~ The predator has NO INSIGHT forever & ever & ever. This will NEVER change no matter what.... ~ Example after I replied via a very brief email shredding him: "Now I know you are alive, and doing fine it seems.That is a big relief to me. And this is likely our last communication. You were important to me, more than you knew, it seems. But I do have one major bone to leave you with. You always let on that you are morally superior . . .To everyone. Same crap in “Habitable.” Unfortunately, I lived something different with you. I always thought of you as the poor little rich girl. Your (family was XYZ), you said. But your Dad was always friendly to me. Fact: you always slept till noon, and I got tired. Very tired. And I would bet that, even now, you are living on inheritance from your father. Who worked like a dog. Why did I go dancing with (woman's name)? Because you didn’t come when everyone, including me, thought I was having a heart attack. You sent your father instead. Yes, that supposed (XYZ). My crime was. Oh, I went dancing with (woman's name). Because when you didn’t come, I knew it was time to take care of myself. Dancing is good for me." ~ In this (above) delusional, projecting, gaslighting, lying, fully deceptive email communication the predator attempts to lure me back in for his sick agenda is. He projects himself - his delusions - his false image onto me, he gaslights me regarding reality & he attempts to place blame on me. He seeths jealousy & rejection based narcissistic injury. He seeks to make me feel vulnerable, hinting at my family truths like he knows what he is talking about when he clearly does not while he attacks my sleep & work/lifestyle habits as if it ever was his business. He is oblivious to reality wherein I worked as a professional horse trainer, helped run my parent's ranch, ran a youth outreach program, & attended college classes full-time or near full time simultaneously despite having a severe genetic illness, which rendered me frail fluctuating between having little immune system & autoimmune illness plus numerous heart defects, which additionally rendered me physically frail. At another point I also did all of the previously listed & worked for an employer (graveyard-shift). He, on the other hand, had no real medical issues though he tried to manipulate with typical predator "going to the hospital" games. He was never given real medicine for a serious issue, etc. Please note that in my shredding him emails I did NOT provide him with any personal info nor did I in any manner imply I was alright or not alright. Thus even his opening statement is based 100% on blind ignorant delusional thinking on his part. My initial & my following shredding emails (replies) were NOT chatty & gave him NO info about my life or about me. Even in my reply to this (above email from him) I gave him NO info about me.. ~ His continued totally delusional reply to my email reply in which I shredded him completely: "I’m sorry I wrote “The Record.” I didn’t realize it then, but I was being defensive. I was trying to make peace with myself . . . over losing you. If I can’t have the grapes, they must be at least somewhat sour.Since I expected it to be our last communication, I should have just said what I guess didn’t want to face: You were the love of my life. And I will always miss you. And hold your memory dear." ~ This predator remains 100% delusional, zero insight, into what he did to me & to his other victims. He was not even able to discern having sexual relations with the other woman he mentioned was the least of his deranged sins. In fact, considering the reality of what my "relationship" with him was at the time his cheating was NOT his looming act of deranged wrong-doing. In a reasonably normal relationship I posit cheating IS a horrific betrayal, whether the victim is having relations with the cheater or not, but in an abusive "relationship the cheating is the least of the victim's problems with the predator. Nonetheless, this unraveled decompensated predator is clueless to even these basic variables & his description of what I caught him doing with the woman was also a blatant LIE as I actually caught him engaged in sexual behavior with her -- either way, as bad as that was that was NOT the abuse I left him over.... ~ It is noteworthy to add that I did not reply to his nonsense expecting honesty, insight or closure from him. I had long ago come to comprehend what he was & always will be. I had long ago spoken with his other victims. Thus I knew he was/is/will always be a pure malignant narcissist/psychopath. Etc. Communication or replying to this kind of predator IS giving him narcissistic supply. Even negative replies give him narcissistic supply from the victim. ~ I highly recommend other victims maintain NO CONTACT & thus completely refrain from gracing predatory garbage with acknowledgement/a reply no matter what the predator states....

• published: 25 Feb 2015
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