For the first time in my life
I let myself be held
Like a big old baby
I surrender to your charity
I lay back in the tall grass
And let the ants cover me
I let the jets fly, I'm wishing for their destruction
Born to black in a perfect blue sky
For the first time in my life
I am moving away, moving away, moving away
From within the reach of me
Two months is too little, they let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we?d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We?re asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it?s unfair
This is what it means to be held
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We?d be held
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We?d be held
If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait for one hour
Watching for our Savior
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell