Paulson Filmography

• Videsi Nair Swadesi Nair (2002)
• KL 7/95 Ernakulam North (1996)
• Kidilol Kidilam (1995)
• Makkal Maahathmiam (1992)

• Lyrics: play full screen play karaoke
• Programs - Paulson
• Optimism Is For Stupid Idiots - Paulson
• Feast Or Famine - Paulson
• A Great Pretending - Paulson
• Jump The Gun - Paulson
• I Knew You When - Paulson
• "N" As In Nothing - Paulson
• Generosity Pt. II - Paulson
• Diaryland - Paulson
• Convertible (Reprise) - Paulson
• Convertible - Paulson
• Christie - Paulson
• Boston - Paulson
• All At Once - Paulson
• Under Crowns - Paulson
• Ultra-High - Paulson
• The Hard Way - Paulson
• Window Frames - Paulson
• What Are You? - Paulson
• Voids - Paulson
• Not By A Long Shot - Paulson
• Nightfall - Paulson
• My Funny Valentine - Paulson
• Most Unfortunate - Paulson
• Miami Current - Paulson
• Me First - Paulson

Broke and drunk on lemonade;
her idea to go away
When they arrive dressed in pride
they'll wash them down in flashing lights
Weight escapes in stereo,
soldiers cracking random codes
He'll find he's so lost and in her eyes
won't let him compromise
Dance all night
Coming just to get along,
smiling but the love is gone
She finally gets her balance back,
she swears it was an act
Of all the ways it could have gone,
cake and white and carry-on,
she'll put an end to this four-year stand
cause she can't love a violent man
Dance all night
It's in her kiss, you won't admit it
I know that after this
we'll never dance again,
so dance all night
When I took your hand did I misunderstand?
The plates begin to slip away and matching edges start to scrape
The floors collapse from underneath and plaster walls evaporate
The programs run and take away the center of our gravity;
the bonds we made were never meant to break

In a second it all could change
like a bird that hit the glass
Your eyes are open
but you couldn't have known
as you slam into the pane of a window
A flash flood at a eulogy;
it was the way you said my name
The world is perfect when I'm half asleep
and it kind of makes me find it hard to swallow
In a second it all could change
like a bird that hit the glass
Your eyes are open
but you couldn't have known
Changes tear up the tracks but leave the rails intact
Their strengths untested but integrity's not what they lack
The message came across, tapped in as dash and dot
Their hearts were hoping but a random pattern's what they got
The syllables, they sound like words
So what you felt is what you heard
But syllables is all they were,
they're not for you,
and never meant for what you made them serve
And so a seed is sown; the roots grow green and gold
They find some comfort in pretending that they're not alone
But after time this tree's no longer make believe
They made religion by believing what they can't perceive
Say these walls came down, freed you from this maze
The sun set south and gravity gave you to the clouds
How would you explain?

I have to know: is it you I'm seeking?
This feeling's strong, and it comes and it goes as it...
Please don't leave this in my hands
Cause I know love is sometimes feast or famine
No, no one gets this far by speaking tongues and bending backwards
Love like there's no tomorrow
Live under novocaine
Anything hard to swallow
gets iced numbed and swept under the rug
And if I made it this far,
I'll make it all the way
I'll drown under the Hudson,
sleep under the stars
This marks the end
Just say the word and I'll be gone by morning
I call your bluff, and you call mine
and find we've both been faking
Don't let it get this far
She spoke and I was brought back to my senses
No, no one gets this far by speaking tongues and bending backwards
And though we try
Still it's never enough
(year one the hours measured in sighs, your eyes see only mine
year three the fights get worse but we've grown frightened to be alone)

Comfort me
Choose a friendship that's not made of plastic
That was me: eye crossed, stars wide while patiently saying:
"I still believe that this world is good when we stop pretending."
Breath in my poisoned heart;
suffer from a great pretending
Discard this mask of ours
May we see ourselves for what we are
Try to smile when you're lying in a field of daises
That was us: truck top, July, while the engine was running
I still believe that this world is good when you stop pretending
Through what we are...

Another light in my eye shines brightly. And I cringe from the glare; did I really hear what I heard? Just come and see, you must be kidding. But it doesn't come a surprise for those who are used to it. I'm not used to it. Don't jump the gun, and start chasing a phantom. Don't jump the gun, empty praise of an anthem. Now that you're awake, look at what we've done now that you're awake. A question mark, a realization... That we're jumping the gun and we're pointing our fingers. All of our lives are at stake if you fight, you better pray you know what's right. So we brace for the blow and we beg you to stop, but you're taking this chance to show them who's on top.

I've been here before
The sky seems so familiar
Empty pockets just like last time,
salt and lust; my back-seat driver
I knew you when
I can hear my pulse behind my ears and my throat,
salt and lust; my back-seat driver

The end came after way too long. After playing a game, petty with kids involved. Did you ever wonder how you'd feel if you didn't pass yourselves along? Our lives in your hands, making it hard to withstand. As hard as you possibly can. We owe you nothing. So we strive to be normal with an 'n' as in nothing, 'till it rings clear that nothing's fine. Who's to blame? Who's at fault? Look at me, with an 'm' as in moron. I'll be your scapegoat anytime. Today acts as a milestone; the beginning of problems, some unsurmountable.

There lived a boy with nothing; except a girl on is arm and family and an otherwise empty apartment on Jerome -- The benefits of reap what you sow. You would think that everyday was tough, but this gentleman's days were filled with love. That wasn't enough. He moved up, and now he can't stop. It changes everything, you're poor it seems. I don't need that now. Just remember when the important thing was love. Happiness lies inside (that's what they tell you). But all that you find is blinding, so you remain in your mansion, all alone. But all that you own can't keep you warm. I lived through the feeling of too much. It's alright but living never stops on a happiness treadmill. Look at someone, with more than you own. It changes everything...

Instrumental

They said "duck," but I got caught and it took out my jaw
They said "shoot," but I froze up, I took in what I saw
And I'm not blind
I couldn't make up my mind
These eyes of complacency
are wide and asphyxiated
This coat of arms was free
but you cost me everything
You saw wrong in what I did,
you felt I should repent
But I can't give my consent,
plus you ruined my weekend
And I can't lie
I don't know how to apologize
I'm not blind
And I can't lie to myself

Things started fine
Some things went wrong but I ignored the signs
And I recall the nights we wove our silver robes from the moon above
And I still weave in my own way but things have changed
It's not the same 'cause I'm not blind and I can't lie to myself
Cursed is this life you lead,
immersed in amphetamines
And you swore you were
unchangeable, convertible
Dreams gone awry and work's too hard so cut another line
Well be my guest but you should know
I'm not impressed with this cash you blow
And I can't turn my head the other way, I just can't stay
I'm too afraid 'cause I'm not blind and I can't lie to myself

Standing on the corner, of 5th and 39th, watching as the (towers crumble to the ground) world passes by; but, no one seems to notice, the hours in decline. I never thought I'd want 'em back, 'till the day you said goodbye. We've been waiting way too long. Even in better times, it wasnt in my heart to live a lie. We could have better times if you saw the world through a different set of eyes (cue point at eyes motion). Sitting with the lights out, strumming my guitar. Writing confused love songs, and calling it art. The trick to (self expression) writing love songs is knowing where to start. Not the time we spent together, but the time we spent apart.

I might've spent too long. I might've tried too hard. But you didn't feel the same, promised your life away. I look before I leap and that doesn't make us strong, effects the long run. This job was made for you, and I don't think I'll ever know, I can't believe its true, I've never seen this side of you. Another night gone wrong, the minutes last too long, but no matter what I say, things just drag on this way, to finally see you smile, well thats the one thing I can wait forever for.

All at once sight becomes a sound,
the sky becomes a shroud
Tickles roof of mouth
Two lines at a time,
a voice is heard but what did it say,
what could that have meant?
You swept the rug out from under me,
you pulled the plug out so I won't see
God gave chase but the people found their stride
and he could see this was their time
And all at once the pages turn themselves
and I'm just glad I didn't get in,
wasn't in their way

I hear went away, you had to leave this state
It seems your past is catching up to you in this place
Now being alone is scaring you â- that's when the call comes through
You don't want me, you're just lonely
I let you inside
You don't want me, you're just lonely
and I don't care tonight
I'm living day to day
I lost my sense of taste and I can't seem to get my head on straight
I know we all make mistakes; mine cause too much pain
Inside those baby blue eyes there's something you can't seem to resist
And I'm obliged to help you get your fix
But inside I'm wishing it was more than this
You don't want me, you're just lonely
There's no one I'd rather take apart

Drove to work just to find some time alone
I called ahead; no one answered â'cause no one's there
I'm fine, just tired and hiding from things I can't explain
Knowing it's our nature to try,
we're fighting off this ultra-high
It should be cold, it's the clouds that keep it warm
Let's say they never clear: can you last without the sun?
I'll bet you can't; I know you better than I know myself

And the sky is made of wine,
not whiskey or rye
And the moon is full
In this land of our fantasy
it's good to be free,
I promise you
Pine cones
Blue birds
Cascades
Blue jays
I've learned you can only learn the hard way
That's why I'm looking out for you
And the sky is made of wine,
not whiskey or rye
I know it may not be fair
but you know it's good to be scared
This fantasy will set us free

Given to this feeling that I'm on the verge of something
It's an itch, it's a lift, it's just the way it is
I should've chained the doors to save us from the walk-ins
Now it's too late to turn the lights off and hide
Last night you were next to me when the fire alarm went off
We held each other on the feather bed quiet and calm
But it was not the same, the names were changed
and the window frames were in the wrong place
in my dreams where I didn't mess everything up
I imagined a son and this is not my imagination
Honey, you're too sweet for my teeth and you're giving me cavities
If you never run too fast you never get winded
No relationships are never finished, just abandoned
In this light you're a silhouette and I'm gauged by what I'm told
All I could see were the seventeen inches of snow
But it was not the same, the names were changed
and the window frames were in the wrong place
in my dreams where I didn't mess everything up
Look what you did to me and my wisdom teeth
Your lips were too sweet and they left me with cavities

I want to know if we're armed with what we need
Is what we need what I want to know?
Chances are the catacombs are not as dark
Still I want to know if we're armed to the teeth
with grades that won't stop rising
We joined the hearts running from the start
A blinking light was on
We built the blocks running from the start
The ancient fade from white to cream, and cream to spoil
Still I want to know if we're so armed and filled
with destiny, why's it feel so wrong?
So what are you waiting for?
The truth is running under you
The drive is right in front of you
The readers judge from over you
The end is locked inside of you

Day breaks into pieces and I make another enemy
I'm lost by the wayside but I made it in your diary
And you say I'm going to want you, I'm going to need you sometimes
I know I'm a disappointment and I've lost all your sympathy
And you say I'm going to want you, I'm going to need you sometimes
Now I've got voids to fill
And I've got voids to fill
Day breaks and we lose our balance
But did you have to throw the book at me?
And you say I'm going to want you, I'm going to need you sometimes

Get a pen, make list of your crimes and then hand it over
Who says you can't switch sides?
It's that simple
And you can't make mistakes,
but as men we are able to folly
You say that's just fine
That makes no sense
They'll throw the book at us,
and they're aiming for our young
but they'll miss by a long shot
Yeah, not by a long shot
Will we join them?
Cause you're old and you're scared,
it's the luxury of youth that allows us to see a different side
Do you remember?
A sudden surge of the tide,
saw it wash away life I say that we can prevent this
You say it's a sign
Well, aren't you lucky?

Lately the tension's rising;
this love is not ok
Girl, honestly, I think we're both to blame
What if I let you write this?
What if you had your way?
You'd probably sell me out, I'd hear you say:
"He isn't trustworthy.
He thinks he's always right.
He points out everything that I do wrong.
He doesn't know how to apologize."
And I saw the night fall on you, limb by limb
If I'm to understand you
If I am to relate,
I'll listen to you and commiserate
These are the questions' answers,
this is my life on tape:
my thoughts get magnified through time and space
I know this anger will turn into deep regret
I tell me over and over
but I don't seem to be able to stop this time

You're my funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile in my heart
Your looks are laughable, un-photographable
Yet, you're my favorite work of art
Is your figure less than Greek?
Is your mouth a little weak
when you open it to speak,
are you smart?
Don't change a hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine
Stay little valentine
Stay little valentine
Stay...
Each day is valentine's day

Don't spend your life making up your mind
Choose your way to bleed,
eat, love, sleep and breathe
Model a life that most resembles it
Decades change your mind
Pack it in, resign
You've led a life that's most unfortunate
I'm not convinced this is who I am
But I can't waste this work put into my mistake
I'm not convinced we're all meant to be
One thing exclusively provides and calls to me
If I've learned anything
it's that we're blank to this date
If I've learned anything
it's that I don't need this pain
If I've learned anything
it's that conformity's the only shame we're all guilty of
If I've learned anything
it's that it's very hard to say
If I've learned anything
it's that they'll take it away
If I've learned anything
it's that we're making it up yet we say we're so into it
Don't waste your life making up your mind
I'm not convinced we're supposed to die
One chance. One try.
One turn to live this life
No where. No why.
No wrong. No right.

Home again and you're remembering when you were young
Thoughts that come to you surrounded by flesh and blood
You were blown away cause they made the trade, made it anyway
You're in a rush to grow, when you got engaged it was a Saturday
Take your time, let it float away
Let the current bring you back to me
Recordings of your voice and notes are buried underground
Something in the way she spoke that made you turn around
Now you're open wide, she's got you off the roads,
she's gonna get you home
You gotta let it go, she's got you under the gun,
back to square one

Letting you decide is easier than making up my mind. But I'm feeling it now. and it'll catch up quick. In an eyeblink you turn into whatever one you're with. Nothing wrong with being two people, doesn't mean this isn't true love. I know you never asked for this. I must've asked a thousand times still yet you wont admit it. I'm feeling better, you're looking worse. I care a lot for you but I gotta think of me first. Letting them decide, settling the when where what when why. They'll take us away on a fucked up trip. We'll be lucky to make it back alive in this 85 Econoline. Nothing wrong with an east coast tour. That doesn't mean we'll become rock stars.