You are my only daughter, I guess I made you twice
You look inside my other, he'll give you bad advice
I will tell you I'm OK, but deep inside I'm afraid
I don't drink Holy water, I'm not a son of Christ
I ain't no black Messiah, and I don't load my dice
You can tell me you're all right, but why are you so afraid?
You're in denial, you never will believe it's you
Denial, you always hide behind the truth
You'll never believe it, you never believe it's you
I don't think I'm amazing, in fact I'm quite insane
To live inside my bucket, with all my plastic chains
People tell me every time, I look at the wrong all right
You're in denial, you never will believe it's you
Denial, you always hide behind the truth
You'll never believe it, you never believe it's you
You'll never believe it, you never believe it
Secrets told you, dreamland holds you, secrets told you
You wouldn't believe it, you couldn't conceive it
Secrets told you
You wanna receive it, you gotta believe it's you
You're on a trip already, I'm tripping out alright
I'll get there slow and steady, just sit and hold on tight
Denial, you never will believe it's you
Denial, you always hide behind the truth
Denial, you never will believe it's you
Denial, you always hide behind the truth
Yeah, yeah
Behind the truth
Yeah, yeah
It's true
Yeah, yeah
Behind the truth
Yeah, yeah
It's you
Yeah, yeah
Behind the truth
Yeah, yeah
It's gonna be alright, just hold on tight
Here I am in a house full of doors but no exits
In a light that is grey like the stain on my windows
All of this is a gift, such a painful companion
Inside of me
It's just something I know, the answer's not there
It comes and it goes and it frightens me
It's just something I know, the answer's not there
It comes and it goes and it frightens me
This feeling inside me can't confront the decay
To fall down on my knees and resume this charade
Believe me, this distance, it's not what I need
Inside of me
It's another story, some of it is blurred
I tried to understand him, I tried so hard
Time worked so well upon us inside of me
Inside my soul, Inside my soul
Time worked so well upon us
Inside of me, inside my soul
In the face of all thats obvious I continue to wreck my life... So set in my ways it's impossible to do whats good... Smokin, jokin + boozin my time away Just livin for the pain + lies "caught in denial"... Look in the mirror to only see a liars face in front of me I've tried so hard to heed the warnings my heart is turning. On with self slaught, the barfly gives in... once again the bottle is judge + jury He's caught in a struggle that calls for his life... so caught up in his own self destruction, "caught in denial"... Look in the mirror to only see a liars face in front of me I've tried so hard to heed the warnings my heart is turning. I Made my own bed I'll sit in the mess this poison booze lifestyle is a dear friend And I know it's a lie, but it's all that I have I'm going right for the end with total abandon...! Look in the mirror to only see a liars face in front of me I've tried so hard to heed the warnings my heart is turning.
I - can't believe what I feel
I - can't believe what I see
I - can't believe what I hear
I - can't believe in me
You - try to ignore the signs
You - try to live your life
You - try to deaf and blind
You - try to ignore the starfire
Can't you see - you're denying reality
In this precious time
How can you act so numb and blind
I look at the future and I don't like what I see
I - can't ignore reality
I - can't ignore the pain
I - try to do something and be against the grain
You - try to live your life and don't care what it takes
Born in '65 A bouncing baby boy
A million dollar smile A brand new box of toys
Every mothers dream An innocent child to hold
Untarnished by humanity bright naive yet bold
School came he tearned the meaning of joy, pain,
misfortune and gain He'd ask questions about sex and life
like - why is daddy messing with his ex-wife?
Inner child's in denial Inner child's in denial
Inner child's in denial Inner child's in denial
Peer pressure took Control of his life one day
What good he a left in his heart was stripped away
His parents got divorced left him out in the corld
Funny how we get so bitter as we grow old
The boy cried his girl by his side
She's bold and bright, naive, uptight
someday he'd like to tie the knot
What - never say what you mean
All I h ear is a scream
Never say that to me
Never say that to me
Wait - wipe that shit off your face
Let's don't stop till we bleed
The more you spit out your mouth
the less I believe
Denial seems it had to come
Relied on me to say it all
Denial has LEFT YOU ALL ALONE
I - Can all that shit that you said
Ever make any sense
Where did you run to - bitch
While I was holding my breath?
What's sacred faded into nothing
Never put that on me...
Never put that on me...
Denial seems it had to come
Relied on me to say it all
Denial has LEFT YOU ALL ALONE
DENIAL SEEMS IT HAD TO COME
Relied on me to say it all
Denial has left you all alone
Waste
DENIAL SEEMS IT HAD TO COME
Relied on me to say it all
Somewhere in the back of my mind
Secretly I know you will find
Me amongst the blushing and glow
Deep beyond the things I don't show
Mystery's a beautiful thing
What a gift a woman can bring
Never let it out just like that
Let him slowly figure it out
How can a flower bloom
Just over a day?
And at night
You gotta let the water drain in
I didn't wanna fall in love with you
I didn't wanna know the things I knew
It wasn't till I looked into the mirror
Denial
You were like a power of nature
Telepathic beautiful creature
Understanding all of my weakness
Patient, loving, knowing you'd reach it
Cynical and hurt was just me
You were never supposed to be
Part of what I would call amazing
Took so long to finally see
How can a flower bloom
Just over a day?
And at night
You gotta let the water drain in
I didn't wanna fall in love with you
I didn't wanna know the things I knew
It wasn't till I looked into the mirror
Denial
I didn't wanna fall in love with you
I didn't wanna know the things I knew
It wasn't till I looked into the mirror
Denial
I see the way the wind blows
Like open minds for us
No complicated barriers
To hold us back
I didn't wanna fall in love with you
I didn't wanna know the things I knew
It wasn't till I looked into the mirror
Denial
I didn't wanna fall in love with you
I didn't wanna know the things I knew
It wasn't till I looked into the mirror
Denial
I didn't wanna fall in love with you
I didn't wanna know the things I knew
It wasn't till I looked into the mirror
Cry - away to heal
Fly - I want to flee
Pride and self - esteem
I will sigh no more
Pain is what i feel
Help is what i need
Please, please stay with me
I need your helping hand
Hand, I need your hand
How - could I believe
Life - only for me
Now - I'm alone
Near dead - end road
Stare - with empty eyes
Sign - of lifelessness
Why I'm so weak
Just let it all flow
Denial - Worst Enemy
Lies - have wounded me
Love - insanity
Loss of hopes and dreams
I just wanna live
I just wanna live
Denial - Worst Enemy
I just, I just, just wanna live
It's funny how a little truth can put things in perspective
Usually I try to hide from all of life's unpleasantries
Like corruption, lies and users
Try to ignore all the abusers
But sometimes truth just slaps me in the face
And I can't hide
Try to deny deception but now I see the other side
I can't hide
Try to regain my innocence but something's changed inside
Funny how perceptions change when you know secret history
Suddenly you see right past the thin veil of diplomacy
Like the smiles that invite glare at you
Like they're filled with spite
The warm handshakes just seem so out of place
And I can't hide
Every person has a dark side please don't show me yours
I don't really think I want to know you can't be trusted
They say the truth will set you free
But they don't say how deep the cut will be
Trust dies and paranoia takes its place
Staying With This Life To Lead
Attempting No True Test
Sticking With Some Sick Ideal
While Others Sell Out Fast
Need A Bit Of Flagellation
Need To Scour The Depths
Can't Exercise Authority
Clamped Down Controlled Will
Denial, No Discipline
Refrainment Abstinence
Question Convenience
Ingesting Some Corrupt Concept
Consuming All Its Produce
Pulling Thoughts And Conscience
Confirming All Unnoticed
The Fulfillment Truly Lies
In What Must Be Suppressed
Subjugating Passion
Leaves Power Unprofessed
This... HUH. OOH!
Took a chance and I
Never though that I
Would be here but all
Ohh, saw it in your eyes
Never realized
How'd you do me like this
You said I could change your life
And you said
In time it would be right and
The clocks changed
It's still on the same day
It's your lose
Do what you gotta do
Are you gonna sit here
Sit here and
Live in denial, denial
Of what we are
Or are you gonna be a man about it
Exposed while we out
That's why they call it denial
That's why you stay in denial
That's why I call it denial
Don't deny us now
Baby, in denial (ial, denial, ohh)
Denial, denial, denial
So when you came through
Let me love on you
That I felt the blue
And ohh
Cause I know that you
Comin home so you could conceal the truth
What happened to you laying
Up in my bed
Tellin me that you were nothin
Like them other men
But you don't beat the odds
Cause you ripped out my heart
And you threw it out the window
Are you gonna sit here
Sit here and
Live in denial, denial
Of what we are
Or are you gonna be a man about it
Exposed while we out
That's why they call it denial
That's why you stay in denial
That's why I call it denial
Don't deny us now
Baby, in denial (ial, denial, ohh)
Denial, denial, denial
There's no other word for it
Ohh, think it's best
That I just pack my feelings up and leave
I, I thought, that you
Would be real
Baby, this ain't even me
I can't pretend that this is somethin'
It ain't, ohh
Are you gonna sit here
Sit here and
Live in denial, denial
Of what we are
Or are you (or are you)
Gonna be a man about it (cause when we're together it another story)
Exposed while we out
That's why they call it denial
That's why you stay in denial
That's why I call it denial
Don't deny us now
Baby, in denial (ial, denial, ohh)
Denial, denial, denial
Are you gonna sit here
Sit here and
Live in denial, denial
Of what we are
Or are you (just tell me what we are)
Gonna be a man about it
Exposed while we out
That's why they call it denial
That's why you stay in denial
(You can love them other girls, play your little games, I don't really need a baby)
That's why I call it denial
Don't deny us now
Baby, in denial (ial, denial, ohh)
Denial, denial, denial
You can love you, denial
Denial
Little owls bring me messages
Transparent envelopes
Given by black daisies
and through enormous telescopes
Addressed the white crow
Sent it out
Was it meant to get to me?
I can hear you
I'm just playing it cool
Bones quiver gently
Vexing blood river
flux to the tip of my feathers
I laugh at your eagerness
Fruitful dandelion heartache is repelling you yet
How am I to turn around on my own?
Who's to blame
for what has become?
Do you wanna be in denial?
You wanna be in denial?
Must I sacrifice this heart
to live this life, the picture?
Keep on holding on
I want to be around love
Wondrous wondrous
stars of the night
Make all the fury go out of sight
Accord me the strength
Send it out
Send it out
Send it out
Your violence is trickling inside me
Yet I'm to remain halcyon
Do you wanna be in denial?
You wanna be in denial?
Must I sacrifice this heart
to live this life, the picture?
Keep on holding on
I want to be around love
I deny the system of hypocrisy and greed
Diarrhea of empty words from faces on a screen
Forcing people to support a fake democracy
Filling their pockets feeding off our people's misery
I deny
Organized religion opium of the mass
Promising eternal life, reality is death
Ruled by a morality made up to keep us blind
Centuries of fear to keep the power of their kind
I deny
I deny authority of a uniform
No rights, no freedom, brute force the only law
Obeying the dictations of an invisible state
Persecution violence sowing seeds of brothers hate
(5:29)
You guard your mind, your thoughts must not devour
Your soul at crux will cower
And the image is mine
Taunting you, unleash eternal time
Am I what you see ?
Rising doubts will forever be set free
Torment, I return
From thoughts you've had and are now left to burn
The degree of heat
Denial of lies, the words are incomplete
Yet what is said is true
All you fear cannot be miscontrued
Bizarre made flesh - The heart arrest
What you fear most - Will haunt the host
I'm whole, I become as one
Evil thoughts extinguishing the sun
And in the void I thrive
Fear / strength, it procreates the hive
And the tears burn
Forced desires you are soon to learn
Bizarre made flesh - The heart arrest
What you fear most - Will haunt the host
Guard your minds, your thoughts have all devoured
Your soul at crux it cowered
And the image was mine
Taunted you, unseashed eternal time
I am what you see
Rising doubts, forever you're set free
How come I feel so lost and so lonely
When you're right here with me
I should feel security
When you're right here by my side
Well I thought that I could just lean back
And enjoy the times that we have
I've been standing on the porch of your life
But you never, never seem to be there
When I spend my time with you I'm so lonely I could die
Why do I, do I waste my time
How come I feel so lost and so lonely
When you're right here with me
I should feel security
When you're right here by my side
Well baby I am lost, baby I am blue
Can't you see I'm losing my grip to you
Well I've given you my heart and I gave you my soul
I even gave you rock'n'roll
Yeah, baby please can't you see that you're everything to me
And it's burning, burning through to my soul
How come I feel so lost and so lonely
When you're right here with me
I should feel security
When you're right here by my side
How come I feel so lost and so lonely
When you're right here with me
I should feel security
When you're right here by my side
I should feel I should feel
I should feel I should feel
what if i told you
straight to your face
what if i told you
nothing at all
cover it with make-up
hiding all the bruises
no one shall notice
no one shall know
why can't you hear me no more
hear when i whisper your name
hear why i feel so ashamed
hear when i silence my tears
what if i pointed
a gun to your head
what if i pulled the trigger
you do deserve it
all the hurt you can get
besides no one shall notice
no one shall know
You and I bring it around again with a fresh flow
Low blow, Tippin' ya over like a deck of cards
I'll tell yo where you are, stuck at the starting line
with nothing left to say,
Your ends unravel and your tips they start to fray
You think you know me, you're inside my head
But you ain't understood one single word that I have said.
Follow the leader is the name of the game you play
You wanna be takin' it but I'm gonna have my own way.
Erase the face of your enemies
The night is mine ya deny this
Take it down, You've got that look on your face
You think you're up there but you don't even
know your own place.
You think you're something, make me do what you will
But I ain't buyin' you know that I have had my fill.
See your body fallin', deeper in a hole
It's all over now you've gotta reach inside your soul
Fightin' to control,
Denying what you know
The war inside your brain
This is the way of my living
This is the choice of my life
Will I be weak and obey you?
No, I'll stand strong and be me
I deny - your god
And all that - he stands for
I can't - understand
How someone - can follow your pathetic lies
I spit on you and I spit on your god
I have chosen my way to live
You say that I shall love
I say that I shall hate
If Jesus made wine out of water
Something more graceful felt like leading you to war,
it sounds so distasteful, more than what you're fighting for,
more flights of stairs derailed, your ascent it falls so slow,
your body and love impaled on the spikes you left below.
Grief turned to currency just like midas touched it black,
like rage in its' infancy, you're afraid it might turn back,
a flag slashed by injured nights in a fist outside your past,
waves only eclipsed by fright in its' glory at half-mast.
You can't beat denial, it's the murder of your past,
a line drawn hard and broken down,
to lie outside your grasp,
I fooled you by way of greed but it opened up your eyes,
too deep down in your hallowed nerves
but it came as no surprise.
Your silent servant dragged abyss across the ground,
to wallow sleeplessly on everything you found,
afraid lasts a lifetime and it crosses paths with mine,
lost fades its' energy, in the end we both but shrine.
So ends disgraceful, ride me back to where I rain,
controlled and quarantined,
unpure, distressed and stained
your war so makeshift, as if a path through broken seas,
your faith so restless as you turn to talk to me.
Scared and hurt he looks around
No one moves or makes a sound
Wipes his tears away and runs so far to hide away
One fine day he sits there
On a hilltop in open air
Looking for something he can't find anywhere
From the outside he looks fine...
When you look deep down inside
You can see the anger flaming up inside his head
Scared and hurt he looked around
Looking up at us he frowned
Fought his tears away and ran so far to hide away
Slipped away he gets home late
Father's waiting for him at the gate
Takes a look at him, turns stone cold with no emotion
There he is, just waiting there
Nervously playing with his hair
They just want to help him cry it out
Speak aloud
Inside his head
Stone cold with no emotion
There is love here, can you feel it?
It's from me, it's for me
And I stole it
If caught, I'll deny it
I'll scream and I'll fight it
Jesus loves me, can you feel it?
I've injured my life- hope he can heal it
If caught, I'll deny it
I'll scream and I'll fight it
There is love here, can you feel it?
It's from me, it's for me
And I stole it
If caught, I'll deny it
I'll scream and I'll fight it
Jesus loves me, can you feel it?
I've injured your life- hope he can heal it
If caught, I'll deny it
Into the waiting
While nothing goes away
There is a rationale to desist
Because the two days are too much?
Twisted in the misunderstood
But there cannot be anything...
Cut off the nose to spite the face
I think I've got a problem
it just came walking through my door
carrying a pillow
with clothes laid out all over my floor
so I proceed to ask him
what the hell are you doing in my room
he said I'm your new room mate and
I'm your new friend
God I hate him
If you don't die soon I'll kill myself
anything to get me out
when I come home I pray your not here
treasure the time that we don't share
if you never come back I'd never care
just please stay out of my life
I think I'm in denial
pretending that he does not exist
I know that it cant last long
when I'm always cleaning up his mess
using up the phone line
and always playing that stupid game
I would like to suffer
as long as I know that he is suffering
If you don't die soon I'll kill myself
anything to get me out
when I come home I pray your not here
treasure the time that we don't share
if you never come back I'd never care
just please stay out of my life
well now I solved the problem
cut off his head and rolled it down the street
I think it's kind of funny
to see his head disconnected from his feet
settle down and stay cool
that's what I try and tell myself
just 6 more months
Every day and all the games we play
You've got me strung so high I cannot fall
Why would I underestimate
When you got me backed against a wall
You never see me smile
We're both in denial
That's why I'm letting go this time
I am gonna leave you without crying
Gonna forget you without trying
This time I know it's gonna be easy
I can live without you it won't kill me
I might miss all the times we kissed
But it's not enough to make me stay
You lied to me like you lied to yourself
I hope you find the truth out there someday
You never see me smile
We're both in denial
That's why I'm letting go this time
I am gonna leave you without crying
Gonna forget you without trying
This time I know it's gonna be easy
I can live without you it won't kill me
I wanna believe you but it's impossible
I wanna believe you when you say you'll change
I wanna believe that things will get easier
I wanna believe you but you'll never change
Lying, to myself and you
Deny, no one has a clue
Using, I do drugs all day
Keeping, the pain away
They will never know
I have lost my sense
I have it under control
That's what I tell my friends
What have I done to me
To my friends and family
This is pure fucking hell
I must kill myself
Soon they all will say
You need to be put away
I'm getting fucking close
Dying by an overdose
No one knows, I do coke
I do smack, I do smoke
I do dust, I do pills
For myself, no one else
Addiction (x5)
I remember the time when I was a little child
My father wouldn’t call or visit
He denied the fact that I even existed
He can’t deny the fact that I’m grown up strong and artistic
You can’t deny the fact that some of us are born different
You can’t deny the fact that your life can be gone in an instant
You can’t deny that fact that your wife left you
You can’t deny that fact somebody’s out to get you
I’ve seen so many things, so many times, so many people
So many lies, so many ways to deny
The fact that you love, the fact that you hate
The fact that you try to escape problems
The fact that you got ‘em
I’m willing to lose, I’m willing to bet
I’m willing to try and die for respect
But if I have to
I’ll break it down for you and spell it out like a child
It seems everybody’s in denial
You can’t deny
You can’t deny
You can’t deny what the truth is
Truth is
You can’t hold on to what you don’t know
So, let, let, it, it, go
You can’t deny
You can’t deny
You can’t deny what the truth is
Truth is
You can’t hold on to what you don’t know
So, let, let, it, it, go
You can’t deny the fact that your past haunts you
You can’t deny the fact that your girlfriend doesn’t want you
You can’t deny the fact that your life’s been shifted
You can’t deny the fact that I’m god gifted
You can’t deny the fact that everyone’s against you
You can’t deny the fact that your mortgage and rent is due
You can’t deny that fact that you’re falling apart slowly
You can’t deny you’re depressed, stressed and lonely
If only you can see what I see, you’d feel the same
Denial’s a game it only takes one to play
You’re lying, denying and everything seems strange
You can’t deny the fact that things change
For those who came to play the game
For those who called my name, for those who feel pain
I tried to live, I tried to die, I tried to stand strong, I’ve tried to cry
Now somehow someway I plan to stay, I plan to play
I look to pray, my feelings won’t go away
You can’t handle the truth when you’re acting like a child
You’re still lost in denial
You borrow the keys to your girlfriends ride
You find another man’s ring on the passengers’ side
You thought you kept her happy with the money you spent
You see them holding hands and you still think they’re friends
So sick of these bands that demand respect
You can count on one hand all the fans they get
So who’s the band that electrified your stages
Chorus
You better change those shorts
Cos you gonna get wet
Your’e gonna swim denial
Earn self respect
No point in lying
Cos it’s gonna come out
I got your number
I’ll hunt you down
You better Swim denial
Though the river runs deep
A thousand lies a thousand cries
The secrets you keep
You better swim denial
No more messing around
Stand up and be yourself and do yourself proud
Verse 1
Get cracking
And get smacking
Put your hand low
And get jacking
Button loose there
Feel juice yeah
You got the tool bro
So misuse it
You know you like it deep inside
So put the guard down in your mind
Let the urge come
And fall splat
(oh yeah boy now I like that)
Take a dirty picture as you go
She don’t mind, cos she don’t know
Blur the face and who’s to know,
Upload on Gayromeo
One sec
Hold it
Your chick
blown it
bad daze
Drunk phase
Mistake
Heartache
Steaming, gleaming, muscle bodies teeming
All this while been living in denial
Verse 2
Lad’s night out
Going on the tout
Girlfriend calls
where you sleeping now
Eyes meet
Discrete
Back alley
Dark streets
Had a great night messin’ ‘bout with me lads tweet
Oops your shorts wet
Can you keep a secret
Weren’t her love
Who got me hot in bed
Red face
Disgrace
Thrown out of her space
Oh well now go hobble off to his place
Sorry hun but that’s so not cool
Do you really think we’re back at school
Touching under tables
Feeling unstable
Grow up love and learn to be able
One sec
Hold it
Your chick
blown it
bad daze
Drunk phase
Mistake
Heartache
Steaming, gleaming, muscle bodies teeming
