit goddamn money stealer
Send me your money
Send it, you got to send it
Send me your money
You hear what I'm saying?
Send it, send it
Send me your money
How much you give is your own choice
But to me it is the difference between a Porsche and a Rolls Royce
I want you to make it hurt when you dig into your pocket
Cause it makes me feel so good to watch my profits rocket
Send me your money
Now dig in deep, dig real deep into your pocket
I want you to make it hurt!
We'll take cash, we'll take checks
We'll take credit cards, we'll take jewelry
We'll take your momma's dentures if they got gold in them
So whose gonna be the next king of the fakers
Whose gonna take the place of Jim and Tammy Faye Bakker?
See my momma, she didn't raise no fool
Youse you can't put a price on a miricle
ST ST ST ST ST ST ST ST
I never said I don't like religion-I just don't like TV
You say I got a bad attitude-around you that comes naturally
You say I need more compassion-I can forgive, I just can't forget
You say control my temper-but when I feel like shit, I feel like shit
CHORUS
Cause I was born to be-ST
And I'll always be-ST
Don't get down on me-ST
Cause I'm down OG-ST
Not afraid to die-ST
Just you promise me-ST
Yo got to carry on-ST
You gotta carry on-ST
Why can't I ask any questions if what you say is true
Am I supposed to believe everything-or just everything said by you?
And how can you call me stupid-when you don't understand what I say
And how can you call me evil-have you spoken to God today-
And what did He say?
CHORUS
As long as your heart beats-pledge your allegiance
You can call me ugly-but I still dress the way I choose
How you gonna judge me-you've never taken a walk in my shoes
Why don't you ever trust me when I'm smiling-is it a sin to have fun?
And why should I repent when there's nothin' wrong with anything that I've
done
CHORUS
Pledge your allegiance....................................................
I talk through my eyes, the words pourin' down
Nobody hears
You ask me what's wrong, but what can I say
Nobody hears
I try to tell you
I try to show you
How else can I tell you?
How else can I show you?
I'm screaming inside, why can't you hear?
Nobody hears
You're looking right though me like I'm not here
Nobody hears
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me?
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
You figured it and shaped it to your perfection
Nobody hears
Subtracted my feelings from this equation
Nobody hears
Is it all in my mind?
All in my mind
Then it would be easy to find
Easy to find
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me?
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
So if it's all
If it's all in my mind
Then wouldn't it, wouldn't it
Wouldn't it be so easy to find?
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what do I have to do
To make you comfort me?
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
So I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Well I'm sitting here crying inside myself
So I'm sitting here screaming to nobody else
Don't understand why nobody hears
B-1 bombers in flight
Trident missiles in the air
MX missiles underground
Protect us till we're dead
CHORUS
Memories of tomorrow-too late for sorrow
Push the button
Kiss goodbye the nuclear arsenal
A-bombs flying off their ramps
Nuclear bombs explode
CHORUS
Radioactive people
Search for medicine
Pray for shelter
Kill for food
CHORUS
Mass starvation
Contaminated water
Destroyed cities
Mutilated bodies
CHORUS
I'll kill myself
I'd rather die
If you could see in the future
You'd know why
How can you love someone
If you think that you're no one
When you mistreat yourself,
and think it's all you deserve
Cause it's so hard to care
Is this or is it loneliness?
How can you demand respect - when you have no respect?
When you abuse your body, never mind your mind
And you're your own worst victim
There'll be no love just loneliness
Why do you force a smile - when you know all the while
That you're burning inside, but don't want no one to know
The hell that you're in
As love turns to loneliness
How can you sleep at night?
When you know it's not alright
When you wake up in the morning, nothin' has changed
If you do nothin' about it
Love becomes loneliness
Love vs loneliness, love vs loneliness
And when you're down and you think you need something
The temptations so hard to resist
But what you grab sure ain't what you needed
That's not love it's loneliness
And when you're lonely and think you need someone
The plot a painful twist
There ain't no one that can make you feel like someone
Only you can cure loneliness
How can you be confident when you're all wrong with it
When you know what you're doing and you're doing it wrong
It's no misunderstanding
This ain't love this is loneliness
I see destruction as it rages through your veins
I see depression as it fills your heart with pain
I see the cure you found, your artificial peace
I see your body rot, your solution now has it's feast
And now I look, I look in your eyes
Looking in your eyes
Looking in your eyes
Looking in your eyes
Looking in your eyes
What I see in your eyes
I can see, they tell no lies
Looking in your eyes
I see salvation oh so close, but yet so far
I see the gilmmering of the holy star
I see your future, it's a nightmare and I lie
But you refused my help, now I have no more strength to try
Now I see, I see the lies
Looking in your eyes
In your eyes I see the lies
What I see in your eyes
I can see, you tell no lies
Looking in your eyes
Looking through my eyes
Well I would die for you
I've died enough now I'm through
But one day you will see
I got a story to tell, now listen up real well
Pay attention this way to what I got to say
Took it to the street, rap to the people we meet
Now we're rocking out hard to the Suicidal beat
Tried to deny our right, so we're putting up a fight
Just doing our thang, they tried to call it a gang
Saw the way we look, that's all that it took
That's all she wrote, they had their scapegoat
Dressed down, homeboyz, minority-join the Army
We're the few, we're the proud, we like to jam it loud
The music we play won't have it any other way
We're armed to the bone with our music and our tone
Recruiting on the street fwith the sound of our beat
Growing larger every day and every time we play
Don't need no college plan, we're just a hard-rocking band
We like our music to please but we ain't gonna appease
No pressure's too much to make us change our touch
Hardcore, metal, the new wave
We're not a gang-join the Army
Don't be no fool, don't let your prejudice rule
Don't judge y your fear, judge us by your ear
Can't believe every word of every story that you've heard
Just play the song, I know you'll start to rock along
Well I don't care 'bout the clothes you wear
It's the size of your heart, not the length of your hair
Don't make no difference to me, the color that you be
Black, white or brown, it's all the same to me
Well if you still don't believe you best get up and leave
Do what you must do, but this ain't the place for you
You got no right but if you start a fight
We'll be rockin' your head but with our fists instead
I'll fight it with the band, right down till the end
Ask anyone I've met, this ain't no idle threat
Don't flap no fit and it won't come to this
Bust as for me, I'm down with the Army
New YHork, London, Venice
Why join a gang?
Join the Army
Suicidal rock-join the Army
Suicidal rock-join the Army
Suicidal rock-join the Army
Suicidal rock-join the Army
Oh yea, know that shit. Sounds so good
I wanna... right along. Yea this is K-Sui,
Cyco Miko here, giving you the easy
muthafuck'n listening sounds for the hard
of muthafuck'n hearing. Yea, busting out on
a whole new perspektive to lock you upside
your head. Get your mind working.
Cause you know it ain't working like it should be.
It's time to think... not think like you think
you think... that ain't thinking, that's just
justifying your inability to accomplish the things
that you're not willing to work for.
So right now time to dig into fuck'n trench.
Get a little cyco. Cause you gotta fuck'n be crazy
to believe in yourself! So what anyone else says...
Why do I wake up in the morning-nothing's changed since the day of my
birth
Why do I wake up in the morning-I make no difference on this earth
Strength has left-has to be-something has died inside of me
If I don't wake up in the morning-at my funeral would anyone care
If I don't wake up in the morning-would anyone even be there
You can put me down-you can put me out, you can try to ignore
But now you're gonna hear me when I shout WAKE UP
Why should I wake up in the morning-it be just another wasted day
Why should I wake up in the morning-don't do nothing right anyway
That was then-not anymore-now I go blasting out the door
I'm gonna wake up in the morning-I'll prove you wrong I will not fail
I'm gonna wake up in the morning-I'm gonna blaze a brand new trail
Might not be smart, but if I'm strong
Counting on nothing, the numbers get higher
Bllinded by reason, you're asleep at the wheel
Confused underrstanding, with a slip for the hold
Squeeze past the pressure, you're asleep at the wheel
A magical moment
Is it too much of a good thing
Recycled in memory was
It too much of a good thing
Why can't you remember
Is it too much of a good thing
Preserved in its danger
You're all asleep at the wheel
Blank stare and a whisper, but who are you judging
I though you'd be different
You're all asleep at the wheel
A special assignment
Is it too much of a good thing
Unlocked under pressure
Is it too much of a good thing
Confined unforgiveness
Is it too much of a good thing
A new kind of danger, you're all asleep at the wheel
Hope in revision, slight miscalculation
It all goes in stages, you're asleep at the wheel
A blank stare and a whisper
I thought you were different
But who are you judging
I thought you were different
In times of trouble I fall to my knees and look to the sky
Cause me, me I want more
The classification of our heart's a sin
Cause me, me I want more
Don't wanna pump nobody's gas-I want more
Don't wanna kiss my boss's ass-I want more
Don't wanna take the first job I find-I want more
Don't wanna dig coal out of a mine-I want more
Slaving in a factory, a differnt kind of insanity
Feels like I'm locked in a cage
Working like a maniac, give myself a heart attack
For a job that pays minimum wage
Don't wanna work at the golden arches-I want more
Don't wanna was no rich man's cars-I want more
Don't wanna be nobody's gardener-I want more
Don't wanna be a garbage man-I want more
Slaving in a factory, a differnt kind of insanity
Feels like I'm locked in a cage
Working like a maniac, give myself a heart attack
For a job that pays minimum wage
I sit and reflect about all that I've learned and all that I've seen
Cause me, me I want more
The memories come and they go away
Cause me, me I want more
Don't wanna pump nobody's gas-I want more
Don't wanna kiss my boss's ass-I want more
Don't wanna take the first job I find-I want more
I shot Reagan, I shot Sadat
I'm gonna shot you dead in heaven you'll rot
You're gonna rot in heave, hear an angel's voice
You're too bad for hell, although it's you first choice
Rot in heave, you're too bad for hell
Rot in heaven, cause you're fogiven in hell
I shot Lennon, I shot the Pope
I shot the devil, now you ain't got no hope
You're gonna rot in heaven, hear an angel's voice
Yesterday, as I went out of the house
I saw a body lying down quiet as a mouse
Lying face down in the sewer
I got up closer and realized that I knew her
All her organs coming from her inside
Slashed up skin sliced up hide
Turned over and saw the tire tracks on her head
That's when I realized she was dead
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
Twisted body chopped off feet
She's dead, can't do no harm
Her body was minced meat
Bugs crawling on her arms
Gnarled up legs, broken and bent
I wonder, how much would I pay
Her last breath has been spent
To get your mom killed in such a bloody way
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I watched her as she bled
Was the rodents using her hair as a nest
Chewed off toes on her chopped off feet
I took a picture 'cause I thought it looked neat
But the thing I liked seeing the best
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
Twisted body chopped off feet
Her body was minced meat
Bugs crawling on her arms
She's dead, can't do no harm
Her last breath has been spent
Gnarled up legs, broken and bent
I know, that she won't really be missed
and giver her a little kiss
But make it look good at her funeral
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I saw her lying in a pool of red
I think it's the greatest thing I'll ever see
I'll always remember her lying dead on the floor
Your dead mommy right in front of me
I hope she dies twenty times more
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
I saw your mommy and your mommy's dead
Twisted body chopped off feet
Her body was minced meat
Bugs crawling on her arms
She's dead, can't do no harm
Her last breath has been spent
Gnarled up legs, broken and bent
I wonder, how much would I pay
Survive
You can not stand a single word I say
But you manage to hear every word anyway
Your eyes they always seem to be fixed on me
But not for love but for money
CHORUS
You say nothing yet I still hear
I am the thing that you most fear
I cause the pain deep in your heart
O, how I love to tear your world apart
Well I feel your pain and I survive
And I survive
I see your anger, I can hardly wait
How it feels so good to cause you such hate
Tried to ignore me. Thought I'd go away
But I'm back for good. I'm here to stay
CHORUS
You thought that you could get the best of me
To put me down, it seemed, so easily
I take such pride in the work I do
You hoped I'd fail but I'm not like you
CHORUS
How Will I Laugh Tomorrow lyrics
Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down -
I cry for help, no one's around.
Silently screaming as I bang my head against the wall -
It seems like no one cares at all.
Always an emotion,
But how can I explain -
How can I explain?
Kind of like the scent of a rose,
But you can't explain,
The same with my pain.
Caught up in emotion,
Goes over my head -
Goes over my head.
Sometimes I got to think to myself,
Is this life or death,
Am I living or am I dead?
The clock keeps ticking,
But nothing else seems to change -
Problems never solved just rearranged.
And then I think about all the times that I've had -
Some were good, most were bad.
I search for personality
And I look for things I cannot see.
Love and peace flash through my mind,
Pain and hate is all I find.
Find no hope in nothing new,
And I never had a dream come true.
Lies and hate and agony -
Through my eyes it's all I see.
If I'm gonna cry -
Will you wipe away my tears?
If I’m gonna die -
Lord please take away my fear.
Before I drown in sorrow -
Well I just wanna say...
How will I laugh tomorrow,
When I can't even smile today?
Today, today, today.
When I can't even smile today -
Today today, today.
When I can't even smile today -
How will I laugh tomorrow -
When I can't even smile today?
How will I laugh tomorrow -
When I can't even smile today?
You think something's Funny…..?
Laugh at this!
So when I look outside my room,
I see the world but not the reason.
What it’s done to me's not fair,
You call it fate, I call it treason.
But I know not what to do,
Give me a sign I’ll take whatever.
But if you want me, here I am.
Ain't gonna cry forever.
And I tried to hold ya -
But you just turned away.
And I tried to tell ya -
But not a word I say.
I cried, "I’m so lonely." -
But you just covered your ears.
I gave you all the signs -
But you ignored my tears.
So if you want me,
Here I am -
I sit here waiting for your decision.
But my body fights my mind -
They're heading straight for a collision.
So what am I gonna do -
If I'm still looking in all the wrong places?
But the only thing that seems to change,
Are the looks on their faces....
Doesn't anyone...?
Seems like no one cares at all.
I search for personality
And I look for things I cannot see.
(Does anyone even care at all?)
Love and peace flash through my mind -
Pain and hate is all I find.
(Seems like care at all.)
Find no hope in nothing new,
And I never had a dream come true.
(Does anyone even care at all?)
Lies and hate and agony -
Through my eyes it's all I see.
(No one cares at all.)
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
When I can't smile today -
Today, today, today.
When I can't smile today -
Today, today, today.
When I can't smile today.
How will I laugh tomorrow?
When I can't smile today.
How will I laugh tomorrow?
I don't know what is it
But I'm acting like I know
I don't like what I see
But I never let it show
You can not understand
What you were not meant to find
So I lock it in a vault
Halfway up my head
Halfway up my head
Halfway up head
Halfway up my head - that's where it got stuck
If you're trying to change me - well you're just out of luck
I know what I am and how I must be
Halfway up my head
Chorus:
Halfway up my head
It got stuck
Halfway up my head
Halfway up my head in a back of a file
I put up a front with a wink and a smile
All of the things that you've done and you've said
Halfway up my head Halfway up my head
Chorus
When I don't know what to think
Then I don't know what to say
When I don't know what to do
I still do it anyway
So if I sound confused
You're listening all wrong
I take it piece by piece
And I cut what gets to long
Halfway up my head
Halfway up my head
That's where it got lost
Don't like what you said so the message got tossed
You can not lock up what was meant to run free
The spirit in me, the spirit in me
Ah damn, we got a lot of stupid people
Doing a lot of stupid things
Thinking a lot of stpuid thoughts
And if you want to see one
Just look in the mirror
Gotta kill Captain Stupid, can't you see him
Today we start the new way, we're Suicidal
Gotta kill the old way, we'll make it better
Won't you join our mission, don't be stupid
Got to kill Captain Stupid
Got to kill Captain Stupid
Brothers killing brothers, what up with that?
Can't you see they're laughing, that ain't funny
Babies making babies, that ain't love
You just got screwed over, get some respect
CHORUS
Got to kill Captain Stupid
Got to kill Captain Stupid
And I don't understand why
People be bringin' Captain Stupid in their lives
Treating him like a superhero
Glorifying him when he ain't nothing but a superpunk
And you see, you're the one who's gonna have to stop him
'Cause you7re the one that started him
Oh, what's that?
So now you say life sucks
Well, ninety-nine percent of it's
What you make of it...
So if your life sucks, you suck
What's that crap you're smoking, playing the fool
Waste your life for nothing, when you're something
What the hell you thinking, mind pollution
Got to get back control, it's your life fool
CHORUS
What's that now?
Ah, so you're scared to do something about it
Well, you better be scared not to do something about it
'Cause if you don't kill Captain Stupid
Captain Stupid gonna kill you
Quieres chingaso, conmigo, tu lo tienes
Por vida y por muerte Holmes!
Breakdown a motherfuckin' breakdown
Breakdown ain't that a bitch!
If you like magic, here's a trick
Snap my fingers now I'm a lunatic
Ain't no threat straight out fact go head up and you'll get
jacked!
Went to school at U. of Hell, favorite course was kill and
tell
Graduated head of class, majored in kickin' ass
Did hard time to get my Master, wrote the book on personal
disaster
I don't need no PhD to be a doctor of fuckin' misery
Psycho's insane, they say I lost my brain, but I gave it away
If my mind's gone bad don't go off feeling sad cause I chose
it that way
Cause it's a breakdown, I'm go'n breakdown, I'm gonna break,
ain't no you can do
Cause it's a breakdown, a motherfuckin' breakdown, gonna
break you in fuckin' two
What you got, come and show me
Think I won't, you don't know me
Live or die, it's all the same, life or death, it's just a
game
Make you an offer you can't refuse, pull out the gat, sorry
you lose
Put a disclaimer on the crypt, sorry Holmes, finger slipped
I broke a main now it's headed for my brain and my mind goes
thumpty thump thump
Pinned shot eyes, don't come as no surprise it ain't no dance
the bump and the dump
Cause it's a breakdown, I'm go'n breakdown, who said that
nightmares don't come true?
Breakdown, Breakdown, Breakdown, Breakdown
Stick out your hand I'll stick out my finger
Kick you in the balls now you're a soprano singer
Rush to my head, whacked and hyper
Now it's time to pay the piper, time to pay the piper
Thought you were smart, now you're lying in a cart, you ain't
resting six feet below
Your reservation ain't got no hesitations you don't need to
pack no bag where you go
Breakdown, I'm gonna breakdown, I'm gonna break ain't no you
can do
Cause it's a breakdown, a motherfuckin' breakdown, I'm gonna
break you in fuckin' two
Cruise the streets on a hustle, show 'em what's up, flex the
muscle
Whacked-out mind on a foll, living behind a vioent toll
Don't take no chemist to understand the equation AK47, a
little persuasion
Your fear is like a compliment, now you're the production of my
environment
Don't flap no lip, don't shoot that crap
Timebomb for brain don't know when I snap
Breakdown
My strategy I do a psycho attack, you know my set I'm a maniac
Breakdown
Do as they say when in Rome, blast the sucka then get home
Breakdown
Concussion to the skull, jugular severed chalk it up another 187
Breakdown
Breakdown, Breakdown, Breakdown, Breakdown
Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Let's skate!
Seemed like such an innocent toy
He was an All-American boy
Got a skate at eight years old
Now the story can be told
Beware he's possessed to skate!
Skating takes him up in height
He's a pilot on a modern flight
See him flying through the air
Well if he don't land then he don't care
Cause he rips-he rips
When he skates-he skates
He never hesitates...
He's the wizard on the wheels
He's a modern gladiator and he ain't got no fears
So skate!
He shoots the pool like a launching pad
If it ain't insane then you can't get rad
Skating is all that's on his mind
Well he's skating radical all the time
Cause he rips-he rips
When he skates-he skates
He never hesitates...
He's the demon on the wheels
He's like a modern gladiator and he ain't got no fears
So skate!
Possessed to skate!
Looks like a magic carpet ride
Six foot airiels inverts backside
Optical illusion it must be
Well he redefines insanity
Cause he rips-he rips
When he skates-he skates
He never hesitates...
He's the wizard on the wheels
He's a modern gladiator and he ain't got no fears
So skate!
Doesn't understand why you'd wanna walk
Ain't got time to sit and talk
Used to be just like you and me
Now he's an outcast of society
Beware he's possessed to skate!
Possessed to skate!
Possessed to skate!
Possessed to skate!
Possessed to skate!
Possessed to skate!
Possessed to skate!
(Muir, Paul, Pleasants, Clark)
Peace through politics - is a fallacy that does not exist
Freedom, Freedom, Freedom, Freedom
Where's your freedom? We got your freedumb
Get your freedom, I got your freedom
Truth is hard sell but I know what goes over well
Lies and cheap and free so the profit margin works
exceptionally
Where's your freedumb I got your freedom
Don't you tell me that I'm dreaming 'cause I've been here before
But that don't mean that I want to be from here anymore!
Cause I feel like shit-but who are you to say
I don't know I had to have a right to feel this way
I feel like shit-time after time
So don't be trying to tell me it's all in my mind
I feel like shit-but you don't really care
Except my God he used a four letter word in there
I feel like shit-what am I to you?
I feel like shit. Deja vu!
And when I feel like shit, I feel like shit!
I feel like shit-I'm sorry to say
Do you fuckin' think I like feeling this way
I feel like shit-what do you expect me to do
I feel like shit, deja vu!
This ain't my imagination
Lost all thoughts and concentration
Time goes on day after day
But still If feel the same fuckin' way!
Feel like shit, deja vu!
Always feeling out of place
Hiding behind a smiling face
There just ain't no pretty words
Can't you see it fuckin' hurts!
You know I feel like shit-deja vu
Feel like shit-deja vu
Feel like shit-deja vu
Taste like addiction
Smells like addiction
This is addiction
Feeding the addiction
Feeding the addiction
Feeding the addiction
You haven't eaten in days and your gums are bleeding
Swearing to God the pipe's all you're needing
It's robbing or stealing or turning a trick
You do whatever it takes to suck on the Devil's dick
The more you feed it, the harder it is to tame
Taking in the Beast, playing it like a game
Lying to yourself saying the same old shit
"I don't need it, I just don't want to quit"
Taste like addiction
Smells like addiction
This is addiction
Feeding the addiction
Feeding the addiction
Feeding the addiction
The hunger of addiction calls
There's nothing romantic about going through withdrawals
You're craving a sample well, here's just a taste
Picking and scratching the scabs on your face
Your life support system's a syringe
Killing a piece of your soul every time you binge
Praying to God and begging for forgiveness
Knowing damn well that you can't keep going on like this
This is addiction
Feed the addiction
This is addiction
Taste like addiction
Smells like addiction
This is addiction
I won't give up the plot but here's a few surprises
Muscle spasms, you're puking as your temperature rises
Led off to slaughter like a heard of cattle
The demons inside have won the battle
The Devil takes another soul to burn
What does it take for another fool to learn
The ritual's over as another one dies
The ritual begins as another one tries
It's a feeding time...
It's your feeding time
It's a feeding time...
It's your feeding time
It's a feeding time...
It's your feeding time
It's a feeding time...
Feeding...the monster!
Cursing at God and praying to die...
Cursing at God and praying to die...
Cursing at God and begging to die...
Cursing at God and begging to die...
Taste like addiction
Smells like addiction
This is addiction
Feeding the addiction
Feeding the addiction
Feeding the addiction
Cursing at God and praying to die...
I wish so hard that I could be just like the one you want me to
But it doesn't seem to work though I'm trying
I try so hard to do what's right to be so good to make you proud
But it never seems to satisfy you
It's just the person that you want is not the person that I am
The conflict inside's horrifying
I want so much for you to think of me as a person that
deserves your respect and attention
I wonder if I'll ever do the tings you want the way you want
When I don't even know what I want yet
It's not that I'm rebelling against the person you are
It's just that I don't know who I am
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God, do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me, there's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying
Emotion No. 13 easy crying
Don't ask me how I know, but I'm dying
Emotion No. 13, blows my mind away
Emotion No. 13, it blows me away
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not...
Emotion No. 13, say's I'm...
Don't ask me how I know but I think I'm...
Don't ask me how I know but I think I'm dying, dying,
dying, dying
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God do yo know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me, there's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying
Extra, extra, read all about it!
News flash, read all about it!
Here comes another scam and don't you doubt it
May make you laugh, but it ain't funny
I can't believe the things they do for money
Another show that needs to get rated
Just got to add a little more hatred
We interrupt this program to tell you
Disco's out, murder's in
Kill it!
Goody, goody, another commotion
One more time, in slow motion
The mountain won't come to Mohammed
Let's keep our fingers crossed and maybe he'll bomb it
La da de da da de de da da
All kind of la de fuckin' das
Disco's out, murder's in
If you wanna go far, we'll make you a star
Not looking for a filler, just a serial killer!
It's got to be violent to make it a highlight
If we show it enough well everyone will think it's alright
Disco's out, murder's in
Kill it! Kill it!
Disco's out, murder's in!
Travels thru my veins poisoning my soul
Makes me hate myself, makes my anger blow
Suffocates the hope - eats away my will
Traps in all the hate - depression
And I don't wanna feel this way - but I can't stop it at all
And I don't wanna hurt no more - but I can't stop it at all
And I don't wanna lie here numb - but I can't stop it at all
And I don't wanna have to give in - but I can't stop it at all
Depression - it's got me I fought it - it whupped me
Depression and anguish the poison's inside me
Why can't I just make it end - I'm tired of feeling this way
Why can't I just let me be - I'm tired of feeling this way
Why can't I just have a break - I'm tired of feeling this way
Why can't I just go away - I'm tired of feeling this...
Depression and anguish the battle can't take this
Depression is poison the damage is all done
And I don't deserve this oh, no
And I don't wanna feel this no
Digs into my heart roots sprout thru my brain
Plants it's ugly thoughts growing wild again
Shuts all systems off, locks me in a haze
Traps in all the hate - depression
And I don't have the strength to scream, but here it comes again
And I don't have the sense to cry, but here it comes again
And I don't have the will to fight, but here it comes again
And I don't have the choice to quit, and here it comes again
Depression and anguish the battle can't take this
Depression is poison the damage is done
Depression it's got me I fight it but why me
I see the world it slips so far away
Looking back on yesterday
Leaves me nothing more to say
Terror reigns my world, Lord please tell me why
I'm on my knees, I start to cry
I live my life, that's another lie-Controlled by hatred
It feels good, I'm not proud to say
But I'll just put off my guilt, it can wait another fuckin' day
I search you out and now you're right within my reach
And now you'll learn a lesson only I can teach
Now I'm chking it, now I'm checking out
Now I start to scream, it's what it's all about, shout it out
Can you swee what it's all about, shout it out
Now you know what I'm all about
So you can chalk up another soul that's lost
Calculate the social cost
You know not what's inside of me
Raging mad insanity
Scrambled brains I got a toasted mind
Look in my heart therein no goodness are you gonna find
I turned my back to all responsibility
I got no place for all your sensitivity
Now I'm checking out, now I'm checking in, now I star to pray
Just another fuckin' sin, why can't I ever win?
Seems like I never win, it's a sin after sin after sin
Why can't I ever win?
Who am I?
I feel no pain
I clsoe my ears and now I see so clear
I slip away just left all fear
Not a sound, but still I hear-Controlled by hatred
And now the world it slips so far away
Looking back on yesterday
Leave me nothing more to say-Controlled by hatred
I didn't think that I could ever try
Now tears of joy I start to cry
I free my soul and now I fly-Controlled by hatred
The hooterman goes
"What's your name?"-he goes
"What's your name?"-he goes
"What's your name?"-he goes
"You know my name, you know my name!"
What's your name?-my name is terror!
What's your name?-my name is pain!
What's your name?-and you're my reason
I'm controlled by hate, controlled, controlled by hate
My hate
It's gonna gotta gonna gotta gonna gotta get better
It's gonna gotta gonna gotta gonna gotta get better
I'ts gonna gotta gonna gotta gonna gotta get better
Now the world, my whole world's controlled by hatred
The world, my whole world's controlled by hatred
Who am I?
I feel no pain!
Could it be?
There's a place I try to go, so far from here
I close my eyes, I try to, to disappear
I look around in my own way
But what I see I never, never really know
I wander 'round until I feel it coming on and then it's
It's time to go
I don't want to be here, falling out of place
Confusion's the consensus, fighting for my space
CHORUS
Can't stop the running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
I lived it, I live it, it's not easy to say
I felt it, I feel it, it's just another day
It scares me, why does it dare me
You know it ain't a fair fight
Pain overtakes me, it tries to break me
You know that something ain't right
now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Now you got them running, can't stop the running
The runaway emotions in me
Set my body free
They don't make no seatbelt for the mind
So I can't fasten up for this ride
Running away, can't stop the runaway emotions
Not right, can't fight
Can't stop the runaway emotions
Fighting, hiding, can't stop the runaway emotions
Hypnotized, paralized
Can't stop the runaway emotions
CHORUS
I hate it, I hate me, like my consistency
I've seen it, I see it, I'm talking literally
So much lying, too much denying
It's time to face the facts
Yo ucan't help me, these cards were dealt me
Play out the final act
CHORUS
Oh no you really done it this time
Can't stop the runaway emotions
Can't stop the runaway emotions
There's a place I try to go, so far from here
Berserk...
Berserk...berserk...berserk...
Berserk...Sometimes my mind doesn't work
Berserk...
Berserk...berserk...berserk...
Berserk...Sometimes my mind doesn't work
Berserk...
Berserk...berserk...berserk...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes...sometimes...
Sometimes my mind doesn't work...he heh...
Berserk...
Berserk...berserk...berserk...
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
My luck's been rotten and I am feeling like shit
I'll feel much better when I find someone to hit
Ready for contact I need someone to attack
Lock on a target, now I know who I'll jack
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk! Don't you want to dance with me?
Berserk! Won't you come to dance with me?
Berserk! Don't you want to dance with me?
Berserk! Won't you come to dance with me?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Berserk...Who says?
Who says that pain has to hurt?
Berserk...
Berserk...
Who says that pain has to hurt?
Berserk...
Berserk...berserk...berserk...
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
I'm sick of talking, I've got nothing to say
I'm mad as hell which means I'm ready to play
Got in my way, yeah you must be a fool
Knocked out your teeth but it's nothing personal
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk!
Berserk! Now everybody wants to dance!
Berserk! Don't you want to come and dance?
Berserk! Now everybody loves to dance!
Berserk! Won't you want to come and dance?
Berserk! Berserk...
Berserk! Berserk...
Berserk! Berserk...
Berserk! Berserk...
Berserk! Now everybody wants to dance!
Berserk! Don't you want to come and dance?
Berserk! Now everybody loves to dance!
No destination set
I daze along till something finds me
Where I've been I'm not sure
I cannot see the tears they blind me
CHORUS
You know that something ain't right
It's a sacrifice
Why must I pay this price
Accept my sacrifice
An emptiness so full
I cap it off with expectations
A sight not to behold
I cover all in explanations
CHORUS
It's a sacrifice
No no no no no
It's a sacrifice a sacrifice
Sailing off of course, directions lost
There is no exit
The captain's abandoned ship, now mutiny
How could I suspect this
It's a sacrifice, it's a sacrifice, accept my sacrifice
It's a sacrifice, it's a sacrifice, it's a sacrifice
Free-can anyone show me the way to free
Free-does anyone know which way is to free
I ain't here to doubt you, just heard so much about you
Won't you save a place for me
I hope you'll let me choose you
I never would abuse you
Please accept my sincerity
CHORUS
Free-I want you
Free-I need you
Free-which way is to free
Free-I want to hold you
Free-I want to know you
Free-can you send me to free
Although some may deny you
I'd really love to try you
I need this opportunity
My past has been divided
My future I'll rewrite it
Change my life if it need to be
CHORUS
Which way's it to free
Which way's it to free
Free-can anyone show me the way to free
Free-does anyone know which way is to free
Gimme some free Which way's it to
What the hell's going on around here?
First off-let's take it from the start
Straight out-can't change what's in my heart
No one-can tear my beliefs apart, you can't bring me
You ain't-never seen no one like me
Prevail-regardless what the cost might be
Power-flows inside of me, you can't bring me
Never-fall as long as I try
Refuse-to be a part of your lie
Even-if it means I die, you can't bring me
You...can't...bring...me...down!
Who the hell you calling crazy? You wouldn't know what crazy was
If Charles Manson was eating fruit loops on your front porch....
Time out-let's get something clear
I speak-more truth than you want to hear
Scapegoat-to cover up your fear, you can't bring me
You ain't-never seen so much might
Fight for-what I know is right
What up-you got yourself a fight, you can't bring me
Stand up-we'll all sing along
Together-ain't nothin' as strong
Won't quit-we ain't in the wrong, you can't bring me
You...can't...bring...me...down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down!
Tell them what's up Rocky!
You...can't...bring...me...down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down!
So why you trying to bring me?
Well you can't bring me down...No, no, no, no
Can't bring me down....No, no, no, no, no, no
Can't bring me down....No, no, no, no, no, no
Can't bring me down....No, no, no, no, no, no
So why you trying to bring?
Well you can't bring me down
Just cause you don't understand what's going on don't mean it don't make no sense
And just cause you don't like it, don't mean it ain't no good
And let me tell you something;
Before you go taking a walk in my world
You better take a look at the real world
Cause this ain't no Mister Roger's Neighborhood
Can you say "feel like shit"?
Yea maybe sometimes I do feel like shit
I ain't happy 'bout it, but I'd rather feel like shit than be full of shit!
And if I offended you, oh I'm sorry...
But maybe you need to be offended
But here's my apology and one more thing...fuck you!
Cos you...can't...bring...me...down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down!
Can't bring me down!
Can't bring me down!
Can't bring me down!
The ticking you hear is your life passing you by ...
Do you feel you're not taken serious?
That your input is brushed aside?
That you can get no respect
That people may even be laughing behind your back
Does this make you question your self-worth?
Well it should ... because you're worthless!
Now take the case of the new-age cyco
Confident, commanding respect
Taking whatever he wants, from wherever it is
I've been thinking, so to speak
Knees are shaking, tired and weak
I've been wondering, who I am
I've been wondering where I am
Su casa es mi casa, porque estoy muy loco
If you have one, I'll have one too
Not another, the one I took from you!
Add my numbers, add it up
I guess I got it ... give it up!
Su casa es mi casa, porque estoy muy loco
Now you've had some time to think
Why don't you look in the mirror, tell me what you see
Nah not on the outside, look inside, deep inside
The true ugliness
Not the self-created coloured hair, piercings hanging out everywhere
The stuff you try to cover up and deny
So there's a reason for everything
Now you let the reason out
Rising up, I feel it coming, let 'em know it's time!
I'm still wondering, why I am
Coughing up blood, spitting up phlegm
So much anger, hostility
Biting and kicking, inside of me
I'm fully cyco, partly hexed
Makes me wonder, who is next
You need not worry, about what I am
But you better worry, about where I am!
Su casa es mi casa
No quieres chingar conmigo
The ticking you hear is your life passing you by ...
I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know just what the
consequences are
I laughed out loudy, while I cried inside
But I didn't haave the strength to say enough of this ride
Like a fool-I believed in a miracle
I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure
But I found an answer-it seemed to be a perfect cure
Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot-like a fool
I believed in the miracle
Twisting and I'm turning-freezing then I'm burning
Laughing then I'm crying-am I living or am I dying
Swearing then I'm praying-don't even know what I'm saying
Happy then so sad-forgiving then so mad
Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in,
Do you still believe in miracles?
Pushing then pulling-who am I fooling
A friend then a foe-do I really even know?
Love and then hate
Peace then at war-but what am I fighting for
And you always try to
Keep me-oh so sleepy
So I can't realize-that it's all lies
And the more it takes hold of me-the less chance that I'll ever be free
And even though I don't believe-it's so hard to leave-a miracle-a miracle
Waiting-always hesitating-for that perfect day-that day was yesterday
And the more you're gonna wait-the more of a chance that it will be too
late
How can you afford to wait, you just can't afford to wait
I shed a tear I won't deny it, but just one tear I already cried it
Never good at talking, so many things I couldn't say
But those thoughts never went away
And I'm sure you remember, said that all I wanted was sympathy,
Now add this to your memory
Too many times-I felt so sad and lonely
Too many times-I needed someone there
Too many times-I tried to tell you something
Too many times-It seemed like no one cared
And I don't like asking-and it's not easy to say-
I never learned how to pray
So if you have a moment it means so much to me oh can't you see-
If you'd just say a prayer for me
Too many times-I didn't even have a second
Too many times-you thought I was much too strong
Too many times-you said the feeling wouldn't last forever
Too many times-I proved you so damn wrong
Saw the changes-thought they'd go away-do you still remember that day
Can't really fault you-only have myself to blame-
But do you still feel the same
Do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya?
But I waited so long-for someone to take my hand, and say they understand
And I waited so long-for someone to show the way-to make a better day
and I waited so long-for someone to spare a kiss for the love I miss
And I waited so long-for you to looke me in the eye
And say it's worth another try
But yo keep me waiting-waiting-too many times
You keep me waiting, one too many, one too many, one too many times,
Too many times
One too many one too many one too many times too many times
Ain't gonna take it - Amymore (3x's)
Don't mess with my head - don't mess with my head
Don't mess with my head - don't mess with my mind
Now you messed with me the very last time
Well I'm mad as hell - hell that's the truth
For someone like you I got no use
Chorus: Ain't gonna take it - Anymore (3X's)
It's a quarter to pain - half past hate
I got to get moving cause I'm running late
It was all thought out, but now I'm breaking the pain
In a moment we'll find out who's the man
Well you should have stopped and seen that I'm not the one
Now there's no stopping what's got to get done
You shouldn't have messed with my head
You shouldn't have messed with my mind
And now you'll find out about cyco time
Chorus: Ain't gonna take it - Anymore
You picked at my soul - you picked at my brain
You pushed my button like I'm a video game
You picked at my head you picked at my mind
But now you've picked on me the very last time
Cause I'm heavy on my mind and I'm light on my feet
That's just the sad facts thats not conceit
You picked at my head you picked at my mind
But now you've picked on me the very last time
Ain't gonna take it Ain't gonna take it Ain't gonna take it
When I go down the street
The people watch me shiver and shake
I'm a prisoner of a demon
I think my head's about to break
it stays with me wherever I go
I can't break away from its hold
This must be punishment
For selling my soul
CHORUS
Too much pressure my pulse is rising
My heart is pounding my head really hurts
I can't take it all this pressure
>From all these things inside of me
Everywhere I look I see them
Everywhere I go they're at
What did I do to deserve this
Why won't they just leave my body
Are they people or are they spirits
Do they belong to the human race
Why do they want me so bad
Why won't they come out of their hiding place
I can't see them but I know they're here
I can feel it in my veins
All this pressure on my body
Is causing all my strength to drain
CHORUS
Am I crazy or am I insane
Or have I already lost my mind
Is it real or is it fake
Or am I in a permanent bind
Am I in power or am I a slave
Who in the hell is in control
Am I still living or am I dead
Do I still have a soul
I know I can't keep going this way
I have to give my mind some leisure
If I keep on going like this
I never again will taste pleasure
If they will not break the oath
I will have to disband
I have lost all control
This thing has now taken command
Lost it! I'm caught in a rage
Like an animal locked in a cage
Now I look into the barrel of a guage-boom!
Made me into the fool
Experimented on me like an animal
Turned me into a common criminal-criminal!
I lost it, but I gotta get with it
Mutherfucker, now you're gonna get it
I ain't one that'll sit and forget it
I got into a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I don't know what I'm saying
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!
I lost again!
Took my dreams, ya left them there shattered
Took my hopes, ya dug them and they splattered
Took my mind like it didn't even matter
Entered a world that I didn't belong
Thought I could take it but I stayed too long
Thought I could handle it,
boy was I wrong!
Fighting a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I'm not into playing
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost it again!
Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
I Lost it!
I went to war with reality
That motherfucker he was waiting for me
I never thought this could happen to me-damn!
Down so low but I can't be no higher
When I was burning up you put wood in the fire
You ain't nothing but a goddamn liar-liar!
Took all my strength now I tremble and drop
You got to be down to go over the top
Oh, God can't you make this laughter stop?
Died in a war I could never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I lost it again
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!
Liar, killer! Lost again!
I lost!
Murder, Killer! Hell I lost again!
No! No!
Cleanse me from your evil
You broke your promises!
What did I do to deserve this?
No one to save me from it!
Oh, Lord please have mercy
And now I've come to see it
Something's gone wrong with me
I guess I got lost in reality
Hell I lost again!
Counting on nothing, the numbers get higher
Blinded by reason, you're asleep at the wheel
Confused understanding, with a slip for the hold
Squeeze past the pressure, you're asleep at the wheel
A magical moment
Is it too much of a good thing
Recycled in memory was
It too much of a good thing
Why can't you remember
Is it too much of a good thing
Preserved in its danger
You're asleep at the wheel
Blank stare and whisper, but who are you judging
I thought you'd be different
You're asleep at the wheel
A special assignment
Is it too much of a good thing
Unlocked under pressure
Was it too much of a good thing
Confined unforgiveness
A new kind of danger, you're asleep at the wheel
Hope in revision, slight miscalculation
It all goes in stages, you're asleep at the wheel
A blank stare and whisper
I thought you were different
But who are you judging
I thought you were different
You're asleep at the wheel
Another Version
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[Mike Muir]
What's he saying?
Yeah...just...a little...closer...
What's he doing?
It was, I know, by the corner...yeah
Sitting in the darkness...yeah
I didn't see it, but I know
It tries to hide sometimes, he he he
But it can't fool me...no
Because I had this thing, it's the way I see
The way I see when my eyes are closed
A conscenception of misconception
It's really quite, shall we say...
The really beautiful thing!
This is certain things that I've come to find
In my communications that never existed
Certain understandings that I've come to realize...yeah
But I don't believe it...no
Not for second!
It wasn't really truthful in the ways that I, that I, that I, that...
They're here right now...yeah
I wasn't meant to feel this...
I wasn't meant to feel this...
I wasn't meant to feel this way
I wasn't meant to feel this...
...
Counting on nothing............Uuuuuuuh...
The numbers get higher.........Ai ai ai ai ai...
Blinded by reason..............Uuuh ah uuuh ah...
You're asleep at the wheel.....Yeeeeeea...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Confused understanding.........
With a slip...for the hold.....Ai ai ai ai ai...
Squeeze past the pressure......
You're asleep at the wheel.....
A magical moment
Is it...too much of a good thing
Recycled in memory
Was it...too much of a good thing
Why can't you remember
Is it...too much of a good thing
Preserved in its danger
You're all asleep at the wheel...
Blank stare and a whisper, blank stare and a whisper
But who are the judges, who are you judging?
I thought you'd be different, I thought you'd be different
You're all asleep at the wheel, you're asleep at the wheel
A special assignment
Is it...too much of a good thing
Unlocked under pressure
Was it...too much of a good thing
Confined unforgiveness
Is it...too much of a good thing
A new kind of danger
You're all asleep at the wheel...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Hope in revision...............Uuuuuuuh...
Slight miscalculation..........Ai ai ai ai ai...
It all goes in stages..........Uuuh ah uuuh ah...
You're asleep at the wheel.....Yeeeeeea...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai...
A blank stare and a whisper....
I thought you were different...
But who are you judging........
I thought you were different...
You're asleep at the wheel...
It's going down in my dark side
My mind starts sweating, my heart
It starts a chain reaction
That's how the pain it all starts
It's going down where no one can see
It's a sad sad sight
The feeling just gets stronger
I see you, I just put on a smile
I try to cover it up
But I can't take it too much longer
Time stands still, as I lie in place
I try to block out the pitch
In my head that keeps ringing
So I pound and pound on myself
I try to wake myself up
But I can't 'cause I'm not dreaming
It's going down in my dark side
With no release or escape
Doesn't believe in forgiveness
It's an emotional rape
It's going down where no one can see
It's a sad sad sight
no suspense as what will follow
Fractured terror fills my peace
Shocks my senses
Leaves me empty sad and hollow
Time stands still, as I lie in place
I try to block out the pitch
In my head that keeps ringing
So I pound and pound on myself
I try to wake myself up
But I can't 'cause I'm not dreaming
CHORUS
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin' down
It's goin' down it's goin'
It's goin' down
It's going down in my dark side
Shivers and shakes through my soul
Ration surveys the damage
There's nothing left to control
It's going down now, I'm face to face
With the hollowness
That echoes in this darkness
How can I fight when I cannot see what to fight
Reluctantly how can I even stop this
All hell is breaking loose
Now panic rules as emotions blaze on fire
I'm goin' down down down down down
I'm goin' down
I'm so damn tired
CHORUS
Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down
I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall
It seems like no one cares at all
Always an emotion, but how can I explain
How can I explain
Kind of like the scent of a rose
With words I can't explain
The same with my pain
Caught up in emotion-Goes over my head
Goes over my head
Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death
Am I living or am I dead
The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change
Problems never solved, just rearranged
And when I think about all the times that I've had
So few good-So many bad
I search for personality and I look for things I can not see
Love and peace flash through my mind
Pain and hate are all I find
Find no hope in nothing new
Never had a dream come true
Lies and hate and agony
Thru my eyes that's all I see
If I'm gonna cry
Will you wipe away my tears?
If I'm gonna die
Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow
I just wanna say,
How will I laugh tommorow
If I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
Today today--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today
Thisnk Somethin’s funny?
Why don’cha laugh at this..
So when I look outside my room,
I see the world but not the reasons,
What it’s done to me is not fair.
You call it pain I call it treason.
But I know not what to do.
Give me a sign I’ll take whatever,
But if you want me here I am.
Ain’t gonna die forever.
And I try to hold ya,
But you just turned away.
And I tried to tell ya.
But not a word I say..
I could’a asked a lot less
But you just covered your ears.
I gave you all the signs,
But you ignored my tears.
So if you want me here I am.
I sit and wait it’s your decision.
But my body fights my mind.
I’m headed straight for a collision,
So am I getting in?
Or am I still lookin’ in all the wrong places?
But the only thing that seems to change,
Are the looks on faces.
And I tried to hold ya
And I tried to tell ya..
And I cried a lot man,
I cried and I cried I cried cried cried
Thorughout all time and history
The world's been mauled tyranny
Now we're refusing to take it
The worst evil the world has saw
Were crimes defended by the "law"
Deny our rights and we'll break it
You got to break the chains that hold you down
Crush the tyrants to the ground
Freedom cannot be legislated
We'll bow down to no other one
The Father and His Son
They can't deny what He's created
Most wars never sould have been thought
But this is a war that must be fought
We'll take a wrong and we'll right it
The greatest weapon of the fascist
Is the tolerance of the pacifist
We've got to stand up and fight it
We'll give it
You got to give it revolution, give it revolution
We're gonna give it revolution, give it revolution
You got to give it revolution, give it revolution
We're gonna give it revoltuion
Well you can put a bullet in my head
But you can't kill a word I've said
You got the disease, I got the solution, revolution
No matter how much or more you try,
You can never make this martyr die
I give it revolution
Revolution!
You could put a bullet in my head
But you can't kill a word I've said
Give it revolution
No matter how or what you try
You can never ever make a martyr die
Give it revolution
Ah, damn, we got a lot of stupid poeple
Doing a lot of stupid things
Thinking a lot of stupid thoughts
And if you want to see one
Just look in the mirror
Gotta kill Captain Stupid, can't you see him
Today we start the new way, we're Suicidal
Gotta kill the old way, we'll make it better
Won't you join our mission, don't be stupid
Got to kill Captain Stupid
Gotta kill Captain Stupid
Brothers killing brothers, what up with that?
Can't you see they're laughing, that ain't funny
Babies making babies, that ain't love
You just got screwed over, get some respect
Chorus:
Got to kill Captain Stupid
Got to kill Captain Stupid
And I don't understand why
People be bringin' Captain Stupid in their lives
Treating him like a superhero
Glorifying him when he ain't nothing but a superpunk
And you see, you're the one who's gonna have to stop him
'Cause you're the one that started him
Oh, what's that?
So how you say life sucks
Well, ninety-nine percent of it's
What you make of it...
So if your life sucks, you suck
What's that crap you're smoking, playing the fool
Waste your life for nothing, when you're something
What the hell you thinking, mind pollution
Got to get back control, it's your life fool
Chorus
What's that now?
Ah, so you scared to do something about it
Well, you better be scared not to do something about it
'Cause if you don't kill Captain Stupid
Captain Stupid gonna kill you
Got to kill Captain Stupid - fool
I wish so hard that I could be just like the
...one you want me to
But it doesn't seem to work though I'm trying.
I try so hard to do what's right, to be so good,
...to make you proud, but it never seems to satisfy you.
It's just the person that you want,...it's not the person that
I am.
The conflict inside's horrifying.
I want so much for you to think of me as a person
...that deserves your respect & attention.
I wonder if I'll ever do the things you want...(the way you
want)
When I don't even know what I want yet.
It's not that I'm rebelling against the person you are
It's just that I don't know who I am.
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God, do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me. There's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying.
Emotion No. 13 easy cryin'
Don't ask me how I know, but I'm dying
Emotion No. 13 blows my mind away
Emotion No. 13, it blows me away
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not...
Emotion No. 13, says I'm...
Don't ask me how I know, but I think I'm...
Don't ask me how I know, but I think I'm dying,...dying, dy-
ing, dying
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me, there's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying
Emotion No. 13, feels like I'm dying
Cyco cyco cyco cyco
Cyco cyco cyco cyco
Born cyco it's the way I was meant to be
Live cyco it's the only life for me
Burning burning burning burning
Burning burning burning burning
Burning up can't you see
But it's the only life for me
I'm burning up, the fire blazes inside
Out of control, so now you better hide
Run around the corner
But the corner never ends
You scream out, beg, shout
But the nightmare never ends
You turn around but you just see
What you saw before
Spin around, fall down
Now you see no more
Raging raging raging raging
Raging raging raging raging
Raging mad that may be
But it's the only life for me
I'm raging mad and soon you will know
I'm burning up from my head to toe
Cyco cyco cyco cyco
Cyco cyco cyco cyco
It's the only life I know
I was born to cyco
I'm cyco and my mind it starts to bend
Out of control, it seems to be the trend
Oh yea, back again. Hope you've enjoyed our little excursions.
Tipping, toeing thru the mind of a muthafucka that need's
a little fuck'n stomping on. Yea, but don't take it wrong,
see we ain't trying to tell you how to think, we're just
trying to get you to think. And we ain't trying to control
nobody, we want the people (individually speaking) to be
in control, to know who they are and what they want to be.
Yea, and question authority, what the fuck but not for sake
of argument, but because you took the time to analyze it
and you found a better fuck'n way, not just a fuck'n excuse
to complain. And beware of people who try to use you as
statistic to back their claims of power, that use you simply
as a vehicle to get themselves where they want to, with no
reference to your best interest except for their disclaimer
that their best interest is your best interest.
Sometimes I try to do things
And it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to
And I get real frustrated
And I'm like, I try hard to do it
And I'm like, take my time
And it doesn't work out the way I wanted to
It's like, I concentrate on real hard but it doesn't work out
And everything I do and everything I try it never turns out
It's like, I need time to figure these things out
There's always someone there going, ?Hey, Mike
You know, we've been noticing
You've been having a lot of problems lately?
?You know, you should, maybe, get away
And like, maybe you should talk about it, you'll feel a lot better?
And I go, ?No, it's okay, you know I'll figure it out
Just leave me alone I'll figure it out
You know I'll just work it out myself?
And they go, ?Well you know if you want to talk about it
I'll be here you know and you'll probably feel a lot better
If you talked about it, so why don't you talk about it?
I go, ?No, I don't want to I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself?
And they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me
And it builds up inside
You're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
I'm not crazy, institution
You're the one who's crazy, institution
You're driving me crazy, institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall
Thinking about everything
But then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there
She called my name and I didn't even hear it
And then she started screaming, ?Mike, Mike?
And I go, ?What, what's the matter??
And she goes, ?What's the matter with you??
I go, ?There's nothing wrong, mom?
And she goes, ?Don't tell me that, you're on drugs?
I go, ?No, mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm okay
I was just thinking you know, why don't you get me a Pepsi?
And she goes, ?No, you're on drugs
I go, ?Mom, I'm okay, I'm just thinking?
She goes, ?No you're not thinking, you're on drugs
Normal people don't act that way?
I go, ?Mom just give me a Pepsi, please?
All I want is a Pepsi and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi
And she wouldn't give it to me, just a Pepsi
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy
I'm not crazy, institution
You're the one who's crazy, institution
You're driving me crazy, institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I'm sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in
They pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go
?Mike, we need to talk to you?
I go, ?Okay, what's the matter??
They go, ?Me and your mom have been noticing lately
That you've been having a lot of problems
You've been going off for no reason and we're afraid
You're gonna hurt somebody
We're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself?
?So we decided that it would be in your interest
If we put you somewhere
Where you could get the help that you need?
And I go, ?Wait, what are you talking about, we decided
My best interest, how can you know what's my best interest is??
?How can you say what my best interest is?
What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches
I went to your institutional learning facilities?
So how can you say I'm crazy??
They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally, I'll be dead
I'm not crazy, institution
You're the one who's crazy, institution
You're driving me crazy, institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
Is this the beginning or the end
CHORUS
This is revenge, we ca this mutha revenge
This is revenge, we call this mutha revenge
Best not be talking to me, not with those words you say
I guess I'll have to accept your invitation
To toast you upside your head
Everything has got a start
And everything has got an end
And every action has a side effect
We call this mutha revenge
CHORUS
Don't know if I'll blast, maybe I'll just throw
Maybe I'll kick down something special
But believe me, you're gonna know
Should have thought before you got it started
'Cause everything has got an end
Ain't no sloppy fool that's innocent
We call this mutha revenge
Revenge, revenge
This is the beginning of the end
CHORUS
I've seen loc'sters come, I've seen loc'sters go
But the only real loc'sters
Are holding down six feet below
Everything has got a start
And everything has got an end
Every action has a side effect
We call this mutha revenge
CHORUS
You're putting up a front, we're gonna tear it down
Had enough of your sorry ass 'tude
I don7t trip on no stare me down
You should of thought before you got it started
'Cause we're the ones that make it end
n't no sloppy fool that's innocent
We call this mutha revenge
Revenge, revenge
Yea won't you come and get me
I can feel your fear
Yea so if you think you're lucky
I'll be right here!
Ain't no right if there ain't no wrong
And you're wrong to think I'll do you right
Yea I'm fucked up baby, fucked up just right
Yea won't you come and stop me
I can sense your fear
Yea so if you think you've got it
I'll be right there
Ain't no bad if there ain't no good
And it's good to know I get you bad
Yea I'm fucked up baby, fucked up just right
Fucked up just right fucked up that's right
Yea won't you come and hate me
I can smell your fear
Yea so if you're feeling crazy, I'll be right there
Ain't no hot if there ain't no cool
And it's cool to know I get you hot
Yea I'm fucked up baby, fucked up just right
Yea won't you come and hurt me
I can taste your fear
Yea so if you got a death wish
I'll be right here
Ain't no right if there ain't no wrong
And you're wrong to think I'll do you right
Yea I'm fucked up baby, fucked up just right
It makes no fuck'n sense that makes no sense to me
Can't make no fuck'n sense that makes no sense to me
You make no fuck'n sense that make no sense to me
Baby, don't you be blue
You know that I'll always be true
You know know that I'll always love you
And we'll always be together, too
CHORUS
Over a thousand things I can say to you
Half of which would be un-true
But the one thing for sure I can say
Is that I won't fall in love today
Baby when you hold me tight
You know everything will be alright
So let's not take any time to fight
Because you know I love you with all my might
CHORUS
Baby, you make me feel like a man
When we're rolling in the sand
So come and take me by the hand
And do the things you know we can
There's a cold wind in the winter of my mind
A season that lasts through all changes in time
I try so hard sometimes
I wish there was a raincheck on tomorrow
Not ready to deal with what I don't wanna find
Struggling along, just to hold on
I just wanna know why is it me
In a tear there is a message frome heart
Detached frome good it's the hope gone astray
I cry so hard sometimes
Too scared to think what will bring tomorrow
already much more than I can handle today
I can't breathe, suffocate as I7m buried by hate
And so sadly I learn there's no justice to fate
I just wanna know why is it me
Losing the race with thoughts out of place
I just wanna know why is it me
You ain't got a monopoly on sorrow
You know plenty has made it my way
You ain't got a monopoly on sorrow
There's plenty that feel just the same
There's a pain so insane that I fight but can't tame
And my mind battles on as my body lies lame
I can'7t feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
I can't feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
I can't feel the feel but it feels like it hurts
Hurts hurts
And I know that I know I don't know if I know if
It just would stay clear then I'd see and I'd go
I just wanna know why it's me
Ain't got a monopoly on sorrow
You, you, you ain't got no no, you ain't got no no
You ain't got no no, you ain't got no no
There's no monopoly on sorrow
No monopoly on sorrow
No monopoly on sorrow
No monopoly on sorrow no no
You ain't got no no no, you ain't got no no no
You ain7t got no no no, you ain't got no no no
No monopoly on sorrow
Monopoly on sorrow
Monopoly on sorrow
No no no no no
Yo ain't got no, no no no no
You ain't got no, no no no no
You ain7t got no, no no no no
Sick of people-no one's real
Sick of chicks-they're all bitches
Sick of you-you're too hip
Sick of life-it sucks
Suicide's an alternative
Sick of trying-what's the point
Sick of talking-no one listens
Sick of listening-it's all lies
Sick of thinking-just end up confused
sick of myself-don't wanna live
Sick and tired-and no one cares
Sick of life-it sucks
Sick of politics-for the rich
Sick of power-only oppresses
Sick of government-full of tyrants
Sick of school-total brainwash
Sick of music-top-40 sucks
Sick of myself-don't wanna live
Sick and tired-and no one cares
Sick of life-it sucks
Suicide's an alternative
Sick of life-it sucks
Sick and tired-and no one cares
Sick of myself-don't wanna live
Sick of living-I'm gonna die
Suicide's an alternative
Well I've got a little story to tell
About a little red-assed punk that came from Hell
He said Satan's been lookin especially for me
He said Satan's got a paper gonna set your body free
He said power and glory, bitches for screwin'
All in your name and all for you today
Oh yeah
Power and fame, all in your name
All the gold and bitches you ever could have
Oh yeah
You'll have power, fame, all in your name
All that you want, all that you need
Everything that you ever could read
Anything anything that you ever would need
Well sign the paper that's all you do
Sign the paper it's ready too
Anything there it's all for you
Well this is all you got to do
So I looked him in the eye and I said
"Fuck you you little red-assed goblined-breathed horned-hed motherfucker!"
Cause I don't care too much about gold
And I don't really give a fuck about what you've been told
And I don't really care for anyone looking after me
Cause I'm a meaner son of a bitch than that fuck ever could be
Tense atmosphere in the air
Riot written everywhere
Riot squads coming from over there
Time to go home if you're square
CHORUS
Riot squad bas their heads
Kick their ass until they're dead
I want to be a fascist pig
Love to fight what a thrill
We don't stop until we kill
I want to be a fascist pig
Throw a bottle in the air
Put them up to their dare
We'll just laugh while they stare
Let them hit me see if I care
CHORUS
Get attacked by them
You'll never heal
They'll rob your conscience
Your sanity they'll steal
They'll beat your brains until they spill
That's the fascist favorite meal
Sick of people - no ones real
Sick of chicks - they're all bitches
Sick of you - you're to hip
Sick of life - it sucks
Suicide's an alternative
Sick of trying - what's the point
Sick of talking - no one listens
Sick of listening - its all lies
Sick of thinking - just end up confused
Sick of moving - never get nowhere
Sick of myself - don't wanna live
Sick and tired - and no one cares
Sick of life - it sucks
Sick of politics - for the rich
Sick of power - only oppresses
Sick of government - full of tyrants
Sick of school - total brainwash
Sick of music - top 40 sucks
Sick of myself - don't wanna live
Sick and tired - and no one cares
Sick of life - it sucks
Suicide's an alternative
Sick of life - it sucks
Sick and tired - and no one cares
Sick of myself - don't wanna live
I shot Reagan I shot Sadat
I'm gonna shoot you dead in heaven you'll rot
You're gonna rot in heaven, hear an Angels voice
You're too bad for hell although it's your first choice
Rot in heaven, you're too bad for hell
Rot in heaven, cause you're forgiven in hell
I shot Lennon, I shot the Pope
I shot the devil now you ain't got no hope
You're gonna rot in heaven, hear an Angels voice
Lovely, la la la la la la lovely!
Screwed up people everywhere, but I ain't got time to care
I feel lovely, lovely...
Ha! La la lovely, oh-oh...
All kinds of souls down to the curb, but me help? Don't be absurd
I feel lovely, lovely...
La la la lovely, oh-oh...
Cause it's not a problem of society, if...it don't affect me
And I feel lovely, lovely...
As long as I feel lovely, yea...oh so lovely!
And I'm not guilty of your abuse, see it's all self-induced
And I feel lovely, lovely...
Everything's so lovely, la la la lovely, oh-oh...
All your kind are like a pollution, look 'em up quick that's the solution
Lovely! Lovely...
Wouldn't that be lovely? Everything is lovely, oh yea...
So Tipper babe don't you remember me? Now I'm kinder, gentler and so happy
It's lovely, lovely...
La la la...as long as I feel lovely, yea
La la la...and I feel lovely, yea, yea, yea
La la la...and everything is la la la la la la la la la la la la la la lovely
La la la...
La la la...
La la la...
La la la...
La la la...
La la la lovely
La la la...
La la la lovely
La la la...
La la la lovely
La la la...
La la la lovely
Everything's so lovely, yea
I think I'll throw a party
"Won't you come along darling?"
It's a surprise party for me
Simply because I feel lovely!
If everything's so lovely, yea...then why don't I, why don't I,
Why don't I, why don't I feel lovely?
I'm tired of always doing as I'm told
Your shit is starting to grow really old
I'm sick of dealing with all you crap
You pushed me too hard now you'll watch me snap
Whack, whack-what's wrong with your head?
I can't believe a fuckin' word you've said
Whack, whack-what are you dead?
Permanently done, gone to bed
Whack, whack-out of you mind
I think you'll like it if you try it some time
Whack, whack-if you look you'll find
I'm whacked, I'm whacked, I'm whacked-get whacked
I'm whacked, you're whacked
Let's go it's whack time
Get whacked-gimme gimme gimme gimme gimme
some whack time
Get whacked-all I need, I need, I need,
I need is some whack time
Get whacked-get whacked
Ain't nobody gonna tell me what to do
I'm gonna save my best whack for you
Bbust out hard in a brand new way
Now every second is a psycho day
I'm whacked-and I don't care no more
I'm whacked-right down to the core
I'm whacked-like never before
I'm whacked, I'm whacked, I'm whacked, I'm whacked
Get whacked-won't you follow me
Get whacked-what fun it'll be
Get whacked-and do it naturally
Get whacked, Get whacked, Get whacked, Get whacked
It's whack time!
Whack time-get whacked
Whack time-get whacked, get whacked, get whacked
Whack time
Get whacked, get whacked, get whacked
It's whack time
Get whacked-I'm whacked, you're whacked, let's go it's
whack time
Get whacked-gimmee, gimmee, gimmee, gimmee,
gimmee some whack time
Get whacked-all I need, I need, I need, I need is some
whack time
Get whacked-get whacked
You don't want none you got the right
When I get whacked it's not a pretty sight
One-quarter Scottish, three-quarters insane
Ay, think I've gone a little flat in the brain
Whack, whack-what you got in your head
Another word, another lie that you've said
Whack, whack-your mind is dead
Permanently done, gone to bed
Whack whack-what do you know?
This ain't no script, this ain't no picture show
Whack, whack-up away you go
Get whacked!
It's whack time-get whacked!
Won't see me later you'll see me right now
If you think I'm crazy I'll show you just how
I know what's scaring you the most about me
This mo-fo be getting whacked naturally
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