Deep in the soil
Trembling silence
Stones in the making
Tension release
Digging a hole
Blood sweat and tears
No rest and no sleep
Then - I found a key
Teeth shimmering silvery grin
Mocking yet serene
Gethsename staring indifferent
Stunning beauty in green
At once obsessed
Obedient without parole
Substract, withdraw
A piece of the soul
Deeper and deeper
Searching for years for
Something to open
I could not see
My science for god
My modus operandi
Of understanding
Stood in the way
This is the turning point
The moment of truth
Consider every piece of knowledge
Gathered during this pursuit
Confined, locked in
Convinced there has to be more
Browsing through all the schematics
Looking for a door
"In the councils of government, we must guard against the acquisition of unwarranted influence, whether sought or unsought, by the military-industrial complex.
The potential for the disastrous rise of misplaced power exists and will persist.
We must never let the weight of this combination endanger our liberties or democratic processes.
We should take nothing for granted."
"The prospect of domination of the nation's scholars by Federal employment, project allocations, and the power of money is ever present and is gravely to be regarded.
Yet, in holding scientific research and discovery in respect, as we should, we must also be alert to the equal and opposite danger that public policy could itself become the captive of a scientific technological elite."
[Dwight D. Eisenhower, Military-Industrial Complex Speech, 1961]
What are the odds
What's the statistic
Is there a reason
Or is it pure chance
No treasure box
Or safety deposit
No secret doorway
The lock was in me
Teeth shimmer, reflecting the grin
A familiar looking chin
Six digit figures could never
Buy the state I'm in
At once I'm blessed
Once splintered now become whole
Increase, expand
The reach of the soul
I realize now that what we seek is not of an external nature
But rather to fully grasp the full potential of ourselves
We were born with the most sophisticated equipment known to us
Yet we spend most of our lives searching for something else
Something to come along and rid us of our boredom
As if we were afraid to look into ourselves
Afraid of what we might find
There is something in the way that she talks to me
That makes me wonder if I'm really free or not
You are my star
You're a special kind of girl
The things that you say to me
They wander through my head
I am falling out of these boundaries that were made to break
You are my star
As galaxies appear those white sparks are creeping near
I'm no longer touching ground
This celestial incarcerator, my soft spoken vindicator
Circling around
Euphoria, I've arrived through my novas gentle care
Travelled through time and space to this lair of her
You are my star
Flickering candles far from reach
I know they are there, I just can't see
Blinded by her willingly
I could have gladly asked for more
But your look was saying: "I saw you"
And as you turned away
I mumbled out that I adore you
But I knew within
That forced upon a choice I'd run
And once again chagrined
Defeated by my very own hand
I am my own worst enemy
I am the last man who can set me free
Ain't it time you made up your mind
Guiding voices pointing at the road ahead
Leading straight to nowhere
Temptations; never hard to find
But to resist will always be the battle
That will come back and haunt you
I am my own worst enemy
I am the last man who can set me free
Go without, go within
Go where no one's ever been till you know
Rid your doubts, shed your skin
Feel the loss so you can win over your foe
Only then will you know
Catching up with the train that ran off
Early warnings told that no seat'd be free
If I waited too long
This time I do intend to stay on
Delusions passing by as I stare out
Into the void surrounding
I am my own worst enemy
I am the last man who can set me free
And as the silence wail
I tell myself all over
That if this just begun
Inverting the inverted in disguise
The past becomes alive within their minds
Rotten to the core, so old and foul -
Pages that rule their way of life
Eyes and ears forever sealed shut
Kneeling spiritually autistic sheep
Wide open now to take it all in
- Orders from high above
Can you see what they do
Erasing, re-writing the truth
Can you hear what they say -
One God, one path - Amen
Seven days
To replace an ocean of time
Discard all reason and pave the way
The science of God has arrived
Right through your eyes
The light now does shine
Blinding you - this veil of illumination
Across the world
The light now goes dim
Darkened by this veil - called salvation
From Genesis and onwards
Everything's been set
Crown of the creation
Everything is ours
Mother Nature weeps
Subjected to abuse
Naked apes with hubris
Shameless pseudo prophets
Can you see what they do
Erasing, re-writing the truth
Can you hear what they say -
One God, one creed - Amen
Spreading out - infiltrating high and low
Discard your questions and shut your mouth
The silence of God has arrived
Right through your soul
The light now does shine
Blinding you - this veil of illumination
Across the world
The light now goes dim
Darkened by this veil - called redemption
Inverting and dismembering their souls
Dogmatic scum - deceptive angel-ghouls
Histrionics, tongues that speak entwined
Preaching sickness right into the spine
Eyes and ears forever sealed shut
Kneeling spiritually autistic sheep
Wide open now, dead inside
Laughter from high above
Can you see what they do
Erasing, re-writing the truth
Can you hear what they say -
One God, one creed - Amen
Pave the way - enemies shall not be spared
What once was written must be true
The science of God has arrived
Right through your eyes
The light now does shine
Blinding you - this veil of illumination
Across the world
The light now goes dim
Living alone
Is not the way for me
Words on the phone
They fade and die as I put it down
Feel like a stone
Emotionless, hard and cold
All on my own
I just can't find the way
[Chorus:]
So tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want
'Cause all of this madness
Makes sense when you're here
One & one is two, but not when two is one
Tired and slow
Time crawls by us now
Distance's a foe
Far, far too strong for my weary mind
Opening the door
The world lies endless, there below
Don't know where to go
I just can't find the way
[Chorus]
What good are numbers anyway
They put perspective on the game
But we're playing off the board
Oh the rules do not apply
I feel it, the energy
Keeping contact intravenously
Floating chemistry
Protones, electrones, forming atoms, molecules
Into complex lifeforms
So in perspective of the game
What good are numbers anyway
When we're playing off the board
Oh the rules do not apply
Tears from the ceiling
That's how I'm feeling
Falling - forgiving
Call of the living
Tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want
Tears from the ceiling
Tell me I'm dreaming
Water fulfilling
Life - a new meaning
So tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want
'Cause all of this madness
Makes sense when you're here
One & one is two, but not when two is one
But if you count you lose the point
So in perspective of the game
What good are numbers anyway
When we're playing off the board
I open up my eye and I, I open as my eye
I stare and let it read my mind, eye open as am I
Scanning through that tangled maze I lose myself again
Who am I whose eye defines the thoughts run through my head
And soon I find there's no way out, my eye is my guide again
Showing me around, these pathways so profound
Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun
As he forces me to run again
Asking would you like to be my friend
Eye look into eye and I try to draw the line
Fight that lie and hide my fright, keep it out of mind
Far away I hear a voice that shouts and demands
Syllables and letters forming words of command
Closer now, then from inside, I think that I understand
Showing you around, these pathways so profound
Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun
As I force you with a gun - run, run
Asking would you like to be my friend
I look into your eye, I pretend it's all fine
I keep living the lie, I look into your eye
(This fragile surface may hold the weight of all that's locked inside
But will it help you clean your slate, or do you just run and hide
You can run...)
This fragile surface white and blue if studied will reveal
There's something in the depths below that I cannot conceal
Through years and years of acting and the practice of my stare
Has made it easy to escape if you didn't already know it was there
This fragile mirror of the soul reflects both fake and real
But before you see too much of me I'll turn or keep it sealed
So I face the ground and hurry on, I run from how I feel
There's a million things I'd like to say
But you turn your back, refuse to hear
So. I keep it inside and watch you walk away
But, the vision and the words, will not disappear
So, what is it that you fear, as you turn your face?
There is more in this world, than meets the eye;
Reality is what we chose to see and believe
There's a million things you'd like to tell
But, I think I've heard it all before
And I know I'm wrong, I know it so well
Never will I listen to you, nevermore
[ref:]
The feelings we've kept inside, and the tears we've denied
Always remember it's bitter taste
Remember it's token; remember the words
There's a million things I'd like to say
But you turn your back, refuse to hear
So. I keep it inside and watch you walk away
But, the vision and the words, will not disappear …
[ref: ]
The feelings we've kept inside, and the tears we've denied
Always remember it's bitter taste
The time has come to contemplate
My dearest parasite
You take me to a state of hate
Where reason just don't apply
This secret curse can't be my fate
Or something I've deserved
My mind is set to liberate
Itself from you
I look into your eye, I let go of my pride
I confess to the lie, I look straight into your ...
I am the one, one in my head
I have no fears, I have no tears
I am the one, one in my head
I have no fears, I have no tears
I banged my head against the wall
Ran around in circles
Scratched my itchy skin until I bled
Crossed my bloody fingers
Kneeled down and prayed
Oh father are you in heaven
What is in my defense
I've committed sins, all seven
Is there time to make amends
Eight nine ten eleven
Escalating fast
Could I have changed the past or present
And for how long will it last
It's like I'm being cursed
I just can't quench this thirst
But now I'm ready to burst
You know, I was in here first
I am the one, one in my head
I have no fears, I have no tears
I am the one, one that you dread
Take your time but hurry up
Don't get tied but settle
Find some time to socialize
Solve the hidden riddle
Well I've been told
That no other one will understand
Nor solve the hidden riddle
Yes I've been told
That no other one than the chosen son
Will solve the hidden riddle
I arrived in darkened light
Of endless deprivation
Lost in sense of wrong and right
I'm here for the salvation
Clouded minds you're cold inside
Climbing your own ladder
When in fright you run and hide
I'll show you just what matters
We'll I'm the one that you called upon
That was begged to come
To solve the hidden riddle
Now I am here
In your presence near
And your greatest fear
Is to solve your hidden riddle
Relax my son, you are my chosen one
But not this way, I for your pray
Your infected mind has made you blind
All your shame I do not need to see
The riddle that is in your mind
And you find in yourself left behind
Come out of your castle of sand
Lend me your hand
I am not the one you need to free
Forever and ever
Beside of me you have none
The pain will go on
You won't believe it's true
Forever and ever
Without me you'll all be gone
The pain will go on
Whatever doubts I'll prove
Well I've been told
That no other one will understand
Nor solve the hidden riddle
Yes I've been told
That no other one than the chosen son
Will solve the hidden riddle
Forever and ever
Beside of me you have none
The pain will go on
You won't believe it's true
Forever and ever
Without me you'll all be gone
The pain will go on
A stranger to the night
I dwell in light, can not live without
Those healing beams make me go on
Peace is found inside
In flood or tide, winter spring summer fall
But when the sun is gone
And I fail to be
And this difference is a pain to bear
Although a mystery
I pray for it to end
But there's no response
And I fall again
My moral breaks
My limits I bend
Till I hurt you, I curse you
I strike your head until I burst through
I live it out, live it out, live it out, scream
Then I wake up from this wicked dream
Till I hurt you, I curse you
I strike your head until I burst through
I live it out, live it out, live it out, scream
Then I wake up from this wicked dream
Eyes are opened wide
I cannot hide, the fear I keep inside
To all who rest assured enjoy
My envy will unleash
As my weary eyes shuts with fatigue
The lights are out and here's my show
I release myself
From the cage that I now despise
With the night I come
In wrath I rise
Cause I've been constrained
But this shell that is left behind
There's no sympathy
My hate is blind, I hope you don't mind
Till I hurt you, I curse you
I strike your head until I burst through
I live it out, live it out, live it out, scream
Then I wake up from this wicked dream
Till I hurt you, I curse you
I strike your head until I burst through
I live it out, live it out, live it out, scream
Then I wake up from this wicked dream
Bruised and battered I wander among you
And I laugh and I smile as you're accustomed to
But behind my wall that you don't seem to see
I pray that someday I'll be all of me
Should I defect from life itself
Since it turned it's back on me
Hey, if you gotta go then you wanna know
I'm buried deep inside and I won't let go
In your darkness I will glow
Hey, if you gotta go then you wanna know
I'm on the other side beckoning you to come
Then I can run my show
And I'll hurt you, I curse you
I strike your head until I burst through
I live it out, live it out, live it out, scream
Don't you agree that we're one hell of a team
Well I hurt you, I curse you
I strike your head until I burst through
I live it out, live it out, live it out, scream
I wanna ride on a shooting star
Ride through cosmos so very far
See the ground down there below
The speed of light's our only foe
A mighty milkyway crusade
Nothing can make the feeling fade
Floating skywards at the speed of light
Oh, yeah what a beautiful flight!
Turn your head to the skies
Embrace that which never dies
Behold, for it's not a dream
It's me star shooter supreme!
Hello Terra Firma! Here we come!
Yeah! We're having some astral fun
Circle of friends, planets in motion
And the sun has a smile like an ocean
Mighty milkyway crusade
Nothing can make the feeling fade
Floating skywards at the speed of light
Oh, yeah what a beautiful flight!
Turn your head against the skies
Embrace that which never dies
Behold, for it's not a dream
It's me start shooter supreme!
Ride on my brothers, fly on
Descending fast, but still we have won
A mighty milkyway crusade
Nothing can make the feeling fade
Ride on my brothers, fly on
Descending fast, but still we have won
Floating skywards at the speed of light
Hell yeah, what a beautiful flight!
Come on!
Turn your head to the skies
Embrace that which never dies
Behold, for it's not a dream
It's me star shooter supreme
Turn your head against skies
Embrace that which never dies
Behold, for it's not a dream
It's me star shooter supreme
Every generation lives
In the shadows of the last
This one's no exception
Before traditions set the rules
But this is something new
There are no directions
All or nothing
We are stuffing
Our waistlines increasing
And with it IQs are dropping
Keep on pushing
Blame it on Cushing
Sit down, take it easy you know
There's no point in rushing
Hey, we're slaves of the plethora season
No work to be done
So chill now everyone
Hey, we're suffering from indulgence syndrome
Nothing but joy
We have no choice
There's a theme park called the west
With high fences all around
So there'll be no distractions
Here we do what we do best
Exploiting everyone
In search of perfection
All or nothing
We are suffering
Taking their oil and their lives
And there's still no cuffing
No dominion
No opinion
There's not a new law or decision
That we're not in on
Hey, we're slaves of the plethora season
We need all the gas
To move that thriving ass
Hey, we live in the immunity zone
Time to rejoice
Boys and toys
In our corner of the world
Got nothing much to fear
So we turn on each other
Some girls have formed a plan
Goes straight past equality
This without deception
Injustice for ten thousand years
Now blaming anyone
Who can get an erection (?)
All or nothing
They're not bluffing
Hey, we're slaves of the plethora season
Those who have none in crotch
They've finally grown nuts
Hey, we're standing in the enemy zone
Let's head on home
This is where I stand
This is who I am
This the way it had to be
Arrows point in every direction
Where to turn, seek to learn;
Lies in the sand of time
Closing my mind to remember
But there is nothing to forget
All I ever had is here, before me
Open up the opened and collect
This is the written word
This is who I am
This is the extension of the wish;
Conviction will blossom,
As failure laughs in my face
I'll still be waiting for my turn
Closing my mind to remember
But there is nothing to forget
All I ever had is here, before me
Open up the opened and collect
Closing my mind to remember
But there is nothing to forget
All I ever had is here, before me
Tears escape from my eyes
As I'm reminded once again
By the failure of our kind
We're closing up this shop for good
Since we plundered all that we could
What will it take for you to open up your squinting eyes
It's who we are
It's who we are
You can't own what you loan
A short time we've claimed this soil
Which really is no mans land
Time is short, we're running out
But not of ideas of how to squeeze out
The last drops of the borrowed world we call our own
It's who we are
Can we accept and just go on?
It's who we are
We're trading off the breaking dawn
Unknowing you blend into the dough
Handing your votes to those who are thought of to know
What is left to say
It's sickening me when they're raking in
They couldn't care less as long as they win
It's sickening me when those who have it all
Elbows others to get some more
It's sickening that they'd rather rape the earth
And claim that they're just quenching out thirst
It's sickening how we choose to neglect
How it all unfolds
A vestigial prophecy
Of tomorrows floating orb of debris
A faded memory
Drained out it monuments
The echoes of ashamed lament
Of what evolved from silent consent
As a phantom of the past
Holding the cast
As the shadow of a lucent moon
Burned out light years too soon
Benighted we fail to attune
This acheronian state, is it our fate
Way out of sight
Absorbed by night
An endless line
Running past the signs
Thus condoning tha fall of all
Shadow of a lucent moon
Burned out light years too soon
Benighted we fail to attune
This acheronian state, is it our fate
Way out of sight
Absorbed by night
It's sickening me how we're wearing down
What is in our care to hand it on
It's sickening me how we fail to see
I can turn away and hold my breath a day
But I can't escape the stench of the lie
That's haunting my mind
I won't be free even if I'm deaf, dumb and blind
All those weary eyes with their wicked smiles
They come to my dreams, they're watching us now
They're after my head, they're after my life
Why can't they stay dead?
[Chorus:]
I confess to my sin, reaching deep within
It comes straight from my heart, where should I start
In revealing my thoughts, reaching deep within
I'm just letting it out and letting you in
Reaching within
It was so long ago, or was it yesterday
I can't seem to find a thread in my mind
A needle that's sharp that will make me whole
That's mending my soul
It's hard for me to plead, for your empathy
When hatred persists, whom can I persuade?
To forgive and forget
I threw the stone but I stand alone
[Chorus]
Dig in my head and you'll find what is on my mind
Take it all out, I insist that it won't be missed
Wake up the slumbering man,
Give him time to adapt to your world, I just know he can
Under the surface
Behind these walls
This is where I'm hiding
Hiding from the world
This armoured vessel
This steel can is my home
And I can't get out
And no one can get in
No more will you see me again
And oh, I'll never see the light of day
And I know I've been under so, under so long
Hanging on to my only hope
When I feel that I just can't cope
I'm looking through my periscope
In a shallow environment I've been taught to live
But I always wondered what was in the deep
Trapped in the indecision of which way to go
Where it's safe and home or where no one has gone
Oh, I don't know why I don't get along
Got too much energy but I still belong
To a world where all my questions are wrong
And they won't ever understand me, so
Hanging on to my only hope
Still looking through my periscope
I have a question I would like to ask
To who's ever listening
To myself
Does everything that you give come back to you
And if nothing's offered you might as well be dead
Oh no, I have a lot more to give
But I don't
Don't know how to let it out
Let it show
Not even to the people I know
So here I go
Her I go
Hanging on to my only hope
I sit in darkness cold and wait
Searching in my mind
My watch has stopped at half past eight
And I can't recall a thing
I won't accept this divided state
Where two are trapped in one
I'd ask them to communicate
If I knew how
(I am the one of your fears
In your head, in your bed, in your dreams - or so it seems
Am I too much
I have no fears, have no tears
And might I add, like I said;
Am I too much)
They're starting to interrogate, looking for a sign
Trying to intimidate, "we know you were there that night"
It seems it's getting far too late to find an easy out
But how am I to indicate that it was eye
(I am the one of your fears
In your head, in your bed, in your dreams - or so it seems
Am I too much
I have no fears, have no tears
And once again, little friend;
Am I too much)
I wake before the curtains fall, just in time to see
His devastating work of art, acknowledged and signed by me
And you... you just... just cry
I...
I, oh I got so much I wanna say
Yeah, so many things I've kept away
All the lying, all denying, all the little bricks in his game
So clear to me, yet so obscured
If anyone could help me out, if anyone just anyone
But if anyone would find me out
I couldn't bear, I wouldn't dare...
My ambition from the start
Was to rely upon my heart
I would not follow
Through every door you opened wide
For me to sneak a peak inside
I solely turned
To the path of my demise
Where you turned right
I turned wrong
If you got it made
If you got all that you craved
If you got away
I'll tell you now you're all the same
I'm falling without ties
I am the one that truly failed
I see you walking by each day
With a frown that tells of your dismay
I reek and stretch out
My empty, lifeless, withered hand
This did not turn out as I planned
I too had dreams
'bout a time and 'bout a place
Instead I live by your grace
You all got it made
You got all that you craved
I guess you must have prayed
All of you who not derailed
For you I hide my eyes
And yeah I realize
I am the one that truly failed
There's always time to tantalize
Always room for analyze
Of the misguided man
Judge not the unfortune one
It could have been your only son
You rose high I tell low
Reaching for the pennies you throw
Humiliated I fawn
For every time you make it
Every time I'm mistaken
And I know when I am gone
No one will ever know
My ambition from the start
Was to rely upon my heart
Now the beats are weakening
My omission of the verity
Made the search of false prosperity
A lure of grandeur
If you embark in my trail
Preconvinced you'll prevail
I'll bequeath no guidelines
You're alone when you fail
If you got it made
If you got all that you craved
If you got away
I'll tell you now you're all the same
I am the one who cries
I'm falling without ties
I am the one that truly failed
You got all that you craved
I guess you must have prayed
All of you who not derailed
For you I hide my eyes
Yes I realize
I could have pushed you out that day
That would have been the easy way
Watch you fly down that hundred meter fall
I wouldn't care at all
Falling, falling, drowning
Inhaling and you're screaming
Screaming... Pleading don't go
Mirages - as I hurt you in my mind
As the memories unwind
Mirages - as you led me to believe
In things that only you conceive
Why do you play that vicious game
I ask myself most every day
So high, that hundred meter fall
I turn around and there you are
Falling, falling, drowning
Inhaling and I'm screaming
Screaming... Pleading... Bleeding
Victoria falls were much too real
It's beauty false though now I see
Please try to explain
What was the aim, what was the gain
No matter how I try to wash it off
The stains remain
(We are gathered here today
To say our last farewells
We fell so hard down that hundred meter fall
Now - only stains of us remain)
Mirages - as you twisted with my mind
As you told me I was blind
Mirages - well constructed to deceive
The trusty and naive
Mirages - as you offered no reprieve
From the hell you had achieved
Mirages - as I finally could see
Oh I wanna be there
Where the stones lie still around you
Oh I wanna be there
Where the fire will not harm you
There's a place I always go when I'm feeling lost
When I'm cold
And when there's no shelter from the storm
Iskenderun
So I fall back into myself
Stare at the pearl inside this shell
And I have to go
A world in the sun
The darkness is gone
Iskenderun
And I'm all alone
Under the sun
Iskenderun
Iskenderun
Another Celtic Telamon
Another Persian Salamis
There is no guilt not innocence
There is no us and them
Jerusalem
Oh I wanna be there
Where the stones lie still around you
Oh I wanna be there
Where the fire will not harm you
Look what they've done, look what they've done
Everything's gone, everything's wrong
So I have to go
Nowhere to run
Look what they've done
Iskenderun
And I'm all alone
Under the sun
Iskenderun
Iskenderun
Terrorists are walking around me
And I walk among them
War lords, Nazis, kamikazes
When will they
When will they stop
Oh I wanna be there
Where the stones lie still around you
Oh I wanna be there
Where the fire will not harm you
Oh but the truth is
This is a place
Where I've never been
Stone on stone
Forming defenses from the crowd
Brick by brick climbing the sky
No asking where when or now
Nor solving the mystery of why
Supposed to lead us all as one
The only thing they do is lead us on
So just be careful where you tread
Obstacles and traps ahead
Mudfilled trenches, barbwired fences
Spotlights on the wall
Guards assemble, fingers tremble
As the sirens call
But nothing's gonna stop us
Till the inner circle falls
Step by step advancing
Closer to the core
Megaphones that never cease
Old slogans all heard before
Shout freedom as a metaphor for peace
Oh please
The rising drawbridge's not so far
We're run as catapults recharge
It is no longer safe to hide
See you on the other side
Mudfilled trenches, barbwired fences
Spotlights on the wall
Guards assemble, fingers tremble
As the sirens call
But nothing's gonna stop us
Pointing fingers mark the way the riches and success
Those who couldn't make it won't be satisfied for less
Fulfilling visions dreams where others failed that is our quest
Trademark of a caring soul is to always know what's best
Experience and innocence are currencies in trade
Separate the stupid from the clever with a grade
Ability and character determined at a glance
Do you choose your fate or do you give in to circumstance
Working hard for a cause we've never known
That's not our own, but
In the end
We don't need directions
To understand
What we should embrace
And what we should transcend
When we pass it on ourselves
Remember then
It makes all the difference in the end
Social climbers step on souls and hearts to reach the top
They've been told to not look back or down 'cause then you'll drop
Inflicting pain on anyone who's standing in their way
Placing blame is easier than watching what you say
Waking up to a world we've never known
The curtain's down, the cover's blown
Waking up to a world we've never known
All sense's gone, but
In the end
We don't need injections
To understand
What we should embrace
And what we should transcend
When we pass it on ourselves
Remember then
It makes all the difference in the end
And if you think you've had enough
If you're thinking that has to stop
If you're giving up
Stop
Looking up for a god we've never known
They say he's there just say your prayer
Looking up for a god we've never known
We're all alone but
In the end
We don't need religion
To understand
What we should embrace
And what we should transcend
When we pass it on ourselves
Remember then
In the depths I saw something beckoning me
An ugly shape deep down in the sea
In the corner of my eye, an inner world so blind
But I know, yes I know; it's only in my mind
In the depths I mirror myself, twisted reflections
It is not me, must be a wicked imagination
In the language of sorrow at the bottom of the sea
The shape turns it's head and speaks to me
I am too many for my shadow on the wall
Into the deepest of waters we hand in hand fall
Voices do surround, sadness is unbound
We dive, tranquillity in death is found…
A shadow walks beside me, my liquid gemeni
As I weep, It laughs, above the silent sky
And as I laugh, It kills me with every passing second,
with every passing second…In the deepest of waters…
I am too many for my shadow on the wall
Into the deepest of waters we hand in hand fall
Voices do surround, sadness is unbound
We dive, tranquillity in death is found…
In the depths I saw something beckoning me
An ugly shape deep down in the sea
In the corner of my eye, an inner world so blind
But I know, yes I know; it's only in my mind
In the language of sorrow at the bottom of the sea
So now the end is here I have no fear
I lean my head on the ground
I can not feel my legs and my arms are going numb
But I still see the shapes gathered round
Staring figures, features frozen
Skins are pale and mouth are open
Someone's leaning forward saying
Try to breathe, soon help is coming
Hold on
Leave me here no need to bother
Just look at me, I won't recover
Don't forget to tell her that I love her
Now let me down, I'm going under
All the bitterness and hate is left behind
It's a relief, it's a high
I see my life pass by before my eyes
And there's no reason to ask why
High, high, high...
I leave it all behind
Hold on
Leave me here no need to bother
Just look at me, I won't recover
Don't forget to tell her that I love her
Now let me down, I'm going under
Hallucination or for real, I start to feel
Like I am floating in the air, I'm everywhere
Colours shifting patterns intertwining
Transparent angels singing
Come with us come with us come with us come with us
A tunnel rising ascending slowly
White clouds form a path in limelight
Come with us come with us come with us
So here I stand at the stairs looking down
I see myself on the ground
I look into my eyes, they're telling me
An inner peace has been found
Electric shock, I'm back from yonder
The pain is too, now even stronger
Someone's leaning forward saying
Welcome back son, how're you doing
Hold on
Leave me here no need to bother
Just look at me, I won't recover
Don't forget to tell her that I love her
Now let me down, I'm going under
Leave me now
Let me down
What am I waiting for
What do I hope to find
Lying here inside my mind
So much scattered energy
Falling in between
Focusing on how I hurt
Introvert
I search my heart I search my soul
A bust without console
I search the ground I search for more
I just can't find the door
I can't decide I can't control
I lost control
I have no faith I have no goal
I have nothing
Nothing to explore
Paralyzed from the neck up
No twinkle in my eye
And I have no devotion
No chills down my spine
Paralyzed but in slow motion
Like a zombie
I keep on moving round and round
Making sure I can't be found
Panic rising from inside
Adrenaline set in
Still I won't move an inch
The world outside passes me by
With the blinding speed of light
Captured ghosts on retinas
Fading out
I never laugh I never feel
It's hard to conceal
I never hurt I never heal
What is fake, what's for real
I don't believe I believe
I would've never believed
I would never believe again
I don't believe this
Believe me I never would've believed
You'd believe me if I told you how
If I told you how I feel
Paralyzed from the neck up
No twinkle in my eye
And I show no emotion
No tears fall at goodbye
Paralyzed like from some potion
I'm gripped by this stunning notion
A sensation so profound
I cannot make a sound
Apathy spreads fast through me
Like gangrene dark and cold
Life and death entangled
Infection growing sore
We all know the outcome
From that struggle in the past
Turning the page, write to cease new ideas
Thoughts - all duly recorded
Maybe someday, all the rhymes, given time
Would get justly rewarded
So long ago, you don't even know how it started
So there you go
Stashing the sketches and drafts of what has become an
Encyclopedia of all the things you've done
Expect the media to bother when you're gone
Hours and hours of sacrifice, no compromise
Forced as if under orders
Planning to take land sea and skies, but can't decide
When to cross the borders
Encyclopedia of all there is to know
Encyclopedia - but what is there to show
The piles just seem to grow
Is this ambitions one man show
There's only one man watching you, John Doe
He's both on stage and in the front row
Encyclopedia - your one and only friend
Encyclopedia - will pay off in the end
Turning around, the objective of the way you lived
Hypothetical fortune, suddenly found
You're at the gate - it's too late
Psychological torture
So long ago, since you should have put it all out there
So now you go
Leaving for us to discover the paths you have tread
Encyclopedia - all written by his hand
Encyclopedia - will we ever understand
Now he will never know
Swept away by the undertow
The world is listening now, John Doe
Now all the leaves have turned to brown
A few still hanging on
But nothing is to survive from the storm
That's rising to destroy
Politely now we bow our heads
At the force of mother's call
And begging on our knees to be spared
To prevent the heavens' fall
But now, there is no sun
Now, the selection has begun
No, we didn't stand the test
Wish you all the best
In orbit all are gathered now
The ones that still remain
Looking into her eyes full of tears
In that mutilated face
We come to swear this holy vow
To answer to your spell
And yea, temptation may haunt our minds
To cross the line again
The strive that lies in every man
Must cease and stand aside
So many years from now - looking back
Their hearts may fill with pride
But now, there is no sun
Now, the selection has begun
No we didn't stand the test
Wish you all the best
Cause we won't return for a while
No, we won't return at all
No, we won't return to the sun
Opened wide, eyes to see,
Within, beyond and behind
Faces never seen,
My mind is expiring, beyond all limits
Impulses and thoughts torn
into meaningless words
The darkest of demons are hidden
behind the happiest faces
I wear the mask of fear
Impulses and thoughts torn
into meaningless words
stained on this paper, like the liquid of life
from a slit wrist
I have nothing to say, yet i desperately search
searching for the shadows of mine
yet undiscovered, hidden within
Opened wide, eyes to see,
Within, beyond and behind
Faces never seen
I have nothing to say, yet i desperately search
searching for the shadows of mine
yet undiscovered, hidden within
Impulses and thoughts torn
into meaningless words
stained on this paper, like the liquid of life
Thoughts make up the pages
The page contains the thought
Burning for the winds of changes
But that wind will feed the fire
Ash to ash - stories ending
Dust to dust - flakes ascending
Burn debris burn - the breath of writers
Choke on smoke - freedom fighters
In order to deny the story
The story must be read
To judge if harm can be inflicted
You must inflict the harm
Ash to ash - innocence lost
Dust to dust - this is the cost
Censoring truth - leftovers buried
In our minds - still residing
In retrospect
There's plenty left
To tell the facts behind the lies
Put sound to every pantomime
Imperative
Should not outlive
The modal verbs of humbleness
The what if, maybe and I guess
Still trapped beneath
The boulders of authority
Whispered phrases dodging
Immature publicity
Every aspect covered
Except the danger
Of airborne phonetics
Hitting the tympanic
The long lost written words
The long lost written words
Spoken out loud
If regressive new ideas must vanish
The idea is still regress
The pureness of the soul in danger
The danger is the soul
Ash to ash - lives are ending
Dust to dust - flakes ascending
Heinrich Heine - your words still echo
Lost and found - author unknown
At the time I left land and sailed away
Never knew I would end up a castaway
Wind went hard and the sky had tears for me
The sea was all that I saw, my enemy
There are days that I wake up and strongly believe
There are ways to escape, I myself might deceive
In the bottles I've sent, I reached out for a hand
But as sure as I'm here, they have never seen land
[Chorus:]
Castaway, your clouds are in the way of light
I am stumbling blind
Castaway, your thoughts, remembered by the prints
That I left behind
I know, but it's so hard to show
Myself a way, to a better day
I know that I am destined to live
A life in memory, companion to my misery
I've seen ships passing by, but they've never seen me
And for each day that pass without being free
I will moulder within with nothing to win
I will gamble my soul to pay any toll
Isolation I face every day, every night
What is real what is not, I keep losing my sight
Who's to care who's to not, I just never might know
For the son God forgot, maybe someday, I hope someday they'll show
I used to love the snow
Can I reach it now
Beyond my dreams somehow
Only the stars look the same
How I'd love to know their names
[Chorus]
I know, but it's so hard to show
Myself a way, to a better day
I know that I am destined to live
Sacrifice paradise
Ignorance, malice, ambition combined
Second prize don't entice
Indoctrinated we stand alongside
Enterprise in disguise
And our eyes, and our eyes begin to wander the sky
Telling lies, alibis
And we cry, and we cry as they start to multiply
This sleep here in front of me
Six miles from side to side
A caprice of geology
Standing mountain high
The wall whispers no apology
Doesn't answer why
The landscape changes radically
As it's reaching for the sky
And no one can pass by
No matter how you try
And if they let you in
You can't come out again
The flood will descend from here
And everything will fall
An arrogant decision
Our destiny for all
No serum intended here
No antidote in mind
All the species all the plants
From the beginning of all time
All gone away in the blink of an eye
Sacrifice paradise
Ignorance, malice, ambition combined
Second prize don't entice
Indoctrinated we stand alongside
Enterprise in disguise
And our eyes, and our eyes begin to wander the sky
Telling lies, alibis
And we cry, and we cry as they start to multiply
From the comfort of leather chairs
Turn jungles into fields
A segregated conference
Outsiders forced to yield
And those who cannot wield a pen
Or haven't got a voice
Are all labeled incompetent
And they're all bereft of choice
And no one will be spared
There's vermin in the air
And they don't even care
This will reach everywhere
The fire ignited here
Will spread from coast to coast
The center of attention
Yet overlooked by most
No island, no refuge made
These ultraviolet waves
Infiltrating everything
And everyone inside
Again and again I fall into your arms
Your embrace; my only true home
My sanctuary from the cold outside
Your embrace; my only destiny
Archangel, come spread your wings around me
Give me air to breathe and tears to shed
Archangel, come spread your wings around me
Give me air to breathe and tears to shed
Feed me lies of hope; words so bittersweet
Save me from myself and the agony within
Archangel, come spread your wings around me
Cure my fever, heal my longing, everlasting
For this world, was not created for you and me
Again and again I fall into your arms
Your embrace; my only true home
My sanctuary from the cold outside
Your embrace; my only destiny
Archangel, come spread your wings around me
Give me air to breathe and tears to shed
Archangel, come spread your wings around me
Give me air to breathe and tears to shed
Feed me lies of hope; words so bittersweet
Save me from myself and the agony within
Archangel, come spread your wings around me
Cure my fever, heal my longing, everlasting
For this world, was not created for you and me
Thought these streets always looked so empty
Paved with wet stones and oil
Flash of turn back to the gutter
Brief encounters all end with a slam
Then a presence stirs around me
I around and there's you
Seeking confrontation and contact
Filling the void with human touch
You feel the rush
Just like a crush
Take another step towards the light
You say you can be trusted
But something doesn't feel just right
Take another step no I won't bite
I'm all alone out walking
There is no one else in sight
Take another step
Take another step
Take another step, are you allright
Question answered without a word
What's wrong with you ain't physical
In a second arm twisted behind me
And my face pressed against the wall
Whispers ask for my belongings
Cellphone, wallet and the ring
There is nothing that I can't give you
There is nothing I cannot give
If you let me live
If you let me live
Take another look into my eye
You're stealing everything
But cannot ever take my pride
Take another coin, see if I care
Raping every pocket
But my integrity's not there
Take another thing
Take another ring
Take another swing
I won't fight back
Take another step, let's not deny
Strauss was on to something
And then Nietzsche got it right
Take another step, another crime
A small one for you maybe
But a giant for mankind
It's another step
It's another step
