Autumn, it feels like Autumn
Although the breeze is still
I feel the chill of Autumn
Oh, yes, it's Autumn
It's always Autumn
However green the hill
To me it still is Autumn
I can feel the frost now
That makes my Spring and Summer dreams
Seem lost now
Why can't the Autumn haze
Recall the days of warm summer laughter?
That faded soon after in the Autumn
He left in Autumn
And though another season's here
I feel the emptiness of Autumn
Oh, how the days fly by
Never stopping for a minute
While he cries, no, no, no
But no tears fill his eyes
And no sighs or goodbyes
To the world that is
Treating him badly
Now his autumn years
To cloud his mind with fears
He knows his time has come
Life is almost gone
As life leaves
The strongest fighter dead
And the figures of
Past years approach his bed
Shared those sorrow on this day
As he passes away
Samuel J is the name
They'll remember
An end, yet life begins
He looses but he wins
Sammy will live on
In the shadow of his own son
My heart is crushed
It's lying there and growing cold
Summer's sunset falls
Sunlight flees away and dews of night arise
Rainy autumn moves my heart
Flowers welking welk my joy
Clouds come rolling over
they depress me, overrun me
They overshadow my heart
Autumn comes apace, a last warm glance sighing to me
Now grey vails between the earth and sea
Birdless branches in the wind
Leaves they found their death in coldness
Naked trees in the frost of night
yearning for the sun again and again
Waters laying still in transparent fog
Lakes of blue covered with ice
Verse 1 So we can't work it out, and I don't want to work it out. Fall is coming soon and I'm fine with being alone. Don't want to let you in, already seen where you've been, What's the point of giving in, refuse to say goodbye again. Chorus- It's just another day. There's nothing left to say. I'll watch the falling leaves alone and shed no tears, I look forward to the fall this year. Verse 2 Shorter days and longer nights, you're no longer in my sight. The trees are bare and you're not there for me. (to ruin it with another fight) And as I walk the quiet streets, dead rotting leaves beneath my feet. I'll think about our separate lives, I tried. (But now at least I know I tried). Chorus- It's just another day. There's nothing left to say. I'll watch the falling leaves alone, and shed no tears. I look forward to the fall this year. ending- I'll watch the fire's burn, and breathe the cool night air. And as the fire's burn, you'll know that I don't care. I'll watch the fire's burn, and breathe the cool night air. And as the fire's burn, you'll know that I don't care. you'll know that I don't care., you'll know that I don't care. I know that you don't care.
[Legend about life]
In autumnal yellowed foliage
Knightly armor dwells and killed horse
Sunlight breeze dry out dew
On helmet and sword of hero
Hero dropped of in eternal sleep
Glance of his dull blue eyes
Sad and weary towards heaven aim
Fade away the glory of gallant knights
Trees are bowing down with wistful song
Grey hairs of fathers, woeful eyes of mothers
Tone of sylvan horns sounds through the autumn
Clamor of battles in a distance fade away.
As it whole world were went to sleep
And stars glowing on yellowed foliage
Where knightly armor dwell
And killed horse, helmet and sword...
[Dedicated to J.Vrobel]
I would become my own demon, somebody speaks to me,
his sight fire's a sign in my heart, sign of age and death,
sign fiery and frore, coursing before me dark and horrid.
Towards an autumn
Towards, darkness
(Better) fight the power!
Like a New Years Eve
A new day has just begun
Keep yourself sharp, sharp as a knife!
Towards the sunset
Towards the distance
(Better) fight the power
Through the year
Spread a wider atmosphere
Shine your light on the autumn sky!
Be brave in the human race
Confront your feelings face to face!
Towards an autumn
Towards darkness
(Better) fight the power!
A start of a new circle
A new day has just begun
Trembling, tried and terrified.
Spell cast with open eyes
To greet and feed me
With a smile you mean and a poison you surely don't.
Rushing like rats through my wretched veins,
Ever faster, promise racing
To bring some foul salvation
To my weakening carnal cage.
Skinned by a sulphurous jealousy,
Spit into wounds that would burn, had I known.
Burns of misplaced ill affection,
Such a sweet addiction.
Disintegrating grace,
Eating through my weakening carnal cage.
Skinned by a sulphurous jealousy,
Spit into wounds that would burn, had I known.
If I could pinpoint a place where I can still feel you,
Would you cut it out of me?
Would you please just cut it out of me?
Deny me, get it over with.
Do us all a favor, see if I care.
Misplace me and I'll grow a shadow
In someone else's life, for all I care.
Skinned by a sulphurous jealousy,
spit into wounds that would burn, had I known.
I fall back in line,
Pushed, pulled,
deep inside of me
like castle spires
tasting raw earth as they bleed into me
at this darkest hour I will join
the dogs an industrial cemetery is my only offering
smell the dogs and bathe their feet
in the light they shall retreat
but the sorrows they have seen
must incite you to believe
tasting our scorn they turn away
from those ruins of our decay
but the sorrows they have seen
must incite you to believe
holding them so close to me
to cradle them in the softest breeze
amidst shadowed forest greens
now plowed away to starve their dreams
crawling now on wounded limbs
over colorless stone
and stained glass debris
at this the darkest hour
i have joined the dogs
a smothered howl can hear my only offering
smell the dogs and bathe their feet
in the light they shall retreat
but the sorrows they have seen
must incite you to believe
tasting our scorn they turn away
from those ruins of our decay
but the sorrows they have seen
i am curled so tight
holding still
still breathing through the knife
i caught a color from the sun
too cold - i had to send it back
and all the while
its been screaming all day
the flavor starts to turn
its been screaming all day
leave me alone
i am curled so tight
holding still
still breathing through the knife
a sage prayer to the skies
downpur - it killed my offering
and through it all
i've been bleeding all day
i must fight to hold my ground
i've been bleeding all day
as this illness circles round
Many went to the shimmering land of make-believe
and ventured the farthest corners of the mindscape
Merely testing the ice, I never went too far from the safe and solid ground
Afraid of the darkness I might find (underneath)
Exploring the mind to escape from your daily lives,
where you become the head of a state in a state of mind
All links to reality fading
Pandora's box lies waiting
Instead of the roof of the world it becomes a nightmare
We expect perpetual motion, a chain effects
The newfound land out to be a grain of sand (ever volatile)
Searching the edge of consciousness for insights in the outside world
Well conceived, but such rules only apply in this state of mind
The key lies in knowledge, temperance
No magical answers or escapes from reality,
I follow the sun from a distance
I pass the shadows to my left
find my strength in the solar wake
(and live a little)
running up for the light
find it caught up by the dark
fight for hope
find it beaten by fate
whispered promises
of then, and years after
got broken, unmendedly
washed upon the beaches
of a file long gone
But I will go
I will find my lips with peace
I will hide every word
In my empty thoughts
I will go
With hope filled arms
I will look for signs
I will look for questions
Asking me why I kneel to life
I will go
I will pray for saviour
Hello again, familiar morning routine
Time's ebbing away, but I feel no rush today
No urge, no hurry, just the rhythm of the rain
Sliding by, not here...
I’m not nearly, nearly there
So it’s back to black again in the early morning hours
How I'd love to run away from the dogma that devours me
So what’s different about this morning? The setting's the same as everyday
Who can tell what rearranged the rain
To wash my fears away?
There is so much more to living, so much more of the divine to gain
for this silent colony bathing in the morning rain
So it’s back to black again in the early morning hours
How I'd love to run away from the dogma that devours me
So it’s back to black again but I’m thinking of the escaping from the dull
monotony and the Sundays that are breaking me... I break me
The stage is set for saints to fall and cleared for cowards to surprise
It took me time to realise the life I lived and left behind
is better off a memory
Outside the wind is roaring, beyond control or melody.
A frantic composition, void of vision, harmony.
Pick a leaf to lead the dance to higher skies.
Perceive perfection. Chain reaction. Trigger me.
Break free from gravity. Soar away to mountains and the sea.
I adjust to trust in my ability to dance among the clouds (and feel complete.)
Imagination needs no eyes. Shut your eyes to look inside.
Carried by the wind to spin within the symphony.
Reborn to the sky, over clouds of gold I glide.
Just one reflection, the last connection. Symmetry.
Break free from gravity. Soar away to mountains and the sea.
I adjust to trust in my ability to dance among the clouds (and feel complete.)
There is no symmetry, no time for tomorrow.
There's just me in my skyscraping dream.
Break free from gravity. Soar away to mountains and the sea.
The truth is harsh, that is why it has never been told
I beg you on my knees, my head against the floor
To me it seems that in darkness, the world is fold
Is it true nobody will speak, can you tell me more
Reality is gone in the quest for the source of life
Until now it has been like living in a constant dream
Redeem me from my gloomy thoughts, and my inner strife
Please let them flow away, like a silent waterstream
I lost myself in the rhythm of my breathing
Waterstream
I found myself in a caress of silence
Flickering flames,
My luscious soul divest
The bitter kisses
In a deep astral caress
Lost in rapture, enigmas revealed
On the edge where reason fades
A martyr of spheres
That take me out of sight
A silent madness grabs me
When I fall in love with shades
Hoping they will dispose me
But they guide me trough my Hades
All my daemons came by
To visit my paradise
At the flood of Chaos
Unleashed my last sight
Lost in a rapture, enigmas revealed
On the edge where reason fades
A martyr of spheres
That take me out of sight
The one who inspires the pain
Unnoticed, I slip outside
Tiptoe through the corridors,
close to the walls
Cross over reluctantly, cast another glance
Outside the streets await a guest
all too familiar
On the corner, in the alley
Tidal waves of stimuli bringing
every nerve to life
Walking on a ledge
Nine lives on the razor's edge
Shadowmancer, play the light
Companions for another night
Don't I look trustworthy to you
when my weapons are retracted?
Please stay clear of my boundaries. So unwise to corner me
A simple lesson learnt and you keep your eyes to see
I am of kings and queens, predator with eyes of green
Meet the eye with elegance, turn my back in arrogance
Raise my head with endless pride, still I'm not too proud to hide
Egyptian demigod
Cruel and kind
Creature of the night
I've earned my place in history but superstition followed me
Call me vampire, witch's friend.
swaying the pendulum
sweet the sound
i'm stuck in sequence
shadowgirl
back and forth
old me and new me
i pray to kill
this deranged family
or i fear i'll grow old here
watching my feast grow cold
is it love or hate that would kill it
crack this shell and bring me home
from
this pendulum
i'm stuck in sequence
swaying the pendulum
sweet the sound
i'm stuck in sequence
shadowgirl
the pendulum
stuck in sequence
swaying the pendulum
sweet the sound
i'm stuck in sequence
shadowgirl
I hate it here
Pillow of shame, blanket of lies
warms the primitive
I hate it here
in this new year, with the sun
new in my skies
Broken glass on corroded brass,
it tells a time
A new time, gentlemen
Blinding glance, raise my glass
to my new time
I'm naked here
I'm in the blind, in blinding cold
Not a shiver
moves the primitive
I hate it here
in this new year, with the sun
new in my skies
Dead weight on my shoulders, sir
A mule of circumstance
Am I this blind?
Can I not see this?
Am I blinded into seeing
nothing real?
Cry in your pillows,
swallow that pride
Keep your blankets
for these colder nights
in the new year
My new year
And she's dreaming about
The view over the castle down below
There is no doubt
A curse came upon her
As she knows...
The voices of reapers
Shading off into sounds of the night
Becomes visible in a mirror
The mirror with its magic sights
The cause of the inner row
Is the promise of horror and strife
If she keeps looking at the beauty below
Despair will take over her life
Her eyes, her deep blue eyes
She averts them from the casement
And she is weaving
While the loom obeys her hands
Weaving...
Lustful groaning by moonlight
A luscious mistress and her paramours
Making love in the brewing night
Till dawn they enjoy each other
While being a mirrors magic sight
And when someone dies
A threnody sounds from the towers
So she weaving in her web
Also weaving a funeral
(1904-1993)
windswept and moonhung
singing softly next to you
oh sweet delicate woman
where has all your strength gone to
gone toâ¦gone to
where has it gone to
softest hands
i take their frailness in my own
hands
hands that mended children's dreams
now grasp for mary's grace
her graceâ¦her grace
sweet mother
guide her home
sweet, sweet mother guide her homeâ¦
sleep now woman
let the angels come to you
in their wings
you will find peace
you will find peace
So short of hope
Hard not to choke on smoking paint
A soul survived an indoor fire
There's soot on everything
Alien, adhesive skin
The embers glow in the remains
Can you see that far
When the lens is stained with blackened grease?
Can you swim in tar
And still retrieve the heart?
The liquid under film noir?
Back to the scene before the blaze
Behind the scenes, someone misplaced
Pitch in the rain machine
Spray painting the white screen
Sparked my imagination
Can you see that far
When the lens is stained with blackened grease?
Can you swim in tar
And still retrieve the heart?
The liquid under film noir?
Poor, poor blackbirds, wrapped in shadow
Strewn like pebbles on dead meadows
Help me please, I've lost my brother
Summers song so cruelly smothered
Now I live in my camera obscura
A pinhole eye
Admitting some light
Replacing mine
I am guilty as sin
And so I ran back to the end
Where it began
With arson and a dream
An image feared
Reversed in here
Becoming so clear
One silver streak, and darkness is cut
When lines populate the earth
A clew of chaos, of brand-new souls but
soaked in pleasures and dirt
As the spinning wheel of life decides each fate
And leads life lines to its spools
Where they are beginning to have their downfall created
I am making my own magic tools
The start of the bigger web, the tapestry of life
A world full of kings, beggars, knights and fools
Catching a glimpse of a made up world
It ignites a spark in a heart gone cold
Breaking the thin line wire of an off worldly stare
That was spun, weaved and unravelled, every soul dealt fair
As the spinning wheel of life decides each fate
And all lifelines have left the spools
Then it is spinning, to have new life created
With my own set of magic tools
I am making another web, a tapestry of death
A world full of kings, beggars, knights and fools
Seeing the result, the bigger whole,
The spark dies again, the heart turns cold
unravelling the world of dreams, revealing the reality it stole
I cut the line
bodies fall into graves in numbers
but they are not
numbers
but humans . . . lest we forget
those, who felt, who loved
who dreamed, who dared
who died
who live on . . lest we forget
it is my brother
your mother
his son and her lover
it is each and every one of us
for we all are one . . . lest we forget
though the cold will come soon enough
would that i could
light a candle for all who must walk this pass
it would light the seas
and heal our souls on waves of warmth
that we may never turn our backs again
that we would never again forget
when candles and incense are not enough
to dispel the death i die every day
when an alter cloth over my wounds
cannot stop the bleeding
nor still my pain
. . . i'd gather razors' sharpest light
to see how it came to be this way
that the sinking in my head becomes
the death i die. . . death i die
when figurines twinkle as they crash to the floor
and the diamonds crumble when there are no more
when my body lingers at the killing site
gathering the sharpest stones for the chosen one
. . . i'd gather razors of sharpest light
to see how it came to be this way
that the sinking in my head becomes
the death i die. . .
fire and wine and burning lies
bring me to this crazy fear
fire and wine and burning eyes
live the master of my tears
but when the hour has broken us
we shall wonder - wonder who it was
and how it came to be this way
the death i die every fucking day
and when the demons of my mind
come to claw for scraps tonight
i shall kill them one by one
and feed their corpses to the sun
when the demonsâ¦the demons of myâ¦mind
come to claw for table scraps tonight
and when the demons the demons of my mind
come to claw for table scraps tonight
well i shall kill them one by one
by oneâ¦by oneâ¦by oneâ¦by oneâ¦
Unreal, unravelled, we travelled light.
Our minds a vacuum as time went blank and moved aside.
We stepped out of line and changed our bearings,
All and everything by the wayside
And all the while chasing our dreams into a new unknown.
Sky and limit intertwined.
Let's lie with Pan tonight
To rise on phoenix' ashes.
We'll cloud a new horizon line.
Unreal, unravelled,
We've shown ourselves out and take to the back roads,
With pillars of dust in our fiery trail.
Four eyes fixed on a new horizon,
A common dream, or so it would seem.
Yet all the while chasing our tails into a new unknown.
Sky and limit intertwined.
Let's lie with Pan tonight
To rise on phoenix' ashes.
We'll cloud a new horizon line.
I expected no less, yet so much more.
You expected the same, I'm sure.
Let's hope tomorrow proves both of us wrong.
Sky and limit intertwined.
Let's lie with Pan tonight
To rise on phoenix' ashes.
We'll cloud a new horizon line.
Through clouded covered judgement,
Into denial of cause
And effect takes a turn
Was enough to me to be so fine
When all I wanna do is being where you are
It feels like the end of the world
I'll always be your girl cause till the end of time
You you'll be mine.
I'm feeling this heat spitting me big
No matter the long day stops
I wanna you close to happen to hold
I wanna get on and on
Chorus:
Ohh you're the key to my happiness
Ooh really... living... here
Ooh I started this face between us
In the... with the... still heart miles away.
Playmy... miles away
All your memories stay so clean in my mind
The funny things you do such always make me smilke
I still rememeber when we met... me
This is gonna be
I'm feeling this heat spitting me big
No matter the long day stops
I wanna you close to happen to hold
I wanna get on and on
Chorus:
Ohh you're the key to my happiness
Ooh really... living... here
Ooh I started hate this face between us
In the... with the... still heart miles away.
Ohh baby give me clue these lonely nutc
What do we have to do to ge this fly
I'm tryin I'm fine gotta keep ym spirit from dying
Ooh...
Awake, lord of the watchtower-North
Earth is rising for thee
Euros, lord of the east
enlighten the sky for me
Awake, lord of the watchtower-South
Incense the fire I see
Sephyros, lord of the watchtower-West
Complete the other three
I haul down the moon, while my being fades away
And the ancestress of the gods descends in me
Euphoria and full sense are here to stay
Skyclad in the night, wrapped in air
Equal and power absorbing
Atheme, fruit and wine
Thoughts and bodies we share.
Gospels in dusk
Echoes of hymns whispering tunes
The temperature sank below zero
And the seas became giant mirrors
And trees formed a crystal splendour
The world is frozen to the core
Take my hand and walk with me
Through the corridors of snow and ice
Through a gallery of reality
History unfolds before your eyes
There, between the exhibited bodies
Framed by frozen blood
Her skin scabrous, once so soft
a moment of my life shared with you
will never be forgotten
from this cradle's ledge
i count the rings
of my time on earth
imaging myself content
needing to dissolve this taste
of wasted dreams
and within my head
this gray begins to grow
please let me tear it all away
and i will set free
you and i
drawing strength
from the point of contact
dna fireflies within
and in another moment
i'd refuse to chance these preparations
after 25 years of building
to the settlings grounds we go
a place to pool
and to be snythesized
into the rest now
this is where the cybersoldiers
hold the line
in weary vigilance
but i believe them now
i never thought i would
i never thought i would
and this is why
a moment of my life shared with youâ¦you
will never be forgotten
Like the clouds that sail along the endless sky
And roses give out their colour to the air
Like swans that start to sing before they die
I comfort you, surrounding you with care
You bear the cross of guild and of regret
While my fingers seize your pale arms
"Hold me for the last time", I believe you said
Freezing thoughts won't stop me from keeping you warm
The pulsating of the heart goes on and on and on and on...
Weakness becomes the king of thy being
When cathedrals of hope collapse
Pictures of thy life pass by in the last seconds
Never have known the meaning of life
Until it ends...
I sit alone, your head upon my hands
I cry over you while you are feeling free
Cause now you are, you are in the revealing lands
Passed away taking along a part of me
It is hard for me, for me to see you die
Through all the tears, tears that make me blind
It is hard for you, for you to see me cry
She runs to the river down below
Towards a boat under a willow
Away from the mirror, the loom and the tower
Where she yearned for him, hour after hour
Under a sky like a dark blue dome
Stands the queen of loneliness
A skin as white as the rivers foam
Which tips the hem of her dress
A crown of a pearl garland she wore
Blinking to Camelot in moonlight
To which she stares, through tears
Tears that are clouding her sight
A forlorn goddess
Seeking for her God
Carving in the stern
The lady Shallot
Like a prophet seeing the entire future
She looses the chain
While death stretches its hand and lures
Seizing her to gain
Paralysed and in distress, she floats
Into the night by darkness clothe
When the lady sings a mournful song
Chanting through the spheres of night
Where it dissolves at the horizon
Like her life
and in the morning
after years have passed
it seems
oh even now to overwhelm me
and in the stillness
after life has passed
it seems
even now to grow like cancer
and in the fallout
after war days have passed
it seems
even now to keep from dying
and there you are, going deep into and through me
and there you are, keeping distant all who knew me
and filling me with a new kind of life
but it's one i never wanted, one i never imagined
and even now, you send me reeling
for you and i have been together much too long
and though i drink my mind will not grow numb
'cause it's one i never wanted, one i never imagined
and even now, you know I'm reeling
for you and i have been together much to long
much too long, don't you know
oh and here we are, and here it goes again
i know i've waited much too long
i have weighed it all, delayed the fall
but even so, even nowâ¦
evenâ¦now⦠evenâ¦nowâ¦
evenâ¦now⦠evenâ¦nowâ¦
In this cascade of memories I wonder what
could have changed, had I changed
Questioning what and why can’t undo the day
Yes, I realize...
What’s done is done, but the night time raised
the mist to another day in shame
Can I only look back and wonder what
could have changed, had I changed?
Time is ebbing away, but it's in no rush today
What’s done is done but the migraine still
persists and the autumn rain remains
Show me the nearest well to drown my discomfort
A shallow pool
A shallow pool of hope will do
Show me the nearest well to wash my tears away
A shallow pool
A shallow pool of hope will do
Can I only look back and wonder
winding fury in half-light morning
desert winds of jezebel, home again
she will drape the jewels from your praying hands
entice you to the flawlessness of her homeland
where the sun-bronzed women come
come to set the earth afire
with the powers of their own hands
they shall run but they shall never tire
desert winds of jezebel
bring me home again
you lift me higher than the night
and bring me down again
a mother love so strong
it tears the tired souls from their graves
it lifts them higher than the night
and brings them home again
you give me hope
you give me life
give me your hope
where the sun-bronzed women come
come to set the earth afire
with the powers of their own hands
they shall run but they shall never tire
so let the flowers dance and the wild skies rain
let the great seas give homage
oh jezebel - i have returned
a mother love so strong
it tears the tired souls from their graves
it lifts them higher than the night
(written and performed by neil mckay)
koda, yadowan nawahon do!
taku ecamon mayasi we/do
taku ecamon mayasi we/do
taku ecamon mayasi we/do
taku ecamon mayasi we/do
hau mitakuye oyas'in
dakota song
friend, i heard you singing!
you told me what to do
you told me what to do
you told me what to do
you told me what to do
It starts with distant thunder
Born under skies, dressed in ochre.
Pressure rising up and over
The anticipating land.
Under layers of white noise
And through the static, sounds a voice.
I want to hear the song it sings again (and again, and again)
I remained outside,
With every nerve alive.
Lightning struck without remorse
And gave a cue to move indoors.
The TV died, as did the lights.
In the dark the radio came to life.
Under layers of white noise
And through static, sounds a voice.
I want to hear the song it sings again (and again, and again)
The secret station of my choice...
Forgotten music in the noise,
Inviting me to dance a minor dance.
Faded an ethereal music that is dying to be heard.
Desperate to mesmerise and capture our hearts.
Wander in beauty, and wonder where I've been...
Faded a ethereal music that is dying to be heard.
Desperate to mesmerise and capture our hearts (again)
Aided by a thunderstorm,
I came upon this station from old days.
I intend to seek it out again when I need shelter from the rain.
Return to my vineyard tonight
Lose yourself in touch and taste again
You will come to understand the meaning in time and savour of the sentiment
Physical distance is minimal
And image, distorted, reflects in your eyes
I relate to communication on opium and five senses alert to the breaking point
Divine interpretation
Define for me the chemistry and time...
Enter and let your findings be mine
The presence of nature's essence politely requests that you lower your voice
If this silence is lost to a stranger, the chemistry breaks with a breaking noise
Sound waves are pounding on eardrums, but there are no more deadbolts on the portals of me
Found myself in the arms of a stranger who left me for dead (in a)... for dead on a broken dream
Divine interpretation
Define for me reality and time
Whisper and let your finding be mine
Burn with me in Absinthe's bluish green flames
Come away on a Laudanum dream
Inhale the night air through the dragon and blow blue rings through a pictureless frame
Divine interpretation
Define for me the chemistry and time...
Enter and let your findings be mine
Divine interpretation
Define for me reality and time
The book is closed so suddenly
and I still don't get the end
A blank page is all that remains
There should have been much more to come
Hollow words, too late to share,
looking back, now you're not here
... I will remember you.
Guiding me throughout my life,
while sacrificing precious time
... I will remember you.
While reading back, page by page,
I feel you lived it all.
It makes me sad, but deep inside
It fills me up with endless pride.
Hollow words, too late to share,
looking back, now you're not here
... I will remember you.
Guiding me throughout my life,
while sacrificing precious time
... I will remember you.
I turn the page and start to write,
to pick up where you left.
And while I write I wish the end
will fill you up with endless pride.
I close the book and turn away,
for life's too short, you taught me.
I know that you will find your way
and closure overtakes the pain.
Hollow words, too late to share,
looking back, now you're not here
... I will remember you.
Guiding me throughout my life,
while sacrificing precious time
... I will remember you.
Closure overtakes the pain.
Sometimes darkness is my sole companion
and the shadows seem my closest friends
Immersed in pitch black contemplations
I shy away from the slightest hint of sunshine
but doubt is never far away
and fear is never closer
A hint of irony cannot help
but course through my veins
How to recognize the signals,
The features of dishonesty
The eye of the tornado
In the eyes of our companions?
Like serpents in the shadows, my closest friends conspire
There's simply no way of telling
In which shadow you might bind me
There's no predicting
which of your hopes will eventually blind me
When doubt is never far away
And fear is never closer,
A hint of irony at play,
coursing through my veins
You pave a way through thick, stale air,
Shower a maiden rain.
And in this cascade of memories you wonder
What is a day?
Like this feels, nothing ever will.
Life reveals, kicks in and heals me for a day.
So I guess I paved my way,
Never questioning means nor meaning
And in this cascade of memories, aching for significance,
What is a day?
When doubt creeps to the surface, with sunlight brushed away,
Then, in these lonely moments, tell me, what is a day?
Like this feels, nothing ever will.
Life reveals, kicks in and heals me for a day.
Like this feels (without a word or whisper) nothing ever will.
I think you know what we lost
when we failed to share a life, but tried
I think we lost perfection somewhere
Where I wouldn't dare to look again
For once drink with me tonight
Let's not waste another second
Let's wash down the years
and savor this coming night
until the call of light
Pour the wine and let us drink
the pleasure we never dared to treasure
That stinging nostalgia,
Indefinable memory,
Locked away
For once drink with me tonight
What I see, what I hear
this scented sentiment
had to come from somewhere
All I can do is try
for words to tell you why
I can't let go
All you can do is try
to remember why I
Grey painted clouds usher in
The dawn of a new day
Lighted a shade floating in sin
A shade that follows one way
Tidings echo through the streets
When minstrels prefer silence
An echo calling from the wharfs
Make the knights stop their feasts
Down by the riverside
Things have become clearer
The master
Of her dreams
Her pale white body wrapped in a web of tales
Laying in a hazy gleam
This beauty brought by 's lands many gales
Died in a chase
In a chase for a dream
And now she floated
Behind the walls of her desires
In a shallop where in life is shed
atrophy
torn muscles hang from the line
sun-dried, now it's time for the feast
and i wait in line with plate in hand
but you've eaten all there is
and my bones weep
i was never meant to...or maybe i was...
never meant to...or maybe i was...never meant to
head raging and i'm so tired
can't stand any more of this
when the state of the living
is as the state of the dead
such disillusionment is the end
painstaking - every move a labor
gnarled and ravaged bones protrude
and i want to smear the disease across my ribs
in the name of the father . . . atrophy begins
i was never meant to...or maybe i was...
never meant to...or maybe i was...never meant to
left here, now on this precipice
sun-dried tendons slide away
into the cracks of desert sand
my skeletal smile begs for more
i was never meant to...or maybe i was...
never meant to...or maybe i was...never meant to
but like a trestle underwater, like a trestle underwater,
like a trestle underwater, like a trestle underwater, like a trestle underwater,
i drown too⦠i drown too⦠i drown too⦠i drown tooâ¦
The streets are silent.
A spokesman of the devil waves a hand written letter.
Another twist of fate.
Shadow by the lamp post,
A trench coat in the corner of the eye.
Confessions far too late.
When the shoulder you cried on collapsed under weight,
Did you walk away indifferent?
Hearts and spades know the diamond cannot be replaced
By the clover's insignificance.
My song is silent.
The letter shed new light upon the answers never questioned, your absences of late.
I left the room as the fires raged, erasing words in the fireplace.
The streets provide more shelter when a sacrifice is made.
When the shoulder you cried on collapsed under weight,
did you walk away indifferent?
Hearts and spades know the diamond cannot be replaced
A cold wind is blowing from the sea
Yet I'm walking barefoot
on the shoreline (bearing to my destiny)
Words of fire burn like salt in my blisters
And frozen whispers represent my enemy
All has fallen to the sea
Why do I still feel the heat?
Are your whispers frost or fire?
Am I drawn to these extremes by a
never resting need,
or the angel of desire
But it was not always so...
We used to share a destiny
Am I imagining, or do I see you
walking towards me?
Put your hand in mine, pull me closer
There are no more words that burn
When we lifted off the ground,
we lifted up a veil of hesitation
and stared down on souls that crossed our line
of sight, of sound, of intuition.
Give me wings, my careless friend.
Help me climb the cloudless skies and kill the lights.
Sweet flower bed, lift me up and pass me round,
for altitude's irrelevant.
We sheered to left and broke to right,
Knew not what lay there worth avoiding.
We made our marks, yet left no trace
And were revered for what we were to them.
Give me wings, my careless friend.
Help me climb the cloudless skies and kill the lights
Sweet flower bed, lift me up and pass me round,
for altitude's irrelevant.
Kill the lights, sweet flower bed.
Kill the taste of my sunset.
Give me wings, my careless friend.
Help me climb the cloudless skies and kill the lights.
Sweet flower bed, lay me down and pass me out,
for altitude's bitterly relevant.
Live it intensely.
Drag me down with you.
Experience profoundly.
Tiredness and sleep we expound
As a natural urgency to redeem
From the flesh to dwell 'round
And project experiences in a dream
Climb into the astral tree step by step
Meet all the angels and see your God
Rise along ethereal paths, fly into the web
Filled with symbols, representing your lot
See, hear, ethereal levels
Touch, feel, ethereal levels
See, hear, ethereal levels
Touch, feel, ethereal levels
While you move in a deep trance
Stepping out of your earthly shell
Filled with divinity so immense
You're visiting heaven, while you saw hell
Reach the last chakra at the top of the tree
This divine feeling that seizes your soul
In a deep meditation it could happen to me
In a boundless light, you approach the goal
See, hear, ethereal levels
Touch, feel, ethereal levels
all my lovers turn to stone
relics of hope in a night garden
only i visit when i sleep
i walk among you
touching the surface
this is my secret place where i unafraid
and unashamed
linger at your lips
tasting your milk
it's my renewal
in times of isolation
i come to you
secret addiction
and in the daylight i wait eagerly
to visit you
again and again and again
for ever when i will stop
oh, i do not
this is my only link to freedom
i fear
all my lovers turn to stone
relics of hope in a night garden
only i visit when i sleep
i walk among you
opening the doors
opening the rooms to us
a hope to transcend
this deadened consciousness
i call my home
so passion drains the pain away
biting through
as ice storms wait to pierce the flesh
and i wait too
passion drains the pain away
biting through
as ice storms wait to pierce the flesh
and iâ¦and iâ¦
a wild eyed child running faster than
the echo of her mother's loving voice
of her mother's loving voiceâ¦
closing over us all
opening the doors
opening the rooms to us
a prayer now to feel again
the warmth of memories
i call my home
so spellbound into this domain
of dreamlike waters' heavy groan
it is nothing more than that
than that which we have always known
so spellbound into this domain
of dreamlike waters' heavy groan
it is nothing more than that
which weâ¦which weâ¦
that six months is not long enough
to forget that everything erased will be written again
everything erased will be written again
and for now we know,
and for now we know,
the waiting is until the end
the waiting is until the end
the waiting is until the end
Filling this world with a gloomy gaze
While living in an absorbing haze
A deep grey lake is all they see
Focussed on what will come and what will be
What will be shall come at last
And knowing what will come has already passed
Thinking and thinking, it's going to deep
The borders are gone now, even in his sleep
Where is the beginning, where is the end?
What will you go through, where do you stand?
A sorcerer, a beggar
A king or a knight
The emperor of a world
The world of his mind
Intelligence that crossed the lines of his stare
Enchanted by the pearls at the bottom of the lake
It catches a glimpse in this world of fake
And takes along a piece of a mystery
That is there, an isolated soul, dreaming or awake
Or one that is open, insane or full of care
This is the beginning, the beginning of the end
What will you go through, there where you stand
A sorcerer, a beggar
A king or a knight
The emperor of the world
so much to say
when words seem to say no more
and i'm trying too hard
words never mattered much
anyway
so then..give me silence!
so much to say
when words seem to say no more
and i'm trying too hard
words never mattered much
anyway
so much to feel
when my skin pleads your sky for rain
but i'm feeling too much
and feelings never pay off
along the way
so i'll say no more
i'll say no more
for all i really need is to know that this is real
don't you know this is real
it was to be the strangest night i'd ever know
it was the night i'd bear the maiden's child
and break the spell
and break the line
it would have kept me from my truth until the end of time
and then the maiden spoke to me
kissed my eyes, she let me breathe
and when her veils fell to the sea
she picked me up and carried me
to a place where lovers bleed
the blood of love, so tender sweet
now looking back to where i'd lain
i knew then i'd never rise again
she broke the spell and broke the line
that could have kept me from the truth until the end of time
though i've played among the fallen leaves
taken in the splendor of the seas
and mother moon still muses me
in her, i've found
Gathering the treasures of fields, forbidden fruit
With a tangible visions inside
Consuming the dreamscapes
Burst trough your fragile shields
Take you for a ride
We came to the woods, to a latent feast
Dancing on moss-grown soil
Hiding away from the rational world
Dancing on moss grown-soil
The odour of harvest time
The immense sky turns grey
The sun softly shines
Until it slumbers away
One with land's decay
We came to the woods, to a latent feast
Dancing on moss green-soil
Hiding away from the rational world
Dancing on moss green-soil
Summer's End
Soaked by perception
Summer's end
Truth and deception
Witness the madness, watching the splendour
Cover your eyes to sink in the deep
Witness the madness, watching the splendour
Dreaming in a dream in your sleep
And smother the sun for a while
Touching your own beauty and vile
Embrace the gloom that stares in your eyes
On the edge where reality dies
glazed and wired on this strangest day
choking on everything in me
scraping the tar from the garden walls
this duty frightens me
deep the well
deeper still the weight of my descent
torrid waters emerge
an acrid feast of sparrows drowning
and in twilight hours
it hopes to dream of restful places
weeping as one
the rain is all we have
all we have
vultures fanning me
with their hungry shadows
they cannot hear the ticking inside my head
so they bury me just the same
deep the well
deeper still the weight of my descent
filling, surrounding me
i too, become
the well
great brick glass arches
my toungue and hips peeling
these swirls of tripped-out lightning
titilate and frighten
and i feel
to be
in a strange daze
wasted just like the old days
anxious to curl up and crawl away
but then distracted by another face
leads me to another place
and i feel
to be
Different winds of sorrow restrain me
Every time I try to keep my head above
I'm drowning in sadness, tears become a sea
While I'm desperately searching for a key
Help me to recover the blaze
Lead me through this life
Then I can survive
The rest of my days
Take me by my clammy hands
And bring me to a world I've never seen
Far away, to unknown lands
Across paths where I have never been
Help me to recover the blaze
Lead me through this life
Then I can survive
The rest of my days
The suppression of emotions inside
Makes that I can't mention my feelings you said
While recovering from disappointments I always slide
Down by the river where the old willows bow
Marked by time, their branches hanging low
There where the aspens stand and hide
Witness stories, day and night
Along these trees, a river runs
Its water cobalt blue
It accompanies the road through the fields of rye
Leading to a castle all folks knew
Camelot
On an island in the river, covered with flowers
Dwells a lady, wrapped in secrecy
Between tower walls that embower
Her being, being a mystery
Sniffing, in tears; a flower
While standing in the casement
Fairy lady in the tower
Who has seen her wave her hand?
Who has seen her wave her hand?
At the fields the reapers listen
And whisper: "that's the lady in the tower"
A voice like an angels harmonic echoing
They go numb, as her voice grows louder
And when the shallop drifts at night
Down to many towered Camelot
Floating along, where roses grow wild
Where the lady royally apparelled
With a pearl garland around her head
Myths, legends, untold stories
Pass by like successive seasons
Mythical oaths, forgotten glories
They don't happen without reason
Whispering secrets
Thoughts, they seem so common
To me they don't make any sense
Where the essence was undone
Revealed now like celestial winds
About my hope, my life, my agony and strife
The joy and faults, my feelings and thoughts
Whispering secrets exclude that it's just fantasy
Uncommitted to a language is talking without words to me
About my hope, my life my agony and strife
The joy and faults, my feelings and thoughts
The message is easy to hear
Like the call of a goose
Even the invisible signs
Are like water, crystal clear
A horseman rides slowly through the mirror's sight
He's singing a hymn for the victory of another fight
Lancelot, his semblance radiates a mystic might
Hair from underneath his helmet, and the red helmet feather
Wave in the wind like a licking flame together
This brave armoured knight; raised by the lady to a goal
Because the flames of lust carbonise her soul
Infinite sadness or smothered grief
So alone, but these emotions thet won't leave
Your state, going from bad to worse
Now as lust evokes the curse
You left the web for pictures that the mirror sent
And forgot the loom
While you stepped towards the casement,
Embraced by the arms of doom
Your lust brought you to the end
Fairy lady of Shallot
Now as you're looking down at Camelot
She's engulfed by the dismal night
When the wind extinguishes the candlelight
She's searing for this heroic knight
Wrapped in the web in which memories hide
Then the mirror cracked from side to side
The curse came upon you and you cried...
My eyes slowly close
The light shimmers away
It's the beginning of the journey
Myriads of roads for my sins to pave
The lust has fled into my dreams
As a wayward storm
It's the dawn of a new night
Will it pass without harm
The road runs like a river beneath my feet
Although I am not moving an inch
Only the thoughts, They dance like the tides
A red looking glass unfolds fragments of life
And how I became your willing wife
The ghosts of my future, all answered red
The moment the ring was on my finger
And when you found me in an other man's bed
Did they foretell you about my knight
When the key turned my chastity
Or was it my life destined to be dead
Far away battles
beneath a cloak of red satin
The yearning of lust,
a smouldering fire
All can be dealt with, if I only wake up
The night drops over the shire
The ghosts of my past
are carved in my sight
Wolves howl to the blue moon
Did I deserve this past year
A lone and longing fresh bride
Taking comfort with willing men
When you were gone
Was it your life or death I feared
Do they know the end of my dreams is near
Enforced by the hand of a bearded knight
An answer to the sins of the bed
A short thrust, the dreams fade away,
The knife on the floor has turned deep red,
A twist, a turn, been lost
more than once too many already
A hit and a run, kicked in too late
to be kicked to the curb again
regardless of the consequences
You have had me
seen me falter, felt me shiver
You have had me
right where you wanted me
You have twisted and turned my life
upside down (and right side up!),
right when all I remained was a footprint
in melting snow
You have seen me slowly disappearing
and yet, here I still remain for all to see
yet I've still not had it
Doesn’t it make you wonder how
exactly you’ve been playing me?
You have had me
seen me falter, felt me shiver
You think you have had me
right where you wanted me
It turns out
You have had me
seen me falter, felt me shiver
You have had me
I see the sky when the clouds move aside
Here I stand in the circle
So quiet and bland
Delegate of the great Goddess
Seducing the pain,
My flesh demands
By flickering flames the witches undress
The touches, the kisses, the astral caress
I see the sky when the clouds move aside
I see the sky when the clouds move aside
I see the stars
Blink in a green light that awakes in me
The witch queen this night
I made love to witches so divine
They let me forget the hurt
When I found the missing link
Between death and rebirth
The power of an enormous might
Struck down on holy ground
Where I made it mine
Trough making love
Dans la forªt, si noire que la nuit peut ªtre, respir©e
In the forest, so black that you inhale the night
Echo transmitted tales of an ancient might
Standing in the circle, surrounded by candlelight
Listening while I'm blindfolded, naked and tied
Praise the seasons, praise the night
Witches teach me how to see
This initiation enlarged my sight
I now found the witch in me
Through the lucid eyes of witches you'll see
The things that man can't see anymore
The origin of life still lives in every tree
That in the witchcraft lies the source of all the lore
Praise the seasons, praise the night
Witches teach me how to see
This initiation enlarged my sight
I now found the witch in me
The salty lips, the fivefold kiss
On my whole body there's no spot they miss
These words, a vow of secrecy
A flagellation, forty times, sealing this
Receive the atheme, its effects will make me rich
Because the seeds of fertility I now sow
I stand the invocation of witch
For complete wisdom there are two more to go
Praise the seasons, praise the night
Witches teach me how to see
This initiation enlarged my sight
A stroll down memory lane revealed gaps as large as years.
Ambition had the same properties as a butcher's blade.
The solstice in their eyes betrayed a change of seasons in their minds.
Reversed the hourglass impatiently for more wasted time to pass.
Fusion and confusion, hand in hand,
Numb to what the heart demands.
Seize what little time we have...
What we have left.
Here comes (the) wintertime, with snow to cover our crimes
And supervise our swift demise, as we urge it to pass us by.
Killing time was a grave mistake.
Sleeping through the years...
Now I can't awake!
Fusion and confusion, hand in hand,
numb to what the heart demands.
Seize what little time we have...
What we have left.
Can't you see that gold is closer to lead then we care for?
And that marble is merely stone?
Precious moments pass to fast.
Faint, new memories kill the last.
On the run.
Come undone?
I may never.
Weren't those the days, my friends?
Lived life without tomorrow.
Now it seems that I'm the subject of a tragedy.
All my goals achieved, but can't recall the roads I travelled.
Count my memories on my hands,
My empty, aging hands.
Slow it down.
Look around in this bitter deception.
Fusion and confusion, hand in hand,
Numb to what the heart demands.
Seize what little time we have...
do you want to know what this has done to me?
the rage pours down into pools of grieving
oh and your smiles turn to leprosy
turn to sickness spread into your hearts
and the pain sinks roots which smother all
but have borne a seedling - a life of hatred and distrust
you lied in ways. . . you never should have spoken
acceptance conditional
your honesty with fingers crossed behind my back
become the blade that stabs me over and over and over and over again
this time the betrayal is forever
this time will have been the last time
i believe
to have given my self away
but now there is a new me
so proud to be the hating tree
my arms out-stretched - they will withstand most everything
now there is a new me
so sad to be the hating tree
as an offering i gave oh me, my self
the madness and the laughter
insight
a love so full
and a mirror that once told me to believe again
now cries with me for the loss
i know too well
oh and the pain sinks roots which smother all
but have borne a seedling - a life of hatred and distrust
for you lied in ways. . . you never should have spoken
acceptance conditional
your honesty with fingers crossed behind my back
become the blade that stabs me over and over and over and over again
but this time the betrayal is forever
this time will have been the last time
i believe
to have given my soul away
now there is a new me
so proud to be the hating tree
my arms out-stretched - they will withstand most everything
now there is a new me
A dark wind blows a chill in his bones
As the last wolf turns from the shore and goes
Away back home to his pack and he smiles his teeth
Blank, sharp white fangs with a drop of blood
My neck turns blue by the hands that you
Put around me while tightening the grip
The blue moonshine on these wounds of mine
I bed - and I'm sinking deeper into
I crave - the embrace of the lake to take me to you
I pray - the Gods to help me this one day
I know - forgiveness is not your way
The clouds grow thick as the mud
Below his feet that walked countless miles
The be home with child and wife and only find
Black stained walls with all love gone
My hands reach out to the love I see
Only to be denied of complete devotion
Blue moonshine on these wounds of time
The battle cries inside his head fade away
I sink deeper - return home to me
I grow weaker - You are mine
how long can things go on like this
i hunger and am left hungry
so greedy have i become
i must steal your lips to get a cheap kiss
i want to feel some of this
i need to know some of this
and i ache to breath your fire
your joy, your madness, and your pain
for i am only animal
flesh and bone and sex
and i have been faithful for so long
i don't know how much more that i can take this
i want to feel some of this
i need to be some of this
and i ache to breath your fire
The grating noise of horned owl emphasises the dark
My only beacon in oblivion
Now when I'm one with this mystic web
Wherein dimensions bled to one
The fivefold kiss again
The lips that seal the vow
The feeling, that feeling
Here I stand
Where the witches sing their hymns
Full of tangled allegory
The atheme
One of the tools of art
Which reveals the lore
The ancient craft
That hides in my heart
Acknowledged and exposed
The pain
Of the two initiations
Already made sense
It illustrates our goal
To create a new world
The fabric of a dream dissolved, or so it seemed, in the waking light.
Exchangeable goodbye.
Go on, catch your flight.
It's been a privilege.
Did we shake hands?
Well, mine were shaking still with the passing of the last carts of the train.
And then the lesser half remained.
I surely hope we forged a lasting chain...
That simple, sober style...
Be careful with that smile 'cause you might hurt someone.
And it can't be made undone,
like snow before the sun, or backspace in a message, if you will.
The pain residing still.
We are so much alike, you and I.
Do you know that you radiate like in real life,
when visualised by my third eye?
Or even more so.
And though we live in different time zones,
there is no doubt that we are somehow synchronised.
Like synchronised minds.
Shall we keep this pure and mutual, and ban amorous spoilers from the game?
'Cause it'd be such a shame...
And even though the tragedy of synchro-minds may amplify a thousand times,
I want to see this through.
You know as I do that the unity of synchro-minds stretches over a thousand miles,
so don't you feel blue...
seconds
once ignored - now cherished
as they begin to tick away
panting, like a dog in the wind
throat constricted
swelling as a tumor - i can scarcely breathe
my eyes stand in the way
to the world i need to see
hazy melting images coated in glue
begin sliding from my view
and i trample on top of them
now a blind fool
now a blind fool
oh my heavy, heavy aching legs
cannot do the work of ten men
to lift my feet of stone
clumsy, my arms
long and leaden - they drag behind me
carving deep trenches in the rotting earth
oh so tightened
stretched beyond belief
my skin cracks
with the weight of my dying body
and the rage in my head
blood trickles down from my burning eyes
and stings my charred lips
oh dear god - if you would but save me
so much as a finger on my hand
surely i could find the strength to climb
atop a cloud in your sky
and echo your praises
into the light of a new day
but my words are lost
as my bones
snap suddenly
and i am left to lie upon the burning remnants of my life
seconds
eternity
the clock ceases inside of me
oh this silence, this emptiness inside
for the grinding of my teeth at the searing pain
of my flesh and the stench which infiltrates my every pore
silence
eternity
might as well relax
it's much too late
to cancel
Did you see me the other night?
Did I catch your eye, your attention
sliding by on a cloudless night?
Spying down and spinning around
To the naked eye I'm far from a sight to see
Drawing lines on both hemispheres and the stars outshine me
Always analyzing
Sending out our findings
It occurs to me...
We are all satellites with golden wings inhaling the light
Pushed to meet criteria in the long run
Don't you think that I've had my share
That the burden I bear compares to what I receive
If you label me obsolete I'll remain here among, and as a part galactic debris
We are all satellites with golden wings inhaling the light
Pushed to meet criteria in the long run
We are all satellites with golden wings inhaling the light
Hope to meet criteria in the longer run
Have I outstayed my welcome here?
But I may linger a little longer, hang around for no particular purpose or reason
Before you burn me in your atmosphere (crash me into your sea.)
push me out of your orbit...
...know that I will always remember
another year grows cold and closer still to another year
i take an image - a scent of us - and will it to become
closed eyes send you back to me
and you will never leave again
a memory of our sex has stained me
and to taste myself upon your willing lips
it would release me
with no regrets
and no remorse
the loss is imminent
but the gain was great
these things are mine for now and alwaysâ¦.always
and i would follow you anywhere
and i would take you with me
and i would follow you
and i would take you
another day grows tired and so returns me to this place
lights extinguished - now all is still - i can feel you start to breath
closed eyes send you back to me
and you will never leave again
the torture of this ritual is staining me
but with fervor i reach out and draw you in
with the hope that you may release me
with no regrets
and no remorse
the loss is imminent
but the gain was great
these things are mine for now and always
and i would follow you anywhere
and i would take you with me
and when the dreams come
i would follow you anywhere
when the dreams come
i would take you with me
don't you know
that i would follow youâ¦
this red
writing in red
ever
bleeding red
wanting red at rest
upon the red sea
it will be red
this red
to silence me
ever
feeding me
it's frightening me
it reveals
it will always be red
but it makes no difference
it makes no difference, anymore
and still loneliness awaits my return
and still loneliness awaits my return
into red
He accompanies me through wind and rain
When I'm in agony and pain
He warns me for the change, the change of tide
And tells me when and where to hide
When I was born along came he
When I arose he came alive in me
But only I was recognized
Vivid in their dream
No one saw him gleam
How selective they wish to perceive
In the lie, they want to believe
The trees blossom acknowledged
The roots denied
Because if he'd be noticed
They'd tremble, terrified
Why not speak of him freely?
Of the one hushed so ruthlessly?
He who offers the ultimate escape
Out of this treacherous world full rape
To me, a friend
Guardian of my final breath
To them, their greatest fear
Twilight settles on the fields
I hear the birds and bells in the same song
What comforts me will be gone within the hour
And I'll be waiting by the lamp-pole
Is it bliss or misery if what you see is what you believe?
Thank the loss of innocence, for things are starting to make sense
If you find them to unkind, I'll keep my thoughts confined to my own mind
But don't you trigger me... You know I've lost my heart to the paradise night
A message sent to bury dreams
No need to tell you what it means
And it will stir the hornets deep inside
It's a shame, not a crime
Put the lid on our new time
Leave the room
Things look grim
Amputee... I'm your phantom-limb
The evening primrose blooms...
We used to use it's roots for our blue wine
A scented sentiment saturates the falling night
It's almost nine...
I strike a match and set the words alight
Such ill news in a cruel disguise
Yes, it's time for me to go
You can close the shutters now...
You can go to sleep in "our" bed
It's on my lips, right there,
On the tip of my tongue
Struck deaf to wiser words
But one word from you
One word will do
Just fine
Just fine
Just speak and I will be just fine
Just fine
One word and I will be just fine
Your words move and mend
Make me mind myself
A little more, maybe
We're as right as we are wrong
And I understand
Just fine
Just fine
Just speak and I will be just fine
Just fine
One word and I will be just fine
Focus on your pause between words for a change
She'd light on breaths taken between phrases
Before the changes take effect
Watched pity from our balcony
Washed envy down with wine
Talkative, so far from sober
Bless the wine
I, we feel fine
Just fine
Just speak and we will be just fine
Just fine
One word and we will be just fine
This is all you mean to me
This is all you matter
Remind me to mind myself
solid steel, cold and angry
bitter leather, silver terror of the distance between us now
whitest pallor of blackest lips
i have always stared at them and drowned my sails inside of you
my whole body in a rage over
air-brushed battles we have waged
so terrified
so terrified
to divide and conquer the
running-drunken-splendor over
screaming blackest waters
and the blood we shed
in moondrop tears
to remember broken bottles
railroad ties so torn and mangled
that safer place - we had everything
inching closer, salt of your fingers
pressed against you, legs could not bear the weight of night, nor the stain of light
heavy scent of pain in the air
weeping for the stillness did not comfort us
it only frightened me
to divide and conquer the
running-drunken-splendor over
screaming blackest waters
and the blood we shared
in moondrop tears
now we lay the shallow grave
to the end of sunlit days
but we could have changed
everything
and forever i will carry your prayers to my lips
returning the warmth to its master
as you fade away
in moondrop tears
we walk beneath the waves of sand
as dreams of starfish overwhelm
and bluest greens
like liquid fire
pour over us as silence reigns
oceans apart
distance overcome
to swirl, to dance
into you and i
our wailing anguish - so stripped away
oceans apart
distance overcome
oceans apart
distance so overcome
faith restored
(claude s.)
Nothing really matters, we all turn
To dust, you know that? nothing is
Forever, everything will end in
Silence...
Nothing has a reason until it's
Defined by us, and nothing is elusive
As long as you have the will to
Look...
To give way to the new, to take away
The farkness of our hearts,
Replace the things that hurt...
To create...something...
Nothing...nothing becomes something...
Red leaves blow in the wind
Leaving home and everything it's known behind
Barren branches wave goodbye
As the red leaves slowly die
Every flower stares and watches
As the wind takes me away
Before the sun shone upon me
Now the wind takes me away
Red leaves falling
Through the branches
Making their way to the ground
Blowing by the flowers sleeping
Ah, autumn, you fucking cunt
Keep bringing me memories that I didn't want
How come you do it to me every time
Cold recollection of all my crimes
It's when I'm carefree that you like to travel
Swing round in front of me and grab my lapel
Your warm greeting is as cold as mine
Do I disturb you so that you need my time?
Isn't it funny how all the people I've loved
All have in common the fact that I've shoved
Them away from me, away from mine
I'm a no man's land and a man with no mind
Well autumn, fuck you for you have no reason
All my life you've been my favorite season
Well, I'm sick of the memories and the messages you bring
(Hinkel / Freudenthaler)
And when the land begins to call
The sprites they dance
The leaves they fall
The change's begun
and what remains
Not even thoughts ?not even names
We can remember can forget
We can achieve the highest aims
But we won't change the rules we're depending on
Now the freak of nature's holding up
the mirror to the haughty thoughts
Our brains are filled up
Don't you feel the earth is trembling to heal
the wounds we injured to her heart
The things are easy as they are
And when the land begins to call
The sprites they dance
The leaves they fall
The change's begun
and what remains
Not even thoughts ?not even names
And when the time begins to fade
The side-scene changes because it's late
We cannot keep ?we drop the ball
For now the land begins to call
Girl, you remind me of summertime
But now you need time to clear your mind
You're tripping over what is wrong and right
Just decide, I've been waiting all night
[Chorus:]
Think back, think back, to the summertime
I would cross through these state lines
You were always on my mind
It should not be this hard to see
How to get from point A to B
Without losing sleep, without losing sleep
I will follow the electric lines
With my electric heart I then will find
A way through all these damn street signs
But I'll be there, I'll wait by your side
Ooo, by your side
[Chorus]
We spin, we spin
And fall onto the floor
You're such a lovely lady
We spin, we spin
And circle round once more
Though it's making me crazy, yeah
And every time I walk away from you
There's never time
To say what I really had in mind
And People try they never know what's right
It's all the same
A different life behind every face
But I can't change
I've seen a different page
It's in my head
And I can't turn my back
And every word I try to say to you
I never say at the right time
And the right way
And every feelin waiting to escape
And suffocate
Every night and every day
People try they never know what's right
It's all the same
A different life behind every face
Well I can't change
I've seen a different pain
It's in my head
Desolate October grief
Falls heavy like boulders of decay
Upon crestfallen life which soon
Is to be gone
And as the days go by
All living seems to die
Quiet they stand upon the shore
The shore of no hope
Gone - with freezing rain
Gone - with deadly pain
Gone - as it was all the same
Gone - spell grim reapers name
Driven through by her own sword,
summer died last night, alone.
Even the ghosts
huddled up for warmth.
Autumn has come to my hometown.
Friendly voices, dead and gone,
singing, Star of the country down...
(even the ghosts help raise the barn,
here, now, in my hometown)
--when, out of the massing
that bodes and bides, in the cold west,
flew a waxwing, who froze
and died against my breast!
All the while, rain,
like a weed in the tide,
swans and lists, down
on the gossiping lawns,
saying tsk tsk tsk.
I may have changed. It's hard to gauge.
Time won't account for how I've aged.
Would I could tie your lying tongue,
who says that leaving keeps you young.
I have got no control
over my heart, over my mind.
Over the hills, the rainclouds roll.
I'll winter here, wait for a sign
to cast myself
out, over the water,
riven like a wishbone.
You'd hardly guess
I was my own mother's daughter;
I ain't naturally given to roam.
I lay low, when I return,
and I move
like a gurney
whose wheels are squeaking,
alone, here in my home,
and I laugh,
when you speak of my
pleasure-seeking
among the tall pines,
along the lay-lines.
Here, where the loon keens.
There, where the moon leans.
There,
where I know my violent love lays down,
in a row of silent, dove-gray days.
Here, in a row of silent, dove-gray days.
Wherever I go, I am snowbound
by thoughts of him
whom I would sun.
I loved them all,
one by one.
Cannot gain ground,
cannot outrun;
but time marches along.
You can't always stick around.
But, when the final count is done,
I will be in my hometown.
You called up late
Said you wanted to talk
I was afraid
Cause you spoke so softly
You took my hand
Slowly started to cry
I can't understand
Why our season went by
Why do leaves fall down from the sky
Is the tree not strong enough
You turned away
Slowly opened the door
Said you could not stay
You couldn't take it no more
It started to rain
Tears kept falling from the sky
It did not stop the pain
It did not stop the pain
Why do leaves fall down from the sky
Is the tree not strong enough
Now I fall on the ground
It did not stop the pain
It did not stop the pain
Why do leaves fall down from the sky
Is the tree not strong enough
Why do leaves fall down from the sky
Is the tree not strong enough
Now I fall on the ground
Now I fall on the ground
It did not stop the pain
It did not stop the pain
Why do leaves fall down from the sky
Got few possessions in my life
Got a guitar and a TV
and I got friends who back me up
If some OC guy wants to beat
I must say the most valuable thing
I got's the VCB
I got their backs and I know
They'll always cover me
Autumn's gonna do what she wants to do
Autumn's gonna say what she wants to say
She fucked over many people on the way
I hope she's happy 'cause now she's got no friends
What was the meaning of the things
She used to tell me day and night
Started wrong in the beginning
But you made it seem so right
You had me blind with all your lies
To my surprise, you were unstable
But I realize, it was your life
You just weren't able
Autumn's gonna do what she wants to do
Autumn's gonna say what she wants to say
She fucked over many people on the way
I hope she's happy 'cause now she's got no friends
Autumn's gonna do what she wants to do
Autumn's gonna say what she wants to say
She fucked over many people on the way
I hope she's happy 'cause now she's got no friends
The noblest season of the year widens in front of my
eyes
Thousands of colors reflect from a deep and perfectly
calm pond
Behind is our dream house. Surrounded with briar
branches
The scent of autumn fills my nose.
The ground is covered with maple leaves
Far away from hurries... Far away from confusion
We live in our castle... Castle in the air
In the pool of lovers... We bathe in the nature
I wish this all could... Last forever
The midday sun is in the sky. We´re waking up from a
sweet cradle
The time doesn´t matter. Just you and me and this
moment
The first snowflake of autumn floats behind a frosty
window
That is the first move of the freezing winter
Far away from hurries... Far away from confusion
We live in our castle... Castle in the air
In the pool of lovers... We bathe in the nature
I wish this all could... Last forever
The noblest season of the year widens in front of my
eyes
Thousands of shades reflect from everywhere I turn my
face
The fall´s at its best right now. It doesn´t last too
long
The scent of autumn fills my nose.
The ground is covered with maple twigs
Far away from hurries... Far away from confusion
We live in our castle... Castle in the air
In the pool of lovers... We bathe in the nature
When essence cast's shadow to see the ground,
Colours mix in hallucinations
I see a tree on a hill
It asks "Are you ready to become physically hardened?"
The answer includes a question
I experience things in it's entirety
Not as one after another
This vision is possessed by autumn
There is a wind where the rose was
Cold rain where sweet grass was
And clouds like sheep, stream o'er the steep
Grey skies where the lark was
Where the lark was
Naught gold where your hair was
Naught warm where your hand was
But phantom's forlorn beneath the thorn
Your ghost where your face was
Where your face was
Sad winds where your voice was
Tears, tears where my heart was
And ever with me, child, ever with me
Silence where hope was
Where hope was
There is a wind where the rose was
And this autumn came
with it's crawling from the sea so grey
leaves began to fall
and i can recall this unrest in me
And as friends rust
and school ended
we should see
that we´d grown up
our ways got to be
somehow seperated now
And i miss you somehow
and in love i will keep on remembering
chorus:
Unbolt the wind to me!
Brag I with audacious pride.
But that first gust of him
Makes me stumble and shrink.
My barque is covered up
With leaves and windfall-pears.
His heaven azures me
And his earth is cushioning.
The warming of his wine
And the sighing of his fire,
His honeys bitterness
Are reviving me,
Expose me to the storms
And leave me to despair.
But once his cold will die
In my ardent embrace.
[K.-U. Skerra]
Once filled with sorrow, wondering,
Only now can I conceive
Descending down onto the earth,
The act is done
I am the leaf, falling from the tree
Colours have faded, wind chills me
Sadness, I am weeping
Now, the storm brings tears
The earth is crying,
For this is the season of dying
Takes me away,
Leaves me
The earth is crying,
For this is the season of,
Once filled with sorrow, wondering,
Only now can I conceive
Descending down onto the earth,
The act is done
I am the leaf, falling from the tree
Colours have faded, wind chills me
Sadness, I am weeping
Now, the storm brings tears
The earth is crying,
For this is the season of dying
Takes me away,
Leaves me
The earth is crying,
For this is the season of,
Thanks to Julia James for submitting
the lyrics
Autumn
Shall we all meet in Autumn?
Golden and glowing by autumn
Shall we still be best of friends?
Best of friends...
All through the languous season
We ebb and flow
Romance, defying all reason
Will come, then go
Still, perhaps this Autumn
Love won't retreat in the Autumn
We'll be complete in the Autumn
All that we have won't be past
...Won't be past
Let breezes blow and turn cold
As we continue growing old
This Autumn
Love newly found may yet last
So what do you say gentlemen?
I happen to play an excellent game of auction bridge.
May I join you?
Where's your sense of occaision madam?
I understand you've just lost your husband.
Yes. But not at cards.
Ahead we plow
Into the darkening night
Can't see the bow
How then to search
With only starlight?...
No moon
No wind
Nothing to spy things
by
No wave
No swell
No line where sea
meets sky
(Autumn
Shall we all meet in
Autumn?
Golden and glowing by
autumn
Shall we still be best of friends
Best of friends?
Best of friends...)
Stillness; darkness
Can't see a thing, says I
No reflection
Not a shadow
Not a glint of light
Meets the eye
And we go sailing
sailing
Ever westward
On the sea, we go.
Sailing
Sailing
(See how calm it is
Smooth as polished glass
Ah, the open sea
Feel the bite in the air
Ah, the open sea
Smooth as polished glass)
Ever on go we...
No moon
No wind...
The night was alive
with a thousand voices...
No moon
No wind
No moon
No wind
(The night was alive
with a thousand voices...
Night was alive
with a thousand voices
The screws are
turning
At eighty-one
The screws are
turning
At eighty-one)
No moon
No wind
No moon
No wind
(The night
was alive
with a
thousand
voices)
(The screws were turning
at eighty-one
The screws
were turning
at eighty-one)
(At once a poem
and the perfection of physical engineering)
No moon!
No wind!
Dear mother of God
Iceberg right ahead!
I'm waiting here but I'm out of breath
Another reason to just forget
I'll be alright
I couldn't find a better time or place
To see the words written on your face
I'll be alright
And the leaves are on the ground and I keep falling down
It's getting colder, I'm getting older
And autumn isn't what it used to be
Stretching my arms across the sky I'll be alright
I wanted someone to make me see, there's more to life that the one I lead
I'll be alright
And the leaves are on the ground, and I keep falling down
It's getting colder, I'm getting older
And autumn isn't what it used to be
And I'm still changing, I hope your hanging on every single word that I sing
And if you're broken from the words I've spoken
This is what the colder season will bring
And the leaves are on the ground, and I keep falling down
It's getting colder, I'm getting older
This ya thing I wanna say
Wouldn't throw my love away
I'm coming with the tide
So I never gonna ride off on a side
This is my chariot
My lonely days are gone
This is my chariot
I never gonna blow it once again
Or twice, no nice, cause your eyes is my price
I'm coming with the autumn
I'm coming with the autumn wind
I'm coming with the autumn
I'm coming with the autumn wind
Pick down the apple from the tree
It's charity for you and me
The autumn wind blow chilly and cold
And you are the one that I wanna hold
Please take your stand and come with me
Cast your spell and set us free
From ball and chain
And then we know which way to go
I'm coming with the autumn
I'm coming with the autumn wind
I'm coming with the autumn
Autumn leaves under frozen souls
Hungry hands turning soft and old
My hero crying as we stood out there in the cold
Like these autumn leaves I don't have nothing to hold
Handsome smiles wearing handsome shoes
Too young to say, though I swear he knew
And I hear him singing while he sits there in his chair
While these autumn leaves float around everywhere
And I look at you, and I see me
Making noise so restlessly
But now it's quiet and I can hear you sing
'My little fish don't cry, my little fish don't cry'
Autumn leaves are fading now
That smile I lost, well I've found somehow
Because you still live on in my father's eyes
These autumn leaves, all these autumn leaves
The warm sun is failing,
the bleak wind is wailing,
The bare boughs are sighing;
the pale flowers are dying,
Come months, come away,
From November to May,
In your saddest array;
Follow the bier
Of the dead, cold year,
The chill rain is falling;
the night worm is crawling,
The rivers are swelling,
the thunder is knelling,
The blithe swallows are flown,
and the lizards each gone
And the earth's a deathbed,
in a shroud of leaves dead
Come months, come away,
From November to May,
In your saddest array;
Follow the bier
You could search the whole world over
But you'll never find
A girl so easy to fall in love with
But so hard to get off your mind
I knew the first day that I saw her
I'd soon be living my life for her
Autumn
(Autumn)
Autumn
(Autumn)
How your name
Has touched my heart
Autumn
(Stay beside me)
Autumn
(Close beside me)
Say we'll never part
She's so completely different
From other girls I have known
She does the things you'd expect her to do
But in a way that's all her own
You don't know what she does to me
When she's makin' love to me
Autumn
(Autumn)
Autumn
(Autumn)
How your name
Has touched my heart
Autumn
(Stay beside me)
Autumn
(Close beside me)
Say we'll never part
I thought I had life down pat
Love 'em, leave 'em and be on my way
(Love 'em, leave 'em)
But girl, since you gave your love to me
In your arms is where I'll stay
Autumn
(Autumn)
Autumn
(Autumn)
How your name
Has touched my heart
Autumn
(Stay beside me)
Autumn
(Close beside me)
Say we'll never part
Autumn
(Autumn)
Autumn
(Autumn)
How your name
Has touched my heart
Autumn
(Stay beside me)
Autumn
(Close beside me)
Say we'll never part
Autumn
(Autumn)
Autumn
(Autumn)
How your name
Has touched my heart
Autumn
(Stay beside me)
Summer bleeds its last shades of green
To the darkened pool of dead emotions
Pond of decayed dreams and withered love
Why should I carry on, when all hope is gone?
Come the autumn, come the rain
Wash away all the bitterness and hate
Fall - Come the autumn
Fall - Come the rain
Carve it to the firs, carve it to the oaks
Scream it to the stars, shout it at the world
Dwelling in self-pity, in self-caused pain
All bridges burnt, the only way is down
Come the autumn, come the rain
Come the nightfall, welcome death
Fall - Come the autumn
Fall - Come the rain
Fall - Come the end.
If you try to follow her footsteps,
You will find that she doesn't leave a single one...
She’s so light,
As the sound of
Her sister Syrinx’s flute...
Tapping with the leaves and dancing, she flirts with the wind,
and then her song sounds like piccolo...
Is innocent the rain that`s falling on her face,
Washing little sins of summer,
Where water-fairy runs, when summer dance’s done,
Where will she hide?
When the nature sings the swan song
And the autumn gives the final cut,
Like a painter, with her sorrow
Autumn, your foliage falls in slow dance turning,
Infinite flying from the ancient trees,
And rolling in emerald green grass
Gradually dies.
And in fact, all seemed colorful recently
And among fading dying beauty
I saw all your endless despair,
All your bottomless sorrow.
You cover the tired ground
With foliage
And mysteriously embracing me
You kiss so passionately, and temping
AUTUMN
Autumn, the wind blows colder than summer.....
Autumn, my love's gone with another.....
I can't demand anything of myself now.....
So I guess I'll stay here in New England, for Autumn.
Buildings look tall and gray.....
Birds flying, haven't much to say.....
They all know that it's coming again.....
So I guess they'll stay here in New England, for Autumn, Autumn.....
Have you ever loved something, that you thought you knew?
Have you ever lost someone, who was close to you?
Well I lost my lover..... and my summer too.....
To Autumn, the wind blows colder than summer.....
Autumn, my love's gone with another.....
I can't demand anything of myself now.....
So I guess I'll stay here in New England, For Autumn, Autumn.....
Feel the breeze again-
Learn to breathe again?
Fragile moment- promise broken
Scars remaining- words unspoken
Pain consuming- no one caring
Smile disguises- the guilt you're wearing
Autumn leave all this behind you
Open your heart Love will find you
Feel the breeze again-
Learn to breathe again?
Chasing memories- truth unfolding
Are you finding life worth holding?
In the shadows- faith is falling
I can't find you- are you calling?
Autumn leave all this behind you
Open your heart Love will find you
I remember when
Your heart was full of light
With wide eyed dreams of flying high
When did it turn cold?
When did it feel
Like the walls are closing in?
You can live again.
Autumn rain
Go back again from a long blank summer
Autumn wind
Blow life again in this dead end, autumn
Walk along these wet streets
Soldier you don`t know your enemy
Autumn leaves, fall and die with my bad lies
Autumn
Autumn nights
On a thin line I don`t see no one
Autumn days
You got all the way autumn, I`m game
Autumn
Stroll along these dead streets
Soldier you don`t know your enemy
Autumn sights, it`s never daylight but I`m alright
Oceans of sadness
Overflows me
Feels like I'm leashed
And can not move
Depression entering my lungs
And as I choke it graps my soul
It feels like I am dead
But I am still alive
Will I ever wake up
From my dreams
To see the moon again
Rain from the darkened
Autumn skies
And I watch october rise
And it fills my heart with pain
Yet, I greet this
Mournful autumn
Autumn
I fade away
Autumn
See it all turn pale
Coming to take me away
It's the autumn
It feels like I am dead
But I am still alive
Will I ever wake up
From my dreams
To see the real world again
Rain from the darkened
Autumn skies
And I watch october rise
and it fills my heart with pain
Yet, I greet this
Mournful autumn
Autumn
You fade away
Autumn
Where is reason now? It's been too long
Riding the wings of a lie
Feeling suffocated, feeling so frustrated
Where is reason now? It's caged inside
Digging deeper to find
And it's breathing, it's teething, it's breeding
tonight
Cuz I
I'll build myself a broken home
Until the sky stops falling
I'll sew my eyes shut just for a while
Until I feel Autumn come
Coming undone
This sacred kingdom
Oh no I'm not letting go
Coming undone
This sacred kingdom
Oh no I'm not letting goooo
Cuz I
I'll build myself a broken home
Until the sky stops falling
I'll sew my eyes shut just for a while
Until I feel Autumn come
Find myself again
Until I've bled enough
Find myself again
Until I've bled enough
Until I find myself again
Until I feel the ground give way
Until I feel something else
Until I feel Autumn come
Until I feel Autumn come
Until I feel Autumn come
Until I feel Autumn come
Herr - es ist Zeit
Der Sommer war sehr gro?
Leg deine Schatten auf die Sonnenuhren
Und auf den Fluren la? die Winde los
Befiehl den letzten Fruchten voll zu sein
Gib ihnen noch zwei sudlichere Tage
Drange sie zur Vollendung hin und jage
Die letzte Su?e in den schweren Wein
Wer jetzt kein Haus hat, baut sich keines mehr
Wer jetzt allein ist wird es lange bleiben
Wird wachen, lesen, lange Briefe schreiben
und wird in den Alleen hin und her
unruhig wandern
wenn die Blatter treiben
R.M. Rilke
It?s getting autumn
It?s getting autumn
the days get colder
the days get colder
also is my heart
It?s getting autumn...
the leaves are falling...
also is my heart
It?s getting autumn...
the days get shorter...
also is my life
Wer jetzt kein Haus hat...
and so goes my life
hin und her, hin und her
hin und her, hin und her
und kommt nicht mehr
