Ich hatte Sehnsucht
Das Verlangen so stark
War zu verletzlich, so zerbrechlich
Erst nach Jahren begreif' ich das
Ein Orkan stürmt in mir
Vielleicht liegt es nur an dir
Ob er wütet oder ruht
Doch der Frust zerstört den Mut
Sie war zu kurz die Zeit
Für `ne Beziehung nicht bereit
Bin ich schlauer?
Mit viel mehr Power?
Ich fühl' mich leer und verbraucht
Hast meine Gefühle missbraucht
Mein Herz schrie nach Verrat
Als du erneut im meine Liebe batst
Feigheit, Unsicherheit
Angst vor Zufriedenheit
Der Einsamkeit
Dazu bin ich nicht bereit
Mein Herz ist auf der Flucht Mann
Nur Schuld ist deine Sucht
Im Schale meiner Schreie
Erklang in mir der Wunsch aufs Neue,
Dir die Wahrheit zu sagen
Und nicht schon wieder zu verzagen
Ich brauch' nicht noch einmal
Den tiefen Schmerz zu ertragen
Ein Blick in deine Augen, ich erkenn' dich nicht
Ich seh' nur mich selbst, dich seh' ich nicht
Denn nur weil nichts und nichts sich nie entzweit
Da nichts im Nichts stets nichtens bleibt
Hast mich verlassen...
Ist das alles, ist das alles - was zu sagen ist
Je näher wir uns kommen, desto weiter geh' ich
Fort
Verzeihen würd' ich dir nicht mehr
Empfindungslos kalt und leer
Ist das die Zweisamkeit, ist das der Weg zum
Glück?
Soll ich leiden, länger leiden immer Stück für
Stück?
Der Egoist warst du, der mich zwang so zu sein
So wie du.
Die Gefühle gegen den Verstand, das alte Lied
Hast du's jetzt erkannt, die Zukunft ist heiter
Mein Leben geht weiter, durch die gescheiter
Viel befreiter, trotz einsamer Reiter
Wär' total verrückt dich nochmal zu berühren.
Verfall' dir aufs neue
Das wär' das, was ich bereue, ich bin jetzt
Stärker
Härter, setz' mich gegen dich zur Wehr
Verpiss' dich hau ab, mein Leben ist zu knapp.
Ich hab' gelernt, dich jetzt erst richtig zu hassen
Deshalb hab' ich dich für immer verlassen.
Hast mich verlassen...
Segregate hate
to hear
the mind raping lewd symphony
Deceive them
one more time
Bring back your forbidden desires
They weep, they scream, they fear
they see the ghouls at night
They bleed, they need to feel
their skin being ripped apart
Dye the whiteness
with remnants of crimson lunatics
Set the bar high
become the new king of foolishness
[Repeat verse]
The pulse of regret is near
Lick the blood off my skin
(Needle in an eye, needle in an eye)
Drink all the acid in me
(Needle in an eye, needle in an eye)
Wash shame off your hands with spit
(Needle in an eye, needle in an eye)
Bite off the eyelids of the living
(Needle in an eye, needle in an eye)
We haven’t got far in life
their words are corrosive lies
the filth is what fuels our lives
Grotesquery
[Repeat chorus]
Cruel as a god
you wipe off
the smile on your saviors' faces
Seize the death
of others
for your life is also valueless
[Repeat verse]
Push the thorn in
between wounded flesh and fingernails
Chug and gargle
the vomit from lustful harlots
[Repeat verse]
Shame, guilt, anger, wrath
To cure yourself
To prove them wrong
It’s an endless battle
In an obscure void
Failure
Humiliation guaranteed
Dropping your tears on the graves of your fathers
Washing your hands from inevitable guilt
Sinners
Rewarded for committing crimes
Life’s overrated
You’ll die one thousand times
Reality is nothing but a lie
Sentinels of light
Show me the way to freedom
I’m not here to stay
Sentinels of light
Take my hand
Together
We’ll fade away
Doubt, grief, panic, woe
Mischievous reasoning
Unknown by some
Enjoyed by many
But left ignored
[Repeat verse]
A lost outlet
defined by other’s promises
it’s a sinner who leads your way
Among deserted fields
gain the courage to follow through
end the world in cold blood
Deceit
Betrayal
Inflame my heart with tales
of rebels who fought well
they gave their lives and failed
Depict the horizon
left by the gloomy arrival
of thousands of mad men
a new age of denial
The skies are falling
no prophecy foresaw the enraging desire
of underrated power
Untrodden empires
endowments from the idols
Shift into beings of light
set your boundaries on fire
Bring your devices of torture
Put your own head in the deadliest one
I doubt that anyone will ever care
so give up faith
Retrain from coming back for a rematch
the gates are closed and there’s no way back
so welcome to the endless pit of souls
find your own spot and leave me alone
A ghost threshold
exposed to you as valid truth
subjugation of self control
Amidst no man’s land
extermination of cynic fools
inhumane conclusion
[Repeat verse]
Look into the eyes of fortune
the evolving circle fades into the night
reincarnation found its last stage
so give up faith
allow your demons to take over you
what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger too
until you realize it’s better
to stop demanding what you cannot have
So many times, I've been lost
And blinded by the light
Caught up in a maze
Now I feel just like a wolf
Who forgot how to fight
And frozen by the haze
I was a hungry mean beast
I'll never be satisfied
Always looking for the next feast
Wailing for the next ride
Like hell, I'm gonna do it like hell
Like hell, I'm gonna rock you like hell
Like hell, I'm comin' at you like hell
Like hell, I'm gonna shock you like hell
Just one more sip to ease my thirst
Another for the fire
That's all I need
The time has come to break the spell
Or give in to desire
There ain't no in between
No, I won't stay and take it
Get caught up, standing still
Looking for a day to shake it
Looking for the kill
[Repeat chorus]
No more hiding in the shadows
Runnin' from the light
No more cryin' when the wind blows
Howling at the night
Cold is the night, snow falls from the sky
I stare at this scene, so beautiful but unreal to me
Inside me, I can feel, the despair, it's so reak
A sentry, I wouldn't be, war forced me!
Men of war, what are you fighting for?
Men of war, don't you see that open door?
Men of war, will your children understand?
Men of war, their fathers die with gun in hand
Here is these fields, my beloved wife is so far from me
Death lies ahead, with blood and with tears I'm now
sharing my bed
Inside me, I can feel, the despair, it's so real
A sentry, I wouldn't be, war forced me!
I am hungry how are you?
you say that every lie came true
i will hold you anyway
and you'll grow strong and leave one day
is there any other way?
look desire in its face
watch it eat and leave no trace
after you have disappeared
who will know and who will hear?
oh it's such delicious fear.
brushes with a starving hand
just the ache i understand
after you have swallowed me
who do you think you will be?
you'll be you and i'll be me.
and still i will lay my body down
and in your many voices drown
oh we are a hidden pool
we are so long we are so cool
while underneath we're dark and cruel
and i am hungry how are you?
you say that every lie came true
i will hold you anyway
and you'll grow strong and leave one day
is there any more to say?
but: take the front door leave just one
and don't return there are no chances pending
if you want to live this way
only those like you will play
and they never play to stay.
and they never play to stay.
They said some men would be warriors and some men would be kings
And some men would be owners of land and other man-made things
And false love as the eternal flame would move some to think in
rings
And gold would be our power and other foolish things
But you who dream of liberty must not yourselves be fooled
Before you get to plea for freedom, you've agreed to being ruled
If the body stays a shackle then the mind remains a chain
That'll link you to a destiny whereby all good souls are slain
And it won't take long, it won't take too long at all
It won't take long, and you may say
"What has that got to do with me" and I say,
"You mean to tell me that's all?"
Of three men in a desert wandering, one is knowing and two are
scared
They say time is in the river, but the river is not there
Dry in spirit dry in body two will lend themselves to death
And in grief one weeps into his hands and drinks his bitter
tears
'Cause it don't take long, it don't take too long at all
It don't take long, and you may say,
"I don't know what you're talking about," and I say
"You mean to tell me that's all?"
And as I stand before you now, I am hopeful in my rage
You know love has finally called for me, I will not wilt upon
its stage
But still smaller than my nightmare now do I print upon the page
Do we have to live inside its walls to identify the cage?
'Cause it takes so long, why does it take so long,
But it takes so long, and you may say,
"I don't really care what you're talking about," and I say,
"Are you trying to say you don't belong?"
I am my mother's daughter, but I have seen myself in you
It's this blessing that I follow now, and so I must speak true
I dreamed of thousands dying, it was you and you and you,
And while the city sleeps so quietly there is something we must
And it won't take long, it won't take too long at all,
It won't take long, and you may say,
"I don't know if I wanna know what you're getting at,"
And it makes we wanna say, "So long."
Because grief will come in measures, only grief alone will know
And you'll see it on your family, on your own face it will grow
And they'll try to keep you hungry, then they'll tell you to eat
snow
You know pride can be a moving thing if we learn the strength of
"NO!"
And it won't take long, it won't take too long at all,
It won't take long, and you may say,
"I don't think this has anything to do with me,"
"But did you ever think you could be wrong?"
At noon on one day coming, human strength will fill the streets
Of every city on our planet, hear the sound of angry feet
With business freezed up in the harbour, the kings will pull
upon their
hair
And the banks will shudder to a halt, and the artists will be
there
'Cause it won't take long, it won't take too long at all,
It won't take long, and you may say,
"I don't think I can be a part of that," and it makes me want to
say,
"Don't you want to see yourself that strong?"
Division between the peoples will disappear that honoured day
And though oceans lie between us, lifted candles light the way
Half will join their hands by moonlight, the rest under a rising
As underneath the sun and moon, a ritual'd wailing has begun
And it won't take long, it won't take too long at all,
It won't take long, and you may say,
"I don't know how to be a part of what you're talking about,"
and it makes
me want to say, "Come on!"
And beware you sagging diplomats, for you will not hear one gun
And though our homes be torn and ransacked we will not be undone
For as we let ourselves be bought, we're going to let ourselves
be free
And if you think we stand alone, look again and you will see:
We are children in the rafters, we are babies in the park,
We are lovers at the movies, we are candles in the dark,
We are changes in the weather, we are snowflakes in July,
We are women grown together, we are men who easily cry,
We are words not quickly spoken, we're the deeper side of try,
Rosalee
You tried too hard again
Your stride stumble you down
The horse
Of love
You tried to rope again
In just your cowhide gown
And don't it feel like
Every bummer
You have ever known
Don't it make you
Think that maybe
You're okay alone
Pool of faces
All are strangers crying
Who is living there?
Back to back
Your one-horse race is more
Like castles in the air
But who remembers in the old days
Gamut sports was hot
And with a bit of constant effort
One could prove their spot
Rosalee
The times are spinning
So damn fast
You'd think they'd stopped
Could it be
You'd stand
In one space staring
Easily you'd be forgot
But you know
Everyone is running ragged
Through this field of woe
And you are not
The last to tumble
Think that as you go
Rosalee
You tried too hard again
Your stride stumble you down
The horse
Of love
You tried to rope again
Oh, It’s the weird kind of thrill
a burning desire that must fade away
Oh, I found my own way
(now go back to the start again)
Oh, Now that winter is near
I’ll glance at the past and smile again
Oh, You’ll fall into to this game
over again
And live life alone
all hope is gone
affliction grows
tears carve like acid
heartbeats pump coal
ground into dust
now the trial’s lost
Now again
sweet downfall prevails
let the anguish leave marks on the sink
and fight for breath
damn the thoughts of a new world
they’re like a feather in the sky vanishing in rue
Cursed memories, timeless stains of ink,
childish misconceptions, dust in the wind,
hearts shaped clouds, blurry silhouettes,
faceless individual, foreign to the cold…
Breeze from the north, pushing from above,
journey of the mindless, words left untold,
false promises, treasures thrown away,
wisdom cries that in the end it wasn’t…
Perfect… Perfect…
It wasn’t perfect after all
Perfect…
(There’s a shadow that flies away)
Perfect…
(I’m the flower that blooms again)
It wasn’t perfect after all
(Our redemption will come after midnight)
Oh, It’s the end of a tale
shattered to pieces that cut through the skin
Oh, It hurts to be sane
(the piercing rain strikes again)
So long my unrecognized friend
I’ll linger through shadows to make sure you’re there
in death you will take a glimpse of my face
it’s never too late
As young time goes on
Innocence falls
and letters burn
frozen flames melting
on ghostly roads
I’ll turn back the clock
for the sour fruit lost all its meaning
And again
the roads will not intersect
because these are brighter days
and times have changed
some belong to the cold
others should remain far beyond
[Repeat verse]
Babe you are my bellybowl
My soft shoe shuffle
I come behind
I follow whole
For me there is no other
I look into your eyes so deep
I see how I may need you
I waited for the truth to ring
I only felt it blowing
O aren't we a stylish class
Devoid of spirit wailing
We've not used leaves
To wipe our ass
Tomorrow we'll go sailing
Ah, drink the water
It tastes like wine
And wine can smell of money
Though money may snip the
Kharmic line
It turns our force to honey
Honey for our cup of tea
And honey for our toddies
And honey for our minds so free
The night before the day we meet
I make my walk on sacred ground
I turn my eyes up to most soulful sky
And in evening soil my heels sink down
I hear people laughing together down the way
And as their glasses tinkle in their play
I'm in between the moon and tomorrows light
And I cannot know how close you are.
The beast and baby have to meet
Until they do, they cry, they cry alone
The moon must line up with the sun
And burn the path that lights us home
I've seen your face a thousand times
And I've heard your voice in everything
And but I've always known
That love would be a simple song that I would sing
And as I wait I sing this song to you
And to a hollow moon like a golden ring
And to a tree that stands solo in an opening
The night before the day we meet.
And the beast and baby have to meet
Until they do they cry, and they cry alone
And the moon must line up with the sun
And burn the path that lights us home
I've seen your face a thousand times
And I heard your voice in everything
And I've always known that love would be
The simple song that I would sing
The night before the day you come
I hear signals and messages from anyone
And I want to bring my head down and kiss someone
I have all my human senses... now, can I calm my senses?
Can I calm my freedom?
I waken to a morning mist
The sun burns through an almost kiss
Now gone away
Not surprised to find me lonely now
Parade of dreams stroll by and bow
Not meant to stay
I say hello there brittle and bone
For sure you must be my home
What's more I can always feel alone
With you
Oh it's true, you are a special one
Your very laugh makes my blood run
Where are we now?
Cemented in our city dreams
Ambition like a sifting screen
On an old farm plow
Ah, you know that some love to love
Some love to change
Some have to have their own free range
And some tear my heart all apart
But if loss is just a step behind
A dancing door
A circus mind
I leave my bed
And I stumble through my rituals
I fight my mind
My memory pulls
To things been said
Oh I admit that I
Hold to words
I hold them tight
I've known colder comfort
In the night
It's only time after all
As I waken to a morning mist
The sun burns through an almost kiss
Now gone away
Not surprised to find me lonely now
Parade of dreams stroll by and bow
Not meant to stay
But I say hello there brittle and bone
For sure you must be my home
What's more I can aIways feel alone
When I was young the mom next door would
have tea at our house and she said her heart was
broke and she told me that life was based on faith in
the Evermore but me I was always trying to find a way
to get a dime and go outside and play. It was pretty
weird my childhood years, especially with the
transference of those dreaded adult fears that I
remember a song the moms would sing and we'd
sing along...
"If you go through that Shady Gate
Have soneone near who is for you
Someone who will not mind to wait
As you go slow through shady gate."
He left my mom when I was ten. She said she
didn't give a damn...that they'd never amount to
anything and they woke me up one night in the
middle of an awful fight and I heard him yell 'What
about my needs?' and her hiss back "Why don't you
wake up all the neighbours too but please just leave
me be, another kid would finish me" and in the
morning while I ate my cereal he left...I didn't look
so I
didn't see...and she got a better job in the new
department store and me I had to rush right home
from school and feed the kids...they didn't ask about
him much.
But I asked her once about 'Shady Gate'. It was
late one night whiel we were hanging out the laundry
and she said that Shady Gate was when sweet time
won't wait, it's like when a choice gets made like a
deck been laid and maybe the sun will shine or
maybe it won't at all but whatever is coming for you
you get to have it all. And I wanted to ask her then
exactly what he'd meant by 'needs' but we had to
rush inside the winter made her fingers split and
bleed.
And he knocked upon the door before my next
birthday and my mom looked real upset and she sent
us out to play and when we came back in it looked
like she'd been crying hard and him he tried to hug us
then and he said he loved us all. He said, "Anything
you want all you have to do is say" and my mind
raced to the brand new pair of jeans I'd seen at
school that day but you know that night when we
slept the monsters didn't come and I dreamt we sang
the song out loud only this time with a drum...
"If you go through that Shady Gate
Have soneone near who is for you
Someone who will not mind to wait
As you go slow through Shady Gate"
...I like the way you held your head and how you
muttered right out loud...the things you said...you
were so serious and I didn't believe at first you
saying
there was still some place you had to go and still
something you had to know. "Well, wash your face"
my good friend tells me and "Clean your house in
troubled times"...I must admit it helps an awful lot to
go on loving what you love you see I've even trained
my mind, I'm not afraid to look behind. It's a cool
night
falling with the night birds calling and I dare not
wonder where you be. But it's times like this I wish I
had a line to mother love or even just another word
Old river winding
Water run high
lf there's gold for the finding
Well, it's passing me by
How I ache for a part in a play
I could say I didn't blow
0 Louise won't you please me now
You bring me to my knees
You only tease me now
It seems you're always trying to show
That you're unkind
T hat you've got nothing for a heart
And echoes in your mind
You know, faking everything
Don't make it fine
Take everything
But don't take my time
I walked to some river
And I felt how it flowed
Though I feel like a beggar now
I say I've chosen to go
Some loving is torture
It seems ours is not the way
O Louise I'm gonna leave you now
You bring me to my knees
You only grieve me now
It seems you're always trying to show
That you're unkind
That you've got nothing for a heart
And echoes in your mind
You know, faking everything
Don't make it fine
Take everything
Every person has their story, the one they vamp
and revamp
There is a way through constant sorrow
But we must do more than light the lamp
Unlike Zhivago at the window Pining Lara's love
We dare not wait the weather to join the
high suspended dove
Cause yesterday my baby girl walked up to a little boy
And I watched her curl her arms around him
And transform her fear to joy
And if I believe we've blown our purpose
Then I might have missed the chance
To see Gandhi in two babies' bodies
And watch them spin and dance.
you gotta go for fire
you gotta go for what you know so well
you gotta go for why you came this way
And Live your story tall and well
Maybe you can't believe somehow
That things can turn around
All your life it just seemed like some were destined upward
And some were destined down
And it's just not gonna be that simple for us
Cause it's not so hard to see
That's it's a huge and limitless sky describing what will be.
And There might be a disillusioning calm
in the winds that blow
But believe that changes come
Keep your dream, knowing dreams come slow
And beat your drum for those before you
And for those eager on the side
And light a candle for life's still and riotous dream to
Dwell where love abides
you gotta go for the mystery
you gotta go for the high true flight
to deny the grace in tragedy
is to deny the beauty in the owl's lonesome night
you gotta go for fire
you gotta go for what you know so well
you gotta go for why you came this way
and live your story cell to cell to cell
If we're in everything we think, and everything we do
Then I am in you and you're in me,
and only Nothing is as true.
There is a way through constant sorrow
There is a way through constant sorrow
I'd think of all those people with their love and understanding
how they wear it like they had it from the start
i must have been the other kind...
the kind with just a lonely mind and heart
and from where you stand you're an attractive revelation
and from where i stand i'm mostly on my knees
and from there i said hello, felt something small and slow
say "please, please, please"
and though it's just a thought, it's such a saving shot...
for every person there's a rhyme and a reason
to decide to be the chosen one to stand among the broken ones.
i remember crying down a long and withered highway
i remember waiting for my story to begin.
had all my laughs cut short, a boat without a port
a ragged house of tin.
but ... maybe it's true about the teacher when you're ready
maybe it's true about the hollow and the slope
love, turn my steps around
let me fall on solid ground with faith and rope.
and though its just a thought, i say it's all i've got...
for every person there's a rhyme and a reason
to decide to be the chosen one to stand among
the broken ones.
outside a window there's a night beyond all secrets
and outside that window there's a window shining in
and it shows a room that has a fire steady burning
and a woman knowing that the darkness can't come in
and she wants to thank you for your love and understanding
she needs to thank you for your honour to the soul
it's love from someone who believed she'd need a stand in
to tell her story let alone to live it whole
and though it's just a thought, she says it's all we've got
for every person there's a rhyme and a reason
to decide to be the chosen one to stand among
the broken ones.
stand among the broken ones,
stand among the broken ones...
for every person
may love come through
for every person
Ferron
Still Riot
Takes A Little Time
Sadie's momma was a tanker always bowling her
down to the ground
And when Sadie got old enough she moved it on
Her freedom was a one way bus to another town
She had a little money, bought a dress and she put it on
And she worked her days in an all night restaurant
It was called believe or not... Anything You Want
There was a woman on the graveyard shift that
Sadie liked a lot
And she even took to coming early just in case
they could have some time
It seemed that anything the graveyard lady wanted
the graveyard lady got
And Sadie decided the difference between them
was a shadow line
Years would fly before she'd bother to try
to be her own true face
Right now seemed like every thing was sadly stuck in place
Hot town, Toronto, l951
She sends a letter home to say "I've come undone"
All they say "that's tough"
Another birthday pass her by and she has a dream
one night that she can fly
And she goes to work that day and all she does is cry cry cry
And Sadie finally meet a man who dances a jig
and she follows him down
But don't he turn out to be a little angel of misery
Living quiet in a private dream, protected by a frozen frown
Periodically he looks up and says
"Sadie, what's to become of you and me?"
It's at these times that she holds his head
Half wishing all the while that he's holding her instead
And she finally tells him that and it blows his mind...
Takes a little time, takes a little time, takes a little
time.
Takes a little time, takes a little time, takes a little
time.
It's so amazing what you don't find out
Be easy with love
be easy with heartache
alone on your road
that good thing might find you
you're easy
darkness may come
and cast its long shadow
in the light of your day
be easy with friends
be easy with laughter
and you'll keep it away
through your long night
and through all your pain
the spirit doctor say
you know, you're gonna be alright
and when you're better
you're gonna do it all again
through your long night
and through all your pain
the spirit doctor say
you know, your'e gonna be alright
and when your'e better
oh, you do it all again
so be easy with words
be easy with feelings
when they almost care
when you're almost there
go easy...
all that marks the power
and the brilliance of our love
is traces in a moonlit night
of a high suspended dove
.and the path it flew, with its aim so true
and its wings in sure formation
showed a way we could not know
would fill us with elation
still riot
still riot
Now it's christmas on the cape and i'm a tag-a-long friend
another winter on the island mighta driven me insane.
it's been a series of cheery gatherings coming slow to a
close
and the last few can't seem to say goodbye
and in their laughter i'm dozing
and a knock on the door
it wakes me up with a start
you're standing there with your new love
oh! home of my heart!
i try to think of what i'm wearing, hoping none of its yours
i was amazed at what becomes you after everything goes
and i see... she doesn't have my slouch
and... she doesn't have my nose
and she doesn't have my luck
and... she doesn't have your clothes!
it was out with the old
and you moved to the east
you were going for the gold
you were going to dazzle the beast
it was out with the old
and you moved to the east
you were after the gold
you were going to dazzle the beast
well where's houdini when you need him
to make a joker an ace
to make light of the moment
If you're going alone
Watching solely for yourself will power you through
your time
My heart, my home, I felt assured
That it would give me back in two-fold time
But you know I don't know
Wouldn't say that I know
And as soon as I find my shoes I'm gone.
If there was a way
You'd think we'd have stumbled on it now
The places we have been
It hurts to say
I can't grab a sense of how to get it to turn and spin
I have to say I don't know
Wouldn't say that I know
And as soon as I find my shoes I'm gone.
In the back of my mind I maintain
The thought of you, my heart's horizon line
They say love travels blind
How come I still see myself with you whenever I look
behind?
I have to say I don't know
Wouldn't say that I know
And as soon as I find my shoes I'm gone.
And from an empty room I bear
The scent of you I take upon myself
We weren't untrue
It's more we spent our love imagining
We were something else
I have to say I don't know
Wouldn't say that I know
She told me about a silver lake tucked tight
behind a rock face
Your basic demons tell you fools come late
(I thought maybe I should go)
I had my reasons but they left me in the night
Where the quiet meets the cracking of a heartbreak
Some mountains you can wander in the night
And some mountains you're not supposed to know.
It's like... some people got their wild wild hearts
And some others bide their time until they meet them
When co ordinates are disappearing stars
Maps can't help you can't believe them
You need good vision, clear water in your flask
And time to feel the surging of your heart beat
Your best companion is the one who's gonna ask about
Your soul-lined connection to your foolish feet.
Some mountains you can wander in the dark
(What you know, what you don't)
Some moments are a circus in the park
-- there's no free rides --
I've met the desert with its hot dry wind
I know pain... I get enough through predilection...
A hundred people want to tell you where they've been
A hundred others want to go in that direction,
I long to say I actually made it to the top
And gazed out across that glassy water
I wasted nights with dreams of kisses so hot
'Course the ending was same as if I'd gone without her.
.Illusion and love is: Venus as Appearances...
come on over...
.Illusion and love is: Venus as Appearances...
come on over...
.Illusion and love is: Venus as Appearances...
To lay my head on your blessed arm
I take my cue from the willow tree
For it don't break from just one storm
But bends with a strength that keeps it free.
When I was young my love was bold
Bold like rock and rock like cold
Kind love came and said it would be true
But I turned away as though I always knew
That bonds are formed from outside time
Our major goal is to absolve our crimes
Let your steps be travelled with that knowing smile
It's no toss of coins that longest mile.
For those who think, don't analyze
For those who weep, dry your eyes to see
It's from those we've served, a paradise
And form those we've wronged, pure ecstasy.
Because happiness is a moment's glance
The spin inside the circle's charm
And I walked my line to have my chance
there's love in the corners
and love down the straight highway
there's danger in the outskirts of town
and in what you don't say
you're either sinking or thinking
the dark's your romance
or a special one's shining a light on a chance
that it's all very worthy to ache
in the middle of the night
sometimes i can't sleep
i can't keep all these feelings at bay
i am rage, i am sorrow and grief
all alone in my way
i know humor and heartbreak
and people are life
if i keep my eyes closed
i'll be open to strife
because the powers that be send their love
in the middle of the night
i'm gonna stand up
and let myself be counted for
stand up now
i've got my one life
and what's it to amount to
if i don't learn how
to love you and love myself beside you
mix the gentle and proud
i want to love life.
the vision in the window told me --
stand up.
to my mother my father
my witnesses live in my jagged heart
that for years has been running like fire
as though that was its part
from lover to cover and ocean to sky
from desert to mountain and promise to lie
i can say that i've prayed to forgiveness
in the middle of the night
i'm gonna stand up
and let myself be counted for
stand up now
i've got my one life
and what's it to amount to
if i don't learn how
to love you and love myself beside you
mix the gentle and proud
i want to love life.
the vision in the window told me --
stand up.
now i can see love in the woman
and love in the man in myself
i see how most people just ache to be good
at expressing themselves
and i wish i could tell you just right what i mean
about the light shining down, if i'd only come clean
but for now i live with myself
in the middle of the night.
i'm gonna stand up
and let myself be counted for
stand up now
i've got my one life
and what's it to amount to
if i don't learn how
to love you and love myself beside you
mix the gentle and proud
i want to love life.
the vision in the window told me --
First comes the kiss
then comes the hands too hot to touch
feeling like this
i want to be with you so much
driving to work in the morning
everyone's house looks warm inside
i can't believe what i'm thinking
i've got to be out of my mind
when you give me a cactus flower
i figure you're telling me how it is
we make love, it's a cosmic shower
and i ask you, are we friends too
i talk to my sister about it all
to see what she did when she was here
she tells me don't give up your freedom
which goes to show freedom is not so clear
i'm alive in my center
and true to the core is (in) how i feel
(and) i don't believe i have entered
the place she says where (when) nothing's real
you give me a heart shaped box
i give you a crackerjack ring
you say here i come ready or not
and i say i'd do anything for you
i call up my old friends to tell them
any excuse to say your name
finally i'm touched and i'm open
fear and elation now feel the same
more and more often
i wave off friends to stay alone
the life of the party is nothing
compared to the mystery that waits at home
when you give me a brown care bear
i give you a miniature moving van
when you tell me that brown bear cares
i say yes we can, yes we can
(every move you never made
every word you could not say
every cry you cried alone
can remain with us instead.
there's a bird for every sky
and a fish for every sea
and everything that's in between
is where it is
Was it in your higher wisdom
that you turned your light from me
Or was it just your sense of humor
that for a moment I should see
In that darkness was I weeping
In that silence sadly free
Now I'm waiting in your valley
to be standing on your mountain
That I might tumble down your hillside
to a place that waits for me.
From a time I dare to mention
I was shown the broken line
In this world of good intentions
the cruelest love can seem so kind
And you may harbor quiet sorrow
but to speak it is the crime
And so I'm waiting in your valley
to be standing on your mountain
That I might tumble down your hillside
to a place that waits for me.
I am soldier without country
having laid my guns to rest
I am Time without the notion
You could say I floundered with the best
I have followed after hunger
and I watched my wants infest
Now I'm waiting in your valley
to be standing on your mountain
That I might tumble down your hillside
to a place that waits for me.
I have asked so many people
what the spark of life might be
But they bade me not to ask for
more than the muted heart could be
And though they posed me many faces
all but one I could not see
And so I'm waiting in your valley
to be standing on your mountain
That I might tumble down your hillside
Went to the lake
Where we used to take each other
When we felt we were young.
I stared at the water
'Til I got what I came for
When I turned to the moon
It was gone.
I write you this letter
I hope it does matter
I know that at one time
It's you I betrayed.
O-oh, Marley Jones
I'd give half of my freedom
To know you would roam.
I would steal the money
If it would bring you home.
I wanna see you again.
Heard from a mutual friend
You were doing quite well
Without selling your soul.
Me I run with the fast ones,
I lay down with the tired ones,
It's a method that has proved its own toll.
I think of that morning
All grey with your leaving
When you said, pretty sure,
That I never could give.
O-oh, Marley Jones
I'd give half of my freedom
To know you would roam.
I would steal the money
If it would bring you home.
I wanna see you again.
Write me a line
Whether bitter or giving;
I'm needing to know how we stand.
As sure as we parted
I could have stayed with you;
It's a lesson that burns holes in my hand.
What more can I tell you
With time so between us?
It's mostly I want you to know that I know.
O-oh Marley Jones
Choice carves a crevice
Where a river could flow.
It can seal up a highway
what's the matter with harmless
take a new step in an old direction
if you think about tenderness
what's the matter with harmless love
i take a little walk outside
in a town that brings me
pears and peaches
i'm busting with love inside
and it's always more than it ever teaches
on the curb i pass a friend of mine
we seem a little older maybe a little wiser
we laugh about the shades of time
and marvel at love, the great skyrider
what's the matter with harmless
(harmless)
take a new step in an old direction
if you think about tenderness
(think about, think about a little tenderness)
what's the matter with a hand-on-a-hand affection
do you dream about a new day
(harmless)
you gotta dream about something strong and simple
(dream)
"each and every" is a kind thing to say
what's the matter with harmless love
you play it cool and then you love someone
you try to fight it but kind love knows
you tell yourself you're in it just for fun
but ain't it funny how good love shows
you know how to tell a joke in troubled times
pass the sugar on a cold dark night
spend a nickel just to save that dime
toward a winter that will bite just right
what's the matter with harmless
(harmless)
take a new step in an old direction
if you think about tenderness
(think about, think about a little tenderness)
what's the matter with a hand-on-a-hand affection
do you dream about a new day
(harmless)
you gotta dream about something strong and simple
(dream)
"each and every" is a kind thing to say
what's the matter with harmless love
light a candle for softness
light a candle for friends til they come thru
light a candle for warm, kind love
light a candle for me and you
'cause there's a reason we've come here
are we holding back or are we willing for a connection
while knowing what we hold most dear
must eventually surrender to it's own direction
what's the matter with harmless
(harmless)
take a new step in an old direction
you think about tenderness
(think about, think about a little tenderness)
what's the matter with a hand-on-a-hand affection
do you dream about a new day
(harmless)
you gotta dream about something strong and simple
(dream)
"each and every" is a kind thing to say
Here's your satin blouse
And poem then
It was a long-shot hope you would
Stay for a while we played it to win
Don't some try and try
Some say goodbye
And some only cry
But we won't do that, no,
We won't do that
But you'd think by now
I'd know the lure
Of those flre-bright lights
That live in the dark of the
Heart's night
And day serves no cure
I'm not amazed that some run
Some think it's fun
Some act like one
But we won't do that, no
We won't do that
'Cause when I hear our talk
From love's strained shore
We say to save time
It's best to go it alone
Clear it's not home
We're hungering for
Some flip a deuce
Some live it loose
Some never choose
But we won't do that, no
My momma was a waitress, my daddy a truckdriver. The
thing that kept their power from them slowed me down
awhile. I remember the morning that was the closing of
my youth, when I said goodbye to no one and in that way
faced my truth...and a walk along the river... and a
rain a'coming down...and a girl on a road.
There's a rhythm to a highway to match the rhythm of
your fears. My shopping bag possessions scattered with
my splattered tears. A string of nights in truck stops
and in darkness and in lies and a man they all called
Tigerboy...he just had to show me why. He just had to
give me something I'd forever understand...as a girl on
a road.
Rain upon the water makes footprints sunk in sand.
Anger upon angry hurt, take me by the hand. Take me by
the heartstrings and pull me deep inside and say I'm
one with your forgiveness and separate from my pride.
I don't know what it's like for you but here's what
it's like for me... I wanted to turn beautiful and
serve Eternity and never follow money or love with
greasy hands, or move the earth and waters just to make
it fit my plans. My eyes would be the harbor, my words
the perfect place for a girl on a road.
I met you in the Summer, I left you in the Fall. In
between we did some living...I like to think that's
all...but now I see words can be like weapons no matter
that they're small, and I used three tiny words on you
and then beat it down the hall. Does this road go on
forever? Does this terror know no end...for a girl on a
road? Would you like to sing it with me? Rain upon the
water makes footprints sunk in sand. Anger upon angry
hurt, take me by the hand. Take me by the heartstrings
and pull me deep inside and say I'm one with your
forgiveness and separate from my pride.
You cannot measure what it takes to mend a withered
heart. They'll tell you at the onset everybody does
their part. I did my best to follow the calling of my
soul. But, it's like that first guitar I played...at
the center is a hole, at the center is a...longing...
that I cannot understand as a girl on a road.
But if music be a boulder, let me carry it a long
while. Let it turn into a feather, let it brush against
my smile. Let the life be somewhat settled with the
life that song has made. Let there be nothing I am
longing for in some plan I may have made, in some story
quickly written during a long forgotten time as a girl
I thank you your letters though they come to me slowly
I hear the city's in a panic with its first foot of
snow
I want to answer you quickly having read you again
'Cause it sounds like you're dancing
with time's favorite friend
And it's everyone's secret and muttered refrain
That for all of our trouble we be lonely again
It's old human nature,
It's cold or it's hot
But if it's snowin' in Brooklyn
You say it's snowin' in Brooklyn
Well if it's snowin' in Brooklyn
I'd say snow's what we've got.
It won't pay you to think that your move caused the
break
Sweet love has its chemistry
sometimes it don't take
But you sound lke you whip yourself
you sound like you hurt
How long do you plan to sweat it in that mouldy
hairshirt?
If you're thinking of coming back
then come back you will
If you're afraid of them talking, friend
They're all talking still
It's old human nature,
It's cold or it's hot
But if it's snowin' in Brooklyn
You say it's snowin' in Brooklyn
Well if it's snowin' in Brooklyn
I'd say snow's what we got.
It'll be cold as the ocean if you don't take the train
But I hear if you know where you're going
You can beat half of the pain
So don't mind but I called your sister
and she'd glad take you in
You're thirty years old, admit pride doesn't win
Life moves so mysterious with its cute little spins
And it's everyone's koan and door to get in
It's old human nature,
It's cold or it's hot
I think of you often, I like you a lot
But if it's snowin' in Brooklyn
I'd say snow's what we've got.
And it's everyone's secret and muttered refrain
That for all of our trouble
For all of our trouble
For all of our trouble
I don’t want you to rectify me
The truth lies far beyond men’s wit
It’s dark so you won’t get to see your own creation;
Extermination
It’s boundless, fearless, vicious…
and it’s coming for you right now
Whatcha’ gonna’ do?
Watch your own back
then realize that it’s never going to stop
Limited expression
Signs of neglectful discipline
You gave them one reason
to give it up and die alone
This is as far as you can go
My fate is false and you’re not real
The maze I’m trapped in will reveal
the truth to what I’m doing here
so take it or leave it
I don’t need you to reach my goals
You weren’t there when I lost my war
So I’m prepared to walk through barbed wires on my way
Don’t try to run away from me
I don’t care this was meant to be
I’ll find you just to prove you wrong
You cannot defeat me
You treated me like a simple toy
What’s right for me is wrong for you
With a smile on my face I cut through barbed wires on
my way out
I watch you reading a book
I get to thinking our love's a polished stone
You give me a long drawn look
I know pretty soon you're going to leave our home
And of course I mind,
Especially when I'm thinking from my heart
But life don't clickety clack down a straight line track
It comes together and it comes apart.
You say you hope I'm not the kind
To make you feel obliged
To go ticking through your time
With a pained look in your eyes
You give me the furniture, we'll divide the photographs
Go out to dinner one more time
Have ourselves a bottle of wine
And a couple of laughs
And when first you left
I stayed so sad I wouldn't sleep
I know that love's a gift, I thought yours was mine
And something that I could keep
Now I realize that time is not the only compromise
But a bird in the hand could be an all night stand
Between a blazing fire and a pocket of skies
So I hope I'm not the kind
To make you feel obliged
To go ticking through your time
With a pained look in your eyes
I covered the furniture, I framed the photographs
Went out to dinner one more time
Had myself a bottle of wine and a couple of laughs
And just the other day
I got your letter in the mail
I'm happy for you, it's been so long
You've been wanting a cabin and a backwoods trail
And I think that's great... me...
I seem to find myself in school
It's all Ok, I just want to say
I'm so relieved we didn't do it cruel
But ain't life a brook
Just when I get to feeling like a polished stone
I give me along drawn look
It's kind of a drag to find yourself alone
And sometimes I mind
Especially when I'm waiting on your heart
But life don't clickety clack down a straight line track
It comes together and it comes apart.
Cause I know you're not the kind
To make me feel obliged
To go ticking through my time with a pained look
In my eyes
I sold the furniture, I put away the photographs
Went out to dinner one more time
Skipped the bottle of wine
Had a couple of laughs
