Morissette, Alanis Filmography

• As Cool as I Am (2013)
• MDA Show of Strength (2012)
• Katy Perry: Part of Me (2012)
• American Music Awards 2011 (2011)
• Radio Free Albemuth (2010)
• Vancouver 2010: XXI Olympic Winter Games (2010)
• My Mother's Red Hat (2009)
• NHL Face-Off Rocks Concert (2008)
• Rosie Live (2008)
• Alanis Morissette: Live from Carling Brixton Academy (2008)
• 14 Women (2007)
• Pittsburgh (2006)
• The Great Warming (2006)
• Global Warming: The Signs and Science (2005)
• The Work of Director Stéphane Sednaoui (2005)
• We're with the Band (2005)
• The 2005 World Music Awards (2005)
• We're with the Band (2005)
• Alanis Morissette: The Collection (2005)
• American Express Jam Sessions (2005)
• We're with the Band (2005)
• Alanis Morissette: The Collection (2005)
• Fuck (2005)
• Sex and the City: A Farewell (2004)
• 101 Biggest Celebrity Oops (2004)
• The 33rd Annual Juno Awards (2004)
• De-Lovely (2004)
• Alanis Morissette: We're with the Band (2004)
• 95.8 Capital FM's Party in the Park for the Prince's Trust 2004 (2004)
• 2004 Radio Music Awards (2004)
• You Can't Do That on Film (2004)
• The 33rd Annual Juno Awards (2004)
• Alanis Morissette: We're with the Band (2004)
• 100 Greatest Videos (2003)
• 2003 MTV Movie Awards (2003)
• The 32nd Annual Juno Awards (2003)
• Summer Music Mania 2002 (2002)
• Alanis Morissette: Feast on Scraps (2002)
• Alanis Morissette: Feast on Scraps (2002)
• Comet 2002 (2002)
• The 31st Annual Juno Awards (2002)
• VH1 Guerilla Concerts (2002)
• Alanis Morissette: Feast on Scraps (2002)
• American Bandstand's 50th Anniversary Celebration (2002)
• Alanis Morissette: Feast on Scraps (2002)
• Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back (2001)
• Come Together: A Night for John Lennon's Words and Music (2001)
• Class Dismissed with Alanis Morissette (2001)
• Fuji Rock Festival '01 (2001)
• The 29th Annual Juno Awards (2000)
• Woodstock '99 (1999)
• Alanis T.V. (1999)
• Dogma (1999)
• SNL: 25 Years of Music (1999)
• The 41st Annual Grammy Awards (1999)
• The Paris Concert for Amnesty International (1999)
• Festival Europeo de la Solidaridad 1998 (1998)
• Free Tibet (1998)
• Alanis Morissette: Head Over Feet (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: You Learn Live (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: Jagged Little Pill - Live (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: Head Over Feet (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: Jagged Little Pill - Live (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: You Learn Live (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: Jagged Little Pill - Live (1997)
• Alanis Morissette: Jagged Little Pill - Live (1997)
• Brit Awards 1996 (1996)
• 1996 MuchMusic Video Music Awards (1996)
• The 25th Annual Juno Awards (1996)
• The 38th Annual Grammy Awards (1996)
• Mastercard Masters of Music Concert for the Prince's Trust (1996)
• The 25th Annual Juno Awards (1996)
• Brit Awards 1996 (1996)
• The Greatest Music Party in the World (1995)
• MTV Video Music Awards 1995 (1995)
• Music Works (1994)
• Anything for Love (1993)
• Borderline High (1992)

• Spiral - Alanis Morissette
• So Unsexy - Alanis Morissette
• Movement Ix: Faith - Alanis Morissette
• Mis Sandalias - Alanis Morissette
• Mirror Image - Alanis Morissette
• Mercy - Alanis Morissette
• I Run By Rosie Thomas - Alanis Morissette
• Empathy - Alanis Morissette
• Unsent (Demo) - Alanis Morissette
• SisterBlister - Alanis Morissette
• Rules - Alanis Morissette
• QUESTION - Alanis Morissette
• Norwegian Wood - Alanis Morissette
• King Of Intimidation - Alanis Morissette
• Keep The Radio On - Alanis Morissette
• Gorgeous - Alanis Morissette
• Fate Stay With Me - Alanis Morissette
• Fake Plastic Trees - Alanis Morissette
• After A Year Like This One - Alanis Morissette
• The Guy Who Leaves - Alanis Morissette
• Tapes - Alanis Morissette
• Not As We - Alanis Morissette
• Moratorium - Alanis Morissette
• Madness - Alanis Morissette
• It's A Bitch To Grow Up - Alanis Morissette
• In Praise Of The Vulnerable Man - Alanis Morissette
• Giggling Again For No Reason - Alanis Morissette
• Citizen Of The Planet - Alanis Morissette
• 20/20 - Alanis Morissette
• Excuses - Alanis Morissette
• Eight Easy Steps - Alanis Morissette
• Flinch - Alanis Morissette
• 21 Things I Want In A Lover - Alanis Morissette
• Simple Together - Alanis Morissette
• Offer - Alanis Morissette
• Fear Of Bliss - Alanis Morissette
• So Pure - Alanis Morissette
• The Couch - Alanis Morissette
• That I Whould Be Good - Alanis Morissette
• Thank You - Alanis Morissette
• One - Alanis Morissette
• I Was Hoping - Alanis Morissette
• Hearth Of The House - Alanis Morissette
• Heart Of The House - Alanis Morissette
• Front Row - Alanis Morissette
• Baba - Alanis Morissette
• Are You Still Mad ? - Alanis Morissette
• Right through you - Alanis Morissette
• Perfect - Alanis Morissette
• Not The Doctor - Alanis Morissette
• Mary Jane - Alanis Morissette
• All I Really Want - Alanis Morissette
• Never A Waste Of Time - Alanis Morissette
• Give What You Got - Alanis Morissette
• CAN'T DENY - Alanis Morissette
• An Emoticon Away - Alanis Morissette
• (Change Is) Never A Waste Of Time - Alanis Morissette
• These Are The Thoughts - Alanis Morissette
• Princes Familiar - Alanis Morissette
• Oh Yeah - Alanis Morissette
• No Pressure Over Cappucino - Alanis Morissette
• King Of Pain - Alanis Morissette
• Jealous - Alanis Morissette
• FEEL YOUR LOVE - Alanis Morissette
• Wake Up! - Alanis Morissette
• Versions Of Violence - Alanis Morissette
• You Owe Me Nothing In Return - Alanis Morissette
• Woman Down - Alanis Morissette
• Tu Casa (your House) - Alanis Morissette
• Underneath - Alanis Morissette
• Torch - Alanis Morissette
• Receive - Alanis Morissette
• Real World - Alanis Morissette
• Death Of Cinderella - Alanis Morissette
• Rain - Alanis Morissette
• Purgatorying - Alanis Morissette
• London - Alanis Morissette
• Limbo No More - Alanis Morissette
• Dear Prudence - Alanis Morissette
• Crazy - Alanis Morissette
• Celebrity - Alanis Morissette
• Movement Vi: Innocence - Alanis Morissette
• Movement Iii: Hope - Alanis Morissette
• Your House - Alanis Morissette
• Your Congratulations - Alanis Morissette
• You Oughta Know - Alanis Morissette
• You Learn - Alanis Morissette
• You Already Won Me Over - Alanis Morissette
• Wunderkind - Alanis Morissette
• Would Not Come - Alanis Morissette
• Win And Win - Alanis Morissette
• When We Meet Again - Alanis Morissette
• What If God Was One Of Us - Alanis Morissette
• Weekends - Alanis Morissette
• Walk Away - Alanis Morissette
• Magical Child - Alanis Morissette
• Utopia - Alanis Morissette
• UR - Alanis Morissette
• Unsent - Alanis Morissette
• Unprodigal Daughter - Alanis Morissette
• Uninvited - Alanis Morissette
• Uninvented - Alanis Morissette
• Too Hot - Alanis Morissette
• Til You - Alanis Morissette
• This Grudge - Alanis Morissette
• These R The Thoughts - Alanis Morissette
• There Are Worse Things I Could Do - Alanis Morissette
• The Weekend Song - Alanis Morissette
• The Time Of Your Life - Alanis Morissette
• That Particular Time - Alanis Morissette
• That I Would Be Good - Alanis Morissette
• Thank U - Alanis Morissette
• Tantra - Alanis Morissette
• Tainted Love - Alanis Morissette
• Symptoms (unreleased) - Alanis Morissette
• Sympathetic Character - Alanis Morissette
• Surrendering - Alanis Morissette
• Superstar Wonderful Weirdos - Alanis Morissette
• Superman - Alanis Morissette
• Straitjacket - Alanis Morissette
• Still - Alanis Morissette
• Spoon - Alanis Morissette
• Spineless - Alanis Morissette
• Sorry To Myself - Alanis Morissette
• So-Called Chaos - Alanis Morissette
• Sister Blister - Alanis Morissette
• She Gave Me A Wink (Pray For Peace) - Alanis Morissette
• Precious Illusions - Alanis Morissette
• Pray For Peace - Alanis Morissette
• Pollyanna Flower - Alanis Morissette
• Plastic - Alanis Morissette
• Permission - Alanis Morissette
• Party Boy - Alanis Morissette
• Out Is Through - Alanis Morissette
• Orchid - Alanis Morissette
• One Bad Apple - Alanis Morissette
• On The Tequila - Alanis Morissette
• Narcissus - Alanis Morissette
• On My Own - Alanis Morissette
• Numb - Alanis Morissette
• Not All Me - Alanis Morissette
• No Pressure Over Capuccino - Alanis Morissette
• No Avalon - Alanis Morissette
• No Apologies - Alanis Morissette
• Let's Do It (Let's Fall In Love) - Alanis Morissette
• Lens - Alanis Morissette
• Knees Of My Bees - Alanis Morissette
• Joining You - Alanis Morissette
• Ironic - Alanis Morissette
• Incomplete - Alanis Morissette
• I'm A Bitch I'm A Lover - Alanis Morissette
• I Remain - Alanis Morissette
• I Don't Know - Alanis Morissette
• Forgive Me Love - Alanis Morissette
• I Can't Break Down - Alanis Morissette
• Human Touch - Alanis Morissette
• Hey U - Alanis Morissette
• Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette
• Havoc - Alanis Morissette
• Happiness Is A Warm Gun - Alanis Morissette
• Hands Clean (Acoustic) - Alanis Morissette
• Hands Clean - Alanis Morissette
• Hand In My Pocket - Alanis Morissette
• Guardian - Alanis Morissette
• Forgiven - Alanis Morissette
• Find The Right Man - Alanis Morissette
• Everything - Alanis Morissette
• Edge Of Evolution - Alanis Morissette
• Doth I Protest Too Much - Alanis Morissette
• Don't Drink The Water - Alanis Morissette
• Can't Not - Alanis Morissette
• Break - Alanis Morissette
• Big Sur - Alanis Morissette
• Big Bad Love - Alanis Morissette
• Bent For You - Alanis Morissette
• Bent 4 U - Alanis Morissette
• Awakening Americans (unreleased) - Alanis Morissette
• An Emotion Away - Alanis Morissette
• All That Jazz - Alanis Morissette
• A Year Like This One - Alanis Morissette
• A Man - Alanis Morissette
• 1974 - Alanis Morissette

I could be daydreaming but for a moment
And somehow they're creeping back in
I could be sleeping awakened the torrent
Somehow I get caught in their grips again
And here I am in my shame spiral
I'm sucked in to it again
And I reach out for your (something something) opinion
You bring the light back in
Don't leave me here with all these critical voices
Cause they do their best to bring me down
When I'm alone with all these negative voices

Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated
When will you stop leaving baby?
When will I stop deserting baby?
When will I start staying with myself?
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly

My unborn forgive me
I only wish I had the strength to bring
You into this world

Caminando por el rancho
Me encontre un chico guapo
me miro muy feo
porque no tenia zapatos
por eso...
Quiero ponerme mis sandalias!!
eh, eh, eh!
Y salir a buscarte!
eh, eh, eh!
Quiero ponerme mis sandalias!!
eh, eh, eh!

THEY POINT AS THEY SMILE
GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR
ASKING TO HOLD ME FOR AWHILE
THE HARDER THEY SQUEEZE
(THEY WILL DO AS THEY PLEASE)
I CAN HEAR ALL THE WISPERS
SAYING SHELL DO FINE AGAINST THE
TORTURE AND DISASTERS
HER BODY CAN HANDLE THE BLISTERS
I CAN FEEL THEIR SMILING FACES
GLARING THEIR BLOOD TEARING EYES THROUGH THE WALLS
OLD FACES PEERING BEYOND THE OTHERS
JUST TO MOCK AT MY FALL
LAUGHING LOUDER TO MAKE MY EARS BLEED
IM NOTHING
YOU FEEL THE SOARS POUNDING UNDER THE SLEEVES
LOSING THE STRENGTH TO SWALLOW THE PAIN AND
SUCCEED
IVE COME TO BELIEVE YOUVE TAKEN MY TORTURE AS A COMICAL
JOKE
ALWAYS BEEN THE FIRST TO TAKE A FINGER AND POKE
TIME IS SHORT FOR YOU AND SHORTER FOR ME
IM SOMETHING
AS LONG AS YOU HATE ME IM ALWAYS ON YOUR MIND
DIGGING AT EVERY CORNER WITH PRIDE

We have slaughtered
In the garden of beauty
Digging graves instead of planting
Mercy for the crucified
A bitter justice
Begging eternity for love
We're nothing
We're everything
I am nothing
Yet I am everybody
We're nothing
And yet we are
Wisdom lights up life's road

I run I run far from
You to the apple tree in my yard
With my dress all bundled up in my hands
Dirt on my feet I am dreaming again
I run I run I run far from
You to the lilac tree in my yard
no more swing set for the girl who is all grown up
no more tea parties parades or mothers in love
I hold my breath past the cemetery
My brother wins he can hold it much longer then me
Gravel roads make car keys rattle on steering wheels
Children and horses old barns and old automobiles
I run I run I run far from
You to the watered streets of Oregon
With a coffee cup half full in my hands
And I’m praying my savior would
Just place a gun in my hands
I run I walk I lie far from
Freaks and lying cheats on the tip of my tongue
The moon hides in the sky behind rows of tree tops
And I’m wishing I was somewhere up there
With the mermaids and stars
I run I run far from
Reality to escape who I’ve become
Insanity is close at my back
And I’m getting rather numb from the snakes

There are so many parts that I have hidden and denied and lost
There are so many ways that I have cut off my nose to spite my face
There are so many colors that I still try to hide while I paint
And there are so many tunes that I secretly sing as I wait
You come along and invite these parts out of hiding
This invitation is the one that I've stopped fighting...
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
There were so many times, I thought I'd die not being truly known
There've been so many moments: forever lonely in my vocation
You come along and celebrate each feeling
And there you are all honor and inquiring...
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
There was a day where the trust that was being asked of me
Required too much you see
To accept your generosity
And to know myself enough to let you help me
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy

Dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and
I respect that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
And you want to come visit me in california I would be open to spending time with you
And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song
Dear eric I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me
And think solely about themselves and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's your face
Comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
Dear terry I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available
And supportive and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
And pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch
And cry in front of you for the first time you were the best platform from which to jump
Beyond myself what was wrong with me
Dear marc you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the women
And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away
With kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around
You though and that stopped us from going any further than we did and it's kinda too bad
Because we could've had much more fun
Dear terrance you were an adventure besides being a few decades older than I was
You used to write the most poetic loveletters and I still have them you were in
And out of several marriages and you liked them young and naive so you could have
The power and the dramas to feel fear I wonder what your wife thought of all of this
Dear christian we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
And I understand that as I do you the long distance thing was the hardest and we did
As well as we could we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives I will always
Have your back and be curious about you about your career about your whereabouts
Dear taylor I missed you a lot there was a period of time when I was too mad to even bring up
Your name and it killed me to hear you discount the time we spent together I knew all along
That we had different tastes in moderations and we couldn't hang out forever and while it lasted
It was hilarious

You and me we're cut from the same cloth
It seems to some we famously get along
But you and me are strangers to each other
Cuz you and me:competitive to the bone
Such tragedy to trample on each other with how much we've endured
With the state this land is in
You and me feel joined by only gender
We are not all for one and one for all
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
You and me estranged from the mother
You and me have felt impotent in our skin
You and me have taken it out on each other
You and me disloyal to the feminine
Such a pity to disavow each other with how far we've come
With how strong we've been
You and me are on this pendulum together
You and me with scarcity still fueling
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
We may not have priorities same
We may not even like each other
We may not be hugely anti-men
But such a cost to dishonor a sister
You and me have made it harder for the other
We forget how hard separatism has been
You and me we can help change their minds together
You and me in alignment until the end
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in

You have to swear
You've got love to love me
Aah aah
That will last forever
Aah aah
We must have a story
Aah aah
With a happy ending
Aah, so don't ever go away
And never put aside
The things I'm gonna say
Cause these are rules for us
Use your eyes
Only to look at me
Use your mouth
Only to kiss my lips
We are branches of the same old tree
You can laugh
Only if you laugh with me
You can cry
Only if you cry for me
Don't forget that you're condemned to me
Oh, can't you see
You always were
You'll always be
You used to say
I should see a doctor
Aah aah
Who would keep me busy
Aah aah
Cause a jealous woman
Never makes it easy
Aah aah,
And you know I'll do for us
Whatever seems right
But it may take awhile
Before I change the rules
Use your eyes
Only to look at me
Use your mouth
Only to kiss my lips
We are branches of the same old tree
You can laugh
Only if you laugh with me
You can cry
Only if you cry for me
Don't forget that you're condemned to me
Oh, can't you see
You always were
You always were
Aah, aah, aah...
So,
Use your eyes
Only to look at me
Use your mouth
Only to kiss my lips
We are branches of the same old tree
You can laugh
Only if you laugh with me
You can cry
Only if you cry for me
Don't forget that you're condemned to me
Oh, can't you see
You always were
You'll always be
Aah, aah...

I must be two lips
I must be your sleep
I must be blinded
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
I must be spoiled
I must be behind
I must be asleep
I must be fearful
Keep it a question
Love ain't a secret
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
I must be two lips
I must be your sleep
I must plan to forget
I must be suffering
Keep it a question
Letting nothing on
Let's keep it a question
Keep it a question
Love ain't a secret
Let it stop within

I once had a girl
Or should I say she once had me
She showed me her room
Isn't it good Norwegian wood?
She asked me to stay
And she told me to sit anywhere
So I looked around
And I noticed there wasn't a chair
I sat on the rug biding my time
Drinking her wine
We talked until two and then she said
"It's time for bed"
She told me she worked
In the morning and started to laugh
I told her I didn't
And crawled off to sleep in the bath
And when I awoke I was alone
This bird had flown
So I lit a fire

(Spoken words taken from an old recording: "The women of the family seem to feel that they owe it to the men of the family to look relaxed, rested, and attractive at dinnertime.")
For you they live in a quiet monastery
For you they wear whatever you want them to as long as it is short
They count to ten when you tell them how to drive
And when they're afraid they let you speak for them
All hail the king of intimidation
Obeyer of Christian behavior
For you we'll wax; we skin, chicken our legs
For you we chew our nails if we had any but fake ones to do it
We contradict him temporarily
And it was somethin' about how you talk down to me
All hail the king of intimidation
Obeyer of Christian behavior
The role of compromises for the family you now want some
There's only so much we can do to make you rest assured
I am single
I am weary
You're just jealous
You're just confused
You're just hungry
You're in sin now
You're not happy
You like kidding
All hail the king of intimidation
Obeyer of Christian behavior
He knows not of what he has wrongly done
So forgive his ignorant behavior
You are tortured
You are captured
You are busted
We were silent
You were tested
You did better
You are lonely
Was it worth it?

Can you relate to what it saysThe lyrics are straight from the heartThe soul is expressed in the lyricsThe virtues and vices are released
Chorus:Keep The Radio On,This song means so much to meKeep the Radio On,The words live right through meThe lyrics are comfortingLike I expressed them my selfKeep The Radio on, the song speaks for itself.
Why Can't You RelateTo my way of thinkingWhy don't you understandAll the things I am feelingI am not a stranger to opinionsIn fact i have my ownI am no stranger to delusions
Although you live through mine
Repeat Chorus
Keep The Radio OnKeep The Radio OnThe words have their meaningKeep The Radio OnCan't you feel what they are sayingKeep The Radio On

Testosterone in large amounts
Your little sister just kick out of
God you can't shave your head
Come to the show
The boys rock harder
Your mother lent you her slip
She lent you her bright red lipstick
And your shoes are hurting your back
But boy don't you look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
you look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
This is but an observation
You put a bullet in your foot
You make it hard for us bitches inconsequential in your back bends
And your taste in men leaves something to de desired
You love them to be aloof and self obsessed
They love you in your mini dress
You are looking gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
When your voice is raised above a certain level
I'm afraid you must go to the ladies room
I left your competence in curlers
You look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous

Oh, Please
Fate stay with me, and guide me along my way
There has been so many problems
So please stay, please, stay
Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way
Will you end my troubles
Will you please stay, please...
I wanted money and hope and
A dream to carry me forever
This is all the hope I got left
Help me to get it together, now
I can sing or act or dance but I still won't get far
Unless you help me please to be a big star
I don't want to be a queen, no,
Or a princess with all my jewels, oh
If you could guide me
And you could help me
but don't go too far, I just want to be a star
Yes guide me
Forver guide me
Will you stay with me and guide me along the way
If I succeed because of you, fate my friend

Her green plastic watering can
For her fake chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself
It wears her out
It wears her out
It wears her out
It wears her out
She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins
And it wears him out
And it wears him out
And it wears him out
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
And it wears me out
It wears me out
And it wears me out
If I could be who you wanted

After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not hate your guts and
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I still love music just as much
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not eat my eye ?
After a year like this one
I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to every one
CHORUS:
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La La La La Li
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La La Li Li Li
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La Di Da Di Di
La La la de di wo oh oh o...
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I am convinced at all and
After a year like this one
I do not roll my eyes at less than another
After a year like this one
I can't help but wonder how they've been and
After a year like this one
I think I'll leave it all to my next of kin...
CHORUS
After a year like this one
I'm surprised we're all not weeping drunks and
After a year like this one
I want you to choose the restaurant and then
After a year like this one
I'll need a good whole 16 months alone and
After a year like this one
I think I'll thank the west coast beaches I came home.
CHORUS

Get up, don't get up
I beg you to sit tight
Sweet girl, I'll be a ghost, girl
Forget it, I am fine
If anything, a witnessing
Is all I needed that night
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
Brother, oh, brother
Solo you did bust out
All I knew was you didn't invite me
So begin seeds of self-doubt
There is nothing as harrowing
As how I translate facts
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
Baby, oh, partner
How well you've played this part
Similar, oh, how familiar
Reluctant truth you impart
And how you served necessity
Repeat 'til she sees light
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story

"I am someone easy to leave"
"Even easier to forget"
a voice, if inaccurate
Again: "I'm the one they all run from"
diatribes of clouded sun
someone help me find the pause button
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
"I'm too exhausting to be loved"
"a volatile chemical"
"best to quarantine and cut off"
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
"I'm but a thorn in your sweet side"
"You are better off without me"
"It'd be best to leave at once"
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we
Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand
Feign brave with steel intent
little and hardly here
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
with not much making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we
Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as I

I've never been this accountable-less and within
I've never known focuslessness on any form
I've never had this lack of ache for dalliance
To let go and let god in ways I have never even imagined
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
I've never let my grasp soften fingers like this
I've never been careless otherless like autonomy's twin
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
Ah to breathe
Stop looking outside
stop searching in corners of rooms
Not my business or timing
Ahhh
I've never known freedom from intertwining
I start again this time for keeps in my skin I'm residing
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement

I've been most unwilling to see this turmoil of mine
The thought of sitting with this has me paralyzed
With this prolong exposure to mirror and averted eyes
I've feigned that I've been waiting: such mileage for empathizing
[Chorus]
And now I see the maddness in me is brought out in the presence of you
And now I know the madness lives on, when you're not in the room
And though I'd love to blame you for all, I'd miss these moments of opportune
You've simply brought this madness to light and I should thank you
Oh thank you, much thanks for this bird's eye view
Oh thank you for your most generous triggers
It's been all too easy to cross my arms and roll my eyes
The thought of dropping all arms leaves me terrified
[Chorus]
I'd have to give up knowing and give up being right
You inadvertent hero, you angel in disguise

It's been 10 years of investment
It's been one foot in and one out
It's been 4 days of ??
and I feel snuffed out
It's been 33 years of restraining
Of trying to control this tumult
How I did invest in such fantasy
But my nervous system has worn out
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
and all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
I've repeated this dance ad-nauseum
There's still something to learn that I've not
I'm told to see this as divine perfection
But my bones don't feel this perfection
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
and all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
I've spent life hovering above bottom
Thinking I can't survive what's below
But I've known through the kicking and screaming
That there was no other direction to go
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
and all that remains is the case

You are the bravest man I’ve ever met
You unreluctant at treacherous ledge
You are the sexiest man I’ve ever been with
You, never hotter than with armor spent
When you do what you do to provide
How you land in the soft as you fortify
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
You, with your eyes mix strength with abandon
You with your new kind of heroism
And I bow and I bow down to you
To the grace that it takes to melt on through
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man
You are the greatest man I’ve ever met
You the stealth setter of new precedents
And I vow and I vow to be true
And I vow and I vow to not take advantage
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in

I am driving in my car up highway one
I left LA without telling anyone
There were people who needed something from me
But I am sure they’ll get along fine on their own
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
I am dancing with my friends in elation
We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun
I can feel the bones are smiling in my body
I can see the meltings of inhibition
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
I’m reeling jubilation
Triumphant in delight
I am at home in this high five
And I’m smiling for no reason
I am sitting at the set of cali sun
We’ve gotten quiet for its’ last precious seconds
I can feel the salt of the sea on my skin
And we still hear the echoes of abandon
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face

I start up in the north, I grow from special seed
I sprinkle it with sensibility
From French and Hungarian snow
I linger in the sprouting until my engine's full
Then I move across the sea
To European bliss, to language of poets
As I cut the cord of home, I kiss my mother's mother
Look to the horizon
Wide eyed, new ground
Humbled by my new surroundings
I am a citizen of the planet
My president is Kwan Yin
My frontier is on an airplane
My prisons, homes for rehabilitating
Then I fly back to my nest
I fly back with my nuclear
But everything is different
So I wait
My yearn for home is broadened
Patriotism expanded by callings from beyond
So I pack my things, nothing precious
All things sacred
I am a citizen of the planet
My laws are all of attraction
My punishments are consequences
Separating from source the original sin
I am a citizen of the planet
Democracy's kids are sovereign
Where the teachers are the sages
And pedestals fill with every parent
And so, the next few years are blurry
The next decade's a flurry of smells and tastes unknown
Threads sewn straight through this fabric
Through fields of every color, one culture to another
And I come alive and I get giddy
And I am taken and globally naturalized
I am a citizen of the planet
From simple roots through high vision
I am guarded by the angels
My body guides the direction I go in
I am a citizen of the planet
My favorite pastime edge stretching
Besotten with human condition

I would never have been in such a rush
I would never have tried to control
I would never have worn such 'fear lenses'
I would never have held on so tightly
I would have kept my boundaries set
My loving no’s, my unwavering yes’s
Risked abandonment and stood by that
And thereby felt constant connect
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
I would’ve gone slower
Pushed infrequent
Would not have rushed into such commitment
I would’ve shown restraint as my feet got wet
I would’ve baby-stepped into intimate
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
This torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
I would’ve known much more
Known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold
I would’ve had more faith at every step
I would’ve kept intact through the whole process
Oh this fountain of regret is looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding

Why no one will help me
I am too dumb I am too smart
They'll not understand me
I am lonely
They'll hate me
And there is not enough time
It's too hard to help me
And god wants me to work
No resting no lazy
These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
I'm too far from home
It takes far too much energy
And I cannot afford to
No one will ever see me
These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked
They've kept me small
They've kept me safe in my own shell
Bringing this into the light
Shakes their foundation
And it clears my side
Now my imagination
Is the only thing that limits
The bar that is raised to the heights
No one can have it all see
I have to they want me to
And I can't let them down
I'll never be happy
These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked
They've kept me small

Eight easy steps
Eight easy steps
How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solvable predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
How to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite
How to hate God when you're a prayer and a spiritualist
How to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success
How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
How to numb a la holic to avoid going within
How to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solvable predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
In eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
Eight easy steps
Eight easy steps

What's it been over a decade?
It still smarts like it was four minutes ago
We only influenced each other totally
We only bruised each other even more so
What are you my blood?
You touch me like you are my blood
What are you my dad?
You affect me like you are my dad
How long can a girl be shackled to you?
And how long before my dignity is reclaimed?
And how long can a girl stay haunted by you?
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Where have you been? I heard you moved to my city
My brother saw you somewhere downtown
I'd be paralyzed if I ran into you
My tongue would seize up if we were to meet again
What are you my God?
You touch me like you are my God
What are you my twin?
You affect me like you are my twin
How long can a girl be tortured by you?
And how long before my dignity is reclaimed?
And how long can a girl be haunted by you?
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
So here I am, one room away from where I know you're standing
A well-intentioned man told me you just walked in
This man knows not of how this information has affected me
But he knows the color of the car I just drove away in
What are you my kin?
You touch me like you are my kin
What are you my air?
You affect me like you are my air
And how long can a girl be tortured by you?
And how long before my dignity is reclaimed?
And how long can a girl be haunted by you?
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name

Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity?
But know that it alone does not equate wisdom
Do you see everything as an illusion?
But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine
Politically aware, and don't believe in capital punishment?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
Loving someone can actually feel like freedom?
Are you funny? A la self-deprecating
Like adventure and have many formed opinions
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover
I'm in no hurry, I could wait forever
I'm in no rush 'cause I like being solo
No worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
I'll live like there's no tomorrow
Are you uninhibited in bed more than three times a week
Up for being experimental?
Are you athletic? Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?
Are you not addicted?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice of the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

You've been my golden best friend
Now with post-demise at hand
Can't go to you for consolation
Cause we're off limits during this transition
This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And i can't stop bumping into things
I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But i was sadly mistaken
You've been my soulmate and mentor
I remembered you the moment i met you
With you i knew god's face was handsome
With you i suffered an expansion
This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And i can't stop dropping everything
I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But i was sadly mistaken
If i had a bill for all the philosophies i shared
If i had a penny for all the possibilities i presented
If i had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe
I thought we'd be genius together
I thought we'd be healing together
I thought we'd be growing together
Thought we'd be adventurous togheter
But i was sadly mistaken
Thought we'd be exploring together
Thought we'd be inspired together
I thought we'd be flying together
Thought we'd be on fire together

Who am I to be blue
Look at my family and fortune
Look at my friends and my house
Who am i to feel deadend
Who am i to feel spent
Look at my health and my money
And where
Where do i go to feel good
Why do i still look outside me
When clearly i've seen it won't work
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
And why
Why do i feel so ungrateful
Me who is far beyond survival
Me who see life as an oyster
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
And how
How dare i rest on my laurels
How dare i ignore an outstreched hand
How dare i ignore a third world country
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer

My misery has enjoyed company
And although I have ached
I don't threaten anybody
Sometimes I feel more bigness than I've shared with you
Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I'm not required to
I've tried to be small I've tried to be stunted
I've tried roadblocks and all
My happy endings prevented
Sometimes I feel it's all just too big to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?)
I could be golden
I could be glowing
I could be freedom
But that could be boring
Sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of losing you
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?)
This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down
Under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone
I could be full
I could be thriving
I could be shining
Sounds isolating
Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude

You from New York, you are so relevant
You reduce me to cosmic tears
Luminous more so than most anyone
Unapologetically alive, knot in my stomach and lump in my throat
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
Supposed former infatuation junkie
I sink three pointers and you wax poetically
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
Let's grease the wheel over tea
Let's discuss things in confidence
Let's be outspoken let's be ridiculous
Let's solve the world's problems
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression

you hadn't seen your father in such a long time
he died in the arms of his lover how dare he
your mother never left the house
she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her
you reminded her so much of your father
so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive
and why you can't trust anyone but us
but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems
not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour
how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know
i've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get
you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?
just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye
I remember how they would creak loudly
she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
I was only trying to be the best big brother I could
i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw
can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes
it feels like highway robbery
and sometimes it's peanuts
I wish it could last a couple more hours
so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally)
you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry
you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing
that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo
thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time
thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down
how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping
thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence

I am the biggest hypocrite
I've been undeniably jealous
I have been loud and pretentious
I have been utterly threatened
I've gotten candy for my self-interest
the sexy treadmill capitalist
heaven forbid I be criticized
heaven forbid I be ignored
I have abused my power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
I've been out of reach and separatist
heaven forbid average (whatever average means)
I have compensated for my days
of powerlessness
I have abused my so-called power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
did you just call her amazing?
surely we both can't be amazing!
and give up my hard earned status
as fabulous freak of nature?
I have abused my power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
always looked good on paper

As we were talking outside it was cold
We were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter
My wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know
Please don't tell her or anyone but I need to talk to somebody
You said "Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was
Five minutes before I'd died, I'd be filled with such regret
Before I took my last breath" and I said, "You're willing to tell me this now
And you're not going to die anytime soon
And I said, "I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything
And you said, "Yes but you've been wearing leather"
And laughed and said, "We're at the top of the food chain"
And yes you're still a fine woman and I cringed
I was hoping, I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping, I was hoping we could be raw together
We left the restaurant where the head waiter in his 60's said
"Goodbye sir, thank you for your business sir you're
Successful and established sir and
We like the frequency with which you dine here sir and your money"
And when I walked by they said, "Thank you too dear"
I was all pigtails and cords
And there was a day when I would've said something like
"Hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it
I too once thought I was owed something"
I was hoping, I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping, I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
And I too once thought life was cruel
Well, it's a cycle really you think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping
I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard
And I said, "Do you believe we are
Fundamentally judgmental, fundamentally evil?"
And you said "Yes", I said, "I don't believe in revenge
In right or wrong good or bad" you said
"Well what about the man that I saw handcuffed
In the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid?"
And she threw a shoe at his head
I think what he did was wrong
And I would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged"
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together

you are the original template
you are the original exemplary
how seen were actually
how revered were you (honestly) at the time
why pleased with you low maintenance
you loved us more than we could've loved you back
where was you ally your partner in feminine crime
oh mother who's your buddy
oh mother who's got your back
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
you were good ol'
you were count on 'er 'til four am
you saw me run from the house
in the snow melodramatically
oh mother who's your sister
oh mother who's your friend
the heart of the house
the heart of that house
all hail the goddess!
we left the men and we went for a walk in the gatineaus
and talked like women to women would
womyn to womyn would where did you get that from
must've been your father your dad
I got it from you I got it from you
do you see yourself in my gipsy garage sale ways
in my fits of laughter
in my tinkerbell tendencies
in my lack of color coordination

you are the original template
you are the original exemplary
how seen were actually?
how revered were you (honestly) at the time?
why pleased with you low maintenance?
you loved us more than we could've loved you back
where was you ally your partner in feminine crime?
oh mother who's your buddy?
oh mother who's got your back?
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
you were "good ol'"
you were "count on 'er 'til four am"
you saw me run from the house
in the snow melodramatically
oh mother who's your sister?
oh mother who's your friend?
the heart of the house
the heart of that house
all hail the goddess!
we left the men and we went for a walk in the gatineaus
and talked like women to women would
womyn to womyn would "where did you get that from?
must've been your father your dad"
I got it from you I got it from you
do you see yourself in my gipsy garage sale ways?
in my fits of laughter?
in my tinkerbell tendencies?

do you go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon writing a letter
to you didn't make me feel any more peaceful then how I felt when we weren't speaking because I
didn't cop to what I did. I can't love you because we're supposed to have professional boundaries. i'd
like you to be schooled and in awe as though you were kissed by god full on the lips . i'm in the front
row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up i'm too tired to recount the
unpleasantries one by one one minute I want to banish you the next I want to be on
a deserted island with you along with my three favorite cd's ambivalent yet in your
bed we've yet to acknowledge what really happened
slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of ambition we said let's name thirty good reasons why
we shouldn't be together I started by saying things like "you smoke" "you live in new jersey (too far)"
you started saying things like "you belong to the world" all of which could have been easily
refuted but the conversation was hypothetical I am totally short of breath for you why can't you shut
your stuff off..... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up
and I laughed until my lungs hurt I love how you bust my chops you don't always
feel seen sometimes you feel erasable unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my
current state I think we should be careful of how much time we spend together
........for a while i'm speaking you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some
time alone to fill up your proverbial cup so that it doesn't always have to be about you i've been wanting
your undivided attention I like the fact that you're nothing like me are you not burdened by the lack of
perspective people have of your charmed life i'm in the front row the front row with
popcorn I get to see you see you close up you never meant to be ungrateful nor held up to
be whipped or wept for certainly not analysed prodded at more ways than one
apparently you've been misrepresented dealing with the concept of arrows being
slung towards your outrageous fortune
hey i'm not mad at you guardian i'm mad at myself for spending so much time with you and your
jeckyl and hydeness i'm glad i figuratively slapped you on the wrist you laughed a wicked laugh
and said "come here let me clip your wings!"(i know he's blood but you can still turn him away you
don't owe him anything) "raise the roof" he yelled "yeah raise the roof!" I yelled back. (unfortunately
you needed a health scare to reprioritize.) no thanks to the soap box. having me rile against them
won't make an ounce of difference...... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn. I get to see
you see you close up oh the things i've done for you many a sitch a friend a man's
been left for you oh the books i've read for you the tongues i've bitten for you many

I've seen them kneel with baited breath for their rituals
I've watched this experience raise them to pseudo higher levels
I've watched them leave their families in pursuit of your nirvana
I've seen them coming to line up from Switzerland and America
How long will this take, baba?
How long have we been sleeping?
Do you see me hanging onto every word you say?
How soon will I be holy?
How much will this cost, guru?
How much longer till you completely absolve me?
I've seen them give their drugs up in place of makeshift altars
I've heard them chanting, Kali Kali frantically
I've heard them rotely repeat your teachings with elitism
I've seen them boasting robes and foreign sandalwood beads
How long will this take, baba?
How long have we been sleeping?
Do you see me hanging onto every word you say?
How soon will I be holy?
How much will this cost, guru?
How much longer till you completely absolve me?
I've seen men overlooking God in their own essence
I've seen their upward glances in hopes of instant salvation
I've seen their righteousness mixed without loving compassion
I've watched you smile as the students bow to kiss your feet
How long will this take, baba?
How long have we been sleeping?
Do you see me hanging onto every word you say?
How soon will I be holy?
How much will this cost, guru?
How much longer till you completely absolve me?
Give me strength all knowing one
How long 'til enlightenment?
How much longer 'til you completely absolve me?

are you still mad I kicked you out of bed?
are you still mad I gave you ultimatums?
are you still mad I compared you to all
my forty year old male friends?
are you still mad I shared our problems
with everybody?
are you still mad I had an emotional affair?
are you still mad I tried to mold you into
who I wanted you to be?
are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions?
of course you are
of course you are
are you still mad that I flirted wildly?
are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you?
are you still mad that I had one foot out of the door?
are you still mad that we slept together even after
we had ended it?
of course you are
of course you are
are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time?
are you still mad that I seemed to focus
only on your potential?
are you still mad that I threw in the towel?
are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?
of course you are

Wait a minute man
You mispronounced my name
You didn't wait for all the information
Before you turned me away
Wait a minute sir
You kind of hurt my feelings
You see me as a sweet back-loaded puppet
And you've got meal ticket taste
I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you
You took me for a joke
You took me for a child
You took a long hard look at my ass
And then played golf for a while
Your shake is like a fish
You pat me on the head
You took me out to wine dine 69 me
But didn't hear a damn word I said
I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you
Hello Mr. Man
You didn't think I'd come back
You didn't think I'd show up with my army
And this ammunition on my back
Now that I'm Miss Thing
Now that I'm a zillionaire
You scan the credits for your name
And wonder why it's not there
I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem...why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are

I don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yours
I don't want to be your glass of single malt whiskey
Hidden in the bottom drawer
I don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mine
Lend me some fresh air
I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you
I don't want to be your babysitter
You're a very big boy now
I don't want to be your mother
I didn't carry you in my womb for nine months
Show me the back door
Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6
Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom
You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor
I don't want to be the sweeper of the egg shells that you walk upon
And I don't want to be your other half, I believe that 1 and 1 make 2
I don't want to be your food or the light from the fridge on your face
At midnight, hey
What are you hungry for
I don't want to be the glue that holds your pieces together
I don't want to be your idol
See this pedestal is high and I'm afraid of heights
I don't want to be lived through
A vicarious occasion
Please open the window
Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6
Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom
You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor
I don't want to live on someday when my motto is last week
I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart
And it's wounded beat
I don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling
What do you thank me
What do you thank me for
Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6
Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom

What's the matter Mary Jane, had a hard day
As you place the don't disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore
It's a long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And you're on it
I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane
What's the point of trying to dream anymore
I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane
Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for?
Well it's full speed baby
In the wrong direction
There's a few more bruises
If that's the way
You insist on heading
Please be honest Mary Jane
Are you happy?
Please don't censor your tears
You're the sweet crusader
And you're on your way
You're the last great innocent
And that's why I love you
So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish
Worry not about the cars that go by
'Cause all that matters Mary Jane is your freedom
So keep warm my dear, keep dry
Tell me, tell me
What's the matter Mary Jane
Tell me, tell me
Please be honest Mary Jane

Do I stress you out?
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say, "How appropriate"
I don't dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
An' there I go jumpin' before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter
And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
Do I wear you out?
You must wonder why I'm relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the maker
And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature, ya
An' what I wouldn't give to find a soul mate?
Someone else to catch this drift
An' what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred?
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness
And the sound of pretenses is fallin'
All around, all around
Why are you so petrified of silence?
Here can you handle this?
Did you think about your bills, you ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die?
Or did you long for the next distraction?
An' all I need now is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flyin'
If only I could kill the killer
An' all I really want is some peace man
A place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
An' all I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
'Cause all I really want is some patience
[Inaudible]
And all I really want is deliverance
A place to find a common ground
And all I really want is some justice

I know there's a reason you're forcing a smile
You hide what you're feeling and you have for a while
I can tell that you're falling
And you feel that you can't go on
But a new day is calling
And you'll see that the feeling is gone
You know you're not the only one
Who has a lot to overcome
And when the time has come then you move on
'Cause you've been crying for too long
Sometimes life is so unkind
But change is never a waste of time
I know how you're feeling, I've been there before
The hurting is something much to strong to ignore
Don't be waiting for someone
Who can take all your fear away
When there's no one to listen
That is when you should not be afraid

You've got to give it all to baby
You know I want it all for me
I wanna get to know you baby
Is that a possibility
Hey, you're my man, I'm your woman
And I'm not too proud to tell you what you do to my head
I'm not kiddin'
You've got everythin' that any girl would want, yes you do
You're just wishin'
Well it's time you know the truth and that is
When you are beggin' me for money
Just got to tell me what you need
But if you want my lovin' buddy
You've got to get down on your knees
You've got to give what you got and take what I'm givin' you baby
You've got to want what you see and see what I'm givin' away
Hey, stick with me, I'm your momma
And you can run to momma every time your skin you knee
No one ever,
Could ever take your place, the way you move makes me hot
Let me tell you,
You won't be satisfied without me
You've got to give it all to baby
You know I want it all for me
I wanna get to know you baby

It's late at night and no one's around
And only my heart is making a sound
I lay awake alone in my bed
And I can't sleep should I call you instead
I think of you far too much 'cause you, you're one of a kind
I'm not like an open book
'cause I've got something in mind
You know I can't deny the way I feel inside
I won't be hiding my love
You know I can't disguise you're always on my mind
And now I can't get enough
Give me love, I know that you can
I like the strength of a confident man
It's in my blood and all through my veins
You feel it once and you're never the same
Whenever I close my eyes you're there. I feel it inside
But why am I holding in my love, I can't tell you why
I think of you far too much 'cause you, you're one of a kind
I'm not like an open book 'cause I've got something in mind
You know I , you know I, I can't deny
Every day you're always on my mind
You know I , you know I, I can't disguise

I had high expectations
It's something I could not compromise
And when I saw you I wasn't ready
It completely took my heart by surprise
Who...And when I think of the time I med you
The situation looked harmless
It wasn't long before I got confused enough
And soon I realized that your...
[CHORUS:]
Love is just an emotion away
I know it's gonna get to you
Love will be only a moment away
A moment away you know it's true
Lately the way I'm feeling
It's something I could never have planned
I knew that one day I'd find a love thing
Now I'll never stop believing in chance
I put my heart on a shelf forever
I never thought I would find you
I didn't know any better baby
But then I realized that your...
[CHORUS]
Love is crazy love love is crazy and soon you're gonna get some

Music and Lyrics by Alanis, Leslie Howe, & Serge Cote
I know there's a reason you're forcing a smile
You hide what you're feeling and you have for a while
I can tell that you're falling
And you'll see that the feeling is gone
But a new day is calling
And you feel that you can't go on
Chorus:
You know you're not the only one
And when the time has come then you move on
'Cause you've been crying for too long
But change is never a waste of time
Sometimes life is so unkind
Who has a lot to overcome
I know how you're feeling, I've been there before
The hurting is something much to strong to ignore
Who can take all your fear away
Don't be waiting for someone
That is when you should not be afraid
When there's no one to listen
Repeat Chorus

These are the thoughts that go through my head
in my backyard on a sunday afternoon
when I have the house to myself and I am not
expending all that energy on fighting
with my boyfriend
Is he the one that I will marry
and why is it so hard to be objective about
myself why do I feel cellularly alone
am I supposed to live in this crazy city
can blindly continued fear-induced regurtitated life-denying tradition
be overcome
Where does the money go that I send
to those in need, if we have so much why do some people have nothing
still why do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning
why do you say you are spiritual, yet you treat people like shit
How can you say you're close to God, and yet you talk behind
my back as though I'm not a part of you, why do I say I'm fine
when it's obvious I'm not, why's it so hard to tell you what I want
why can't you just read my mind?
Why do I fear that the quieter I am
the less you will listen
why do I care whether you like me or not
why's it so hard for me to be angry
why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck
and not the other way around
Will I ever move back to Canada
Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student
and a master, oh why am I encouraged to shut my mouth
when it gets too close to home, why cannot I
live in the moment

please be philosophical
please be tapped into your femininity
please be able to take the wheel from me
please be crazy and curious
papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar
papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar
please be a sexaholic
please be unpredictably miserable
please be self absorbed much (not the good kind)
please be addicted to some substance
papa listen to your princess so that she will find attentive princes familiar
papa hear your princess so that she will find curious princes familiar
please be the jerk of my knee i've fit you always
you finish my sentences I think I love you
what is your name again no matter i'm guessing your thoughts again correctly and I love the way
you press my buttons so much sometimes I could strangle you
papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar
papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar
please be strangely enigmatic

My name is Alanis. I'm a white chick singer
the drums are a-smokin' and so's the bass
Shake your thing
When you sing
just sixteen
no disco queen
I'm a white chick singer I've seen the world I've got
a lession 4u I'm your teacher girl
Two words you'll be hearin' will
shake the earth so repeat after me
No need to be rehearsed
Oh yeah
My name is Alanis I'm just sixteen so
please gimme a break I'm no disco queen
Just hear what I'm sayin' you don't
wanna miss I got a message 4U and it
goes like this
Ride my train
Go insane
your teacher girl
rules your world
Now don't overdo it when you shake your thing
cause you'll be goin' insane when you start
to sing
Without special training an amateur
Could be a casuality case if they sing
these words
Yo-Ah Yo-Ah
Wo-oh Yeah!
The drums are a smokin' and so's the
bass they keep on pumpin' a groove and it'll melt your face
Comon' everybody and blow your mind
Because you'l never escape these 2
words of mine

And you're like a 90's Jesus
And you revel in your psychosis
How dare you?
You sample concepts like hors d'oeurves
And you eat their questions for dessert
And is it just me or is it hot in here?
And you're like a 90's Kennedy
And you're only a million years old
They can't fool you
They'll throw opinions like rocks in riots
And they'll stumble around like hypocrites
And is it just me or is it dark in here?
You may never be or have a husband
You may never have or hold a child
You will learn to loose everything
We are temporary arrangements
And you're like a 90's Noah
And they laughed at you when you packed all of your things
And they wonder why you're frustrated
And they wonder why you're so angry
Is it just me or are you fed up
And god bless you in you're travels
in your conquests and queries...

There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall
That's my soul up there
There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall
That's my soul up there
There's a blue whale beached by a springtide's ebb
That's my soul up there
There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out
There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt
There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed
There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread
There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack
There's a black-winged gull with a broken back
There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the queen of pain
queen of pain
I'll always be queen of pain

Make sure she's alright
She just can't wait to party
She'll make it look so easy
Why won't you listen to me
Yeah
Jealousy-some girls have it rough oh baby
Loyalty-why is that so tough, the trust is gone
Jealous don't you know your girl is jealous
She can't help but be suspicious
Can't you see, that girl is jealous
So better make it right
Cruelty-it's easy for him to be
Fallacy-you're out on a limb for him
Conspiracy Anxiety she just can't wait to party
Strategy totally she'll make it look so easy
Loyalty disagree why won't you listen to me
Fantasy Novelty she will be free
Jealous-it's no fallacy
Jealous-she doesn't trust you much
Suspicious-so baby can't you see that girl

Baby, I've got this thing for you
I'm thinkin' there's somethin' goin' on now
A wicked imagination
A serious kind of somethin' new
It's drivin' me right out of my mind now
It's gotta be desperation
Can't feel no pain when I'm thinking about you
Dreamin' isn't black and white
Can't make no gain 'til my vision c-comes true
Give it to me like I'd like to give it to you
Love I wanna feel your love
Right from the bottom of my heart to your hands
(now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love
You know this waitin' for you boy I can't stand
Bein' just who you wanna be and doin' whatever
comes to mind now
I gotta get information
Never knew what to do with you
You're givin' me sometin' to hold on to
My newest infatuation
"People Power" means I gotta believe you
Can't you hear the voices callin'
Keep your flowers cause their colour will turn blue
Give it to me like I'd like to give it to you
Love I wanna feel your love
Right from the bottom of your heart to your hands
(now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love

You like snow but only if it's warm
You like rain but only if it's dry
No sentimental value to the rose that fell on your floor
No fundamental excuse for the granted I'm taken for
'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
You like pain but only if it doesn't hurt too much
And you sit...and you wait...to receive
There's an abvious attraction
To the path of least resistance in your life
There's an obvious aversion no amount of my insistance
Could make you try tonight
'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you to you to you to you to you...
There's no love no money no thrill anymore
There's an apprehensive naked little trembling boy
With his head in his hands
There's an underestimated and impatient little girl
Raising her hand
But it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you, to you
get up get up get up off of it
get up get up get up off of it
get out get outta here enough already
get up get up get up off of it

Coercing or leaving
Shutting down and punishing
Running from rooms, defending
Withholding, justifying
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
Diagnosing, analyzing
Unsolicited advice
Explaining and controlling,
Judging opining and meddling
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
This labeling
This pointing
this sensitive's unraveling
This sting I've been ignoring
I feel it way down way down
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed

I'll give you countless amounts of outright
Acceptance if you want it
I will give you encouragement to choose
The path you want if you need it
You can speak of anger and doubts
Your fears and freak outs and I'll hold it
You can share your so called shame filled accounts
Of times in your life and I won't judge it
(And there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
You can ask for space for yourself
And only yourself and I'll grant it
You can ask for freedom as well
Or time to travel and you'll have it
You can ask to live by yourself
Or love someone else and I'll support it
You can ask for anything you want
Anything at all and I'll understand it.
(And there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
I bet you're wondering when
The next payback shoe will eventually drop
I bet you're wondering when my conditional police
Will force you to cough up
I bet you're wondering how far
You have now danced your way back into debt
This is the only kind of love, as I understand it
That there really is
You can express your deepest of truths
Even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it
You can fall into the abyss
On your way to your bliss, I'll empathize with
You can say that you'll have to skip town
To chase your passion and I'll hear it
You can even hit rock bottom
Have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it
(And there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege

First woman down was your mother
She did condone how you behave
All you could see was your father
His disrespect was in her face
Next woman down was your sister
Her silence did corroborate
She took her cues from the climate
And never knew another way
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take –come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate? –woman down
Next woman down was your lover
She takes your spite at value face
Even her hair length and color
Gives you the impulse to repeat
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take—come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate?—woman down
Next woman down is your daughter
A stranger to being debased
She has a new lease and limit
On the abuse she'll tolerate
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take—come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us

Fui a tu casa
subí las escaleras
y abrí la puerta sin llamar al timbre.
Atravesé el recibidor
hasta llegar a tu cuarto
donde podia olerte.
Y no debería estar aquí
sin tu permiso.
no debría estar aquí.
podrías perdonarme si bailo en tu ducha?
podrías perdonarme si me acuesto en tu cama?
podrias perdonarme si me quedo toda la tarde?
me quité mi ropa
y me puse la tuya.
y en tu armario encontré tu colonia.
en el piso de abajo en contré tus cd´s
y escuché tu Joni.
No debería quedarme mucho tiempo
tú estarás en casa pronto
no debería quedarme mucho tiempo
podrías perdonarme si bailo en tu ducha?
podrías perdonarme si me acuesto en tu cama?
podrias perdonarme si me quedo toda la tarde?
encendí tus cenizas
tomé un bañó y luego encontré una carta en tu escritorio
decía:hola cariño, te quiero tanto
reúnete conmigo a medianoche".
esa no era mi letra
debería irme pronto
no era mi letra
Así que perdoname amor, si lloro en tu ducha
perdoname por las lágrimas en tu cama

Look at us break our bonds in this kitchen
Look at us rallying all our defenses
Look at us waging war in our bedroom
Look at us jumping ship in our dialogues
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath
Look at us our form our cliques in our sandbox
Look at us micro kids with both our hearts blocked
Look at us turn away from all the rough spots
Look at dictatorship on my own block
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath
How I've spun my wheels with carts before my horse
When shine on the outside springs from the root
Spotlight on these seeds of simpler reasons
This core, born into form, starts in our living room
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages

I miss your smell and your style
And your pure abiding way
Miss your approach to life
And your body in my bed
Miss your take on anything
And the music you would play
Miss cracking up and wrestling
Our debriefs at end of day
These are the things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
And I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
I miss your neck and your gait
And your sharing what you write
Miss you walking through the front door
Documentaries in your hand
Miss traveling our traveling
And your fun and charming friends
Miss our Big Sur getaways
And to watch you love my dogs
These are the things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
And I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
One step one prayer
I soldier on
Stimulating moving on
I miss your warmth and the thought
Of us bringing up our kids
And the part of you that walks with your stick-tied handkerchief
These are the things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence

I wake up and first things first
I'm of service
I make sure your needs are met, I'm so selfless
I give hard and serve hard and now I, I need a break
I give in, I give all and now it's time to degenerate
Chorus:
Today's all about me, all about how I'm feeling
Today's all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I move on through offerings, I found exciting
In this slow on list of words of understanding
I give hard, ṗrovide hard and now I need some relief
I look out, I prefer and now I need some respect and teed (?)
Chorus:
Today's all about me, all about how I'm feeling
Today's all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
My habit to love you first, in me it lingers
To renew it's only a joke, leaves me a stranger
I give hard and fight hard and now I need to retreat
I give out, dedicate and now I need to acknowledge me
Chorus:
Today's all about me, all about how I'm feeling
Today's all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

We play the game with determination
We don't give a dam 'bout our reputation baby
It's not a game, it's a revelation
Step inside the real world
The real world...yeah yeah yeah... The real world...yeah...
It's been every day now, and it just won't go away now...no
Life is so intense now, not much common sense now yeah
And late in the night I turn out my light yeah
A song in my head, and it says "STEP INSIDE THE REAL WORLD"
We play the game with determination
We don't give a damn 'bout our reputation baby
It's not a game, it's a revelation
Just another day in the real world...yeah, the real world
I can make decisions with no one else believin' me
I just look inside me 'cause I've got my own voice to guide me
It came in a dream, a light so extreme yeah
A voice in my head, and it says "STEP INSIDE THE REAL WORLD"
Ya gotta step inside the real world STEP-IN-SIDE-THE-REAL-WORLD
I woke from the dream, I know what it means yeah
That voice in my head...It says "YOU'RE HERE INSIDE THE REAL WORLD"

I'm wise and ambitious
And angry and free
And smart and available
And sexy...
I'm soft and appealing
And wearing pajamas
And twisted and willing
And crazy...
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to throw her on the floor.
And thought-provoking
And opinionated
Cultured and funny
And experienced...
Fearless and tender
And sweetly innocent
Uninhibited
Likes a good debate.
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to tie her to the bed.
I could fall in love a million times before I die
You could draw me a bubble bath
We could walk into the sunset...
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to keep her sober.
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
I'm gonna grow to be a maid and I'll never find a fella
Who can use me

It was the night Rod Stewart played
And we were, were standing in the pouring rain
If I had known it was the last time I would see you again...
I would change everything...
I look through the broken glass I watch the storm go through my mind
There's so much I had to say I know the words I left behind
And now I'm caught in a daydream with nowhere to run and hide
The world rushes by me, it's leaving me here all alone
(I would change everything, but I can't do anything
I would give all that I have to know where you are)
CHORUS:
I'll always carry you inside my heart and you
You'll never know how much I wonder where you are
I always knew that you would take a part of me away with you
And I never got to say good-bye
I look in the mirror now and all I see is yesterday
At night I hear your voice and it is calling out my name
And with every hour just hold on to what you can
They're lost in a moment and fading away in the night
(I would change everything, but I can't do anything
I would give all that I have just to know where you are)
CHORUS
...and I never..ever...said good-bye...
That night is just a memory
But I still feel you standing next to me

Entertain me for the tenth hour in a row again
Anesthetize me with your gossip and many random anecdotes
And fill every hour with activity or ear candy
Drop me off at intersections in any city metropolitan
And keep me in this state
And keep me purgatorying
And sing me back to sleep
This is far more than I had bargained for
Start every week with a break-neck urgent design
And end every speed day with my briefcase representing free time
Spending my fruits my purchases become my lifeline
Please give my love to my family
I'll doubtfully be home at christmas time
Don't disturb me in this state
Please leave me purgatorying
I'll be damned if i'm to wake
This is far more than i am equipped for
I've held you up like a deity
Like you're the sole owner of wings
This unrequited tunnel vision
And i wonder why i've not been writing
Please keep me in this state
Please keep me purgatorying
Please rock me back to sleep
This love is more than - than i have bargained for
I'll be damned if i'm to wake

What it feels to fall in to the pool
the hard shell bugs bite my forearm
my right index fingernail chewed to the quick
my cervix is a long (?)
my sprinklers go off at 6pm each day
and sometimes they spray unsuspecting visitors
my pimples are goosebumps(hairs?) all over my legs
my brow is furrowed and my vision is blurred
and how I do love London
and how I do love London
the birds make guttural sounds and protect me
my friends come to visit and love me a lot
I don't have the energy to fill this
I am like flight attendants on a 12 hour flight
and how I do love London
and how I do love London
I am intriguied by the boy with songs
sometimes they write sometimes they write a lot
the steam will smell of puke and left us in the shower
the hug will feel forced upon you inconsolable thing
and how I do love London
and how I do love London
deep breaths will not make my brain stand still
to be loved and swallowed are single and depraved
I love speaking french to the taxi drivers
we slept and were cold on the train out of france
and how I do love London

My house, my role
My friends, my man
My devotion to God
All amorphous, indefinite
Nothing?s been clear
Nothing?s been in
Nothing?s felt true
And I?ve never had both feet in
Nothing?s belonged
Nothing?s been yes
Nowhere?s been home
And I?m ready to be limbo no more
My taste, my peers
My identity, my affiliation
All amorphous, indefinite
Nothing?s been clear
Nothing?s been in
Nothing?s felt true
And I?ve never had both feet in
Nothing?s belonged
Nothing?s been yes
Nowhere?s been home
And I?m ready to be limbo no more
I sit with filled frames
And my books and my dogs at my feet
My friends by my side
My past in a heap
Thrown out most of my things
Only kept what I need to carve
Something consistent
And notably me
Tattoo on my skin
My teacher?s in heart
My house is a home
Something at last I can feel a part of
Sense of myself
My purpose is clear
My roots in the ground
Something at last I can feel a part of
Something aligned
To finally commit
Somewhere I belong
'Cause I?m ready to be limbo no more
My wisdom applied
A firm foundation
A vow to myself

Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
The sun is up, the sky is blue it's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, open up your eyes
Dear Prudence, see the sunny skies
the wind is blowing, the birds will sing and you are part of everything
Dear Prudence, won't you open up your eyes
Look around, around...look around, round, round, round, round
Look around.
Dear Prudence, Let me see you smile
Dear Prudence, like a little child
the clouds will be the Daisy's change so let me see you smile again
Dear Prudence, won't you let me see you smile
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
the sun is up, the sky is blue it's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Look around, round, round, round, round
Look around, round, round, round, round
Look around, round, round, round, round
Look around, round, round, round, round
ahh ahhhh oh ahh haaa oohh
ahh ahhhh oh ahh haaa oohh
ahh ahhhh oh ahh haaa oohh
We can work it out
We can work it out

In a church by the face
He talks about the people going under
Only child knows...
A man decides after seventy years
That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door,
While those around him criticize and sleep...
And through a fractal on a breaking wall,
I see you my friend and touch your face again,
Miracles will happen as we dream
But we're never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive unless
We are a little...
Crazy yellow people walking through my head.
One of them's got a gun, shoot the other one.
And yet together they were friends at school
Ohh, get it, get it, get it, no no no!
If I were there when we first took the pill,
Then maybe, then maybe, then maybe, then maybe...
Miracles will happen as we speak.
Crazy...
No no, we'll never survive, unless we get a little...bit...
In a sky full of people, only some want to fly.
Isn't that crazy?
In a world full of people, only some want to fly.
Isn't that crazy?
Crazy...
In a heaven of people there's only some want to fly.
Isn't that crazy? crazy crazy...crazy...

I have tasted stardom still before I breathed
My something something something
And I have never left this ambitious city
And I've only known a lust for VIP
I have studied long and hard had to proceed
Nothing but my name in bright lights called to me
And I display the perfect amount of en oui
I'll carve my face a bit, you'll indulge me
Give me celebrity my kingdom to be famous
Tell me who I have to be
Starting to be famous
Never wonder who's pulling strings above me
Cause I'm aware of wheels, heels, and vintage Gucci
I'm on my twentieth round of vitamin v

By moon we gather
For the ascension
Great sky shelter us
With your endless compassion
Last survivor
It is you who must pass
Into the light of the new world
Under a sky of innocence
We are now all dying
In a slow black rain
Was it a failure
Of man and angels?
Was it a failure of love?
From this human river
Too cruel for winter
Welcome to the gates
A rehearsal for the silence
Pray we do not enter
Under a sky of innocence
We bathe in the seduction
Beautiful
The light is unraveling now
We open our arms to it
It is close to ground zero
I am no one
Yet I am everyone
We are nothing, but we are all
When I am still, I am inspired
We are not yet born
Half sadness
But half choice
When I am still I can hear
You speak most clearly
Father can you help me
For the ocean is big
And my boat is small

Before my body dies
I pray
That the river I was born to
May again wash over me
By god's touch I pray
That I may move from this consecrated
Earth
Into the next season
A dark season
Beyond the dying religions that
Seduced us
My soul will surrender

I went to your house
Walked up the stairs
I opened your door without ringing the bell
I walked down the hall
Into your room
Where I could smell you
And I shouldn't be here, without permission
I shouldn't be here
Would you forgive me love
If I danced in your shower
Would you forgive me love
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love
If I stay all afternoon
I took off my clothes
Put on your robe
I went through your drawers
And found your cologne
I went down to the den
I found your cd's
And I played your Joni
And I shouldn't stay long, you might be home soon
I shouldn't stay long
Would you forgive me love
If I danced in your shower
Would you forgive me love
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love
If I stay all afternoon
I burned your incense
I ran a bath
And I noticed a letter that sat on your desk
It said "Hello love, I love you so love, meet me at midnight"
And no, it wasn't my writing
I'd better go soon
It wasn't my writing
So forgive me love
If I cry in your shower
So forgive me love
For the salt in your bed
So forgive me love

I wouldn't have compromised so much
so much of myself for fear of
having you hating me
I would've sung so loudly
it would've cracked myself!
I became self-conscious
of anything exuberant
I wouldn't have sold myself short
I wouldn't have kept my eyes
glued to the ground
if I had've known my invisibility
would not make a difference
I would've run around screaming proudly
at the top of my voice
I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck
i'm talking idealism here
I would not have been so self deprecating
I wouldn't have cowered
for fear of having my eyes scratched out!
I wouldn't have cut my comfort off
I wouldn't have feigned needlessness
I would not have discredited
every one of their compliments
it was your approval I wanted

I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
(chorus)
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service
(repeat chorus)
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

Oh perilous place walk backwards toward you
Blink disbelieving eyes chilled to the bone
Most visibly brave no aprehended gloom
First to take this foot to virgin snow
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
And I lift the envelope pushed far enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to serve, destined to roam
Oh ominous place spellbound and unchild-proofed
My least favorite chill to bare alone
Compatriots in place they'd cringe if I told you
Our best back-pocket secret our bond full-blown
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
I am a pioneer naive enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to seek, destined to know
Most beautiful place reborn and blown off roof
My view about-face whether great will be done
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
I am a ground-breaker naive enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
I am a Joan of Arc and smart enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to reign, destined to roam
Destined to reign, destined to roam
Destined to reign, destined to roam

if I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to
if I am hardened no fear of further abandonment
if I am famous then maybe i'll feel good in this skin
if I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect
i would throw a party still it would not come
i would bike run swim and still it would not come
i'd go travelling and still it would not come
I would starve myself and still it would not come
if I'm masculine I will be taken more seriously
if I take a break it would make me irresponsible
if i'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
if I need assistance then I must be incapable
i'd be filthy rich and still
it would not come
I would seduce them and still
it would not come
I would drink vodka and still
it would not come
i'd have an orgasm still
it wouldn't come
if I accumulate knowledge
i'll be inpenetrable
if I am aloof no one will know
when they strike a nerve
if I keep my mouth shut the boat
will not have to be rocked
if I am vulnerable I will be
trampled upon
i would go shopping and still
it would not come
i'd leave the country and still
it would not come
i would scream and rebel still
it would not come
i would stuff my face and still
it would not come
i'd be productive and still it would not come
i'd be celebrated still it would not come
i'd be the hero and still it would not come

In my old days someone won
Those were days of win-lose
In those beat times I was better
I set high but came down by a nose
Changed direction, looking up
I am not worthy to be with you
We are separate, I’m inferior
I have yearnings to sit across from you
‘Cause we’re eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Both directions speak alive
Upon now I can feel
As we down with our power
We are separate, not looking across
‘Cause we’re eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
These delusions of our grandeur
We are locked in the struggle
These lies of love status lower
These conclusions, we’re in trouble
‘Cause we’re eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you (do I love you?)
Seems I love you
Seems I love you (do I love you?)

We said good-bye with so much left to say
We knew inside we'd find another way
We'll have it all, it's not too late to try
Maybe you and I could go from here
Maybe you and I can make it, this time we'll...
Fall in love when we meet again
We can finish what we started
Fall in love if we try again
And then nothing will keep us apart
We're not the same as when we first began
We'll try to change, we'll take another chance
Maybe you and I could work it out
Maybe you and I can make it, this time we'll
I see your face, it's always on my mind
A time and palace we almost left behind

If God had a name what would it be?
And would you call it to His face?
If you were faced with Him in all His glory
What would you ask if you had just one question?
Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
If God had a face
What would it look like?
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and Jesus and the Saints
And all the Prophets
Yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Just trying to make His way home
Back up to Heaven all alone
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome
Yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Like a holly Rolling Stone
Back up to Heaven all alone
Just trying to make His way home
Nobody callin' on the phone

Monday morning is not Monday morning till Taylor has his coffeeFriday night is not Friday night till Jessie leaves the room sweatyTuesday morning is not Tuesday morning till Nick has his talk with his sonThursday night is not Thursday night till Chris has sex with his bass
Come on to the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get highHold off till the weekendThere's too much timeI think they are really nice guys
Tuesday morning is Wednesday afternoon when you cry all nightWednesday early we fall into work all caught up in the day by dayThursday morning is not Thursday morning till Alanis says: "How's your life?How's your life? Hey, how's your life? How's your life?"
Come on to the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get byHold off till the weekend'Cause there's too much time to think and not much time to cryHold off till the weekend'Cause the weekend we'll be highHold off till the weekend'Cause there'll be no time but we'll get by
What if there were no more mother's boys?What if no one shared their humble experience?What if there were no consequences?What if there were no more arguments?Wouldn't that be a shame?Would that be impossible?And you would be bored'Cause you wouldn't want any other way...
Hold on till the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get byHold off till the weekend'Cause the man upstairs has the really nice skiesHold off till the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get highHold off till the weekend'Cause we may look strange but we surely will get by

A downtown cafe Saturday evenin' and the
place is about to be closed I'm meeting my baby
yeah and order my hundreath cup of coffee today
My hands are shakin'
At half past seven I'm sittin here waitin' for
my boy all alone for too long It's after eleven
yeah I'm tired of waitin' and I'm gonna go home
cause I don't need this
You never think twice before you break all the rules
you gotta be crazy if you think I'm a fool
I'll walk away and say good bye
If you don't want me anymore
I've bot my pride
I'll walk away and say good bye
if I don't get the love we had before
not satisfied
He finally gets here I'm waitin' for him to ask me
why there's a frown on my face He orders a
cold beer he has an excuse about his car
breakin' down but I don't buy it
You're givin' me sometin' I don't need anymore
Just gimme the word and I'll be slammin' the door
His best intentians are never the same as what
he does of the end of the day. I'm feelin' the
tension yeah Don't gimme no reasons cause you
don't comprehend what am I feelin'
You never think twice before you break all the rules
You gotta be crazy if you think I'm a fool
You're givin' me somethin' I don't need anymore
Just gimme the word and I'll be slammin' the door
So tell me now Just say the word
It won't be long

It’s quiet simple when I’m listening
You keep leading me all the way home
These messages you’ve been offering
As a magical child
An essential child
It hinges on the driver’s seat
It depends on who’s in control
When i waver on the attuning
I kill a magical child
This essential child
To thine own self be true
To my core self be true
When direction is confounding
When vitality is far gone
When the spark is out, uninspiring
I call the magical child
The essential child
To thine own self be true
To my core self be true
When I’m lost and I’m unraveling
When I’m off my track and I float
When I need true north and some grounding
I call the magical child
The essential child
This angelic child
This innocent child
To thine own self be true
To my core self, be true
Angelic child
Innocent child
Magical child

we'd gather around, all in a room, fasten our belts, engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down, rest without guilt, not lie without fear, disagree sans judgement
we would stay, and respond, and expand, and include, and allow, and forgive, and
enjoy, and evolve, and discern, and inquire, and accept, and admit, and divulge, and
open, and reach out, and speak up
This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate
we'd open our arms, we'd all jump in, we'd all coast down, into safety nets
we would share, and listen, and support, and welcome, be propelled by passion, not
invest in outcomes, we would breathe, and be charmed, and amused by difference,
be gentle and make room for every emotion
This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate
we'd provide forums, we'd all speak out, we'd all be heard, we'd all feel seen,
we'd rise post-obstacle, more defined more grateful, we would heal, be humbled,
and be unstoppable, we'd hold close, and let go, and know when to do which, we'd
release, and disarm, and stand up, and feel safe
this is utopia this is my utopia
this is my ideal my end in sight
utopia this is my utopia
this is my nirvana

burn the books they've got too many names and psychosis
all this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me
if someone broke into my house
suits in the living room
do you realize guys I was born in 1974
we've got someone here to explain your publishing
we know how much you love to be in front of audiences
hopeful you are
schoolbound you are
naive you are
driven you are
take a trip to new york with your guardian
and your fake identification
when they said "is there something anything
you'd like to know young lady?"
you said "yes I'd like to know what kind of people
i'll be dealing with"
precocious you are
headstrong you are
terrified you are
ahead of your time you are
don't mind our staring but
we're surprised you're not in a far-gone asylum
we're surprised you didn't crack up
lord knows that we would've
we would've liked to have been there
but you keep pushing us away
resilient you are
big time you are
ruthless you are

dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship
with someone right now and I respect
that I would like you to know that if you're ever single
in the future and you want to come visit me in california
I would be open to spending time with you and finding
out how old you were when you wrote your first song
dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys
who would lie to me and think solely about themselves and you
were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say
the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's
your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
dear terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing
but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
and pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep
on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time you
were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what
was wrong with me
dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way
about you with the women and you got me
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away
with kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out
for around you though and that stopped us from going any further
than we did and it's kinda too bad becasue we could've had much more fun
dear lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
and I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you

I had disengaged to avoid being totaled
I would run away and say good riddance, soon enough
I had grown disgusted by your small-minded ceiling
Imagine myself bolting had not been difficult
Soon be my life
Soon be my pace
Soon be my choice of which you'll have no part of
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
I hit the ground running, although I know not what toward
I hit the town feeling, forgetting all that came before
I felt primed and ready, once surrounded by the pawns
I felt culture shocked, but dissuaded, I was not
This is my town
This is my voice
This is my taste of which you've have no part of
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
One day I'll saddle back and speak of foreign adventures
One day I'll double back and tell you about these unfettered years
One day I'll look back and feel something other than relieved
Glad that I left when I did before, I know you, you can't get the best of me
When I'd speak of artistry you would roll your eyes skyward
When I'd speak of spirituality you would label it absurd
When I spoke of possibility you would frown and shake your head
If I had stayed much longer, I'd have surely imploded
These are my words
This is my house
These are my friends of which you've had no part
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot-blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepherd need shepherd
But you you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
I don't think you unworthy

Like anyone would beI am flattered by your fascination with meLike any hot-blooded womanI have simply wanted and object to craveBut you, you're not allowedYou're uninvitedAn unfortunate side
Must be strangely excitingTo watch the stoic squirmMust be somewhat hard tellingTo watch them burn me, shepherdBut you, you're not allowedYou're uninvitedAn unfortunate side.
Like any uncharted territoryI must seem greatly intriguingYou speak of my love likeYou have experienced love like mine beforeBut this is not allowedYou're uninvitedAn unfortunate side.

Always too hot never too cold
You make your best shot too hot to hold
Never too young Never too old
You gotta go for gold
Hey boy you wanted all or nothin'
Lose the apprehension baby
And go with the flow cause you know you've got
Stand up if you want the answers
You need to blast 'em straight up baby
So say what you mean and you mean to say now
Hey you don't have to go and prove it
You just go ahead and do it
Your time is for the takin', makin'
the best of what you got now
Never too hot never too cold
You make your best shot too hot to hold
Never too young Never too old
You gotta go for gold
Don't care what they say about ya
You never throw a hero party
For those who oppose who you chose to be now
Maybe you could feel the power
It's like a bomb inside your head that blows if you're
slow when you go to use it
You, you gotta show them that you mean it just go ahead and scream it
And show them what they're missin' listen
to what your heart could tell ya
You gotta go for gold and you'll make it baby
Gold! And when you're there you gotta
Throw your hands in the air
And wave 'em like you just don't care
Reachin' teachin' practice what you're preachin'
Throw your hands in the air
And wave 'em like you just don't care
Movin' provin' everything you're doin'
You, you don't have to go and prove it
You just go ahead and do it
Your time is for the takin' makin'
the best of what you got now
Always too hot
Never too cold
Give your best shot

I’ve been wasting time
Clawing my way to you
Taking no prisoners with my romantic crimes
I’ve been holding on imagining glimpses of you
Holding my breath while you come down the pike
Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
I’ve been taking notes
Nursing the thought of you
Research and deliver 'cause I’m biding my time
I’ve been holding on this magnet that calls to you
Entertaining myself with these consolation prizes
Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
They’ve become too fond
But mere placeholders for you
They fill the stance card
As you form in my mind
Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets til you

Fourteen years
Thirty minutes
Fifteen seconds I've
Held this grudge
Eleven songs
Four full journals
Thoughts of punishment
I've expended
Not in contact
Not a letter
Such communication
Telepathic
You've been vilified
Used as fodder
You deserve a piece
Of every record
But who's it hurting now?
Who's the one that's stuck?
Who's it torturing now
With an antique knot in her stomach?
I want to be big and let go
Of this grudge that's grown old
All this time I've not known
How to rest this bygone
I wanna be soft and resolved
Clean of slate and released
I wanna forgive for the both of us
Like an abandoned house
Dusty covered
Furniture
Still intact
If I visit it now
Will I simply re-live it
Somehow gratuitous
But who's still aching now?
Who's tired of her own voice?
Who is it weighing down
With no gift from time of said healing
I want to be big and let go
Of this grudge that's grown old
All this time I've not known
How to rest this bygone
I wanna be soft and resolved
Clean of slate and released
I wanna forgive for the both of us
Maybe as I cut the cord
Veils will lift from my eyes
Maybe as I lay this to rest
Dead weight off my shoulders will rise
Here I sit
Much determined
Ever ill-equipped
To draw this curtain
How this has entertained
Validated
And has served me well
Ever the victim
But who's done whining now?
Who's ready to put down
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember
I want to be big and let go
Of this grudge that's grown old
For the life of me I've not known
How to rest this bygone
I wanna be soft and resolved
Clean of slate and released

these are the thoughts that go through my head in my
backyard on a Sunday afternoon when I have the house to
myself and i'm not expending all that energy on fighting with
my boyfriend
is he the one that I will marry? why is it so hard to be
objective about myself? why do I feel cellularly alone? am I
supposed to live in this crazy city? can blindly continued fear-
induced regurgitated life-denying tradition be overcome?
where does the money go that I send to those in need? if we
have so much why do some people have nothing still? why do I
feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning? why do you
say you are spiritual yet you treat people like shit?
how can you say you're close to god and yet you talk behind
my back as though I am not a part of you? why do I say I'm fine
when it's obvious I'm not? why's it so hard to tell you
what I want? why can't you just read my mind?
why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen?
why do I care whether you like me or not? why is it so hard
for me to be angry? why is it such work to stay conscious and
so easy to get stuck and not the other way around?
will I ever move back to canada? can I be with a lover with
whom I am a student and a master? why am I encouraged to
shut my mouth when it gets too close to home? why cannot I

There are worse things I could do, than go with a boy or two
Even though the neighborhood thinks I'm trashy and no good
I suppose it could be true, but there are worse things I could do
I could flirt with all the guys, smile at them and bat my eyes
Press against them when we dance, make them think they stand a chance
Then refuse to see it through, that's a thing I'd never do
I could stay home every night, wait around for mr. right
Take cold showers every day, and throw my life away
On a dream that won't come true
I could hurt someone like me, out of spite and jealously
I don't steal and I don't lie, but I can feel and I can cry
A fact I'll bet you never knew

Monday morning is not monday morning
'till taylor has his coffee
Friday night is not friday night
'till jesse leaves the room sweaty
Tuesday morning is not tuesday morning
'till nick has his talk with his son
Thursday night is not thursday night
'till chris has sex with his bass
Come on to the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause there's too much time to think
And there will be nice skies
Tuesday morning is wednesday afternoon
When you cry all night
Wednesday early we fall into work
All caught up in the day by day
Thursday morning is not thursday morning
'till (alanis? ? ? ) says how's your life
How's your life?
Yeah how's your life
How's your life?
Come on to the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause there's too much time to think and not much time to cry
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause the weekend we'll be high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause there'll be no time but we'll get by
What if there were no more mama's boys
What if no one shares their humble appearance
What there were no consequences
What if there were no more arguments
Well that'd be a shame
Wouldn't that be impossible
And you would be bored
'cause you wouldn't want it a little too late...
Hold on 'till the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause the man upstairs has the really nice skies
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause we may look strange but we surely will get by
What if there were no more mama's boys
What if we all had no thinking together
Wouldn't that be a shame...
Wouldn't that be impossible
And you would be bored

Standing there on a road that leads to anywhere
Like a child left in the wilderness, standing there penniless
Wanting to be the best
Here's a place where life runs at a different pace
Where love is just convenient, none are obedient
And we are subservient
Look at me, I'm a girl that some may preconceive
Why do they try and generalize, why are they antagonizing me
But something I can't control that...
I Wantcha
You know I'll never stop 'til I've gotcha
You'll never be quite the same when I rock ya
I'm not the kind of girl that you thought I was
You'll have a good time 'cause I wantcha
I'm breaking down the walls 'till I have you, feel you
Show you the time of your life
Here we are and I wonder how we've come this far
In a world that does not recognize women are victimized
What does that symbolize
Why do I want the things I usually criticize
It may be self destructiveness, or maybe it's emptiness inside
But something I can't control that...
You'll have a good time...
It's a lonely road, and no one knows the way that I feel
I'm not giving up now... I'll never try to justify
They'll never understand, you'll be a happy man
You'll have the time of your life
It's something, it's something, it's something that I can't control

my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time
we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself¡-.i am
you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to definewhat you wanted
at that particular time love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing
that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good

how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo
thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time
thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down
how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping
thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity

In a pond, the dimmer switch
Too rough from delicate
I want to know the secret is
We scratch it cause we know
You make it fast, or slow
In way only you can
You drive your car
With masterful experience
[Chorus]
You're my heart,
One moment man
You're fading your control
Inside your ...
And here I watch you wield
Your passion with command
And shine on out them all
Into our secret tantra,
I thank you...
Homes around, I feel sad
With ...along my back
Safety and ...
The most freedom I've had
And you are lock me lock
In ways only you can
You keep moving between
Power and submission
[Chorus]
You're my heart,
One moment man
You're fading your control
Inside your ...
And here I watch you wield
Your passion with command
And shine on out them all
Into our secret tantra,
I thank you
Exploring this, ... boredom
Don't even lead us into our hearts
Beyond life and ... seek straight into possible
The closest sweet come, to this you'll know
With ...on, are all sense
Your breath, first grace, my skin
This fire I'm forced still he
It keeps warm within
We keep progressing
As you offer full spectrum
And we'll keep ...until our days are done
[Chorus]
You're my heart,
One moment man
You're fading your control
Inside your ...
And here I watch you wield
Your passion with command
And shine on out them all
Into our secret tantra,

Tainted Love
Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night
CHORUS:
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Oh...tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way
CHORUS
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Tainted love, tainted love
Tainted love, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love

a missile sent today
killed only 3
the rest were saved
they're far enough away
to not really feel
the direct effect on me
they caught him today
based ridiculously
on his race
they weren't sure
he even did it
but they needed a random face
are these symptoms, symptoms of a simpler cause?
I've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing we are
separate we are separate
disconnected in this unity
he won today
smug self-satisfaction
on his face
he blew the others
out of the water
he said he was glad they were disgraced
are these symptoms, symptoms of a simpler cause?
I've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing we are
separate we are separate
disconnected in this unity
he stole what he could
he only had minutes
before he'd be caught
he justified
every penny taken
by blaming the gap between the rich and rich not
are these symptoms, symptoms of a simpler cause?
I've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing we are
separate we are separate
disconnected in this unity
separate we are separate

I was afraid you'd hit me if i'd spoken up I was
afraid of your physical strength I was afraid
you'd hit below the belt I was afraid of your
sucker punch I was afraid of you reducing me
I was afraid of your alocohol breath I was afraid
of your complete disregard for me I was afraid
of your temper I was afraid of handles being
flown off of I was afraid of holes being punched
into walls I was afraid of your testosterone
I have as much rage as you have
I have as much pain as you do
I've lived as much hell as you have
and i've kept mine bubbling under for you
you were my best friend
you were my lover
you were my mentor
you were my brother
you were my partner
you were my teacher
you were my very own sympathetic character
I was afraid of verbal daggers I was afraid of the
calm before the storm I was afraid for my own
bones I was afraid of your seduction I was afraid
of your coersion I was afraid of your rejection
I was afraid of your intimidation I was afraid of
your punishment I was afraid of your icy silences
I was afraid of your volume I was afraid of your
manipulation I was afraid of your explosions
I have as much rage as you have
I have as much pain as you do
I've lived as much hell as you have
and i've kept mine bubbling under for you
you were my keeper
you were my anchor
you were my family
you were my saviour
and therein lay the issue

you were full and fully capable
you were self sufficient and needless
your house was fully decorated in that sense
you were taken with me to a point
a case of careful what you wish for
but what you knew was enough to begin
and so you called and courted fiercely
so you reached out, entirely fearless
and yet you knew of reservation and how it serves
and I salute you for your courage
and I applaud your perseverance
and I embrace you for your faith in the face of adversarial forces
that I represent
so you were in but not entirely
you were up for this but not totally
you knew how arms length-ing can maintain doubt
and so you fell and you're intact
so you dove in and you're still breathing
so you jumped and you're still flying if not shocked
and I support you in your trusting
and I commend you for your wisdom
and I'm amazed by your surrender in the face of threatening forces
that I represent
you found creative ways to distance
you hid away from much through humor
your choice of armor was your intellect
and so you felt and you're still here
and so you died and you're still standing
and so you softened and you're still safely in command
self protection was in times of true danger
your best defense to mistrust and be wary
surrendering a feat of unequalled measure
and I'm thrilled to let you in

Sarah's only 10 and she's attracted to older men
And they seem to like her back
But she's intelligence
Billy's a football star
And he drives around in his muscle car
But he really really wants to be a ballerina
And he wonders who am I?
Who am I?
And he wants to be a man
But he doesn't understand
It's alright to be what he wants
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call tonight?
I know you're alone in your world
Full of fear though
But the more you run the harder it is to hide
Well, Johnny studies rockets
With his plastic protected pockets
so his pens don’t leak out upon the floor
Where Jenny's rolling
And she's scared of growing
'Cause she is 5 feet taller than the girl next door
And she wonders who am I?
What the hell am I?
And she's got a lot to offer
But she doesn’t look like Cindy Crawford
And it makes her cry®
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call tonight?
I know you're alone in your world
Full of fear though
But the more you run the harder it is to hide
It's a total rejection of the system
It's the honest opinion for the very first time
It's a different position, of living
Ands its time that you made up your minds
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
You're not alone tonight
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call tonight?
I know you're alone in your world
Full of fear though
But the more you run the harder it is to hide
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call?
Can you hear me call tonight?

I'm lookin' for someone who can made me feel
A serious love like Juliet's is real
A little impulsive and a boy at heart
A little bit shy but he'll be oh so smart
Superman I need a superman
You got a complicated girl like me
He's gotta be fair and treat me properly yeah
I want him to understand equality
You gotta Keep searchin' everywhere in the world
You gotta keep lookin' or you'll miss the feelin'
You gotta be tough to make it today who
You do it your way and not how they say
You'll find him somewhere
You gotta be tough to make it today who
And never be scared of finding your way
to Superman
Should I call him on the telephone
Should I go seem him or just stay at home
will be different from the other boys
if I could find him I'd be overjoyed
Superman where are you Superman
Whenever it seems like everything's on the line
You gotta keep lookin' or you'll miss the feelin'
With all the other boys I never knew
what it took to make a choice
When he's mine I'm gonna stop
all my changin' around now
Between the two of us there'll be
enough goin' on that's serious
I can't wait 'til I can stop
all my lookin' around now
I found my Superman I found my Superman
Whenever it seems like everything's
on the line you gotta keep lookin' or

Something so benign for me construed as cruelty
Such a difference between who I am and who you see
Conclusions you come to of me routinely incorrect
I don’t know who you’re talking to with such fucking disrespect
This shit’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what’s in my head
You say one thing do another
And argue that’s not what you did
Your way’s making me mental
How you filter as skewed interpret
I swear you won’t be happy til
I am bound in a straight jacket
Talking with you’s like talking to a sive that can’t hear me
You fight me tooth and nail to disavow what’s happening
Your resistance to a mirror I feel screaming from your body
One day I’ll introduce myself and you’ll see you’ve not yet met me
This shit’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what’s in my head
You say one thing do another
And argue that’s not what you did
Your way’s making me mental
How you filter as skewed interpret
I swear you won’t be happy til
I am bound in a straight jacket
Grand dissonance
The strings of my puppet are cut
The end of an era

I am the harm which you inflict.
I am your brilliance and frustration.
I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit.
I am your immaturity and your indignance.
I am your misfits and your praised.
I am your doubt and your conviction.
I am your charity and your rape.
I am your grasping and expectation.
I see you averting your glances.
I see you cheering on the war.
I see you ignoring your children,
And I love you still.
And I love you still.
I am your joy and your regret.
I am your fury and your elation.
I am your yearning and your sweat.
I am your faithless and your religion.
I see you altering history.
I see you abusing the land.
I see you, your selective amnesia,
And I love you still.
And I love you still.
Haaaaaaaaahh
I see you averting your glimpses.
I see you cheering on the war.
I see you ignoring your children,
And I love you still.
And I love you still.
I see you altering history.
I see you abusing the land.
I see you, your selective amnesia,
I love you still.
And I love you still.
I am your tragedy and your fortune.
I am your crisis and delight.
I am your profits and your prophets.
I am your art, I am your vice.
I am your death and your decisions.
I am your passion and your plight.
I am your sickness and convalescence.
I am your weapons and your light.
I see you holding your grudges.
I see you gunning them down.
I see you silencing your sisters,
And I love you still.
And I love you still.
I see you lie to your country.
I see you forcing them out.
I see you blaming each other,
And I love you still.
And I love you still.
Haaaaaaaahh
I see you holding your grudges.
I see you gunning them down.
I see you silencing your sisters,
I love you still.
I love you still.
I see you lie to your country.
I see you forcing them out.
I see you blaming each other.
I love you still.
I love you still.

Dave :
Spoon in spoon
Stirring my coffee
I thought of you
And turned to the gate
And on my way came
Up with the answers
I scratched my head
And the answers were gone
From hand to hand
Wrist to the elbow
Red blood sand
Could dad be god
Crosses cross hung
Out like a wet rag
Forgive you why
You hung me out to dry
Maybe I'm crazy
But laughing out loud
Makes the pain pass by
And maybe you're a little crazy
But laughing out loud makes it all subside
Holding, I'm holding
I'm still falling
I'm still falling
Spoon in spoon
Stirring my coffee
I thought of this
And turned to the gate
But on my way
Crack
Lightning and thunder
I hid my head
And the storm slipped away
Well maybe I'm crazy
And laughing out loud
Makes it all pass by
And maybe you're a little crazy
And laughing out loud
Makes it all alright
Laughing out loud
Alanis :
From time to time
Minutes and hours
Some move ahead while
Some lag behind
It's like the balloon that
Rise and then vanish
This drop of hope
That falls from his eyes
Dave :
Spoon in spoon
Stirring my coffee
I think of this
And turn to go away
But as I walk
There're voices behind me saying
Sinners sin
Come now and play
Laughing out loud

I won't see my dear friends as much
Male friends especially, I'll no longer be in touch
I'll change my hobbies to match yours
I'll stop reading my favorite books
I won't spend all this selfish time alone
I'll cater to you and hang on your every word
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shells
I'll be opinion less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I'll re-define self-sacrifice
Live my life as apologetic compromise
I'll know you'd leave if I rock the boat
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shells
I'll be opinion less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I feel this, truly proclaimed will help the curbing of this tendency
I know this sharing of shame will ensure that I won't forget myself so easily
I'll be low maintenance and agreeable
I will not talk about my dreams so much
I'll listen to you for hours, won't need anything
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shells
I'll be opinion less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shells
I'll be opinion less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I feel this, truly proclaimed will help the curbing of this tendency

For hearing all my doubts so selectively and
For continuing my numbing love endlessly.
For helping you and myself: not even considering
For beating myself up and over functioning.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueller than I've been to me.
For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
For myself love being so embarrassingly conditional.
And for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
And for trying to fit a rectangle into a ball.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueller than I've been to me.
I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
And for my impatience when I was perfect where I was.
Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready,
And expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be.
To whom do I owe the first apology?
No one's been crueller than I've been to me.
I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter,
I would've naturally loved the former.
For ignoring you: my highest voices.
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious.
For being so disassociated from my body,
And for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me.
I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself.

Deadlines, meetings and contracts all breached
D-days and structure responsibility
Have-to's and need-to's and get-to's by three
Eleventh hours and upset employees
I want to be naked, running through the streets
I want to invite this so called chaos, that you'd think I dare not be
I want to be weightless, flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations and return to what I was born to be
Heartburn and headaches and soon-to-be ulcers
Compulsive yearnings non-stop to please others
I want to be naked, running through the streets
I want to invite this so called chaos, that you'd think I dare not be
I want to be weightless, flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations at the shoes upon my feet
All won't be lost if I'm governed by my own innate-ness
Stop lights won't work I'll get home sound and safe regardless
Won't be mayhem if I'm ruled by my own rule-lessness
My fire won't quell and I'll be harm-free and distress-less (trust me)
Line towing, and helping, expectations up to living
Inside box obeying, inside line coloring
I want to be naked, running through the streets
I want to invite this so called chaos, that you'd think I dare not be
I want to be weightless, flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations at the shoes upon my feet
I want to be naked, running through the streets
I want to invite this so called chaos, that you'd think I dare not be
I want to be weightless, flying through the air

You and me we're cut from the same cloth
It seems to some we famously get along
But you and me are strangers to each other
Cuz you and me: competitive to the bone
Such tragedy to trample on each other with how much we've endured
With the state this land is in
You and me feel joined only by gender
We are not all for one and one for all
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
You and me estranged from the mother
You and me have felt impotent in our skin
You and me have taken it out on each other
You and me disloyal to the feminine
Such a pity to disavow each other with how far we've come
With how strong we've been
You and me are on this pendulum together
You and me with scarcity still fueling
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
We may not have priorities same
We may not even like each other
We may not be hugely anti-men
But such a cost to dishonor a sister
You and me have made it harder for the other
We forget how hard separatism has been
You and me we can help change their minds together
You and me in alignment until the end
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other

I pray for peace
They require me to kick into high gear
We may as well have our Phd's
Might we compose was never taken into account
I pray they let out or talk it out
She would give me a wink across the room
I would have made a really good lawyer
I had a really good strategy for putting things back on the wall of the hoser
Thank God it was the God dammed wall
I would have to hide all my valuables
Who would calm my mother down?
Who would calm *me* down once I talked her through it?
My mother and I were the official peace makers
It was a full time job
I would send my mother directly to bed do not collect 200
We'd talk about it till 5am when I'd come visiting her 5 years later
We would pray for peace

You'll rescue me, right?
In the exact same way they never did
I'll be happy, right?
When your healing powers kick in
You'll complete me, right?
Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy, right?
Only when you realize the gem I am
But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with
Invisible best friends
This ring will help me yet
As will you, knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet
As will these boys gone through like water
But this won't work as well as the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a
Childhood best friend
I've spent so long firmly
Looking outside me
I've spent so much time
Living in survival mode
But this won't work as well as the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with
Invisible best friends
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a

I pray for peace.
They require me to kick into high gear.
We may as well have our ph.d.'s.
Might we compose
Was never taken into account.
I pray they let out or talk it out.
She would give me a wink across the room.
I would've made a really good lawyer.
I had a really good strategy
For putting things back on the wall of the world.
Thank God it was the goddamned wall.
I would have to hide all my valuables.
Who would calm my mother down?
Who would calm me down once I talked her through it?
My mother and I were the official peacemakers.
It was a full-time job.
I would send my mother directly to bed, yeah
Don't collect 200.
We'd talk about it till 5 a.m.
When I'd come visiting her 5 years later.
We would pray for peace.

Through you, I see I
Between a broken nose and a fake smile
Between piety and gunpowder
Between fighting and fleeing the scene
Between murder and diplomacy
Between aggression and [unverified]
Between brutal and realistically well behaved
Between screaming and pulling in the reins
Between tiptoeing and ambling
What am I to do with all this fire?
(I'd like to hit you but I'd never hit you)
Would you stay with me in this red space?
(I'd like to slap you but I'd never slap you
Between violence and silently seething
Between my fist and my Pollyanna flower
Between 'Fuck you' to your face and it's alright
Between war and denial
Between violence and silently seething
Between my fist and my Pollyanna flower
Between 'Fuck you' to your face and it's alright
Between war and denial
Between flying vases and secretly weeping
Between loose cannons and ever downplaying
Between bruises and rudely differing
Between bursting and boiling
What am I to do with all this burning?
(I'd like to hurt you but I'd never hurt you)
Do I overwhelm you in this place?
(I'd like to kill you but I'd never kill you)
Between violence and silently seething
Between my fist and my Pollyanna flower
Between 'Fuck you' to your face and it's alright
Between war and denial
What am I to do with all this fire

You got a plastic name and a plastic heart
You can play the game or you'll never start
I'm talkin' to you
You got a plastic house and a plastic fence
Gotta look around or you'll lose your friends
Am I gettin' through?
You got a plastic girl in a plastic bed
And she's in your house made of gingerbread
And you're in there too
Got a plastic smile on a plastic face
But it's underneath that you can't erase
But what can you do-do-do?
Say Love-it's not that hard after all
(tell me what I want, what I wanna hear)
When everybody does
Say Love-it's gonna tear down the walls
(tell me what I want, what I wanna hear)
if everybody loves
You live in a plastic dream through a plastic card
But reality you don't disregard
You know that it's true
You got a plastic goal in a plastic life
Gotta search your soul gotta make it right
And here's what you do-do-do
Wake up in the morin'
Some are not sleepin' tight
A matter you've been ignorin'
Why can't you just say it?
Will not wait forever
Can't you see I'm right
I want you to endeavor

I've been this girl offering much,
grumbling low and I gave all
All that was asked of me, when order was solved
Envision what's under the lighting
I Never stop long enough to swim against the tide, oh
And I will see I might get too much, to love, to mourn
This new true love song
Chorus:
Permission to be, permission to solve
And you're the only things that matters to me
The freedom to flow, to a genuine flows
And you're the only things that mattered to me
And sure, I had my fun, I play with my roles
With title and break heart wine
But then, after a while, so much done by rode
No longer by inspiration
I've never stopped long enough to see whose was this blind ambition
And I was not some chanting stop
And realize whose was this shine, so now
Chorus:
Permission to be, permission to solve
And you're the only things that matter to me
The freedom to flow, to a genuine flows
And you're the only things that matter to me
If this way is by the drop,
Here waits, this makes sense
To a bib, with this time
Really we have so now
Chorus:
So now permission to be, permission to fly
And you're the only things that matter to me
The freedom to flow, to a genuine flows
And you're the only things that mattered to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh

You're love ain't enough-OW!
You're just a party party party boy yeah
oh baby
You're just a party party party boy!
From the moment I walked into your life
I knew right then it was a serious
thing 4U
I got a kick out of your party friends
After a while I found a holiday, overdue
Who completely away from you
Oh baby your love ain't enough-OW!
Party Boy You're just a party boy
Ain't no time for sleepin' cause you're misbehavin'
Party Boy You're just a party boy
Wake up soon and open your eyes
the time has come to see the light
It took me long enough to realize
That all you give me is a really big broken heart
And I remember how it used to be
There was a time when we could never be
torn apart and now I wish that we could make a start
You know I gave you all my love-OW!
This world of yours turning upside down
Goin' up and down like a merry-go-round
A rumor goin' on right across the town
Why can't you see it?
I gave you love like you never knew
And you're givin' me nothing but an attitude
And now I'm gonna give a bit of solitude
I'll miss you baby oh...
Misbehavin'-now I'll mis ya
Ow! Your just a party party party boy
yeah oh baby
You're just a party party party boy!
I've got to say to you so you listen

Every time you raise your voice
I see the greener grass
Every time you run for cover
I see this pasture
Every time we're in a funk
I picture a different choice
Every time we're in a rut
This distant grandeur
My tendency to want to do away feels natural and
My urgency to dream of softer places feels understandable
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
Every time I'm confused
I think there must be easier ways
Every time our horns are locked on towel throwing
Every time we're at a loss, we've bolted from difficulty
Anytime we're still made of final bowing
My tendency to want to hide away feels easier and
The immediacy is picturing another place comforting to go
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
We could just walk away and hide our heads in the sand
We could just call it quits, only to start all over again
With somebody else
Every time we're stuck in struggle, I'm down for the count that day
Every time I dream of quick fix I'm swaged
Now I know it's hard when it's through
And I'm damned if I don't know quick fix way
But formerly mistreat me silence now outdated
My tendency to want to run feels unnatural now
The urgency to want to give to you I don't want most feels good
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll get better

Me, and my helmet such an un-conventional kid
All intense and kinetic, at best tolerated from afar
Not yet arrested, and by that I mean betrothed
though a start I am newly courted
I've just not been trusted with alters
I'm a sweet piece of work, well intentioned yet disturbed
wrongly label-ed and under-fed, treated like a rose as an orchid
My friends, as they weigh in, get understandably protective
They have a hard time being objective
So inside we cancel each other out
I'm a sweet piece of work, well intentioned and unloved
unlabeled and misunderstood, treated like a rose as an orchid
You've brought water to me, making sure my bloom rebounds
you know best of what my special care allows
So I've lived in my blind spot
thought myself usual when I'm not
and your garden is a nice spot
as long as it is brave and where you are
For this sweet piece of work, high maintenance and deserted
I've been different and deserving, treated like a rose as an orchid
Sweet piece of work, overwhelmed un-observed
I've been bowed down to but so misread

The osmond brothers
(trivia! this is the song that alanis sang on star search..and lost)
I can tell you've been hurt
By that look on your face, boy
Some girl brought sad into your happy world
You need love, but you're afraid that if you give in
Someone else will come along
And sock it to ya again
Chorus:
One bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch, boy
Give it one more try before you give up on love
One bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch, boy
I don't care what they say
I don't care what you heard
I could make you happy, baby,
Satisfy you too
But how can I if you won't give me a chance
To prove my love to you?
Won't you give me just one chance?
I'll give you my guarantee that you won't be hurt again
Repeat chorus
I've been noticing you, baby
For a long, long time
And I'm not ashamed to tell the world
That you really messed up my mind
Boy, to me you're like a dream come true
I'd rather hurt myself than to ever hurt you

Bring on the Tequila oh
On fire on Tequila oh
My friends and I meet hours before
We make some home made pizza
We do some funny bits back and forth
My knees buckle I laugh so hard
We might end three sheets to wind
And who knows where we'll wind up
All I know is there’s a car waiting
And we’ll figure that out after
I have to keep my eye on my old friend from high school
We’ve known each other for the longest time
She has trouble with her dance so to speak
She can hoist a really good kick in the butt when she's excited
She doesn’t do it so much anymore
'Cuz we’re all on to her
Bring on the Tequila oh
On fire on Tequila oh
Mostest most on Tequila oh
Bestest friends on Tequila oh
Then there’s my other pretty friend from high school
The predator in me is put to shame by the predator in her
and now i've reeled it in
It’ll be interesting to see how much she’s done as well
Then there’s my friend from Chigago
God do I love all people from Chicago
All ready to light up the barbeque
And be harping on debauchery
Bring on the Tequila oh
On fire on Tequila oh
Mostest most on Tequila oh
Bestest friends on Tequila oh
Then there’s my Canadian friend
What a fabulous mom she’s become
She’s been tortured in this sense
for the last many of months for obvious reasons
She was like "hey where was this part of you when I wasn’t pregnant"
I laughed and did a shot in her honor
As I conversed with her belly
Bring on the Tequila oh
On fire on Tequila oh
Mostest most on Tequila oh
Bestest friends on Tequila oh
Then there’s my Cupid friend
She sure knows how to dress that one
She’s a wise and worldly girl
But you gotta watch that medication
My favorite beverage is taken to a whole other level on it
I’m not worried about it or I’ll coast around the room
While I trust she’ll temper
My brother came to visit me
And now he’s used to hanging with me and cracking up
But he had no idea about my built up tolerance
No idea about how manipulative I’ve become
I would seruptitiously put it in front of him without him asking
In a pretty little shot glass
His smirk and cackle would only agg me on
Bring on the Tequila oh
On fire on Tequila oh
Mostest most on Tequila oh

Dear momma's boy I know you've had your butt licked by your mother
I know you've enjoyed all that attention from her
And every woman graced with your presence after
Dear narcissus boy I know you've never really apologized for anything
I know you've never really taken responsibility
I know you've never really listened to a woman
Dear me-show boy I know you're not really into conflict resolution
Or seeing both sides of every equation
Or having an uninterrupted conversation
And any talk of healthiness
And any talk of connectedness
And any talk of resolving this
Leaves you running for the door
(why why do I try to love you
Try to love you when you really don't want me
Dear egotist boy you've never really had to suffer any consequence
You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes
You'd never understand anyone showing resistance
Dear popular boy I know you're used to getting everything so easily
A stranger to the concept of reciprocity
People honor boys like you in this society
And any talk of selflessness
And any talk of working at this
And any talk of being of service
Leaves you running for the door
(why why do I try to help you try to help you
When you really don't want me to)
You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to ignoring all the rest of us
You go back to the center of your universe
Dear self centered boy I don't know why I still feel affected by you
I've never lasted very long with someone like you
I never did although I have to admit I wanted to
Dear magnetic boy you've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit
You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it
I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it
And any talk of willingness
And any talk of both feet in
And any talk of commitment
Leaves you running for the door
(why why do I try to change you try to
Try to change you when you really don't
Want me to)
You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to being so oblivious

Why do I feel it's all up to me to see that
everything's right and it's how it should be
Why don't they just leave me alone
I've got to prove I can
Little girl with stars in her eyes they've
got her all figured out and there's nowhere
to hide why can't they all see who I am
when will they understand
It may take some time they don't know how
it feels because they can't read my mind
They always say I'm too young and they
feel they should help me
But I can make it all alone out here on my own
Every day I feel so in demand and all I
wish I could find is a place I can land
One day I'll feel comfort inside cause I'll
know who I am
I can hold the line if I know in the end
that I won't be left behind I don't regret
what I've done I don't think you can blame me
Now I'm standin' all alone out here on my own
I'm not thinking 'bout leavin' home
But I need to be on my own
Doesn't mean I have a heart of stone
I won't even ask them why
I can't ever let them see me cry
Here I'm standing all alone out here on my own...
out here on my own
Feeling lost in a world full of lies
I can't help thinkin' that love is just
passin' me by Hold on to what I believe
and keep an open hand
Can I have it all if there's no one to
turn to when I stumble and fall
Is there a secret I need because no one
has told me-all alone
It may take some time cause I know
how it feels to have a lot on your mind
I'll never feel all alone cause!
Know that I have me

I feel slow and encumbered and defeated and drawn
Disappointed, over-extended and frustrated and shaken
This overhealing, over-loving, discontented goes on
Something. I'll be checked out, I'll be gone
Have to remove myself from sensation
Here comes the feeling
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Can't sit with this feeling
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
I feel anxious, I feel nervous and unloved
I'm overwhelmed, rather be out of my
Have to remove myself from sensation
Here comes the feeling
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Can't sit with this feeling
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
I am lonely, I feel hungry and unloved
I feel elated, I am livid? And
Here comes the feeling
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
From
Can't sit with this feeling

I wear their all on top of my face
I am the perfect target screen
For your blindly fueled rage
I bare the brunt of your long buried pain
I don't mind helping you out
But I want you to remember my name
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on
Past riddled rage
I see the buttons I engage
With my dignity in place?
I'm all too happy to assuage
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on
Lest I find my voice
Find the strength to stand up to you
Lest I stay to my limit
And only take on what is mine to
We are a team
I'm here to help mend and reseam
All I trigger unknowingly
A job I hold in high esteem
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on

And you're like a 90's jesus
And you revel in your psychosis
How dare you
And you sample concepts like hors d'euvres
And you eat their questions for dessert
Is it just me or is it hot in here
And you're like a 90's kennedy
And you're really a million years old
You can't fool me
They'll throw opinions like rocks in riots
And they'll stumble around like hypocrites
Is it just me or is it dark in here?
Well you may never be or have a husband you may never have or hold a child
You will learn to lose everything we are temporary arrangements
And you're like a 90's noah
And they laughed at you as you packed all of your things
And they wonder why you're frustrated
And they wonder why you're so angry
And is it just me or are you fed up?

no avalon
I'm just a white girl
From a small, safe town
What could I possibly know about destruction?
My lawn sure looks green today
Underneath these suburban skies
But the little boy next door
Wants to be the Lord of the Flies
It's like Cain and Able and the holy sacrifice
And I have to believe that God has closed his eyes
And if there is no Avalon and we only have one life
It's hard to conceive why we let our brothers die
My bed is so safe here
And my rose-colored glasses, they're broken
And how the truth leaks in
And I, I can't imagine
I saw it on the news tonight
That they'd announce his name
I saw the blood on his hands
And they told me to look away
I tell ya it's like Cain and Able and the holy sacrifice
And I have to believe that God has closed his eyes
And if there is no Avalon and we only have one life
It's hard to conceive why we let our sisters die
Why, why?
Why?
It's a confusing civilization, darling
I tell ya It's like Cain and Able and the holy sacrifice
And I have to believe that God has closed his eyes
And if there is no Avalon and we only have one life
It's hard to conceive why we let our people die
We let 'em die

Whenever we talk about sun all I see is the rain
It's like looking for tears in a ocean
I'm hearing your words like the wind
They blow straight through my heart
Will you ever give in to emotion
And we hurt the ones that we love the most
Why we do only heaven knows
And I don't know why I'm still holding on...holding on
I reach in my heart to see
If your love is alive in me
But now I feel alone
My feelings turn to stone
My heart makes no apologies
When an apology's made it isn't always enough
To erase all the past in a moment
Whenever I need you the most
You always leave me behind
With a word from your lips I'm alone
You've been blind not to realize
All the love that I hold inside
So tell me why do I keep holding on...holding on
What I need is your sympathy
Like a light flowing into me
But I will never give up holding on...holding on
...my heart makes no apologies no no

But that’s why birds do it,
Bees do it,
Even educated fleas do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
In Spain the best upper sets do it,
Lithuanians and Letts do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
The Dutch in old Amsterdam do it,
Not to mention the Finns,
Folks in Siam do it,
Think of Siamese twins.
Some Argentines without means do it,
People say in Boston even beans do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
Romantic sponges they say do it,
Oysters down in Oyster Bay do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
Cold Cape Cod clams ‘gainst their wish do it,
Even lazy jellyfish do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
Electric eels, I might add, do it,
Though it shocks ‘em I know,
Why ask if shads do it,
Waiter bring me shad roe.
In shallow shoals English soles do it,
Goldfish in the privacy of bowls do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
The dragonflies in the reeds do it,
Sentimental centipedes do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
Mosquitoes, heaven forbid, do it,
So does every katydid do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
The most refined ladybugs do it,
When a gentleman calls,
Moths in your rugs do it,
What’s the use of moth balls?
Locusts in trees do it,
Bees do it,
Even overeducated fleas do it,
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love.
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love,

You and I are in the same room
We both think we're fair
We both live for truths
But then how are we to define something so subjective
Living under the same roof
So here these battles of wills
They beg for some proof
Of right versus wrong
Your approach seems better than mine
Though it's working for you all I feel is disconnection
So now it's your (your) religion 'gainst my (my) religion
My humble opinion 'gainst yours
This does not feel like love
It's your (your) conviction 'gainst my (my) conviction
And I'd like to know what we've seen
Through the lens of love... love... love... love
And so now your grand assessment is that I'm not in your group that I'm not
Your kind
And so we're locked in a stalemate with you in your corner and me dismayed
In mine
Repeat chorus
And this stance keeps us locked in biophilias
And this lie remains about us being separate

We share a culture same vernacular
Love of physical humor and time spent alone
You with your penchant for spontaneous advents
For sticky and raspy, unearthed and then gone
You are a gift renaissance with a wink
With tendencies for conversations that raise bars
You are a sage who is fueled by compassion
Comes to nooks and crannies as balm for all scars
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You are a spirit that knows of no limit
That knows of no ceiling who baulks at dead-ends
You are a wordsmith who cares for his brothers
Not seduced by illusion or fair-weather friends
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You are a vision who lives by the signals of
Stomach and intuition as your guide
You are a sliver of god on a platter
Who walks what he talks and who cops when he's lied
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle

dear dar(lin') your mom (my friend) left a message on my machine she was frantic
saying you were talking crazy that you wanted to do away with yourself
I guess she thought i'd be a perfect resort because we've had
this inexplicable connection since our youth and yes they're in shock
they are panicked you and your chronic them and their drama
you this embarrassment us in the middle of this delusion
if we were our bodies
if we were our futures
if we were our defenses i'd be joining you
if we were our culture
if we were our leaders
if we were our denials i'd be joining you
I remember vividly a day years ago we were camping you knew more than you thought you should know
you said "I don't want ever to be brainwashed" and you were mindboggling you were intense
you were uncomfortable in your own skin you were thirsty but mostly you were beautiful
if we were our nametags
if we were our rejections
if we were our outcomes i'd be joining you
if we were our indignities
if we were our successes
if we were our emotions i'd be joining you
you and I we're like 4 year olds we want to know why and how come about everything
we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds and never talk small and be intuitive
and question mightily and find god my tortured beacon
we need to find like-minded companions
if we were their condemnations
if we were their projections
if we were our paranoias i'd be joining you
if we were our incomes
if we were our obsession
if we were our afflictions i'd be joining you

Hey yiah yiah
Yiah yea yea
Hey yiah
An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic
Don't you think?
It's like rain on your weddin' day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
And who would've thought, it figures
Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
Well, isn't this nice
And isn't it ironic
Don't you think?
It's like rain on your weddin' day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
And who would've thought, it figures
Well life has a funny way of sneakin' up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's goin' right, right
And life has a funny way nobody helpin' you out when
You think everyhing's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face
A traffic jam when you're already late
A no smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meetin' the man of my dreams
And then meetin' his beautiful wife, umm
And isn't it ironic
Don't you think?
A little too ironic
And yeah, I really do think
It's like rain on your weddin' day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
And who would've thought, it figures
And well, life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
And life has a funny, funny way of helpin' you out

One day, I'll find relief
I'll be arrived and I'll be a friend to my friends
Who know how to be friends
One day, I'll be at peace
I?ll be enlightened and I'll be married
With children and maybe adopt
One day, I will be healed
I will gather my wounds
Forge the end of tragic comedy
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete
One day, my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her
Night, dusk and day
One day, I'll be secure
Like the women I see
On their thirtieth anniversaries
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete
Ever unfolding, ever expanding
Ever adventurous and torturous
But never done
One day, I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day, I will be faith filled
I'll be trusting and spacious
Authentic and grounded and whole
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

I hate the world today, you're so good to me
I know but I can't change tried to tell you but you look at me
Like maybe I'm an angel underneath, innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried, you must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think you've got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
And don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease, I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer, I'm your angel undercover
I've been numbed, I'm revived, can't say I'm not alive

How crass you stand before me with
No blood to fuel your fame
How dare you wield such flippancy
Without requisite shame?
Your very existence becomes
My scared mission's bane
You bow to kiss my hand
And I ignore ignited flame
I moved to meet you
Untouched I do remain
To some it seems foreign my eye
Would steely forge ahead
This land entrusted to me
Knows not of hallowed secrets
I'll keep it to myself
My irade anekatips eye swim in my head
Your charm can not distract me
From the path I'm born to tread
How I'm thrilled to know you
Unaffected I remained
How I've learned to like you
Undeterred I do remain
Less daunting as team
You unlikely king by my side
And me so much better for trusting you
My hand over your heart while
You keep hindrances at bay
Color me surprised by
How our union saves the day
How I've grown to need you
As my soldier need fades
How I love to love you
And how'd I remain
I remain

Monday morning is not Monday morning 'till Taylor has his coffee
Friday night is not Friday night 'till Jessie leaves the room sweating
Tuesday morning is not Tuesday morning 'till Nick has his talk with his son
Thursday night is not Thursday night 'till Chris has sex with his bass
CHORUS
Come on to the Weekend
'cause the Weekend I'll get high
Hold off 'till the Weekend
'cause there's too much time to think
and they're really nice guys
Tuesday morning is Wednesday afternoon when you cry all night
Wednesday early we fall into work all caught up in the day by day
Thursday morning is not Thursday morning 'till someone says how's your life
How's your life?
Ye how's your life
How's your life?
CHORUS Come on to the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause there's too much time to think and not much time to cry
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause the weekend we'll be high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause there'll be no time but we'll get by
What if there were no more mama's boys
What if no one shares their humble appearance
What there were no consequences
What if there were no more arguments
Well that'd be a shame
Wouldn't that be impossible
and you would be board
'cause you wouldn't want it a little to late...
CHORUS
Hold on 'till the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause the man upstairs has the really nice guys
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause the weekend I'll get high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'cause we may look strange but we surely will get by
What if there were no more mama's boys
What if we all had no thinking together
Would that be a shame...
Wouldn't that'd be impossible
and you would be bored

I went to your house
Walked up the stairs
I opened your door
Without ringing the bell
I walked down the hall
Into your room
Where I could smell you
And I shouldn't be here
Without permission
Shouldn't be here
Would you forgive me, love
If I danced in your shower?
Would you forgive me, love
If I laid in your bed?
Would you forgive me, love
If I stay all afternoon?
I took off my clothes
Put on your robe
Went through your drawers
And I found your cologne
Went down to the den
Found your Cs
And I played your Joni
And I shouldn't stay long
You might be home soon
I shouldn't stay long
Would you forgive me, love
If I danced in your shower?
Would you forgive me, love
If I laid in your bed?
Would you forgive me, love
If I stay all afternoon?
I burned your incense
I ran a bath
I noticed a letter
That sat on your desk
It said, "Hello, love
I love you so, love
Meet me at midnight"
And no, it wasn't my writing
I better go soon
It wasn't my writing
So forgive me, love
If I cry in your shower
So forgive me, love
For the salt in your bed
So forgive me, love

Now I know I can handle this
I'll close my mouth and clench my fist
I've lived this day in a thousand ways
But there's a flaw to add to your list
Go on and squeeze a little more
'Cause if you scream I'll just ignore you
But I've rehearsed this scene in a million dreams
You're getting closer to my core
I'm so damn frustrated
Losing breath and now I'm shaking
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out
(Chorus)
Tear don't you fall, eyes dont you cry
Need to get me round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride don't cave in, head don't fall off
While I'm open you can read me
I can't break down, break down
Break down, break down
Blocked it out for long enough
Got really good at playing rough now
I've been prepared and not really cared
But being brave is getting tough
Chin don't start to quiver
Hands now don't you shiver
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out
Someone let me out
(Chorus)
Tear don't you fall, eyes dont you cry
Need to get me round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride don't cave in, head don't fall off
While I'm open you can read me
I can't break down, break down
Break down, break down
You smile like the cat who's got the cream
I'm vulnerable and I know you see me
There's so much I wanna say
But this lump in my throat makes me walk away
Away
Away
Tear do't you fall, eyes don't you cry
Pride don't cave in, head don't let go
(Chorus)
Tear don't you fall, eyes dont you cry
Need to get me round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride don't cave in, head don't fall off
While I'm open you can read me
I can't break down, break down
Break down, break down

Give me what I'm askin' for
Stop bringin' me down or I'll slam the door
You're getting out of line with the Beverly Boys
You start makin' the moves they start makin'
the noise
You know you're not getting lucky
livin' the life because you're movin' to
the jungle and paying the price
You're livin' right along with the
New Brady Bunch
Have your people call my people and let's do lunch
Reaction to the actin there's more to me
than human flesh
I've had enough distractions I need some tenderness
Human Tough I gotta know it's real
I'm tired of people sellin' their sex appeal
Human Touch I need human love
no imitations of oh baby
A bird in the busy is worth two in
the street-you know the kind of people
never want to meet you're sitting really
pretty in your swimming pool with your
rock 'n roll tan you keep thinkin' you're
cool
You know you can't reach Jesus on your
portable phone he ain't speakin' to the people
in their Hollywood homes with a toot
in your snoot and your loot to boot
you don't even give a hoot about the
minds you pollute
Lookin' for deceptions there's more to me
than human flesh I'm finding new
directions I need some tenderness!
I'm lookin' for the real thing there's more
to me than human flesh I'm gonna
stop at nothin'
You can't reach Alanis on her portable phone

I love you so
you are my life
i'll never leave you
yeah...
yeah...
my world is for you
oh babe I want you now
thank you for everything
yeah...
yeah...
good bye to you
you will always be in my heart

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service
You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now
You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it

Just when I thought I had handles on this
I could soften my guard behind false confidence
Just when I found humble pie insipid
Exempnt from this blind side and firmly in its grip
'Cause I'm seduced by reaction and honour the influence
CHORUS
I'm slipping again
I'm up to old tricks
Off my way again
I have no defence I'm wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc
And consiquence
I get reduced by my own willfullness
As I reach for my usual God-replacements
'Cause I am rich with sanction
And lax in my step
CHORUS
BRIDGE
If forgiveness is understanding than I
Affirm Mia Culpa for the millionth time
From this toppling house of cards of mine
I am beaten by my impulsiveness
By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret
'Cause of I'm repulsed by restriction
At least that's my excuse
CHORUS

She's not a girl who misses much
She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane
The man in the crowd with the multi-colored mirrors
On his hob-nailed boots
Lying with his eyes while his hands
Working over time
A soap impression of his wife which he ate
And donated to the nation's trust
I need a fix cause I'm going down
Down to the *itch that I left uptown
I need a fix cause I'm going down
Mother superior jumped the gun
Mother superior jumped the gun
Happiness is a warm gun
Happiness is a warm gun
When I hold you in my arms
And I feel my finger on your trigger
I know that nobody can do me no harm
Happiness is a warm gun, mama

If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself
If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and
If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much
Ooh this could be messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You're kind of my protege and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it
Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
What part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?
Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body
Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody

If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself
If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and
If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much
Ooh this could be messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You're kind of my protege and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it
Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
I've more than honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
What part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?
Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body
Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful, baby
And what it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry, baby
And what it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby
And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing a piano
And what it all comes down to my dear friends, yeah
Is that everything is just fine fine fine
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket

You, you who has smiled when you’re in pain
You who has soldiered through the profane
They were distracted and shut down
So why, why would you talk to me at all
such words were dishonorable and in vain
their promise as solid as a fog
and where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
you, you in the chaos feigning sane
You who has pushed beyond what’s humane
Them as the ghostly tumbleweed
And where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
now no more smiling mid crestfall
No more managing unmanageables
No more holding still in the hailstorm
Now enter your watchwoman
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand

You know how us Catholic girls can be
We make up for so much time a little too late
I never forgot it, confusing as it was
No fun with no guilt feelings
The sinners, the saviors, the loverless priests
I'll see you next Sunday
We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did
I sang Alleluia in the choir
I confessed my darkest deeds to an envious man
My brothers they never went blind for what they did
But I may as well have
In the name of the Father, the Skeptic and the Son
I had one more stupid question
We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did
What I learned I rejected but I believe again
I will suffer the consequence of this inquisition
If I jump in this fountain, will I be forgiven
We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did
We all had delusions in our head
We all had our minds made up for us
We had to believe in something

You found the right man in the right place
Once in a while you meet him face to face
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight for his love, for his love
He feels the same way, I think you know it
You can't be afraid to show it
When will this hidden emotion
Give you the notion'
To make the first move
Make the first move
You gotta get it straight
Oh dear don't wait
This might be your lucky day
Don't say that there's no way
Darling you just can't let him go
Deep down in your heart you can't feel at all
I'll be calling all there is
For his love, for his love
You know you can take his heart away
Just look straight in his eyes
And then you say
Hey can't you just see
We'll be great you and me
Oh yeah, oh yeah
You gotta get it straight
Oh dear don't wait
This might be your lucky day
Don't say that there's no way
You found the right man in the right place
Once in a while you meet him face to face
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight for his love, for his love
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight for his love, for his love
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight for his love, for his love
It was love at first sight

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone
Who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen and you've never met anyone
Who is as positive as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
I blame everyone else and not my own partaking
My passive aggressive-ness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting and you've never met anyone
Who is as closed down as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
What I resist persists and speaks louder than I know
What I resist you love no matter how low or high I go
I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known and you've never met anyone
Who is as everything as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate

Here I leave my story, I leave it in the dust
Although this psychology's been entertaining enough
Herein lies the witness objective with my stuff
But we’re ready to push envelopes into full-blown consciousness
So here we go out here on the edge of evolution
Numbers growing out here on the edge of evolution
I have had my glimpses with and without substances
I have had awakenings non-abiding for the most part
And here we go out here on the edge of evolution
Numbers growing out here on the edge of evolution
In this sacred duality
The highs and lows and heres and theres
These aversions and these cravings
Push me beyond identity into pure awareness (we’re already here)
And here we are out here on the edge of evolution
We keep going out here on the edge of evolution
Here we are out here on the edge of evolution

I'm not threatened, by every pair of legs you watch go by
I don't cringe when you stare at women, it's just a thing called guy
I don't notice your side ways glances or where your loyalty lies
I'm secure and out of me, it's hard to get a rise
I'm not jealous
I don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged
Not insecure as such
Not going insane
Rational stays in touch
Doth I protest too much?
I'm not tortured by how oft your busy, Cause I've got things to do
I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss you me, cause I don't need you to
I'm not needy
I don't get clingy much
I'm not scared
I'm not afraid as such
I'm not dependent
Rock solid, stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?
So much energy to prove to you
Who I can't possibly be
So much energy to prove to you
I'm not who you hate for me to be
I'm not saddened
And I don't miss you
Cause I have moved on too
I'm not concerned about your new lover
Cause I have a new lover too
I'm not depressed
I don't get down that much
I'm not despondent
I am not dark as such
I'm never sad
Keep Chin Up, Stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?
I'm not jealous
I don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged
Not insecure as such
Not going insane
Rational stays in touch

(Dave)
Come out, come out, no use in hiding
Come now, come now, can you not see?
There's no place here, what were you expecting?
No room for both, just room for me
So you will lay your arms down
Yes I will call this home
Away, away you have been banished
Your land is gone and given me
And here I will spread my wings
Yes I will call this home
What's that you say?
You feel the right to remain?
Then stay and I will bury you
What's that you say?
Your father's spirit still lives in this place,
Well I will silence you
Here's the hitch, your horse is leaving,
Don't miss your boat, it's leaving now
And as you go I will spread my wings
Yes I will call this home
I have no time to justify to you
Fool you're blind, move aside for me
All I can say to you, my new neighbor
Is you must move on or I will bury you
[chanting]
Now as I rest my feet by this fire
Those hands once warmed here
But I have retired them
I can breathe my own air
And I can sleep more soundly
Upon these pour souls
I'll build heaven and call it home
'Cause you're all dead now.
(Alanis)
And I live with my justice
And I live with my greedy need
Oh I live with no mercy
And I live with my frenzied feeding
And I live with my hatred
And I live with my jealousy
Oh I live with the notion
That I don't need anyone but me
(Dave)
Don't drink the water
Don't drink the water
Blood in the water
Don't drink the water
Don't drink the water
Don't drink the water
There's blood in the water
Don't drink the water
Blood in the water

i'd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed
I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation
would I be letting you win in my non reaction?
how would I explain?
how would I explain this to my children if I had them?
because I can't not
because I can't not
because I can't afford to be misread one more time
would I be whining if I said I needed a hug?
would you feel slighted if I said your love's not enough?
how can I complain?
how can I complain when i'm the one who reaches for it?
because I can't not
because I can't not
because I cannot walk without my crutches
because I can't not
because I can't not
because I can't help wonder why you ask me
to all the unheard wisdom in the schoolyard
you think you're the right ones
you think you're the charmed ones i'm sure
how can you go on with such conviction?
and who do you think you are why do you question me?
because we can't not
because we can't not
because we can't help laugh at underestimations
because we can't not
because we can't not
because we can't afford to be misled one more time
because we can't not
because we can't not
because we cannot help without your willingness
why do you affect me? why do you affect me still?
why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me still?
why do you unnerve? why do you unnerve me still?

Indeed I have sucked it up to heights
Unknown to those outside
My body has contained and suppressed
And swallowed and abetted
Oh I am a stranger to myself
Beneath altruism dwells
A force uncontended
A voice that is tempered
To boiled and unhindered
Who am I kidding?
I am not some Mother there'sa
If I don't say something soon
I will break from the weight of the high road I take
Indeed I need my chance to fail
Some room to unravel
I need a chance to blame for two minutes
Unbridled, unbrazened
So I need imaginings of maiming
Fantasies of outright screaming
I need a chance to thrash for minutes
Uncontained, unforgiving
Who am I kidding?
I am not some Mother there'sa
If I don't do something soon
I will die from restraint
As a sick subjugate
I will move beyond, I'm certain of that
The sooner I go the quicker I'll be back
I would not threaten or cause you any harm
Have to get this out or my light will go out
Who am I kidding?
I am not some Mother there'sa
If I don't do something soon
I will die from restraint

Highway One
Crystalline haunted sun
With the Pacific masculine crush
My little one enthralled by the redwoods
As I ride amongst monarchs and myths
Chorus:
Me and Anais and Henry and Jack Kerouac
Me and the Ohlone,the Esselen and Salinan
Me and Julia...Brautigan
All roads lead to Big Sur
All roads home to Big Sur
...celestial and frogs
Frits and cabins of logs
...we are barefoot and warm
Chorus:
Me and Anais and Henry and Jack Kerouac
Me and the Ohlone,the Esselen and Salinan
Me and Julia...Brautigan
All roads lead to Big Sur
All roads home to Big Sur
I am climbing on the bluffs
Beseeching God to answer us
Not much distracts from our...
...heartbeat by the forest
Chorus:
Me and Anais and Henry and Jack Kerouac
Me and the Ohlone,the Esselen and Salinan
Me and Julia...Brautigan
All roads home to Big Sur
Me and Mickey and...
Me and Lolly and Bill watching a red tail hawk
Me and...
All roads lead to Big Sur

I'm having dreams in the night of you baby
And Sigmund Freud would have thought I was crazy
I wonder why you've become an obsession
All I know is that I need to have your big bad love
Big bad love
You keep on lovin' and lyin'
You've turning me into a fool babe
But I'm not screamin' or cryin'
There's better things we have to do baby
It takes a lot for me to truly believe
That you could love me unconditionally
And I'm terrified of taking a chance
If you're not ready to believe in romance
Who...I wonder why I am so unrelentless
There's nothing that I can do to prevent this
And the dream I am not apprehensive
All I know is that I need to have your...
Big bad love
I need a love with an attitude
Big bad love
The only kind that I want from you
Big bad love
I need it from you so urgently
Big bad love...need it baby yeah yeah yeah
I'm not avoidin' your lovin'
'Cause I can afford to be blue babe
I keep on pushin' and shovin'
I can't get enough out of you baby
I don't believe your blood is bad to the bone
'Cause then you're different when we're here all alone
And if you knew the game I wanted to play
Now would you say the words I want you to say ...who
I'm am so relentless...I can't prevent this... I am not apprehensive

You're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you
You're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort
A million times in a million ways
I will try to change you
A million months and a million days
I'll try to somehow convince you
I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done
I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done
You're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined
you're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you
Several times in several ways
I'll try to squeeze love from you
Several hours and several ways
I'll feast on scraps thrown from you
I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done
I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done
I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done
I have silenced for you and sacraficed for you and I'm done
It won't be long before I am reclaimed
It won't take long and I'll be on path again
It won't be easy for us to disengage
I'm at the end of self-deprivation stage
You're afraid of every woman afraid of you're inner workings
You cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me God and everything
A million times and a million ways
I've tried to alter to match you
Several times and several days

You're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you
You're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort
A million times in a million ways I will try to change you
A million months and a million days I'll try to somehow convince you
I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done
I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done
You're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined
You're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you
Several times in several ways I'll try to squeeze love from you
Several hours and several ways I'll feast on scraps thrown from you
I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done
I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done
I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done
I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done
It. won't be long before I am reclaimed
It won't take long and I'll be on path again
It won't be easy for us to disengage
I'm at the end of self deprivation stage
You're afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings
You cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me god and everything
A million times and a million ways I've tried to alter to match you

Awakening Americans
We watch movies of murder and we censor the breast
Give thanks for the murders of Chris Columbus
We kill our own and we vote for the man
The lesser of evils and us starring in the role of victim
I wonder how we change if we can in this land
I wonder how many mountains we'd move if we band together
Us priveleged Americans
We pass our revisions onto the next generation
We kneel to the gods of corporation
We eat when we're full and we hord all the rest
With our hands on remotes we say "Yes, we're the best!"
I wonder what we'd change in this land cause we can
Even with western centricity this rampant
Us ugly Americans
Tied are not my hands
But see strangers and lineaments
as part of me; as you
For me this awakening Canadian
We teach our offspring for themselves; every man
We shrug our shoulders and create yet another "ism"
We dissuade our young from using their imagination
We avert our eyes from this
Our very own manifestation
I wonder what will change in this land, cause we can
I wonder how many mouths we'd fill if we band together
Us awakening Americans
on his face
he blew the others
out of the water
he said and was glad
they were disgraced
all these symptoms symptoms are simpler 'cause
i've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing we are
separate we are separate
disconnected in this unity
he stole what he could
he only had minutes before he'd be caught
he justified every penny taken by blaming the gap between the rich and rich not
all these symptoms symptoms are simpler 'cause
i've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing we are
separate we are separate
disconnected in this unity
separate we are separate

I had high expectations
It's something I could not compromise
And when I saw you I wasn't ready
It completely took my heart by surprise
Who...And when I think of the time I med you
The situation looked harmless
It wasn't long before I got confused enough
And soon I realized that your...
Love is just an emotion away
I know it's gonna get to you
Love will be only a moment away
A moment away you know it's true
Lately the way I'm feeling
It's something I could never have planned
I knew that one day I'd find a love thing
Now I'll never stop believing in chance
I put my heart on a shelf forever
I never thought I would find you
I didn't know any better baby
But then I realized that your...

come on babe why don't we paint the town
and all that jazz
I'm gonna rouge my knees and roll my stockings down.
and all that jazz.
start the car, I know a whoopee spot,
where the gin is cold but the piano is hot.
It's just a noisy hall, where there's a nightly brawl
And all that jazz.
Slick you hair and wear you buckle shoes
and all that jazz.
I hear that father dipp is gonna blow the blues.
and all that jazz.
Hold on hun were gonna bunny hug,
I bought some asprin, down at united drug
In case you shake apart, and want a brand new start,
to do that jazz.
and all that jazz.
and all that jazz.
It's just a noisy hall, where there's a nightly brawl
And all that jazz.
Listen your husband isn't home is he.
No her husband is not at home.
Find a glass were playing fast and loose
And all that jazz.
Right up here is where I store the juice.
And all that jazz.
Come on babe were gonna brush the sky,
I betcha lucky lindy
Never flew so high
'cause in the stratosphere
How could he lend an ear
To all that jazz?
Company.
Oh, you're gonna see you sheba
Shimmy shake
Velma.
And all that jazz
Company.
Oh, she's gonna shimmy till her garters
break
Velma.
And all that jazz
Company.
Show her where to park her girdle
Oh, her mother's blood'd curdle
If she'd hear
Her baby's queer
For all that jazz!
velma.
C'mon babe
Why don't we paint the town?
And all that jazz
I'm gonna rouge my knees
And roll my stockings down
And all that jazz
Start the car
I know a whopee spot
Where the gin is cold
But the piano's hot
It's just a noisy hall
Where there's a nightly brawl
And all that jazz!
company.
Oh, you're gonna see you sheba
Shimmy shake
And all that jazz
Oh, shey's gonna shimmy till her garters
break
And all that jazz
Show her where to park her girdle
Oh, her mother's blood'd curdle
If she'd hear
Her baby's queer
For all that jazz!
velma.
no, I'm no one's wife
But, oh I love my life
And all that jazz!
Company.

After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not hate your guts and
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I still love music just as much
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not "eat my eye"?
After a year like this one
I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to every one
CHORUS:
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La La La La Li
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La La Li Li Li
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La Di Da Di Di
La La la de di wo oh oh o...
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I am convinced at all and
After a year like this one
I do not roll my eyes at less than another
After a year like this one
I can't help but wonder how they've been and
After a year like this one
I think I'll leave it all to my next of kin...
CHORUS
After a year like this one
I'm surprised we're all not weeping drunks and
After a year like this one
I want you to choose the restaurant and then
After a year like this one
I'll need a good whole 16 months alone and
After a year like this one
I think I'll thank the west coast beaches I came home.

I am a man as a man I've been told
Bacon is brought to the house in this mold
Born of your bellies I yearn for the cord
Years I have groveled, repentance ignored
And I have been blamed and I have repented
I'm working my way toward our union mended
I am man who has grown from a son
Been crucified by enraged women
I am son who was raised by such men
I'm often reminded of the fools I'm among
And I have been shamed and I have relented
I'm working my way toward our union mended
And I have been shamed and I have repented
I'm working my way toward our union mended
We don't fare well with endless reprimands
We don't do well with a life served as a sentence
And this won't work well if you're hell bent on your offense
'Cause I am a man who understands your resistance
I am a man who still does what he can
To dispel our archaic reputation
I am a man who has heard all he can
'Cuz I don't fare well with endless punishment
'Cuz I have been blamed and I have repented
I'm working my way toward our union mended
And we have been blamed and we have repented
I'm working my way toward our union mended
We don't fare well with endless reprimands
And we don't do well with a life served as a sentence
And this won't work well if you're hell bent on your offense

Alanis Morissette & Ryan Adams
Ryan :
I was born in 1974
on a calm meticulous street
someplace in the sun
oh the air was sweet
and enough lights sprang sparks
through the window of the room
not as raw to a ridiculous tune
slightly out of key in the mother hour
Ryan & Alanis :
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
I'm busy breaking bones
Alanis :
I was born in 1974
in a breached feet-first way
my twin opened the door
my very first dose of chivalry
I was dawned princess potential potent
with gold star and matching impression
big between two doors
small and loved and proud and unthreatened
Ryan & Alanis :
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
I'm busy breaking bones
Ryan :
I bet you were strong
when you should have been weak
like a dam that wanted to break
I wish I were the stones
your river learned to roam
in whispering gaze
Alanis :
You were told in a kind North Carolinian way
to slow down, back up, or be hated
thank god you did not
and thank god you did
an angel either way
Ryan & Alanis :
So leave us alone
So leave us alone
So leave us alone
We're busy being grown
Alanis :
November 5, 8:17 PM
Scorpio &
a gem
Ryan :
June 1st, 9:39 AM
Gemini &