I'm still scared. Afraid of failing.
Anticipating, the ride to end.
Before the wheels begin to move.
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
Waste my time, Commiserating-
Self medicating- it's my design.
Although I know you don't approve.
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
The truth is that I'm not so good
At showing how I feel.
or keeping my mouth shut
When there's something to conceal.
or knowing how to love,
Love's not in my memories.
How can I rise above all my insecurities
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
(Run away) I fight the tide
(Run away) the ebb and flow consuming
(Run away) Still by my side
I have seen to many sad eyes look at me,
Eyes that set me free,
All the places that I've been.
Thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait for me,
For me.
Your words,
Your words help me to see
A little honesty
In a world that doesn't share
And those eyes
Tell the story of your pain
Severity of your disdain
In a world that doesn't care.
So thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait
You, you understand my pain.
From this I gather strength,
That we are the same.
So thank you for the letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for the times you chose to stand out in the rain and wait
You take this all for granted. All the things that used to be you. By keeping you distracted just long
enough to bleed you.
A reason for your anger, it's what I need, it's what I need. To recognize the truth it's what I need,
it's what I need. So burn your paper Jesus its what I need, it's what I need, and all the things you do,
its what I need, its what I need.
Don't believe what they tell you, all the lies that they are teaching, when the make the corporations all
the desperate people stealing.
Somebody chose these words for you. Interpretations of the truth. Somewhere behind your fear they hide.
To fill the holes inside.
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I just need this to be alright
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight am I going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
Which way do I go?
Pain I swallow I cannot keep it down
Hate I swallow I cannot keep it down
Down
You I hate you I cannot keep you down
You I'll rape you I cannot keep it down
Down
You before me
I can't take any more
Of what you have to offer
My ears are sore
Leave my feelings
In a heap by the door
Can't go up any futher
The walls around me caving in
Cracked and grey
Remind me of myself, I need some help
There's no one else
I'm empty
Addicted
Pissed off
And still afraid
Of what you
Have left me
To live in
This mess you've made
I feel...
Useless...
Jaded...
Nameless
the ride is over I've come down
Hate to be
Can't rely upon myself, for my own health
I'm so fucked up
Distorted
Dysfunctional
and drained
All my deep rooted
Fears seem to get
The best of me
I feel...
Useless...
Jaded...
Nameless
I hate the way you fuck with me
You can't rely on open eyes to see
I force these painful visions from my head
You won't be happy till I break down
I feel...
Useless...
Jaded...
As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of people's feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof overhead
A crack head asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
A boy just thirteen on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
And your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
You turn away, you turn away
You turn away, you turn away
As I walk along the streets
Soaking up the acid rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do?
We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet, I fight
And yet, I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home
Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...
My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet, I find
And yet, I find
Repeating in my head
If I can't be my own
I'd feel better dead
Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...
You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me
You made in vain
I lost myself inside
Your tainted smile again
CHORUS
You can't feel my anger
You can't feel my pain
You can't fell my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They bring only pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
I feel betrayed
Stuck in your ways
You rip me apart with the
Brutal things you say
Can't deal with this shit anymore
I just look away
CHORUS
Mudshuvel
You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again
CHORUS
You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
I'll drive you insane
I won't fight these feelings
I will bring you pain
I won't take away
I'll be whole again
Mudshuvel
I walk alone
I am alone
I think alone
I'll die alone
Don't think I can make it on my own
I think I need someone to SAVE ME!
Such is life
So sad but true
Kill everything
That's close to you
Try to decide what not to do
You know you cannot CONTROL ME!
I don't see the point in
Going any further
Than we've gone already
Can't keep my hands steady
Sadness
Everyday for me
You can't
Take that away from me
All these fuckin thoughts inside my head
Are almost more than I can take
You push and pull on me
Your gonna keep pushin
Till I break
You think you control me
Have no chains to hold me
Only thing that saves me
Voices just might kill me
Sadness
Everyday for me
You can't
Take that away from me
All these fuckin thoughts inside my head
Are almost more than I can take
You push and pull on me
Your gonna keep pushin
I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
I've fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only
One that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.
Just
Just
Just
Just go
All these fucking lies
thank you to the people in my life
for putting up with me
and thank you for the time you sacrificed
all on account of me
[chorus]
for all the times i didn't say
the times i didn't say
for all the times i didn't say
the times i didn't say
fuck you to the jaded and the fake
like to see what you would do
fuck you and the judgements you make
we're not all perfect just like you,
like you, like you
[chorus]
all the times i didn't say [x2]
thank you to the people in my life for putting up with me
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question...
When will this ever end?
Not much to the life I live
Same 4 Walls
I have nothing left to give
Please take it all away....
Same 4 Walls
The thoughts from my mind
Feel the pain as rats claw at my flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Feels the joy as the needls hits my vein
The thoughts from my mind
Smells the stench as shit runs down my leg
The thoughts from my mind ask for sanity
Now for this I beg
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question...
To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
'Cause I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
I just had to let you know
'Cuz I don't always let it show
You give me needed room to grow
And I just had to tell you so
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
Sometimes I take for granted
It's just like poetry inside
To hear you breathing by my side
Like I'm in Heaven and I've died
So glad you're with me for this ride
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
Sometimes I take for granted
I see your face to start my day
Makes my all bad dreams go away
And all the stupid games we play
Wouldn't have it any other way
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
Sometimes I take for granted
You fill me up
You're in my veins
A look could take my breath away
And all these things, you give away
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you I suppose
Cuz the wounds never heal
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me then I could
Learn to feel
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of dissaray
Succumbing to the games we played
To make sure that it's real
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me then I could
Learn to feel
When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do?
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me then I could
Learn how to feel and we could
Stay here together and we could
Conquer the world if we could
Say that forever is more than just a word
If you just walked away
What I could really say?
And would it matter anway?
It wouldn't change how you feel
You push yourself on me
Force yourself on me
Free yourself through me
You better save yourself from me
Every time you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
I hate myself for you
I break myself for you
I'd kill myself for you
I'd better save myself from you
Everytime you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
If you have to walk my way
Have somethingto say
Get the fuck away
Can't take one more day
I cannot conform
You push yourself on me
Force yourself on me
Free yourself through me
You better save yourself from me
Every time you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
I hate myself for you
I break myself for you
I'd kill myself for you
I'd better save myself from you
Everytime you want me to be
Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
If you have to walk my way
Have somethingto say
Get the fuck away
Can't take one more day
I cannot conform
COME AGAIN!
And you bring me to my knees
All this time that i could beg you please
All the times that i felt insecure
And i leave my burdens at the door
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside youre ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All this time that I felt like this wont end
Was for you
And i taste what I could never have
It's from you
All those times that I tried
My intentions
Full of pride
And i waste more time than anyone
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times that I cried
All this wastin
It's all inside
And i feel all this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie here in bed
All alone
I can't help what I feel
Tomorrow will be okay
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
CHORUS
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve
My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice, and I'm sorry
Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from my...
My mothers always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad she messed me up
'Cause now she seems so fake to me but I love her
Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself, save me from myself
If you push me then I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside
Like my father
I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me (I'm failing it)
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself
I hear you talk about your family life
She sits alone again and tries her best
Not to pretend that all she use to live for was a love that was unfair
Everytime she needs to do the things that she believes will fill the void inside of her cause he was never there
She said i swear im not the devil although you think i am
I swear im not the devil
He tries to sleep again
And he wonders when the pain will end
The cuts, they may run deeper than his cracking outer shell
He looks with tired eyes
At all the people hypnotized
And wonders what can save him
From his self created hell.
And he said i swear im not the devil although you think i am
I swear im not the devil
I always fail to see the little things in front of me
The things that mean so much to you
A way to let you know
That i appreciate the way you always tolerate
But sometimes when i medicate
Frustration in you shows me how you feel
But i swear im not the devil although you think i am
I swear im not the devil
And i scream i swear im not the devil although you think i am
You're my world
The shelter from the rain
You're the pills
That take away my pain
You’re the light
That helps me find my way
You’re the words
When I have nothing to say
And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you
You're the fire
That warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand I have to hold
As I grow old
You're the shore
When I am lost at sea
You're the only thing
That I like about me
And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
How long has it been
Since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends
And goes like this forever
In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
You're My World
The Shelter From The Rain
You're The Pills
That Take Away My Pain
You're The Light
That Helps Me Find My Way
You're The Words
When I Have Nothing To Say
And In This World
Where Nothing Else Is True
Here I am
Still Tangled Up In You
I'm Still Tangled Up In You
Still Tangled Up In You
You're The Fire
That Warms Me When I'm Cold
You're The Hand
I Have To Hold As I Grow Old
You're The Shore
When I am Lost At Sea
You're The Only Thing
That I Like About Me
And In This World
Where Nothing Else Is True
Here I am
Still Tangled Up In You
I'm Still Tangled Up In You
How Long Has It Been
Since This Storyline Began
And I Hope It Never Ends
And Goes Like This Forever
In This World
Where Nothing Else Is True
Here I am
Still Tangled Up In You
Tangled Up In You
I'm Still Tangled Up In You
Are you afraid, afraid of the truth
in the mirror staring back at you
The image is cracked, but so it the view here
and the strength of a tree begins in the roots.
That I tend to bury into to you
At least now the storm can't blow me away
So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me.
Should I be afraid of this face that I see
In the mirror staring back at me
So cold were the days when I listened to you.
And you say that I'm weak so show me the proof
Cause I still exist inspite of you
But I won't compete with you everyday,
So crawl inside my head with me,
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
Schizophrenic conversations that
I'm always having with myself
I hear these voices in my head competing
Maybe I could use a little help
I still have Schizophrenic conversations when there's no one else around to hear
I long for solitude and peace within me
Void of all the anger and the fear.
So crawl inside my head with me
I'll show you how it feels to be
Fucked up like me.
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve
The life I see in her
Just don't leave me
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life to you no one else
Just don't leave me
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I'm so cold
I feel so cold
I CAN'T TAKE THIS
I feel so...
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I feel so:
I light another cigarette
Stop to think about it
Come to no conclusions
Take each step as it comes
Hold no prisioners except myself
Painful thoughts denied
Try to explain
My loss of words
Fuck you I piss upon you all
My head is a barricade
Filled with peaceful thoughts
With evil outcomes
No one understands
Try to break the barrier
I see no outlet
No ones there to catch me when I fall
Try to explain
My loss of words
Opression
and suffering
Depression
and hostility
obsession
and vanity
all on the cover page
Soak it in
Saturate
Turns to grey
All these things
Novocaine
So we don't feel at all
Suppression
and genocide
Exploitation
and homicide
Perfection
and suicide
all on the cover page
Soak it in
Saturate
Turns to grey
All these things
Novocaine
To desensitize us every day
To this life that we wait
So we don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
All these things
Novocaine
To desensitize us every day
To this life that we wait
So we don't feel at all
We don't feel at all
Do you feel like you're falling?
You've taken this step
In front of you, is further from the truth
You fall apart in front of me again
Again
Denial isn't the way to forgiveness
You always swore that I was wrong
Not again
No taste for the crow you feed me
Not again
It's not a matter of if I care
Not again
What an intricate web you're weaving
I did it again
So you tried not to follow
While the clock fails to sleep
So here we are back where it began
And toe to toe I stand in front of you again
Again
Denial isn't the way to forgiveness
You always swore that I was wrong
Not again
No taste for the crow you feed me
Not again
It's not a matter of if I care
Not again
What an intricate web you're weaving
I did it again
Not again
No taste for the crow you feed me
Not again
It's not a matter of if I care
Not again
What an intricate web you're weaving
I did it again
Again
i heard today that you were gone
i had to stop and sing along
the song they played to say goodbye
a song they gave, give me back life
you'll never fade
the words you gave
my life you saved
your name was layne
and on that day a child was born
to someone who you helped along
and helped see through his darkest times
because of you, this child she is mine
the words you said, you made me feel like they were all for me
the words you said, they will always be a part of me
the words you said, you made me feel like i was not alone
the words you said, you gave me all the strength to carry on
so to me you'll never fade
your life you gave
my life you saved
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
You're my world, the shelter from the rain
You're the pills that take away my pain
You're the fire that warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand to hold as I grow old
In a world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you
You're the ship when I am lost at sea
You're the only thing that I like up at me
You're the light to show me the way
You're the end when I am lost at sea
You're the only thing that I like up at me
You're the light to show me the way
You're the end of my very best day
In this world when nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
What I leave,
When you go,
What I see,
And what you show,
And what I guess,
And when I don't,
Is something you all ready, all ready know,
[Chorus:]
I can't live without,
All I think about,
All I want is you,
You're all I dream about,
I can't live without,
All I want is you,
The things I do,
I go through,
And all I say,
When Im away,
And what I make,
The shit that I take,
Is something you all ready, all ready know
[Chorus:]
I can't live without,
All I think about,
All I want is you,
You're all I dream about,
I can't live without,
All I want is you,
Ohhh,...
Is you,
Is you,
Is you,
Is you,
You're all I dream about,
That I can't live without,
All I want is you
[Chorus:]
I can't live without,
All I think about,
All I want is you,
You're all I dream about,
I can't live without,
All I want is you,
I just can't live without you,
When all I think about is you,
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
It sheltered me from nothing but the weather
I called it home for a moment of my life
This place I see just doesn't look familiar
I wonder if it looks the same inside
So there's the corner that I sat on
The road I walked home in the rain
And there's the star I used to wish on
It all just seems like yesterday
Days go by
Nothing's getting clearer
Can't change my mind
My troubles are the same
Faces change
The names they are familiar
And the streets I see
Will stand the test of time
So there's the corner that I sat on
The road I walked home in the rain
And there's the star I used to wish on
It all just seems like yesterday
And those stars
Stars still shine
Shine down through the rain
And there's the corner that I sat on
The road I walked home in the rain
And there's the star I used to wish on
It all just seems like yesterday
And I stare out this dirty window
As this world goes slowly by
And somewhere out there is the future
That I once thought had passed me by
Sheltered me from nothing but the weather
Talk to me
You never talk to me
Do we suffer from
Social atrophy
And when the conversation's over
We've taken what's been given
And we throw it all away
Walk with me
Come on and walk with me
Take a look around you
Do you like what you see?
We've taken what's been given
And we throw it all away
It's hard to be forgiven
When there's nothing left to say
And when the conversation's over
Silence just gets in the way
And when the conversation's over
Talk to me
Don't ever talk for me
We've taken what's been given
And you throw it all away
It's hard to be for given
When there's nothing left to say
I'm one stop
From a breakdown
Two steps from
Being safe
Just try to
See this through
I'm three steps
From this nightmare
And four steps
From the door
The rest is
Up to you
Pardon me while I
Just turn my back
And walk away
Pardon me if I
Can't listen
To the things
You say
Pardon me if I
Can't fake it
While you still believe
Pardon me
I'm one step
From forgiveness
And two steps
From my grave
We're all just
Passing through
Three steps
From redemption
Four from the
Devil's door
On a path
That leads to you
Pardon me while I
Just turn my back
And walk away
Pardon me if I
Can't listen
To the things
You say
Pardon me if I
Can't fake this
While you still believe
Pardon me
Pardon me while I
Just turn my back
And walk away
Pardon me if I
Can't listen
To the things
You say
Pardon me if I
Can't fake it
While you still believe
Pardon me
I'm two steps
From salvation
But i'm only
Taking one
Pardon me
You the great offenders
Blood to paint your pictures
While you're stepping over
Fallen people lying in the streets
You the great pretenders
Only your views matter
While your heart grows colder
I wish that you could open up and feel
For a while see if you can take
Feel
You're alive and this is all part of it
Feel
Could it be that we're all afraid
Cause it feels like a rainy day parade
We the great believers
Blood is legal tender
And I will not surrender
What it was our fathers died to bear
We the people stated
Not negotiated
Just to be forgotten
I wish that you could open up and see
For a while see if you can take it
You're alive and this is all part of it
Can't you see that we're all afraid
Cause it seems like a rainy day parade
What I see is all too real
What I need is what you steal
And all I reap is what you take
Upon my back on which you break
And I just wish that we could rise above and
Feel
For a while see if you can take it
Feel
You're alive and this is all part of it
Feel
Could it be that we're all afraid
Misery
the company it keeps
History
of all these things we keep repeating
Like a wheel
oh, that keeps turning
If I could break away
from this moment
break away
what is real
break away
never show it
break away
how I feel
If I could break away
Apathy
the ignorance it breeds
The tragedy
of all these things we keep repeating
Like a wheel
that keeps turning
If I could break away
from this moment
break away
what is real
break away
never show it
break away
how I feel
If I could break away
If I could break away
If I could break away
If I could break away
If I could break away
from this moment
break away
what is real
break away never show it
break away how I feel
If I could break away
If I could break away
You, I trusted your intentions a trust
you took advantage of now you are
sitting in the hole that you
dug around yourself.
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses
Is she your partner in deception caught
inside the web you've spun?
Did you forget that you were family,
the damage you have done?
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses
I trusted you. I trusted in you.
This time you're gonna get it
All the things you've done coming back to you
This time you're gonna feel it
Your conscience slowly suffocating you
In time you will regret it
Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses
Everything must come full circle
It kills me that I feel this hurtful
I wonder what your children think of you,
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you can not close
The devil in you, I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel
When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do?
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day
But everything changes if I could
Turn back the years if you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn how to feel
Then we could stay here together
And we could conquer the world
If we could say that forever
Is more than just a word
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
Twisting
Turning
Crashing
Burning
All this just to break me down
You don't know me
You don't see me
You don't own me cause I don't care
That I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear?
Faceless
Faking
Pushing
Taking
All this just to bring me down
You don't know me
You don't see me
You don't own me cause I don't care
That I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear?
You don't know me
You don't own me cause I'm aware
That I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear
I'm still here
Reluctantly waiting for you to interfere
The lights are on
But you're not home
You've drifted off
Somewhere alone
Somewhere that's safe
No questions here
A quiet place
Where you hide from your fears
Sometimes when you're out of rope
The way to climb back up is clear
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
Are you afraid of what they think?
Whoever they happen to be
Or are you hiding from the scars of
Your own reality?
So you sedate
And drown in vain
You've got a pill
For every day
A suit and tie
To mask the truth
It's ugly head
Is starting to show through
Sometimes when you're out of rope
The way to climb back up's unclear
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
Are you afraid of what they think?
Whoever they happen to be
Or are you hiding from the scars of
Your own reality?
The monster you're feeding
Your lack of perception
The things that you do
To fulfill your addictions
The light at the end
Of your tunnel is closing
What is it that you're so
Afraid of exposing?
You'd give it all up for
What's there for the taking
Whatever it takes to
Keep your hands from shaking
The same things you're thinking
Might make you feel better
The same things that probably
Got you here
Sometimes when you're out of rope
The way to climb back up's unclear
The walls you build around yourself
I guess they also keep you here
Are you afraid of what they think?
Whoever they happen to be
Or are you hiding from the scars of
Your own reality?
The monster you're feeding
Your lack of perception
The things that you do
To fulfill your addictions
(Your own reality)
The light at the end
Of your tunnel is closing
What is it that you're so
Afraid of exposing?
(Your own reality)
You'd give it all up for
What's there for the taking
Whatever it takes to
Keep your hands from shaking
(Your own reality)
The same things you're thinking
Might make you feel better
The same things that probably
Thank you to the people in my life
For putting up with me
And thank you for the time you sacrificed
All on account of me
For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say
For all the times I didn't say
Times I didn't say
Fuck you to the jaded and the fake
Like to see what you would do
Fuck you and the judgements that you make
We're not all perfect just like you
Like you
Like you
For all the times I didn't say
Times I didn't say
For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say
All the times I didn't say
All the times I didn't say
Thank you to the people in my life
Gimme some guitars punk
Sweet Leth
Limp Bizkit in the house
What fucken' house?
Seattle baby
Terry Date, Limp Bizkit, Staind
Bring the noise
Bass! how low can you go?
Death row what a brother knows
Once again, back is the incredible
The rhyme animal
The incredible D. Public Enemy number one
Five-o said "freeze!" and I got numb
Can I tell 'em that I really never had a gun?
But it's the wax that the Terminator X-1
Now they got me in a cell 'cuz my records they sell
'Cuz a brother like me said "well?"
Farrakhan's a racist and I think you should listen to
What he can say to you what you otta do
Follow for now power of the people say.
"Make a miracle, D. pump the lyrical"
United we stand, all in all, we're gonna win.
Check it out, yeah y'all, here we go again
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Never badder than bad 'cuz the brother is madder than mad
At the fact that's corrupt as a senator
Soul on a roll, but you treat it like soap on a rope
'Cuz the beats in the lines are so dope
Listen for lessons I'm saying
Inside music that the critics are blasting me
For they'll never care for the brother and sisters
Now across the country has us up for the war.
We got to demostrate, come on
They're gonna have to wait 'till we get it right
Radio stations I question their blackness
They call themselves black. but we'll see if they'll play this
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Get from in front of me, the crowd runs to me
My DJ is Lethal dose, we call him Leth you know
He can cut a record from side to side
So what, the ride the glide should be much safer than a suicide
Soul control, beat is the father or our rock' n' roll
Music for whatcha, for whichin' you call a band man
Makin' a music abuse it but you can't do it, ya know
You call 'em demos but we ride limos, too
Whatcha gonna do? Rap is not afraid of you
Beat is for Sonny Bono, beat is for Yoko Ono
Run DMC first said a DJ could be a band
Stand on it's feet get you out your seat
Beat is for Eric B. and LB as well, hell
Records from Fred D still we can rock bells
Ever for ever, Universal it will sell
Time for me to exit, Terminator X-it
Turn it up, bring the noise!
I said turn it up! bring the noise!
Bring that fucken' noise, and get the fuck up
Get the fuck up
Bring the noise
Bring it
Fuck this
Limp Bizkit
Fuck this
In the studio
Fucken Suck ass
Bring that noise
Man fuck this
Terry Date is a fucken pain
Trust In me can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
what for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
so loud, why can't you hear it
I'm OK
All my faith is gone
you think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down
shattered, nothing behind it
In my mind alone,
Lost here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole
safe here from what I hated
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show can't believe it
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways
And I
And I
And I
I'M NOT OK!
I'm OK
Trust In me can't trust
Iknow, I don't believe in
All my life so scarred
what for,you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
why can't you feel it
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show can't believe in
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
What the fuck's the purpose
I didn't scratch the surface
Immune to what your saying
All along decaying
Can't see thru the fire
Darkness lone desire
Quiet in my corner
Building up the border
Can't stand the way you make me feel today
No One's kind is all you'll ever be
Can't see thru the rain
Too much time
No sublime
losss of energy
No symmentry
Fuck soceity
Lost in nievate
Can't stand they way you break me...
Can't take the pain you break me....
Can't bite the hand that feeds me...
Can't take away what's in me
Addicted to the feelings
Lose touch with all I've know
The cobwebs on the cieling
Make me aware that I'm all alone
The endless rain washes all away
It's Been Awhile
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
Since I first saw you
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
Since I could call you
But everything I can't
remember as fucked up as it
all may seem the consequences
that I've rendered I've stretched
myself beyond my means
It's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
Since I could say I love myself as well
Since I've gone and fucked things
up just like I always do
But all that shit seems to
disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
as fucked up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
Since I said I'm sorry
Since I've seen the way
the candle lights your face
But I can still remember
just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as
fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my
father he did the best he could for me
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry
if someone else showed you the way
would you take the wheel and steer?
it hurts me that you're not ashamed
of what you're doing here
if they jumped off a bridge
would you meet them on the ground?
or would you try and claim
that it never made a sound
everyone plays the hand they're dealt
and learns to walk through life themselves
not everything in life is handed on a plate
when people think your words are true
it doesn't matter what you do
i sold my soul to get here
how 'bout you?
so you choose to force your hand
what a strange way to make freinds
and you always change the rules
so the drama never ends
and you blindly go through life
judging only by what its worth
just try not to forget
that the meek inherit earth
so please don't take offense
this is just a point of view
cuz i'm the only one who
Every shadow just behind me,
Shrouding every step I take,
Breaking every promise empty,
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now the path has lost me
Just because the sun has set
Jesus, was a fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done
Jesus, was a fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find the center in you
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary won't you whisper
Nothing but the past is done
Mother Mary won't you whisper
Nothing but the past is done
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over this time
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find the center in you
I will chew it up and leave,
Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over this time
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
