Deep in the dark of the forest came calls of sound from the wolverine
As they danced their wicked dance round the fire in a dead trance
Raising the chalice to the night darkly seek to their own delight
Sacrifice to the only son saving blood sip it one by one
Cleansing the altar awaiting the prize the virgin clad whiter than snow
Holding the mass and presenting the cross pointed inverted below
Doubles the blade in the cold and blessed night holds it above to be marked
Hammering down in the soft flesh below ripping and tearing the heart
Oh lord of this limbionic state take the prize we deliver to the gate
Cloven the demons cloak ascends from the earth this being never ends
As they fall to their knees and prey as the night reimburse the day
Colder than any mortal thing his hands stretch to infinity
All encompassing the flock there's no life in here any more
Deeper than hades he brings to his side the man who presented the mass
Questioning nothing the high priest is drawn kneels to his master's request
Talking his left hand and passing it slow he ponders the mortal before
Swiftly he moves and faster than hell he tears out this lunatics soul
Oh lord of this limbionic state take the prize we deliver to the gate
Cleansing the altar awaiting the prize the virgin clad whiter than snow
Holding the mass and presenting the cross pointed inverted below
Doubles the blade in the cold and blessed night holds it above to be marked
Hammering down in the soft flesh below ripping and tearing the heart
Oh lord of this limbionic state take this prize we deliver to the gate
Deep in the dark of the forest came calls of sound from the wolverine
[Instrumental]
Sweet little Sarah, dressed in innocence
Trying hard to hide the tears running down her face
Sweet little Sarah, all scared inside
In the middle of a nightmare, wide awake...
Though a long time ago, the memories are all so vivid...
The girl they all knew is fading away
She's turning black inside
Victim of indifference and betrayal
A mere shadow of her past
Crawling beneath the feet of our world
Inside her scream the echoes of them laughing
She's got nowhere to run or hide
Look at her porcelain eyes, they're breaking
Oh, she is breaking!
Right here, beneath the feet of our ignorance
"Scream for us, bleed for us
make your way into yourself"
"Crawl away, hide away
turn around and see us laugh"
(Let us break those porcelain eyes
And pound our words right through your skull)
"Pour your life into wide open hands,
and see it soak into the ground"
(Let us tear that young heart out
And watch it die before our eyes)
"Close your eyes
lie down and prepare to
My life is born in pain
Pain weaves fragile threads into dreams,
Skies that are annihilated by
The infinity of the galaxy
Infinity, man's unsolved riddle in eternity
But the fairytale of our life
That became reality
Will never be destroyed
Our hands tied together
For a harsh life
When we met on a cold winter's night
Where only stars witnessed our happiness
Lay three red roses on my grave
They are for you once you follow me
Then I will wait by the gate
Which I was denied in my youth
The roses are three words
Upon a cold floor in a filthy room
In a river of blood she cries...
The truth in your eyes promised me
A life far away from yesterday
In you I see the future...
In our special place we will build our own dream
You're the moon in my deep blue sky
Through the darkest of nights
Your light spreads across my land
On my fields we'll stand hand in hand
Oh, so we are both night and day
We'll watch the winter snow unite with the summer rain
During times of our yesterday we will find a way to look ahead
Through the darkness, our past darkness, we will stand hand in hand
And we'll be there together as one...
Come with me and leave the rain behind, I will carry you
Sheltered by our love we'll leave yesterday
Time won't exist as we're heading for an eternity
Flying through the unknown skies painted in the beauty of you and I...
Breathing a pleasant silence tonight
The sound of your breath carries the light
You're what I was put here for
And finally I know just how to smile
You're the moon in my deep blue sky
Through the darkest of nights
Your light spreads across my land
On my fields we'll stand hand in hand
Our love will be our lifelong map
And our road will lead us to eternity...
Come with me and leave the rain behind, I will carry you
Upon a cold floor in a filthy room
In a river of blood she cries... she cries
And artwork of pain
And the brushstrokes are red
Fighting the emptiness
That is slowly consuming her soul
Fighting for her consciousness...
Looking for the answers...
Trying to remember...
"How I've longed for this... for my loneliness to die
There's no need to be afraid the enemy has been slain today"
"All this trust I found keeps me hanging on to life
There's a place I never saw hidden deep inside myself"
There's so much more to this than what she knows
She fails to see the truth through served
The blind led by a blind into despair
Despair dressed in a vow of joy...
"Free a last... I've found some of my own kind
Inside out, upside down...
Reality is killing me
It's all a blur and it's moving fast
Doing 95, still I end up last
No time to stop or even slow down
Expectations are far too high
My machinery got to keep spinning around
('Round and around)
Won't you listen to me once, only once
There is no way for me to be everywhere
I know you're sad but I hope you're waiting
Time is not a friend these days so please understand!
(Inside out, upside down
Reality is killing me
It's all a blur and it's moving fast
Doing 95, still I end up last)
No time to stop or even slow down
Expectations are far too high
My machinery got to keep spinning around
('Round and around)
As I race through my life, I am crying
For I know what I'm losing
Helpless I look away
Running from his past life, still trying to forget it
But now today has come here to slow him while he's running
The challenge of remembering the things that are important
It seems to be the ending of something he was winning
A young boy meets the grown world, a grown man meets the memories
A fact that leads to losing the one thing that's important
His loved one waits a long time but that can't be forever
And when the dance is over he finds himself so lonely and weak
(My life's truth must be unseen as
I race through the now at full speed)
As I raced through my life, I was crying
I knew what I was losing
Helpless I looked away
Now my life's cold and barren again
I'm the child from my past life
I've opened up my scars, I've released my past life
I've surrendered to a rain that speaks of a coming storm
Looking back, did I ever know how to look at life and how to appreciate it?
Guess I was lost in a time of taking things for granted and not looking around
I was lost in myself, oh, so lost in myself
So today I'm left on my own, my recent days have all been the same
My sanity will soon be consumed by this loneliness
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
Standing at the door to a place of my own
I will not ask of you, what you asked of me
I'll hide away from all the reaching hands
So that my past will remain untold
I don't need your helping hands
I'm sure I will find my way back
Like a raging storm, my past keeps coming on
Like a thousand daggers, my memories pierce me
My body and soul unite in pain
It all keeps increasing, all up until it is suddenly gone
The storm may be gone but it's not for long, it speaks to me
I'm granted just a short embrace of rest and peace
I've lost the race against my past
It's come for me laughing, to make me pay at last
Still all those years speak to me
I'll never open up and bare my shame to you
I've opened up the door to a place of my own
I did not ask of you, what you asked of me
I'll hide away from all the reaching hands
So that my past will remain untold
All through the years I've been walking alone
Except for the love that brought light in my life
I'll spare her this me and leave on my own
With the door closed behind me...
Was it all a mistake?
Should I have listened to you?
All of those helping hands
I kind of miss them now
I'll be here, waiting for the hours to pass
Watching the days I crave slip through my hands
Caught in here, licked in while my foes raise the glass
Smiling as my empty glass fills up with sand
Wait... don't run from me...
Wait... show yourself to me...
All I am slowly dies within this cold cell
Guilty of a crime made up, the jury was me
Help... you fade from me...
Help... can you throw me the key?
Why... can't I leave? Tell me...
Why... do I lock myself in?
I drink the sand I though I would walk
And all I ever dreamt dies in a desert
Slowly fading... slowly fading...
Caught in a grim world where dreams turn to sand
Everything dies under the sun at noon
Then the dark of evening buries the remains in it's tomb
Help... I fade from you...
Help... can you reach me your hand?
Though I drink the sand of indifference
Hope still remains like a vague smell of rain
I drink the sand I thought I would walk
And ll I ever dreamt dies in a desert
Slowly fading... slowly fading...
I drink the sand I though I would walk
And all I ever dreamt dies in a desert
This insecure state... a constant struggle
There's someone inside you staring back at me
Is it this sleepy town, or is it just me?
Is it just me?
Is it just me?
I'm choking myself inside these walls
A never-ending road as never-ending as me
Is it these concrete walls, or is it just me?
Is it this sleepy town, or is it just me?
Is it just me?
Is it just me?
Is it just me?
Is it just me?
Is it this sleepy town?
ou would hide a face of pain
Laugh at all the hurt before you
Nothing would cloud your smile
You were stronger than me
When she graced your life you changed
Past erased by a new-found presence
Walls that you once had built
Fell when she arrived
There came a beast, tore out your heart
Drained your blood while I watched
Before my eyes, you were destroyed
Left me there on my own
At times I did think you’d heal
When I saw the strength in your eyes
That glimpse would bring me hope
A beacon in the night
Soon hope would fade and you’d fall apart
Fallen angel of mine
Before our eyes, you were destroyed
Left us there on our own
Fell down, fell down
I reached out for your light
Failed to stay strong
As you let go of life
Not sure that time will heal
All the pain and hurt we suffered
Still, now is far from then
Nurtured by her laughter
Caged in your heart, striving to be
The beast will always haunt you
Wounds of the past shall bleed again
But you will heal by our side
Fell down, fell down
I reached out for your light
Failed to stay strong
As you let go of life
Failed to stay strong
Slowly her blood will kill him
Dying upon the leaves of poison
Body and mind
Helpless I watch him leave us
Lurking in utter darkness
Hiding from his past and his pride
Sadly I’ve been where you are so I know that
All the things you think you know and
All the things you say you love are just
Lullabies at night, echoes of her lies
You don’t see it, pretend you’re blind
You’re afraid of what you might find
You need her poison to numb your mind
A victim of her barren soil…
Don’t fear your own conviction
Don’t be a remnant of her craving
Distinguish life from lies
I know you hurt just the way she hurts
I know she cries just the way you cry
But what you never share is that one smile
Trust me; I’ve been where you are so I know that
All the things you think you know and
All the things you say you love are just
Lullabies at night, echoes of her cries
Don’t live her lie, you’re not blind
No need to fear what you will find
Drain her poison out of your mind
How come I don' know where to go?
It seems all I've ever knows is gone
My dream has finally ended
After this there's nothing more for me
All my life I've been waiting but now there's nothing more to wish for
I spent all my years just longing for this one final dream to come true
Opportunities turned to chains of need
Now it seems I've finally lost my wish for more
All my life I've been waiting but now there's nothing more to wish for
Just when she thought that things couldn't get much worse
Just when she thought that things would get better
It all returns with reinforcements from home
Now, driven away by her flesh and blood
All that is left is a growing distrust
Wrapped in despair and raped emotion...
She cries to Him...
"Why won't you save me? Why won't you help me?
With every ounce of me I hope that you will come
And save me or just help me
Because deep inside my heart I still believe in you"
The weight of her sorrow is putting her soul to rest
The pounding of her heart deafens her perception
She's walking astray, lost within the maze of her mind
Like the break of a morning, they appear to her
Just like snowflakes in beautiful winter
They're making sure that she's alright
Far from the pain and suffering
"Why wouldn't you save me? Why wouldn't you help me?
With every ounce of me I hoped that you would come
And save me or just help me...
Because deep inside my heart I did believe in you"
"You made me despise you by crushing my faith in you
But when no one else would care for me, they were there
They spared me the pain and allowed me to breathe again
Through all these years the truth has been a stranger to me
We met many times but never got to know each other
I was used and fed with lies by who I thought were you
I left my way of life to be all you said were true
Now all this sadness washes over me and I feel like I'm drowning
I tried to call for help but the only thing I could feel was misery...
I did now want to walk alone through this barren wasteland
You turned your back on me when I reached out
It's all clear to me, it's you who choose to leave us here
There's no use in looking back since I know you won't appear
"I am the lord thy god..."
Blindly I would follow you as you preached to me your truth
I climber your mountain a million times
I was told I needed you to behold your enlightened view
I know now there is nothing there to see
I renounce your divinity
Slowly I woke up, slowly I saw
The lies you told faded away
A water was rising, the water was truth
It washed away the dirt of you as it washed away all that was true
Now all this sadness washes over me and I feel like I'm drowning
I've tried to call for help but the only thing I can feel is misery...
I hope that sadness washes over you and you find yourself drowning
And when you call for help from the ones you hurt
Sadly aware I’m part of what I concider nothing
Suffocating us while we pretend we’re blind
Before tired eyes, those who cling to nothing
We embrace the echoes of our hollow souls
Values of life have changed currency somehow
Pockets lined with greed and shallow smiles of need
Somewhere we lost sight of who we are
Now more is more, less is nothing
All we need is ‘need’, a glass full of ‘me’
As we toast to madness we find fulfillment in
All this wealth is deafening, deafening our minds
As we all stray further into the great nothing…
(Here’s to health, here’s to wealth)
Corroded, corrupted… I sell my soul again
(Here’s to health, here’s to wealth)
Infected, dissected… I sell myself and die
Trapped in my addiction, outside looking in
The sound of silence, colours fade to grey
My remorse is not enough, I have gone too far
I’ve reached the end of my winding road
Now that I’ve bared my weakness to you
I beg of you to hear me; never follow me
See how my fragile shell is breaking
I beg of you to see me, see the great King Nothing
(Here’s to health, here’s to wealth)
Corroded, corrupted… I sell my soul again
(Here’s to health, here’s to wealth)
Infected, dissected… I sell myself and die
(Here’s to health, here’s to wealth)
Corroded, corrupted… I sell my soul again
(Here’s to health, here’s to wealth)
All these changes I’ve been wanting
Greet my morning and I’m thinking
Am I a blessed one? How did I get this far?
Could it be that I’m a changed man and that I’m finally breaking free?
Free from all of my illusions that I would never be enough
Could it be that I’m just fine the way I’ve always been?
Could it be that I’m alright despite the flaws that I’ve seen and lived…
I’ve been hiding for a lifetime
Never wanted to be found but
Somehow I dared to be more than I thought I was
The life I lived in silence was my padded prison cell
I would never find a way back as far as I could tell
It was all so still… I was all so still…
I remember how I stumbled towards
A tranquil fate of living by the will of others
I waited for something much more…
I waited for something much more…
I waited for something much more…
Don’t live afraid… Don’t live ashamed…
All the things we do when no one is watching
All the things we say when no one listens
In times of solitude we find ourselves...
I think it's funny, I think it's kind of sad that we lose control
The way that people always seem to fall when they say "hello"
Until "goodbye" ends the lie
All the things we feel with people beside us
All the thoughts we think when someone listens
In times of multitude we hide ourselves...
Some people fight it, some people do not care, if they lose control
And some embrace it, the way they always fall when they say "hello"
But still "goodbye" ends the lie and fades their smile
We are all in hiding, protecting what's inside
We are all just hiding, afraid to bare ourselves
Afraid to be...
A smile won't break me, a cry won't kill me
But still I'm hiding, deep inside me
The strength escapes me, I can't be set free
I'm trapped and feeling lonely...
Why can't I just be me?
We are all in hiding, protecting what's inside
We are all just hiding, afraid to bare ourselves
Afraid to be...
You changed all that I am
Once you opened your eyes
Right there I turned off the world
And then there were you and I
Whole again, you have defined who I am
Innocence helps me retain what I am
One breath was all they required
To deprive us all of our bliss
Right there I saw you were lost
And there wouldn’t be another “us”
I fell and I fell, into a dark and bottomless pit
Darkness embraced my whole world
I’ll trade you my life, spare you my heart
Without you I still would be lost, I’d drown in an ocean
I am you, you are me, we cannot part
A future’s embrace clad with hope is ours…
Slowly dark clouds dispersed
Offered a passage of life
And they gave us a reason to carry on
What we believed wouldn’t be suddenly was
I’ll trade you my life, spare you my heart
Without you I still would be lost, I’d drown in an ocean
I am you, you are me, we cannot part
A future’s embrace clad with hope is ours…
Dark clouds will shadow the roads we’ll be walking
And questions will challenge our minds and our hopes
But I’m sure that devotion and faith will make darkness subside
The beast inside you feeds on your insecurity
It thrives on remnants of the fear from behind all alone
You are lost in his dungeon, you stumble and bleed
The smell of blood upon the wakes his need to feed
I'm waiting for the other side while you hide
I'll try to stay here for a while if you like
A single-scented breeze is from where he draws his breath
The richness of her colours incites his need of death
I've waited on the other side for some time
I'll try to stay here for a while if you like
Your wounds are aching, your mind is breaking
The world is changing and you're still bleeding
You'll have to face the fears that led you this far astray
Open your mind and slay the beast inside it's own lair
(No wounds remain... the hurting's gone)
Bring this dream to life and wake up to the light of her colours
(You found the way... your heart is home again...)
Let the hatred go and let me show you the way home again
Caught in that pit of darkness, I fear a never ending wait
Something about your weakness leaves you blind of all your bleeding wounds
Your wounds are aching, your mind is breaking
The world is changing and you're still bleeding
Your wounds are aching, your mind is breaking
Worn out eyes revealing an old and tired mind
Battered through years and years of merciless abuse
Facing this assault of ours is tearing me apart
Watching the soil of her slowly turn to dust
I hear her cries... screams of torment heard by none
I watch her die... signs of death are all around...
Everything we dared to hope is lost and so are we
Don't you see that all we had is lost in this search for more?
I stare into a mirror of shame and shattered pride
Feeling the heart of man drain itself of blood
Smash the mirror and try to see the other side
But all that I find is the wall we stand behind
I hear her cries... signs of death are all around...
All the years we never cared resound and leave her numb
Ain't no way for her to hide and flee her dying fate
If I could change you, if I could heal your bleeding wounds I should...
If I could change you, if I could heal your bleeding wounds I would...
But words are not enough
Wake up and face tomorrow now before we find our dreams a nightmare
And she slowly dies...
If I could change you, if I could heal your bleeding wounds I should...
If I could change you, if I could heal your bleeding wounds I would...
If I could change you, if I could heal your bleeding wounds I should...
Music:S.Zell/M.Zell/M.Losbjer Lyrics:S.Zell
An old wooden bridge covered with the precense of fall
And there I stood, I dared not cross, afraid to lose it all
Beneath the promise of a quiet place frightened me
But now the wind has spoken again and marked the trail I could
Not see
And through the mist she calls my name, the one that leads me
And when I feel the falling rain, she shelters me from pain
Sometimes the memories return and once again I am lost
In that shrouded place
I'm staring down into the still water
So black
Then through the mist she calls my name, the one that leads me
And when I feel the falling rain, she shelters me from pain
Almost like whispers on the wind
She carries my soul and I fall to my knees
My past slowly drifts away
So that life can turn to day
Don't need to say a word
(Silence can be gold)
From moments have I learned
(Change is what she'll hold)
And through the mist she calls my name, the one that leads me
And when I feel the falling rain, she shelters me again
Don't need to say a word 'cause silence can be gold
From moments have I learned, change is what she'll hold
6-9-1-9-6...
Music:M.Zell Lyrics:S.Zell/M.Losbjer
Your face etched in my mind
Replaces all my control
Turned to more than grief
The loss of his life inhaled
My dream, to dream again
Help me, stranger take my hand
And when hope speaks to him
The promise turns to a lie
All his life he's been looking for a life
All his life he's been searching for a light
All the pain inside shows on the outside
And he still tries to complete the last of his dreams Crusifixion just erased my tries
Science fiction may bring me back to my life
My face etched in your mind?
My fate laid in your hands?
There in his mind she lies
But in his heart it is right
I'll try, try to break through
Your walls of self deceit
Still he'll try, find a way
A guide to take him away
More than grief, no belief
More than grief, self deceit
Words and music:S.Zell
There in her eyes I can see the fire burn
And the warmth of her smile means so much
Music:S.Zell/M.Zell Lyrics:S.Zell
Without her precense my eyes tell lies to me
And all those memories resound in my deranged and battered mind
This suffocating illusion tears my mind
And the remains of the truth
Pictures of her wrapped in lust and craving arms of men
The echoes of their pleasure run through my head
She's led astray and fooled some way
Again and again...
By specious smiles of those I wish were dead
The warmth of laughter fills the night
Then turn to echoes of eagerness, oh, it can't go on
A fictive scenery unfolded in my eyes
Are all these laughter and cries
Created out of lies
Oh, come take my hand
I am lost without your guiding light
And I need you to save me from darkness
I will always be there for you
I promise I'll stay
Pictures of her wrapped in lust and craving arms of men
The echoes of their pleasure run through my head
I'm led astray and fooled some way
Again and again...
By specious thoughts of mine I wish were dead
Music:S.Zell/M.Losbjer/M.Zell Lyrics:S.Zell
Echoes from the past lingers
Through my head... again
Days turned to years and
Years turned to love
I thought I had lost you
I thought you'd lost me too
Silence told me you name
When I was slowly going insane
Carried me away
Into the day... Is there still time to say the words
Is there still life in those enchanted eyes
All the faded memories, they come back to me
A play of silence, before my eyes
You gave me memories and you gave me life
All my sadness, was swept away.
Dancing close to maybe
Through marble halls of me
Years turned to days and
Days turned to love... again?
All the faded memories, they come back to me
A play of silence, before my eyes
You gave me memories and you gave me life
All my sadness was swept away
A time, a hope, a place, a love, a start, a work
A mold, a change, a move, a pin, a fight
A loss, a turn, a light, a birth, an end...
Walked into a house of plague
The infection everywhere
At first disguised by hollow warmth
Then unleashed upon us
Save us all your prayers
Save us all your smiles
Save us all your words and hand to us the truth...
Awaiting the answers you chose to turn into vengeance
Without them we'll never turn the page
And forged about you and your house of plague
Amidst the chaos of our wills
You brought an end to all that was
We stared into a void
Fed up with taste of greed
And though we've walked a world since then
The echoes of your deeds remain
Walked into a house of plague
We were never to return
Save us all your prayers
Save us all your smiles
Save us all your words and hand to us the truth...
Awaiting the answers you chose to turn into vengeance
Without them we'll never turn the page
And forged about you and your house of plague
Are we ever to return and leave that cold light behind us?
[Instrumental]
There’s a war inside you
And I can’t escape the ground
I’m losing my lifeline
Because you just can’t face the truth
Your face deceives me
You tie me with your words
Fall on your own stones
But still it’s my mistake
Forgive me… Forgive me for your sins…
I want to ease your pain
But you turn your head away
I found you in your rain
But you can’t find me
This stupid game we’re playing
You know we both will lose
Locking all your doors
No one gets in, no one gets out
Please release the rope that holds me
So I can reach your mind
There’s something holding me
Oh, there’s someone holding me
Forgive me… Forgive me for your words…
I want to ease your pain
But you turn your head away
I found you in your rain
But you can’t find me
I want to ease your pain
But you turn your head away
I found you in your rain
But you can’t find me
I want to ease your pain…
I found you in your rain…
I want to ease your pain…
I found you in your rain
Lonely in a void where people are dying to live
Weary of the stories that unfold before my eyes
A clenched fist can feel so strong
A lion’s heart unable to break
Though a fire burns inside
These fates are not for this lion to decide upon
Tied to a leash poisoned by untruth
Entangled in the web of a distant order
The iron hand has the lightest touch
Caresses the shells of the hollow and cold
See wind carry dust of withering lives
I see towers collapse to the ground
I lose you, just the way that you lost me
I tie myself up as much as you refuse to set me free
It seems inevitable, it always was and always will be
We were always destined to belong to everyone else
I lose you, just the way that you lost me
I tie myself up as much as you refuse to set me free
It seems inevitable, it always was and always will be
"Finally I've paid the price I always knew I'd had to pay
And with all these visions of my past surrounding me
It's no question why
I never dared to ask myself why I should let them feed on me
I chose the easy way of hiding deep inside and flee"
"This aching pain inside of me is something I must learn to live
No confessions will undo my sins; I destroyed my life and the one within
If only I had dared back then to reach inside and trust my strength
I never knew I had it in me or was it I refused to see?"
Reality has finally shattered all of her innocence
All she was and lived has now come crashing upon her
She once had such porcelain eyes, sadly unable to see through the lies
"Here, tied with my sin and my pain, it's all so clear to me
I see now that life, as I knew it, was just a lie covered in shame"
"Still that lie is a part of me, am I really able to break free?
I'm afraid this craving will be my cell, the place my soul will be laid to rest
Will I dare to face the enemy, take control and set me free?
Or take the easy way of hiding deep inside and flee?"
Reality has finally shattered all of here innocence
All she was and lived has now come crashing upon her
She once had such porcelain eye, sadly unable to see through the lies
"Here, tied with my sin and my pain, it's all so clear to me
I see now that life, as I knew it, was just a lie covered in shame
But still, wise from the truth, can I leave the place I called my own?
It all just slipped away although
I tried so hard to hold on
And all those times we failed echo through this loss of mine
I find it kind of strange that though I've been through this before
The pain is just as great when alone with a just a bleeding heart
Bleeding the blood of the life we shared
Leaving me here with a cold, black stare
This cold heart of mine, once a trusted shrine
Now only holds contempt
All I thought would be turned into debris
Crushed by the weight of a craving need
Thoughts of another me, cut through this cold heart of mine
But the torment of losing me is greater that losing you
I find myself immersed in a weakness that I've feared for so long
An uninvited guest that has stalked me through the alleys of my mind
I need to turn around and fight the man I so despise
I need to heal these wounds and revive this cold heart of mine
Thoughts of another me, cut through this cold heart of mine
But the torment of losing me is greater that losing you
Just a brief leap of air o moments rest in this frantic quest
Proud to stand but he remains... lurking in the shadows...
Waiting for a chance to strike again and to make me pay with myself
Thoughts of another me, cut through this cold heart of mine
But the torment of losing me is greater that losing you
I need to defeat my foe is growing in this heart of mine
Now that I've lost you and failed in every way,
And I've given the last of faith to chance
It tears my soul to face my failure
And to know what it finally ended in...
Here I am, lost but so much wiser than I ever was before
Through the pain of the price I paid to open my eyes
I am reminded to keep myself chained to the wall of life
Losing you was to be my final redemption...
All this warmth present in this one place of fear and pain
Makes me think that black and white could easily melt into one
So kind and gentle is the touch of the ones I used to fear
Please grant me strength to face my saviours, take their hands and offer my confession
Here I am, lost but so much wiser than I ever was before
And though I'm lost, led astray by me, I'm on my way back home...
Through the pain of the price I paid to open my eyes
I am reminded to keep myself chained to the wall of life
Everywhere that I look I stare into misery
I am reminded to stay on the road that I left so long ago
(N.Loke /A.& W. van de Leygraaf /R.van Eldijk /R.Schreuder)
I drift from the clouds and descend to a castle hidden by time...
Above me flies a winged warrior of justice
Given to me... A child, a king, the story of Kane
I am the master, the master of time and of war
I'll train those who are strong to be invincible
The kingdom has no ruler, the kingdom has no rules
Destiny will find the mightiest and the weak
...and the chariot spikes grinding down
Desolate strangers will come forth and bleed
They won't heed the warning 'till the throne's overthrown
Fourteen years of learning and still there is no peace
Only Kane will survive the famon and disease
...the master of cold, cold steel
Someday we'll fight for the way of the world
No more painful beginnings
Someday we'll take what is ours and we'll win
The child of fire and deepest dreams
All those years of madness has brought no change
I see, the light, taking over the rage
Behold, grab hold, the light of the flame
The war, the throne, it belongs to Kane
And now is the moment we have waited for
The child is blessed with strenght and war, he's twenty-four
All muscle and all wisdom, but no fear
Warriors will never get the change to be strong
...as Kane smiles the hammer falls
Gladiators, warriors will all fall to Kane
Swordsman won't even see the light of day 'nor nights
Ten last years of training, now he wears the crown
Only those of justice will survive eternity
...hardened steel and irony
Someday we'll fight for the way of the world
No more painful beginnings
Someday we'll take what is ours and we'll win
The child of fire and deepest dreams
All those years of madness has brought no change
I see, the light, taking over the rage
Behold, grab hold, the light of the flame
The war, the throne, it belongs to Kane
There he stands, among the rest but still far above
Speaking to her with words unknown, reaching deep within
Lead astray by those who judge they finally find what they seek
Dancing through the life they thought they would never find
"Please be careful when you touch
You see, I've never been on this trip before"
"I'll show you a place you didn't think existed
I'll be your guide and shoulder to lean on
Just let go of your fears and surrender to the fire
Together we'll feed the flames of our passion"
Over and over again he unleashes his fire upon her
But the hunger he feeds it just craves for more
All she can take is barely enough
When the fever inside is taking control
All she may have is what she will take no matter the pain she'll not end up outside again
.. (The flames keep getting) higher and higher, higher and higher...
Lost and carefree, afloat on life they feed on the flames
Reality seems just like a dream and the dreams like reality
They're further away from their own yesterday than they ever been before
Further astray not parting night from day, leading stars of a pantomime
They're caught in their play as a life builds inside
Aroused in the act he doesn't know what she hides
Standing amazed by this gift from above
Could it possibly be that He's graced her with love?
But the question remains and it cuts through her heart
Will it strengthen their love or tear them apart?
There in his eyes his anger runs wild
(N.Loke /A.& W. van de Leygraaf)
>From a time in a land, when the chief took a stand
The dog's eyes are peering, from a mist like a band
Though young and alone, hearts beating like a drum
His family sacrificed, now war has just begun...
I desire, more than foolish pride
I desire, the world by my side
No more tears for tomorrow, the beast is on your trail
One down hearts burning sorrow, two to go, we shall prevail
There's a beast and a demon, locked up in one
Now his soul is gone, but the deed is never done
Tell a tale of nonsense, as the beast, he looks on
Riddle him with passion, then you wish you were gone
I desire, more than foolish pride
I desire, the world by my side
No more tears for tomorrow, the beast is on your trail
One down hearts burning sorrow, two to go, we shall prevail
>From a time in a land, when the chief took a stand
The dog's eyes are peering, from a mist like a band
Though young and alone, hearts beating like a drum
His family sacrificed, now war has just begun...
I desire, more than foolish pride
I desire, the world by my side
No more tears for tomorrow, the beast is on your trail
Well, I'm not really sure where you came from
And I don't care to go, where that is
But there's something about you, honey
That scares me, yet secretly drives me insane
I can see why the gypsy warned me,
Your bad news I've never felt before
A part of me wants to posses you,
But I feel a warning as the sunset falls
The nightforce is evil, the nightforce is evil
She's got the power that I just can't see
And I don't know what she wants with me
I'm just a man to weak, to weak to retreat
And I know that confidence won't help me now
Why can't she just be heaven's angel
Why would she want to hurt me this way
I can't hold back to this warmth inside me
As I smile she whispers there'll be hell to pay...
The nightforce is evil, the nightforce is evil
The nightforce wants me near you
I feel a chill deep down my spine
The nightfore won't let me go
As I hold her tight, her eyes glow
Well, I'm not really sure where you came from
And I don't care to go, where that is
But there's something about you, honey
That scares me, yet secretly drives me insane
I can see why the gypsy warned me,
Your bad news I've never felt before
A part of me wants to posses you,
But I feel a warning as the sunset falls
Welcome here, I'm your guide
Through this life that once was mine
Walk with me now understand
What you see here is nothing and all
Look around and see my paintings
Be sure to take your time
In my room, my life
You've stepped inside so now come and learn
That in this room, what you learn is what you earn
There are no answers offered except: Yourself
Remember this and the path you seek will be found
The sweet scent of silence all over
And all the sounds to see
This room is you and I
It's all we were and will be
Just look at the paintings and see
Spare your mind the silence
From which you'll lose more than you'll gain
Paint yourself with the sounds you lack,
Mix past with today and soon you will know
Know how you'll change
Starting all over again in a special way
A certain confusion as the secrets unfold
Forget all you learned and were told
Then you'll change
Come, walk with me now and understand
What you see here is nothing and all
Walk with me now, understand
What you see here is nothing and all
Look around and see my paintings
Be sure to take your time
In my room
With
The sweet scent of silence all over
And all the sounds to see
This room is you and I
So many memories, I recall
Wish I could do it all again
All of those years, have come to pass too soon
Part of me dies with our demise
Try to speak but I can’t find the words
(Echoes are all that remain)
Wave goodbye to all I thought I’d be
(While dusk tells of new found love)
Guess it’s time to go, time to leave the past behind
(Leave the past behind…)
Time to face the truth and let go of what’s to hold
All these tears of mine celebrate our deed
They are a token of what we achieved
Sorrow and pride, chaos and peace of mind
Bitter and sweet, we’re moving on
Try to speak but I can’t find the words
(Echoes are all that remain)
Wave goodbye to all I thought I’d be
(While dusk tells of new found love)
Guess it’s time to go, time to leave the past behind
(Leave the past behind…)
Time to face the truth and let go of what’s to hold
The road ahead has many ends
Where we’ll end up we still don’t know
I’ll be proud as I travel, proud of what I am leaving
Now there’s no time to be afraid
We’ll see the future eye to eye
I don’t care what tomorrow brings
I strongly believe in who I am
Now when I speak I finally find the words
(A poet that lives by his rhyme)
Wave hello to who I came to be
(While dawn tells of new found love)
Now it’s time for me, time to see with open eyes
(See with open eyes…)
I. Within these walls
Alone... afraid...
In the dark of the corner he will try to hide his shame...
Where it shows to no one
Nothing wrong in being scared, it will all fall into place
According to his dad
"But son, you just can't tell anyone..."
And there, deep in the night
He gets to kiss the floor once again
And though he fears his father's eyes
That is nothing compared to
The cold touch of his hands...
Of his hands...
His cold touch...
"Wipe those silly tears from your eyes
That show when you look at me
Can't you see that I love you?
I always have and I always will"
You can never turn away from
The hand that rocked your cradle
I've been there through all you have seen
You would be nothing without me"
And there, deep in the night
He gets to kiss the floor once again
And though he fears his father's eyes
That is nothing compared to
The cold touch of his hands...
Of his hands...
His cold touch...
His cold touch...
II. A silent outside
You and your staring eyes...
How come you don't welcome me anymore?
I'm still the one you embraced... but now you're disgraced?
A silent outside I once called my home...
Blinded by the shame he turns against the world outside
He just can't seem to understand that they are all just helping hands
While the world was still asleep, he had to pay on his hands and knees
And when the sun came to chase the night away
He would just lie there in pain and pray
He's lost in the void within
He's walking in a circle of nothing
All alone against a silent inside
You and your judging eyes...
How come I have changed while still being the same?
The child you embraced... today a disgrace?
A silent outside I once called my friends...
Blinded by the shame he turns against the world outside
He just can't seem to understand that they are all just helping hands
He walks away now, all alone to find his way
He knows the answers he seeks will not come easily...
A lonely child, against the world outside
He will walk on the path of the abused...
How many times do we have to end up here?
It’s all but a secret, we’re slowly tearing ourselves apart
I’m so tired of everything that’s going on
Wish I could turn back time and return to our innocence
Constantly raping the boundaries we have set
It’s each to his own in a battle of egos we’ve fought for so long
Seems there is no way out of this
We’ll die to stand our ground
I do remember that there was a dream
Innocence united us, we grew stronger
I’ve cried a thousand times in despair of what we are
Reduced to slaves in the world of the silent no
I’ve tried a thousand times to believe in what we were
All I find is a communication lost
All I want for us is to get along, return that innocence again
All that we were to be what we are
We have wasted too much time, that fight ain’t worth the price
By now we’ve lost enough, lets’ bring this to an end…
How do we end this, escape the battlegrounds?
We’ve fought in this war for so long, did we forget how to forgive?
All of the answers linger in shadows unknown
But with our last ounce of strength we need to ask…
I do remember that there was a dream
Innocence united us, we grew stronger
I’ve cried a thousand times in despair of what we are
Reduced to slaves in the world of the silent no
I’ve tried a thousand times to believe in what we were
I lost my faith, told myself you could never know
I’ve cried a thousand times in despair of what we are
Immersed in tears, I drown in its silent flow
I’ve tried a thousand times to believe in what we were
Machines that make me breathe, I just can't stand their terrible scream
I'm stumbling through smoke-filled rooms
With only darkness ahead, I wish I was dead
Drowned in a distance, I'm so safe and sound
Damn well protected from all those around
Seeking the life that was taken from me
Still all I see is a man on his knees
Although I'm asleep, can you feel I'm here?
Lost in this place, screaming for you
Back on my feet when a distant light
Brings me some hope and a strength that had died
A doorway that speaks of the world I once left
A final way out and a final way back
Then a sudden change makes the light start to fade
I need to run but I stumble instead
The light disappears as I lay on the ground
My last hope of freedom is turned into none...
Will I ever speak again, love again?
Will I ever leave my mind?
I am trapped inside myself, far from the outside
Why won't they let me die?
I'm tired as I lay here bleeding on the ground
Breathe
(We're the machines, the only friends around
Stay for a while and let us keep you alive)
Breathe
Here I am, I'm lost in this place
Wish I could just say goodbye
But you're not around to hear my cries...
Will I ever speak again, love again?
Will I ever leave my mind?
I am trapped inside myself, far from the outside
Why won't they just let me die?
(N.Loke /A.& W. van de Leygraaf /R.van Eldijk)
A blast of lightning surging
>From the cyclone warriors eternal scream
The wild sound of the jungle, now
As still as the night when the beast has made his vow
His red eyes glowing horror
And the sound of metal in his soul
The peasants feared the cyclone, war
Was the only way of justice to the core
There are no exceptions to the law
The beast is hungry, his soul is raw
May luck be with the fool of steel
He has no feelings, no time to deal...
Certain fury, Blasting it's way to the other side
Certain fury, Stealing the candle to, to kill the light
No leaders rule the future
But the machine's madness stole their dreams
Still the dog's life is eternal, peace
Was the plan of the white-eyed stalking beast
There are no exceptions to the law
The beast is hungry, his soul is raw
May luck be with the fool of steel
He has no feelings, no time to deal...
Certain fury, Blasting it's way to the other side
Certain fury, Stealing the candle to, to kill the light
There are no exceptions to the law
The beast is hungry, his soul is raw
May luck be with the fool of steel
He has no feelings, no time to deal...
Certain fury, Blasting it's way to the other side
"Oh what a ride... I can't believe it...
Felt so free... inside...
A new beginning? Dare I believe it?
My friends advise me to step inside..."
She's trapped inside a carousel
That will spin her 'round and force her right towards the end
She's in for the ride of her lifetime
Sadly nothing could ever make her turn while there's still time
(Headed for the sky, never asking why)
Never looking back she just craves for more and more
(Finding peace of mind with those of her kind)
Dancing with the souls that she thought she would never find
"Why should I care to look into the rear view mirror
When all that view has to offer me is misery?
I've come so far, I've feel so free
I've been offered a sip of life without the bitter taste of pain"
"My reality is flying through the air of my dreams
Dreams where I am the alpha and the omega"
"Stepped into a carousel
To lift me up and bring me closer to the stars
I'm in for the ride of my lifetime
Nothing could ever force me back to the ground"
"(Headed for the sky, giving up past life)
I'm never going back to the hell I called my life
(Finding peace of mind with those of her kind)
'Cause now I'm dancing with the friends that I though I would never find"
"Let me go now, let me leave your life
Let me feel free, let me see with own eyes
I will never be the one you'll love
I walk through, the dark descends
Fills every room with your absence
Through the lies there lies the prize
To sing the saddest lullaby
Wolverine come slay this dream
Leave me cowering in the trees
Sticks and stones come break my bones
Its come to be my comfort zone
Let there always be another
Let there always be another
Wolverine come slay this dream
Leave me cowering 'tween the sheets
Sticks and stones come break my bones
Its come to be where I belong
Let there always be another
Dream to kill