Yau, Benny Filmography

• Angling Unlimited (2001)
• New Talent Singing Awards Vancouver Audition 2000 (2000)
• What's On (1996)

• Lyrics: play full screen play karaoke
• Reach Out (and Regret) - Pain
• Let Me Out - Pain
• You Only Live Twice - Pain
• Same Old Song - Pain
• Monster - Pain
• Psalms Of Extinction - Pain
• Leave Me Alone - Pain
• Zombie Slam - Pain
• The Great Pretender - Pain
• Save Your Prayers - Pain
• Nailed To The Ground - Pain
• Behind The Wheel - Pain
• Live Fast Die Young - Pain
• Pull Me Under - Pain
• Injected Paradise - Pain
• Breathe - Pain
• I Don't Care (live At Raismes Fest Fr 2009) - Pain
• Supersonic Bitch - Pain
• Suicide Machine - Pain
• Walking On Glass - Pain
• The Game - Pain
• Season Of The Reaper - Pain
• Monkey Business - Pain
• Pain - Pain
• Rope Around My Neck - Pain
• Parallel To Ecstasy - Pain
• On Your Knees (Again) - Pain
• On And On - Pain
• Learn How To Die - Pain
• Just Hate Me - Pain
• Fade Away - Pain
• Expelled - Pain
• Don't Let Me Down - Pain
• Close My Eyes - Pain
• Choke On Your Lies - Pain
• Breathing In, Breathing Out - Pain
• 12-42 - Pain
• Play Dead - Pain
• Fear The Demons - Pain
• Who Took Botu's Picture? - Pain
• No One Knows - Pain
• We Want More - Pain
• The Last Drops Of My Life - Pain
• Crawling Thru Bitterness - Pain
• Shut Your Mouth - Pain
• The Comeback - Pain
• She Whipped - Pain
• Bottle's Nest - Pain
• Save Me - Pain
• Just Think Again - Pain

I'm stressed out of my mind
I can't seem to find what's up and down
I'm frustrated and short for time
Life's a misery, won#t you agree with me?
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I don't believe in that anymore
Reach out and regret
Run for your life
I feel it's pushing me to the edge
The puzzle I try to complete
Is getting short on parts and I don't know why
One step forward
Two steps back
I'm marching backwards
I'm marching on a thin line
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I don't believe in that anymore
Reach out and regret
Run for your life
I feel it's pushing me to the edge
Reach out and regret
Run for your life
The dreams you crushed, I'll never forget
Should I sweat over these things that's out of my hand
Should I really care, am I a boy or a fucking man
Should I care about the things that's out of my hand
Why is that?

I cannot breathe suffocating slow
I need to come up for Air
The monster's in my head they won't leave me be
I've told them thousand times, just stay away from me
A constant battle within, a battle I can't win
It triggers the fear of failure
Stereotype society you better think like others think
Remote control human disaster
World turns dead right before me
I can't hide in the past, I need to break away from me
Life burns black, no sanctuary
I did my time so let me out
Like a broken record, it repeats itself
Like a wheel.. and round and round and round it goes
It's like we're on a path, on a path to nowhere
Running out of time, running out of passion
Once created times, now a storm of nails
Razor sharp and it won't stop yet
World turns dead right before me
I can't hide in the past, I need to break away from me
Life burns black, no sanctuary
I did my time so let me out
Running out of ways to run, it's a dead end street
Been taking all the turns.. They all turn back to me
World turns dead right before me
I can't hide in the past, I need to break away from me
Life burns black, no sanctuary

Some people's love is other's hate
Depression, jealousy of other's faith
Some seems just to have it all
But in their shadows
There's a dark life and a broken heart
You need to break away from the chain
No more fears
And set the rules in your own lonely game
Than you only live twice, you only live twice
Shake your money maker
It's time to work
She's got mouths to feed
Dancing with one foot in the dirt
For some it's strugle, for others hell
When the addiction grabs onto you you're under it's spell
You need to break away from the chain
No more fears
And set the rules in your own lonely game
Than you only live twice, you only live twice
Do we all deserve a second chance? Do we care?
Did you fear the devil's hand when you made the deal?
Don't you wanna live twice?

You're welcome to my world
Dark side of the universe
I'll take you for a spin
Let the mayhem begin
The media mouth is feeding and chemical youth is screaming
The circus starts to roll
There's no turning back
You think it's right you made your mind
I've seen so many cross that line
I've seen them come
I've seen them go
Time will never change
It's the same old song
The same old song
That's playing again
The same old song
Your soul is burning bright
High hopes of future in sight
Beyond the horizon lays a world that's so black
They try to shape your mind
And make you walk the line
Don't let them steal your dreams
It's all that you've got
You start to doubt
You changed your mind
I've seen so many cross that line
I've seen them come
I've seen them go
Times will never change
It's the same old song
The same old song
That's playing again
The same old song
Don't wanna hear it no more
Time to do this
Time to do that
I've got an offer
You can't refuse it
Just stick with me
And I'll push you
All the way to the stars
Can't take it no more
The same old song
It's playing again
The same old song
Don't wanna hear it no mor
The same old song
It's playing again
And again and again

Time, I cannot turn back
I'm not living in the past
Air, it's not my first breath
Why didn't anyone tell me I'm insane
I'm having my own revolution
I'm the first in line to see the light
The doctor's giving me new medication
And I'm flying high again
Now I'm taking a permanent vacation
The monster's tamed inside of me
You got to feed the monster
Time, I cannot turn back
I'm not living in the past
Air, it's not my first breath
Why didn't anyone tell me I'm insane
I'm having my own revolution
I'm the first in line to see the light
The doctor's giving me new medication
And I'm flying high again
Now I'm taking a permanent vacation
The monster's tamed inside of me
Life, I'm not the one that's on trial
Stop, I have not time to fuck around
Life, you cannot be what you wanna be
Why, I am what I am and I stand where I stand
Feed my monster
The docter's giving me new medication
And I'm flying high again
Now I'm taking a permanent vacation

Why do we have to live in fear?
The future's looking dark
No one seems to care
It's a shame, it keeps pounding my head
I feel sick, is there someone to blame?
Now where do we go
When there's nowhere to turn?
It's starting to show
Will we ever learn?
Countdown to extinction
It has only begun
We're heading for extinction
To be one with the sun
The sun is burning through our skin the blood is boiling hot
Cancer's spreading out
I see the end is closing in
The world is turning black, acid rain
It's a shame, it keeps pounding my head
I feel sick, is there someone to blame?
Now where do we go
When there's nowhere to turn?
It's starting to show
Will we ever learn?
Do you feel ready to die?
Or have you changed your mind?
Countdown to extinction
It has only begun
We're heading for extinction
To be one with the sun
Now where do we go
When there's nowhere to turn?
It's starting to show

My dreams are always the same, I see you
Fear is my best friend it keeps me alive
What is it I got that triggers you to follow me day and night?
I can smell your stench all around
I don't know what your demons are telling you
But it ain't me you're looking for
Why? Why won't you leave me alone
It drives me insane
Why? Why won't you just let me go
Stay out of my way
Never sleep with your enemies,
They'll steal all that you got
Framed by the lust
You spin out of controll
I don't know what your demons are telling you
But it ain't me you're looking for
Why? Why won't you leave me alone
It drives me insane
Why? Why won't you just let me go
Stay out of my way
Don't mess with my head
What triggers you I don't understand
Why? why won't you leave me alone
It drives me insane
Why? Why won't you just let me go

There's something coming crawling
'Round the corner of your mind
Oh... your funeral has just begun
Buried alive, it will be over in no time
The date is set for tonight
VIP at the dead man's ball
Come and die with the zombies in the moonlight
They become alive when you die, you cannot fool them
You got to slam with the dead and let it go now
See a thousand hallowed eyes stare into the night
The sun goes down and the dead head minds,
They start to resurrect
Under the velvet sky and thirsty for your flesh
Steals your soul and you will lose control
And turns your tears into dust
You're fool that will never learn
Play with fire and you will get your fingers burned
Come and die with the zombies in the moonlight
They become alive when you die, you cannot fool them
You got to slam with the dead and let it go now
See a thousand hallowed eyes stare into the night
It's getting dark so prepare to die
They're coming after you
It's getting dark and you can't get away
They're coming after you
Come and die with the zombies in the moonlight
They become alive when you die, you cannot fool them
You got to slam with the dead and let it go now

You can bitch all you want cause I don't care
It's a real fine line between being good and being bad
Might as well crash and burn cause we never ever gonna learn
I rather stick to being a bad boy than being real burned
Now I got your attention
I need to ease my mind
You think you are the main attraction
I am your great pretender
The hero and you savior
I am your great pretender
The alien you surrender to
Now when our future is dark
And it's hard to predict
Can someone please, please tell me, who am I supposed to be
I just keep on rolling till someone stops me
Don't wanna live in the past, I just wanna be me
Now I got your full attention
I need to ease my mind
You think you are the main attraction
I am your great pretender
The hero and you savior
I am your great pretender
The alien you surrender to
Reach for the sky, and I'll be there
Step into the light I'll pull you trough
Just close your eyes and take my pills
I am your great pretender
The hero and you savior
I am your great pretender
The alien you surrender to

Hey you, I know you don't like me
But the feeling is mutual
Pardon my French, slimy bitch
Do I care? Of course, I wrote this song for you
Save your prayers cause I don't care
Your tongue is digging your own grave
We are born with our conscience clear
By the time you're 15 your life is full of misery
The frames of lies you cannot escape
It's calling your name
Mistakes of your past you can't erase
It's coming back to you
Why don't you stop cause you're nothing
I don't care cause you're nothing
Why don't you leave cause you're nothing
Disappear cause you're nothing
Save your prayers cause I don't care
Your tongue is digging your own grave
We are born with our conscience clear
By the time you're 15 your life is full of misery
The frames of lies you cannot escape
It's calling your name
Mistakes of your past you can't erase

Now I've got something to say
So just get out of my way
I won't take shit from you or anyone that stands in my way
I've been quiet too long and now it's out of control
I've had it up to here and nothing's gonna stop me now
I don't believe in god or destiny
I always lived my life with one foot into the grave
The world is cruel and filled with enemies
I take my chances cause I know my life won't go anywhere
We're searching, we're burning out
It's hard to find when both feet are nailed to the ground
We're stranded, we're all tied up
We're hammered down with both feet are nailed to the ground
Nothing in life is for free, everything has price
You start to pay when you're born until the day you die
They turn you into a machine and keep you in the line
If you fall out of their path they will come after you
I don't believe in god or destiny
I always lived my life with one foot into the grave
We're searching, we're burning out
It's hard to find when both feet are nailed to the ground
We're stranded, we're all tied up
We're hammered down with both feet are nailed to the ground
Ah, I won't go down on my knees
They won't stop until I hit rock bottom
No.... I won't go down on my knees
In this government controlled society
NO NO NO... I won't go down...
We're searching, we're burning out
It's hard to find when both feet are nailed to the ground
We're stranded, we're all tied up

My little girl
Drive anywhere
Do what you want
I don't care
Tonight
I'm in the hands of fate
I hand myself
Over on a plate
Oh little girl
There are times when I feel
I rather not be
The one behind the wheel
Come
Pull my strings
Watch me move
I do anything
Please
Sweet little girl
I prefer
You behind the wheel
And me the passenger
Drive
I'm yours to keep
Do what you want
I'm going cheap
Tonight

We all are crying for the life we can not get
The mystery of mankinds complex DNA
We're running out of meaning
We're running out of being alive
We have no purpose breathing
Might as well just spit and die
Live fast, die young
Who cares about the world when it soon will be gone
Burn fast, die hard
There is no future and there's nowhere to run
I won't support the lies of saving our world
We're already out of time and soon we all gonna burn
The climate is big business, everyone is trying to make a dime
We have no purpose breathing
Might as well just spit and die...
Live fast, die young
Who cares about the world when it soon will be gone
Burn fast, die hard
There is no future and there's nowhere to run
The floods and hurricanes harvest lives
It's just a taste of cynic paradise... we're all gonna die
Live fast, die young
Who cares about the world when it soon will be gone
Burn fast, die hard

I'm gonna ride on my addiction tide
why don't you come and watch me die
can't get enough - you know I never get enough
I am gonna do it 'til I die
and every time I throw my face against the wall
just to know that I am alive
my mind is getting twisted and my body is getting numb
I have succeeded the ultimate rush
leaving it all behind, I need my mind to spin me around
pull me under
suck me in, spit me out, hold on tight cause I am going down
I am what the drugs make me
I am doing time in my toasted mind
crash and burn - I guess I never learn
bring me down on my knees and drag me through the dirt
got nowhere to hide
leaving it all behind, I need the drugs to spin me around
pull me under
suck me in, spit me out, hold on tight cause I am going down
I am what the drugs make me
I fall over
shut me up, throw me out, hold on tight cause I am going
down
I let the drugs help me
I don't wanna be alone
I guess I am not the only one
leaving it all behind, I need the drugs to spin me around
pull me under
suck me in, spit me out, hold on tight cause I am going down
I am what the drugs make me
I fall over
shut me up, throw me out, hold on tight cause I am going
down
I let the drugs help me
pull me under
shut me up, spit me out
I fall over
pull me under
shut me up, spit me out
I fall over

How does it feel to get kicked
When you're down and out?
I said, "How does it feel to get pushed off the edge
And just fall fall to the ground?"
The more that you do, the less you get
Why can't see you you're going down?
You're on your knees, you're begging me please
Can't get away from the needle's chill
You're taking a ride in endless time
Injected paradise
Silence roll up like walls of noise
You're getting numb and deaf
Things are getting out of control
You're out of control
The more that you do, the less you get
The poison rushing through your dying veins
The more that you take, the more you loose
Time is taking its toll
You're on your knees, you're begging me please
Can't get away from the needle's chill
You're taking a ride in endless time
Injected paradise
The more that you do, the less you get
The poison rushing through your dying veins
The more that you take, the more you loose
Time is taking its toll
You're on your knees, you're begging me please
Can't get away from the needle's chill
You're taking a ride in endless time

They have destoyed your whole life
Ever since you were born they've
Dragged you down
They have decided that you wont
Have a chance in this shitty world
not knowing what's on the outside
Can't understand right or wrong
Breathe in the poisoned air
"I just wanna die"
burning eyes filled with dead tears
The world is dying on you
And you just turning your back
not knowing what's on the outside
Poisoning our brainwashed mind
They have decided that you will die
A painful death
Breathe the death
our dying race
Breathe the death
Dying race

Never done a hard day's work
In your whole life
Born with a silver spoon
Shoved down your throat
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
So you think
You're better than me
No matter how much money you got
You still bleed
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
Not everything is for sale
Can't buy yourself happiness
Taste it, want it, need it, give me
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who's the richest motherfucker of them all?
I don't care, I don't care, no
I don't care, I don't care about you
I don't care, I don't care, no

I, I never really meant to hurt you bad
I, I just sent a computer error
I, I just want to control your whole life
I, I just keep you hooked up to my line
Hey, little bitch
Don't you know it's supposed to work
Hey, little bitch
Your my supersonic bitch
Now I'm hooked back up
I got you on my screen
All I can do is press and turn
And you spread your legs in the screen
I know I've explored
Every inch of your naked body
And then you start to bore me
I press delete and search for a new target
Hey, little bitch
Don't you know it's supposed to work
Hey, little bitch
Why can't you come here and give me a kiss
Hey, little bitch
You will always get what you deserve
Hey, little bitch
Your my supersonic bitch
Hey, little bitch
Don't you know it's supposed to work
Hey, little bitch
Why can't you come here and give me a kiss
Hey, little bitch
You will always get what you deserve
Hey, little bitch

I never do it for nothing
It's never been for free
I never cared about nothing
Unless it satisfied me
My only game is surviving
And try to stay alive
I'm struggling in the underworld
That suffocates my life
Suicide machine
Locked up in this cage
Suicide machine
I don't understand
They tried to shut me up
They tried to shut me down
They tried to throw me away, I'll never give it up
I'm never gonna stop, I will fight to the end
I'll stand tall, I'll break bones
I'll give them hell
No bullshit and I'm still here
You better catch me dead
Suicide machine
Locked up in this cage
Suicide machine
I don't understand
You have always tried to crush
And break me down
But I will never ever give up
Without a fight
I am the man
And it will always be me
Dreaming of a life in peace
But it was never meant for me
Suicide machine
Locked up in this cage
Suicide machine
I don't understand
Suicide machine
I don't understand
Suicide machine

So how many times do I have to pick myself up
When you're just crushing my life?
So I can carry on
Fill my soul so hollow
I've been down the drain
And washed away
And still I come back for more
I keep my head up high
Always try to walk the line
I'm not like you
My life flashes before my eyes
No, I'm not like you
The truth turns me upside down
Here it comes again
Pain is calling me
And I don't understand
It's just like walking on glass
Here we go again
And I can't turn it off
It's been following my past
It's just like walking on glass
Life's too short but I don't give a fuck
Why try to think like you
I have my own free will
Life is built on sorrow
Fields of burning lies is getting clearer by age
Soon we start to realize
Born and raised in a cage
I'm not like you
My life flashes before my eyes
No, I'm not like you
The truth turns me upside down
Here it comes again
Pain is calling me
And I don't understand
It's just like walking on glass
Here we go again
And I can't turn it off
It's been following my past
It's just like walking on glass
Walk with me
It's getting dark
Walk with me
We'll try to save our broken souls
Here it comes again
Pain is calling me
And I don't understand
It's just like walking on glass
Here we go again
And I can't turn it off
It's been following my past

Use me as I use you, pull my strings
My money says that you will, that's what I pay you for
Got me served on a plate, do what you want
Show me you care, you're the one in control
The harder you pull my strings, the harder I get
Just a question of time before I lose my mind
It's the game that you play with my head and I can't get enough
Triple sex, almost death, twisted love, the game I cannot bluff
It's the game that you play with my head and I won't get enough
Can't walk away, got to play it all the way
Tight up in this game, this game that I can't quit
Pleasure I get in pain, the pain will keep me sane
Feed my twisted mind, touch my skin with your razor blade
Strip me down to the bone, I'll do anything
The harder you pull my strings, the harder I get
Just a question of time before I lose my mind
The harder you tighten the rope, the harder I get
A slave to my burning desire, a taste of death
It's the game that you play with my head and I can't get enough
Triple sex, almost death, twisted love, the game I cannot bluff
It's the game that you play with my head and I won't get enough

We came with nothing and with nothing we'll leave
The wheels of fortune has stopped and it bleeds
The burning angel and hungry crows
They're black eyes that drill holes in our souls
The tortured souls that won't find its peace
The endless screams that echo on
Lay down with the dead, the funeral has begun
No one comes to pay respect, lay to rest
The night is still yours
When you're sleeping with the dead
And he smiles at you as he takes your life
It burns inside of you
It burns when you die
How sweet and calm, buried six feet under
Ashes to ashes and dust to dus
The time has come to pay the price
When you're left to ro
Close your eyes and rest in pain
The endless screams that echo on
Lay down with the dead, the funeral has begun
No one comes to pay respect, lay to rest
The night is still yours
When you're sleeping with the dead
When you sleep with the dead it burns
Lay down with the dead, the funeral has begun
No one comes to pay respect, lay to rest
The night is still yours

Yeah! Go!
The touch of magic that you thought you once had
Was wiped out with that smile you forced on your face
You hide your horns and try to bury things in your hate
There's no give and take in your ugly race
Lie after lie
Through the same mistakes again
It's always the same
Time after time
Trying to save us from ourselves
But you're always too late
I'm not gonna take this shit and I'm not gonna drown
Again and again you set the rules for us to lay it down
Suits and ties decide your destiny from dollar signs
And when the goddamn boat starts to sink they don't
care who's left behind
World domination
Tries to save us
Death our savior
Termination
Step right up people and vote for your favorite
disaster
They're all corrupted so it doesn't really matter
At night their limos pulling up to the clubs
Expensive dinners whores on government's credit cards
They've done this for years then they get busted in
their act
Then you sit and cry in court and say you'll pay it
back
Lie after lie
Through the same mistakes again
It's always the same
Time after time
Trying to save us from ourselves
But you're always too late
I'm not gonna take this shit and I'm not gonna drown
Again and again you set the rules for us to lay it down
Suits and ties decide your destiny from dollar signs
And when the goddamn boat starts to sink they don't
care who's left behind
I'm not gonna take this shit
I'm not gonna drown
I'm not gonna take this shit

You cannot run or hide
From the pain that lives inside
Taking everything you own
As we speak it's taking your soul
It will never wait
It anticipates
Every move you make
Sends you out of control
Now?
The rage inside, you can feel it grow
The knife in your heart, it begins to show
You run and you run but can't get away
From the agony of the pain
You cannot stop it now
Every nerve in your body growls
Mind craves spirit unrest
Here's to the curse that now lay at rest
It will never wait
It anticipates
Every move you make
Sends you out of control
Now?
The rage inside, you can feel it grow
A knife in the heart, it begins to show
I run and I run but can?t get away

Trapped in a nightmare called life
With no sign of exit I am gonna die
My soul is filled with hate
Can't see through my anger
My selfconfidence has been dead for years
How can I live this life
I've been destroyed a thousand times
Still try to stand tall
Don't know how long I can fight back
With the rope around my neck
You get feed of my misery
Stabbing the knife deep in my back
I can't run and hide from myself
Selfdestructive schizophrenic behaviour
Can't run away form myself
There's no way to escape
Don't know how long I can fight back
With the rope around my neck
Cutting myself wide open
Release the blood
Watch the madman float away
But not knowing it's killing me
Cutting myself wide open
Release the blood
Im slippin´ away as it's

[Incomprehensible]
I can feel the energy
Feels like I've been up on an experiment on ecstasy
I feel it kicking in again [Incomprehensible]
Your only motive, you're alive you never die
Searching for those sleepless prayers of your life
Come to find out that you been living a lie
Realities reflect the shadows in the night
Did you ever realize how I know
Like nowhere riding around with a gun
Ride around the storm will never stop
[Incomprehensible]
[Incomprehensible]
When all the lucky ones get by
Re-entering a pain called life
Pain is life, life is pain
Searching for those sleepless prayers of your life
Come to find out that you been living a lie
Realities reflect the shadows in the night
Did you ever realize how I know
Like nowhere riding around with a gun
Ride around the storm will never stop
Searching for those sleepless prayers of your life
Come to find out that you been living a lie
Realities reflect the shadows in the night
Did you ever realize how I know
Like nowhere riding around with a gun

I'm going for a ride
And I hope I'll never ever get back here again
Numbing my body with drugs and lies
Try to find a place where
I can finally die
Walk with me on the other side
and I show what life is all about
The rush I get from death
It's all that eggs me to die
Every dream must die
As I try to drag you down in the dirt
Why is life worth living
When we all just life to suffer and Sacrifice
Life is like a wheel
You can run and run and you will never get there
Spinning faster then you could
Understand
You're on your knees again

Listen here, try me out,
Can you understand a word that I say?
Life will never turn out the way you want it.
Working hard like a slave, cause you choose to take the h$
Why do the wind always blow cold and always the wrong way?
You got to keep your head high and try to be strong
They will try to steal everything you own.
It goes on and on
On and on
On and on
On and on
Grab the bull by the horn
Try to make something of your life
You are the only one that can make it happening
The fire in your eyes is slowly fading out
You can not give up your dreams
You got to go
On and on and on
On and on
Giving up is easy
Just to throw away your life

Learn how to live
Learn how to breathe
Learn how to kill
Learn how to die
Raped by my own life
Suffocated by my own lungs
Murdered by my own hands
Dead by my own death
Stuck in my own nightmare
I can't understand
What did I do wrong
To deserve this pain
PAIN!!!
Dealing with my own hate
all I get is pain
Shadows hunting me
All I do is freak
Insanity is getting closer now
How long can I survive
The greed I get from this world
Is sucking me dry
Learn how to live
Learn how to breathe
Learn how to kill

I gotta think of something
to make you think less
of me, that I am nothing
to hold on to, cause we are through
I dislike you
I wish that you could hate me
then things would be so easy
just get me off your mind
if the bitch would have a son
then I would be the one
so hate me
geese, flying from the winter
that's what I should do, do, do
or become a sprinter
and run away
cause we are through
I dislike you
I wish that you could hate me
then things would be so easy
just get me off your mind
if the bitch would have a son
then I would be the one
I am being mean
like no one's ever been
just hate me...
I wish that you could hate me
then things would be so easy

Press my face in this dirt
See how long I can hold my breath
Pour some salt in my wounds
I am just someone who doesn't fit in your world
How can I smile with your gun to my head?
How can I reach out when you're holding me back?
I am just so tired of everyone who's trying to save me
Just save yourself
Fade away
I wanna fade away
You give me your hand, I don't want it
I'll rather drown on my own
You try to give me relief, I don't need it
I'll rather put the gun to my head
Bitterness is calling inside
I am already damned
The fire in my soul is slowly dying
You know my destiny calls my name
Fade away
I wanna fade away
Fade away

I feel you breathing down my neck
Nowhere to hide
I thought I could get away
But it's a good day to die
My time has come
But I don't think I am ready yet
I've lost the game
I thought I played so very well
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna go
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna die, I got more to give
Here I stand, the accused
With a rope around my neck
Just wait for the final call
Then I'll be gone
Never got the chance to say goodbye
Never got the chance to take the time to enjoy my life
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna go
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna die, I got more to give
Don't take my life away now
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna leave, I don't wanna go
No, I don't wanna go now
I don't wanna die, I got more to give
No, I don't wanna go now

Hangman, Is it me your looking for
I don't think I'm ready to leave
Crushed by society, I don't understand
Victim of reality, I crawl back in my shell
Nobody lives forever
Everything begins where it ends
Confusion in my own desperation
I'm the chosen one to suffer
Are you really gonna leave me crying
Are you really gonna leave me drowning
Are you really gonna leave medying
Are you really gonna let me down
I am a perfect death
I'm on the edge
I am the freak
And no one cares
Are you really gonna leave me crying
Are you really gonna leave me drowning
Are you really gonna leave medying

Can't see faith through the tears
of my swollen eyes
I try to dry
I pretend it's not as bad as it seems... what a lie
how can we be so blind
every time a child dies
people are starving
rain forests are falling
the bombs are dropping from the sky
I don't know why - it sticks in my head
I close my eyes - and it hurts me so bad
I don't know why - it sticks in my head
I close my eyes - I close my eyes
I close my eyes
I look away from this misery
and I hope the problem will disappear
but it still hurts me everytime a child dies
it's like a knife you stab in my heart
and twist it, twist it, twist it around
I don't know why - it sticks in my head
I close my eyes - and it hurts me so bad
I don't know why - it sticks in my head
I close my eyes - I close my eyes

Choked by your own lies
God blessed no one
Controlled by your brainwashed mind
A vision of salvation nowhere to be found
Your religion makes me sick
Will your god forgive you for all your sins
Mine will after I rip your fucking head off
I'm my own god
I live my life on my own term
Don't need to tell me what to do
Your whole life has been about kissing ass
Burn in paradise
There is no pearly gate
Burn in paradise
You stick your hands out, I'll cut 'em off
You build it up, I'll make it fall
you wont get any sympathy from me
I'm my own god
I live my life on my own term
Your god can't help you now
Where is your salvation
There is no god
Burn in paradise
There is no pearly gate
Burn in paradise
Choke on your lies

Speeding through hell and the devil will set your soul
I'm living your life I'll control your face smashed against the wall
Starting the day with a drink and a fat white line
Their pumping you up with drugs and fame and lies
Breathing in breathing out
I look through the dirt six feet under ground
Buried alive let me out
I'll take my last breath lost my heart then I'll die
Chemicals run through your eyes saving you from going insane
The more that you snort the more you fry your brain
Breathing in breathing out
I look through the dirt six feet under ground
Buried alive let me out

this is an ambient instrumental piece..

Darling stop confusing me
With your wishful thinking
Hopeful embraces
Don't you understand?
I have to go through this
I belong to here, where
No one cares and no one loves
No light no air to live in
A place called hate
The city of fear
I play dead
It stops the hurting
I play dead
And hurting stops
It's sometimes just like sleeping
Curling up inside my private tortures
I nestle into pain
Hug suffering
Caress ever ache
I play dead

Creeping and Cracking
Baby don't look back, no one goes home tonight
The evil we see and the evil we do
Brings out the beast in me and you
Waking up from screaming
You think it's all in your head
My my, it's a bad day to be alive
It's crawling under your skin and feeds of your hate
Just close your eyes and wait till the sun goes down
You better stay awake
The dark comes knocking so you better start running
Fear the demon in me, Fear the demon in you
Hear the voices calling you
Shadow's tongue licking your flesh
Rips the clothes clean of your body
Strip you clean straight down to the bones
You can't stay awake, You can't fall asleep
He's coming for your life
Don't wanna wake up dead, you know you're over your head
There ain't no turning back
You better stay awake
The dark comes knocking so you better start running
Fear the demon in me, Fear the demon in you
Laying in sweet tears
Dreams are turning into a living hell
The nightmares you see and the terror you feel
Takes a turn for the worse and becomes real
You better stay awake
The dark comes knocking so you better start running

Who took Botus picture? Botu wants it back
He never gave permission, so hand it over, Jack!
Whoever took it: shame! You should have known not to
You have done an awful thing and disrespected Botu
Just picture all your teeth upon a necklace for his wife
Just think about your skin pulled tight,
Slapped silly by your drumstick bones
Bagpipe lungs monkeys from Djibouti & a white man's tongue
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
Who took Botu's picture? Botu wants it back,
He's never been so insulted in all his life
He?s packin' his face in mud, He's dyin' his hair with blood
Don't mean to push, whoever-you-are, but you know what you did, right? Right?
His name is Botu & you know he's superstitious,
Now you've got to get that Polaroid away
His name is Botu & you know he's superstitious,
Now you've got to get that Polaroid away
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
You've taken Botu's soul,
You've taken Botu's soul
Your evil camera snatched it up & now there's just a hole!
There it is, get it!

These visions in my head
The friendly faces
I don't know maybe it's me
It feels like they're in my mind
And feasting of my brain
Uuuh don't you feel the same?
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
I'm trapped in my DNA
No time to waste
Spies are in my closet and under my bed
I'm losing this scary game
Crack me like the whip
Please crack me sane
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done
No one knows what I know when I know that I'm done

The nature's abuser
The creature takes what it wants
We have no future, All hope is gone
Just crush the weak, the winner takes it all
Money makes them breathe, but not for long
How can I smile again, when it's all gonna end?
Another smoke screen, another toxic dream
We cannot change 'cause this is what we are
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
Time is ticking and we all will fall
Another oil spill, another black dream
It's not enough to live in this filthy world
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
Time is ticking and we all will fall. We will fall..
When it's all been crushed, then the winner has lost it all
The nature's abuser
The creature takes what it wants
We have no future, All hope is gone
I can not smile again cause I know it's gonna end
Another smoke screen, another toxic dream
We cannot change 'cause this is what we are
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more
Time is ticking and we all will fall
Another oil spill, another black dream
It's not enough to live in this filthy world
I want more, you want more, he wants more, she wants more

Life doesn't work out as planned
Visions of happiness are burning
Dreams that turn into madness
I feel the end is closing in
I can feel my soul leaving me
To dwell in nothing and forever disappear
Trying to breathe but there's no air
My heart is bleeding why am I here
Taste the last drops of life
That vanish into the black sun
I must fight this feeling
Of sorrow slowly killing me
Try to breathe but there's no air
My heart is bleeding why am I here
Taste the last drops of life

I've been driving down the dark and strange highways
And I've lived it all, it's all a part of my life
I sold my soul to the devil
A desperate man in desperate times
Too blind to see
Living on the lies that feed me illusions
I keep falling
Falling into selfish bliss, crashing down
I am crawling
Crawling through remains of bitterness
We've all been going through hell
It doesn't matter who you are
You come out a stronger man
You used to see the world in gray
(?) Burn on and cold in bed (?)
Now you're too old to give a damn
Too blind to see
Living on the lies that feed me illusions
(?) Pretend to live (?), kills my enemies
I keep falling
Falling into selfish bliss, crashing down
I am crawling
Crawling through remains of bitterness
Unseen, is there anybody out there?
Unheard, can you hear me screaming?
I keep falling
Falling into selfishness, crashing down
I am crawling
Crawling through remains of bitterness
I am falling

The only thing I ever wanted, the only thing I ever needed
is my own way - I gotta have it all
I don't want your opinion, I don't need your ideas
stay the fuck out of my face, stay away from me
I am my own god - I do as I please
just wipe your own ass and - shut your mouth
I had enough and you're going down - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around
my mind is playing tricks on me
I am not as stable as I used to be
pushed and shoved, you know you're going too far
I will not break my back for you no more, I am gonna go my
I am gonna take control
time to wake up and dig myself out of this hell
just wipe your own ass and - shut your mouth
I had enough and you're going down - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around - shut your mouth
You're getting what your ego deserves - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around - shut your mouth
shut your mouth
I had enough and you're going down - shut your mouth
what comes around you know goes around
shut your mouth
shut your mouth

He was a drunk
He was a punk-ass useless slob and he didn't even wanna get a job.
He'd forgotten how to be himself.
They say the world is a stage and every man must play his part,
but he didn't make the call-back list.
He had a five o'clock shadow on his heart.
He was so weak he couldn't even make a fist to punch himself.
She came along, and right away he felt a little less wrong, subsequently just a little more strong - This anomaly flipped his lid.
He checked his hair, and smoothed out the ruffles in his shirt because he suddenly remembered how to flirt.
He took a Tic-Tac (he knew it wouldn't hurt!), he put his lips on yellow alert, and he said 'Hello, how are you?' and he shook her little hand. (Whoa!)
These days he don't know that muhc about much but here's his summary: God is great, the devil is bad, and somewhere in the middle there's you and me...
In the wreckage and the ruin (standing side by side) and they know what they're doin'.
In fact he feels like he is finally pulling away from the devil since he met her.
His strength is coming right back like a prodigal son, like a prodigal son.
He checked his couch, and his pockets, and his car's ashtray, and he found enough dinero to pay for things from the Goodwill Store like soap and Listerine to make him fresh and clean, and a pretty decent old black comb (he found it on the street on his way home).
He borrowed some SpeedStick from the guy in the apartment behind him.
He didn't tell him, though I hope he doesn't mind him, he really shouldn't leave his door unlocked, because he also took a pair of his socks, and a Falco tape, I'm sure he didn't play it anymore. (Whoa!)
Shaved face, smooth as onion, dressed in out-of-fashion clothes, ready for their secret tryst about which everybody knows....
And that's perfectly cool.
He's always been a big fool.
But thanks to her, he thinks he's finally pulling away from the devil, he's just begun;
His strength is coming right back like a prodigal son, like a prodigal son.
(breakdown:)
One step forward, two back. (Plastic loser falling behind)
One step forward, two back. (No dice, he chose the moves that he made)
And the moves that he made led him away, away from the game.
Same old same old, but further away...
And he still finds life perplexing but he submits his thesis humbly: God is great, the devil is bad, and somewhere in the middle there's you and me...
In the wreckage and ruin (standing side by side) and they know what they're doin'.
She is the oil can to his tin man, the extra stuffing to his scarecrow, the gamma rays to his Incredible Hulk (though that sounds crude)
And he feels like he is finally pulling away from the devil since he met her.

I just cried as she hung me off the ceiling
I just love the pain
I was ready as she raised her whip
And she whipped me so good
She whipped me so good
I never felt this way before
As this thing was spinning around
My hands were tied to this hook
And oh man what she did when she was in control
And she knows what I need
And she's making sure to give it to me
And I don't think I ever want to come down again
She's raping me
She made me stay like a dog
I was ready as she raised her whip
And she whipped me so good
She whipped me so good
She lets me loose sometimes, and makes me do all my needs
But i always crawl back again, so she can do what she please
Sweet love is best, it never makes her sweat
She ties me down for a second round, there's nothing i regret
I was begging for mercy
But on the inside I was begging for more
It's the only way to make me cum!
She made me stay like a dog
Please don't ever stop
She made me stay like a dog
I was ready as she raised her whip, and she whipped me so good
She whipped me so good

Woke up this morning
with my head in the dirt
Master of disaster has raped my soul again
I feel like shit and my body hurts
What did I do?
Can't remember a thing
Not a thing
It's constant battle
And the bottle always wins
I wanna go all the way
Down the bottle's nest
I'm gonna go all the way
Why pretend?
I'm falling
Another day
Another party
Another toast
I slam the drink
And I almost fall
And the madness is ready to choke my throat
It doesn't matter
It won't hurt at all
Not at all
I've stopped fighting the bottle
'Cause the bottle always wins
I wanna go all the way
Down the bottle's nest
I'm gonna go all the way
Why pretend?
Pour me another drink
Oh how I need it bad
Pour me another drink
Pour it down my throat
I wanna go all the way
Down the bottle's nest
I'm gonna go all the way

Waking up from this dream
got a feeling that something is wrong
there's blood and dead bodys everywhere
what the hell have I done?
was I walking in my sleep or is it just a conspiracy
all I know is that I am in to deep
save me
please wake me up from this dream
save me
how am I supposed to live
I lost my family, lost my job and my friends
there's nothing left for me to live in this hell
all I remember is that we said goodnight
and now my life is a living hell
save me
please wake me up from this dream
save me
how am I supposed to live
save me
please wake me up from this dream
save me
where the hell did I go wrong
where did I go wrong...
I see the picture in my dreams
will it ever stop haunting me
am I ever gonna be free
I can't erase the memory
save me
please wake me up from this dream
save me
how am I supposed to live
save me
please wake me up from this dream
save me
where the hell did I go wrong
where did I go wrong...

Have you ever seen a child die?
Did you even know that it exists?
Did you know people outside your walls are starving to death?
So what would you do if it was up to you?
Would you even care?
I bet you would look another way and think of better things
Oh no, it's better to look away
You better close your eyes
Oh no, you don't wanna see anyone die
You just want to live your pretty life
Why won't we do anything?
Build up a wall around you so you don't have to see
Don't wanna preach but just think again
Oh no, it's better to look away
You better close your eyes
Oh no, you don't wanna see anyone die
You just want to live your pretty life
Why won't we do anything?
Build up a wall around you so you don't have to see