I'm waiting over here
Just to see you, my love
For the last time
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming
As you try to reach the sky
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming
As you try to reach the sky and fly
I'm begging you tonight
I want to free you, my love
Just one last time forever
Maybe we could change
We always seem to fall again
We are still alive
We have to give up everything and die
And all I want is you
And all I want is you
So it's over now
And I have loved you with my life
But this is the last time for you
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming
As you try to reach the sky
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming
You are beyond any reproach now
You are so cool, you?re so flawless now
Perfect approach, impeccable execution
When you are done, can you show me how?
I?m not just a man
I am the man you can?t have
I need something else
You are the one who can?t help
You?ve gotten sick on self-satisfaction
And now my patience is wearing thin
You seem surprised, how could this happen?
You knew what I was when you took me in
I?m not just a man
I am the man you can?t have
I need something else
And you are the one who can?t help
And I?m not just a man
I am the man you can?t have
And I need something else
And you are the one who can?t help
I?m not just a man
I am the man you can?t have
I need something else
You seem to think you've got this business figured out inside your head
and all the while you see me, falling,
for your name.
You seem to think it's easier to steal and cheat instead of love
But you're not getting any younger, so start your life, it isn't over yet
And all you people, who try to understand
you know, they're not any younger, they start their lives
it isn't over yet.
And so I see you on the road to your own
but you're not getting any younger
you start your life
Do you know the heart?
Do you that it can be destroyed?
You can make it go away
You can make it shrivel up and die
Take a look at me
Give me everything you've got
If it's not enough
Make me everything you're not
It's just a side effect of loving you
A nasty soundtrack to the city
He says the effects will recover soon
The situation is dire
You don't know what love is
Until you've learned the meaning of the Blues
Until you've loved a love you had to lose
You don't know what love is
You don't know how lips hurt
Until you've kissed and had to pay the cost
Until you've flipped your heart and you have lost
I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn?t seen before
I wanted to cry tears of joy
But I don?t have them anymore
I?ve wasted them on trifles
Things that just don?t mean a thing
But when I come back home to you
My love is what I?ll bring
I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn?t seen before
I wanted to cry tears of joy
But I don?t have them anymore
I?ve wasted them on trifles
Things that just don?t mean a thing
And when I come back home to you
My love is what I?ll bring
I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn?t seen before
I found those tears I lost
?Cause you don?t love me anymore
You left me so that you could go
And have an easy life
One filled with zero trouble
I fall to pieces
Each time I see you again
I fall to pieces
How can I be just your friend
You want me to act
Like we've never kissed
You want me to forget
Pretend we've never met
And I try and I try
But I haven't yet
You walk by and I fall to pieces
solo
I fall to pieces
Each time someone speaks your name
I fall to pieces
Time only adds to the pain
You tell me to find someone else to love
Someone who loves me too
The way you used to do
But each time I go out with someone new
Where the boys are, someone waits for me
A smilin' face, a warm embrace, two arms to hold me tenderly
Where the boys are, my true love will be
He's walkin' down some street in town and I know he's lookin' there for me
In the crowd of a million people I'll find my valentine
And then I'll climb to the highest steeple and tell the world he's mine
Till he holds me I wait impatiently
Where the boys are, where the boys are
Where the boys are, someone waits for me
Till he holds me I wait impatiently
Where the boys are, where the boys are
Are you angry, 'cause you're not doing what you want to do?
I understand that, 'cause that's the way that I am feeling too
Are you exhausted? Your mind is always working overtime
I can see it in your eyes baby, but everything is going to work out fine
I don't know what I can do for you, but I can make sure that you're not lonely too
and hold you for a while
I really sorry that I hurt you with things I've said to you
but when I'm down and being hard on myself, the words just come out wrong
I will defy my fears and keep on going, so I can be someone that's there for you
I don't want to keep myself from knowing, If I can make it on my own
I don't know what I can do for, but I can make sure that you're not lonely too
and hold you, for a while
Mesmerizing, hypnotizing, resolve made of steel
You've got all the good cards baby
Don't say no and don't say maybe
What you fighting for, what is it you fight for?
It's okay to not have answers, they don't have them anyway
Save that bullshit for the bedroom
That's where all your best work gets done
You're all by yourself, you're your only lover
What do you think, you'll do to me, that you have not already done?
Why don't you try sticking your dick
Into all the things that you bought
People say to me you cannot change
People say you always stay the same
If that were true I would leave this place
I would vanish from this place without a trace
I would leave you alone, build yourself a throne
You have said to me you cannot change
Coming from you that sounds very strange
'Cause you have changed in so many ways
That I have trouble recognizing you from day to day
And trouble is your thing, it takes away the sting
Someday these concerns may be your own
When you're lost and far away from home
But you won't have it any other way
Now you'll have to pay
Strange how you've stopped loving me
how you've stopped needing me,
since she came along, oh, how strange
Strange, you changed like night and day
Just up and walked away
when she came along, oh, how strange
Well, I guess that I was just your puppet
you held on a string
to think I thought you really loved me
but look what thoughts can bring
Strange, you're still in all my dreams
oh, what a funny thing
Long afloat, on shipless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving to your aisle
and you sang
sail to me
sail to me, let me enfold you
here I am, here I am
waiting to hold you
did I dream, you dreamt about me
were you hare, when I was fox
now my foolish boat, is leaning
broken lovelorn on you rocks
for you sing, touch me not
touch me not, come back tomorrow
Oh my heart, oh my heart
shy's from the sorrow
I'm as puzzled as the newborn child
I'm as riddled as the tide
should I stand amid the breakers
or should I lie with death my bride
hear me sing
swim to me
swim to me
let me enfold you
I had a dream last night, a nightmare to be exact
We couldn’t take the heat, and the sweat dripped from our backs
I didn’t go, I waited for the midnight sun
I didn’t want to leave you ‘cause I don’t have anyone
Don’t paint the sun anymore, paint the moon
And the stars, in an autumn sky
Paint me cool blue waters, with shades of gray
Just don’t let me live, my life this way
Without you
Let it go, let it go
Let it fall down from the sky
And leave this world behind
Let it go, let it go
Let it fall down from the sky
And leave this world behind
I saw you suffering so I knelt down by your side
I saw that you were fading, that you were leaving your own mind
I gave you water just to soothe your failing heart
And take away the fears of what we both know we will find
Don’t paint the sun anymore, paint the moon
And the stars, in an autumn sky
Paint me cool blue waters, with shades of gray
Just don’t let me live, my life this way
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can?t feel at all
It takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can?t feel at all
And if you think you need more pain
You can get all that you need
You can get it all for free
Just keep doing what you are
Did somebody tell you that they loved you
Then they said they never loved you?
How did you feel? How did you feel?
It doesn?t really matter how you felt ?cause
You can?t make them love you
That is for sure, that is for real
Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can?t feel at all
It takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can?t feel at all
And if you think you need more pain
You can get all that you need
You can get it all for free
Just keep doing what you are
Do you really think that it won?t kill you?
?Cause I know that it will kill you
Maybe not now, but you?ll find out how
Don?t tell me that you wanna to end up
With some [Incomprehensible] dumpster
That would be tragic, that would be sad
Baby, please don?t misunderstand me
?Cause I don?t really give a damn
I saw you had a problem and I wanted to help
That?s just how I am
It really doesn?t matter that much to me
Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can?t feel at all
It takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can?t feel at all
And if you think you need more pain
You can get all that you need
You can get it all for free
If you are lucky, lucky enough today
To have someone
To whom you feel you got something to say
Don?t think it over, don?t let 'em slip away
He read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough
To really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
Made the choice to turn into a leaf
If you are lucky, lucky enough today
To have found a love
To whom you feel you got something to say
Don?t think it over, it?s gonna be okay
Read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough
To really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
Made the choice to turn into a leaf
Read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough
To really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
My funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable
Unphotographable
Yet you’re my favorite work of art
Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?
But don’t change a hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentine’s day
Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?
But don’t you change one hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
See my smile I can hear your voice
coming from another room
in another land in a house
in a corner of my heart
So be quiet
not make a sound
do not blink now
don't look down
you don't know
you'd never ever know
I've forgotten all my lies
I feel like a fool
in a cold
I don't even know myself
any more
come to me lay down beside me
and close your eyes kiss me sleep
You keep on pushing and you?ll get your answer
But it won?t be the one you want it to be
I think it?s funny how we don?t get storms around here anymore
And the rain, when it comes, it tastes like nothing
I want you to remember me
For things I never did
'Cause no one in this world deserves
To see my happiness
I know what it?s supposed to be like to be young
But it is not the way I thought it would be
My paranoia functioned like a broken mirror
To distort and destroy any clarity and what?s more
I want you to give back to me
The child I never was
'Cause I believed what I was told
Lilacs and tiger-lilies won’t be enough for me when you’re gone
Hollyhocks, gladiolas, will never replace this face
In your little pink house with the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was and what I was not,
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Bleeding heart, lily-of-the-valley
Snapdragon, rambling rose
You’ll never make it in this world
If you’re not one of those
In your little pink house, with the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Diadem, orange sensation
Diorama, bell canto,
Baby-Lune, and princess too,
But you were the one I chose
In your little pink house, with the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Just one vice is all, is all any man needs to make him happy,
This old man, he's got, he's got all he needs to keep him happy.
Just one lie is all you find you can't read, but you are happy,
My advice: why not take two or three if you're feeling lucky.
Hold on tight
Let it eat you from inside
Take you away
You are safe
Just one lie is all, is all any man needs to keep him happy,
My advice: why not take two or three if you're feeling lucky.
Hold on tight
Don't let go
Let it eat you from inside
Take you away
I wanted that, I needed that, I anticipated this, for the longest time
I want to be desired by that
I want it to infatuate me
I want to see if I can overcome, without saying that
If this is what you want, then get used to destruction
If this is what you need, then get used to depression
'cause there's nobody here gonna sit around, and listen to your opinion
If this is what you want, then get used to being alone
When you were a child you laughed and cried, and then somebody filled you full of pride, and we were all there the day your personality died, and we all still feel the loss
but feelings are a little bit steep for you, you've got a lot of things that you must do, like tapping the sap from the apple trees for your own self pity stew
If this is what you want, then get used to rejection
If this is what you need, then get used to suppression
Cause there's nobody here gonna sit around, and listen to your opinion,
You're professional, you are kind, you always say the right things
you show up on time, everyday, smiling doing what you do.
I'd like to get in your skin, to see what I could see from there.
But it isn't that way. Is it, darling?
We're not doing this for you.
The nail that sticks out, must be hammered down, hammered down
Oh, the nail that sticks out, must be hammered down, hammered down
I'd like to do the right thing darling, I'd like to show myself the way to your door
but it isn't that way and it never will be, wait til you see what we've in store for you
What a dream last night
dressed in orgundy
clothed in crinaline
of smoky burgundy
softer than the rain
I wandered empty streets down
past the shop displays
I heard cathedral bells
drifting down the alleyways, as I walked on
and when you ran to me your,
cheeks flushed with the night
we walked through frozen fields
of juniper and lamplight
I held your hand
And when I awoke
and saw you warm and near
I kissed your honey hair
with my grateful tears
You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you told to me
While looking me directly in my eyes
This is not ecstasy
But it's better than cocaine
And you know that I will miss you when you're gone
But I'm not equipped to play this game
You know your words they don't mean
Anything to me
They only serve to fatten up the prey
And when it's time to take them
To the slaughterhouse
You slice their throats, continue on your way
This is not jepoardy
And it's not your high school prom
And you know that I will miss you when you're gone
But I'm not equipped to be your mom
You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you told to me
Didn't you go out in the morning
Didn't you go out in the evening
I was ready for anything
I don't mind, I won't find out anyway,
I'm too blind, to see you at all
Can I have what I feel that I must have
Multiply by ten, that's what I think I need
Overshadow your life
Do you like asphyxiation?
I don't mind, I won't find out anyway, I'm too blind
I need a lot of hope from you, but I forgot I went away instead
I hope I'm not disturbing you,
but I forgot I'm hurting you
I hope I'm not who you need
I hope you're not talkin' 'bout yesterday,
'cause I can't live, I can't live that way
it's all gone now
and you don't know the truth
so you must go now and find the door
I thought that I knew where my heart it had landed
I thought that I?d worked it all out
I thought she?d be willing to hold me at night
And I thought that that?s what I would want
But I was a blind man in love with a demon
And I couldn?t figure it out
Your bright black eyes
Have started to quench the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes
Have started to strip all the sense from my mind
This desert it seems to have no plans of ending
So I have to make it my home
You gave me a chance, now I know I can?t take it
I?d rather just be here alone
Your bright black eyes
Have started to quench the light in my soul
I have let you play me and take me to places
That I thought that I couldn?t find, oh oh
Don?t talk to me about love
This has nothing to do with that word
This is just good old fashioned exploitation
You?re not serious
So just like a dog that returns to his vomit
I guess that I do it because
I get no more pleasure from self-deprecation
It?s not as much fun as it was, oh, oh
Your bright black eyes
Have started to quench the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes
Have started to strip all the sense from my mind
Your bright black eyes
Have started to quench the light in my soul, in my soul
Your bright black eyes
Black is the color of my true love's hair
His face so soft and wondrous fair
The purest eyes
and the strongest hands
I love the ground on where he stands
I love the ground on where he stands
Black is the color of my true love's hair
Of my true love's hair
Of my true love's hair
Oh I love my lover
and where he goes
yes, I love the ground on where he goes
And still I hope
that the time will come
when he and I will be as one
when he and I will be as one
So black is the color of my true love's hair
Black is the color of my true love's hair
Last night I was taking a walk along the river
And I saw him together with a young boy
And the look that he gave made me shiver
'Cause he always used to look at me that way
And I thought maybe
I should walk right up to her and say
Ahhaha, it's a game he likes to play
Look into his angel eyes
One look and you're hypnotized
He'll take your heart
and you must pay the price
Look into his angel eyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out
he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep
into those angel eyes
Oh no no no no
Sometimes when I'm lonely
I sit and think about him
And it hurts to remember all the good times
When I thought I could never live without him
And I wonder does it have to be the same
Every time when I see him,
will it bring back the pain?
Ahhaha, how can I forget that name?
Look into his angel eyes
One look and you're hypnotized
He'll take your heart
and you must pay the price
Look into his angel eyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out
he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep into his angel eyes
Crazy 'bout his angel eyes
Angel eyes
Once he took my heart and now I pay the price
Look into his angel eyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out
he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep into those angel eyes
Oh no no no no
Ahhaha, keep thinking, ahaaaah
Keep thinking 'bout his angel eyes
Ahhaha, keep thinking, ahaaaah
Keep thinking, I had to pay the price
Ahhaha, keep thinking, ahaaaah
Keep thinking 'bout his angel eyes
Ahhaha, keep thinking, ahaaaah
Keep thinking, I had to pay the price
Keep thinking, I had to pay the price
Chaos is calling beyond the stars...
Through this silent stream I sail, towards realms to me unknown. I aim to
swerve this starlit veil, to landscapes never shown (Never).
The stars aloft show me an escape, into ethereal worlds of bliss, where I
can eternally, eternally dwell, lost in freedom's illusive kiss.
A dimensional portal is now open, one thousand and one nights of eclipse
shall follow, while the shield guides of universal wisdom, bloom ablaze
before my eyes...
Through this silent stream I sail, towards realms to me unknown. I aim to
swerve this starlit veil, to landscapes never shown (Never).
The stars aloft show me an escape, into ethereal worlds of bliss, where I
can eternally, eternally dwell, lost in freedom's illusive kiss.
After the western horizon's blood turns black, and all through the dusky
hours, I, in my solitude, roam the far flung realms of time. In ancient
halls with brazen censers smouldering, strange shadows dance across vaulted
ceilings and curtains of rich velvet. And those stone chambers ring, with
echoes of the twisted language of conjuration, lighted by the glow of
otherworldly powers.
The splendour of an eclipse now burning, like a spring, like a spring in my
autumn of suffering.
Like a spring in my autumn of suffering.) (Like a spring, in my autumn of
suffering.)
Between tunnels of darkness and light, through dreams or illusions, (Between
tunnels of darkness and light, through dreams or illusions) my this sword be
my weapon, the infinite forest of galaxies my realm and the spectral void my
shelter. (my shelter, forever, and the spectral void my shelter)
For between a tear and the ocean, there is only us. (There is only us.)
A dimensional portal is now open, one thousand and one nights of eclipse
shall follow, while the shield guides of universal wisdom, bloom ablaze
before my eyes...
Through this silent stream I sail, towards realms to me unknown. I aim to
swerve this starlit veil, to landscapes never shown (Never).
The stars aloft show me an escape, into ethereal worlds of bliss, where I
Innate strength
Mind and soul drift away
From a bygone marked in futile artefacts
On an inset path of blinding light...
...Existence
We set the inheritance of new death.
Outrageously we devour the elements
And drink from the spiral essence
"None are innocent.
There are only those weak enough to believe they are.
And those strong enough to revel in the
Knowledge that they are not."
[...Jacob Strauss, Magus of the Shining Hill, London 1940]
Like black holes of enchantment...
We sombrely glitter yet consume cosmic energy
'Til you experience inorganic distress
Life as you know it has come to an end
Devoid of human flesh and blood,
The Stars are the sparkle of our eyes,
Streams of nothingness our veins, and pain...
The work of our hands.
Defy the limits of perception
The hand of oblivion stretches at me. What worlds lie beyond the abyss?
Whither dost thy stare take me for so long? Hither do we not belong..? (do
we not belong?)
Alas, they forsaken energy springs into radial reflections, which in me
reassemble whole of essence for which my soul thirsts - my sidereal mirror
from where the stars arose.
Yet far can I sense thy hand, such is the power of your presence! Whose
voice, this of the leading silence? And what face portrayeth behind the veil?
Whence dost it call? Thy bewildering song! Such beauty dost not hither
belong... (Whence dost it call? Thy bewildering song! Such beauty dost not,
dost not belong, dost not belong)
Once I gazed at thee, in the river of hope. But this, the reflection of thy
thoughts in mine, was but the flow of the waters, of despair.
Yet far can I sense thy hand, such is the power of your presence! Whose
voice, this of the leading silence? And what face portrayeth behind the veil?
Whole of essence for which my soul thirsts... My sidereal mirror from where
Enhanced frequencies of unknown origin
Billions of effulgent blazing shells
Lurking in the nothingness of the void
We ventured through.
I exploited the Source of Self-Art
Never avoiding the fluorescent photon belt
I reunited the Alignment of ascension
Who besides me, could be
This Soul in transience, asleep in a wreath-like womb
Aesthetically static yet so revolutionary force?
May all life respond!
I remember myself as the progress of creation
Rewrite the principle of genesis as known
Non-substantial matter hits me like wildfire
I feel the surrounding siege of the Multiverse
I became the dagger
The dagger that lead myriad worlds to compulsively bleed
Reality with me fainted... was any of this ever true?
While leaving my consciousness, I forgot what I never new,
I remembered what I never was,
I remembered what never happened...
Myriad arcane gateways into forbidden dimensions
Are gaping open before my eyes
From afar, I watch my soul step forth
Into the searing radiance of the mirror's other side
Engulfed in cataclysmic bursts of energy
Ephemeral nightmarish shapes permeate my consciousness
Psionic ripples in the galaxy-crested sidereal waves
Violently stir the stygian bejewelled aether
Enshrouded by billowing tides of skyfire
My spiritual mantle blown by newborn solar winds
I behold new universes in ireful bloom
Once more, as has been for countless times before,
The siren call of creative energy is answered
By the unseen magickal forces
That interweave space and time
Standing and watching, I learn of their ways...
And by touch of their powers, I have seen
Simple drifting grains of cosmic dust become
Titanic effulgent orbs of fathomless majesty,
And still rise to transcend the very boundaries
Of their newfound splendorous existence...
Amidst the stars I have tread and throughout the Earth walked, I have roamed
through dimensions of darkness. A journey through the infernal astral
twilight, sailing across the stellar ocean.
Before death I was born on the cloud-veiled centre of this cosmic infinity,
the throne of the cold void... (Before death I was born on the cloud-veiled
centre of this cosmic infinity, the throne of the cold void... Before death
I was born on the cloud veiled centre of this cosmic infinity, the throne of
the cold void...)
I saw the transcending fury of death overcome the dim will of the light.
Oh divine, spectral essence of cosmos, grant me the mastery of black magick,
Oh divine, spectral essence of cosmos, for thou art the origin and the end!
Harken: The proclamation of my longing, as the energy collides into a rain
of burning tears! My silent melody unleashed upon the deaf to hear... My
astral dimension, upon the blind to gaze...
Amidst the stars I have tread and throughout the Earth walked. A journey
through the infernal astral twilight, sailing across the stellar ocean.
From the stars I came and to the stars I aim... (From the stars I came and
to the stars I aim... From the stars I came and to the stars I aim...)
Where I once ruled and where day dost not follow night. Ceaseless is this
vortex and limitless is now my lore...
O spirits of the great void abyss! Wherein the dimensional crown of chaos
dost reign. Enslave mankind for thy wicked hunger... As with wisdom I
conquer back my long forgotten throne, my long forgotten throne. (My long
forgotten throne.)
Bloodstained is now the Earth, one with the essence are now those who with
me shared this chalice of liquid wonder. Seekers of aeonic magick... Those
spirits, of the great voidal abyss, wherein the dimensional cloud of chaos
doth rain.
Oh Divine, spectral essence of cosmos, harken the proclamation of my
longing! Bow down, at the origin, (bow down, at the origin).
Amidst the stars I have tread and roamed through dimensions of darkness. A
journey through the infernal astral twilight, sailing across the stellar
Chaos is the longest distance between two points
The further the travel, the blurrier the vision...
We envisioned development as the perfectly drawn line
Grown polarised, in the aim of equilibrium
Structured Genomes - the architecture of oniric DNA
Is but a part of the mingled essence of dimensionism
The principle of uncertainty
- A morphed perception of existence -
Random Vacuum fluctuation
A backsweep from emptiness to oneness
Zero-point energetic transcommunication
Ex-nihil
We hold the lock of Yin
And the key of Yang
Nothing is everything
- Dimensional Quantum -
Psychic surgery in spectral consciousness
Inter-dimensional particle amidst creations,
Spontaneously combusted into the explosive
Magnetic tide brought the message forth
Proclaimed illusion, I sink in these galaxies
Cold landscape
Circular abstract forms orbiting a virtual collision point
Between inverse polarised entities
A searing dead light, consuming the whole
Relentless
Crushing every atom of life
Never to be forgotten
This Cold, Cold landscape
Arcane transmissions from a distorted timestream
Strewn stars like magick drops spilled in the Ocean
The mistake was to wish for my eternity
We were the keepers, we arrived along with demise
Hologram-formed cells in eruption
Plasmic obsidian pouring out from limbo
Relentless
Crushing every atom of life
Never to be forgotten
Glowing upon the mountains, is the neon fire of chaos. Shaped in the smoke,
strange inhuman forms. A rite of destruction, esoteric fiery storms.
Darkness lights my obscure path, floating towards the enraptured skies.
Dwelling in the harmony of knowledge, drowning in chaos, burning in hate.
Darkness lights my obscure path, floating towards the enraptured skies.
Dwelling in the harmony of knowledge, drowning in chaos, burning in hate.
My soul is like a vessel, sailing the endless seas of time and space.
'I am the freedom, in the web of human limits, I am the cosmic sand, falling
down the path I once climbed.'
Darkness lights my obscure path, floating towards the enraptured skies.
Dwelling in the harmony of knowledge, drowning in chaos, burning in hate.
'I am, the freedom, in the web, of human limits. I am, the cosmic sand,
falling down the path I once climbed.'
A spiral of emotions, floweth through my veins, drunk with delightful chaos.
Burning inside me are the ethereal flames of chaos. (Ethereal flames of chaos)
Glowing upon the mountains, is the neon fire of chaos. Shaped in the smoke,
Sunk so deep you won't believe,
I can't proceed with this over me,
I know what you think when you say my name,
Talk about me like "Oh he changed,"
Another dope is up his nose,
And I don't know if I can trust him,
And the smell of alcohol is too much for me to go hug him,
And it's hard to take, hard to watch, hard to look away.
But it's worst to be in the middle of this shit,
Try to make up why to stay.
So I underestimate people, lie to myself,
But I'm easy to see trough,
Used to be so proud but, take a look at these eyes,
Take a look at me now.
Everybody got a problem with me,
But then again no one said life's easy,
Now I gotta watch where I put my feet,
Some don't even want to look at me.
Every now and then I think back,
If I took another choice where will I be at?
Momma said I'm proud of you, and my dad want to help me, guide me through,
And I DO want to change, but I keep coming back to the same old same,
Snort a line, while I write a rime about quitting shit for a better life.
What the fuck is that, where's the discipline?
This thing to bring out the bitch in me,
And did I make this song for the sympathy?
I don't now what it is but I'm sick of it.
Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when
I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now,
Figure out, how to bring myself back down, on the ground.
Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
It's dark tonight, I miss the sunlight,
I miss saying things like "thanks I'm alright."
When you ask me, how I'm feeling, well I'm happy, when I'm dreaming.
It's a whole other world in my head, when I close my eyes in my bed.
Cause I make up places and people, replace myself if I need to.
Three little birds on my doorstep,
I see what it means when I go there.
So peaceful, so quiet, all alone, but self reliant,
I came to the point when I put the mic down and said I'm done.
And with a life like this you might just feel like
Putting steel on your tongue.
Cause I swear to God, I've seen suicides, I knew people who took the wrong,
So rest in peace to the people I knew, cause I know you can hear my song.
And I will be strong for me and you, do what they tell me that I can't do,
In all your names, I'm-ma fight, so I walk on the stage for you tonight.
So when the light hits me I'm-ma shine for you,
Bottom line I'm-ma lie for you, they gotta kill me to make us meet again,
Cause I'm never giving up, I ain't leaving yes.
It's not for me no more, it's for all of us,
I see you when I see you, I love you all.
Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when
I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now,
Figure out, how to bring myself back down, on the ground.
Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
Amidst the troubled sleep of a Midwinter night,
Whilst unknown horrors plagued my dreams
Of dreary temples of old,
I beheld a distant wall strewn with arcane glyphs
That spoke of a terrible invocation...
And walking up, I realised
That all factors were now in conjunction
The ever so distant time that scribe's
dreams has prophesised
Was now at hand...
What an astounding revelation
I have been bestowed!
The Horned Moon is standing high above the Earth tonight
And rends alight strange silhouettes in the pitch black ground
I kneel betwixt fragrant trees and shape-shifting shadows
And my mortal senses are permeated for one last time
I recite the conjuration of the elder stars
The ancient, arcane words sear my writhing tongue
Now I feel their power surge all about and throughout me
And seep through every pore of my thirsting soul
Secrets never known to Man reveal before my eyes
I become godlike!
And now as my mortal shells is left far below
Entwined in all -destroying serpentine horror
My immortal soul ascends towards unimaginable power
Ever so nigh the brink of mind-devouring madness...
I am the Pandimensional Liege-Lord
Clad in the very fabric of Space and Time
My crown is of galaxies, and galaxies of galaxies
Interdimensional existences are mine to create and destroy
At a instant's fraction whim
Mine is the Maw of Creation that holds tight in its grasp
The Tail of chaotic Destruction in a circle that forever lasts
Swaying in the cosmic winds, enraptured by arcane visions of endless
stargates swathed by the origin of all.
A thousand dimensions, spreading from the ancestral void, harken as I howl
unto the splendorous night this call:
"Sirius, mighty sothis of the ancients. Let thy fires be strengthened by the
ones inside my skin!
Rekindle flames of the ancient magick fettered beyond my veil of humanity
and torch the myriad galaxies that lurk so deep therein!" (That lurk so deep
therein, that lurk so deep therein!)
Shalt ever our voices sing in unison "twixt bewildered stars, to see secrets
of all space and time before our eyes unfold?"
Shalt my hands touch a new beginning, rising beyond its end, and soar
throughout the multiverse, upon ethereal wings within my soul? (Within my soul?)
"Sirius, mighty sothis of the ancients. Let thy fires be strengthened by the
ones inside my skin!
Galaxies... they are but dust in our hands. A mighty dragon I behold, whose
bosom spawned forth time - rolled upon his fiery tongue (rolled upon his
fiery tongue), his immortal tail does stand.
Close thine eye, oh source of power, close thine eye, and watch everything
It's been a lot of ups and downs,
I keep fighting for ups though
I've been on the ground
Looking for love yo
It's nothing like the feeling when you feel it inside,
When you're feeling what you're doing is right
And people tell me that I look so healthy
Do you understand how much that helps me
I've been looking in the mirror with a really Bad conscience,
Everything I used to do is nonsense,
The dark color under my eyes told the story,
About the guy I was before me
I don't miss him at all I don't look back
Good riddance take a look at the new man.
And when the night comes I'm all alone
When it's too late to pick up the phone
And call my family back home
But I think about you all the time,
I'll call you when I get back about
Remember I told you,
I'm gonna show you
What I'm gonna do to make it right
I gave it my life I worked and I cried
I'll share it all with
You when I get home again
Little sis gotta little baby now
He got teeth already and his uncle's so proud
My god doesn't time fly fast
Only on the road these days with a bag
But when I get back, imma be there everyday for you
All of my friends and my three big brothers
My dad and my mother
I don't say it a lot but I love you
When I get home imma visit all the time
I can tell you all about the changes in my life
That I know you like better then before
I still fuck up but not like before
So don't be afraid
I got it under control
I can tell you this much
I'm not like that anymore
Everybody's talking I know you can hear that
But record with platinum that's my payback
Remember I told you,
I'm gonna show you
What I'm gonna do to make it right
I gave it my life I worked and I cried
I'll share it all with
You when I get home again
When I get back (when I get back)
Imma make some changes (imma make some changes)
Imma make my payment
Stop complaining
Life is great now that I've made it
When I get back
I can be home and breathe again
And I'm so happy I can share it with you
When I get home again
Remember I told you,
I'm gonna show you
What I'm gonna do to make it right
I gave it my life I worked and I cried
I'll share it all with
Abstract Nexion
Echoes of reminiscence pounding inside
Silence is screaming my name
Screaming your name
Have you ever met your Demon...?
7th Portal Connection
Transformation's wormhole unveils an alien maelstrom
Beyond reckoning
A sun spreading its rays in multiple tones
And spectres emerging from chasms of light
Overwhelming hydrogenous stellar art
Deep black gateways lead to untrodden plains
Beyond the furthest nebulae
Eerie corridors into immeasurable destinations
No regret.
No looking back.
Never question.
Where hierarchies were found
We met the structures veiled to life.
All the grief as stone, cold as the night.
Sharpened light, bleeding the sun
In seas revolving inorganic cycles.
Eyes wide open absorb the wave of conception
And the mouth bond to lies replicates
The horror of mankind.
Transition begins.
I drain the abyss.
Forging a dying planet
With the demons in my head.
Travelling in this admirable tunnel
Words pull the trigger in vectors
Constructing reality from a third point of view.
Regardless your efforts, everything changes
Time cycles yet never returns
Storms generate aeons while peace brings nothingness
War-force conception, the deity of destruction
Make humanity share the pain inflicted upon itself
Self-deluded dreamers disintegrate,
They drown in grimness, and with them, their dreams.
My roots may have driven their souls dry
But my branches had already touched the stars...
Mayhap your sterile mind and body ever get a hold of the truth
You depend on us for your existence
Time cycles yet never returns...
Hither am I
In Astral Plains of Trance
As untouchable to you as the stars above
Attempt against us, and confusion shall take over...
I don't wanna be hurt
I just want to be little old me
Shouldn't have to think
Who am I suppose to be today
And what give you the right
To tell me who I should be
Who gave you that right
Cause I, I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am
I know you want the best
Yeah only good things for me
But you have to realize
I can be all these things you project on me
Cause I'm beautiful to me
Doesn't that mean a thing
I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am
I need that to be enough for you
Need that to be enough for you
Cause it's enough for me
It's enough for me
I'm I suppose to give up everything I am
Just to make you happy
I thought I was the one you
Always wanted me to be
It turns out I'm just little old me
I'm just little old me
And that's fine by me
Cause I, I am lovely
Just the way that I am
Oh yes I am,
Yes I am lovely
The way that I am
I am lovely lovely
l thought I was so damn smart
Must've had a bullseye on my heart
But you can bet I'll know better next time
I thought you were heaven sent
I thought you had the best intentions
But it was only a facade and now I know
So I guess it's crash and learn
Everybody has their turn to love and burn
So baby don't change a thing
You can keep your dime store wings
And that COUNTERFEIT HALO
Well you should have a Golden Globe
and take an Academy Award home
You're self-directed self-produced and self-cast in the
starring role
But that hero smile can't hide your villain eyes
anymore
So I guess it's crash and learn
Everybody has their turn to love and burn
So baby don't change a thing
You can keep your dime store wings
And that COUNTERFEIT HALO
Running, Flying, Falling, Silent, Screaming, Calling,
Mending, Breaking, Still Alive
So I guess it's crash and learn
Everybody has their turn to love and burn
So I guess it's crash and learn
Everybody has their turn to love and burn
So baby don't change a thing
You can keep your dime store wings
I am not responsible
for the shattered tapestry
everything was painted up on me
the shadow of a broken past
compromise my innocence
now I'm left with dots that don't connect
(Chorus)
so I try to drown my pride
with every tear I've cried
but it's been tattooed on me
and i try to wash my hands
of every expectation
thats been colored on me
i don't know what more i can do
i gave you everything i could
still you look at me like damaged goods
just let it go don't you complain
you're the reason i'm this way
i wish this thing could go away
(Chorus)
so I try to drown my pride
with every tear I've cried
but it's been tattooed on me
and i try to wash my hands
of every expectation
thats been colored on me
it's colored on me
break me, teach me, tattoo my skin
hold me, leave me, tattoo my skin
(Chorus)
I try to drown my pride
with every tear I've cried
but it's been tattooed on me
and i try to wash my hands
of every expectation
thats been colored on me
(Chorus)
so I try to drown my pride
with every tear I've cried
but it's been tattooed on me
and i try to wash my hands
of every expectation
thats been colored on me
i'ts colored on me
There’s no ice on the ocean
As the waves crash on my feet
No chill in the atmosphere
Like you said there’d be
No frozen highway
Don’t need the chains you left for me
Cuz there’s no truth in your forecast
About the day that you would leave
Cuz It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
There’s always someone here
To tell you that they love you
When others disappear
It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
Cause I’m still here -
I’m still here
I don’t need a weatherman
To warn me of the storm
Cuz I felt it growing closer
In the calm right before
And as the clouds are filling up the sky
The rain feels warm to me
Cuz It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
There’s always someone here
To tell you that they love you
When others disappear
It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
Cause I’m still here
I’m still here
If the seasons pass
And nothing lasts
And your world turns dark and blue
Know the sun is always shining here for you
Cuz It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
There’s always someone here
To tell you that they love you
When others disappear
It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
There’s always someone here
To tell you that they love you
And I won’t disappear
It’s never COLD IN CALIFORNIA
Cause I’m still here
I’m still here
